i like the fact that most of these images are photos of canines, because dogs are animals who are very devoted to their owners, but very often they are treated awfully or even kicked out of their owner’s homes. but dogs don’t understand why they are being treated like this and just hope for their owners to take them back home and think that they still love them.
:( i don't understand why people treat dogs like this, i wish i had the time/resources to take care of all the strays and make them feel loved but alas i am just a broke teen
@@Yuki_San.S basically they say "you deserve better" but they won't be better to match what they think you deserve, instead pushing you away because you're not worth being better for
"nobody apologized for how they treated me. they just blamed me for how i reacted" OUCH, i never knew an image of a cat could explain all my feelings in 1-2 sentences.
"Nobody apologized for how they treated me, they just blamed me for how I reacted" is so fitting over a cat. They're often compared to dogs and found lacking, but that's not fair to them at all. They are different animals. They have different needs. Cats are capable of being just as social and needy as a dog, but they don't show it the same ways... It leads to them being blamed for their behaviors seeming unloving, when the problem was never with them. Cats being used as one of the non-canine exceptions in this video, and with that quote? It's a little genius.
To be convinced you were the problem all along, that you were the burden to be dragged along by others, that you were the reason people struggled and bared their teeth at you... only to grow older and realize that you've never reared your head, you've never spoken back, and you've got so much rage built up suddenly as you realize you were never the one who caused it. You were young and impressionable, naive and hopeful, and taken complete advantage of. You couldn't have done better, and if you could have, you can't change it now. You have to stand up and carry that with you until it's safe to put it down and deal with it. I hope those of us with heavy packs on their backs full of regret, grief, and gaslighted memories a safe journey, and I hope one day you get that chance to go over it and realize how good of a person you still are. You are deserving of being loved.
It sucks how people will only be friends with you for their own benefits and you can't see it until it's too late, and they've already ruined you. Edit: Thanks for all the likes everybody, I'm sorry if you find this relatable
Yup. That's how 90% or more of the world's population behaves. They want you to be what they desire, and to h311 with your own goals, intentions, skills, dreams, etc. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
Do you ever wonder if unintentionally you do the same thing to your friends? Perhaps we would be narcissists if we believed everyone else in the world did it but not us
Exactly. They like the version of you they found, they hate when you change in ways that don’t serve them what they want on a silver platter. They hate when you change for yourself.
Hey kiddo! Why are you here? Having a rough day or night? Yeah, life can be tough. Want to talk about it? (If not, that perfectly fine! As long as you’re comfortable!) Yikes, that’s a lot. It’s perfectly fine to feel the way your feeling kiddo. It’s not your fault. They don’t deserve you, you deserve better. I’m so proud of you for getting through this. You are such a strong kid or even adult. Everyone has a tough time. But no matter what happens, you shouldn’t give up because there will always be somebody to talk to. :) once again, you are one of the strongest, likeable people I know. And im so proud of you for getting through this.
@@cqroline333 I turned 19 one month ago, so we are going forward to look what's about to come, hoping it to be good Happy birthday, Caroline, I hope for your life to be wonderful, 🎂 ✨
@@Emptybottle7 yeah, i think it is better because now im free of school so now i can sleep more than before (and wake up early) and my mom gifted me a drawing tablet recently :D
☆ - Time-stamps - ☆ 0:00 Abbey - Mitski 2:42 Over and over - Rio Romeo 4:20 You smell of dead flowers - Vslush ☆ 6:00 Sinner - Samlrc 7:11 Vampire empire - Big Theft 10:19 Sarah - Alex G ☆ 13:26 Theophobia - Owen Evans / Roar 15:46 Every Dog Has Its Day - Toby Keith 19:25 I cant handle change - Roar ☆ 22:40 I was only temporary - My head is empty (slowed plus reverb) 24:22 Fading kitten syndrome - Roar 27:17 Treehouse - Alex G ☆ 29:53 Cigarettes out the window - TV Girl 33:16 I wait for you - alex g Loved the playlist keep up the great work!
*''You gave me your heart you know. Youd like me to hand it back, WHOLE again, but I wont. You will live a long time yet katherine in eternity without me, you will look into the faces of passers by hoping for something that will for instance, bring me back to you. You will find moonlit nights strangely empty because when you call my name through them there will be no answer. Always your heart will be aching for me and your mind will give you the doubtful consolation that you did..a brave thing.''*
i keep having this memory play in my head from when i was five. my mom locked me out of her room after wrestling me out because she didnt want to deal with me. i sat out the door like a lost puppy humming to myself and imagining stories or whatever a five year old does. after a couple minutes i knocked on her door and asked if i could come back in. "just give me five minutes alone, would you?" she yelled through the door. i didnt have an understanding of the concept of time yet so i just counted to five over and over again before falling asleep on the floor. she said she wishes she never had kids. she said she wishes she had never met my father, even if that means she would never have to meet me. i agree; without my father i wouldnt have had to meet either of them
It's crazy that strangers on the internet can understand you more than your own family and/or friends. Not to mention they tell you they love and are proud of you?? Be honest, how many times have you heard someone in your life say that? Me personally, not alot. And the fact they care? Almost makes me want to breakdown.
The last time I vented to someone I trusted, and after they said it was a safe place to speak, I told how someone I adored *destroyed everything* in my life because that’s how they thought a break-up should go. I’m not being dramatic - literally EVERYTHING was destroyed. He went down the list. My job, my friends, my passions and places I go - he destroyed my reputation with false rumors. Isolated me to nothing. Then moved… I ended my vent with “I feel like an absolute fool.” To which they went: “You should.” and laughed at me. Cackled. Thought it was so funny I was shaking, curled into a ball, pleading for a single friend. That mentally broke me. The straw on the camel’s back. Whoever I was before that, is gone. I’m better now, but man… these photos, the words on them… man does my mind SCREAM these. It’s been almost six years, and I recall these memories like they belong to another soul’s. I used to be so comfortable with someone holding my hand. Now? I don’t think a single day has gone by where I don’t feel my eyes *burn* from hyper vigilance and hands stay out of reach from others. Maybe one day, I’ll remember what’s it’s like to touch another finger tip without the electrical spikes of mistrust. Edit: autocorrect being autocorrect 👍
Im so sorry that happened to ya mate, you dont need me to say it but i will; ya deserved better and i hope that you reach that goal, with the people you love especially. Cuz that's what matters.
it just happened like how i vented with my friendgroup, lucky that i cutted of connections, studying in a diff school after a year of numb and isolation I hope life become more comfort for you
I’ve realized over the years how important priorities are. We want to be someone’s priority, we want to be the center of people’s worlds. We think we are. We aren’t. We have goals in life, priorities we chase. So many of us here are young, 25 years old or younger, we have so many things ahead of us. We’re still shaping our future. It isn’t a lack of love, but it is love for myself and who/where I want to be in the future. If it hurts someone for me to change to be a better me for myself - they don’t love me, they love the supply I gave them that I couldn’t give anymore. I’ve picked my future over past friends. I did it again recently. If me chasing my future and my passion is upsetting for someone - they don’t care what I want. They care about their comfort and me staying pinned down where they want me. Where they like me. What’s good for them, what makes them feel good, but disrespects me. I am valuable to myself. I accept when our paths diverge.
I have told people “you deserve better”…Is because I mean it, my mind is so unstable and a wreck that it will destroy everything in a blink of an eye. No one and nothing can change me except myself. And myself is sometimes the biggest enemy. So yes someone who wants to be my partner do deserve to have someone that will love them sincerely than having someone that is caught in a self-destructive storm.
