Reflecting over the past 30+ years... despite my solid, unique, and most arduous efforts and achievements... I don't believe the evidence shows that I've made the *least* amount of difference. However, that's not really in my direct control; it takes TWO to tango, suckah! 💪😎✌️ Yer only influential if others PERMIT and acknowledge it. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
*3 AM THOUGHTS* It was 3 in the morning. I jolted awake. The whole town was sleeping, as I stared into the darkness. I forgot to close the door to my bedroom, and the hallway looked as if it was an endless abyss. I turned on the lights, and my eyes stung. My breath was shallow, and I cursed under it. Why this hour? The rain outside was incessant, the window binds crackled against the delicate glass surface. It might have been a thunderstorm just a little bit earlier, and I swear I could hear faint roaring in the distance. The air was a little bit too cold, as I adjusted my position on the bed and I still shivered under my blanket. It was as if, I was alone in the world. My thoughts began racing endlessly. What if, what if I I just disappear from this world tonight, without any trace? Would anyone actually miss me? Would it be a tearjerker, tragic story, or simply a sensational headline? Would anyone other than my parents feel like a dent was left in their heart? What could have happened, had I not been born into this world? Ironically, 3 AM is always the *perfect* time to dwell on these destructive thoughts, and it was as if, the world was telling me, that I would be alone, at the end of the day. And it did not make feel better, that I was actually not alone. It just hurt me, that this was a pain that I did not bear on my own. If I said these thoughts out loud, it would break the hearts of many. “You are important,” they would say. Yet I just could not stop. Nothing could stop my overflowing thoughts. It was probably the illusion of the endlessly long hallway, and the melancholic rain. In about 4 hours, the sun would appear, and I would forget that I ever felt this way. But then again, I would wake up at 3 AM, the thoughts racing endlessly, a vicious circle I did not know how to put an end to. I turned off all the lights, and went back to sleep. Hoping that I would not wake up at 3AM, but I know it was just futile. It will be 3 in the morning. I jolt awake. The whole town is sleeping, as I stare into the darkness.
I still stay awake all night overthinking everything crying stressing out over the past but I tried being present with myself and I noticed a lot of things the flowers that bloomed next to my window the beautiful canvases I spent hours painting and drawing my childhood stuff animals and my little sister growing fast the cold relaxing breeze from the air conditioner the books I spent hours reading my body and how I feel actually beautiful for the first time in ages and my mom who spent hours cooking and cleaning and taking care of us my dad that spent late hours working at night so we could see him when we wake up I also got courage to open Minecraft and explore my old worlds with my brother I opened Roblox and I called my best friend that I haven’t seen in a week and played old Roblox games the day ended and I felt proud of where I am how I look the people around me most people look at the dark side of life and forget about the good side even if life gets rough you deserve a break ❤
Whatever you are feeling is a hole that cannot be filled by whatever you do in the world, your spirit has been crushed and destroyed, there is only one who can fill that and that is Jesus Christ the God of the heavens and the earth. Many have left Him for the pleasures of the world forgetting how he got whipped, spit, and beat having to carry the cross with open gouging wounds for the sake of our souls because of our sins while being mocked and persecuted, do you realize how much love that carries? God sent Him, the only human who was not wicked for YOU. Judgement day is coming but He is being patient with many by waiting as love is patient and He is Love itself, you must repent and deny yourselves taking up your cross which many are not willing to do. Follow His Holy commandments and you will take Joy in them and ask God to deliver you and have mercy to remove your addictions and give you the strength. We must come to him with a humble heart and I promise you will find what true peace and Joy is. “But why does a loving God allow evil?” Because he has given you a choice to love him, is it love if somebody forces you to love them? No it is not. “But I don’t have the time” there is always time to spend with God and the Joy is amazing with an everlasting reward of heaven at the end of the ages. It isn’t just boring life but an eternal life with Joy and worship to serve our God and make him happy! I speak this from experience and I am beyond happy with the gift of knowing Him and having His love. Repent and believe he died for your sins. Please consider these words and give Him at least one chance before it’s all over, God bless you and have a good day my Brothers and Sisters ❤
Years ago I lost the girl I loved. She died in an accident. Even now still after all these years, I still love her, and I miss her and grieve her. Since she died I felt lost and adrift in the world. Like a ghost drifting through the world, without a clear purpose, disconnected from the world itself. So many times I wished it would have been me, and really just wished that somehow I could hold her in my arms again. I am still grieving her today, somehow despite everything unable to move on. She was my sweet fox, and I miss her so much. I would trade the entire world, just to see her one more time. 😭 She felt like my other half. 😭😭
Lost her in 2021 along with my first child In a car accident while i was the only one to make it believe me i feel you completely just trying to fill a void that’s never going to be patched hope you get better soon ❤
@@Wifijumper I am so sorry. I know how devastating it feels. That there is just nothing you could do. I felt so helpless. I was meant to protect her. So I know how it feels. How it is like a void that is never going to be patched. And thank you. You too! ❤
These days this playlist actually makes me feel the opposite. It's like what it feels like to slowly reappear from having been faded away for years. Like I'm feeling things again and it honestly hurts in such a beautiful way Also I'm profoundly happy with the comments section. It reminds me that I'm not the only one in the world that feels things so deeply to the point of physical pain. It's a great feeling to know there are kindred spirits somewhere out in this massive, small world.
