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- ''Asthma'' is now on iTunes, Spotify, Amazon Music, Google Play and CO! (´ ∀ ` *)
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''Schizophrenia cannot be understood without understanding despair.''
-R. D. Laing
Download as MP3:
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SoundCloud:
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OFF VOCAL:
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LYRICS:
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(EDIT: 3:24 should be ''tore'' not teared. Pardon me!)
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Q&A:
Q: What is the song about?
A: The song is about Schizophrenia and more or less about DID (Dissociative identity disorder). I have an official diagnosis mental health related. However, I am doing fine for a couple of years in a row now and preferably would like to keep moving on.
This song has been written out of experience, it's not written out of absolute uncertainty about the topics.
Q: Why did you choose a misleading title?
A: This question was often asked and was one of the reasons for me disabling the comment section. It is in no way a misleading title, in my opinion there can't be any misleading music titles. If it was a video non-music related, I would have certainly understood. In music it's often important to be creative, having an encrypted message behind a title (as well as the lyrics) is very common among musicians.
Q: ''I am diagnosed/have Asthma.''
A: I am sorry to hear that. Actually it's common to develop Asthma and I understand your compassion about this song, nonetheless please respect the official theme that this song was written for and which can be looked up above. Also please do not flood the comment section anymore with such remarks. They have been influencing the closure of the comments section to 90%. Such comments are flagged as spam and will be removed in future. I wish you a healthy recovery.
Q: ''Asthma is not a topic to joke about like that.''
A. I'm sorry that I made you think like that, but I've already explained a lot about this song in this description and also explained further why I chose this title in the end. Please refrain from making harmful accusations like that, every disorder/illness is taken very seriously by me and I would never joke about such serious topics, unless it is appropriate and okay with the person in front of me.
Q: Why is it called ''Asthma''?
A: I wrote this song to explain what I have experienced. During my experiences I've felt like it was hard to breathe (the interpretation on this sentence is open). I've had a major depression phase during that time and it's not that uncommon that victims of said illnesses feel that they keep falling deeper into a hole where it's hard to breathe in/hard to get rid of the illness.
Q: Why did you disable the comments?
A: I explained it further above. Basically, a lot of people have not been respecting my artistic freedom, accused me and the song of being something that they aren't and I have been flooded with spam messages. I needed to breathe through, it was very difficult. In the end there was no other choice than to disable the comment section. I still got comments on other videos, asking why I did do this and they proceeded with telling me about this song and their life stories. This made me feel uncomfortable, since it also was quite inappropriate writing such under another video of mine not related at all to the certain topic of that particular video, but at least it wasn't 200 daily notifications.
I appreciate everyone who reached out to me to tell me about their life and how my song moved them. I would have never imagined that a simple song like this can touch so many people's hearts and even help them to get better and overcome certain things. It means the world to me and even if I do not respond to you, please know that I'm reading every single of your comments.
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You know, you just want to escape from those demons, but in the end you always give in, no matter how hard you try not to, and you end up getting more insane.
At last I want to say, that I know the mastering, mixing and animation actually sucks, but this is my first attempt on making a song.
Hope you enjoy that little weird trip!
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SPECIAL THANKS TO:
Densha Da-Yo, Colossae and lastly CerifUTAU.
Also Shia for this one freaking motivating video. JUST DO IT.
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Music, Lyrics, Tuning, Mastering, Video: Cawer
Art by Colossae:
(colossae.devia...)
Vocals: GUMI English feat. Megurine Luka V4X English Straight
Hi, guys! Thank you so much for over 1M views!!
I revamped my Patreon. 🐸💚 If you liked to help support my covers and original productions, feel free to subscribe on there! Any sort of support is welcome.
patreon.com/reoni
god, i’ve been listening to this song for ages and i never think i got a chance to say how much i love it. it just. hits different
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This is really nice!!