The quotes and pictures on this are so depressing. ... but so relatable. ...I want to be gone... but I don't really want to die. ...I'm sorry if I'm being annoying. It must be my fault.
It's not your fault Your not a problem You are perfect You aren't fat You aren't skinny You aren't the problem You aren't a bad person You are wonderful You aren't a crybaby Your don't deserve them You love yourself You are clean You are kind Your are the person that everyone wants Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it Your size isn't a book... don't judge it Your life isn't a movie... don't end it Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do. The past of you suffering will end Your suffering will end Don't c^t your body your hair Don't kill your self yet. If you have a pet it will make your problem go away They get mad at you for being soo perfect They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning You are brighting the world.. you are a true star Keep going.. it will past. We love you don't stop being kind to everyone The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back. They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous Give everyone a second chance not too many tho your eyes is perfect your nose is perfect your height is perfect your skin is perfect your mouth is perfect your hair is perfect your face is perfect your body is perfect your hands is perfect your fingers is perfect your teeth is perfect your waist is perfect Your torso is perfect your legs are perfect your thighs are perfect your tounge and everything is perfect YOU are perfect love your body and everything You are so greatful for what you have. Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you And leave your fake friends You deserve better. Don't give up Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person. We are proud to see you alive. We are so proud We love your smile We love your laugh We love your personality So don't give up We love you. We love you so much Don't end it too fast. Don't commit Don't get controled Don't make them control you like a puppet Do your own way Do everthing you like Ignore the rude people Ignore the hate Ignore getting yelled There's people by your side and always be. We love you no matter what you do to yourself. They don't know what your been through They ain't been in your shoes Don't belive them they are liars Love youself. We are proud of you existing here We love you so much.. NEVER GIVE UP You're precious You made it this far. And it's so amazing that you are still here
this seems like the type of playlist where the comments are filled with people venting.. but I'm too embarrassedddd >_> this playlist really resonates with me though. usually I prefer to only listen to albums but this one's really good!! it's filled with some really great artists that I used to listen to alllll the time whenever I was sad :'p I've been doing a lot better mentally ever since I got diagnosed with ADHD and Asperger's (fancy way of saying autism) but I still like indulging in my sadness like any other teenage girl!! the mood of these songs combined with the pictures you chose feel so familiar in a way. I see those kinds of pictures on pinterest all the time and I think they're such a great way of expressing emotions!! ^_^ anyway this is just such a great video. sounds cheesy but thank you for sharing :p
I was diagnosed with ADD/ADHD as well, (idk if I have autism or if it's just overlapping symptoms /lh), and recently I've looked into psychology to understand my cognitive self better. I occasionally inquire about this subject to my therapist, and while talking to her, she helped me realize that I might have emotional trauma from my mother; she recommended "The Body Keeps the Score" by Bessel van der Kolk (I've been reading it for an argumentative essay I need to write, and it's phenomenal imo /pos). In that, I've come to the conclusion that I have been hurt, albeit not physically/sexually, even though I still feel some guilt when comparing my circumstances to others (which I know isn't the healthiest habit.) I've turned from a lonely puppy desperate for any type of love or attention from my mother to a wild dog that bares its teeth at the slightest aggression, not out of malice but rather fear. Idk what I was trying to say, lol, I kind of got lost. Ig what I'm trynna get at is that your comment resonated with me, and now I've yapped ::P
I thought “you smell of dead flowers” was a FNAF song for a second cause of the similar tune. Also love the wolf plushie on that section, wish I had one.
*4:21* you smell of dead flowers was such a surprise I actually dropped my homework to go confirm it was really what i was hearing lol, love this song so much
A veces quisiera estar sola y que nadie esté conmigo por los posibles problemas que genero. Hasta que recuerdo los backrooms, dremacore, entre otros, y en eso recuerdo el horror de vivir desolado. Al final, solo quiero dejar de ser una molestia. Una molestia que otros no ven en mi, porque a la persona que más molesto es a mi misma. El camino a quererse de verdad es difícil, pero no imposible. Sigan intentando, respetense así mismos, su cuerpo, sus emociones, su mente, tengo la esperanza de que un día podremos abrazar ese amor propio que todos merecemos
I think, I think two parts of me finally found themselves, a blunt one and a pleaser one, I'm filled with realization of a lifetime, yet the tiredness of reality, I haven't fucked up, just make a few mistakes, that's okay, I just need to speak and be assertive, ah, it's weird, am I really this weird? I am kind, just perhaps not friendly and cuddly enough for a society as ours. Thanks bud, this playlist hit me in a oddly calmly way
i got five long letters from five friends of mine, they all said that im ruining their life and they have never seen such an annoying and bad person as i am. after all this i dont really think that i deserve this life. i mean they cant be all wrong, probably im really just a horrible person :")
It really depends on what did they say and why, what happened before that you didn't give much context so it could be either way DEFFINITELY go visit a therapist, doesn't matter if they are wrong or right, a licenced therapist can help you get your life together 🎉
If you're changing in order to please others, you aren't really "you". Instead, you're a shard of THEM. 💪😎✌️ Pro tip: remain yourself... always. Sure, change if YOU really, truly feel compelled to do so, or you've learned something new and pivotal which enlightened you. However, I don't recommend changing who and what you are simply because of some random human's opinions or directives. That's pretty janky. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind’s journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul’s fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope’s strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe’s endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (series)
I should probably preface this by saying that I am autistic. When I say that 'you deserve better' I mean nothing more or less than that. I'm directly telling you that you deserve better, with zero trickery or deeper meaning. I told this to a former partner, and they completely broke down when I said that. I'm confused and would like an explanation about why [seemingly] the majority decided unanimously that when someone says 'you deserve better' they're essentially saying that you aren't worthy of getting better for--and in the context I'm assuming--in a romantic relationship. Having deeper meanings to literal and succinct phrases is hard to try and comprehend, please explain. Thank you.
hi! i am autistic too - i think it means that you think your not good enough for your partner. and that’s a sad thing to feel - your partner loves you very much, i’m sure 🫂
It's the avoidance of deeper meaning. There's heavy assumption in the allistic (non-autistic) world that to break bad news it's better to soften the blow. That built-up resentment and malice is the only reason for truth, softened or not, to be expressed. Both intentions mean 'We are incompatible, where I am isn't where you are and vice versa' but one uses the actual phrase 'You deserve better' as degrading yourself while putting the other in higher regard, a hope that there are better things soon, while the other is code word for 'I'm leaving because you're unworthy of my time'
this playlist is so epic (i only use the word "epic" when something's really good, take this as a MASSIVE complement:3 you probably wont this this anyway but i hope you do!)
my parents have been falling out badly for whole my life, thats a sufferening lol. I cried from the "you were a child, there was nthing you could do"..I had no idea before how 1 sentence and a picture with dog can explain my feelings last 5 years huh, and thanks for such a playlist:>
i tried and tried to be believed but nobody did. i was convinced i was a hopeless waste of space. i starved myself. im doing better now though but I'm still horrified of the though of getting blamed again.
I take things to my heart, no matter if it's a joke or a lie or anything. One you say something about me, i'll try hard to change it. Since 8th grade i've been trying to please people by changing myself but i didn't think i'd do more than that. "You're so noisy" okay, i'll be more quiet. "You're so bold" okay, I'll learn to hesitate "you're so dumb" I'm trying to study. "You always butt in" okay i'll stay by myself. no matter how hard i try i'm always the attention, the problem in the classroom even if i didn't do anything and just sat down myself, i'm only me? why are you so touched by it we're both human, there's nothing wrong.
that warming feeling in your heart when you think you found the one but really you were just so stupid to not see that he was a wolf in a sheeps clothing...
