Everything I'm Scared Of [CC]
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Watching in Aug 2020: I now think Jessica is psychic and doesn't realize it. She knew. She just didn't know she knew.
agreed! by the end of January very few Americans really had covid on their radar, though the Cassandras were definitely trying to sound the alarm. It's kinda surreal/sad to be watching this video now.
And now it’s may 28, 2021.
And the pandemic still hasn’t ended. I have to say, Jessica absolutely knew in advance something bad this way comes sort of way.
REALLY THOUGH. I didn't look at the date before watching and I was so confused why she didn't say "getting Covid"
When she said "I'm scared of everything, like I have a low-level fear constantly now"
January? No! I'm usually fine with January. I never felt this way before!
Psychic. Or she had some big projecy in mind who scared her.
And Claudia is the one who gasps at a fish with a gaping mouth!
How much adorable are they?
I wonder if the pandemic and the public's response is making people more scared. Too see the whole world worried, acting out , being angry, it kind of makes life seem unsafe. Society being chaotic in 2020 might be a real influencer on everyone, even calm people.
a minute in and i'm already afraid of those stairs...
Those stairs are open and scary!
Ikr I feel like my foot would go straight through and get stuck!
Yeah, I have a huge phobia of stairs like that.
Yes they look terrible I f we plus never climb them
Let me try again they look terrible I would never climb them
re: Claudia disliking horror films/Jessica liking them
It's rather common for Deaf people to like horror movies or not think they're scary! A lot of the tension and suspense that hearing people get from horror movies is due to the music. Try watching a scary movie with captions on and the sound muted, it's a lot less scary.
😦 woah! That makes so much sense
I remember watching horror movies with no sound when I was a teen. It's HILARIOUS.
There is actually a horror movie in which the main character is deaf and it's totally terrifying as well! It's called "Hush".
Yes! The score is the scariest part that gives you the chills and makes the hair on the back of your neck stand on end!
Also, the sound is meant to add to the scary. I turned off the super man cave electronics experience while watching a horror movie, and just listened through the regular tv speakers, and it was not scary at all.
this aged... well ? poorly? Jessica's feeling of impending doom sure makes a lot of sense 6 months later
Jessica low key knew what was coming in 2020!
When you realise that in some way, Jessica predicted that 2020 was going to be a terrible year..
Exactly what I was thinking. She had a gut feeling about it, but didn't yet know what it was.
I love how Jessica looks at Claudia in this video, and Claudia looks at Jessica. This is love. Or... lip reading💕
I would agree despite the lip reading tho! They listen to each other intently and care about what the other has to say, and there's mutual respect. I'd say it's a sign of true love 💓
@@AngelBeatsOtaku666 of course!
Or both. :)
January: “2020 hits and WOW, I am afraid of everything.”
December: What else does Jessica know that we need to listen to??
Watching this in August, I think Jessica must have just sensed the stuff coming up in 2020
I've had 6 books published but last month I was right back in the "I can't write! Everyone will hate this book! My editor is going to think I suck!" phase 😅 pretty sure it's just an unfortunate side effect of being a writer. But I try to remember that a book only has to be important to one person for it to be worth writing. And that person can be you!
Wow that's a nice mindset, I like it ♥️ saying this because I am also a young aspiring writer (not to sound pretentious though) and still haven't thought of actually putting my humble mumble work out there, but I would love to, one day. So yeah, I like this idea that a book is relevant if one person finds comfort in it. Thanks for sharing your little experience!
@@britischenadligen3760 glad I could help ❤️
Are you hypnotists? Somehow by the end you had me believing “we’re all going to be ok together.”
I kind of feel like it’s the first time in 2020 I’ve been able to breathe.
*watching in September* ...*sad chuckle*
I love how you both sort of match the background bit you're each in front of.
Fox's Tidbits omg totally!
I had a moment today of "why are those people staring at me?" And then I remembered i was wearing a MASSIVE petticoat
I'm watching this for the first time in June 2020 and thinking you're literally psychic... Constant low level fear... You saw it all coming!!! 😥
Really needed this rn, I was legally homeless/sofa surfing for the best part of 3 years but right now im building my bed in a bedroom I've paid for myself and my disability is being recognized and it will be OK!! This too shall pass ~
Congradulations! I'm glad that your hard work paid off and you disability is finally being recognized. I hope youre doing well
"This too shall pass....it might pass like a kidney stone but it will pass"
"Oh I'm really irritating. I'm quite aware."
Relatable.
(I don't think you're irritating, Jessica)
“You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” - Michael Scott
Jessie is so real. Claudia hit a home run with her wisdom. I needed this video. I had somehow convinced myself that not trying = no failure. Love you both!
I think there is definitely some weight to the "new year of a new decade" pressure. I'm feeling that.