I-I always looked up at you and have been a huge fan of your songs and this comment means a lot to me! ; v ;
Thank you so much, I hope I will improve a lot in the future, since this was my very first song I've ever made, and therefore the mastering and mixing sucks a bit ; vv;
Again, thanks so much
+Reoni☆ | れおに WHAAAAAT THIS IS YOUR FIRST????? WTF THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THEN MY FIRST SONG. HELL IT IS BETTER THEN SONGS I EVEN MAKE NOW
+Creep-P (Krypt Creeper) S-Senpai, plsssssssss YOU MAKE ME BLUSH >< I THOUGHT THIS SONG ACTUALLY SUCKED QAQ
And d-don't say it is better than any songs you do or did, because it makes me feel awkward, you are so much greater ; AAA; WELL MAYBE I LEARNED FROM SENPAI EEEH
@@Reoni hehe ship
but i'm 4 years late ;-;
@@vain_abundalakaka same
I was listening to that song for years. I could relate to it even before I got my diagnosis. My life was a total chaos and I did often ended up in dangerous situations. Even tried to end my life seven times. That song made me stronger somehow and I felt like I could deal with everything while I listened to it. Since then I was put in a mental hospital, and are still under their care even though since over half year I'm not closed in there and can move freely. I got diagnosed with severe depression episodes, asperger, obsessive compulsive disorder and schizophrenia. I really feel much better now, but I want to thank the person who made that song, cause without it, idk what could have happened to me. It really made me stronger and I didn't feel like I'm the only one with such severe problems.
The Minecraft villagers who have been burned alive, robbed, tortured, drowned, stabbed, crushed, and enslaved: *my life’s a game now*
Too relatable LMAO
@@Reoni u should pin this comment ngl
COMMENTS ARE BACK!!
Now I can say: I absolutely love this! It's so well done especially since you did most of this on your own. And with this being a FIRST SONG? Legendary.
I'm someone who is drawn to music that's very disharmonic (The harmonies aren't melding together, but instead crashing and clashing). I actually love how this sounds, but I can also hear the chaos in it. Which is very interesting.
I can hear the effects of what you're going through in the song, but that is why I love music. The person who writes it or makes it, puts themselves into it in some way. It makes it great and this song is.
yeah im not really talented with harmonies lol
anyways, thanks a lot, and I wrote and composed the song on my own when I was in my worst mood, that means I had a schizophrenic phase again.
thanks so much c:
+Reoni☆ | れおに I agree with melmiamisfit. I really liked the way everything clashed. It added to the broken mentality that the song was conveying. I personally like songs that try to portray insanity through sound. I have a hard time finding songs I like so I really appreciate your music :)
+Psylent Rose T-Thanks so much, you guys are really kind and I appreciate your comments!!
I have friends who have Schizophrenia and Asthma, I have Borderline Personality Disorder... I hope you will keep on going and won't let those hallucinations bring you down, the song is really amazing, hard to believe it's your first song. and the MV turned out awesome as well.
+John Smith They didn't say they were teens at all, nor did they say they were self-diagnosed. Stop making random accusations until you know the story behind everything.
***** I am actually not self diagnosing lmao. And actually these illnesses aren't that rare, do some research maybe.
Hope you're doing well ^^^
It's quite painful sorry you have to endure that
To people who commented recently, but I can't reply to, because of their Google+ settings;
Thanks so so so so much for supporting! Since it is my very first original song I've ever finished, it means a lot to me to get all this lovely feedback! God bless you all
This isn't typically the kind of song that I'd listen to (I was led here by "Glass Wall"), but the lyrics are so captivating that I couldn't stop listening. I suffered from severe depression when I was younger and this is the first time I've ever heard someone put that experience into words; it brought me to tears. From reading some of the comments below, it seems like you've touched the hearts of many other people, too, which isn't something that's easily done. For what it's worth, I commend and thank you for bringing such a stunning musical piece into this world.
thank you so much!!
I heard this song first when I was severely depressed, paranoid and almost schizophrenic, my psychiatrist said he wasn't sure but I could have it. The lyrics described exactly how I was feeling and what was going on in my head. This song helped me explain what i was living everyday since i couldn't find the words. My condition improved a lot, and even if i had passed that horrible period I couldn't even hear it because it reminded me too much of my own experience, and I wanted to forget so badly. I'm now healed completely. I understand that that period is part of my life and my growth, and maybe I wouldn't be here if this song wasn't created. I can finally listen to it without having panic attacks and forcing myself to close it because it was too painful. I can simply listen and think "hey, look where i was then and look where i am now" so thanks. Thanks for helping saving myself.
Sorry, English is not my first language, I'll correct immediately!
