@@GTSW1FT if he were real that wouldn't be the case. If the devil were real then God would be as well which would imply that God allows these things to happen. The fact that it happens in the name of God is proof against him.
Personally I believe this isn’t what god wants but instead people using the bible as a tool, a weapon if you will. In religion it is up too the person (and the parents if they want to) to deter stuff like the LGBTQ+ I myself and religious but Also genderfluid and Bi but I believe as long as i keep believing in god and seek forgiveness I will be forgiven but thats just me
Holy fuck, I'm a 40 year old amputee, dad of 2 kids, who has seen and been through some shit but this? This is absolute insanity. I'm just in tears that anyone could do this to their child. Jennifer, I hope you find peace, love, healing, and joy. I can't even imagine the road you've been on or the road you still have left to travel - but you're on the other side of the hardest part. You'll make it, for sure. I believe in you. -Mike
@@playernotfound9489 What? Drop F bombs from time to time? Yeah, sometimes I do - also taught them that "swear words are harmless unless you use them towards a person". They are also well into their teens, I'm sure they have heard far worse.
what I can't understand is how her mother can say "you were safe here" knowing full well that her eldest child beat her middle child to a bloody pulp, b/c said middle child didn't mach their expectations of being "man enough" or "good enough for the military" I'm sure that Jennifer's mother did the best she could, within the restrictions of their homelife, and skewed religious beliefs. But her best wasn't good enough. your parents are supposed to love you. They're supposed to raise you, and nurture you, and raise you to be a good, kind, respectful human being equally worthy of respect. They're *supposed to protect you. * And they not only failed her, but became part of the threat.
it is my belief that when you take upon the duty of raising a child or children (either through birth or adoption), that you essentially sign a pact stating "i am my child/children's safe zone/comfort zone for anything that may trouble them, be it physical, mental, and/or emotional", the importance of this "pact" is such that it ensures the child's overall wellbeing and development throughout the years allowing them to grow up to become well adjusted individuals. by breaking this pact of trust with your child or children you sever the bond of trust you have with them. the sheer levels of trauma that this severance causes is scarring and life changing (as we can see here), and it is why i so FIRMLY believe in the sheer importance of ensuring that EVERY SINGLE EMOTION your child or children has is at the very least validated. even if their reasons for having these feelings are "dumb" or "unjustifiable" it is of the utmost importance that they are allowed to have these feelings, to express them, to voice them. i know i dont have kids (yet) so take what i say with a grain of salt, but believe me when i tell you that empathy is one of the most important elements to child raising.
You see, they aren’t really Christians, they say they are Christians so they can take gods words and twist them to their content to make bullshit reasons for their actions
@@Cr4z3d This is what i find ironic about christians, or, at least, american conservative christians I myself am agnostic, but even i understand that christianity is all about tolerance, because God is the only one who can pass judgement
"She's holding on to a son that never existed," that hit me so hard. That's what I've been trying to tell my own mom for so long. It sucks to have complicated feelings for your parents. My mom is the person I love most, but she has also done a lot of horrible things to me. All of it in the name of "helping" me. But all it achieved was to make it even less likely for me to ever turn out the way she needed me to.
I feel that line too. I had to leave my family and become homeless in Seattle since it was legitimately better then the constant shame twords me and the lack of people I could trust and confide in. even my siblings who i trust more than anyone and are some of the best people I ever knew I can't talk to since I never know what they'll tell my parents.
My mom left…. (Born in 04) Parents split when I was 10 My mother is still alive but she chose to leave. and love another man (He Threatened my life at age 16, and told me I’m not going to make it past HS) I got a job at my 16 summer And tried to raise my younger siblings… (I did a terrible job because I was being bullied too a terrible extent, and I was a quiet kid at school 🔫) My mom decided that she needed to be a mother “8 years later” For my siblings (I was 18 at this point) Thinking suicidal thoughts and anger (After losing my siblings) I’m now 20 I would like to have a family with a born female woman and Give them the childhood I’ve never had (2 parents still together and being very supportive and accepting)
I’ll just leave this here My mom left…. (Born in 04) Parents split when I was 10 My mother is still alive but she chose to leave. and love another man (He Threatened my life at age 16, and told me I’m not going to make it past HS) I got a job at my 16 summer And tried to raise my younger siblings… (I did a terrible job because I was being bullied too a terrible extent, and I was a quiet kid at school 🔫) My mom decided that she needed to be a mother “8 years later” For my siblings (I was 18 at this point) Thinking suicidal thoughts and anger (After losing my siblings) I’m now 20 I would like to have a family with a born female woman and Give them the childhood I’ve never had (2 parents still together and being very supportive and accepting)
I think YT censored my comment But My mom left…. (Born in 04) Parents split when I was 10 My mother is still alive but she chose to leave. and love another man (He Threatened my life at age 16, and told me I’m not going to make it past HS) I got a job at my 16 summer And tried to raise my younger siblings… (I did a terrible job because I was being bullied too a terrible extent, and I was a quiet kid at school 🔫) My mom decided that she needed to be a mother “8 years later” For my siblings (I was 18 at this point) Thinking suicidal thoughts and anger (After losing my siblings) I’m now 20 I would like to have a family with a born female woman and Give them the childhood I’ve never had (2 parents still together and being very supportive and accepting)
I'm no physician, but I'm like 99% percent sure that 3-4 hours in an ice bath is more than sufficient to cause death by hypothermia. I'm also 99% sure that if this happened to POWs, it would be a war crime.
Have been forced to do 2 but 4 is just wtf can't imagine... The screwed up thing is that, she said that they monitor the kids though like just before they get hypothermia they maybe pull the kid out for a couple minutes to "warm up" and thow them back in just so they wouldn't be held liable. That's probably why the kids doesn't suffer from hypothermia or smth else that could get em into legal trouble...
closeted gay teen here. my dad supports and donates to conversion camps and regularly uses the same phrases that your dad used, even searching my phone and doing other things of that nature. i'm glad that you could come through this experience alive and well. i've always known the, uh, other route, as my only option if i ever get found out.
I Wish you only the best, man. I know you can get through whatever comes your way, even if its the worst. As alone as you may feel in your life, there are people somewhere for you. Never give up on yourself.
Hey. While I'm not LGBT. I did suffer in foster care throughout my formative years. Never assume your life is over because of what's happening in the here and now. I was miserable and treated like crap by my foster brother. When I got out on my own, I was so much happier and free. It's tough to say "just wait" when your suffering now. But it's what I had to do and trust me, it does get better.
Old comment, but you've got this. It feels hopeless, I know, and survival is a struggle. One day you will not just be a survivor, one day you will flourish and thrive and exist in queer joy and the love you deserve. You never should have been made to worry for your safety or been rejected. Find ways to curate your own happiness outside of your house, maybe take up an artistic skill or something crafty or skillwork. Anything to keep your hands busy, make it seem like your mind is elsewhere. Use a hobby as a disguise. If you get any queer-related items, don't store them at home. Hide them in a box and bury it somewhere you can frequent or with someone you can trust. Make that closet as comfortable as you can, while you wait for the opportunity to kick better things into motion. We see you, we love you, and please stay safe. You deserve better, it just takes time. You aren't alone.
It isn't your only option if you get found out. You can run. Please do anything within your power before resulting to that option. There are organizations meant to protect queer homeless youth, people out there who would help you without knowing you, and you deserve life. There are always options in life, death removes any choice. If you'd like, I'd love to try to find you resources in your country. Again, you deserve life, and you deserve to be loved. It's a disgusting failing on your father's part that you feel unsafe. You will make it out of this. I know I'm just an internet guy but I care about you and I hope you get out safely. ❤
Felt. I know it's been 3 months since this comment, but a reminder: things can and often do get better. Survive, so you can live to thrive. Much love from a bi sister in Oklahoma
Conversion therapy has no basis in reality and does nothing but break humans. It should be utterly banned in it's entirety, and those involved immediately arrested and thrown in prison.
nah they should be forced to hear as many stories as they can find and asked "would jesus do this? would he do the same to you if you strayed the path?" and have life in prison specifically for humanely and kindly helping them. torture and death isn't the punishment, that's just more cruelty I would never wish pain on anyone, even murderers and torturers, but I do agree they should be arrested.
and these same people go on and on about how transitioning makes people suicidal when it was their own abuse. its terrible that this is still so common.
We literally have shittons of bad science, pseduo science, and all the real science is gonna talk another 5 years at best to even begin to understand transness moreso. In fact in the 40s the nazis burned like fucking all the scientific literature regardign this stuff for like, pretty much the same reason that modern republicans are. "Stop calling us nazis you're crying wolf!!" "Okay we're gonna become like the nazis now it's actually morally superior"
@@Jack-4v you are not these quite rare examples of people nor their parents nor their family nor the community. You can also not tell the incompetent right wing government to write and make shit up on the spot that will affect the lives of literally everyone.
One of the most common misrepresented statistics is showing post transition surgery suicide rates compared to... cis people who got no surgery at all, and declaring that as a increase in suicide rates. Ignoring transition surgery, decreases rates from people who are otherwise unable to get it, when they need it.
and if you try to get that through their thick skulls, they always retort with "well just don't be trans and it wouldn't happen!!!!" ...uhh, how bout just don't be a fucking piece of shit will ya. THEY are the problem here, not trans people
Listening through this, I felt like I was hearing a recount from someone who had undergone military torture. I have no fucking clue how this is remotely legal, I hope you’re doing fine today. I personally am a straight cis person, and I don’t want to lie and say I know what you have gone through or possibly are still going through, but to think that this is done to children just for being who they are horrifies me. I seriously hope that you are doing fine today, you are a heroine for having survived this.
I have a new friend who has literal PTSD from war, bombs going of, people dying in front of him. We share shockingly similar symptoms of trauma. All I went through was a religious cult. Yeah there was torture, most of it was brainwashing to cause self inflicted torture in the congregation. Interesting what people will do in the name of God. Some most days it feels like I am in a war. Being I live in the bible belt, it's impossible to get away from someone trying to get me back into a cult. I have as of yet undiagnosed CPTSD, had a therapist agree but I don't have official paperwork on it. But it's obvious to me now that I know what it is. It explains the dissociation, the flashbacks, how my day can completely be ruined by something as simple as someone saying "Jesus loves you" in casual interaction. I live in Tennessee. They said they were in Florida. This whole quarter, maybe even half of the US is fucked up.
i actually had an ex-friend participate in these atrocities, and let me tell you what; I found out, and now he drinks liquified steaks through a goddamn straw, and still looks like a picasso. i believe that as penance for an adult causing children to go through this kind of sadistic nightmare, a couple dozen teeth isn't a bad trade. and two fingers that are mangled to the point i don't doubt he had them removed when they reconstructed his face.
At least in the military this level of hazing in line with torture is only reserved for sec ops. And they don't prevent you from quitting and leaving those programs.
@@jacobrzeszewski6527at least with spec ops, this kind of traumatic desensitization training is likely to prepare those soldiers for the horrors that a deranged enemy might subject them to in a worst-case... in other words, as fucked as it is, at least it serves a measurable purpose
@@microArc Even then it is still morally questionable to do because the only reason we "need" those sorts of people trained for that is so that it gives a military advantage to do it and I already disagree with the notion that a military is strictly necessary for society to function.
I am a devout Christian. I have never heard what happens in conversion therapy before. This had me absolutely appalled. The fact that people can do such evils to literal children and claim to do so in the Name of God disgusts me. They sully His Good Name. I pray that the victims of this torture will be able to find peace, and that God will make Himself known to the perpetrators of this abuse. Thank you for sharing this experience, it really opened my eyes. Edit: As someone has mentioned replying to this comment, there are enough people sending empty wishes. If you are reading this comment and feel similarly to me, please do what you can to help your community and fix the evil you see. Thanks.
Everything she said about elements of the family, not being able to trust anyone because you never knew who would hear or see what, etc, hits home so hard
One of the things that still scares me to this day is how one time my family was talking about how upset they were that conversion therapy camps like this were getting outlawed in the states we lived in. I can't remember if at the time I knew I was gay or not, but I remember them saying that they were good places for people to "get the help they need". Sometimes I'm scared that if they found out, they'd try to send me away anyways. I may be over 18 now, but I'm nowhere near financially independent yet and those things just stick with you.
@@seantaggart7382 it's like my step dad, whining about how conversion therapy is slowly being outlawed, then when trump lost the last election started screaming how he was gonna be put into a "reeducation camp" which like in my opinion a lot of people could literally use having a method restarting their education because he still seems to think science and fact stopped changing after he left high school, it's wacky how their a people like this in America who are all for forcing "reeducation" and trauma onto people to make them conform to their social values but if the idea is even considered to be pushed towards them suddenly your a communist monster, absolutely wack how America exists right now
the words “i made it” being repeated over and over made me cry. as a survivor of depression, realizing you’re still here despite everything is truly such an accomplishment. to anyone out there who has gone through/ is going through something similar, i am SO glad you’re still here, even when just existing is exhausting. im proud of each and every one of you. stay safe
This is why talking about stuff like this is important. It’s not attention seeking, it’s making people aware and possibly opening the eyes of people in similar situations. Thank you for sharing your story Jennifer, you give me the strength to tell my story fully.
@@marcosloldelClose to half of americans have had their brains removed due to excessive brainwashing. They literally cannot think for themselves, let alone analyze anything.
@@conallirvine5157 there are two possibilities, the first, probable and disgusting one: he's homophobic and saying he shouldnt have loving parents. the good but least likely one: he has bad grammar and meant his parents dont deserve him because they are horrible
How can someone sign up to have their children tortured and have the audacity to think its for their own good? I dont have a problem with religion, but sometimes it makes the most delusional people justify the worst shit
@@Jack-4vThere’s a flaw in your point. You’re comparing a rhetorical bad with a bad in a completely different ballpark to potentially (and hopefully accidentally) justify the abuse of children who have no control over their identity, upbringing, for the sake of your views; whether I agree with them or not as it’s not relevant, it’s pretty cruel to bring up a blanket and non-controversial statement in this sort of context. In other words: a red herring, something that respectfully you should’ve learnt in 3rd grade comprehension class, assuming you’re a western native from your profile. Not to takeaway credibility from your statement completely, but I think it’s interesting to point out should you further reply with more fallacies.
Blind faith is pounded into these people until it is a core part of their personality. If god thinks torturing children is good, then it's good. All thought stops there. They can't follow logic or reason. Faith is belief in absence of proof, so why would they need to? Maybe they have something deep down saying "this is wrong". Well that voice is arguing against God's will. So it must be Satan, and they should resist it.
@@Sensei-Ollie Grouping any queer person as psychologically flawed and sinful is really insensitive... but I don't think that's where it ends for people in the LGBT community struggling for rights. Christians have a right to religion, a right to gather in a church, a right to practice said religion how they see best fit with little, if any, legal intervention. Christians are not physically beaten in American for simply being Christian. Athiestic parents don't shame their children for being religious without legal reprucussion as a church could easily get involved and advocate for said youth. Our government is based on Christian principle and it is faithfully enforced by our right-wing political leaders today (eg. the overturn of Roe v. Wade). Prevelently in red states, queer youth are being tortured to this day, stripping them of their right to exist without unnecessary pain. These youth live in environments that cause them to think of themselves as less than human. Transgender youth have to exist without the right to medical intervention for psychological health concerns scientifically proven time and time again to help with suicidal ideations, crippling depression, and debilitating anxiety. Homosexual youth have to exist with social reprecussions for simply being gay. Our political parties will not intervene for LGBT abuse and mistreatment and, with our current republican parties including the president and the majority of the supreme court, it will only continue to be so. Blue states, meanwhile, are being taxed much more heavily for the sake of progress in basic human rights, making red states look much more appealing financially, leading many to move out of blue states for lesser taxes. This puts MORE queer youth at risk of horrific treatment as these parents also tend to be Christian So, tell us something insightful instead of just saying that a single statement is insensitive to a group of people barely struggling with their rights to life because, right now, all a majority of people can see (who AREN'T Christian) in the public eye is hate from political leaders and from crucial relatives meant to be guardians and protectors.