I was happy for a month in my life. How did i f up so bad. I dont want to go back. I see nothing in life now. I love you Beata i love you so much im so sorry
God. I’m reading the text on these images and the more I read the more I come aware that I’m not a horrible person I just act like one so I don’t get hurt.
I know I’m stupid for revealing my age.. I’m young and some guy from a other class who is my age touched me everywhere and I’m scared. He always swears at me and hugs me when I don’t want to be touched by him. I told my teachers and dad but they don’t really care much, he slapped me. He scares me I’m scared and I want him away..gone.
Please tell he police or report it. That's very dangerous and I can progress into even worse behavior later on. No one, and I mean no one, should ever treat you like that
@@heybye2147dude that’s not even funny. You’re not being “cool” or “edgy” you’re just being insensitive and ignorant. There’s no reason to comment this. The only reason to comment this is because you want attention.
CW vent Had an old ‘friend’ who claimed that I was abusive and awful to them, when most of the things I did that they claimed were abusive, were things that not only were they also doing, but also things normal children usually do (we were both 9, and were both traumatized by our own stuff) They would proceed to dangle this over my head for YEARS, saying they had “✨trauma✨” (yes, they would say it like that) when I would try to reach out and move forward with our friendship and grow from the past together, and we’d be stuck repeating the cycle again and again, and they’d keep bringing the past up, convincing me that I had to change up to _their_ standards, and they basically controlled it. When I thought I hadn’t changed, they were praising me that I was, but when I finally told myself I had changed, they told me I hadn’t. Turns out, this entire time, they were trying to “fix” me, and that’s why they entered this friendship in the first place. And now that “their job was done” they were gonna leave me and cut contact with me once they left (they were living with me at this point) Really, that child they demonized never left. That child just grew up, and was ready to right any mistakes, but was never given the chance, even though they tried. _I_ cut contact with _them_ over a year ago from now. I don’t miss them, or the 7-8 years of my childhood they stole from me
the metaphor of the quotes and animals really fucking hurt. my perspective on animals (especially dogs) is so warped because of how i grew up with them and how i resent them (not in an abusive way. i just don’t like having them around) and i’ve been trying as much as i can to see them as living things again. as a being that has its own thoughts and feelings. i’ve been trying to see everybody that way. including people, but it’s really hard to see it in animals anymore. i’m trying though. at least i hope so. it’s gotten to a point where i’m completely desensitized to animal death. i’ve seen it range from death from disease to being completely mutilated by other dogs. i’ve had dogs die in my arms. it mainly got out of hand during the 2019-2020ish period when we lost almost all of our money and almost lost our house multiple times. since we weren’t selling dogs anymore because of the economy, they built up. at one point we had over 40-60 dogs. i’ve practically been a veterinarian since the age of 10. i’ve given dogs shots, docked tails and removed dew claws, helped dogs birth puppies, etc. during mid 2023 to early 2024, parvo broke out and killed a large majority of our dogs. nearly every day there was a new grave in our backyard. between that age to being 12-13, i’ve dissociated for three years and literally convinced myself that i had a psychotic break during it. it got to a point where i had the police called on me and they took me to a mental hospital. now, almost a year later, i’m going to get evaluated and diagnosed in early december. i’m kinda nervous about it. i’m not exactly sure what they’re gonna do.
4:20 I had that exact soft toy, their name was Magma. Eventually they got chewed by mice. I am stuck in a cycle of dread and fear for my future, I do nothing but school work and try to escape life. I don't feel capable of anything and I have no friends because I fear people and nobody likes me. I just wish one thing would go right because I am struggling
I love you I hate you … What can I do For you? My love My dear And my deep feeling of regret I’ve told you before But maybe I just need to say it again I love you I love you I love you Stay warm Stay strong And be there tomorrow so I can hold you tight and give you comfort I love you my dear and I wish… Soon Soon maybe you’ll love me back I hate to see what he puts you through And what all the past people have put you through I can’t promise that I’d be perfect But I do know I could be better I hope if not that you’ll find what you’re searching for My dear My love You keep my heart warm Like a glove to a hand But that glove also stops me from feeling Feeling all the things around me My love for you is hurting me But I can’t stop it I don’t blame you But I will love you … I hope I hope you are happy my love Cuase I soon wish to be the hand that will guide your joy And if my hand be taken away I still hope that you’ll be happy My dear It wasn’t supposed to be I fell in love at first sight Didn’t know what it meant until I saw the distant horizon of what I really was … I love you dearly My love -A.P-S..,
I love this playlist so much! I was always made to be the bad person.. growing up, I realize that I never fought back. I didn't do a damn thing. They created an angry beast who is now just trying to get better and be better in order to break the cycle of abuse.
I'm feeling the opposite of this title. I'm tired of trying to stay the same. I'm the 'beekeeper' in my family. I've had an interest in bees since kindergarten, and no one knows where it comes from because most people in my family have a fear of bees. When I was 10, i joined black water beekeepers association by my grandmother's choice. It's a great community, and they even gifted my own hive. My OWN hive. Did i ask? No, not really. I was told i was getting bees and i was excited. But now, after around two years, i'm going to a meeting of some sorts called a seminar in less then an hour, where their going to introduce me as the youngest member of the association and, according to my parents, going to ask me questions and stuff about m story. I don't want to, not one bit. My social anxiety has grown a lot, and i'm crying about just thinking about talking in front of a bunch of people. Both my parents say i have to go, and my mom says that people are expecting me. She asked me what happened to the girl who gave a presentation about bees to her school classes, and i had no answer. I still love bees, but just not as much. I don't want to stop beekeeping because of all the money my family and the association has used to help me get to this point. The bee boxes, frames, equipment, suits, tools, ect. They aren't cheap, and i don't want it all to go to waste, but i just.. I just don't wanna have my whole personality defined by bees anymore. When introducing me to friends, my grandmother calls me the little beekeeper. Every family event, i get asked about my bees. I don't hate it, but i just don't want to do it anymore. I'll most likely edit this after the seminar, but i really just DON'T want to, but my parents say i have to, when i can hardly talk to my teachers. It's whatever, and i'm likely just over reacting, I'm just tired of trying to stay the same. EDIT: I've returned and yes, i was over dramatic. My mom made it sound like it was all going to me around me, and i panicked. It was just a normal meeting and the person who 'ran it' introduced me during the introduction. I feel like a child now, and hate myself slightly more :D
It is alright to feel scared, to feel as if everything is collapsing when one mention is misinterpreted. Many do this, old and young, and you don't have to feel ashamed! Everyone panics now and then, and seeing how much pressure you feel you have on yourself, it is reasonable to feel worry. I wish you the best in following your passions and pursuits, and I hope you feel better (soon). (I apologize if my takeaway is not what you intended to express, or did not want a reply)
As someone with social anxiety, you have no reason to feel ashamed. Any event where any kind of spotlight is put on you can be absolutely mortifying. It's why it's called a disorder. It's irrational. But that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. :)
i always feel like i annoy everyone. Im always cheerrful and happy, but sometimes im too much for the people around me. I dont know what to do. Should i change and become someone i am not, or schould i stay the same, and be myself? Should i chose the people i love or myself? I dont know....
