So I just overcame adderall addiction, I noticed the depression slowly being lifted through the months and one day it was just gone. It was so strange… and this video just popped up lol. Wild. Amazing story and thank you for uploading. I hope anyone out there struggling knows the other side is attainable and awesome.
I cried when I read this. This is so encouraging. Can you explain a little bit more. How much were you taking? How long did it take for you to be productive again? Has the depression stayed away? How long has it been? Sorry for the questions but need some encouragement😞
@@jasmine9064 yes I can answer more! I wasn’t taking a large amount, I’d have like maybe 10 30mg tablets I’d split up a month. I bought them from a friend. That lasted from April 2021-December 2021. Off and on through 2022 I’d return back because I felt like I couldn’t function without it. My very last time I went back was November 2022. Decided from there I didn’t want it anymore. Things got really hard for awhile. And dark. I want to say it felt like dissociated. I hated everything all I wanted to do was lay down, I missed work, I was paranoid. I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 in October 2022 as well. I’m thinking those meds, alongside getting back in the gym mid 2023 kind of expedited the process to baseline. I think what’s important is you yourself make the necessary steps to get out of the rut. Since I’m bipolar I still waver in/out of feeling down but I PROMISE you. It’s not nearly as bad as the adderall withdrawal. You can beat it , I promise. Things DO get better and WILL. Keep fighting I promise you can beat it!
This is the first time I've heard someone articulate this struggle and all of the niche aspects. Wow powerful reality check and really informative - thank you so much for making this and for your candour
I can’t thank you enough for this. I’ve been looking for this exact story with all of the information you’ve provided for YEARS. I started to think a successful recovery from this addiction wasn’t possible. I can’t thank you enough ❤
Great video! I abused adderall for about 15 years off and on...more on than off. I'm 2 years sober and so thankful to finally be free....and alive. I know it would have led me to an untimely death if I hadn't stopped. All praise to God because I literally prayed for His help to stop. I had to surrendee it all and humble myself before Him before He finally gave me to desire and unction to get clean...not only from adderall, but from alcohol, ciggs and weed too. My biggest fear was that i was gonna gain weight ..and I definitely did. But i know changing and getting completely healthy takes time. Ive always struggled with my weight, so its no surprise that this is where my biggest battle is after all is said and done. The most important thing ive learned is how to love myself no matter what size i wear. I want to lose weight because I want to care for myself as a person and be healthier all around now....not because i care what others think about the way i look anymore. I respect myself much more now and I'm not ashamed of myself. I would much rather be here, where I am now...heavier, with only one mountain left to conquer..than skinny and enslaved to multiple things that were sucking the life out of me a little more every day.
I think this video is great and so valuable for all those people out there struggling with addiction. A lot of what you say resonates with me, and it's really impressing to see you this energetic and accepting, keeping in mind that you went through ten years of hardcore addiction. I'm 100% sure it inspires people to dare to take a different path. I hope this channel grows and more people can see what it can be like. All the best!
i was only on adderall for 2 weeks but came off it and had depressed feeling for weeks. im all fine now but going back on it soon, i know to keep my doseage low. your video was really good and you seem ilike a really nice person so thanks
Thank you for the video. I'm dealing with Adderall detox after 11 years of daily use. I'm day 15 off and it has been rough but I'm still working and trying to push through.
Recently diagnosed with ADHD at 38 . It definitely helps me focus and it gives me the energy I need. I'm prescribed 10mg twice a day but I usually just take 1. I'm terrified of becoming addicted
some can learn to manage add without. some can‘t. if neurotransmitters are missing, they are missing. always good to be critical and check dosage, to tell apart if its still needed or addiction. much love, you will find your way!
If you keep to recommended dosage and don’t feel an urge to take more you’ll be fine. I got my diagnosis in january and meds in february and it has allowed me to change my life and make it so much better. Remember the pills don’t change you or your life, that’s what you have to do, the meds might just make it easier to. They’re not a silver bullet, you are.
I'm in the same boat as you.. I was recently diagnosed too, but I refuse to become addicted to any substance. I take only one dose and manage the rest of the day with little caffeine around 3pm and after that I just micro dose nicotine if I feel off. ( 4mg gum and cut it in to 4 pieces 1mg each) That takes me get through the day
Having taking these meds I really struggle to understand why anyone would abuse these things. They make me feel horrible even on a low dose. Thanks for your insight
do you mind sharing why you stopped taking it? I was recently diagnosed with ADHD at 38 and I'm on 10mg twice a day (but I usually don't take it during weekends and only take 1 pill each day during the week). Kind of scary to think it can get out of control
Thank you so much hearing about your experience and healing is motivating. I've been stuck in the abusive cycle and afraid to let go of the addiction. I found my art and drawing skills to come back and increase on the drug and I know can't depend on it but I'm stuck in my mind because I feel like I can advance with drawing on it but I know I can't depend on it . I'm afraid to let go of it
You cannot give that much power to a pill. You are the artist, you are the creator, adderal is not. Adderall just helps you focus. Learn how to focus another way. First, you will have about 6 months to a year completely frustrated but you will learn.
I know exactly what you mean by.... needing "something" to take just to be able to get out of bed and function!! I'm not on Adderall but I am on Methadone and I've been on it for 6+ years every single day. I'm tired of the handcuffs so I'm tapering off 100mg. I'm currently on 57mg. I'm so ready for the days to come where I wake up and can not be so pissed that I woke up and feel like shit. I'm done and burnt out on having to have something just to function.
