Thanks for watching everyone, and for your feedback and wise words! Please don't delete your comments if I don't get back to you right away, I don't spends LOADS of time on TH-cam but I do read and respond to comments pretty fast and they all mean a lot to me so it's frustrating when I get round to reading something and it's gone ☹ I feel like I've missed out!!
I've just paused 3 minutes in..... what about being a TA in a primary school? I love my job, I work 9-3.30 Mon-Fri, I have no planning or marking. Once I leave the building I have no responsibilities. We also have all weekends to ourselves & although we are only paid for (I believe) 37 weeks of the 52 weeks, our pay is spread evenly over the whole year so we still get paid in the holidays (but not really, if you know what I mean). We get 6 weeks at summer, 2 @easter, Xmas & half terms too , giving plenty of time to travel, camp, explore & what not. X
It's definitely a great suggestion. I'm not that keen on children is probably the one barrier to that I'd say 😅 however I've never been around them in a meaningful way, it's more that they annoy me when they have tantrums during... everything haha. Maybe if I interacted with children in a way that felt meaningful/helpful it would change my perspective a bit, as generally I avoid them now. How did you get into being a teaching assistant? The jobs seems fairly sparse and requiring previous experience when I've seen them listed? Oh also, did you get to do the West Highland Way in the end?? I know it's been a mad year and a half so maybe not! X
@@appalachiangirluk9960 maybe offer to volunteer the odd afternoon in a primary to see of you can tolerate the kids 😉, if not then there's no harm done in giving it a go without the commitment. I got into it as I have 3 of my own & it fitted in perfectly with their holidays. They are now 18, 14 & 12 but I can see myself staying in education because of the easy hours & holidays. Despite having my own, other people's kids annoy me when they are duchebags but it's very different in school & they really do make it worth while. Funnily enough we drive up to Milngavie a week tomorrow on 25th july as soon as we break up from school for the WHW. Can't wait, weather has been amazing the last few weeks so hope it lasts. 🙏. X
I really feel for you I'm now 45 Year old and still going through what you are going through.luckily with me I had a job from 22 years old for 15 years that I enjoyed.but now I keep on having mental meltdowns,I've been in bed now for over a year married with children and a mortgage What's keeps me going is that I must never give up. DONT GIVE UP Have you ever thought of working on a farm ,maybe in Scotland? It could be very therapeutic.
I am so so sorry to hear that. How are you doing now?? How is everything going? You're so right, it's important to never give up and always maintain an element of hope for the future. I really try. I'm back in full time employment now, it's better... I have an absolutely amazing manager, best I've ever had. But it's just the monday-friday grind itself. So many hours just working away and not having the energy, or even the money after all my hard work!, to pursue my interests. Its a soul killer. I just want more, you know?
@@appalachiangirluk9960 I'm happy to hear that you are struggling to hold on and haven't fallen off,I fou a really good therapist 3 weeks ago and really feel I'm going to get there, unfortunately as you must know during therapy you sometimes get really down when you start touching the untouchable unconscious I'm coming to see my family in Newcastle in 3 weeks and hopefully will go hiking in Scotland
Awww that's nice to hear! A shorter US trail is on my list actually... Colorado Trail 👣. I'd like to come over and do a few 'shorter' ones in one go! Then try out the pct in a few years. Any on your agenda?
