Coming back to this- first video I watched of Marie and I knew she was an angel. Breaks my heart knowing she’s not here with us after how much she helped me but thank you Marie for everything . We miss you🥰✨
Beautiful girl....i myself have struggled with mental health issues all my life, I'm now 68 yrs old and have been on medications a long time. Your video is so very important!! Years ago mental health problems just weren't talked about. My adopted mother and I were extremely close. Because of her I never felt alone, ashamed or afraid. She taught me to b strong and to understand that it is very real and help for it is so important. You are so strong and u sharing your journey in life is such a gift, more than u, I think, ever could imagine. I know it's hard for u. Thank you so much! Love and Prayers....Patti B.
I'm so glad your doggo has helped you. My mum bought me a beautiful Dalmatian puppy 10 years ago and he literally saved my life. 2 weeks ago he had to go to sleep and it has destroyed me so cherish every moment with him
Remember that there’s always someone who loves you❤️I’m someone who cares about everyone (I’m an empath) so I just wanted to say that I genuinely care about you.
i literally thought everything marie said after derealisation was normal, no one ever told me it’s not... i’m literally mind blown and kinda concerned 🤯
Am so sorry girl. I am fighting each for the sake of my family not to commit suicide. idk what we did to deserve this life. I hope we all make it though
Your depersonalisation is EXACTLY what I had down to the self harm and thinking that you are wooden. This happens daily for me. Thanks for being strong enough to share
Outside of medical health professionals I've never heard somebody put into words exactly how I've felt about feeling insignificant and not understanding how the world works. I just started crying from relief about hearing somebody discuss what BPD felt like to them. This video has given me so much courage to keep persevering so thank you ❤️
During my psychosis I would sleep like 11-13 hours a night, wake up at like 5 pm and I can hardly remember anything from that time period. It was really scary because I constantly felt like I was in a movie, like I was watching down on myself in my room. I became so disassociated with the world and my dreams. Every single night I would have nightmares where the skies turned blood red and everyone was burning alive and when I woke up I would be too scared to open my curtains in case it was real. There are still many vague memories which I still have no idea if they actually happened or were part of my imagination. It was extremely scary, but in a really weird way comforting as well? As if my brain was trying to protect me from something worse??
I know exactly what you're talking about. The feeling you described, the movie thing. And I have barely any memory of those 2 years. Those were rough days.
I'm 14 and am really struggling, I watch videos like this to try to remind myself that It can get better. I love you so much Marie, you're so strong and brave and beautiful. Sending much love 🖤
I m sorry that I am only seeing your comment now....I just want to make an observation....I grew up before social media and I thank God every day that I did not have to deal with that as a teenager. I was suicidal and severely depressed. But the judgments and the rumors about me only stayed at school. They weren’t out there on the internet forever. And I Could walk away when kids were bragging about how great their lives were. I didn’t have the fakeness put in front of me every day. Like today s Facebook.
know that you are loved and not alone .please ask for help , i struggled with severe depression in my teens but got better little by little and within 1,5 year i felt like myself again. But now... it left me traumatised later on , i just turned 25 and a few months ago i had severe anxiety attacks about my past. so please try to get therapy early on so it won't catch op on you later on in your life.
I know this comment is 3 years old, but I’m 13 and I’m currently struggling too. I hope your doing okay now, showing that I will get better at some point.
As a person who is open about my suicide attempts and showing my scars on my arms, let me just say I am so proud of you for being so brave. There is still a lot of stigma surrounding mental health. I hope you are doing well :) sending love from Australia.
Please talk about the psychosis side of things, and please don't feel any shame around it. I know that hearing voices can be quite stigmatised and it can be really scary but I'd love to hear about your experience, as with everything else. Sending so much love x
the ending nearly made me cry. its so inspirational and even if I'm not doing too good at the moment I know things will get better. I love you Marie 💞💞
I would love to hear you talk about psychosis; it's so wonderful to have representation of psychosis that is real and not the stereotype that is portrayed in the media. But of course put your safety first.
