Funny how so many musicians try their hardest to capture the feeling of loneliness through music, yet Kelly Bailey was able to do it with no words and like, 3 instruments.
The people who made this actually made it so that it will make you feel “isolated” or “depressed” its called phsycoacoustics. If you search up portal music it says, apature science physcoacoustics, I wonder if the reason they play this music in portal is to see how insane a test subject goes when hearing this depressing music.
Upon closer listening, I think this actually just ONE instrument. Which is even crazier. It sounds like a Rhodes piano being reverb'd reversed distorted etc. Also eased in with a volume pedal to cancel out the attack on some notes and make a more pad sound
Reading through most of the comments sums it all up to two words - Audible Isolation. And that is ironicaly the main theme of portal, of ironicaly genius author...
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This song makes me feel how Chell feels. Chell feels she is stuck in this series of test chambers and she doesn’t know what to do. The fact that soon she is gonna face a giant robot doesn’t help her. She sits there with no end to this loneliness.
@@dedo9990 And to think that during portal 1 the 7 hour was started to begin . . . .. song kinda reflects off that millions of humans , families and friends are all being displace or dying . . . .
Fake Name for me it’s what lonely-in-a-dark-and-quiet-and-almost-inescapable-place (I was going to put alone but I feel “alone” and “lonely” have different meanings)
It's the special kind of cold where it's not cold enough to be outside, but cold enough for when the heat isn't working and the drafty cold gets stuck inside the room.
This music really shows us how cold and dark the Portal-Half Life universe really is. Chell isolated in a series of test chambers and Gordon Freeman isolated in Black Mesa, Xen and City 17. It really captivates the feeling of slowness and contemplation. The moment in Portal 2 when you accidentally fall into the depths of the old laboratory gives us the exact feeling that this music does. Helpless, all alone in the deep, god knows how far down, in a huge caves, inside of huge spherical chambers suspended in the air. It really does show both sides of the universe, Gordon fighting the entire world and off-world creatures in isolation, and Chell trying to escape a dark, cold and isolated facility, deep underground. One game gives you a sense of action while the other gives you the sense of loneliness. It’s a very complicating and weird way of showing how this music makes me feel but, that’s the entirety of it.
If half life 1 and 2 and portal 1 take place at the same time, then, why in half life 1 and 2 do the head crabs come out of the portals, but those portals dont appear in the aperture Science test chambers as well?
Every day, since 2021, I do the same. I look back at a certain photo and cry over someone who I loved. They're still there, but I don't know if they're the same person I cared about. And it may be my fault...
I remember when I played portal and when this song would come on I would just be still and listen. This track is heartbreaking and heavy, a stone in my soul. It's a reminder of the grim realities of inescapable isolation and the knowledge of being entirely alone, forever. Gorgeous piece, but be careful how you listen to it.
There were many moments from start to finish that made this game special but the moment this song played was what locked it in for me. There isn't a word that describes that feeling so I won't attempt to emulate it.
This music has such a dire and morbid feel that suits this game so well, the vibe is just so hopeless and it fits in so well with the chamber isolation of this game
if you thought that portal was a cute game with cake and puzzles and companium cubes. then you are 100% wrong this song really fits portal it is also the only one that fits.
portal was one of my first video games and i thought it was just fun to teleport to places. replaying it now, it feels so haunting and ominous and i’m so mad my 10 year old self didn’t pick up on the immaculate atmosphere of this game
This honestly, is a real song for isolation. "*Imagine your stuck in a room, nothing to do - but to solve a paradox - a puzzle the human brain can't find the answer to, but to find itself lost in.*"
Congratulations, you’ve successfully destroyed all time and creation, you merely exist in the void. Now would be a good time to think about what you’ve done.
I'm going to give this song an upvote for all of times it helped me study. Ambience is just the best music for concentration in so many ways. It gets you to focus on certain intricacies of the music but still manages to replicate the harmony of life. Sounds pretentious, I know, but the damn-near Zen state that this allows me to reach can't go unacknowledged.
My dad wishes he didn't get games for us as kids. I played the Orange Box when I was four. This game, (including half life) I believe, made me who I am - how I think. This is why I'm smart and have an understanding of things through trial-and-error. Thank you, Valve, along with the students who first came up with this. I wouldn't have obtained the same level of curiosity without this game. And I actually am thankful towards my dad. He's the one who bought the Orange Box for my older brothers lol
My brain puts me in the space between awake and asleep when i listen to this, almost like a person who is in coma compaired to a silent hospital where they lie, alone. Blissfully unaware of the world around them. With small interactions to the real world, someone grasping your hand feels like an itch that you wish would just leave you alone. And once you wake up, the drones of the real world come crashing down around you. You sit, and wonder, stareing at the white sky for weeks with nothing but drones flooding the air around you. You lie, and think under all the drones...why cant that itch come back...one last time.
rarely do you find an ambient track that establishes it's tone with restraint. Most ambient tracks are overbearingly "cosmic" and "spiritual". This is a perfect ambient track
The music itself is not depressing. This song is able to put you in a contemplative mood, to really slow you down and make you stop checking your cellphone for facebook notifications. It slows everything down, and just like anything else that makes you reflect, it uncovers what's already there. I mean, the notes are in a minor scale so it sounds sad, but the song itself is only going to uncover whats in us. Turns out people who play and enjoy videogames are often sad, or hollow (including myself) EDIT: I re read this comment and it's stupid as shit. Disregard it
Tombstone218 Often times people don't criticise the phones themselves, but rather people's over-reliance on them. Were it not for phones, I wouldn't even be talking to you.
You are right. Very right. I never noticed that. it is a sad song, but its not depressing. However, it does have depressing aspects about it. It represents loneliness. Loneliness beyond comprehension. An amount of loneliness that drives a person delusional. Loneliness hurts. But this, what this song means, is like having every bone in your body broken, one at a time, over 10 days, and having your skin cut and stretched over and over again. It is torture.
