as someone who’s living it, living with an ed is quite literally exhausting and seeing someone challenge fear foods and speak so openly about it is so refreshing. so proud of you!
I remember that at the beggining I thought that I was not going to be able to tell anyone about my ED. I tried to tell about it to my sister, mother, friends but & couldn’t. But fortunately I could with my psychologist, & I think It was the best desicion I've ever made. It was something really challenging (I couldn’t stop crying), but I don't regret it. I still have moments where I panic with food, but I don't want to waste beautiful moments of my life anymore.
@@28wld21 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16!
I developed an ED when I started my diet (I used to be very overweight, I’ve dropped 18kg so far but still a quite long way to go). I count calories and always look at the percentage of fat, sugar, carbohydrate, and sodium. Eating little amount of food and still feeling guilty, obsessed and stressed out everyday. It’s exhausting, I purged a lot with laxative 2 months ago but now I’m telling myself no matter what I’m not gonna purge. I’m so proud of you for overcoming it, it is not easy and you’re an inspiration.
I'm 14, currently living with an ED as well. Honestly, I'm glad to see there are people that are comfortable with speaking up about this. A lot of people typically just brush it off as an "Oh, you're just being dramatic", hence leading me to just try and keep it to and solve it myself, constantly going on-off. I hope I can end up like this again, as the me who didn't care, the me who just ate what I wanted, not just eating every few days just to survive.
I'm rooting and praying for you! It is so important to treat your body as a gift which you get to fuel and pamper. Just as our bodies are a gift, food is also gift that we get to enjoy and create joyful memories with. I pray that you will recover and develop a healthy relationship with food in the near future 🤍
Even tho im late, genuinely thank you for this. Ive been struggling with disordered eating on and off since i was 12, and im 16 now. i catch myself making such good progress of eating normally and giving my body the right nutrients, and then one thing slightly triggers me and im back to where i was. i do want to recover.. for the people around me, but for myself, too. im constantly dizzy, freezing cold, my hair falls out that badly that i wake up after sleeping and my bed/pillow is covered, and i literally never have motivation for anything. this has given me a bit of hope. from the bottom of my heart, thank you. im so proud of you. i aspire to be you one day 🤍.
I currently have a horrible relationship with food. I was overweight in middle school and I was bullied for it and I lost weight once I got high school. I’m now 26. I dread every time I have to eat. I have days where I can convince myself I don’t need to avoid food but then there’s days I binge and purge. Then There’s days I just won’t eat at all. I’m currently working on fixing my relationship with food and myself. We’re our own biggest critics. If anyone related to this, remember you’re beautiful. Your body’s needs the fuel. You can do this.
Love this Kwok! Another beautiful resource that I can share with clients (as a therapist). It is so important to have narratives in which people share honestly and offer hope! I hope your treats were delicious and satisfying! ❤
I'm glad you're getting through it! Keep going! This is the reason why I don't do calorie counting. Eating dense nutritious food worked for me and I don't always feel hungry.
I've been going through it for 1.5 years... I feel like a complete failure and angry, depressed, and guilty for everything all the time. Thank you for sharing your story, it really helps ❤
Awwww you make my favorite cookie. I make peanut butter and chocolate and add chips and cherries. My granddaughter got me into making them. Thank you but, I'm changing. It's been 40 years for me.
yes!! get professional help!! i had to go through a partial hospitalization because we couldn’t afford plane tickets to go out of state to a residential which was the recommended treatment for the degree of my bulimia nervosa. it’s scary. but dying was out of the question. now even just 6 months later i cannot believe how far i’ve come. you can do the same. even if you start in standard one on one therapy. you got this :)
i struggle with an ed and it sucks. i hope everybody struggling as well is healthy, and although i haven’t check your channel yet I hope you’re better now 💗
Does anyone else think that tracking your food in say, a fitness and health tracker app, could put the idea of calorie counting in their mind? Also you're so brave ❤
I dont have an eating disorder but an anxiety disorder. The way how you described how you felt when eating something that made you guilty, i could relate to it very hard. I feel guilty for procrastinating and not getting school work done and doing poorly at school/not being able to find a job/fear of unemployment in the future. Gaining some weight is normal but looks so distorted to an individual with eating disorder. That kinda convinced me that me messing things up at school too is normal. Im getting mad at myself for something that is expected. I compare myself to other people way too much and worry about not being good enough. Thanks a lot for this video. Im currently in my second year set yo graduate in summer 2025
I don’t have Ed but someone I love does. I’m really scared because I don’t want to lose them, they are working and trying to get out of it but I was wondering if you had any other tips for me so I can be here for them
thank you so much for this :) my mom finally convinced me to go to a nutritionist, and i realized just how bad my eating was. im trying to battle it, and im currently trying to battle my fear of eating sugar
I don't think a lot of people realize just how MENTALLY EXHAUSTING eating disorders are. It's constant thinking about what you are going to eat, what you ate, macros, how much you burned, when you eat, when you should stop eating, sleep, excerise, water intake, what types of food you are eating, etc. It's NON-STOP. To everyone recovered, recovering or suffering. I feel you. I have struggled with bulimia(exercise purging), BED, and anorexia. They take turns every year. Some months, I binge non-stop. Then I exercise purge. Or I restrict non-stop. It's exhausting. I'm working on recovering. My anorexia recovery and bulimia are the easiest to stop for me. The BED is a whole other difficulty for me, though...
