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+Creep-P (Krypt Creeper) S-Senpai, plsssssssss YOU MAKE ME BLUSH >< I THOUGHT THIS SONG ACTUALLY SUCKED QAQ And d-don't say it is better than any songs you do or did, because it makes me feel awkward, you are so much greater ; AAA; WELL MAYBE I LEARNED FROM SENPAI EEEH
COMMENTS ARE BACK!! Now I can say: I absolutely love this! It's so well done especially since you did most of this on your own. And with this being a FIRST SONG? Legendary.
I was listening to that song for years. I could relate to it even before I got my diagnosis. My life was a total chaos and I did often ended up in dangerous situations. Even tried to end my life seven times. That song made me stronger somehow and I felt like I could deal with everything while I listened to it. Since then I was put in a mental hospital, and are still under their care even though since over half year I'm not closed in there and can move freely. I got diagnosed with severe depression episodes, asperger, obsessive compulsive disorder and schizophrenia. I really feel much better now, but I want to thank the person who made that song, cause without it, idk what could have happened to me. It really made me stronger and I didn't feel like I'm the only one with such severe problems.
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I have friends who have Schizophrenia and Asthma, I have Borderline Personality Disorder... I hope you will keep on going and won't let those hallucinations bring you down, the song is really amazing, hard to believe it's your first song. and the MV turned out awesome as well.
+John Smith They didn't say they were teens at all, nor did they say they were self-diagnosed. Stop making random accusations until you know the story behind everything.
I'm someone who is drawn to music that's very disharmonic (The harmonies aren't melding together, but instead crashing and clashing). I actually love how this sounds, but I can also hear the chaos in it. Which is very interesting. I can hear the effects of what you're going through in the song, but that is why I love music. The person who writes it or makes it, puts themselves into it in some way. It makes it great and this song is.
yeah im not really talented with harmonies lol anyways, thanks a lot, and I wrote and composed the song on my own when I was in my worst mood, that means I had a schizophrenic phase again. thanks so much c:
+Reoni☆ | れおに I agree with melmiamisfit. I really liked the way everything clashed. It added to the broken mentality that the song was conveying. I personally like songs that try to portray insanity through sound. I have a hard time finding songs I like so I really appreciate your music :)
Hello guys, first of all thank you for 5 thousand views! I updated the description and put in the edited VSQx file! (The ''Ooh'' parts have to be copied everytime ''If this is the ending'' appears. You can do that either in the VSQx or in your editing program. Also the ''Rah Aa Aa'' has to be copied a lot). It will be a pain in the ass to mix it, but I wish you good luck lmao. *DO NOT*, I repeat *DO NOT* edit AND redistribute. You are only allowed to *edit* for *private use* (for example uploads to YT/SC etc). VSQx to UST or VSQ is allowed. And also you are allowed to make covers with your own voice and VOCALOIDS or UTAUs, AMVs and MMDs or remixes. You do NOT have to ask me, just please credit me. Have fun!
This isn't typically the kind of song that I'd listen to (I was led here by "Glass Wall"), but the lyrics are so captivating that I couldn't stop listening. I suffered from severe depression when I was younger and this is the first time I've ever heard someone put that experience into words; it brought me to tears. From reading some of the comments below, it seems like you've touched the hearts of many other people, too, which isn't something that's easily done. For what it's worth, I commend and thank you for bringing such a stunning musical piece into this world.
I heard this song ages ago, and really disliked it. I've been going through the darker parts of the fandom recently because I'm a dark person or something idk. Things like suicide song, hardcore remixes of lost ones weeping, songs about depression, suicide etc. I found this song again, and now I love it. I don't want to sit here and have a stupid immature argument over whose problems are worse, but I've been going through hell recently and it's just scary to see how much I can relate to so many songs. You're an amazing person, stay strong.
I heard this song first when I was severely depressed, paranoid and almost schizophrenic, my psychiatrist said he wasn't sure but I could have it. The lyrics described exactly how I was feeling and what was going on in my head. This song helped me explain what i was living everyday since i couldn't find the words. My condition improved a lot, and even if i had passed that horrible period I couldn't even hear it because it reminded me too much of my own experience, and I wanted to forget so badly. I'm now healed completely. I understand that that period is part of my life and my growth, and maybe I wouldn't be here if this song wasn't created. I can finally listen to it without having panic attacks and forcing myself to close it because it was too painful. I can simply listen and think "hey, look where i was then and look where i am now" so thanks. Thanks for helping saving myself.
@@lyney_irl It’s okay it’s very good English and I hope you get well and remember to be strong from battling it(this is coming from a person who has similar problems) ❤️
OMG COMMENTS ARE BACK this is literally my favorite song in the history of forever. I first heard it a couple months after it came out and I've been obsessed ever since. Everything in this song works so well with each other, I couldn't imagine a more perfect song describing the experiences with schizophrenia. This is truly a masterpiece
IM SO GLAD COMMENTS ARE NOW BACK! Please let me express my love for this song! I’m sorry that people bashed you for the title, but I think it perfectly does describe what schizophrenia is! I don’t have it myself but I’m really interested in mental illness so! Back in 8th grade, this song was the one I listened to everyday and I still love it now! I want to praise you for such a good song!
