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Somehow, it's comforting to know that a bunch of strangers are vibing to the same playlist at weird hours of the night. It’s like a quiet, unspoken pact to just... exist together for a bit. Anyway, if you're reading this, I hope you find the peace you're looking for in this corner of the internet.
It's 11pm, I'm awake by myself and I can't stop crying. Everything is falling apart and I can't seem to hold anything together. I'm losing sight of what I'm meant to do and be and it scares the living fuck out of me. To whomever reads this. I pray with all of my soul only good thing into your life. We will find our peace soon.
Embrace the breakdown and find the things thats in your control to move forward and change your outcome even if it means going in deep. But never succumb to it and never give up. Stay strong, you are not alone 🤝.
“I must study politics and war… so that my sons can study mathematics and philosophy, navigation, commerce and agriculture so that their children can study painting, poetry and music.” -John Adams
I lost my job a month ago, and now I’m here staying up endless hours into early morning like this at 4AM. I feel hopeless in life. I feel like such a failure. I did this to me. I sabotaged myself into losing my job due to fear, due to anxiety because of the pressure at work thrown at me. Fear not though, right? Because I lost it, but now I’m wondering when I’ll ever get one. One that I will love. I don’t know. There is so much going on in my head I don’t know what’s right or wrong in the direction of my life. I’m young, 25, and still have the years ahead of me. Though it seems the years ahead of me have quite shortened. It seems as if I have the will in me but I’m gradually losing the light behind my eyes..
Something better will roll around for you. The universe and your guides are always looking out for you. When one door closes. Another opens. Take this time to work on yourself and trust that what's meant for you is already yours.
I've been there. Best thing to do is stay in rhythm. Go to bed normal time and wake up with energy. Just so you can find a fitting job where they will acknowledge you for the person you are. It aint easy but you'll get there. As of this moment i have the same struggle
Finding a job isn't hard it find a job you love that's hard. I joined an catering agency to odd catering jobs, working in hotels and kitchens. It's not easy but you it keeps you active and gets you out of house and give you experience. There lots of apps agencies you can join. Indeed app is one. Depends on your country but l am sure there are similar agencies around the world?;
As I write this it is my 20th birthday 1:50am, it was a bland day, no cake, no friends over laughing and playing on the old swing set out back, there was no hugs from my grandma or a kiss on the forehead from my aunt's, or a charlie horse from my annoying cousins. What ever it maybe and no matter how hard we try we can never stay young forever, growing up is hard, to see all those childhood friends leave for their future endeavors, or moving away from that childhood house, it always hits hard knowing they will just be memories and nothing more. If anyone out there is reading this I hope life treats you well, make friends, lose friends, party, rest, live life, thats what we are all doing at the end of the day, lets just get through it together.
turned 21 at 12 am today and it’s now 4:02 am, very relatable lol. it’s so cool that im seeing this on my birthday :,)) here’s a hug from one bday kid to another, cheers to our new adult years. hope that it treats you very well
I have anxiety issues, and that has lead to experiences that felt like depression. My background taught me that I don’t deserve to be loved, and trying to leave that background hurts me terribly, even if I know that’s good for me. I’ve not fully accepted that I’m different to my current group of friends, but that being queer doesn’t mean I don’t deserve love. Right now I want to cry myself to sleep, hoping against how that I’ll find someone to love, and someone who loves me unconditionally .
No matter our preferences I truly believe we all deserve love. You are a human being that deserves to find love and to be loved for who you are, not what you are or aren't. ❤
unconditional love can come from God. I dont want to force it onto you, but ive found so much comfort and faith within christianity, and maybe you can too
I feel this same like nobody will be loving me or just be a friend to me. I have so nice people around me, people with I am working, family and friends from other countries but I feel like I am not connected with them but I am trying. For now I can’t be real self for them. I am so afraid that I will lose them and I will lose my opportunities.
a person once told me, "friends, family & lovers are kinda like flowers, once you find someone you care about, your relationship with them grows and grows, just like a flower, but sometimes that flower doesn't stay the same forever, neither does a person, so eventually that flower will wilt, and wilt until it is no more then a pile a petals. And the same goes with relationship's, as time goes on they become different, and your relationship with them wilts, and wilts, until it's like it never existed.Its a sad world we live in really. But hopefully, it'll be ok" that's been running through my mind this hole playlist. thank you all for the likes🤍🤍🤍
"Friends family and lovers are like flowers because if you eat them they die :3" - idk where i saw that but it made me think of it.. im sorry pookie (sigh.. its like 3 am rn..)
i've heard something similar, but it ended with the fact that you need to fall in love with someone's roots, not their flower and I found that really sweet :)
4 am on the dot as I start typing this. I had a great night out, went for a long drive, just to come home , flop on the bed and feel an absolutely ice cold blade hit my gut cause my mind at night when im alone is a level of loneliness, shame, regret, and absolute sorrow to a level that is physically impossible to minorly describe. So I thank you for this. As this will allow me to wake up and realize I'm gonna be okay. But to feel something so soul snatching and dark and to tell yourself "God I love this" is.... just what I call brain heroin. You wanna stop but you can't wait for the next fix even if it only.lasts a few hours. You need it no matter what. It wrecks you but eventually it just heals you. You become whole again.
I'm lying in bed with my 14 year old female cat cuddled up beside me, it's 930pm here and I feel so peaceful and grateful. Memories of my past are flashing to me of times and instances that helped me become the man that I am, but at the time they felt like deep adversity and there was no way out. Sat here smiling thanking the Lord for everything he has done for me to make me the man I am. God bless you all and I hope you realize everything is for us, never against us. God bless.
October 6th.. Someone entered my life unexpectedly, as if they were written for me, as if they were my other half i never knew i needed.. 5 days ago things ended for good.. contemplating life is an understatement.. especially after losing someone very close.. to whom ever reading this, don't be too scared to love, it is often a memorable story that will live in your memories for a very long time.. if you are lucky.. for life.