I used to not care about my diet & would just eat at any time, whatever I wanted. But then I became really sick one time, & I didn’t eat for an entire week. After the week was over, I actually didn’t really feel hungry at all, if I would eat something, it’s like my stomach was rejecting it & I would get full so fast. I actually hated the fact that I had to eat everyday. I then became obsessed with counting calories, I lost a lot of weight by doing so, but I was also unhappy with the way I was still looking, I dropped over 25lbs & I was so happy with it. But every time I would eat anything at all, I felt so guilty. After 8 months I am still this same way, I don’t even eat 3 times a day, I just eat a very small plate at dinner & am still obsessed with counting calories. My entire family says it’s unhealthy, but my body just became so used to it, that I don’t even know if I’m going on a good track or if my health is just screwed up.
That an unhealthy amount of weight to lose. It’s bc your body was used to not eating a lot. If you start to reintroduce a normal amount of food slowly it will become more normal. I’m in anorexia recovery and in the beginning it was really hard for me to eat bc I wasn’t used to eating so much, but overcome it got easier and easier. Your body is meant to eat, it’s not meant to restrict and be starved.
hi kwok!!! i'm very happy for you and also wanted to thank you as i am currently recovering from an eating disorder and seeing this made me feel that it's worth it even more
thank you for your comment, and i'm sending you so much support. you can do it, and it's so worth it. i wish you the best of luck on your journey. you are strong.
I'm currently trying to rebuild a lot of the muscle i lost during my eating disorder. It's such a weird feeling to hate yourself gain muscle when it's also what you're actively working for. It's like a constant urge to just go back to trying to disappear
Me and my friends have been talking about this lately. And sometimes eating disorders aren't even having insecurities. It just happens. You're in the middle of eating, and suddenly you're not hungry. Me and my friends are slowly developing EDs, and it's sad. I never eat brekafast because I'm never hungry in the mornings. Sometimes I can't even eat lunch sometimes and I've noticed that pattern with my friends too. That's why it makes me so happy to see videos like this of people sharing their journey. It lets me know I'm not the only one. ❤
You are so inspirational. Can I ask you how you got the motivation to get better? I have absolutely no motivation to, even though Ana is destroying my life.
energy, vitality, freedom from that mindset to really be able to do the things you enjoy and be there for the people you love. i hope you get enough inspiration and motivation to choose recovery, it really is worth it.💗
I'm pretty sure I have an ED. Before I received ebt from the government, I was already a few lbs under my recommended weight for my height (18.1 bmi-normal range is 18.5 to 24.9), but being able to buy any foods I wanted made me gain so much. Once my bmi was 20.6 (the 2nd highest its ever been) I freaked out and went on a super strict diet. Now I only eat one meal a day. My meal of the day today (bigger than usual) consisted of half a plant-based dumpling, 2 spoonfuls of oatmeal, and 1 forkful of spaghetti. I've been drinking caffeine all day. But I've been feeling so much better about my body so that's definitely a plus.
I live in the uk and I struggle with some kind of food problem, so when I was 16 I weighed 113kg I stopped eating out of nowhere, fast forward 1 year I lost 100% of my weight, i weighed 54kgs, I drank a crap ton of zero sugar drinks but became afraid to eat. I was always a chubby kid and In my teenage years I never really weighed anything below 70kg, I went to the doctor to get help, told them I can’t eat and so they weighed me told me I was a “healthy weight” for my height and that was that.
i’m sorry that you’ve had invalidating experienced with health systems :/ but please don’t let that discourage you, if you keep reaching out you might find the help you need eventually. and ask others for help too like family and friends!
@@cornqq I don’t speak to my family and I haven’t had friends since high school so that ain’t happening. But I’m doing somewhat fine most days. My partner helps me, but he doesn’t fully understand.
@@Randomvideos.2.0 i see, it’s good that you have your partner. if you ever do need help though, please keep reaching out to professionals, some may be better than others. i wish you well on all things :)
thank you for showing me recovery is an option, i have anorexia and it's been getting worse this week, i haven't eaten in three days and i don't know how to start again...
I have bulimia and I am going crazy. To the point where when forcefully puke, I hallucinate. My heart has been affected due to this and I cant tell anyone. I have formed an image for being the strongest and now I am ashamed of myself. My relationship with food is a diaster. I have pcos and cant lose weight even when trying in a healthy way. And it has been a trigger where I decided in my head that puking after eating is the only way to lose weight the stress in my life right now is also triggering for me. All those suffering from ED, I hear you. Take care everyone.
