This is the song I played when I first attempted suicide, I was 15. I left a note for my dad and sister to read. I had this song on repeat. I screamed when I inflicted wounds onto myself and I remember losing the feeling in my arms and the blood going everywhere and I couldn't breathe anymore. Somehow I survived and despite having attempted a few times after that, I survived. I listen to this song to take me back to these times only to remind myself of how far I've come. I really never thought I'd live to see 23... although I still heavily deal with depression and anxiety, I've done so many things I never knew I was capable of. I feel like somehow ive stayed on earth because I have a bigger purpose in life. Now, I'm on my way to earn my graduate degreee in clinical health counseling with an emphasis in childhood and adolescence disorders. Day by day I slowly see why I was kept here, to help others and offer to them what I needed as a young kid. It's never too late or as hopeless as it may seem. 💜
Wow... Thanks for sharing. It's good that you didn't manage to succeed (the only failure that's ACTUALLY good in itself haha). Thanks to that, now you can help many others. It's good that you're alive.
Hope you are still happy and moving on. Remember somebody out there needs to hear your story and how it changed your life. Be a beam of light to all those around you and love everyone always.
Kayveona Atkins I'm tired of living and not scared of dying I'm in so much deep pain the only thing that is stopping me from doing it is how much it would affect my family
We want you to stay... I'm fighting the same battle as you. Don't give up. Fight. Fight back. Fight harder than ever. You are amazing. Do NOT let these thoughts win.
I'm literally bawling over this song rn, because it describes EXACTLY where I am at this point in my life, after years of being traumatized, suffering, pain, loneliness, fear, etc. Hits me right in the heart and soul.
Steven Hall your amazing! I just want you to know and understand how truly amazing you are! if you reread your comment, there’s hope in your sentence! you said that depression consumes me, the song takes you back to WHEN you WOULD cut. but now your not. that’s called hope and I want you to understand that you are truly incredible ❤️
It sucks when you can relate to a song for so long, yet nothing changes. Been depressed for over 7 years, stuck in a continuous loop of getting better, then crashing down til I'm suicidal. I have no-one close to talk to about it, no-one to help me or care while I'm at home. Ironically, the people of the internet help me to hold on, the only words of encouragement i ever get. Literally would be dead, if not for those random internet people. So i say to the people of the internet, thank you!! I know that even if i feel like i can't hold on much longer, at least someone understands, and at least someone cares out there. If you reach that suicidal point, and you feel like there's nothing left, remember there is always someone out there who can relate to you, that can help to bring you up out of the overwhelming suicidal void that fill yours very being. Please, hold on just a little longer, you'll never know when someone will pull you out. Online community for life!
my parents dont understand this has been going on way before they new i have nothing to hold on to theres only one thing i go ride horses every saturday and jump thats the only reason
@@chrismartin1664 heyie! I don't know much about you. I don't know where you live, what you do for a living, whether you study or work. I do know that you are feeling lost. A feeling i am all too familiar with myself. I don't know the details of your life, and you don't know mine, but i want you to know you are not alone in your feelings. I might not know or understand exactly why you are feeling lost, but i hope you can trust me when I say that i have been there. I need you to know that i understand. You are not alone, dear stranger. You are seen and you are understood. Your feelings are understood. No matter how difficult life feels and how dark it sometimes looks, there is still hope and there is still light, and you are still cared for. The universe cares about you. Your loved ones care about you. I care about you.
@@OA2605 the only hope I have is knowing that in 9 days, ill have some money which I'm gonna use to end my suffering. I'm 37 years old by the way and from Boston Massachusetts.
i've read a lot of the comments! I know what depressions feels like. About a year ago, i was deeply depressed. before that, i was happy - go - lucky, but one little rude comment from a girl i idolised, triggered my depression. it was so bad, i started cutting. what helped for me was reaching out to people, and making new friends. friends who are always there for me. now, im salty. (not a good thing) but.. at least im not at the verge of suicide anymore. i'm bullied, daily, but i still stand strong, and think im beautiful! yes, there are still things I'd like to change about myself, but that's normal! You all ARE worth it, and don't think you aren't. if you need ANY help, just know im here for you!
You know everyone has depression you can't just trigger something you already have depression is only as bad as you let it be depending on how you cope with it me I have deep depression but I don't think I would try and kill myself even if I'm off my depression meds incoclustion (idgaf about my Grammer ) depression is a feeling of being depressed
Pls tell me how you get over getting bullied bc I'm gay and depressed bc if been bullied verbally and physically....if been burning my arm to take my attention off of my pain full memories
"It's been years of abuse Neglected to treat the disorder The Controls my youth for so long Why should I hold on it's been five years, don't need one more So goodbye, life's abuse.."
fear and pain is the only thing keeping me here. Fear of killing myself. And pain of the few that would care. But slowly everyday that goes away. This song feels so real to me. All I wanted was to help everyone. Instead I messed it all up and they don't want me here. I'm scared to go but it hurts so much to stay.
I am so happy your alive my brother or sister. Not sure with the name Christian. I am so grateful that your alive and I am so thankful you've expressed yourself in this comment. If your still alive please hit me back.
Hi Tanner and Javier. I am still here and doing much better. I am a guy btw haha. I had to cut almost everything/everyone out of my life and even moved to the other side of America. I’m living with my amazing partner and have a lot of professional help. Thank you both for carrying enough to ask and comment. It always gets better and it’s people like you two that really show that. Thank you again.
Christian, I nearly committed suicide about 6 months ago left me unannounced! I was in a blinding level depression and felt that there was nothing worth living for. I am still dealing with a great deal of pain and depression, but my two boys and my entire family (including life long buddies that I consider brothers) are what keep me here. I am trying life hell to fight through this one day at a time and praying that it gets easier
I had a best friend named Maggie. This song gave wonder to our childhood. Now we have our own kids and family. We no longer talk. She's married and I am too. In case you're reading this Maggie I wanna tell you that you're still in my heart the same way we met many years ago. You're still my best friend and I don't care if you no longer see me the same way you did before. Thanks for all the wonderful moments we shared together. You showed me how to be strong. I always wish I could go back to cherish the moments that I took for granted. We were so young and time is not on our side. We had little moments together yet I could go on for days talking about us without repeating a single story. Wish you well. My best friend. I miss you.
This song accompanied me for well over 10 years. Lost count on the amount of times i was admitted at psych wards, years of therapy tryig to find a way to live life despite multiple childhood traumas. It took time. Every now and then life still hurts, the very core of ly being hurts. Ive learnt a lot surviving years of abuse among other things but mainly in therapy and self reflections. Weirdly enough, accepting the datker times in life and that they still might come back, cuz they do, thoughts looping and the will to not love anymore... gave me control over the situation. To stop expecting getting out at the other end of the tunnel and everything would be different, that i would be a completely different person, reset and like a clean slate.. i did grieve that itself for quite some time but those dark thoughts hace no control over me anymore. I acknowledge them and the feeling following them, I let myself feel, cry, hide or whatever i need to do to ride out the storms. I can't promise anyone anything. Just share my story, i never thought it could get better. I even have old diaries from wheb i was 5-10 years old where i woshed to die. I was bot gonna make 30 I was so sure. And i almost didn't, thankfully medicine and antidotes prevented that. It got better. My history and memories will always be with me. But. They lost their "power" over me. You canr choose your biological family but as a grown up you can chose you real emotional family, people who treat you well, with respect and love. They might be hard to find. But they're put there. Its often a lonely road cuz we can never ever share what were going through fully with anyone in that very moment, no one can enter my mind and body. But. Little by little. One step at a time. You can get better. Get stronger. Im no religious and ill never be but i stil found faith in that there must ve something else. Life just cant be ltjat bad pr death, there must be some other option. I passed 30, tirning 36 this year. My heart goes out to everyone suffering. Its not fair, and there are some many evil people in this world. But there is also so much else. I hope you all find it like I did and can learn to love with your inner demons but not being afraid or scared anymore.