Thank you so much for this video! It’s been so hard to take responsibility, wake up, and own up to my addiction. I’ve been taking adderall for 10 years now, the last five years I’ve been abusing it like you described. With dosages that were scary high. Im terrified of getting off of it, and I’m scared how badly the detox will be due to the length and amount I take, but I have no choice but to go through it and get sober, I now have a beautiful daughter that depends on me and needs me here. Once again thank you’!
This morning tears just started rolling down my eyes.. there wasn’t a reason for the sadness. Things aren’t going my egos way as of late. A weeping cry SSRI- sertraline dampened my emotions, sex drive and my sense of joy. Im still missing a genuine joy in my heart. I feel hollowed out. Things are getting better. Day by day 🌞🌼💐
Ask Jesus to help you pick up his Bible and start to create a personal relationship with him. He is a chain breaker and a Waymaker and the reason why I am able to give up the Adderall the only reason.
Been taking it for over 12 years, prescribed. At my worst I was mixing opiates with it and taking over 100mg a day my face would be numb from lack of circulation. I don’t take it that much anymore I take about 40 mg a day, but I’m having health problems and it’s made me lazy now. Like your saying the adderall makes me feel good without having to accomplish anything. So I’m ready to really get off. The relationship I’m in isn’t helping with that, he’s very type A and quitting the adderall I can’t keep up with him. I already know what’s needed bc I went through therapy to get off of opiates.. Thanks for the words ❤️
Have you gone to any NA meetings? I only suggest this because I really don't think I could have done this without the support of my friends and family. It is a constant battle for sure. I hope life gets a bit easier for you. Keep us updated please.
Hi all, 180 days off of adderall and just saying that it does get way better. I’ve been sleeping a lot still but able to enjoy things again. It feels amazing to not have a one track mind on those pills anymore
Thank you for this video. I would like to hear more about the psychotic breakdown you had. I am trying to figure out what happened with my relationship of 8 years. My now Ex completely lost it and it destroyed our relationship. She never admitted it but I know she was taking more than she was supposed to. She had narcolepsy and was prescribed 2 20mg XR a day. She took them responsibly for a few years but then she started acting weird and then it went to full blown psychotic. If you are willing to make a video about it, it would help me greatly.
Thank you for the comment. The subject is still hard to talk about. Give me a few months to get my thoughts together. It was a scary and sad time for me, but it is something we should be aware of.
@@laurenstone5436 I appreciate it. I know it has to be hard. I watched it for quite a while with my Ex, it was difficult for me and I can only imagine what it was like on the other side. Take your time, I look forward to hearing your experience. Your channel has helped me to understand this better. I have never been addicted to anything (aside from cigarettes) and have no real experience when it comes to drugs, legal or otherwise. Thanks again.
I had a psychotic break on Adderall 3 times before I quit each 3 times were a relapse. I’m sober now. I would have constant auditory hallucinations that were scary and I would get violent brain zaps and have ringing in my ears. I would also have visual hallucinations of shadow people
I'm embarrassed to say that I really don't know. I went through a month supply in 5 days sometimes. Probably approx 160-200 MG a day. I was out-of-control for many years. Thank you for your comment!
@@laurenstone5436 For you to stop completely after so many years in and of itself is a huge accomplishment. The withdrawal and feeling "blah" lasts for months..
Thank you for this cause you can’t find many stories on it 🙏 I’m one month sober after 7 months of using it it gave me several psychotic breaks I dealt with them and kept going back three times before I finally quit each time being worse. It’s crazy how you took it for 7 years and then had your first psychotic break but I took it for 7 months and then I had mine wonder why I had it come on so fast
Thank you for posting this. Im 26, 8 years in been trying to quit for many years now. the longest I ever make it is like a month before I cave for one reason or another you know. I certainly destroyed a good relationship because of the person it’s made me, I am trying to rewrite myself and have things going for myself I just wish I could quit for good. I’m hopeful that next time I get a month or so in and want to break I will hear your voice reminding me to keep going🙏
Once I got to college playing basketball, working 40hrs + school it became my lifeline and suddenly I couldn’t imagine life without it, basically 100mg+ daily from that point on. it’s got to the point for I won’t sleep for a week straight at times it is fucked lol but I did feel reassured after hearing how much you were taking. I still dream of living a life where I don’t need any stimulants to take charge of my life and feel happy doing so 😌
14:25 Working in STEM, everything you said is true. At some point one has to ask if the money is worth the mental stress to the point of requiring these drugs. Is a 6 figure salary really worth it? Thanks for sharing your story.
16:40 What I've seen works isn't the thing that people want to hear. That they have to stop doing the thing that makes them stressed to the point of needing Adderall.
My problem is with Ritalin. That's a 2 day binge per month. This has been going on for years. I congratulate you for your victory. My question, do you still have access to these pills, for instance like a doctor or someone else?
Doctors would still prescribe them if I asked, but I will never ask or accept them again. It was such a vicious cycle for me. I am relieved to not having them in my life.
@@laurenstone5436 Hey Lauren, God bless you for this answer. I was looking for someone to relate to. I have the same issue. I can get them prescribed if I want to. Having easy access and maintaining the sobriety is a harder level of the game. I have some relief now since I found out I'm not alone in the boat. Thank you a lot for this answer. You don't know what it means to me💚
I’m only a couple weeks clean, but I’m finding a keto diet or low carb diet is really helping. I think sugar was the problem in the first place and adderall was a band aid.