I'm trans, I've been traumatized.... I won't write an essay, all I'll say is that I'm done being accommodating to people that wish nothing but harm on me for being alive. I never leave the house without a knife and mace, this has to stop I can't keep living with this nonstop dread while being told I'm the weak one
@@sillycookie I was groomed because I sought out validation, and now I'm being told I'm a groomer for waking up alive. I'm losing my patience, honestly, I'm getting mad, and I'm getting sick of these awful people and their evil acts of salvation to a god they push on others.
I'm not trans myself, but I've seen plenty of people that are trans to know you're valid for being angry and feeling the need to defend yourself. I hate that in a society filled with wealth and unimaginable power, we can't understand people just trying to exist and be happy at the same time if it's different from the common template for it. I'm sorry that you have to exist in a failing and willfully ignorant society that would hurt or kill you for merely waking up every day. I'd like to add that being trans is also biological, as well as psychological. A specific part of the Y chromosome is responsible for the formation of the brain in accordance with male or female traits, and a small "mutation," although it makes you no less of a human if you have it, causes said brain to develop as if it were of a different gender than the rest of the body. This is, of course, not at all dependent on whether or not a person is trans, just a fact that clearly shows being trans to not only be biological, but completely factually valid in all respects (it's also been proven that even without this mutation, being trans isn't a mental illness or a facade, according to my friend with a Phd in psychology). Even if that weren't true, you're still a completely normal human being with a completely valid way of life, and I see no difference in you and any other person with your same gender-identity. If you wanna have a conversation, leave a comment on my channel and I'll hook up DMs for pretty much any form of social media. I've got a friend that would really want to meet you, and they have a very interesting gender-identity as well, along with parents that don't understand them. I hope my comment made you at least a little bit happier, and I especially hope that I made you feel a bit more comfortable in your own skin. Keep fighting for your own existence, and always remember that you're just as much of a human, with their own way of life and beliefs, as any other person. I thought about defending regular people that just have a lack of understanding, but they're starting to become a minority to willfully ignorant, vile people nowadays.
Mad respect for Jenifer for being so strong. As a straight kid, I’ll never know how horrible it must be for any lgbtq person going through this and I’m glad that action is being taken against these camps, regardless of what others think.
@@L16htW4rr10r Well the 11th Circuit Court of Appeals (which includes Florida where this happened) is actively ruling against bans on conversion camps in their jurisdiction
You. You are one of the greatest people to roam the internet. Churches don't know what God's work is. But you do. What you do hear, listen to people, spread their stories. That is truly God's work. And I'm not even Christian. Keep it up man. Keep being there for people. All some people need is just someone to trust and confide in.
I am a Catholic and I truly believe gods word is just being kind and caring to others, if you are a good person, you will eventually be rewarded, in life or in death
Closeted and my mother mentioned her support of conversion therapy the other week. This experience is what could have been and has shook me to my core.
Assuming your mother isn't too far gone already, I recommend the slideshow method. Seriously though, once you come out, because I'm assuming you haven't already, probably just cite like 15 sources backing up your point, just to convince her. Lmk if this helps because I'm genuinely kind of curious.
Be safe, stay closeted for your safety! It's not worth telling bigoted parents. You are the way you are , you can't change that and there's no reason you would need to.
@@iamsiley This is only good advice if they are fully independent, which I assume they are not. If you try this when you're a dependent, it could genuinely be the end of you and it's not worth the risk.
I live in Ireland, we are currently trying to get this horrible abuse of human rights outlawed, I wish the best to you and am deeply sorry for the horrors committed upon you.
I was mad my outer family wasn't accepting, but I feel eternal gratitude that my inner circle cares about me and understands me this well I really don't deserve them
My grandmother on my dad's side is extremely conservative, I mean like Alex Jones levels conservative, and since I live in Florida, telling her i'm trans could lead to so so so so many problems for me, my family, and my doctors. It's scary, not being able to tell them this but then being forced by my family to go see them. She's very involved in my brother's lives and I try not to see her, but my family (especially my dad) still won't let me just leave her. See, my dad is christian, my mom is a converted catholic, but they are both (mostly) very supportive. Of course my dad less so since he grew up with the stigma, but he at least allows it even if he isn't the most politically correct or involved. But since they are christian, they go to church. I've became an atheist, I questioned alot of the beliefs I grew up with, but my family never let me get away from the church. My mom doesn't go because her work schedule is too inconsistent to be able to participate, but my dad goes pretty often. Both of them, though, still will force me to participate in holiday events, the most recent of which was my youngest brothers first communion. Immediately, I didn't want to go, because I knew that if I did I would see my grandma, and I didn't want to interact with her because I was scared for my safety. My family forced me to though, since it was important for my brother. I went out, put on my best "I'm 100% a straight male but if I wanted to I could pass as a girl" outfit, and had to go. When we got there, I was greeted by my grandparents, and we went in the church. Guess what was the topic today! How "certain individuals" online, in school, or in your family are tricking your kids and grandkids into leaving god and becoming atheists, and that if you wanted to "save them" you had to sign up for their christian school, that would make sure your kids keep their faith. I was disgusted, I understood the transphobic retoric as soon as he started talking about the school system, and I tried to tell my family when we got home "hey, I'm pretty sure our church is kinda bad, because the stuff they said is kinda transphobic". My mom just started defending them, saying "of course that's not what they meant" and "they're just slightly misguided, that's all". Now I'm not saying my family is awful, but I'm just saying this stuff is so ingrained into the culture of the church, of allowing any priest to just be "misguided" even though they are clearly being transphobic. It's like a shield that protects them, I bet you if they weren't a priest my mom wouldn't give them the benefit of the doubt. This was kinda a rant, but I think it goes to show how even supportive christians can be blinded by their complete and total faith in their church.
When she said "Was all of that worth keeping a son that never really existed?" I rewound the video to hear it again. That's such a powerful statement coming from such a strong woman. I hope you're doing great, Jennifer
The fact that she can still love her mom and won't even wish anything bad on her dad is incredible to me. You are so much kinder and stronger than he ever was. I know I could never be that strong. I know I'm not.
Yeah, what that guy said. Basically your parents just groom you to never question them ever. I’m not gay or anything like that, but my parents were very strict and when I was caught living (as roommates) with my bf at 22 my parents freaked out and called a family meeting and wouldn’t let me visit and tried to demand he move out THAT DAY. I still can’t cut contact with them despite knowing how I grew up, so I’m just low contact. Sometimes it’s not strength, it’s more weakness that you can’t fully put yourself first and still give room to the people who ruined your life. It’s the best we can go sometimes tho…
It likely is the case that she resented them at some point, but has had time to come to terms with anger. You only just got exposed to the information. So it is normal that you will seem angrier.
once, when I was about 13, I was in a discord group where everybody would talk openly about their sexuality, I remember that i felt amazing about opening up about my feelings, cuz my family would always shut me up every time i tried to speak about sexuality. so I talked about my sexuality and that I felt like my parents would not love me if i came out as bi. soon, my grandma went through my phone and found out that i was "trying to get laid by a man" even though I was just talking about my sexuality, i never asked anyone for sex. and then, my family cutted me off completely, they took away all of my eletronic devices, and would only let me watch TV, I stayed like that for 2 YEARS. and the worst of all is that my grandma would talk about it on family meetings, she would say that she saved me from the devil and etc.... looking back now, its been 5 years since that happend, but i still can't talk about it openly with my parents...
@@vir00 1. None of us are sure there were adults in there, only OP is. Could be all minors. 2. I get what you mean about the dangers of the internet with talk on sex, plenty of actual groomers out there. However, OP was expressing their sexuality in that group because their own family would reject them. If OP had been accepted, allowed to talk about how they felt on their sexuality, OP probably wouldn’t need to risk an online space with possible strangers looking to exploit kids. Shutting off that last safe space and saying how OP’s feelings were akin to “being tempted by demons” (making the home environment even more hostile) probably doesn’t do wonders for a kid’s mental health, let alone their relationship with their family.
Every time I hear these stories I wonder if I could have remained as calm or if I would have started displaying violent behaviors towards my family in that kind of situation
Nothing has made me feel as lucky as this. My family refuses to accept who I am, and actively hinder my ability to learn. I'm used to being called an idiot, told that I have brain damage, told that I must have a psychological disease, or that the conditions I do suffer from are just a "wank". But I am safe. My physical health is not at risk. I am not being beat up. I won't see my blood spilt around where I go, aside from a small cut here and there. I am not, have not, and likely will not, be barely struggling to survive through literal torture. In that sense, I am safe. I am so sorry to here what happened to this poor person. I am shocked to hear that they even survived to this point and that they were willing to keep pushing. It is disgusting to learn of what happens behind closed doors at these camps, and even more so that they're still legal.
Hi. I’m an East Asian person. This kind of stuff is only rumors of the west in my country.. I’m so sorry these are actually happening in such a diverse country. It’s terrible. I don’t quite understand much western ideas and trends/identities, so I can’t officially speak for them. But, even though I’m not apart of the LGBTQ, anyone would know that this is just wrong. It’s heartbreaking 💔 edit: excuse some misunderstandings- my English isn’t quite fluent yet. Thank you all for the replies, I will continue to support anyone I see in a situation like this. In Japan, people are shy, and don’t usually lean out to help others in need of it. So suicide and depression is a result. I hope to change that! And to even help people outside my country.Thank you all 🙇⤵️
It's real. I live around 40 miles from one. The only way out of the place is a threatening to harm yourself. I met a survivor from one who hurt themselves so that they had to forcibly leave. Otherwise they would have had a corpse on the property and been investigated
@@rebeccagillaspy2681 how do things like this even exist in America 😞People always say america is free and claim it is so good than other countries, but they hide so much? It hurts other American to see how people can overlook it. Although, I can’t say I can relate. I’m sorry For You America
@@edgyidol they either use homo phobic parents who are in the religious community to sign their rights over to the kid so it's legal. Or the individual is blackmailed into it. Sometimes they make it seem like it's going to be a fun place. It depends on the state. But some have very religious people who have power and turn a blind eye to it. Just like anywhere. There is abuse of power and leadership to exploit vulnerable people. It's disgusting. But there are also many networks of people who work to shut these places down. Once you are there. They threaten you. Over work you. Blackmail you. Or straight up brainwash you. Into being indoctrinated. They use lack of sleep. Lack of food. And in some cases playing scripture or indoctrination over loudspeaker. On a 24 hour loop. Sometimes they use people who pretend to be kind and get a foothold in your mind and use psychological tricks. I unfortunately know far too much about these places and i hate them.
I'm not a sensitive person, but this shit can make a grown man cry, it made me cry, I could feel her pain through the sound of her voice, my heart broke I've also had issues with the Catholic church as a child, got assaulted non-sexualy all in the name of "god", I don't bare hate towards Catholics but I do kinda feel a certain disgust for rly religious people, if would've happened to me I'd either be dead cuz of suicide OR in jail for going on a revenge killing spree The level forgiveness and understanding she has are not from this world. Wich is only proof that she's an EXTREMELY strong person. Not to forget all the mental & physical torture she's gone through and pulled through. And now even openly talking about it even that requires tons of courage! Especially talking up against your family! May this step in life be change for the better for her. And may for F*cking once life be in her favor!
Oh 100% guaranteed that any single one of those adults in the conversation "therapy" camp wouldn't have lasted being dealth the very thing they did to kids without crying and screaming like little bitches. Probably got off on the abuse of power too.
"My family isn't the best right" *proceeds to describe how she got beaten up by her brother violently* Like sheesh girl some people don't deserve forgiveness
@lorekeeper685 you're never moving on. You'll always think about it. After all, they wronged you. Why not lose sleep every night thinking about it what revenge you could take. Why move on if you acknowledge something has to be made right My point is that forgiveness is reprioritizing where your focus should be. Self improvement.
I want to leave everyone with this… You are loved, you will be free one day, and you are not alone I am not trans, or gay or even part of lgbtq+ but I am a disabled, furry/therian who has gone through a lot of trama and I want to be able to let other people know the above message I would also like to say Jenny, you are the trooper and know you have come so far!!
I would call myself a conservative, but this is still bad. A proper parent who loves their child should accept them regardless. When they said their father said "I hope you changed." that isn't love. You shouldn't change for the people who love you. It's just terrible to hear about.
You did not abandon her, you did what was necessary for your own survival. SHE abandoned you With her negligence of parental duties. She should have been there for you, and instead of being there to comfort you, she sent you off to be tortured. For raising a son who would beat the shit out of his younger sibling because he couldn't tolerate weakness, even in someone else.
God, this must've been awful for her to vent out there. Also, good on Azeal for those small bits of affirmation like "you're doing great". Even something small like that can make a world of difference.
This atheist woman is far closer to true christian ideals than her "christian" parents. She doesn't deserve a damn thing she went through and I really hope she can find happiness, but I'm so glad she's closer to being happy than she would be had she not left Hell.
So the father got teased by some queer people back in his youth and held such a grudge he took his OWN DAUGHTER to hell and back and expected that everything would be fine. Thats beyond fucked up bro
@@adventurer3288 Yes it is. There are people who take their preconceived notions of "what a man should be/do" way too damn far and try to force it on others. It's a toxic version of masculinity, hence the name.
@@adventurer3288Look, dude, I get it, I'm a guy myself "Toxic masculinity" can feel like an attack on you because you're masculine, but it's not. It's not even an anti-masculine term, masculinity without being toxic is great, I love doing masculine shit, I gym 4 times a week, I do carpentry projects, I love doing the classic protector guy vibe, but none of this is "toxic" masculinity, it's just masculinity.
I am a Christian, and stories like this piss me off in a way very little else does. This. is. not. how. you. address. sin. To treat anyone with ANYTHING less than common decency completely goes against what we are supposed to be doing and is I think even hypocritical. We are all sinners on the same sinking boat, so to belittle, let alone torture, anyone instead of making sure everyone knows the truth and is able to get out alive is just plain wrong. Watching different churches distort God's truth and use it to cause this much hurt... really eats me up inside. My heart goes out to you, Jennifer. It makes me glad to hear you've gotten out and are moving forward.
I mean to literally take something from the bible Jesus literally saved someone from being stoned. Because everyone are sinners and have no right to judge other people like that so to torture CHILDREN is just wtf
I want to add to this and say that based on a lot of things I have seen, I even call into question the validity of people claiming that "they bible says so" about homosexuality being a sin. I did some digging a whileback and found that the word that was referring to gay folks was a very vague term that doesnt even have a conscensus on what it meant. Some say it does refer to gay people, others say it refers to pedophiles, etc. Regardless, the act of translating and editing the bible over centuries has innevitably resulted in things being warped, either unintentionally or to further an agenda of hate. At this point, so much has been changed and translated so many times, we cannot possibly know what was originally in first copies of the books of the bible or not. Call it heresy, but if the word of god is to be warped any more, we should at least warp it in a way that doesnt paint a target on these people anymore.