💗💗I've been wishing for this video for SO LONG but haven't wanted to pressure you into doing it when you weren't ready. Thank you for all your videos 🥰
This is the first video of yours I’ve watched and I’m blown away. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder (formally known as Multiple Personality Disorder) I struggle with derealization and depersonalisation and the struggle really is real. One of my alters has BPD too. Along with Paranoid Schizophrenia and Binge Eating Disorder plus body Dysmorphia. I feel you girl. Keep pushing on.💖💖
Just want you to know that you are saving me through my hard times. Showing your reality makes me feel that I'm not alone, which is just life-saving I guess. I wish that I one day will be able to wear my arms out despite my scars, talk openly about my mental health struggles and be proud of who I am, even though it's really hard for me. However, you make me believe that it isn't impossible to get there, you give me hope that I can make it, even though it might be years from now. So thank you Marie for you being you! Sending hugs xx
Just finished watching. Nearly cried towards the end. Our struggles have been very similar. You truly are amazing Marie. Sorry I know I keep saying that but wow! And you know what, one thing I am always grateful for after the suicide attempts in my past, is being alive!! Life is hard and living with an illness is so difficult but there is beauty in the world and you my dear, are one of the beauties in the world. Love you
As someone who has struggled severely with my mental health & also has huge faith in God i truly believe you are being protected, there are angels all around you dear. i hope & pray you never have to feel that much pain in your life ever again. you are the embodiment of a dream. you have saved so many lives, including mine. i love you marie. 🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼♂️
This makes me feel so much better, I’ve been suffering with mental health issues for years and it’s so good to know that I’m not the only one. You are so strong and I’m proud of you ❤️
Since February 11 this year i've suffered from severe anxiety, catastrophic thoughts and almost a full on psychosis. I've only recently started to feel better. It feels wonderful for me to hear someone else who have had the same fear of the world as me. I couldn't look up in the sky without getting panic attacks cause it was overwhelming to me knowing that behind the blue is space, a universe we know so little of. I thought that gravity would dissappear so that i would float out into space and i also thought that i would "fall off earth" cause i started getting really bad balance problems caused by the stress, so it always felt like the world was rocking back and forth. Literally everything scared me, i couldn't look at a tree without starting to panic at the thought of it being built up by trillions and billions of atoms. There's so much more to the story but it's too much to write, i just want to tell you that i'm so happy you're here and can share your experience with us so that people like me doesn't feel so alone. I'll buy the book you reckomended and i'm sending you a big virtual hug
What I took from this❤️: Face life, deal with life instead of running away from it Try your best, do all you can Be good, do good, feel good Don’t give up hope Never feel ashamed of your battles ❤️❤️
I suffered both depression and schizophrenia. Im always too ashamed to talk about my past diagnosis. Including my 5 hospitalizations. I never thought that even the most beautiful, very smart, very well educated women had schizophrenia. Same goes for very smart handsome men. I hate to talk about schizophrenia. But thats to people like her, I have now the courage to talk about it as well. I will support this courageus woman %100.
Seeing you grow into this even more confident, self assured, aware, beautiful woman is incredible. You've matured so much and are a true inspiration. You're the embodiment of the quote "you didn't get this far just to get this far". (: I definitely relate to being overwhelmed with being around extroverts too long :3 Much love from an INTJ to an INFJ x
Thank you so much for posting this I've suffered with psychosis and depressionn amongst other things and have never heard anyone else's story. It makes me feel so much less alone because trust me I understand you I've been there . You're so brave and thank you for posting xx
Hi Marie. I watched this after stumbling across your first mental health video. Thank you for being a living example that hard work & mindfulness will make it possible for anyone to come out of the side. Our trials and tribulations break, mold & form the person we are, some have harder ones than others. Baring yourself in this video will give hope to others, myself included. Thank you. 💕
I thought it was just me who thought like this/ had all of these situations and episodes of serious mental health problems. Thank you for talking to someone, I think I’m going to start helping myself from now on. No more settling for rubbish medication, thank you for this video absolutely just effin thank you. I am so glad you are getting there xx
It is so nice to finally hear a story similar to mine. I went through a dissociative/psychotic phase at the end of my first year of college. I thought I had a boyfriend and we were in love and I saw him all the time and my friends had no idea until they confronted me about it. I was put on a mandatory hold after an attempt (US version of sectioning) and all of my friends stopped talking to me. They couldn't understand why I lied or why I couldn't stop self- harming or why I wouldn't cry in front of them or admit my depression to them. I had to move forward without any peer support, which is brutal. Anyone reading this, please know that you are not alone and that you can absolutely get through whatever it is you are going through. You are amazing, and you are a fighter. Thank you for sharing, it meant a lot to me.
I have not gone through as much as you. But this really inspired me to try to go back into therapy and try to get help and get better. You are so strong. I have been following your journey for a while now and I am so happy for you ❤
Ever so grateful for people like you Marie who prove it is worth continuing everyday, like you said, despite it all. Of course there’s ups and downs and those downs can be really fookin low but just think of how up those ups can be! Everyday will be a little different so you need to continue to find out what each day holds. I’m very happy for your recovery Marie, patience is a virtue and you are glowing from it Xx
I have depression anxiety and ptsd. Youwere kind of explaining the same things I feel and talk to my counselor about I told my counselor today that I feel like I can see the world but it's just like I'm trapped in a bubble that I can't get out ofto actually enjoy daily and enjoy the world.
I’d like to say a massive thank you to you Marie, I am so glad you’re here so glad you’re keeping a positive mindset, probably without your videos I’d still be taking drugs and deteriorating myself your videos have opened my eyes to self love I now am on the medication I’m meant to be on and I’m 6 months clean of cocaine and weed and 8 months clean of self harm thank you so much so much love for you keep strong! ❤️xo
I would really like to hear about your psychotic episode from an educational point of view. You’re so strong and I’ve been following your journey for so long and am really proud of how far you’ve come xx
The way you experience derealisation is exactly how I feel. I cannot express how helpful it is to hear that someone else has felt this way and gotten through it. Thank you so much
wow! go you! I never attempted suicide but my anxiety was SO bad that I lost EVERYTHING. phones, cars, relationships, jobs, etc. 7 months later I finally stayed away from compulsions and I feel level headed now. it was terrifying.
