I don’t think anyone understands how much Gemma actually has a positive affect on peoples lives. She seems so nice and the content is always so cozy and aesthetically pleasing and I can’t wait to see Gemma’s videos every time she uploads xx
Yeah completely agree. Discovered her channel about 3 weeks ago and I’ve binged so much of it! Just so nice and makes me feel so positive having it on in the background whilst I’m working :)
I Agree. She got me through lockdown, I binge watched and gave me ideas and I started to look after myself again after a 33yr marriage finally ended.. So Thank you Gemma..
I like to believe that those particular songs coming on randomly is a way if your Dad letting you know he's around and watching over you 🥰 Hopefully you can find it a comforting connection. x
I was going to say the same, he is letting her know he is about and I really hope Gemma can take some comfort in that. Also, I think you, Gemma, are your dad's Christmas spirit, look at how happy she makes us! Xox
I believe you hearing that song was a sign from your dad, letting you know he's still around you and he wants you to enjoy Christmas. My grandma passed just before Christmas back in 1992 and I still think of her every day. It will eventually get easier.
It's my first Christmas without my dad this year, he was my best friend, and I am dredding it! I was such a daddy's girl. It is also my first Christmas with my first born so have such a mix of confusing emotions. Christmas is still my favorite time of the year though x
In the years after that FIRST year after you lose a loved one, I’ve found I needed to make a conscious effort not to grieve on overdrive during the holidays. I acknowledge that my dad is missing but I’m glad for him to be celebrating in Heaven. The grief has gotten a bit softer over past 3 years but it has never gone away. It never will. ❤️
Gemma, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm new here and had no idea. I lost my dad 23 years ago when I was 24 years old. I can tell you it does get easier but you will never stop missing him. The sad days will become less and you will have more smiles than tears when you have these little "dad winks." I think that's exactly what that was, when that song came on at that exact moment, when you were visiting with your mom. A little "hello" from dad. Celebrate your dads favorite holiday as he would want you to. Hugs to you! It's not easy grieving someone who loved us so well.
I feel your pain about your dad Gemma. You’re so strong talking about him. I’m sure he’d be so so proud of you. Keep the Christmas magic alight in his memory. Sending hugs 🤗 xx
I know how you feel, it’s been 8 years since I have lost my dad and it never gets easier it always get difficult. At first I thought it would get easier but I was wrong. Just know he always there watching down on you and just he want you to always be happy whether he is there or not. You will always miss them but just know he always with u and everything u achieve he there with u. Love your video loads and may u always be happy x
After losing my older brother to cancer, the thing that helped me the most was this thought: „He keeps on living in us, and he sees the world through our eyes now. So we need to try to show him happiness and the beauty of the world.“ It’s almost 8 years now and it still hurts. But thinking about what I said from time to time helps! Sending lots of love Gemma ❣️
I miss my mum so much! She passed away October last year so last Christmas was strange and so upsetting but I feel worse about this year as everything finally hit me that she not here!💔 constant feeling of someone missing 💔💔💔❤️
Hi Gemma I’m really sorry for your loss. Grief is something on another level that sometimes we can’t comprehend properly. I lost my dad recently too, I know that pain ☹️ but with time we learn to live with it in a healthy way. Remember you’re dads with you everyday and watching over you 🥰 we all love and support you ❤️
we lost my nan last year 2 days before christmas, she was like a mum to me growing up and i feel the same as you this year, it feels harder to get into the christmas spirit knowing that you’re gonna spend the day missing someone round the table. so many of us are in the same boat so please don’t apologise for being raw with your emotions or ending the video on a sad note, we love and support you. thank you for sharing, it’s comforting to know other people feel the same. sending lots of love 🤍
Bless you Gemma. What a beautiful soul you are. Your dad will always be with you no matter what. The fact the first Christmas song you heard was his favourite, I’m sure that was a sign he was there. 🥰
I agree it’s the nostalgia that comes with it can move someone move to tears whether it’s happy or sad tears being shed. My dad did pass away 3yrs ago so I do completely understand where you’re coming from. Even today I cry over my dad . He was my best friend, I was daddy’s little baby and he always protected me from all he could . We always joked about the dumbest things on earth and had our inside jokes and life references. I cry missing his voice and laughter. What I miss the most? His hugs and him wiping my tears away, 😢 I understand you 💯
I don't know if anyone else has said this, but when you said you heard dad's favourite Christmas song and it's the first Christmas song you have heard this year, the first thing that popped into my head was it was your dad starting the festival period off, loved ones are never far away, and I see that as a sign him telling you that. Loved the video as aways, you and Jamie have a beautiful home. Xx
I lost my sister immediately after Thanksgiving. Since then, the holidays haven't been the same. I won't say it gets easier, but it becomes your new way of life. Thank goodness I have the memories of holidays past to remember. Love you Gemma! ❤
My dad past away 19 years ago, I was 13, still think about him from time to time and on the things I missed out and get sad. I think I was the saddest when 13 years went by, then I realised that he was no longer with me for as long as he was, and I tried to remember his voie and couldn't, I can remember him but not the sound of his voice. I hope it get's easyer for you Gemma, you always have moments when you remember but with time there are not as offten
Gemma, you sweetheart ❤️ the part about your dad at the end…I lost my dad suddenly 17 years ago and can completely relate to every word you said. I still miss him amd think of him every day. You have a beautiful outlook on it, what a wonderful Dad you had and the memories that make you sad now will bring you comfort as time passes ❤️ Thankyou for sharing because I’m sure your outlook amd words will help many people xxx
I totally understand Gemma how you feel, I lost my dad 4yrs ago at Christmas plus losing my daughter 17yrs ago just after new year so I found this time of year so hard and emotional, grief can hit you when your least excepting it, take comfort that your dad will always be with you in your heart ❤️ you are such the most loviest person and I do so love your blogs 💜💜💜
Just wanted to say….the world needs more Gemmas in it. LOL you in the attic cracks me up!!! 😆 When you hear a song….dad is with you. My mom was the spirit of Christmas too and it’s been a long time now, as she passed very young. As time goes by you’ll not forget the feeling of loss but remember all the precious times to keep alive in your life going forward.