I met a girl like that I think. I think the bond was so, idk, real or strong that it goes beyond terms thrown around nowadays like "twin souls" or "other half" or even marriage in its purest sense. It was pure unobligated companionship that I was lucky enough to experience. I don't even want to meet and settle with another girl cuz how contempt I was her ig. Or maybe on the off chance we'll meet again some day? Even if it's only a 0.01 % chance. Idk but I'm just glad I got to share the time with her when I did. I think about her every time I wake up cuz her memory is pretty nurturing. It must've left an impact cuz I'm finally taking care of my health and focusing on myself lol
12:30am and once again overthinking everything and realizing I need to change so much. I feel everyone around me isn’t experiencing this. I feel so alone, when I try to talk about things like this to others it seems I’m just annoying and being a downer. As I’ve cut a lot of addictions out of my life recently it’s left me in deep thoughts and thinking about things I can’t change. I’ve messed up a lot, and I don’t relate to others around. I hope this connects with other people and shows you aren’t alone in this battle. We can get through this. It’s a challenge. if it wasn’t, everyone would be happy and have everything. Stay strong
I've always been the type of guy who never cared about his future nor school, but now I'm seventeen, sitting in front of my desk with papers full of information due to an exam I have tomorrow. I am going through the hardest (and the last, as well) school year of my entire life. Recently I've realized that my whole life depends on myself, no one will make this work out for me, and I need to be the one who comforts me, the one who keeps myself up when things aren't going well... Also, I've been dealing with really big waves of anxiety and a horrible mental health due to stress and stuff. It's really hard to keep it controlled, which makes my situation worse, since I've never felt "anxiety" as much as I'm doing lately. Listening to this kind of music somehow inspires me to keep going even if I'm at my lowest and if I'm only thinking about giving up, it gives me such comfort and peace even if my life's a chaos at the moment.
TW: some su1c1de ideation in this vent. I'm having these roller-coaster rides of manics that go from peaks to deep valleys. Some days I want to call out of work, cry all day and do something stupid. I've said time and time again that I don't want perish. I'm just tired. So tired that I want to sleep and never wake up. Dissapear in and not be anyones problem. I'm on a waitlist to see a professional but I can't get medication until I am diagnosed, so I am stuck in this vicious cycle until I can see someone, or until these thoughts really do take over. I've went from hoarding tendencies to throwing out more and more thinks weekly and it worries me that my cleaning manics are.. "preparing". I'm not sure what else to do other than work myself to exhaustion and sleep as long as I possibly can to avoid these thoughts. I'm glad that, while I can't sleep, I have this comforting playlist to help me just breathe. I hope anyone who took the time to read and could relate a little.. just know it gets better. We will get through this you and I. Maybe one day, we'll meet each other and not even know it.
it’s coming up on the second anniversary of my last attempt. I worry that I am falling into some of the same habits I had back then, sleeping has become one of the things have suffered because of this, that’s why i’m here at 3:30 am typing this to tell you that it may not get better, and you may not always be as strong as you want to be, but you have been a positive space on this planet whether you accept that or not. You have brightened my night by reading this and hope that you can come back and read it again later in life. For now, get some rest. You need it.
Ik it's been a couple weeks since your post but I hope very much that you're doing alright. It's been roughly 7 or so years since my own "attempt" so I understand what you're going through at least in part, and I know that sooner or later you will be ok
Listening to this at 4 am lying in bed just thinking about life and the world around me not knowing what to do with my life but this feels so peaceful and lonely at the same time that it makes me cry.
listening to this seeing friends on steam that have been offline for over 4000 days... that i used to play regularly with. thinking of all the times i hung out with friends through highschool and after... and how theyre doing. im glad im not drinking tonight, and i should probably just go to bed. goodnight guys.
Thank you for this video, I really needed this, it’s soothing. Really struggling with my mental health at the moment, I feel like people close to me don’t understand me or what I’m going through. I’ve also tried therapy but don’t seem to be getting anywhere. Feeling very lost and frustrated. Hope everyone else in the comments is okay. Take care, J.
Even tho I'm not feeling alright and this gives me an escape, I want to feel grateful for having a new chance to get better and feeling better. Starting with God and destiny that guided me to this amazing video and channel. Tysm for reading and for being so strong, we'll get over this!
Why. Thats what im struggling with. Why do anything. Why work. why love. Why try. All I do is get up, go to work, and come home. The only reason I keep going on with things is because of the concequences if I dont. Is this life? Is this what im destined for? To spin in melancholy and quiet desperation til death? I dont have a passion, I dont have a reason to try. Nothing really excites me. I think I slowly stopped caring. I feel like if i could go back 10 years I could somehow fix things. The really sad part is im only 25, and yet I feel like the best parts of my life have past. And the "best" parts werent even that great.
Listen to some joji, start reading books, think about some stuff you always wanted to do as a kid and start trying to do them. Even if they're small, and probably silly. You are still young 🌱
Men I just came home after an hour and a half night walk with my best friend where we talked about so much. We had one of those moments where you let everything out, all our worries and that type of stuff. You know what I'm thinking about. And now am just sitting here, listening to this at 11pm dieing for sleep but I have to finish my geography homework so yeah I hope all of you are doing well and may God bless and help all of you when you are going through hard times
I'm afraid of failure, I can't seem to make progress in anything meaningful in my life because of fear and humiliation, I wish to be free of this fear...to be brave and try to accomplish something in my life...I don't want to be a coward but I know that deep inside I am.
The soft candle glow The music so slow Your skin on my skin The room is spinning Nerve on my bone I’m shaking away, oh no I’m talking, though I should be I’ve lost all sensibility
i had to let go of someone i spent everyday with for the past two and half years i loved her and she loved me… but it didn’t work out. saying goodbye hurts and acting like we never happened hurts more
Listening to this at 10pm I am going to be turning 21 soon and as I look back on my life, I really wasted my youth. I waste my days away in my room still living with parents that argue with each other often. I look back and think would my life have changed if I was more extroverted, if I didn’t worry about getting good grades, took more risks. Or would I still be stuck in the same place. I sleep everyday regretting my past as I wish I could have had a better life. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I am alone with only my thoughts. I currently have no dreams or goals. I feel like my life is coming to a close… Anyways, these are some of thoughts that are always in the back of my mind.
10.30pm in Argentina. Not too cold but not too hot either. August 29th. I don't know where my life is going, but I learned to not be afraid of that feeling. If you need a hug, receive one from me right now. Life is really not that serious, I believe. Think of it as a movie... it's a bit absurd, isn't it? Life's what you make of it (what you can with what you have). God bless you.
