I have a problem that I did not have when intercourse and I have a normal cucumber 1 inch with erection goes 3.5 inches and I have a female back I have 10 years using testosterone but when I am therapy goes up to 1300 when I stopped the therapy it drops to 20 lower than a female. am i a feminization??
@@benykberik3631 Use non-effervescent calcium with fruit juice along your meals daily, and you will have no more testosterone problems. You have an acidic diet that is too low on fat and calcium, and been spending too much on doctors, and they weren't chemists. Calcium is a steroid from the earth which gives you the male hormones you need. In ancient cultures such as Africa, China and India we eat earth at times like the animal to keep the animal in us.
I completely feel you Maya. I got my GRS a little over two months ago, and I'm so grateful to be able to see my doctor that has been with me since the beginning of my transition. It can be so scary, especially when you have to go through the whole process of telling a new doctor you're trans, which can be a tiring and lengthy process. I hope all is well
Some granulation tissue is a normal part of wound healing. Sometimes, however, it gets out of control and does not go away. It is then called "exuberant granular tissue" or "proud flesh". Silver nitrate is a common treatment. With treatment it usually does go away with no complications. I had the problem 60 years ago following abdominal surgery. The proud flesh developed on the external surface of the area where the incision had been sutured. There are also some other treatments, including cortisone cream. Just be sure to have the treatment suggested by Dr. Brassard and go in for periodic reassessment as he directs. Be patient and keep your spirits up--this too shall pass! You are a lovely young women with a bright and interesting mind. TH-cam needs people like you.
I’ve been watching all of your videos for the most part. My girlfriend is a trans woman and I love getting insight on how you’ve felt after surgery because I know I won’t fully understand, but I want to try my best to be a good partner after she gets her surgery done. Thank you for being brave and honest with us. You’re a truly wonderful person. 💜
Maya, I’ve been watching your channel for a few years now, and always enjoy your content. I want you to know that when you had that moment of crying on camera, that’s the most real I’ve seen you be, and it was wonderful to see you drop the walls. I had my surgery 3 years ago, and have also struggled with depression. You aren’t alone - not at all. I’m glad to see you producing videos again, and I also hope you will make sure that you’re taking care of yourself first. I hope your struggles get easier. You’re a good person.
We are one month apart from having our surgeries and I’ve been watching you since day 1 and seeing you heal while I was healing has helped me so much. I didn’t and don’t feel so alone thanks to your update videos and your transparency. I’m healing at the same pace as you due to granulated tissue and I just hit my 1year post op this month. We got this. Thank you for everything Maya and just being you. Stay optimistic. Keep your head up. :]
This particular topic is tough for a lot of us, both pre and post op. I am glad you opened up and spoke on the realities both good and bad. I think the truth (in whatever form) needs to be out there. With that, thank you for your cantor and willingness to be open regarding your struggles
Youre always such a strong pillar of inspiration. To hear you get raw like this was …WOW. Really helpful to see we all have these types of times. I wish you continued brighter days ahead. How brave & kind of you to share!
Love this vid!!! I am 2 year post-op, recently made videos about my size growth (from A to C) and my dating life, I can't wait to make a video about the surgery as well!!! Love you Maya, been watching your content for a long time!
Aloha, what what? I’m 2 years post-op too. 10/28/2019 at OHSU - Oregon Health and Science University in Portland, Oregon. Post-Op Vulvoplasty - I just regret not going all the way for a vaginoplasty cause of my work and because of this, I have a over bladder issue/ syndrome where I keep going and cant keep it in. Work doesn’t help either cause I can’t always go use the restroom to relieve my bladder.
Maya girl, thank you so much for your posts. I had my GRS a few weeks ago, and i followed your pre op and peri op advices. It helped me a lot, and now that you are sharing the most vulnarable part of this process, I salute you for that. I can relate in a lot of things that you are experiencing, I hope everything gets better after this. Bless you beautiful
Thank you so much for sharing. I remember watching your 1 month post op video while I was planning my surgery, and I loved how articulate and informative you were. I am currently three months post op and am following along to your videos as I coordinate my own healing and recovery. I'm currently experiencing minor complications also, but I see you as a beacon of light, assuring me as well as others, these storms shall too pass. Thank you, Maya!
Thank you for sharing. My recovery was a lit tougher than I expected as well. It is really helpful to hear other folks talk about this. I’m 2 years out and am finally getting to a more normal place. You got this. Sending you healing vibes 🙏🏽🧡❤️💛
Thank you for sharing your feelings and what you're going through with us, Maya. I've been watching your channel for a few years now but I don't usually comment. I think there's nothing wrong with being vulnerable in front of your audience. We all go through difficult times and hopefully by sharing it we can feel less alone. I'm glad you're doing better now and taking the steps to recover completely from surgery. I can totally relate to putting off something important like that and how heavy it feels, like the problem is a weight you carry while you procrastinate but it still feels so hard to get it done! I've done that with looking for health treatment as well. Sending you all the love! Also, your puppy is the sweetest baby omg!!!!!
thank you for being so vulnerable in this space ✨ also, song of achilles is suuuuuuch a good book! another book by that same author is called circe and it’s just as great~
I'm 7 months post-op, and I just want to say the mental health challenges are so real. The healing, dilation schedule, re-integration with your body, worries about how it's healing, etc are all so hard and isolating. I definitely have been struggling with mental health too. Like you, I don't want to be misunderstood-- I'm so glad I had the surgery, but it's just a hard journey. Love and light ❤️
Thank you for posting the update Maya. I wish I could give you a big hug. I too deal with depression and anxiety too. As I often say it is okay to not be okay. You will make it through with the help of your wonderful friends and little the cute little puppy. Mental health is something not talked about enough. Take care. You rock Maya!