I know exactly that feeling. I lost my mom 10 years ago now (can’t believe it’s been that long)…we were very close and the idea you shared about a part of you will always be missing is very true. I still can have something trigger me and it feels like it happened yesterday. Accepting you’ll live with the grief somehow makes it feel better. Take care of yourself ❤️
god love you gemma i lost my dad 35years ago and it still feels like yesterday the only way i get through it is to know he couldnt have suffered anymore and there is a beautiful place up there for the good ones and believe me my dad was the best keep being strong he will be looking down on you xx
Aww Gemma what a breath of fresh air you are my love, ive loved every moment of this video and you have made the most wonderful home it truly is beautiful. I can totally relate to your grief and feelings, I lost my best friend, my mum suddenly nearly 3 years ago and Christmas was our special & favourite time of the year and it will never be the same without her. I try and make it special as she would want me too but it takes a great deal of strength not to break down during the day. Wishing you all the best and a truly wonderful Christmas xx
Hearing you talk about your dad honestly broke me 😭😭 I'm so sorry for your loss. Even just imagining my dad not being around hurts so I honestly can't imagine how painful this feels. Well done you for talking about it so openly
Oh Gemma, my heart goes out to you. I lost my Dad 27/12 last year and it is so tough. Someone said to me, you never get over a death of a parent you just learn to live with it. Which is so, so true. Lets make our Dads proud and have a wonderful Christmas 😘
Gemma thank you so much for sharing your feelings you are such a beautiful person inside and out ❤️your Christmas content makes me feel so cozy and excited. Can't wait to see your new home decorated for the festive season 🎄🎅🎄
Dear Gemma, give your self all the grace you need, when your dearest, closest love ones pass , each of your special times feel harder. Your new home will bring new memories, new traditions but you will never forget your special memories. My Mum past 13 years ago and I still feel that lose , today I'm continuing a decorating project I started a couple of months ago . An hour into my work I had this need for my Mum , she was an amazing woman and if she was still alive , she would have been helping me even though she would have been in her seventies..... she could turn her hand to anything, by Dad passed when I was only five so Mum did everything, I remember her on long ladders and planks wall papering the staircase, she was so high up , but that was Mum a Wonder Woman. Sending you a huge hug and I love you colour choice for Christmas. Stay safe stay well xx xx
Gemma, I totally get where your coming from. I was raised with big family traditions and Now ITs Just Me and my little dog Molly! That's it. I still decorate because I love Christmas but it is Very Lonely for me! If it helps, focus on your new house, Jamie, your family and his and if course Tilly and Teddy. ❤🌲
It is hard being on your own I spent 7 years on my own at Christmas I worked in health care so used to put my name down to work Christmas day so my work colleagues who had children could stay at home with their loved ones. It was rewarding until the end of my 12 hour shift walking through to an empty house. Buy yourself a prezzie because you to deserve it
Just you remembering the songs he loved and him singing is how you keep his memories alive each and every day, celebrate those memories Gemma you dad is in you heart and always with you❤
Gemma, you are so right about grief, we don't really get over it we just learn to live without those that were close to us. It is about doing things to remember them. Take care xx
When you talk about your dad you are so right about how you will be moving forward. My mom passed away 18yrs ago and i just carry that sadness with me. ❤
You’re very right about feeling nostalgic at Christmas, it’s one of the reasons I love it, I remember the feeling of being a child. I’m still obsessed with watching home alone and I’m 36!😆
I lost my dad 18 years ago and you are so right it changes you forever.I miss him every day .Yes you learn to deal with it but it doesn’t go away my heart still hurts .I got married this year and my daughter gave me away but we both cried because his presence was so missed
Loved the video Gemma. I still miss my son after 7 years, it's supposed to get easier but I don't think it does. I have lots of reminders of him as his birthday is in December. Stay strong Gemma xxxx
I found after losing my mother as a young adult, it left a gaping hole in my heart. The one thing I can tell you is the jagged hole will never leave, but with time the edges will smooth over. Your father would be so proud of you and would want you to live life to the fullest.
You hearing that first Christmas song and it reminded you of your Dad, maybe he was sending it to you to let you know he will be with you in spirit. But I feel your pain, my Dad passed away 12 years this year. He would want you to enjoy it. Enjoy the time you have with your Mum. Sending BIG hugs xxx
I lost my sister 6 months ago to cancer. she was my best friend in the entire world. and I just want to thank you Gemma for discussing grief in such a relatable and realistic way. i feel everything you're saying and i'm sending you healing, happy vibes because I know how much I could use them too. we have to accept that life is going to be different now without the loved ones we lost, but that's okay. we can do it!
Awww Gemma my heart breaks for you, bless you your dad sounds like such a wonderful man i can understand how you must feel sending you all my love Gemma xx
Gemma I lost my mum 18months ago and I so get what you are saying I feel like my soul has been ripped out the tears come from nowhere as does the pain . I try to comfort myself with the thought that she is at peace and that is about all I can manage at the mo. You do what you have to grief and loss is not easy xxxxx thinking of you
Ah Gemma I feel for you so much it is so hard losing a loved one but your dad will always be with you in spirit watching over you. My mum died twenty years ago on 4th December and I still miss her so much especially at this time of the year but the rawness of remembering does get softer and easier to bear as the years go by. Your dad would not want you to be sad at Christmas, he would want you to be happy and remember the laughter and wonderful times you had together.🥰💜
Now you can be the Christmas spirit. Your dad will always be with you. I lost my dad over 30 years ago. Still feels like yesterday. Give it time it will get easier and you will smile when you think about him xx
You are so strong Gemma. Your Dad’s energy is always surrounding you and I’m sure he played you that song to remind you he’s still here. Thank you for always being so honest and raw. You are such a light to all of our lives. Thank you for being you❤️
They say where there is great love there is great loss. I lost my beautiful Mum 8 years ago and its still really emotional but now I can talk about her with a smile as she gave us so many lovely memories. We have all lost and therefore we all care and understand how you feel. Sending you a big hug and know that your Dad IS around you. xxx
I totally agree with no easy way to cure grief. We have to just allow ourselves to feel it and then wen we r ready we can enjoy all the wonderful memories. I feel like that Christmas song was ur dads way of saying I’m here with u n I want u to go all out during this season bcuz I know how much u love it. 🙏🏼💖🎄
I’m so sorry about your dad. I lost my mom 6 years ago and Christmas was always hard because it was her favorite holiday. I know how you feel 100% when you said you’d never feel like the old you again. That’s exactly how I feel. You’ll be in my thoughts this Christmas. We’re all here for you. Xo
Gemma its so hard when you lose someone but Christmas time it's its even worse. This is my 34th Christmas without my dad and my 4th without my mum. But I know both of them would want me to enjoy the life. I cry every time I think of them, not all tears r sad. You will miss you dad every day, but it does get easier you never forgot and you will always love them. All my love X
Gemma, I totally get what you're saying about your dad being the spirit of Christmas. I would always help my dad put the tree up and put the lights on it. Then my mom and I would decorate the tree and also bake, frost and decorate Christmas cut out cookies. It was super hard that 1st Christmas after my dad died. My mom, sisters and I made a point to make a big fuss about getting the tree and lights up. Almost showing Dad in heaven that we aren't forgeting his traditions. Then after my mom passed, I just couldn't make cookies that year without her. It hurt too much. I have made Christmas cookies every year since and get my son to join in and pass the tradition on to his generation. It is now a way to honor her. But, as you said, each person grieves in their own way. Sending you strength and courage this holiday season! ❤💚
It's awful losing a parent, when I lost my mum it was around Christmas and the song that I'm dreading is the Kelly Clarkson one, as thar what was playing when we would drive to the hospital.. just takes me back to when it happened. I completely get where you're coming from its so hard. Sending hugs xx
