Everything I'm Scared Of [CC]
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Watching in Aug 2020: I now think Jessica is psychic and doesn't realize it. She knew. She just didn't know she knew.
agreed! by the end of January very few Americans really had covid on their radar, though the Cassandras were definitely trying to sound the alarm. It's kinda surreal/sad to be watching this video now.
And now it’s may 28, 2021.
And the pandemic still hasn’t ended. I have to say, Jessica absolutely knew in advance something bad this way comes sort of way.
REALLY THOUGH. I didn't look at the date before watching and I was so confused why she didn't say "getting Covid"
When she said "I'm scared of everything, like I have a low-level fear constantly now"
January? No! I'm usually fine with January. I never felt this way before!
Psychic. Or she had some big projecy in mind who scared her.
And Claudia is the one who gasps at a fish with a gaping mouth!
How much adorable are they?
I wonder if the pandemic and the public's response is making people more scared. Too see the whole world worried, acting out , being angry, it kind of makes life seem unsafe. Society being chaotic in 2020 might be a real influencer on everyone, even calm people.
re: Claudia disliking horror films/Jessica liking them
It's rather common for Deaf people to like horror movies or not think they're scary! A lot of the tension and suspense that hearing people get from horror movies is due to the music. Try watching a scary movie with captions on and the sound muted, it's a lot less scary.
😦 woah! That makes so much sense
I remember watching horror movies with no sound when I was a teen. It's HILARIOUS.
There is actually a horror movie in which the main character is deaf and it's totally terrifying as well! It's called "Hush".
Yes! The score is the scariest part that gives you the chills and makes the hair on the back of your neck stand on end!
Also, the sound is meant to add to the scary. I turned off the super man cave electronics experience while watching a horror movie, and just listened through the regular tv speakers, and it was not scary at all.
this aged... well ? poorly? Jessica's feeling of impending doom sure makes a lot of sense 6 months later
a minute in and i'm already afraid of those stairs...
Those stairs are open and scary!
Ikr I feel like my foot would go straight through and get stuck!
Yeah, I have a huge phobia of stairs like that.
Yes they look terrible I f we plus never climb them
Let me try again they look terrible I would never climb them
When you realise that in some way, Jessica predicted that 2020 was going to be a terrible year..
Exactly what I was thinking. She had a gut feeling about it, but didn't yet know what it was.
Jessica low key knew what was coming in 2020!
I love how Jessica looks at Claudia in this video, and Claudia looks at Jessica. This is love. Or... lip reading💕
I would agree despite the lip reading tho! They listen to each other intently and care about what the other has to say, and there's mutual respect. I'd say it's a sign of true love 💓
@@AngelBeatsOtaku666 of course!
Or both. :)
I've had 6 books published but last month I was right back in the "I can't write! Everyone will hate this book! My editor is going to think I suck!" phase 😅 pretty sure it's just an unfortunate side effect of being a writer. But I try to remember that a book only has to be important to one person for it to be worth writing. And that person can be you!
Wow that's a nice mindset, I like it ♥️ saying this because I am also a young aspiring writer (not to sound pretentious though) and still haven't thought of actually putting my humble mumble work out there, but I would love to, one day. So yeah, I like this idea that a book is relevant if one person finds comfort in it. Thanks for sharing your little experience!
@@britischenadligen3760 glad I could help ❤️
January: “2020 hits and WOW, I am afraid of everything.”
December: What else does Jessica know that we need to listen to??
Watching this in August, I think Jessica must have just sensed the stuff coming up in 2020
I had a moment today of "why are those people staring at me?" And then I remembered i was wearing a MASSIVE petticoat
I love how you both sort of match the background bit you're each in front of.
Fox's Tidbits omg totally!
Are you hypnotists? Somehow by the end you had me believing “we’re all going to be ok together.”
I kind of feel like it’s the first time in 2020 I’ve been able to breathe.