AydinPrower It's dark and ambient, yes, did you expect something else? Valve wanted to seriously capture that feeling of isolation in the first Portal, and music like this was used to punctuate it.
International Space Station Thank you for the upload, by the way - the regular version just isn't long enough, and putting it on replay doesn't give it the sense of continuity that this does.
This song makes me think of being stranded in a snowstorm. Miles and miles from any civilization, nearly pitch black besides what little moonlight can come through, nothing but the quiet wind to accompany you, no way to call for help, and it's just _so cold..._
For all the emotions this gives a person, for me personally, it gets me on my ass and gets me to work or study the fastest and keeps me in the work. For all the lofi chill and 24-hour music streams, nothing beats Self-Esteem Fund for some reason. If I had to guess, it's how quickly it takes hold of you. The slow, echoing notes bring you to their pace. Maybe it's the memory of solving chambers in Portal whilst listening to this that resonates with trying to complete a task with this playing in the background. However Kevin Bailey strung this together, it's without a doubt his best work.
people keep saying this is “audible isolation” or “death and nothingness”, but to me its what you hear when you’re crushed between 2 portals edit: holY SHIT ITS BEEN LIKE 2 YEARS STOP LIKING THIS PLEASE
It's more like "Audible Desolation" Example: Playing this song while wondering the streets of NYC in The Division. Another example: Playing this song while in an empty street on a foggy/cloudy day. Yet another example: Playing this while treading through New Mombasa as the Rookie in Halo 3 ODST. See a pattern here?
This song reminds me of space, and how infinite it is. Listening to this while playing something like Elite: Dangerous helps to remind me of how empty and vast space really is, especially after leaving the populated area to travel by myself.
When you listen to this, it sounds like reality has just been unveiled before you. Like your entire life is a lie. Like reality itself is a lie. What you thought was life, no longer exists. You are stripped of emotion. Emotion was artificial. And your mere existence is a lie. You are just adrift in this empty gray void... That's what I think of.
You’re more right than we know. All we have is our perception, and it is not reality. It is our perception of reality. Reality is truly unknown. We are only capable of experiencing what our senses will allow.
@@peteallyn412 this is why transhumanism is the way, in this body I still feel like humanity deserves to continue, these flesh beings that are blind to existence, but logically, I know what we must do.
This is honestly my favourite OST in the entire Portal Series, it just creates such a feeling of loneliness that perfectly captures the empty, desolate and liminal space feel of Aperture.
I miss 2014. I was a wee lady, 6 in fact (yes, a 6 year old, 1st grade, playing gmod.) And I remember when I could just relax. Play with my legos without having a care in the world, feeling relaxed, Looking up, in the blue sky of NJ, loving every second. Portal was but a game I had cared about, till 2017. That’s when I started getting into the series, really only Portal 2, but still. It was only till last year, did I play the first portal. I expected to find a game like portal 2, but I found something different. Good, but different. It’s emptiness, desolation made me feel, something. Or a lack of something. That’s how I found this song, this soundtrack, and now have I realized, that the Cake was really a lie.
Its nice to see a younger generation like games like this. The ones that have a deeper meaning and story. Where you can feel yourself playing for hours and hours. I was blown away with this game and the OST
Darko Milosevic Exactly! I’m replaying the whole Half Life and Portal series, whilst playing gmod. I mean, it’s on a crappy MacBook, but I’m about to build my PC, so that’s good.
Darko Milosevic I tell my friends about this game series, and some have played it, but they don’t even have a laptop. I’ll tell them about the orange box, though. I wanna tell my friends how good these games are, and only one of them actually cares about valve, which is good.
1) this song captures more about Aperture Laboratories than any of the other Portal 1 and Portal 2 songs they have. Sure "Procedural Jiggle Bone" could give off the same vibes and feel to it but, it just feels-to outside the facility. Aperture is known for its test chamber and the feeling that you are the only human left and that you are going to be left alone in the dark with nothing but silence. The silence in that dark room would be almost deafening to the point that you'd never want to step into a dark, isolated area ever again. It's also known for having no windows, and the only windows they have, are test chamber windows for monitoring the testing areas. This song honestly a deep song that could have many possible meanings. 2) This is awesome btw 3) Remember, the Aperture Science Bring Your Daughter to Work Day is the perfect time to have her tested.
I love this music so much. It's so calm, so simple yet complex at the same time. It doesn't even make me depressed. But if I was slowly dying in space, this would be the music I would want to hear. What makes it funny is I was pissed before I put this on. But afterwards, that anger went away just like someone blowing a candle out. Whoever made this piece of music deserves an award.
This music makes the this of this: You've been wandering the desert for months, barely surviving with the scorching sun beating down on you 24/7. Nothing but sand and dry land for miles and miles, as far as the naked eye can see. Suddenly, you come across an old wooden rundown house. It looks like it'll fall apart with one break. The windows are shattered and the front door is busted wide open gently swing front and back. You walk inside the house and everything is torn up and busted. The chairs have missing legs, the couch has a ton of holes and is ripped to shreds, and the cabinets are busted open with nothing inside. Given how rundown this abandoned wooden house is, it has a ton of cracks and small openings where the light from the scorching sun is able to seep through. With every step you take, the house groans and moans, basically threatening to fall apart at any given second. Given how far and long you've travelled in the blistering desert, you decide to rest up a bit on the torn up couch. A small crack in the wall lets some light from sun hit you directly in the face. You decide to just deal with it and drift off into sleep.
this was really nice. interesting how everyone has their own visuals when they listen to this. i imagine it as more of an abandoned city with huge dirty buildings and a grey sky and you just walk and look around, still alone
@@deligeorgieva8535 i think of something like that when listening to "Distorted Trumpets" from the HL2 OST, but for this one it makes me imagine being lost in a snowstorm with barely any warmth, and nobody to help you for miles. It's just you, and the unbearable cold, which will soon be the last thing you feel. This song is like the embodiment of the dread you'd feel in that situation, at least for me.