I know it’s hard, but if you’re heart is hurting I encourage you to get help. Being strong doesn’t mean starving yourself or not telling anyone. Being strong is actually the opposite bc it’s being honest with people and that is hard to do. Pls get help. Recovery is so worth it, don’t spend all of your life restricting and purging
I tried to tell my mom that I think I might have an eating disorder. I tend to starve myself not eating for 10-12 hours a day. All that happened was I got in trouble, and guilted again….. long story short it’s gotten worse to a point where I feel sick whenever I eat what most would call a ‘normal’ meal…… the only reason I might be getting help is because I contacted kids helpline and at 11 o’clock the police showed up at my door and took me to the hospital to see a phycologist…… it was scary…..I just don’t know where I can go to get help without my parents knowledge…..(sorry for the rant, go have some food and drink some water) ❤️❤️❤️
The only person who knew about me purging food after eating was my bf and he was trying to get me to stop, I stopped for a bit but did it again in the bathroom of a restaurant my mom had caught me purging food when I was in the stall and told me off to my dad. (I am a minor) They both talked to me about the troubles that come with throwing up my food and I was good for at least 2-3 weeks, mainly because I was forced to keep the bathroom door open if I wasn't using the toilet or shower. I just started again yesterday and don't know what to do. Because I can't help but eat what I want to, then feeling guilt immediately after and purging whenever I have the chance to. I just threw up some minutes ago and feel guilty because this is the 5th time I've broken a promise to stop to my bf and 1 time breaking a promise to stop to my parents, and my friends that I had confided in. I don't know if I have an ED necessarily because I kind of feel like I don't. I genuinely don't know what to do because I also am trying to keep off weight and the weight I threw off was around 7lbs in almost a month from purging and I see my weight go back up on the scale and hate it. I'm sorry if this is confusing I just don't know what to do with myself. Edit; I also can't help but eat like everything I crave if I am able to, sometimes I'm able to starve myself for hours and eat something small after, but most of the time I can't and just eat and eat. Sugar is also addictive to me so I don't know what to do.
i’m so sorry you’re going through that. your ed is definitely real and valid, but it sounds like you have some good people around you to support you, so please continue to seek help from them and consider professional help like the video suggests. recovery is possible and you shouldn’t have to feel guilty towards enjoying foods you like and nourishing your body.
@@cornqq Thank you so much. I haven't purged since around 2 weeks ago and I feel great because I've just been eating my meals at a lesser amount to not overeat and to keep off the weight. I've also been drinking more water so it's really helped me. The people I've told also have really helped me, especially my bf. Again, thank you so much.
I was and I still kind of am. I’m not dieting anymore and trying to just geta normal eating habit back. If it doesn’t work Imma seek help but it’s going kinda good already.
Im struggling right now with a ED I've had for at least 3 years and my family still doesn't know only 2 of my close friends know about it and try to help me the best they can.
TW DONT READ IF YOU WILL GET TRIGGERED ⚠️For me it was seeing my friends eat a lot and still be skinny while I was excersizing and only eating 700 calories a day but never loosing weight thag made me miserable and I started binging again 😔
i hate that i enjoy food i just won’t allow it fully into my life anymore idk how it got this bad i hope everyone also gets better here ik it’s not easy but damage will be done and that’s inevitable
Yeah thats the mindset a lot of people are in when they are having an eating disorder... Please if you havent yet, seek professional help, or if you have then please do rely on them. You matter, you deserve to have a happy life free from an eating disorder, and you deserve to enjoy food and have a good relationship with food! ❤ it might be hard at times or may be easy to relapse, take some steps back etc but every step counts towards recovery, you can do this!
I deserved to eat foods i like, but i threw them away. I deserved to stay home on a rainy day, but i decided to go jogging. I deserved to not worry about my weight, but i couldn't stop wanting to lose weight. I deserved to not worry about calories, but i looked at the back of the package. You deserve to live a life without worrying about calories or your weight. Cuz in the end no one cares, but you threw your years away.
I have a friend who is going through anorexia right now and I’m so scared I am there for her all the time it just scares me she is gonna die or something
I know it’s scary. And can be really serious. Helping her find help is so important. I know I was so mad for my parents for making me start recovery, but now I’m glad, I’m healthier now and not sick. Real love is helping them
Its worse when its caused by parents nagging. Imagine sitting down to eat something like pizza after a really long day of no solid food and they start nagging you how bad it is, how you can give bigger portion to your brother or how you can just leave the slice. All in all when you really wanted to eat it and now you are feeling guilt. It hurts
Thanks, I have orthorexia but I treated myself to a banana walnut mini loaf today 😊 It was crumbly tho. Imma tell my therapist about it tomorrow, no one else knows but God
To fight with the ED. The hard part is to eat your fear food and eat food in normal amount. The harder part is to accept the weight that you gain from it.
