Incredible sorry for the loss of your beautiful partner. May you carry her spirit with you always and she would want you to find comfort and happiness again.
Thank you, Blondie! I really appreciate it. I know she wants me to be happy. She often made jokes telling me about how I forgot how to flirt since I was married to her, and that I needed to remember if I was going to have to find someone new. She was... highly realistic, even though she kept her faith and attention on God the entire time. She never stopped believing that He would heal her. And now, He has.
@@Beyond_Cancer Yes he has, now that she's with him. It's just not the way we'd want if we got to choose. Though I'm not particularly religious I have great respect for your sense of faith. Also, when my mother died of cancer after 10 months when I was 26 I had no idea how we'd go on, or how my father would connect with some else. The loss was so consuming and so unfair to a woman who gave me so much and overcame so much in her life. Over the following years my immense grief shifted and I made room for happiness again and I knew she was still around me and wanted me to be happy. There is beauty in every day and be kind to yourself through this new chapter. I'm glad you got to have those conversations with your sweet wife. She was lucky to have you through it all and vice versa. -Louise
@@Beyond_Cancer You're welcome!! I wrote a long reply yesterday but it seems to be gone now. You are awesome, keep close to your friends and family. Much love and prayers as you navigate this new unexpected chapter.
Your long reply has come through! I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother! I know the walk had to have been hard. How long has it been? Thank you for your kind words. I was lucky to have her, that is for certain. As for not sharing our faith, that's okay. Brittany is just happy that she would have been able to impact you in some small way - enough to comment here. That was her whole motto with this thing, if she had to go through it, she would share the story in the hopes that it helps at least one other person. If she accomplished that, she felt it all would have been worth it. I keep carrying on that legacy, and will keep doing so, until all the videos are posted.
Thank you, Jill. Brittany always handled things better than I did. She was crazy-awesome-stable. I crumbled so often, she was the one who lifted me up. God truly gave her incredible, and unbelievable strength through all this.
Awwww, you two are just so sweet. She is just so lovely. I know I say this every time, but thank you for sharing the rest of her vlogs. I wish with all my heart that you can heal too. Julieann xo
I am so sorry this happened. I thought this was happening now because I just saw this for the first time. I’m so so sorry. It is very hard to understand why God doesn’t always answer the way we hope. God will never leave you. It makes no sense what happened sometimes there is no answer. I am glad you are hanging on to the Lord. He is near to the broken-hearted.
Habakkuk - God answers prayers... but sometimes we don't like His answers. We don't get the full picture of God's story, but we can trust, despite the chaos of our lives, that the Creator of the Universe is ultimately Good and ultimately Just. We took a lot of comfort in that, oddly. That and Job. Brittany and I actually did a study on Habakkuk the entire time she was battling cancer (we stopped at one point, and picked it up later). So that book is near and dear to our hearts, even if it hurts to read.
I looked at a couple of Brittany’s photography videos. Your wife really captured emotion in her photography. She was a gift to you from the Lord as I’m sure you were to her. Some people don’t experience that at all and especially those who don’t know the Lord. I am so sorry your time together was short. You seem like a beautiful soul filled with the Holy Spirit. I could see the Lord in the both of you when I watched tonight. We are all just passing through this world. The real world is the kingdom of Heaven. The kingdom of Heaven lives in you and all believers, but right now we don’t experience it fully until we are with the Lord. We were not meant for this world as it is. That is why God blocked access to the tree of life, otherwise we’d be stuck in this fallen place forever. In the meantime, I’m sure you are a blessing to all those who know you. God loves you. Jesus is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Even though Brittany is not here now, and I’m sure it’s agonizing at times and infuriating also, she is not suffering now and is with the Lord. Even when the whole world around you is falling apart, and life seems unbearable, hang on. Your video helped me tonight. I didn’t know Brittany was not here as I thought it was current. I had just come across your videos when they popped up on my you tube channel. I originally watched it because I have been curious about rare cancers increasing over the past 2 years. I’ve been listening to a Dr named Ryan Cole on another platform who is speaking about this. There is a common denominator but I obviously didn’t know Brittany and have no idea how hers started or why. I mentioned this since I have been watching some videos of others suffering who were fine up until 2021. Anyway, I truly feel sorrow even though I didn’t know you guys. God bless you. Your faith encourages me.