I love ur hair I love ur eyes I love ur shirt I love ur pants I love ur shoes I love ur socks I love ur smile I love ur nails I love ur bed I love ur bedroom I love ur living room I love ur bathroom I love ur humour I love ur voice I love you♥︎
I am no ones first option in anything, i feel like everyone in my life hates me, i know people are just busy but things still fucking hurt, as the people who i thought were my best friends never text me first, if i dont text them first we can go a whole month without talking, i feel like im doing something wrong, but i dont know what i did, im just willing to do anything for them to just talk to me more, i miss them, maybe i am being too clingy idk
I only knew you for a short while but I loved you. I loved you and your talents, your strengths, your flaws. You helped me confirm who I was so afraid to be, to come to terms with myself and how beautifully fragile my heart can be. But your heart was tied to someone who couldn't love you, and from the start I knew you didn't love me. But so desperately I wished you did. I see now how foolish I was to chase after you, to want be your saviour. Truth was I was too cowardice to save myself, I grew enveloped in you, infatuated with being the hero of the story I could never be a part of. Now I stand alone, but with my life growing at the actions of my own hands, living a life I was so brave enough to accomplish. While you stay complacent in your fear, your wanna-be fantasies that will never come true, your desperate attempts at salvaging something that once felt safe to you. I can say now that I pity you, but I do not forgive you. As brave as I am, I am still picking up the pieces of the heart you shattered. I still long the future I wanted to build for you. But I do not miss you. I miss the life I thought we would have. Someday, somewhere, I will find someone who will meet me there, in our beautiful future. But for now... I am alone. And I fear I will be alone for a long, long time.
Listening this while my parents bang at my door 🗣️‼️ (somone please get me out of here please please oh my lord i hate my life so fuxking much i just want to be happy God what did i do to end up like this i tried so hard please give me my happy ending)
I’m so sorry. I can’t help but I know how much it hurts, I love you tho I don’t know you. I hope you continue, you’ll make it out alive trust me, you’re getting there soon… soon you’ll be safe my love
Omg this got popular ive been rewatching this playlist when i draw or am going to sleep and the first time i saw this it had 2k views and i was like "wow this is really underrated" then it got 12k then 21k then 40k and now 47k! U really deserve it bc this playlist is really sigma 😼 anywayz hope u have a good day/night!!!!
Ufff this playlist comes like a Arrow to my heart, i Hope everyone that has feel this o have expirience something like this finds the people that is really worth It, i know is heartbreaking but a lot of people is like this, a buch of ass⚫ the trick is to know the redflags, im here if you need someone to Talk to, maeby im just a stranger but i have been there, feel free to coment here whatever you need to let go
Absolutely. Although, I'm going to be going to sleep soon but I *will* be back to respond in the morning. (8-10 hours from now) Also, it's not selfish to vent. Holding it in is both tiring and unhealthy and sometimes all you need is someone to listen. (I have a 3ft long stuffed shark as my listener.) Edit: If you don't feel comfortable talking in YT comments, I can provide my Discord/Steam (I'm not on any other social media, unfortunately.)
My child. I feel the same way, I haven’t left high school yet and I still fear the future… and how… it might be missing and I’ll die before I’ve felt proper love… I the love I’ve had was twisted with family friends and one loved one
@Polka-Dot-ohokay Dear it isn't your fault, destiny its something we can't change but we can turn better. Keep studying a lot and try make new friends because if people leaves they dont wort it, who loves you will always stay even in rough moments like this, you are a great person good luck and keep going you have a bright future 🫶💕 (Sorry if my english isn't right im still learning 😭) plus love isn't something we can manage it will come with patience but never be with someone just because you feel alone i tell you that by experience sweetie dont do that please, be patient and meet the right person no one its perfect but they should make you happy, never sadder
4:20 The image in that one hits a LITTLE too hard. My ex best friend had that EXACT plushie. the reason i stopped being friends with her is because she was manipulative and hurtful to me, and made me feel wrong, but it was hard because i loved her and she knew everything about me. Small lesson to anyone reading, if they're hurting you, let them go. they dont deserve your love. they dont deserve you. find someone who will, no matter how hard it may be, or no matter how bad they try to make themselves look innocent. they're not. leave them.
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i like the fact that most of these images are photos of canines, because dogs are animals who are very devoted to their owners, but very often they are treated awfully or even kicked out of their owner’s homes. but dogs don’t understand why they are being treated like this and just hope for their owners to take them back home and think that they still love them.
And dogs are often changed to suit their owner's needs via breeding and gene manipulation...In a figurative and literal way, it's sad regardless....
:( i don't understand why people treat dogs like this, i wish i had the time/resources to take care of all the strays and make them feel loved but alas i am just a broke teen
Woof.
Dogs are some of the purest creatures
I was not expecting to cry today :( (I’m just like a dog)
" "you deserve better" is an interesting way of saying I'm not worth you getting better for." OML.
Pls tell me what it means, still tryna understand what they mean by that-
Stop
@@quinnDABEAN ???
@@Yuki_San.S basically they say "you deserve better" but they won't be better to match what they think you deserve, instead pushing you away because you're not worth being better for
thats not true. you just deserve someone who can love you properly right now. it just means u deserve better and they cannot be the better right now.
"nobody apologized for how they treated me. they just blamed me for how i reacted" OUCH, i never knew an image of a cat could explain all my feelings in 1-2 sentences.
That’s so real, oh god…
Hits like a damp meteor
"Nobody apologized for how they treated me, they just blamed me for how I reacted" is so fitting over a cat. They're often compared to dogs and found lacking, but that's not fair to them at all. They are different animals. They have different needs. Cats are capable of being just as social and needy as a dog, but they don't show it the same ways... It leads to them being blamed for their behaviors seeming unloving, when the problem was never with them. Cats being used as one of the non-canine exceptions in this video, and with that quote? It's a little genius.
relatable at its finest.
“I love you”
“No you don’t”
“What?”
“You don’t love me.”
She lied to me about everything, she promised not to lie again, she said she loved me but i think she's lying to me, she's turning into him.
she lies to me daily.....so i gave up on her and him...but i love them even if they dont love me....
Real
"Hey it's you!"
_Despite everthing, it still you..._
UNDERTALE REFRENCE!!!!??????!!!!!!??????!!!!!!!!!!??????
I LOVE USING CANINE IMAGERY TO CONVEY METAPHOR AND HOPELESSNESS ‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥
YEAHHH 🔥🗣️🗣️
To be convinced you were the problem all along, that you were the burden to be dragged along by others, that you were the reason people struggled and bared their teeth at you... only to grow older and realize that you've never reared your head, you've never spoken back, and you've got so much rage built up suddenly as you realize you were never the one who caused it. You were young and impressionable, naive and hopeful, and taken complete advantage of. You couldn't have done better, and if you could have, you can't change it now. You have to stand up and carry that with you until it's safe to put it down and deal with it.
I hope those of us with heavy packs on their backs full of regret, grief, and gaslighted memories a safe journey, and I hope one day you get that chance to go over it and realize how good of a person you still are. You are deserving of being loved.
i hate you. i hate you for reading me so well 😭😭😭 this is painful but also thank you
one way to hit home i couldn't even process out of pure shock and uncomfort due to this being so accurate.
It sucks how people will only be friends with you for their own benefits and you can't see it until it's too late, and they've already ruined you.
Edit: Thanks for all the likes everybody, I'm sorry if you find this relatable
Yup. That's how 90% or more of the world's population behaves. They want you to be what they desire, and to h311 with your own goals, intentions, skills, dreams, etc.
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@@Novastar.SaberCombat I wish people could just be nice. I hate people like that.
Do you ever wonder if unintentionally you do the same thing to your friends? Perhaps we would be narcissists if we believed everyone else in the world did it but not us
Real
Exactly. They like the version of you they found, they hate when you change in ways that don’t serve them what they want on a silver platter. They hate when you change for yourself.
Hey kiddo! Why are you here? Having a rough day or night?