You are not alone in how you feel. You have support and fan base here. Just take care of you and reach out for a hand that knows what you are going thru. We are here whether we want to be or not so we can at least chill together, listen to some ethereally hauntingly beautiful music together and breathe for awhile.
Hello strangers. I just want you all to know I love you. Even if I might not be here soon. Even if I go to Heaven by my own hand soon. I'll love you from Heaven. All of you. You matter. Please, remember that. Even if I won't be here to tell you that later. I'll love you from Heaven. Now, for my little venting session I wrote just now "Greetings, dear strangers. I've always been a gifted child. Perfect grades in every single subject for six years straight. But now, after moving to a different country, struggling to adjust and make real friends, spiraling the furthest I've been in my depression, getting panic attacks every single day, I burnt out. I'm done trying. Being a gifted burnout is weird. On one hand, now that my grades aren't perfect in every class, I feel useless and like I want to go to Heaven if you get what I mean, on the other, I get like 65-80% on literally everything without studying at all. I have multiple panic attacks every day I'm in school, I go 0 days without crying and wanting to rest in peace, again, if you know what I mean, but my parents are still happy and know almost nothing. At least I have a therapist. Seeing her again in a week and a half if I'm not wrong, going in some new clothes to show off, hope she'll like it. See you all in Heaven someday, good morning, day or night, night for me, to all of you. Good luck, and don't forget, even if I die, you know you'll matter to someone, because I'll love you from Heaven, dear strangers. Sincerely, from yours truly, RXQ, a depressed teenager who lives every single day thinking I won't live another one, going to Heaven by my own hand. Goodbye." Goodbye. I'll see you all in Heaven soon. -RXQ, 1:30AM, 09/09/24
Бро этот комментарий заставил меня почувствовать ком в горле.. мне так плохо я незнаю почему..не могу найти себя в жизни.. И не понимаю чего я на самом деле хочу от мира.
Please reply signifying that you are safe and okay. The world can care, I care, you just need to keep your eyes open to see it. This is your sign to keep going, I love you, whoever you are.❤
There was a girl in another comment thread that had a very similar message, so its kind of surreal to see a almost identical message in this one, it was called "is this reality?" from lost souls channel making ambient. i can suggest writing to her in the comments when you find it and see if you can talk a bit, if you're still there..
To fade to the background is seemingly a stage when your own existence becomes vague without any sound of the world playing on low shades day by day. This is not like departing this world otherwise; but simply a quiet aloofness, which is said to sometimes be the withdrawal of some kind of hurry in the world. The act of fading is comparable to the reduction of the foot level that ascends the sky though engulfs less sunshine in the same provided time, a beauty which communicates what does not can be said or seen. In the midst of the feeling is also a mixture of strange dualities - in one faded, one feels proud of being part of the entire universe, or at least some power that works within rather than against the self. That is the hope, drawn to the understanding something that is more true, more peaceful and more complete. It is an almost unnoticeable process at first, much like the soft fading of a memory. A feeling of disconnection starts to creep in-not from other people but from yourself. The edges of who you are start to soften, as though you are no longer as sharply defined as you used to be. All conversations start to sound the same, even the sound of your voice fades into the noise floor. You start to exist in the world, like an image painted that is slowly being washed over with the color of time. You're there, but not quite. There’s at the very beginning a vague apprehension-a sense of slipping in between the crevices. You may find yourself turning to the safe elements, to the pleasures that once made you happy, to the people that once kept you grounded. In attempting to grasp this clearly, a paradox shows itself-due to how much one resists letting go, the essence of things slips away even more in the process. Every effort to keep things in the present only seems to make the world further away as if dissolving into nothing and you are trapped in between the lack and excess of ones’ presence. It’s quite the state of peaceful isolation in which you could possibly hear the thumping of your heart simple. 🤍