Discovered this song when it came out during my vocaloid phase as a kid. I remember relating to it so much, and not even fully understanding it. Now being diagnosed as a child schizophrenic and having severe dissociation problems similar to DID, it makes so much more sense to me, lyrics make more sense listening again, this song is a masterpiece to me and I can't stop listening, and I never plan too. Thank you for making something that so accurately describes how I feel as someone with at least similar mental health issues.
as a person with bpd among other things, this song really hits. i've been listening to it for years, and it feels good to see the comment section being reopened because i can finally state how much this song has helped. it feels so, so good to know that there's people with similar issues to me, and i really wish you the best with everything. keep creating, you're brilliant.
Hi! it's been four-five years since I've listened to this song again, and I just rediscovered it and read the description. I'm so sorry people shit on you for the title. It doesn't make sense to me, but it must've been a horrible experience. I hope things are going better for you and that you still dabble in self-produced songs for no one but yourself!! I really treasured this song a lot when it came out, because not only did you use an engloid voicebank + have incredible tuning (esp in 2015!!), but also it was comforting to listen to such a beautifully disharmonious and "chaotic" song that I really felt mimicked the feeling of losing air, but in a relatable and comforting sense? I haven't been officially diagnosed or anything, but it just really helped me with processing emotions and refocusing myself when I felt such internal discord, and I'm ecstatic to have found this song again :)
This song is really amazing! At first I thought that the name of the song is a metaphor for depression that strangles a person, but after reading the description I realized that everything is much more serious. I was always quite sensitive, so your song touched me. Our mind is the most difficult to treat. I had a relative suffering from schizophrenia, and I know that it is really hard. Because of this, it is still sad that many people believe that mental illness is cool and they diagnose these diseases on their own without visiting a doctor. I understand that many years have passed since the release of this song, so I hope that now everything is much better for you. Thank you for your great work!
+Reoni Schizophrenia and Multiple Identity Disorder seems very hard to live with. I have a new found respect and awe for you and others with these disorders. To live in such terror. It makes me sad. I am happy you are still fighting the good fight. Also this is one of my all time favorite songs. Amazing job!!!
It is known by many names in the psychology field. That being said you are not wrong. That is the commonly known name. I believe the different names signify the mild and severe cases and types.
First try? Really? This is freaking awesome! At first, I was thinking the words were running together too much, but it actually perfectly fits the song and what it's about. I love it! XD
wow!! this song is awesome!! i love it!! *reads description* WAITWAITWAITWAITWAITWHATWHATWHAT THIS IS YOUR FIRST SONG?! DUDE. DUDE.DUDE. THIS IS AMAZING HOLY SHIT the words are kinda hard to understand in parts but for a first try THIS IS AMAZING.
Ich habe Gumi noch nie so tief singen gehört, zuerst dachte ich, das wäre AVANNA (gut, dass ich Titel lesen kann...). Das Lied ist extrem faszinierend und irgendwie setzt das etwas in mir in Gang, obwohl ich mich nicht damit identifizieren oder hineinversetzen kann. Ich schreib jetzt erst einmal eine Übersetzung.
Lyrics: I don't know how life should Go on when there's no end. Even if I keep walking past The helping hand. Fearing where to go and Knowing my soul can't withstand Is breaking something in half... INSIDE MY BROKEN SELF. There might be a way to get out, Yet I didn't find out how, so I'll keep waiting for that door! And though my body starts to rot, and my mind's starting to chop, I'm still believing in the light! I've broken once and got up again! I've broken twice; it was the same. But, despite all that, I'm now reaching my end... Seems like... I cannot turn back! I don't know how I should Go on when there's no end. Even if I keep holding out The seeking hand. Not knowing where to go and Feelings my soul can't withstand. Words're breaking something in half. I SEE THEM CUT IN SKIN. The blood is dripping down the knife... *_"Why can't you just end your life?"_* A question which Keeps repeating. And now their body starts to rot, And their minds're starting to chop. I've lost my belief In the light...
this is probably one of the best songs ive heard. i listened to it years ago, but every time i listen to it it just beats out every other song. i absolutely love it!
The comments are back, so I'll say something. I first listened to this when I was at a VERY rough point in my life. I think I listened to this a lot to cope? I read your caption about how this is about you being diagnosed with schizophrenia and DID, and I think I latched onto that when I was younger. My ex-friend at the time also had both schizophrenia and DID, and I associated the song a lot with her despite how horrible she was to me. I'm 19 now, and since then, I've figured out I also have DID. The alter and host who listened to this song are long gone and probably won't be making any appearances for a while, but I listened to this a lot again after I found out about my disorder, and again, it helped me cope. It just makes me laugh a little, knowing that we were so close yet so far to figuring out our system. I hope you're doing okay; I know having DID is hard.