I'd like to imagine this song is enchanted. When I listen to it, I am reminded of every depressing thing that has happened to me. But if I listen to it in game, I start to feel like Chell. Traped, no escape, no meaning, a never-ending maze. When it plays in game I usually crouch somewhere and have a break. Looking at the next puzzle that I am trapped to solve. And when you learn about Rattman, you try to imagine yourself in his shoes. Even more hopeless then Chell, but his hope IS her. The only way to succeed. The only way to stop this monster that killed everyone you knew. And all of a sudden, Portal has a deeper meaning and story. That's why I fucking love the Portal series. It gives you this feeling of unease. And in Portal 2 it gets stronger. Thinking you're the last standing human on Earth, and in Aperture Laboratories.
I had this tune looping in my head when hospitalized in intensive care for weeks cause of a myocardial infection (Myopericarditis), Feeling of being locked in a sterile place without the possibility of getting out
this song is kind of comforting and relaxing but also makes me feel lonely and afraid, its a weird amalgam of two feelings which are so distant from eachother
This "song" makes me feel like I'm floating in a timeless black void, where I'm the only visible thing in the visible reaches of far space, and all i hear is the bellow of this melody. Is it weird that it sounds "tasty"?
I love how in the later half of the video, the loop just stops several times, leaving behind this eerie silence, which _kind of_ actually adds to the depressing tone it already has.
This represents most of the puzzles, (not the escape) I think it really shows how you go through a puzzle. you start off figuring it out, then you put into action. I love ambient music, since it is so simple, and puzzle games are where most of it is at. Antichamber, where my Anti part of my username came from, is one of my favorite games because of its simplicity, also Mirror's Edge, a world where its just simple color, also has some good ambient sections, and portal is no different. When I first heard this, I absolutely loved it because it's so simple. Ambient music is telling a life story to me, no matter what it is.
You are alone. There's no one to help you... But yourself. You look for something, what is it? A escape? An end for this pain? No. You did nothing but suffer. Its an endless pain, you asked, why me? You've founded more then just more pain. I'm sorry...
I remember when I first played Portal. I knew nothing about it (or Half-Life), I just heard it was a puzzle game and that it was fun. I spent ages just walking around trying to figure out why every single office was empty and not a single other person was to be seen. Then I was shown Half-Life 2 and its episodes and it all made sense.
Dude I have been listening to this music every night for 3y ,thx dude it rly helps and it also takes me back when life was simple playing portal 1 at night just sitting in a corner Of a test chamber to vibe ,anyway thx for the vid boss
I know how you feel. I've been that way with Brian Eno Airplanes 1-1. It's super relaxing to me. I overlaid an IKEA asmr thing onto it and sleep with it on.
I always look at dodos. The cute birds didnt deserve their fate, and I always make sure they are best they can be, even if they are dead, they are not forgotten, far from it infact. There is no doubt in my mind that the dodo will be smiling and coping happily, looking down from the clouds at me and my comment. Yes, I have an emotional connection to an extinct species, and a strong one at that.
The first time I played portal, which I think was 8 or so years ago, this legitimately freaked me out. It gave me the feeling like I was somewhere where I wasn’t supposed to be, doing something I wasn’t supposed to be doing (I guess in the game that is true). But it also feels intimidating and ominous, like the complex is sentient - it knows I’m there, and it’s unhappy. The colors amplify these feelings; the test sections were white, sterile, and lonely, and the industrial parts had this brown grime to them, and peeking into the walls and vents there was this disturbing red glow. This, with Glados’s presence, made this feel a lot more like a horror game. Even though at heart it’s a puzzle game, the story and atmosphere slowly creep over you in a unique way. It’s probably why it’s so memorable, despite there being more complex puzzle games since. Even now, this ambience evokes a sense of dread. The soundtrack was so powerful. I wish I could go back and experience it for the first time again.
no way i found your comment i love this soundtrack too man EDIT: that music indeed captures the feeling how i am in general without brother, just alone. mostly nobody around you no more. just pure loneliness.
Yea he made a good retrospective I have his HL2, Portal, and Alex retrospects in a playlists but I mainly watch this video while I sleep it actually help me out when I sleep
Even after eight qhole years, and even longer This soundtrack is what i'd use to define "You think there is someone watching you, and there is, but they are watching from inside of you" and i don't know why
Я... даже не знаю что писать. Столько ужасного произошло в моей жизни за месяц, недавно вспомнил про этот трек, и пока я его слушаю, он нём думаю, я не чувствую боли, хоть он её и не излечил, но заглушил, и дал повод не думать обо всём том что произошло.
This.... this makes me nostalgic... this ost reminds me of a time that I forgot... a long lost childhood memory perhaps... either way, this makes me melancholic like nothing else...
god, this piece of music makes me remember a better time, when I wasn't stuck inside, when I didn't feel the need to explain why wearing masks is a good idea. Portal and Portal 2, especially their endings, are the closest I've ever felt to a religious experience.
makes me think of the ending of 1984. just locked in a cage. or in an isolation tank. bright white walls and ceiling. padded floor. sitting in fetal position, nothing to hear but your self narrated voice in your head, eventually you just start talking to yourself. you cant tell the difference between talking and thinking. I need more music like this.
Could not agree more. The game play was better in the second, with multiplayer and an option to play other people's creations, but the second lacked what made the first portal game so amazing
I likef Portal 2's music more since it was more upbeat, but it still has songs that are pretty creepy. Heck, the music in old Aperture used to make me scared and want to stop playing. Meanwhile, in Portal, music like this just makes me feel like I want to stop playing from dread. I still love the original Portal, but sometimes ambience can be a bit overbearing. Does this make any sense...?