Yeah, life can be tough. Want to talk about it?
(If not, that perfectly fine! As long as you’re comfortable!)
Yikes, that’s a lot. It’s perfectly fine to feel the way your feeling kiddo. It’s not your fault. They don’t deserve you, you deserve better.
I’m so proud of you for getting through this. You are such a strong kid or even adult. Everyone has a tough time. But no matter what happens, you shouldn’t give up because there will always be somebody to talk to. :) once again, you are one of the strongest, likeable people I know. And im so proud of you for getting through this.
Ily stranger ❤️i Hope you have an amazing life
I have no idea how I got here but thank you so much.
are you sans :/
@@Blackcat666c..?
@@KOHANEHAOHAOHAO forget it
How it feels to turn 18 when you wasted all your teenage years:
Coming from a 20 year old who felt like that at 18, trust the years to come are so much better :)
@@Emptybottle7
I'll trust in you, I need to do it
just turned 19 yesterday. and yeah :))
@@cqroline333
I turned 19 one month ago, so we are going forward to look what's about to come, hoping it to be good
Happy birthday, Caroline, I hope for your life to be wonderful, 🎂 ✨
@@Emptybottle7 yeah, i think it is better because now im free of school so now i can sleep more than before (and wake up early) and my mom gifted me a drawing tablet recently :D
“You were a child there was nothing you could do” was just too relatable
☆ - Time-stamps - ☆
0:00 Abbey - Mitski
2:42 Over and over - Rio Romeo
4:20 You smell of dead flowers - Vslush
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6:00 Sinner - Samlrc
7:11 Vampire empire - Big Theft
10:19 Sarah - Alex G
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13:26 Theophobia - Owen Evans / Roar
15:46 Every Dog Has Its Day - Toby Keith
19:25 I cant handle change - Roar
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22:40 I was only temporary - My head is empty (slowed plus reverb)
24:22 Fading kitten syndrome - Roar
27:17 Treehouse - Alex G
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29:53 Cigarettes out the window - TV Girl
33:16 I wait for you - alex g
Loved the playlist keep up the great work!
thx for putting in the time to make this i rlly wanted to know what they where
Спасибр!
"release - topic" is a youtube autogenerated channel that only puts music on the platform.. its not alex g lol
nor is it .. an artist on their own, please try too find the og artist of "every dog has it's day"
@@sahaafa9082 добро пожаловать!
(i think that says welcome in russian)
The music>>>> the images>>>> the captions>>>> the artists>>>>> the person who made the playlist>>>>> the message>>>>>
*''You gave me your heart you know. Youd like me to hand it back, WHOLE again, but I wont. You will live a long time yet katherine in eternity without me, you will look into the faces of passers by hoping for something that will for instance, bring me back to you. You will find moonlit nights strangely empty because when you call my name through them there will be no answer. Always your heart will be aching for me and your mind will give you the doubtful consolation that you did..a brave thing.''*
𝐏𝐨𝐯: 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛.. (𝐚 𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭)
i keep having this memory play in my head from when i was five. my mom locked me out of her room after wrestling me out because she didnt want to deal with me. i sat out the door like a lost puppy humming to myself and imagining stories or whatever a five year old does. after a couple minutes i knocked on her door and asked if i could come back in. "just give me five minutes alone, would you?" she yelled through the door. i didnt have an understanding of the concept of time yet so i just counted to five over and over again before falling asleep on the floor.
she said she wishes she never had kids. she said she wishes she had never met my father, even if that means she would never have to meet me. i agree; without my father i wouldnt have had to meet either of them
Sorry, I just don't like your mother. You are amazing don't let her or anyone else tell you otherwise ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
The fact its all animals makes it sad
I was dead convinced I was the problem too😶…
It's crazy that strangers on the internet can understand you more than your own family and/or friends. Not to mention they tell you they love and are proud of you?? Be honest, how many times have you heard someone in your life say that? Me personally, not alot. And the fact they care? Almost makes me want to breakdown.
Honestly i wish my online friends were my irl Friends, at least i would have somone to reach out to, and not be alone 8"(
@ Fr
The last time I vented to someone I trusted, and after they said it was a safe place to speak, I told how someone I adored *destroyed everything* in my life because that’s how they thought a break-up should go. I’m not being dramatic - literally EVERYTHING was destroyed. He went down the list. My job, my friends, my passions and places I go - he destroyed my reputation with false rumors. Isolated me to nothing.
Then moved…
I ended my vent with “I feel like an absolute fool.”
To which they went: “You should.”
and laughed at me. Cackled.
Thought it was so funny I was shaking, curled into a ball, pleading for a single friend.
That mentally broke me.
The straw on the camel’s back.
Whoever I was before that, is gone.
I’m better now, but man… these photos, the words on them… man does my mind SCREAM these.
It’s been almost six years, and I recall these memories like they belong to another soul’s. I used to be so comfortable with someone holding my hand.
Now? I don’t think a single day has gone by where I don’t feel my eyes *burn* from hyper vigilance
and hands stay out of reach from others.
Maybe one day, I’ll remember what’s it’s like to touch another finger tip without the electrical spikes of mistrust.
Edit: autocorrect being autocorrect 👍
Man I hope you find true friends. You didn't deserve that
Im so sorry that happened to ya mate, you dont need me to say it but i will; ya deserved better and i hope that you reach that goal, with the people you love especially. Cuz that's what matters.
it just happened like how i vented with my friendgroup, lucky that i cutted of connections, studying in a diff school after a year of numb and isolation
I hope life become more comfort for you
I’ve realized over the years how important priorities are. We want to be someone’s priority, we want to be the center of people’s worlds. We think we are. We aren’t. We have goals in life, priorities we chase. So many of us here are young, 25 years old or younger, we have so many things ahead of us. We’re still shaping our future. It isn’t a lack of love, but it is love for myself and who/where I want to be in the future. If it hurts someone for me to change to be a better me for myself - they don’t love me, they love the supply I gave them that I couldn’t give anymore.
I’ve picked my future over past friends. I did it again recently. If me chasing my future and my passion is upsetting for someone - they don’t care what I want. They care about their comfort and me staying pinned down where they want me. Where they like me. What’s good for them, what makes them feel good, but disrespects me.
I am valuable to myself. I accept when our paths diverge.
*_*sssiiip*_*
Ahh, just the negativity i needed to start my day.
I have told people “you deserve better”…Is because I mean it, my mind is so unstable and a wreck that it will destroy everything in a blink of an eye. No one and nothing can change me except myself. And myself is sometimes the biggest enemy. So yes someone who wants to be my partner do deserve to have someone that will love them sincerely than having someone that is caught in a self-destructive storm.
And the universe said I love you, because you are love.
The quotes and pictures on this are so depressing.
... but so relatable.
...I want to be gone... but I don't really want to die.
...I'm sorry if I'm being annoying. It must be my fault.
It's not your fault
Your not a problem
You are perfect
You aren't fat
You aren't skinny
You aren't the problem
You aren't a bad person
You are wonderful
You aren't a crybaby
Your don't deserve them
You love yourself
You are clean
You are kind
Your are the person that everyone wants
Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it
Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it
Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it
Your size isn't a book... don't judge it
Your life isn't a movie... don't end it
Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it
Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it
Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it
Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it
Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do.
The past of you suffering will end
Your suffering will end
Don't c^t your body your hair
Don't kill your self yet.
If you have a pet it will make your problem go away
They get mad at you for being soo perfect
They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning
You are brighting the world.. you are a true star
Keep going.. it will past.
We love you don't stop being kind to everyone
The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back.
