Now You're Gone And I'm Here
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 28 ก.ย. 2024
- Seems like just yesterday you lit up the world with your smile. You never really liked your smile but I did. Maybe it wasn't perfect but it was yours and I liked everything that was yours. Your smile, your face, the way you walked and the way you talked because only you did things the way that you did them and no matter where I look I can't seem to find it twice. But everyday I'm reminded of you by the songs I listen to that you gave a meaning to, the smell of your favorite food and when the rain falls on my roof because ever since you left it hasn't stopped raining. I can't seem to sleep at night. I even leave a light on just in case this is all a dream and you come home. And every year when I celebrate my birthday you won't be there to celebrate with me. And on your birthday there will be no celebration, just memories of you and a bunch of tears streaming down my face because I love you but now that love has no place to go. I question how many tears you cried by yourself and I wish I could've been there to wipe them all away because you were loved and you still are. People care about you, somebody always cared about you. We miss you everyday and there is nothing we can do about it. No superhero and no prayer in the world can bring you back. I know that everybody's got their reasons as to why they do the things they do, but you didn't have to do that. You didn't have to feel alone and face things by yourself, there is always an answer. Nobody is perfect, and it's not about being perfect, it's about being you but now I'll never get you back. The world will never get you back and it will never get to see another you, because that's how magical you were. 1 in over 7 billion. But now you're gone and I'm here. And I wish you were here with me because life is a beautiful thing and I wanted you to be alive to see it. Darkness doesn't last forever and eventually it will stop raining, even the rain that's been pouring since you left. And I will turn off the light again and sleep at night because it's not a bad life, just some bad times and right now losing you hurts but I will always carry you in my heart even though I'd rather walk by your side instead. I wish you could see these clouds pass by but I know you're on the other side of that rainbow. I miss you.
I guess I'll get to see you on the other side then.
I love you, don't forget that.
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I wrote this audio mainly for people who struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts.
It's a letter written as if they were already gone, in hopes to stop somebody from ending it all.
There is always someone who cares!
You are loved and wanted here!
Sending you all so much love
I have a question?... I am struggling at home... I have happy days sometimes but I don't know if I can cope for much longer... I can't seek help as they have taken away my tech... So I can't find therapy... And I don't know what to do... I need advise... It would help a lot to have it I guess...
Jetpack Jay I love you so much my heart has been shattered 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
David Robinson you were able to write this comment right? Google your nearest therapists and give them a call. otherwise look some up in a phone book. Talk to friends or other people you know and don't be afraid to ask them to help you find some help. i'd also suggest looking up self help videos on the side here on youtube as that has also helped me a lot on my journey.
Stay strong, you will be alright ❤️🚀
Thank you... also, do you think you would ever consider putting these on Spotify?
Thank you 🙏
I lost my best friend while I was on the phone to her, during our phone call, I heard the cocking of a gun and then the shot followed. This audio is exactly what I would say to her if she could hear me
Omg... I'm so so sorry
Reading this made me cry more😭 I'm sorry for your loss
im so sorry that happened to you.
My best friend and boyfriend killed themselves and it hurts soooooooooo much
Baby..you must be scarred I’m so sorry
When you're not even a minute in and your already crying
😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔🖤🖤💌
froggy gym fr tho😭
I was crying by 0:00 😭💔❤️
Why people that we care about and love died why not people tht we hate it's so weird.......
Yeah,..
I wanna die.
I'm too scared to die.
I wish I could find a way to die without hurting anyone.
I really wanna cry but my parents will hear, I don't like the comfort, I just wanna be alone.
Anyone feel the same??..
Edit: AHH, I didn't expect to come back after 2 months and get so much love and support! I am doing much better now from Niro training. Thank you ALL so much! I wanna hug you all and just give you all the love and support you guys need too! I hope you guys are doing better! Also, have a great Christmas! xoxo.
- The Chill Cucumbers - i feel for you
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Mystic- Memories i’m*
I have felt that way before and sometimes I still do ._.
a someone u r me omg
This is the perfect text to make an 1year without you for my horse that passend away.. I miss him so much. He was my everything..
I feel you. O'Henry was an American pony I rode when I was little. He died at 42. Still miss him, still want him, still love him. At least he lived a happy life. 😭😭😭
She made me happy...
She made me feel special....
She slowly made me get feelings for her...
She found somebody...
I confessed my feelings...
We slowly drifted...
Now we are strangers again....
04/08/2020....