What did you do to help yourself? I’m going through similar things… it’s rough and I don’t know why this is happening to me. I’m really afraid to be hospitalized for depression. I’ve never been before
I’ve had two suicide attempts in the past. I understand. This world is cruel and it sucks. I hope you can heal from your trauma and disturbing experience.
If you feel comfortable about sharing we would love to hear. But also please don’t if it’s too difficult. We love you Marie. You’ve come so far, you can get through anything. Our stories are very similar xxx
You’re amazing. So stinking proud of you. I feel like mental health is like some chronic illnesses. I struggle with both, and they both suck! You’re an amazing human being, love ya lots 💜💜💜
Your amazing marie. Talking about mental health is a very emotional and hard . I'm so glad your better and able to go through this an turn it into a positive .im a 4 time suicide attempt survivor and its so hard to relive those feeling and emotions . god bless you
Thank you for this, I’m glad you are here today and I’m glad that you’re in a place where you can make this. This speaks volumes and I want everyone to watch this because it’s so much more then a update it’s a lesson it’s teaching people what mental health really is❤️
Thank you for sharing yourself with us dear Marie. You’re a strong, lovely and intelligent person. I have bipolar disorder, and there is no cure for it. But it’s more under control than ever for me. Still as you said, mental illness is something we have to struggle with and do our best with it. Wonderful you are keeping a gratefulness journal. Watching your video was so inspiring. I want to thank you so much. May the Lord bless you greatly in all ways, and your family too. And may He keep you strong and positive in overcoming your many difficulties and obstacles. As strong as you are at such a young age, life can only get better for you whatever you have to go through to achieve great successes in your life. You are beautiful. Lots of love 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼❤️🌈🤗🤗🤗🥰
You are amazing ly ❤️❤️ Edit: I struggle with psychosis too because I have schizophrenia it's ok to talk about it, more people should talk about it ❤️❤️
I can relate to so much of this. The insomnia, the depersonalisation, derealisation, not feeling tired, racing thoughts, isolation, things that i seemingly for the most part tell myself are "not a big deal" and "normal" essentially, I'm starting to realise that maybe they are a big deal.
You’re so brave to tell your story. I had two episodes of psychosis (my main struggle has been depression and anxiety) and I’m struggling with my eating and just living. I lost my closest friends and feel really alone, but this helped me feel less embarrassed about what I went through. ❤️
you're so fucking strong. i've never seen someone like u, you're so positive, so open to everyone. you deserve the best!! i love you and your videos. i can't describe what i feel.. but i'm so thankful that you break the stigma about mental healt, you're so strong, you will do this, thank u so much for everything
Thanks for sharing your story. Depression/Anxiety and mental health in general have such a stigma in our society and the more people like yourself talk about it the more the stigma will reduce in our society. My channel is solely about mental health and reducing this stigma. So many people do not seek treatment because they are afraid what people will say and this is destroying people’s lives. This needs to stop. Keep up the great work.
I completely understand what u went through, I’m going through a lot of stuff rn really bad anxiety and depression but this video actually helped, I love you so much cause you’re honest, and I can relate to a lot of the stuff in this video, it really helped, love you, stay strong💕
I am so proud of you for revealing this to us and most of all for being such a strong fighter. I admire you so much for this. Thank you for contributing to mental health advocacy. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much Marie. You aren't alone and thank you for making so many of us feel less alone.
When you're ready it would be great to hear you talk more about psychosis. Every story counts on this topic. I hope to work as a psych nurse in the future and hearing the ones affected talk/write about it when they're healthy is truly so important to me. I struggle with mental health myself and find myself so grateful for your ability to be open about your own experiences on this channel - they mean the world to me. I'm so happy you're better now! :)
thank you for talking about the derelalization oh my god i literally relate to that 100% when you were having those dp/dr breakdowns. i struggle with it everyday and no one gets it it's scary and i relate to that self harm too in the dpdr way fuck i felt you sooo much thank you for saying this
As someone who has been through my own mental health issues, I am smashing that like button and subscribing as I think what you're doing is fekkin awesome!