i had a friend, her name was janet. we were 7. we always played together. but she always drifts away cause of work. one day when it was her birthday she just somehow disappeared in the party, i just thought she was still sleeping, but everyone left the party. i checked her room and she wasn’t there. she turned 12. i was already 13. she’s no longer a child, but i’m still childish. so she just left me and went to new mature friends? i can’t change, that’s what god made me like. it’s like where she faded away from me. is she touch starved? is she in a bad mood? am i really an over thinker? i’m trying to not be over dramatic but i love you to whoever is reading this. and for janet, my dear friend who left me, i don’t care about you anymore. your really some pathetic ignorant person who only cares about the looks, or the more mature people. see you can see all those different personalities wandering around the surface of our beautiful earth, but your ugly heart has just a different sensation. you can have fun in many ways but i think this is just torture to me. before you left me, i already prepared gifts. i bought you an extra birthday cake. i ate that cake alone. doesn’t feel the same anymore. you’ve just faded away like a pencil erasing a mistake. your the mistake. your randomly avoiding me at all times. just go and don’t bother me anymore. don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to my heart. i love you to the people reading this again. your special. needa hand? of course, we can be moots!:)
Whatever you are feeling is a hole that cannot be filled by whatever you do in the world, your spirit has been crushed and destroyed, there is only one who can fill that and that is Jesus Christ the God of the heavens and the earth. Many have left Him for the pleasures of the world forgetting how he got whipped, spit, and beat having to carry the cross with open gouging wounds for the sake of our souls because of our sins while being mocked and persecuted, do you realize how much love that carries? God sent Him, the only human who was not wicked for YOU. Judgement day is coming but He is being patient with many by waiting as love is patient and He is Love itself, you must repent and deny yourselves taking up your cross which many are not willing to do. Follow His Holy commandments and you will take Joy in them and ask God to deliver you and have mercy to remove your addictions and give you the strength. We must come to him with a humble heart and I promise you will find what true peace and Joy is. “But why does a loving God allow evil?” Because he has given you a choice to love him, is it love if somebody forces you to love them? No it is not. “But I don’t have the time” there is always time to spend with God and the Joy is amazing with an everlasting reward of heaven at the end of the ages. It isn’t just boring life but an eternal life with Joy and worship to serve our God and make him happy! I speak this from experience and I am beyond happy with the gift of knowing Him and having His love. Repent and believe he died for your sins. Please consider these words and give Him at least one chance before it’s all over, God bless you and have a good day my Brothers and Sisters ❤
not sure who will see this or who will care. i feel though as ive slowly given up on those who have truly made me happy, thrown away the joys i had once in life. i used to seek enjoyment and fulfilment but now i seek only to make it to the next day hoping for something to change? i used to think i was healing but only after years of that i understand i wasnt healing i was pretending. i got used to it i was so young so i was good at hiding it until it didnt feel like i had to hide it became me... normal. i wish to be happy and smile to feel loved and to share that love i wish i could say that time was now but more and more i cant find that time being now. i know i should be happy ive made it far ive overcome obstacles in life some people might not even think of and yet still that darkness creeps slowly back into my life day by day. i hope for anyone who has actual read this that you achieve the goals you want. i know my goals in life changed a long time ago from dreaming big to just surviving but i know each person idk how many might read even skim this you will succeed because if ive made it this far what makes it so you all cant. i wish to dream of a future i reread this comment and smile because ill know the journey i took after this day and to be where i am then, content. i wish to make people proud of me, go on adventures with friends,family strangers even to live a life of fulfillment whatever that means to enjoy every moment as ive lost so many. i hope one day i can see this comment i wrote and know i healed and i survived and i conquered my biggest fears and pain. i hope i can love myself how everyone else loves me and understand that feeling.
Hello stranger, whoever you are. Always remember that there are people in this world who care and appreciate you. If you strive to keep your eyes open too see it, you will. The world loves you, and this is your sign to stay strong. ❤
I am starting to see the end of my journy through this life, sadly apart from a few happy events which never to last very long, i am so tired now i hope there is some peace at the end of this journy...
Reflect, oh, sentient ones. Recite the hex of final vows. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
Hello, whoever you are. Always remember that there are people in this world who care and appreciate you. If you strive to keep your eyes open too see it, you will. Love you stranger, this is your sign to stay strong. ❤
Someone said I should learn to control and help myself since I am emotionally weak... I don't want to lose that person, I am longing for that person's comfort but I guess it's too much to ask because it seems like I am destroying that person's life... I just don't know what to do.