I miss you.... 💔🖤
I understand you
04/08/2020
I’m here, and she’s gone. If I had only told someone, if I had only listened to her, if only I had taken this all seriously, maybe, she would still be here till this day. I wish I could just wake up, from this horrible nightmare, so I could give her a big hug… 💔
Remindes me of the World Suicide Prevention Day that was Tuesday.
I started watching you, when I was at my very lowest, when I was thinking about ending it all. When only that specific person could somehow put a real smile on my face sometimes. When I wouldn't leave my room for days, when I spent the whole holidays in bed because I couldn't bring myself to get up. Your videos made me think a little bit, in the beginning. And when I had a friend trying to help me, I watched you more often. Then, finally after two and a half years of feeling like shit and cutting and that stuff, I told my mom. She was really worried, although I told her it's not that big of a deal. Well, of course she worried, she's my mother. She took me to a psychologist and we had a few sessions, I had to do tests and stuff. In the end they found that I have some social problems, that are not at all my fault, I was born with it and never learned how to handle people, because we didn't know that I wasn't exactly like the others. The woman there told me it would be good, if I would go in therapy but she also said, that it maybe wouldn't help much, cause I don't talk. In the end I got support from my friend, the dear person mentioned earlier and my parents.
And now.. after three years since it started, I can say that I feel good. I stopped cutting. Of course, I still have bad days and I still have problems, but that's just life. The time I realized I was happy again, I started crying. It was night and we were on a youth camp and in the kitchen and that stuff to clean some stuff. And I stood there, couldn't stop crying, because I was happy.
So I guess, if you let people help you. You can see the light again. You can get out of whatever dark place you are in right now. You will see that life is worth it.
Jay? That you for helping me seeing the light.
Jasmin PIR you just made me cry because i am so happy for you. You don't know how much this means to me! Thank you so mich for sharing this! Much love to you ❤️❤️❤️
@@JetpacksAudios ❤💙
you made me cry
Thanks for this, Jay!
😔my bestfriend is suicidal and shes attempted so many times i cant sleep at night bc one day it wont give her anymore chances
Ik how it feels I am the suicidal person to all my friends
I'm the same!
SuperGalaxyBro same my friends always worry about me
Wee tee I hope your friend get better
@J D honestly I was just going through a lot rn. And you just made my day. Thank you
Beautiful. On the day this posted to TH-cam, my daughter would have been 43 years old. Instead, she is forever 31. I miss her.
This hits deep of my days when I was struggling with PTSD and so many attempted suicide times the last time I was in the floor I was saved and found the Lord again and I thank God everyday that he saved me !! There is a better way not saying it isn't still a struggle but I know there's people that listen people that care and I'm glad I didn't put my children through that pain because they already just lost their sister ( my daughter) and their fathers I would have truly broken them more!! I pray for anyone and I let all my friends?and everyone know I'm always there if they need me or anyone to talk too !! suicide doesn't have to be the way !!
This seriously made me sob. I personally don’t know anyone who committed suicide, but I do know SO many people who deal with mental illnesses. I’ve been depressed before, and I know that feeling. I understand. Thank you a million times. Seriously. I followed you after listing to your dbf audio in my recommended feed. I then listened to most of your audios and I followed you. Not one audio is slacked off dude. They all have a beautiful, beautiful meaning. Keep this up jay. You’re incredible ❤️🙏
abigail rice you mean you’ve been sad? idk if you were depressed for like a day or two
@@FadezFEGamingEntertainment No, it wasn't a day or two.
@Cheyenne Shelton I am so sorry for your loss. It gets better and I know that shounds chiche but it does. Keep your head up.
abigail rice holy shit u responded 9 months later u seem like a GOLD DIGGER!
@@FadezFEGamingEntertainment Ah sorry i was off this account for awhile as you can see and no, im not that either lmaoooo
This audio remind me of my Grandmother. Its been 8 years when she passed away and I still miss her like hella lot. She help me grow and also she teach me to love your family and friends becauce one day you gonna need them to help you. 😢💙
Hello Dear, how is things going with you ?
My Niece died on May 12 2018 of a Heroin Overdose. This video is so real for me . I watch it and I cry often. Anyone suffering from addiction watch this and get some help. Don't let your family watch this and cry like I do. There is help out there . You can get clean. Thank you for making this video. God Bless.
i listen to this almost every day
😭😭😭 I can't stop crying .... Why ?
