No, please don't. Your loved, I want you to know that, I may not know you but I care about you. No one should have to feel this way. You are an amazing person, you are worth it!! Please know that.
Please dont. Even if im a stranger. you can vent to me. please. I hope you get better, I hope everything gets better for you. no matter how old, young, pretty or ugly, everyone deserves something. I wanna let you know, I hope you get better. we all want you to live. not just for fame. or playlists. because we hate the thought of someone leaving this world even if we want to also. so, from one Human to human, stranger to stranger, playlist lover to playlist lover, Get better.
Please don't go, i don't want you to leave this planet, i know how you feel, getting betrayed by friends, child abused mentally in the past,but remember, I'm an 11 y/o stranger who loves you, I hope you stay strong and get through this, get away from depression and suicide, just take a rest, i am experiencing the same things as you, and if I haven't experienced that pain yet, i could just feel the pain, your cries, don't cut yourself for blaming yourself It's not your fault. I Love you.
crazy how someone my age is more mature and telling people what they actually need to hear instead of harsh words then some teenagers and ADULTS who are telling random people to kys after seeing one video.
People say "why do you have depression? Life is so beautiful" no one cares but when someone says "why do you have asthma? There is so much air around" everyone gets offended
Sometimes i just want to wait until late at night, leave, run away, be on my own. But my fear prevents me from doing that. My friends would miss me, my partner, my parents, my grandparents, my sister. I love them, so i feel like i can never leave or i would hurt them. my life is good, but i still feel horrible for a reason i cant think up, and people are always telling me to grow up and that i'm being dramatic. I just feel sad, trapped, alone. and i don't know why. I hope that some of the other people can see this and feel comforted. i see you, i see all of you, i understand you and i hope you are doing well. Just breathe, you'll be okay. I love all of you guys. EDIT: feel free to vent in the replies, i'll listen.
My biological dad is mentally abusive my step dad is a cheating as liar my mom cant leave him even if her own daughter begs her to leave cousin died from suicide and the worst part is is that i could have stopped her because she told me 2 days beforehand 6 family deaths in 2 years grades suck life suck room dirty lil sis is toxic older bro is my only safe place and i dont see him anymore and he is thinking about joining the army ive almost got to the cutting stage i just have to find the guts im at the breaking point ive been in family drama since i was 4 i learnt to fake smile at 6 and i want to die so bad im not comfortable in my own skin i miss my cousin she was my therapist at this point my dogs are all i have left im dead inside lost gone im really trying i really am its not working their life is so pretty and care free its not fair i cant leave my biological dads house without hating myself for it ive been used and laughed at and talked about by my own family im so tired i just want to go home but then my home life is worse then school so i wish i was dead and no one gets it like yes u had a similar experience but its not the same
I feel the same way.. Idk why I feel those emotions(sad, trapped etc)..I know I should be more grateful that I have a family/home but sometimes I want to die. I won’t tho because of my loved ones and I don’t have the guts to. I just wonder what life is about sometimes..I feel rlly guilty..like why am I like this? Shouldn’t I be happy? Why do I have suicide thoughts? (Questions I ask myself) Sorry if I vented too much 😭
@@EvenlyOddUhere I feel for you. Just know, its going to be okay, you can do this, and i believe in you. If i could crawl through the screen and give you a big hug and some hot tea and that would make you feel better, i would. I hope you sleep well and have an amazing day, or night, or whatever time zone ur in. :3
(sorry ik this is extremely long) (sorry, ik u said we could vent but it still feels wrong doing this , so an apology in advance!!) I always feel like every move I make and do is wrong, like as if everyone is always watching judging and staring. I always feel weird talking to anyone because I know they'll always have it worse. Divorced parents, negligent parents, controlling parents, suicidal thoughts and such, I feel like such a burdon talking to anyone so whenever I even get the chance to open up to anyone or anything it still feels so wrong. And other times, I feel so weird as if I was some sort of sociopath, not feeling real emotions like as if I was just mirroring others pain or happiness cause I know I'm supposed to feel that way but I just don't. I am a queer kid, and really none of my other friends are, atleast the close ones, and the ones that are just don't understand and I don't ever feel the motivation or the vocabulary to explain nor do I have the motivation to actually do anything. My room is filthy and I hate myself for it. A few years ago I resorted to self harm and I will forever hate myself for it, it's my only way of escape and I feel like I'll never get help for it. Sorry for this long rant about myself I'm just hoping someone will listen. Please know someone is always out there praying for your safety and thanks for reading I guess!!♥️
i hope i have stayed strong but if not pls try to it’s ok we are here for u xx if u need to u can vent to me even if im just a stranger i want to help u
i used have a boy best friend.. but sadly he passed away due to cancer... he was the best thing that ever happened in my whole life he shined bright like the brightest star his smile could make anyone feel warm inside he was a sweet , warm hearted person i wish i never lost.. i always loved him but never had the guts to tell him how i felt.. sometimes i wish i could go back in time or die soon just to tell him how i felt / feel... he had warm hand's that could make any cold hearted person go warm hearted in a couple of second's.. i always used to be rude but after met him i changed i changed a lot... i started being more kind etc.. but only 3 year's after knowing him he told me he had cancer and that he'd die soon.. he told me if there was one way he'd want to die it was next to the person who loved him the most basically dying with the person he knew loved him.. i wasn't there i failed myself i failed him i could've been there i should've been there but i wasn't i don't think i could ever forgive myself for not being able to save him not being there for him when he was there for me... i don't think i'l ever be the same as i was with him it just show's how cruel this hell called the "world" is..