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
How about everyone who says the world would be better off without them, take a second a think, maybe stay around and stick it in the craw of all those who wish you gone. Stay here to continue their misery instead of giving them what they want. There is a place for you This world is for all of us not the few that think they own it! My life is a hard one and if anyone(that i told how much strife i had would probably say why have you not ended it all) Answer so every morning when i wake up its a big fucking middle finger to those who hate mr and wish me a dirt nap, Yeah im here just to fuck with you haters ! Luv ya! 😂😂😂😂 🕊❤️🌞
Every circle begins with its end. The real question is, though... will you *recognize* when you pass beyond the zero-crossing point? Must give us pause. Reflection is key. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
Lembre-se que tudo é ilusão criada na mente do TODO, logo partiremos para o infinito e veremos novos universos, viajaremos até o fim dos tempos. Somos eternos, pois eterno são os sonhos.
Shout out to Travis, Jacob, Jamie, Lucca, Lukas, Kevin and Bradley I know there is a very slim chance youre reading this but i hope you bois are doing well - Ayden
Always wonder what the composers are thinking about as they create such magnificent piece. I hope they know that their work soothes the heart and soul of many. ❤🩹
Почему все вокруг такие злые друг на друга у каждого есть свои причины ненавидеть друг друга или вообще всех но от этого никому лучше не становится мир и так полон зла так зачем все это Забавно что некоторые люди хотят быть счастливыми при этом видеть в этом мире одни минусы
Whatever you are feeling is a hole that cannot be filled by whatever you do in the world, your spirit has been crushed and destroyed, there is only one who can fill that and that is Jesus Christ the God of the heavens and the earth. Many have left Him for the pleasures of the world forgetting how he got whipped, spit, and beat having to carry the cross with open gouging wounds for the sake of our souls because of our sins while being mocked and persecuted, do you realize how much love that carries? God sent Him, the only human who was not wicked for YOU. Judgement day is coming but He is being patient with many by waiting as love is patient and He is Love itself, you must repent and deny yourselves taking up your cross which many are not willing to do. Follow His Holy commandments and you will take Joy in them and ask God to deliver you and have mercy to remove your addictions and give you the strength. We must come to him with a humble heart and I promise you will find what true peace and Joy is. “But why does a loving God allow evil?” Because he has given you a choice to love him, is it love if somebody forces you to love them? No it is not. “But I don’t have the time” there is always time to spend with God and the Joy is amazing with an everlasting reward of heaven at the end of the ages. It isn’t just boring life but an eternal life with Joy and worship to serve our God and make him happy! I speak this from experience and I am beyond happy with the gift of knowing Him and having His love. Repent and believe he died for your sins. Please consider these words and give Him at least one chance before it’s all over, God bless you and have a good day my Brothers and Sisters ❤
Listen on Spotify - spoti.fi/3l0BFgw 💙
I know this is annoying or you hear it alot but, the world is genuinely a better place with you in it I'm so proud of you, whoever you are.
You have an amazing soul🩶Im so glad that you are here :3
I love you a lot random stranger, thanks for being born
Real
Reflecting over the past 30+ years... despite my solid, unique, and most arduous efforts and achievements... I don't believe the evidence shows that I've made the *least* amount of difference. However, that's not really in my direct control; it takes TWO to tango, suckah! 💪😎✌️ Yer only influential if others PERMIT and acknowledge it.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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-- Diamond Dragons (series)
i thought i must end, but then i saw your comment >3 , i love you a lot random stranger !!
19:06 This video really helped me relax in the dark. Now I no longer feel anxious in the dark. I actually feel at peace. It means a lot to me :)
*3 AM THOUGHTS*
It was 3 in the morning. I jolted awake. The whole town was sleeping, as I stared into the darkness.
I forgot to close the door to my bedroom, and the hallway looked as if it was an endless abyss.
I turned on the lights, and my eyes stung.
My breath was shallow, and I cursed under it. Why this hour?
The rain outside was incessant, the window binds crackled against the delicate glass surface. It might have been a thunderstorm just a little bit earlier, and I swear I could hear faint roaring in the distance.
The air was a little bit too cold, as I adjusted my position on the bed and I still shivered under my blanket.
It was as if, I was alone in the world.
My thoughts began racing endlessly. What if, what if I I just disappear from this world tonight, without any trace?
Would anyone actually miss me? Would it be a tearjerker, tragic story, or simply a sensational headline? Would anyone other than my parents feel like a dent was left in their heart?
What could have happened, had I not been born into this world?
Ironically, 3 AM is always the *perfect* time to dwell on these destructive thoughts, and it was as if, the world was telling me, that I would be alone, at the end of the day.
And it did not make feel better, that I was actually not alone. It just hurt me, that this was a pain that I did not bear on my own.
If I said these thoughts out loud, it would break the hearts of many. “You are important,” they would say.
Yet I just could not stop. Nothing could stop my overflowing thoughts.