This is actually one of my favorite songs. It's helped me with my skitzo (my nickname for the "word") and derpression (I try to give then odd names). Thank you, very much :')
First listening to this, I thought it was about a bullied person who finally hit their breaking point and attacked their bullies. The blue and red light that flashes sometimes only increased my thoughts. But I like the intended meaning more, which I read in the description after hearing the song for the first time. Though Gumi and Luka were a bit hard to understand / hear at some points (though that may just be me as hearing can be a bit of a problem sometimes), I very much enjoyed the song and can see myself listening to it at a later date. I hope my theory doesn't offend you Reoni (if you read this), or anyone else who happens upon this comment on a five-year-old video. lol
CAN'T BELIEVE I FOUND THIS SONG AGAIN AFTER YEARS OF NOT LISTENING TO IT OMG I'M SO HYPED IT FEELS LIKE LISTENING TO IT FOR THE FIRST TIME TTTTT O TTTTT
Amazing job. Please continue to let people what it's like to know what it's to have these conditions. It's something I've failed to do well. Schizophrenia requires great skill to talk about and more tact than should be possible. So please keep it up.
Heard this song for the first time a couple years ago and I'm still loving it with madness. It's understandable why many people would find it upsetting (but truth be told, there are much much more upsetting Vocaloid songs that have been up for nearly 10 years now). I find it *fascinating* and it makes a great job of expressing and telling a story of sorts.
Ah damn..! That sounds so saddening...I'm so sorry that happened to you! I hope writing this amazingly well done song helped let out a bit of your stress from finding out! It sounds like you put your heart and soul into it! ^U^
This song is amazing, oh my god, both the music and the lyrics. The subject you wrote about is one where there are lot's of misunderstandings about. Even though the lyrics are still rather vague (in a good way), I would definitely link this song when I'm trying to explain what Schizophrenia or/and MID is/are to people. The lyrics are just so good, omg. Great job on this song. It's amazing, I love it.
The song is honestly really good and everything fits well great job especially for your first video ^.^ Good luck with schizophrenia hope you power thru it
we found this song a really long time ago and just rediscovered it, having since found out we're a system, and GOD this hits different now. thank you for such an incredible song.
lol to be honest when i first saw this song i thought it was about asthma and i was like "i have asthma so i guess I'll listen to it" and i freaking love it
I'm honestly surprised at how catchy this song is~ The beginning (to about 1:22) is a bit off putting (by no means am I saying its bad, its still very well done--) I enjoy the simple pv, and I'm definitely going to listen to this song quite a few times! An amazing first attempt! And after looking at some of your other original songs, I'm very excited to see more~
+Mitsuki Inokuma I know it is, but it describes ...something dark. Like it is common for people with Schizo', that they have suicidal thoughts and try to harm themselves. That is why these off putting sentences. Should have included a warning lmao. Anyways, thanks so much for supporting! I really appreciate it!
+Mitsuki Inokuma Well it is very hard to tune Vocaloids and I tried my best, and this was the best I could get to make GUMI sound fluent, sorry if you dislike that :)
Woah, it's really good, especially for a first song! And especially if it helps you cope with your problems too! With the pulsing beat, I kinda felt like I was really getting an asthma attack and got a bit scared, haha :D
I don't listen to Gumi. Much. But when I first heard this, I couldn't think of anything but amazing. The tempo, the beat, and the vocals go well hand in hand, it has great atmosphere. For your first shot at a song, I will definitely say you did amazingly well!
This song is amazing. Your tuning of Luka is fantastic. Part of the reason this song works so well is because you probably wrote from the heart, which always helps. On a side note, I'd really like to know why you titled it Asthma. It doesn't make sense to me, but I figure you probably chose it for a good reason. Keep up the good work! :)
+IbAllAlone - Hopeless-C It's most likely called Asthma because these two mental illnesses are known to be descripted as "suffocating", hence Asthma. I may be wrong though.
+The Sammich Nope, that's right! I called it Asthma, because these mental disorders make me feel suffocated. Just like a person experiencing Asthma. Actually pretty simple! :) Oh, and the picture has really many hidden secrets!
Reoni☆ | れおに Ah, I see.That does make sense. I appreciate what you were trying to get at. and communicate with it :) Not sure I would have chosen this title for it, though. ^^; Thank you for your response! I think I'll go look for those hidden secrets now. XD
Reoni☆ | れおに Yay, I got it right! And I think it's actually pretty genius, but if you weren't used to seeing things like this, then I would understand the confusion. Not to be mean or start a fight or anything!