Angel very sorry for your loss. Your words show just how deeply he meant to you and how much he impacted your life in such a beautiful way. It sounds like he truly was a bright light and a special soul. Please don’t be too hard on yourself-you didn’t fail him. The love and kindness you gave him while he was here surely meant the world to him. Even though he’s gone, his memory lives on in the way he changed you and helped you grow into a more compassionate person. That love you hold for him will never fade, and I truly believe that he knew how much you cared for him, even if it wasn’t said out loud. Life can be so cruel, but the love and light he brought into your world will always stay with you. Honor his memory by continuing to live with the warmth and kindness he inspired in you. You're carrying his legacy forward in your heart, and that’s such a powerful way to keep him close. forgive yourself as you only have urself💖
I'm sorry you lost such a warm and loving person, but Im sure even if you weren't with him in the moment you were there in his mind. You sound like a good person so try to not blame yourself, losing someone is always hard no matter how close you are with them. And I'm sure he understood/understands how you felt. Live long, and lead a good life!🩷
Relationships are always hard, but know that not all are forever. Whether that means it will disappear or change, just know it will always be for the better of you. Being sensitive is normal, and trust life will forever be changing, and there will be little happy pockets along the road.
my dad used to tell me "i dont compare u to ur brother." but when I do something he doesn't like "be more like ur brother." and my brother is 9. now he tells me that I have to work harder if I want his love.
Youre gonna make it. Trust me. So so many people have been in horrendous situations and mental states. But still, they struggled onwards, and lived a life they can be proud of, through sheer work and willpower. Pick up yourself up, and show your past self that it was wrong for almost giving up. Show the universe that out of neutron stars, gamma bursts, black holes and all that crap, the most powerful energy source that will ever exist is the indomitable human spirit. Good luck .
I have a bf and currently his stepdad hates me because he assumes the worst of me. They went shopping together bc my bf wanted to get me a Christmas present, and his stepdad told him that I'm probably using him for money and forced him to buy me something. I didn't, i actually feel very bad everytime someone gives me a present and try to convince them not too. And another thing, he's judged me for my "boyish style/boy clothes" that my bf even yelled at him after. That actually made me hella insecure and wish i wasn't ever a tomboy, I feel like I'm not the gf they want him to date everytime I see him now I get very insecure and nervous knowing he sees me like that. His mom also defends me and is very sweet. But everytime I think about what he's said towards me, I can't help but cry..., idk what to do, idk if I should keep being myself, which is what everyone has told me, or change, bc I also don't want to keep feeling uncomfortable knowing he doesn't like my style at all and thinks I'm only dating his son for money and presents. Idk what to do I just don't want to keep living in fear and discomfort. 😕
exactly, the dad is just... someone, that's truly all he is, don't have to let him get to ya, he's not the one you'll spend a significant part of your life with. as for your bf, come on, be adorable and go melt those worries in his arms, have a good talk about it all, it'll be alright ^^. just a matter of putting it all into words, making each other aware of the issues and finding solutions, like to never ever take his father advice on what to do about you haha. also you can ignore him if you eventually find the strength to do so and if it somehow doesn't end up alright then that's that, it'd hurt a lot but i'm sure you'll eventually find someone with a family that at the very least doesn't reject you to the exent of breaking your relationship bless ya sweetheart
Thank you two for letting me realize the right choices, I won't change for a man who I'm not spending my significant life on, and I truly love my bf and won't change for him, bc he's let me know he loves me for who I am and likes the way I am. Thank you loves for your comforting words, may y'all be blessed as well 🫶
It's been a rough week, worst than ever, and I'm fighting for my life not to relapse, to not become that person again but as I write this I know It's too late. I have messed up all of my friendships and all of my grades for nothing. Last night I got a message telling me that I was acting like a completely different person online than irl but guess what I am a different person when people aren't looking at me and it shows. The worst part, I can't talk about these things to anyone so I'm being selfish on the internet and letting my thoughts out for once in my life. I just wanna be a kid again, not caring about school, grades, and how life will turn out I think I won't ever be that person I so desperately want to become Thanks for listening in to my little rant
To be honest sad people like myself and other people that also struggle always try to make others happy no matter what because they know whats its like feeling absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel that way thats just my thought
You a very special person who deserves everything good in life, and who is loved much more than you think. No matter what you do you will always be a precious being with endless value ❤
Life is beautiful. It’s fantastic and the world has so much to offer and sometimes you just don’t realize that. But when you’re sad.. all of those thoughts go out of the window and become replaced with reality. This world is horrible. So much bad goes on here. Everything is stopping you. Ending it all would make the pain go away. But something I remember is all the things I would miss out on. I forget that even though my parents are not the best people in the world I still have my friends. They don’t have to care about what I’m feeling or how I’m doing because who wants to hear about that anyways. That just puts people in a bad mood and nobody wants to feel that. But as long as they keep me distracted from everything around me, I’m cool.