Your strong reaction to being startled might be due to EDS. My EDS specialist once told me that my strong response to being scared/startled (e.g. 10+ min of heart racing and whole body shaking if the doorbell rings and I wasn't expecting anyone) is likely due to the fact that my body doesn't regulate adrenaline correctly. The specialist explained that people with EDS don't regulate hormones all the hormones correctly. I have multiple hormones that are not regulated correctly.
if you want to write but are scared of someone you know reading your writing, maybe you could post your work online on reading sites, people could read your work without knowing who the author is and get feedback. Maybe that would give you the confidence later on to publish a book :)
My doctor seemed to think it was more related to the dysautonomia aspect rather than EDS? I could be wrong
@@forestque1531 🤷♀️ The specialist didn’t go into great detail but I have very mild dysautonomia.. who knows. With an EDS body, I wouldn’t be surprised if both EDs and dysautonomia caused hormonal problems 😅
ihavseentherain They definitely both could! :)
If this is true it would explain SO MUCH in my life! thank you for this information
Jessie is so real. Claudia hit a home run with her wisdom. I needed this video. I had somehow convinced myself that not trying = no failure. Love you both!
I'm watching this for the first time in June 2020 and thinking you're literally psychic... Constant low level fear... You saw it all coming!!! 😥
"This too shall pass....it might pass like a kidney stone but it will pass"
Really needed this rn, I was legally homeless/sofa surfing for the best part of 3 years but right now im building my bed in a bedroom I've paid for myself and my disability is being recognized and it will be OK!! This too shall pass ~
Congradulations! I'm glad that your hard work paid off and you disability is finally being recognized. I hope youre doing well
"Oh I'm really irritating. I'm quite aware."
Relatable.
(I don't think you're irritating, Jessica)
*watching in September* ...*sad chuckle*
Jessica: "Claudia's usually the fearful one"
Me: thinking of when the light popped during vlogmas baking bad...
“You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” - Michael Scott
I think there is definitely some weight to the "new year of a new decade" pressure. I'm feeling that.
Claud: *brings up pilates*
Jessie: *gets lost in thought imagining Claud doing pilates*
You two are just 🥰
JESSICA: "I'm quite irritating. I'm aware!"
ME: Irritating = Fabulous
I love seeing the two of you together. It genuinely puts a smile on my face 😊
I think it is ok to be afraid. Whatever it may be that you are afraid of, to me, is something you care about. Whether it be your work or your family or your health ... it makes you aware of your surroundings. It may even help to motivate you. And Jessica, for the record, I would love for you to continue writing. I believe your creative mind would produce a page turner.
Jessica and Claudia, thank you for the video. Your advice Claudia is fantastic and something I want to apply in my life. You know, you're quite the stealthy motivational speaker 😉
I sincerely hope that you had an amazing holiday in Rome celebrating Jess's birthday and your engagement anniversary. It is always a pleasure watching your videos. Again, thank you! Take care!! Lovely as always 👍🤟💝
Richard Velez hi you are so sweet.
@@Zanderren Thank you. How are you today?
Good thanks how are you? How did you make your TH-cam channel banner and profile picture?
@@Zanderren I am doing well. I had an idea for a logo, made many, many drawings until I found one that I liked & thought 'why not use it for my profile pic and banner' 😊
Richard Velez are you thinking of upcoming video or just for comments ?
That staircase in the background looks like a nightmare, even if you dont have a disability. Topically, fear alone would keep me totally off that thing.
"We'll come back in a year's time and everything will be ok." I would laugh at the irony but I'm too busy crying.
Okay, but I really, really REALLY want them to react to this video now, a year later in January 2021. What I would give for that reaction video
If a person is disabled enough to have limited energy, the choices we make on how to spend our time really is more momentous. Energy becomes a precious commodity. So when Jessica mentions she doesn't want to waste her time, it has more significance because her energy pool is reduced. It is like when someone is poor how they spend their money is more significant because they have such limited resources.
Claudia‘s advice has actually become one of my most motivating quotes: you can salvage any plan that does not go to plan if you change the plan.
Watching this in October and Jessica's fear was valid
I feel like you two are the lesbian moms of youtube! Love to both of you! 🖤
They ARE the lesbian mums of youtube!
What I want to know is... which one of you read my diary and knew I needed to hear this today? I'm not mad about it though... Happy Belated Birthday! ❤
4:36 reminds me of that book called They Both Die At The End where people get alerted at midnight that they will die the following day but no information on how
I read it
@@purplekitten6637 It's a very good book IMO
OH I heard of that book and god darn it I wanna read it but I still haven’t oof
Claudia gave advice during the Norovirus Baking Bad. AND the video you both did about school exams. AND during all the pumpkin carving videos.
Being in December 2020 and watching you girls talk about plans in January 2020 I'm like....oh boy....you have no idea yet...
