Childish tears☹ | | Traumacore 𓆩*𓆪 (Comfort/vent playlist !!)
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 25 ธ.ค. 2024
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Mice On Venus 8-bit (Muffled+reverb) 00:00-02:48
Tempelhof - Yan Tiersen 02:50-9:00
MOM - Broox 09:02-12:22
Extension Cord - Fog Lake 12:24-15:34
rachel's lullaby - Dandelion hands 15:36-17:08
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TH-cam NO ME LO TIRES RECONOZCO QUE ESTAS CANCIONES NO SON DE MI PROPIEDAD SOLO QUIERO ESCUCHARLAS GRACIAS.
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An apology for the song cut at the end, I didnt noticed until now ;(
Una disculpa por la rola toda cortada al final, no m habia dado cuenta :-(
No it’s Ok it’s perfectly fine u know we all make mistakes and I love that about us and fwi they all got me sobbing (first) u know the 2ne got me thinking of the last gest 😢 that Roblox movie was just sad and thank u to 😊
ta bien
@@SaraVeryLittleBean_456 haha tysm!! :3
x cierto, como se llama la persona de tu pfp?
@@Samy_D-k5z Es Alice Glass, ex vocalista de Crystal Castles, actualmente es DJ y lleva una carrera como solista!
"You never said no" I NEVER SAID YES
:.(
I was never abused but I go through some depressive episodes. I would talk about my sadness but people would tell me that others have it worse than me so I should stop crying. I have self-esteem issues and I sometimes compare myself with others. I always point out all the negative side of me. I always told myself that I was just a good-for-nothing useless girl. It has gotten bad to the point I would think of the most depraved ways I could harm myself. There are days when I lay in bed confused about why I get so sad. I always told myself that I'm being selfish and disrespectful to the people who go through way worse than me.
(I'm sorry if this was too much to read. I tend to overshare some things)
I've gone through lots of things and dude I'm here to tell you that all pain is valid it doesn't matter if you experienced trauma or not all pain matters we are all valid
Sorry for not responding but thank you!!!! Thank you so much! I really needed to hear that 😭😭😭 Plus I'm sorry you've been through things. I hope things are getting better bud!
Same here dont have a reason to be deppresed so idk what to do
I go through the same things, but I try to avoid venting, crying, of even seeming sad so I just tell "others have it worse" to myself. It was actually just today I realized I have it worse than most of the people I know irl.
@@TheValveBrothers I'm sorry to hear that bud. I hope things are doing ok. Don't bottle up your emotions. And don't be afraid to write about how you feel in a journal. That's the only way I expressed how I felt without being judged.
I was always alone at home when I was little. My mum and dad were working. When I was 7 or 8 years old, I saw a cat from the window and wanted to play with it. I remember an old man came to me while I was petting the cat. First he played with me for a while, we petted the cat and played hide and seek together. Then he asked me what I was doing alone at this hour. I fell for his innocence and chatted with him for a long time. He invited me to his house. When I went in, he opened a cartoon for me, and while I was watching the cartoon with my teddy bear in my hand, I noticed that the man was looking at me strangely. I got a little scared, and then it happened. For 3 years I was subjected to his looks and disgusting touches.
I'm 15 now. My life is worse than it's ever been. I have attempted suicide many times. I have no academic success. I have a bad relationship with my friends and family and I feel more disgusting every day. I hate my body so much that I can't explain it. If I had not gone out that day, none of this would have happened. It's all my fault and this guilt will haunt me until my death. I ruined my own childhood with my own hands.
im so sorry...its not your fault,honey:(
It may seem that way but it wasn’t your fault. You were a child. You aren’t expected to know that as a child. I hope you find a reason to live. I hope you can one day feel peace. That is a terrible thing to experience as a child, I hope that life gives you happiness in the future.
