Fr tho also when I tell you guys this don't call anyone so my parents were fighting on Christmas eve and Christmas so I had to step in and now a have a burn on my forehead buy ig it's ok I almost got kicked out and stuff bc I was gay and things but yea guys uhm sorry if I'm annoying you or bothering you or putting my pressure and pain on you I'm very very very very sorry
*there it goes again.* *That heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move.* *all you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting.* *you attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything.*
"the only thing u have to do is study, there's nothing else you gotta do! why you even tired? there's nothing u have to do,u got no job to do,no bills to pay, u get food served in front of u, we provide u with everything, what u even 'sad' for?!"
ironically thats why your so depressed, you have no purpose that you feel is your own, and you know your being ejected into a pretty bleak reality, humans tend to get pretty fucked up when they dont have a purpose, higher reasoning is as much a burden as it is a gift if you dont set it to a problem, it will see you as the problem and it will pick and tear you apart piece by piece out of boredom
Yeah, honestly don't even have anything to add just that's how they be Edit: Maybe now I have something to add. ontop of what @guildmasterasmund3379 said you have to find happiness outside of what you have to do. It's hard but you have to do what you love when it's rewarding. Go outside enjoy the fresh air. Enjoy the inside more? No problem make something you can be proud of. Draw a picuture. Not good at drawing? no problem use a base or just draw and be bad (we all start bad) Don't want to draw? no problem make a game you don't need skill like you may think and just follow some tutorials. don't want to make a game? No problem write a song. even just the lyrics to on ecould be fun or making the intrumental is also fun. Don't like making songs? No problem Write a short story or a book, or even a poem to pour your feelings into. It's impossible to be bad at writing if you put your pent up emotions into your work. It can also be really nice to write out the way you feel. Don't want to write? No problem Talk to your friends it can be really relaxing if you don't have any right now then if you are feeling up to it try and make some. Maybe try discord and search for servers or go to clubs that you think could be fun. Don't want to? No problem learn what intrests you not just what school makes you think study is. it can be whatever you like knowing about. Don't want to? Play some video games you like Don't want to? try out martial arts or some light exercise it can be really nice like a walk or jog when you wake up. Don't want to? That's okay read a book you don't have to read more than you want to but if you find the right book it can be nice to get lost in anther world. Don't want to? That's okay Take some time to take care of yourself maybe try meditating or looking in a mirror and saying positive things about yourself here's a short list of some things you can say: You are loved You are enough You are beautiful You are strong You are smart You will cut out the negitive people in your life You will get better You will be the very best you can be You will get away from your troubles You will fix your problems You will get up in the morning and be glad ot be alive You will take care of yourself You deserve love You deserve affection You deserve to be happy You don't deserve to be hurt You don't deserve to be yelled at You don't deserve to be bullied anyway you should get some sleep I'm sure it's late and if you need music right now to get through tonight that's okay but if not take off the headphones and lay down I'm sure you need to wake up early tomorrow you are loved go to bed From a loser with a keyboard To, You someone who deserves happiness
Honestly,I don't think I'm a person anymore. I don't wanna do anything but I don't wanna do nothing. But...i don't wanna see my mom crying over my body on a hospital bed at all.
yeah, pretty much sums up what i feel. i just want to go. just, disappear somehow without feeling the pain of getting rid of my life myself. i don't want people that love me because they have to to feel that pain either.
you cant change yourself for someone, or change yourself to be someone. you are you, not someone else. youve tried your best and im proud of you to do so.
“You’ll never be like your brother”: Is that because my brother is like me? Because I raised him, I helped him, I was there for him. Where were you? Getting drunk and yelling at your unwanted daughter. Yeah I think that it is just so funny how you praise him all the time when all he does is play video games. Yet I never get praise despite me raising my brother, helping everyone, making sure my mom was tended to when she was dying, getting straight A’s, doing sports, Tutoring my friends because they were failing, helping you even when you were hitting me, being told that you wished my mom got an abortion, hitting me, telling me you wish I was dead, treating me nice after my counselor called saying I wanted to kms just because you don’t want hospital bills, telling me you didn’t want a daughter. Yet I am kind, a hard worker, and I keep it together for everyone, hiding how I feel and the scars on my arms so people don’t worry about me and feel comfortable to talk to me. I changed for everyone else. And I am still unwanted. Why? I never did anything but be good. I always helped. Why is it that you hate me? I hate you, but why do I still love you? After you abused me for years, why do I still love you? It is better now dw💗
@@Hell0-pe0ple-lol even your worry of someone will worry about you is making clear how a good person you are, ik it's easy to say but don't forget even your own family don't like you, your friends or the other people can see how loveable you are, even if they've seen a little part of you. love you!
Thing is, it’s Christmas. But is it really? It feels the same. Unchanging. I just want to stay home because i dont want to waste my holiday. Like every weekend and holiday this year. Soon ill be back to school and i wont even realise because im barely conscious outside of my head and daydreams. It just doesnt feel real anymore and itll just get worse as i grow up. What a society to live in.
I miss when we all believed in the magic, and the spirit of the holidays. When we were little kids waking up early and running out to the tree finding gifts, it was amazing. Now Christmas feels dead. Just a dumb excuse to go see the family that you dont wanna be around.
It never will get better.. Will it? I mean, I sit in my own head year after year when does it end? When do I see the people I have lost, and new ones I have never met but need? That's a funny thing too 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘. When does one person's need out weight another's. When does a 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 become a 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵? Then those 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵'𝘴 turn into simple 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞'𝕤? One thing that keeps me up at night is 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵. When does my want become justified?.. When am I no longer called selfish just for not showing caring for the things I never cared about in the first place. I wish I could go back to a time where I never had need's, and the dream's seemed so much closer then they ever were. I want control, but I want freedom. I want do live, but I want to die as well. I just want the pain, the stress, the worries, to disappear. 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕒𝕣. I want the dreams where I feel safe to be my reality. I want to be there not here.. But to get there I must leave here, but... Even with all these feelings I can't convince myself or the blade to let loose and drag, leaveing a valley of red in its waking path. I can't leave here. I don't know why. I don't think I want to know why. It must be a good unwavering reason... Merry Christmas to all who feel the same and to the ones that don't a happy new year to you
I'm proud of you for waking up. I'm proud of you for brushing your hair. I'm proud of you for breathing. I'm proud of you for making your bed. I'm proud of you for eating. I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat. I'm proud of you for drinking water, I'm proud of you for being here. I'm proud of you for being you. I'm proud of you for smiling. I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for sitting down. I'm proud of you for defending yourself. I'm proud of you for believing in yourself. I'm proud of you for simply trying. I'm proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU. ❤ And If you didn’t do all of them, ir is okay! Just try your best :) Be happy, friend. Like some of y’all, I don’t do all of them! But I try, and that is what matters. (Edit: I can't answer everyone but thank you very much and know that i'm happy making those smiles appear, please never give up because there's always a way to get out of the dark, there will always be a light waiting for you at the end and that light will show you that everything you've ever done is and will always going to be worth it.. I've been through tough moments and i promise, trust yourself because you're the only one who can save itself. You're more than capable, i believe in you! Ily guys, take care!💖 Every single comment make me think about how helpful this message is.. and I got so happy i even cried with some lol, i got sentimental but I'm so happy for you guys.. trying and believing in yourselves, its a huge inspiration for me to take every single comment and read them everyday, over and over, to know i am not alone and that i made a lot of people smile through this text.
I know I'm being dumb but this made my day a lot better. Nobody has told me that they're genuinely proud of me in years. Thank you, I've been going through a really shitty time for the past 2 years.
Not every kid has a good life I'm 12 I started hating myself when I was 10 i started cutting when I was 11. And now I go to the point where I started trying to burn myself. I HATE MY LIFE but every fucking day when I'm around other people I always keep a smile on my face,b7t when I around my parents I'm always mad at them but I don't want to be mad at them I hate my life fuck life.
The comment section on vent playlists are sad, but also so comforting and cozy. I feel like we all understand each other better than most people in real life. Just me? I don't know. But seeing the people here be so caring about people they have never met in real life is just so nice...
🙃 we do it bc we know how they feel....... people on the internet are more understanding than our families ever will be... the second we try to talk to our family they just tell us we have no reasopn to be sad or cry... then they question us..... they simply just dont understand
“It’s sad to think your younger sister has been doing greater than you.” “Why don’t you ever talk to us?” “You never talk.” “So it’s our fault?” “This is why…” “You think you have anxiety?” “Go on, save it for the therapist.” “I could die tomorrow and you wouldn’t care.” “Why do you forget to eat?” “Why is it so hard for you to wake up?”
Hi. Late reply here. But I just want you to know that all the things your parents say that blame you unfairly aren't true. It's okay. You're okay. You may not feel okay, but you are. You're going to be okay. I'm proud of you for being alive, Cheshire.
sry ik this is like months after u posted this comment but my love i understand ur pain it's hard to keep up with all the shit ur accused of ik am not in the position to speak as i get easily affected by such words aswell but pls know ur not alone one day everythings gonna get better i promise😮💨
Am I the only one who’s just unable to cry nowadays ? Like even if in the inside I’m totally broken, screaming of pain, outside nothing comes but a oppressive silence. I feel like I felt so much in the past that now nothing makes me feel human anymore. I just lie here contemplating the void with no emotion, waiting things to end.
Your not alone I can't feel anymore at least not on the outside you may feel it on the inside but not the out just know that's fine just find a way to let the emotions out like just grab a paper and shred it it helps. Love you
Yea I really can’t cry at all no matter how bad something hits me I just can’t do it which makes me believe im just faking it or it’s not true sadness and I have no reason to feel bad any way i haven’t been very reactive to anything at first but now im just a void to everyone
I did that to myself when my family split, it's not true at all, it may seem like it, but it never will be. It just ruins your life, trying to fix everyone's problems yourself, I learnt that after 5 years, I wasted 5 years of my life trying to fix everything around me, I finally accepted that I can't fix everything.
i said this to myself multiple times when my parents would fight. i was in the room and unable to drown it out with music when i heard my dad consider a divorce due to a fight started from me not understanding a math question and my mom gave me an anxiety attack, and i felt it was my fault for asking for help. i know it was my moms fault but that messed me up, but remember its not true, those thoughts are lies, and nothing is your fault. you never did anything bad, the people causing your thoughts are the ones who did a bad thing
0:00 - The Walters - I Love you so 2:39 - TV Girl - Not Allowed 5:28 - Vacations - Young 8:35 - Radiohead - No Surprises 12:23 - TV Girl - Cigarettes out the window 15:41 - Alex G - Treehouse 18:20 - Sushi Soucy - I Deserve to Bleed 20:06 - The Dresden Dolls - My Alcoholic Friends 22:52 - The Strokes - The Adults Are Talking 27:41 - Mitski - I Bet On Losing Dogs 30:29 - Lyn Lapid - Detached 32:56 - Yungatita - 7 Weeks & 3 Days 36:10 - FKJ - Ylang Ylang (slowed + reverb) 40:29 - Sufjan Stevens - Fourth Of July 45:02 - Patrick Watson - Je te laisserai des mots Take care ♥
does anyone else just come to these to read comments and listen to music bc your emotionally and mentally drained? yeah, I do too. i just wanted to tell you that what ever you're going through, even though i dont know you, is valid. I may not know exactly what it is, but its still valid. just remember you can't control every negative thing that happens, your only human. you can only do so much, and what you do is more than enough. you dont have to try hard just because someone else can do it a little better. what you do is enough. YOU are enough. dont let anyone tell you otherwise. i love you, you beautiful, talented, amazing person. so take care of yourself. drink some water, do your makeup, eat some food, work out, do your hair, take a nice hot bath/shower. get sunlight, do a few house chores if you have time. but do. not. over work. yourself. take time to relax, you deserve it. now take care and have a wonderful rest of your day/night you wonderful person
My life is so happy, why do I feel this way? I have good friends, good family, a good life. School is draining me, I feel like I’m separating from everyone. I feel like I’m getting mad at everyone. And I feel horrible for it. They don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve them. I hate myself, the way I act and the way I look. I’m tired of it. But I shouldn’t . People are going through more than me, and yet I’m still here crying and being overdramatic.
I get this. It feels like I'm not supposed to feel the negative feelings. Because I have it so much better than some people. The bad part passed and it wasn't even that bad. So why do I feel like this? I shouldn't. I should be happy.