I've struggled with depression for a while and i've realized that I dont want to die, I just want to end this way of life, I just want to change who I'm. Suicide is always an option but give yourself a chance and try your best to change. (btw english is not my mother language)
This is explaining how I feel. I'm suffering from Anxiety, Depression, and Sleep Deprivation at one time, and my teachers aren't helping. I'm simply not living anymore. I'm waiting for the next day to pass, waiting for the day that I can sleep forever without anyone blaming themselves. I've lost everyone I loved, either to death, them doing bad things, or them just leaving me. All my life, I've just been yelled at, and abused by my siblings. I am scared for the next day, every time I wake up, knowing it's going to be a TERRIBLE day. I just want to stay in my dream world, Idc if I get stuck in a nightmare, preferably not, but anything is better than what I have now. SAying "It's just depression, get over it" is basically saying "it's just cancer, get over it" and I am just done with life..
This is truly the mind of someone trapped here. Fleshly tomb above ground. No one wants me to stay, no1 will cry. Anyone who has been her or lives here understands completely. Ppl who don't will never understand. It's torture wanting so much to not be here but holding on for whatever small reason.
Actually not afraid to die... It's jus better to die in a painless way which is impossible n also afraid of leaving those behind wit these bad memories.. 😥
I asked a girl to play this at my funeral, she then pursuaded me not to kill myself because I meant so much to her, but she betrayed me, and I regret not doing so.
dear whoever is reading this. you are loved you are strong you are worth it you are not ugly you are not fat i care about you Things will get better keep breathing Please stay i love you 💚💛💙
let me ask you a question. Do you know my name? Cuz if you don`t it how can you say that you care about me. And how do you know that im not fat or ugly. tbh i am ugly but the thing is that i dont care about my appearence that much and luckily i am not fat.
About to end the sadness. Thanks for posting this song. It was rare for every single word of a song to resonate with me. But this one did. I'd want this to play at my funeral if I was worth having a funeral for. Oh well... at least the pain is about to end.
Help others put a smile on their face and keep enjoying life while we have what little time we have. Laugh cry joke around and love but please don't commit suicide the people around you are only human and they will hurt just like you. End the cycle and give a fervor for life and love a ❤chance❤😊.
life is meaningless, we exist for nothing, we come from nothing, live in nothingness and go to nothing.Whatever you will do in your life will be meaningless for the universe.
x Morgenstern I wish you didn’t have that look on life:( it makes me sad that people are living in this life feeling horrible about it and not knowing why there here and thinking that it’s worthless. by the looks of it, I don’t think you believe in God. so i’m just going to ask you if you can please watch Gods not dead on amazon prime and tell me what you think of it! i’m here for you always and forever❤️
I'm just tired. Every day is the same, same things over and over again. Life does not have sense. I'm tired of struggling with depression, i'm tired of me, i'm tired of doing all wrong, i'm tired to weak up, i'm tired even if i sleep 12 hours a day, i have panic when i weak in the middle of the night, i fear from my future, i think about the errors i've made in the past, everytime i eat or i need to go out i have fucking panic, anxiety and nausea all the time. I dont want this to continue anymore. Its 8 years i live with depression and i'm so tired. Things will not get better. In 8 years nothing has changed better, all just got worse
Tibby C Look in the mirror and place your hand on your chest. That’s your reason. There’s people (including me) who’s lost someone. I lost my child. As long as that heart beats, there’s your reason. ❤️
Me to!!! Because my family treets me horrible, as horrible as where they make me feel horrible about myself! Where I get to the point of seriously wanting to kill myself. they treat me like sh*t! and I've tried so many ways to get me out of wanting to hurt myself.
i know exactly how you feel. my family could give zero fucks about me. I know they hate me. ive cut myself because of them. I actually almost killed myself today. im always yelled at.. I know.. how .. you.. feel ... friend. stay alive. it will get better , I hope.
For me, I got bullied in my school, the first week of 6th grade, 4 classmates insulted me and beat me up. Some even threw chairs at me. After a while, we got kicked out of the city (missionary family) we lost everything. I never got to say goodbye to my classmates. I still remember how cold was the airport... we roamed around, finding places to sleep. That feeling... Still remains in my heart, it still hurts... My cousin died at the age of 7, 18 years ago, my uncle started to live his day like... he's a great Christian, but after that, he started to drink, 6 years ago, police found his car crashed into pieces and found his head into two pieces. My grandmother was... really upset, she missed her son day by days, having nightmares so often. One day, she's sick too. Her body left its strength. She fell off the staircase 6 months ago. She was found her arms disconnected and her skull smashed into pieces. My grandfather told us few days before she became like this, she was crying on the floor, saying how she miss us (we live 3 hours of flight and 5 hours of drive away) She passed away like other members of my family. I wanted to committee suicide so much, I remember... I even had planned it. But... everything changed when I lied down and prayed. Now when I remember the days I had depression, I would think of the hard days I've gone through... I wanna encourage everyone here too
Stefania P. Lezioli yep. Still kicking. Tried to od and wound up in the hospital after writing that comment. Now I gotta go to therapy and shit. But I’m still here.
@@macasiarankin868 I'm happy you're still here. I don't know your situation but know that you're so strong and not alone! I'm distant but I'm sending you hugs and hugs♥️ I just wanna help, if you need or ever want to talk you can text me even on Instagram Stefi Lezioli... kick It♥️
maxx jordan Life is beautiful. If you don’t know Jesus or God, meet them. They will help you tremendously with this stuff. I went to church camp this year wanting to drop anxiety and depression and leave it at the altar. I prayed so hard and when my friend laid her hand on my back and said “God, I can tell something is wrong with her and she needs it to be gone. Be gone in the Name of Jesus”. Right then and there, i felt lighter, happier, and just better in general. God is one of the only ways you’ll get through this. Even if you don’t know God, he’ll help you through it because you are His child. All you have to do is pray and give your heart to him.
Dont listen to the religious loon. Listen, if you want objective value you ain't gonna find it in the universe we all live meaningless lives on a pointless planet. You have to put your own meaning into your own life or else it is going to just keep feeling so empty. For me my passion is comedy, that is why I want to be a comedian. You find what is good for you and you do that!
An awesome song that reminds you of all of the bad memories and all of the negativity in your life and makes it seem that life is not worth living even though it actually is, despite the truthful fact that this world truly doesn’t deserve to exist. 😔🎵🎧
I'm reading these comments remembering my cousin. 20 years have gone by but not 1 day has passed. I was on a downward spiral of self destruction of alcohol, meds and cars. I hit rock bottom (prison) where I learnt a lot about my demons. Most importantly I learnt I needed help and now at 43 I'm living the life I wish I did years ago, which brings me down in itself. Just know however hopeless or helpless you feel, someone always cares. I care. Reach out, talk to someone you trust. It's only to late when it's too late
“It’ll get better” says the ones who just don’t get it. “ one of these days you’ll grow up and realize how stupid it was getting sad about nothing”. I have a good job a loving family. A beautiful girlfriend I don’t deserve and the most beautiful baby I’ve ever seen. They get genuine smiles out of me. However every other thought is about how I wish they didn’t love me I don’t deserve it. Driving on the interstate hoping for a truck to lose control and roll on me or anything I don’t wish for the accidents so much since others would get hurt.
It's sad how I found this song in a very dark time when I was so suicidal it was all I can think about needing help was hard to admit but I'm getting better slowly I now somehow find this song a good comfort now
Dont give up because when you give up its like you let the struggles won, stay 💪strong you can win the fight against the world. Stay happy dont let your sadness take away your happiness 😉😊
Android Gaming its easy to say hard to do. I've been trying to get help with my mental illnesses for so long and no one wants to help. my family treats me like shit and I can't sleep because whenever I do I relive every traumatic experience that haunts my life. There is no happiness in my life because it was taken from me. what other choice do I have
RainbowGirl 420 I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches. If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers. To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love, openness and the willingness to remain vulnerable.
My best friend who I cared for to the deepest of my heart, sent me this with her last words before she attempted suicide. I am currently waiting to see her make it back alive, but at this point I'm willing to join her now 💔
Life is unfair and yet people keep bringing children into this world that doesn’t deserve to exist at all which is the very reason why bad things happen to people in general. Stay strong soldiers of humanity because there is always a chance to live a good life if you stay in the world. I truly hope that we reach an utopia in the future that will free us of most if not all negativity in this world that we live in. 😔
When I was suicidal I listened to this song as an anthem. On repeat for hours... all day long. I am no longer self-destructive, but it still calls to me. I am in a good part of my life, but I feel comfortable listening to this for hours... Cool experience...