@@lyney_irl It’s okay it’s very good English and I hope you get well and remember to be strong from battling it(this is coming from a person who has similar problems) ❤️
i like how it has the same robotic voice as if it was in japanese. i like it
ive never heard Gumi sing this low pitched
She sounds when low
She sounds p sexy...
+Ren Birch Tru
Gumi go low
Gumi go sexy
Biohazardous Diva-P Gumi can be pretty hot
+Jacob Peacy
Gumi is *always hot.
I don't think this is dark. This is beautiful because you admit the sad reality but that makes you stronger than ever. I love this so much right now.
OMG COMMENTS ARE BACK
this is literally my favorite song in the history of forever. I first heard it a couple months after it came out and I've been obsessed ever since. Everything in this song works so well with each other, I couldn't imagine a more perfect song describing the experiences with schizophrenia. This is truly a masterpiece
I heard this song ages ago, and really disliked it. I've been going through the darker parts of the fandom recently because I'm a dark person or something idk. Things like suicide song, hardcore remixes of lost ones weeping, songs about depression, suicide etc.
I found this song again, and now I love it. I don't want to sit here and have a stupid immature argument over whose problems are worse, but I've been going through hell recently and it's just scary to see how much I can relate to so many songs. You're an amazing person, stay strong.
+Mikuo Hatsune I'll stay strong if you stay strong
Zoey Kittens >_
I relate to listening to hardcore remixes of the lost ones weeping soo much
I relate to listening to hardcore remixes of the lost ones weeping soooo much
Chiibet same to the point its unhealthy
Hello guys, first of all thank you for 5 thousand views!
I updated the description and put in the edited VSQx file! (The ''Ooh'' parts have to be copied everytime ''If this is the ending'' appears. You can do that either in the VSQx or in your editing program. Also the ''Rah Aa Aa'' has to be copied a lot).
It will be a pain in the ass to mix it, but I wish you good luck lmao.
*DO NOT*, I repeat *DO NOT* edit AND redistribute. You are only allowed to *edit* for *private use* (for example uploads to YT/SC etc). VSQx to UST or VSQ is allowed.
And also you are allowed to make covers with your own voice and VOCALOIDS or UTAUs, AMVs and MMDs or remixes. You do NOT have to ask me, just please credit me.
Have fun!
I just wanted to tell you that I love this song
TheCatLord
it doesnt, since it is not Asthma what the song is describing
what's the song about
+Jenna Hayes read the description...
Do you still have the instrumental? I'd like to make a cover. :3
IM SO GLAD COMMENTS ARE NOW BACK! Please let me express my love for this song! I’m sorry that people bashed you for the title, but I think it perfectly does describe what schizophrenia is! I don’t have it myself but I’m really interested in mental illness so! Back in 8th grade, this song was the one I listened to everyday and I still love it now! I want to praise you for such a good song!
Thank you so much for your support! 🌼💖
Reoni☆ | れおに Of course! You are welcome 💕
Congrats with 1 million views
Also it's good you have opened comment section
UPDATE: OFF VOCAL ADDED (plus all acapella files, please ignore the ''Ah'' of GUMI of the files ''Aa Ra ah ah'', since I did not add it in the song)
Coming back to this masterpiece
Discovered this song when it came out during my vocaloid phase as a kid. I remember relating to it so much, and not even fully understanding it. Now being diagnosed as a child schizophrenic and having severe dissociation problems similar to DID, it makes so much more sense to me, lyrics make more sense listening again, this song is a masterpiece to me and I can't stop listening, and I never plan too. Thank you for making something that so accurately describes how I feel as someone with at least similar mental health issues.
Hi! it's been four-five years since I've listened to this song again, and I just rediscovered it and read the description. I'm so sorry people shit on you for the title. It doesn't make sense to me, but it must've been a horrible experience. I hope things are going better for you and that you still dabble in self-produced songs for no one but yourself!! I really treasured this song a lot when it came out, because not only did you use an engloid voicebank + have incredible tuning (esp in 2015!!), but also it was comforting to listen to such a beautifully disharmonious and "chaotic" song that I really felt mimicked the feeling of losing air, but in a relatable and comforting sense? I haven't been officially diagnosed or anything, but it just really helped me with processing emotions and refocusing myself when I felt such internal discord, and I'm ecstatic to have found this song again :)
Wait this is your first vocaloid song? HOLY WOW THIS IS AMAZING THOUGH
Lyrics:
I don't know how life should
Go on when there's no end.