Same here. My whole life is a dream but for some reason I'm tired of it, I don't want as much attention as I wanted just few years ago, I want quiet, I don't want to get attached but I want people to talk to me, now it's summer but I don't have anyone to go outside and I'm locked in my room, on phone 24/7 and dying out of boreddness (idk if such a word as boreddness exist😭)
this is so relatable, like my life is so happy and i can laugh like all day but in the back of my mind i just feel like something is missing i feel somehow empty... and sad.
@@Resima_ You can do some Diy,find a book, search for childhood stuff here in the internet, relax with comforting music. You really don't need friends.
may i give up? can i despair? should i be excited? do I have to keep fighting? can i make my own decision? can i do everything i want? Why do they look at me as if I'm so useless? that bad am I, even myself fed up with all this.
i rlly don't know how im gonna live a full life if im just a few years past a decade old and I already feel 70. I feel the nostalgia of 2015, and desperately want to go back to that time. back then I wanted to be 13 so bad, but now I would do anything to feel innocent again. growing up comes with freedom, but also new responsibilities and harsh realities. the more I think about the past the more I lose my will to live in the present. I don't know how I will live 80 long years of life if I can barely hang on at 14.
I hate my life My depressive stages are so bad My social anxiety hurts My insomnia is horrible I either eat too much or too little My eyes burn I can barely cry anymore I’m scared, I’m scared of everyone around me, They all scare me The way they all think, I hate it, But it’s so scary I’ve seen how everyone thinks It’s always the same thing All I can do is hide, Keep it locked away How long before it breaks me? I’m terrified if that ever happens I cant let them be right, But yet if I do nothing the more my anger grows Everytime they yelled, They pushed me, Non stop torment I watched them all laugh I watched them all from a distance They all hid behind masks I couldn’t comprehend I watched them all smile to eachother then spread rumors They laughed behind eachothers backs, The different masks they all wore, The way they all thought I couldn’t comprehend It didn’t make sense Why did they all act like that Their minds confused me It didn’t make any sense why they all thought that way Why couldn’t they see the truth? Did they already see it and just do the same thing back? Why was everyone so different?Why didn’t I fit in? How could they all act this way?How did none of them have a heart? Did they not feel the same guilt, That same pain? How come I was the only one who didn’t fit in? How come I felt this pain? Why did they all treat me different? Why didn’t they treat me better? Why did they all back stab me, Hurt me with their words? Why did they all ignore me? They all pushed me to the side. Only used me for simple things, Yet never helped me in return. They only yelled if I asked for something. All of the memories are circling in my mind. Why would they yell at me?I was just a scared kid It wasn’t my fault Why was I blamed? Why did they always push me? Why were they all so rude? Did I really do something to deserve it? Why does no one care? Why do I come up with excuses for them? It’s just clear that they don’t care Why do I help them? Why can’t I stop? God I fucking hate myself, my life Why do I torture myself constantly? Is it the feeling of fear or anxiety that I’m addicted to? Or maybe I’m too scared to change, That’s why I do this? Maybe…
I honestly relate. It hurts to be in this endless loop or torment but I’m basically just surviving I’m no longer living just waking up and doing what I do every day I’m tired of it
This one is relatable well it used to be, you will get through it talk to people make new friends find your comfort zone talk to parents friends, but just know your not alone nobody is even if you don’t currently have anybody to talk to there is always someone there who will listen to you and help you, and luckily I also had someone at that point in my life
honestly my man, being damaged isnt as bad as you might think, alot of people think im mentally strong, that nothing phases me and thats kinda true, but im not strong because i just resist everything like an iron wall, its just that my mind is more like a collection of shattered glass and sand than a wall, sure you can pound it but really whats that gonna do, go punch some sand on a beach and tell me if the beach is affected much, dont be so scared of losing it, its not the end, im bat shit crazy my girlfriend is a psychologist and according to her i am one of the most interesting unique cases shes ever come across my mind works in ways shes never come across in any case study, truth i broke a long long time ago completely spun loose and never wound the spool back up, ive still lived my life, im arrogant crazed no fear of death or life, cant feel stress, no passion prone to fits of extreme mania 50 other little wtfs, hasnt stopped me from making friends, what ive learned is im just alot freer and more interesting than most other people because i dont care, people push you to the side leave em, what are you sticking around for why do you care, the girl im in love with is perhaps the most unlikely pairing, rich family psychologist kind, empathetic, innocent believes in following the law nice to a fault. scroll to me, no family totally fucked in the head mean by default cruel as a modus of operandi, spent my youth as a criminal life doesnt make sense stop trying to fit it and yourself in a box and just laugh at the fucking absurdity of it, you'll feel better, when you look at it from a new perspective
I feel like everything is changing Recently, I haven't been feeling the same compared to my younger self. The reflection lies when it tells me I should be excited. This is not as depressing as other's stories but I just want to point this out. You know about addiction? The first time you love it then the next couple times it's like not a big thing. That's what's been going on. I wish I was as hyper or excited or happy as I was when I was younger. This Christmas does not feel the same. We all have the sensation about, Oh right! Today's Christmas! And it always pierced my heart in a good way, like making it stronger. This year I'm not as excited and I don't feel that pierce. The same goes as my Birthday or Halloween, or any other special occasion I'll ever have in my life. I don't know if it's that or time is going too fast. I know this isn't worse than the other's stories, but I just want to know how to get the same feeling or sensation again.
I feel the same way. I was super excited about Christmas, but when the holidays arrived, I wasn't so excited about it anymore. It's supposed to be a wonderful event, but it just went so fast that I didn't have the time to react. I think time flies for real now. I'm also trying to find a solution for it. It's not supposed to happen, right? Losing feelings about an event?
I feel exactly the same. I miss the feeling of excitement, of anticipation, the feeling you would get in the morning when you would open your gift, the feelin you got when you saw it was what you asked for. Now a days everything just feels gray, like if everything lost its color. You wake up wanting, yearning for you life to be better but you don't have the motivation to even get out of bed. When the break started I noticed even more that other than school I don't have anything in my life. I just feel like giving up, like a waste of space. I say I'm happy, I smile, I laugh, but I don't actually feel it. I'm just kinda tired.
this is real. Im one year late lol but the feeling still lives sadly and im sorry if commenting here reminds you of those times but im going through that right now. Every time i work hard for something i want its just so exciting to dream of when i get that thing but once i get it the feeling isn't there and it isn't even the thing i want but the feeling of satisfaction and happiness putting all that hardwork and getting some out of it. Its been like that to the point i cant put energy into anything these days. somewhat like christmas and birthdays, as a kid those were the best days of the year and now those are just days like the rest of the year. All of this just makes me miss being a child again
I feel the same It just doesn't excite me as much as it used to Nothing does it anymore Sometimes I even try to fake it to maybe feel it I have been feeling so apathetic nowadays It's like nothing really matters anymore
I've posted this under another video. But I want everyone to see my story and not repeat my scenario. Be yourself. Love yourself. No mather who said what. I don't always complain or vent to anyone but I just can't handle it on my own anymore. I was brought into this world and taught that way since growing up. I had to be the rock of the group, the one everyone can depend on. Make promises they never keep and be the one to take each and every word they have said. "Be a man." or "You're a boy, boys are supposed to be tough." they said. So I had to have the self-esteem, body, hair, and even a job so my younger relatives can look up to me and know who to be or what kind of man they're supposed to look for as a lover. I had to be tough, I had to have a smile on every time I'm with someone. I grew up with my younger relatives full of girls, there were a few boys but they were never taught the same things. I was there when everyone cried, I was the one who protected them when they were attacked, I fought when they were harassed, Me. Each time. I worked out so I had a "big body", I cut my hair so I looked "handsome", I smiled so I was "always happy and nice", I had good grades so I could "have a good job". But in the end, No one noticed me. No one called to asked me how I was doing. No one was there when I needed a shoulder to cry on after a rough day. No one to assist me during my recent breakup. No body was there to comfort me through the pain. I was just there so I could be everyone's tissue to use and throw out. I was left out. I grew cold. I was robbed out of my childhood. The time I had to cry, be a kid, try things, eat candy, play, I was robbed out of it. I was stripped out of my right to be a child just for the sole reason of "Being an Ideal man". I became the one I never wanted to be but everyone aspire to be. I need someone to talk to.
Great advice ❤️ but also I’m so sorry. That’s extremely unfair and I understand the being robbed of your childhood. I as well as everyone else in the comments are here for you
Hey, I know it's been a whole two months since you posted this, but I just wanted you to know there's another person out there that's felt that way. I have to be the perfect role model for my siblings, and everyone at school has to think I'm perfect, when I cry the most of anyone there. People think I'm popular, when I actually eat lunch alone every day, don't get a single text over the holidays, and have nobody that I can truly tell my problems to. I never got to go through the mean teenage phase because I had to stay silent so my mom could have a rock. The moment I raise my voice is when she finally breaks down, even if the brat of the house had been disrespecting her and arguing with her for an hour. Sometimes I have to shut myself in my room, and try to force some childhood to come back to me, even though I remember nothing. (Sorry to complain, I'm a little dramatic) I think I can almost understand where you're coming from. And I'll try to check my notifications if you still need someone to talk to. Side note, you should take a break from being perfect if you can. Just take a YOU day. Maybe go out and eat something ridiculously unhealthy just for the sake of it, be unproductive for a day, and just ignore the people that don't care. That's their problem if they can't see how amazing you are
I'm sorry for posting this so late but..... So I'm a girl but I know what your going through let me tell you something It's okay to feel this way,to cry,to do anything I know this is corny and it's so hard but I like to belive that it's going to be okay
I don't even know what this feeling or emotion is. It's like there is this unwavering sadness or emptiness that will never go away. I wake up empty, go about my day without feeling an emotion and go to sleep tired
I am tired, mentally and physically, I didn't realize it until I doing daycare watching the toddlers and I just physically couldn't run, they all caught me immediately which was cute and adorable but it caught me off guard when I didn't feel the fatigue until I started actually doing a physical activity which I've been lacking since I've come back to school, stress and late night work sessions without a break I haven't had the time to workout like I usually do or eat properly I knew I was tired but I didn't know it was this bad, still I can't sleep I have to stay up tonight just like I have the nights before to keep up with everyone else. Even after drinking my pre-workout to stay up without falling asleep, I feel tired and could close my eyes. I just wish I could have someone to do it with, someone who could stay up on late-night calls and do homework or whatever they need to do as well. I'm not asking for any of ya'll to reach out it's just a dream of mine.
I am listening to this with my face buried in my pillow, trying not to let everything out because my sister is on the top bunk because Im at a relatives rn
Hello. I just wanted to remind you that you are amazing Ignore the people that want to take you down Focus on the people that care for you You are worth as the most valuable thing in this galaxy Please. I know you can get though this. You are the best thing that has ever happened in this world Have a great day:)
I've been told so many times that I have some kind of potential. I've been told that I can be the best at everything I ever wanted. I've been told that everyone is very proud of me. I've been told that I shouldn't worry about the current moment. I've been told that I should go for the stars and above. I've been told to never be afraid. I've been praised so many times for my grades and dedication. I've been told that my true passion will arrive soon, and that I'll be the most successful that everyone ever saw. ... I've been trying for so long, following these words of "wisdom", hoping to finally find my purpose. I've been comparing myself to so many people, that it aches in the heart to even find anything special in me. I've been crying for months, wishing it would just stop, so I can stand up and keep on going. I've been overthinking so much, I can't even focus on my everyday life and be truly happy. ... I want to know what others found in me that I can't find in myself. I want the tears to turn into joyful ones. I want the overthinking to fade away, so I can sit in place in peace and silence. I want to understand why it feels like I have a war inside my head, and why my thoughts constantly go 100km/h. ... I want to live in the moment, and stop worrying about the traumas of the past, and the anxiety of the future. I want to be fixed, so I'll function like a normal human being, and continue grinding my way to find my purpose. I want to finally be proud of myself, even if I didn't do much that one day. ... I just want to be happy.
Ima be honest i think I'm just losing myself my self-esteem i feel like i just want to cuddle up and not to open up i want to just not do anything I'm losing the things i enjoy i feel like I'm just worthless and broken i cry easily i mess up i keep forgetting things i lose my memories i lose my temper its Christmas but i just don't feel it this year I don't feel happy.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
I really needed this thank you so much, I have been struggling sm lately because my head has been so empty yet its overflowing at the same time I you know what I mean
You know something’s wrong when your birthday doesn’t seem happy and cheerful but instead just another reminder that you have to deal with life and the full of either good or bad people.