Good morning, afternoon or night to anyone who is reading this, don’t hurt yourself. It’s not worth it. You may feel like no one cares but there are. If there is truly no one on earth that cares, then know that God cares for you. Please don’t take this as a way for me to force Christianity because that’s not my purpose, my purpose is to show that he is there for each and every one of you that are hurting. He loves everyone no matter they’re beliefs. I hope you get the chance to speak to him about your problems because believe me, he will take your pain away. I love you all and I hope everything gets better because I believe it will❤
i don’t feel forced by christianity. i feel trapped by christianity. there was this guy i was talking to. he was very christian but i don’t mind peoples beliefs. but he said he was a profit from god and that his entire purpose to “save me” it was terrible because it had me questioning every moment of every day and had me thinking about if i was pleasing this nonexistent lord that’s in an old book. it had me questioning my friends, my life. now everytime im not doing good i repeat to myself “could i still get into heaven if i killed myseld?”
I’ll be living with dad now, I have no idea how to feel. Mums an alcoholic and is always working but I can tell she loves me. I only see dad every other weekend but I feel like he knows me more than mum ever has. Mum called drunk asking me to come home at 11 at night, when I said tomorrow she started yelling at dad saying he’s a narcissist and I won’t be seeing him ever again. I know she loves me, I love her too. The drinks are constant, every night. Fosters, Prosecco, the lot. It’s so hard. My friends and dad say it’s up to me but idk what to do. I’ve said I’ll live with dad and she probably hates me now, she’s said me her my brother and sister (whom have both moved out as they are older, sister doesn’t share the same dad) to have a talk about it that will probably end very badly. Idk what to do man, someone please talk to me?
basicially im class, so my school has bahavior grades and i had slime in class but my mom said if i make slime with the glue i will never see glue again in my life so then its on my behavior paper and im scared because she will be so angry and idk what to do because i only have a day before i will be in even bigger trouble and idk if i can do anything rn
Im sorry i feel so selfish right now, Im going through big changes in my life, im moving schools and stuff, my anxiety is slowly killing me, sometimes it feels like my stomach is eating itself inside out, like theres a brick on my lungs, like theres a knife in my head, and i suddenly start shaking, im falling to the ground and i can’t breathe. It’s been happening a-lot recently, with strict parents im scared to do something about it. It feels one second im dying, and then the other im perfectly fine and im just exaggerating. I had a friend, we got into some issues, i loved her, i stood behind that door. I heared her talk bad, about me, all my friends, everyone i knew, they opened that door, my heart beat was so loud i couldn’t hear them. Or my thoughts. I fell to the ground, i couldn’t breather, i was shaking. And she laughed at me. Im still heartbroken, we’re not friends anymore but shes slowly taking away everyone i care about and love. I feel it. I see it. Im sorry.