As someone that struggles with crippling anxiety and depression, this was really needed. Thank you so much
You know, the best piece of advice I have ever gotten was when my dad told me brave doesn't mean fearless, it means you go ahead and do things despite your fears. Please don't ever become fearless and therefore complacent. Much love to you both.
Jessie in January: An then, 2020 hit!
Everyone in 2021: ... Wait for it.
Was your low level fear ever spot on!!!
I totally get the January exam thing! My exams are IN January (I just had one today) and it’s almost completely ruined a month I used to love (my birthday, skating, skiing, etc)
Claudia: "... Just do it!"
Jessica: "Yeah, but then I am afraid of wasting my time"
Claudia: *painful sigh* "... oh my goshhhhhhh"
Jessica, I feel you so much! Other people just don't understand all the stuff one can be afraid of!
One of my current favorite things to tell myself when I feel this way is "this problem will have its place." It allows me to remember that life goes on past whatever you're worrying about, just like Claudia said.
Hugs. I am also irritating and scared.
I'm also coping with the fact that some goals are not achievable. I got my ideal job. And my body cant take it. Its heartbreaking. But I'm having to give it up.
Sarah Bent that happened to me years ago and then again a few years ago and I know how you feel. It can be devastating. I’m sorry you had to miss out on this opportunity. Just know that there will be more 💕 sending hugs
That sucks! Well, time to find a different ideal job. An ideal job where your body can take it.
Same ✌️
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"Constant feeling of low grade fear" is actually how I would describe my GAD/PD experience. Have you ever dealt with anxiety before?
What I shall refer to from now on as 'Pilates theory' is super useful - I often found myself thinking like that but never put it into words so well.
Everybody has his/her fears, mainly from the unknown or that you're going to be a failure.
There's a nice saying that I love: "If you try you could fail, if you don't try, you already failed".
Just watched this one and you were already scared about 2020 , do you have the sight?
Two of the most beautiful people I have ever seen, inside or out. I am so glad you two are together. Thank you for sharing and for another great video 💗💖❤️
I love how they sit so close to each other. It makes my heart happy. 💛💛💛
You two CANNOT be more adorable, more in love, more dedicated, and more, and more, and more! I know my time has passed for that kind of love and relationship but it's so lovely to watch you two together. Fabulous, amazing, and numerous other adjectives I won't bore you with. But now that your channel has grown soooooo much, I doubt you can read every comment every day.....but that's okay, I just wanted to put it out there how inspirational you both are......
Watching you both reminds me how very grateful I am to have found my people. I believe there are multiple soul mates for each of us. Lovers, friends, family...those people who enrich our lives and complete our puzzles 🧩. I have my husband and my best friend. I love them both completely and can’t imagine life without either of them. Regardless of how scared I become of my future with chronic illnesses, they’re there to love and support me. Thank you for not letting me forget.
Always take the leap Jessica. My philosophy when new opportunities arise is 'If you don't water every plant that comes your way you will never know if it's a weed or a beautiful flower' xx
Claudia's advice of "in a week's time this will be over" was actually very helpful :') my anxiety has been through the roof lately, and I realized,,, in a week, i won't be worried about most of this anymore. Of course, I'll probably have a billion new things to panic about, but at least they'll be new!
"Feel the fear... and do it anyway" by Susan Jeffers. I just started reading it but the first chapter will give you a revelation on fear and what is behind it 💖
holy shit Claudia and I are the same way. If I watch something scary during the day, when I close my eyes at night I'll imagine it at the foot of my bed or something. every damn time. i'm so jealous of you, Jessica, for being able to compartmentalize.
Claudia gives amazing advice! Claudia sharing her story about figuring out that she's gay has really helped me realize that I am attracted to women as well. It was really helpful to hear the perspective of someone to whom it wasn't always obvious
One of my goals for the year is to finish the first draft of my book, but I also moonlight as an editor, which makes things a little complicated. I'm always wrestling the urge to go back and nitpick my way through it like it's some sort of alligator. I cut my expectations down to 'if I manage at least 200 words a day, I will consider it a success' and I started keeping a bullet journal. Still a bit early to really tell if it's successful, but it seems to be helping. Possibly because I function best when someone ELSE is holding me accountable, and despite the fact that I'm just writing the journal myself, it still sort of feels like an outside source. Because that just makes so much sense.