Hey Maya, thank you for this video. I’ve been feeling very similarly recently. Very much feeling depression and stress in my life from my transition and transition goals and expectations that just haven’t been met for reasons completely beyond my control. It feels so hopeless and desolate at times. But at the same time all the other aspects of my personal and professional life are otherwise going really well. It’s such a strange place to be in, especially now I’m coming up to 5 years of my transition. It never seems to get any easier. Lots of love Maya x
I'm so happy to know someone is actually speaking about the truth behind GRS! 4 years ago I got my surgery done and I cannot even describe the amount of physical and mental pain the process caused... I didn't have granulation tissue but I had a bunch of other problems to the point where I couldn't walk for 3 months! It's absurd how common these problems are after GRS but we have no idea until we get the surgery done! We should talk more about the reality behind GRS not from a victim's point of view but as showing the fact that these procedures still need to improve!
Need to improve Alot. It's literally just like a kid doing a craft and hoping it doesn't fall apart. We can't create internal organs unfortunately, and outside organs are a no go as well.
Maya, you r such an amazing person!! Ur willingness to open up n share about your journey is truly blessing to so many. Thank you!!!! U r loved girl n I pray for ur healing to be complete. Hang in there. It's ok to not be ok sometimes. But ur light definitely shines😘
Maya, I'm catching old vids. I'm so proud of you for sharing your journey, the good stuff and the more difficult ones. ❤❤❤ Watching your newest ones...I'm so glad you are still here.
I was having much depression and anxiety this year, but the idea of medication made me feel even more anxious (of side effects or losing my ‘real self’) but I finally started taking Remeron (an antidepressant) and it’s suddenly like “Oh, this is how normal people feel? Why did I wait so long?” 😃
Thank you for having the courage to make this post when you did. I realise that this was 2 years ago and that you have improved and healed since then but you showed real courage in reaching out as you did here. Our mental health is so important and insisting on real heath care is so important. a great message.
Maya thank you for being so vulnerable with us. Truly great stuff to think about. The world has such a narrowed view of these things. They seem so easy to go through for so many people. Im sending you a lot of love, strength and HEALING from the inside and out. Take care 💚💚💚
Thanks for the update. Also for taking us on your journey. Has been great watching you come into your own. Gives me hope! Sorry that surgery didn't go so well. You sharing definitely an eye opener!
I get so wrapped up in all the craziness of my life I often get lost. It's so nice to see you back on TH-cam though! I really enjoy your content being so chill and easy to listen to. Really has pass the time for me. I hope you have a brilliant December!
Hiya Maya great to see you on here again! So brave and frank to talk about what has been happening to you. Thank you. Here in the uk health services have really slowed down. I thoroughly understand this extra anxiety that has happened since the COVID thing…. I feel it too. The isolation, lack of people, a hug or close chat has really affected so many people. Look at all the great things you have achieved including getting an adorable dog…so cute!! I’ve been following you for years, you have helped a lot! Thank you!
Maya, I had my orchy in July. I too have had a few complications and residual pain. I feel your pain when o waych your video. I love you girl! So many of us do. You will make it out the other side of this tunnel.
watching you cry was the hardest thing to swallow i cried with you cos i know how hard the journey is wish i could hug you girl youre not alone keep that chin up be strong okay
Wow! I was missing your content! Thank you for such an honest, sincere discussion of your journey! I know lots of people identify with your struggle and want you to taste success! Much love to you!
I’m a 57 year old severely immunocompromised trans woman who is currently in the process of figuring out how and when I’m going to be able to schedule my gender affirmation surgery, and your vlogs about your journey after your surgery have been tremendously helpful to me as I think about and look forward to my own. Between living through a once in a century global pandemic and recovery from one of the most physically and psychologically challenging surgeries imaginable, I believe that there would be something incredibly wrong with you if you didn’t feel overwhelmed and depressed from time to time. The fact that you’re being honest with yourself and continuing to look for ways to reach out to others is the best that anyone could possibly hope for under these extraordinary circumstances. Thank you very much Maya. Please keep writing. Please keep vlogging. Please keep creating. Please take great care of wonderful you. You’re beautiful inside and out and we need you. 💜
Stay positive. I’m 55 and my surgery is scheduled for May 11. It took forever to get my A1C where it needed to be. Stay positive and hopefully you can get your procedure soon. ♥️♥️♥️♥️
Thank you for your honesty. I know it can seem scary to be vulnerable and share that things are less than perfect but authenticity is so much more appreciated than fake perfection! Love you and wishing you health and happiness Maya!
Maya,. Have followed your journey from the beginning. Watched your first video in 2020 and each in order. You are quite down to earth as a speaker. Looking forward to your next video.