Did it make your hair fall out a lot? I started using it everyday. And i noticed my hair shedding like crazy. Not sure if i was just coincidently going through a cycle at the same time, or if it was the addis
Possibly the stress it puts on your body? My hair didn't fall out, but my teeth...I just finished getting all my teeth issues addressed last year. Costed me a small fortune. Not worth any of it. Hope you are well
Ty for this vid. You are so spot on. Do think things are different for those without adhd? 7 years of daily use here but never prescribed them. Ill add that i never knew what anxiety was until i became dependent on this. Awful..
I am struggling with functioning and working. Any advice? I don’t have a support system so I have to work. Also did the depression truly ever go away? Do you think you ever truly went back to baseline? Like truly?
The short answer is yes. The depression does go away, but you will have to find something to help it go. Adderall drives our dopamine, and our brain gets "lazy." It forgets how to work on its own, and we feel this with depression. It takes time to get back to baseline, but it will happen.
A sincere question: Why would you become hooked on adderall? I've taken ritalin and it was horrible, even before withdrawal. I'd much rather abuse alcohol.
Adderall is like a light-switch for my brain and all its endorphins I started when I was lacking energy and the power to focus. It worked immediately and helped me do the things I dragged through. Funny because I do not like how alcohol makes me feel. Thanks for the question. I wonder if anyone else that reads this has any thoughts?
@@laurenstone5436 Interesting how different the effects can be. Ritalin turned me into a zombie, dare I say psychopath. Alcohol calms my mind so I can focus. Or it used to, nowadays I still get no affect after I took the ritalin last summer. I'm afraid I have brain damage, I can't feel things or focus like I used to still. My head hurts when I do and I can't feel natural euphoria like I used to. How has your process been? Maybe there's a video you've made already? I just found your channel today. It's great to not feel alone. The doctor's don't believe me, even though there are several studies describing this phenomenon as well as low testosterone because of them online.
I love this video. Thank you. I’m booked into to see a dr to possibly get a script for my ADHD. But I am also someone who can abuse alcohol so of course I am nervous that I could be creating a new addiction. I have in my head that the medicine might help me slow down my alcohol addiction. Am I being delusional? Should I cancel that first meeting so I never even experience these drugs? I tell myself I won’t abuse it but i thought that with the booze as well.
I would be honest with the doctor. I'm afraid I can't give medical advice. I would caution you that adderal is very addictive and many people drink more with Adderall. It made me feel more anxious, at times, so I would look to a drink to take the edge off. Good luck to you.
Nobody can verbalise withdrawal/dependence better than you. And you look good to look today 😊 I went to gym today and I felt like a granny. The amount of effort to gym for 5/10 minutes OMW. It’s a psychological battle.. Its a spiritual war, my ego hates it. My ego wants to be the guy looking, feeling strong.. Chest out pumped…😅 Sertraline/ssri ❌, feels like brain is damaged, heavy head In the 4th week now since the last pill. Mwah looking forward to your next video. Bye for now
In many ways, you're stronger than those guys with the big chest. It's hard work to do what we do. Don't give up on yourself. 10 minutes will turn into 15 and then 20. I promise. Just make a deal with yourself that you will do something every day.
Thank you so much for this video! 🙏🏻 My son is only 9 and homeschooled. He attends an autism school once a week for 3 hours. Last week the teachers suggested I put him on medication as he is “not progressing” after 2.5 yrs doing therapy there and they have run out of tools in their toolbox. I’ve been in crisis for days… wondering if I’m a bad mum for not wanting to medicate my 9 yr old child. Everything I find online is echoing the sentiments of the teachers. Apparently ADHD meds are amazing! But I want to hear the TRUTH! Thank you for sharing the truth on this matter. It’s very important to hear both sides of the story and now I feel I’m informed and my instincts are right. 🩷
Oh please give him a shot on the medication, this woman was Dr shopping from the start and didn't even start it for the right reasons. Your son will be on it with your guidance for his ADHD, it can be life-changing for children during the early education years. Why would you potentially hold your son back from achieving his best because one woman on the internet abused it? No parent wants to put their children on medication but every parent wants to give their child the best shot. I have ADHD and have never gotten addicted to this medication and can stop whenever. Please realise this isn't normal there are studies that show it can actually prevent addictive and impulsive behaviours from developing due to the hardships of untreated ADHD. I struggled with binge drinking due to years of feeling behind my peers which gave me low self-esteem as an adult. Treating my ADHD has stopped this but if I had been medicated earlier I would have had a better shot at a younger age, I also have autism with ADHD like your son. I also live in Australia and our Drs here are very strict with tight guidelines to ensure this doesn't happen. 😊
Think of how hard it's going to be for him to get off the meds eventually when starting this young. He won't even remember what it was like to not be medicated
@@Julez108 not always the case I have a friend who went off them in her mid-20s and started at 7. Yes, it could be hard for him but better than underachieving and growing up with low confidence as an adult.
I think it is important to remember that "add" is transitory and very dependent on your overall health and learned behaviour from your childhood. Personally, and if you look at the actual research studies, I don't believe in adhd. And that is coming from a place of empowerment. I felt really low when I got diagnosed with add (like, am I permanently busted?). No, after being tricked into taking the drug and the horror it did to me (dropped my testosterone to very low levels) causing sexual dysfunction, atrophy, among other things, cognitive impairment, I've realised, by the help of Patrick Teahan's youtube channel about trauma that there was never anything wrong with me. I was in a bad place, and came from a bad place, which made me susceptible to certain ways of thinking about myself and my surroundings causing "add". Wishing you all the best. It's been 8 months since I took it and it's slowly getting better, taking it day by day, exercising, eating properly, sleeping more, cold showers, no stress.