Im planning to commit this week, i love you all. (Just in case i actually die, i love yall with all my heart and yes if your my friend then take my stufd)
I sound like a schizo…I’m on a burner because TH-cam kept deleting my comments lol…honestly i shouldn’t care, I never even met you…so sorry if I annoyed you…if your alive what I’m saying is really awkward…god I look like a loser rn lol…but yeah if there is somewhere you go after you die, and your seeing this…which I doubt…I want you to know that a dumbass wrote all that shit to try and help you
I probably was just annoying for telling you to contact 988. I mean you were probably already dead. I’m sorry, I don’t even know you so sorry. I wasted my time
what baffles me is how other players not only try to bring back players to the game by using tactics such as doing the opposite of pulling the plug or taking them to special maps with heavely restrained gameplay mechanics that you can only get out off by being willing to play until your computer gives up on you; but they even go as far as making anyone who would be willing to help go to yet another map even if it's slightly better there since it's time based and changing your mind isn't a requirement for leaving but you do go back if you try to help again and for longer, other than that those places aren't safe unless you're in a good one (that bit is true for the other one too). i didn't even want to play this game in the first place, it was just given to me and i couldn't quit no matter how hard i tried, i just can't understand why they glorify this game so much, saying it's mid would be the most generous things i could ever possibly say in my entire existance even if i had to play it for 10000 more years. i'm honestly scared of them and angry too, it's like they are blind to what they're doing or they just don't care about anyone that's not like them other than trying to asimilate them into their way of thinking/being. it feels quite lonely when you're outnumbered seemingly a million to one like, sorry guys, i know some of y'all would miss me if i quit playing let's say minecraft but that choice should be up to me and only me. plus, there are way to many players nowdays, the server is way too crowded, not enough drops for the players to level up and maintain their mood stats; and some hoarders are making the problem being what it is today, wouldn't mind it if the drops were unlimited but they ain't, way too many peoples can't even get access to the lowest tier of health potions or simple items like bread. i'v been awake for way too long, don't know how the rest of them can play for so long but i can't, i'm exhausted, i need to quit the game and go lay down for a while, if only they cared enough to understand i wouldn't be in so much pain. the worse is, i still love them all and i wish them the best of choice, freedom, safety, fulfilment and happiness, each and every single one of them no matter who, really, i'm not kidding, everyone everyone, even for those i feel the opposite of love at the same time(having paradoxical emotions is very fun and not draining at all, but it does actually help understand everything a lot better, points of views and all). and the peoples i love are doing this to me, justifying it however they want if they even bother to do so but pain doesn't care about their excuses. i really need a break from this game, i have wanted that for what, a decade now? that's certainly more than good enough for me and in this specific case my opinion really is the only one that matters in term of what actions would be okay to do, be it turning of my computer or not.
I just have been so mentally and physically tired that god, im so sick of it all. When does it get better? Will it ever get better? Thanks for the kind and supportive comments i needed that I've been thinking of committing, but i dont know im so damn tired
Please know that atleast one person is always praying for your safety. Atleast I am, Im really not religious or anything but I truly hope you stay safe. Honest.
@Melanieslittleearthling11 hey so actually that's not cool at all to claim others experiences as your own and actually is kind of gross🫤 but either way i do hope you can get the help you need, and please live a good and long life*
if you want my two cents, i'm glad you're still here. i'm some random 20 year old on the internet who went through the same american bullshit school system while having everyone look at me like i was a mistake. but trust me when i say your life's so much more beyond school and work. the world's a shithole rn, but that doesn't mean you're a part of the shit if that makes sense
No. No your not. Your wonderful. You always will be, dont think that your annoying. If you think that your annoying, then your wrong. I know, by what your saying is just NOT true. Your a perfect person, no matter who, or what you are and what you look like.
wish i had gone through with it
please no 🥺you playlist helps me cope with my sh ty life i want to too but i don’t so please 🥺don’t do it
dont do that dear, everything happens for our own reasons. i may not know you but i wouldn't mind giving u my ig if you need someone to talk too.
@@angelicmwahh there was no reason for me to have svicidal tendencies in first grade.
No, please don't. Your loved, I want you to know that, I may not know you but I care about you. No one should have to feel this way. You are an amazing person, you are worth it!! Please know that.
Please dont. Even if im a stranger. you can vent to me. please. I hope you get better, I hope everything gets better for you. no matter how old, young, pretty or ugly, everyone deserves something. I wanna let you know, I hope you get better. we all want you to live. not just for fame. or playlists. because we hate the thought of someone leaving this world even if we want to also. so, from one Human to human, stranger to stranger, playlist lover to playlist lover, Get better.
Please don't go, i don't want you to leave this planet, i know how you feel, getting betrayed by friends, child abused mentally in the past,but remember, I'm an 11 y/o stranger who loves you, I hope you stay strong and get through this, get away from depression and suicide, just take a rest, i am experiencing the same things as you, and if I haven't experienced that pain yet, i could just feel the pain, your cries, don't cut yourself for blaming yourself
It's not your fault. I Love you.
crazy how someone my age is more mature and telling people what they actually need to hear instead of harsh words then some teenagers and ADULTS who are telling random people to kys after seeing one video.
People say "why do you have depression? Life is so beautiful" no one cares but when someone says "why do you have asthma? There is so much air around" everyone gets offended
Fr, like I KNOW life is beautiful and all that but it just doesn't feel like it to me
"You're dying? just live."
its crazy cause i got asthma im dying laughing i forgot i was supposed to do school 😭😭😭
Sometimes i just want to wait until late at night, leave, run away, be on my own. But my fear prevents me from doing that. My friends would miss me, my partner, my parents, my grandparents, my sister. I love them, so i feel like i can never leave or i would hurt them. my life is good, but i still feel horrible for a reason i cant think up, and people are always telling me to grow up and that i'm being dramatic. I just feel sad, trapped, alone. and i don't know why.