If you play this at 4 am in complete silence, it'll make you feel like everyone on earth is gone and you are the only one left. That's the only way I can describe the feeling. Try it out yourself.
Did you know you could donate one or all of your vital organs to the Aperture science self esteem fund for girls? It's true!
Oh ... I wonder whether GlaDOS "donated"
@@SterileNeutrino She donated all of her extra kidneys that she had laying around.
Uhm...
Okay...
@@flytrapYTP What a good person
@@patrikplayz670 I mean in all fairness, the scientists at Aperture "Donated" Caroline's consciousness to a computer. They kinda had it comin'.
Funny how so many musicians try their hardest to capture the feeling of loneliness through music, yet Kelly Bailey was able to do it with no words and like, 3 instruments.
The people who made this actually made it so that it will make you feel “isolated” or “depressed” its called phsycoacoustics. If you search up portal music it says, apature science physcoacoustics, I wonder if the reason they play this music in portal is to see how insane a test subject goes when hearing this depressing music.
Upon closer listening, I think this actually just ONE instrument. Which is even crazier. It sounds like a Rhodes piano being reverb'd reversed distorted etc. Also eased in with a volume pedal to cancel out the attack on some notes and make a more pad sound
@@huntermorgan6177 interesting. Astute observation!
@@huntermorgan6177 Maybe that's the point? One isolated instrument
@@lomborg4876 That's definitely a great way to put it, and the reverb instantly puts the audio in a big lonely empty space
Reading through most of the comments sums it all up to two words - Audible Isolation.
And that is ironicaly the main theme of portal, of ironicaly genius author...
thing achieving thing's purpose is a perfect antonym of irony you doint
@@rot6662 irony is in the sum of events
@@LeBoogieman the fucks that supposed to mean
@@rot6662 Situational irony is a literary technique in which an expected outcome does not happen, or its opposite happens instead. Situational irony requires one's expectations to be thwarted and is also sometimes called an irony of events. The outcome can be tragic or humorous, but it is always unexpected.
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Valve is genius at their games, all of them, they add so much depth, mystery, and hidden detail in all their games that we take for granted
*A u d i b l e l o n l i n e s s*
where the fuck am i?
@@pissandcornflakes9119 nowhere.. youre in nowhere
hmmmmmm where?
@@Adomavo i don't know if i have memory loss or not
@@pissandcornflakes9119 hahah
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Sounds like you have memory loss
This song makes me feel how Chell feels.
Chell feels she is stuck in this series of test chambers and she doesn’t know what to do. The fact that soon she is gonna face a giant robot doesn’t help her. She sits there with no end to this loneliness.
she has no idea she is going to face a giant robot, she just wants out
@@bitchlasagna4720 I do wonder how she feels about GLaDOS warnings about the Combine. Does Chell think she is just lying or is she just ignoring them?
@@dedo9990 Is portal 1 set around time when Combine is surely around?
@@teopazdrijan1008 Yes. It is why GLaDOS says she is the only thing standing between us and "them" ("them" being the Combine).
@@dedo9990 And to think that during portal 1 the 7 hour was started to begin . . . .. song kinda reflects off that millions of humans , families and friends are all being displace or dying . . . .
To me, this is what "Cold" sounds like.
Fake Name for me it’s what lonely-in-a-dark-and-quiet-and-almost-inescapable-place (I was going to put alone but I feel “alone” and “lonely” have different meanings)
Dat synesthesia
Fake Name omfg you right
It makes me think of how, in some parts of the ocean, Everywhere you look is just the same shade of blue.
It's the special kind of cold where it's not cold enough to be outside, but cold enough for when the heat isn't working and the drafty cold gets stuck inside the room.
This music really shows us how cold and dark the Portal-Half Life universe really is. Chell isolated in a series of test chambers and Gordon Freeman isolated in Black Mesa, Xen and City 17. It really captivates the feeling of slowness and contemplation. The moment in Portal 2 when you accidentally fall into the depths of the old laboratory gives us the exact feeling that this music does. Helpless, all alone in the deep, god knows how far down, in a huge caves, inside of huge spherical chambers suspended in the air.
It really does show both sides of the universe, Gordon fighting the entire world and off-world creatures in isolation, and Chell trying to escape a dark, cold and isolated facility, deep underground. One game gives you a sense of action while the other gives you the sense of loneliness.
It’s a very complicating and weird way of showing how this music makes me feel but, that’s the entirety of it.
Gordon at least has allies, while Chell only has two, one who she never sees, and the other that betrays her.
@@warlord4thewitness Now that is depressing
If half life 1 and 2 and portal 1 take place at the same time, then, why in half life 1 and 2 do the head crabs come out of the portals, but those portals dont appear in the aperture Science test chambers as well?
@@thebeefiestboi1223 I think there are different portal networks in the half life/ portal universe.
@@terrariadude2313 thank you
This is what it feels like to be isolated in space.
I agree
this is what it feels like to be isolated on planet Earth.
deserted, forgotten, and alone in Antarctica, with all equipment needed for survival, but never again a chance to see another face.
Poor Wheatley.....
this is what it feels like to be emprisonned into a Massive Desertic Laboratory
The perfect song for the background when writing. Thanks for the loop.
Samantha Izaguirre kinda
Was thinking that I was only person that uses this to get concentrated
The complete Portal OST works an absolute TREAT for writing, it's great
Me too. After this track creepy stuff comes from beneath
are you writing about loneliness and death?
It feels like I'm pressed against the glass of my memory, looking at the past, helplessly trying to go back.
Every day, since 2021, I do the same.
I look back at a certain photo and cry over someone who I loved.