Ever since I was a child, I’d seek comfort from literally anything: it ranged from strangers, animals to my own family and my stuffed animals. I stopped looking for it because no one had given me what I longed for, but now that i’ve grown up, it’s all people try to give me. It feels strange being comforted, and it messed up how I console myself and others. I cannot comfort others because I was not comforted as a child, when I needed it most.
each person is doing his own thing rn like studying , sad,tired,sleeping,crying,dancing,singing,vibing,overthinking,blaming etc.... im always by ur side keep going trust urself
i’m tired of worrying, thinking, stressing, crying over another weightloss journey. i just want to come home from somewhere without having to realize i need to workout, i just want to eat wherever without thinking abt it, i just want to breath anywhere without that in my mind just once. it is so extremely tiring. i’ve wasted my teenage years because of this, this is one of the biggest mistakes of my life. seeing and hearing anything that has to do with weight triggers me so badly at this point in my life. i just want to be someone else. i want to be the girl of my dreams. i want to finally live happily, free, and content.
оу... я понимаю насколько это ужасно, но я верю в вас! пусть это и не исчезнет насовсем, но это и не отменяет вашего счастья!! с вами будут люди, по-настоящему любящие вас как никого другого, принимающие любым, те, кто будет всегда рядом и вы будете счастливы, я обещаю!! главное не сдаваться не перед какими трудностями, все осуществимо и все получится!! а я буду верить в вас, переживать и надеяться! :)
Vent!! I'm mainly here because my 'Christmas' wasn't. It just wasn't Christmas. Now it's past Christmas, 4am in the morning. While I sit here, headphones in, sobbing away. Christmas just. Feels wrong? It's not happy anymore. Last Christmas I had a lot of people with me, this Christmas it was just me, my sibling, and my mom. And all my friends were to busy to talk to me. It just didn't seem 'cheerful' It seemed. Painful in a way. -hunter.
Yeah I agree with you, Christmas has changed, I don't know if you need advice or other things, I probably couldn't be able enough to help you anyway, but I hope your social relationships will be better or that you make up new ones, and that everyone has a better Christmas next year. Otherwise, I wish you all the happiness you may one day find, I hope for you to have a good life, I'm sure you will be alright, Everyone manage some day :).
Im not going through anything super tragic, Im not depressed, nothing. But somehow these comments feel relatable? I just hope whoever *is* going through something tragic is okay. *Youre* okay, its okay.
{ vent } Sometimes, when I open up to people about my harm and that I needed a bit of a break from overcomplicated situations due to panic attacks which I have been getting more and more of as time goes on, one of the responses I get is "Why? I had it worse than you. You're just overreacting." All of my friends are becoming more distant to me because I'm afraid I'm going to hurt them and I don't want them getting included in my personal problems. If someone does try to help me, I push them away. I literally talk to myself more than I do to people at this stage and cry into my pillow and try pretending it's a person who I can talk to and hug. I pretend it's a person who cares. I met some really cool people, but they said I talked too much and that I should just shut up. I overthink everything and started to compare myself with others. Whenever someone is talking to me, I zone out, which lots of people find annoying, I'm still listening but they usually just walk away muttering something about me not caring. I also recently found out my sexuality, and who I feel comfortable with identifying as, and I would love not hiding who I am anymore, but lots of people I know hate the LGBTQ+ community and think they're disgusting and are just doing in the community for attention. I have to hide who I am because of others opinions. I only came out to three people; two of which use it against me & make fun of me. I don't want to off myself. I don't want the ones I care about to hurt themselves because they think it's their fault. My energy is going down, I can't pay attention in class and for some reason, no matter how tired I am, I can never sleep. When I do manage to sleep, and I have a dream, I hope I can stay there forever. Everything is fine there. Thank you for reading. I hope everything will be fine in the end, for both me and you
i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
To all the people here: It's absolutely okay to express your feelings. It's okay to be yourself. It's okay to ask for help. No one shall tell you, what to do. No one shall disturb you. No one shall make you cry. If you're going through dark times, believe me, sometime soon it will be all okay. You just have to believe in it. We all love you. We all need you. 3
101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. dancing when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity 101. you just remember when you feel at your lowest, someone can and will always be there for you. you may not know it at the moment, but there is. someone believes in you and someone loves you. never give up, shine bright.
“If you’ve been up all night and cried till you have no more tears left in you - you will know that there comes in the end a sort of quietness. You feel as if nothing is ever going to happen again.” - C.S. Lewis “You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn’t mean you’re defective - it just means you’re human.” - David Mitchell “I wish people could understand that the brain is the most important organ of our body. Just because you can’t see mental illness like you could see a broken bone, doesn’t mean it’s not as detrimental or devastating to a family or an individual.” - Demi Lovato “She’s battling things her smile will never tell you about.” - Jonny Ox “People cry, not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong too long.” - Johnny Depp “I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy. Because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that.” - Robin Williams “What we don’t need in the midst of struggle is shame for being human.” - Brene Brown “Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed, and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.” - William C. Hannan “People in therapy are often in therapy to deal with the people in their lives who won’t go to therapy.” - Unknown “Never give up on someone with a mental illness. When “I’ is replaced by “we,” illness becomes wellness.” - Shannon L. Alder
I always feel sad at the moment and always make it worse for myself by beating myself up (metaphorically) about how I shouldn’t be sad because others have it so much worse and I know many people feel the same. If you’re reading this and that sounds like you, just know that if anything makes you feel sad that’s perfectly okay! It doesn’t matter what others think because you and your feelings are so important, no matter how big or small they may be. ❤
Honestly… I don’t think i will be able to cry even at a funeral… and i’m not even ashamed of it… i will just stand there,emotionless and just feel the moment,because i am dead inside…
"you're so naive" "you're so useless you can't do anything right" "i wish i never had you" they think they're just words but it lingers the most sometimes it feels better to be dead
Sometimes people don't realize how hurtful their words are. Just remember, you are a good person. Try to love yourself and show all those people that they are wrong. Take care of yourself!
"All by himself, sittin alone." Ive lost my tears. I cant cry at all. I simply cant cry. Physicly. My tears have been drained. Whats left is a drop of sanity and an abyss of nothing covering my body. Ive snapped before, ill snap again. Ill go crazy again. My sanity had been drained before and it will be drained again. Mistakes will happen. Such sins. Killing myself will be for the good of others.
I might be the only unlucky one but whenever life starts to feel good and you can finally say proud and loud "I'm happy and I'm good" there is always something that come and destroy it. I am so tired of this loop that has been going on in my life. Everything is fine then everything goes down. :/
*when you’re here for the wrong reasons, and you are the one hurting people. But you can’t control it. so if you cry or SH your dramatic and you just have to smile. The karma had reached you.*
100 reasons to stay alive 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get a tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek) 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains. 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64. Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. a feeling of being loved 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realising that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you love. 75. Spending the whole day in bed. 76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. 77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 79. Bonfires and smokes. 80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 81. Coming home to someone you love. 82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. 83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 84. Cuddling. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it.
Time… Time is… Time is strange. I remember when the days were slow and I was always bored, waiting for something to happen. Now the days are all blurred, I have to think to know what day of the week it is. “Did I do that last week or last month?… maybe last year..” I’m always tired. Always feel the same. Time is going by so fast and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what I want to do. Every time I think I know what I want.. everyone tells me I’m wrong.. and maybe I am.. Alone. The loneliness of my mind is.. It’s painful. But it’s my favorite place to go to get away. Sometimes it betrays me. Tells me I’d be better off dead. I’m hurting everyone around me. Everyone hates me. How could they love me. Solution.. don’t think. Don’t think. Don’t think. Don’t think. Don’t think. Don’t think. …what are you doing? You woke me up from my daydream.. I didn’t want to wake up yet.. I can’t wake up yet… not when he’s here.
To anyone who needs to hear this, *its okay to give up* Don't push yourself to keep fighting. Life is hard, and people are terrible. I wish someone could've told me this sooner before I wasted my energy. *It's okay to give up*
It’s sad because the image is so relatable… I’m tired.. of life. I try and try but things always go wrong no matter what I do. I do good things and the end up horrible. I do nothing and horrible. Life sucks. I can’t even go one day without crying. It could just be my ADHD which my doctor said could lead to depression. Plus my anxiety is horrible. I can’t speak a loud without a stutter unless it’s friends and family.
хей, тяжело тащить все одному и ты не должен так делать!! дорогие для тебя люди думаю были бы расстроены если бы узнали что ты скрываешь свои чувства :( каждый человек имеет право делиться своими переживаниями - и это нормально, стоит говорить о проблемах с близкими, держать все в себе неправильно, чувак. я - незнакомец из интернета, но я знаю что ты сильный человек и ты не будешь слабее если однажды выскажешь все, что на душе. тебе станет легче! чем больше носишь на душе, тем больше накапливается, а это не очень хорошо... я верю в тебя и горжусь тобой.
anyone else able to relate to putting on a fake smile, or friends, school, family, etc...but once you alone with a pet, plushies, or just by yourself you let it all out?
I’m just surprised that people on the internet, strangers, people I don’t know at all, can comfort me. Yet my own family can’t.? It’s sick .. parents don’t know what they do to their children. Others do it on purpose. I hate how they said that we don’t do anything in the house even after an exhausting day of school, tidying my room, cleaning most of the house, and yet I still get the same response. It’s not fair..
Can you read this for me it wont be hard trust me Awhh~ty that your reading this !!! I have a message for this wonderfull person reading this Your pretty asf If your grades are medium or bad dont worry everything will go better by time!!your future is gonna be just WONDERFULL like you I want to hug you ♥️ If someone died that was verry close to you I'm sure that person is PROUD of you how far you came they love you more then you know Even tho i dont know you i know your wonderfull Please take care
"Cheer up, and if you can't do that, then fake it" "You have everything you could ever want. A roof over your head, food to eat. Only people who have lost everything have a reason to be depressed" "I'm really sick of this attitude, cheer up or I'll give you something to be glum about" "Where'd that happy little girl go?" Answer this, Dad: Do you wish I never made it to 13? Huh? You'd still have that little girl with you, but you wouldn't have to deal with me now. So tell me, Dad: Do you wish I disappeared on my 13th birthday?
I met some guy on a game. We connected, like something I had never felt before. I didn't even know him in anyway. He asked me if we could continue playing suddenly, after that one game. I loved his voice when we VCed, I loved how he looked on video calls, but, it was wrong, wasn't it? We did so much together. My parents knew of him, they didn't really like him, because of a bit of an age difference, but they ignored it for now. It took me a bit to realize, I wanted to be with him, to date him. But, it was online. Online dating was always something I said I'd never do. But I couldn't control myself. It had almost been a year, and my depression hadn't showed in a while. Until now, here I am, sitting and crying because my parents made me block contact with him. He told me it was okay, that it was all alright, and to take care of myself. I can't feel anything anymore, as if my world has been taken away. I love you, Vlad. You will always be in my heart, Snowflake.
Im proud of you for at least waking up today, you have done so much, its ok to relax, your not lazy, your tired, or depressed, its not your fault your depressed, i love you :)
Crazy how online people comfort me more then my real life friends, they actually seem to understand me. However, my real life friends judge my clothing... one day I was so exited to have these baggy clothes, they told me I looked like a homeless person. Maybe they were right, but they had no authority to laugh and judge me in front of everyone. Im tired of everything, I will be happy again... I hope so at least, I'm just not ready yet... Take care everyone just know, your not alone, there are many fish in the sea, there are many friendships to be made, so what if this didn't work out?... And you matter.
I've been questioning reality, I was diagnosed with bpd, scoliosis, anxiety, and adhd. And to add on top of that tower of issues, a whole lot of trauma
I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it’s just too much. The current’s too strong. They’ve got to let go, drift apart. That’s how it is with us.
Merry Christmas. Christmas? It’s already Christmas? It doesn’t feel like Christmas tho? You’re right. Christmas this year feels more like a normal day than a celebration.
Hello! I see you're into kpop? If you want to talk to somone about your hobbies, interests, or anything troubling you, Im here! I'll always be an option for you💜🫂
I was so lonely and sad during highschool, entered college on 2020, hoping I could make some friends and fix my life... Then quarentine came and fucked everything up. Spent my first 2 years of college isolated and miserable. It feels like at the moment I could start fresh, life fucking sabotages me. Sorry for the vent, its just that the quarentine comment really hits home.
I like music tbh, it helps me keep calm, and this is just my type of music when Im alone. Thank you for making this playlist and I got to listen to it on my last day on earth.