I hope that some of the other people can see this and feel comforted. i see you, i see all of you, i understand you and i hope you are doing well. Just breathe, you'll be okay. I love all of you guys.
EDIT: feel free to vent in the replies, i'll listen.
My biological dad is mentally abusive my step dad is a cheating as liar my mom cant leave him even if her own daughter begs her to leave cousin died from suicide and the worst part is is that i could have stopped her because she told me 2 days beforehand 6 family deaths in 2 years grades suck life suck room dirty lil sis is toxic older bro is my only safe place and i dont see him anymore and he is thinking about joining the army ive almost got to the cutting stage i just have to find the guts im at the breaking point ive been in family drama since i was 4 i learnt to fake smile at 6 and i want to die so bad im not comfortable in my own skin i miss my cousin she was my therapist at this point my dogs are all i have left im dead inside lost gone im really trying i really am its not working their life is so pretty and care free its not fair i cant leave my biological dads house without hating myself for it ive been used and laughed at and talked about by my own family im so tired i just want to go home but then my home life is worse then school so i wish i was dead and no one gets it like yes u had a similar experience but its not the same
I feel the same way.. Idk why I feel those emotions(sad, trapped etc)..I know I should be more grateful that I have a family/home but sometimes I want to die. I won’t tho because of my loved ones and I don’t have the guts to. I just wonder what life is about sometimes..I feel rlly guilty..like why am I like this? Shouldn’t I be happy? Why do I have suicide thoughts? (Questions I ask myself) Sorry if I vented too much 😭
when i want to i cant because my anxiety and stuff, this all i can say in 20 min or so (/~\)
@@EvenlyOddUhere I feel for you.
Just know, its going to be okay, you can do this, and i believe in you.
If i could crawl through the screen and give you a big hug and some hot tea and that would make you feel better, i would. I hope you sleep well and have an amazing day, or night, or whatever time zone ur in. :3
(sorry ik this is extremely long)
(sorry, ik u said we could vent but it still feels wrong doing this , so an apology in advance!!)
I always feel like every move I make and do is wrong, like as if everyone is always watching judging and staring. I always feel weird talking to anyone because I know they'll always have it worse. Divorced parents, negligent parents, controlling parents, suicidal thoughts and such, I feel like such a burdon talking to anyone so whenever I even get the chance to open up to anyone or anything it still feels so wrong. And other times, I feel so weird as if I was some sort of sociopath, not feeling real emotions like as if I was just mirroring others pain or happiness cause I know I'm supposed to feel that way but I just don't. I am a queer kid, and really none of my other friends are, atleast the close ones, and the ones that are just don't understand and I don't ever feel the motivation or the vocabulary to explain nor do I have the motivation to actually do anything. My room is filthy and I hate myself for it. A few years ago I resorted to self harm and I will forever hate myself for it, it's my only way of escape and I feel like I'll never get help for it.
Sorry for this long rant about myself I'm just hoping someone will listen. Please know someone is always out there praying for your safety and thanks for reading I guess!!♥️
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@@kueror7726 oh okay thanks!
guess who was 2 and a half months clean!….now i’m 2 minutes clean…
Two months is still a long time :) I’m proud of you
i hope i have stayed strong but if not pls try to it’s ok we are here for u xx if u need to u can vent to me even if im just a stranger i want to help u
i’m also proud of u 2 months was very long :)
Great job! Stay strong im here ❤
i used have a boy best friend.. but sadly he passed away due to cancer... he was the best thing that ever happened in my whole life he shined bright like the brightest star his smile could make anyone feel warm inside he was a sweet , warm hearted person i wish i never lost.. i always loved him but never had the guts to tell him how i felt.. sometimes i wish i could go back in time or die soon just to tell him how i felt / feel... he had warm hand's that could make any cold hearted person go warm hearted in a couple of second's.. i always used to be rude but after met him i changed i changed a lot... i started being more kind etc.. but only 3 year's after knowing him he told me he had cancer and that he'd die soon.. he told me if there was one way he'd want to die it was next to the person who loved him the most basically dying with the person he knew loved him.. i wasn't there i failed myself i failed him i could've been there i should've been there but i wasn't i don't think i could ever forgive myself for not being able to save him not being there for him when he was there for me... i don't think i'l ever be the same as i was with him it just show's how cruel this hell called the "world" is..
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know what it's like to lost a friend, especially a best friend so if you want to talk I'm here.