This is your chanel to do with it as you like. Use it to vent. Your subscribers are on your side. Hopefully it helps you feel better. I'm sorry that the daily grind got to be too much. Have you thought about an agricultural, manufacturing, or construction industry job? I'm 69 and have been through a lot. Life is trading time to achieve goals. I spent time in the Army to get them to pay for college. Being a combat engineer was my favorite job(I was young, in excellent shape, and made more money than I spent). I worked at jobs I liked and jobs that I didn't like but, saved up and bought a house. We then worked and saved up to buy land and build a new solar house. Life was always working toward goals. I worked a regular 40 hour week and then worked 24 hours per week building the new house. It was hard but paid off. Maybe you need to figure out your goal. It is easier to work towards something. BTW my wife was a registered nurse and she used to tell me horror stories about how nasty many female supervisors were. I worked for over twenty men and only two of them were bad. It occurs to me that you might enjoy being a guide on scenic hiking trails. I would think that there are parks that hire people to do that. Take a short hike each day just to boost your mood. These sanity pauses have physical and mental benefits. I hope that you find your niche. Good Luck, Rick
Yes I've been thinking about training into being a guide of some sort, or outdoor instructor perhaps... or ranger. Me and my partner have created a couple of goals recently to work towards: 1. Save as much money as possible to travel in 18 months time 2. Get a place together once we're back from travelling, relocate from current area But it's the jobs I need to figure out because an office setting just drives me insane, too much sitting around in the same room... so does hospitality though, everyone is so demanding and spoilt! So this is what I need to try and figure out next. In an ideal world I'd be my own boss, but you need a bright idea 💡 and a couple have come along but I'm not sure they are good enough! Always a pleasure to hear from you by the way, I hope you're well!!
@@appalachiangirluk9960 Thanks, I'm okay for my age. We have a little excitement here with a bunch of new fawns in the yard. At least one pair of twins. One was under my window this morning but dashed away when it saw me. Good Luck, Rick
Thanks for the supportive words! And is it?? Maybe I should do more ranting! But seriously, this topic, as you can probably tell, is very close to my heart. It's something I've spent many many many hours contemplating and trying to unpack and find a way out of. So that probably came across in the video.
Your experience feels so familiar. I'm on the edge of quitting my job as it is, this way of living is not for me. It's hard to be a part of a delusion and be happy, knowing it's for life. But hey, at least I'll get pills for that. I wish you well, really, I wish it for all of us
Dude. It is so hard out there. It's all a big trap we have very few choices to find a way out of. The way to go, imo, is self-employment, but only if you're good at creating and maintaining boundaries as to not let clients creep into your personal life! What industry do you work in, what are you considering doing?
@@appalachiangirluk9960 For sure. Like you, I've worked in a bunch of different areas. I settled in architecture after going late to uni, I find it very stressful. I could feasibly try self employment here in Somerset but finding the energy for those changes is the hardest thing for me. But I'm in my 30s and I know that I can't keep going as I am. I don't know how so many people do this without questioning, it certainly has made me question my own outlook on society. I want time to actually do something! I want to hike these trails, have my own mental space, not engage with this mad system that is ruining everything. Currently I can afford time to be outside once per week, enjoying a hike or a wild camp if I'm lucky. I've always wanted to be a writer - but the thought of having to monetise this, or anything that I love, is exhausting. I think that if I do quit, which is looking likely, I'll go and do some long trails in Scotland. That's something to aspire towards for sure. Developing some kind of collective of likeminded people would be very cool to do. Anyways, thanks for replying, and letting me vent too. I just found your channel and have been digging your honesty and style. New subscriber here, I really hope it works out for you! I've not watched everything yet but you've inspired me so far, looking forward to seeing what your next adventure is!
Hey Laura - You said earlier that you don’t spend much time on TH-cam and I thought…She’s started a TH-cam channel - why doesn’t she really go to town building her channel and then hit Patreon? I watch a ton of hikers on TH-cam and you do (in my opinion) bring something different to the table! Anyway worth thinking about! Sorry I’m late to comment, but I’ve been binge watching your content over the last few days and have really enjoyed it! Stay fabulous! Ginny x
Awww thanks Ginny!! I love that you think that, I try to be as 'myself' as possible because I think it can be so tempting to be as bland as possible to not rock the boat in any direction. While I see the pros of that tactic (appealing to every person all of the time to gain maximum subs) it can come off a little bit bland. Like just give me an opinion already! Stop straddling the fence. But I'm a pretty direct person. I'm trying to post more often and cover more topics. I'll be doing some gear reviews soon, when the English weather decides to stop being so windy! You stay fabulous too! X
Like I mentioned in one of your previous vlogs Laura you like hiking so why don't you try and get your mountain leaders certificate so you can guide people on the UK,s long distance trails but you would most likely have to work for one of the walking tour companies, if you are looking to do a short hike shortly have you thought about returning to finish the Coast to Coast walk off? it might just clear your head for a short while.