Re watching old Jessie and Claud vids during my quarantine and I was 100% sure I've seen them all and then I come across and it turns out I missed this one??? How did I miss this video? Where was I? 😂😂 But I did get a extra new vid this week since I missed this one so yay!! 😁😁
people often ask why they're afraid of failing, but I think more people should ask *who* they're afraid of failing. if you can come to terms with that, it can help set you free. not that fear of failure ever completely goes away, but there's a huge difference between the healthy and the unhealthy versions of it.
I relate so hard to this fear of failure... Fear of failure/Impostor Syndrome are always haunting my every move (and one of the reasons I haven't finished writing any of my 4, 5 books!). It's probably because I feel like my worthiness (is this a real word??) relies on my professional, intelectual area. If I fail there too, what is left? Deep down I know everything will be ok, no matter what, but... can't help it.
BTW, I'm quite anxious about Jessica's news now! I hope it's something amazing (and nothing that will stop her from filming the videos or staying with Claud all the time!!)
well, this inspired a really self compassionate and ambitious journal entry! i've struggled with imagining myself in the future and ambition is quite new to me. if my ambition was a child it would barely be walking by now! it's scary to have goals all of a sudden, although i guess the work i've put into my mental health in order to be able to believe in myself and be hopeful wasn't sudden at all. i was in a local production of a play i helped write last year and i performed spoken word in front of an audience for the first time in 2019! i'm in university for psychology and never intended to build a career out of my art but it turns out that writing every day for years made me quite good at it and i wanna get better at drawing and painting. i'm putting myself out there for the first time in my life and i have so many project ideas! i barely recognize myself! i'm terrified of the vulnerability of it all but i think about you jessica on a daily basis in order to motivate myself. "I can't focus on the things I can't do because of my mental illnesses because they're a part of me whether i like it or not and sulking about my condition will not make anything better" is what i tell myself when i remember you. thank you for the honesty and for the tools you've equiped me with emotionally, i love you.
Watching this in december 2020 adds a whole other level of "eep"... our fears and hopes for 2020 seem so banal with everything that's going on... still love every bit of this video though, the positivity really helps calm my brain.
Annual advice video from Claudia? Yes please!
Now that it’s June 2020 it’s so refreshing to hear a discussion about fear without a mention about corona. There is so much going on in people’s minds than just te epidemic. I wish we all didn’t have to live in fear. But as you said: ”This too shall pass”. Love you both 💕
Claudia I needed this, I know you are a sweet channel but it has been the worst curse word you can think of kinda 2 days. I know there are ppl dying but when you think your dreams could be dying, it is another thing altogether. I had some stress with jinxing at college. And I go from being enrolled to out of the blue owing quite a bit of money with no recourse but to be expelled. I was in a heap. My motto is 'When you want something as bad as breathing, you will succeed.' I could not have felt like I was buried alive any more than I did at that moment. I got out of my heap realizing there had to be someone, some way..... So I just kept emailing my college dept heads. DO you know what happened, the little pinions on the bottom didn't know what they were talking about and now Dept Heads are in charge of my college profile, I am back in classes and the debt is in a payment plan. The debt was the leftover of not enough aid. Yeah, college is a scam but being an ESL teacher requires it...
I just discovered this channel and I adore watching you both. So refreshing to see people having thoughtful, intelligent,conversation! And the loooove is so apparent.
"I am quite needy"
me too, girl, me too. 😂 I irritate my hunny a LOT but he just brushes that feels off cuz if I'm not being needy, I'm mad 🤷🏼♀️🤣
Funnily enough, I am going through some stress health-wise and this video pops up. And it shows me a different perspective on my fear. Thank you.
Jessica, be afraid of failure. But put the fears in a metaphorical box and lock it up. And keep going. Everything is temporary. It's not a waste of time to try something because you're still learning from it.
This time two days ago, I was FREAKING OUT about an upcoming audition. This time yesterday I was at the audition and still freaking out. Today I sit here kinda freaking out for a different reason - I GOT THE ROLE! So yes, the way it is now is not the only way it will be. And maybe it will turn out exactly as you hoped. 💛 Go forth and create!
You both have some truly lovely hair floof going on in this video ♡ Watching Jessica rub shoulders with Claud while calling out her fear of horror films made me laugh - got to have a partner who teases you (with love) about your fears.
8.28 you two are the cutest excited puppies currently on TH-cam!
One thing you don't need to be scared of is that there won't be an audience for your book! We know you can do it and we can't wait to read it!