Thank you for sharing this Maya. Your openness about where you are at both physically and mentally really shows your inner strength. You are amazing. Keeping you in my prayers for continued recovery.
To me it seems you have done many things to help your situation. I think the best thing was getting to see your surgeon and just have that health worry sorted. Thank you for sharing this because it helps other people figure out what to when they have a problem. I feel you are doing great. I hope the cauterisation helps sort the problem quickly for you. As you say better days are coming. Send love x
I had my surgery in September 2020 in Montreal and I had issues with healing. I don’t blame Dr. Brassard for the problem, I believe it was due to my own insecurity about the necessary self care. Hypergranulation is still a problem and silver nitrate is not a friend of mine. I was lucky enough to have a clinic that is geared to LGBTQ people. I’m fighting some mental health issues but I’m getting help. I have a cat myself and I needed him. Dr. Brassard says that I’m mostly healed and can dilate 3times a week.
you should never worry bout what others think of/bout you!!!! just be yourself & enjoy life because LIFE is short!!! thank you for sharing & be safe!! the fall colors were beautiful in you video clip there!!!
I needed some extra silver nitrate treatments as well more than a year later. I agree on the bad food at that restaurant haha. Nice view, bad food. XD It’s a real thing to struggle to leave the patient mindset after that much convalescence. I struggled with it. If you ever need an open ear… *hugs*
I’m happy you opened up to us. We are all here for you and I can totally relate to the depression and not taking care of yourself properly….I’m still struggling with depression and I do have a therapist, so I’m hoping that helps. I’m a cis female and I’ve been watching you for a long time and you are a beautiful woman and you have come so far in you’re life, you are very independent and I know you are going to get better and have a fantastic life. You are someone I admire. 💕💕💕☀️☀️
Love you Maya , sitting here listening to you. Im 69 years old with six kids and five grandkids. I subscribed long ago . You have a right to cry to feel to be human. You are an adorable woman. How is it you help me so much ? You are a lovely incredible beautiful woman take it a day at a time . Im bi polar a sober addict and alcoholic 31 years , we always say …this to shall pass . Love you 😍
Thank you for this whole series and being so open, I’ve really just started my transition in the medical sense of things and really needed to see how others have gone through and felt things
OMG girl… I hope you feel better soon. You are young, pretty, have the guts I didn’t have at your age, have a successful youtube channel, had your surgery, have a supportive mom. So many beautiful things!!! It’s time to realize all you are and have and feel happy and alive again. You provide a sense of hope to so many of us, our trans community. You deserve to feel the same hope you give us. Take care girl! Ethernally thankful! Mafe. :)
i loved the emotion you have and your passion never be afraid to show your true self please never let the haters bother you stand proud and if you ever feel depressed depend on your freinds to help you i speek from experence and never forget to stand up for hwo you are and what you believe in . my sister suffers from depression i talk to her a lot we help each other through the hard times life is hart no matter who you are people that know what depression is like will understand and rember to breath
Thanks for sharing your story with us Maya. Also go being so open and honest on the reality of your surgery and all of what’s been going on. You look gorgeous by the way! Looking forward to more updates
It’s ok to be both vulnerable and strong, and I believe in you and your journey, thank you for sharing your experiences and I really do hope for the best in this journey of life ♡
0:55 and 17:21 I think the word you were thinking of was “cognizant“ not “cognitive“. Either way it’s good to see you again, stay strong, your delivery and presence as you showcase your life to us is always great
hi maya . us that watch your videos love and care very much about your health inside and out and we all love you out here ... great big giant tight hugs !! i know from the stand point of having anxiety and depression its real tough to keep your head up and be happy . but were all out here for YOU !!!! please always speak your mind and dont hide anything ... none of us are haters to you ... hugs and lots of love to you and your cute new little pup !!!
We are all glade your back! You look really good! There no troubles like your own troubles! A year not much time for getting over a major surgery of any kind. Take care of yourself, Cheers!
Wow Maya. You are beautiful and it breaks my heart to see you sad like that I am very early in discovering my gender and late to my journey being on my 40s but you give me hope it will get better. ❤️
Hang in there kid. Thanks for the candor,.. we all go through this & you make me feel not so alone,.. when I hear you describe some of my own depression issues. I have some medical issues as well & it takes sooo long to get to see anyone,.. & then it's brief & then it's sooo long to see anyone again due to covid. I'm glad you gave us an update,.. no one can help if they don't know you need it sometimes. I think of you often,.. & wish you well. I've been following your progress for years now,.. & you really are an inspiration, but your not superhuman either. If you need anything, you have tons of fans waiting & wanting to help,.. that's rare. Take care,.. keep us updated & remember you're not alone ever.
Sending you hugs. You're beautiful, strong, and brave! Thanks for sharing your journey with us. I have been watching your videos for over couple years. You definitely inspire many of us!