+The Sammich To tell the truth, writing songs is my main hobby. ^^; I'm quite used to seeing this sort of thing, it is simply that the last lines ("Forced a smile/ Cheerily singing until my Asthma has come to an end") is the only reference. It IS quite clever to have a word or phrase from the last line be part of the title, but the reference to Asthma was what threw me. Had Asthma been replaced with a word such as "agony", I don't know that I would have felt so confused about the title, and Asthma would have made more sense as the abstract title. I'm not trying to start a fight, or be mean either. OTL I'm trying to give you some more background on why I asked the question, and why it didn't make sense to me. I apologize if I have been rude or insensitive in any way, sometimes stuff like that slips past me. ^^; For a first attempt at making a song, this is actually quite impressive! :D
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god, i’ve been listening to this song for ages and i never think i got a chance to say how much i love it. it just. hits different
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This is really nice!!
I-I always looked up at you and have been a huge fan of your songs and this comment means a lot to me! ; v ;
Thank you so much, I hope I will improve a lot in the future, since this was my very first song I've ever made, and therefore the mastering and mixing sucks a bit ; vv;
Again, thanks so much
+Reoni☆ | れおに WHAAAAAT THIS IS YOUR FIRST????? WTF THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THEN MY FIRST SONG. HELL IT IS BETTER THEN SONGS I EVEN MAKE NOW
+Creep-P (Krypt Creeper) S-Senpai, plsssssssss YOU MAKE ME BLUSH >< I THOUGHT THIS SONG ACTUALLY SUCKED QAQ
And d-don't say it is better than any songs you do or did, because it makes me feel awkward, you are so much greater ; AAA; WELL MAYBE I LEARNED FROM SENPAI EEEH
@@Reoni hehe ship
but i'm 4 years late ;-;
@@vain_abundalakaka same
The Minecraft villagers who have been burned alive, robbed, tortured, drowned, stabbed, crushed, and enslaved: *my life’s a game now*
Too relatable LMAO
@@Reoni u should pin this comment ngl
COMMENTS ARE BACK!!
Now I can say: I absolutely love this! It's so well done especially since you did most of this on your own. And with this being a FIRST SONG? Legendary.
I was listening to that song for years. I could relate to it even before I got my diagnosis. My life was a total chaos and I did often ended up in dangerous situations. Even tried to end my life seven times. That song made me stronger somehow and I felt like I could deal with everything while I listened to it. Since then I was put in a mental hospital, and are still under their care even though since over half year I'm not closed in there and can move freely. I got diagnosed with severe depression episodes, asperger, obsessive compulsive disorder and schizophrenia. I really feel much better now, but I want to thank the person who made that song, cause without it, idk what could have happened to me. It really made me stronger and I didn't feel like I'm the only one with such severe problems.
To people who commented recently, but I can't reply to, because of their Google+ settings;
Thanks so so so so much for supporting! Since it is my very first original song I've ever finished, it means a lot to me to get all this lovely feedback! God bless you all
I have friends who have Schizophrenia and Asthma, I have Borderline Personality Disorder... I hope you will keep on going and won't let those hallucinations bring you down, the song is really amazing, hard to believe it's your first song. and the MV turned out awesome as well.
+John Smith They didn't say they were teens at all, nor did they say they were self-diagnosed. Stop making random accusations until you know the story behind everything.
***** I am actually not self diagnosing lmao. And actually these illnesses aren't that rare, do some research maybe.
Hope you're doing well ^^^
It's quite painful sorry you have to endure that
I'm someone who is drawn to music that's very disharmonic (The harmonies aren't melding together, but instead crashing and clashing). I actually love how this sounds, but I can also hear the chaos in it. Which is very interesting.
I can hear the effects of what you're going through in the song, but that is why I love music. The person who writes it or makes it, puts themselves into it in some way. It makes it great and this song is.
yeah im not really talented with harmonies lol
anyways, thanks a lot, and I wrote and composed the song on my own when I was in my worst mood, that means I had a schizophrenic phase again.
thanks so much c:
+Reoni☆ | れおに I agree with melmiamisfit. I really liked the way everything clashed. It added to the broken mentality that the song was conveying. I personally like songs that try to portray insanity through sound. I have a hard time finding songs I like so I really appreciate your music :)
+Psylent Rose T-Thanks so much, you guys are really kind and I appreciate your comments!!
Hello guys, first of all thank you for 5 thousand views!
I updated the description and put in the edited VSQx file! (The ''Ooh'' parts have to be copied everytime ''If this is the ending'' appears. You can do that either in the VSQx or in your editing program. Also the ''Rah Aa Aa'' has to be copied a lot).
It will be a pain in the ass to mix it, but I wish you good luck lmao.
*DO NOT*, I repeat *DO NOT* edit AND redistribute. You are only allowed to *edit* for *private use* (for example uploads to YT/SC etc). VSQx to UST or VSQ is allowed.
And also you are allowed to make covers with your own voice and VOCALOIDS or UTAUs, AMVs and MMDs or remixes. You do NOT have to ask me, just please credit me.
Have fun!
I just wanted to tell you that I love this song
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it doesnt, since it is not Asthma what the song is describing
what's the song about
+Jenna Hayes read the description...