It's 2pm on a Wednesday and I'm tired of everyone's problems. I'm exhausted trying to hold up shields for everyone and fighting off negativity with my bare hands. I long for a flood to wash away all this mess for yet another hoard to grow to be complained about tomorrow. I hope for the dawn to break so the the sun can shine on maybe a different part of my future
Thank you for posting, and above all for creating. You are one of not so many people who happen to have the gift of creation, and use it rightfully. Keep the good work! 🙏🏻
I'm 40, I've been a nurse for 12 years and i currently work in the ER. my life feels completely directionless. i can never save any money because of costly chronic illness (ulcerative colitis). i have 26k in medical debt. i feel like all i do is work and never see anything worth it other than simply allowing me to survive.. and just to do even that, i have to steep myself in human misery constantly. at home, im lonely and isolated, i fall in to crushes that go nowhere and only hurt my feelings. waking up every day and leaving my bed takes tremendous effort, as my world around me feels more and more colorless and grey every single day. i tried therapy and quit. most days im content to just lose my mind and numb myself with cannabis, and sometimes psychedellics. i don't know how much longer i will go on like this. but i was here, i tried to go along with the program. i wish i could apologize to everyone in my life that ever believed in me, specially to my little-kid past self. i let him down most of all.
These comments ❤️🩹 May we find solace in the depths of our unspoken sorrows, and release the burden of overthinking and fixating on those who have caused us pain. I wish you all healing.
1:10 am writing this. Existing sure is hard, especially when being happy is more uncomfortable than feeling sad or nothing. I’ve made a lot of progress and gone through a lot, but I’ll occasionally hit that same wall again and think, “Was I ever better? Did all of my hard work just go to waste?” Of course that isn’t true, because progress isn’t linear and everything is one step at a time. But it’s hard to accept that sometimes. Music like this is always good company though, it helps me feel more accepted. You guys are doing better than you think. Believe in the Ambi that believes in you
Guess I'll add my thoughts here as well. I know there's a God I just, don't know which one. So whenever life gets to be too much I just sit and talk, and invite the universe or 'God' to listen. I voice my thoughts, wishes, I ask for guidance, help. Sometimes I feel like I'm just talking to myself, others I feel like, I'm being guided purposefully by this force. Whatever the case may be, I know the times we're living in will build lots of character, that goes for anyone, not just me. Anyone thats going through something, I urge you, just cry out. Talk. Have that 'mental breakdown' because it's okay. It's moments like those where we can really analyze everything and find a ways to success. I wish everyone the best. ❤
Only 10:09 on a Friday night and I'm already overthinking everything. Anxiety starts to kick in and the dark cloud of depression hangs over. At least I have these sounds, my fellow insomniacs and the night. The only time that I feel somewhat at peace. Thank you for a safe space! Blessings to you all! ❤
It’s midnight and i just can’t help but contemplate my life’s purpose. Why am I here? Why was I born? I’m stuck at this wage slavery job where I work 10-12 hours, 4-5 days a week and it is indeed sucking my soul out. I am close to getting fired for a multitude of reasons. I am barely getting by. But I am tired. Physically and mentally. Broke. Depressed. Lost. My mother departed two years ago and its just been so hard for me to continue moving on all on my own. I feel so drained to the point that I’ve been contemplating suicide realising the reality that we are forced to only live to work and work to survive. I am 25 years young with so much life ahead of me but some days it gets to a point where I want to give up. But I don’t know where I get the willpower to continue getting out of my bed and go out to live my life though at times it feels pointless. I hope it will get better. Nonetheless, I hope to whomever is listening to this finds solace, empathy and peace. Stay strong and God bless, friend. Tomorrow will be another day.
Almost every other person in my life has a significant other and is in a decent relationship that they've been in for years now, I've never had a first date, a first kiss, I've barely had friends in life, I was the outcast of the outcasts, I occasionally enjoy my life, but most days im going through the motions at best with occasional blips where im genuinely happy and at worst am wasting my time trying the minimize my perception of my own waste of a life.
Come back when ur first significant other shows you u, you never meant anything to them , then come back when your second ex does u worse then your first one because u told her everything and she uses it as a playbook because it was just a game to her too
I had a talk with my uncle yesterday about my career choses.. "You have to do something you hate to get the things that you need and want" that thought is scary to me. I amd afraid of the future now... People usually say do things that you love but now it's time to get serious and think about how i have to bee useful to society to survive.. I just want to live in peace in a field of flowers in a cottage somewhere but that's a dreamers dream.
11:37PM and I’m simply doing my best. Don’t force yourself to be perfect, none of us can do that. Remember that you, like everyone else, are human. Stay strong, and do your best. Even if it’s not that much today, tomorrow is another day ❤
Everyday feels like a constant drag of repetitive tasks till I get to the weekend to do it all over again after a small break. Doesn't even feel like a break anymore..
I’d like to associate my friends with colours. Red is my favourite, I see red in every stop sign and beautiful sunset. Orange seems to follow me, it’s on the walls of my room, the covers of my school books. Yellow is my colour, the colour of the sun we would draw in the corner of our drawings as kids Green I could live without, I see it in the grass I walk along, but I mostly pay attention to the sky Blue is a type of neutral for me, it’s not associated with anything other than the limitless sky that I just can’t reach. Purple is best on me, it’s a hollow comforting colour, the shades match with whatever I seem to be Pink I like to think is reds favourite, they’re shades of eachother I seem to see in his cheeks whenever I come near. (Yes Ik this is shitty but uhh I felt like writing)
Im in a very closed off village on an island in greece. Everyone knows each other. I never had a big family. But here everyone lives together. They leave keys on the door and any family member or other villager can come in.
when you look at life without any previous knowing and you just open your eyes , you realize that nights are so cool and intimate . what a miracle are we in . blessings to all 🙌
Thank you definitely needed a cry. I couldn't no matter what for the past couple days. Idk what it is. Things aren't the same nothing feels right anymore. Idk what im doing. Something feels off like something bad is gonna happen. I just feel it.
I'm losing my best friend due to stupid argument but I don't want to be the one (as always) to save this friendship up and apologize since I did nothing wrong. I don't want to lose myself and it sucks..
2:23 am. I feel empty. But i hold hope, for myself and anyone reading, that this feeling will subside. And all will work out in the end. Because it all has up to this point.
This is gold; you are exquisite at creating the ambient so perfect it creates its own space and time.. This is the perfect consolation. Thank you so much for making this beautiful art..
I very recently overdosed in a half arsed attempt at my own life, worst night of my life and although I in the morning confessed to people who could provide proffesional help, I feel so much shame for having done it. Although it was a decision made with total apathy, an apathy I had developed subconsciously to cope with my inability to let go of every little thing I felt ashamed of, I don't know if much has changed following the event, for my own sense of self. But I hope it has in some way been a kick innthe face to get my life in order, there's so much to be done and so little time for me to fix everything
Its 11:27 pm, In this life I work as a security guard at a hospital. I'm currently assigned the mental health unit, as I sit here i cant help feeling the history from the unit hunt my imagination. Thought all the patients are asleep, I hear the yelling, the outbursts and the phycological break downs. As my train of thought moves forward I ride into my own mistake and defects, i see how my decision got me to where im at in life, who i made suffer, what i could have done. A loud noise brings me back to the present (the commercial break)and i realize i need to be in the present in the quiet hear the playlist and just sit.