I can totally relate how you feel and what your going through, I’m going through the same thing, We should go and build a Eco house and live off the land, Take care xx
That's so sweet of you. Its much appreciated honestly, I'm going through the mental wringer right now and trying to figure out what direction to take next! It's hard!
Do you think you would have felt differently if you'd started off making 60K usd in a more respectful environment? I ask this as a way of asking a different question. Is it really the job or the pay+people?
Good question... I mean, the last job I was in was menial to be honest. Didn't challenge me. But I also was not properly compensated for my time. It was long, dull, days. I'm now in a much better, challenging and fulfilling job. However with it being in the charity sector I'm still not being properly compensated for my level of responsibility and severity of issues I'm dealing with. Everything about this job is almost spot on in terms of hours, treatment of employees and how much they care for our wellbeing. So that's amazing. But I would be lying if I said it didn't feel a bit crap busting my ass in stressful situations and to still be thinking about my bank balance a lot each month, you know?
I wish 😂 No, right now I'm living off my last pay cheque..I have another half a pay cheque to come in up to the time I quit. Then I have some savings, which I'd actually rather not eat into. I haven't tied myself down to a mortgage or any big finance payments. I bought a car outright for example. An older car that cost a couple of grand. I don't like getting tied into things I can't get out of and I consciously make decisions to avoid that. I even have a monthly rolling gym contract ha. I don't have kids. But yeah, I am still feeling the pressure of needing to find something else asap before I start going in to savings I don't want to go into! Of course it's a worry. If it wasn't then everyone wouldn't be trapped in this shitty lifestyle 🙃
Thanks for watching everyone, and for your feedback and wise words! Please don't delete your comments if I don't get back to you right away, I don't spends LOADS of time on TH-cam but I do read and respond to comments pretty fast and they all mean a lot to me so it's frustrating when I get round to reading something and it's gone ☹ I feel like I've missed out!!
I've just paused 3 minutes in..... what about being a TA in a primary school? I love my job, I work 9-3.30 Mon-Fri, I have no planning or marking. Once I leave the building I have no responsibilities. We also have all weekends to ourselves & although we are only paid for (I believe) 37 weeks of the 52 weeks, our pay is spread evenly over the whole year so we still get paid in the holidays (but not really, if you know what I mean). We get 6 weeks at summer, 2 @easter, Xmas & half terms too , giving plenty of time to travel, camp, explore & what not.
X
It's definitely a great suggestion. I'm not that keen on children is probably the one barrier to that I'd say 😅 however I've never been around them in a meaningful way, it's more that they annoy me when they have tantrums during... everything haha. Maybe if I interacted with children in a way that felt meaningful/helpful it would change my perspective a bit, as generally I avoid them now. How did you get into being a teaching assistant? The jobs seems fairly sparse and requiring previous experience when I've seen them listed?
Oh also, did you get to do the West Highland Way in the end?? I know it's been a mad year and a half so maybe not! X
@@appalachiangirluk9960 maybe offer to volunteer the odd afternoon in a primary to see of you can tolerate the kids 😉, if not then there's no harm done in giving it a go without the commitment. I got into it as I have 3 of my own & it fitted in perfectly with their holidays. They are now 18, 14 & 12 but I can see myself staying in education because of the easy hours & holidays. Despite having my own, other people's kids annoy me when they are duchebags but it's very different in school & they really do make it worth while.
Funnily enough we drive up to Milngavie a week tomorrow on 25th july as soon as we break up from school for the WHW. Can't wait, weather has been amazing the last few weeks so hope it lasts. 🙏. X
I really feel for you
I'm now 45 Year old and still going through what you are going through.luckily with me I had a job from 22 years old for 15 years that I enjoyed.but now I keep on having mental meltdowns,I've been in bed now for over a year married with children and a mortgage
What's keeps me going is that I must never give up.
DONT GIVE UP
Have you ever thought of working on a farm ,maybe in Scotland? It could be very therapeutic.
I am so so sorry to hear that.
How are you doing now?? How is everything going?