that is not your fault. that isnt you couldnt have controlled a creep when you WERE EIGHT. he shouldve left you alone you just wanted to see a cat its NOT YOUR FAULT, as much as it may seem like it is. it isnt, and itll be okay it may seem horrible now but someday he will rot in hell or in a ditch, whatever u belive. but it isnt your fault, you dont have to feel guilty about it and its okay. i hope you get whatever you need, whether its a hug or a doctor and i hope this makes sense and doesnt sound rude-
no its not your fault the only person at fault is the evil adult not a poor innocent and neglected child like yourself all you wanted was a friend or someone to talk to and obvious there was no supervision of your parents.
making it your parent's fault If you haven't already love, please reach out for help although you may feel ashamed DONT BE please love yourself and be kind and understanding not only yourself but your mind and body for they all to have been through much Please tell a parent or some guardian if you haven't already. (Lov3 Morb1d
U should love yourself and never think about those stuff my daddy always tells me if I am sad or someone is being uncomfortable I will tell my parents and u always always remember Jesus is with even if u can’t see him he will been there…
the first one got me sobbing
Same
I LOVE THE ANDREAS PROFILE ❤️
Yea me too :
@@SerenityLopez-d1bTHANK YOU
@@beetlelover5930 YW
its been like almost 8 months since I commented. I still listen to this playlist, honestly brings me a lot of comfort when I'm upset and need comfort
@@ekkiegill1439 thanks for coming back, you’re not alone🫂
when you think your life sucks but then you open the comments and see all these people that didn't deserve it. I'm sorry whoever went through disgusting things this cruel world has brought to us.
Mice On Venus is on top as always. The only song that really makes you rethink something or just conclude some things up. It makes tears go down and I cant do anything with that, C418 is the best.
I don’t know what’s happening to me. Or what happened. I’m not smart anymore or studious. I’m not even slightly pretty. I’m not kind. I’m bitter and lazy. I basically have no friends and I am struggling with everything. I forget things everywhere and I can never make anyone truly proud. I can’t even make myself proud. I’m not happy. I can’t get out of bed other than for school which I have to drag myself thru the day. Every single day I want to kms so that I don’t have to go to school. I just want to live in my own little world. Or maybe just a best friend? I feel like I’m letting people down because they assume things about me. Kind? I’m so rude and disrespectful. Smart? I’m one of the dumbest people I know. Pretty? Bf common now don’t be “nice”. I’m nothing what they think. I don’t know. Sometimes I’m happy and sometimes I’m about to kms. Idk anymore. I don’t have any major problems I just. Well there’s to much ig? Idk I just don’t like who I am anymore. I haven’t for years.
I can relate but just think of that one person/ thing that keeps you going, or at least try, could be an online friend, could be a sibling, could be a friend, could be a pet, could be your dream(s). I’m here to talk if you need it :)
I’m surprised that anyone responded. I guess so. I just feel vulnerable but your right. Idk abt the friend part but I do have dreams. When I get to a point in life I want to buy a small house in the middle of fields. Alone. It sounds so peaceful. I’ll plant fruit trees so that the next owner can have fruits since I probably won’t be able to grow them fast enough. Ty I was just panicking.
Sorry for being so much late but you have the exact same problems as me.. I really hope you're doing well now♡
my mother used to yell a lot, sometimes eight hours in a row. i remember sitting alone at the table while my siblings got to play the room next us. she yelled at me, hours and hours for simple things. i would just sit, hungry, crying, thirsty. i always believed it was my fault. i was the one doing something wrong. i was often send to our bedroom after it, a mattress beside her bed so she can watch me. i remember crying myself to sleep, listing to my siblings play. i was happy for them. whenever i heard my mother playing with them, i wished she would come upstairs and get me. loving me again.forgiving me. she never did but i am still waiting, arms open for anyone who offers me a feeling of being wanted, i cannot tell if they have bad intentions, i crave love to much.
I've just realized i've never been hugged by a man before.. not by my dad, a teacher, idk anyone never.. I havent cried about it but I dont know sometimes I feel like Im about to...
i keep crying and i can't control it.