Angel very sorry for your loss. Your words show just how deeply he meant to you and how much he impacted your life in such a beautiful way. It sounds like he truly was a bright light and a special soul. Please don’t be too hard on yourself-you didn’t fail him. The love and kindness you gave him while he was here surely meant the world to him.
Even though he’s gone, his memory lives on in the way he changed you and helped you grow into a more compassionate person. That love you hold for him will never fade, and I truly believe that he knew how much you cared for him, even if it wasn’t said out loud.
Life can be so cruel, but the love and light he brought into your world will always stay with you. Honor his memory by continuing to live with the warmth and kindness he inspired in you. You're carrying his legacy forward in your heart, and that’s such a powerful way to keep him close. forgive yourself as you only have urself💖
@@Eeaaalam thank you so much
@@sebastianrios2145 i'm sorry for your loss they may rest in peace and thank you so much
I'm sorry you lost such a warm and loving person, but Im sure even if you weren't with him in the moment you were there in his mind. You sound like a good person so try to not blame yourself, losing someone is always hard no matter how close you are with them. And I'm sure he understood/understands how you felt. Live long, and lead a good life!🩷
Im a coward im so stupid and sensitive its almost like everyone at my school can handle insults from their mom but when my mom does i want to cry
me to buddy but for e its not my mom i cant imagine how hard it is for you but we all have to stick together
Relationships are always hard, but know that not all are forever. Whether that means it will disappear or change, just know it will always be for the better of you. Being sensitive is normal, and trust life will forever be changing, and there will be little happy pockets along the road.
my dad used to tell me "i dont compare u to ur brother." but when I do something he doesn't like "be more like ur brother." and my brother is 9. now he tells me that I have to work harder if I want his love.
Youre gonna make it. Trust me. So so many people have been in horrendous situations and mental states. But still, they struggled onwards, and lived a life they can be proud of, through sheer work and willpower. Pick up yourself up, and show your past self that it was wrong for almost giving up. Show the universe that out of neutron stars, gamma bursts, black holes and all that crap, the most powerful energy source that will ever exist is the indomitable human spirit. Good luck .
I have a bf and currently his stepdad hates me because he assumes the worst of me. They went shopping together bc my bf wanted to get me a Christmas present, and his stepdad told him that I'm probably using him for money and forced him to buy me something. I didn't, i actually feel very bad everytime someone gives me a present and try to convince them not too. And another thing, he's judged me for my "boyish style/boy clothes" that my bf even yelled at him after. That actually made me hella insecure and wish i wasn't ever a tomboy, I feel like I'm not the gf they want him to date everytime I see him now I get very insecure and nervous knowing he sees me like that. His mom also defends me and is very sweet. But everytime I think about what he's said towards me, I can't help but cry..., idk what to do, idk if I should keep being myself, which is what everyone has told me, or change, bc I also don't want to keep feeling uncomfortable knowing he doesn't like my style at all and thinks I'm only dating his son for money and presents. Idk what to do I just don't want to keep living in fear and discomfort. 😕
Love you should never change for someone. I learned that for myself. If you truly love him or yourself, please do not do it.
exactly, the dad is just... someone, that's truly all he is, don't have to let him get to ya, he's not the one you'll spend a significant part of your life with. as for your bf, come on, be adorable and go melt those worries in his arms, have a good talk about it all, it'll be alright ^^. just a matter of putting it all into words, making each other aware of the issues and finding solutions, like to never ever take his father advice on what to do about you haha. also you can ignore him if you eventually find the strength to do so
and if it somehow doesn't end up alright then that's that, it'd hurt a lot but i'm sure you'll eventually find someone with a family that at the very least doesn't reject you to the exent of breaking your relationship
bless ya sweetheart
Thank you two for letting me realize the right choices, I won't change for a man who I'm not spending my significant life on, and I truly love my bf and won't change for him, bc he's let me know he loves me for who I am and likes the way I am. Thank you loves for your comforting words, may y'all be blessed as well 🫶
@@BrownieBoy. You too! I truly wish it works out!
It's been a rough week, worst than ever, and I'm fighting for my life not to relapse, to not become that person again but as I write this I know It's too late. I have messed up all of my friendships and all of my grades for nothing. Last night I got a message telling me that I was acting like a completely different person online than irl but guess what I am a different person when people aren't looking at me and it shows. The worst part, I can't talk about these things to anyone so I'm being selfish on the internet and letting my thoughts out for once in my life.
I just wanna be a kid again, not caring about school, grades, and how life will turn out
I think I won't ever be that person I so desperately want to become
Thanks for listening in to my little rant
I love listening to vent playlists and draw when I'm sad.
To be honest sad people like myself and other people that also struggle always try to make others happy no matter what because they know whats its like feeling absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel that way thats just my thought
You a very special person who deserves everything good in life, and who is loved much more than you think.