You're so right, it's important to never give up and always maintain an element of hope for the future. I really try. I'm back in full time employment now, it's better... I have an absolutely amazing manager, best I've ever had. But it's just the monday-friday grind itself. So many hours just working away and not having the energy, or even the money after all my hard work!, to pursue my interests. Its a soul killer. I just want more, you know?
@@appalachiangirluk9960
I'm happy to hear that you are struggling to hold on and haven't fallen off,I fou a really good therapist 3 weeks ago and really feel I'm going to get there, unfortunately as you must know during therapy you sometimes get really down when you start touching the untouchable unconscious
I'm coming to see my family in Newcastle in 3 weeks and hopefully will go hiking in Scotland
Hang in there, my favorite UK hiking young lady. Pick up a temporary job and save to hike a trail in the US next year. We miss you.
Awww that's nice to hear! A shorter US trail is on my list actually... Colorado Trail 👣. I'd like to come over and do a few 'shorter' ones in one go! Then try out the pct in a few years. Any on your agenda?
This is your chanel to do with it as you like. Use it to vent. Your subscribers are on your side. Hopefully it helps you feel better. I'm sorry that the daily grind got to be too much. Have you thought about an agricultural, manufacturing, or construction industry job?
I'm 69 and have been through a lot. Life is trading time to achieve goals. I spent time in the Army to get them to pay for college. Being a combat engineer was my favorite job(I was young, in excellent shape, and made more money than I spent). I worked at jobs I liked and jobs that I didn't like but, saved up and bought a house. We then worked and saved up to buy land and build a new solar house. Life was always working toward goals. I worked a regular 40 hour week and then worked 24 hours per week building the new house. It was hard but paid off.
Maybe you need to figure out your goal. It is easier to work towards something. BTW my wife was a registered nurse and she used to tell me horror stories about how nasty many female supervisors were. I worked for over twenty men and only two of them were bad.
It occurs to me that you might enjoy being a guide on scenic hiking trails. I would think that there are parks that hire people to do that. Take a short hike each day just to boost your mood. These sanity pauses have physical and mental benefits. I hope that you find your niche. Good Luck, Rick
Yes I've been thinking about training into being a guide of some sort, or outdoor instructor perhaps... or ranger. Me and my partner have created a couple of goals recently to work towards:
1. Save as much money as possible to travel in 18 months time
2. Get a place together once we're back from travelling, relocate from current area
But it's the jobs I need to figure out because an office setting just drives me insane, too much sitting around in the same room... so does hospitality though, everyone is so demanding and spoilt! So this is what I need to try and figure out next. In an ideal world I'd be my own boss, but you need a bright idea 💡 and a couple have come along but I'm not sure they are good enough!
Always a pleasure to hear from you by the way, I hope you're well!!
@@appalachiangirluk9960 Thanks, I'm okay for my age. We have a little excitement here with a bunch of new fawns in the yard. At least one pair of twins. One was under my window this morning but dashed away when it saw me. Good Luck, Rick
Nice vid, very relatable, enjoy the hikes!
its your channel, nothing wrong in venting, great to see you posting again, probably your best video to date,
Thanks for the supportive words! And is it?? Maybe I should do more ranting! But seriously, this topic, as you can probably tell, is very close to my heart. It's something I've spent many many many hours contemplating and trying to unpack and find a way out of. So that probably came across in the video.
Your experience feels so familiar. I'm on the edge of quitting my job as it is, this way of living is not for me. It's hard to be a part of a delusion and be happy, knowing it's for life. But hey, at least I'll get pills for that. I wish you well, really, I wish it for all of us
Dude. It is so hard out there. It's all a big trap we have very few choices to find a way out of. The way to go, imo, is self-employment, but only if you're good at creating and maintaining boundaries as to not let clients creep into your personal life! What industry do you work in, what are you considering doing?