By crying u express feelings that not even a thousand words could explain. Releasing all the ball of poop-ish feelings that u have in ur heart, mind and conscience is important to grow and improve as a person. Remember that everything bad lasts the same as the good and the good lasts the same as the bad. We are conscious and sentient beings, it will get better, I promise :-D
thanks@@terrosatanik
i used to get abused as a kid, my dad comes home drunk every single day and would beat me up to the bones, this playlist just makes me comforted and safe, thank you. (sorry for my bad english im russian)
Im sad. I dont know why but Im sad. I want to feel happy again, But I cant.
u'll be fine
Blow, blow me out and im so sad and I don't know why
I believe we get sad for seemingly no reason because our spirits instinctively know that God has abandoned us. We all had faith a long time and he left so our spirits cry and unwanted humanity is unaware and panicking, screaming "Wtf is happening?"
- A spiritualist no one believes
Last year as a teen next year I’ll be 20 goodbye childhood I will dearly miss you 🥺🩷
Adulthood😢😢
The second song actually got me to tear up a little. It's just the type of song you would listen to while remembering the good times you had with someone who is no longer there anymore, especially if that person was so caring you considered them a part of your family when they were simply just a friend of the family.
This songs remember me a so bad moments but at the same time is so relaxing
Siii 😢
My life ussd to be bad, but i can't get over it. Everytime ive been sad, i feel guilty because do i really have a reason for trauma that happened 4 almost 5 years ago? It ruined my entire childhood, but it's been not 'abusive' since i was 9.
9:00 i started tearing up when I heard the Mr.Rodgers part😭
It always the lowest view count that the most touching one
that means u r part of the special ones!! (for me, at least :3)
This playlist sounds so sad but relaxing at the same time, I think I can try and fall asleep to this in peace 😊
there are just so, so many things wrong. i dont have trauma but i can just feel it somehow or imagine it and people online are gross and i just cant stop eating. my friends worry me and now its stressing me out and i never care for myself. i should be glad i have a low pain tolerance but i want to cvt myself so badly. i hate my dad but i love him so much. why dont people understand the consequences of what they do. i wish i was snormal. i know i cant but i wish i could please everyone. i never want to be in a big group or in an important thing without being the center of attention or having nobody around me at all. i just wish i could go to a different reality. anything. please. its so horrible. i cant remember it all but my family used to lock me in the dirty, dark basement or force me to stop crying by taking away my ability to breathe. why do i think all these disgusting things. why cant i love someone correctly and keep loving them. thanks for reading have a good night
The last one reminded me of that one night... :(
:( hope ur alr now..
I always wanted to escape reality, or maybe i wanted to escape the world. I don't know, im a 12 year old who has been damaged by growing up too fast. Its like everything went on, did drugs by crushing up meds, smoked literal smoke, vaped, alcoholic at 10, cut my hair that my mother always loved by only loving me for my looks, then...i got into a deep end with my drug addict nephew, where i got emotional abused for 2 years. Im healing, i want to heal, but no matter how much i run away, instead of being the soldier i was born to be, I'm now a runner, not a fighter... until I'm a flyer to run away faster.. to run away from this place. Now, after what happened with SA experiences, murdery thoughts, sleeping on a cold bench in a park until the sunrise to be safe to go back to my house after drinking a beer for a whole night, CPS is now on my side after a journey of courage. Now, a new chapter might begin in the next year to cope from childhood trauma.
Thank but fuck you, family and world.
the one on 9:02 got me sobbing
me
real
I’m so fucking proud of you for existing as long as you have on this earth ❤
Please try to continue this week thinking of your favourite tv shows, music artists, places, people and your life and how you are going to be an extraordinary human regardless of what you do or become❤❤❤
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Cry as much as you want I’m here for you and so is this playlist, crying is apart of feeling happy, you need one for the other, so try to cry and try to laugh as much as you can❤❤❤❤❤❤
i cant stop feeling so insecure about my body, and i cant stop feeling the need to starve myself because of it... i just want to feel better about myself
Qué música tan relajante, la he usado para escribir. Muchas gracias :)
was crying to the point I have a headache and feel like vomiting.
i've gotten to a point in life where i just can't cry anymore, and it truly destroy me from inside, i want to be able to tear up on a sad show, or when a character dies, but all i feel is a bit of sadness, then goes back to feeling nothing again. I hat this state of mind.