My wife is my best friend. The love of my life. She saved me from myself after I survived a suicide attempt where I bled out six years ago. She left me four months ago. It hurts more and more each day. I can't take it much longer.
deep bags under my eyes, always fucking tired. feeling all worthless. not having hope in anything, but still trying to help people. crawling up under covers, crying. the thing is, you don't cut. you just hurt. struggling, trying. struggling, trying. struggling, trying. did you make it? did you have hope?
I remember the original version when I was alone and thought I didn't matter. Jesus pulled me from my fleshy tomb and saved me. I live for him now and not the world. I have been forever changed. And the same is waiting for you. He is the way, the truth, and the life. You are worth everything to the Lord. He would be born again and die to save just you. Amen.
If you're reading this then just remember something. you're amazing. I know what it's like to go through the thoughts. I've fought back from those times. You can too. You don't have to commit suicide. It's so not worth it. There are people out there that care. Look at your family. Look at the one who's trying to reach out to you to help you. They care about you. They love you. If you can't see those people, look a little harder. They're out there for you. To get you through the hell you're going through. Life isn't meant to be easy, but it's also not to be destroyed. It's something to be grateful to have. There's one important thing about it. You're alive. Keep on going. Never give up, be yourself. For those that try to bring you down for being you, don't listen to them. Know who you are. If you're thinking about doing it, just look at yourself in the mirror. Look at yourself, and tell yourself "I will not do it. I will fight, and I will win." You are strong, keep going, and never ever give up.
But people like myself are suffering. We don't want to die, we just want to get rid of the pain. Every day is like an on-going battle inside our heads. It's really tiring and we don't want to lie to those around us when they ask us if we're okay. Why is It okay to put a suffering animal to death but not a human? People try to tell us things like "you're amazing!" or "it'll get better, trust me!" but some of us have been told that we're worthless or that the world would be a better place without us. We have been fed so much negativity from our peers that eventually we just give in and believe it. I myself suffer from anxiety, depression, binge eating disorder, self-harm and suicidal tendencies. Life is very hard for me and I just can't do it anymore. There might be people out there to help us, but they don't understand us because maybe they have never experienced it in their life. They try to understand us and it just doesn't work. It's no use. I know this was meant to be a nice positive comment (which it is. Very much so) but I hope you see that I'm just trying to be realistic and I'm sure that there are some people out there who agree with me. Thank you for that comment though. That will have made lots of people's days. I'm just glad that we have people in the world like you.
LIFADR+94 Thank you! Thank for showing light to all those who need it, which is most people who listen to this song. Life is beautiful, and trust me ending yours, is the worst possible thing you could do to yourself. It’s people like you i wish i could just hug or something for caring for other people.
I have so many friends and family, yet I feel alone. I've lived a great life, yet I feel like I've lived in pain. I lost my dad, yet felt nothing. My own self doubts have confused me to the brink of depression. I want to end it all, yet I can't. I want to live a happy life, yet I feel I that I can't have it. In the same moment of wanting to tell someone, to share the burden, I hide, and bear it alone. I want to be a hard worker, yet I can't help but be lazy. At the same time of wanting others to understand how I feel, I don't understand it myself. All of what I just said are the reasons I can't find true purpose in life. Even now I hate that I'm even saying anything, it's so negative and it's not like anyone can do anything about it anyways, there's really no point. In most cases, I try not to tell anyone, because it's not anyone else's problem, it's my own, and I've done nothing worthwhile in my life. If I don't help others, then why should I even think about asking for help? Just because the world is unfair, it doesn't mean I have to be. If you are reading this, thanks for listening I guess, but I'm sorry for wasting your time.
MEMORIES, Man i can't believe I have introduced to this song 5 years ago when I was 15. It was a bad moment in my life, dealing with someone who themselves were in a major hole in their life.. And eventually, i was out in that hole with them... But, I fought the battle and I have found my life's purpose, made friends that i don't think i could ever replace, and dealt with worse then i thought was ever real. There is help out there for anyone who feels like ending their own lives, not only that if you mean anything to anyone it should be yourself, screw what others think, just get up and prove everyone wrong, even yourself.
I feel hopeless, I don't see a way out anymore. Yesterday was the first time I felt completely numb, my body just felt heavy and I couldn't feel my face. I've been hiding my true self, always making it seem like I'm ok but I can no longer contain my emotions. I feel like it's better for me to leave this world, everyone will be better without me in their lives
Jazmin Acuna i dpnt the only way im dieing is if my fam dies or like my dad and thats it some times i feel that way but somtimes i dont ihide it all then let it out. at night
I barely have any friends at school and I'm friends with someone who doesn't talk to me often. It makes me feel like I'm just to much of a push over. Please help me.....
***** Yeah. I knew her on facebook. She wrote a goodbye message and a few days later her mom posted a picture of her and said that she comitted suicide. a few days later the account was deleted.
Karma Hadid your right, it’s not fair. but life isn’t meant to be easy! if it were, it wouldn’t be called life! trust me, I understand where your coming from because I had some rough patches in my life. actually for the last 3 years my life has been pretty crazy, and it sucked. but it resolved and now i’m trying my very best to help other people! I hope you know that you are incredibly talented and you deserve to be breathing the air that you are❤️❤️❤️
I'm not worth any tears. I'm about to walk 1550 miles to get away from a toxic situation. I have a note in my pocket, to let police know who to call, to get my body back home. The "I wish I was never born" is very real.
If you’re reading this. Please keep reading. That person you want to hear this song wants you to be here. whatever personal circumstances apply to your own situation please know that nobody wants to walk up to your casket and say goodbye. If it’s the boyfriend/girlfriend that you’ve been arguing constantly with or the parents you think hate you or old friends….. nobody and I mean nobody wants you to leave. Relationships can be healed and friendships can be rekindled. You are loved. You are wanted. You are here and I’m glad you are. You are worth it. YOU are worthy. I wish songs like this didn’t have to exist but they do and that’s because of the pain we inflict on one another. Purposefully or not the ones you love most will feel the daggers from time to time but you know deep down that even the people you say mean things to or do mean things to are the ones you care for. My girlfriend and I were arguing about something so minuscule and while I was at work one day she had left her work and went home and sent me this song. I left work early and came home to find her limp body in her car with my gun on her lap. She passed out from heat stroke before she pulled the trigger. I never screamed so loud in my life. The cpr I gave her saved her life. This happened about a year ago. I don’t know what I would’ve done if she did it. She means the world to me and even though her and I were arguing about whatever she still meant more to me than anyone or anything. She had to go to an inpatient care home for a short while. During that time I stuck that same gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger. The safety was on. I never told her about that. She came home and her and I have committed ourselves to finding true happiness and growing together into a couple who can experience life together. I’m going to propose soon. Please don’t do it. Even when you feel the loneliest, someone is thinking about you. You are so fucking loved
We might all be strangers but we're all in the same fight same struggles were never by ourselves there's always someone been where you are and made it through keep going we know you can do it love you
This song hits home so bad. I lost the most important people in my life when I was so young that I started cutting at 11. Then going through so much bs at the age of 17 I tired to od. I was so ready to end it. It almost worked. My foster sister found me just in time. At that time I didnt really have friends or family. I was alone and afraid. But then after my od I thought about my life and how I wanted kids and a family. I have it now but sometimes I still have thoughts. If you ever need to talk please let me know.
This song just sums up my life. Nobody likes me, barely have any friends, I fuck everything up and forever in fear that my boyfriend will leave me cause im a screw up...
*reading the comments* I relate to literally every single one and when I tried... Everything that pushed me to try hasn't changed and my mother still triggers me so much. She doesn't understand and I really just want to leave her
I cant take this life anymore im tired of being used. Im tired of the lies i tell ppl and the ones they tell me. Im tired of the abuse i get when someone notices my scars. Im tired of being alive
Dear everyone reading this. You may not know this, or feel this, but without you, the world changes for the worst. We have one less smile to brighten up people's day. One less strong person to tell people to keep fighting. I know, I'm not really the best person to be saying this to you since I am struggling as well, but keep going. Push through. You might not be able to see any light. Your light may be tied on your back so tight that you can't see it or hold it. But, keep searching for a different light. Someone else has a light on them. Find that person. Find your light. Find your happiness again.
okay hi you probably are wondering why your listening to this song and reading the comments. so yeah but your so not worthless your not okay? you are such a beautiful person and we need more of you in this world okay? dont leave me alone in this mad world. take it like that...love you.