your best video by far, I can imagine looking back through old videos was very hard but I hope it helped you see any signs or patterns in yourself, im glad your now addressing the eating side of your illness
It makes me sad watching this, im sorry u have had to been through all this, you dont deserve this💔 but you do make me feel a lot better and help me with my mental illnesses so thank you and stay strong marie❤️❤️
Well done for trying to turn your life around I’m so happy for a new mindset, it may be a struggle since you have been dealing with it for a while and so serious, but also well done for gaining Weight !!! It’s something never applauded but actually many people with mental health issues may loose weight and gaining weight is something that is a good sign as you are now glowing !!! And you don’t look so ill anymore I’m so happy for you xxx
I know this is an old video but I feel like this fits here. In 2017, the absolute worst time of my life, I had to leave high school and defer my GCSEs due to my mental health and self harm addiction. During this time, I discovered your channel. You helped me through a lot. You helped me realise, as cliche as it sounds, that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I’m still going through a pretty shitty time and I have no idea if and when anything will ever get better. My doctor is still working on getting the right medication for me and I’m starting to wonder if I may have been misdiagnosed. But that’s beside the point. It’s because of you that I believe in being open about my mental health. You’re the reason I try to be so honest with people about my struggles. The reason I try to use any platform I may or may not have to tell my story and help anyone else who struggles with the things I go through. Thank you for inspiring myself and so many. ♥️
This is the first video of yours I’ve seen and I wanted to watch it yesterday, but your scars caught me off guard and I had to take a break. After preparation I was able to watch this vid through, thank you for sharing your story.
I had a life wrecking psychosis, that came to its culmination at age 21. I'm disabled, today, but significantly better. Psychosis is the disillusionment of boundaries, the world and the self. Your entire character, ideologies beliefs - disassemble and collapse. A reality collapse. But, many people don't get that opportunity. You have to totally unlearn and fall apart, and rebuild, in order to be the authentic you. Psychosis is a process of letting go, and self-actualizing. After the storm, even if you become disabled like me, you know things and understand things with such a greater depth, it's wild.
Honestly, if it wasn't for you, and a few other people in my life, I don't think I would have stopped self harming. I don't think I would be here today if it weren't for your videos. I'm still not ready to show my scars but you have made me realize it's not something to be ashamed of. I love you and I wish you all the happiness in the world! You deserve the world! I am proud of you and how far you have come! You are beautiful inside and out! Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for making videos, spreading awareness, and positivity. And most importantly, giving many people, including myself, hope. XOXOXO Livy
“I was becoming this person that I didn’t really know yet.” I’ve been feeling this way for the past year and I hate it so much. It’s like the loneliest freaking feeling. I don’t know who anybody is to me because I don’t know who I am
the similarities we have are crazy. i relate to everything you said. I'm sad you've felt the same things that I have but glad you can get on social media and share your experiences.
I think this also speaks volumes about how the way we treat patients with mental illness impacting their future mental health. Threatening us with mental health act is only going to make our fear and paranoia worse, and I totally feel you on traumatic hospital experiences leasing to avoiding the hospital and even just avoiding help. So much love to you.
Talking about pets that have a therapeutic impact in a mental health patient's life, in 2017 I got a cat and it changed my battle with borderline radically. He gives me reason to live and go on.
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hey you, reading this comment , you are so loved🦋
salenaa • you’re such a sweet human and I hope you know how lovely you are ❤️🌸❤️
Thanks so are you!
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No I’m not no one cares about me anymore
Grace and trinitee Vlogs I do
there’s so much shakiness in her voice.. it breaks my heart 💔
She's doing a great job.
kenzie parker i think it’s a side effect from her medication
She looks very very tired. Not physically but emotionally.
it’s from her meds
I’ve never seen someone so strong
😭💗
marieroseeee what triggered your psychosis?
I got this video recommended again. We miss you dearly, beautiful Marie. Rest easy, girl.
Rest easy? Oh 😢 I didn't know
What happened to her?
@@allie54774what happened 😢???
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Can we just take a minute to tell this lady how beautiful she is?
Uno reverse to u hon
She is
Yes she is
You are pretty too
It’s a shame looks don’t determine our mental health as she would be beyond happy
2 months without you sweet girl. may you rest in peace
How did she pass?
29:08 even though you’re gone marie, you’ll never be just another statistic
She’s not gone is she?
@@Zydonie she is dead.
4 years ago today💔 devastated doesn’t even touch the surface, rest easy gorgeous soul x
Coming back to this- first video I watched of Marie and I knew she was an angel. Breaks my heart knowing she’s not here with us after how much she helped me but thank you Marie for everything . We miss you🥰✨
Ditto ❤ love to all
I commented now and just saw your post💔
Rest easy Marie you was such a kind girl with a beautiful heart ❤
Beautiful girl....i myself have struggled with mental health issues all my life, I'm now 68 yrs old and have been on medications a long time. Your video is so very important!! Years ago mental health problems just weren't talked about. My adopted mother and I were extremely close. Because of her I never felt alone, ashamed or afraid. She taught me to b strong and to understand that it is very real and help for it is so important.
You are so strong and u sharing your journey in life is such a gift, more than u, I think, ever could imagine. I know it's hard for u. Thank you so much!
Love and Prayers....Patti B.