WB beautiful thank u for updating us all , wondered what happened with u , glad ur doing ok now though, i totally get the mental stress and anxieties ur going thru , and awww i just wanted to hug u at end ❤
Girl,you’ve got this. It does suck that you have to tell your story over and over to the doctors. Thank you for sharing. We are all sending you virtual hugs 🤗❤️🇨🇦
The song of Achilles is agreat book!!! Read it years ago but the story really stuck with me 🥰 I'm happy for your journey and it's amazing how time flies by. Still have a long way to go but one day I'll get to my srs as well. Thank you for the motivation! 💗
So glad to see you again. Sorry to hear of your health issues. You are a beautiful and smart young woman. I know you can make it thru this. Just be your amazing self! Thank you for posting! Hugs and prayers. Love your cute puppy! ♥️♥️♥️🙏🙏🙏♥️♥️♥️🌻
I have been so completely amazed by everyone in my healthcare system. Every medical professional has tried to go out of their way to give me compassion, support and experience as well as willing to learn! It’s a process!
I love you in this video! Not that you have to worry about what we think, but I found you to be more relatable than ever! Thank you so much for sharing your heart. It really helps me and probably others... thank you. Have a very good week Maya
So happy that you were able to see your surgeon to get diagnosed and that treatment will be pretty straightforward. I experienced a bit of the granularity as well and it was a big relief to get it sorted out. My mental health took a big hit too in late summer and one thing that was really getting me down was the seemingly endless pandemic. Mostly from really hoping everything would be great once I got vaxxed and when that turned out not to be the case the wheels came off. I'm so happy that you're on the mend and have friends who are supporting you, mine have really come through for me and I'm so thankful. Love always 💗
Anxiety/depression are no joke. Whether they’re fleeting or long term, they’re not something that can just be shrugged off. It’s ok. We want to just move on, or “get moving”, or make excuses like “I have so many things to be happy about, why do I feel like this. Come on emotions!” You just have to be patient with yourself, do what you feel what you are honestly able to do and be proud of yourself for the little things, even just getting out of bed, or eating, or feeding your puppy. I say all this from experience and advice given to me through my mental healthy journey. You’re doing awesome, YOU are awesome, and I hope everything works out :)
As always you have great content that speaks to your audience and thank you for sharing the ups and downs you've been going through. I loved the dress you wore at FIN - **STUNNING**! I hope our paths cross again soon. Much love from Halifax XOXO
Im 10000% in the same boat as you & can completely relate. Im almost a year post op in february & i still have yet to fully heal from my granulation tissue as well its caused me so much distress & insecurity & depression because all i just want is to be fully healed & not be so concerned about my healing process. I too have discharge & i can smell an odor from the discharge & it really worries me.
Stunningly beautiful, and glamorous in your evening dress..... I been to Halifax , and Dartmouth they are both amazing small cities...Cheer up Maya it just takes time....
It's been quite a while since I've seen you in my yt feed. Glad to see that you're doing well. Get healthy, and stay positive! Just remember, haters are always going to hate. Give them the old /ignore - ban hammer and move on.They are not worth your time. As long as you, and those you choose to be around are happy then you're most of the way home already.
Hi there Maya! I'm sorry you are still having issues with your surgery, but I'm glad you had some fun while you were there! I wish you a speedy recovery and no more issues 🥰👍
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I have a problem that I did not have when intercourse and I have a normal cucumber 1 inch with erection goes 3.5 inches and I have a female back I have 10 years using testosterone but when I am therapy goes up to 1300 when I stopped the therapy it drops to 20 lower than a female. am i a feminization??
@@benykberik3631 Use non-effervescent calcium with fruit juice along your meals daily, and you will have no more testosterone problems. You have an acidic diet that is too low on fat and calcium, and been spending too much on doctors, and they weren't chemists. Calcium is a steroid from the earth which gives you the male hormones you need. In ancient cultures such as Africa, China and India we eat earth at times like the animal to keep the animal in us.
I don’t think you will see this post, but ‘Dawn’ you were amazing and compelling!
Your such a wonderful person 💕
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I completely feel you Maya. I got my GRS a little over two months ago, and I'm so grateful to be able to see my doctor that has been with me since the beginning of my transition. It can be so scary, especially when you have to go through the whole process of telling a new doctor you're trans, which can be a tiring and lengthy process. I hope all is well
Thank you 😊 and congrats on your journey 💗
My surgery was September 14
@@fantasyworld1956 she's not a shemale. She's a transgender woman. There's nothing male about her.
Awww bless you x
@@Mayavhenry best wishes
Some granulation tissue is a normal part of wound healing. Sometimes, however, it gets out of control and does not go away. It is then called "exuberant granular tissue" or "proud flesh". Silver nitrate is a common treatment. With treatment it usually
does go away with no complications. I had the problem 60 years ago following abdominal surgery. The proud flesh developed on the external surface of the area where the incision had been sutured. There are also some other treatments, including cortisone cream. Just be sure to have the treatment suggested by Dr. Brassard and go in for periodic reassessment as he directs.
Be patient and keep your spirits up--this too shall pass! You are a lovely young women with a bright and interesting mind. TH-cam needs people like you.
I’ve been watching all of your videos for the most part. My girlfriend is a trans woman and I love getting insight on how you’ve felt after surgery because I know I won’t fully understand, but I want to try my best to be a good partner after she gets her surgery done. Thank you for being brave and honest with us. You’re a truly wonderful person. 💜
Is she a lesbian?
@@imawkward2974 no we’re both bi actually.