It was probably the illusion of the endlessly long hallway, and the melancholic rain. In about 4 hours, the sun would appear, and I would forget that I ever felt this way.
But then again, I would wake up at 3 AM, the thoughts racing endlessly, a vicious circle I did not know how to put an end to.
I turned off all the lights, and went back to sleep.
Hoping that I would not wake up at 3AM, but I know it was just futile.
It will be 3 in the morning. I jolt awake. The whole town is sleeping, as I stare into the darkness.
💙
this is beautiful bro. You really have a way with words.
Dude, amazingly written! If you aren't already, you should be an author/poet.
хорошее начало для мрей книги...
❤
I still stay awake all night overthinking everything crying stressing out over the past but I tried being present with myself and I noticed a lot of things the flowers that bloomed next to my window the beautiful canvases I spent hours painting and drawing my childhood stuff animals and my little sister growing fast the cold relaxing breeze from the air conditioner the books I spent hours reading my body and how I feel actually beautiful for the first time in ages and my mom who spent hours cooking and cleaning and taking care of us my dad that spent late hours working at night so we could see him when we wake up I also got courage to open Minecraft and explore my old worlds with my brother I opened Roblox and I called my best friend that I haven’t seen in a week and played old Roblox games the day ended and I felt proud of where I am how I look the people around me most people look at the dark side of life and forget about the good side even if life gets rough you deserve a break ❤
Whatever you are feeling is a hole that cannot be filled by whatever you do in the world, your spirit has been crushed and destroyed, there is only one who can fill that and that is Jesus Christ the God of the heavens and the earth. Many have left Him for the pleasures of the world forgetting how he got whipped, spit, and beat having to carry the cross with open gouging wounds for the sake of our souls because of our sins while being mocked and persecuted, do you realize how much love that carries? God sent Him, the only human who was not wicked for YOU. Judgement day is coming but He is being patient with many by waiting as love is patient and He is Love itself, you must repent and deny yourselves taking up your cross which many are not willing to do. Follow His Holy commandments and you will take Joy in them and ask God to deliver you and have mercy to remove your addictions and give you the strength. We must come to him with a humble heart and I promise you will find what true peace and Joy is. “But why does a loving God allow evil?” Because he has given you a choice to love him, is it love if somebody forces you to love them? No it is not. “But I don’t have the time” there is always time to spend with God and the Joy is amazing with an everlasting reward of heaven at the end of the ages. It isn’t just boring life but an eternal life with Joy and worship to serve our God and make him happy! I speak this from experience and I am beyond happy with the gift of knowing Him and having His love. Repent and believe he died for your sins. Please consider these words and give Him at least one chance before it’s all over, God bless you and have a good day my Brothers and Sisters ❤
InshAllah things get better for you sister,wishing you the best,Allah is the only way to fill whatever sadness you are going through ❤
You are such a kind and beautiful soul and person ❤ I hope that you ALL succeed in the near future ♡
I have never related more. Your experience is close to mine. We can both get through this
@War-And-Hope why are you spreading hate?
I'm always listening music like this one while studying, and actually I hate school and homework, but the vibe that gives music...Aaah it's too good
Years ago I lost the girl I loved. She died in an accident. Even now still after all these years, I still love her, and I miss her and grieve her. Since she died I felt lost and adrift in the world. Like a ghost drifting through the world, without a clear purpose, disconnected from the world itself. So many times I wished it would have been me, and really just wished that somehow I could hold her in my arms again. I am still grieving her today, somehow despite everything unable to move on. She was my sweet fox, and I miss her so much. I would trade the entire world, just to see her one more time. 😭 She felt like my other half. 😭😭
Lost her in 2021 along with my first child In a car accident while i was the only one to make it believe me i feel you completely just trying to fill a void that’s never going to be patched hope you get better soon ❤
@@Wifijumper I am so sorry. I know how devastating it feels. That there is just nothing you could do. I felt so helpless. I was meant to protect her. So I know how it feels. How it is like a void that is never going to be patched. And thank you. You too! ❤
@@Wifijumperwe can make other baby
I know it is hard now, but I wish you a peaceful life. From Japan
You know it's gonna hit hard if it starts with rain on my window
This playlist is pretty chilling. I normally listen to it while I am on a long drive home.
These days this playlist actually makes me feel the opposite. It's like what it feels like to slowly reappear from having been faded away for years. Like I'm feeling things again and it honestly hurts in such a beautiful way
Also I'm profoundly happy with the comments section. It reminds me that I'm not the only one in the world that feels things so deeply to the point of physical pain. It's a great feeling to know there are kindred spirits somewhere out in this massive, small world.