I havent been able to celebrate christmas with my family since we lost our house and almost all our stuff (id rather not say why it happened that we lost our home as its very traumatic) including all my childhood christmas decors and almost everything else we owned. My mother is still devastated and cries about it now and then.. We dont have much money either, so most the new ornaments weve got were from a local donation box close to the shelter were staying in... It got real freezing the last couple of nights aswell and mom and dad were worried we might freeze to death. The shelter walls are so thin and weak it barely keeps the heat in, and the breaker kept kicking off. This doesnt scrape the surface of how terrible the past couple of years have been. Things are getting so much harder and im getting so much weaker. I hope things change. I need things to change. Or else i dont think ill make it. Wish me luck. i need it.
Listen,I know I am a stranger to you and my words might mean anything to you but,I have been through it my dad broke his toe my mum gave a birth to my sister and I was 8-9.I really do believe in you I want to believe that everything is gona go good like REALLY good and you gona get out of it your family and I really wish that you and your family gona stay all together and loving each other really much! I am just a stranger but talk to me if you feel so ofc bc u have been thought alot recently and its all alright to vent I am here,I am proud of you that you are still standing! I am here dear
It's the new year. Happy 2023!! Not even half an hour into the new year, I ended up crying about something stupid. I checked my friend's stories on snap, and at first I was like, "they look so happy! I'm glad. They deserve to be happy on new years." But. All of them were with people. I'm alone on new years. No friends to celebrate with. Just my family, and they didn't even celebrate, let alone with me. I had no one. And here are all my friends, celebrating with other people. Why can't I be like that? I have so many friends, but I feel so distant from them. I don't know why? I just seem to not be as close as I'd like to be with them all.
Im really going through it and I know you guys are too, I hope you guys never feel the way I do, sometimes I wanna end it but I feel like an attention seeker, I hope you guys find peace and love, I wish you all the best
"i deserve this, i deserve this, I deserve this, just think that they are happy, just think that they are happy, i deserve this pain, im horrible, im disgusting, im a sinner, im a jackass, i deserve to bleed, I don't deserve her, I don't deserve happiness, I don't deserve anything," for some reason saying this makes me calm
The way I cried at 27:42 when the song sang, “my baby…my baby, you’re my baby say it to me..” that song has always made me cry, because not once have I heard my parents call me their baby, or be proud of me. I just feel not wanted. But this song always helped me feel like I was a wanted daughter, not just a mistake. So thank you for making this.
Hey there! How are you? 🎁- if your response is good 🧸- if your response isn’t great 🎀- if your not sure what you would respond 🎁- I’m so happy to hear you are doing good! I hope it stays that way forever. Never let anything bring you down. You, my dear, are such an amazing person. You deserve the world. If I could give it to you, I most definitely would. Enjoy the happy times always! I hope that you have an amazing rest if your going to bed. If you’re just waking up, enjoy your day! Make some yummy breakfast! Don’t forget to stop and look at the beauty of this world. If it’s noon time, go get your lunch! Eat with someone and have a nice chat. If it’s evening, grab some dinner, watch your favorite show, and enjoy yourself. Keep being yourself, and I hope your happiness will never end.❤ 🧸- I’m so sorry to hear that my darling. I’ll be praying for you. Please, do remember how much you are worth. You deserve to be happy. It’s ok to be sad, my dear. It’s ok to not be ok.it’s alright to cry. I’m here. You don’t have to worry about holding it in. Don’t worry about other people judging you. Take time and focus on yourself. Please make sure you eat something. Even if it’s small. Drink some water. Take deep, long breaths. Remind yourself that you are awesome and deserve to be here. Don’t worry, things will get better. Don’t be afraid to reach for help. You are still in control! Don’t let your emotions get ahead of you. And please, promise me you’ll be kind to yourself. Why would you ever be mean to one of the best people? Take care of yourself, and please, don’t convince yourself you aren’t worth it. You are. Don’t hurt yourself, you’re too beautiful/handsome to do that! Just don’t stress, and find some happy music to listen too! Take a sip of water and try to get some rest if you can. It will be ok💞 🎀- so you’re not exactly sure how you feel? Well, that’s ok! I get it. It’s hard to understand sometimes. But your feelings aren’t invalid, darling. You deserve to be able to recognize your feelings. Hopefully they are happy ones! But if they aren’t, that’s ok too! Take some time to focus on yourself. And if you’re just feeling somewhere in between, just know, you deserve to be happy! I hope you feel better soon! Don’t worry about anything, just take a sip of water, listen to some happy music, and focus on yourself. It will all be alright, dear. Don’t stress about anything! Just let it go and have a great day/night. Make sure to get some rest when you feel like you need it. I hope you will enjoy yourself🤍 If your feeling like you want to do anything that could be harming, please, my dear talk to someone first. If you don’t have anyone immediate that you can reach out to, please try these help lines. It’s worth it, I promise. You deserve to live. You were put here for a reason, and I know that reason will be great. Please, don’t be afraid to reach out💓 ~988: immediate help line. Available 24/7. You can text or call for immediate mental health assistance. ~churches care: connects you to local churches and people who will help you through any sadness you may be experiencing. ~877-995-5247: sexual assault helplines. Available 24/7. ~866-903-3787: mental health hotline. Available 24/7. ~741741 text HOME: a texting hotline for any help needed. Available 24/7. You will get immediately connected to a counselor. ~1-800-662-4357: substance abuse hotline available 24/7 Please love yourself my dear! Have an amazing day/night❤ -the stranger who cares
I feel good for you bro :) I hope you can have all the time to let out those pent up emotions you're feeling , just remember that your days gonna get better , maybe not now but eventually it will :)
"why couldn't you just give her your food?! you are so selfish for complaining about being hungry after i let her have your food, she's sensitive and you know that!" said my mom, yelling at me for saying i was hungry. i just wanted to start trying to turn around my eating habits so i didnt get so deep into anorexia. neither of my parents saw ot later that day, but i blacked out due to low blood sugar and lack of eating.
“---! Let your sister use the toy!” It’s my toy.. “---! Stop hitting your sister!” She hit me first… “---! You almost failed school, get better grades! Your sisters are amazing in school!” I’m autistic, and I’m not my sisters… why don’t they get that I’m not being cared for, not being loved all because I have to siblings.. my rooms a mess, I’ve been diagnosed with depression and my parents bought my sisters toys instead of my anti depressants.. I have autism and am treated like a f*cking failure.. my grandma yells at me, tells my mom about what i did, yells at my mom for not disciplining me. I don’t think I’m a therapist but my grandma sure does talk about all her problem to me. I don’t get why I was born sometimes, maybe I’m just a tool for them to use, I hate being the oldest.
"Can't you be more supportive?!" is what i feel people are thinking when i try to comfort them. IF ONLY I CAN PUT WORDS FROM MY MIND. I got so hated on so much and people around me was SO TOXIC that when i tried to fight, They jus say ", SHUT THE FUCK UP!" when i tried to reason. I just want my surroundings to be kind nd supporting ppl.
If u see this, please care of yourself
thank you. :)
Love u.
@@abdarrazzaqmunozflores2231 love u more
@@REMAIN_SOLID
i appreciate u for this. love u ❤️
Crazy how strangers in the internet can comfort me except my own family
facts😂they can understand me better than my parents
I think its because on the internet they can't judge you.
@@lizziepike2196 hmm. it's quite safe here
Fr tho also when I tell you guys this don't call anyone so my parents were fighting on Christmas eve and Christmas so I had to step in and now a have a burn on my forehead buy ig it's ok I almost got kicked out and stuff bc I was gay and things but yea guys uhm sorry if I'm annoying you or bothering you or putting my pressure and pain on you I'm very very very very sorry
@@cheytheanimelover shit ... your not allow to say sorry. I want to say sorry even though i'm not there. you need a hug. (heartstopper helps & shera)
*there it goes again.*
*That heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move.*
*all you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting.*
*you attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything.*
Real.
that sounded so real and relatable yet poetic.
Everybody wants me to get up, but I’m so exhausted
This made me break in tears . Thank you
@@DigitizedGalaxyAlt get up darling! It's a beautiful day today! 😘❤️
"the only thing u have to do is study, there's nothing else you gotta do! why you even tired? there's nothing u have to do,u got no job to do,no bills to pay, u get food served in front of u, we provide u with everything, what u even 'sad' for?!"
Having fake friends, losing family, mental health problems and a broken heart
I just had my mom get frustrated for her having to do all of the work when 'I'm just doing nothing" just now. Damn.
ironically thats why your so depressed, you have no purpose that you feel is your own, and you know your being ejected into a pretty bleak reality, humans tend to get pretty fucked up when they dont have a purpose, higher reasoning is as much a burden as it is a gift if you dont set it to a problem, it will see you as the problem and it will pick and tear you apart piece by piece out of boredom
Nah if i heard this i would eat my parents whole. (I'm sort-of kidding.)
Yeah, honestly don't even have anything to add just that's how they be
Edit: Maybe now I have something to add. ontop of what @guildmasterasmund3379 said you have to find happiness outside of what you have to do. It's hard but you have to do what you love when it's rewarding. Go outside enjoy the fresh air. Enjoy the inside more? No problem make something you can be proud of. Draw a picuture. Not good at drawing? no problem use a base or just draw and be bad (we all start bad) Don't want to draw? no problem make a game you don't need skill like you may think and just follow some tutorials. don't want to make a game? No problem write a song. even just the lyrics to on ecould be fun or making the intrumental is also fun. Don't like making songs? No problem Write a short story or a book, or even a poem to pour your feelings into. It's impossible to be bad at writing if you put your pent up emotions into your work. It can also be really nice to write out the way you feel. Don't want to write? No problem Talk to your friends it can be really relaxing if you don't have any right now then if you are feeling up to it try and make some. Maybe try discord and search for servers or go to clubs that you think could be fun. Don't want to? No problem learn what intrests you not just what school makes you think study is. it can be whatever you like knowing about. Don't want to? Play some video games you like Don't want to? try out martial arts or some light exercise it can be really nice like a walk or jog when you wake up. Don't want to? That's okay read a book you don't have to read more than you want to but if you find the right book it can be nice to get lost in anther world. Don't want to? That's okay Take some time to take care of yourself maybe try meditating or looking in a mirror and saying positive things about yourself here's a short list of some things you can say:
You are loved
You are enough
You are beautiful
You are strong
You are smart
You will cut out the negitive people in your life
You will get better
You will be the very best you can be
You will get away from your troubles
You will fix your problems
You will get up in the morning and be glad ot be alive
You will take care of yourself
You deserve love
You deserve affection
You deserve to be happy
You don't deserve to be hurt
You don't deserve to be yelled at
You don't deserve to be bullied
anyway you should get some sleep I'm sure it's late and if you need music right now to get through tonight that's okay but if not take off the headphones and lay down I'm sure you need to wake up early tomorrow you are loved go to bed
From a loser with a keyboard
To, You someone who deserves happiness
"You don't do anything in this house, you have no reason to be tired! My God!?"
Hear this every fucking day
@@christinam7471 RS!!
I DO EVERYTHING IN THE DAMM HOUSE AND THEY SAY THIS.
And you think that’s bad. Bitch I get abused by my family for helping
@@journeehoward4171 tf, you should report 💀💀 that is abuse 💀
Honestly,I don't think I'm a person anymore.
I don't wanna do anything but I don't wanna do nothing.
But...i don't wanna see my mom crying over my body on a hospital bed at all.
yo dude u need help?
@@Grayson25137 probably why we're all listening to this playlist as well
@@annymae239fr tho
yeah, pretty much sums up what i feel.
i just want to go. just, disappear somehow without feeling the pain of getting rid of my life myself. i don't want people that love me because they have to to feel that pain either.
@@Crowwstars I feel you... I'm here if you need anything tho
and eventually everything will be alright again, hopefully
“you will never be like your brother.”
i’ve done everything.
i’ve done fucking everything.
I know how it feels, but remember that always is someone there, even if you don't think so
maybe because you''ll be better? :^
you cant change yourself for someone, or change yourself to be someone. you are you, not someone else. youve tried your best and im proud of you to do so.
“You’ll never be like your brother”:
Is that because my brother is like me? Because I raised him, I helped him, I was there for him. Where were you? Getting drunk and yelling at your unwanted daughter. Yeah I think that it is just so funny how you praise him all the time when all he does is play video games. Yet I never get praise despite me raising my brother, helping everyone, making sure my mom was tended to when she was dying, getting straight A’s, doing sports, Tutoring my friends because they were failing, helping you even when you were hitting me, being told that you wished my mom got an abortion, hitting me, telling me you wish I was dead, treating me nice after my counselor called saying I wanted to kms just because you don’t want hospital bills, telling me you didn’t want a daughter. Yet I am kind, a hard worker, and I keep it together for everyone, hiding how I feel and the scars on my arms so people don’t worry about me and feel comfortable to talk to me. I changed for everyone else. And I am still unwanted. Why? I never did anything but be good. I always helped. Why is it that you hate me? I hate you, but why do I still love you? After you abused me for years, why do I still love you?