I'm so glad your doggo has helped you. My mum bought me a beautiful Dalmatian puppy 10 years ago and he literally saved my life. 2 weeks ago he had to go to sleep and it has destroyed me so cherish every moment with him
Aww am so sorry for ur loss and I hope u have a great day or night
You’ve litterally saved ny life. Ily
I hope you’re ok hun 💙
Remember that there’s always someone who loves you❤️I’m someone who cares about everyone (I’m an empath) so I just wanted to say that I genuinely care about you.
ebby how can u care about someone you have never met. People in my life don’t give a shit about me
Jackie Kirstein hey how are you? ;3
U still here:)?
i literally thought everything marie said after derealisation was normal, no one ever told me it’s not... i’m literally mind blown and kinda concerned 🤯
Lys Rose girl same
Lys Rose same, the other day I said something similar to this to my friend who is also mentally ill and even she was super concerned ahaha
Me too 😔
Am so sorry girl. I am fighting each for the sake of my family not to commit suicide. idk what we did to deserve this life. I hope we all make it though
You are loved. Jesus loves you I promise you are valuable on this earth
@@itsmamawolf Thank you very much Girlie❤❤❤❤
Your depersonalisation is EXACTLY what I had down to the self harm and thinking that you are wooden. This happens daily for me. Thanks for being strong enough to share
Outside of medical health professionals I've never heard somebody put into words exactly how I've felt about feeling insignificant and not understanding how the world works. I just started crying from relief about hearing somebody discuss what BPD felt like to them. This video has given me so much courage to keep persevering so thank you ❤️
During my psychosis I would sleep like 11-13 hours a night, wake up at like 5 pm and I can hardly remember anything from that time period. It was really scary because I constantly felt like I was in a movie, like I was watching down on myself in my room. I became so disassociated with the world and my dreams. Every single night I would have nightmares where the skies turned blood red and everyone was burning alive and when I woke up I would be too scared to open my curtains in case it was real. There are still many vague memories which I still have no idea if they actually happened or were part of my imagination. It was extremely scary, but in a really weird way comforting as well? As if my brain was trying to protect me from something worse??
That's hard to understand?
I know exactly what you're talking about. The feeling you described, the movie thing. And I have barely any memory of those 2 years. Those were rough days.
I'm 14 and am really struggling, I watch videos like this to try to remind myself that It can get better. I love you so much Marie, you're so strong and brave and beautiful. Sending much love 🖤
I hope you've gotton help and are doing better 💜
I m sorry that I am only seeing your comment now....I just want to make an observation....I grew up before social media and I thank God every day that I did not have to deal with that as a teenager. I was suicidal and severely depressed. But the judgments and the rumors about me only stayed at school. They weren’t out there on the internet forever. And I Could walk away when kids were bragging about how great their lives were. I didn’t have the fakeness put in front of me every day. Like today s Facebook.
know that you are loved and not alone .please ask for help , i struggled with severe depression in my teens but got better little by little and within 1,5 year i felt like myself again. But now... it left me traumatised later on , i just turned 25 and a few months ago i had severe anxiety attacks about my past. so please try to get therapy early on so it won't catch op on you later on in your life.
I know this comment is 3 years old, but I’m 13 and I’m currently struggling too. I hope your doing okay now, showing that I will get better at some point.
As a person who is open about my suicide attempts and showing my scars on my arms, let me just say I am so proud of you for being so brave. There is still a lot of stigma surrounding mental health.
I hope you are doing well :) sending love from Australia.
thankyou so much Bree, this means a lot to me xxx
@@marieroseeee You're welcome xx
Please talk about the psychosis side of things, and please don't feel any shame around it. I know that hearing voices can be quite stigmatised and it can be really scary but I'd love to hear about your experience, as with everything else. Sending so much love x
I started counselling and if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t have
im so glad, i hope it goes well and helps you xxxx
marieroseeee thank uu xx
There is no such thing it's a control system 🤦♀️
rest in peace Angel. ❤
I believe that you’ve gone through everything you have to tell your stories and spread awareness xxx
the ending nearly made me cry. its so inspirational and even if I'm not doing too good at the moment I know things will get better. I love you Marie 💞💞
i love you!!! thankyou so much xxxx
I would love to hear you talk about psychosis; it's so wonderful to have representation of psychosis that is real and not the stereotype that is portrayed in the media. But of course put your safety first.
💗💗I've been wishing for this video for SO LONG but haven't wanted to pressure you into doing it when you weren't ready. Thank you for all your videos 🥰
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This is the first video of yours I’ve watched and I’m blown away.
I have Dissociative Identity Disorder (formally known as Multiple Personality Disorder) I struggle with derealization and depersonalisation and the struggle really is real.
One of my alters has BPD too. Along with Paranoid Schizophrenia and Binge Eating Disorder plus body Dysmorphia.
I feel you girl.