Do you still have the instrumental? I'd like to make a cover. :3
This isn't typically the kind of song that I'd listen to (I was led here by "Glass Wall"), but the lyrics are so captivating that I couldn't stop listening. I suffered from severe depression when I was younger and this is the first time I've ever heard someone put that experience into words; it brought me to tears. From reading some of the comments below, it seems like you've touched the hearts of many other people, too, which isn't something that's easily done. For what it's worth, I commend and thank you for bringing such a stunning musical piece into this world.
thank you so much!!
ive never heard Gumi sing this low pitched
She sounds when low
She sounds p sexy...
+Ren Birch Tru
Gumi go low
Gumi go sexy
Biohazardous Diva-P Gumi can be pretty hot
+Jacob Peacy
Gumi is *always hot.
I heard this song ages ago, and really disliked it. I've been going through the darker parts of the fandom recently because I'm a dark person or something idk. Things like suicide song, hardcore remixes of lost ones weeping, songs about depression, suicide etc.
I found this song again, and now I love it. I don't want to sit here and have a stupid immature argument over whose problems are worse, but I've been going through hell recently and it's just scary to see how much I can relate to so many songs. You're an amazing person, stay strong.
+Mikuo Hatsune I'll stay strong if you stay strong
Zoey Kittens >_
I relate to listening to hardcore remixes of the lost ones weeping soo much
I relate to listening to hardcore remixes of the lost ones weeping soooo much
Chiibet same to the point its unhealthy
UPDATE: OFF VOCAL ADDED (plus all acapella files, please ignore the ''Ah'' of GUMI of the files ''Aa Ra ah ah'', since I did not add it in the song)
I heard this song first when I was severely depressed, paranoid and almost schizophrenic, my psychiatrist said he wasn't sure but I could have it. The lyrics described exactly how I was feeling and what was going on in my head. This song helped me explain what i was living everyday since i couldn't find the words. My condition improved a lot, and even if i had passed that horrible period I couldn't even hear it because it reminded me too much of my own experience, and I wanted to forget so badly. I'm now healed completely. I understand that that period is part of my life and my growth, and maybe I wouldn't be here if this song wasn't created. I can finally listen to it without having panic attacks and forcing myself to close it because it was too painful. I can simply listen and think "hey, look where i was then and look where i am now" so thanks. Thanks for helping saving myself.
Sorry, English is not my first language, I'll correct immediately!
@@lyney_irl It’s okay it’s very good English and I hope you get well and remember to be strong from battling it(this is coming from a person who has similar problems) ❤️
i like how it has the same robotic voice as if it was in japanese. i like it
I don't think this is dark. This is beautiful because you admit the sad reality but that makes you stronger than ever. I love this so much right now.
OMG COMMENTS ARE BACK
this is literally my favorite song in the history of forever. I first heard it a couple months after it came out and I've been obsessed ever since. Everything in this song works so well with each other, I couldn't imagine a more perfect song describing the experiences with schizophrenia. This is truly a masterpiece
IM SO GLAD COMMENTS ARE NOW BACK! Please let me express my love for this song! I’m sorry that people bashed you for the title, but I think it perfectly does describe what schizophrenia is! I don’t have it myself but I’m really interested in mental illness so! Back in 8th grade, this song was the one I listened to everyday and I still love it now! I want to praise you for such a good song!
Thank you so much for your support! 🌼💖
Reoni☆ | れおに Of course! You are welcome 💕
Discovered this song when it came out during my vocaloid phase as a kid. I remember relating to it so much, and not even fully understanding it. Now being diagnosed as a child schizophrenic and having severe dissociation problems similar to DID, it makes so much more sense to me, lyrics make more sense listening again, this song is a masterpiece to me and I can't stop listening, and I never plan too. Thank you for making something that so accurately describes how I feel as someone with at least similar mental health issues.
Congrats with 1 million views
Also it's good you have opened comment section
as a person with bpd among other things, this song really hits. i've been listening to it for years, and it feels good to see the comment section being reopened because i can finally state how much this song has helped. it feels so, so good to know that there's people with similar issues to me, and i really wish you the best with everything. keep creating, you're brilliant.
I hope you’re feeling better!
Coming back to this masterpiece
Gumi swearing just makes my life 100% whole again...
Wait this is your first vocaloid song? HOLY WOW THIS IS AMAZING THOUGH
Hi! it's been four-five years since I've listened to this song again, and I just rediscovered it and read the description. I'm so sorry people shit on you for the title. It doesn't make sense to me, but it must've been a horrible experience. I hope things are going better for you and that you still dabble in self-produced songs for no one but yourself!! I really treasured this song a lot when it came out, because not only did you use an engloid voicebank + have incredible tuning (esp in 2015!!), but also it was comforting to listen to such a beautifully disharmonious and "chaotic" song that I really felt mimicked the feeling of losing air, but in a relatable and comforting sense? I haven't been officially diagnosed or anything, but it just really helped me with processing emotions and refocusing myself when I felt such internal discord, and I'm ecstatic to have found this song again :)
this is probably my tenth time listening to this song and i still cant believe this is your first time making a song omg
This is amazing! I love this so much. Gumi's voice is used so amazingly well here.