Thank you for this playlist. Really needed some comfort given I have sensed weird and know some shady things spouse of a friend did so am processing the worst in advance. What is a kind friend when compared to being in a bed with a ruthless lover?
I’m fed, I’m warm, I’m healthy, thank you God for freeing me of those shackles and the pressure to “Be something”. You have blessed me and gifted me with family so for that I will cherish,love, and care for the gift you have given me. Amen.
It's 11.55pm. I know it's hardly "late" but everyone else is asleep and I'm here thinking about my future... I have work 6am but I lay in bed trying to distract myself from the fearful "what-if"s and trauma from past memories.... One word triggered this whole cascade... It started with adrenaline rush through my body like a cold sweat, my heart was pounding in my head...and now I'm contemplating driving out in my car to the closest dam I could find and either park there and skip work tomorrow or maybe never even go back home... Or maybe I could drive the car in that dam and be gone for good. I think about the people I would leave behind. My pet rabbit.. and maybe even the things I have to clean after if I just end up skipping work and going back home after my midnight "rendezvous"... it's not worth it.... But then again... nothing seems to be worth it... No matter how much I work or rise up the ranks I can't even afford a house.. The owner of the place we are renting wants to sell this home... I don't know where to go.... but at the same time is it even worth finding a new place...? Wouldn't it be so much easier if I died and didn't have to worry where my body lives...
I've done a lot of reflecting these past few months, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that someday I'll have to say goodbye to certain parts of my life. A part of me is scared to leave home, a part of me wants to marry, and a part of me regrets never trying to look for a partner in college. I want to reach out, but I'm scared of getting hurt or wasting my time. God, if you want me to find a husband, let that be clear to me.
As the bible said, God won't put a test in our way knowing that we won't be able to make it, let the spirit rest, for God, with the love of a caring father, will only want goodness in our lives, so leave the work to him, for he yearn for us to have peace, and as to us?. We can only do what we can, and that, is to be kind, with ourselves, and with others, amen
Currently tipsy from drinking Soju. Contemplating about my life. Honestly....I do not know what I am doing with my life. I'm just....here....clueless...floating....
It's 3:48 AM I'm outside sitting on my Rockwall and while im listening to this I keep thinking that life will get better, I'm not gonna be depressed or suciedal anymore but as time goes on a part of me dies because I know the real truth on how the world works. 🌎💔❣️
Only on the first song but than you for the upbeat vibe to these songs. Too many videos playing similar music are really sad and I can’t stand to listen to them due to all the pain. However again this video is perfect so far thanks.
I just broke things off with this girl i was talking to these past few months, and of course, she did not take it well and i dont know what to think at the moment.
I've been rotting in my bed for a couple weeks with no job, no education. Most of the friends that close to me are busy with their schools, college and jobs and some even move abroad. I don't wanna live my life like this. I wanna live everyday with no regrets. I wanna explore the world.
I am so grateful for all your support on this video and all the wonderful comments! ✨It warms my heart to see so many people find comfort in my music 💙
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Somehow, it's comforting to know that a bunch of strangers are vibing to the same playlist at weird hours of the night. It’s like a quiet, unspoken pact to just... exist together for a bit. Anyway, if you're reading this, I hope you find the peace you're looking for in this corner of the internet.
Agreed. And well said. Right there with you while surrounded by an ocean of buildings, in the middle of Chicago. Cheers dude.
TH-cam comments are so wholesome compared to instagram or tiktok comments. I really appreciate that
It's not even 9pm does that count as a weird hour?
My heart glows from this.
@@420_Goblikonit’s 4:37am somewhere
It's 11pm, I'm awake by myself and I can't stop crying. Everything is falling apart and I can't seem to hold anything together. I'm losing sight of what I'm meant to do and be and it scares the living fuck out of me. To whomever reads this. I pray with all of my soul only good thing into your life. We will find our peace soon.
Things will get easier friend, not sure when but they will get easier. Remember that. Try to get some sleep.
u are not alone, i wish u paz and confort
God is the best disposer of affairs. Just do what you can. No man can be asked of anything more than that. And often, that's all that's needed.
Embrace the breakdown and find the things thats in your control to move forward and change your outcome even if it means going in deep. But never succumb to it and never give up. Stay strong, you are not alone 🤝.
Ur definitely..not the only one who's going through this..I relate u sm lets hope things get better asap ❤
My ancestors fought fierce wars so that in 2024 I could find comfort in a TH-cam video.
Your ancestors fought wars for rich people, you are finding peace in music!
Sometimes I wish I could have fought so they didn’t have too yuh know….
You can still help make the world a better place in the present :) @@rainz7432
“I must study politics and war… so that my sons can study mathematics and philosophy, navigation, commerce and agriculture so that their children can study painting, poetry and music.” -John Adams
Well yes!
I lost my job a month ago, and now I’m here staying up endless hours into early morning like this at 4AM. I feel hopeless in life. I feel like such a failure. I did this to me. I sabotaged myself into losing my job due to fear, due to anxiety because of the pressure at work thrown at me. Fear not though, right? Because I lost it, but now I’m wondering when I’ll ever get one. One that I will love. I don’t know. There is so much going on in my head I don’t know what’s right or wrong in the direction of my life. I’m young, 25, and still have the years ahead of me. Though it seems the years ahead of me have quite shortened. It seems as if I have the will in me but I’m gradually losing the light behind my eyes..
This is an opportunity
Keep steady and keep moving forward. Do not lose sight and live by grace and love brother🙏🏼
John 12:35-36
Something better will roll around for you. The universe and your guides are always looking out for you. When one door closes. Another opens. Take this time to work on yourself and trust that what's meant for you is already yours.
I've been there. Best thing to do is stay in rhythm. Go to bed normal time and wake up with energy. Just so you can find a fitting job where they will acknowledge you for the person you are. It aint easy but you'll get there. As of this moment i have the same struggle
Finding a job isn't hard it find a job you love that's hard. I joined an catering agency to odd catering jobs, working in hotels and kitchens. It's not easy but you it keeps you active and gets you out of house and give you experience. There lots of apps agencies you can join. Indeed app is one. Depends on your country but l am sure there are similar agencies around the world?;
As I write this it is my 20th birthday 1:50am, it was a bland day, no cake, no friends over laughing and playing on the old swing set out back, there was no hugs from my grandma or a kiss on the forehead from my aunt's, or a charlie horse from my annoying cousins. What ever it maybe and no matter how hard we try we can never stay young forever, growing up is hard, to see all those childhood friends leave for their future endeavors, or moving away from that childhood house, it always hits hard knowing they will just be memories and nothing more. If anyone out there is reading this I hope life treats you well, make friends, lose friends, party, rest, live life, thats what we are all doing at the end of the day, lets just get through it together.