It is better now dw💗
@@Hell0-pe0ple-lol even your worry of someone will worry about you is making clear how a good person you are, ik it's easy to say but don't forget even your own family don't like you, your friends or the other people can see how loveable you are, even if they've seen a little part of you. love you!
Thing is, it’s Christmas. But is it really? It feels the same. Unchanging. I just want to stay home because i dont want to waste my holiday. Like every weekend and holiday this year. Soon ill be back to school and i wont even realise because im barely conscious outside of my head and daydreams. It just doesnt feel real anymore and itll just get worse as i grow up. What a society to live in.
I miss when we all believed in the magic, and the spirit of the holidays. When we were little kids waking up early and running out to the tree finding gifts, it was amazing. Now Christmas feels dead. Just a dumb excuse to go see the family that you dont wanna be around.
I live the same way. At least the daydreams can keep us somewhat safe. Hopefully.
Yeah it's christmas
It never will get better.. Will it? I mean, I sit in my own head year after year when does it end? When do I see the people I have lost, and new ones I have never met but need? That's a funny thing too 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘. When does one person's need out weight another's. When does a 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 become a 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵? Then those 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵'𝘴 turn into simple 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞'𝕤? One thing that keeps me up at night is 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵. When does my want become justified?.. When am I no longer called selfish just for not showing caring for the things I never cared about in the first place. I wish I could go back to a time where I never had need's, and the dream's seemed so much closer then they ever were. I want control, but I want freedom. I want do live, but I want to die as well. I just want the pain, the stress, the worries, to disappear. 𝕀 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕒𝕣. I want the dreams where I feel safe to be my reality. I want to be there not here.. But to get there I must leave here, but... Even with all these feelings I can't convince myself or the blade to let loose and drag, leaveing a valley of red in its waking path. I can't leave here. I don't know why. I don't think I want to know why. It must be a good unwavering reason... Merry Christmas to all who feel the same and to the ones that don't a happy new year to you
@@feraki_diki7572 I ain't reading allat😂😂😂😂😂🔥🔥🔥🔥✌️✌️✌️✌️
I'm proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water,
I'm proud of you for being here.
I'm proud of you for being you.
I'm proud of you for smiling.
I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU. ❤
And If you didn’t do all of them, ir is okay! Just try your best :)
Be happy, friend. Like some of y’all, I don’t do all of them! But I try, and that is what matters.
(Edit: I can't answer everyone but thank you very much and know that i'm happy making those smiles appear, please never give up because there's always a way to get out of the dark, there will always be a light waiting for you at the end and that light will show you that everything you've ever done is and will always going to be worth it.. I've been through tough moments and i promise, trust yourself because you're the only one who can save itself. You're more than capable, i believe in you! Ily guys, take care!💖 Every single comment make me think about how helpful this message is.. and I got so happy i even cried with some lol, i got sentimental but I'm so happy for you guys.. trying and believing in yourselves, its a huge inspiration for me to take every single comment and read them everyday, over and over, to know i am not alone and that i made a lot of people smile through this text.
this made me cry :( its been hard latly..
@@the1andonlypenut205 your doing well good work
this actually make my cry so hard thank you so much
I know I'm being dumb but this made my day a lot better. Nobody has told me that they're genuinely proud of me in years. Thank you, I've been going through a really shitty time for the past 2 years.
Tysm! This has given me confidence to keep on going
i miss being a kid i miss not having to take responsibility i miss having an innocent mind
what I really miss are all the little memories I had where I actually was happy and proud to be alive, strange that there is none of my family.
Yep me to :)
Same here, but it drives me to help those who still have it
Not every kid has a good life I'm 12 I started hating myself when I was 10 i started cutting when I was 11. And now I go to the point where I started trying to burn myself. I HATE MY LIFE but every fucking day when I'm around other people I always keep a smile on my face,b7t when I around my parents I'm always mad at them but I don't want to be mad at them I hate my life fuck life.
Yeah but school gives you some responsibilities, or homework I guess. I'm still a kid and I just started crying when I saw how much homework I had
The comment section on vent playlists are sad, but also so comforting and cozy. I feel like we all understand each other better than most people in real life. Just me? I don't know. But seeing the people here be so caring about people they have never met in real life is just so nice...
i love this side of the internet.
even tho they're miles, MILES away from each other, people always find a way to comfort anyone.
🙃 we do it bc we know how they feel....... people on the internet are more understanding than our families ever will be... the second we try to talk to our family they just tell us we have no reasopn to be sad or cry... then they question us..... they simply just dont understand
idk man i feel..... not alone here. even though we are probs countrys apart
For sure.
"Dont cry or I'll give you a reason to" vibe
My mother and step father always says that.
god my parents always say that
@@Cottontaililyyyy same though
goosebumbs..
@@lenawagner9279 fr
“It’s sad to think your younger sister has been doing greater than you.”
“Why don’t you ever talk to us?”
“You never talk.”
“So it’s our fault?”
“This is why…”
“You think you have anxiety?”
“Go on, save it for the therapist.”
“I could die tomorrow and you wouldn’t care.”
“Why do you forget to eat?”
“Why is it so hard for you to wake up?”
Hi. Late reply here. But I just want you to know that all the things your parents say that blame you unfairly aren't true. It's okay. You're okay. You may not feel okay, but you are. You're going to be okay. I'm proud of you for being alive, Cheshire.
sry ik this is like months after u posted this comment but my love i understand ur pain it's hard to keep up with all the shit ur accused of ik am not in the position to speak as i get easily affected by such words aswell but pls know ur not alone one day everythings gonna get better i promise😮💨
I hate my body, personality,weight,height, everything.
Same... I hope you get better ♥︎♡ you are loved
Your a good person.❤
Nada que no puedas cambiar o empezar a amar
Deseo que superes esto que pasas
I only hate my broken body I can barely move without pain my made is pain 24/7 so I also can’t sleep often
Same.
Am I the only one who’s just unable to cry nowadays ? Like even if in the inside I’m totally broken, screaming of pain, outside nothing comes but a oppressive silence. I feel like I felt so much in the past that now nothing makes me feel human anymore. I just lie here contemplating the void with no emotion, waiting things to end.
..i understand bro. its okay, i hope youre doing better, were all struggling..sending love bro
Your not alone I can't feel anymore at least not on the outside you may feel it on the inside but not the out just know that's fine just find a way to let the emotions out like just grab a paper and shred it it helps. Love you
Yea I really can’t cry at all no matter how bad something hits me I just can’t do it which makes me believe im just faking it or it’s not true sadness and I have no reason to feel bad any way i haven’t been very reactive to anything at first but now im just a void to everyone
Me😂
When I cry I laugh. It’s like this uncontrollable laughter bc it’s like my body deals with too much pain to cry it turns it into humor
"My life is pretty shit.. I must deserve it.. I must have done something bad.."
I did that to myself when my family split, it's not true at all, it may seem like it, but it never will be. It just ruins your life, trying to fix everyone's problems yourself, I learnt that after 5 years, I wasted 5 years of my life trying to fix everything around me, I finally accepted that I can't fix everything.
i said this to myself multiple times when my parents would fight. i was in the room and unable to drown it out with music when i heard my dad consider a divorce due to a fight started from me not understanding a math question and my mom gave me an anxiety attack, and i felt it was my fault for asking for help. i know it was my moms fault but that messed me up, but remember its not true, those thoughts are lies, and nothing is your fault. you never did anything bad, the people causing your thoughts are the ones who did a bad thing
Real
Have you do Selfharm? I want to stop but... It's so Difficult
@@AfganGaming-vb3lq I do
0:00 - The Walters - I Love you so
2:39 - TV Girl - Not Allowed
5:28 - Vacations - Young
8:35 - Radiohead - No Surprises
12:23 - TV Girl - Cigarettes out the window
15:41 - Alex G - Treehouse
18:20 - Sushi Soucy - I Deserve to Bleed
20:06 - The Dresden Dolls - My Alcoholic Friends
22:52 - The Strokes - The Adults Are Talking
27:41 - Mitski - I Bet On Losing Dogs
30:29 - Lyn Lapid - Detached
32:56 - Yungatita - 7 Weeks & 3 Days
36:10 - FKJ - Ylang Ylang (slowed + reverb)
40:29 - Sufjan Stevens - Fourth Of July
45:02 - Patrick Watson - Je te laisserai des mots
Take care ♥
Ty u too
Thank you so much this was a LOT of help!! And you too!!
Ty, hope your ok
Thank-you sooo much for doing this I needed it! :,)
You crazy kin of a bitch, you’ve saved us all from having to go digging through time stamps, you’re a fricking legend.
does anyone else just come to these to read comments and listen to music bc your emotionally and mentally drained? yeah, I do too. i just wanted to tell you that what ever you're going through, even though i dont know you, is valid. I may not know exactly what it is, but its still valid. just remember you can't control every negative thing that happens, your only human. you can only do so much, and what you do is more than enough. you dont have to try hard just because someone else can do it a little better. what you do is enough. YOU are enough. dont let anyone tell you otherwise. i love you, you beautiful, talented, amazing person. so take care of yourself. drink some water, do your makeup, eat some food, work out, do your hair, take a nice hot bath/shower. get sunlight, do a few house chores if you have time. but do. not. over work. yourself. take time to relax, you deserve it. now take care and have a wonderful rest of your day/night you wonderful person
@OddAce I cry easily too, it's not a bad thing dear
i do :) you guys help a lot more than my parents and sisters
I really needed that thank you
Thank you. Just thank you. I can't express how much I needed this ❤️
hey, thanks a lot for writing this, i really needed it and im so thankful
My life is so happy, why do I feel this way? I have good friends, good family, a good life. School is draining me, I feel like I’m separating from everyone. I feel like I’m getting mad at everyone. And I feel horrible for it. They don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve them. I hate myself, the way I act and the way I look. I’m tired of it. But I shouldn’t . People are going through more than me, and yet I’m still here crying and being overdramatic.
I get this. It feels like I'm not supposed to feel the negative feelings. Because I have it so much better than some people. The bad part passed and it wasn't even that bad. So why do I feel like this? I shouldn't. I should be happy.
Same here.
My whole life is a dream but for some reason I'm tired of it, I don't want as much attention as I wanted just few years ago, I want quiet, I don't want to get attached but I want people to talk to me, now it's summer but I don't have anyone to go outside and I'm locked in my room, on phone 24/7 and dying out of boreddness (idk if such a word as boreddness exist😭)
this is so relatable, like my life is so happy and i can laugh like all day but in the back of my mind i just feel like something is missing i feel somehow empty... and sad.
Some 3 reasons:
1. Something is missing in your life
2. Some repressed emotional injury
3. You are empathic and sensitive to this music
@@Resima_ You can do some Diy,find a book, search for childhood stuff here in the internet, relax with comforting music.
You really don't need friends.
may i give up?
can i despair?
should i be excited?
do I have to keep fighting?
can i make my own decision?
can i do everything i want?
Why do they look at me as if I'm so useless?
that bad am I, even myself fed up with all this.
You know a playlist is good when you either don’t skip songs or play the playlist 30 times
real
yeah its good shit
i rlly don't know how im gonna live a full life if im just a few years past a decade old and I already feel 70. I feel the nostalgia of 2015, and desperately want to go back to that time. back then I wanted to be 13 so bad, but now I would do anything to feel innocent again. growing up comes with freedom, but also new responsibilities and harsh realities. the more I think about the past the more I lose my will to live in the present. I don't know how I will live 80 long years of life if I can barely hang on at 14.
Your not alone man, your loved and you have someone to talk to maybe not in your situation but just know your not alone
‘when you love someone so much you hide the truth from them because you know how much it would hurt them’
- 2024
Or you can’t hide anything that would hurt them cuz you know they deserve to know..
@@N30n.-.ac1d or you can fake it...
I hate my life
My depressive stages are so bad My social anxiety hurts
My insomnia is horrible
I either eat too much or too little
My eyes burn
I can barely cry anymore
I’m scared, I’m scared of everyone around me, They all scare me
The way they all think, I hate it, But it’s so scary
I’ve seen how everyone thinks
It’s always the same thing
All I can do is hide, Keep it locked away
How long before it breaks me?