I don't want to die. I want to disappear... evaporate into thin air. I did restart somewhere... made sure I had a chance. My biggest regret was taking my fiance with me. I should have left alone, so I could be alone. So no one could know me for what I was. So I could have been whoever I wanted. Now he drags me down every day.
Guess this is my goodbye… everyone in my life just leaves me..its too lonely I can’t take it anymore..Mom I love you so much, you were the only person that didn’t leave me but you’re no longer here and I miss you, im coming to be with you
Dear people reading this, I care about you okay? We may not know each other but I really do care and I really don't want you to go through this pain, so please if you ever feel this way contact a helpline or someone you can trust and who will help you through this
If we had people who cared we wouldn't feel the way we do. I wake up every day n gotta sit here n try to find some excuse not to end it all.. and in sry I'm damn near out of excuses.. the pain needs to end. My heart cant take anymore heartbreak.. I can't even smile anymore the depression has consumed my entire soul.. jus wanna die
Noah Kolterman Dont lose hope pray to God, if you end your life your family will be sad and because of the sadness they will do the same your family loves you.
To this list of comments I would like to add I watch a program called Doctor who and I once said there are 7 billion people this planet doesn't need me and then a friend of mine quoted doctor who saying "nine hundred years of time and space and I've never met anyone who wasn't important" If you read this you are loved and if you leave we will miss you.
Life is beautiful. If you don’t know Jesus or God, meet them. They will help you tremendously with this stuff. I went to church camp this year wanting to drop anxiety and depression and leave it at the altar. I prayed so hard and when my friend laid her hand on my back and said “God, I can tell something is wrong with her and she needs it to be gone. Be gone in the Name of Jesus”. Right then and there, i felt lighter, happier, and just better in general. God is one of the only ways you’ll get through this. Even if you don’t know God, he’ll help you through it because you are His child. All you have to do is pray and give your heart to him.
if your still here, I have a question for you. if one of your closest friends were to tell you that they wanted to end it and just kill themselves, how would you respond????
Last year on 1/9/2023 at 4:34pm walking out of work, I got a phone call that my wife of 20 years cheated on me at work (we got married really young). For some reason this song popped up on my Spotify playlist. Boy did it seem like the whole world was crashing. Many times at work I'll sit with the song playing on repeat. Being a veteran, I own many firearms at thst time and sat looking at them many times ready end the pain with song playing...but life went on slowly. Wounds turn to scars.. but hearing this song again after almost 2 years, makes me feel like I want to cry.
Please be kind to others. Everyone is fighting a battle. Sometimes all it takes is a negative, rude comment to push someone over the edge. I know. I'm on the edge, ready to jump, yet to afraid.
This was my ultimate emo song heuheuheu.. I never attempted suicide, cutting or anything of that sort but this song always hits to the bones. Stay strong everyone, it's just a phase. Even non-emo kids go through depression anxiety etc phase as a teenager, our job is to keep working on ourselves to get out of it and every bad thing of the past. There's so much beauty in life, at least before you try ending it, try doing some crazy shit, like running away from the toxic things in your life to enjoy the beauty of the world, which could hopefully give you new hope.
The worst part of living isn’t that sometimes it isn’t because you’re not strong enough to die. It’s that you’re strong enough to be compassionate to the few who care about you. So you endure the hardship of going through life alone for the benefit of others. Not for yours. Then it becomes a waiting game. How long before you either snap and do it or when it’s their time to finally leave and you have the much needed excuse to do so
The worst aspect of not doing it today is knowing I’ll still think of it tomorrow.
@Juju man you just told him to kill himself
hey man its been 2 years since you posted this. are you doing well?
@@Tblitz Hope so, I'm still here for some reason... So I hope he is too
Big time
This.
This is the song I played when I first attempted suicide, I was 15. I left a note for my dad and sister to read. I had this song on repeat. I screamed when I inflicted wounds onto myself and I remember losing the feeling in my arms and the blood going everywhere and I couldn't breathe anymore. Somehow I survived and despite having attempted a few times after that, I survived. I listen to this song to take me back to these times only to remind myself of how far I've come. I really never thought I'd live to see 23... although I still heavily deal with depression and anxiety, I've done so many things I never knew I was capable of. I feel like somehow ive stayed on earth because I have a bigger purpose in life. Now, I'm on my way to earn my graduate degreee in clinical health counseling with an emphasis in childhood and adolescence disorders. Day by day I slowly see why I was kept here, to help others and offer to them what I needed as a young kid. It's never too late or as hopeless as it may seem. 💜
😢😢😢
Wow... Thanks for sharing. It's good that you didn't manage to succeed (the only failure that's ACTUALLY good in itself haha). Thanks to that, now you can help many others. It's good that you're alive.
Would love to hear an update on how lifes been the last 2 years after getting the degree!~
You were more ballsy than me. I hate blood! Pharmaceuticals was my way out only to wake up in a Looney Bin with everyone wanting to know my business.
Hope you are still happy and moving on. Remember somebody out there needs to hear your story and how it changed your life. Be a beam of light to all those around you and love everyone always.
Tired of living
Scared of dying 😢
same here, pal
Same!
It's like we just don't wanta be here but it's scary not knowing what other kind of world it is out there when were gone
Kayveona Atkins I'm tired of living and not scared of dying I'm in so much deep pain the only thing that is stopping me from doing it is how much it would affect my family
I know how you feel, I get this way all the time
"And I'm sorry
But this is my fate
Everything is worthless
Nobody wants me to stay"
I want you to stay. I can tell just from your comment that you are someone worth knowing. Life was never meant to be easy.
Stay...
We want you to stay... I'm fighting the same battle as you. Don't give up. Fight. Fight back. Fight harder than ever. You are amazing. Do NOT let these thoughts win.
I'm literally bawling over this song rn, because it describes EXACTLY where I am at this point in my life, after years of being traumatized, suffering, pain, loneliness, fear, etc.
Hits me right in the heart and soul.
I'm so tired too. So tired.
Depression consumes me and this song makes me cry every time it takes me back to the time when I would cut
Steven Hall your amazing! I just want you to know and understand how truly amazing you are! if you reread your comment, there’s hope in your sentence! you said that depression consumes me, the song takes you back to WHEN you WOULD cut. but now your not. that’s called hope and I want you to understand that you are truly incredible ❤️
ive had this on loop last 4 hours... i think about it all the time.. all the time..
I love you. Respond with a number and I will call you.
It sucks when you can relate to a song for so long, yet nothing changes. Been depressed for over 7 years, stuck in a continuous loop of getting better, then crashing down til I'm suicidal. I have no-one close to talk to about it, no-one to help me or care while I'm at home. Ironically, the people of the internet help me to hold on, the only words of encouragement i ever get.
Literally would be dead, if not for those random internet people.
So i say to the people of the internet, thank you!! I know that even if i feel like i can't hold on much longer, at least someone understands, and at least someone cares out there.
If you reach that suicidal point, and you feel like there's nothing left, remember there is always someone out there who can relate to you, that can help to bring you up out of the overwhelming suicidal void that fill yours very being.
Please, hold on just a little longer, you'll never know when someone will pull you out.
Online community for life!
my parents dont understand this has been going on way before they new i have nothing to hold on to theres only one thing i go ride horses every saturday and jump thats the only reason
Me too i would be dead
I must be on the wrong online community because of them I was uplifted but brought down lower than my lowest low I might not make it another day
I'm not worth any tears. But I'm afraid to die.
Paxton L plz don't if you ever need to talk I'll listen
Paxton L yeah we're here for you ☺☺☺
You are worth more than you think! We all will be here waiting for you
We're here for you
I am so happy your alive Paxton!
I'm glad you exist, dear stranger. Your presence definitely makes a difference in the world. Please stay with us a little longer 💙
This made me stay. Thank you, stranger.
@@masterblaster7782 heyy that's great! How are you?
I see your message but i don't have the will. It went from a few months left to just 9 days now. Wish it could be sooner....