Happy birthday :) have an amazing rest of your life
@@rawjitter Thank you, hope life is easy on you too.
turned 21 at 12 am today and it’s now 4:02 am, very relatable lol. it’s so cool that im seeing this on my birthday :,)) here’s a hug from one bday kid to another, cheers to our new adult years. hope that it treats you very well
@@ang31ica Happy birthday! I hope life treats you well friend!
@caxoc5674 Thanks friend! Hope life is treating you well and continues to do so!
You’ve made it this far, gotta keep going. You owe it to yourself.
I read Ecclesiastes to this at night, I really recommend it! May God bless you!
To everything there is a season....
How coincidental !! I just finished it this night .
Am also reading religious texts!!
@@juliahart8593 yay god!
i thought it would just be a random playlist but it’s actually original music and i’m in awe, this is incredible
I have anxiety issues, and that has lead to experiences that felt like depression. My background taught me that I don’t deserve to be loved, and trying to leave that background hurts me terribly, even if I know that’s good for me. I’ve not fully accepted that I’m different to my current group of friends, but that being queer doesn’t mean I don’t deserve love. Right now I want to cry myself to sleep, hoping against how that I’ll find someone to love, and someone who loves me unconditionally .
No matter our preferences I truly believe we all deserve love. You are a human being that deserves to find love and to be loved for who you are, not what you are or aren't. ❤
No one will love you unconditionally, maybe just your parents.
remember that you can find it in yourself to be to love you always need. I wish you peace and happiness❤
unconditional love can come from God. I dont want to force it onto you, but ive found so much comfort and faith within christianity, and maybe you can too
I feel this same like nobody will be loving me or just be a friend to me. I have so nice people around me, people with I am working, family and friends from other countries but I feel like I am not connected with them but I am trying. For now I can’t be real self for them. I am so afraid that I will lose them and I will lose my opportunities.
Every night before I go to bed I read these comments on videos like this.
Makes me feel less alone in this big world.
Thoughts come easier when the world is finally quiet and the air feels a little easier to breathe.
this is what i am feeling 🍷💌
this is precisely why I dislike the daytime and try to avoid people as much as possible
Nothing beats the peaceful silence at night when everyone is asleep 💙🌌
a person once told me, "friends, family & lovers are kinda like flowers, once you find someone you care about, your relationship with them grows and grows, just like a flower, but sometimes that flower doesn't stay the same forever, neither does a person, so eventually that flower will wilt, and wilt until it is no more then a pile a petals. And the same goes with relationship's, as time goes on they become different, and your relationship with them wilts, and wilts, until it's like it never existed.Its a sad world we live in really. But hopefully, it'll be ok" that's been running through my mind this hole playlist.
thank you all for the likes🤍🤍🤍
"Friends family and lovers are like flowers because if you eat them they die :3" - idk where i saw that but it made me think of it.. im sorry pookie (sigh.. its like 3 am rn..)
That's why you need to keep watering them at regular intervals.
i've heard something similar, but it ended with the fact that you need to fall in love with someone's roots, not their flower and I found that really sweet :)
4 am on the dot as I start typing this. I had a great night out, went for a long drive, just to come home , flop on the bed and feel an absolutely ice cold blade hit my gut cause my mind at night when im alone is a level of loneliness, shame, regret, and absolute sorrow to a level that is physically impossible to minorly describe. So I thank you for this. As this will allow me to wake up and realize I'm gonna be okay. But to feel something so soul snatching and dark and to tell yourself "God I love this" is.... just what I call brain heroin. You wanna stop but you can't wait for the next fix even if it only.lasts a few hours. You need it no matter what. It wrecks you but eventually it just heals you. You become whole again.
I hope you don't feel lonely, I don't know you but I'm here to listen if you ever need to talk
Just because you're lonely it doesn't mean you're alone. We all get that gut deep loneliness feeling. We're here for you.
I'm lying in bed with my 14 year old female cat cuddled up beside me, it's 930pm here and I feel so peaceful and grateful. Memories of my past are flashing to me of times and instances that helped me become the man that I am, but at the time they felt like deep adversity and there was no way out. Sat here smiling thanking the Lord for everything he has done for me to make me the man I am. God bless you all and I hope you realize everything is for us, never against us. God bless.
October 6th.. Someone entered my life unexpectedly, as if they were written for me, as if they were my other half i never knew i needed.. 5 days ago things ended for good.. contemplating life is an understatement.. especially after losing someone very close.. to whom ever reading this, don't be too scared to love, it is often a memorable story that will live in your memories for a very long time.. if you are lucky.. for life.
I met a girl like that I think. I think the bond was so, idk, real or strong that it goes beyond terms thrown around nowadays like "twin souls" or "other half" or even marriage in its purest sense. It was pure unobligated companionship that I was lucky enough to experience. I don't even want to meet and settle with another girl cuz how contempt I was her ig. Or maybe on the off chance we'll meet again some day? Even if it's only a 0.01 % chance. Idk but I'm just glad I got to share the time with her when I did. I think about her every time I wake up cuz her memory is pretty nurturing. It must've left an impact cuz I'm finally taking care of my health and focusing on myself lol
12:30am and once again overthinking everything and realizing I need to change so much. I feel everyone around me isn’t experiencing this. I feel so alone, when I try to talk about things like this to others it seems I’m just annoying and being a downer. As I’ve cut a lot of addictions out of my life recently it’s left me in deep thoughts and thinking about things I can’t change. I’ve messed up a lot, and I don’t relate to others around. I hope this connects with other people and shows you aren’t alone in this battle. We can get through this. It’s a challenge. if it wasn’t, everyone would be happy and have everything. Stay strong
This video found me, sleepless summer night at 01:51am. The perfect tune of night! TH-cam is where we all insomniac come to find these sounds
I've always been the type of guy who never cared about his future nor school, but now I'm seventeen, sitting in front of my desk with papers full of information due to an exam I have tomorrow.
I am going through the hardest (and the last, as well) school year of my entire life. Recently I've realized that my whole life depends on myself, no one will make this work out for me, and I need to be the one who comforts me, the one who keeps myself up when things aren't going well...