So sad, and beautiful at the same time. Hits home for me. Thank you for sharing this
This is beautiful. Glad it was in my recommended. 🖤
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It breaks my heart thinking about my friend who killed herself. Please stay, please don't hurt the people around you like that. It may seem hopeless but as long as you breath it's going to be okay - I promise. Please don't go, people care. There is a hole you leave in the heart of your loved ones and it'll never fully heal. They won't just move on, they won't just continue living. Leaving someone like that will forever leave scars. Please get help if possible, please keep fighting - I know it's hard. I believe in you, I believe in every fighting soul I believe you can do it. I'm not saying it's easy, I just wish you can be happy some day and look back to this moment and be thankful that you stayed alive
Stay safe wherever you are and whoever you are. You matter
😊
@MARY GREEN thank you💕
I'm so so sorry for ur lost..........😔😭🥺🥺
I'm so touched by this
It's the realest thing I've ever heard
I've honestly never cried over somthing like this but this one is the one that got me
My Jen!! It hasn't stopped raining!!
I have lost so many people. My dad, brother, sister and most recently my best friend who I called my brother. He was my family. I loved him more than the air I breath. It will be a year 3 days before Christmas. And I still cry every night. I miss everything about him. But this helps me. Thank you. I'm waiting for the day when it stops raining.
Thankyou for this I needed this so many of my friends and family are gone and I'm here and sometimes I feel alone but now I feel my love so thank you for everything
Quesnel Tilini you're never alone! We're all with you in spirit. Stay strong ❤️🚀
@@JetpacksAudios thank you for everything 😊♥️
I felt this I had a friend that left two years ago and still having trouble gripping the reality of this but this makes me feel not alone anymore thank you so much for this this really helps me vent
Real genuine soul will always do that I'm sorry for doing u right Brenda
Thank you for everything you're doing Jay. You're loved and appreciated. ❤️🚀
hazzas boo thank you kind soul 🙏🏼❤️
Hearing this reminds me of my best friend he passed away July 10th 2019 from a drug overdose he struggled with depression and a lot of stuff and we where friends for over 6 years I miss him so fucking much
This is so sad .
It hurts so much even when I can't relate .
When your struggling and don't know or can't see/feel what you mean to others, the beauty of life....this hits you hard, makes you think, wonder and question.
good afternoon. Every time I listen to your voice. I always think of the good times when I had with my parents. Have you lost enybody in your life. And if so. I am sorry?
this came up on my recommended right after I lost my best friend. thank you for this it really helps but I'm still really sad.
Speechless!😥🦋🌠💃
Whoever is speaking, brilliant.
It as if they wrote it themselves. I can actually feel the pain of the words, like knives cutting through flesh.
I have been dealing with schizoeffective disorder for a couple years now. I had a breakdown in 2013, after my mother nearly left me. The anxiety, constant panic attacks, I spent years wanted to end it, all it would take is a single action, to stop years of pain. As much as it hurts, it is worth fighting for, especially if it means relating to another who is also feeling like giving up.
We have been who we are, for over 250,000 years. We did not do it alone, we survived together, as a family.
My best friend died last April and everypart of this hits my heart i miss her so much everyday...
This reminds me of my ex his walk his look his everything how does the best chapter of your life end so abruptly with no good bye.we loose ourselves when we lose the one we love
I lost my uncle 1year ago n this explains every moment of how i feel without him im only 17 years old n was always talkin bout how he was gonna do so much with me for my 17th bday and he went away at 35years old and when my 17th bday came i spent the entire day alone crying inside of his truck which was his pride n joy and i would give my life up to grant him his life back again "RIP LAYTON GIPSON A LOVING HUSBAND A LOVING UNCLE"
It seems like I just listened to this yesterday. Its been a year though it doesn't feel like it. One. Rough. Year. But I'm still fighting and I'm proud of that. Thank you for existing!
They don't want to die.. they just want the pain to stop. Unfortunately dying stops the pain for them and ignite the pain in those they keft behind.
This make me think of my dog 😭😭😭😭😭 i wish she was here 💔💔💔💔💔
Jill Caudill me too💔miss her so much
Made me think of my kittens
Makes me think of o'Henry. He was a horse I used to ride
Before he died😭😭😭😭💔😳
Sending love to heaven. Dustin i miss you so much. The best 7 years of my life was with you.. yu been gone now a year. And im still not right. I will never be..
Just started crying..missing my DAD
this was posted the day my best friend died after he shot himself and I can't relate more
Same, except he wasn't my friend at all... I still miss him, and I never got to meet him...
My granddaughter who had 2 beautiful boys. Shot her self just before Christmas! Still hurts so much!