I think this is my favourite English Gumi song. it's really good.
+Mousy Saint That means a lot to me, thank you so much!
This song is really amazing!
At first I thought that the name of the song is a metaphor for depression that strangles a person, but after reading the description I realized that everything is much more serious. I was always quite sensitive, so your song touched me. Our mind is the most difficult to treat. I had a relative suffering from schizophrenia, and I know that it is really hard. Because of this, it is still sad that many people believe that mental illness is cool and they diagnose these diseases on their own without visiting a doctor. I understand that many years have passed since the release of this song, so I hope that now everything is much better for you. Thank you for your great work!
+Reoni Schizophrenia and Multiple Identity Disorder seems very hard to live with. I have a new found respect and awe for you and others with these disorders. To live in such terror. It makes me sad. I am happy you are still fighting the good fight. Also this is one of my all time favorite songs. Amazing job!!!
I believe it's called dissociative identity disorder, actually, not multiple personality disorder.
It is known by many names in the psychology field. That being said you are not wrong. That is the commonly known name. I believe the different names signify the mild and severe cases and types.
and she has TALENT and CAN WRITE A SONG while im just stuck here in my room ;-;
i never thought lower pitched gumi would sound so good,, like damn
this is your first attempt????
THIS IS FUDGING BEAUTIFUL
your song are beautiful.. good job nwn
+AJ /Music Thanks so much, senpai! QAQ
senpai?? you listen my music?? wow QwQ
W-Well uh, I automatically call everyone senpai, who got more subs than me xD
aaa ok xD no problem jajaja, your song is beautiful
Gumi is BY FAR my favorite Vocaliod!
First try? Really? This is freaking awesome! At first, I was thinking the words were running together too much, but it actually perfectly fits the song and what it's about. I love it! XD
wow!! this song is awesome!! i love it!!
*reads description*
WAITWAITWAITWAITWAITWHATWHATWHAT
THIS IS YOUR FIRST SONG?! DUDE. DUDE.DUDE. THIS IS AMAZING HOLY SHIT
the words are kinda hard to understand in parts but for a first try THIS IS AMAZING.
I love this song, omg
Ich habe Gumi noch nie so tief singen gehört, zuerst dachte ich, das wäre AVANNA (gut, dass ich Titel lesen kann...). Das Lied ist extrem faszinierend und irgendwie setzt das etwas in mir in Gang, obwohl ich mich nicht damit identifizieren oder hineinversetzen kann.
Ich schreib jetzt erst einmal eine Übersetzung.
Lyrics:
I don't know how life should
Go on when there's no end.
Even if I keep walking past
The helping hand.
Fearing where to go and
Knowing my soul can't withstand
Is breaking something in half...
INSIDE MY BROKEN SELF.
There might be a way to get out,
Yet I didn't find out how, so I'll keep waiting for that door!
And though my body starts to rot, and my mind's starting to chop,
I'm still believing in the light!
I've broken once and got up again!
I've broken twice; it was the same.
But, despite all that, I'm now reaching my end...
Seems like... I cannot turn back!
I don't know how I should
Go on when there's no end.
Even if I keep holding out
The seeking hand.
Not knowing where to go and
Feelings my soul can't withstand.
Words're breaking something in half.
I SEE THEM CUT IN SKIN.
The blood is dripping down the knife...
*_"Why can't you just end your life?"_*
A question which
Keeps repeating.
And now their body starts to rot,
And their minds're starting to chop.
I've lost my belief
In the light...
this is probably one of the best songs ive heard. i listened to it years ago, but every time i listen to it it just beats out every other song. i absolutely love it!
This is catchy, and meaningful at the same time :D You did a good job for a first video!
The comments are back, so I'll say something.
I first listened to this when I was at a VERY rough point in my life. I think I listened to this a lot to cope? I read your caption about how this is about you being diagnosed with schizophrenia and DID, and I think I latched onto that when I was younger. My ex-friend at the time also had both schizophrenia and DID, and I associated the song a lot with her despite how horrible she was to me.
I'm 19 now, and since then, I've figured out I also have DID. The alter and host who listened to this song are long gone and probably won't be making any appearances for a while, but I listened to this a lot again after I found out about my disorder, and again, it helped me cope.
It just makes me laugh a little, knowing that we were so close yet so far to figuring out our system. I hope you're doing okay; I know having DID is hard.
This is actually one of my favorite songs. It's helped me with my skitzo (my nickname for the "word") and derpression (I try to give then odd names). Thank you, very much :')
Don't thank me, thank yourself. You alone managed to make it work.
if that makes sense.
But, Hope you are doing better now!