Gemma, I’m so glad I found your channel a couple of months ago. I think you are such a lovely, genuine person. I also lost my dad 3 years ago now but I agree with what you said. It doesn’t get easier, you just learn to live with it. This video made me cry because I feel the same as you. I feel like a different person since my dad died. Like a part of me is missing. I have a lovely husband and two lovely children who I treasure but when you lose a parent it literally feels like there’s a gap that can’t be filled. My dad was also the life and soul. He was an extrovert who filled a room with his presence. Carry on with your wonderful vlogs. And you look lovely without make up by the way. Xx
Gemma, I've only just started following you, and I've loved the few videos I've watched so far. I think the part at the end when you were talking about your dad was so touching. I think you said it beautifully that your dad was the Christmas spirit, and his spirit is still around, and you are going to carry on the Christmas spirit for him 🎄
But my darling Gemma the synchronisity of you hearing your dad's favourite Christmas song and it being your first Christmas song of the year, is just another message he is sending you telling you that he is here, he is watching you and in a way giving you the nod of approval for you and your family to enjoy Christmas because he will be right there with you! ♥
Gemma... I really can't tell you how much I enjoy your videos. You are just a sweetheart You make me smile you make me laugh and sometimes bring me to tears. I was laughing at you in the loft and then I was frightened how you were going to get down the ladder. Yes please wait for Jamie to help you bring down the the boxes. That deep burgundy color for your tree is beautiful I used to have that as my theme I've had purple and gold for the past few years. I just love Christmas as well. I understand your feelings with the loss of your dad. There is no time limit on grief and no one really knows how you feel except you. You can go on smiling and living your life day to day but no one knows what you feel inside. My dad has been gone for many years and I think of him everyday and the wonderful times we shared the life we shared. I have so many wonderful memories I wish I could just hug him one more time. You said your dad was the spirit of Christmas I think that you should carry on that spirit because he actually will always be in your heart and perhaps all your excitement and love of Christmas is a result of him and all that he did and all that he meant to you. I understand too how a song can get those emotions going . When you feel so sad that he isn't with you physically he is with you spiritually and will always be there and you have many wonderful memories and sometimes those wonderful memories make it more difficult because everything was so good. But this is life we must accept it. I personally don't believe that love dies with death I think it lives on in fact I know it does. You're a very sensitive and loving young woman and you have a beautiful spirit You continue to spread that spirit because it brings much happiness to others. I love your videos and you be safe and well 🥰
Aww Gemma you made me bawl my eyes out 😭. I’m currently in bed with the flu binging on TH-cam feeling sorry for myself, and just lost my mum 2 months ago 😢
Same thing happened to me Gemma, and what really hurts me is going down isle with my boyfriend of 3 years . And dad’s not here :/ like I wish he would be here for such important times in my life . Stay strong gorgeous ! I find that meditation helps me when I’m a bit overwhelmed with emotions .
Gemma, thank you for being real...without makeup, fearful of spiders and sharing your grief. That's what appeals to us. We can relate. We tend to get caught up in perfect youtubers with perfect homes and perfect kids. Keep on being you, you are enough!
Oh Gemma my heart aches for you, my mum passed 12 years ago and I always spent Christmas Day at my mum and dads house with my husband and our 3 kids, the day she died the light went out in the house and it’s never been the same, my dad comes to our house Christmas Day since mum passed and it always feels like she’s missing it’s so sad 😭 she made our Christmas fun and special and I’ll never enjoy Christmas anymore plus my kids are grown up now, but you will enjoy Christmas again with your own family and children making new memories, your dad will always be around you he will want you to carry on making Christmas a special occasion just like he did, it’s good to get your emotions out, I still cry when I think of those special times, but then I smile because she made it so special for all of us, we’d sing and dance and my mum and dad loved country and western music to so I miss that xx 🥰😘
Gemma, hearing that Christmas music your dad loved, is a lovely positive thing he will be saying 'i am still here even though in spirit!' he will be sharing your love for Christmas in your heart ❤and your memories , hang a few little things on your tree that represents your dad that way you will feel you have included him this is why they call it the 'spirit of Christmas' it's a time to give , reflect on the year and be thankful , be strong he would want you to have a joyous season xxx
Gemma, I know how you feel. This is my first Christmas without my parents. They died within 9 months of each other. Not one day goes by that I don't cry from missing them. My life will never be the same. They were my world. You're right, it never goes away...you learn to live with it (no choice) but that grief will never leave you. I cried with you. I feel your pain...♥♥♥
My dad past away 22 years ago and there’s days when I still sit all alone and just cry 😢 especially Christmas my dad always come to visit Christmas Eve so that day is hard for me when I finish my day at work and get home 🏡 that’s when it hits me when I have time to think miss him so much so know how you feel!! But remember our dads are always looking down on us and looking after us. Looking forward to your Christmas content especially the hot choc station hoping for some inspiration. Have a good weekend with Jamie and the fur baby’s sweetheart.💕💕xx
Thank you so much for being such a kind soul. You hit a nerve how you talk about your dad, you describe exactly how I feel. I also lost my dad last year. Also sitting here crying, being sad but also feeling understood that you and other people or also going through a loss. Love your content, plus you have such a kind and soothing voice. And touching on your previous vlog from one perfectionist to an other. Never doubt that your content isn’t good enough or matters in the grand scheme of everything. Just keep putting content out in to the world. Loving thoughts from me (Belgian girl turning 30 tomorrow). Kind - loving regards
Awww love you girl! Remember your dad looking down from the clouds wants to see how beautiful your home will look with christmas decor and christmas spirit the holiday brings! I couldn't imagine what your going through...but bringing that holiday cheer will bring a smile to his face, even when he's not in the flesh!❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻
You've described exactly how I'm feeling about losing my dad too Gemma, it's been 4 years and like you say I have accepted that I will always be sad and missing him, but honestly, it does get better, you'll still have those moments of oh dad used to do this and cry like a baby but it's your way of grieving and although you're sad a lot you get used to that feeling and it doesn't mean you can't have really happy points! Thank you for sharing, it's really comforting to hear 💗
Yay for Christmas content! You bring me so much joy! I love christmas so much and I try to recreate alot of the things you do in your videos. My daughter has a love for christmas as well. During December we go a 25 days of christmas list and do a craft,baked good, activity or a movie each day. We love reading books every night. I've got inspired by you to bring in all kinds of new traditions as well. Hugs and love sent your way!
Thank you for your Vlog today. Also the firsts after a loss are always the hardest, I found if i still celebrated them it helps turn the grief into a joy of remembrance. I also believe that these little memory drops are from them saying 'hi, im still here, I'm ok and around you'.
I know exactly how you feel Gemma , I lost my amazing Dad on Christmas Day and Christmas’ has never been the same since. Just cherish all those beautiful memories and know that your dad would want you to have a wonderful Xmas season! 😘 take care xx
I lost my nan and grandad last year. 8 days apart (dad's mum and mums dads) I'd never lost anyone before them so the ending of vlog made so much sense to me. My family has been pulled apart and is in a bad way for different reasons. This christmas is going to be awful, I know it is. But I will not let my children think or see that. Christmas for them will be different but I will do anything in my power to make sure its amazing and the most magical christmas ever xx
Gemma hearing your first Christmas song as your dads favorite Christmas song was your dad’s spirit being with you! How special to know he’s Christmas spirit is still lives on.