@@chrismartin1664 heyie! I don't know much about you. I don't know where you live, what you do for a living, whether you study or work. I do know that you are feeling lost. A feeling i am all too familiar with myself. I don't know the details of your life, and you don't know mine, but i want you to know you are not alone in your feelings. I might not know or understand exactly why you are feeling lost, but i hope you can trust me when I say that i have been there. I need you to know that i understand. You are not alone, dear stranger. You are seen and you are understood. Your feelings are understood. No matter how difficult life feels and how dark it sometimes looks, there is still hope and there is still light, and you are still cared for. The universe cares about you. Your loved ones care about you. I care about you.
@@OA2605 the only hope I have is knowing that in 9 days, ill have some money which I'm gonna use to end my suffering. I'm 37 years old by the way and from Boston Massachusetts.
i've read a lot of the comments! I know what depressions feels like. About a year ago, i was deeply depressed. before that, i was happy - go - lucky, but one little rude comment from a girl i idolised, triggered my depression. it was so bad, i started cutting. what helped for me was reaching out to people, and making new friends. friends who are always there for me. now, im salty. (not a good thing) but.. at least im not at the verge of suicide anymore. i'm bullied, daily, but i still stand strong, and think im beautiful! yes, there are still things I'd like to change about myself, but that's normal! You all ARE worth it, and don't think you aren't. if you need ANY help, just know im here for you!
Peyton Taylor Sloan I used to get bullied and then I started talking to the bullies and now we're friends and they stopped bullying me
Peyton Taylor Sloan stay strong you will need it I've been depressed for 3 years
I ask my self the same question every night: How did i go from that litte 5 year old, always happy and laughing.. to ..this? Now i am 16
You know everyone has depression you can't just trigger something you already have depression is only as bad as you let it be depending on how you cope with it me I have deep depression but I don't think I would try and kill myself even if I'm off my depression meds incoclustion (idgaf about my Grammer ) depression is a feeling of being depressed
Pls tell me how you get over getting bullied bc I'm gay and depressed bc if been bullied verbally and physically....if been burning my arm to take my attention off of my pain full memories
"It's been years of abuse
Neglected to treat the disorder
The Controls my youth
for so long
Why should I hold on
it's been five years, don't need
one more
So goodbye, life's abuse.."
fear and pain is the only thing keeping me here. Fear of killing myself. And pain of the few that would care. But slowly everyday that goes away.
This song feels so real to me. All I wanted was to help everyone. Instead I messed it all up and they don't want me here. I'm scared to go but it hurts so much to stay.
I am so happy your alive my brother or sister. Not sure with the name Christian. I am so grateful that your alive and I am so thankful you've expressed yourself in this comment. If your still alive please hit me back.
I relate almost entirely to your comment. It'd be good to know if you are still alive.
Hi Tanner and Javier. I am still here and doing much better. I am a guy btw haha. I had to cut almost everything/everyone out of my life and even moved to the other side of America. I’m living with my amazing partner and have a lot of professional help. Thank you both for carrying enough to ask and comment. It always gets better and it’s people like you two that really show that. Thank you again.
Christian, I nearly committed suicide about 6 months ago left me unannounced! I was in a blinding level depression and felt that there was nothing worth living for. I am still dealing with a great deal of pain and depression, but my two boys and my entire family (including life long buddies that I consider brothers) are what keep me here. I am trying life hell to fight through this one day at a time and praying that it gets easier
This song has found its way to me at a time when I certainly need it the most... Trying times lately, times when trying doesn't feel possible anymore.
I had a best friend named Maggie. This song gave wonder to our childhood. Now we have our own kids and family. We no longer talk. She's married and I am too. In case you're reading this Maggie I wanna tell you that you're still in my heart the same way we met many years ago. You're still my best friend and I don't care if you no longer see me the same way you did before. Thanks for all the wonderful moments we shared together. You showed me how to be strong. I always wish I could go back to cherish the moments that I took for granted. We were so young and time is not on our side. We had little moments together yet I could go on for days talking about us without repeating a single story. Wish you well. My best friend. I miss you.
This song accompanied me for well over 10 years. Lost count on the amount of times i was admitted at psych wards, years of therapy tryig to find a way to live life despite multiple childhood traumas. It took time. Every now and then life still hurts, the very core of ly being hurts. Ive learnt a lot surviving years of abuse among other things but mainly in therapy and self reflections. Weirdly enough, accepting the datker times in life and that they still might come back, cuz they do, thoughts looping and the will to not love anymore... gave me control over the situation. To stop expecting getting out at the other end of the tunnel and everything would be different, that i would be a completely different person, reset and like a clean slate.. i did grieve that itself for quite some time but those dark thoughts hace no control over me anymore. I acknowledge them and the feeling following them, I let myself feel, cry, hide or whatever i need to do to ride out the storms.
I can't promise anyone anything. Just share my story, i never thought it could get better. I even have old diaries from wheb i was 5-10 years old where i woshed to die. I was bot gonna make 30 I was so sure. And i almost didn't, thankfully medicine and antidotes prevented that. It got better. My history and memories will always be with me. But. They lost their "power" over me. You canr choose your biological family but as a grown up you can chose you real emotional family, people who treat you well, with respect and love. They might be hard to find. But they're put there. Its often a lonely road cuz we can never ever share what were going through fully with anyone in that very moment, no one can enter my mind and body. But. Little by little. One step at a time. You can get better. Get stronger. Im no religious and ill never be but i stil found faith in that there must ve something else. Life just cant be ltjat bad pr death, there must be some other option. I passed 30, tirning 36 this year.
My heart goes out to everyone suffering. Its not fair, and there are some many evil people in this world. But there is also so much else. I hope you all find it like I did and can learn to love with your inner demons but not being afraid or scared anymore.
I've struggled with depression for a while and i've realized that I dont want to die, I just want to end this way of life, I just want to change who I'm. Suicide is always an option but give yourself a chance and try your best to change.
(btw english is not my mother language)
This is explaining how I feel. I'm suffering from Anxiety, Depression, and Sleep Deprivation at one time, and my teachers aren't helping. I'm simply not living anymore. I'm waiting for the next day to pass, waiting for the day that I can sleep forever without anyone blaming themselves. I've lost everyone I loved, either to death, them doing bad things, or them just leaving me. All my life, I've just been yelled at, and abused by my siblings. I am scared for the next day, every time I wake up, knowing it's going to be a TERRIBLE day. I just want to stay in my dream world, Idc if I get stuck in a nightmare, preferably not, but anything is better than what I have now. SAying "It's just depression, get over it" is basically saying "it's just cancer, get over it" and I am just done with life..
ItsLilyGames Same here,don't give up.
Hope you feel better now
Life is worthless😢
***** I feel this way everyday
agreed life is worthless couldn't those pills I took a few months ago kill me
Suicide Game it is so.
Yeah life is worthless and corrupted but you aren’t I can tell you are a beautiful person so live on
but your not!❤️
This is truly the mind of someone trapped here. Fleshly tomb above ground. No one wants me to stay, no1 will cry.
Anyone who has been her or lives here understands completely. Ppl who don't will never understand. It's torture wanting so much to not be here but holding on for whatever small reason.
Sick and tired of life. But scared of death😢
Honestly man, same here.
It's okay
This is you on a new account, it's not better, still the same if not worse. I want to die, but scared.
Actually not afraid to die... It's jus better to die in a painless way which is impossible n also afraid of leaving those behind wit these bad memories.. 😥
I asked a girl to play this at my funeral, she then pursuaded me not to kill myself because I meant so much to her, but she betrayed me, and I regret not doing so.
Shittt
@Samuel Lu Damn that Hit me hard. I will remember that. Thank you
Just noticed this comment was made 2 years ago and you haven't interacted with any replies... Are you okay??? I send you virtual hugs ♥️
@@V4Short damn man I really hope this guy is ok, I'm in his boat now too
At least you were worth enough to her that she didn't want you to die. Whatever happened after is human nature
dear whoever is reading this.
you are loved
you are strong
you are worth it
you are not ugly
you are not fat
i care about you
Things will get better
keep breathing
Please stay
i love you
💚💛💙
I am edgy, worthless, stressed, and idiotic.
let me ask you a question. Do you know my name? Cuz if you don`t it how can you say that you care about me. And how do you know that im not fat or ugly. tbh i am ugly but the thing is that i dont care about my appearence that much and luckily i am not fat.