Absolutely the safest spot ever! 🛡🔥
You are not alone in how you feel. You have support and fan base here. Just take care of you and reach out for a hand that knows what you are going thru. We are here whether we want to be or not so we can at least chill together, listen to some ethereally hauntingly beautiful music together and breathe for awhile.
Fade away… yes… for only one second!!!
We need you … so talented human being who has a lot of love to give too…
Xoxo ❤
Hello strangers. I just want you all to know I love you. Even if I might not be here soon. Even if I go to Heaven by my own hand soon. I'll love you from Heaven. All of you. You matter. Please, remember that. Even if I won't be here to tell you that later. I'll love you from Heaven.
Now, for my little venting session I wrote just now
"Greetings, dear strangers.
I've always been a gifted child. Perfect grades in every single subject for six years straight. But now, after moving to a different country, struggling to adjust and make real friends, spiraling the furthest I've been in my depression, getting panic attacks every single day, I burnt out. I'm done trying.
Being a gifted burnout is weird. On one hand, now that my grades aren't perfect in every class, I feel useless and like I want to go to Heaven if you get what I mean, on the other, I get like 65-80% on literally everything without studying at all. I have multiple panic attacks every day I'm in school, I go 0 days without crying and wanting to rest in peace, again, if you know what I mean, but my parents are still happy and know almost nothing. At least I have a therapist. Seeing her again in a week and a half if I'm not wrong, going in some new clothes to show off, hope she'll like it.
See you all in Heaven someday, good morning, day or night, night for me, to all of you. Good luck, and don't forget, even if I die, you know you'll matter to someone, because I'll love you from Heaven, dear strangers.
Sincerely, from yours truly, RXQ, a depressed teenager who lives every single day thinking I won't live another one, going to Heaven by my own hand. Goodbye."
Goodbye. I'll see you all in Heaven soon.
-RXQ, 1:30AM, 09/09/24
Бро этот комментарий заставил меня почувствовать ком в горле.. мне так плохо я незнаю почему..не могу найти себя в жизни.. И не понимаю чего я на самом деле хочу от мира.
Please respond to my comment so i know you are okay... You are very loved man.
Please reply signifying that you are safe and okay. The world can care, I care, you just need to keep your eyes open to see it. This is your sign to keep going, I love you, whoever you are.❤
There was a girl in another comment thread that had a very similar message, so its kind of surreal to see a almost identical message in this one, it was called "is this reality?" from lost souls channel making ambient. i can suggest writing to her in the comments when you find it and see if you can talk a bit, if you're still there..
Hello
I love this channel, it has such calming music that just lets you relax.
To fade to the background is seemingly a stage when your own existence becomes vague without any sound of the world playing on low shades day by day. This is not like departing this world otherwise; but simply a quiet aloofness, which is said to sometimes be the withdrawal of some kind of hurry in the world. The act of fading is comparable to the reduction of the foot level that ascends the sky though engulfs less sunshine in the same provided time, a beauty which communicates what does not can be said or seen. In the midst of the feeling is also a mixture of strange dualities - in one faded, one feels proud of being part of the entire universe, or at least some power that works within rather than against the self. That is the hope, drawn to the understanding something that is more true, more peaceful and more complete.
It is an almost unnoticeable process at first, much like the soft fading of a memory. A feeling of disconnection starts to creep in-not from other people but from yourself. The edges of who you are start to soften, as though you are no longer as sharply defined as you used to be. All conversations start to sound the same, even the sound of your voice fades into the noise floor. You start to exist in the world, like an image painted that is slowly being washed over with the color of time. You're there, but not quite.
There’s at the very beginning a vague apprehension-a sense of slipping in between the crevices. You may find yourself turning to the safe elements, to the pleasures that once made you happy, to the people that once kept you grounded. In attempting to grasp this clearly, a paradox shows itself-due to how much one resists letting go, the essence of things slips away even more in the process. Every effort to keep things in the present only seems to make the world further away as if dissolving into nothing and you are trapped in between the lack and excess of ones’ presence. It’s quite the state of peaceful isolation in which you could possibly hear the thumping of your heart simple. 🤍
"You have power over your mind, not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength" - Marcus Aurelius
I'm in so much pain. I wish it would stop. Everyday it hurts. I'm so tired.
wanna talk about it?