Also, I've been dealing with really big waves of anxiety and a horrible mental health due to stress and stuff. It's really hard to keep it controlled, which makes my situation worse, since I've never felt "anxiety" as much as I'm doing lately. Listening to this kind of music somehow inspires me to keep going even if I'm at my lowest and if I'm only thinking about giving up, it gives me such comfort and peace even if my life's a chaos at the moment.
TW: some su1c1de ideation in this vent.
I'm having these roller-coaster rides of manics that go from peaks to deep valleys. Some days I want to call out of work, cry all day and do something stupid.
I've said time and time again that I don't want perish. I'm just tired. So tired that I want to sleep and never wake up. Dissapear in and not be anyones problem.
I'm on a waitlist to see a professional but I can't get medication until I am diagnosed, so I am stuck in this vicious cycle until I can see someone, or until these thoughts really do take over.
I've went from hoarding tendencies to throwing out more and more thinks weekly and it worries me that my cleaning manics are.. "preparing". I'm not sure what else to do other than work myself to exhaustion and sleep as long as I possibly can to avoid these thoughts.
I'm glad that, while I can't sleep, I have this comforting playlist to help me just breathe.
I hope anyone who took the time to read and could relate a little.. just know it gets better. We will get through this you and I. Maybe one day, we'll meet each other and not even know it.
Hang in there, if you need someone to vent to, I am here for you.
Thanks for sharing good luck partner I believe in you
I hope you know that you are not alone. I wish you well on your continuation to peace.
it’s coming up on the second anniversary of my last attempt. I worry that I am falling into some of the same habits I had back then, sleeping has become one of the things have suffered because of this, that’s why i’m here at 3:30 am typing this to tell you that it may not get better, and you may not always be as strong as you want to be, but you have been a positive space on this planet whether you accept that or not. You have brightened my night by reading this and hope that you can come back and read it again later in life. For now, get some rest. You need it.
Ik it's been a couple weeks since your post but I hope very much that you're doing alright. It's been roughly 7 or so years since my own "attempt" so I understand what you're going through at least in part, and I know that sooner or later you will be ok
Listening to this at 4 am lying in bed just thinking about life and the world around me not knowing what to do with my life but this feels so peaceful and lonely at the same time that it makes me cry.
love this blurred image of the city from afar....goes perfect with the tunes.
4am, 37 years old, don't know where I'm going..but I'm gonna give it a shot.
Go
listening to this seeing friends on steam that have been offline for over 4000 days... that i used to play regularly with. thinking of all the times i hung out with friends through highschool and after... and how theyre doing. im glad im not drinking tonight, and i should probably just go to bed.
goodnight guys.
Thank you for this video, I really needed this, it’s soothing.
Really struggling with my mental health at the moment, I feel like people close to me don’t understand me or what I’m going through.
I’ve also tried therapy but don’t seem to be getting anywhere. Feeling very lost and frustrated.
Hope everyone else in the comments is okay.
Take care,
J.
Keep your head up and be patient with yourself.
Focus on things that you like or wish to do and don't research things that are wrong about you online. One step at a time.
Even tho I'm not feeling alright and this gives me an escape, I want to feel grateful for having a new chance to get better and feeling better. Starting with God and destiny that guided me to this amazing video and channel. Tysm for reading and for being so strong, we'll get over this!
This is everything. Thank you for creating a safe space for those of us who......well...if you know you know if you're one of us.
Why.
Thats what im struggling with. Why do anything. Why work. why love. Why try. All I do is get up, go to work, and come home. The only reason I keep going on with things is because of the concequences if I dont. Is this life? Is this what im destined for? To spin in melancholy and quiet desperation til death?
I dont have a passion, I dont have a reason to try. Nothing really excites me. I think I slowly stopped caring. I feel like if i could go back 10 years I could somehow fix things.
The really sad part is im only 25, and yet I feel like the best parts of my life have past. And the "best" parts werent even that great.
Listen to some joji, start reading books, think about some stuff you always wanted to do as a kid and start trying to do them. Even if they're small, and probably silly. You are still young 🌱
I’m 25 too. Not alone in your struggles. I never felt such a lack of direction in my life, it is very tough.
Men I just came home after an hour and a half night walk with my best friend where we talked about so much. We had one of those moments where you let everything out, all our worries and that type of stuff. You know what I'm thinking about.
And now am just sitting here, listening to this at 11pm dieing for sleep but I have to finish my geography homework so yeah
I hope all of you are doing well and may God bless and help all of you when you are going through hard times
I'm afraid of failure, I can't seem to make progress in anything meaningful in my life because of fear and humiliation, I wish to be free of this fear...to be brave and try to accomplish something in my life...I don't want to be a coward but I know that deep inside I am.
worked till 10pm last night, today i open at 6am. This is nice to listen to as I get ready, thankyou
A Student here, rest you all know!!
Love your music❤❤
The soft candle glow
The music so slow
Your skin on my skin
The room is spinning
Nerve on my bone
I’m shaking away, oh no
I’m talking, though I should be
I’ve lost all sensibility
i had to let go of someone i spent everyday with for the past two and half years i loved her and she loved me… but it didn’t work out. saying goodbye hurts and acting like we never happened hurts more
4am, feeling horrible, but at least it will pass. Everyone finds a way to get through something. One way or another.
im reading Dracula.. and i can say: i found the perfect playlist for it
I wish I could read Dracula again for the first time. Man it wss so good
Listening to this at 10pm
I am going to be turning 21 soon and as I look back on my life, I really wasted my youth. I waste my days away in my room still living with parents that argue with each other often. I look back and think would my life have changed if I was more extroverted, if I didn’t worry about getting good grades, took more risks. Or would I still be stuck in the same place. I sleep everyday regretting my past as I wish I could have had a better life. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I am alone with only my thoughts. I currently have no dreams or goals. I feel like my life is coming to a close…
Anyways, these are some of thoughts that are always in the back of my mind.
You're only 21 bud. Life will get better just fight and work hard for whatever it is that you want
10.30pm in Argentina. Not too cold but not too hot either. August 29th. I don't know where my life is going, but I learned to not be afraid of that feeling. If you need a hug, receive one from me right now. Life is really not that serious, I believe. Think of it as a movie... it's a bit absurd, isn't it? Life's what you make of it (what you can with what you have).
God bless you.
Pluviophile, [ploo-vee-uh-fahyl] a person who enjoys rain and rainy days, and who is fascinated by the sights, sounds ect., of rain.