Keep pushing on.💖💖
DissociaDID has some great videos on DID
7 months without you fly high mareiiiiiii 💋
Just want you to know that you are saving me through my hard times. Showing your reality makes me feel that I'm not alone, which is just life-saving I guess. I wish that I one day will be able to wear my arms out despite my scars, talk openly about my mental health struggles and be proud of who I am, even though it's really hard for me. However, you make me believe that it isn't impossible to get there, you give me hope that I can make it, even though it might be years from now. So thank you Marie for you being you! Sending hugs xx
Just finished watching. Nearly cried towards the end. Our struggles have been very similar. You truly are amazing Marie. Sorry I know I keep saying that but wow! And you know what, one thing I am always grateful for after the suicide attempts in my past, is being alive!! Life is hard and living with an illness is so difficult but there is beauty in the world and you my dear, are one of the beauties in the world. Love you
wow sara, I LOVE YOU. thankyou for this beautiful message it means so much to me, I feel less alone just reading it. 💗
As someone who has struggled severely with my mental health & also has huge faith in God i truly believe you are being protected, there are angels all around you dear. i hope & pray you never have to feel that much pain in your life ever again. you are the embodiment of a dream. you have saved so many lives, including mine. i love you marie. 🧚🏼♂️🧚🏼♂️
oh my gosh. i love you. this made me emotional - thankyou so much xx
This makes me feel so much better, I’ve been suffering with mental health issues for years and it’s so good to know that I’m not the only one. You are so strong and I’m proud of you ❤️
Since February 11 this year i've suffered from severe anxiety, catastrophic thoughts and almost a full on psychosis. I've only recently started to feel better. It feels wonderful for me to hear someone else who have had the same fear of the world as me. I couldn't look up in the sky without getting panic attacks cause it was overwhelming to me knowing that behind the blue is space, a universe we know so little of. I thought that gravity would dissappear so that i would float out into space and i also thought that i would "fall off earth" cause i started getting really bad balance problems caused by the stress, so it always felt like the world was rocking back and forth. Literally everything scared me, i couldn't look at a tree without starting to panic at the thought of it being built up by trillions and billions of atoms.
There's so much more to the story but it's too much to write, i just want to tell you that i'm so happy you're here and can share your experience with us so that people like me doesn't feel so alone. I'll buy the book you reckomended and i'm sending you a big virtual hug
How did you overcome this? X
What I took from this❤️:
Face life, deal with life instead of running away from it
Try your best, do all you can
Be good, do good, feel good
Don’t give up hope
Never feel ashamed of your battles ❤️❤️
Oh I feel so seen by the derealization. "And the gap just aches"
I suffered both depression and schizophrenia. Im always too ashamed to talk about my past diagnosis. Including my 5 hospitalizations. I never thought that even the most beautiful, very smart, very well educated women had schizophrenia. Same goes for very smart handsome men. I hate to talk about schizophrenia. But thats to people like her, I have now the courage to talk about it as well. I will support this courageus woman %100.
marie, you are meant to be in this world 💛
You are too ❤
You miraculously survived because this world needs you x
Is she suicidal?
Seeing you grow into this even more confident, self assured, aware, beautiful woman is incredible. You've matured so much and are a true inspiration.
You're the embodiment of the quote "you didn't get this far just to get this far". (:
I definitely relate to being overwhelmed with being around extroverts too long :3
Much love from an INTJ to an INFJ x
Your intro gives me chills every time!!🌸
Thank you so much for posting this I've suffered with psychosis and depressionn amongst other things and have never heard anyone else's story. It makes me feel so much less alone because trust me I understand you I've been there . You're so brave and thank you for posting xx
Yup.
Hi Marie. I watched this after stumbling across your first mental health video. Thank you for being a living example that hard work & mindfulness will make it possible for anyone to come out of the side. Our trials and tribulations break, mold & form the person we are, some have harder ones than others. Baring yourself in this video will give hope to others, myself included. Thank you. 💕
I thought it was just me who thought like this/ had all of these situations and episodes of serious mental health problems. Thank you for talking to someone, I think I’m going to start helping myself from now on. No more settling for rubbish medication, thank you for this video absolutely just effin thank you. I am so glad you are getting there xx
You are amazing I don’t know you ,but I’m so proud of you 🦋
It is so nice to finally hear a story similar to mine. I went through a dissociative/psychotic phase at the end of my first year of college. I thought I had a boyfriend and we were in love and I saw him all the time and my friends had no idea until they confronted me about it. I was put on a mandatory hold after an attempt (US version of sectioning) and all of my friends stopped talking to me. They couldn't understand why I lied or why I couldn't stop self- harming or why I wouldn't cry in front of them or admit my depression to them. I had to move forward without any peer support, which is brutal. Anyone reading this, please know that you are not alone and that you can absolutely get through whatever it is you are going through. You are amazing, and you are a fighter. Thank you for sharing, it meant a lot to me.
I have not gone through as much as you. But this really inspired me to try to go back into therapy and try to get help and get better. You are so strong. I have been following your journey for a while now and I am so happy for you ❤
Ever so grateful for people like you Marie who prove it is worth continuing everyday, like you said, despite it all. Of course there’s ups and downs and those downs can be really fookin low but just think of how up those ups can be! Everyday will be a little different so you need to continue to find out what each day holds. I’m very happy for your recovery Marie, patience is a virtue and you are glowing from it Xx
You are amazing Marie and I’m beyond proud of you girl 💖
thanks tash!! love you 💗
Love youuuu 💕
I have depression anxiety and ptsd. Youwere kind of explaining the same things I feel and talk to my counselor about I told my counselor today that I feel like I can see the world but it's just like I'm trapped in a bubble that I can't get out ofto actually enjoy daily and enjoy the world.