Dating one of these folks is seriously draining & could destroy you.....the innocent party. She only spoke of forgiving herself for what she's done TO HERSELF....Like,huh!@ I'm sure she's hurt others throughout her addiction,though... That makes me think of the rampant narcissism going on,nowadays It doesn't matter WHAT YOU'VE DONE".. Like,seriously. Eye opening video on how these folks truly think,though!@ Scary
You're right. We are super narcissistic when we are in active addiction. I have a video explaining this and how we need to reflect in how we have treated others that care for us and try to help us.
5 years off heroin and all substances....except now I'm abusing adderall. I have 0 control over anything that changes how i feel. I use cause i can't handle my emotions. Life is going well right now but adderall starting to take its affect. My arm in a sling and 2 knee brases from muscle over use with not enough rest. I'm up to atleast 120mg a day
I’m struggling with adderall / dexamphetamine abuse- since a few months trying to get off it. I’m 20, do have ADHD and am looking for some people to talk with since I can’t really talk to anyone about it :(
@@laurenstone5436 I don’t know. I am in quite a positive state about it. But chatting with people that experience(d) the same would make me feel less alone, and weak, I think. This secret ways heavy on me. Few times I was MONTHS sober: but I cannot even tell anyone how “good” I was doing. Rn trying to stop again but I haven’t slept for the whole night again. Same 3 other nights this week didnt sleep. I am scared I will start getting paranoia
I first tried Adderall when I was 18 and took 100 mg IR. Even though I didn't take it regularly because I wasn't prescribed, I had dreams about it. I ended up stealing pills from brother and a roommate because I couldn't control myself.
It took a good 6 months to a year for the depression to compete lift. The dopamine came back with exercise. I still need to exercise to feel really good. Thanks for the question!!
Im going on 1.5 years I took two pills before a funeral before that it was in 2020 November, I went from abusing addy to then trying meth, I feel almost normal but the wreckage it caused my life was terrible lost my family and I tried to commit suicide damn I'm still recovering from all of this
I noticed you didn't mention irritability, anxiety, yelling at people for no good reason. Did you not experience those emotions? Or in hindsight now, do you think you were the cause of arguments and not the other people?
You are absolutely right. I did experience these emotions. Especially the first month of stopping Adderall. I think I was the cause of arguments because I put too much expectation on everything and everyone. I now see life as being enjoyed, not completed in a certain time frame. Does this make sense,
@@RJT61963interesting, I am taking adderall as prescribed no abuse, and for me, life is bland with adderall. I am a lot more emotional and impulsive without it
@@terrancecloverfield6791 I got up to 400mg+/day last week. Did that for 7 days straight so I can work overtime without sleep. Constricted blood vessels. Hands went tingly or were in extreme pain for 2 days straight. Literally every minute of 50 hrs, I was in pain. Absolute hell and scared to death. I quit Adderall for good.
Look this is a great video explaining drug addiction but please, please for the sake of others and yourself, do not drive and make a video. The amount of people who have been distracted by using a cell phone while driving and had an accident is horrific. Nothing is as important as having your full attention when behind the wheel.
So I just overcame adderall addiction, I noticed the depression slowly being lifted through the months and one day it was just gone. It was so strange… and this video just popped up lol. Wild. Amazing story and thank you for uploading. I hope anyone out there struggling knows the other side is attainable and awesome.
I cried when I read this. This is so encouraging. Can you explain a little bit more. How much were you taking? How long did it take for you to be productive again? Has the depression stayed away? How long has it been? Sorry for the questions but need some encouragement😞
@@jasmine9064 yes I can answer more! I wasn’t taking a large amount, I’d have like maybe 10 30mg tablets I’d split up a month. I bought them from a friend. That lasted from April 2021-December 2021. Off and on through 2022 I’d return back because I felt like I couldn’t function without it. My very last time I went back was November 2022. Decided from there I didn’t want it anymore. Things got really hard for awhile. And dark. I want to say it felt like dissociated. I hated everything all I wanted to do was lay down, I missed work, I was paranoid. I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 in October 2022 as well. I’m thinking those meds, alongside getting back in the gym mid 2023 kind of expedited the process to baseline. I think what’s important is you yourself make the necessary steps to get out of the rut. Since I’m bipolar I still waver in/out of feeling down but I PROMISE you. It’s not nearly as bad as the adderall withdrawal. You can beat it , I promise. Things DO get better and WILL. Keep fighting I promise you can beat it!
@@jasmine9064 Keep going! 💪 We got this! 🏆
I'm going through depression now and contemplating on whether to go back on it.
@@Marynett_2024 it’s a tough process, but stay on track and I promise you’ll see a difference!
This is the first time I've heard someone articulate this struggle and all of the niche aspects. Wow powerful reality check and really informative - thank you so much for making this and for your candour
I can’t thank you enough for this. I’ve been looking for this exact story with all of the information you’ve provided for YEARS. I started to think a successful recovery from this addiction wasn’t possible. I can’t thank you enough ❤
Thank you for this. It means a lot to know. I hope you start to feel better soon. Anything is possible!!