First listening to this, I thought it was about a bullied person who finally hit their breaking point and attacked their bullies. The blue and red light that flashes sometimes only increased my thoughts. But I like the intended meaning more, which I read in the description after hearing the song for the first time. Though Gumi and Luka were a bit hard to understand / hear at some points (though that may just be me as hearing can be a bit of a problem sometimes), I very much enjoyed the song and can see myself listening to it at a later date. I hope my theory doesn't offend you Reoni (if you read this), or anyone else who happens upon this comment on a five-year-old video. lol
CAN'T BELIEVE I FOUND THIS SONG AGAIN AFTER YEARS OF NOT LISTENING TO IT OMG I'M SO HYPED IT FEELS LIKE LISTENING TO IT FOR THE FIRST TIME TTTTT O TTTTT
Amazing job. Please continue to let people what it's like to know what it's to have these conditions. It's something I've failed to do well. Schizophrenia requires great skill to talk about and more tact than should be possible. So please keep it up.
Heard this song for the first time a couple years ago and I'm still loving it with madness. It's understandable why many people would find it upsetting (but truth be told, there are much much more upsetting Vocaloid songs that have been up for nearly 10 years now). I find it *fascinating* and it makes a great job of expressing and telling a story of sorts.
Ah damn..! That sounds so saddening...I'm so sorry that happened to you!
I hope writing this amazingly well done song helped let out a bit of your stress from finding out! It sounds like you put your heart and soul into it! ^U^
+TheSkylerTv Yes, it did! Thank you so much for listening!
Reoni☆ | れおに No problem! ^U^ I plan on doing a cover of it soon!
Aww thank you so much! I appreciate it! ♥ Please link me then!
Reoni☆ | れおに I'll remember to credit you! ^U^
well i actually liked it nice work
I love love LOVE the lyrics!! Good job with this!
Thanks a lot!!
wOAH THIS IS YOUR FIRST SONG!!
nice!!
wow. this is beyond awesome. I'm going to put this on repeat for a few years. thanks! 😊
This song is amazing, oh my god, both the music and the lyrics. The subject you wrote about is one where there are lot's of misunderstandings about. Even though the lyrics are still rather vague (in a good way), I would definitely link this song when I'm trying to explain what Schizophrenia or/and MID is/are to people. The lyrics are just so good, omg. Great job on this song. It's amazing, I love it.
+Lypse Thank you so much, senpai!! And yes, that is true >A
Woah I forgot about this song I remember how I found it and I remember thinking Luka sounds like Len at 2:57
I was never able to comment before but this has helped me through several psychotic episodes. Thank you. This is a wonderful song.
The song is honestly really good and everything fits well great job especially for your first video ^.^ Good luck with schizophrenia hope you power thru it
Tis bootifull
why do i like this song
This is an amazing song and video! With such deep meaning behind it! The whole thing came out perfect in my opinion!!
we found this song a really long time ago and just rediscovered it, having since found out we're a system, and GOD this hits different now. thank you for such an incredible song.
you finished it! omedetou!
Omg, thanks for commenting here, senpai ; A;
one word AWESOME.
+bahamut191180 Thank you so much!!
This is absolutely brilliant
THE INSTRUMENTALS ARE SO BEAUTIFUL ;-;
soo amazing!so fair!loved it
+Sushi Chan Thank you so much!!
+Reoni☆ | れおに Welcome ^^
I may not have mental disorders as serious as yours but I can really relate to this. Amazing job I love everything even the video.
amazing song
Really cool to see the comments from ages ago and the experience they had with the song and, how they relate to the song in __ ways.
REONIII!!!! SHT ...YOU AWESOME!!!...THIS NICE I MEAN...PERFECT...LIKE ITT..OMG!!!!!!WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!//KICKED
HOLY FREAKING GOSH QWQ THANKS FOR LIKING IT, IT MEANS A LOT TO ME
lol to be honest when i first saw this song i thought it was about asthma and i was like "i have asthma so i guess I'll listen to it" and i freaking love it
xD it is not about Asthma tho :p
And thanks a lot!
Gosh, I thought I was the only one 😄
+KawaiiBlossoms lollll pls guyys
lol same ^^
Asthma is SUPER common
YES, AN OFF VOCAL!!! NOW I CAN DO THIS AMAZING SONG FOR THE TALENT SHOW!!! You are clucking amazing!!! This is a great song, just so you know ^-^
+Kawaii Ama finally!
To me this song is absolute GENIUS. Really, thank you for making this. I listen to it daily, and feel.
Woah, this is a really great song! Good job! :)
this is an amazing song for a first try! good job!
great work
+Khk Pck Thank you so much!
+Reoni You did an amazing job!!! Thank you for doing Gumi justice. She sounds amazing.
ahhhhhrrrwwww so AMAZING *~*
This is... wow. Are you sure this was your first time?! this song is amazing!!!
First time Bruh i love this sick beat
I have Asthma and having an Asthma Attack is one of the most horrid experiences ever...
***** I can tell, but still, it's metaphorically uses asthma as the way for what she feels.
Wow :D Amazing!
+_MiffedQuill3_ ___ (Near) Thank you so much! QWQ
nice song orignal song featuring my fave vocaloid, instant sub^^
+Sicy Thank you!
