10 week Update: One month after Technoblade's family announced that he had passed, I was still consumed by daily grief and having trouble concentrating. If I had any single second of non-busy downtime, thoughts of him and his family and the loss the MCYT world experienced caused my throat to tighten and my eyes to water. He was so young, and had so much he still wanted to offer, and he wasn't ready to die. I started doing "Techno-Free Tuesdays" and actively repressing thoughts of him, not watching any of his videos. I didn't hang out in his offline chat or visit any of the Techno-themed discord servers to which I was a member. On Tuesdays I avoided Twitter, where he always showed as trending to me. That helped. After two Tuesdays, my ability to concentrate during other days of the week slowly returned. Now, 10 weeks after his death was announced, and after 6 weeks of Techno-free Tuesdays, I'm doing ok. Now I can view fan art or old videos and smile at the content that brings me joy, instead of breaking into tears of loss. I wear his merch nearly every time I go out in public, and I can converse with other fans I find instead of choking up. I miss my nightly meditation of coloring Techno vaccination postcards while listening to Twitch streams or TH-camrs, but I've replaced that time with making daily TH-cam shorts of my own. I'm creating my own content, which I hope is high quality and helps people. If I want to feel sad, because experiencing sadness is what helps us know the difference between sadness and joy, I can still easily have a good ol' cry just by watching DarkDollYumi's video set to DHeusta's song "Miss you Now" th-cam.com/video/77nzSQnohWI/w-d-xo.html But, I don't have to feel sad all the time. Now I am in better control of my responses and I have more choice in my feelings. *hugs* to anyone still struggling. Grief comes in waves, and at first they tower over you, but in time they die down. Occasionally a sneaker wave will leap up to get you. Reach out to others if you have trouble keeping your head above water.
1 dead orphan, 2 dead orphan, 3 dead orpha...
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10 week Update: One month after Technoblade's family announced that he had passed, I was still consumed by daily grief and having trouble concentrating. If I had any single second of non-busy downtime, thoughts of him and his family and the loss the MCYT world experienced caused my throat to tighten and my eyes to water. He was so young, and had so much he still wanted to offer, and he wasn't ready to die.
I started doing "Techno-Free Tuesdays" and actively repressing thoughts of him, not watching any of his videos. I didn't hang out in his offline chat or visit any of the Techno-themed discord servers to which I was a member. On Tuesdays I avoided Twitter, where he always showed as trending to me.
That helped.
After two Tuesdays, my ability to concentrate during other days of the week slowly returned.
Now, 10 weeks after his death was announced, and after 6 weeks of Techno-free Tuesdays, I'm doing ok. Now I can view fan art or old videos and smile at the content that brings me joy, instead of breaking into tears of loss. I wear his merch nearly every time I go out in public, and I can converse with other fans I find instead of choking up. I miss my nightly meditation of coloring Techno vaccination postcards while listening to Twitch streams or TH-camrs, but I've replaced that time with making daily TH-cam shorts of my own. I'm creating my own content, which I hope is high quality and helps people.
If I want to feel sad, because experiencing sadness is what helps us know the difference between sadness and joy, I can still easily have a good ol' cry just by watching DarkDollYumi's video set to DHeusta's song "Miss you Now" th-cam.com/video/77nzSQnohWI/w-d-xo.html
But, I don't have to feel sad all the time. Now I am in better control of my responses and I have more choice in my feelings.
*hugs* to anyone still struggling. Grief comes in waves, and at first they tower over you, but in time they die down. Occasionally a sneaker wave will leap up to get you. Reach out to others if you have trouble keeping your head above water.
this perso is awesome
Thank you so much for your kind words. I really appreciate all the support.
Relaxing