Maya, I’ve been watching your channel for a few years now, and always enjoy your content. I want you to know that when you had that moment of crying on camera, that’s the most real I’ve seen you be, and it was wonderful to see you drop the walls.
I had my surgery 3 years ago, and have also struggled with depression. You aren’t alone - not at all. I’m glad to see you producing videos again, and I also hope you will make sure that you’re taking care of yourself first.
I hope your struggles get easier. You’re a good person.
We are one month apart from having our surgeries and I’ve been watching you since day 1 and seeing you heal while I was healing has helped me so much. I didn’t and don’t feel so alone thanks to your update videos and your transparency. I’m healing at the same pace as you due to granulated tissue and I just hit my 1year post op this month. We got this. Thank you for everything Maya and just being you. Stay optimistic. Keep your head up. :]
Be strong Maya!! We’re all rooting for you!! 💖💖💐
This particular topic is tough for a lot of us, both pre and post op. I am glad you opened up and spoke on the realities both good and bad. I think the truth (in whatever form) needs to be out there. With that, thank you for your cantor and willingness to be open regarding your struggles
Youre always such a strong pillar of inspiration. To hear you get raw like this was …WOW. Really helpful to see we all have these types of times. I wish you continued brighter days ahead. How brave & kind of you to share!
Love this vid!!! I am 2 year post-op, recently made videos about my size growth (from A to C) and my dating life, I can't wait to make a video about the surgery as well!!! Love you Maya, been watching your content for a long time!
Congrats! And thank you for all the support 💗
@@Mayavhenry Girls support girls 💪🏻
Aloha, what what? I’m 2 years post-op too. 10/28/2019 at OHSU - Oregon Health and Science University in Portland, Oregon. Post-Op Vulvoplasty - I just regret not going all the way for a vaginoplasty cause of my work and because of this, I have a over bladder issue/ syndrome where I keep going and cant keep it in. Work doesn’t help either cause I can’t always go use the restroom to relieve my bladder.
I still want my vaginoplasty, but just not sure when now since Covid Pandemic is still a thing to deal with two years later.
@jade lee do you have a YT channel? I live in Hillsboro and want to try to find local TH-camrs❤️
You are an awesome young lady Maya, Hang in there and reach out to people that care when you're feeling down.🕉️☮️
So, I'm about 6 months post op and i'm going back through some these videos and so much of what your speaking about really hits home. Thank you!
Maya girl, thank you so much for your posts. I had my GRS a few weeks ago, and i followed your pre op and peri op advices. It helped me a lot, and now that you are sharing the most vulnarable part of this process, I salute you for that. I can relate in a lot of things that you are experiencing, I hope everything gets better after this. Bless you beautiful
I’m having GAS in a week and really appreciated your insight and honesty. Thank you so much, sending you SO MUCH LOVE
Thank you so much for sharing. I remember watching your 1 month post op video while I was planning my surgery, and I loved how articulate and informative you were. I am currently three months post op and am following along to your videos as I coordinate my own healing and recovery. I'm currently experiencing minor complications also, but I see you as a beacon of light, assuring me as well as others, these storms shall too pass. Thank you, Maya!
Thank you for sharing. My recovery was a lit tougher than I expected as well. It is really helpful to hear other folks talk about this. I’m 2 years out and am finally getting to a more normal place. You got this. Sending you healing vibes 🙏🏽🧡❤️💛
Thank you for sharing your feelings and what you're going through with us, Maya. I've been watching your channel for a few years now but I don't usually comment. I think there's nothing wrong with being vulnerable in front of your audience. We all go through difficult times and hopefully by sharing it we can feel less alone. I'm glad you're doing better now and taking the steps to recover completely from surgery. I can totally relate to putting off something important like that and how heavy it feels, like the problem is a weight you carry while you procrastinate but it still feels so hard to get it done! I've done that with looking for health treatment as well. Sending you all the love!
Also, your puppy is the sweetest baby omg!!!!!
thank you for being so vulnerable in this space ✨ also, song of achilles is suuuuuuch a good book! another book by that same author is called circe and it’s just as great~
I CRIED at song of Achilles. I can’t. It’s so good.
I'm 7 months post-op, and I just want to say the mental health challenges are so real. The healing, dilation schedule, re-integration with your body, worries about how it's healing, etc are all so hard and isolating. I definitely have been struggling with mental health too. Like you, I don't want to be misunderstood-- I'm so glad I had the surgery, but it's just a hard journey.
Love and light ❤️
To go through that syrgery is very brave
@@bernadettedevereux4489 Maybe, but I didn't feel brave because it didn't feel scary. It felt like a safe haven in the middle of a storm.
@@elsieparker8802 That's good then.
@@elsieparker8802 Mutilation is not brave, you have been pandered to by your gender cult.
Thank you for being so honest! I'll have my surgery in March and I collect as much experience as I can, so your video means so much to me
Thank you for posting the update Maya. I wish I could give you a big hug. I too deal with depression and anxiety too. As I often say it is okay to not be okay. You will make it through with the help of your wonderful friends and little the cute little puppy. Mental health is something not talked about enough. Take care. You rock Maya!