I love you.
Thanks for providing us with such heartouching eargasms, you german perfect being.
:D
enjoy the like :P (subscribed long ago)
I'm honestly surprised at how catchy this song is~
The beginning (to about 1:22) is a bit off putting (by no means am I saying its bad, its still very well done--) I enjoy the simple pv, and I'm definitely going to listen to this song quite a few times! An amazing first attempt!
And after looking at some of your other original songs, I'm very excited to see more~
+Mitsuki Inokuma I know it is, but it describes ...something dark. Like it is common for people with Schizo', that they have suicidal thoughts and try to harm themselves. That is why these off putting sentences. Should have included a warning lmao.
Anyways, thanks so much for supporting! I really appreciate it!
Ahh no I meant the cadence/fluidity of some of the words not the lyrics! Sorry for the confusion
+Mitsuki Inokuma Well it is very hard to tune Vocaloids and I tried my best, and this was the best I could get to make GUMI sound fluent, sorry if you dislike that :)
Simply *Amazing*!!
For a starter this is amazing
+Pinhead Larry T-Thank you!
i feel you as i have been diagnosed with the same ones.. loving this song so much, stay strong
+Komaeda You too, sweetheart and thank you so much!
you just earned a sub~! dont let the demons eat you alive. stay strong!
This is amazing!!! I love it!
this is certainly the best EVER vocaloid original song (just my opinion)
Wow, this is awesome!
i already loved all the songs gumi had been the voice for but i think after this my love for these songs grew by tenfold! fantastic work!
RAAAA I FORGOT ABOUT THIS SONG I LOVE IT JUST AS MUCH AS I DID BEFORE IT BANGS
Thank you for the support! 🤗
This is absolutely amazing. Keep up with the good work, Reoni!
+lmao burgerpants Thank you so much!
What I like is how she sort of actually sounds out of breath the way Gumi is tuned.
Woah, it's really good, especially for a first song! And especially if it helps you cope with your problems too!
With the pulsing beat, I kinda felt like I was really getting an asthma attack and got a bit scared, haha :D
Thank you so much
Wasn't expecting it either, but it's okay, really ^^
+Justyna Szymanowska I am glad ; v ;
I don't listen to Gumi. Much. But when I first heard this, I couldn't think of anything but amazing. The tempo, the beat, and the vocals go well hand in hand, it has great atmosphere. For your first shot at a song, I will definitely say you did amazingly well!
Oh my! Thanks for that lovely comment!! QAQ
+Reoni☆ | れおに No problem at all! Keep making music! If love to listen to it.
+LordofChaos201 Awww thanks for supporting! I will do my best to improve!
The urge to cover this is strong...but my voice is too bad and little kidish! DARN YOU NATURAL VOICE
Thanks >//~//< I just might.
go for it. it might turn out quite a beauty you know
+Sonia 4 Ever Trelli aw thanks X3 I will. It'll take a while though since this song is pretty complicated :D and I love it.
+Red oh my gosh the positive feedback is so much more than I expected X,D thank you so much! I will!
+Red aw thank you! I hope I can do it justice X3 it's an amazing song.
This song is amazing. Your tuning of Luka is fantastic. Part of the reason this song works so well is because you probably wrote from the heart, which always helps.
On a side note, I'd really like to know why you titled it Asthma. It doesn't make sense to me, but I figure you probably chose it for a good reason.
Keep up the good work! :)
+IbAllAlone - Hopeless-C It's most likely called Asthma because these two mental illnesses are known to be descripted as "suffocating", hence Asthma. I may be wrong though.
+The Sammich Nope, that's right!
I called it Asthma, because these mental disorders make me feel suffocated. Just like a person experiencing Asthma. Actually pretty simple! :)
Oh, and the picture has really many hidden secrets!
Reoni☆ | れおに
Ah, I see.That does make sense. I appreciate what you were trying to get at. and communicate with it :) Not sure I would have chosen this title for it, though. ^^; Thank you for your response!
I think I'll go look for those hidden secrets now. XD
Reoni☆ | れおに Yay, I got it right! And I think it's actually pretty genius, but if you weren't used to seeing things like this, then I would understand the confusion. Not to be mean or start a fight or anything!
+The Sammich To tell the truth, writing songs is my main hobby. ^^; I'm quite used to seeing this sort of thing, it is simply that the last lines ("Forced a smile/ Cheerily singing until my Asthma has come to an end") is the only reference. It IS quite clever to have a word or phrase from the last line be part of the title, but the reference to Asthma was what threw me. Had Asthma been replaced with a word such as "agony", I don't know that I would have felt so confused about the title, and Asthma would have made more sense as the abstract title.
I'm not trying to start a fight, or be mean either. OTL I'm trying to give you some more background on why I asked the question, and why it didn't make sense to me.
I apologize if I have been rude or insensitive in any way, sometimes stuff like that slips past me. ^^;
For a first attempt at making a song, this is actually quite impressive! :D
OMG this is so good!!!!!!