Great video! I abused adderall for about 15 years off and on...more on than off.
I'm 2 years sober and so thankful to finally be free....and alive. I know it would have led me to an untimely death if I hadn't stopped. All praise to God because I literally prayed for His help to stop. I had to surrendee it all and humble myself before Him before He finally gave me to desire and unction to get clean...not only from adderall, but from alcohol, ciggs and weed too. My biggest fear was that i was gonna gain weight
..and I definitely did. But i know changing and getting completely healthy takes time. Ive always struggled with my weight, so its no surprise that this is where my biggest battle is after all is said and done.
The most important thing ive learned is how to love myself no matter what size i wear. I want to lose weight because I want to care for myself as a person and be healthier all around now....not because i care what others think about the way i look anymore. I respect myself much more now and I'm not ashamed of myself. I would much rather be here, where I am now...heavier, with only one mountain left to conquer..than skinny and enslaved to multiple things that were sucking the life out of me a little more every day.
I think this video is great and so valuable for all those people out there struggling with addiction. A lot of what you say resonates with me, and it's really impressing to see you this energetic and accepting, keeping in mind that you went through ten years of hardcore addiction. I'm 100% sure it inspires people to dare to take a different path. I hope this channel grows and more people can see what it can be like. All the best!
Legit your so right about the aspect of needing a job/career that matches where you are mentally-more people should talk about that. 👍
i was only on adderall for 2 weeks but came off it and had depressed feeling for weeks. im all fine now but going back on it soon, i know to keep my doseage low. your video was really good and you seem ilike a really nice person so thanks
Thank you for the video. I'm dealing with Adderall detox after 11 years of daily use. I'm day 15 off and it has been rough but I'm still working and trying to push through.
Same here! I hope you’re doing well!
Recently diagnosed with ADHD at 38 . It definitely helps me focus and it gives me the energy I need. I'm prescribed 10mg twice a day but I usually just take 1. I'm terrified of becoming addicted
Be careful. Think about trying to manage yourself without it. One day, you will have to learn anyways. 💓
some can learn to manage add without. some can‘t. if neurotransmitters are missing, they are missing. always good to be critical and check dosage, to tell apart if its still needed or addiction. much love, you will find your way!
dosages and the prescription will always change once in a while, because you can build up a resistance
If you keep to recommended dosage and don’t feel an urge to take more you’ll be fine. I got my diagnosis in january and meds in february and it has allowed me to change my life and make it so much better. Remember the pills don’t change you or your life, that’s what you have to do, the meds might just make it easier to. They’re not a silver bullet, you are.
I'm in the same boat as you.. I was recently diagnosed too, but I refuse to become addicted to any substance.
I take only one dose and manage the rest of the day with little caffeine around 3pm and after that I just micro dose nicotine if I feel off. ( 4mg gum and cut it in to 4 pieces 1mg each) That takes me get through the day
Having taking these meds I really struggle to understand why anyone would abuse these things. They make me feel horrible even on a low dose. Thanks for your insight
@@successblueprintinstitute you're lucky. I couldn't get enough! Have a great day!
Thanks for posting. I'm 8 months clean. I never had a high dose, but I still miss it. I can't help but feel like I'm better overall with medication.
Proud of you!
That’s called euphoric recall. I struggle with it too. As soon as you get back on, like after a week, you’d remember why you stopped
do you mind sharing why you stopped taking it? I was recently diagnosed with ADHD at 38 and I'm on 10mg twice a day (but I usually don't take it during weekends and only take 1 pill each day during the week). Kind of scary to think it can get out of control
Thank you so much hearing about your experience and healing is motivating. I've been stuck in the abusive cycle and afraid to let go of the addiction. I found my art and drawing skills to come back and increase on the drug and I know can't depend on it but I'm stuck in my mind because I feel like I can advance with drawing on it but I know I can't depend on it . I'm afraid to let go of it
You cannot give that much power to a pill. You are the artist, you are the creator, adderal is not. Adderall just helps you focus. Learn how to focus another way. First, you will have about 6 months to a year completely frustrated but you will learn.
I know exactly what you mean by.... needing "something" to take just to be able to get out of bed and function!! I'm not on Adderall but I am on Methadone and I've been on it for 6+ years every single day. I'm tired of the handcuffs so I'm tapering off 100mg. I'm currently on 57mg. I'm so ready for the days to come where I wake up and can not be so pissed that I woke up and feel like shit. I'm done and burnt out on having to have something just to function.
Thank you so much for this video! It’s been so hard to take responsibility, wake up, and own up to my addiction. I’ve been taking adderall for 10 years now, the last five years I’ve been abusing it like you described. With dosages that were scary high.
Im terrified of getting off of it, and I’m scared how badly the detox will be due to the length and amount I take, but I have no choice but to go through it and get sober, I now have a beautiful daughter that depends on me and needs me here.
Once again thank you’!
How long does the fatigue last? My body crashed after catching a virus and now im left with chronic fatigue. I think the pills weakened my system
This morning tears just started rolling down my eyes.. there wasn’t a reason for the sadness. Things aren’t going my egos way as of late. A weeping cry
SSRI- sertraline dampened my emotions, sex drive and my sense of joy. Im still missing a genuine joy in my heart. I feel hollowed out.
Things are getting better. Day by day 🌞🌼💐
My next video is going to talk to this. I hope today is better.