It's 2pm on a Wednesday and I'm tired of everyone's problems. I'm exhausted trying to hold up shields for everyone and fighting off negativity with my bare hands. I long for a flood to wash away all this mess for yet another hoard to grow to be complained about tomorrow. I hope for the dawn to break so the the sun can shine on maybe a different part of my future
look after yourself first and others second! I hope that you are able to keep some peace for yourself and attain balance ❤
Thank you for posting, and above all for creating. You are one of not so many people who happen to have the gift of creation, and use it rightfully. Keep the good work! 🙏🏻
I'm 40, I've been a nurse for 12 years and i currently work in the ER. my life feels completely directionless. i can never save any money because of costly chronic illness (ulcerative colitis). i have 26k in medical debt. i feel like all i do is work and never see anything worth it other than simply allowing me to survive.. and just to do even that, i have to steep myself in human misery constantly. at home, im lonely and isolated, i fall in to crushes that go nowhere and only hurt my feelings. waking up every day and leaving my bed takes tremendous effort, as my world around me feels more and more colorless and grey every single day. i tried therapy and quit. most days im content to just lose my mind and numb myself with cannabis, and sometimes psychedellics. i don't know how much longer i will go on like this. but i was here, i tried to go along with the program. i wish i could apologize to everyone in my life that ever believed in me, specially to my little-kid past self. i let him down most of all.
These comments ❤️🩹 May we find solace in the depths of our unspoken sorrows, and release the burden of overthinking and fixating on those who have caused us pain. I wish you all healing.
I really love views of cities at night from far away like this one. Something about them is just so peaceful.
1:10 am writing this. Existing sure is hard, especially when being happy is more uncomfortable than feeling sad or nothing. I’ve made a lot of progress and gone through a lot, but I’ll occasionally hit that same wall again and think, “Was I ever better? Did all of my hard work just go to waste?” Of course that isn’t true, because progress isn’t linear and everything is one step at a time. But it’s hard to accept that sometimes. Music like this is always good company though, it helps me feel more accepted. You guys are doing better than you think. Believe in the Ambi that believes in you
This is the one video that I can always fall asleep to. Thank you.
Its weird how people like pop, rap, and metal. But im starting to thing that ambient music, is becoming more of a favorite 😅.
I find it almost impossible now after unplugging from The System to listen to music with words in it.
@@therealericjackdanielsvery true
Guess I'll add my thoughts here as well. I know there's a God I just, don't know which one. So whenever life gets to be too much I just sit and talk, and invite the universe or 'God' to listen. I voice my thoughts, wishes, I ask for guidance, help. Sometimes I feel like I'm just talking to myself, others I feel like, I'm being guided purposefully by this force. Whatever the case may be, I know the times we're living in will build lots of character, that goes for anyone, not just me. Anyone thats going through something, I urge you, just cry out. Talk. Have that 'mental breakdown' because it's okay. It's moments like those where we can really analyze everything and find a ways to success. I wish everyone the best. ❤
I truly believe, God puts everyone on a path, in the only good thing to do is ask for the tools for you to continue to fill your purpose
Only 10:09 on a Friday night and I'm already overthinking everything. Anxiety starts to kick in and the dark cloud of depression hangs over. At least I have these sounds, my fellow insomniacs and the night. The only time that I feel somewhat at peace. Thank you for a safe space! Blessings to you all! ❤
It’s midnight and i just can’t help but contemplate my life’s purpose. Why am I here? Why was I born? I’m stuck at this wage slavery job where I work 10-12 hours, 4-5 days a week and it is indeed sucking my soul out. I am close to getting fired for a multitude of reasons. I am barely getting by. But I am tired. Physically and mentally. Broke. Depressed. Lost. My mother departed two years ago and its just been so hard for me to continue moving on all on my own. I feel so drained to the point that I’ve been contemplating suicide realising the reality that we are forced to only live to work and work to survive. I am 25 years young with so much life ahead of me but some days it gets to a point where I want to give up. But I don’t know where I get the willpower to continue getting out of my bed and go out to live my life though at times it feels pointless. I hope it will get better. Nonetheless, I hope to whomever is listening to this finds solace, empathy and peace. Stay strong and God bless, friend. Tomorrow will be another day.
It's 4 am and I can't sleep this is relatable
i love the music - it's so liminal and isolating in a good way. thank you for the video, i wish you well stranger ❤
Almost every other person in my life has a significant other and is in a decent relationship that they've been in for years now, I've never had a first date, a first kiss, I've barely had friends in life, I was the outcast of the outcasts, I occasionally enjoy my life, but most days im going through the motions at best with occasional blips where im genuinely happy and at worst am wasting my time trying the minimize my perception of my own waste of a life.
Come back when ur first significant other shows you u, you never meant anything to them , then come back when your second ex does u worse then your first one because u told her everything and she uses it as a playbook because it was just a game to her too
I had a talk with my uncle yesterday about my career choses.. "You have to do something you hate to get the things that you need and want" that thought is scary to me. I amd afraid of the future now... People usually say do things that you love but now it's time to get serious and think about how i have to bee useful to society to survive.. I just want to live in peace in a field of flowers in a cottage somewhere but that's a dreamers dream.
Hahah i sound so childish and selfish
@@amidong3010no you don’t
A lot of us dream of that and that’s okay because non of us signed up for this
11:37PM and I’m simply doing my best. Don’t force yourself to be perfect, none of us can do that. Remember that you, like everyone else, are human. Stay strong, and do your best. Even if it’s not that much today, tomorrow is another day ❤
This is so pure, thank you ❤
Everyday feels like a constant drag of repetitive tasks till I get to the weekend to do it all over again after a small break. Doesn't even feel like a break anymore..
s/o to all the overthinkers ... sleepless night over and over. Hang On felows we're the chosen ones
chosen ones...i would love believe that..can't wait for déãth to come
That first song has me stuck on repeat ❤
I’d like to associate my friends with colours.
Red is my favourite, I see red in every stop sign and beautiful sunset.
Orange seems to follow me, it’s on the walls of my room, the covers of my school books.
Yellow is my colour, the colour of the sun we would draw in the corner of our drawings as kids
Green I could live without, I see it in the grass I walk along, but I mostly pay attention to the sky
Blue is a type of neutral for me, it’s not associated with anything other than the limitless sky that I just can’t reach.
Purple is best on me, it’s a hollow comforting colour, the shades match with whatever I seem to be
Pink I like to think is reds favourite, they’re shades of eachother I seem to see in his cheeks whenever I come near.