I'm sorry, just wanted to say something nice
dick
people can say nice things without a smart ass attitude form people like you
About to end the sadness. Thanks for posting this song. It was rare for every single word of a song to resonate with me. But this one did. I'd want this to play at my funeral if I was worth having a funeral for. Oh well... at least the pain is about to end.
Help others put a smile on their face and keep enjoying life while we have what little time we have. Laugh cry joke around and love but please don't commit suicide the people around you are only human and they will hurt just like you. End the cycle and give a fervor for life and love a ❤chance❤😊.
I feel you but I hope you know and find love and meaning
life is meaningless, we exist for nothing, we come from nothing, live in nothingness and go to nothing.Whatever you will do in your life will be meaningless for the universe.
x Morgenstern I wish you didn’t have that look on life:( it makes me sad that people are living in this life feeling horrible about it and not knowing why there here and thinking that it’s worthless. by the looks of it, I don’t think you believe in God. so i’m just going to ask you if you can please watch Gods not dead on amazon prime and tell me what you think of it! i’m here for you always and forever❤️
I'm just tired. Every day is the same, same things over and over again. Life does not have sense. I'm tired of struggling with depression, i'm tired of me, i'm tired of doing all wrong, i'm tired to weak up, i'm tired even if i sleep 12 hours a day, i have panic when i weak in the middle of the night, i fear from my future, i think about the errors i've made in the past, everytime i eat or i need to go out i have fucking panic, anxiety and nausea all the time. I dont want this to continue anymore. Its 8 years i live with depression and i'm so tired. Things will not get better. In 8 years nothing has changed better, all just got worse
This is my go-to song when feeling crushed by all that is happening.
That seems to happen more and more frequently.
You aren't alone.
i lost my reason to live
Tibby C same 😔
Tibby C Look in the mirror and place your hand on your chest. That’s your reason. There’s people (including me) who’s lost someone. I lost my child. As long as that heart beats, there’s your reason. ❤️
@@alexiscroy4215 Beatufully said, and i'm very sorry for your loss 😢❤
Tibby C same
I hope you're still here
This one song has finally sung what I am feeling and what have felt for the past 16 years. Losing the battle slowly.
Honestly this is how I feel I want to die so bad
Me to!!! Because my family treets me horrible, as horrible as where they make me feel horrible about myself! Where I get to the point of seriously wanting to kill myself. they treat me like sh*t! and I've tried so many ways to get me out of wanting to hurt myself.
i know exactly how you feel. my family could give zero fucks about me. I know they hate me. ive cut myself because of them. I actually almost killed myself today. im always yelled at.. I know.. how .. you.. feel ... friend. stay alive. it will get better , I hope.
Yeah, i wanna die too, not because i hate myself, more like because i love myself and i dont want to live in This World filled with horrible people
me too idk im in depression smh idk the reason..but i dont feel like i wanna livee...but i dont wanna die and ashame my parents
Just know we’re all here for you❤️
We want "It's Called Surviving" back..
yessss
+Hi I'm Purple I think she's gone... From what I've heard..
+SibreezeHD omg...
yeah...May she rest in peace..
+SibreezeHD WHAT???? omg....
For me, I got bullied in my school, the first week of 6th grade, 4 classmates insulted me and beat me up. Some even threw chairs at me. After a while, we got kicked out of the city (missionary family) we lost everything. I never got to say goodbye to my classmates. I still remember how cold was the airport... we roamed around, finding places to sleep. That feeling... Still remains in my heart, it still hurts...
My cousin died at the age of 7, 18 years ago, my uncle started to live his day like... he's a great Christian, but after that, he started to drink, 6 years ago, police found his car crashed into pieces and found his head into two pieces. My grandmother was... really upset, she missed her son day by days, having nightmares so often. One day, she's sick too. Her body left its strength. She fell off the staircase 6 months ago. She was found her arms disconnected and her skull smashed into pieces. My grandfather told us few days before she became like this, she was crying on the floor, saying how she miss us (we live 3 hours of flight and 5 hours of drive away) She passed away like other members of my family.
I wanted to committee suicide so much, I remember... I even had planned it.
But... everything changed when I lied down and prayed.
Now when I remember the days I had depression, I would think of the hard days I've gone through... I wanna encourage everyone here too
why does this always comfort me on a bad chronic pain day? I love you Jamestown story
I’m honestly in so much pain and can’t take this anymore. I’m telling my family to play this at my funeral.. goodbye.
Honestly the beats are kinda uplifting but the lyrics are so deep. If I were to die I'd like to die playing this song in the background
Macasia are you still here?
Stefania P. Lezioli yep. Still kicking. Tried to od and wound up in the hospital after writing that comment. Now I gotta go to therapy and shit. But I’m still here.
@@macasiarankin868 I'm happy you're still here. I don't know your situation but know that you're so strong and not alone! I'm distant but I'm sending you hugs and hugs♥️ I just wanna help, if you need or ever want to talk you can text me even on Instagram Stefi Lezioli... kick It♥️
Stefania P. Lezioli thank you so much. I rlly appreciate the offer and I’ll definitely take you up on it.
im done with life just looking for a song for people to play at my funeral
ChrisMeister same here man.
😢
Same bro
ChrisMeister same here
I’ll bring the amps for the party
Life is so meaningless there's no thing worth a smile.
maxx jordan Life is beautiful. If you don’t know Jesus or God, meet them. They will help you tremendously with this stuff. I went to church camp this year wanting to drop anxiety and depression and leave it at the altar. I prayed so hard and when my friend laid her hand on my back and said “God, I can tell something is wrong with her and she needs it to be gone. Be gone in the Name of Jesus”. Right then and there, i felt lighter, happier, and just better in general. God is one of the only ways you’ll get through this. Even if you don’t know God, he’ll help you through it because you are His child. All you have to do is pray and give your heart to him.
Dont listen to the religious loon. Listen, if you want objective value you ain't gonna find it in the universe we all live meaningless lives on a pointless planet. You have to put your own meaning into your own life or else it is going to just keep feeling so empty. For me my passion is comedy, that is why I want to be a comedian. You find what is good for you and you do that!
An awesome song that reminds you of all of the bad memories and all of the negativity in your life and makes it seem that life is not worth living even though it actually is, despite the truthful fact that this world truly doesn’t deserve to exist. 😔🎵🎧
I seriously love this song
I'm reading these comments remembering my cousin. 20 years have gone by but not 1 day has passed. I was on a downward spiral of self destruction of alcohol, meds and cars. I hit rock bottom (prison) where I learnt a lot about my demons. Most importantly I learnt I needed help and now at 43 I'm living the life I wish I did years ago, which brings me down in itself. Just know however hopeless or helpless you feel, someone always cares. I care. Reach out, talk to someone you trust. It's only to late when it's too late
“It’ll get better” says the ones who just don’t get it. “ one of these days you’ll grow up and realize how stupid it was getting sad about nothing”. I have a good job a loving family. A beautiful girlfriend I don’t deserve and the most beautiful baby I’ve ever seen. They get genuine smiles out of me. However every other thought is about how I wish they didn’t love me I don’t deserve it. Driving on the interstate hoping for a truck to lose control and roll on me or anything I don’t wish for the accidents so much since others would get hurt.
Getting on a train rail at night with your neck on the spot a wheel goes over is probably one of the best options
It's sad how I found this song in a very dark time when I was so suicidal it was all I can think about needing help was hard to admit but I'm getting better slowly
I now somehow find this song a good comfort now
I'm sorry
but this is my fate
everything is worthless
nobody wants me to stay
those lyrics are true
I know the feel
yup
i want you to stay.
yup so true
I feel that
I don't want to exist anymore
RainbowGirl 420 its just a struggle of life
Android Gaming yeah and it just keeps getting worse and worse just like always. nothing ever gets better
Dont give up because when you give up its like you let the struggles won, stay 💪strong you can win the fight against the world. Stay happy dont let your sadness take away your happiness 😉😊
Android Gaming its easy to say hard to do. I've been trying to get help with my mental illnesses for so long and no one wants to help. my family treats me like shit and I can't sleep because whenever I do I relive every traumatic experience that haunts my life. There is no happiness in my life because it was taken from me. what other choice do I have
RainbowGirl 420 I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches. If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers. To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love, openness and the willingness to remain vulnerable.