I will always love him.💕 I miss you too.🖤💛✌️
My best friend passed away a month ago. He had ptsd from serving his country and his depression effected his hygine which caused his uti to go septic. This is so heart touching for me. Didnt even get to say goodbye
I lost my dad 5 years ago and for ages no one told me how he died. I found out on my own only last year that he committed suicide and no one wanted to tell me because they thought I was too young to understand. The worst feeling is that I never got to say good bye and he left notes for each of my siblings except me. It hurts to think about and it makes me feel like he never loved me but I loved him so much that I try to just remember all the happy times we had so that I don't get sad. No one ever talk about his death in my family and when they do, it's always quick and it feels like they don't care. I know my dad wasn't the best person but even still, I feel bad because he's being neglected even after his death. If I could say anything to him, i would say that I'm sorry I never called him and I'm sorry that I moved so far away. But I would also ask, why did you leave me behind? And why didn't you at least say goodbye?
God Bless you so much ❤️ 🙏
WOMEN SOMETIMES MEN SHUT THEMSELVES OUT OF LIFE NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY LOVE.. YOU WERE LOVED MORE THEN YOU COULD EVER UNDERSTAND...LOVED MORE THEN YOU COULD EVER UNDERSTAND.... SILENCE IS SO SPECIAL IN SO MANY WAYS...I LOVE MY KIDS MORE THEN ANYTHING..BUT I CANNOT SPEAK TO THEM TO EXPLAIN MY OWN DEMISE....IM JUST DONE WITH MYSELF...DONE..SO SO SORRY TRULY SORRY..😂❤❤U
I love you kids... DONE SO DONE SO DONE....TIRED....
This hits home deeply... my bestfriend was the only one who accepted me and loved me for who I was and loved my flaws. Always together...then one day he wasnt their anymore, just the memories we shared and also the pain.
This is a perfect message each person should read. Thank you. 🙋♀️💐❤
Beautiful.
Now this hits hard gor those who lost someone!!!!
Recently lost my best friend... and this sums up just about everything I'm feeling and how I'm feeling it.
Omg this is so heartbreaking I can’t stop these tears from falling 😢
This honestly kept me from shooting myself, I heard my baby Mama's voice.
I wish I can said that to my friend💔cause she is gone and I'm here 😭💔
My mum 😭
I miss you and love you forever
"Losing your love is more worse than losing your appetite, at least the appetite comes back, unlike your love................."
It's always raining where I live. Sometimes the storm is so bad I have to close all the doors and shut myself in. Even though you're gone, I'll always love you.
This….this is..wow. My Dad…just can’t get over so much in my life. My Dad died, and I felt like I had enough..but then there’s so much going in my head that I try to run and hide away from people.
Melvin my beloved handsome son Now you're gone and I'm here. No use to live without you so please save a place for me.
Thank you JESUS...
....I will always remember you grandma....
Most feel this way, when we lose someone. The thing is, we rarely say it when they are here. We always leave it for a poem, or a song.
Many times I have heard from people who lost someone, to suicide. Asking "What could I have done differently?" Well, for one, you could have not been so scared to get close to someone.
Jetpack Jay, you are gifted! And you know how to really reach people with your poetry. Thank you for allow me, allowing the world, to experience this.
To my daughter April Mama love you with all her heart and soul the angel had to come down and get you away from me become the angel needed you
My boyfriend died at age fifteen.😞 And it has been a month
Im so sorry for your loss I hope you are doing ok 💕
Jay we feel it's like almost done with life 😭😡💔💘
Cara Kirshman be quiet nobody what’s to hear you nobody 😑😂
This is so powerful. Love this.
This is powerfull. Thank you:).
my poor little heart can't handle all of these feelings
i love you dad i’m so sorry you felt that way i miss you and i love you fly high angel.🧡
You made me remember about my sister I loved her she was one of a kind she died two years ago and I haven’t gone a day without me thinking about it I would say this to her if she could here me and her voice is the only thing i know
I'm speechless this hit straight to the corazon bro 😭
Yes indeed that would be my May, May!! Ever so sadly my ever so amazingly beautiful 26 years old daughter overdosed on fentanyl September the 5th of 2020!! I as her momma will always be just utterly destroyed!! Until you lose a child of your own I so promise you that you could never image the depths of the pain!! And I truly believe that the kind of paralyzing pain I feel each and everyday of my life!! I will always feel for the rest of my life!!
I listen too this and I cry... My best friends not dead but I miss her because I haven’t seen her in 4 years
Thank u so much i really needed it😭
I cry to this every time and day and night
This song makes me think about my old memories, I miss😔 my wife so much, I wish she was still there for me.