This playlist give me nothing more than pity, pity for my younger self who never could have a normal childhood, mainly bc i got my first traumatizing experience when i was 4yo (yes it's young, but havine traumatism is something serious and shouldn't be smth like "oh he has more traumatism then me, i should stop complaining", you can complain, everyone lives it differently any way.) And i had to live with it until now, i still live with the person that make me feel like shit and nothing more, he still does this. And bc of that, i never could appreciate life at 100%, live through it unconsciously, i always had to prepare for the worst, think about too much thing when you're trying to grew up. I'm just going worse and worse every day.
Live your life as much as you can, never let ppl decide for you what to do. Please live it, ik i have plenty more time to do this, but i won't be able to live through teenage ever again and live those things as a young unconscious teen. Believe in yourself and all you're working on / working forward to. ♥ ♥
9:00 this quote still gets to me
9:11 personal timestap
There was a time in life i was so skinny and my skin pale my undreyes were deep blue , i looked sick when i walked to school, and everywear i went. im better now but my past haunts me like a bug that never goes away.
I know what u feel, how you feel :(
THIS IS MY THERAPY
OUR**
i can still hear him scratching at my walls...
had trauma but I had more worst than this, just a terrible thoughts roaming around in my head which it is causing me to make painful crys. I really dislike the feeling of crying, it was lwk so bad I almost cried to God. wasnt worth it all. it drives me into a different states of mental health issues. im not sure if my health is still in a good condition. Im glad Ive went into a vent playlist that matches of what im feeling rn, cried hours ago it made me less being myself rn. I hate it a lot, but it's consuming me.
(TW) ❗❗❗❗❗😓😓
sry i needed to say something I can't hold it in 😔
Whenever I start to get a slight happy feeling...it instantly goes away... I know why...Why can't I forget it??? Why why why?? I need to forget it!!! Why cant I??? I just need to move on!! Why would he do this?? I am broken!!!! All my happiness, creativeness, childhood, was all taken away from me.. He ruined me forever! I was a kid! I am unfixable why why no no no it cant be he ruined me stop stop forget it no why!!! My brain is so loud!.when will i be happy again? Its all too much for me to take in!! 😢
Esta canción me recuerda cuando tenía una gata y los momentos felices que pasaba con ella.☹
Estoy segura que tu gatita fue la mas feliz de todas en vida🌼🌼
Yo con mi señora medianoche la extraño mucho, no me pude despedirme 😞
I miss being not being treated bad,wait,I never was once treated right...I miss him,I miss you,I miss them...I'm sorry I'm annoying...What have I become? An aggressive traumatized monster thats insecure,I just want comfort,I get told to let my guard down...I cant ever let it down again,I've hurt people because I'm scared,All I want is a hug..But I cant get one...I'm actually a very vulnerable person,wait,no.. I'm not a person...I'm a filthy relentless monster...I'm vulnerable to things though,I want to feel at home....It's hard to forget people who inflicted something that you will remember....I just want to be hugged,I want to be missed..I don't want to be called childish...I just never had a childhood....
Está bien don chingón. 🤕🙏🔥
This is the place you will find, that most people are still holding on
Let's be realistic here, whoever you are.
It hurt's doesn't it?
Just let it happen, but this time don't use it an excuse just to cry.