Hey Maya, thank you for this video. I’ve been feeling very similarly recently. Very much feeling depression and stress in my life from my transition and transition goals and expectations that just haven’t been met for reasons completely beyond my control. It feels so hopeless and desolate at times. But at the same time all the other aspects of my personal and professional life are otherwise going really well. It’s such a strange place to be in, especially now I’m coming up to 5 years of my transition. It never seems to get any easier. Lots of love Maya x
Big hugs, Maya. You are a bright and shining light :) Thanks for showing us your authentic self.
You’ve been through a lot, and it’s brave of you to share. I hope things continue to improve for you.
Your ability to be so sincere and vulnerable is heartwarming!! 💖✨
I'm so happy to know someone is actually speaking about the truth behind GRS! 4 years ago I got my surgery done and I cannot even describe the amount of physical and mental pain the process caused... I didn't have granulation tissue but I had a bunch of other problems to the point where I couldn't walk for 3 months! It's absurd how common these problems are after GRS but we have no idea until we get the surgery done! We should talk more about the reality behind GRS not from a victim's point of view but as showing the fact that these procedures still need to improve!
Do you have any problems now ?
Need to improve Alot. It's literally just like a kid doing a craft and hoping it doesn't fall apart. We can't create internal organs unfortunately, and outside organs are a no go as well.
Maya, you r such an amazing person!! Ur willingness to open up n share about your journey is truly blessing to so many. Thank you!!!! U r loved girl n I pray for ur healing to be complete. Hang in there. It's ok to not be ok sometimes. But ur light definitely shines😘
Maya, I'm catching old vids. I'm so proud of you for sharing your journey, the good stuff and the more difficult ones. ❤❤❤ Watching your newest ones...I'm so glad you are still here.
I was having much depression and anxiety this year, but the idea of medication made me feel even more anxious (of side effects or losing my ‘real self’) but I finally started taking Remeron (an antidepressant) and it’s suddenly like “Oh, this is how normal people feel? Why did I wait so long?” 😃
I appreciate you coming back. Of course, take care of yourself first! You look fab in green. Definitely witchy.
Thank you for having the courage to make this post when you did. I realise that this was 2 years ago and that you have improved and healed since then but you showed real courage in reaching out as you did here. Our mental health is so important and insisting on real heath care is so important. a great message.
Thank you for speaking so openly and honestly about the process. Stay beautiful
Maya thank you for being so vulnerable with us. Truly great stuff to think about. The world has such a narrowed view of these things. They seem so easy to go through for so many people. Im sending you a lot of love, strength and HEALING from the inside and out. Take care 💚💚💚
Thanks for the update. Also for taking us on your journey. Has been great watching you come into your own. Gives me hope! Sorry that surgery didn't go so well. You sharing definitely an eye opener!
I get so wrapped up in all the craziness of my life I often get lost. It's so nice to see you back on TH-cam though! I really enjoy your content being so chill and easy to listen to. Really has pass the time for me. I hope you have a brilliant December!
Hiya Maya great to see you on here again! So brave and frank to talk about what has been happening to you. Thank you. Here in the uk health services have really slowed down. I thoroughly understand this extra anxiety that has happened since the COVID thing…. I feel it too. The isolation, lack of people, a hug or close chat has really affected so many people. Look at all the great things you have achieved including getting an adorable dog…so cute!! I’ve been following you for years, you have helped a lot! Thank you!
Thank you Mayah 😊, I really appreciate the honesty and openness, sharing of our vulnerabilities is definitely a boon to healing.
Maya, I had my orchy in July. I too have had a few complications and residual pain. I feel your pain when o waych your video. I love you girl! So many of us do. You will make it out the other side of this tunnel.
watching you cry was the hardest thing to swallow i cried with you cos i know how hard the journey is wish i could hug you girl youre not alone keep that chin up be strong okay
Wow! I was missing your content! Thank you for such an honest, sincere discussion of your journey! I know lots of people identify with your struggle and want you to taste success! Much love to you!
I cant believe its been a year. Inspiring to alot, keep it up Maya!!!
I’m a 57 year old severely immunocompromised trans woman who is currently in the process of figuring out how and when I’m going to be able to schedule my gender affirmation surgery, and your vlogs about your journey after your surgery have been tremendously helpful to me as I think about and look forward to my own.
Between living through a once in a century global pandemic and recovery from one of the most physically and psychologically challenging surgeries imaginable, I believe that there would be something incredibly wrong with you if you didn’t feel overwhelmed and depressed from time to time. The fact that you’re being honest with yourself and continuing to look for ways to reach out to others is the best that anyone could possibly hope for under these extraordinary circumstances.
Thank you very much Maya. Please keep writing. Please keep vlogging. Please keep creating. Please take great care of wonderful you. You’re beautiful inside and out and we need you. 💜
Stay positive. I’m 55 and my surgery is scheduled for May 11. It took forever to get my A1C where it needed to be. Stay positive and hopefully you can get your procedure soon. ♥️♥️♥️♥️
@@jdthompson01 Thank you very much! 🙏 Wishing you a great procedure and outcome, and authenticity, peace, & love JD! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🙂
Thank you for your honesty. I know it can seem scary to be vulnerable and share that things are less than perfect but authenticity is so much more appreciated than fake perfection! Love you and wishing you health and happiness Maya!