Hi guys. I wanted to share my story with you. If you are inerested, read forward. My best friend is struggling with anorexia. Before she had a perfect body. But her classmates made fun of her. I felt really bad for her. I always told her dont listen to them or they are just stupid, u look stunning*. But she started to skip meals, then she started losing her weight drastically. Now she looks really pale, skinny and without energy. She fell into depression. Her brother told me she is just crying all the time in her room. She never comes out. She had a phase when she didnt eat at all. All she did drink was water. No calories. Now her doctor told her she has to gain some weight because she will need to go to the hospital. She is really afraid of that. She has panic attacks and her behavior isnt the same anymore. All she says is sorry. But sometimes when we hang out she is really calm, energetic, fun and than she says *thank you I can feel i am fully relaxed with you right now, i cant be like that with anybody else and that just melts my heart. I once told her i understand her. She was really happy. But in the video it says this is what i should not say to a person who is struggling with eating disorser. But now how does this infect me? I cry myself to sleep every night. The doctor said her heart could stop. she is littraly my everything. I have family problems u wouldnt understand. she is my always go cry to, my always go laught to, my always safe place... i cant lose her guys. Please, pretty please tell me what should i do. My brain is going crazy. I thougt to do it to just to be in that shit with her. I know thats wrong but i dont know anymore. Please if u read this say something. Thank you. stay safe everyone
visit her more. you said that she feels like normal when she's with you, that might prompt her to eat while you're there. go to her house, or you can go somewhere with her, and if she's feeling depressed and sits in her room for ages, think of something fun that she can do in her room. give her a hobby, like crochet or get her a new game to play (preferably a cosy one or some kind of building game, like the Sims or animal crossing if she's depressed, but whatever genre she likes the most) and you have to make sure that she likes it enough to want to get up and play it. make sure she has foods with very little calories at first, so she feels safe eating it, then slowly make your way up to higher calorie foods. Hope this helps :)
please communicate to her about your worries in a sensitive and caring way, don’t rush her. please encourage her to reach out to her family or to get professional help.
When I was about 11-19 I struggled with anorexia and bulimia and I now (aged 24) have binge eating disorder, I’ve gained a lot of weight and have been to my drs about it, they always tell me the clinics won’t see me because of my weight but I’m struggling, I got so much help previously when I was underweight but I’m still at risk of serious health concerns now, it’s fucked up
Wish I could but I see the way people with eating disorders are shamed online so I’ve had one in secret for the last two years… (plus nobody gave af when I lost 70lbs cause I was overweight when i started restricting)
I thought the same way, but there is hope. But you have to take the first step, if you feel like you can’t do it by yourself, then maybe reach out for help or to someone you trust and know they would be a support and helpful. I promise you, recovery is so much better than living your life restricting and starving yourself hun
Please seek out Dr. John McDougall and Dr. Joel Fuhrman and Dr. Anthony Lim. They know exactly what your body is craving and how to get out of this spiral. “If you undereat on nutrients, you’ll overeat on calories.” - Dr. Fuhrman ❤ another great book to understand you body‘s reaction and to get your mind back on track is „The Pleasure Trap“
I was curious but never really get an answer for this anywhere but how do parents get shocked when their children are starving themselves as in like teenagers maybe for example because like aren't they the ones feeding their child?
It’s good to be honest with yourself and real. Finding help is so needed and important. Maybe the first step is telling someone you love and trust about your situation. I hope you find the help you need❤
i don’t know if you’ve heard this a lot, but it really just makes you so tired, physically and mentally. sometimes it’s like you don’t know what you’re losing out on, it’s kind of indescribable the spark of energy and vitality you gain from recovery to do more of what you want and be around for people you love. well i don’t know you or nearly your whole situation, but if you ever choose recovery, good luck it’s definitely worth it. :)
I tell everyone I'm on a diet, but they don't know I restrict my calories so much, though they are happy I am losing the weight. I was morbidly obese, and now I'm not
My friend is going through similar things maybe if you are gonna eat do healthy things vs having a little bit of junk food you can have way more in healthy food vs junk foods with the same amount of calories
Before someone in school came in and was like calories calories calories I was fine but after I was like that’s a lot of calories and I would do ‘small lunches’(I wouldn’t put enough food in my lunchbox) and for a while I stopped eating breakfast but I’m better now even though I feel like I’m fat
When I was 11 I started developing a eating disorder because I didn’t like how I looked and wanted to be up to standards of other people I wanted to look so good to everyone else I started neglecting my own body basically starving myself the only reason my parents didn’t find out is because when they called me for like dinner I would tell them I ate loads at school
The beauty standards always change, that’s why it’s probably better to not pay attention to them. They have such high standards that aren’t achievable. Keep in mind those celebrities just spend all their time trying to look a certain way, but in reality, there’s so much more to life than a life spent restricting. I know it’s hard to understand but our bodies are meant to have food, they’re not meant to be starved
As someone who has anorexia and anxiety I wont be reaching out for help anytime soon because of my parents. Lately I have been trying to eat some of my fear foods. Yesterday I was trying to eat a cookie but the my dad came up to me and said, "seeeeee you don't have anorexia, you just want attention"
I’m so sorry your dad would say that. Sometimes parents don’t understand. I want you to know just because your dad said that doesn’t mean you don’t have an eating disorder and doesn’t mean you have to prove that you have an eating disorder to him or others, and I would feel the same way. Help is so important and so hard, but it’s a brave thing to do. Your body is meant to eat. It’s not meant to be starved. Recovery is hard I’m not going to lie, but so is starving your body. Recovery is so worth it hun. ❤
can you be overweight like. Very overweight and still have some kind of eating disorder. Because I have a horrible mental state (generally) that is similar to someone with an Ed (ofc not everyone. Everyone thinks differently and I’m not trying to set diagnose bc I probably don’t bc I’m so fat but anyway) Yeah. Just can a much bigger person have an eating disorder? What’s it called?
it’s not a disease of the body it’s a disease of the mind! tell your doctor and ask for resources to get help with your relationship to food, keep asking doctors if you dont get the help you need. there is no “sick enough” and you deserve to live well!! i was hospitalized for my ED when i was obese (bulimia) and found out it was damaging my organs even though i wasn’t losing weight.