Even if I keep walking past
The helping hand.
Fearing where to go and
Knowing my soul can't withstand
Is breaking something in half...
INSIDE MY BROKEN SELF.
There might be a way to get out,
Yet I didn't find out how, so I'll keep waiting for that door!
And though my body starts to rot, and my mind's starting to chop,
I'm still believing in the light!
I've broken once and got up again!
I've broken twice; it was the same.
But, despite all that, I'm now reaching my end...
Seems like... I cannot turn back!
I don't know how I should
Go on when there's no end.
Even if I keep holding out
The seeking hand.
Not knowing where to go and
Feelings my soul can't withstand.
Words're breaking something in half.
I SEE THEM CUT IN SKIN.
The blood is dripping down the knife...
*_"Why can't you just end your life?"_*
A question which
Keeps repeating.
And now their body starts to rot,
And their minds're starting to chop.
I've lost my belief
In the light...
as a person with bpd among other things, this song really hits. i've been listening to it for years, and it feels good to see the comment section being reopened because i can finally state how much this song has helped. it feels so, so good to know that there's people with similar issues to me, and i really wish you the best with everything. keep creating, you're brilliant.
I hope you’re feeling better!
Gumi swearing just makes my life 100% whole again...
this is your first attempt????
THIS IS FUDGING BEAUTIFUL
What I like is how she sort of actually sounds out of breath the way Gumi is tuned.
This is amazing! I love this so much. Gumi's voice is used so amazingly well here.
I think this is my favourite English Gumi song. it's really good.
+Mousy Saint That means a lot to me, thank you so much!
+Reoni Schizophrenia and Multiple Identity Disorder seems very hard to live with. I have a new found respect and awe for you and others with these disorders. To live in such terror. It makes me sad. I am happy you are still fighting the good fight. Also this is one of my all time favorite songs. Amazing job!!!
I believe it's called dissociative identity disorder, actually, not multiple personality disorder.
It is known by many names in the psychology field. That being said you are not wrong. That is the commonly known name. I believe the different names signify the mild and severe cases and types.
and she has TALENT and CAN WRITE A SONG while im just stuck here in my room ;-;
Ich habe Gumi noch nie so tief singen gehört, zuerst dachte ich, das wäre AVANNA (gut, dass ich Titel lesen kann...). Das Lied ist extrem faszinierend und irgendwie setzt das etwas in mir in Gang, obwohl ich mich nicht damit identifizieren oder hineinversetzen kann.
Ich schreib jetzt erst einmal eine Übersetzung.
Gumi is BY FAR my favorite Vocaliod!
First try? Really? This is freaking awesome! At first, I was thinking the words were running together too much, but it actually perfectly fits the song and what it's about. I love it! XD
i never thought lower pitched gumi would sound so good,, like damn
This song is really amazing!
At first I thought that the name of the song is a metaphor for depression that strangles a person, but after reading the description I realized that everything is much more serious. I was always quite sensitive, so your song touched me. Our mind is the most difficult to treat. I had a relative suffering from schizophrenia, and I know that it is really hard. Because of this, it is still sad that many people believe that mental illness is cool and they diagnose these diseases on their own without visiting a doctor. I understand that many years have passed since the release of this song, so I hope that now everything is much better for you. Thank you for your great work!
This is catchy, and meaningful at the same time :D You did a good job for a first video!
wow!! this song is awesome!! i love it!!
*reads description*
WAITWAITWAITWAITWAITWHATWHATWHAT
THIS IS YOUR FIRST SONG?! DUDE. DUDE.DUDE. THIS IS AMAZING HOLY SHIT
the words are kinda hard to understand in parts but for a first try THIS IS AMAZING.
this is probably my tenth time listening to this song and i still cant believe this is your first time making a song omg
This is actually one of my favorite songs. It's helped me with my skitzo (my nickname for the "word") and derpression (I try to give then odd names). Thank you, very much :')
Don't thank me, thank yourself. You alone managed to make it work.
if that makes sense.
But, Hope you are doing better now!