Thank you Gemma for sharing this. I'm new to your channel this year and I want you to know that you touched a place in my soul and I appreciate you for it. Thank you sharing your spill about grief, you gave me understanding and clarity about some things. And thank you for your joy in living life no matter what and these beautiful Christmas videos. Gemma, from my heart, thank you. I can't wait to see your Christmas videos and I pray for GOD'S PEACE to forever circle you and your family as you continue to navigate through your loss. Losing a parent is the absolute worst, along with grieving lost love. Happy Christmas 2021 to you!🙏🏿❤🕊🎄
You are so brave. I wouldn't even open the loft👀🙄 Losing one's parents is the hardest thing ever. Everything you have said about the way you feel is sooooo true. Sending lots of love. I battle every year the pain never goes away
My dad passed away a week before Christmas and I absolutely dread this time of year. Can totally relate to what your saying. Someone told me that grief is like a huge bag that you carry around with you. Over time hopefully the bag will get smaller- you still carry it around but it just sits snuggly next to you. Don’t know if that makes sense but brought me some comfort.
Hey Gemma, feeling so relaxed after your lovely video. You always get me in the mood fir the Christmas season. It’s like we are preparing for it together. Can’t wait to see how you decorate your house . I also admire , the way you can , open up about your sad times too. That really helps people. I can’t imagine how hard , it would be , for you at Christmas, without your dear dad. I know how close you were to him. But I think your doing the right things. Your allowing yourself to grieve. Knowing it won’t be easy, and being caring towards yourself . Keeping your dad’s , Christmas spirit alive is a lovely way to honour him. Whilst creating new family traditions aswell . Is very healthy I think. Big hugs to you and your family, wishing you a very happy Christmas season. Xxx
Gemma, you’re amazing. It’s so hard to be in grief, but just know that it does get better. It never goes away, but you will heal and grow. It’s just a transition you have to go through. Hugs and love to you.🤍🤍 Love the color scheme! Your house is going to look incredible!
Gemma your stronger than you think my lovely, grief never goes away and remembering certain things about your dad will never leave you and it’s good to have a little cry and good to remember him. Never ever feel bad for showing the emotions for the first man you ever loved don’t forget ♥️ sending you big hugs and I’m excited for the Christmas content and you making the new traditions, your dad will live on through you and you will probably do the same as him when /if you have a family of your own one day. ♥️♥️
Grief is Indeed hard , I feel You . I lost My grandma in october 2020 And I’m Having It more difficult too so know You’re not alone . And Thank You for bringing joy to other People When You have your down moments too 💕
Give yourself time Gemma. Doesn’t matter how long you need. Grief is one of those things you can’t get over just like that. Perhaps speaking about it with your family will help you heal better :) I hope you have amazing Christmas, you are strong even by speaking about it to us :)
Hi lovely, another gorgeous vlog ❤️ I lost my mum, I was 15 so was a good few years ago now. I completely get where your coming from with times like Christmas. Just a few things I personally do on the day to remember my mum and enjoy the day, I take a little potted Christmas tree to the cemetery either Xmas eve or Christmas day morning, I light a candle for her that burns all day, get your self a gorgeous big Christmas Yankee and make it his special candle. I have a feather bauble that I hang on my tree. These a super subtle small things that help me ❤️ loads of love gorgeous. I promise in time the pain doesn't always feel so raw. Yes it will be there and some days are worse than others but the rawness fades on time ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much Gemma, this has really made my week!! Especially as I’ve been binge watching your vids for most of it lmao 🎄😁 P.S I just want to give you the biggest hug ever - I got so emotional when you spoke about your dad. Just remember he is watching over you and he is incredibly proud of you and his spirit will be with you all on Christmas Day. Sending lots of love ❤️ xx
I’m so sorry for how you’re feeling and can’t imagine what you’re going through, sending so much love 🤍 I hope you don’t mind me offering a (hopefully comforting) perspective but maybe the fact the first Christmas song you heard was your dads favourite and so early is a sign to show that he’s with you 🤍
This will be my first Christmas without my Dad since be passed away in April, it feels very odd as he loved Christmas and all the lights and decorations. Some days I'm ok and some days i miss him so much I can barely breathe. Get through as best you can is all you can do really i suppose and eventually im hoping you get to just remember all the good times with a smile instead of a tear. Sending hugs xx
Thank you for sharing your heart with us Gemma. I know some will see your sadness, but all I see is the love you feel for your Dad. How lucky he is to be loved by you xx
Thank you for sharing at the end. My mama passed away 4.5 years ago. Doesnt seam like its been that long but i miss her so much. I buy a Christmas ornament every year of angel wings to put on my tree. What you said is 100% truth. They will forever be in our hearts. I hear or see things that reminds me of her and i just smile. God bless you through this season. Everytime i see a red bird i always say Hi mama♡
Gemma is amazing. I always watch her videos in the morning to get me in a good mood. I love how she sits down at the beginning of videos and actually talks to us (the viewers). If you are reading this Gemma. I love you and your videos.❤
Hi Gemma love. My husband passed away just over 4 years ago. It's not just songs it's words of songs. My daughter is still like you now. But you've got lots of precious memories that are stored inside you and nothing can take that away from you. On a better note, I can't wait to see your new Christmas decoration colours. 🤗air hugs to you 🤗 x
I know how you feel hun with your dad. I know it’s not the same but I lost my grandad 7 years ago and we were so close we were inseparable and Christmas is still hard to this day. Always here for you hun. Keep strong your doing him so proud. Love ya loads beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ xxx
When you hear there songs ,they are letting you know they are watching over you and with u in that moment in spirit, snd your very loved .they are just there in a different form . Sending love to u angel your doing so well xx ❤️❤️❤️
I don’t think anyone understands how much Gemma actually has a positive affect on peoples lives. She seems so nice and the content is always so cozy and aesthetically pleasing and I can’t wait to see Gemma’s videos every time she uploads xx
I agree😊
Yeah completely agree. Discovered her channel about 3 weeks ago and I’ve binged so much of it! Just so nice and makes me feel so positive having it on in the background whilst I’m working :)
I Agree. She got me through lockdown, I binge watched and gave me ideas and I started to look after myself again after a 33yr marriage finally ended.. So Thank you Gemma..
Agreeed!
This is so sweet, thank you 🥰 you’ve made my day! Sending all my love x
I don’t think anyone understands how happy it makes me that Gemma’s Christmas content is finally hereeee 🎄🎅🏻🥰💗xx
Not happier than me babe😌❄️🎄
Yay this makes me happy 🥰🥰
@@janamottley7 we can be very happy about it together :)
@@GemmaLouiseMiles I also love van hage. Haven’t been yet but planning to, I’m from the same area!
@@keiramckenna8455 yesss🙌🏽
I like to believe that those particular songs coming on randomly is a way if your Dad letting you know he's around and watching over you 🥰 Hopefully you can find it a comforting connection. x
I was going to say the same, he is letting her know he is about and I really hope Gemma can take some comfort in that.