... I understand you...
i had a friend, her name was janet. we were 7. we always played together. but she always drifts away cause of work. one day when it was her birthday she just somehow disappeared in the party, i just thought she was still sleeping, but everyone left the party. i checked her room and she wasn’t there. she turned 12. i was already 13. she’s no longer a child, but i’m still childish. so she just left me and went to new mature friends? i can’t change, that’s what god made me like. it’s like where she faded away from me. is she touch starved? is she in a bad mood? am i really an over thinker? i’m trying to not be over dramatic but i love you to whoever is reading this.
and for janet, my dear friend who left me, i don’t care about you anymore. your really some pathetic ignorant person who only cares about the looks, or the more mature people. see you can see all those different personalities wandering around the surface of our beautiful earth, but your ugly heart has just a different sensation. you can have fun in many ways but i think this is just torture to me. before you left me, i already prepared gifts. i bought you an extra birthday cake. i ate that cake alone. doesn’t feel the same anymore. you’ve just faded away like a pencil erasing a mistake. your the mistake. your randomly avoiding me at all times. just go and don’t bother me anymore. don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to my heart.
i love you to the people reading this again. your special.
needa hand? of course, we can be moots!:)
Whatever you are feeling is a hole that cannot be filled by whatever you do in the world, your spirit has been crushed and destroyed, there is only one who can fill that and that is Jesus Christ the God of the heavens and the earth. Many have left Him for the pleasures of the world forgetting how he got whipped, spit, and beat having to carry the cross with open gouging wounds for the sake of our souls because of our sins while being mocked and persecuted, do you realize how much love that carries? God sent Him, the only human who was not wicked for YOU. Judgement day is coming but He is being patient with many by waiting as love is patient and He is Love itself, you must repent and deny yourselves taking up your cross which many are not willing to do. Follow His Holy commandments and you will take Joy in them and ask God to deliver you and have mercy to remove your addictions and give you the strength. We must come to him with a humble heart and I promise you will find what true peace and Joy is. “But why does a loving God allow evil?” Because he has given you a choice to love him, is it love if somebody forces you to love them? No it is not. “But I don’t have the time” there is always time to spend with God and the Joy is amazing with an everlasting reward of heaven at the end of the ages. It isn’t just boring life but an eternal life with Joy and worship to serve our God and make him happy! I speak this from experience and I am beyond happy with the gift of knowing Him and having His love. Repent and believe he died for your sins. Please consider these words and give Him at least one chance before it’s all over, God bless you and have a good day my Brothers and Sisters ❤
not sure who will see this or who will care. i feel though as ive slowly given up on those who have truly made me happy, thrown away the joys i had once in life. i used to seek enjoyment and fulfilment but now i seek only to make it to the next day hoping for something to change? i used to think i was healing but only after years of that i understand i wasnt healing i was pretending. i got used to it i was so young so i was good at hiding it until it didnt feel like i had to hide it became me... normal. i wish to be happy and smile to feel loved and to share that love i wish i could say that time was now but more and more i cant find that time being now. i know i should be happy ive made it far ive overcome obstacles in life some people might not even think of and yet still that darkness creeps slowly back into my life day by day. i hope for anyone who has actual read this that you achieve the goals you want. i know my goals in life changed a long time ago from dreaming big to just surviving but i know each person idk how many might read even skim this you will succeed because if ive made it this far what makes it so you all cant. i wish to dream of a future i reread this comment and smile because ill know the journey i took after this day and to be where i am then, content. i wish to make people proud of me, go on adventures with friends,family strangers even to live a life of fulfillment whatever that means to enjoy every moment as ive lost so many. i hope one day i can see this comment i wrote and know i healed and i survived and i conquered my biggest fears and pain. i hope i can love myself how everyone else loves me and understand that feeling.
Hello stranger, whoever you are. Always remember that there are people in this world who care and appreciate you. If you strive to keep your eyes open too see it, you will. The world loves you, and this is your sign to stay strong. ❤
I am starting to see the end of my journy through this life, sadly apart from a few happy events which never to last very long, i am so tired now i hope there is some peace at the end of this journy...
Reflect, oh, sentient ones. Recite the hex of final vows.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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-- Diamond Dragons (series)
Hello, whoever you are. Always remember that there are people in this world who care and appreciate you. If you strive to keep your eyes open too see it, you will. Love you stranger, this is your sign to stay strong. ❤
Someone said I should learn to control and help myself since I am emotionally weak... I don't want to lose that person, I am longing for that person's comfort but I guess it's too much to ask because it seems like I am destroying that person's life... I just don't know what to do.
Hey, let them go and work on yourself.
“If you only knew how close to the edge I was already sitting…. Then maybe you wouldn’t push me so hard…” 😔
🤍🤍🤍 Best playlists out there
I have a dream and I'm sure i can do it but something is taking me away from it !
Well, my days are now being counted.
Every circle begins with its end.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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-- Diamond Dragons (series)
Fight it 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Take a seat my friend, i can tell you what it feels like..
Sounds, is good..💙
why i still thinking about this guy ?