I don’t know if I have an eating disorder but I over think on what I eat for example if I have pasta one day I think i need something else because it’s not healthy also I’m scared to gain weight I thought I was fat for gaining just a few pounds I’m very underweight
as someone who’s living it, living with an ed is quite literally exhausting and seeing someone challenge fear foods and speak so openly about it is so refreshing. so proud of you!
hi nadia, guess what our name and condition are the same. how are you now?
@@nadia7468 hi other nadia! i am currently unwell and have relapsed, however i’m trying to take it day by day lol. how are you doing?
Im so proud of you
hope you’re doing better
So, how are you doing now? It took me about 3 months to fully heal. I hope you can or did too.
I remember that at the beggining I thought that I was not going to be able to tell anyone about my ED. I tried to tell about it to my sister, mother, friends but & couldn’t. But fortunately I could with my psychologist, & I think It was the best desicion I've ever made.
It was something really challenging (I couldn’t stop crying), but I don't regret it.
I still have moments where I panic with food, but I don't want to waste beautiful moments of my life anymore.
“I don’t want to wast beautiful moments of my life anymore” that is such a good point. Thank u
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16!
@@28wld21 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16!
Same, I couldn’t tell my siblings or my parents because I always have been a people pleaser and I was scared they would be too concerned
And I regret
,,I am/was not sick enough‘
I developed an ED when I started my diet (I used to be very overweight, I’ve dropped 18kg so far but still a quite long way to go). I count calories and always look at the percentage of fat, sugar, carbohydrate, and sodium. Eating little amount of food and still feeling guilty, obsessed and stressed out everyday. It’s exhausting, I purged a lot with laxative 2 months ago but now I’m telling myself no matter what I’m not gonna purge. I’m so proud of you for overcoming it, it is not easy and you’re an inspiration.
I'm 14, currently living with an ED as well. Honestly, I'm glad to see there are people that are comfortable with speaking up about this. A lot of people typically just brush it off as an "Oh, you're just being dramatic", hence leading me to just try and keep it to and solve it myself, constantly going on-off. I hope I can end up like this again, as the me who didn't care, the me who just ate what I wanted, not just eating every few days just to survive.
I'm rooting and praying for you! It is so important to treat your body as a gift which you get to fuel and pamper. Just as our bodies are a gift, food is also gift that we get to enjoy and create joyful memories with. I pray that you will recover and develop a healthy relationship with food in the near future 🤍
Even tho im late, genuinely thank you for this. Ive been struggling with disordered eating on and off since i was 12, and im 16 now. i catch myself making such good progress of eating normally and giving my body the right nutrients, and then one thing slightly triggers me and im back to where i was. i do want to recover.. for the people around me, but for myself, too. im constantly dizzy, freezing cold, my hair falls out that badly that i wake up after sleeping and my bed/pillow is covered, and i literally never have motivation for anything. this has given me a bit of hope. from the bottom of my heart, thank you. im so proud of you. i aspire to be you one day 🤍.
You’re an inspiration!!! Thank you for sharing this
I also suffer under Anorexia, i was in a mental hospital, im back now, im so proud of you, that you did it❤
I currently have a horrible relationship with food. I was overweight in middle school and I was bullied for it and I lost weight once I got high school. I’m now 26. I dread every time I have to eat. I have days where I can convince myself I don’t need to avoid food but then there’s days I binge and purge. Then There’s days I just won’t eat at all. I’m currently working on fixing my relationship with food and myself. We’re our own biggest critics. If anyone related to this, remember you’re beautiful. Your body’s needs the fuel. You can do this.
2 years in with restrictive eating disorder and 3 months into recovery. It's scary and hard and I'm still struggling to accept recovery
Love this Kwok! Another beautiful resource that I can share with clients (as a therapist). It is so important to have narratives in which people share honestly and offer hope! I hope your treats were delicious and satisfying! ❤
Thanks for sharing yet again! it makes me so happy and surprised that this could ever be a resource for anyone struggling. thank you
I ate dinner today and I’m feeling really guilty.
that's me right now, inhale from the nose and exhale from ur mouth, while walking after dinner, might help with digestion
I'm glad you're getting through it! Keep going!
This is the reason why I don't do calorie counting. Eating dense nutritious food worked for me and I don't always feel hungry.
Why is ur voice so soothing wth 😂❤
I've been going through it for 1.5 years... I feel like a complete failure and angry, depressed, and guilty for everything all the time. Thank you for sharing your story, it really helps ❤
such a beautiful calming voice🫶🏻
Awwww you make my favorite cookie. I make peanut butter and chocolate and add chips and cherries. My granddaughter got me into making them. Thank you but, I'm changing. It's been 40 years for me.