I’m terrified if that ever happens
I cant let them be right, But yet if I do nothing the more my anger grows
Everytime they yelled, They pushed me, Non stop torment
I watched them all laugh
I watched them all from a distance
They all hid behind masks I couldn’t comprehend
I watched them all smile to eachother then spread rumors
They laughed behind eachothers backs, The different masks they all wore, The way they all thought I couldn’t comprehend
It didn’t make sense
Why did they all act like that
Their minds confused me
It didn’t make any sense why they all thought that way
Why couldn’t they see the truth? Did they already see it and just do the same thing back?
Why was everyone so different?Why didn’t I fit in?
How could they all act this way?How did none of them have a heart?
Did they not feel the same guilt, That same pain?
How come I was the only one who didn’t fit in?
How come I felt this pain?
Why did they all treat me different?
Why didn’t they treat me better? Why did they all back stab me, Hurt me with their words?
Why did they all ignore me?
They all pushed me to the side. Only used me for simple things, Yet never helped me in return. They only yelled if I asked for something.
All of the memories are circling in my mind.
Why would they yell at me?I was just a scared kid
It wasn’t my fault
Why was I blamed?
Why did they always push me? Why were they all so rude?
Did I really do something to deserve it?
Why does no one care?
Why do I come up with excuses for them?
It’s just clear that they don’t care
Why do I help them?
Why can’t I stop?
God I fucking hate myself, my life
Why do I torture myself constantly?
Is it the feeling of fear or anxiety that I’m addicted to?
Or maybe I’m too scared to change, That’s why I do this? Maybe…
I honestly relate. It hurts to be in this endless loop or torment but I’m basically just surviving I’m no longer living just waking up and doing what I do every day I’m tired of it
This one is a little too relatable for me
This one is relatable well it used to be, you will get through it talk to people make new friends find your comfort zone talk to parents friends, but just know your not alone nobody is even if you don’t currently have anybody to talk to there is always someone there who will listen to you and help you, and luckily I also had someone at that point in my life
@@ParadoxSupreme-hl4lg too relatable it actually hurts.
honestly my man, being damaged isnt as bad as you might think, alot of people think im mentally strong, that nothing phases me and thats kinda true, but im not strong because i just resist everything like an iron wall, its just that my mind is more like a collection of shattered glass and sand than a wall, sure you can pound it but really whats that gonna do, go punch some sand on a beach and tell me if the beach is affected much, dont be so scared of losing it, its not the end, im bat shit crazy my girlfriend is a psychologist and according to her i am one of the most interesting unique cases shes ever come across my mind works in ways shes never come across in any case study, truth i broke a long long time ago completely spun loose and never wound the spool back up, ive still lived my life, im arrogant crazed no fear of death or life, cant feel stress, no passion prone to fits of extreme mania 50 other little wtfs, hasnt stopped me from making friends, what ive learned is im just alot freer and more interesting than most other people because i dont care, people push you to the side leave em, what are you sticking around for why do you care, the girl im in love with is perhaps the most unlikely pairing, rich family psychologist kind, empathetic, innocent believes in following the law nice to a fault. scroll to me, no family totally fucked in the head mean by default cruel as a modus of operandi, spent my youth as a criminal life doesnt make sense stop trying to fit it and yourself in a box and just laugh at the fucking absurdity of it, you'll feel better, when you look at it from a new perspective
I feel like everything is changing
Recently, I haven't been feeling the same compared to my younger self. The reflection lies when it tells me I should be excited. This is not as depressing as other's stories but I just want to point this out. You know about addiction? The first time you love it then the next couple times it's like not a big thing. That's what's been going on. I wish I was as hyper or excited or happy as I was when I was younger. This Christmas does not feel the same. We all have the sensation about, Oh right! Today's Christmas! And it always pierced my heart in a good way, like making it stronger. This year I'm not as excited and I don't feel that pierce. The same goes as my Birthday or Halloween, or any other special occasion I'll ever have in my life. I don't know if it's that or time is going too fast.
I know this isn't worse than the other's stories, but I just want to know how to get the same feeling or sensation again.
I feel the same way. I was super excited about Christmas, but when the holidays arrived, I wasn't so excited about it anymore. It's supposed to be a wonderful event, but it just went so fast that I didn't have the time to react. I think time flies for real now.
I'm also trying to find a solution for it. It's not supposed to happen, right? Losing feelings about an event?
I feel exactly the same. I miss the feeling of excitement, of anticipation, the feeling you would get in the morning when you would open your gift, the feelin you got when you saw it was what you asked for. Now a days everything just feels gray, like if everything lost its color. You wake up wanting, yearning for you life to be better but you don't have the motivation to even get out of bed. When the break started I noticed even more that other than school I don't have anything in my life. I just feel like giving up, like a waste of space. I say I'm happy, I smile, I laugh, but I don't actually feel it. I'm just kinda tired.
I feel the exact same.
When you get older, it’s just another thing.
this is real. Im one year late lol but the feeling still lives sadly and im sorry if commenting here reminds you of those times but im going through that right now. Every time i work hard for something i want its just so exciting to dream of when i get that thing but once i get it the feeling isn't there and it isn't even the thing i want but the feeling of satisfaction and happiness putting all that hardwork and getting some out of it. Its been like that to the point i cant put energy into anything these days. somewhat like christmas and birthdays, as a kid those were the best days of the year and now those are just days like the rest of the year. All of this just makes me miss being a child again
I feel the same
It just doesn't excite me as much as it used to
Nothing does it anymore
Sometimes I even try to fake it to maybe feel it
I have been feeling so apathetic nowadays
It's like nothing really matters anymore
I've posted this under another video. But I want everyone to see my story and not repeat my scenario. Be yourself. Love yourself. No mather who said what.
I don't always complain or vent to anyone but I just can't handle it on my own anymore. I was brought into this world and taught that way since growing up. I had to be the rock of the group, the one everyone can depend on. Make promises they never keep and be the one to take each and every word they have said.
"Be a man." or "You're a boy, boys are supposed to be tough." they said. So I had to have the self-esteem, body, hair, and even a job so my younger relatives can look up to me and know who to be or what kind of man they're supposed to look for as a lover.
I had to be tough, I had to have a smile on every time I'm with someone. I grew up with my younger relatives full of girls, there were a few boys but they were never taught the same things. I was there when everyone cried, I was the one who protected them when they were attacked, I fought when they were harassed, Me. Each time. I worked out so I had a "big body", I cut my hair so I looked "handsome", I smiled so I was "always happy and nice", I had good grades so I could "have a good job".
But in the end, No one noticed me. No one called to asked me how I was doing. No one was there when I needed a shoulder to cry on after a rough day. No one to assist me during my recent breakup. No body was there to comfort me through the pain. I was just there so I could be everyone's tissue to use and throw out.
I was left out. I grew cold. I was robbed out of my childhood. The time I had to cry, be a kid, try things, eat candy, play, I was robbed out of it. I was stripped out of my right to be a child just for the sole reason of "Being an Ideal man".
I became the one I never wanted to be but everyone aspire to be. I need someone to talk to.
Great advice ❤️ but also I’m so sorry. That’s extremely unfair and I understand the being robbed of your childhood. I as well as everyone else in the comments are here for you
I'm a girl but I went through the same thing in a different way, if you need to talk to me I'm a good listener
@@taybrxx thank you
Hey, I know it's been a whole two months since you posted this, but I just wanted you to know there's another person out there that's felt that way. I have to be the perfect role model for my siblings, and everyone at school has to think I'm perfect, when I cry the most of anyone there. People think I'm popular, when I actually eat lunch alone every day, don't get a single text over the holidays, and have nobody that I can truly tell my problems to. I never got to go through the mean teenage phase because I had to stay silent so my mom could have a rock. The moment I raise my voice is when she finally breaks down, even if the brat of the house had been disrespecting her and arguing with her for an hour. Sometimes I have to shut myself in my room, and try to force some childhood to come back to me, even though I remember nothing. (Sorry to complain, I'm a little dramatic)
I think I can almost understand where you're coming from. And I'll try to check my notifications if you still need someone to talk to. Side note, you should take a break from being perfect if you can. Just take a YOU day. Maybe go out and eat something ridiculously unhealthy just for the sake of it, be unproductive for a day, and just ignore the people that don't care. That's their problem if they can't see how amazing you are
I'm sorry for posting this so late but.....
So I'm a girl but I know what your going through let me tell you something
It's okay to feel this way,to cry,to do anything
I know this is corny and it's so hard but I like to belive that it's going to be okay
Fun fact : the internet understand me more than my mum / dad/ close family ❤
True
Your so correct!
True…
same!
True😔
I love how strangers care more abt me than my parents
I'm here
me too... we're all here for everybody.
@@JiJi_Art if the internet can all get together and huddle up it would be amazing to see how much kind people exsci6
@@ItsKaylie11 fr
I don't even know what this feeling or emotion is. It's like there is this unwavering sadness or emptiness that will never go away. I wake up empty, go about my day without feeling an emotion and go to sleep tired
Don’t stop moving forward
I am tired, mentally and physically, I didn't realize it until I doing daycare watching the toddlers and I just physically couldn't run, they all caught me immediately which was cute and adorable but it caught me off guard when I didn't feel the fatigue until I started actually doing a physical activity which I've been lacking since I've come back to school, stress and late night work sessions without a break I haven't had the time to workout like I usually do or eat properly I knew I was tired but I didn't know it was this bad, still I can't sleep I have to stay up tonight just like I have the nights before to keep up with everyone else. Even after drinking my pre-workout to stay up without falling asleep, I feel tired and could close my eyes. I just wish I could have someone to do it with, someone who could stay up on late-night calls and do homework or whatever they need to do as well. I'm not asking for any of ya'll to reach out it's just a dream of mine.
I am just a stranger in the comments, but I want you to know that I'm proud of you for everything you do, you deserve the absolute best Cass
I am listening to this with my face buried in my pillow, trying not to let everything out because my sister is on the top bunk because Im at a relatives rn
Hello.
I just wanted to remind you that you are amazing
Ignore the people that want to take you down
Focus on the people that care for you
You are worth as the most valuable thing in this galaxy
Please. I know you can get though this. You are the best thing that has ever happened in this world
Have a great day:)
I wanna as focus on the people who treat me right and care, but.. Theres no one there when I think go to find them..
@@TheRealAzuria I'm here yk:)...
Tysm
Omor
I've been told so many times that I have some kind of potential.
I've been told that I can be the best at everything I ever wanted.
I've been told that everyone is very proud of me.
I've been told that I shouldn't worry about the current moment.
I've been told that I should go for the stars and above.
I've been told to never be afraid.
I've been praised so many times for my grades and dedication.
I've been told that my true passion will arrive soon, and that I'll be the most successful that everyone ever saw.
...
I've been trying for so long, following these words of "wisdom", hoping to finally find my purpose.
I've been comparing myself to so many people, that it aches in the heart to even find anything special in me.
I've been crying for months, wishing it would just stop, so I can stand up and keep on going.
I've been overthinking so much, I can't even focus on my everyday life and be truly happy.
...
I want to know what others found in me that I can't find in myself.
I want the tears to turn into joyful ones.
I want the overthinking to fade away, so I can sit in place in peace and silence.
I want to understand why it feels like I have a war inside my head, and why my thoughts constantly go 100km/h.
...
I want to live in the moment, and stop worrying about the traumas of the past, and the anxiety of the future.
I want to be fixed, so I'll function like a normal human being, and continue grinding my way to find my purpose.
I want to finally be proud of myself, even if I didn't do much that one day.
...
I just want to be happy.
Ima be honest i think I'm just losing myself my self-esteem i feel like i just want to cuddle up and not to open up i want to just not do anything I'm losing the things i enjoy i feel like I'm just worthless and broken i cry easily i mess up i keep forgetting things i lose my memories i lose my temper its Christmas but i just don't feel it this year I don't feel happy.
I feel the same way
I feel the same way but I know your (hopefully) always trying your best in life
The song fourth of July will always put me into tears no matter what...
Me too, it makes me think about my Nan and miss her a lot
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
👍
I really needed this thank you so much, I have been struggling sm lately because my head has been so empty yet its overflowing at the same time I you know what I mean
@@someoneyoumayknow6693 No problem! Remember, not the whole world is against you :)
@@AshesPlays tysm, make sure to remember that yourself aswell :)
okk
You know something’s wrong when your birthday doesn’t seem happy and cheerful but instead just another reminder that you have to deal with life and the full of either good or bad people.