Amen, Jen4um. Thank you! Brittany has always tried to be a beacon of Christ for others, and prayed - all the way to the end - that the story would impact someone, anyone. I'm glad that you were brought comfort by something we experienced. You are quite literally the reason why we did what we did, so thank you! Brittany's cancer was not genetic, was completely random/unlikely, and the specific type she had is found in men at age 60+. So, unfortunately, there just wasn't a whole lot of information about it, and the fact that a 22 year old woman had it pretty much put her in the "medical mystery" category. Previous exams by our docs leading up to the tumor's discovery showed nothing. Our docs in Houston said the tumor had probably been growing for at least three years by the time we found it. However, her scans and exams and such throughout that time it was supposed to be growing showed nothing. It was like it popped up overnight. Her "numbers" never indicated cancer, either. So, we were all caught unaware.
@@Beyond_Cancer thank you for the response. I know nothing can be done now but if she ever got the 🦠 💉(I’m speaking in code), a few Drs are connecting the dots. They are talking about aggressive rare cancers that should not be attacking young people. Anyway, I thank you for your faith. I’ve been really struggling lately not with God but with the world. God bless you.
She never did. That was a decision she made early on because her immune system was completely upside down and was actually in the the "this is a medical danger to you" category. Her diagnosis was long before it's emergence anyway. Don't let the world get you down. Remember this is His story, not ours. And His story will be told regardless of the devils intentions. Keep the faith! I'm praying for you right now!
Ive commented on some of your videos expressing my condolences, i hope you don't mind me changing the topic and saying that i miss your long hair darrin, it reminds me of what the men in biblical times must have looked like, Sampson comes to mind .imo😊
Aww having wisdom teeth out is not nice, I had to have a week in hospital when I had mine out, I looked like had had gone 5 rounds with a boxer and 16 stitches in my gums, I hope it didn't affect her tomuch, and the cost of that tablet wow! .I've looked at what my treatment would cost on our NHS and its crazy I would never have been able to pay it. ❤
Lynn, don't think for a minute that we didn't catch all of the loopy "after-dentist" fun! haha. I'll be posting those videos soon, actually! How does the saying go - American healthcare will kill you, if your illness doesn't - something like that. Yeah, it's a mess. We were so lucky, and so blessed, that we didn't enough money, so we qualified for the Ease program.
Susan, it was an insane time. We basically told our families "leave us alone, we need to process," called our pastors, then turned off our phones and tried to comprehend what just happened to us. We clung to God as hard as we could during that time. I'm still trying.
When they went in to cut the blood flow off to the kidney, why didn't they just remove the kidney and the tumor. I understand she had cancer spread to other areas but I would think there would be no reason to leave it in there if the kidney was going to be killed off anyways and I would think that it would have helped with all the pain she was going through if she didn't have that huge tumor inside of her. What was the doctor's reasoning for leaving that huge tumor inside of her?
Hey Lisa. The grapefruit had broken through the walls of the kidney and entirely enveloped it. The tumor had a ton of capillaries that were feeding it blood and nutrients, besides the arteries. Which means they couldn't remove it. If they tried, either, A) she would die on the table due to the shock or B) she would have bled to death. Essentially, the tumor reached the point of inoperability.
Sorry she went through much hits to close to home. The cancer meds are ridiculous n should be outlawed to cost as much as it does. My cousin is dealing with this at the moment nothing had worked n its spreading n he is out of options for his very rare aggressive cancer as well. Sending prayers
Too big, too ingrained into all the other systems. She'd go into shock and die on the table if they tried to pull the tumor out. Even then, it wouldn't stop all the other tumors which had begun popping up in her liver, and lung. Also Also, she'd have to be off her meds to get the surgery. One month off the meds essentially would have killed her. As we discover around episode 80 and onward.
Incredible sorry for the loss of your beautiful partner. May you carry her spirit with you always and she would want you to find comfort and happiness again.
Thank you, Blondie! I really appreciate it. I know she wants me to be happy. She often made jokes telling me about how I forgot how to flirt since I was married to her, and that I needed to remember if I was going to have to find someone new.
She was... highly realistic, even though she kept her faith and attention on God the entire time. She never stopped believing that He would heal her. And now, He has.
@@Beyond_Cancer Yes he has, now that she's with him. It's just not the way we'd want if we got to choose. Though I'm not particularly religious I have great respect for your sense of faith. Also, when my mother died of cancer after 10 months when I was 26 I had no idea how we'd go on, or how my father would connect with some else. The loss was so consuming and so unfair to a woman who gave me so much and overcame so much in her life. Over the following years my immense grief shifted and I made room for happiness again and I knew she was still around me and wanted me to be happy. There is beauty in every day and be kind to yourself through this new chapter.