For me it's 30 now....
yes!! get professional help!! i had to go through a partial hospitalization because we couldn’t afford plane tickets to go out of state to a residential which was the recommended treatment for the degree of my bulimia nervosa. it’s scary. but dying was out of the question. now even just 6 months later i cannot believe how far i’ve come. you can do the same. even if you start in standard one on one therapy. you got this :)
i struggle with an ed and it sucks. i hope everybody struggling as well is healthy, and although i haven’t check your channel yet I hope you’re better now 💗
proud of you kwok ❤️
love you sheren, thank you ❤️
Does anyone else think that tracking your food in say, a fitness and health tracker app, could put the idea of calorie counting in their mind?
Also you're so brave ❤
As somoene living with an ed this vid made me cry.
Thank you so so much for spreading awareness. ❤
Feels like I’m the only one with this stupid disease, but seeing this message means a lot
I dont have an eating disorder but an anxiety disorder. The way how you described how you felt when eating something that made you guilty, i could relate to it very hard. I feel guilty for procrastinating and not getting school work done and doing poorly at school/not being able to find a job/fear of unemployment in the future. Gaining some weight is normal but looks so distorted to an individual with eating disorder. That kinda convinced me that me messing things up at school too is normal. Im getting mad at myself for something that is expected. I compare myself to other people way too much and worry about not being good enough. Thanks a lot for this video. Im currently in my second year set yo graduate in summer 2025
I’m so proud of you ❤
you are so brave for sharing this❤️
I don’t have Ed but someone I love does. I’m really scared because I don’t want to lose them, they are working and trying to get out of it but I was wondering if you had any other tips for me so I can be here for them
Not easy at all. This was me. Finally started to overcome 2021. I’m proud of you 🥹 and the cookies look delicious
thank you so much for this :) my mom finally convinced me to go to a nutritionist, and i realized just how bad my eating was. im trying to battle it, and im currently trying to battle my fear of eating sugar
good luck on your journey
I'm so proud of you!!❤❤❤❤
Thank you. I really needed this today
I just started tracking my calories without realising where that could lead. I'm really proud of you kwok
I don't think a lot of people realize just how MENTALLY EXHAUSTING eating disorders are. It's constant thinking about what you are going to eat, what you ate, macros, how much you burned, when you eat, when you should stop eating, sleep, excerise, water intake, what types of food you are eating, etc. It's NON-STOP. To everyone recovered, recovering or suffering. I feel you. I have struggled with bulimia(exercise purging), BED, and anorexia. They take turns every year. Some months, I binge non-stop. Then I exercise purge. Or I restrict non-stop. It's exhausting. I'm working on recovering. My anorexia recovery and bulimia are the easiest to stop for me. The BED is a whole other difficulty for me, though...
Loved this clip. Inspiration personified. P.S. What were those things you baked? They looked amazing ☮️
They look like some sort of delicious cookie
I used to not care about my diet & would just eat at any time, whatever I wanted.
But then I became really sick one time, & I didn’t eat for an entire week. After the week was over, I actually didn’t really feel hungry at all, if I would eat something, it’s like my stomach was rejecting it & I would get full so fast. I actually hated the fact that I had to eat everyday. I then became obsessed with counting calories, I lost a lot of weight by doing so, but I was also unhappy with the way I was still looking, I dropped over 25lbs & I was so happy with it. But every time I would eat anything at all, I felt so guilty.
After 8 months I am still this same way, I don’t even eat 3 times a day, I just eat a very small plate at dinner & am still obsessed with counting calories.
My entire family says it’s unhealthy, but my body just became so used to it, that I don’t even know if I’m going on a good track or if my health is just screwed up.
That an unhealthy amount of weight to lose. It’s bc your body was used to not eating a lot. If you start to reintroduce a normal amount of food slowly it will become more normal. I’m in anorexia recovery and in the beginning it was really hard for me to eat bc I wasn’t used to eating so much, but overcome it got easier and easier. Your body is meant to eat, it’s not meant to restrict and be starved.
hi kwok!!! i'm very happy for you and also wanted to thank you as i am currently recovering from an eating disorder and seeing this made me feel that it's worth it even more
thank you for your comment, and i'm sending you so much support. you can do it, and it's so worth it. i wish you the best of luck on your journey. you are strong.
Me too. Well not sure about the recovering part yet but I started seeking professional help
Good to hear other people’s perspective, for me it’s like I can’t stop eating
thank you so much for this. i needed it
so proud of you! also what food is it that you made? it looks really good
snickerdoodles! they are amazing - lilluna.com/snickerdoodles/
I'm currently trying to rebuild a lot of the muscle i lost during my eating disorder. It's such a weird feeling to hate yourself gain muscle when it's also what you're actively working for. It's like a constant urge to just go back to trying to disappear
your smile is so beautiful :)
Im soo proud of you ❤
Me and my friends have been talking about this lately. And sometimes eating disorders aren't even having insecurities. It just happens. You're in the middle of eating, and suddenly you're not hungry. Me and my friends are slowly developing EDs, and it's sad. I never eat brekafast because I'm never hungry in the mornings. Sometimes I can't even eat lunch sometimes and I've noticed that pattern with my friends too. That's why it makes me so happy to see videos like this of people sharing their journey. It lets me know I'm not the only one. ❤
You are so inspirational. Can I ask you how you got the motivation to get better? I have absolutely no motivation to, even though Ana is destroying my life.
energy, vitality, freedom from that mindset to really be able to do the things you enjoy and be there for the people you love. i hope you get enough inspiration and motivation to choose recovery, it really is worth it.💗
I can’t seek professional help my parents would disown me
Amen-beautiful content and very well made!!