They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you
You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous
Give everyone a second chance not too many tho
your eyes is perfect
your nose is perfect
your height is perfect
your skin is perfect
your mouth is perfect
your hair is perfect
your face is perfect
your body is perfect
your hands is perfect
your fingers is perfect
your teeth is perfect
your waist is perfect
Your torso is perfect
your legs are perfect
your thighs are perfect
your tounge and everything is perfect
YOU are perfect love your body and everything
You are so greatful for what you have.
Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you
And leave your fake friends
You deserve better.
Don't give up
Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person.
We are proud to see you alive.
We are so proud
We love your smile
We love your laugh
We love your personality
So don't give up
We love you.
We love you so much
Don't end it too fast.
Don't commit
Don't get controled
Don't make them control you like a puppet
Do your own way
Do everthing you like
Ignore the rude people
Ignore the hate
Ignore getting yelled
There's people by your side and always be.
We love you no matter what you do to yourself.
They don't know what your been through
They ain't been in your shoes
Don't belive them they are liars
Love youself.
We are proud of you existing here
We love you so much..
NEVER GIVE UP
You're precious
You made it this far.
And it's so amazing that you are still here
erm..will you be my friend plzzz :( i need you in my life, u are coming whit me >o
your literally amazing tysm
Thank you.
I locked my heart away from her, she lied to me every time she loved me, she's trying to re-fix everything that she's done, I don't think that's true.
I literally burst into tears from these words. Thank you
i am hopelessly crying because of this playlist, thank you.
"All I ever do is try my best, but I end up messing all the good things up" is so relatable..
I’m so sorry…
no matter how hard I try, i cant seem to stop trying to find my own beauty in other beings
??? egoist much
@@heybye2147 how is it egoist??? i cant find beauty in myself so i try and fail over again to find it in other people
@@catkat172 oh okay...bet your cute tho (rizz)
@@heybye2147 😨
@@heybye2147 im 14 what the fart
this seems like the type of playlist where the comments are filled with people venting.. but I'm too embarrassedddd >_>
this playlist really resonates with me though. usually I prefer to only listen to albums but this one's really good!! it's filled with some really great artists that I used to listen to alllll the time whenever I was sad :'p
I've been doing a lot better mentally ever since I got diagnosed with ADHD and Asperger's (fancy way of saying autism) but I still like indulging in my sadness like any other teenage girl!! the mood of these songs combined with the pictures you chose feel so familiar in a way. I see those kinds of pictures on pinterest all the time and I think they're such a great way of expressing emotions!! ^_^ anyway this is just such a great video. sounds cheesy but thank you for sharing :p
I was diagnosed with ADD/ADHD as well, (idk if I have autism or if it's just overlapping symptoms /lh), and recently I've looked into psychology to understand my cognitive self better. I occasionally inquire about this subject to my therapist, and while talking to her, she helped me realize that I might have emotional trauma from my mother; she recommended "The Body Keeps the Score" by Bessel van der Kolk (I've been reading it for an argumentative essay I need to write, and it's phenomenal imo /pos). In that, I've come to the conclusion that I have been hurt, albeit not physically/sexually, even though I still feel some guilt when comparing my circumstances to others (which I know isn't the healthiest habit.) I've turned from a lonely puppy desperate for any type of love or attention from my mother to a wild dog that bares its teeth at the slightest aggression, not out of malice but rather fear.
Idk what I was trying to say, lol, I kind of got lost. Ig what I'm trynna get at is that your comment resonated with me, and now I've yapped ::P
listening to abbey phisically hurts because of how much i love it
I thought “you smell of dead flowers” was a FNAF song for a second cause of the similar tune. Also love the wolf plushie on that section, wish I had one.
*4:21* you smell of dead flowers was such a surprise I actually dropped my homework to go confirm it was really what i was hearing lol, love this song so much
A veces quisiera estar sola y que nadie esté conmigo por los posibles problemas que genero.
Hasta que recuerdo los backrooms, dremacore, entre otros, y en eso recuerdo el horror de vivir desolado.
Al final, solo quiero dejar de ser una molestia. Una molestia que otros no ven en mi, porque a la persona que más molesto es a mi misma.
El camino a quererse de verdad es difícil, pero no imposible.
Sigan intentando, respetense así mismos, su cuerpo, sus emociones, su mente, tengo la esperanza de que un día podremos abrazar ese amor propio que todos merecemos
I think, I think two parts of me finally found themselves, a blunt one and a pleaser one, I'm filled with realization of a lifetime, yet the tiredness of reality, I haven't fucked up, just make a few mistakes, that's okay, I just need to speak and be assertive, ah, it's weird, am I really this weird? I am kind, just perhaps not friendly and cuddly enough for a society as ours. Thanks bud, this playlist hit me in a oddly calmly way
i got five long letters from five friends of mine, they all said that im ruining their life and they have never seen such an annoying and bad person as i am. after all this i dont really think that i deserve this life. i mean they cant be all wrong, probably im really just a horrible person :")
😢that sounds horrible
It really depends on what did they say and why, what happened before that
you didn't give much context so it could be either way
DEFFINITELY go visit a therapist, doesn't matter if they are wrong or right, a licenced therapist can help you get your life together 🎉
No matter what you have done, you deserve to live. I wish you the best in your relationships
That sounds like you need better friends. I'm sorry, that's a horrible thing to do to someone. Some people are just cruel.
This playlist found me
22:45 "Nobody believed me"
That shi hits hard, damn
If you're changing in order to please others, you aren't really "you". Instead, you're a shard of THEM. 💪😎✌️ Pro tip: remain yourself... always. Sure, change if YOU really, truly feel compelled to do so, or you've learned something new and pivotal which enlightened you. However, I don't recommend changing who and what you are simply because of some random human's opinions or directives. That's pretty janky.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind’s journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul’s fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope’s strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe’s endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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--Diamond Dragons (series)
I should probably preface this by saying that I am autistic.
When I say that 'you deserve better' I mean nothing more or less than that. I'm directly telling you that you deserve better, with zero trickery or deeper meaning. I told this to a former partner, and they completely broke down when I said that. I'm confused and would like an explanation about why [seemingly] the majority decided unanimously that when someone says 'you deserve better' they're essentially saying that you aren't worthy of getting better for--and in the context I'm assuming--in a romantic relationship.
Having deeper meanings to literal and succinct phrases is hard to try and comprehend, please explain. Thank you.
hi! i am autistic too - i think it means that you think your not good enough for your partner. and that’s a sad thing to feel - your partner loves you very much, i’m sure 🫂
It's the avoidance of deeper meaning. There's heavy assumption in the allistic (non-autistic) world that to break bad news it's better to soften the blow. That built-up resentment and malice is the only reason for truth, softened or not, to be expressed. Both intentions mean 'We are incompatible, where I am isn't where you are and vice versa' but one uses the actual phrase 'You deserve better' as degrading yourself while putting the other in higher regard, a hope that there are better things soon, while the other is code word for 'I'm leaving because you're unworthy of my time'
I'm autistic too - when I say "you deserve better" I mean that I am not enough for you - you deserve a better person
this playlist is so epic (i only use the word "epic" when something's really good, take this as a MASSIVE complement:3 you probably wont this this anyway but i hope you do!)
It feels as if my heart is decaying.
It has become my favorite playlist★
my parents have been falling out badly for whole my life, thats a sufferening lol. I cried from the "you were a child, there was nthing you could do"..I had no idea before how 1 sentence and a picture with dog can explain my feelings last 5 years huh, and thanks for such a playlist:>
i tried and tried to be believed but nobody did. i was convinced i was a hopeless waste of space. i starved myself. im doing better now though but I'm still horrified of the though of getting blamed again.