First listening to this, I thought it was about a bullied person who finally hit their breaking point and attacked their bullies. The blue and red light that flashes sometimes only increased my thoughts. But I like the intended meaning more, which I read in the description after hearing the song for the first time. Though Gumi and Luka were a bit hard to understand / hear at some points (though that may just be me as hearing can be a bit of a problem sometimes), I very much enjoyed the song and can see myself listening to it at a later date. I hope my theory doesn't offend you Reoni (if you read this), or anyone else who happens upon this comment on a five-year-old video. lol
I have Asthma and having an Asthma Attack is one of the most horrid experiences ever...
***** I can tell, but still, it's metaphorically uses asthma as the way for what she feels.
Heard this song for the first time a couple years ago and I'm still loving it with madness. It's understandable why many people would find it upsetting (but truth be told, there are much much more upsetting Vocaloid songs that have been up for nearly 10 years now). I find it *fascinating* and it makes a great job of expressing and telling a story of sorts.
The song is honestly really good and everything fits well great job especially for your first video ^.^ Good luck with schizophrenia hope you power thru it
THE INSTRUMENTALS ARE SO BEAUTIFUL ;-;
I'd have to say the only thing you need to word on is the vocals for Gumi. Now, I've tried to make a vocaloid sing English before (it was Sonika), and it was hell to make her sound good. Maybe next time try to stick to breaking the syllables of the words into different notes so they are more crisp. Or, you could try doing Japanese, though that would be very hard to do if you don't know the language well. I'd also try to play with the vocal melody a bit more as well.
The music was pretty good though: it sounded disjointed and a little chaotic, which really got the message across and was even catchy most of the time. And the graphics you used weren't bad at all.
I'd say this was a great first song :)
Thanks for your comment.
If you havent checked yet, I have uploaded a japanese one and lots of others already. Also I guess I even tried breaking the syllables, but then I got lazy and replaced some with ''-'' (since there were too many tracks to work on). But I break the syllables in every VSQx I work on.
we found this song a really long time ago and just rediscovered it, having since found out we're a system, and GOD this hits different now. thank you for such an incredible song.
I love this song, omg
CAN'T BELIEVE I FOUND THIS SONG AGAIN AFTER YEARS OF NOT LISTENING TO IT OMG I'M SO HYPED IT FEELS LIKE LISTENING TO IT FOR THE FIRST TIME TTTTT O TTTTT
wow. this is beyond awesome. I'm going to put this on repeat for a few years. thanks! 😊
This is an amazing song and video! With such deep meaning behind it! The whole thing came out perfect in my opinion!!
Amazing job. Please continue to let people what it's like to know what it's to have these conditions. It's something I've failed to do well. Schizophrenia requires great skill to talk about and more tact than should be possible. So please keep it up.
this is probably one of the best songs ive heard. i listened to it years ago, but every time i listen to it it just beats out every other song. i absolutely love it!
At the end of the song the words on the screen read "Rip Myself". As you live your life you change. Your body literally recycles cells and you become a different person. You may eventually forget the way you felt as a child and by following the system and rules set up by society you may even lose your sense of self. With your self missing you will seek and seek, but what you are looking for will always be out of reach. Suffocating reality isn't it, need a gas mask?
+zsands7 That was beautifully said. You'll get the Cawer award for the best comment.
The comments are back, so I'll say something.
I first listened to this when I was at a VERY rough point in my life. I think I listened to this a lot to cope? I read your caption about how this is about you being diagnosed with schizophrenia and DID, and I think I latched onto that when I was younger. My ex-friend at the time also had both schizophrenia and DID, and I associated the song a lot with her despite how horrible she was to me.
I'm 19 now, and since then, I've figured out I also have DID. The alter and host who listened to this song are long gone and probably won't be making any appearances for a while, but I listened to this a lot again after I found out about my disorder, and again, it helped me cope.
It just makes me laugh a little, knowing that we were so close yet so far to figuring out our system. I hope you're doing okay; I know having DID is hard.
I love love LOVE the lyrics!! Good job with this!
Thanks a lot!!
why do i like this song
Ah damn..! That sounds so saddening...I'm so sorry that happened to you!
I hope writing this amazingly well done song helped let out a bit of your stress from finding out! It sounds like you put your heart and soul into it! ^U^
+TheSkylerTv Yes, it did! Thank you so much for listening!