When I stopped restricting I just started bingeing and purging :(
same happened to me (but i binged and restricted instead of purging)
Can we talk about how good that whole food process looked
I kind of have an eating disorder too, I normally waste a lot of food because I get a lost appetite during 1-2 bites. That’s why I’m skinny now. lol
I'm pretty sure I have an ED. Before I received ebt from the government, I was already a few lbs under my recommended weight for my height (18.1 bmi-normal range is 18.5 to 24.9), but being able to buy any foods I wanted made me gain so much. Once my bmi was 20.6 (the 2nd highest its ever been) I freaked out and went on a super strict diet. Now I only eat one meal a day. My meal of the day today (bigger than usual) consisted of half a plant-based dumpling, 2 spoonfuls of oatmeal, and 1 forkful of spaghetti. I've been drinking caffeine all day. But I've been feeling so much better about my body so that's definitely a plus.
I live in the uk and I struggle with some kind of food problem, so when I was 16 I weighed 113kg I stopped eating out of nowhere, fast forward 1 year I lost 100% of my weight, i weighed 54kgs, I drank a crap ton of zero sugar drinks but became afraid to eat. I was always a chubby kid and In my teenage years I never really weighed anything below 70kg, I went to the doctor to get help, told them I can’t eat and so they weighed me told me I was a “healthy weight” for my height and that was that.
i’m sorry that you’ve had invalidating experienced with health systems :/ but please don’t let that discourage you, if you keep reaching out you might find the help you need eventually. and ask others for help too like family and friends!
@@cornqq I don’t speak to my family and I haven’t had friends since high school so that ain’t happening. But I’m doing somewhat fine most days. My partner helps me, but he doesn’t fully understand.
@@Randomvideos.2.0 i see, it’s good that you have your partner. if you ever do need help though, please keep reaching out to professionals, some may be better than others. i wish you well on all things :)
I had gone through ED- I have anorexia
thank you for showing me recovery is an option, i have anorexia and it's been getting worse this week, i haven't eaten in three days and i don't know how to start again...
I have bulimia and I am going crazy. To the point where when forcefully puke, I hallucinate. My heart has been affected due to this and I cant tell anyone. I have formed an image for being the strongest and now I am ashamed of myself. My relationship with food is a diaster. I have pcos and cant lose weight even when trying in a healthy way. And it has been a trigger where I decided in my head that puking after eating is the only way to lose weight the stress in my life right now is also triggering for me.
All those suffering from ED, I hear you.
Take care everyone.
Hope ur ok...
I know it’s hard, but if you’re heart is hurting I encourage you to get help. Being strong doesn’t mean starving yourself or not telling anyone. Being strong is actually the opposite bc it’s being honest with people and that is hard to do. Pls get help. Recovery is so worth it, don’t spend all of your life restricting and purging
I tried to tell my mom that I think I might have an eating disorder. I tend to starve myself not eating for 10-12 hours a day. All that happened was I got in trouble, and guilted again….. long story short it’s gotten worse to a point where I feel sick whenever I eat what most would call a ‘normal’ meal…… the only reason I might be getting help is because I contacted kids helpline and at 11 o’clock the police showed up at my door and took me to the hospital to see a phycologist…… it was scary…..I just don’t know where I can go to get help without my parents knowledge…..(sorry for the rant, go have some food and drink some water) ❤️❤️❤️
The only person who knew about me purging food after eating was my bf and he was trying to get me to stop, I stopped for a bit but did it again in the bathroom of a restaurant my mom had caught me purging food when I was in the stall and told me off to my dad. (I am a minor) They both talked to me about the troubles that come with throwing up my food and I was good for at least 2-3 weeks, mainly because I was forced to keep the bathroom door open if I wasn't using the toilet or shower. I just started again yesterday and don't know what to do. Because I can't help but eat what I want to, then feeling guilt immediately after and purging whenever I have the chance to. I just threw up some minutes ago and feel guilty because this is the 5th time I've broken a promise to stop to my bf and 1 time breaking a promise to stop to my parents, and my friends that I had confided in. I don't know if I have an ED necessarily because I kind of feel like I don't. I genuinely don't know what to do because I also am trying to keep off weight and the weight I threw off was around 7lbs in almost a month from purging and I see my weight go back up on the scale and hate it. I'm sorry if this is confusing I just don't know what to do with myself.