Also, I think you, Gemma, are your dad's Christmas spirit, look at how happy she makes us! Xox
Dad gonna be present there! Don’t worry!
I believe you hearing that song was a sign from your dad, letting you know he's still around you and he wants you to enjoy Christmas. My grandma passed just before Christmas back in 1992 and I still think of her every day. It will eventually get easier.
It's my first Christmas without my dad this year, he was my best friend, and I am dredding it! I was such a daddy's girl. It is also my first Christmas with my first born so have such a mix of confusing emotions. Christmas is still my favorite time of the year though x
Your dad is having a good Christmas in heaven but enjoy ❤🎅🎅🎅💗
Sending so much love to you 🤍 I know exactly how you feel 🤍
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Gemma you're so inspiring, I never knew your Dad but I hope he rests in peace. You and your family are so strong and my heart goes out to you xx
In the years after that FIRST year after you lose a loved one, I’ve found I needed to make a conscious effort not to grieve on overdrive during the holidays. I acknowledge that my dad is missing but I’m glad for him to be celebrating in Heaven. The grief has gotten a bit softer over past 3 years but it has never gone away. It never will. ❤️
Gemma, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm new here and had no idea. I lost my dad 23 years ago when I was 24 years old. I can tell you it does get easier but you will never stop missing him. The sad days will become less and you will have more smiles than tears when you have these little "dad winks." I think that's exactly what that was, when that song came on at that exact moment, when you were visiting with your mom. A little "hello" from dad. Celebrate your dads favorite holiday as he would want you to. Hugs to you! It's not easy grieving someone who loved us so well.
I feel your pain about your dad Gemma. You’re so strong talking about him. I’m sure he’d be so so proud of you. Keep the Christmas magic alight in his memory. Sending hugs 🤗 xx
I know how you feel, it’s been 8 years since I have lost my dad and it never gets easier it always get difficult. At first I thought it would get easier but I was wrong. Just know he always there watching down on you and just he want you to always be happy whether he is there or not. You will always miss them but just know he always with u and everything u achieve he there with u. Love your video loads and may u always be happy x
After losing my older brother to cancer, the thing that helped me the most was this thought: „He keeps on living in us, and he sees the world through our eyes now. So we need to try to show him happiness and the beauty of the world.“ It’s almost 8 years now and it still hurts. But thinking about what I said from time to time helps! Sending lots of love Gemma ❣️
I miss my mum so much! She passed away October last year so last Christmas was strange and so upsetting but I feel worse about this year as everything finally hit me that she not here!💔 constant feeling of someone missing 💔💔💔❤️
Hi Gemma I’m really sorry for your loss. Grief is something on another level that sometimes we can’t comprehend properly. I lost my dad recently too, I know that pain ☹️ but with time we learn to live with it in a healthy way. Remember you’re dads with you everyday and watching over you 🥰 we all love and support you ❤️
we lost my nan last year 2 days before christmas, she was like a mum to me growing up and i feel the same as you this year, it feels harder to get into the christmas spirit knowing that you’re gonna spend the day missing someone round the table. so many of us are in the same boat so please don’t apologise for being raw with your emotions or ending the video on a sad note, we love and support you. thank you for sharing, it’s comforting to know other people feel the same. sending lots of love 🤍
Bless you Gemma. What a beautiful soul you are. Your dad will always be with you no matter what. The fact the first Christmas song you heard was his favourite, I’m sure that was a sign he was there. 🥰
I agree it’s the nostalgia that comes with it can move someone move to tears whether it’s happy or sad tears being shed. My dad did pass away 3yrs ago so I do completely understand where you’re coming from. Even today I cry over my dad . He was my best friend, I was daddy’s little baby and he always protected me from all he could . We always joked about the dumbest things on earth and had our inside jokes and life references. I cry missing his voice and laughter. What I miss the most? His hugs and him wiping my tears away, 😢 I understand you 💯
I don't know if anyone else has said this, but when you said you heard dad's favourite Christmas song and it's the first Christmas song you have heard this year, the first thing that popped into my head was it was your dad starting the festival period off, loved ones are never far away, and I see that as a sign him telling you that. Loved the video as aways, you and Jamie have a beautiful home. Xx
It’s nostalgia for me too. I’ve been watching and listening to Christmas movies and songs for at least 3 weeks
I lost my sister immediately after Thanksgiving. Since then, the holidays haven't been the same. I won't say it gets easier, but it becomes your new way of life. Thank goodness I have the memories of holidays past to remember. Love you Gemma! ❤
My dad past away 19 years ago, I was 13, still think about him from time to time and on the things I missed out and get sad. I think I was the saddest when 13 years went by, then I realised that he was no longer with me for as long as he was, and I tried to remember his voie and couldn't, I can remember him but not the sound of his voice. I hope it get's easyer for you Gemma, you always have moments when you remember but with time there are not as offten
Thank you so much. Sending so much love 🥰
Gemma, you sweetheart ❤️ the part about your dad at the end…I lost my dad suddenly 17 years ago and can completely relate to every word you said. I still miss him amd think of him every day. You have a beautiful outlook on it, what a wonderful Dad you had and the memories that make you sad now will bring you comfort as time passes ❤️ Thankyou for sharing because I’m sure your outlook amd words will help many people xxx
I totally understand Gemma how you feel, I lost my dad 4yrs ago at Christmas plus losing my daughter 17yrs ago just after new year so I found this time of year so hard and emotional, grief can hit you when your least excepting it, take comfort that your dad will always be with you in your heart ❤️ you are such the most loviest person and I do so love your blogs 💜💜💜
Sending you all my love 🤍
Just wanted to say….the world needs more Gemmas in it. LOL you in the attic cracks me up!!! 😆
When you hear a song….dad is with you. My mom was the spirit of Christmas too and it’s been a long time now, as she passed very young. As time goes by you’ll not forget the feeling of loss but remember all the precious times to keep alive in your life going forward.
I know exactly that feeling. I lost my mom 10 years ago now (can’t believe it’s been that long)…we were very close and the idea you shared about a part of you will always be missing is very true. I still can have something trigger me and it feels like it happened yesterday. Accepting you’ll live with the grief somehow makes it feel better. Take care of yourself ❤️
god love you gemma i lost my dad 35years ago and it still feels like yesterday the only way i get through it is to know he couldnt have suffered anymore and there is a beautiful place up there for the good ones and believe me my dad was the best keep being strong he will be looking down on you xx
Aww Gemma what a breath of fresh air you are my love, ive loved every moment of this video and you have made the most wonderful home it truly is beautiful. I can totally relate to your grief and feelings, I lost my best friend, my mum suddenly nearly 3 years ago and Christmas was our special & favourite time of the year and it will never be the same without her. I try and make it special as she would want me too but it takes a great deal of strength not to break down during the day. Wishing you all the best and a truly wonderful Christmas xx
Hearing you talk about your dad honestly broke me 😭😭 I'm so sorry for your loss. Even just imagining my dad not being around hurts so I honestly can't imagine how painful this feels. Well done you for talking about it so openly
Oh Gemma, my heart goes out to you. I lost my Dad 27/12 last year and it is so tough. Someone said to me, you never get over a death of a parent you just learn to live with it. Which is so, so true. Lets make our Dads proud and have a wonderful Christmas 😘
Gemma thank you so much for sharing your feelings you are such a beautiful person inside and out ❤️your Christmas content makes me feel so cozy and excited. Can't wait to see your new home decorated for the festive season 🎄🎅🎄
Dear Gemma, give your self all the grace you need, when your dearest, closest love ones pass , each of your special times feel harder.