20:33 the way my heart swelled as i read “i miss when you were kinder to me” was horrible. TOO RELATABLE FOR MY OWN GOOD😭😭😭
I’m sorry you feel the same as me
I cant seem to find my people. I cant seem to find my place. I don't know what went wrong, I don't know how to fix it. I need to, but I can't.
Though I know better than to believe the little messages, it feels way too good to indulge in that feeling of hopelessness. Like an addiction, almost
i'm hungry too mitski
I can never change. I finally get it now.
I take things to my heart, no matter if it's a joke or a lie or anything.
One you say something about me, i'll try hard to change it.
Since 8th grade i've been trying to please people by changing myself but i didn't think i'd do more than that.
"You're so noisy" okay, i'll be more quiet.
"You're so bold" okay, I'll learn to hesitate
"you're so dumb" I'm trying to study.
"You always butt in" okay i'll stay by myself.
no matter how hard i try i'm always the attention, the problem in the classroom even if i didn't do anything and just sat down myself, i'm only me? why are you so touched by it we're both human, there's nothing wrong.
that warming feeling in your heart when you think you found the one but really you were just so stupid to not see that he was a wolf in a sheeps clothing...
I was happy for a month in my life. How did i f up so bad. I dont want to go back. I see nothing in life now. I love you Beata i love you so much im so sorry
take responsibility, take care of it.
I feel like i can't handle life or other peopels expectations..
"Maybe in another universe you loved me". I think that sometimes when I see my cousin. He despises me.
"Nobody apologized for how they treated me, they just blamed me for how I reacted" relatable.
"I cannot pretend I do not feel this between us. I cannot pretend I don't want to love you." 😔
… yeah
I can't with 9:26 honestly all I can hear is gnarpy 💀
God. I’m reading the text on these images and the more I read the more I come aware that I’m not a horrible person I just act like one so I don’t get hurt.
love the phone charging noise at the start lol
for real. classmates just took my feelings away. i used to have feelings and be way more confident now i just have social anxiety and im emotionless
I know I’m stupid for revealing my age..
I’m young and some guy from a other class who is my age touched me everywhere and I’m scared.
He always swears at me and hugs me when I don’t want to be touched by him.
I told my teachers and dad but they don’t really care much, he slapped me.
He scares me I’m scared and I want him away..gone.
I'm so sorry...if your teachers aren't listening please tell your parents/guardians or even a police officer if you have to.
Please tell he police or report it. That's very dangerous and I can progress into even worse behavior later on. No one, and I mean no one, should ever treat you like that
why not jst close your eyes and take it
@@heybye2147dude that’s not even funny. You’re not being “cool” or “edgy” you’re just being insensitive and ignorant. There’s no reason to comment this. The only reason to comment this is because you want attention.
@@heybye2147and if you’re gonna be an ass at least learn how to spell
the first song is fireee
CW vent
Had an old ‘friend’ who claimed that I was abusive and awful to them, when most of the things I did that they claimed were abusive, were things that not only were they also doing, but also things normal children usually do (we were both 9, and were both traumatized by our own stuff) They would proceed to dangle this over my head for YEARS, saying they had “✨trauma✨” (yes, they would say it like that) when I would try to reach out and move forward with our friendship and grow from the past together, and we’d be stuck repeating the cycle again and again, and they’d keep bringing the past up, convincing me that I had to change up to _their_ standards, and they basically controlled it. When I thought I hadn’t changed, they were praising me that I was, but when I finally told myself I had changed, they told me I hadn’t. Turns out, this entire time, they were trying to “fix” me, and that’s why they entered this friendship in the first place. And now that “their job was done” they were gonna leave me and cut contact with me once they left (they were living with me at this point)
Really, that child they demonized never left. That child just grew up, and was ready to right any mistakes, but was never given the chance, even though they tried.
_I_ cut contact with _them_ over a year ago from now. I don’t miss them, or the 7-8 years of my childhood they stole from me
the metaphor of the quotes and animals really fucking hurt. my perspective on animals (especially dogs) is so warped because of how i grew up with them and how i resent them (not in an abusive way. i just don’t like having them around) and i’ve been trying as much as i can to see them as living things again. as a being that has its own thoughts and feelings. i’ve been trying to see everybody that way. including people, but it’s really hard to see it in animals anymore. i’m trying though. at least i hope so.
it’s gotten to a point where i’m completely desensitized to animal death. i’ve seen it range from death from disease to being completely mutilated by other dogs. i’ve had dogs die in my arms. it mainly got out of hand during the 2019-2020ish period when we lost almost all of our money and almost lost our house multiple times. since we weren’t selling dogs anymore because of the economy, they built up. at one point we had over 40-60 dogs. i’ve practically been a veterinarian since the age of 10. i’ve given dogs shots, docked tails and removed dew claws, helped dogs birth puppies, etc.
during mid 2023 to early 2024, parvo broke out and killed a large majority of our dogs. nearly every day there was a new grave in our backyard.
between that age to being 12-13, i’ve dissociated for three years and literally convinced myself that i had a psychotic break during it. it got to a point where i had the police called on me and they took me to a mental hospital.
now, almost a year later, i’m going to get evaluated and diagnosed in early december. i’m kinda nervous about it. i’m not exactly sure what they’re gonna do.
I love this whole playlist so much
Will I ever be truly free?
its crazy to understand how neglected i was due to my sister hearing these audios
4:20 I had that exact soft toy, their name was Magma. Eventually they got chewed by mice.
I am stuck in a cycle of dread and fear for my future, I do nothing but school work and try to escape life. I don't feel capable of anything and I have no friends because I fear people and nobody likes me. I just wish one thing would go right because I am struggling
uh.. prolly won't help.. but we had the same plush too :)
I love you
I hate you
…
What can I do
For you?
My love
My dear
And my deep feeling of regret
I’ve told you before
But maybe
I just need to say it again
I love you
I love you
I love you
Stay warm
Stay strong
And be there tomorrow so I can hold you tight and give you comfort
I love you my dear and I wish…
Soon
Soon maybe you’ll love me back
I hate to see what he puts you through
And what all the past people have put you through
I can’t promise that I’d be perfect
But
I do know I could be better
I hope if not that you’ll find what you’re searching for
My dear
My love
You keep my heart warm
Like a glove to a hand
But that glove also stops me from feeling
Feeling all the things around me
My love for you is hurting me
But I can’t stop it
I don’t blame you
But I will love you
…
I hope
I hope you are happy my love
Cuase I soon wish to be the hand that will guide your joy
And if my hand be taken away
I still hope that you’ll be happy
My dear
It wasn’t supposed to be
I fell in love at first sight
Didn’t know what it meant until
I saw the distant horizon of what I really was
…
I love you dearly
My love
-A.P-S..,
I have a good life, i just screw it up because i snap at everyone, not on purpose, i speak before thinking :)
JUST KEEP HOPING GUYS, EVERYDAY KEEP HOPING THAT WE JUST DIE :))
I love this playlist so much! I was always made to be the bad person.. growing up, I realize that I never fought back. I didn't do a damn thing. They created an angry beast who is now just trying to get better and be better in order to break the cycle of abuse.