This helped me, life is so sad sometimes you just want it to stop!
I'm not afraid of dying living is what scares me. The other side has to be better than this.
There a different people who watch these videos.
The people who watch it because its relatable, and they needed the comfort that you will get through it.
The people who go to the comments to make sure everyone is ok.
The person who saves this to their tablet in case something "happens" to them.
And last, the person who vents. The person who cries and cries on their bed because they hate the fact that they do not want to be a burden to the people around you, but you have those few people who want to help, who want to care. You dont want to let them down.
This video got me sad cause I lost my mom just a year ago and what he says in the audio is what i feel and it is truly so much pain that you don't want anyone else to know because it hurts.
I thought I would be okay listening to this.
A few seconds in, when she spoke about smiling, and how 'I didnt like it', oh my God I broke down.
Ouch. That is so true. I can't smile for photos, or just in general because I know it's so forced and fake. Holy hell.
Dang. This one hits hard.
I lost ma angel, because of another guy...sometimes it's really hard to live without her, her smile were healed me when I were in anger and her presence made me happy....after our breakup im entirely doomed into the darkness, nd now your words really means a lot to me, thanks a lot maahn🙂
My body aches my eyes ache but most of all my heart aches to be with you daughter and to hold you in my arms again and never let you go amen
Powerful words
This song makes me think about my old memories, I miss😔 my wife so much, I wish she was still there for me.
Dear tim miller,i love you an always will your always in my heart and memories of u tears run down my face bc i miss you and i wish i could be there to help u through anything ur loved and we care about u i miss u everyday i wish u never got shot 😭 i miss you so much i love u
No super hero and no prayer in the world can bring you back 💔
Since you left .im not me anymore faded in this tinny world.... missing you everyday .....
I was always there but he never came.
I dunno... but this made me cry...😔
You may not see your own light, doesn’t mean others can’t.
Thank you I really needed this right now ❤️x
September 2020 a lad only in his twenties took his life a couple of days ago off one of our tallest buildings in our town.He isn’t the first one to do it I’m a senior nurse and it makes me so sad for them to be in such a bad place and not see another way out.My heart hurts for them it truly does 😢
I wish I didn't relate to this, but I do. I lost 2 people I loved dearly due to mental health within a month of each other, what a cruel joke right? I couldn't save them, no matter how much I tried. That pain never goes away.
Oh mein Gott als ich vor zwei Jahren suizid Gedanken hatte fand ich deine Seite und ich konnte mich immer so gut in diese Stimme, diese Worte, diese Melodie hineinversetzen. 😢
Und jetzt 2 Jahre später geht es mir so viel besser ich hab die Menschen gefunden die immer an meiner Seite sind und mir so so so so sehr geholfen haben. Die Menschen für die ich mehr als dankbar bin ❤️
Und jetzt vor kurzem sehe ich dich auf tik tok und glaubs kaum und mir kommen die Tränen weil ich mich daran erinnert habe wie mich diese audios von dir etwas mehr geliebt gefühlt haben.
Fühl dich ganz fest geknuddelt von mir ❤️
Jennifer Welschke das bedeutet mir mehr als du denkst! Freut mich wirklich sehr für dich, dass es dir besser geht ❤️
I lost 2 of my Bestfriend in one year 😞 and I love them soo much and miss them everyday... they helped me through my struggles, my feelings, was there in every appointment for my son when I was pregnant.... til this day I have this empty part in my heart because they both had to beautiful soul 2 years and they gone
I am in tears
Hardest four minutes of my life.
My eyes puffy, heart beating, and tears gleaming.
I tried to kill myself, because my girlfriend left me for no reason. She was scared I couldn't fix her, she was more scared of hurting me. I went to school the next day with a giant bandage wrapped cast on my arm where I tried to cut a major artery. When she saw it after 3rd period she... she took me outside and she talked to me. She played this for me. She helped me know I wasn't alone, and now, everytime I attempt, all I think of is her. and that stops me.
Someone cares for you, and if they don't, I do.
I actually needed this. I haven't heard this until now (I've listened to your other audios) and was fine until I read the pinned comment. Listened again and I actually felt it was towards me. Thank you. Although I don't know you, thank you.
Damn that hit my soul
Dear father God I love you☝🙏☝🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹😇☝
I lost my son 4/30/20 to overdose he was 19, this hit home to me, had me in uttering tears, I actually had to share it so others can see how I feel. Death had been on my mind for 7mths now.. i dont want to leave but being without my son hurts more.. You are a blessing.
Hello beautiful