@@appalachiangirluk9960 For sure. Like you, I've worked in a bunch of different areas. I settled in architecture after going late to uni, I find it very stressful. I could feasibly try self employment here in Somerset but finding the energy for those changes is the hardest thing for me. But I'm in my 30s and I know that I can't keep going as I am. I don't know how so many people do this without questioning, it certainly has made me question my own outlook on society. I want time to actually do something! I want to hike these trails, have my own mental space, not engage with this mad system that is ruining everything. Currently I can afford time to be outside once per week, enjoying a hike or a wild camp if I'm lucky.
I've always wanted to be a writer - but the thought of having to monetise this, or anything that I love, is exhausting. I think that if I do quit, which is looking likely, I'll go and do some long trails in Scotland. That's something to aspire towards for sure. Developing some kind of collective of likeminded people would be very cool to do.
Anyways, thanks for replying, and letting me vent too. I just found your channel and have been digging your honesty and style. New subscriber here, I really hope it works out for you! I've not watched everything yet but you've inspired me so far, looking forward to seeing what your next adventure is!
Hey Laura - You said earlier that you don’t spend much time on TH-cam and I thought…She’s started a TH-cam channel - why doesn’t she really go to town building her channel and then hit Patreon? I watch a ton of hikers on TH-cam and you do (in my opinion) bring something different to the table! Anyway worth thinking about! Sorry I’m late to comment, but I’ve been binge watching your content over the last few days and have really enjoyed it! Stay fabulous! Ginny x
Awww thanks Ginny!! I love that you think that, I try to be as 'myself' as possible because I think it can be so tempting to be as bland as possible to not rock the boat in any direction. While I see the pros of that tactic (appealing to every person all of the time to gain maximum subs) it can come off a little bit bland. Like just give me an opinion already! Stop straddling the fence. But I'm a pretty direct person. I'm trying to post more often and cover more topics. I'll be doing some gear reviews soon, when the English weather decides to stop being so windy! You stay fabulous too! X
Oops! Just watched two episodes on! 🤭 Well at least I was thinking along the same lines! 🙄 Ginny x
Haha no it's actually nice you commented that on the other video before seeing this one because it's validated my trail of thought!
Like I mentioned in one of your previous vlogs Laura you like hiking so why don't you try and get your mountain leaders certificate so you can guide people on the UK,s long distance trails but you would most likely have to work for one of the walking tour companies, if you are looking to do a short hike shortly have you thought about returning to finish the Coast to Coast walk off? it might just clear your head for a short while.
I can totally relate how you feel and what your going through, I’m going through the same thing,
We should go and build a Eco house and live off the land,
Take care xx
I like you and I'm supporting you on Patreon I hope others do also
That's so sweet of you. Its much appreciated honestly, I'm going through the mental wringer right now and trying to figure out what direction to take next! It's hard!
Hey wish you the very very very best May you be inspired to follow your heart at all times everywhere
Do you think you would have felt differently if you'd started off making 60K usd in a more respectful environment? I ask this as a way of asking a different question. Is it really the job or the pay+people?
Good question... I mean, the last job I was in was menial to be honest. Didn't challenge me. But I also was not properly compensated for my time. It was long, dull, days.
I'm now in a much better, challenging and fulfilling job. However with it being in the charity sector I'm still not being properly compensated for my level of responsibility and severity of issues I'm dealing with. Everything about this job is almost spot on in terms of hours, treatment of employees and how much they care for our wellbeing. So that's amazing. But I would be lying if I said it didn't feel a bit crap busting my ass in stressful situations and to still be thinking about my bank balance a lot each month, you know?
The real world sucks. Looking to get out too
Really like what you are saying BUT how are you living? I would love to take off but everything is money; do you have a leprechaun pot of it 😆
I wish 😂 No, right now I'm living off my last pay cheque..I have another half a pay cheque to come in up to the time I quit. Then I have some savings, which I'd actually rather not eat into. I haven't tied myself down to a mortgage or any big finance payments. I bought a car outright for example. An older car that cost a couple of grand. I don't like getting tied into things I can't get out of and I consciously make decisions to avoid that. I even have a monthly rolling gym contract ha. I don't have kids. But yeah, I am still feeling the pressure of needing to find something else asap before I start going in to savings I don't want to go into! Of course it's a worry. If it wasn't then everyone wouldn't be trapped in this shitty lifestyle 🙃