@@ComradeCorvus Interesting point, though I believe the Bible does make itself clear on the matter. At least three or four times it repeats the term "a man being with another man as with a woman". While I see how that sound vague to an extent, when viewed in the context of the surrounding verse(s) and taking into account that the phrase is repeated in just about the same way instead of finding a different way to word it each time, it's pretty obvious that it's referring to 'two guys getting it on'. I would like to add something though: more than once, the act of homosexuality isn't referred to or condemned in isolation. More often than not it is listed among or followed up by a list of other sins, ranging from other sexual sins to murder and deceit and envy. No one sin is technically worse than another. No one kind of person should EVER be targeted and hated on if another sin (like hate for a convenient example) is being looked over. Besides, all can equally be forgiven.
@@gaspitfarmley2025 remember though, the bible is not originally in english, and languages are not one to one with each other at all times; in the original hebrew the word used for lay in the main verse used very heavily implies a lack of consent involved
every time I listen to a story like this, it makes me feel worse about myself for being American. knowing that how much you want to believe there is good in the world, there will always be those who won't listen to reason, and wont understand, and hide behind these walls, and rally those who share their same view. it just hurts, y'know? to just know that there will be people who just use this originally once great thing, and turn it into a place full of anger, and hate towards those that are different. I am happy for Jennifer getting out of that shitty situation, I wish you can grow past your experiences where they don't hurt as much. I wish I can too. edit: it also makes me angry how many of these "programs" there are to degrade children, who need help with understanding. if a parent sends their child to one of these "programs" it just breaks their trust. and it makes it even worse if the "program" lies to the parent about what is happening. such as "we at **** foundation, will counsel your child away from evil" but in reality are doing just what Jennifer went through, or even worse.
This is sad but you shouldn't be sorry to be American, there is a lot we take for granted, a lot that people don't understand. Americans don't know how easy life is even with the stuff we see compared to living in a country like Syria or India or Bahrain or even richer countries. We take the grants we have for granted compared to China, North Korea, and some eastern countries. To be able to marry the same sex person and change everything about your identity as much as you want and have millions upon millions of people accept you is better than getting killed in my experience. Still doesn't excuse the bad things that happen here but it makes things a little better. We as Americans can make our country better. Ensure what one state does our state is different. Things are changing but it's difficult to change the philosophy of 350 million people in just a generation or two. It took 100 plus years to make everyone agree that slavery is bad and we even still have a couple bad apples. But that's just it. A couple so when things like this happen we support and learn and seek out similar situations before they happen.
Shit, even the psychological torture of one of these places is horrifying. I was expecting a video on that... But this? How is this even legal? They should all be in jail for life. I wonder if there are lawyers out there who can rat out these people and really drive them into the ground for good.
Mom: Allows her daughter to be savagely beaten by her other kid. Also mom: But you were safe here! How dare you escape! Jennifer, if you are by any chance reading this, your mom wasn't a good mom. It's hard to hear, I know, I too latched onto my less abusive parent as if they were some sort of saint and savior. As you said yourself, your mom was always there... and she let all of those of this things happen to you. Remember, she was the one who suspected you to be queer and supplied your dad with the "proof" need to sent you to the torture camp. Don't feel like you betrayed her, she's the one who kept on betraying you your entire life. You owe her nothing.
Holy hell, I didn't know conversion therapy was literal _physical_ AND physiological torture. I actually shed tears and still am. Goddamn. Even though I'm not* part of the LGBTQ, it's fucking stupid that this is even an idea to begin with and I'm sorry you had to fight that battle. I can't begin to imagine having to experience anything like that and I can't believe it still happens. I genuinely hope you live a greater life and hope you spend time with people who matter. Happy belated 21st birthday, Jennifer! Edit: *I'm pansexual now. This video kept getting recommended to me recently and it's not any less awful. I've been exposed to more of the issues that the LGBTQ+ face (especially trans people), and I can't believe anything I've seen. I just hope the world can continue to be a better place every day, and I'll at least do my part.
I also didn't know they were like this, I knew they were bad but not THIS bad. It opened my eyes so much. These videos make me feel emotions that I haven't felt in quite some time, and it's so weird. being raised male and only very recently deciding I was trans myself, I've been trying to let myself not be as closed off emotionally. And these videos always without fail get me to tear up. It's absolutely disgusting what people will do to each other. Her statement of "trying to be comfortable with myself only makes them see me as an enemy" (I can't remember the exact wording but it was something like that) just struck a chord with me because It's just so true.. I really wish people could just let us live.
I know it's a lot better now, but I still see hate and disappointment towards LGBT all the time. My brother has a f/m trans friend and when my dad heard about it he said that the reason he was trans was because of bad parenting. My parents also treat him and talk to him like a girl still. I'm glad people are more accepting now but there's still a lot to be done.
hearing stories like this and the suffering people go thorough is the reason I am studying psychology. so that I can help them. because they don't deserve to feel so bad.
The last sentence broke me. It's such a horrible disposition to be in, to still love someone despite what they might think of you. To cherish moments you had with them, but knowing that they have such a horrible mindset, whether it's of their fault or not. Stay strong, Jennifer. You've gone through so much, you have to see it through, make sure you're getting the best ending possible.
"you're weak", they say, until they're made to do the same things. It really is torture and I can't believe that it's legal. I can't even finish the video, I'm getting too emotional. But I wish this wonderful person all the best because it's deserved and no one should have to go through so much trauma - especially when put in there by people who claim to love you. The "no choice" argument of bad parents is soooo unfuriating, it's unreal how it gets to me. I wish everyone here the very best.
"I had no choice" is both emotional blackmail and the trademark of a highly controlling abuser. Such parents are enemies of their children and to be addressed accordingly.
I’m 15, and I’ve considered looking for a conversion camp for myself. Upon hearing what actually goes on in there, I realise how ungrateful I’ve been. Thank you.
@@VitaeLibra i’m not entirely sure, but this is my best. Guess this person was queer in someway and they thought that was wrong so they were trying to figure out a way to stop them from having those thoughts
This is one of the most emotional episodes I've seen you upload. I'm glad she's still with us. And it disgusts me that this is what religion did to her.
Not religion, but people. I’m religious and I find this disgusting and downright abusive. In Christianity, believers shouldn’t do any such radical actions because 1. It turns people away from God and 2. You cannot enact judgement unto others, as that’s God’s role to do and to enact your own judgement is to proclaim yourself as an equivalent to God (which is a sin). 3. Even if homosexuality is a sin, Jesus would still forgive homosexuals if they’re Christian. The notion that any sin leads to immediate damnation is a blatant sign of not understanding Christian doctrine and possibly exploiting religion for personal gain. Blame the individuals, not the group or ideology.
@@mylastaccountgotdeletedtha6936 what if the ideology is responsible for allowing these types of groups to fester countless times throughout history? And when I say throughout history I mean since the beginning of said ideology.
@@piyispiy reform is preferable, but funny thing, the Bible basically condemns these actions. And most Christians today (including me) would find this stuff abhorrent. I can’t speak for all religion, but I can say there are people who use certain ideologies for bad intentions. If you want a political example, anti-terrorism and national security focus in the early 2000s led to the patriot act, which has led to a mass privacy invasion, yet it has been proven to be ineffective. Same thing here. Again, you can criticize an ideology, but blame individuals and their biases for their actions, not the ideology itself.
@@mylastaccountgotdeletedtha6936 how is it that you indirectly agree with me while also using the thing you agree should be changed to defend your statement all in the vary fist sentence... Also I was referring to the people who are the opposite of holy being attracted to your religion more so than the people who regularly do good for humanity, though good for you for not being a human piece of garbage. Now even if you don't fully agree with me I know you can't overlook the part where you do agree because let's just be honest any religion brings in narcissists (like a moth in mating season to a lamp) and we both know what happens when you let a narcissist have any power. You especially with that political comparison you made...
@@piyispiy I thought you were referring to all of religion as a whole. I think certain religions and ideologies may need some sort of reform or compromise, but as for narcissists, I think the other members of the group should maintain the group itself and remove any individuals that might be problematic. I don’t know exactly how the best way to do so is, but in cases like the one in the video, I think Christians should protest.
As a 17 y/o trans person (mtf), I feel this story too hard. It resonated with me, and I can relate to a lot of it, save for the horrible conversion therapy. I’m so sorry to see anyone else going through this, it breaks my heart, and the ending with her mom really broke my heart💔
I hate conversion therapy and the fact that it is still illegal is horrifying. I also have adhd, autism, am questioning my sexuality, have a girlfriend. My parents are supportive. Everyone should have support from family and friends. I'm sorry you went through this.
I almost never am even able to cry but that last message from her mother broke me... The fact that she's still denying her child's character as acceptable whilst still giving her hopes and blessings... It's so mind-bending and heart-breaking and soul-crushing all at once... I hope you get something you can be proud of real soon.
Fun fact (actually not, I'm in both groups): Hans Asperger, the man who invented and patented conversion therapy, started with ABA. That's for anyone mentally disabled, you're spread eagle (sometimes naked, almost always super underage) and if you even breathe in a way that the superior hates, you get electrocuted. Badly. It only came to surface in 2016 with some few survivors who realized their childhood tormenting was in fact inhumane challenged Autism Speaks, who supports a "childrens care center" who had strapped backpacks of electrocuting devices to keep volting kids. Elders also wear these, get raped liek the kids, get brutally starved, anything and everything people fantasize over will be done to these autistic children. And he said it was because you need to make a blank slate to build up a child who will later kill themselves.
And that "care center" you mentioned is the Judge Rotenberg Center, founded by Michael Israel, who ONLY GOT 2 YEARS OF PROBATION WHEN HE AND THE CENTER WENT UNDER INVESTIGATION BY THE FDA, WHICH CONCLUDED THAT THE USE OF ELECTRIC SHOCK THERAPY IS NOT ALLOWED, BUT THE BAN WAS OVERRULED IN JULY 2021, ON FUCKING TECHNICALITY!!!
I’ve been through ABA before (not the torture kind, I doubt I would’ve survived that, but the ‘modern’ kind for legal reasons, the one where a bunch of people act WAY too nice, so much so that it’s uncanny, and write EVERYTHING you say and do down) I know it’s not NEARLY as bad or terrible but. I was sent there by my Mom, who’s probably been gaslight to believe that showing the “worse” symptoms of autism in public is wrong. All the ABA treatment did for me was give me the ability to bottle up my emotions, which I have kept doing ever since, and I can’t stop it because it’s what I was taught to do. I know it’s not AT ALL as bad as what others have been through, and I’m ashamed that it’s getting to me so much (which is probably not how I should feel, again I was taught that outbursts and showing emotion via body language like Stimming is wrong or ‘distracting’ for yourself and others and could be harmful if it ‘gets out of hand’) I’ve been getting a bit better about being myself recently, but sometimes idk who or what “I” am since I’ve been sorta taught that what I am is wrong and that I should keep it all inside and let it out via breathing strategies (which just don’t work 90% of the time and makes me feel stupid or embarrassed). Anyways again it’s been better, I’ve tried to tell my parents about how bad ABA and other stuff can get, but they most likely think that I’m overreacting (I also have Anxiety). My little sibling is also Autistic, and something that stuck with me recently was when, in a car trip, they would try to talk to someone, only to be barely heard for being too quiet, and then my mother said that the behavior was just “attention seeking”, when it could’ve just been them wanting to talk but being too quiet.
Every time I see one of your videos, despite being a huge introvert and trying to avoid any human contact whatsoever, I always want to give your guests a big, long, comforting hug and just tell them everything is gonna be alright, that they can make it through whatever they're going through.
ive been thinking of- self unaliveing- its just been a hard past few months- hearing this story- how much you went through- convinces me that in my significantly better situation, i can make it to 18
You can, you got this. You'll be in an even better situation eventually, too, I promise. I'm sure your situation is still a huge struggle if you're considering something like that, and you're extremely strong for pushing through it. I know I'm a stranger in a comment section, but I'm still so proud of you. You'll make it.
When i first listened to the video i felt so much anger towards your dad halfway through it and then it spiraled down to sadtown real fuckin quick, i wish you a happy birthday and a long, happy life as your true self
Unfortunately we can only hope now to see good come after the next few years even if there horrific. the amount of people about to go through hell has gotta be enough to rally a call for permanent change that can’t be ignored. Oppression is unfortunately the best factor for good to prevail I’m sure the world will get better I just don’t know when sadly. (Just to be clear I’m fully in support of lgbtq and trans MTF I’ve just read my message and want to make sure you know I’m not one of those hateful people)
The trauma in her voice is just It’s so sad. You can hear it and it’s heartbreaking. I’m not trans myself(I’m very straight) but I would fight for the lgbtq+ community any day. I did have a harsh upbringing, however. I had some very similar experiences and my heart goes out to you. I hope things get better for you, or if they have, they continue to get better and never, ever stop fighting for what you believe in.
being a trans woman myself, i get shivers hearing that there are people out there that actually do this, not to mention their own kids because (like seriosly wtf) im glad i didnt have to go through that, but sadly conversion "therapy" is also legal in sweden but since i obv havent gone to one i cant say if they torture or not, either way its horrible im glad she is ok and that this kind of barbaric stuff gets banned (like this is from the age of burning witches at the stake ffs)
I did not heed the warning at the start of the video and now I'm crying. Watching this video brought back so many memories of my own childhood and the abuse that I went through. I remember that I was so busy desperately struggling against suicidal depression that by the time I somehow survived long enough to move out, I was a shell of a human being. It took me years just to learn how to be human. Because I was so set back from overcoming complex PTSD, I didn't even start questioning my gender until I was 25. I've never wanted to hug someone more than Jennifer. You said you were turning 21, well I'm turning 29 soon. I haven't made any steps toward transitioning outside of small things that make me happy (wearing nail polish, wearing skirts when I'm home alone, and doing voice practice when no one is around). Still, I managed to find a job, rediscover my love of psychology, and am now an Honors student with a 4.0 GPA about to get my associate's degree next Spring. My goal is to major in developmental psychology and childhood trauma. Things can get better, and you won't feel broken forever. I hope wherever you are, you have someone who loves and supports you as much as your parents should have. Stay safe, and if you ever need more friends, let me know and I'll send you my Discord.
I shook through most of this I won't lie, it was very intense, hearing the pain in her voice while recounting her experiences, and her overcoming it & moving forward. Thank you for sharing Jennifer's story with us, and thank you Jennifer truly thank you for being you. I'm reminded of a quote by the late Fred Rogers that i feel I should share, "You make each day a special day, you know how, by just your being you. There's only one person in the whole world like you, and i like you just the way you are."