I feel like you two are the lesbian moms of youtube! Love to both of you! 🖤
They ARE the lesbian mums of youtube!
Jessica: "Claudia's usually the fearful one"
Me: thinking of when the light popped during vlogmas baking bad...
JESSICA: "I'm quite irritating. I'm aware!"
ME: Irritating = Fabulous
I love seeing the two of you together. It genuinely puts a smile on my face 😊
I think it is ok to be afraid. Whatever it may be that you are afraid of, to me, is something you care about. Whether it be your work or your family or your health ... it makes you aware of your surroundings. It may even help to motivate you. And Jessica, for the record, I would love for you to continue writing. I believe your creative mind would produce a page turner.
Jessica and Claudia, thank you for the video. Your advice Claudia is fantastic and something I want to apply in my life. You know, you're quite the stealthy motivational speaker 😉
I sincerely hope that you had an amazing holiday in Rome celebrating Jess's birthday and your engagement anniversary. It is always a pleasure watching your videos. Again, thank you! Take care!! Lovely as always 👍🤟💝
Richard Velez hi you are so sweet.
@@Zanderren Thank you. How are you today?
Good thanks how are you? How did you make your TH-cam channel banner and profile picture?
@@Zanderren I am doing well. I had an idea for a logo, made many, many drawings until I found one that I liked & thought 'why not use it for my profile pic and banner' 😊
Richard Velez are you thinking of upcoming video or just for comments ?
Your strong reaction to being startled might be due to EDS. My EDS specialist once told me that my strong response to being scared/startled (e.g. 10+ min of heart racing and whole body shaking if the doorbell rings and I wasn't expecting anyone) is likely due to the fact that my body doesn't regulate adrenaline correctly. The specialist explained that people with EDS don't regulate hormones all the hormones correctly. I have multiple hormones that are not regulated correctly.
if you want to write but are scared of someone you know reading your writing, maybe you could post your work online on reading sites, people could read your work without knowing who the author is and get feedback. Maybe that would give you the confidence later on to publish a book :)
My doctor seemed to think it was more related to the dysautonomia aspect rather than EDS? I could be wrong
@@forestque1531 🤷♀️ The specialist didn’t go into great detail but I have very mild dysautonomia.. who knows. With an EDS body, I wouldn’t be surprised if both EDs and dysautonomia caused hormonal problems 😅
ihavseentherain They definitely both could! :)
If this is true it would explain SO MUCH in my life! thank you for this information
Claudia‘s advice has actually become one of my most motivating quotes: you can salvage any plan that does not go to plan if you change the plan.
Okay, but I really, really REALLY want them to react to this video now, a year later in January 2021. What I would give for that reaction video
Claud: *brings up pilates*
Jessie: *gets lost in thought imagining Claud doing pilates*
You two are just 🥰
"We'll come back in a year's time and everything will be ok." I would laugh at the irony but I'm too busy crying.
Watching this in October and Jessica's fear was valid
That staircase in the background looks like a nightmare, even if you dont have a disability. Topically, fear alone would keep me totally off that thing.
If a person is disabled enough to have limited energy, the choices we make on how to spend our time really is more momentous. Energy becomes a precious commodity. So when Jessica mentions she doesn't want to waste her time, it has more significance because her energy pool is reduced. It is like when someone is poor how they spend their money is more significant because they have such limited resources.
What I want to know is... which one of you read my diary and knew I needed to hear this today? I'm not mad about it though... Happy Belated Birthday! ❤
Being in December 2020 and watching you girls talk about plans in January 2020 I'm like....oh boy....you have no idea yet...
As someone that struggles with crippling anxiety and depression, this was really needed. Thank you so much
Jessie in January: An then, 2020 hit!
Everyone in 2021: ... Wait for it.
4:36 reminds me of that book called They Both Die At The End where people get alerted at midnight that they will die the following day but no information on how
I read it
@@purplekitten6637 It's a very good book IMO
OH I heard of that book and god darn it I wanna read it but I still haven’t oof
You know, the best piece of advice I have ever gotten was when my dad told me brave doesn't mean fearless, it means you go ahead and do things despite your fears. Please don't ever become fearless and therefore complacent. Much love to you both.
Claudia: "... Just do it!"
Jessica: "Yeah, but then I am afraid of wasting my time"
Claudia: *painful sigh* "... oh my goshhhhhhh"
Jessica, I feel you so much! Other people just don't understand all the stuff one can be afraid of!
Claudia gave advice during the Norovirus Baking Bad. AND the video you both did about school exams. AND during all the pumpkin carving videos.
Was your low level fear ever spot on!!!
I totally get the January exam thing! My exams are IN January (I just had one today) and it’s almost completely ruined a month I used to love (my birthday, skating, skiing, etc)
What I shall refer to from now on as 'Pilates theory' is super useful - I often found myself thinking like that but never put it into words so well.