Your new home will bring new memories, new traditions but you will never forget your special memories.
My Mum past 13 years ago and I still feel that lose , today I'm continuing a decorating project I started a couple of months ago . An hour into my work I had this need for my Mum , she was an amazing woman and if she was still alive , she would have been helping me even though she would have been in her seventies..... she could turn her hand to anything, by Dad passed when I was only five so Mum did everything, I remember her on long ladders and planks wall papering the staircase, she was so high up , but that was Mum a Wonder Woman.
Sending you a huge hug and I love you colour choice for Christmas.
Stay safe stay well xx xx
Gemma, I totally get where your coming from. I was raised with big family traditions and Now ITs Just Me and my little dog Molly! That's it. I still decorate because I love Christmas but it is Very Lonely for me! If it helps, focus on your new house, Jamie, your family and his and if course Tilly and Teddy. ❤🌲
It is hard being on your own I spent 7 years on my own at Christmas
I worked in health care so used to put my name down to work Christmas day so my work colleagues who had children could stay at home with their loved ones.
It was rewarding until the end of my 12 hour shift walking through to an empty house.
Buy yourself a prezzie because you to deserve it
Just you remembering the songs he loved and him singing is how you keep his memories alive each and every day, celebrate those memories Gemma you dad is in you heart and always with you❤
This is so sad. You are so incredible for sharing your grief with us, we are all behind you Gemma xxx
Gemma, you are so right about grief, we don't really get over it we just learn to live without those that were close to us. It is about doing things to remember them. Take care xx
When you talk about your dad you are so right about how you will be moving forward. My mom passed away 18yrs ago and i just carry that sadness with me. ❤
You’re very right about feeling nostalgic at Christmas, it’s one of the reasons I love it, I remember the feeling of being a child. I’m still obsessed with watching home alone and I’m 36!😆
Lol me to ☺️
I lost my dad 18 years ago and you are so right it changes you forever.I miss him every day .Yes you learn to deal with it but it doesn’t go away my heart still hurts .I got married this year and my daughter gave me away but we both cried because his presence was so missed
Bless you 💕
Sending so much love Vanessa 🤍
I love the cosy cooking content 😍 I really hope we can see some lovely Christmas cooking and baking videos throughout November ❄️
Loved the video Gemma. I still miss my son after 7 years, it's supposed to get easier but I don't think it does. I have lots of reminders of him as his birthday is in December. Stay strong Gemma xxxx
I found after losing my mother as a young adult, it left a gaping hole in my heart. The one thing I can tell you is the jagged hole will never leave, but with time the edges will smooth over. Your father would be so proud of you and would want you to live life to the fullest.
You hearing that first Christmas song and it reminded you of your Dad, maybe he was sending it to you to let you know he will be with you in spirit. But I feel your pain, my Dad passed away 12 years this year. He would want you to enjoy it. Enjoy the time you have with your Mum. Sending BIG hugs xxx
I lost my sister 6 months ago to cancer. she was my best friend in the entire world. and I just want to thank you Gemma for discussing grief in such a relatable and realistic way. i feel everything you're saying and i'm sending you healing, happy vibes because I know how much I could use them too. we have to accept that life is going to be different now without the loved ones we lost, but that's okay. we can do it!
Awww Gemma my heart breaks for you, bless you your dad sounds like such a wonderful man i can understand how you must feel sending you all my love Gemma xx
Gemma I lost my mum 18months ago and I so get what you are saying I feel like my soul has been ripped out the tears come from nowhere as does the pain . I try to comfort myself with the thought that she is at peace and that is about all I can manage at the mo.
You do what you have to grief and loss is not easy xxxxx thinking of you
I’m so happy! I can now put my feet up and watch this in peace after a long day, thank you Gemma!! 💘💘
Ah Gemma I feel for you so much it is so hard losing a loved one but your dad will always be with you in spirit watching over you. My mum died twenty years ago on 4th December and I still miss her so much especially at this time of the year but the rawness of remembering does get softer and easier to bear as the years go by. Your dad would not want you to be sad at Christmas, he would want you to be happy and remember the laughter and wonderful times you had together.🥰💜
Now you can be the Christmas spirit. Your dad will always be with you. I lost my dad over 30 years ago. Still feels like yesterday. Give it time it will get easier and you will smile when you think about him xx
You are so strong Gemma. Your Dad’s energy is always surrounding you and I’m sure he played you that song to remind you he’s still here. Thank you for always being so honest and raw. You are such a light to all of our lives. Thank you for being you❤️
They say where there is great love there is great loss. I lost my beautiful Mum 8 years ago and its still really emotional but now I can talk about her with a smile as she gave us so many lovely memories. We have all lost and therefore we all care and understand how you feel. Sending you a big hug and know that your Dad IS around you. xxx
I totally agree with no easy way to cure grief. We have to just allow ourselves to feel it and then wen we r ready we can enjoy all the wonderful memories. I feel like that Christmas song was ur dads way of saying I’m here with u n I want u to go all out during this season bcuz I know how much u love it. 🙏🏼💖🎄
On the entryway table, a small table Christmas tree would be cute. Miniature ornaments. 💕💕
Not me waiting for the annual garden centre trip every Christmas season 😂 so thrilled! The season is officially here, Gemma claimed it.