Wow. The fact that this even happens in a world that's supposed to be "progressing" fills me with spiteful motivation. This makes me furious to the core and back, and fills my soul with a monsoon of rage. Now I want to make sure I contribute as much as I can to help stop it.
we aren't progressing anymore, if you didn't notice there is a dangerous rise in fascism across the globe. righteous indignation is a good thing to feel.
im a closeted teen (gay 14) and my dad and mom both donate to anti lgbtq things as well as conversion camps and i am so scared to tell them or them finding out... i dont know what to do (i also have a boyfriend who is also 14 and thankfully my sister is also closeted so we just switch partners for the time being and hope our parents dont find out) i have a feeling they are getting closer to knowing Edit: Finishing the video I thank you for sharing all of this and i hope you find alot of happiness where you are and i hope at least you and your mom can get a better connection because it seems like you really want a better relationship with your mom. I wish you the best and thank you again for everything you have done for all of us. Have an amazing day if you see this and to everyone else that sees this. Edit 2: ive heard alot of shit but this is the only one ive actively started balling to my heart goes out to you (im still crying as im typing this because this is so sad and it all hit me at once. Have an amazing day
(sorry if my english is not very good...) good luck with that, can I give you some advice? don't communicate in any way that your parents can understand. I use qbit torrent and send text files through linking. I'm 19 years old, that's been useful to me since I was 16, good luck, again
I was diagnosed with autism as a child. However, the entire life was bad and merely good memories. Out of every kids my life was taken!!! I been tortured by so called friends to being alone throughout teenhood. Lost trust on my father, sister, and brother that never acknowledged my autism side. My brother is been a jerk to me and get mad for every single thing I do. Then came my sister nothing more of social liars to ended having karma ruin her life. Finally, the father was a good parent until the change kicked in. Always makes excuses to my mom just to abuse me. Saying these bad stuff basically ruining my life being a Shut-In. Nevertheless, he doesn't know the pain to have suffered throughout middle to high school. Moreover, I became this empty shell and lost my trust on my father and two siblings. Lost my emotions, trust, individuality, and free will! My mother couldn't do nothing about my struggle. Now I slowly started to recover my 23 years of a broken adult 🙃. I started not wanting to see and speak to my siblings are now strangers. My bond with father was broken and not interested to fix this relationship! So that my story. Feel like being in a persona q2.
It disturbs something monstrous and sadistic in my soul to hear one story after another of my fellow folks on the AS being abused. I'm a Winston Churchill kinda guy with these things - no quarter to the enemy, no kindness offered to their pain, no tears shed for their ends.
@Alastor the NPDemon It must have been hard. Moreover, I hope you're recovering from the same trauma. My hatred on humanity grew. To the point I had transformed me into a Demonic Beast.
I don't know if Jennifer herself will ever see this as it's 3 month late. But. Girl you are f\king amazing. You are a star. You went through so much and now starting a new life, still having faith in humanity. You made it! I'm glad you did. I'm sure everyone here glad you did. When you talked the part where you left I just can't anymore. I teared up. You are so strong. You got this. I hope you, your friends, and your community is doing well and safe. I hope your 2023 will be amazing. I don't know you but I love you. Keep going strong Jennifer :) Azeal you are a amazing interviewer when it comes to difficult topic like these. You allowed them to speak for themselves and speak at their own pace. With no pressuring, and you sure hell made them feel accepted and cared for.
@@slothslothslothslothslothsloth the problem is most christian (little 'c') leaders tell their congratulations lies upon lies. Parents hear the lies and think them truth.
@@slothslothslothslothslothslothRight but that's also sometimes used as an excuse. It's a way to distance yourself from the "bad people" without taking responsibility. If you truly didn't feel that way as a christian you should be fighting back against the people who use your religion to do evil. But these people don't. They just sit there and go "everything good is the real christianity. All the bad things aren't" while staring at bigots banning transgender care in the name of their god. And if you do that you're like 75% as bad as them. It's like the uvalde police standing around doing nothing while people are dying and then somehow thinking they weren't implicit in every single murder after they showed up
@@FexyVRC You can’t seriously being calling that torture after watching a video talking about conversion therapy. Kids not wanting to be at a drag show doesn’t equate torture.
@@FexyVRC Someone not wanting to go to a drag show is someone not wanting to attend an event, like any other event it is a form of entertainment that some people may not like or might be bored by. torture is not entertainment, they have nothing in common, so comparing an event used as entertainment and an atrocity such as torture is not plausible in any way.
@@FexyVRC conversion therapy involves strapping electrodes on a persons body and gentilia and giving them electric shocks. They use electrocution therapy and many other forms actual torture to "fix" you. This is not the same as drag shows. You arent being tortured and physically abused. Conversion therapy does.
@@thefrontier2288 The kids can walk out. Those kids in what basically equates to a gulag cant walk out. They are literal prisonors. There is a huge difference.
The UN actually recommends shutting off these torture camps. I love how the "party of freedom" condones human rights abuses akin to what you would see in China against political dissidents or smth. You are so strong, Jennifer, and I applaud your bravery. - sincerely, another trans gal
It takes SO MUCH courage and tolerance to say "I don't have a problem with Christians, they aren't all like that" after the hell they put her through. Ngl, I am weak, If I had to deal with that, I don't know if I could stop myself from going postal on some churches.
Even if Christianity didn’t promote horrible things like this, it’s also just dumb and not based on observable reality in any way. If your standard for believing something is based entirely upon your feelings and weak evidence, you’re developing a bad habit that could get you to make bad decisions later on in life, and believing in a religion like Christianity is a sign of developing those habits.
I'm a conservative Christian but I would never ever want a child to go through what you went through. What those people did was evil and they were sinning for sure. They need to be in prison for child torture. You could have died from those ice baths. I'm glad you made it out. I hope you can get legitimate trauma therapy if you haven't already to help you recover. I hope that your parents just weren't aware of what would happen. If they were aware then they will answer to God for this too.
heyo! ik this is a youtube comments section but I'd just like to ask why you consider yourself conservative? I respect if you dont support socialist policies or don't like the vibe of liberal governance, and the fact that you put this comment here without hate or prejudice separates you, at least in my mind, from your run of the mill "conservative". Because *this* is what people think of when someone says conservatism. Child torture. Erasure. Hate. That's what the word 'conservative' means to me. So I'd just like to know if that interpretation of the word conservative has ever crossed your mind? As someone who doesn't support the policies of hate pushed by politicians who describe themselves as conservative, what does conservative mean to you? This is a legitimate question and isn't meant to be accusatory or a leading question. I'm fascinated by the way words and political leanings change over time and I'm hoping you can lend some insight.
@@The_TinesJathian I see you were never answered. I hold quite a few conservative beliefs, although I'm not religious. What being conservative to me means quite literally "conserving" the rights and liberties that we hold, and/or trying to gain even more freedom. Where I tend to differ from other conservatives is when religion comes into play, because I think that everyone should be able to live how they want. If you want to pay for a surgery and say you're the opposite sex? It's a free country, doesn't bother me. I just don't wanna pay extra taxes for it. I also believe that the NFA was a direct infringement on our rights and liberty, and that we should be able to buy a machine gun the same way we can buy a hunting rifle. I've been told this falls more with Libertarianism, but I just don't know enough about it to call myself that.
@@thevoidstalker Thanks for answering! I forgot about this comment lol. Yeah I feel like it’s sorta just like my original comment. I understand why you wouldn’t want to pay for someone else’s surgery, and at this point i’m fine agreeing to disagree on that. The thing that I find both interesting and concerning is how intertwined conservative values are. With the United States’s political system, you’re going to have to vote for a party that has some goals you like and some you dislike. This is something that supporters of both political parties deal with. To use your example, if you wanted to vote for a candidate from a political party that wants to keep taxes low, that would probably be the country’s dominant conservative party. The problem is that that party also supports things like criminalizing transgender people and putting explicitly christian views in public schools. Like I said in my original comment, modern american conservatism generally supports all of those things, and based on what you (and the other commenter) have said about what you do/don’t support, it seems to me that it might be a good idea to weigh the pros and cons of aligning yourself to conservatism.
i really tried to steel myself for this video. when you said you turned 21 in a month i said hey at the same time and started sobbing too lol i was also determined to just hit 18, ill be 21 in EXACTLY a month and im finally looking into hrt :) thank you so much for sharing your story this will help so so many people
ABA is also legal which is supposed to “fix your autism” and it uses the same methods and techniques as conversion “therapy” and it has a 46% chance of giving you PTSD (it is also made by the same person who made conversion therapy)
It feels like the aim is to break the parts of people they want to get rid of. They want you to have a stress reaction to it so that you avoid it. And they don't care if it destroys your mental health.
it's been 2 years since this was uploaded. Jennifer, you're probably not reading this, but im so glad you made it out of that literal nightmare alive. im so proud of you gang. and if you're still here to this day, then im so proud of you too. thank you for surviving and giving all of us hope
I knew about what happened in these conversion camps, but hearing about the experience first-hand is more gut-wrenching and heart-breaking than all stories i've heard about it before. I was in tears for over an hour after watching. Hope you are safe now, and that literal torture gets ruled to be illegal as soon as possible. Nobody should have to go through this ever.
Holy fuck I can't even imagine all of that. I was raised in a Christian kindergarten in a Christian country and still haven't come out yet to anyone except a few people online. I haven't watched through the whole video as I'm writing this, but I hope that you're in a safe and comfortable place now since no one deserves to go through all that hell that you did for absolutely no reason. You're so strong and brave for pushing through all of that and sharing your story. Youre valid and inspirational, but if you're one thing you're a trooper.
Crazy that there are people who will actually defend torture and think that THEY'RE the ones who are going to heaven
Oh the devil is going to have fun torturing them
@@GTSW1FT if he were real that wouldn't be the case. If the devil were real then God would be as well which would imply that God allows these things to happen. The fact that it happens in the name of God is proof against him.
@@Deathvalleyherper that or God is either not all knowing, not all powerful, or evil
@@Derpyderp597 Or he doesn't give a shit. Which is a quality I can respect in most people.
Personally I believe this isn’t what god wants but instead people using the bible as a tool, a weapon if you will. In religion it is up too the person (and the parents if they want to) to deter stuff like the LGBTQ+ I myself and religious but Also genderfluid and Bi but I believe as long as i keep believing in god and seek forgiveness I will be forgiven but thats just me
Holy fuck, I'm a 40 year old amputee, dad of 2 kids, who has seen and been through some shit but this? This is absolute insanity. I'm just in tears that anyone could do this to their child.
Jennifer, I hope you find peace, love, healing, and joy. I can't even imagine the road you've been on or the road you still have left to travel - but you're on the other side of the hardest part. You'll make it, for sure. I believe in you. -Mike
I hope she learns her lesson to not be gay again..
@@playernotfound9489 What? Drop F bombs from time to time? Yeah, sometimes I do - also taught them that "swear words are harmless unless you use them towards a person". They are also well into their teens, I'm sure they have heard far worse.
sometimes they know, sometime they don't, they're ignorant and get tricked by their church or by the staff of those conversion therapy
You seem like an amazing person. Thank you sir.
You’re awesome good sir
what I can't understand is how her mother can say "you were safe here" knowing full well that her eldest child beat her middle child to a bloody pulp, b/c said middle child didn't mach their expectations of being "man enough" or "good enough for the military"
I'm sure that Jennifer's mother did the best she could, within the restrictions of their homelife, and skewed religious beliefs.
But her best wasn't good enough.
your parents are supposed to love you. They're supposed to raise you, and nurture you, and raise you to be a good, kind, respectful human being equally worthy of respect. They're *supposed to protect you. *
And they not only failed her, but became part of the threat.
Amazing comment, couldn't have said it better myself.
it is my belief that when you take upon the duty of raising a child or children (either through birth or adoption), that you essentially sign a pact stating "i am my child/children's safe zone/comfort zone for anything that may trouble them, be it physical, mental, and/or emotional", the importance of this "pact" is such that it ensures the child's overall wellbeing and development throughout the years allowing them to grow up to become well adjusted individuals.
by breaking this pact of trust with your child or children you sever the bond of trust you have with them. the sheer levels of trauma that this severance causes is scarring and life changing (as we can see here), and it is why i so FIRMLY believe in the sheer importance of ensuring that EVERY SINGLE EMOTION your child or children has is at the very least validated. even if their reasons for having these feelings are "dumb" or "unjustifiable" it is of the utmost importance that they are allowed to have these feelings, to express them, to voice them.
i know i dont have kids (yet) so take what i say with a grain of salt, but believe me when i tell you that empathy is one of the most important elements to child raising.
@@velocityraptor2890 this. i honestly think parents who fail their children like this deserve prison time.
@@bing_crilling8981 i bet you wouldn't want to watch knowing better's video on christian scientists
@@MsZsc oh god
Im a Christian, and every day I always ask myself, "What ever happened to love thy neighbor?"
Didn't god say to love everyone, even if they're doing something against his law?
You see, they aren’t really Christians, they say they are Christians so they can take gods words and twist them to their content to make bullshit reasons for their actions
Pick and choose the rules you want. One here there and over there. Sometimes they apply sometimes they don't
@@tone618 More accurately, rules apply until they don’t.
"Ice bath thy neighbor"
This girl is far more forgiving of people than I could ever bring myself to be.
Same.
Ironically makes her much more "Christian" than her family could ever hope to be
She is like a dog we don't deserve her
@@Cr4z3d This is what i find ironic about christians, or, at least, american conservative christians
I myself am agnostic, but even i understand that christianity is all about tolerance, because God is the only one who can pass judgement
her forgivness has forgivness. i wish i had that much forgivness
"She's holding on to a son that never existed," that hit me so hard. That's what I've been trying to tell my own mom for so long. It sucks to have complicated feelings for your parents. My mom is the person I love most, but she has also done a lot of horrible things to me. All of it in the name of "helping" me. But all it achieved was to make it even less likely for me to ever turn out the way she needed me to.
I feel that line too. I had to leave my family and become homeless in Seattle since it was legitimately better then the constant shame twords me and the lack of people I could trust and confide in. even my siblings who i trust more than anyone and are some of the best people I ever knew I can't talk to since I never know what they'll tell my parents.
@@lavendeerpuyotet4813i hope you're doing well now!
My mom left….
(Born in 04)
Parents split when I was 10
My mother is still alive but she chose to leave.
and love another man
(He Threatened my life at age 16, and told me I’m not going to make it past HS)
I got a job at my 16 summer
And tried to raise my younger siblings…
(I did a terrible job because I was being bullied too a terrible extent, and I was a quiet kid at school 🔫)
My mom decided that she needed to be a mother “8 years later”
For my siblings
(I was 18 at this point)
Thinking suicidal thoughts and anger
(After losing my siblings)
I’m now 20
I would like to have a family with a born female woman and
Give them the childhood I’ve never had
(2 parents still together and being very supportive and accepting)
I’ll just leave this here
My mom left….
(Born in 04)
Parents split when I was 10
My mother is still alive but she chose to leave.
and love another man
(He Threatened my life at age 16, and told me I’m not going to make it past HS)
I got a job at my 16 summer
And tried to raise my younger siblings…
(I did a terrible job because I was being bullied too a terrible extent, and I was a quiet kid at school 🔫)
My mom decided that she needed to be a mother “8 years later”
For my siblings
(I was 18 at this point)
Thinking suicidal thoughts and anger
(After losing my siblings)
I’m now 20
I would like to have a family with a born female woman and
Give them the childhood I’ve never had
(2 parents still together and being very supportive and accepting)
I think YT censored my comment
But
My mom left….
(Born in 04)
Parents split when I was 10
My mother is still alive but she chose to leave.
and love another man
(He Threatened my life at age 16, and told me I’m not going to make it past HS)
I got a job at my 16 summer
And tried to raise my younger siblings…
(I did a terrible job because I was being bullied too a terrible extent, and I was a quiet kid at school 🔫)
My mom decided that she needed to be a mother “8 years later”
For my siblings
(I was 18 at this point)
Thinking suicidal thoughts and anger
(After losing my siblings)
I’m now 20
I would like to have a family with a born female woman and
Give them the childhood I’ve never had
(2 parents still together and being very supportive and accepting)
I'm no physician, but I'm like 99% percent sure that 3-4 hours in an ice bath is more than sufficient to cause death by hypothermia.