Two of the most beautiful people I have ever seen, inside or out. I am so glad you two are together. Thank you for sharing and for another great video 💗💖❤️
One of my current favorite things to tell myself when I feel this way is "this problem will have its place." It allows me to remember that life goes on past whatever you're worrying about, just like Claudia said.
Watching you both reminds me how very grateful I am to have found my people. I believe there are multiple soul mates for each of us. Lovers, friends, family...those people who enrich our lives and complete our puzzles 🧩. I have my husband and my best friend. I love them both completely and can’t imagine life without either of them. Regardless of how scared I become of my future with chronic illnesses, they’re there to love and support me. Thank you for not letting me forget.
Hugs. I am also irritating and scared.
I'm also coping with the fact that some goals are not achievable. I got my ideal job. And my body cant take it. Its heartbreaking. But I'm having to give it up.
Sarah Bent that happened to me years ago and then again a few years ago and I know how you feel. It can be devastating. I’m sorry you had to miss out on this opportunity. Just know that there will be more 💕 sending hugs
That sucks! Well, time to find a different ideal job. An ideal job where your body can take it.
Same ✌️
💗💗💗
I love how they sit so close to each other. It makes my heart happy. 💛💛💛
I just love you two so much! Life has been very stressful for me too and I know how it feels. I wish you the best for 2020 and you two are my favorite humans❤️
You two make me happy! I'm delighted every time I see a video post. Sending love! ❤️
Oh my goodness, you have no idea how much I needed this video today. Thank you, Jessica
You both really helped me through 2019. It was a really bad year for me and watching your joy has really made me happy. 💜
Late Happy Birthday! 💜
As always it's a joy to watch you two, makes me believe in love 💜
You guys always have the best advice to give! Also, after watching this video I am now more motivated to try different things this year! Thank you both! ❤️❤️
I really needed to see this today, thanks Jessica & Claudia❤️ I’ve been applying to jobs lately, and have been feeling so much anxiety and stress around it; been wanting to give up, so thank u💕
Everybody has his/her fears, mainly from the unknown or that you're going to be a failure.
There's a nice saying that I love: "If you try you could fail, if you don't try, you already failed".
I so needed that motivational pep talk from Claudia . :)
Thank you both for this video! Needed this pep talk
Thank you for being vulnerable and open with us, Jessica. And thank you, Claudia, for sharing your advice. I too have things I want to get done and trouble focusing/motivating for various reasons (especially when my gf is home), and this video was really helpful to me. 💜
*BIG HUGS!* ❤️ Fear sucks, I totally get it. It's really hard to admit to yourself that you're scared when you're normally the brave one. 🍃
I've been trying to see fear in a different light this year. 💪 I'm trying to see fear ( or lack there of for my case ) as a sign of change. I'm a *very* fearful person, I've always had horrible anxiety 😣 and everything gets to me. Then, I made a really big decision last year; now my whole life is changing drastically‼️With this new year it feels like my fear has dropped off the face of the earth and I don't know how to handle that. It feels like these imaginary guidelines I had for myself are suddenly gone. Like this 'frenemy' I had yelling at me my whole life can only whisper now. But yeah.
Take it as a cue that things are going to change and your body is just trying to prepare for what's to come. Sending lots of love to you lovely people! 💌❣️💮
Thank you for taking time out of your holiday to make this video. Suddenly being afraid just happens at times, I am so happy you have each other to discuss these topics with. It helps others see a way to deal with their fears as well. Thank you Claudia and Jessica for your advice.
Have a beautiful birthday and glamorous lovely anniversary and holiday. You both so deserve it.
Such wholesome advice. I hope your birthday was wonderful ❤️
This was a fun, sweet, and relatable video. I think many of us needed that :)
I just discovered this channel and I adore watching you both. So refreshing to see people having thoughtful, intelligent,conversation! And the loooove is so apparent.
I really appreciate Claudia's advice!! :) Thanks!
I loved spending these several past minutes with both of you. Nice, calming advice even in the midst of so, so many scary apartment features.
Y’all are absolutely the cutest couple. You’re both so genuine and idk, radiate love towards each other. 💜
Weirdly relieving to hear that I'm not the only one to be having an unusually bad/anxiety-filled January (and it's also my birthday month, how sad). I'm also having lots of concerns about my future and just generally feeling very not great so far this year. But, you and Claudia are right, we will get through it! This too shall pass, you just have to keep your head down and keep powering forward. Sending good vibes to everyone else with a sucky January.
Beautiful timing ladies. Thank you for sharing your life with us...both the ups and downs. :)
I really needed this. Thank you.
I loved this video and Claudia’s advice! It made me feel a lot better!
