I'm autistic and I actually do have low empathy, or maybe unregulated empathy is a better way to put it, as I can be overly empathetic to certain people/groups (like if someone is being mistreated) but feel almost nothing if my friend says their grandma died. It's really odd. It's like all my empathy is distributed unevenly. I really like that you mentioned trigger stacking as I learned all about it training my dog and I think it's cool that you can apply to humans, cuz I've done that as well 😂 Great video even though I probably won't get all the way thru it right now
11:03 stimming: I grew up naturally acquiring less noticeable stims, and since realizing I’m autistic 5 years ago and trying to unmask, stimming in bigger ways wasn’t necessarily something I had been suppressing - they’d never occurred to me. I thought all of my covert stims were Meeting my sensory needs. But I’ve since learned the value of bigger “stereotypical” stims. A lot of my stims (clenching muscle groups in patterns, fidgeting in small ways) came from my body asking for sensory input, and I met the minimum by doing small stims, but bigger stims help just that much more. Instead of feeling like fidgeting is at least SOMEWHERE for some of my anxiety to leak out of, I can shake my arms or flap my hands and the amount of anxiety my body is holding actually significantly goes down, or at the very least helps me think. I think if bigger stims had been modeled as normal, I’d have done them my whole life - but they weren’t, so I almost never did. They’re much more effective. I felt like a faker when I started trying them, it probably took 4-6 months for it to feel normal, but my brain is so grateful I gave it a go. I feel like I much better understand how to listen to what my body is actually asking for. Somatics classes have taught me that many autistic stims are actually engaging with acupressure points on the body, or allow bilateral stimulation (something which is very calming). Some of them are actually quite advanced meditation techniques. We do not flap because it feels good for some reason, we’re doing actual good things for our nervous system. I ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO MOVE THEIR BODY MORE.
Thank you SO MUCH for your comment! I was diagnosed two years ago at 15, and although i did big movements as a kid, I definitely stopped doing it. I’m still not sure why. And this is something I forgot too, until I found some old videos and saw a little girl with very expressive movements and facial expressions, i envy her. I tried being more like her lately, and it feels good, but i felt so guilty, like i was faking, and i stopped trying. But now that i read your comment, i’m ready to embrace and welcome back that part of myself without guilt. It will be awkward and uncomfortable at first, but i know it will help me so much.. Your comment lowkey just changed my life forever hahahahahahahhaha 💗💗 much love for you!! I definitely need to move more, it used to be such a joyful thing for me..
@mel4340 wow, thank you for sharing. That means everything. I don’t have any video footage from my childhood, but for some reason you reminded me how expressive I used to be as a little one. Expressing surprise or excitement with my whole arms, even jumping or twirling. You comment and unlocking those memories gave me happy tears, thank you. ☺️
@@teenage_socialist_edgelord I love how autistics are so autistic that we autist our autisms. To explain in more detail, I have prepared a spreadsheet.
I don't really want to police how other people refer to themselves, but for me personally I think distancing my language of how we speak about autistic people in general from the idea of autism being like a disease that makes us alien, is important for humanization. I prefer to say that I'm an autistic person, or that I'm a person who is autistic, instead of 'with' autism or 'having/has' autism. I have an autism diagnosis, I was diagnosed with autism, but I am an autistic person. I guess I feel very strongly about it because it is that immutable nature of autism that is fundamental to our personhood, that I say I am an autistic person instead of externalizing autism as if it's something overlayed on my life, something I own or am afflicted by, or something on top of who I really am that is changing me into an autistic version of who I would be otherwise. It's just a different state of existing. Being autistic is so integral and fundamental to how I see and perceive the world, it is how I developed, that I believe it cannot be separated from my humanity. As an example, I'm also trans and I would say I'm a trans person, not a person with trans, or has trans, if that makes sense. It's my own personal way of unifying my personhood with the traits that have been so integral to my development, seeing it as just being myself, and not an external conceptual object that I can blame or fragment from my sense of self. People generally say 'I have/had/live with anxiety' because it is **not** an inherent part of their personhood, it is external to their sense of self, that is additive to their life, that may effect their reality or self-perception in the long run, but is not WHO they are. To me, being autistic is who I am, I wouldn't be the same person at all if I was born neurotypical. The main benefit of this to me is, the negatives associated with ASD are just my own personal limits that vary from other people's, and the positives like hyperfocus, special interests and excelling at very specific things, I can give myself credit for, instead of saying well it's because of the autism that I'm so good at this or that I'm so knowledgeable about that. It's because it's who I am. Society at large has taught us to externalize our experience as autistic people as a disease, curse or affliction that is forcing us through pain and suffering in our lives, as something that needs to be fixed or cured, instead of society at large just compensating for the natural differences and possibilities of humanity that may need more accommodation or simple understanding. I don't know if other autistic people feel the way I do about this, I think the language we use is very important in differentiating our experiences from other classifications of human experience, such as having illness.