They're still there, but I don't know if they're the same person I cared about.
And it may be my fault...
I remember when I played portal and when this song would come on I would just be still and listen. This track is heartbreaking and heavy, a stone in my soul. It's a reminder of the grim realities of inescapable isolation and the knowledge of being entirely alone, forever. Gorgeous piece, but be careful how you listen to it.
Such an amazing track that only gets better with time. The feeling of loneliness is perfectly captured
with music like this, i imagine myself alone at midnight in a closed industry, which relax me in a wierd way.
Yūrei『幽霊』 me 2
I dream of that day.
I'm terrified of liminal big spaces and for some reason i feel the same
so portal?
There were many moments from start to finish that made this game special but the moment this song played was what locked it in for me.
There isn't a word that describes that feeling so I won't attempt to emulate it.
You can and you are ready to speak it
If not you are already speaking.
Can we take a moment to appreciate how great of a composer Kelly Bailey is? Salute.
This music has such a dire and morbid feel that suits this game so well, the vibe is just so hopeless and it fits in so well with the chamber isolation of this game
Finally, a version that repeats. I needed this so much.
STEP 1: Right click.
STEP 2: Press "loop"
Christian Vazquez i would to the same thing dude
y'all need kira
Now finally go to TH-cam repeat then BOOM In one day
@@ChristianVazquez12 what about mobile lmao
@@strebicux6174
Here's the mobile guide then:
STEP 1: Get fucked.
*This track makes me think about paradoxes - puzzles with no solution...*
*And how little we know about this world...*
Indeed.
Yea I agree
Test chamber 18 is so hard
True but *how little we know about this world...*
“This sentence is false!”
This comment is cancerous "fake deep"
I'm having some kind of nostalgic vibe on my brain, it feels... depressing.
Tacky Nate I thought I was the only one
Greg boucaard It makes me question... What is life? What is my purpose? What can I do?
*+Tacky Nate*
Unimportant, nothing and nothing.
Tacky Nate: SAME THING
That's just the florescent calcium we put in your coffee this morning.
if you thought that portal was a cute game with cake and puzzles and companium cubes. then you are 100% wrong this song really fits portal it is also the only one that fits.
Deep. Also, that profile pic is deep too, if you know what i mean.
*companium cubes*
What about "Music of the Spheres"?
@@thezipcreator that should be a thing
portal was one of my first video games and i thought it was just fun to teleport to places. replaying it now, it feels so haunting and ominous and i’m so mad my 10 year old self didn’t pick up on the immaculate atmosphere of this game
This honestly, is a real song for isolation. "*Imagine your stuck in a room, nothing to do - but to solve a paradox - a puzzle the human brain can't find the answer to, but to find itself lost in.*"
Even silence is screaming
Audible Depression
HibbitsraZer0 v.2 Perfect alternative name.
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Congratulations, you’ve successfully destroyed all time and creation, you merely exist in the void. Now would be a good time to think about what you’ve done.
"A good contemplation of your emotions should do good for you right now,or forever."
@@oo-uu9ez what is this quote?
@@typeviicu-boat3616 the improvised kind
Load a previous save or continue to live in this doomed existence.
I'm going to give this song an upvote for all of times it helped me study.
Ambience is just the best music for concentration in so many ways. It gets you to focus on certain intricacies of the music but still manages to replicate the harmony of life. Sounds pretentious, I know, but the damn-near Zen state that this allows me to reach can't go unacknowledged.
Von Turnip same here
Von OHH NOW I KNOW WHY ITS USED IN PORTAL!!!!!
i'm doing this right now. it's helping so much
P L A C E B O
Upvote? This is TH-cam.
The first few seconds of this brings tears to me, and gives me major goosebumps. Nothing does this to me.
My dad wishes he didn't get games for us as kids. I played the Orange Box when I was four. This game, (including half life) I believe, made me who I am - how I think. This is why I'm smart and have an understanding of things through trial-and-error. Thank you, Valve, along with the students who first came up with this. I wouldn't have obtained the same level of curiosity without this game. And I actually am thankful towards my dad. He's the one who bought the Orange Box for my older brothers lol
My brain puts me in the space between awake and asleep when i listen to this, almost like a person who is in coma compaired to a silent hospital where they lie, alone. Blissfully unaware of the world around them. With small interactions to the real world, someone grasping your hand feels like an itch that you wish would just leave you alone. And once you wake up, the drones of the real world come crashing down around you. You sit, and wonder, stareing at the white sky for weeks with nothing but drones flooding the air around you. You lie, and think under all the drones...why cant that itch come back...one last time.
I feel so alone when I hear this
Sapphibee me 2
Sapphibee same
In the game you are alone, Or are you?
It makes me think of how, in some parts of the ocean, everywhere you look, it's just the same shade of blue.
Same but only when im just playing the game with that music
rarely do you find an ambient track that establishes it's tone with restraint. Most ambient tracks are overbearingly "cosmic" and "spiritual". This is a perfect ambient track
The music itself is not depressing. This song is able to put you in a contemplative mood, to really slow you down and make you stop checking your cellphone for facebook notifications. It slows everything down, and just like anything else that makes you reflect, it uncovers what's already there. I mean, the notes are in a minor scale so it sounds sad, but the song itself is only going to uncover whats in us. Turns out people who play and enjoy videogames are often sad, or hollow (including myself)
EDIT: I re read this comment and it's stupid as shit. Disregard it
Gabe GR damn. deep shit
no, this song is fucking depressing. it's isolation put to song
What is it with people and bashing phones, man?
Tombstone218 Often times people don't criticise the phones themselves, but rather people's over-reliance on them. Were it not for phones, I wouldn't even be talking to you.