I'm also 99% sure that if this happened to POWs, it would be a war crime.
Have been forced to do 2 but 4 is just wtf can't imagine...
The screwed up thing is that, she said that they monitor the kids though like just before they get hypothermia they maybe pull the kid out for a couple minutes to "warm up" and thow them back in just so they wouldn't be held liable. That's probably why the kids doesn't suffer from hypothermia or smth else that could get em into legal trouble...
i only take ice baths after a boxing tournament can't imagine doing it for 4 hours though
@@vir00 I can hear genuine distress in her voice. Not fake crocodile tears. If you have two ears and a lick of wisdom, you'd hear it too.
@@vir00 I mean no offense. But I honestly can't decipher what your message is saying. Try to rehash it more comprehensively please.
@@vir00 even if this specific story isn't true (which I doubt) shit like this still happens
We need to make this illegal, this is torture. Why are people ok with this.
yep...
Because they belive your eternal soul is more valuable than the physical life you live.
Religion that’s why
@@Vekstarconversion theraphy doesn't work and "eternal" life doesn't exist, grow up and cope
@@billcipher8645 that's not my opinion tho, I'm just asserting there's.
Conversion “therapy” honestly needs to be outlawed as soon as possible.
for realll
@@Azealvirtual hugs 4 you
closeted gay teen here. my dad supports and donates to conversion camps and regularly uses the same phrases that your dad used, even searching my phone and doing other things of that nature. i'm glad that you could come through this experience alive and well. i've always known the, uh, other route, as my only option if i ever get found out.
I Wish you only the best, man. I know you can get through whatever comes your way, even if its the worst. As alone as you may feel in your life, there are people somewhere for you.
Never give up on yourself.
Hey. While I'm not LGBT. I did suffer in foster care throughout my formative years. Never assume your life is over because of what's happening in the here and now. I was miserable and treated like crap by my foster brother. When I got out on my own, I was so much happier and free. It's tough to say "just wait" when your suffering now. But it's what I had to do and trust me, it does get better.
Old comment, but you've got this. It feels hopeless, I know, and survival is a struggle. One day you will not just be a survivor, one day you will flourish and thrive and exist in queer joy and the love you deserve. You never should have been made to worry for your safety or been rejected. Find ways to curate your own happiness outside of your house, maybe take up an artistic skill or something crafty or skillwork. Anything to keep your hands busy, make it seem like your mind is elsewhere. Use a hobby as a disguise. If you get any queer-related items, don't store them at home. Hide them in a box and bury it somewhere you can frequent or with someone you can trust. Make that closet as comfortable as you can, while you wait for the opportunity to kick better things into motion. We see you, we love you, and please stay safe. You deserve better, it just takes time. You aren't alone.
It isn't your only option if you get found out. You can run. Please do anything within your power before resulting to that option. There are organizations meant to protect queer homeless youth, people out there who would help you without knowing you, and you deserve life. There are always options in life, death removes any choice. If you'd like, I'd love to try to find you resources in your country.
Again, you deserve life, and you deserve to be loved. It's a disgusting failing on your father's part that you feel unsafe. You will make it out of this. I know I'm just an internet guy but I care about you and I hope you get out safely. ❤
Felt. I know it's been 3 months since this comment, but a reminder: things can and often do get better. Survive, so you can live to thrive.
Much love from a bi sister in Oklahoma
Conversion therapy has no basis in reality and does nothing but break humans. It should be utterly banned in it's entirety, and those involved immediately arrested and thrown in prison.
nah they should be forced to hear as many stories as they can find and asked "would jesus do this? would he do the same to you if you strayed the path?" and have life in prison specifically for humanely and kindly helping them. torture and death isn't the punishment, that's just more cruelty I would never wish pain on anyone, even murderers and torturers, but I do agree they should be arrested.
Totally illegal for psychologists to endorse or partake in it in my country. They permanently lose their license if they are ever caught doing it.
It doesn't even work
@@lilly.s9158 not everyone believes in Jesus bro - host
@@FawnnWaterr a significant amount of conversion "therapy" is from a religious source
and these same people go on and on about how transitioning makes people suicidal when it was their own abuse. its terrible that this is still so common.
We literally have shittons of bad science, pseduo science, and all the real science is gonna talk another 5 years at best to even begin to understand transness moreso. In fact in the 40s the nazis burned like fucking all the scientific literature regardign this stuff for like, pretty much the same reason that modern republicans are.
"Stop calling us nazis you're crying wolf!!"
"Okay we're gonna become like the nazis now it's actually morally superior"
@@Jack-4v you are not these quite rare examples of people nor their parents nor their family nor the community. You can also not tell the incompetent right wing government to write and make shit up on the spot that will affect the lives of literally everyone.
Yeah, it's the rejection and abuse
One of the most common misrepresented statistics is showing post transition surgery suicide rates compared to... cis people who got no surgery at all, and declaring that as a increase in suicide rates. Ignoring transition surgery, decreases rates from people who are otherwise unable to get it, when they need it.
and if you try to get that through their thick skulls, they always retort with "well just don't be trans and it wouldn't happen!!!!"
...uhh, how bout just don't be a fucking piece of shit will ya. THEY are the problem here, not trans people
Listening through this, I felt like I was hearing a recount from someone who had undergone military torture. I have no fucking clue how this is remotely legal, I hope you’re doing fine today. I personally am a straight cis person, and I don’t want to lie and say I know what you have gone through or possibly are still going through, but to think that this is done to children just for being who they are horrifies me. I seriously hope that you are doing fine today, you are a heroine for having survived this.
I have a new friend who has literal PTSD from war, bombs going of, people dying in front of him. We share shockingly similar symptoms of trauma. All I went through was a religious cult. Yeah there was torture, most of it was brainwashing to cause self inflicted torture in the congregation. Interesting what people will do in the name of God. Some most days it feels like I am in a war. Being I live in the bible belt, it's impossible to get away from someone trying to get me back into a cult. I have as of yet undiagnosed CPTSD, had a therapist agree but I don't have official paperwork on it. But it's obvious to me now that I know what it is. It explains the dissociation, the flashbacks, how my day can completely be ruined by something as simple as someone saying "Jesus loves you" in casual interaction. I live in Tennessee. They said they were in Florida. This whole quarter, maybe even half of the US is fucked up.
i actually had an ex-friend participate in these atrocities, and let me tell you what; I found out, and now he drinks liquified steaks through a goddamn straw, and still looks like a picasso.
i believe that as penance for an adult causing children to go through this kind of sadistic nightmare, a couple dozen teeth isn't a bad trade. and two fingers that are mangled to the point i don't doubt he had them removed when they reconstructed his face.
At least in the military this level of hazing in line with torture is only reserved for sec ops. And they don't prevent you from quitting and leaving those programs.
@@jacobrzeszewski6527at least with spec ops, this kind of traumatic desensitization training is likely to prepare those soldiers for the horrors that a deranged enemy might subject them to in a worst-case... in other words, as fucked as it is, at least it serves a measurable purpose
@@microArc Even then it is still morally questionable to do because the only reason we "need" those sorts of people trained for that is so that it gives a military advantage to do it and I already disagree with the notion that a military is strictly necessary for society to function.
I am a devout Christian. I have never heard what happens in conversion therapy before. This had me absolutely appalled. The fact that people can do such evils to literal children and claim to do so in the Name of God disgusts me. They sully His Good Name. I pray that the victims of this torture will be able to find peace, and that God will make Himself known to the perpetrators of this abuse. Thank you for sharing this experience, it really opened my eyes.
Edit: As someone has mentioned replying to this comment, there are enough people sending empty wishes. If you are reading this comment and feel similarly to me, please do what you can to help your community and fix the evil you see. Thanks.
unfathomably based christian
^^
@@anonymouspersonthefake unfathomably based pfp there
I'm irreligious, but I can still appreciate a nice wholesome comment like this.
Respect and kindness is a funny thing, I guess.
FAX
Everything she said about elements of the family, not being able to trust anyone because you never knew who would hear or see what, etc, hits home so hard
it's all too common of a story :(
Almost like a totalitarian government
Conversion therapy is terrifying. Glad you survived, you’re a f*cking trooper.
And yet some still want them to be legal…
Ironically, Republican as I am, Conversion therapy is quite a threat to our constitution as far as I'm aware. Good to know he has passed through that.
Seriously this Should be illegal
@@AC_memes frankly if you ask me forcing anyone to convert to basically anything against their will should be illegal.
@@mileselon1339you are the good kind of republican
One of the things that still scares me to this day is how one time my family was talking about how upset they were that conversion therapy camps like this were getting outlawed in the states we lived in. I can't remember if at the time I knew I was gay or not, but I remember them saying that they were good places for people to "get the help they need". Sometimes I'm scared that if they found out, they'd try to send me away anyways. I may be over 18 now, but I'm nowhere near financially independent yet and those things just stick with you.
Id send them there and tell them
"Is this a place to get help?"
@@seantaggart7382 it's like my step dad, whining about how conversion therapy is slowly being outlawed, then when trump lost the last election started screaming how he was gonna be put into a "reeducation camp" which like in my opinion a lot of people could literally use having a method restarting their education because he still seems to think science and fact stopped changing after he left high school, it's wacky how their a people like this in America who are all for forcing "reeducation" and trauma onto people to make them conform to their social values but if the idea is even considered to be pushed towards them suddenly your a communist monster, absolutely wack how America exists right now
@@RageOfBeef Don't worry, it's gonna get worse. I suggest keeping your passport updated.
@@RageOfBeef indeed
However
With the power of harmony
We can stop this
@@seantaggart7382 Nah. It's gonna need to be the power of **Incredible Violence** to solve these issues.
the words “i made it” being repeated over and over made me cry. as a survivor of depression, realizing you’re still here despite everything is truly such an accomplishment. to anyone out there who has gone through/ is going through something similar, i am SO glad you’re still here, even when just existing is exhausting. im proud of each and every one of you. stay safe
This is why talking about stuff like this is important. It’s not attention seeking, it’s making people aware and possibly opening the eyes of people in similar situations. Thank you for sharing your story Jennifer, you give me the strength to tell my story fully.
every child deserves loving parents, not every parent deserves there kids
Yes
Not this child for sure.
@@BlackbeltHitoshi what do you mean by that?
@@marcosloldelClose to half of americans have had their brains removed due to excessive brainwashing.
They literally cannot think for themselves, let alone analyze anything.
@@conallirvine5157 there are two possibilities, the first, probable and disgusting one: he's homophobic and saying he shouldnt have loving parents. the good but least likely one: he has bad grammar and meant his parents dont deserve him because they are horrible
How can someone sign up to have their children tortured and have the audacity to think its for their own good?
I dont have a problem with religion, but sometimes it makes the most delusional people justify the worst shit
There's no hate like Christian love
@@Jack-4vThere’s a flaw in your point. You’re comparing a rhetorical bad with a bad in a completely different ballpark to potentially (and hopefully accidentally) justify the abuse of children who have no control over their identity, upbringing, for the sake of your views; whether I agree with them or not as it’s not relevant, it’s pretty cruel to bring up a blanket and non-controversial statement in this sort of context. In other words: a red herring, something that respectfully you should’ve learnt in 3rd grade comprehension class, assuming you’re a western native from your profile. Not to takeaway credibility from your statement completely, but I think it’s interesting to point out should you further reply with more fallacies.
Blind faith is pounded into these people until it is a core part of their personality.
If god thinks torturing children is good, then it's good. All thought stops there.
They can't follow logic or reason. Faith is belief in absence of proof, so why would they need to?
Maybe they have something deep down saying "this is wrong". Well that voice is arguing against God's will. So it must be Satan, and they should resist it.
@@Azealgrouping every Christian in that group is really insensitive..
@@Sensei-Ollie Grouping any queer person as psychologically flawed and sinful is really insensitive... but I don't think that's where it ends for people in the LGBT community struggling for rights. Christians have a right to religion, a right to gather in a church, a right to practice said religion how they see best fit with little, if any, legal intervention. Christians are not physically beaten in American for simply being Christian. Athiestic parents don't shame their children for being religious without legal reprucussion as a church could easily get involved and advocate for said youth. Our government is based on Christian principle and it is faithfully enforced by our right-wing political leaders today (eg. the overturn of Roe v. Wade).
Prevelently in red states, queer youth are being tortured to this day, stripping them of their right to exist without unnecessary pain. These youth live in environments that cause them to think of themselves as less than human. Transgender youth have to exist without the right to medical intervention for psychological health concerns scientifically proven time and time again to help with suicidal ideations, crippling depression, and debilitating anxiety. Homosexual youth have to exist with social reprecussions for simply being gay. Our political parties will not intervene for LGBT abuse and mistreatment and, with our current republican parties including the president and the majority of the supreme court, it will only continue to be so. Blue states, meanwhile, are being taxed much more heavily for the sake of progress in basic human rights, making red states look much more appealing financially, leading many to move out of blue states for lesser taxes. This puts MORE queer youth at risk of horrific treatment as these parents also tend to be Christian
So, tell us something insightful instead of just saying that a single statement is insensitive to a group of people barely struggling with their rights to life because, right now, all a majority of people can see (who AREN'T Christian) in the public eye is hate from political leaders and from crucial relatives meant to be guardians and protectors.
I'm trans, I've been traumatized.... I won't write an essay, all I'll say is that I'm done being accommodating to people that wish nothing but harm on me for being alive. I never leave the house without a knife and mace, this has to stop I can't keep living with this nonstop dread while being told I'm the weak one
Good. Live as yourself as authentically as possible. And don't be afraid to defend yourself in any way!
@@sillycookie I was groomed because I sought out validation, and now I'm being told I'm a groomer for waking up alive. I'm losing my patience, honestly, I'm getting mad, and I'm getting sick of these awful people and their evil acts of salvation to a god they push on others.
@@sillycookie also thank you, really...
I'm not trans myself, but I've seen plenty of people that are trans to know you're valid for being angry and feeling the need to defend yourself. I hate that in a society filled with wealth and unimaginable power, we can't understand people just trying to exist and be happy at the same time if it's different from the common template for it. I'm sorry that you have to exist in a failing and willfully ignorant society that would hurt or kill you for merely waking up every day.
I'd like to add that being trans is also biological, as well as psychological. A specific part of the Y chromosome is responsible for the formation of the brain in accordance with male or female traits, and a small "mutation," although it makes you no less of a human if you have it, causes said brain to develop as if it were of a different gender than the rest of the body. This is, of course, not at all dependent on whether or not a person is trans, just a fact that clearly shows being trans to not only be biological, but completely factually valid in all respects (it's also been proven that even without this mutation, being trans isn't a mental illness or a facade, according to my friend with a Phd in psychology). Even if that weren't true, you're still a completely normal human being with a completely valid way of life, and I see no difference in you and any other person with your same gender-identity.
If you wanna have a conversation, leave a comment on my channel and I'll hook up DMs for pretty much any form of social media. I've got a friend that would really want to meet you, and they have a very interesting gender-identity as well, along with parents that don't understand them. I hope my comment made you at least a little bit happier, and I especially hope that I made you feel a bit more comfortable in your own skin. Keep fighting for your own existence, and always remember that you're just as much of a human, with their own way of life and beliefs, as any other person. I thought about defending regular people that just have a lack of understanding, but they're starting to become a minority to willfully ignorant, vile people nowadays.
@@rowandoggo might as well learn how to use a gun.
Mad respect for Jenifer for being so strong. As a straight kid, I’ll never know how horrible it must be for any lgbtq person going through this and I’m glad that action is being taken against these camps, regardless of what others think.