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I’m so sorry about your dad. I lost my mom 6 years ago and Christmas was always hard because it was her favorite holiday. I know how you feel 100% when you said you’d never feel like the old you again. That’s exactly how I feel. You’ll be in my thoughts this Christmas. We’re all here for you. Xo
Gemma its so hard when you lose someone but Christmas time it's its even worse. This is my 34th Christmas without my dad and my 4th without my mum. But I know both of them would want me to enjoy the life. I cry every time I think of them, not all tears r sad. You will miss you dad every day, but it does get easier you never forgot and you will always love them. All my love X
Gemma, I totally get what you're saying about your dad being the spirit of Christmas. I would always help my dad put the tree up and put the lights on it. Then my mom and I would decorate the tree and also bake, frost and decorate Christmas cut out cookies. It was super hard that 1st Christmas after my dad died. My mom, sisters and I made a point to make a big fuss about getting the tree and lights up. Almost showing Dad in heaven that we aren't forgeting his traditions. Then after my mom passed, I just couldn't make cookies that year without her. It hurt too much. I have made Christmas cookies every year since and get my son to join in and pass the tradition on to his generation. It is now a way to honor her. But, as you said, each person grieves in their own way. Sending you strength and courage this holiday season! ❤💚
It's awful losing a parent, when I lost my mum it was around Christmas and the song that I'm dreading is the Kelly Clarkson one, as thar what was playing when we would drive to the hospital.. just takes me back to when it happened. I completely get where you're coming from its so hard. Sending hugs xx
Gemma, I’m so glad I found your channel a couple of months ago. I think you are such a lovely, genuine person. I also lost my dad 3 years ago now but I agree with what you said. It doesn’t get easier, you just learn to live with it. This video made me cry because I feel the same as you. I feel like a different person since my dad died. Like a part of me is missing. I have a lovely husband and two lovely children who I treasure but when you lose a parent it literally feels like there’s a gap that can’t be filled. My dad was also the life and soul. He was an extrovert who filled a room with his presence. Carry on with your wonderful vlogs. And you look lovely without make up by the way. Xx
Those memories that make you sad now will make you smile again some day. You'll hear the songs and you'll really smile some day x
Gemma, I've only just started following you, and I've loved the few videos I've watched so far. I think the part at the end when you were talking about your dad was so touching. I think you said it beautifully that your dad was the Christmas spirit, and his spirit is still around, and you are going to carry on the Christmas spirit for him 🎄
But my darling Gemma the synchronisity of you hearing your dad's favourite Christmas song and it being your first Christmas song of the year, is just another message he is sending you telling you that he is here, he is watching you and in a way giving you the nod of approval for you and your family to enjoy Christmas because he will be right there with you! ♥
Gemma... I really can't tell you how much I enjoy your videos. You are just a sweetheart You make me smile you make me laugh and sometimes bring me to tears. I was laughing at you in the loft and then I was frightened how you were going to get down the ladder. Yes please wait for Jamie to help you bring down the the boxes.
That deep burgundy color for your tree is beautiful I used to have that as my theme I've had purple and gold for the past few years. I just love Christmas as well.
I understand your feelings with the loss of your dad. There is no time limit on grief and no one really knows how you feel except you. You can go on smiling and living your life day to day but no one knows what you feel inside.
My dad has been gone for many years and I think of him everyday and the wonderful times we shared the life we shared. I have so many wonderful memories I wish I could just hug him one more time. You said your dad was the spirit of Christmas I think that you should carry on that spirit because he actually will always be in your heart and perhaps all your excitement and love of Christmas is a result of him and all that he did and all that he meant to you. I understand too how a song can get those emotions going .
When you feel so sad that he isn't with you physically he is with you spiritually and will always be there and you have many wonderful memories and sometimes those wonderful memories make it more difficult because everything was so good. But this is life we must accept it. I personally don't believe that love dies with death I think it lives on in fact I know it does. You're a very sensitive and loving young woman and you have a beautiful spirit You continue to spread that spirit because it brings much happiness to others. I love your videos and you be safe and well 🥰
Aww Gemma you made me bawl my eyes out 😭. I’m currently in bed with the flu binging on TH-cam feeling sorry for myself, and just lost my mum 2 months ago 😢
Get better soon xx
I’m so sorry for your loss and hoping you feel better soon💜
Get better soon & stay strong 💓 x
I am so so sorry for your loss, sending you so much love 🤍
Same thing happened to me Gemma, and what really hurts me is going down isle with my boyfriend of 3 years . And dad’s not here :/ like I wish he would be here for such important times in my life . Stay strong gorgeous ! I find that meditation helps me when I’m a bit overwhelmed with emotions .
Gemma, thank you for being real...without makeup, fearful of spiders and sharing your grief. That's what appeals to us. We can relate. We tend to get caught up in perfect youtubers with perfect homes and perfect kids. Keep on being you, you are enough!
Oh Gemma my heart aches for you, my mum passed 12 years ago and I always spent Christmas Day at my mum and dads house with my husband and our 3 kids, the day she died the light went out in the house and it’s never been the same, my dad comes to our house Christmas Day since mum passed and it always feels like she’s missing it’s so sad 😭 she made our Christmas fun and special and I’ll never enjoy Christmas anymore plus my kids are grown up now, but you will enjoy Christmas again with your own family and children making new memories, your dad will always be around you he will want you to carry on making Christmas a special occasion just like he did, it’s good to get your emotions out, I still cry when I think of those special times, but then I smile because she made it so special for all of us, we’d sing and dance and my mum and dad loved country and western music to so I miss that xx 🥰😘
Gemma, hearing that Christmas music your dad loved, is a lovely positive thing he will be saying 'i am still here even though in spirit!' he will be sharing your love for Christmas in your heart ❤and your memories , hang a few little things on your tree that represents your dad that way you will feel you have included him this is why they call it the 'spirit of Christmas' it's a time to give , reflect on the year and be thankful , be strong he would want you to have a joyous season xxx
Gemma, I know how you feel. This is my first Christmas without my parents. They died within 9 months of each other. Not one day goes by that I don't cry from missing them. My life will never be the same. They were my world. You're right, it never goes away...you learn to live with it (no choice) but that grief will never leave you. I cried with you. I feel your pain...♥♥♥
My dad past away 22 years ago and there’s days when I still sit all alone and just cry 😢 especially Christmas my dad always come to visit Christmas Eve so that day is hard for me when I finish my day at work and get home 🏡 that’s when it hits me when I have time to think miss him so much so know how you feel!! But remember our dads are always looking down on us and looking after us.
Looking forward to your Christmas content especially the hot choc station hoping for some inspiration. Have a good weekend with Jamie and the fur baby’s sweetheart.💕💕xx
Thank you so much for being such a kind soul. You hit a nerve how you talk about your dad, you describe exactly how I feel. I also lost my dad last year. Also sitting here crying, being sad but also feeling understood that you and other people or also going through a loss. Love your content, plus you have such a kind and soothing voice. And touching on your previous vlog from one perfectionist to an other. Never doubt that your content isn’t good enough or matters in the grand scheme of everything. Just keep putting content out in to the world. Loving thoughts from me (Belgian girl turning 30 tomorrow).
Kind - loving regards
Allow yourself to grieve as it’s needed, you will never stop missing him, you will just start to remember the good funny things! X
Awww love you girl! Remember your dad looking down from the clouds wants to see how beautiful your home will look with christmas decor and christmas spirit the holiday brings! I couldn't imagine what your going through...but bringing that holiday cheer will bring a smile to his face, even when he's not in the flesh!❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻
You've described exactly how I'm feeling about losing my dad too Gemma, it's been 4 years and like you say I have accepted that I will always be sad and missing him, but honestly, it does get better, you'll still have those moments of oh dad used to do this and cry like a baby but it's your way of grieving and although you're sad a lot you get used to that feeling and it doesn't mean you can't have really happy points! Thank you for sharing, it's really comforting to hear 💗
Yay for Christmas content! You bring me so much joy! I love christmas so much and I try to recreate alot of the things you do in your videos. My daughter has a love for christmas as well. During December we go a 25 days of christmas list and do a craft,baked good, activity or a movie each day. We love reading books every night. I've got inspired by you to bring in all kinds of new traditions as well. Hugs and love sent your way!