Maya,. Have followed your journey from the beginning. Watched your first video in 2020 and each in order. You are quite down to earth as a speaker. Looking forward to your next video.
Sending hugs and love to you ❤️ I too suffer from depression and sometimes it’s so hard to get out of bed ! Hope you feel better 🙏❤️🙏
Much love, Maya!! Thank you for keeping us updated and for being so honest and real with us! Hang in there
Thank you for sharing this Maya. Your openness about where you are at both physically and mentally really shows your inner strength. You are amazing. Keeping you in my prayers for continued recovery.
Wishing you well sweetie ❤ praying for your complete healing ❤️🩹
To me it seems you have done many things to help your situation. I think the best thing was getting to see your surgeon and just have that health worry sorted. Thank you for sharing this because it helps other people figure out what to when they have a problem. I feel you are doing great. I hope the cauterisation helps sort the problem quickly for you. As you say better days are coming. Send love x
You articulate your situation so well and your self reflection is refreshing. I can tell you are a wonderful woman.
Awe Maya you inspire so many people. There are better days to come. You are so sweet you deserve to be happy again! I'm vouching for you.
I had my surgery in September 2020 in Montreal and I had issues with healing. I don’t blame Dr. Brassard for the problem, I believe it was due to my own insecurity about the necessary self care. Hypergranulation is still a problem and silver nitrate is not a friend of mine. I was lucky enough to have a clinic that is geared to LGBTQ people. I’m fighting some mental health issues but I’m getting help. I have a cat myself and I needed him. Dr. Brassard says that I’m mostly healed and can dilate 3times a week.
you should never worry bout what others think of/bout you!!!! just be yourself & enjoy life because LIFE is short!!! thank you for sharing & be safe!! the fall colors were beautiful in you video clip there!!!
Glad you're back. So very sorry for your struggles. Peace, strength, love and many many blessings my dear 💜
I needed some extra silver nitrate treatments as well more than a year later. I agree on the bad food at that restaurant haha. Nice view, bad food. XD It’s a real thing to struggle to leave the patient mindset after that much convalescence. I struggled with it. If you ever need an open ear… *hugs*
I’m happy you opened up to us. We are all here for you and I can totally relate to the depression and not taking care of yourself properly….I’m still struggling with depression and I do have a therapist, so I’m hoping that helps. I’m a cis female and I’ve been watching you for a long time and you are a beautiful woman and you have come so far in you’re life, you are very independent and I know you are going to get better and have a fantastic life. You are someone I admire. 💕💕💕☀️☀️
Congratulations Maya, and thanks for sharing your story. I’m feeling with you.
Thanks for sharing this Maya 🙏 know that you’re helping a lot of us learn from your journey… Hope that you feel better 💞
Love you Maya , sitting here listening to you. Im 69 years old with six kids and five grandkids. I subscribed long ago . You have a right to cry to feel to be human. You are an adorable woman. How is it you help me so much ? You are a lovely incredible beautiful woman take it a day at a time . Im bi polar a sober addict and alcoholic 31 years , we always say …this to shall pass . Love you 😍
Thank you for this whole series and being so open, I’ve really just started my transition in the medical sense of things and really needed to see how others have gone through and felt things
OMG girl… I hope you feel better soon. You are young, pretty, have the guts I didn’t have at your age, have a successful youtube channel, had your surgery, have a supportive mom. So many beautiful things!!! It’s time to realize all you are and have and feel happy and alive again. You provide a sense of hope to so many of us, our trans community. You deserve to feel the same hope you give us. Take care girl! Ethernally thankful! Mafe. :)
I know how you feel. AWE Your puppy is
A D O R A B L E!!!
i loved the emotion you have and your passion never be afraid to show your true self please never let the haters bother you stand proud and if you ever feel depressed depend on your freinds to help you i speek from experence and never forget to stand up for hwo you are and what you believe in . my sister suffers from depression i talk to her a lot we help each other through the hard times life is hart no matter who you are people that know what depression is like will understand and rember to breath
Thanks for sharing your story with us Maya. Also go being so open and honest on the reality of your surgery and all of what’s been going on. You look gorgeous by the way! Looking forward to more updates
have not seen u in a while looking beautiful as usual lady love your positive and energy aroura all around u
It’s ok to be both vulnerable and strong, and I believe in you and your journey, thank you for sharing your experiences and I really do hope for the best in this journey of life ♡
0:55 and 17:21 I think the word you were thinking of was “cognizant“ not “cognitive“. Either way it’s good to see you again, stay strong, your delivery and presence as you showcase your life to us is always great
Damb, you looked stunning in that green dress.
Absolutely gorgeous!
happy for you Maya keep going. Been there. Self love and curiosity was the answer for me
AAAAA she's back!!!! I missed you Maya, i'm glad you're here
hi maya . us that watch your videos love and care very much about your health inside and out and we all love you out here ... great big giant tight hugs !! i know from the stand point of having anxiety and depression its real tough to keep your head up and be happy . but were all out here for YOU !!!! please always speak your mind and dont hide anything ... none of us are haters to you ... hugs and lots of love to you and your cute new little pup !!!
We are all glade your back! You look really good! There no troubles like your own troubles! A year not much time for getting over a major surgery of any kind. Take care of yourself, Cheers!