Wasn't expecting to hear samlrc
Good playlist
i cant describe how much i love you
I'm feeling the opposite of this title. I'm tired of trying to stay the same. I'm the 'beekeeper' in my family. I've had an interest in bees since kindergarten, and no one knows where it comes from because most people in my family have a fear of bees. When I was 10, i joined black water beekeepers association by my grandmother's choice. It's a great community, and they even gifted my own hive. My OWN hive. Did i ask? No, not really. I was told i was getting bees and i was excited. But now, after around two years, i'm going to a meeting of some sorts called a seminar in less then an hour, where their going to introduce me as the youngest member of the association and, according to my parents, going to ask me questions and stuff about m story. I don't want to, not one bit. My social anxiety has grown a lot, and i'm crying about just thinking about talking in front of a bunch of people. Both my parents say i have to go, and my mom says that people are expecting me. She asked me what happened to the girl who gave a presentation about bees to her school classes, and i had no answer. I still love bees, but just not as much. I don't want to stop beekeeping because of all the money my family and the association has used to help me get to this point. The bee boxes, frames, equipment, suits, tools, ect. They aren't cheap, and i don't want it all to go to waste, but i just.. I just don't wanna have my whole personality defined by bees anymore. When introducing me to friends, my grandmother calls me the little beekeeper. Every family event, i get asked about my bees. I don't hate it, but i just don't want to do it anymore. I'll most likely edit this after the seminar, but i really just DON'T want to, but my parents say i have to, when i can hardly talk to my teachers. It's whatever, and i'm likely just over reacting, I'm just tired of trying to stay the same.
EDIT: I've returned and yes, i was over dramatic. My mom made it sound like it was all going to me around me, and i panicked. It was just a normal meeting and the person who 'ran it' introduced me during the introduction. I feel like a child now, and hate myself slightly more :D
It is alright to feel scared, to feel as if everything is collapsing when one mention is misinterpreted. Many do this, old and young, and you don't have to feel ashamed! Everyone panics now and then, and seeing how much pressure you feel you have on yourself, it is reasonable to feel worry. I wish you the best in following your passions and pursuits, and I hope you feel better (soon). (I apologize if my takeaway is not what you intended to express, or did not want a reply)
As someone with social anxiety, you have no reason to feel ashamed. Any event where any kind of spotlight is put on you can be absolutely mortifying. It's why it's called a disorder. It's irrational. But that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. :)
How i loved this playlist
10:19 gave me a silly little flashback
i always feel like i annoy everyone. Im always cheerrful and happy, but sometimes im too much for the people around me. I dont know what to do. Should i change and become someone i am not, or schould i stay the same, and be myself? Should i chose the people i love or myself? I dont know....
Hi, just be yourself. You are beautiful the way you are💕
@mimisimu8310 thank you 🥺💕
didnt know i could relate to smth this much.
I feel like this is gonna become my fav playlist also love the pics of dogs and cats!! :>
I love ur hair I love ur eyes I love ur shirt I love ur pants I love ur shoes I love ur socks I love ur smile I love ur nails I love ur bed I love ur bedroom I love ur living room I love ur bathroom I love ur humour I love ur voice I love you♥︎
I am no ones first option in anything, i feel like everyone in my life hates me, i know people are just busy but things still fucking hurt, as the people who i thought were my best friends never text me first, if i dont text them first we can go a whole month without talking, i feel like im doing something wrong, but i dont know what i did, im just willing to do anything for them to just talk to me more, i miss them, maybe i am being too clingy idk
I only knew you for a short while but I loved you. I loved you and your talents, your strengths, your flaws. You helped me confirm who I was so afraid to be, to come to terms with myself and how beautifully fragile my heart can be. But your heart was tied to someone who couldn't love you, and from the start I knew you didn't love me. But so desperately I wished you did. I see now how foolish I was to chase after you, to want be your saviour. Truth was I was too cowardice to save myself, I grew enveloped in you, infatuated with being the hero of the story I could never be a part of. Now I stand alone, but with my life growing at the actions of my own hands, living a life I was so brave enough to accomplish. While you stay complacent in your fear, your wanna-be fantasies that will never come true, your desperate attempts at salvaging something that once felt safe to you. I can say now that I pity you, but I do not forgive you. As brave as I am, I am still picking up the pieces of the heart you shattered. I still long the future I wanted to build for you. But I do not miss you. I miss the life I thought we would have.
Someday, somewhere, I will find someone who will meet me there, in our beautiful future. But for now... I am alone. And I fear I will be alone for a long, long time.
this is the fourth fucking time youtube try reccommending me this i am NOT mentally unstable anymore please please let me go
I try so hard but always fail. Im just done, i cant change.
Im so tired. Of everything, everyone, anything, anyone.
Listening this while my parents bang at my door 🗣️‼️ (somone please get me out of here please please oh my lord i hate my life so fuxking much i just want to be happy God what did i do to end up like this i tried so hard please give me my happy ending)
I’m so sorry. I can’t help but I know how much it hurts, I love you tho I don’t know you. I hope you continue, you’ll make it out alive trust me, you’re getting there soon… soon you’ll be safe my love
Omg this got popular ive been rewatching this playlist when i draw or am going to sleep and the first time i saw this it had 2k views and i was like "wow this is really underrated" then it got 12k then 21k then 40k and now 47k! U really deserve it bc this playlist is really sigma 😼 anywayz hope u have a good day/night!!!!
i love all these songs what-
Never knew all these images hit so hard to me
I love the songs EEE
Maybe you are / were the good thing? Hold on tight to what you know is good.
20:00 i miss when you were kinder bueno to me.. (people im trying to make you laugh dont take me seriously im not making fun of nobody)
Ufff this playlist comes like a Arrow to my heart, i Hope everyone that has feel this o have expirience something like this finds the people that is really worth It, i know is heartbreaking but a lot of people is like this, a buch of ass⚫ the trick is to know the redflags, im here if you need someone to Talk to, maeby im just a stranger but i have been there, feel free to coment here whatever you need to let go
Its selfish, but may I vent to someone? I never do and id like to try it.. I like this playlist a lot by the way,
Absolutely.
Although, I'm going to be going to sleep soon but I *will* be back to respond in the morning. (8-10 hours from now)
Also, it's not selfish to vent. Holding it in is both tiring and unhealthy and sometimes all you need is someone to listen. (I have a 3ft long stuffed shark as my listener.)
Edit: If you don't feel comfortable talking in YT comments, I can provide my Discord/Steam (I'm not on any other social media, unfortunately.)
MITSKIIIII MITSKIIIIII YESSSSSSS
Today i almost die at my grandma house because of a mental breakdown i had, it was painful but i couldn't tell anyone now i fear die alone.
My child. I feel the same way, I haven’t left high school yet and I still fear the future… and how… it might be missing and I’ll die before I’ve felt proper love… I the love I’ve had was twisted with family friends and one loved one
@Polka-Dot-ohokay Dear it isn't your fault, destiny its something we can't change but we can turn better. Keep studying a lot and try make new friends because if people leaves they dont wort it, who loves you will always stay even in rough moments like this, you are a great person good luck and keep going you have a bright future 🫶💕 (Sorry if my english isn't right im still learning 😭) plus love isn't something we can manage it will come with patience but never be with someone just because you feel alone i tell you that by experience sweetie dont do that please, be patient and meet the right person no one its perfect but they should make you happy, never sadder
@@4nonimamenteAqui thank you stay safe
I got an ad for a boy love game before this video, (I know it’s boy love because I have it downloaded)
4:20 The image in that one hits a LITTLE too hard. My ex best friend had that EXACT plushie. the reason i stopped being friends with her is because she was manipulative and hurtful to me, and made me feel wrong, but it was hard because i loved her and she knew everything about me.
Small lesson to anyone reading, if they're hurting you, let them go. they dont deserve your love. they dont deserve you. find someone who will, no matter how hard it may be, or no matter how bad they try to make themselves look innocent. they're not. leave them.
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