Ooh as usual, Jessica's vids are quite timely and reassuring. I'm dealing with nursing school (which is an almost constant source of fear) but I also recently saw Frozen 2 and theres a song called The Next Right Thing which puts into words how I've always dealt with fear, which is that in order to not get overwhelmed, just focus on the next thing you need to do, be it just getting out of bed or opening up the cover of your textbook.
You two CANNOT be more adorable, more in love, more dedicated, and more, and more, and more! I know my time has passed for that kind of love and relationship but it's so lovely to watch you two together. Fabulous, amazing, and numerous other adjectives I won't bore you with. But now that your channel has grown soooooo much, I doubt you can read every comment every day.....but that's okay, I just wanted to put it out there how inspirational you both are......
Happy belated Birthday and anniversary to you and Claudia! 🎆🎉✨😁🌟🥰🌈
We all love you too and I'm happy that we all will be fine together! 💖
Happy birthday!
Also we are here for you however your work decision turns out. However you decide I’m sure it will turn out well.
I love your videos and you are Ana maxing inspiration to me. Because of your amazing personality. And your lovely relationship with Claudia. You have also helped me out and been an amazing inspiration to me of how to live my life. Thank you so much!
I needed this today - thank you for posting! 🌸
I have felt quite anxious this month as well. But you're right, it's going to be okay.
Loved this video, I'm glad that you're keeping it real and though you're fearful, I get so happy and hopeful to see how much you two love each other.
thank you so much, i needed this
Aw I think Claudia gives great advice! I frequently ask myself what Claudia would say about my current worries and how she would advise me to tackle them in order to give myself perspective.
Love this video and the point of acknowledging our progress!
Thank you for the video! It always makes my day seeing you both. There's so much crappy stuff going on and then sweet Jessica and Claudia content gets posted and its 90% better. As to the book, all writers usually deal with anxiety about whether people will enjoy their writing. Please jump in and try. I'd love to read.Also, I think people focus to much worrying about the new year that they forget the progress they've made.
P.S. Molly Burke wrote a book, well, recorded one. Maybe she could give you advice!
Just watched this one and you were already scared about 2020 , do you have the sight?
Always take the leap Jessica. My philosophy when new opportunities arise is 'If you don't water every plant that comes your way you will never know if it's a weed or a beautiful flower' xx
I love watching you both together! I’d love to see you more of you both. No wonder you’ve been together for so long, you both work so well together. It’s absolutely beautiful. It gives me hope for my relationship. I hope in a years time to be even more thankful for his support and meeting new and wonderful people to being into our lives and our children’s. ☺️
the ending was so lovely, thank you for sharing =) have a great time in rome!
"I am quite needy"
me too, girl, me too. 😂 I irritate my hunny a LOT but he just brushes that feels off cuz if I'm not being needy, I'm mad 🤷🏼♀️🤣
Claudia's advice of "in a week's time this will be over" was actually very helpful :') my anxiety has been through the roof lately, and I realized,,, in a week, i won't be worried about most of this anymore. Of course, I'll probably have a billion new things to panic about, but at least they'll be new!
Happy Birthday and Anniversary! 🎉
I totally relate to this so much! Thank you both for being so cute as I have had some bad news and you have helped me feel a bit better! xx
Re watching old Jessie and Claud vids during my quarantine and I was 100% sure I've seen them all and then I come across and it turns out I missed this one??? How did I miss this video? Where was I? 😂😂 But I did get a extra new vid this week since I missed this one so yay!! 😁😁
Happy engagement anniversary and belated birthday Jess and Claud
One thing you don't need to be scared of is that there won't be an audience for your book! We know you can do it and we can't wait to read it!
You two are amazing human beings!
Happy birthday, birthday twin!!! ❤️❤️❤️
gosh, I love these two!!!!!
First off, Happy Anniversary to two of the most lovely ladies! Congratulations and thank you for sharing so much of your experiences, it means so much.
"Constant feeling of low grade fear" is actually how I would describe my GAD/PD experience. Have you ever dealt with anxiety before?
you two are really really adorable!
You guys are amazing and I always learn lots of little bits and pieces from your videos.
Just so you know Jessica, heaps of artists struggle with breaking through that first bit of pen to paper or paint on canvas. It's get easier once you get started. I do think what claudia suggests is good.. Don't wait til you feel relaxed and in the mood, just start with crappy squiggly irrelevant writing, and get in the flow. Use little exercises if it helps but keep up the writing, and you can always edit back or cut stuff out, but once you start your brain will go with the flow and get better, promise! Good luck!
Now that it’s June 2020 it’s so refreshing to hear a discussion about fear without a mention about corona. There is so much going on in people’s minds than just te epidemic. I wish we all didn’t have to live in fear. But as you said: ”This too shall pass”. Love you both 💕