Reoni☆ | れおに No problem! ^U^ I plan on doing a cover of it soon!
Aww thank you so much! I appreciate it! ♥ Please link me then!
Reoni☆ | れおに I'll remember to credit you! ^U^
I was never able to comment before but this has helped me through several psychotic episodes. Thank you. This is a wonderful song.
one word AWESOME.
+bahamut191180 Thank you so much!!
This song is amazing, oh my god, both the music and the lyrics. The subject you wrote about is one where there are lot's of misunderstandings about. Even though the lyrics are still rather vague (in a good way), I would definitely link this song when I'm trying to explain what Schizophrenia or/and MID is/are to people. The lyrics are just so good, omg. Great job on this song. It's amazing, I love it.
+Lypse Thank you so much, senpai!! And yes, that is true >A
well i actually liked it nice work
I honestly wish I could say I could relate, if just to make you feel better, but I honestly have never had an experience with Schisophrenia or Multi-Personality Disorder. The closest I can come can be measured two ways: My writing, and my own personal problems. You probably don't want to read a comment on my stupid problems, especially on a video on this old, so I'm sorry if you read this, however, I really just need to say this after listening. I can at least say that I'll probably write two paragraphs. One, the first, will be on my personal experiences with mental disorders. The other, the second, will be on how my writing allows me to even remotely relate to you.
I suppose I should start off with saying that, while my own problems are much less compared to your own, they are present. Personally, I have Chronophobia, possible anxiety, slight OCD, and am a bit mental (although, I've never gone to a doctor for anything). Chronophobia I would say is my worst, as I believe it to be the reason for my feelings of anxiety. The phobia, to put it simply, is a fear of time. Everything to do with time, from how powerless you are against your own actions during it, to the slow ticking of a clock showing just how much time is going by, is feared. I am not completely sure, however, from what I can gather about the very rare, might I add, phobia, most experience a feel of never doing enough in a certain amount of time, always procrastinating too much, even if they get something done the first hour it's mentioned; they feel like they're not productive enough, no matter what they've done. It always took too long, it always expected to be quicker. This leads, at least in my case, to things like nervous habits that take less than a second, to things like speaking much too quickly, or feeling like things are just too slow no matter what pace they go. I'm always anxious, and slightly afraid, to sleep; not for the normal reasons, like being afraid of nightmares or dying in my sleep, but because I am being completely still for much too long, and because I have no control over how long it takes. I hate taking too long for something, or when people talk slow, because it feels like I'm wasting time. This also leads to anxiety, for reasons that seem just a bit too much on the Chronophobia side to call it anxiety. In my case, I'm always super anxious whenever I, for example, post something, as I believe that no one will like it, or that I messed something up, or that people are just giving me likes out of pity. The more time passes, the more and more anxious I get; even if the post gets a crazy amount of likes, I feel like people are just doing that out of pity, and I'm taking it the wrong way. OCD, I'm not going to cover much, however, if I do something just the wrong way, or if I put something out of order, it's gonna bother me the entire day. I'm not gonna claim to have much of anything with the disorder; I've heard of people who throw a tantrum if they take a single step more than they should, and I'm certainly not that. However, I don't like when tiny things like that are wrong; I do agree with them, it's just, I'm not as severe on the consequences of a difference. Perhaps that is because of my Chronophobia telling me it's not worth my precious time, or my anxiety telling me that people will think me such a horrible person, however, that is the truth. I'm a bit mental, as well, as in the sense that I'm sadistic and masochistic; that, and I much rather enjoy gruesome subjects than happy endings. An ending where the evil witch wins is much more satisfying than the heroes living, to me.