Ask Jesus to help you pick up his Bible and start to create a personal relationship with him. He is a chain breaker and a Waymaker and the reason why I am able to give up the Adderall the only reason.
Thank you for sharing your experience, this is very helpful. God bless
Been taking it for over 12 years, prescribed. At my worst I was mixing opiates with it and taking over 100mg a day my face would be numb from lack of circulation. I don’t take it that much anymore I take about 40 mg a day, but I’m having health problems and it’s made me lazy now. Like your saying the adderall makes me feel good without having to accomplish anything. So I’m ready to really get off. The relationship I’m in isn’t helping with that, he’s very type A and quitting the adderall I can’t keep up with him. I already know what’s needed bc I went through therapy to get off of opiates.. Thanks for the words ❤️
Have you gone to any NA meetings? I only suggest this because I really don't think I could have done this without the support of my friends and family. It is a constant battle for sure. I hope life gets a bit easier for you. Keep us updated please.
Hi all, 180 days off of adderall and just saying that it does get way better. I’ve been sleeping a lot still but able to enjoy things again. It feels amazing to not have a one track mind on those pills anymore
Congratulations on the work. Really, I know it hasn't been easy, but you are doing it. Keep us updated
Thank you ❤
Thank you for this video. I would like to hear more about the psychotic breakdown you had. I am trying to figure out what happened with my relationship of 8 years. My now Ex completely lost it and it destroyed our relationship. She never admitted it but I know she was taking more than she was supposed to. She had narcolepsy and was prescribed 2 20mg XR a day. She took them responsibly for a few years but then she started acting weird and then it went to full blown psychotic. If you are willing to make a video about it, it would help me greatly.
Thank you for the comment. The subject is still hard to talk about. Give me a few months to get my thoughts together. It was a scary and sad time for me, but it is something we should be aware of.
@@laurenstone5436 I appreciate it. I know it has to be hard. I watched it for quite a while with my Ex, it was difficult for me and I can only imagine what it was like on the other side. Take your time, I look forward to hearing your experience. Your channel has helped me to understand this better. I have never been addicted to anything (aside from cigarettes) and have no real experience when it comes to drugs, legal or otherwise. Thanks again.
I had a psychotic break on Adderall 3 times before I quit each 3 times were a relapse. I’m sober now. I would have constant auditory hallucinations that were scary and I would get violent brain zaps and have ringing in my ears. I would also have visual hallucinations of shadow people
Thank you, Lauren
keep these videos coming!!
The worst when you stop abruptly is the EXTREME tiredness and lack of feeling emotions..major depression. How much did you take on average daily?
I'm embarrassed to say that I really don't know. I went through a month supply in 5 days sometimes. Probably approx 160-200 MG a day. I was out-of-control for many years. Thank you for your comment!
@@laurenstone5436 For you to stop completely after so many years in and of itself is a huge accomplishment. The withdrawal and feeling "blah" lasts for months..
Thank you for this cause you can’t find many stories on it 🙏 I’m one month sober after 7 months of using it it gave me several psychotic breaks I dealt with them and kept going back three times before I finally quit each time being worse. It’s crazy how you took it for 7 years and then had your first psychotic break but I took it for 7 months and then I had mine wonder why I had it come on so fast
Thank you for posting this. Im 26, 8 years in been trying to quit for many years now. the longest I ever make it is like a month before I cave for one reason or another you know. I certainly destroyed a good relationship because of the person it’s made me, I am trying to rewrite myself and have things going for myself I just wish I could quit for good. I’m hopeful that next time I get a month or so in and want to break I will hear your voice reminding me to keep going🙏
Once I got to college playing basketball, working 40hrs + school it became my lifeline and suddenly I couldn’t imagine life without it, basically 100mg+ daily from that point on. it’s got to the point for I won’t sleep for a week straight at times it is fucked lol but I did feel reassured after hearing how much you were taking. I still dream of living a life where I don’t need any stimulants to take charge of my life and feel happy doing so 😌
Wow thank you for your story. I relate.❤
Gosh, thank you. So very much ❤
14:25 Working in STEM, everything you said is true. At some point one has to ask if the money is worth the mental stress to the point of requiring these drugs. Is a 6 figure salary really worth it? Thanks for sharing your story.
16:40 What I've seen works isn't the thing that people want to hear. That they have to stop doing the thing that makes them stressed to the point of needing Adderall.
My problem is with Ritalin. That's a 2 day binge per month. This has been going on for years. I congratulate you for your victory. My question, do you still have access to these pills, for instance like a doctor or someone else?
Doctors would still prescribe them if I asked, but I will never ask or accept them again. It was such a vicious cycle for me. I am relieved to not having them in my life.
@@laurenstone5436 Hey Lauren, God bless you for this answer. I was looking for someone to relate to. I have the same issue. I can get them prescribed if I want to. Having easy access and maintaining the sobriety is a harder level of the game. I have some relief now since I found out I'm not alone in the boat. Thank you a lot for this answer. You don't know what it means to me💚
I’m only a couple weeks clean, but I’m finding a keto diet or low carb diet is really helping. I think sugar was the problem in the first place and adderall was a band aid.
Did it make your hair fall out a lot? I started using it everyday. And i noticed my hair shedding like crazy. Not sure if i was just coincidently going through a cycle at the same time, or if it was the addis
Possibly the stress it puts on your body? My hair didn't fall out, but my teeth...I just finished getting all my teeth issues addressed last year. Costed me a small fortune. Not worth any of it. Hope you are well
Ty for this vid. You are so spot on.