(Yes Ik this is shitty but uhh I felt like writing)
Im in a very closed off village on an island in greece. Everyone knows each other. I never had a big family. But here everyone lives together. They leave keys on the door and any family member or other villager can come in.
This is so beautiful, you composed and played this? wow. Lovely.
when you look at life without any previous knowing and you just open your eyes , you realize that nights are so cool and intimate . what a miracle are we in . blessings to all 🙌
this is beautiful.
you are really good at making calming music. +sub
Thank you definitely needed a cry. I couldn't no matter what for the past couple days. Idk what it is. Things aren't the same nothing feels right anymore. Idk what im doing. Something feels off like something bad is gonna happen. I just feel it.
This playlist is a gift. Thank you so much.
I'm losing my best friend due to stupid argument but I don't want to be the one (as always) to save this friendship up and apologize since I did nothing wrong.
I don't want to lose myself and it sucks..
2:23 am. I feel empty. But i hold hope, for myself and anyone reading, that this feeling will subside. And all will work out in the end. Because it all has up to this point.
May god bless and protect
you. May your life take a
good turn where you feel
your own energy again . ♡
@ritahorvath8207 thank you 🫶
They say the road to heaven is like hell
And the road to hell is like heaven
Look like a joke
Matthew 7:13-14
This is gold; you are exquisite at creating the ambient so perfect it creates its own space and time.. This is the perfect consolation.
Thank you so much for making this beautiful art..
I very recently overdosed in a half arsed attempt at my own life, worst night of my life and although I in the morning confessed to people who could provide proffesional help, I feel so much shame for having done it.
Although it was a decision made with total apathy, an apathy I had developed subconsciously to cope with my inability to let go of every little thing I felt ashamed of, I don't know if much has changed following the event, for my own sense of self. But I hope it has in some way been a kick innthe face to get my life in order, there's so much to be done and so little time for me to fix everything
Keep fighting 💪 you got this, I believe in you
Would like to hear more like this. Good stuff
Me too is so sweet and relxing misic have nice night my friend❤
the sound of the rain and the scent of wet grass. it sticks to your body and awakens the soul.
just a random small artist from Vietnam, wish u guys all the best, bless your soul and warm your heart
Its midnight i have my own playlist like this ive made on Spotify but for some reason feels less lonely over here, so thanks 🥂
Literally this song have a different vibe, feels like approach my heart
Its 11:27 pm, In this life I work as a security guard at a hospital. I'm currently assigned the mental health unit, as I sit here i cant help feeling the history from the unit hunt my imagination. Thought all the patients are asleep, I hear the yelling, the outbursts and the phycological break downs. As my train of thought moves forward I ride into my own mistake and defects, i see how my decision got me to where im at in life, who i made suffer, what i could have done. A loud noise brings me back to the present (the commercial break)and i realize i need to be in the present in the quiet hear the playlist and just sit.
Always staying tuned for your next creation.
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I dont need them to be asleep for that. But the night and the quiet is so beautiful. I wish it'd be night forever.
It’s 1 am, family is asleep, and the girl I have the biggest crush on will never like me back. Thank you for this playlist
So far this is very good for thinking and just feeling.
Thank you for this playlist. Really needed some comfort given I have sensed weird and know some shady things spouse of a friend did so am processing the worst in advance. What is a kind friend when compared to being in a bed with a ruthless lover?
Oh. Wow. You saved the best until last :)
My favorite. When words become water was nice too. I enjoyed all of them tho tbh
Oh yeah this will definitely hit 1mil.
Good night ❤
I’m fed, I’m warm, I’m healthy, thank you God for freeing me of those shackles and the pressure to “Be something”. You have blessed me and gifted me with family so for that I will cherish,love, and care for the gift you have given me. Amen.
It's 11.55pm. I know it's hardly "late" but everyone else is asleep and I'm here thinking about my future...
I have work 6am but I lay in bed trying to distract myself from the fearful "what-if"s and trauma from past memories.... One word triggered this whole cascade... It started with adrenaline rush through my body like a cold sweat, my heart was pounding in my head...and now I'm contemplating driving out in my car to the closest dam I could find and either park there and skip work tomorrow or maybe never even go back home... Or maybe I could drive the car in that dam and be gone for good.
I think about the people I would leave behind. My pet rabbit.. and maybe even the things I have to clean after if I just end up skipping work and going back home after my midnight "rendezvous"... it's not worth it....
But then again... nothing seems to be worth it... No matter how much I work or rise up the ranks I can't even afford a house.. The owner of the place we are renting wants to sell this home... I don't know where to go.... but at the same time is it even worth finding a new place...? Wouldn't it be so much easier if I died and didn't have to worry where my body lives...
I really hope seeing from you in the morning
can't say anything encouraging. I feel the same, everything is pointless...
I've done a lot of reflecting these past few months, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that someday I'll have to say goodbye to certain parts of my life. A part of me is scared to leave home, a part of me wants to marry, and a part of me regrets never trying to look for a partner in college. I want to reach out, but I'm scared of getting hurt or wasting my time. God, if you want me to find a husband, let that be clear to me.
As the bible said, God won't put a test in our way knowing that we won't be able to make it, let the spirit rest, for God, with the love of a caring father, will only want goodness in our lives, so leave the work to him, for he yearn for us to have peace, and as to us?. We can only do what we can, and that, is to be kind, with ourselves, and with others, amen
Same here, I want to have a family of my own someday but I live in too much fear
The best time of the day ❤
Currently tipsy from drinking Soju. Contemplating about my life. Honestly....I do not know what I am doing with my life. I'm just....here....clueless...floating....
Very relaxing after a tough writing day
It's 3:48 AM I'm outside sitting on my Rockwall and while im listening to this I keep thinking that life will get better, I'm not gonna be depressed or suciedal anymore but as time goes on a part of me dies because I know the real truth on how the world works. 🌎💔❣️
Ill add this to my long list of music i listen too 24/7 to try to feel better too or just to listen to it
Only on the first song but than you for the upbeat vibe to these songs. Too many videos playing similar music are really sad and I can’t stand to listen to them due to all the pain. However again this video is perfect so far thanks.
picture looks just like one i took from fushimi inari in 2018... good memories. this music is so soothing 💕
Deep thoughts focused calm relaxed 7pm... ❤ playlist❤❤
amazing
I just broke things off with this girl i was talking to these past few months, and of course, she did not take it well and i dont know what to think at the moment.
I've been rotting in my bed for a couple weeks with no job, no education. Most of the friends that close to me are busy with their schools, college and jobs and some even move abroad. I don't wanna live my life like this. I wanna live everyday with no regrets. I wanna explore the world.