Ever since I was a child, I’d seek comfort from literally anything: it ranged from strangers, animals to my own family and my stuffed animals. I stopped looking for it because no one had given me what I longed for, but now that i’ve grown up, it’s all people try to give me. It feels strange being comforted, and it messed up how I console myself and others. I cannot comfort others because I was not comforted as a child, when I needed it most.
each person is doing his own thing rn like studying , sad,tired,sleeping,crying,dancing,singing,vibing,overthinking,blaming etc.... im always by ur side keep going trust urself
i’m tired of worrying, thinking, stressing, crying over another weightloss journey. i just want to come home from somewhere without having to realize i need to workout, i just want to eat wherever without thinking abt it, i just want to breath anywhere without that in my mind just once. it is so extremely tiring. i’ve wasted my teenage years because of this, this is one of the biggest mistakes of my life. seeing and hearing anything that has to do with weight triggers me so badly at this point in my life. i just want to be someone else. i want to be the girl of my dreams. i want to finally live happily, free, and content.
оу... я понимаю насколько это ужасно, но я верю в вас! пусть это и не исчезнет насовсем, но это и не отменяет вашего счастья!! с вами будут люди, по-настоящему любящие вас как никого другого, принимающие любым, те, кто будет всегда рядом и вы будете счастливы, я обещаю!! главное не сдаваться не перед какими трудностями, все осуществимо и все получится!! а я буду верить в вас, переживать и надеяться! :)
It's extremely sad that a stranger on the internet, a stranger, cares more about me than my own family...
its funny that strangers comfort us better then our own parents
Vent!!
I'm mainly here because my 'Christmas' wasn't. It just wasn't Christmas. Now it's past Christmas, 4am in the morning. While I sit here, headphones in, sobbing away. Christmas just. Feels wrong? It's not happy anymore. Last Christmas I had a lot of people with me, this Christmas it was just me, my sibling, and my mom. And all my friends were to busy to talk to me. It just didn't seem 'cheerful' It seemed. Painful in a way.
-hunter.
Yeah I agree with you, Christmas has changed, I don't know if you need advice or other things, I probably couldn't be able enough to help you anyway, but I hope your social relationships will be better or that you make up new ones, and that everyone has a better Christmas next year. Otherwise, I wish you all the happiness you may one day find, I hope for you to have a good life, I'm sure you will be alright, Everyone manage some day :).
l hope you feel better. Christmas can be shi sometimes.
Im not going through anything super tragic, Im not depressed, nothing.
But somehow these comments feel relatable?
I just hope whoever *is* going through something tragic is okay. *Youre* okay, its okay.
same
{ vent }
Sometimes, when I open up to people about my harm and that I needed a bit of a break from overcomplicated situations due to panic attacks which I have been getting more and more of as time goes on, one of the responses I get is "Why? I had it worse than you. You're just overreacting." All of my friends are becoming more distant to me because I'm afraid I'm going to hurt them and I don't want them getting included in my personal problems. If someone does try to help me, I push them away. I literally talk to myself more than I do to people at this stage and cry into my pillow and try pretending it's a person who I can talk to and hug. I pretend it's a person who cares. I met some really cool people, but they said I talked too much and that I should just shut up. I overthink everything and started to compare myself with others. Whenever someone is talking to me, I zone out, which lots of people find annoying, I'm still listening but they usually just walk away muttering something about me not caring. I also recently found out my sexuality, and who I feel comfortable with identifying as, and I would love not hiding who I am anymore, but lots of people I know hate the LGBTQ+ community and think they're disgusting and are just doing in the community for attention. I have to hide who I am because of others opinions. I only came out to three people; two of which use it against me & make fun of me.
I don't want to off myself. I don't want the ones I care about to hurt themselves because they think it's their fault. My energy is going down, I can't pay attention in class and for some reason, no matter how tired I am, I can never sleep. When I do manage to sleep, and I have a dream, I hope I can stay there forever. Everything is fine there.
Thank you for reading. I hope everything will be fine in the end, for both me and you
i found this and it’s literally my exact playlist on spotify lol
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
wow.. you really mean it?.. I'm crying while reading this ;(
😭 i needed that thank you….❤
@@coffee_sheep7812 yw ^^ have a nice day/night :D
Ykw I think I'll wait a few more days before I kms
Thank you
To all the people here:
It's absolutely okay to express your feelings.
It's okay to be yourself.
It's okay to ask for help.
No one shall tell you, what to do.
No one shall disturb you.
No one shall make you cry.
If you're going through dark times, believe me, sometime soon it will be all okay.
You just have to believe in it.
We all love you. We all need you. 3
101 reasons to stay alive list:
1. you'll never eat your favorite food again
2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again
3. you might one day meet your idol
4. people who care about you will miss you
5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts
6. crying to let it all out and feeling better
7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining
8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again
9. sleeping in
10. reading your favorite book
11. you'll never grow up with your friends
12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day
13. trampolines
14. cookies
15. coffee or tea (your preference)
16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness
17. rewards for doing good on something
18. your favorite show
19. your favorite game
20. singing in the shower
21. dancing when you're alone and laughing about it
22. the moon
23. the stars
24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it
25. your favorite scent
26. listening to a song on loop for hours
27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing
28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you
29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather
30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather
31. dancing when to music when you're alone
32. sunsets
33. sunrises
34. snow
35. rain
36. your favorite song
37. you'll miss out on memes
38. watch corona disappear
39. long bus/train/car rides
40. road trips
41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours
42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full
43. trying out new things
44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning
45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc.
46. giving gifts
47. receiving gifts
48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries)
49. fireplaces
50. roasting marshmallows
51. s'mores
52. chocolates
53. finding stray animals
54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs
55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise
56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up
57. free things
58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem
59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right
60. holidays
61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter"
62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it
63. amusement parks
64. candies
65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other
66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you
67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting
68. aesthetic things
69. hugging things
70. seeing rainbows after it rains
71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time
72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day
73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on
74. falling leaves
75. cherry blossom trees
76. your favorite animal
77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears
78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone
79. cringing at weird things
80. trying to learn a new culture
81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something
82. you weren't born to entertain people
83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end)
84. arguing with 8 year old kids
85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug
86. new technologies
87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things
88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed
89. cringing at old things you've said and done
90. money
91. random shower thoughts
92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world"
93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright
94. that weird funky smell from new items
95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile
96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense
97. feeling happy for other people
98. cute animals
99. flowers
100. laughing at your own stupidity
101. you
just remember when you feel at your lowest, someone can and will always be there for you. you may not know it at the moment, but there is. someone believes in you and someone loves you. never give up, shine bright.
Tysm for this
You are amazing ♡
“If you’ve been up all night and cried till you have no more tears left in you - you will know that there comes in the end a sort of quietness. You feel as if nothing is ever going to happen again.” - C.S. Lewis
“You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn’t mean you’re defective - it just means you’re human.” - David Mitchell
“I wish people could understand that the brain is the most important organ of our body. Just because you can’t see mental illness like you could see a broken bone, doesn’t mean it’s not as detrimental or devastating to a family or an individual.” - Demi Lovato
“She’s battling things her smile will never tell you about.” - Jonny Ox
“People cry, not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong too long.” - Johnny Depp
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy. Because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that.” - Robin Williams
“What we don’t need in the midst of struggle is shame for being human.” - Brene Brown
“Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed, and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.” - William C. Hannan
“People in therapy are often in therapy to deal with the people in their lives who won’t go to therapy.” - Unknown
“Never give up on someone with a mental illness. When “I’ is replaced by “we,” illness becomes wellness.” - Shannon L. Alder
I always feel sad at the moment and always make it worse for myself by beating myself up (metaphorically) about how I shouldn’t be sad because others have it so much worse and I know many people feel the same. If you’re reading this and that sounds like you, just know that if anything makes you feel sad that’s perfectly okay! It doesn’t matter what others think because you and your feelings are so important, no matter how big or small they may be. ❤
This shall forever be my favorite playlist to play while going to sleep
I'm sitting in my room crying and decided to listen to this
Same for me, I always sit down, find a vent playlist to listen too while I cry, and cry my eyes out till I feel numb.
Are u ok now (ik a year has passed but still) if not i would love to listen and help if i can ❤❤
Your no alone
Honestly… I don’t think i will be able to cry even at a funeral… and i’m not even ashamed of it… i will just stand there,emotionless and just feel the moment,because i am dead inside…
"you're so naive"
"you're so useless you can't do anything right"
"i wish i never had you"
they think they're just words but it lingers the most sometimes it feels better to be dead
Sometimes people don't realize how hurtful their words are. Just remember, you are a good person. Try to love yourself and show all those people that they are wrong. Take care of yourself!
"All by himself, sittin alone."
Ive lost my tears. I cant cry at all. I simply cant cry. Physicly. My tears have been drained. Whats left is a drop of sanity and an abyss of nothing covering my body. Ive snapped before, ill snap again. Ill go crazy again. My sanity had been drained before and it will be drained again. Mistakes will happen. Such sins. Killing myself will be for the good of others.
even if your hurting inside please dont hurt yourself outside. Everyone wishes you well, even i do
I might be the only unlucky one but whenever life starts to feel good and you can finally say proud and loud "I'm happy and I'm good" there is always something that come and destroy it. I am so tired of this loop that has been going on in my life. Everything is fine then everything goes down. :/
*when you’re here for the wrong reasons, and you are the one hurting people. But you can’t control it. so if you cry or SH your dramatic and you just have to smile. The karma had reached you.*
Sometimes you get so sad you cried so hard to the point you can’t cry no more
I feel you
I can't cry anymore and I hate myself so much and I hate being guilty about everything👍👍😍😜🤩😍😍 literally so tired of everythingggg
Real! ‼‼😍🥰😆😆
" You really just going to sit in your room listening to music all day again? " Yes, Yes I am .
100 reasons to stay alive
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favorite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get a tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek)
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains.
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64. Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. a feeling of being loved
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realising that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you love.
75. Spending the whole day in bed.
76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream.
77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky.
78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.)
79. Bonfires and smokes.
80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them.
81. Coming home to someone you love.
82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer.
83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends.
84. Cuddling.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it.
Thank you, I really needed this
Most of these make me wanna go even more
@@jelly-cat-same lol, when I saw the first one I was like they’re the reason why I wanna go-
Most of these things I am physically and mentally unable to do.
Let’s hope I can do it
Time…
Time is…
Time is strange.
I remember when the days were slow and I was always bored, waiting for something to happen.
Now the days are all blurred, I have to think to know what day of the week it is.
“Did I do that last week or last month?… maybe last year..”
I’m always tired.
Always feel the same.
Time is going by so fast and I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know what I want to do.
Every time I think I know what I want.. everyone tells me I’m wrong.. and maybe I am..
Alone.
The loneliness of my mind is..
It’s painful.
But it’s my favorite place to go to get away.
Sometimes it betrays me.
Tells me I’d be better off dead.
I’m hurting everyone around me.
Everyone hates me.
How could they love me.
Solution.. don’t think.
Don’t think.
Don’t think.
Don’t think.
Don’t think.
Don’t think.
…what are you doing?
You woke me up from my daydream.. I didn’t want to wake up yet..
I can’t wake up yet… not when he’s here.
To anyone who needs to hear this, *its okay to give up*
Don't push yourself to keep fighting. Life is hard, and people are terrible. I wish someone could've told me this sooner before I wasted my energy. *It's okay to give up*
It’s sad because the image is so relatable… I’m tired.. of life. I try and try but things always go wrong no matter what I do. I do good things and the end up horrible. I do nothing and horrible. Life sucks. I can’t even go one day without crying. It could just be my ADHD which my doctor said could lead to depression. Plus my anxiety is horrible. I can’t speak a loud without a stutter unless it’s friends and family.
its hard to care about yourself when you dont want to see others worry. so you hide it all
хей, тяжело тащить все одному и ты не должен так делать!! дорогие для тебя люди думаю были бы расстроены если бы узнали что ты скрываешь свои чувства :(
каждый человек имеет право делиться своими переживаниями - и это нормально, стоит говорить о проблемах с близкими, держать все в себе неправильно, чувак. я - незнакомец из интернета, но я знаю что ты сильный человек и ты не будешь слабее если однажды выскажешь все, что на душе. тебе станет легче! чем больше носишь на душе, тем больше накапливается, а это не очень хорошо... я верю в тебя и горжусь тобой.