Is action being taken tho?
@@dietjeffreyBased on some comment I see, yes.
Same
@@L16htW4rr10r Well the 11th Circuit Court of Appeals (which includes Florida where this happened) is actively ruling against bans on conversion camps in their jurisdiction
@@dietjeffrey According to wikipedia, they're banned in 25 states. (Which is only half tho, so it definitely isn't enough.)
You. You are one of the greatest people to roam the internet. Churches don't know what God's work is. But you do. What you do hear, listen to people, spread their stories. That is truly God's work. And I'm not even Christian. Keep it up man. Keep being there for people. All some people need is just someone to trust and confide in.
I am a Catholic and I truly believe gods word is just being kind and caring to others, if you are a good person, you will eventually be rewarded, in life or in death
There is a good god out there and those “people” don’t worship him
@@Jakepearl13worshipping a good god doesn’t make you good. Good people will probably worship a good god if they worship any god at all though.
As a atheist, I don’t know shit bout god but good jorb 👍
Closeted and my mother mentioned her support of conversion therapy the other week. This experience is what could have been and has shook me to my core.
she probably believes they just "read" there and isn't abusive at all or some shit
Assuming your mother isn't too far gone already, I recommend the slideshow method.
Seriously though, once you come out, because I'm assuming you haven't already, probably just cite like 15 sources backing up your point, just to convince her. Lmk if this helps because I'm genuinely kind of curious.
Be safe, stay closeted for your safety! It's not worth telling bigoted parents. You are the way you are , you can't change that and there's no reason you would need to.
Don't try and convince them at all, move tf out.
@@iamsiley This is only good advice if they are fully independent, which I assume they are not. If you try this when you're a dependent, it could genuinely be the end of you and it's not worth the risk.
When it comes to people who have suffered like this, I just want to burst into their room and give them the biggest hug they have ever known.
;-;
Followed quickly by bursting through the razor wire gates of the conversion therapy camp and giving the staff the biggest car tire of their lives.
@@Azeal I am so sorry for what you had to go through. Now I want to give you a hug :(
@@W1th3rrose Azeal is the interviewer, Jennifer is the one who needs a hug.
ok i want to give Jennifer a hug
Discord didnt exist till 2016 so this shows just how recently this type of shit is happening, which is terrifying
It's still happening today as well unfortunately
I would’ve thought conversion camps were a 70s-90s thing not a 2017 thing. I wonder how many are out there rn
I live in Ireland, we are currently trying to get this horrible abuse of human rights outlawed, I wish the best to you and am deeply sorry for the horrors committed upon you.
@@thotslayer9914 yeah why?
Vote and organize
this makes me so grateful and so glad my family is accepting. this girl was so brave to share her expirence.
I'm so glad 🧡
I was mad my outer family wasn't accepting, but I feel eternal gratitude that my inner circle cares about me and understands me this well
I really don't deserve them
My grandmother on my dad's side is extremely conservative, I mean like Alex Jones levels conservative, and since I live in Florida, telling her i'm trans could lead to so so so so many problems for me, my family, and my doctors. It's scary, not being able to tell them this but then being forced by my family to go see them. She's very involved in my brother's lives and I try not to see her, but my family (especially my dad) still won't let me just leave her.
See, my dad is christian, my mom is a converted catholic, but they are both (mostly) very supportive. Of course my dad less so since he grew up with the stigma, but he at least allows it even if he isn't the most politically correct or involved. But since they are christian, they go to church.
I've became an atheist, I questioned alot of the beliefs I grew up with, but my family never let me get away from the church. My mom doesn't go because her work schedule is too inconsistent to be able to participate, but my dad goes pretty often. Both of them, though, still will force me to participate in holiday events, the most recent of which was my youngest brothers first communion.
Immediately, I didn't want to go, because I knew that if I did I would see my grandma, and I didn't want to interact with her because I was scared for my safety. My family forced me to though, since it was important for my brother.
I went out, put on my best "I'm 100% a straight male but if I wanted to I could pass as a girl" outfit, and had to go. When we got there, I was greeted by my grandparents, and we went in the church.
Guess what was the topic today!
How "certain individuals" online, in school, or in your family are tricking your kids and grandkids into leaving god and becoming atheists, and that if you wanted to "save them" you had to sign up for their christian school, that would make sure your kids keep their faith.
I was disgusted, I understood the transphobic retoric as soon as he started talking about the school system, and I tried to tell my family when we got home "hey, I'm pretty sure our church is kinda bad, because the stuff they said is kinda transphobic".
My mom just started defending them, saying "of course that's not what they meant" and "they're just slightly misguided, that's all".
Now I'm not saying my family is awful, but I'm just saying this stuff is so ingrained into the culture of the church, of allowing any priest to just be "misguided" even though they are clearly being transphobic. It's like a shield that protects them, I bet you if they weren't a priest my mom wouldn't give them the benefit of the doubt.
This was kinda a rant, but I think it goes to show how even supportive christians can be blinded by their complete and total faith in their church.
@@turkeylegs1343how old are you? (if you don’t mind me asking of course)
@@_Sloppyham 14, almost 15.
When she said "Was all of that worth keeping a son that never really existed?" I rewound the video to hear it again. That's such a powerful statement coming from such a strong woman. I hope you're doing great, Jennifer
To think, she's forgiven more in 21 years than most people will in a lifetime.
She's more Christlike than her parents will ever be.
The fact that she can still love her mom and won't even wish anything bad on her dad is incredible to me.
You are so much kinder and stronger than he ever was.
I know I could never be that strong. I know I'm not.
manipulation is hard to shake off, especially when you are born into it.
Yeah, what that guy said. Basically your parents just groom you to never question them ever. I’m not gay or anything like that, but my parents were very strict and when I was caught living (as roommates) with my bf at 22 my parents freaked out and called a family meeting and wouldn’t let me visit and tried to demand he move out THAT DAY. I still can’t cut contact with them despite knowing how I grew up, so I’m just low contact. Sometimes it’s not strength, it’s more weakness that you can’t fully put yourself first and still give room to the people who ruined your life. It’s the best we can go sometimes tho…
It likely is the case that she resented them at some point, but has had time to come to terms with anger. You only just got exposed to the information. So it is normal that you will seem angrier.
I want to hug this girl so bad, she is so strong and so brave
same. she deserves one.
once, when I was about 13, I was in a discord group where everybody would talk openly about their sexuality, I remember that i felt amazing about opening up about my feelings, cuz my family would always shut me up every time i tried to speak about sexuality.
so I talked about my sexuality and that I felt like my parents would not love me if i came out as bi.
soon, my grandma went through my phone and found out that i was "trying to get laid by a man" even though I was just talking about my sexuality, i never asked anyone for sex. and then, my family cutted me off completely, they took away all of my eletronic devices, and would only let me watch TV, I stayed like that for 2 YEARS.
and the worst of all is that my grandma would talk about it on family meetings, she would say that she saved me from the devil and etc.... looking back now, its been 5 years since that happend, but i still can't talk about it openly with my parents...
@@vir00
1. None of us are sure there were adults in there, only OP is. Could be all minors.
2. I get what you mean about the dangers of the internet with talk on sex, plenty of actual groomers out there. However, OP was expressing their sexuality in that group because their own family would reject them. If OP had been accepted, allowed to talk about how they felt on their sexuality, OP probably wouldn’t need to risk an online space with possible strangers looking to exploit kids. Shutting off that last safe space and saying how OP’s feelings were akin to “being tempted by demons” (making the home environment even more hostile) probably doesn’t do wonders for a kid’s mental health, let alone their relationship with their family.
Every time I hear these stories I wonder if I could have remained as calm or if I would have started displaying violent behaviors towards my family in that kind of situation
@@vir00 you're wrong sulfuric acid!
@@MaticTheProto what keeps me quiet is probably the shaming I might get if I say anything
based grandma
how can you say that you care for your child when you force them into a cult who will do anything to convince them that they're straight?
indeed
Nothing has made me feel as lucky as this.
My family refuses to accept who I am, and actively hinder my ability to learn. I'm used to being called an idiot, told that I have brain damage, told that I must have a psychological disease, or that the conditions I do suffer from are just a "wank".
But I am safe. My physical health is not at risk. I am not being beat up. I won't see my blood spilt around where I go, aside from a small cut here and there. I am not, have not, and likely will not, be barely struggling to survive through literal torture. In that sense, I am safe.
I am so sorry to here what happened to this poor person. I am shocked to hear that they even survived to this point and that they were willing to keep pushing.
It is disgusting to learn of what happens behind closed doors at these camps, and even more so that they're still legal.
I mean you were cut for someone reason that’s physical but I guess you mean not physically fighting your dad like I used too
Hi. I’m an East Asian person. This kind of stuff is only rumors of the west in my country.. I’m so sorry these are actually happening in such a diverse country. It’s terrible. I don’t quite understand much western ideas and trends/identities, so I can’t officially speak for them. But, even though I’m not apart of the LGBTQ, anyone would know that this is just wrong. It’s heartbreaking 💔
edit: excuse some misunderstandings- my English isn’t quite fluent yet. Thank you all for the replies, I will continue to support anyone I see in a situation like this. In Japan, people are shy, and don’t usually lean out to help others in need of it. So suicide and depression is a result. I hope to change that! And to even help people outside my country.Thank you all 🙇⤵️
It's real. I live around 40 miles from one. The only way out of the place is a threatening to harm yourself. I met a survivor from one who hurt themselves so that they had to forcibly leave. Otherwise they would have had a corpse on the property and been investigated
@@rebeccagillaspy2681 how do things like this even exist in America 😞People always say america is free and claim it is so good than other countries, but they hide so much? It hurts other American to see how people can overlook it. Although, I can’t say I can relate. I’m sorry For You America
@@edgyidol they either use homo phobic parents who are in the religious community to sign their rights over to the kid so it's legal. Or the individual is blackmailed into it. Sometimes they make it seem like it's going to be a fun place. It depends on the state. But some have very religious people who have power and turn a blind eye to it. Just like anywhere. There is abuse of power and leadership to exploit vulnerable people. It's disgusting. But there are also many networks of people who work to shut these places down. Once you are there. They threaten you. Over work you. Blackmail you. Or straight up brainwash you. Into being indoctrinated. They use lack of sleep. Lack of food. And in some cases playing scripture or indoctrination over loudspeaker. On a 24 hour loop. Sometimes they use people who pretend to be kind and get a foothold in your mind and use psychological tricks. I unfortunately know far too much about these places and i hate them.
@@rebeccagillaspy2681 I couldn’t imagine America like this. I will pay my respects to citizens 🙏🙇 good luck
Conversion therapy is indeed ... Ahem... Immoral... And frankly very inhumane in my opinion.
I'm not a sensitive person, but this shit can make a grown man cry, it made me cry, I could feel her pain through the sound of her voice, my heart broke
I've also had issues with the Catholic church as a child, got assaulted non-sexualy all in the name of "god", I don't bare hate towards Catholics but I do kinda feel a certain disgust for rly religious people, if would've happened to me I'd either be dead cuz of suicide OR in jail for going on a revenge killing spree
The level forgiveness and understanding she has are not from this world. Wich is only proof that she's an EXTREMELY strong person. Not to forget all the mental & physical torture she's gone through and pulled through. And now even openly talking about it even that requires tons of courage! Especially talking up against your family!
May this step in life be change for the better for her. And may for F*cking once life be in her favor!
Yeah, It's hard for me to fully respect the religion when they still continue to do their crimes.
Oh 100% guaranteed that any single one of those adults in the conversation "therapy" camp wouldn't have lasted being dealth the very thing they did to kids without crying and screaming like little bitches. Probably got off on the abuse of power too.
Pity>Forgiveness>Hate
"My family isn't the best right"
*proceeds to describe how she got beaten up by her brother violently*
Like sheesh girl some people don't deserve forgiveness
You don't forgive for their sake. You forgive to move on for your own sake.
@@millerrepin4452 Or you just move on and dont forgive them
@lorekeeper685 you're never moving on. You'll always think about it. After all, they wronged you. Why not lose sleep every night thinking about it what revenge you could take. Why move on if you acknowledge something has to be made right
My point is that forgiveness is reprioritizing where your focus should be. Self improvement.
Forgiveness isn't a choice. You have to do it to survive in some circumstances.
@@lorekeeper685blud that is called forgiving them
Forgiving = moving on
I want to leave everyone with this…
You are loved, you will be free one day, and you are not alone
I am not trans, or gay or even part of lgbtq+ but I am a disabled, furry/therian who has gone through a lot of trama and I want to be able to let other people know the above message I would also like to say Jenny, you are the trooper and know you have come so far!!
🧡
And then conservatives be like "OMg OMgGG ProTeCT tHE CHIldRen" and proceed to do this. i hate the fuckign world
Yep... ugh
Conservatives don’t give two shits about children. It pisses me off when they use this defenseless and voiceless group to spread violence and hate
"protect the children" *proceed to abuse and torture them*
I would call myself a conservative, but this is still bad. A proper parent who loves their child should accept them regardless. When they said their father said "I hope you changed." that isn't love. You shouldn't change for the people who love you. It's just terrible to hear about.
"Protect the children!... Unless they're from foreign parents, gay, trans, black or anything that disagrees with my worldviews."
You did not abandon her, you did what was necessary for your own survival.
SHE abandoned you
With her negligence of parental duties. She should have been there for you, and instead of being there to comfort you, she sent you off to be tortured.
For raising a son who would beat the shit out of his younger sibling because he couldn't tolerate weakness, even in someone else.
God, this must've been awful for her to vent out there. Also, good on Azeal for those small bits of affirmation like "you're doing great". Even something small like that can make a world of difference.
You didn’t abandon your mom. Unknowingly or not, she abandoned you.
"How many reasons can you think of as to why religion is not good?"
"Yes"
@@kapakabibiumit has more extremists than any other group
@@TornDorstufeither that or they're just really loud. its bad either way tho
This atheist woman is far closer to true christian ideals than her "christian" parents. She doesn't deserve a damn thing she went through and I really hope she can find happiness, but I'm so glad she's closer to being happy than she would be had she not left Hell.
So the father got teased by some queer people back in his youth and held such a grudge he took his OWN DAUGHTER to hell and back and expected that everything would be fine.
Thats beyond fucked up bro
Not only that but extremely petty and pathetic.
Toxic masculinity at its peak.
@@Catterjeeo that's not a thing
@@adventurer3288 Yes it is. There are people who take their preconceived notions of "what a man should be/do" way too damn far and try to force it on others. It's a toxic version of masculinity, hence the name.
@@adventurer3288Look, dude, I get it, I'm a guy myself
"Toxic masculinity" can feel like an attack on you because you're masculine, but it's not. It's not even an anti-masculine term, masculinity without being toxic is great, I love doing masculine shit, I gym 4 times a week, I do carpentry projects, I love doing the classic protector guy vibe, but none of this is "toxic" masculinity, it's just masculinity.
The same people who support and send their kids to these camps are the same ones who yell "leave the kids alone"...
Well yeah. They can't have other people interfering with them molding children to their worldview. That'd be indoctrination don't you know?
I am a Christian, and stories like this piss me off in a way very little else does. This. is. not. how. you. address. sin. To treat anyone with ANYTHING less than common decency completely goes against what we are supposed to be doing and is I think even hypocritical. We are all sinners on the same sinking boat, so to belittle, let alone torture, anyone instead of making sure everyone knows the truth and is able to get out alive is just plain wrong. Watching different churches distort God's truth and use it to cause this much hurt... really eats me up inside. My heart goes out to you, Jennifer. It makes me glad to hear you've gotten out and are moving forward.