You are right. Very right. I never noticed that. it is a sad song, but its not depressing. However, it does have depressing aspects about it. It represents loneliness. Loneliness beyond comprehension. An amount of loneliness that drives a person delusional. Loneliness hurts. But this, what this song means, is like having every bone in your body broken, one at a time, over 10 days, and having your skin cut and stretched over and over again. It is torture.
Jokes on you, I don't need this to feel alone I already am!
Ayyy! same
Ayy I have found my bros
i read that in soldiers voice lol
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This just gives me some sort of nostalgic feeling and I love it It's the perfect ambiance.
God this is the most depressing music I've ever heard.
AydinPrower It's dark and ambient, yes, did you expect something else? Valve wanted to seriously capture that feeling of isolation in the first Portal, and music like this was used to punctuate it.
They sure did a great job.
Depressing? I found it to be... well... hauntingly calming? I feel a sense of uncertain and somewhat corrupted tranquility with this track.
It's depressing, but in a good way. It's dark-ambience, and it really makes one calm and makes them go into a contemplative mood.
International Space Station Thank you for the upload, by the way - the regular version just isn't long enough, and putting it on replay doesn't give it the sense of continuity that this does.
This song makes me think of being stranded in a snowstorm. Miles and miles from any civilization, nearly pitch black besides what little moonlight can come through, nothing but the quiet wind to accompany you, no way to call for help, and it's just _so cold..._
that's terrifying, but it fits perfectly with the feeling Portal 1 aims for
For all the emotions this gives a person, for me personally, it gets me on my ass and gets me to work or study the fastest and keeps me in the work. For all the lofi chill and 24-hour music streams, nothing beats Self-Esteem Fund for some reason. If I had to guess, it's how quickly it takes hold of you. The slow, echoing notes bring you to their pace. Maybe it's the memory of solving chambers in Portal whilst listening to this that resonates with trying to complete a task with this playing in the background. However Kevin Bailey strung this together, it's without a doubt his best work.
I agree with you good sir.
A track that perfectly encapsulates the feeling of looking up at the empty observation rooms and thinking ”Where the hell is everyone?”
Thank you for posting this! Helps me concentrate when I'm doing homework.
Joshua Burns me 2 ME
How is that homework going?
people keep saying this is “audible isolation” or “death and nothingness”, but to me its what you hear when you’re crushed between 2 portals
edit: holY SHIT ITS BEEN LIKE 2 YEARS STOP LIKING THIS PLEASE
About that; the results of the experiment are a lie.
WOAH
It's more like "Audible Desolation"
Example: Playing this song while wondering the streets of NYC in The Division.
Another example: Playing this song while in an empty street on a foggy/cloudy day.
Yet another example: Playing this while treading through New Mombasa as the Rookie in Halo 3 ODST.
See a pattern here?
69 likes, nice.
This is the one dude who just gave you the 100th like in this comment :)
when I listen to this I think of death and an endless void of nothingness
and SCP containment breach
somewhat yeah
It makes me think of how, in some parts of the ocean, everywhere you look, it's just the same shade of blue.
spy!
This just feels like, everyone is gone, and it's just me, walking down the street at night, accepting the fact that I'm alone.
Y’all: lonely
Me: -needs something to fall asleep to while I’m hyperfixating on portal-
I'm hyperfixating on video game soundtracks at the moment. specifically this song, and the entire FEZ soundtrack
@@sillyultroid Ya, Disasterpeace is fucking amazing
Nice username
@@dingus3443 agreed
im also hyperfixating on portal
This song reminds me of space, and how infinite it is. Listening to this while playing something like Elite: Dangerous helps to remind me of how empty and vast space really is, especially after leaving the populated area to travel by myself.
When you listen to this, it sounds like reality has just been unveiled before you. Like your entire life is a lie. Like reality itself is a lie. What you thought was life, no longer exists. You are stripped of emotion. Emotion was artificial. And your mere existence is a lie. You are just adrift in this empty gray void... That's what I think of.
Deep
It makes me think of how, in some parts of the ocean, everywhere you look, it's just the same shade of blue.
combine soldiers in a nutshell lol
You’re more right than we know. All we have is our perception, and it is not reality. It is our perception of reality. Reality is truly unknown. We are only capable of experiencing what our senses will allow.
@@peteallyn412 this is why transhumanism is the way, in this body I still feel like humanity deserves to continue, these flesh beings that are blind to existence, but logically, I know what we must do.
Radio song: 💃
This:
🧍
This is honestly my favourite OST in the entire Portal Series, it just creates such a feeling of loneliness that perfectly captures the empty, desolate and liminal space feel of Aperture.
I miss 2014.
I was a wee lady, 6 in fact (yes, a 6 year old, 1st grade, playing gmod.) And I remember when I could just relax. Play with my legos without having a care in the world, feeling relaxed, Looking up, in the blue sky of NJ, loving every second.
Portal was but a game I had cared about, till 2017. That’s when I started getting into the series, really only Portal 2, but still.
It was only till last year, did I play the first portal. I expected to find a game like portal 2, but I found something different. Good, but different. It’s emptiness, desolation made me feel, something. Or a lack of something.
That’s how I found this song, this soundtrack, and now have I realized, that the Cake was really a lie.
Its nice to see a younger generation like games like this. The ones that have a deeper meaning and story. Where you can feel yourself playing for hours and hours. I was blown away with this game and the OST
Darko Milosevic Exactly! I’m replaying the whole Half Life and Portal series, whilst playing gmod. I mean, it’s on a crappy MacBook, but I’m about to build my PC, so that’s good.
Darko Milosevic I tell my friends about this game series, and some have played it, but they don’t even have a laptop. I’ll tell them about the orange box, though. I wanna tell my friends how good these games are, and only one of them actually cares about valve, which is good.
@@TheONEANDONLYBeuh keep that friend. I have only one true friend and i am happy about that. The best friends are the ones that understand you.