@@kawaiiAisik
anyone else able to relate to putting on a fake smile, or friends, school, family, etc...but once you alone with a pet, plushies, or just by yourself you let it all out?
School is all about the friends and friendship you made along
- The friends you lost in the last day of school ever
Christmas Eve is tomorrow and am I as happy as I was last year? No.
No one gives a shit
Its so hard not giving up when things get hard, I really hate myself
I’m just surprised that people on the internet, strangers, people I don’t know at all, can comfort me. Yet my own family can’t.? It’s sick .. parents don’t know what they do to their children. Others do it on purpose. I hate how they said that we don’t do anything in the house even after an exhausting day of school, tidying my room, cleaning most of the house, and yet I still get the same response. It’s not fair..
Can you read this for me it wont be hard trust me
Awhh~ty that your reading this !!! I have a message for this wonderfull person reading this
Your pretty asf
If your grades are medium or bad dont worry everything will go better by time!!your future is gonna be just WONDERFULL like you
I want to hug you ♥️
If someone died that was verry close to you
I'm sure that person is PROUD of you how far you came they love you more then you know
Even tho i dont know you i know your wonderfull
Please take care
Thanks
@@nikynovakova4514 nppp
Ty for this I needed this sm 💓
@@iyuannnn AWW
Omfg im about to cry thank you sm
"Cheer up, and if you can't do that, then fake it"
"You have everything you could ever want. A roof over your head, food to eat. Only people who have lost everything have a reason to be depressed"
"I'm really sick of this attitude, cheer up or I'll give you something to be glum about"
"Where'd that happy little girl go?"
Answer this, Dad: Do you wish I never made it to 13? Huh? You'd still have that little girl with you, but you wouldn't have to deal with me now. So tell me, Dad: Do you wish I disappeared on my 13th birthday?
i fell asleep while listening to this last night, i felt so peacful and relaxed bc of this playlist, one of the best playlists ive ever heard
Why am I so unlovable? Am I the problem? I don’t want to do this anymore I hate it
you are loveable, dont think low on yourself. youre an amazing person and i believe you can continue this life.
@@danieldhiya
Fake
No... You deserve love too. U need love yourself so the others Will follow you.
I met some guy on a game.
We connected, like something I had never felt before. I didn't even know him in anyway. He asked me if we could continue playing suddenly, after that one game. I loved his voice when we VCed, I loved how he looked on video calls, but, it was wrong, wasn't it? We did so much together. My parents knew of him, they didn't really like him, because of a bit of an age difference, but they ignored it for now. It took me a bit to realize, I wanted to be with him, to date him. But, it was online. Online dating was always something I said I'd never do.
But I couldn't control myself. It had almost been a year, and my depression hadn't showed in a while. Until now, here I am, sitting and crying because my parents made me block contact with him. He told me it was okay, that it was all alright, and to take care of myself. I can't feel anything anymore, as if my world has been taken away.
I love you, Vlad. You will always be in my heart, Snowflake.
Im proud of you for at least waking up today, you have done so much, its ok to relax, your not lazy, your tired, or depressed, its not your fault your depressed, i love you :)
Crazy how online people comfort me more then my real life friends, they actually seem to understand me. However, my real life friends judge my clothing... one day I was so exited to have these baggy clothes, they told me I looked like a homeless person. Maybe they were right, but they had no authority to laugh and judge me in front of everyone.
Im tired of everything, I will be happy again... I hope so at least, I'm just not ready yet...
Take care everyone just know, your not alone, there are many fish in the sea, there are many friendships to be made, so what if this didn't work out?... And you matter.
I've been questioning reality,
I was diagnosed with bpd, scoliosis, anxiety, and adhd. And to add on top of that tower of issues, a whole lot of trauma
I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it’s just too much. The current’s too strong. They’ve got to let go, drift apart. That’s how it is with us.
Merry Christmas. Christmas? It’s already Christmas? It doesn’t feel like Christmas tho? You’re right. Christmas this year feels more like a normal day than a celebration.
It all started during covid quarantine...
I was too young for it.
Now i regret every single moment of that time.
Hello! I see you're into kpop? If you want to talk to somone about your hobbies, interests, or anything troubling you, Im here! I'll always be an option for you💜🫂
@@xelawowee Thank you!
If you meant to be friends, do you have other social media platforms? i mostly use instagram!
I was so lonely and sad during highschool, entered college on 2020, hoping I could make some friends and fix my life... Then quarentine came and fucked everything up. Spent my first 2 years of college isolated and miserable. It feels like at the moment I could start fresh, life fucking sabotages me. Sorry for the vent, its just that the quarentine comment really hits home.
@@straykidslover14324ah! sorry for the late reply! uh sorry but i deleted insta-😭
I like music tbh, it helps me keep calm, and this is just my type of music when Im alone. Thank you for making this playlist and I got to listen to it on my last day on earth.
oh my god im so sorry i just saw this. are you still there?
kid please respond i you didnt succeed.
wait omg u dead??
I havent been able to celebrate christmas with my family since we lost our house and almost all our stuff (id rather not say why it happened that we lost our home as its very traumatic) including all my childhood christmas decors and almost everything else we owned. My mother is still devastated and cries about it now and then.. We dont have much money either, so most the new ornaments weve got were from a local donation box close to the shelter were staying in... It got real freezing the last couple of nights aswell and mom and dad were worried we might freeze to death. The shelter walls are so thin and weak it barely keeps the heat in, and the breaker kept kicking off. This doesnt scrape the surface of how terrible the past couple of years have been.
Things are getting so much harder and im getting so much weaker.
I hope things change.
I need things to change.
Or else i dont think ill make it.
Wish me luck. i need it.
Listen,I know I am a stranger to you and my words might mean anything to you but,I have been through it my dad broke his toe my mum gave a birth to my sister and I was 8-9.I really do believe in you I want to believe that everything is gona go good like REALLY good and you gona get out of it your family and I really wish that you and your family gona stay all together and loving each other really much! I am just a stranger but talk to me if you feel so ofc bc u have been thought alot recently and its all alright to vent I am here,I am proud of you that you are still standing! I am here dear
ik its been a year, but i wanna check up on you, you doing alright now? I hope everything goes well for you.
It's the new year. Happy 2023!! Not even half an hour into the new year, I ended up crying about something stupid. I checked my friend's stories on snap, and at first I was like, "they look so happy! I'm glad. They deserve to be happy on new years." But. All of them were with people. I'm alone on new years. No friends to celebrate with. Just my family, and they didn't even celebrate, let alone with me. I had no one. And here are all my friends, celebrating with other people. Why can't I be like that? I have so many friends, but I feel so distant from them. I don't know why? I just seem to not be as close as I'd like to be with them all.
Im really going through it and I know you guys are too, I hope you guys never feel the way I do, sometimes I wanna end it but I feel like an attention seeker, I hope you guys find peace and love, I wish you all the best
"i deserve this, i deserve this, I deserve this, just think that they are happy, just think that they are happy, i deserve this pain, im horrible, im disgusting, im a sinner, im a jackass, i deserve to bleed, I don't deserve her, I don't deserve happiness, I don't deserve anything," for some reason saying this makes me calm
you know, death doesn't seem to be that scary anymore more like welcoming sometimes, heartwarming even
The way I cried at 27:42 when the song sang, “my baby…my baby, you’re my baby say it to me..” that song has always made me cry, because not once have I heard my parents call me their baby, or be proud of me. I just feel not wanted. But this song always helped me feel like I was a wanted daughter, not just a mistake. So thank you for making this.
Oh dear, I know it's hard out in this world I promise you're not alone and I'll always be here ❤
Hey there! How are you?
🎁- if your response is good
🧸- if your response isn’t great
🎀- if your not sure what you would respond
🎁- I’m so happy to hear you are doing good! I hope it stays that way forever. Never let anything bring you down. You, my dear, are such an amazing person. You deserve the world. If I could give it to you, I most definitely would. Enjoy the happy times always! I hope that you have an amazing rest if your going to bed. If you’re just waking up, enjoy your day! Make some yummy breakfast! Don’t forget to stop and look at the beauty of this world. If it’s noon time, go get your lunch! Eat with someone and have a nice chat. If it’s evening, grab some dinner, watch your favorite show, and enjoy yourself. Keep being yourself, and I hope your happiness will never end.❤
🧸- I’m so sorry to hear that my darling. I’ll be praying for you. Please, do remember how much you are worth. You deserve to be happy. It’s ok to be sad, my dear. It’s ok to not be ok.it’s alright to cry. I’m here. You don’t have to worry about holding it in. Don’t worry about other people judging you. Take time and focus on yourself. Please make sure you eat something. Even if it’s small. Drink some water. Take deep, long breaths. Remind yourself that you are awesome and deserve to be here. Don’t worry, things will get better. Don’t be afraid to reach for help. You are still in control! Don’t let your emotions get ahead of you. And please, promise me you’ll be kind to yourself. Why would you ever be mean to one of the best people? Take care of yourself, and please, don’t convince yourself you aren’t worth it. You are. Don’t hurt yourself, you’re too beautiful/handsome to do that! Just don’t stress, and find some happy music to listen too! Take a sip of water and try to get some rest if you can. It will be ok💞
🎀- so you’re not exactly sure how you feel? Well, that’s ok! I get it. It’s hard to understand sometimes. But your feelings aren’t invalid, darling. You deserve to be able to recognize your feelings. Hopefully they are happy ones! But if they aren’t, that’s ok too! Take some time to focus on yourself. And if you’re just feeling somewhere in between, just know, you deserve to be happy! I hope you feel better soon! Don’t worry about anything, just take a sip of water, listen to some happy music, and focus on yourself. It will all be alright, dear. Don’t stress about anything! Just let it go and have a great day/night. Make sure to get some rest when you feel like you need it. I hope you will enjoy yourself🤍
If your feeling like you want to do anything that could be harming, please, my dear talk to someone first. If you don’t have anyone immediate that you can reach out to, please try these help lines. It’s worth it, I promise. You deserve to live. You were put here for a reason, and I know that reason will be great. Please, don’t be afraid to reach out💓
~988: immediate help line. Available 24/7. You can text or call for immediate mental health assistance.
~churches care: connects you to local churches and people who will help you through any sadness you may be experiencing.
~877-995-5247: sexual assault helplines. Available 24/7.
~866-903-3787: mental health hotline. Available 24/7.
~741741 text HOME: a texting hotline for any help needed. Available 24/7. You will get immediately connected to a counselor.
~1-800-662-4357: substance abuse hotline available 24/7
Please love yourself my dear! Have an amazing day/night❤
-the stranger who cares
thank you 🫶
this helped me cry. i haven't cried in months cuz of my depression.
Thank you, honestly. it felt nice to let it out again.
I feel good for you bro :) I hope you can have all the time to let out those pent up emotions you're feeling , just remember that your days gonna get better , maybe not now but eventually it will :)
"why couldn't you just give her your food?! you are so selfish for complaining about being hungry after i let her have your food, she's sensitive and you know that!"
said my mom, yelling at me for saying i was hungry. i just wanted to start trying to turn around my eating habits so i didnt get so deep into anorexia. neither of my parents saw ot later that day, but i blacked out due to low blood sugar and lack of eating.
What was their Reaction? And are you okay?
“---! Let your sister use the toy!” It’s my toy.. “---! Stop hitting your sister!” She hit me first… “---! You almost failed school, get better grades! Your sisters are amazing in school!” I’m autistic, and I’m not my sisters… why don’t they get that I’m not being cared for, not being loved all because I have to siblings.. my rooms a mess, I’ve been diagnosed with depression and my parents bought my sisters toys instead of my anti depressants.. I have autism and am treated like a f*cking failure.. my grandma yells at me, tells my mom about what i did, yells at my mom for not disciplining me. I don’t think I’m a therapist but my grandma sure does talk about all her problem to me. I don’t get why I was born sometimes, maybe I’m just a tool for them to use, I hate being the oldest.
"Can't you be more supportive?!" is what i feel people are thinking when i try to comfort them. IF ONLY I CAN PUT WORDS FROM MY MIND. I got so hated on so much and people around me was SO TOXIC that when i tried to fight, They jus say ", SHUT THE FUCK UP!" when i tried to reason.
I just want my surroundings to be kind nd supporting ppl.
idc how long ago it was posted i will continue to listen to it either way.
not feeling like im supposed to. hating everything rn.
just want to sleep.
when strangers comfort you better than people you know...
the playlist its very nice and relatable to myself
Jay 😂🎉🎉😂🎉❤❤😊❤😅😂😅😂😅😅😂