Do think things are different for those without adhd? 7 years of daily use here but never prescribed them. Ill add that i never knew what anxiety was until i became dependent on this. Awful..
Thank you for sharing.
Hot showers and then turning it to cold really helped the cravings turned them off for me
I am struggling with functioning and working. Any advice? I don’t have a support system so I have to work. Also did the depression truly ever go away? Do you think you ever truly went back to baseline? Like truly?
The short answer is yes. The depression does go away, but you will have to find something to help it go. Adderall drives our dopamine, and our brain gets "lazy." It forgets how to work on its own, and we feel this with depression. It takes time to get back to baseline, but it will happen.
A sincere question: Why would you become hooked on adderall? I've taken ritalin and it was horrible, even before withdrawal. I'd much rather abuse alcohol.
Adderall is like a light-switch for my brain and all its endorphins I started when I was lacking energy and the power to focus. It worked immediately and helped me do the things I dragged through. Funny because I do not like how alcohol makes me feel. Thanks for the question. I wonder if anyone else that reads this has any thoughts?
@@laurenstone5436 Interesting how different the effects can be. Ritalin turned me into a zombie, dare I say psychopath. Alcohol calms my mind so I can focus. Or it used to, nowadays I still get no affect after I took the ritalin last summer. I'm afraid I have brain damage, I can't feel things or focus like I used to still. My head hurts when I do and I can't feel natural euphoria like I used to. How has your process been? Maybe there's a video you've made already? I just found your channel today. It's great to not feel alone. The doctor's don't believe me, even though there are several studies describing this phenomenon as well as low testosterone because of them online.
@@laurenstone5436 that’s what got me on it lack of energy focus
I love this video. Thank you. I’m booked into to see a dr to possibly get a script for my ADHD. But I am also someone who can abuse alcohol so of course I am nervous that I could be creating a new addiction. I have in my head that the medicine might help me slow down my alcohol addiction. Am I being delusional? Should I cancel that first meeting so I never even experience these drugs? I tell myself I won’t abuse it but i thought that with the booze as well.
I would be honest with the doctor. I'm afraid I can't give medical advice. I would caution you that adderal is very addictive and many people drink more with Adderall. It made me feel more anxious, at times, so I would look to a drink to take the edge off. Good luck to you.
I’m an adderral addict for 3 years. I always thought taking more than 40mg a day would be an overdose. Your dose was insane!! Wow!
Total insanity
Nobody can verbalise withdrawal/dependence better than you. And you look good to look today 😊
I went to gym today and I felt like a granny. The amount of effort to gym for 5/10 minutes OMW. It’s a psychological battle..
Its a spiritual war, my ego hates it. My ego wants to be the guy looking, feeling strong.. Chest out pumped…😅
Sertraline/ssri ❌, feels like brain is damaged, heavy head
In the 4th week now since the last pill.
Mwah looking forward to your next video.
Bye for now
In many ways, you're stronger than those guys with the big chest. It's hard work to do what we do. Don't give up on yourself. 10 minutes will turn into 15 and then 20. I promise. Just make a deal with yourself that you will do something every day.
When did u stop taking it? How long have you been clean off of it?
Seven years now! I completely rehab in 2016.
Thank you so much for this video! 🙏🏻
My son is only 9 and homeschooled. He attends an autism school once a week for 3 hours. Last week the teachers suggested I put him on medication as he is “not progressing” after 2.5 yrs doing therapy there and they have run out of tools in their toolbox. I’ve been in crisis for days… wondering if I’m a bad mum for not wanting to medicate my 9 yr old child. Everything I find online is echoing the sentiments of the teachers. Apparently ADHD meds are amazing! But I want to hear the TRUTH! Thank you for sharing the truth on this matter. It’s very important to hear both sides of the story and now I feel I’m informed and my instincts are right. 🩷
There has to be a better way than addictive drugs. You're a great mom for doing the research .
Oh please give him a shot on the medication, this woman was Dr shopping from the start and didn't even start it for the right reasons. Your son will be on it with your guidance for his ADHD, it can be life-changing for children during the early education years. Why would you potentially hold your son back from achieving his best because one woman on the internet abused it? No parent wants to put their children on medication but every parent wants to give their child the best shot. I have ADHD and have never gotten addicted to this medication and can stop whenever. Please realise this isn't normal there are studies that show it can actually prevent addictive and impulsive behaviours from developing due to the hardships of untreated ADHD. I struggled with binge drinking due to years of feeling behind my peers which gave me low self-esteem as an adult. Treating my ADHD has stopped this but if I had been medicated earlier I would have had a better shot at a younger age, I also have autism with ADHD like your son. I also live in Australia and our Drs here are very strict with tight guidelines to ensure this doesn't happen. 😊
Think of how hard it's going to be for him to get off the meds eventually when starting this young.