Darko Milosevic well, all my friends understand me. However, this one likes the same things I like
everyone's talking about how creepy and isolating this is... am i the only one who finds this relaxing and pleasant to listen to?
Your not the only one lol i love this
pleasant, sure but not sure if relaxing
When I originally played portal 1, this ambience creeped me out. Now it just gives off a feeling of nostalgia along with the feeling of loneliness
I've lost count of how many times I've fallen asleep to this. 😅
Same I’m falling asleep to I now don’t know why 🤣🤣🤣🥱😴😴😴
1) this song captures more about Aperture Laboratories than any of the other Portal 1 and Portal 2 songs they have. Sure "Procedural Jiggle Bone" could give off the same vibes and feel to it but, it just feels-to outside the facility. Aperture is known for its test chamber and the feeling that you are the only human left and that you are going to be left alone in the dark with nothing but silence. The silence in that dark room would be almost deafening to the point that you'd never want to step into a dark, isolated area ever again. It's also known for having no windows, and the only windows they have, are test chamber windows for monitoring the testing areas. This song honestly a deep song that could have many possible meanings.
2) This is awesome btw
3) Remember, the Aperture Science Bring Your Daughter to Work Day is the perfect time to have her tested.
so calming
In a weird psychotic sorta way...
...yet so depressing....
A beautiful song that encapsulates isolation, strangely eerie while calming.
This like one of those songs that a soldier gets out of a war and has flashbacks. Anyways 10/10
U.S.M. Valor Hey, I know your profile pic.... isn't it from Dead Space?
OmegaKnightGTX Yep the Symbol of the Valor
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You mean PTSD?
opposing force flashbacks
The most beautiful song of the entire series.
I love this music so much. It's so calm, so simple yet complex at the same time. It doesn't even make me depressed. But if I was slowly dying in space, this would be the music I would want to hear. What makes it funny is I was pissed before I put this on. But afterwards, that anger went away just like someone blowing a candle out. Whoever made this piece of music deserves an award.
This music makes the this of this:
You've been wandering the desert for months, barely surviving with the scorching sun beating down on you 24/7. Nothing but sand and dry land for miles and miles, as far as the naked eye can see.
Suddenly, you come across an old wooden rundown house. It looks like it'll fall apart with one break. The windows are shattered and the front door is busted wide open gently swing front and back. You walk inside the house and everything is torn up and busted. The chairs have missing legs, the couch has a ton of holes and is ripped to shreds, and the cabinets are busted open with nothing inside.
Given how rundown this abandoned wooden house is, it has a ton of cracks and small openings where the light from the scorching sun is able to seep through.
With every step you take, the house groans and moans, basically threatening to fall apart at any given second.
Given how far and long you've travelled in the blistering desert, you decide to rest up a bit on the torn up couch. A small crack in the wall lets some light from sun hit you directly in the face. You decide to just deal with it and drift off into sleep.
this was really nice. interesting how everyone has their own visuals when they listen to this. i imagine it as more of an abandoned city with huge dirty buildings and a grey sky and you just walk and look around, still alone
thank you for sharing
@@deligeorgieva8535 i think of something like that when listening to "Distorted Trumpets" from the HL2 OST, but for this one it makes me imagine being lost in a snowstorm with barely any warmth, and nobody to help you for miles. It's just you, and the unbearable cold, which will soon be the last thing you feel. This song is like the embodiment of the dread you'd feel in that situation, at least for me.
I'd like to imagine this song is enchanted. When I listen to it, I am reminded of every depressing thing that has happened to me. But if I listen to it in game, I start to feel like Chell. Traped, no escape, no meaning, a never-ending maze. When it plays in game I usually crouch somewhere and have a break. Looking at the next puzzle that I am trapped to solve. And when you learn about Rattman, you try to imagine yourself in his shoes. Even more hopeless then Chell, but his hope IS her. The only way to succeed. The only way to stop this monster that killed everyone you knew. And all of a sudden, Portal has a deeper meaning and story. That's why I fucking love the Portal series. It gives you this feeling of unease. And in Portal 2 it gets stronger. Thinking you're the last standing human on Earth, and in Aperture Laboratories.
I had this tune looping in my head when hospitalized in intensive care for weeks cause of a myocardial infection (Myopericarditis), Feeling of being locked in a sterile place without the possibility of getting out
This music feels like the dark era of the universe after the exhaustion of stars, stellar remnants, and even black holes.
The thing is, we don’t know if the universe will reform, or be a continuous empty void for eternity.
I keep coming back to this song to sleep. Its just so relaxing even though its probably the most depressing song ive ever heard.
Damn this ambient is so good... For me its what you hear knowing your only living human in a huuuuge facility
portal music makes me feel like this is real like this is what reality really is. i am impressed with valve with these soundtracks.
I hear it in me when I'm alone no cars or animals.
This makes me look outside only to see houses and sunshine but no people or cars outside. I felt as if I was the only human on earth
this song is kind of comforting and relaxing but also makes me feel lonely and afraid, its a weird amalgam of two feelings which are so distant from eachother
This "song" makes me feel like I'm floating in a timeless black void, where I'm the only visible thing in the visible reaches of far space, and all i hear is the bellow of this melody. Is it weird that it sounds "tasty"?
This first plays in test chamber 10, the momentum one, after you exit the initial starting area
This is the kind of ambiance where you just hear the...emptiness
I love how in the later half of the video, the loop just stops several times, leaving behind this eerie silence, which _kind of_ actually adds to the depressing tone it already has.
This song bounces and resonates in my head, I love it!