No matter what you do you will always be a precious being with endless value ❤
Life is beautiful. It’s fantastic and the world has so much to offer and sometimes you just don’t realize that. But when you’re sad.. all of those thoughts go out of the window and become replaced with reality. This world is horrible. So much bad goes on here. Everything is stopping you. Ending it all would make the pain go away. But something I remember is all the things I would miss out on. I forget that even though my parents are not the best people in the world I still have my friends. They don’t have to care about what I’m feeling or how I’m doing because who wants to hear about that anyways. That just puts people in a bad mood and nobody wants to feel that. But as long as they keep me distracted from everything around me, I’m cool.
i've been depressed for so long i can't even tell why anymore. everything seems so pointless and dull, if only i had the courage...
Im happy and try to help people that aren't
Good morning, afternoon or night to anyone who is reading this, don’t hurt yourself. It’s not worth it. You may feel like no one cares but there are. If there is truly no one on earth that cares, then know that God cares for you. Please don’t take this as a way for me to force Christianity because that’s not my purpose, my purpose is to show that he is there for each and every one of you that are hurting. He loves everyone no matter they’re beliefs. I hope you get the chance to speak to him about your problems because believe me, he will take your pain away. I love you all and I hope everything gets better because I believe it will❤
i don’t feel forced by christianity. i feel trapped by christianity. there was this guy i was talking to. he was very christian but i don’t mind peoples beliefs. but he said he was a profit from god and that his entire purpose to “save me”
it was terrible because it had me questioning every moment of every day and had me thinking about if i was pleasing this nonexistent lord that’s in an old book. it had me questioning my friends, my life. now everytime im not doing good i repeat to myself “could i still get into heaven if i killed myseld?”
If it can get any worse then you know you should keep going.
My recommendations knows me so well 🤗🤗🤗🙃
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@@IHave73MentalI_illnessesHOLA HI I’M WALMART SANTA WANT ANYTHING FROM WALMART????
@@D3pr3ss3d_T33n you’re on the good Walmart kid list. What would you like from Walmart?
@@D3pr3ss3d_T33n dont worry kid i got all the Walmart supplies. I even got you chocolate Walmart milk🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️
Omg fallen down like from undertale!1!1!11!
ikrr!
*You have summoned a Undertale fan* HAII (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
I’ll be living with dad now, I have no idea how to feel. Mums an alcoholic and is always working but I can tell she loves me. I only see dad every other weekend but I feel like he knows me more than mum ever has. Mum called drunk asking me to come home at 11 at night, when I said tomorrow she started yelling at dad saying he’s a narcissist and I won’t be seeing him ever again. I know she loves me, I love her too. The drinks are constant, every night. Fosters, Prosecco, the lot. It’s so hard. My friends and dad say it’s up to me but idk what to do. I’ve said I’ll live with dad and she probably hates me now, she’s said me her my brother and sister (whom have both moved out as they are older, sister doesn’t share the same dad) to have a talk about it that will probably end very badly. Idk what to do man, someone please talk to me?
If anyone wants to vent to me please feel welcome, I was once in this position and I had no one to vent to, I’ll be your best friend X :)🩷
basicially im class, so my school has bahavior grades and i had slime in class but my mom said if i make slime with the glue i will never see glue again in my life so then its on my behavior paper and im scared because she will be so angry and idk what to do because i only have a day before i will be in even bigger trouble and idk if i can do anything rn
and it happened twice so i have four behavior marks
Thank you
Im sorry i feel so selfish right now,
Im going through big changes in my life, im moving schools and stuff, my anxiety is slowly killing me, sometimes it feels like my stomach is eating itself inside out, like theres a brick on my lungs, like theres a knife in my head, and i suddenly start shaking, im falling to the ground and i can’t breathe. It’s been happening a-lot recently, with strict parents im scared to do something about it. It feels one second im dying, and then the other im perfectly fine and im just exaggerating. I had a friend, we got into some issues, i loved her, i stood behind that door. I heared her talk bad, about me, all my friends, everyone i knew, they opened that door, my heart beat was so loud i couldn’t hear them. Or my thoughts. I fell to the ground, i couldn’t breather, i was shaking. And she laughed at me. Im still heartbroken, we’re not friends anymore but shes slowly taking away everyone i care about and love. I feel it. I see it.
Im sorry.