You're one of the strongest people out there! I'm so so so proud of you!
I am so proud of you 💜
Lots of loves from South Australia
wow that’s amazing !!! thankyou so much 💗✨
I’d like to say a massive thank you to you Marie, I am so glad you’re here so glad you’re keeping a positive mindset, probably without your videos I’d still be taking drugs and deteriorating myself your videos have opened my eyes to self love I now am on the medication I’m meant to be on and I’m 6 months clean of cocaine and weed and 8 months clean of self harm thank you so much so much love for you keep strong! ❤️xo
I would really like to hear about your psychotic episode from an educational point of view. You’re so strong and I’ve been following your journey for so long and am really proud of how far you’ve come xx
The way you experience derealisation is exactly how I feel. I cannot express how helpful it is to hear that someone else has felt this way and gotten through it. Thank you so much
wow! go you! I never attempted suicide but my anxiety was SO bad that I lost EVERYTHING. phones, cars, relationships, jobs, etc.
7 months later I finally stayed away from compulsions and I feel level headed now. it was terrifying.
What did you do to help yourself? I’m going through similar things… it’s rough and I don’t know why this is happening to me. I’m really afraid to be hospitalized for depression. I’ve never been before
I’ve had two suicide attempts in the past. I understand. This world is cruel and it sucks. I hope you can heal from your trauma and disturbing experience.
She sadly took her life last year.
If you feel comfortable about sharing we would love to hear. But also please don’t if it’s too difficult. We love you Marie. You’ve come so far, you can get through anything. Our stories are very similar xxx
You’re amazing. So stinking proud of you. I feel like mental health is like some chronic illnesses. I struggle with both, and they both suck! You’re an amazing human being, love ya lots 💜💜💜
Your amazing marie. Talking about mental health is a very emotional and hard . I'm so glad your better and able to go through this an turn it into a positive .im a 4 time suicide attempt survivor and its so hard to relive those feeling and emotions . god bless you
This was probably the most helpful video I’ve ever seen about recovery. Thank you so much for being so open
so happy for you that you’re going back to education 💗💗 you’ve got this b
Thank you for this, I’m glad you are here today and I’m glad that you’re in a place where you can make this. This speaks volumes and I want everyone to watch this because it’s so much more then a update it’s a lesson it’s teaching people what mental health really is❤️
🥺 thankyou so much eve!! xxxx
Thank you for sharing yourself with us dear Marie. You’re a strong, lovely and intelligent person. I have bipolar disorder, and there is no cure for it. But it’s more under control than ever for me. Still as you said, mental illness is something we have to struggle with and do our best with it. Wonderful you are keeping a gratefulness journal. Watching your video was so inspiring. I want to thank you so much. May the Lord bless you greatly in all ways, and your family too. And may He keep you strong and positive in overcoming your many difficulties and obstacles. As strong as you are at such a young age, life can only get better for you whatever you have to go through to achieve great successes in your life. You are beautiful. Lots of love 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼❤️🌈🤗🤗🤗🥰
You are amazing ly ❤️❤️
Edit: I struggle with psychosis too because I have schizophrenia it's ok to talk about it, more people should talk about it ❤️❤️
I can relate to so much of this. The insomnia, the depersonalisation, derealisation, not feeling tired, racing thoughts, isolation, things that i seemingly for the most part tell myself are "not a big deal" and "normal" essentially, I'm starting to realise that maybe they are a big deal.
You’re so brave to tell your story. I had two episodes of psychosis (my main struggle has been depression and anxiety) and I’m struggling with my eating and just living. I lost my closest friends and feel really alone, but this helped me feel less embarrassed about what I went through. ❤️
you're so fucking strong. i've never seen someone like u, you're so positive, so open to everyone. you deserve the best!! i love you and your videos. i can't describe what i feel.. but i'm so thankful that you break the stigma about mental healt, you're so strong, you will do this, thank u so much for everything
thankyou so so much lena! this is such a lovely comment 💘
As long as I'm alive my friend, you are not going anywhere #prayersup
You're a blessing to the world!!! ❤
I’m very glad you made it through that suicide attempt, you seem like a lovely girl ❤️❤️
Thanks for sharing your story. Depression/Anxiety and mental health in general have such a stigma in our society and the more people like yourself talk about it the more the stigma will reduce in our society. My channel is solely about mental health and reducing this stigma. So many people do not seek treatment because they are afraid what people will say and this is destroying people’s lives. This needs to stop. Keep up the great work.
I completely understand what u went through, I’m going through a lot of stuff rn really bad anxiety and depression but this video actually helped, I love you so much cause you’re honest, and I can relate to a lot of the stuff in this video, it really helped, love you, stay strong💕
I am so proud of you for revealing this to us and most of all for being such a strong fighter. I admire you so much for this. Thank you for contributing to mental health advocacy. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much Marie. You aren't alone and thank you for making so many of us feel less alone.