My best friend who I cared for to the deepest of my heart, sent me this with her last words before she attempted suicide. I am currently waiting to see her make it back alive, but at this point I'm willing to join her now 💔
💔
Life is unfair and yet people keep bringing children into this world that doesn’t deserve to exist at all which is the very reason why bad things happen to people in general. Stay strong soldiers of humanity because there is always a chance to live a good life if you stay in the world. I truly hope that we reach an utopia in the future that will free us of most if not all negativity in this world that we live in. 😔
Who else has a controlling mother who will do ANYTHING to get her way? Even if it meant harming you until you stop resisting her... -Me
You're not alone, dude. Same here.
My mother was this way too
My mom wa this way. Then I yelled at her and used the self defense that she made me learn against her. Things get better. I promise.
Lord knows your not alone...
I had a controlling adoptive mother.
When I was suicidal I listened to this song as an anthem. On repeat for hours... all day long.
I am no longer self-destructive, but it still calls to me.
I am in a good part of my life, but I feel comfortable listening to this for hours...
Cool experience...
This how I feel all the time. I'm tired of living and I want a way out
My wife is my best friend. The love of my life. She saved me from myself after I survived a suicide attempt where I bled out six years ago. She left me four months ago. It hurts more and more each day. I can't take it much longer.
Don't be said remember that you worth a great women than her god will give you the right person 🌸🌸 you're worthy
I tried when I was 17. I'm 38 and last week I had the bottle of pills in my hand but I didn't do it this time. Life shouldn't be this hard.
This is so relatable, if I didn't meet a certain person I would be dead.--
deep bags under my eyes,
always fucking tired.
feeling all worthless.
not having hope in anything,
but still trying to help people. crawling up under covers, crying.
the thing is, you don't cut. you just hurt.
struggling, trying. struggling, trying.
struggling, trying.
did you make it? did you have hope?
d - z I'm in your same situation, don't give up.
I remember the original version when I was alone and thought I didn't matter. Jesus pulled me from my fleshy tomb and saved me. I live for him now and not the world. I have been forever changed. And the same is waiting for you. He is the way, the truth, and the life. You are worth everything to the Lord. He would be born again and die to save just you. Amen.
If you're reading this then just remember something. you're amazing. I know what it's like to go through the thoughts. I've fought back from those times. You can too. You don't have to commit suicide. It's so not worth it. There are people out there that care. Look at your family. Look at the one who's trying to reach out to you to help you. They care about you. They love you. If you can't see those people, look a little harder. They're out there for you. To get you through the hell you're going through. Life isn't meant to be easy, but it's also not to be destroyed. It's something to be grateful to have. There's one important thing about it. You're alive. Keep on going. Never give up, be yourself. For those that try to bring you down for being you, don't listen to them. Know who you are. If you're thinking about doing it, just look at yourself in the mirror. Look at yourself, and tell yourself "I will not do it. I will fight, and I will win." You are strong, keep going, and never ever give up.
But people like myself are suffering. We don't want to die, we just want to get rid of the pain. Every day is like an on-going battle inside our heads. It's really tiring and we don't want to lie to those around us when they ask us if we're okay. Why is It okay to put a suffering animal to death but not a human? People try to tell us things like "you're amazing!" or "it'll get better, trust me!" but some of us have been told that we're worthless or that the world would be a better place without us. We have been fed so much negativity from our peers that eventually we just give in and believe it. I myself suffer from anxiety, depression, binge eating disorder, self-harm and suicidal tendencies. Life is very hard for me and I just can't do it anymore. There might be people out there to help us, but they don't understand us because maybe they have never experienced it in their life. They try to understand us and it just doesn't work. It's no use. I know this was meant to be a nice positive comment (which it is. Very much so) but I hope you see that I'm just trying to be realistic and I'm sure that there are some people out there who agree with me. Thank you for that comment though. That will have made lots of people's days. I'm just glad that we have people in the world like you.
+holly pollock yep
LIFADR+94 Thank you! Thank for showing light to all those who need it, which is most people who listen to this song. Life is beautiful, and trust me ending yours, is the worst possible thing you could do to yourself. It’s people like you i wish i could just hug or something for caring for other people.
I have so many friends and family, yet I feel alone. I've lived a great life, yet I feel like I've lived in pain. I lost my dad, yet felt nothing. My own self doubts have confused me to the brink of depression. I want to end it all, yet I can't. I want to live a happy life, yet I feel I that I can't have it. In the same moment of wanting to tell someone, to share the burden, I hide, and bear it alone. I want to be a hard worker, yet I can't help but be lazy. At the same time of wanting others to understand how I feel, I don't understand it myself. All of what I just said are the reasons I can't find true purpose in life. Even now I hate that I'm even saying anything, it's so negative and it's not like anyone can do anything about it anyways, there's really no point. In most cases, I try not to tell anyone, because it's not anyone else's problem, it's my own, and I've done nothing worthwhile in my life. If I don't help others, then why should I even think about asking for help? Just because the world is unfair, it doesn't mean I have to be. If you are reading this, thanks for listening I guess, but I'm sorry for wasting your time.
MEMORIES, Man i can't believe I have introduced to this song 5 years ago when I was 15. It was a bad moment in my life, dealing with someone who themselves were in a major hole in their life.. And eventually, i was out in that hole with them... But, I fought the battle and I have found my life's purpose, made friends that i don't think i could ever replace, and dealt with worse then i thought was ever real. There is help out there for anyone who feels like ending their own lives, not only that if you mean anything to anyone it should be yourself, screw what others think, just get up and prove everyone wrong, even yourself.
just please dont commit suicide.. for me?
Ok
I will try not to
+Peyton Taylor Sloan (Peytontheblackflame) I'm sorry about your bff
i cant do that for u, sorry
its people like you who really help. people who do care.. people who dont hate you.
I feel hopeless, I don't see a way out anymore. Yesterday was the first time I felt completely numb, my body just felt heavy and I couldn't feel my face. I've been hiding my true self, always making it seem like I'm ok but I can no longer contain my emotions. I feel like it's better for me to leave this world, everyone will be better without me in their lives
To be honest....this song is amazing..and I can relate myself with this song
I kinda want to die.... but yet I can't
Jazmin Acuna i dpnt the only way im dieing is if my fam dies or like my dad and thats it some times i feel that way but somtimes i dont ihide it all then let it out. at night
Me too
Just when I start thinking it's getting better
I'm disappointed in myself
Listened to this song over and over and over for 10 days. And thought.
I think I will stick around.
I wonder how many lives this song has saved.
Me many times
I barely have any friends at school and I'm friends with someone who doesn't talk to me often. It makes me feel like I'm just to much of a push over. Please help me.....
Rainy i’m here for you ❤️❤️❤️
I want this played over and over when I take my life and who ever finds me can hear this.
Please don't do it. It gets better
I remember that video... It was from the channel "It's Called Surviving". You know what happened to that channel?
i wish i knew
+Thelarxenefreak The girl that owned it comitted suicide......
For real?!
***** Yeah. I knew her on facebook. She wrote a goodbye message and a few days later her mom posted a picture of her and said that she comitted suicide. a few days later the account was deleted.
+R.A Lindemann Thats so sad....... How old was she..
I'm a older man now and yet I still feel oh so ready to pass. I just hope I do in a way that does not overly hurt my children.
Are u still here?
I just want a song like this that acknowledges that they know they're loved but feel like this anyway. Because I can't find one
This hits so close to home right now im so ready to go and feel me being gone will make mo difference
i don't suicide... just feel like it, no desire to live anymore. its not fair how i must work hard while others happy just like that
Karma Hadid your right, it’s not fair. but life isn’t meant to be easy! if it were, it wouldn’t be called life! trust me, I understand where your coming from because I had some rough patches in my life. actually for the last 3 years my life has been pretty crazy, and it sucked. but it resolved and now i’m trying my very best to help other people! I hope you know that you are incredibly talented and you deserve to be breathing the air that you are❤️❤️❤️
I'm not worth any tears.
I'm about to walk 1550 miles to get away from a toxic situation.
I have a note in my pocket, to let police know who to call, to get my body back home.
The "I wish I was never born" is very real.
This song is so relatable.