As someone who is recently diagnosed I found this content very helpful and intend to write out key points to discuss with my support group. Many thanks.
So, after recently being told that i am on the autistic spectrum by my daughter and after 45 years with no knowledge, i really wasn't sure... I have to thank you for this video. So far i'm 34 minutes in and have experienced everything on this list. I'm currently taking a break to wright this and have saved the video to watch another time. Most appreciated but i need a breather 👍
I swear there is a strong link between asd & dissociating. I have osdd (well it's getting better but yeah) and I think my undiagnosed asd played a huge role in me developing that aswell as cptsd & bpd
I can totally relate. I hate saying "untreated ASD", because it is not a disease, so I will say unconsidered Autism, and the way I was treated, definitely played a major part in my CPTSD and in my case Bipolar Disorder. My autism is a meshing of what is called ADHD ( I call it MALA - more attention less attention - lol) and that played a major part in my Bipolar Disorder. In fact, a lot of that was/is actually "ADHD" was what lead to the diagnosis for BD. I'm 55 and only just found out. I have experienced different dissociative fugues my whole life, some of them subtle and some extreme. The extreme ones I have not yet found an adequate explanation for, although depersonalisation or derealisation would probably be it, although the way it is clinically described doesn't resonate with me at all. What they really miss in my case is that I very often kind of enjoyed the experience, but was frightened by it in retrospect. Now it happens very seldomly but when I was deeply Autistically burnt-out I found it absolutely terrifying. Existential dread terrifying. I shall not apologise for having over shared and info dumped. Bless you Allie.
wonderful video, went to certain timestamps a bit but this video seems very muchso helpful as a sort of compendium, and everything was pretty beneficially reguarded (and also fairly specific/deep) , which is both some high quality stuff (also, smaller yt channels or views and whatnot doesnt mean its not a peak experience, in fact its kinda allot like that in fanfiction and original work archives and this really reached us so thanks. Although we cant really sit through much of the video, We have alexithemia, which is surprisingly nice. lacking certain strains of empathy doesnt really get to us in a bad way, and anaphstasia kinda seems to balance itself out all things considered (or well at least the severity of which we identified for us-that being having the perception of the concept and attributes/aesthetics themes but not really easily seeing stuff)-its hard to know the full applications being "better" in indicernable ways, but we've gotten alot of value of having a "Bad Apple" So to speak. For one, it makes for a very stable conscious perception I have therien theres less "canvas opportunities" but also said canvas is more concise, and theres actually alot of colour too. Certain concepts seem to be de-dimentionizable in that there seems to be alot of practical use applications of those possibilities, and its very engaging conceptualizing it all, but for stuff like our mental imagry, we havent really explored the any of the conceptualizations or appleications at all but much thanks fir all the other stuff we would never get as easy access to getting a foothold in otherwise
This is brilliant, and you know how I know? Because I have to stop and watch it again later, piece by piece. The thought and care that has gone into this is not lost on me mate, it is so appreciated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are a beacon of light. Blessings upon you man.🙏
I don’t see myself as a black and white thinker. But sometimes… a bit of a black and white talker. Maybe when I say something in a more political conversation with close family or a friend, I can come across as a bit black and white due to certain remarks. But I very much enjoy grey areas. I love grey areas when writing fictional characters
I have a bunch of videos to look through if you like, if you’ve got a question for me I’ll be happy to answer it in one of my lives (should be going live tomorrow). Thanks for watching 🙏🏻
i get so desk-bitingly pissed when my dad whistles along to songs in his headphones :| I NEVER SAY ANYTHING because... that would be rude like wtf he's just having fun listening to music but GRRR
Love you mean it. Listen, it is not Perservation, it is Perseveration. As in, to continue to persevere. You say it per-sev-er-ation. Yes, yes, language Nazi whatever love you bye
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I mean I think so many things being put in A tier is kind of a genuine testament of why autism diagnosis is SO IMPORTANT even as an adult.
I'm autistic and I actually do have low empathy, or maybe unregulated empathy is a better way to put it, as I can be overly empathetic to certain people/groups (like if someone is being mistreated) but feel almost nothing if my friend says their grandma died. It's really odd. It's like all my empathy is distributed unevenly.