@@Dreamriders1113 and my mom and dad cal me names like fat ugly moron and slow and dumb
I hate the fact my reason to live is slowly decreasing but here I am still breathing
Im planning to commit this week, i love you all. (Just in case i actually die, i love yall with all my heart and yes if your my friend then take my stufd)
IF YOU ARE ALIVE PLEASE CONTACT 988
IF YOU ARE ALIVE CONTACT 988
IF YOU ARE ALIVE CONTACT 988
I sound like a schizo…I’m on a burner because TH-cam kept deleting my comments lol…honestly i shouldn’t care, I never even met you…so sorry if I annoyed you…if your alive what I’m saying is really awkward…god I look like a loser rn lol…but yeah if there is somewhere you go after you die, and your seeing this…which I doubt…I want you to know that a dumbass wrote all that shit to try and help you
I probably was just annoying for telling you to contact 988. I mean you were probably already dead. I’m sorry, I don’t even know you so sorry. I wasted my time
what baffles me is how other players not only try to bring back players to the game by using tactics such as doing the opposite of pulling the plug or taking them to special maps with heavely restrained gameplay mechanics that you can only get out off by being willing to play until your computer gives up on you; but they even go as far as making anyone who would be willing to help go to yet another map even if it's slightly better there since it's time based and changing your mind isn't a requirement for leaving but you do go back if you try to help again and for longer, other than that those places aren't safe unless you're in a good one (that bit is true for the other one too). i didn't even want to play this game in the first place, it was just given to me and i couldn't quit no matter how hard i tried, i just can't understand why they glorify this game so much, saying it's mid would be the most generous things i could ever possibly say in my entire existance even if i had to play it for 10000 more years.
i'm honestly scared of them and angry too, it's like they are blind to what they're doing or they just don't care about anyone that's not like them other than trying to asimilate them into their way of thinking/being. it feels quite lonely when you're outnumbered seemingly a million to one
like, sorry guys, i know some of y'all would miss me if i quit playing let's say minecraft but that choice should be up to me and only me. plus, there are way to many players nowdays, the server is way too crowded, not enough drops for the players to level up and maintain their mood stats; and some hoarders are making the problem being what it is today, wouldn't mind it if the drops were unlimited but they ain't, way too many peoples can't even get access to the lowest tier of health potions or simple items like bread.
i'v been awake for way too long, don't know how the rest of them can play for so long but i can't, i'm exhausted, i need to quit the game and go lay down for a while, if only they cared enough to understand i wouldn't be in so much pain. the worse is, i still love them all and i wish them the best of choice, freedom, safety, fulfilment and happiness, each and every single one of them no matter who, really, i'm not kidding, everyone everyone, even for those i feel the opposite of love at the same time(having paradoxical emotions is very fun and not draining at all, but it does actually help understand everything a lot better, points of views and all). and the peoples i love are doing this to me, justifying it however they want if they even bother to do so but pain doesn't care about their excuses.
i really need a break from this game, i have wanted that for what, a decade now? that's certainly more than good enough for me and in this specific case my opinion really is the only one that matters in term of what actions would be okay to do, be it turning of my computer or not.
everything is going to be okay. I promise. 🫂🧡🧡 i love you 🫂🫂🫂🧡
I Love the pfp, Looks like rainbow dash took Coke (Btw cool playlist)
I just have been so mentally and physically tired that god, im so sick of it all. When does it get better? Will it ever get better? Thanks for the kind and supportive comments i needed that I've been thinking of committing, but i dont know im so damn tired
I just wish my mom loved me like she loves my brothers.
Why dose every song i hear now relate to how messed up life is now?
Crazy I fell asleep yesterday.
Vent here
wish i hadn't failed
Please know that atleast one person is always praying for your safety. Atleast I am, Im really not religious or anything but I truly hope you stay safe. Honest.
same
@Melanieslittleearthling11 hey so actually that's not cool at all to claim others experiences as your own and actually is kind of gross🫤 but either way i do hope you can get the help you need, and please live a good and long life*
I'm thinking about you today
🫂❤
I love your playlist a;so the name and your picture profile
tyyy
if you want my two cents, i'm glad you're still here. i'm some random 20 year old on the internet who went through the same american bullshit school system while having everyone look at me like i was a mistake. but trust me when i say your life's so much more beyond school and work.
the world's a shithole rn, but that doesn't mean you're a part of the shit if that makes sense
new Sub>:3
maybe if i wasn't like this i would be happy.....
its okay my skibidi sigma
we can be alpha together
@@IHave73MentalI_illnesses okay
I wish i succeeded, the maybe my family might have loved me.
Hey, you doing okay now?
8:00 music name??
fallen down from the undertale soundtrack
Are u okay :) ❤
Yea :1
@@HolaThisIs_Flower :D ^_^
i wanna cry so badly my siblings doing it. (s.) what do I do.
(SH..)
Im a 13 yr old girl that loves u❤
You get a suB :D
I'm annoying
No. No your not. Your wonderful. You always will be, dont think that your annoying. If you think that your annoying, then your wrong. I know, by what your saying is just NOT true. Your a perfect person, no matter who, or what you are and what you look like.
🫂🧡