In the same vein as Jessica's this too shall pass my husband often reminds me that it's only temporary, So even though our current situation is not ideal it's not going to be this way forever. That single thought gets me through a lot of rough patches.
I was diagnosed with Neurocognitive Disorder (mild) last week. I’d been looking for a Dx for a year, but to hear the doctor say the words out loud, and read it in print, especially the pages that state my deficiencies & things I can’t do on my own for safety reasons hit me HARD. I’m now terrified or more terrified than before, so not the greatest start to the New Year. Mostly because of how it will affect my children, particularly the 4 & 6 yr olds, and my husband who is currently my caregiver.
Ooh as usual, Jessica's vids are quite timely and reassuring. I'm dealing with nursing school (which is an almost constant source of fear) but I also recently saw Frozen 2 and theres a song called The Next Right Thing which puts into words how I've always dealt with fear, which is that in order to not get overwhelmed, just focus on the next thing you need to do, be it just getting out of bed or opening up the cover of your textbook.
I loved this video and Claudia’s advice! It made me feel a lot better!
Jessica foreshadowing how scary 2020 would be 😂Also you guys are just the cutest together 💕
Thank you both for this video! Needed this pep talk
Aw I think Claudia gives great advice! I frequently ask myself what Claudia would say about my current worries and how she would advise me to tackle them in order to give myself perspective.
Such wholesome advice. I hope your birthday was wonderful ❤️
my mum via my grampa taught me this trick of if you're really nervous for something, touch something before you go in and touch it when you come out. Like if you're worried about a doctor appointment, touch the dash of your car before you go in, and touch it again when you come out. Time will always move forward
I’m a strait woman but Claudia is becoming my style icon. She always looks comfortably fabulous. She totally has that casual French woman vibe.
This was a fun, sweet, and relatable video. I think many of us needed that :)
You two make me happy! I'm delighted every time I see a video post. Sending love! ❤️
Oh my goodness, you have no idea how much I needed this video today. Thank you, Jessica
I really appreciate Claudia's advice!! :) Thanks!
And then 2020 REALLY showed up. And 2021... And 2022... 😐This is a prophetic video. It kind of feels sad that everything we planned back then didn't happen, but hopefully we've grown and learned. Thanks for sharing
Late Happy Birthday! 💜
As always it's a joy to watch you two, makes me believe in love 💜
I so needed that motivational pep talk from Claudia . :)
I just love you two so much! Life has been very stressful for me too and I know how it feels. I wish you the best for 2020 and you two are my favorite humans❤️
Jessica probably already knows this but the easy/intense startling thing is a part of dysautonomia/POTS. Yay adrenaline surges 😬❤️
I really needed to see this today, thanks Jessica & Claudia❤️ I’ve been applying to jobs lately, and have been feeling so much anxiety and stress around it; been wanting to give up, so thank u💕
You both really helped me through 2019. It was a really bad year for me and watching your joy has really made me happy. 💜
Somehow it feels so natural for this to have been the first video Claudia says subscribe. I feel that stubborness too, not wanting to break the pattern with something like that. I sometimes hold on to things partially just to say I've never done (blank). For some reason that moment with Claudia spoke to me, it is kind of a silly example but it is also a silly thing that I do. Anyway, I appreciated the reminder that I can calm down and just go with the flow!
The heads and eyes and whatnot would freak me out too! I bought a fixer-upper house years ago and tore out the old linoleum in the bathroom and put down tile. It was a lovely random pattern sort of tile, but I literally opened all the boxes I bought and sorted out the tiles into ones that I could see faces in and ones I couldn't. All the ones I couldn't see a face in remained whole. All the ones I could make out a face in were the ones that got cut for end pieces (and the parts that had faces on them were the remains). I've never been so happy with flooring in all my life! Not a face to be seen anywhere in the floor tile. :)
I really needed this. Thank you.
Thank you for being vulnerable and open with us, Jessica. And thank you, Claudia, for sharing your advice. I too have things I want to get done and trouble focusing/motivating for various reasons (especially when my gf is home), and this video was really helpful to me. 💜
Thank you for taking time out of your holiday to make this video. Suddenly being afraid just happens at times, I am so happy you have each other to discuss these topics with. It helps others see a way to deal with their fears as well. Thank you Claudia and Jessica for your advice.
Have a beautiful birthday and glamorous lovely anniversary and holiday. You both so deserve it.