I'm glad you got to have those conversations with your sweet wife. She was lucky to have you through it all and vice versa.
-Louise
@@Beyond_Cancer You're welcome!! I wrote a long reply yesterday but it seems to be gone now. You are awesome, keep close to your friends and family. Much love and prayers as you navigate this new unexpected chapter.
Your long reply has come through! I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother! I know the walk had to have been hard. How long has it been?
Thank you for your kind words. I was lucky to have her, that is for certain.
As for not sharing our faith, that's okay. Brittany is just happy that she would have been able to impact you in some small way - enough to comment here. That was her whole motto with this thing, if she had to go through it, she would share the story in the hopes that it helps at least one other person. If she accomplished that, she felt it all would have been worth it. I keep carrying on that legacy, and will keep doing so, until all the videos are posted.
That news had to be crushing to hear. You both handle it all with such grace.
Thank you, Jill. Brittany always handled things better than I did. She was crazy-awesome-stable. I crumbled so often, she was the one who lifted me up. God truly gave her incredible, and unbelievable strength through all this.
Awwww, you two are just so sweet. She is just so lovely. I know I say this every time, but thank you for sharing the rest of her vlogs. I wish with all my heart that you can heal too.
Julieann xo
Thank you, Julieann. Your encouragement means a lot. I am healing. It's just taking it's time.
How did you find us, or find Brittany? if I can ask.
Thanks to you both for sharing the journey
And thank you, Keith, for following along!
I am so sorry this happened. I thought this was happening now because I just saw this for the first time. I’m so so sorry. It is very hard to understand why God doesn’t always answer the way we hope. God will never leave you. It makes no sense what happened sometimes there is no answer. I am glad you are hanging on to the Lord. He is near to the broken-hearted.
Habakkuk - God answers prayers... but sometimes we don't like His answers. We don't get the full picture of God's story, but we can trust, despite the chaos of our lives, that the Creator of the Universe is ultimately Good and ultimately Just. We took a lot of comfort in that, oddly. That and Job.
Brittany and I actually did a study on Habakkuk the entire time she was battling cancer (we stopped at one point, and picked it up later). So that book is near and dear to our hearts, even if it hurts to read.
@@Beyond_Cancer I’ll have to read it. I’ve read it in the past but only when I read thru the Bible in a year.
It's super short! One of the minor prophets.
I looked at a couple of Brittany’s photography videos. Your wife really captured emotion in her photography. She was a gift to you from the Lord as I’m sure you were to her. Some people don’t experience that at all and especially those who don’t know the Lord. I am so sorry your time together was short. You seem like a beautiful soul filled with the Holy Spirit. I could see the Lord in the both of you when I watched tonight. We are all just passing through this world. The real world is the kingdom of Heaven. The kingdom of Heaven lives in you and all believers, but right now we don’t experience it fully until we are with the Lord. We were not meant for this world as it is. That is why God blocked access to the tree of life, otherwise we’d be stuck in this fallen place forever. In the meantime, I’m sure you are a blessing to all those who know you. God loves you. Jesus is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Even though Brittany is not here now, and I’m sure it’s agonizing at times and infuriating also, she is not suffering now and is with the Lord. Even when the whole world around you is falling apart, and life seems unbearable, hang on. Your video helped me tonight. I didn’t know Brittany was not here as I thought it was current. I had just come across your videos when they popped up on my you tube channel. I originally watched it because I have been curious about rare cancers increasing over the past 2 years. I’ve been listening to a Dr named Ryan Cole on another platform who is speaking about this. There is a common denominator but I obviously didn’t know Brittany and have no idea how hers started or why. I mentioned this since I have been watching some videos of others suffering who were fine up until 2021. Anyway, I truly feel sorrow even though I didn’t know you guys. God bless you. Your faith encourages me.
Amen, Jen4um. Thank you! Brittany has always tried to be a beacon of Christ for others, and prayed - all the way to the end - that the story would impact someone, anyone. I'm glad that you were brought comfort by something we experienced. You are quite literally the reason why we did what we did, so thank you!