Thank you for your Vlog today. Also the firsts after a loss are always the hardest, I found if i still celebrated them it helps turn the grief into a joy of remembrance. I also believe that these little memory drops are from them saying 'hi, im still here, I'm ok and around you'.
I know exactly how you feel Gemma , I lost my amazing Dad on Christmas Day and Christmas’ has never been the same since. Just cherish all those beautiful memories and know that your dad would want you to have a wonderful Xmas season! 😘 take care xx
I lost my nan and grandad last year. 8 days apart (dad's mum and mums dads) I'd never lost anyone before them so the ending of vlog made so much sense to me. My family has been pulled apart and is in a bad way for different reasons. This christmas is going to be awful, I know it is. But I will not let my children think or see that. Christmas for them will be different but I will do anything in my power to make sure its amazing and the most magical christmas ever xx
Gemma hearing your first Christmas song as your dads favorite Christmas song was your dad’s spirit being with you! How special to know he’s Christmas spirit is still lives on.
Thank you Gemma for sharing this.
I'm new to your channel this year and I want you to know that you touched a place in my soul and I appreciate you for it. Thank you sharing your spill about grief, you gave me understanding and clarity about some things. And thank you for your joy in living life no matter what and these beautiful Christmas videos.
Gemma, from my heart, thank you.
I can't wait to see your Christmas videos and I pray for GOD'S PEACE to forever circle you and your family as you continue to navigate through your loss. Losing a parent is the absolute worst, along with grieving lost love.
Happy Christmas 2021 to you!🙏🏿❤🕊🎄
You are so brave. I wouldn't even open the loft👀🙄
Losing one's parents is the hardest thing ever. Everything you have said about the way you feel is sooooo true. Sending lots of love. I battle every year the pain never goes away
My dad passed away a week before Christmas and I absolutely dread this time of year. Can totally relate to what your saying. Someone told me that grief is like a huge bag that you carry around with you. Over time hopefully the bag will get smaller- you still carry it around but it just sits snuggly next to you. Don’t know if that makes sense but brought me some comfort.
Hey Gemma, feeling so relaxed after your lovely video. You always get me in the mood fir the Christmas season. It’s like we are preparing for it together. Can’t wait to see how you decorate your house . I also admire , the way you can , open up about your sad times too. That really helps people. I can’t imagine how hard , it would be , for you at Christmas, without your dear dad. I know how close you were to him. But I think your doing the right things. Your allowing yourself to grieve. Knowing it won’t be easy, and being caring towards yourself . Keeping your dad’s , Christmas spirit alive is a lovely way to honour him. Whilst creating new family traditions aswell . Is very healthy I think. Big hugs to you and your family, wishing you a very happy Christmas season. Xxx
I’m so excited for this I’m literally watching your vlogmas from 2019 love you so much, brings joy to my dark day 💓so thank you Gemma
Gemma, you’re amazing. It’s so hard to be in grief, but just know that it does get better. It never goes away, but you will heal and grow. It’s just a transition you have to go through. Hugs and love to you.🤍🤍 Love the color scheme! Your house is going to look incredible!
Grief never gets easier, we just learn how to cope more as time goes on. Thanks for being so vulnerable with us. Hang in there Gemma! 💖
Gemma your stronger than you think my lovely, grief never goes away and remembering certain things about your dad will never leave you and it’s good to have a little cry and good to remember him. Never ever feel bad for showing the emotions for the first man you ever loved don’t forget ♥️ sending you big hugs and I’m excited for the Christmas content and you making the new traditions, your dad will live on through you and you will probably do the same as him when /if you have a family of your own one day. ♥️♥️
Grief is Indeed hard , I feel You . I lost My grandma in october 2020 And I’m Having It more difficult too so know You’re not alone . And Thank You for bringing joy to other People When You have your down moments too 💕
Give yourself time Gemma. Doesn’t matter how long you need. Grief is one of those things you can’t get over just like that. Perhaps speaking about it with your family will help you heal better :) I hope you have amazing Christmas, you are strong even by speaking about it to us :)
Hi lovely, another gorgeous vlog ❤️ I lost my mum, I was 15 so was a good few years ago now. I completely get where your coming from with times like Christmas. Just a few things I personally do on the day to remember my mum and enjoy the day, I take a little potted Christmas tree to the cemetery either Xmas eve or Christmas day morning, I light a candle for her that burns all day, get your self a gorgeous big Christmas Yankee and make it his special candle. I have a feather bauble that I hang on my tree. These a super subtle small things that help me ❤️ loads of love gorgeous. I promise in time the pain doesn't always feel so raw. Yes it will be there and some days are worse than others but the rawness fades on time ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much Gemma, this has really made my week!! Especially as I’ve been binge watching your vids for most of it lmao 🎄😁
P.S I just want to give you the biggest hug ever - I got so emotional when you spoke about your dad. Just remember he is watching over you and he is incredibly proud of you and his spirit will be with you all on Christmas Day. Sending lots of love ❤️ xx
I’m so sorry for how you’re feeling and can’t imagine what you’re going through, sending so much love 🤍 I hope you don’t mind me offering a (hopefully comforting) perspective but maybe the fact the first Christmas song you heard was your dads favourite and so early is a sign to show that he’s with you 🤍
Gemma your jumper collection 🤩
This will be my first Christmas without my Dad since be passed away in April, it feels very odd as he loved Christmas and all the lights and decorations. Some days I'm ok and some days i miss him so much I can barely breathe. Get through as best you can is all you can do really i suppose and eventually im hoping you get to just remember all the good times with a smile instead of a tear. Sending hugs xx
Thank you for sharing your heart with us Gemma. I know some will see your sadness, but all I see is the love you feel for your Dad. How lucky he is to be loved by you xx
Thank you for sharing at the end. My mama passed away 4.5 years ago. Doesnt seam like its been that long but i miss her so much. I buy a Christmas ornament every year of angel wings to put on my tree. What you said is 100% truth. They will forever be in our hearts. I hear or see things that reminds me of her and i just smile. God bless you through this season. Everytime i see a red bird i always say Hi mama♡
Gemma is amazing. I always watch her videos in the morning to get me in a good mood. I love how she sits down at the beginning of videos and actually talks to us (the viewers). If you are reading this Gemma. I love you and your videos.❤
Hi Gemma love. My husband passed away just over 4 years ago. It's not just songs it's words of songs. My daughter is still like you now. But you've got lots of precious memories that are stored inside you and nothing can take that away from you.
On a better note, I can't wait to see your new Christmas decoration colours. 🤗air hugs to you 🤗 x
God Bless you Gemma … I miss my mom & daddy really really bad this time of year . You never stop grieving…. It never ends . ❤️
I know how you feel hun with your dad. I know it’s not the same but I lost my grandad 7 years ago and we were so close we were inseparable and Christmas is still hard to this day. Always here for you hun. Keep strong your doing him so proud. Love ya loads beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ xxx
When you hear there songs ,they are letting you know they are watching over you and with u in that moment in spirit, snd your very loved .they are just there in a different form . Sending love to u angel your doing so well xx ❤️❤️❤️