I know everybody and their mom has said this but its insane how well this incapsulates cold loneliness
This represents most of the puzzles, (not the escape) I think it really shows how you go through a puzzle. you start off figuring it out, then you put into action. I love ambient music, since it is so simple, and puzzle games are where most of it is at. Antichamber, where my Anti part of my username came from, is one of my favorite games because of its simplicity, also Mirror's Edge, a world where its just simple color, also has some good ambient sections, and portal is no different. When I first heard this, I absolutely loved it because it's so simple. Ambient music is telling a life story to me, no matter what it is.
this is so comforting
You are alone.
There's no one to help you...
But yourself.
You look for something, what is it?
A escape? An end for this pain?
No.
You did nothing but suffer.
Its an endless pain, you asked, why me?
You've founded more then just more pain.
I'm sorry...
i love it.
poets seem to be quite rare now a days.
+J_mac225 get to ur truth.
Reminds me if your stuck in the backrooms, Alone, No escape, Nothingness.
It's the perfect song for reading the three body problem book series
I remember when I first played Portal. I knew nothing about it (or Half-Life), I just heard it was a puzzle game and that it was fun. I spent ages just walking around trying to figure out why every single office was empty and not a single other person was to be seen. Then I was shown Half-Life 2 and its episodes and it all made sense.
This is like addictive loneliness, I just want to hear more of it
Dude I have been listening to this music every night for 3y ,thx dude it rly helps and it also takes me back when life was simple playing portal 1 at night just sitting in a corner Of a test chamber to vibe ,anyway thx for the vid boss
I know how you feel. I've been that way with Brian Eno Airplanes 1-1. It's super relaxing to me. I overlaid an IKEA asmr thing onto it and sleep with it on.
I always look at dodos. The cute birds didnt deserve their fate, and I always make sure they are best they can be, even if they are dead, they are not forgotten, far from it infact. There is no doubt in my mind that the dodo will be smiling and coping happily, looking down from the clouds at me and my comment. Yes, I have an emotional connection to an extinct species, and a strong one at that.
Portal 1 is and will be counted as horror game from this music.
Dude when it went “..............” I felt that
The first time I played portal, which I think was 8 or so years ago, this legitimately freaked me out. It gave me the feeling like I was somewhere where I wasn’t supposed to be, doing something I wasn’t supposed to be doing (I guess in the game that is true). But it also feels intimidating and ominous, like the complex is sentient - it knows I’m there, and it’s unhappy. The colors amplify these feelings; the test sections were white, sterile, and lonely, and the industrial parts had this brown grime to them, and peeking into the walls and vents there was this disturbing red glow. This, with Glados’s presence, made this feel a lot more like a horror game. Even though at heart it’s a puzzle game, the story and atmosphere slowly creep over you in a unique way. It’s probably why it’s so memorable, despite there being more complex puzzle games since. Even now, this ambience evokes a sense of dread. The soundtrack was so powerful. I wish I could go back and experience it for the first time again.
This music when I hear it,
I think about portal 1 and 2’s lab places
And then I feel alone...
no way i found your comment
i love this soundtrack too man
EDIT:
that music indeed captures the feeling how i am in general without brother, just alone. mostly nobody around you no more.
just pure loneliness.
@@kyberdoge3 YOO
hey should we go to discord so i can talk to you?
@@kyberdoge3 sure man
this video carried me through my entire bachelor thesis phase in summer 2020 - thank you for the upload
Massive thanks to Liam Triforce and his Portal Retrospective video for introducing me to this masterpiece of a song.
Yea he made a good retrospective I have his HL2, Portal, and Alex retrospects in a playlists but I mainly watch this video while I sleep it actually help me out when I sleep
i needed this. thank you so much.
This music fits pretty damn well if you were to use it on a video analyzing the Universal Union.
(For the uneducated, the Combine from Half-Life.)
Even after eight qhole years, and even longer
This soundtrack is what i'd use to define "You think there is someone watching you, and there is, but they are watching from inside of you" and i don't know why
this is fantastic piece of music. incredible
Я... даже не знаю что писать. Столько ужасного произошло в моей жизни за месяц, недавно вспомнил про этот трек, и пока я его слушаю, он нём думаю, я не чувствую боли, хоть он её и не излечил, но заглушил, и дал повод не думать обо всём том что произошло.
Stay strong brother! Hope you’re doing well.
This.... this makes me nostalgic... this ost reminds me of a time that I forgot... a long lost childhood memory perhaps... either way, this makes me melancholic like nothing else...
god, this piece of music makes me remember a better time, when I wasn't stuck inside, when I didn't feel the need to explain why wearing masks is a good idea. Portal and Portal 2, especially their endings, are the closest I've ever felt to a religious experience.
this song is the musical embodiment of solitude
this song made me cry when I first heard it
When gates of universe are opens to you...
makes me think of the ending of 1984. just locked in a cage. or in an isolation tank. bright white walls and ceiling. padded floor. sitting in fetal position, nothing to hear but your self narrated voice in your head, eventually you just start talking to yourself. you cant tell the difference between talking and thinking.
I need more music like this.
Best song in portal, one of the best song in vg history, I think. ^^
Blasted this in the shower in pitch black at 3am and it hit on a whole nother level
this music really shows the feeling of isolation that the portal game had, and I wish the second game had more of it.
Could not agree more. The game play was better in the second, with multiplayer and an option to play other people's creations, but the second lacked what made the first portal game so amazing
Well, when you were going through old Aperture all alone, I think the same kind of isolation could be felt.
I likef Portal 2's music more since it was more upbeat, but it still has songs that are pretty creepy. Heck, the music in old Aperture used to make me scared and want to stop playing.
Meanwhile, in Portal, music like this just makes me feel like I want to stop playing from dread. I still love the original Portal, but sometimes ambience can be a bit overbearing.
Does this make any sense...?
Literally my favorite video ever
If you play this at 4 am in complete silence, it'll make you feel like everyone on earth is gone and you are the only one left. That's the only way I can describe the feeling. Try it out yourself.
That's what I was thinking