I really like that you mentioned trigger stacking as I learned all about it training my dog and I think it's cool that you can apply to humans, cuz I've done that as well 😂
Great video even though I probably won't get all the way thru it right now
11:03 stimming: I grew up naturally acquiring less noticeable stims, and since realizing I’m autistic 5 years ago and trying to unmask, stimming in bigger ways wasn’t necessarily something I had been suppressing - they’d never occurred to me. I thought all of my covert stims were
Meeting my sensory needs. But I’ve since learned the value of bigger “stereotypical” stims. A lot of my stims (clenching muscle groups in patterns, fidgeting in small ways) came from my body asking for sensory input, and I met the minimum by doing small stims, but bigger stims help just that much more. Instead of feeling like fidgeting is at least SOMEWHERE for some of my anxiety to leak out of, I can shake my arms or flap my hands and the amount of anxiety my body is holding actually significantly goes down, or at the very least helps me think.
I think if bigger stims had been modeled as normal, I’d have done them my whole life - but they weren’t, so I almost never did. They’re much more effective. I felt like a faker when I started trying them, it probably took 4-6 months for it to feel normal, but my brain is so grateful I gave it a go. I feel like I much better understand how to listen to what my body is actually asking for.
Somatics classes have taught me that many autistic stims are actually engaging with acupressure points on the body, or allow bilateral stimulation (something which is very calming). Some of them are actually quite advanced meditation techniques. We do not flap because it feels good for some reason, we’re doing actual good things for our nervous system.
I ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO MOVE THEIR BODY MORE.
Thank you SO MUCH for your comment! I was diagnosed two years ago at 15, and although i did big movements as a kid, I definitely stopped doing it. I’m still not sure why. And this is something I forgot too, until I found some old videos and saw a little girl with very expressive movements and facial expressions, i envy her. I tried being more like her lately, and it feels good, but i felt so guilty, like i was faking, and i stopped trying. But now that i read your comment, i’m ready to embrace and welcome back that part of myself without guilt. It will be awkward and uncomfortable at first, but i know it will help me so much.. Your comment lowkey just changed my life forever hahahahahahahhaha 💗💗 much love for you!! I definitely need to move more, it used to be such a joyful thing for me..
@mel4340 wow, thank you for sharing. That means everything. I don’t have any video footage from my childhood, but for some reason you reminded me how expressive I used to be as a little one. Expressing surprise or excitement with my whole arms, even jumping or twirling. You comment and unlocking those memories gave me happy tears, thank you. ☺️
A compendium of autistic traits ranked ahh yess
@@teenage_socialist_edgelord I love how autistics are so autistic that we autist our autisms.
To explain in more detail, I have prepared a spreadsheet.
I don't really want to police how other people refer to themselves, but for me personally I think distancing my language of how we speak about autistic people in general from the idea of autism being like a disease that makes us alien, is important for humanization. I prefer to say that I'm an autistic person, or that I'm a person who is autistic, instead of 'with' autism or 'having/has' autism. I have an autism diagnosis, I was diagnosed with autism, but I am an autistic person. I guess I feel very strongly about it because it is that immutable nature of autism that is fundamental to our personhood, that I say I am an autistic person instead of externalizing autism as if it's something overlayed on my life, something I own or am afflicted by, or something on top of who I really am that is changing me into an autistic version of who I would be otherwise. It's just a different state of existing. Being autistic is so integral and fundamental to how I see and perceive the world, it is how I developed, that I believe it cannot be separated from my humanity. As an example, I'm also trans and I would say I'm a trans person, not a person with trans, or has trans, if that makes sense. It's my own personal way of unifying my personhood with the traits that have been so integral to my development, seeing it as just being myself, and not an external conceptual object that I can blame or fragment from my sense of self. People generally say 'I have/had/live with anxiety' because it is **not** an inherent part of their personhood, it is external to their sense of self, that is additive to their life, that may effect their reality or self-perception in the long run, but is not WHO they are. To me, being autistic is who I am, I wouldn't be the same person at all if I was born neurotypical. The main benefit of this to me is, the negatives associated with ASD are just my own personal limits that vary from other people's, and the positives like hyperfocus, special interests and excelling at very specific things, I can give myself credit for, instead of saying well it's because of the autism that I'm so good at this or that I'm so knowledgeable about that. It's because it's who I am. Society at large has taught us to externalize our experience as autistic people as a disease, curse or affliction that is forcing us through pain and suffering in our lives, as something that needs to be fixed or cured, instead of society at large just compensating for the natural differences and possibilities of humanity that may need more accommodation or simple understanding. I don't know if other autistic people feel the way I do about this, I think the language we use is very important in differentiating our experiences from other classifications of human experience, such as having illness.
Wow, this is such a beautiful comment, you just described everything about how I feel about this topic into words!
This is the most thorough autism language dictionary I've yet seen. Thanks so much for the resource!
i appreciate you talking about this and the time stamps.