Happy to see you back! Wishing you more serenity......love you. J
Good luck Maya. I wish you only the best on your journey
Wow Maya. You are beautiful and it breaks my heart to see you sad like that I am very early in discovering my gender and late to my journey being on my 40s but you give me hope it will get better. ❤️
Hang in there kid. Thanks for the candor,.. we all go through this & you make me feel not so alone,.. when I hear you describe some of my own depression issues. I have some medical issues as well & it takes sooo long to get to see anyone,.. & then it's brief & then it's sooo long to see anyone again due to covid. I'm glad you gave us an update,.. no one can help if they don't know you need it sometimes. I think of you often,.. & wish you well. I've been following your progress for years now,.. & you really are an inspiration, but your not superhuman either. If you need anything, you have tons of fans waiting & wanting to help,.. that's rare. Take care,.. keep us updated & remember you're not alone ever.
Sending you hugs. You're beautiful, strong, and brave! Thanks for sharing your journey with us. I have been watching your videos for over couple years. You definitely inspire many of us!
You’ll come out on top and everything will subside boo ❣️ sending good thoughts n energy ✨💗
WB beautiful thank u for updating us all , wondered what happened with u , glad ur doing ok now though, i totally get the mental stress and anxieties ur going thru , and awww i just wanted to hug u at end ❤
You are so brave! Stay strong and insist on the medical care you deserve. It will work out in time
You look beautiful! It’s Great to hear from you again! We’ve all been going through it in one way or another these past 2 years ❤️
Girl,you’ve got this. It does suck that you have to tell your story over and over to the doctors. Thank you for sharing. We are all sending you virtual hugs 🤗❤️🇨🇦
I'm glad you're ok and back missed you girl
The song of Achilles is agreat book!!! Read it years ago but the story really stuck with me 🥰 I'm happy for your journey and it's amazing how time flies by. Still have a long way to go but one day I'll get to my srs as well. Thank you for the motivation! 💗
So glad to see you again. Sorry to hear of your health issues. You are a beautiful and smart young woman. I know you can make it thru this. Just be your amazing self! Thank you for posting! Hugs and prayers. Love your cute puppy! ♥️♥️♥️🙏🙏🙏♥️♥️♥️🌻
I have been so completely amazed by everyone in my healthcare system. Every medical professional has tried to go out of their way to give me compassion, support and experience as well as willing to learn! It’s a process!
Fingers crossed you get on well with the new Dr. and get this handled. 🙏 thanks for sharing
Thanks for the updates, you sound and look great. Your puppy is a cutie.
I love you in this video! Not that you have to worry about what we think, but I found you to be more relatable than ever! Thank you so much for sharing your heart. It really helps me and probably others... thank you. Have a very good week Maya
So happy that you were able to see your surgeon to get diagnosed and that treatment will be pretty straightforward. I experienced a bit of the granularity as well and it was a big relief to get it sorted out. My mental health took a big hit too in late summer and one thing that was really getting me down was the seemingly endless pandemic. Mostly from really hoping everything would be great once I got vaxxed and when that turned out not to be the case the wheels came off. I'm so happy that you're on the mend and have friends who are supporting you, mine have really come through for me and I'm so thankful. Love always 💗
Anxiety/depression are no joke. Whether they’re fleeting or long term, they’re not something that can just be shrugged off. It’s ok. We want to just move on, or “get moving”, or make excuses like “I have so many things to be happy about, why do I feel like this. Come on emotions!” You just have to be patient with yourself, do what you feel what you are honestly able to do and be proud of yourself for the little things, even just getting out of bed, or eating, or feeding your puppy. I say all this from experience and advice given to me through my mental healthy journey. You’re doing awesome, YOU are awesome, and I hope everything works out :)
Also did something happen with your boyfriend?
Thanks for the update! Looking forward to you getting back the happiness you miss ❤️
As always you have great content that speaks to your audience and thank you for sharing the ups and downs you've been going through. I loved the dress you wore at FIN - **STUNNING**! I hope our paths cross again soon. Much love from Halifax XOXO
Love you Katie!! 💗💗💗
The Song of Achilles is great. I love her writing and she's so young! Her other book, Circe is one of my favs.
Im 10000% in the same boat as you & can completely relate. Im almost a year post op in february & i still have yet to fully heal from my granulation tissue as well its caused me so much distress & insecurity & depression because all i just want is to be fully healed & not be so concerned about my healing process. I too have discharge & i can smell an odor from the discharge & it really worries me.
Stunningly beautiful, and glamorous in your evening dress..... I been to Halifax , and Dartmouth they are both amazing small cities...Cheer up Maya it just takes time....
You are so inspirational! And your chancel is such a delight! I wish I could watch a show about your life
Best wishes on both your physical and emotional healing!
It's been quite a while since I've seen you in my yt feed. Glad to see that you're doing well. Get healthy, and stay positive! Just remember, haters are always going to hate. Give them the old /ignore - ban hammer and move on.They are not worth your time. As long as you, and those you choose to be around are happy then you're most of the way home already.
Hi there Maya! I'm sorry you are still having issues with your surgery, but I'm glad you had some fun while you were there! I wish you a speedy recovery and no more issues 🥰👍