Yeah well that whole being a junkie is a full time job is actually a mind set too. I was in that state for over 10 years then I got clean. Then I relapsed and said forget what anyone says about addiction I’m not letting anyone know and I’m going to conquer this. I used for another 2 years daily but I was still progressing in life and at a fast pace. I was working I was exercising and I was using H. I stop the intervenes using and started sniffing. Then I went less and less to the point I was barely doing any. It took everything in my soul to get clean on my own but I did it. That’s after I had already been to several halfway houses and literally 20 times in detox. I changed my whole mentality and everything I was ever told about addiction and made it work until I got clean on my own and of course the help of my higher power because I was praying 🙏 quit a bit. Still pray 🙏
yeh I agree with that... I struggled for 24 years (clean for nearly 2) and i have always had a pretty good job by all accounts... and i know a lot of people who do. I'm guessing like me they all keep their heads down, and mouths shut so they don't loose their jobs! Also did it on my own by decreasing to slivers of medication.. still had acute WD for over 2 weeks and then post acute for 18 months (also a pretty bad vitamin deficiency which i believe did not help at all)... i watched all my peers years ago as they started to steal and do things that would ruin their lives and would go sick and off to work before i did anything that would get me in a bad position. I think 'our type' are everywhere.. we just have to keep our mouths shut more!
@@dimitrisjim1216 Yeah was defo the one thing that i feel sometimes made people 'suspicious'... sounds horrible but i think most of them thought i just didn't eat (which i didn't!) and i let them think that as you cant loose your job over food issues. I was lucky really - been a girl i was able to put make up over spots, red my cheeks and lips to look alive, concealer for black bags under my eyes - i got away with it for most of my 20's and to mid 30's but i think it was becoming more obvious as i got older and lost control more and more. I let no one know anything about my 'out of work life' and tried to be as elusive as possible to keep people guessing in the wrong direction. I'm sure there was the odd person who got onto me over the years but few and far between. Looking back it was just madness - i dont know what i was thinking... for 24 years!
Yeah well that whole being a junkie is a full time job is actually a mind set too. I was in that state for over 10 years then I got clean. Then I relapsed and said forget what anyone says about addiction I’m not letting anyone know and I’m going to conquer this. I used for another 2 years daily but I was still progressing in life and at a fast pace. I was working I was exercising and I was using H. I stop the intervenes using and started sniffing. Then I went less and less to the point I was barely doing any. It took everything in my soul to get clean on my own but I did it. That’s after I had already been to several halfway houses and literally 20 times in detox. I changed my whole mentality and everything I was ever told about addiction and made it work until I got clean on my own and of course the help of my higher power because I was praying 🙏 quit a bit. Still pray 🙏
yeh I agree with that... I struggled for 24 years (clean for nearly 2) and i have always had a pretty good job by all accounts... and i know a lot of people who do. I'm guessing like me they all keep their heads down, and mouths shut so they don't loose their jobs! Also did it on my own by decreasing to slivers of medication.. still had acute WD for over 2 weeks and then post acute for 18 months (also a pretty bad vitamin deficiency which i believe did not help at all)... i watched all my peers years ago as they started to steal and do things that would ruin their lives and would go sick and off to work before i did anything that would get me in a bad position. I think 'our type' are everywhere.. we just have to keep our mouths shut more!
@@charlenewhittaker1674And what about appearance?
From personal experience, when I was using, my weight loss was obvious to the ones around me.
@@dimitrisjim1216 Yeah was defo the one thing that i feel sometimes made people 'suspicious'... sounds horrible but i think most of them thought i just didn't eat (which i didn't!) and i let them think that as you cant loose your job over food issues. I was lucky really - been a girl i was able to put make up over spots, red my cheeks and lips to look alive, concealer for black bags under my eyes - i got away with it for most of my 20's and to mid 30's but i think it was becoming more obvious as i got older and lost control more and more. I let no one know anything about my 'out of work life' and tried to be as elusive as possible to keep people guessing in the wrong direction. I'm sure there was the odd person who got onto me over the years but few and far between. Looking back it was just madness - i dont know what i was thinking... for 24 years!