This song makes me wanna cry
If you’re reading this. Please keep reading. That person you want to hear this song wants you to be here. whatever personal circumstances apply to your own situation please know that nobody wants to walk up to your casket and say goodbye. If it’s the boyfriend/girlfriend that you’ve been arguing constantly with or the parents you think hate you or old friends….. nobody and I mean nobody wants you to leave. Relationships can be healed and friendships can be rekindled. You are loved. You are wanted. You are here and I’m glad you are. You are worth it. YOU are worthy. I wish songs like this didn’t have to exist but they do and that’s because of the pain we inflict on one another. Purposefully or not the ones you love most will feel the daggers from time to time but you know deep down that even the people you say mean things to or do mean things to are the ones you care for. My girlfriend and I were arguing about something so minuscule and while I was at work one day she had left her work and went home and sent me this song. I left work early and came home to find her limp body in her car with my gun on her lap. She passed out from heat stroke before she pulled the trigger. I never screamed so loud in my life. The cpr I gave her saved her life. This happened about a year ago. I don’t know what I would’ve done if she did it. She means the world to me and even though her and I were arguing about whatever she still meant more to me than anyone or anything. She had to go to an inpatient care home for a short while. During that time I stuck that same gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger. The safety was on. I never told her about that. She came home and her and I have committed ourselves to finding true happiness and growing together into a couple who can experience life together. I’m going to propose soon. Please don’t do it. Even when you feel the loneliest, someone is thinking about you. You are so fucking loved
We might all be strangers but we're all in the same fight same struggles were never by ourselves there's always someone been where you are and made it through keep going we know you can do it love you
I just came to say:
YOU are amazing and God wants you to keep living.
Don't give up!
This song hits home so bad. I lost the most important people in my life when I was so young that I started cutting at 11. Then going through so much bs at the age of 17 I tired to od. I was so ready to end it. It almost worked. My foster sister found me just in time. At that time I didnt really have friends or family. I was alone and afraid. But then after my od I thought about my life and how I wanted kids and a family. I have it now but sometimes I still have thoughts. If you ever need to talk please let me know.
This song just sums up my life. Nobody likes me, barely have any friends, I fuck everything up and forever in fear that my boyfriend will leave me cause im a screw up...
I love you, please stay strong 💚
TheKimico16 I feel the same way... I am so afraid that my boyfriend think I am not worth him..
*reading the comments* I relate to literally every single one and when I tried... Everything that pushed me to try hasn't changed and my mother still triggers me so much. She doesn't understand and I really just want to leave her
I cant take this life anymore im tired of being used. Im tired of the lies i tell ppl and the ones they tell me. Im tired of the abuse i get when someone notices my scars. Im tired of being alive
Me too.
This comment is 100% how I feel
Dear everyone reading this. You may not know this, or feel this, but without you, the world changes for the worst. We have one less smile to brighten up people's day. One less strong person to tell people to keep fighting. I know, I'm not really the best person to be saying this to you since I am struggling as well, but keep going. Push through. You might not be able to see any light. Your light may be tied on your back so tight that you can't see it or hold it. But, keep searching for a different light. Someone else has a light on them. Find that person. Find your light. Find your happiness again.
The thoughts won’t leave my mind and I want to leave this world even if I don’t today the thoughts will remain tomorrow
we just need to keep going and try to enjoy some part of it. never give up never surrender.....
Omg rally rllllllllllllllllllllly gooooood song !!!!!!!!!!!!
okay hi you probably are wondering why your listening to this song and reading the comments. so yeah but your so not worthless your not okay? you are such a beautiful person and we need more of you in this world okay? dont leave me alone in this mad world. take it like that...love you.
I really needed this.....
Thank you.
I needed to hear something supportive like that.
thanks needed that
i hope everyone is still doing okay your still a beautiful person your perfectly imperfect in everyway possible and i love you
+Joslyn Savannah Not doing too well but thanks.
I wrote a will 6 years ago, I still look at it when I'm down. I never told anyone and I wont
I don't want to die. I want to disappear... evaporate into thin air. I did restart somewhere... made sure I had a chance. My biggest regret was taking my fiance with me. I should have left alone, so I could be alone. So no one could know me for what I was. So I could have been whoever I wanted. Now he drags me down every day.
Thank you for sharing tonight
My friend committed suicide and now when ever I hear this song it makes me cry
Sorry for your loss.
Guess this is my goodbye… everyone in my life just leaves me..its too lonely I can’t take it anymore..Mom I love you so much, you were the only person that didn’t leave me but you’re no longer here and I miss you, im coming to be with you
Dear people reading this, I care about you okay? We may not know each other but I really do care and I really don't want you to go through this pain, so please if you ever feel this way contact a helpline or someone you can trust and who will help you through this
If we had people who cared we wouldn't feel the way we do. I wake up every day n gotta sit here n try to find some excuse not to end it all.. and in sry I'm damn near out of excuses.. the pain needs to end. My heart cant take anymore heartbreak.. I can't even smile anymore the depression has consumed my entire soul.. jus wanna die
To many years of this, sever years i think its time to finish this story.
Noah Kolterman Dont lose hope pray to God, if you end your life your family will be sad and because of the sadness they will do the same your family loves you.
#LifeIsSoBadToMeSoIDontWantItAnymore ;(
Please stay strong 💚
To this list of comments I would like to add I watch a program called Doctor who and I once said there are 7 billion people this planet doesn't need me and then a friend of mine quoted doctor who saying "nine hundred years of time and space and I've never met anyone who wasn't important" If you read this you are loved and if you leave we will miss you.
This is my goodbye
I command you to stay
Life is beautiful. If you don’t know Jesus or God, meet them. They will help you tremendously with this stuff. I went to church camp this year wanting to drop anxiety and depression and leave it at the altar. I prayed so hard and when my friend laid her hand on my back and said “God, I can tell something is wrong with her and she needs it to be gone. Be gone in the Name of Jesus”. Right then and there, i felt lighter, happier, and just better in general. God is one of the only ways you’ll get through this. Even if you don’t know God, he’ll help you through it because you are His child. All you have to do is pray and give your heart to him.
if your still here, I have a question for you. if one of your closest friends were to tell you that they wanted to end it and just kill themselves, how would you respond????
Last year on 1/9/2023 at 4:34pm walking out of work, I got a phone call that my wife of 20 years cheated on me at work (we got married really young). For some reason this song popped up on my Spotify playlist. Boy did it seem like the whole world was crashing. Many times at work I'll sit with the song playing on repeat.
Being a veteran, I own many firearms at thst time and sat looking at them many times ready end the pain with song playing...but life went on slowly. Wounds turn to scars.. but hearing this song again after almost 2 years, makes me feel like I want to cry.
this song is exactly how I feel…
Man I feel you but I hope you know you’re loved. I feel so alone.
Goodbye, Brent.
Fuck, dude.
You were wrong - I am crying.
Whoever you are out there I don't know if you will read this but we all go through hardships and I want you to stay
Please be kind to others. Everyone is fighting a battle. Sometimes all it takes is a negative, rude comment to push someone over the edge. I know. I'm on the edge, ready to jump, yet to afraid.
Jump what do you want. I can tell you this know one Mos lissens . JESUS WILL. LISSEN TO YOU. DON'T STEP. BACK TAKE HIS HAND WHY NOT. IHW LOVES YOU
Sorry soon the mad man is gon. Lol you make me stress sence of humor take a paras hoot it not time byou adorable soft. Sorry
I really hope my life ends soon.
Same here. :(
Thanks, Mitch Jones. You brought me here.
This was my ultimate emo song heuheuheu.. I never attempted suicide, cutting or anything of that sort but this song always hits to the bones. Stay strong everyone, it's just a phase. Even non-emo kids go through depression anxiety etc phase as a teenager, our job is to keep working on ourselves to get out of it and every bad thing of the past. There's so much beauty in life, at least before you try ending it, try doing some crazy shit, like running away from the toxic things in your life to enjoy the beauty of the world, which could hopefully give you new hope.
The worst part of living isn’t that sometimes it isn’t because you’re not strong enough to die. It’s that you’re strong enough to be compassionate to the few who care about you. So you endure the hardship of going through life alone for the benefit of others. Not for yours. Then it becomes a waiting game. How long before you either snap and do it or when it’s their time to finally leave and you have the much needed excuse to do so