He won't even remember what it was like to not be medicated
@@Julez108 not always the case I have a friend who went off them in her mid-20s and started at 7. Yes, it could be hard for him but better than underachieving and growing up with low confidence as an adult.
i appreciate this
thank you 🙏🏻
two multivitamins, alpha lipoic acid, red meat, green juice, and tons and tons of exercise. helped me quit. also picking up martial arts
Adderall helps me so much but I lose so much hair from it so I barley take it and it sucks
You just know that when that shit is running through your system, it can’t be good for you lol
I think it is important to remember that "add" is transitory and very dependent on your overall health and learned behaviour from your childhood. Personally, and if you look at the actual research studies, I don't believe in adhd. And that is coming from a place of empowerment. I felt really low when I got diagnosed with add (like, am I permanently busted?). No, after being tricked into taking the drug and the horror it did to me (dropped my testosterone to very low levels) causing sexual dysfunction, atrophy, among other things, cognitive impairment, I've realised, by the help of Patrick Teahan's youtube channel about trauma that there was never anything wrong with me. I was in a bad place, and came from a bad place, which made me susceptible to certain ways of thinking about myself and my surroundings causing "add". Wishing you all the best. It's been 8 months since I took it and it's slowly getting better, taking it day by day, exercising, eating properly, sleeping more, cold showers, no stress.
Beautifully written.
Thank you for your comment. I wish there was a support group for us with adhd medication withdrawal.
hey, thanks
Dating one of these folks is seriously draining & could destroy you.....the innocent party.
She only spoke of forgiving herself for what she's done TO HERSELF....Like,huh!@
I'm sure she's hurt others throughout her addiction,though...
That makes me think of the rampant narcissism going on,nowadays
It doesn't matter WHAT YOU'VE DONE"..
Like,seriously.
Eye opening video on how these folks truly think,though!@
Scary
You're right. We are super narcissistic when we are in active addiction. I have a video explaining this and how we need to reflect in how we have treated others that care for us and try to help us.
On a vyvanse comedown now… again… Last time i hope.. these vids help
@@dtcy1229 I hope you have a speedy recovery
5 years off heroin and all substances....except now I'm abusing adderall. I have 0 control over anything that changes how i feel. I use cause i can't handle my emotions. Life is going well right now but adderall starting to take its affect. My arm in a sling and 2 knee brases from muscle over use with not enough rest. I'm up to atleast 120mg a day
I’m struggling with adderall / dexamphetamine abuse- since a few months trying to get off it. I’m 20, do have ADHD and am looking for some people to talk with since I can’t really talk to anyone about it :(
Anything specific you'd like to chat about?
@@laurenstone5436 I don’t know. I am in quite a positive state about it. But chatting with people that experience(d) the same would make me feel less alone, and weak, I think. This secret ways heavy on me. Few times I was MONTHS sober: but I cannot even tell anyone how “good” I was doing. Rn trying to stop again but I haven’t slept for the whole night again. Same 3 other nights this week didnt sleep. I am scared I will start getting paranoia
@@laurenstone5436 So I dont know chatting about it motivating each other giving hope. I dont want to trauma dump- just share hope and light
Emerald coast alternatives zombie tea felt like natural adderall and helped me detox
This is great content. Thank you.
I first tried Adderall when I was 18 and took 100 mg IR. Even though I didn't take it regularly because I wasn't prescribed, I had dreams about it. I ended up stealing pills from brother and a roommate because I couldn't control myself.
It definitely got ahold of me too.
You remind me of drew Barrymore ❤
I agree !
Congrats on your recovery! How long did it take to get your dopamine receptors to start working on their own again? When did the depression stop?
It took a good 6 months to a year for the depression to compete lift. The dopamine came back with exercise. I still need to exercise to feel really good. Thanks for the question!!
Im going on 1.5 years I took two pills before a funeral before that it was in 2020 November, I went from abusing addy to then trying meth, I feel almost normal but the wreckage it caused my life was terrible lost my family and I tried to commit suicide damn I'm still recovering from all of this
Are you driving and filming a youtube video?!
I noticed you didn't mention irritability, anxiety, yelling at people for no good reason. Did you not experience those emotions? Or in hindsight now, do you think you were the cause of arguments and not the other people?
You are absolutely right. I did experience these emotions. Especially the first month of stopping Adderall. I think I was the cause of arguments because I put too much expectation on everything and everyone. I now see life as being enjoyed, not completed in a certain time frame. Does this make sense,
@@laurenstone5436 yes. Your story is very helpful. Thank you for answering my question.
It’s been a while.. where you at?
Working a lot. I will be back.
Thanks for your story. Adderall made everything exciting, without it every thing seemed bland and bleak.
@@laurenstone5436
How are you doing now?
@@RJT61963interesting, I am taking adderall as prescribed no abuse, and for me, life is bland with adderall. I am a lot more emotional and impulsive without it
Holy sht I take 10mg XR per day. 60mg is....wow. And that's prescribed. America.
5 years sober from adderall.
Its the devils drug
@@shellydavis855 yeahhhhh!!
I take 200mg a day sometimes. Am I a junkie?
Geez. Wow. That's 10x what I see recommended.
@@terrancecloverfield6791 I got up to 400mg+/day last week. Did that for 7 days straight so I can work overtime without sleep. Constricted blood vessels. Hands went tingly or were in extreme pain for 2 days straight. Literally every minute of 50 hrs, I was in pain. Absolute hell and scared to death. I quit Adderall for good.
I wonder how many years of our lives we shaved off ?
I was off for 4 days and just filled a script again. I want off
It's soooooo hard. Don't feel defeated. When you are ready, try again.
Look this is a great video explaining drug addiction but please, please for the sake of others and yourself, do not drive and make a video.
The amount of people who have been distracted by using a cell phone while driving and had an accident is horrific. Nothing is as important as having your full attention when behind the wheel.
someone else is driving..relax
@@mellisaburger2439 lol
Three 30s at once 💀
@@M.Kabane yep. I was out of control