This, I should preface with saying this is not going to be as long as the above paragraph. There isn't as much to say, but it will be important, if you truly wish to read this. As for my writing relations, I can't claim to have much of an experience because of my own disorders. However, I can say that, as an experienced writer, I can personally feel almost all characters (except the super happy ones, because I usually hate them), and can experience their feelings. As such, whenever I write characters with disorders, not only do I feel a special connection due to my own experience with disorders, however, their character interests me, making me more and more invested in them. I'll start to feel the agony they feel whenever something doesn't go with their plan; the sorrow they feel at having a loved one die; the anxiety they feel when everyone is staring at them and they don't know what to say to please the crowd. I start to feel the hatred for their other side, the anxiety they have over switching in a heartbeat, the nervousness they feel when the voices in their heads start to talk when others are present. As such, I can somewhat relate to what you're feeling, if not on a very personal level, but on a level of which is because of my characters. I understand what you're going through, and I understand it must be tough, however, I shall say this: Your life, due to your amazing character, is a definite interesting story, as all interesting characters get interesting stories. After all, your story is your character, meaning they have a direct relationship in quality. And interesting characters always get an ending they'd be proud of, as if it were a reward for their sorrow. So, don't worry. And maybe this is useless to say after a year, however, I wish you luck.
That's all. I really do hope you didn't have to read my annoyingly self-centered story, however, if you did, I congratulate you on getting through it, and truly do wish you the utmost "happy ending" with your own tales.
Wow Eve even your comments are long.
Thank you. Your comment will make lots of people fell much better. Sorry for my horrible english, it isn't my native language.
YES, AN OFF VOCAL!!! NOW I CAN DO THIS AMAZING SONG FOR THE TALENT SHOW!!! You are clucking amazing!!! This is a great song, just so you know ^-^
+Kawaii Ama finally!
soo amazing!so fair!loved it
+Sushi Chan Thank you so much!!
+Reoni☆ | れおに Welcome ^^
I know how you feel...I have Schizophrenia and you really do feel like you're going insane.
The urge to cover this is strong...but my voice is too bad and little kidish! DARN YOU NATURAL VOICE
Thanks >//~//< I just might.
go for it. it might turn out quite a beauty you know
+Sonia 4 Ever Trelli aw thanks X3 I will. It'll take a while though since this song is pretty complicated :D and I love it.
+Red oh my gosh the positive feedback is so much more than I expected X,D thank you so much! I will!
+Red aw thank you! I hope I can do it justice X3 it's an amazing song.
Woah, it's really good, especially for a first song! And especially if it helps you cope with your problems too!
With the pulsing beat, I kinda felt like I was really getting an asthma attack and got a bit scared, haha :D
Thank you so much
Wasn't expecting it either, but it's okay, really ^^
+Justyna Szymanowska I am glad ; v ;
Really cool to see the comments from ages ago and the experience they had with the song and, how they relate to the song in __ ways.
first song? damn I love it. great job do some more? :)
you finished it! omedetou!
Omg, thanks for commenting here, senpai ; A;
this is certainly the best EVER vocaloid original song (just my opinion)
+Reoni You did an amazing job!!! Thank you for doing Gumi justice. She sounds amazing.
This is so great! I really liked your work. There's this part (probably the refrain? can't tell) that sounds kinda wrong in a creppy way, and really, it was cool, even more because the lyric ask for it to be creepy.
At what time?
Thanks a lot!
Reoni☆ | れおに 1:50, but it justifies itself then. 3:14 too, since it repeats the lyric from before. No problem :3
+Flower Doll I guess I kinda get what ya mean xD
lol to be honest when i first saw this song i thought it was about asthma and i was like "i have asthma so i guess I'll listen to it" and i freaking love it
xD it is not about Asthma tho :p
And thanks a lot!
Gosh, I thought I was the only one 😄
+KawaiiBlossoms lollll pls guyys
lol same ^^
Asthma is SUPER common
To me this song is absolute GENIUS. Really, thank you for making this. I listen to it daily, and feel.
REONIII!!!! SHT ...YOU AWESOME!!!...THIS NICE I MEAN...PERFECT...LIKE ITT..OMG!!!!!!WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!//KICKED
HOLY FREAKING GOSH QWQ THANKS FOR LIKING IT, IT MEANS A LOT TO ME
I may not have mental disorders as serious as yours but I can really relate to this. Amazing job I love everything even the video.
This is absolutely brilliant
I'm surprised to see comments being enabled on this song again. I absolutely have adored this song for many years, but wasn't ever able to post it before the comments got turned off again. This song is nothing short of a masterpiece, and can describe so many emotions of inner turmoil that come with the subject it's written on. Absolutely loved this and will continue to love this ♡
I don't listen to Gumi. Much. But when I first heard this, I couldn't think of anything but amazing. The tempo, the beat, and the vocals go well hand in hand, it has great atmosphere. For your first shot at a song, I will definitely say you did amazingly well!