Let's change together.
lovely
I hate when people look at me weird I hate it I hate it so much I hate when I have to keep on pulling my shirt down and up I hate when I have to wear dresses or skirts I hate when people say I look older I hate when I’m in a line and someone’s behind me I hate when people joke about people having a crush on me I hate when I wear makeup I hate when people joke about me having a hour glass body I hate when guys like me I hate when i have to wear shorts and tank tops in the summer I hate it so much please make it stop please please make it stop please stop please make it stop
My childhood memories 😭thank u 😭so much ur work is amazing and beautiful oh I wish we could go back but. We can’t so I wish everyone well and ur perfect just the way u are :)❤❤❤❤😊 Love u guys GN!:) 😎✨🏆🤌😌❤️👁️👄👁️
I love you. ♡
no es que tenga algun trauma. Es solo que las canciones me relajan al modo que me hagan dormir o me den sueño
me alegra bastante que pueda ayudar a otras personas en mi propio proceso para sentirme mejor!🌼 Si gustas que haga otro mix con rolas parecidas dime!!
Nadie debe de saber que sigo llorando por lo qué me hicieron
acutually writing a note rn
are you ok? what kind of note? wanna talk about it?
Épico
ya no siento la sensación de querer volver al pasado, ya solamente pienso en como me voy a morir
don’t look at me.
9:00 personal timestamp yk
Get real therapy and talk about your problems: 🤮
Listen to playlists that make you realize your not the only one and you are in a safe community and a safe space to share and be yourself: ❤️❤️❤️
Totally!! I love all of u here, im so grateful to find more people that feels the same way!💌💌
guys, a question, seeing fights and not having a very good childhood, it can cause trauma too?
(I was never abused)
Sweetie, that IS traumatic, u were exposed to something you didn’t understand, those experiences while growing up caused big impact in your life. I hope u are ok now, warm and loved, as u deserve. This playlist was made for that, for kids like u and I🧸🩷
@@terrosatanik aaah, I understand, now!
But, thx for telling me!
And i'm ok, But I'm going through some pretty bad things, but I'm fine S2
La segunda canción siempre me deja mal. Recuerdo mi infancia cada qhe la escucho jaja
Are tried to end because one of my friends said I wasn't worthy of being loved and I believe her I have three older sisters and I was always the last resort even as a little kid I would think about stuff like death and abandonment and I was always left out because of the age gap between me and my sisters not even my friends knew who I was
Small vent: Okay so, once I was getting ready for school right..? My mom told me to find her a Scissors and then, i was tired as heck and I was being too slow and my mom was getting impatient and then she said:"You're acting manipulative. You're being slower on purpose and making it more harder. You're 11 years old. You need to learn responsibility." etc. like I was tired. it was 7:30 am or some shit. I was already in a bad mood from waking up early but now I gotta hear this? like I love you mama a lot but first attention seeker and now manipulator..? I'm going through enough already. I don't mean to act like a bad kid. I am just TIRED. I WANNA DIE. I don't wanna exist anymore. I try everyday. But It isn't enough... right..?
If she finds this vent then, I guess I am being selfish and I'm making you look like a bad guy. But, I can't take this life anymore...
I'm sorry for venting..
It's okay. It's the seemingly "insignificant" things that usually makes you snap, or just feel bad at its face. I am sorry that nobody acknowledges how you feel. I believe I'm in the same situation, hence why I can emphasize with you, at least a little. Is there anyone whom you trust enough to open up to?
@@Rubatosis42 No. My mom mostly tells me not to vent to much or not vent to my friends because she wouldn't want me dumping my problems on them. And She said I could vent to her but I don't trust her enough. So i barely vent. So yeah. Kinda hard life huh?
@@ShyGhostBoy I'm sorry to hear that, dear. Opening up to people who are constantly around you is difficult, I know what you mean. And yes, life is hard and unfair. If you're not comfortable enough to open up to her, finding coping mechanisms or merely enjoying something you like doing might make you feel better. I know it's hard, but try to be around people, as much as you can. While it's not mandatory, it's much better than isolating yourself from others, and your friends. I hope you get better! ♡
@@Rubatosis42 Thanks.
@@ShyGhostBoy You are very welcome!
9:04 whats this song/voice over
november 6th i’ll be gone brah lolol 😁
Ek is nie gelukkig nie, maar ek het geen rede om hartseer te wees nie
I was 9. 9 years old and no one comforted me
besame
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@@terrosatanikgrrrrr😊
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