I mean to literally take something from the bible Jesus literally saved someone from being stoned. Because everyone are sinners and have no right to judge other people like that so to torture CHILDREN is just wtf
I want to add to this and say that based on a lot of things I have seen, I even call into question the validity of people claiming that "they bible says so" about homosexuality being a sin. I did some digging a whileback and found that the word that was referring to gay folks was a very vague term that doesnt even have a conscensus on what it meant. Some say it does refer to gay people, others say it refers to pedophiles, etc. Regardless, the act of translating and editing the bible over centuries has innevitably resulted in things being warped, either unintentionally or to further an agenda of hate.
At this point, so much has been changed and translated so many times, we cannot possibly know what was originally in first copies of the books of the bible or not. Call it heresy, but if the word of god is to be warped any more, we should at least warp it in a way that doesnt paint a target on these people anymore.
@@ComradeCorvus Interesting point, though I believe the Bible does make itself clear on the matter. At least three or four times it repeats the term "a man being with another man as with a woman". While I see how that sound vague to an extent, when viewed in the context of the surrounding verse(s) and taking into account that the phrase is repeated in just about the same way instead of finding a different way to word it each time, it's pretty obvious that it's referring to 'two guys getting it on'.
I would like to add something though: more than once, the act of homosexuality isn't referred to or condemned in isolation. More often than not it is listed among or followed up by a list of other sins, ranging from other sexual sins to murder and deceit and envy. No one sin is technically worse than another. No one kind of person should EVER be targeted and hated on if another sin (like hate for a convenient example) is being looked over. Besides, all can equally be forgiven.
@@gaspitfarmley2025 remember though, the bible is not originally in english, and languages are not one to one with each other at all times; in the original hebrew the word used for lay in the main verse used very heavily implies a lack of consent involved
Tru dat
every time I listen to a story like this, it makes me feel worse about myself for being American. knowing that how much you want to believe there is good in the world, there will always be those who won't listen to reason, and wont understand, and hide behind these walls, and rally those who share their same view. it just hurts, y'know? to just know that there will be people who just use this originally once great thing, and turn it into a place full of anger, and hate towards those that are different. I am happy for Jennifer getting out of that shitty situation, I wish you can grow past your experiences where they don't hurt as much. I wish I can too.
edit: it also makes me angry how many of these "programs" there are to degrade children, who need help with understanding. if a parent sends their child to one of these "programs" it just breaks their trust. and it makes it even worse if the "program" lies to the parent about what is happening. such as "we at **** foundation, will counsel your child away from evil" but in reality are doing just what Jennifer went through, or even worse.
This is sad but you shouldn't be sorry to be American, there is a lot we take for granted, a lot that people don't understand. Americans don't know how easy life is even with the stuff we see compared to living in a country like Syria or India or Bahrain or even richer countries. We take the grants we have for granted compared to China, North Korea, and some eastern countries. To be able to marry the same sex person and change everything about your identity as much as you want and have millions upon millions of people accept you is better than getting killed in my experience.
Still doesn't excuse the bad things that happen here but it makes things a little better. We as Americans can make our country better. Ensure what one state does our state is different. Things are changing but it's difficult to change the philosophy of 350 million people in just a generation or two. It took 100 plus years to make everyone agree that slavery is bad and we even still have a couple bad apples. But that's just it. A couple so when things like this happen we support and learn and seek out similar situations before they happen.
No country is perfect, and America is no exception.
@demonslayer5122 yep, and America is an alright one all things considered
You shouldn't be ashamed of who you are, as no one is perfect🍀
Shit, even the psychological torture of one of these places is horrifying. I was expecting a video on that... But this? How is this even legal? They should all be in jail for life. I wonder if there are lawyers out there who can rat out these people and really drive them into the ground for good.
Mom: Allows her daughter to be savagely beaten by her other kid.
Also mom: But you were safe here! How dare you escape!
Jennifer, if you are by any chance reading this, your mom wasn't a good mom. It's hard to hear, I know, I too latched onto my less abusive parent as if they were some sort of saint and savior. As you said yourself, your mom was always there... and she let all of those of this things happen to you. Remember, she was the one who suspected you to be queer and supplied your dad with the "proof" need to sent you to the torture camp.
Don't feel like you betrayed her, she's the one who kept on betraying you your entire life. You owe her nothing.
There is no hate like Christian love
Indeed. Iiinnndeeeed.
Amen
I really understand why so many people become satanists lmao.
Average reddit atheist mentality
@@MyDadJustLeftMeXD Average looking at christian behaviour for 0.0002 seconds mentality.
For a moment I thought I read “touching” instead of “torturing” but both realities are ones I do not wish to live in.
I love your pfp & username
We live in both realities.
dude, if she ended up becoming a serial killer after all that who could really blame her? her forgiveness is one of a kind
the amount of trauma is immense
Holy hell, I didn't know conversion therapy was literal _physical_ AND physiological torture. I actually shed tears and still am. Goddamn. Even though I'm not* part of the LGBTQ, it's fucking stupid that this is even an idea to begin with and I'm sorry you had to fight that battle. I can't begin to imagine having to experience anything like that and I can't believe it still happens. I genuinely hope you live a greater life and hope you spend time with people who matter. Happy belated 21st birthday, Jennifer!
Edit: *I'm pansexual now. This video kept getting recommended to me recently and it's not any less awful. I've been exposed to more of the issues that the LGBTQ+ face (especially trans people), and I can't believe anything I've seen. I just hope the world can continue to be a better place every day, and I'll at least do my part.
this is a typical story, they can get a _lot_ worse. not to belittle or downplay her story, of course, it is just an insanely horrific industry.
@@comyuse9103 Oh yeah, I know now, this was the first insight into the actuality of it I'd had at the time. It's fucked.
Old comment but congrats! Welcome to the club, we love you 💜🌈 - a bi guy
@@catboysephiroth560 Thank you! 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️❤️ That edit is also a bit old now, but still, thank you. 💛🤍💜🖤
I also didn't know they were like this, I knew they were bad but not THIS bad. It opened my eyes so much. These videos make me feel emotions that I haven't felt in quite some time, and it's so weird. being raised male and only very recently deciding I was trans myself, I've been trying to let myself not be as closed off emotionally. And these videos always without fail get me to tear up. It's absolutely disgusting what people will do to each other. Her statement of "trying to be comfortable with myself only makes them see me as an enemy" (I can't remember the exact wording but it was something like that) just struck a chord with me because It's just so true.. I really wish people could just let us live.
I know it's a lot better now, but I still see hate and disappointment towards LGBT all the time. My brother has a f/m trans friend and when my dad heard about it he said that the reason he was trans was because of bad parenting. My parents also treat him and talk to him like a girl still. I'm glad people are more accepting now but there's still a lot to be done.
I just wish there was a bit more understanding. People wouldn't treat trans boys as girls if they truly understood
What the hell does "talk to him/her/them like a girl" even fucking mean?
(Note: just asking out of curiosity not to dismiss his bros trans friend)
@@Friendly_Neigborhood_Astolfo they referring to him as a girl using she her pronouns instead of he him pronouns
@@turtleturtle9120 next time his dad does that to his trans friend, his trans friend should just misgender the dad with she/her pronouns
hearing stories like this and the suffering people go thorough is the reason I am studying psychology. so that I can help them. because they don't deserve to feel so bad.
That's very honorable 💙
Ur a real one fr
The last sentence broke me. It's such a horrible disposition to be in, to still love someone despite what they might think of you. To cherish moments you had with them, but knowing that they have such a horrible mindset, whether it's of their fault or not. Stay strong, Jennifer. You've gone through so much, you have to see it through, make sure you're getting the best ending possible.
"you're weak", they say, until they're made to do the same things. It really is torture and I can't believe that it's legal.
I can't even finish the video, I'm getting too emotional. But I wish this wonderful person all the best because it's deserved and no one should have to go through so much trauma - especially when put in there by people who claim to love you. The "no choice" argument of bad parents is soooo unfuriating, it's unreal how it gets to me.
I wish everyone here the very best.
"I had no choice" is both emotional blackmail and the trademark of a highly controlling abuser. Such parents are enemies of their children and to be addressed accordingly.
@@comlain2513 And you too, isn't attacking the weak dishonorable? Or suddenly it is an act of greatness because it relates to God?
@@comlain2513 so you believe in religious bullshit but only when it benefits you?
@@mrapple2544 make polytheism great again
I’m 15, and I’ve considered looking for a conversion camp for myself. Upon hearing what actually goes on in there, I realise how ungrateful I’ve been. Thank you.
Mind if I ask why you were looking for one?
@@VitaeLibra Christian brainwashing made him think being gay is wrong
I hope you're doing ok
@@JKBisms not only christian
@@VitaeLibra i’m not entirely sure, but this is my best. Guess this person was queer in someway and they thought that was wrong so they were trying to figure out a way to stop them from having those thoughts
This is one of the most emotional episodes I've seen you upload. I'm glad she's still with us. And it disgusts me that this is what religion did to her.
Not religion, but people. I’m religious and I find this disgusting and downright abusive. In Christianity, believers shouldn’t do any such radical actions because 1. It turns people away from God and 2. You cannot enact judgement unto others, as that’s God’s role to do and to enact your own judgement is to proclaim yourself as an equivalent to God (which is a sin). 3. Even if homosexuality is a sin, Jesus would still forgive homosexuals if they’re Christian. The notion that any sin leads to immediate damnation is a blatant sign of not understanding Christian doctrine and possibly exploiting religion for personal gain.
Blame the individuals, not the group or ideology.
@@mylastaccountgotdeletedtha6936 what if the ideology is responsible for allowing these types of groups to fester countless times throughout history?
And when I say throughout history I mean since the beginning of said ideology.
@@piyispiy reform is preferable, but funny thing, the Bible basically condemns these actions. And most Christians today (including me) would find this stuff abhorrent. I can’t speak for all religion, but I can say there are people who use certain ideologies for bad intentions. If you want a political example, anti-terrorism and national security focus in the early 2000s led to the patriot act, which has led to a mass privacy invasion, yet it has been proven to be ineffective. Same thing here. Again, you can criticize an ideology, but blame individuals and their biases for their actions, not the ideology itself.
@@mylastaccountgotdeletedtha6936 how is it that you indirectly agree with me while also using the thing you agree should be changed to defend your statement all in the vary fist sentence...
Also I was referring to the people who are the opposite of holy being attracted to your religion more so than the people who regularly do good for humanity, though good for you for not being a human piece of garbage.
Now even if you don't fully agree with me I know you can't overlook the part where you do agree because let's just be honest any religion brings in narcissists (like a moth in mating season to a lamp) and we both know what happens when you let a narcissist have any power.
You especially with that political comparison you made...
@@piyispiy I thought you were referring to all of religion as a whole. I think certain religions and ideologies may need some sort of reform or compromise, but as for narcissists, I think the other members of the group should maintain the group itself and remove any individuals that might be problematic. I don’t know exactly how the best way to do so is, but in cases like the one in the video, I think Christians should protest.
As a 17 y/o trans person (mtf), I feel this story too hard. It resonated with me, and I can relate to a lot of it, save for the horrible conversion therapy. I’m so sorry to see anyone else going through this, it breaks my heart, and the ending with her mom really broke my heart💔
"They would rather live in a fantasy then live in reality"
That's very ironic coming from the people who unironically think Satan is real.
I hate conversion therapy and the fact that it is still illegal is horrifying. I also have adhd, autism, am questioning my sexuality, have a girlfriend. My parents are supportive. Everyone should have support from family and friends. I'm sorry you went through this.
The worst part is this shit is still legal in the US and my country. This isn't history. This is ongoing. This hasn't stopped, and it needs to.
how do we stop it though
@@RespectfullyBiasedReader Protests
all children deserve loving parents, but not all parents deserve children
Exactly
Havent seen this in a while. Thanks
I can't believe that some people are so filled with hatred. This girl is so brave and I hope she is doing a bit better now.
Im glad there are so little hate comments. Even the least deserving of hate seem to get so much of it, i am glad it hasnt touched here.
People tend to delete transphobic comments; They are not wanted here
I almost never am even able to cry but that last message from her mother broke me...
The fact that she's still denying her child's character as acceptable whilst still giving her hopes and blessings...
It's so mind-bending and heart-breaking and soul-crushing all at once...
I hope you get something you can be proud of real soon.
Fun fact (actually not, I'm in both groups): Hans Asperger, the man who invented and patented conversion therapy, started with ABA. That's for anyone mentally disabled, you're spread eagle (sometimes naked, almost always super underage) and if you even breathe in a way that the superior hates, you get electrocuted. Badly. It only came to surface in 2016 with some few survivors who realized their childhood tormenting was in fact inhumane challenged Autism Speaks, who supports a "childrens care center" who had strapped backpacks of electrocuting devices to keep volting kids. Elders also wear these, get raped liek the kids, get brutally starved, anything and everything people fantasize over will be done to these autistic children. And he said it was because you need to make a blank slate to build up a child who will later kill themselves.
And that "care center" you mentioned is the Judge Rotenberg Center, founded by Michael Israel, who ONLY GOT 2 YEARS OF PROBATION WHEN HE AND THE CENTER WENT UNDER INVESTIGATION BY THE FDA, WHICH CONCLUDED THAT THE USE OF ELECTRIC SHOCK THERAPY IS NOT ALLOWED, BUT THE BAN WAS OVERRULED IN JULY 2021, ON FUCKING TECHNICALITY!!!
Yeah ABA practitioners should be sent to jail for life and it should be made a serious felony
@@IndustrialParrot2816I'm autistic I was abused the abuse just made me want to bring corporal punishment for these pricks so I would do worst to them
Lovaas invented ABA and conversion therapy, not Asperger
I’ve been through ABA before (not the torture kind, I doubt I would’ve survived that, but the ‘modern’ kind for legal reasons, the one where a bunch of people act WAY too nice, so much so that it’s uncanny, and write EVERYTHING you say and do down) I know it’s not NEARLY as bad or terrible but. I was sent there by my Mom, who’s probably been gaslight to believe that showing the “worse” symptoms of autism in public is wrong. All the ABA treatment did for me was give me the ability to bottle up my emotions, which I have kept doing ever since, and I can’t stop it because it’s what I was taught to do. I know it’s not AT ALL as bad as what others have been through, and I’m ashamed that it’s getting to me so much (which is probably not how I should feel, again I was taught that outbursts and showing emotion via body language like Stimming is wrong or ‘distracting’ for yourself and others and could be harmful if it ‘gets out of hand’) I’ve been getting a bit better about being myself recently, but sometimes idk who or what “I” am since I’ve been sorta taught that what I am is wrong and that I should keep it all inside and let it out via breathing strategies (which just don’t work 90% of the time and makes me feel stupid or embarrassed). Anyways again it’s been better, I’ve tried to tell my parents about how bad ABA and other stuff can get, but they most likely think that I’m overreacting (I also have Anxiety). My little sibling is also Autistic, and something that stuck with me recently was when, in a car trip, they would try to talk to someone, only to be barely heard for being too quiet, and then my mother said that the behavior was just “attention seeking”, when it could’ve just been them wanting to talk but being too quiet.