We are in this together my brothers and we will make it
Porque me gustan estas 🎵 ❤
Exactly.. fade away
Game over
How about everyone who says the world would be better off without them,
take a second a think, maybe stay around and stick it in the craw of all those who wish you gone. Stay here to continue their misery instead of giving them what they want.
There is a place for you
This world is for all of us not the few that think they own it!
My life is a hard one and if anyone(that i told how much strife i had would probably say why have you not ended it all)
Answer so every morning when i wake up its a big fucking middle finger to those who hate mr
and wish me a dirt nap,
Yeah im here just to fuck with you haters !
Luv ya!
😂😂😂😂
🕊❤️🌞
@Louise3901
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@@Louise3901 💛🌹!
@Louise3901 💛🧡💚💜❤️🌹
😁😄
@Louise3901 🤔😀
🌷🌻🧡💛❤️💫✌️🤙🕺
@Louise3901 you win!
😅🤣
Every circle begins with its end. The real question is, though... will you *recognize* when you pass beyond the zero-crossing point? Must give us pause. Reflection is key.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
-- Diamond Dragons (series)
Lembre-se que tudo é ilusão criada na mente do TODO, logo partiremos para o infinito e veremos novos universos, viajaremos até o fim dos tempos. Somos eternos, pois eterno são os sonhos.
desvanecerse forever
Shout out to Travis, Jacob, Jamie, Lucca, Lukas, Kevin and Bradley
I know there is a very slim chance youre reading this but i hope you bois are doing well
- Ayden
I don’t want much …. But the person reading this comment may bless with happiness, love, health & fortune . thanks you chalnel
Always wonder what the composers are thinking about as they create such magnificent piece. I hope they know that their work soothes the heart and soul of many. ❤🩹
Everyone is better off with me gone 👍🏼
You're not
I'm now an adult orphan. I'm the last in my family 😢😢😢
Your friends… right now and in the future , who are kind to you are “family”… you will never be an orphan…❤
Почему все вокруг такие злые друг на друга у каждого есть свои причины ненавидеть друг друга или вообще всех но от этого никому лучше не становится мир и так полон зла так зачем все это
Забавно что некоторые люди хотят быть счастливыми при этом видеть в этом мире одни минусы
ads ruins this, and every other one of 'these'
Sooooo much 🫠
I wish you all to be seen and heard.
The Loudest are in it all.
Everyone is jumping Ship.
Panic Everywhere!
Enjoy the Show.
Мне нужно успокоиться!
@@silence_b ты итак спокоен
@@silence_b бро
I feel like maybe no one cares why I disappeared. Just completely disappeared from them
♪ The sounds of true harmony 🎧💙💙💙💙💙 Hi guys, I'm just starting out in the music world and would appreciate your support by listening to my tracks
I know ur sad, but at least tell me what genre is these songs?
It's called Ambient music, enjoy)
i wish i can just disappear
Whatever you are feeling is a hole that cannot be filled by whatever you do in the world, your spirit has been crushed and destroyed, there is only one who can fill that and that is Jesus Christ the God of the heavens and the earth. Many have left Him for the pleasures of the world forgetting how he got whipped, spit, and beat having to carry the cross with open gouging wounds for the sake of our souls because of our sins while being mocked and persecuted, do you realize how much love that carries? God sent Him, the only human who was not wicked for YOU. Judgement day is coming but He is being patient with many by waiting as love is patient and He is Love itself, you must repent and deny yourselves taking up your cross which many are not willing to do. Follow His Holy commandments and you will take Joy in them and ask God to deliver you and have mercy to remove your addictions and give you the strength. We must come to him with a humble heart and I promise you will find what true peace and Joy is. “But why does a loving God allow evil?” Because he has given you a choice to love him, is it love if somebody forces you to love them? No it is not. “But I don’t have the time” there is always time to spend with God and the Joy is amazing with an everlasting reward of heaven at the end of the ages. It isn’t just boring life but an eternal life with Joy and worship to serve our God and make him happy! I speak this from experience and I am beyond happy with the gift of knowing Him and having His love. Repent and believe he died for your sins. Please consider these words and give Him at least one chance before it’s all over, God bless you and have a good day my Brothers and Sisters ❤
Sometimes life can feel that way, but stay strong. The world appreciates and loves you. ❤
First
❤️🩹👍
Listening to this after Trump got elected hits different 🎵⛅️
Cope 💔
I feel you.
In a positive or negative way?
Definitely positive lol
@MACabral3 same
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La virgen
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Yall play Splatoon 3 it will change your life fr🙏🙏🙏
Preciso morrer esse ano
se eu não morrer espero morrer em janeiro de 2025