Oh my! Thanks for that lovely comment!! QAQ
+Reoni☆ | れおに No problem at all! Keep making music! If love to listen to it.
+LordofChaos201 Awww thanks for supporting! I will do my best to improve!
Vocaloid's swearing makes my life complete :0
same
No it doesn't quit lying you two, what makes your life complete is living.
I dont have a name ghgafudll i love you
@@youshouldeatsomebabies2153 Oh um.. Thanks
@@nathankid76 That made me laugh harder than it should've
amazing song
The part where it said "Fucking follow the rules" surprised me a bit
This is absolutely amazing. Keep up with the good work, Reoni!
+lmao burgerpants Thank you so much!
Music is made from the memories of their creators and their emotions are stored like weapons except in the form of words.
I have Asthma too! JK JK I read the description no worries. XD Great song. I really like it! Good job especially for your first try. You should definitely make more! Unless you have and I've yet to find it in which case don't mind me. >.
I dont have Schizophrenia or MID but other mental health problems, so I can relate to some of this. The song sounds like the mess in my head feels like...
This song is amazing. Your tuning of Luka is fantastic. Part of the reason this song works so well is because you probably wrote from the heart, which always helps.
On a side note, I'd really like to know why you titled it Asthma. It doesn't make sense to me, but I figure you probably chose it for a good reason.
Keep up the good work! :)
+IbAllAlone - Hopeless-C It's most likely called Asthma because these two mental illnesses are known to be descripted as "suffocating", hence Asthma. I may be wrong though.
+The Sammich Nope, that's right!
I called it Asthma, because these mental disorders make me feel suffocated. Just like a person experiencing Asthma. Actually pretty simple! :)
Oh, and the picture has really many hidden secrets!
Reoni☆ | れおに
Ah, I see.That does make sense. I appreciate what you were trying to get at. and communicate with it :) Not sure I would have chosen this title for it, though. ^^; Thank you for your response!
I think I'll go look for those hidden secrets now. XD
Reoni☆ | れおに Yay, I got it right! And I think it's actually pretty genius, but if you weren't used to seeing things like this, then I would understand the confusion. Not to be mean or start a fight or anything!
+The Sammich To tell the truth, writing songs is my main hobby. ^^; I'm quite used to seeing this sort of thing, it is simply that the last lines ("Forced a smile/ Cheerily singing until my Asthma has come to an end") is the only reference. It IS quite clever to have a word or phrase from the last line be part of the title, but the reference to Asthma was what threw me. Had Asthma been replaced with a word such as "agony", I don't know that I would have felt so confused about the title, and Asthma would have made more sense as the abstract title.
I'm not trying to start a fight, or be mean either. OTL I'm trying to give you some more background on why I asked the question, and why it didn't make sense to me.
I apologize if I have been rude or insensitive in any way, sometimes stuff like that slips past me. ^^;
For a first attempt at making a song, this is actually quite impressive! :D
This is... wow. Are you sure this was your first time?! this song is amazing!!!
Don't sell yourself short. The song is really good, and it puts into words what some people have a hard time describing. :)
This is really good I fact it was so good I didn't even know this was your first song so keep up the good work! :3
For a starter this is amazing
+Pinhead Larry T-Thank you!
Also diagnosed with Schiz, and have dissociative stuff (though not to the point of DID). First attempt? Because this is really good. It's a bit raw, but I think that actually adds to the whole thing. It's hard, but finding things you can relate to has an odd way of helping.
But yeah, thanks for sharing.
Apart from the vocal at times beinf incomprehensible since its too fast, the qhole music is erratic enough its actually calming (b' ')
i feel you as i have been diagnosed with the same ones.. loving this song so much, stay strong
+Komaeda You too, sweetheart and thank you so much!
This song. Is. Amazing.
+Ariki Seniria Thank you so much, I am glad you like it!! ^^
nice song orignal song featuring my fave vocaloid, instant sub^^
+Sicy Thank you!
I love you.
Thanks for providing us with such heartouching eargasms, you german perfect being.
:D
enjoy the like :P (subscribed long ago)
great work
+Khk Pck Thank you so much!