Every time I see one of your videos, despite being a huge introvert and trying to avoid any human contact whatsoever, I always want to give your guests a big, long, comforting hug and just tell them everything is gonna be alright, that they can make it through whatever they're going through.
exactly same here
ive been thinking of- self unaliveing- its just been a hard past few months- hearing this story- how much you went through- convinces me that in my significantly better situation, i can make it to 18
You can, you got this. You'll be in an even better situation eventually, too, I promise.
I'm sure your situation is still a huge struggle if you're considering something like that, and you're extremely strong for pushing through it.
I know I'm a stranger in a comment section, but I'm still so proud of you. You'll make it.
I believe in you. You are not alone and you are so brave. I'm so proud of you and I know you can do it!
I though that too some time ago, but trust me, it would be the worst thing you could ever do, you would be failing yourself this time. Don't do it.
*Do it.*
@@tacolover105 Be a better person its not that hard holy shit
When i first listened to the video i felt so much anger towards your dad halfway through it and then it spiraled down to sadtown real fuckin quick, i wish you a happy birthday and a long, happy life as your true self
What's scary though is now stories like this are gonna become more common
Yeah. And, its only what we are hearing. Plenty did suicide.
Unfortunately we can only hope now to see good come after the next few years even if there horrific. the amount of people about to go through hell has gotta be enough to rally a call for permanent change that can’t be ignored. Oppression is unfortunately the best factor for good to prevail I’m sure the world will get better I just don’t know when sadly. (Just to be clear I’m fully in support of lgbtq and trans MTF I’ve just read my message and want to make sure you know I’m not one of those hateful people)
The trauma in her voice is just
It’s so sad. You can hear it and it’s heartbreaking.
I’m not trans myself(I’m very straight) but I would fight for the lgbtq+ community any day. I did have a harsh upbringing, however. I had some very similar experiences and my heart goes out to you. I hope things get better for you, or if they have, they continue to get better and never, ever stop fighting for what you believe in.
Wherever you are now, I hope you're doing well, king.
(I don't care if you are a woman. Everyone is a king.)
being a trans woman myself, i get shivers hearing that there are people out there that actually do this, not to mention their own kids because (like seriosly wtf)
im glad i didnt have to go through that, but sadly conversion "therapy" is also legal in sweden but since i obv havent gone to one i cant say if they torture or not, either way its horrible
im glad she is ok and that this kind of barbaric stuff gets banned (like this is from the age of burning witches at the stake ffs)
I did not heed the warning at the start of the video and now I'm crying. Watching this video brought back so many memories of my own childhood and the abuse that I went through. I remember that I was so busy desperately struggling against suicidal depression that by the time I somehow survived long enough to move out, I was a shell of a human being. It took me years just to learn how to be human. Because I was so set back from overcoming complex PTSD, I didn't even start questioning my gender until I was 25. I've never wanted to hug someone more than Jennifer. You said you were turning 21, well I'm turning 29 soon. I haven't made any steps toward transitioning outside of small things that make me happy (wearing nail polish, wearing skirts when I'm home alone, and doing voice practice when no one is around). Still, I managed to find a job, rediscover my love of psychology, and am now an Honors student with a 4.0 GPA about to get my associate's degree next Spring. My goal is to major in developmental psychology and childhood trauma. Things can get better, and you won't feel broken forever. I hope wherever you are, you have someone who loves and supports you as much as your parents should have. Stay safe, and if you ever need more friends, let me know and I'll send you my Discord.
I shook through most of this I won't lie, it was very intense, hearing the pain in her voice while recounting her experiences, and her overcoming it & moving forward.
Thank you for sharing Jennifer's story with us, and thank you Jennifer truly thank you for being you.
I'm reminded of a quote by the late Fred Rogers that i feel I should share, "You make each day a special day, you know how, by just your being you. There's only one person in the whole world like you, and i like you just the way you are."
Wow. The fact that this even happens in a world that's supposed to be "progressing" fills me with spiteful motivation. This makes me furious to the core and back, and fills my soul with a monsoon of rage. Now I want to make sure I contribute as much as I can to help stop it.
we aren't progressing anymore, if you didn't notice there is a dangerous rise in fascism across the globe. righteous indignation is a good thing to feel.
@@comyuse9103 By "fascism", do you mean anything you don't agree with? Because I'm not exactly seeing "fascism"
im a closeted teen (gay 14) and my dad and mom both donate to anti lgbtq things as well as conversion camps and i am so scared to tell them or them finding out... i dont know what to do (i also have a boyfriend who is also 14 and thankfully my sister is also closeted so we just switch partners for the time being and hope our parents dont find out) i have a feeling they are getting closer to knowing
Edit: Finishing the video I thank you for sharing all of this and i hope you find alot of happiness where you are and i hope at least you and your mom can get a better connection because it seems like you really want a better relationship with your mom. I wish you the best and thank you again for everything you have done for all of us. Have an amazing day if you see this and to everyone else that sees this.
Edit 2: ive heard alot of shit but this is the only one ive actively started balling to my heart goes out to you (im still crying as im typing this because this is so sad and it all hit me at once. Have an amazing day
@@L25gh1 its a sad piece of reality that is true unfortunatly... and its only going to get worse with trump
@@Hades-100yeah…
(sorry if my english is not very good...) good luck with that, can I give you some advice? don't communicate in any way that your parents can understand. I use qbit torrent and send text files through linking. I'm 19 years old, that's been useful to me since I was 16, good luck, again
@@Suky34 thank you so much and your english is good dont worry :D
sometimes I feel like my parents will fucking disown me if I say even a single word about wanting to be a girl and stuff
It’s hard out there, I’m sorry. I hope they’re accepting and that things work out well
It can be hard, i've been there, but we just have to stand strong, i really hope everything works out
You don't have to come out if it's not safe. Wait until it's safe. It's difficult but I wish you well
I was diagnosed with autism as a child. However, the entire life was bad and merely good memories. Out of every kids my life was taken!!! I been tortured by so called friends to being alone throughout teenhood. Lost trust on my father, sister, and brother that never acknowledged my autism side. My brother is been a jerk to me and get mad for every single thing I do. Then came my sister nothing more of social liars to ended having karma ruin her life. Finally, the father was a good parent until the change kicked in. Always makes excuses to my mom just to abuse me. Saying these bad stuff basically ruining my life being a Shut-In. Nevertheless, he doesn't know the pain to have suffered throughout middle to high school. Moreover, I became this empty shell and lost my trust on my father and two siblings. Lost my emotions, trust, individuality, and free will! My mother couldn't do nothing about my struggle. Now I slowly started to recover my 23 years of a broken adult 🙃. I started not wanting to see and speak to my siblings are now strangers. My bond with father was broken and not interested to fix this relationship! So that my story. Feel like being in a persona q2.
*offers internet hugs*
It disturbs something monstrous and sadistic in my soul to hear one story after another of my fellow folks on the AS being abused. I'm a Winston Churchill kinda guy with these things - no quarter to the enemy, no kindness offered to their pain, no tears shed for their ends.
@Alastor the NPDemon It must have been hard. Moreover, I hope you're recovering from the same trauma. My hatred on humanity grew. To the point I had transformed me into a Demonic Beast.
I don't usually comment but this story had me shaken. I imagine such treatments to be handed out to prisoners of war, not literal children
I don't know if Jennifer herself will ever see this as it's 3 month late. But.
Girl you are f\king amazing. You are a star. You went through so much and now starting a new life, still having faith in humanity.
You made it! I'm glad you did. I'm sure everyone here glad you did. When you talked the part where you left I just can't anymore. I teared up.
You are so strong. You got this. I hope you, your friends, and your community is doing well and safe.
I hope your 2023 will be amazing.
I don't know you but I love you. Keep going strong Jennifer :)
Azeal you are a amazing interviewer when it comes to difficult topic like these. You allowed them to speak for themselves and speak at their own pace. With no pressuring, and you sure hell made them feel accepted and cared for.
Thanks so much dawg it means alot
@@JP_21_ Wow i didnt know you would see this! I'm sure many others here would support you whole hearted aswell. Stay strong!
🧡
Always horrendous to hear these types of stories. Wish you the absolute best.
Christians: Why do people mock us?
What Christians do to kids:
only the worst christians do this, most are nice but the ones who do this don't know their own religion
@@slothslothslothslothslothsloth the problem is most christian (little 'c') leaders tell their congratulations lies upon lies. Parents hear the lies and think them truth.
@@slothslothslothslothslothslothRight but that's also sometimes used as an excuse. It's a way to distance yourself from the "bad people" without taking responsibility. If you truly didn't feel that way as a christian you should be fighting back against the people who use your religion to do evil. But these people don't. They just sit there and go "everything good is the real christianity. All the bad things aren't" while staring at bigots banning transgender care in the name of their god. And if you do that you're like 75% as bad as them. It's like the uvalde police standing around doing nothing while people are dying and then somehow thinking they weren't implicit in every single murder after they showed up
Conversion Therapy is the real grooming, not drag shows.
Shout it from the rooftops. Make them own their shame. They’re the ones who traumatize children.
@@FexyVRC You can’t seriously being calling that torture after watching a video talking about conversion therapy. Kids not wanting to be at a drag show doesn’t equate torture.
@@FexyVRC Someone not wanting to go to a drag show is someone not wanting to attend an event, like any other event it is a form of entertainment that some people may not like or might be bored by. torture is not entertainment, they have nothing in common, so comparing an event used as entertainment and an atrocity such as torture is not plausible in any way.
@@FexyVRC conversion therapy involves strapping electrodes on a persons body and gentilia and giving them electric shocks. They use electrocution therapy and many other forms actual torture to "fix" you. This is not the same as drag shows. You arent being tortured and physically abused. Conversion therapy does.
@@thefrontier2288 The kids can walk out. Those kids in what basically equates to a gulag cant walk out. They are literal prisonors. There is a huge difference.
The moment they said "Southern Baptist" I knew exactly where this was going
Of course it is always the south. Where else would it be?
@@thotslayer9914 being a Midwesterner myself, guess it Depends on where you are. It is probably more subtle than the south
What happened to the “Love thy neighbor” rule I was taught when I was younger?
apparently that dosent apply for people that they dont like
Some Christians only follow the parts of the Bible that they feel like following rather than the whole book
The UN actually recommends shutting off these torture camps. I love how the "party of freedom" condones human rights abuses akin to what you would see in China against political dissidents or smth. You are so strong, Jennifer, and I applaud your bravery. - sincerely, another trans gal
It takes SO MUCH courage and tolerance to say "I don't have a problem with Christians, they aren't all like that" after the hell they put her through. Ngl, I am weak, If I had to deal with that, I don't know if I could stop myself from going postal on some churches.
Even if Christianity didn’t promote horrible things like this, it’s also just dumb and not based on observable reality in any way. If your standard for believing something is based entirely upon your feelings and weak evidence, you’re developing a bad habit that could get you to make bad decisions later on in life, and believing in a religion like Christianity is a sign of developing those habits.
It’s literally just torture, but somehow considered “acceptable”?
it's just torture wearing a cheap pair of glasses and a fake mustache 😭
The thing is, torture is seen as socially acceptable in the US
@@ceres_langby idiots.
The scary thing is this is the exact thing I feel like my mom would do
same...
I'm a conservative Christian but I would never ever want a child to go through what you went through. What those people did was evil and they were sinning for sure. They need to be in prison for child torture. You could have died from those ice baths. I'm glad you made it out. I hope you can get legitimate trauma therapy if you haven't already to help you recover.
I hope that your parents just weren't aware of what would happen. If they were aware then they will answer to God for this too.
heyo! ik this is a youtube comments section but I'd just like to ask why you consider yourself conservative? I respect if you dont support socialist policies or don't like the vibe of liberal governance, and the fact that you put this comment here without hate or prejudice separates you, at least in my mind, from your run of the mill "conservative". Because *this* is what people think of when someone says conservatism. Child torture. Erasure. Hate. That's what the word 'conservative' means to me.
So I'd just like to know if that interpretation of the word conservative has ever crossed your mind? As someone who doesn't support the policies of hate pushed by politicians who describe themselves as conservative, what does conservative mean to you?
This is a legitimate question and isn't meant to be accusatory or a leading question. I'm fascinated by the way words and political leanings change over time and I'm hoping you can lend some insight.
i support@@The_TinesJathian inquiry;
i want a more united politics!
@@The_TinesJathian I see you were never answered. I hold quite a few conservative beliefs, although I'm not religious. What being conservative to me means quite literally "conserving" the rights and liberties that we hold, and/or trying to gain even more freedom. Where I tend to differ from other conservatives is when religion comes into play, because I think that everyone should be able to live how they want.
If you want to pay for a surgery and say you're the opposite sex? It's a free country, doesn't bother me. I just don't wanna pay extra taxes for it.
I also believe that the NFA was a direct infringement on our rights and liberty, and that we should be able to buy a machine gun the same way we can buy a hunting rifle.
I've been told this falls more with Libertarianism, but I just don't know enough about it to call myself that.
@@thevoidstalker Thanks for answering! I forgot about this comment lol.
Yeah I feel like it’s sorta just like my original comment. I understand why you wouldn’t want to pay for someone else’s surgery, and at this point i’m fine agreeing to disagree on that.
The thing that I find both interesting and concerning is how intertwined conservative values are. With the United States’s political system, you’re going to have to vote for a party that has some goals you like and some you dislike. This is something that supporters of both political parties deal with. To use your example, if you wanted to vote for a candidate from a political party that wants to keep taxes low, that would probably be the country’s dominant conservative party. The problem is that that party also supports things like criminalizing transgender people and putting explicitly christian views in public schools.
Like I said in my original comment, modern american conservatism generally supports all of those things, and based on what you (and the other commenter) have said about what you do/don’t support, it seems to me that it might be a good idea to weigh the pros and cons of aligning yourself to conservatism.
i really tried to steel myself for this video. when you said you turned 21 in a month i said hey at the same time and started sobbing too lol
i was also determined to just hit 18, ill be 21 in EXACTLY a month and im finally looking into hrt :)
thank you so much for sharing your story this will help so so many people
Ngl after this vid I went OFF on my punching bag imagining it as this girls dad
Youre a man of justice
Same, but I don’t have a punching bag so I just used some pillows
ABA is also legal which is supposed to “fix your autism” and it uses the same methods and techniques as conversion “therapy” and it has a 46% chance of giving you PTSD (it is also made by the same person who made conversion therapy)
Note: it is more tame but it is long painful neglect and severe phycological manipulation.
I know it is not as painful or severe as your case but it still hurts
It feels like the aim is to break the parts of people they want to get rid of. They want you to have a stress reaction to it so that you avoid it. And they don't care if it destroys your mental health.
it's been 2 years since this was uploaded. Jennifer, you're probably not reading this, but im so glad you made it out of that literal nightmare alive. im so proud of you gang. and if you're still here to this day, then im so proud of you too. thank you for surviving and giving all of us hope
I knew about what happened in these conversion camps, but hearing about the experience first-hand is more gut-wrenching and heart-breaking than all stories i've heard about it before. I was in tears for over an hour after watching.
Hope you are safe now, and that literal torture gets ruled to be illegal as soon as possible. Nobody should have to go through this ever.
Holy fuck I can't even imagine all of that. I was raised in a Christian kindergarten in a Christian country and still haven't come out yet to anyone except a few people online. I haven't watched through the whole video as I'm writing this, but I hope that you're in a safe and comfortable place now since no one deserves to go through all that hell that you did for absolutely no reason.
You're so strong and brave for pushing through all of that and sharing your story. Youre valid and inspirational, but if you're one thing you're a trooper.