Brittany's cancer was not genetic, was completely random/unlikely, and the specific type she had is found in men at age 60+. So, unfortunately, there just wasn't a whole lot of information about it, and the fact that a 22 year old woman had it pretty much put her in the "medical mystery" category. Previous exams by our docs leading up to the tumor's discovery showed nothing. Our docs in Houston said the tumor had probably been growing for at least three years by the time we found it. However, her scans and exams and such throughout that time it was supposed to be growing showed nothing.
It was like it popped up overnight. Her "numbers" never indicated cancer, either. So, we were all caught unaware.
@@Beyond_Cancer thank you for the response. I know nothing can be done now but if she ever got the 🦠 💉(I’m speaking in code), a few Drs are connecting the dots. They are talking about aggressive rare cancers that should not be attacking young people. Anyway, I thank you for your faith. I’ve been really struggling lately not with God but with the world. God bless you.
She never did. That was a decision she made early on because her immune system was completely upside down and was actually in the the "this is a medical danger to you" category. Her diagnosis was long before it's emergence anyway.
Don't let the world get you down. Remember this is His story, not ours. And His story will be told regardless of the devils intentions. Keep the faith! I'm praying for you right now!
Wow, totally unbelievable ❤
Yeah. Becky, you're 100% right. It was insane.
Ive commented on some of your videos expressing my condolences, i hope you don't mind me changing the topic and saying that i miss your long hair darrin, it reminds me of what the men in biblical times must have looked like, Sampson comes to mind .imo😊
Thaaaaanks threeblessings! I appreciate it. I kinda miss it. I like the long hair, but I don't miss the caveman-beard. haha
Hi! Can't wait to meet the dog! I have 3 dogs.
Hey Bags! We had three dogs too! The new video is up, so you should have had a chance to meet Milo!
Aww having wisdom teeth out is not nice, I had to have a week in hospital when I had mine out, I looked like had had gone 5 rounds with a boxer and 16 stitches in my gums, I hope it didn't affect her tomuch, and the cost of that tablet wow! .I've looked at what my treatment would cost on our NHS and its crazy I would never have been able to pay it. ❤
Lynn, don't think for a minute that we didn't catch all of the loopy "after-dentist" fun! haha. I'll be posting those videos soon, actually!
How does the saying go - American healthcare will kill you, if your illness doesn't - something like that. Yeah, it's a mess. We were so lucky, and so blessed, that we didn't enough money, so we qualified for the Ease program.
$800 a pill...that is awful 😞 This news was absolutely devastating. Thank you for sharing with us.
Kristi, you're welcome. Life certainly changed for us after that moment. Everything was different.
Good morning,do you know the treatment metabolic of the professor of oncology Thomas Seyfried of Boston,on his channel he explain all.
Devastating medical news. Hard to hear and even harder to fully comprehend.
Susan, it was an insane time. We basically told our families "leave us alone, we need to process," called our pastors, then turned off our phones and tried to comprehend what just happened to us. We clung to God as hard as we could during that time. I'm still trying.
When they went in to cut the blood flow off to the kidney, why didn't they just remove the kidney and the tumor. I understand she had cancer spread to other areas but I would think there would be no reason to leave it in there if the kidney was going to be killed off anyways and I would think that it would have helped with all the pain she was going through if she didn't have that huge tumor inside of her. What was the doctor's reasoning for leaving that huge tumor inside of her?
Hey Lisa. The grapefruit had broken through the walls of the kidney and entirely enveloped it. The tumor had a ton of capillaries that were feeding it blood and nutrients, besides the arteries. Which means they couldn't remove it. If they tried, either, A) she would die on the table due to the shock or B) she would have bled to death. Essentially, the tumor reached the point of inoperability.
Sorry she went through much hits to close to home. The cancer meds are ridiculous n should be outlawed to cost as much as it does. My cousin is dealing with this at the moment nothing had worked n its spreading n he is out of options for his very rare aggressive cancer as well. Sending prayers
Rhonda, I'm so sorry. I can truly relate to your struggles. I'm joining you in prayer right now.
Psalm 57:1-2 always gives me comfort.
That's a good one! Brittany's favorite was 44. Mine wound up being 150. I would read that one to Brittany a lot when she couldn't hear me anymore.
Why couldn't they just remove her kidney?
Too big, too ingrained into all the other systems. She'd go into shock and die on the table if they tried to pull the tumor out. Even then, it wouldn't stop all the other tumors which had begun popping up in her liver, and lung. Also Also, she'd have to be off her meds to get the surgery. One month off the meds essentially would have killed her. As we discover around episode 80 and onward.