When you're ready it would be great to hear you talk more about psychosis. Every story counts on this topic. I hope to work as a psych nurse in the future and hearing the ones affected talk/write about it when they're healthy is truly so important to me. I struggle with mental health myself and find myself so grateful for your ability to be open about your own experiences on this channel - they mean the world to me. I'm so happy you're better now! :)
You always have your make-up and everything done really nicely on TH-cam so it's surprising to see behind the scenes how you were really feeling.
thank you for talking about the derelalization oh my god i literally relate to that 100% when you were having those dp/dr breakdowns. i struggle with it everyday and no one gets it it's scary and i relate to that self harm too in the dpdr way fuck i felt you sooo much thank you for saying this
As someone who has been through my own mental health issues, I am smashing that like button and subscribing as I think what you're doing is fekkin awesome!
I would love to hear about the psychosis episode❤️
Currently going thru a lot, thank you for opening up it has helped me.
your best video by far, I can imagine looking back through old videos was very hard but I hope it helped you see any signs or patterns in yourself, im glad your now addressing the eating side of your illness
i’ve got no words, i just love you so much. you inspire me more and more everyday💖happy mental health day xxx
I literally love you so much😢💖
samina ahmed i love you!!! 💗
you have so much to offer marie💞ilysm and you’re such an inspiration. thank you for being you. you’re so strong💘
this may be irrelevant but your eyes are beautiful
It honestly makes me so happy to see you looking so happy and glowing!! i’m literally sat here crying lol❤️
It makes me sad watching this, im sorry u have had to been through all this, you dont deserve this💔 but you do make me feel a lot better and help me with my mental illnesses so thank you and stay strong marie❤️❤️
Well done for trying to turn your life around I’m so happy for a new mindset, it may be a struggle since you have been dealing with it for a while and so serious, but also well done for gaining Weight !!! It’s something never applauded but actually many people with mental health issues may loose weight and gaining weight is something that is a good sign as you are now glowing !!! And you don’t look so ill anymore I’m so happy for you xxx
I know this is an old video but I feel like this fits here.
In 2017, the absolute worst time of my life, I had to leave high school and defer my GCSEs due to my mental health and self harm addiction. During this time, I discovered your channel. You helped me through a lot. You helped me realise, as cliche as it sounds, that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
I’m still going through a pretty shitty time and I have no idea if and when anything will ever get better. My doctor is still working on getting the right medication for me and I’m starting to wonder if I may have been misdiagnosed. But that’s beside the point. It’s because of you that I believe in being open about my mental health. You’re the reason I try to be so honest with people about my struggles. The reason I try to use any platform I may or may not have to tell my story and help anyone else who struggles with the things I go through.
Thank you for inspiring myself and so many. ♥️
This is the first video of yours I’ve seen and I wanted to watch it yesterday, but your scars caught me off guard and I had to take a break. After preparation I was able to watch this vid through, thank you for sharing your story.
I had a life wrecking psychosis, that came to its culmination at age 21. I'm disabled, today, but significantly better.
Psychosis is the disillusionment of boundaries, the world and the self. Your entire character, ideologies beliefs - disassemble and collapse. A reality collapse.
But, many people don't get that opportunity. You have to totally unlearn and fall apart, and rebuild, in order to be the authentic you. Psychosis is a process of letting go, and self-actualizing.
After the storm, even if you become disabled like me, you know things and understand things with such a greater depth, it's wild.
i miss you so much
i relate so much with the thing you said about when you become tana after you watch tana.
Honestly, if it wasn't for you, and a few other people in my life, I don't think I would have stopped self harming. I don't think I would be here today if it weren't for your videos. I'm still not ready to show my scars but you have made me realize it's not something to be ashamed of. I love you and I wish you all the happiness in the world! You deserve the world!
I am proud of you and how far you have come! You are beautiful inside and out!
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for making videos, spreading awareness, and positivity. And most importantly, giving many people, including myself, hope.
XOXOXO
Livy
I followed you a while..proud of you ..your my Hero..because you fight every day .. keep gong Your amaziing...
“I was becoming this person that I didn’t really know yet.” I’ve been feeling this way for the past year and I hate it so much. It’s like the loneliest freaking feeling. I don’t know who anybody is to me because I don’t know who I am
so so guuuud Marie. Your story is incredible to hear and i'm so very grateful for the opportunity to. thank you and love ya loads xx
the similarities we have are crazy. i relate to everything you said. I'm sad you've felt the same things that I have but glad you can get on social media and share your experiences.
I think this also speaks volumes about how the way we treat patients with mental illness impacting their future mental health. Threatening us with mental health act is only going to make our fear and paranoia worse, and I totally feel you on traumatic hospital experiences leasing to avoiding the hospital and even just avoiding help. So much love to you.
thankyou so much for understanding!!! it can be so difficult and being threatened doesn’t help anything! sending big hugs to you darling 💗✨
Talking about pets that have a therapeutic impact in a mental health patient's life, in 2017 I got a cat and it changed my battle with borderline radically. He gives me reason to live and go on.