As someone who is recently diagnosed I found this content very helpful and intend to write out key points to discuss with my support group. Many thanks.
So, after recently being told that i am on the autistic spectrum by my daughter and after 45 years with no knowledge, i really wasn't sure... I have to thank you for this video. So far i'm 34 minutes in and have experienced everything on this list. I'm currently taking a break to wright this and have saved the video to watch another time. Most appreciated but i need a breather 👍
10:17
Funny how the picture here is a hanging chair… thingy. There was a similar chair in an AirBNB I was with my parents and I used that so much.
Thank you so much for all your hard work!
I swear there is a strong link between asd & dissociating. I have osdd (well it's getting better but yeah) and I think my undiagnosed asd played a huge role in me developing that aswell as cptsd & bpd
I can totally relate. I hate saying "untreated ASD", because it is not a disease, so I will say unconsidered Autism, and the way I was treated, definitely played a major part in my CPTSD and in my case Bipolar Disorder. My autism is a meshing of what is called ADHD ( I call it MALA - more attention less attention - lol) and that played a major part in my Bipolar Disorder. In fact, a lot of that was/is actually "ADHD" was what lead to the diagnosis for BD. I'm 55 and only just found out. I have experienced different dissociative fugues my whole life, some of them subtle and some extreme. The extreme ones I have not yet found an adequate explanation for, although depersonalisation or derealisation would probably be it, although the way it is clinically described doesn't resonate with me at all. What they really miss in my case is that I very often kind of enjoyed the experience, but was frightened by it in retrospect. Now it happens very seldomly but when I was deeply Autistically burnt-out I found it absolutely terrifying. Existential dread terrifying. I shall not apologise for having over shared and info dumped. Bless you Allie.
wonderful video, went to certain timestamps a bit but this video seems very muchso helpful as a sort of compendium, and everything was pretty beneficially reguarded (and also fairly specific/deep) , which is both some high quality stuff
(also, smaller yt channels or views and whatnot doesnt mean its not a peak experience, in fact its kinda allot like that in fanfiction and original work archives and this really reached us so thanks. Although we cant really sit through much of the video, We have alexithemia, which is surprisingly nice. lacking certain strains of empathy doesnt really get to us in a bad way, and anaphstasia kinda seems to balance itself out all things considered (or well at least the severity of which we identified for us-that being having the perception of the concept and attributes/aesthetics themes but not really easily seeing stuff)-its hard to know the full applications being "better" in indicernable ways, but we've gotten alot of value of having a "Bad Apple" So to speak. For one, it makes for a very stable conscious perception I have therien theres less "canvas opportunities" but also said canvas is more concise, and theres actually alot of colour too. Certain concepts seem to be de-dimentionizable in that there seems to be alot of practical use applications of those possibilities, and its very engaging conceptualizing it all, but for stuff like our mental imagry, we havent really explored the any of the conceptualizations or appleications at all but much thanks fir all the other stuff we would never get as easy access to getting a foothold in otherwise
This deserves millions of views. Youre awesome dude, a role model for me as an advocate for our shared diagnosis
I'm an audhd mamma with an 8 year old daughter who has adhd & (I think) sensory processing disorder ❤
This is brilliant, and you know how I know? Because I have to stop and watch it again later, piece by piece. The thought and care that has gone into this is not lost on me mate, it is so appreciated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are a beacon of light. Blessings upon you man.🙏
I don’t see myself as a black and white thinker. But sometimes… a bit of a black and white talker. Maybe when I say something in a more political conversation with close family or a friend, I can come across as a bit black and white due to certain remarks. But I very much enjoy grey areas. I love grey areas when writing fictional characters
I didn't think I had autism but after watching the whole video... wtf man. What do I do now.
What do you want to do?
There's a yt channel called "I'm autistic, now what?" It's a place to start
I have a bunch of videos to look through if you like, if you’ve got a question for me I’ll be happy to answer it in one of my lives (should be going live tomorrow).
Thanks for watching 🙏🏻
I have so much empathy its overwhelming so I learned to shut it off. These may be interpreted as a lack of empathy. I wish I could regulate it better.
Nice alternate camera angle
i get so desk-bitingly pissed when my dad whistles along to songs in his headphones :| I NEVER SAY ANYTHING because... that would be rude like wtf he's just having fun listening to music but GRRR
Hi! I noticed that the time stamps are a bit off after 28:56.
I shall look into :) Thanks for pointing it out!
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Love you mean it. Listen, it is not Perservation, it is Perseveration. As in, to continue to persevere. You say it per-sev-er-ation. Yes, yes, language Nazi whatever love you bye