Edit; I also can't help but eat like everything I crave if I am able to, sometimes I'm able to starve myself for hours and eat something small after, but most of the time I can't and just eat and eat. Sugar is also addictive to me so I don't know what to do.
i’m so sorry you’re going through that. your ed is definitely real and valid, but it sounds like you have some good people around you to support you, so please continue to seek help from them and consider professional help like the video suggests. recovery is possible and you shouldn’t have to feel guilty towards enjoying foods you like and nourishing your body.
@@cornqq Thank you so much. I haven't purged since around 2 weeks ago and I feel great because I've just been eating my meals at a lesser amount to not overeat and to keep off the weight. I've also been drinking more water so it's really helped me. The people I've told also have really helped me, especially my bf. Again, thank you so much.
@@sincerelymarissa3 aw i’m so glad to hear that! wish u the best on ur healing journey, there might be rough patches but always keep going ❤️🩹
I was and I still kind of am. I’m not dieting anymore and trying to just geta normal eating habit back. If it doesn’t work Imma seek help but it’s going kinda good already.
I feel the same. Its really hard to overcome. I go periods of being vegan. I drink a ton of tea.
After finding out that I'm overweight on the calculator and that my weight went back up, I'm on the verge of going back to disordered eating.
Im struggling right now with a ED I've had for at least 3 years and my family still doesn't know only 2 of my close friends know about it and try to help me the best they can.
TW DONT READ IF YOU WILL GET TRIGGERED ⚠️For me it was seeing my friends eat a lot and still be skinny while I was excersizing and only eating 700 calories a day but never loosing weight thag made me miserable and I started binging again 😔
i hate that i enjoy food i just won’t allow it fully into my life anymore idk how it got this bad i hope everyone also gets better here ik it’s not easy but damage will be done and that’s inevitable
Thank you but I don't think I'm every going to get better
Yeah thats the mindset a lot of people are in when they are having an eating disorder... Please if you havent yet, seek professional help, or if you have then please do rely on them. You matter, you deserve to have a happy life free from an eating disorder, and you deserve to enjoy food and have a good relationship with food! ❤ it might be hard at times or may be easy to relapse, take some steps back etc but every step counts towards recovery, you can do this!
aw don’t have that mindset! i agree with everything kittencutie has said, please seek help because you deserve it. recovery is possible. 💗
I deserved to eat foods i like, but i threw them away.
I deserved to stay home on a rainy day, but i decided to go jogging.
I deserved to not worry about my weight, but i couldn't stop wanting to lose weight.
I deserved to not worry about calories, but i looked at the back of the package.
You deserve to live a life without worrying about calories or your weight. Cuz in the end no one cares, but you threw your years away.
I have a friend who is going through anorexia right now and I’m so scared I am there for her all the time it just scares me she is gonna die or something
I know it’s scary. And can be really serious. Helping her find help is so important. I know I was so mad for my parents for making me start recovery, but now I’m glad, I’m healthier now and not sick. Real love is helping them
Its worse when its caused by parents nagging. Imagine sitting down to eat something like pizza after a really long day of no solid food and they start nagging you how bad it is, how you can give bigger portion to your brother or how you can just leave the slice. All in all when you really wanted to eat it and now you are feeling guilt. It hurts
Thanks, I have orthorexia but I treated myself to a banana walnut mini loaf today 😊 It was crumbly tho. Imma tell my therapist about it tomorrow, no one else knows but God
I’m so proud of you. Taking the first step is so hard, but it gets easier and easier ❤
To fight with the ED.
The hard part is to eat your fear food and eat food in normal amount.
The harder part is to accept the weight that you gain from it.
Hi guys. I wanted to share my story with you. If you are inerested, read forward.
My best friend is struggling with anorexia. Before she had a perfect body. But her classmates made fun of her. I felt really bad for her. I always told her dont listen to them or they are just stupid, u look stunning*. But she started to skip meals, then she started losing her weight drastically. Now she looks really pale, skinny and without energy. She fell into depression. Her brother told me she is just crying all the time in her room. She never comes out. She had a phase when she didnt eat at all. All she did drink was water. No calories. Now her doctor told her she has to gain some weight because she will need to go to the hospital. She is really afraid of that. She has panic attacks and her behavior isnt the same anymore. All she says is sorry. But sometimes when we hang out she is really calm, energetic, fun and than she says *thank you I can feel i am fully relaxed with you right now, i cant be like that with anybody else and that just melts my heart. I once told her i understand her. She was really happy. But in the video it says this is what i should not say to a person who is struggling with eating disorser.
But now how does this infect me?
I cry myself to sleep every night. The doctor said her heart could stop. she is littraly my everything. I have family problems u wouldnt understand. she is my always go cry to, my always go laught to, my always safe place... i cant lose her guys. Please, pretty please tell me what should i do. My brain is going crazy. I thougt to do it to just to be in that shit with her. I know thats wrong but i dont know anymore. Please if u read this say something. Thank you. stay safe everyone
visit her more. you said that she feels like normal when she's with you, that might prompt her to eat while you're there. go to her house, or you can go somewhere with her, and if she's feeling depressed and sits in her room for ages, think of something fun that she can do in her room. give her a hobby, like crochet or get her a new game to play (preferably a cosy one or some kind of building game, like the Sims or animal crossing if she's depressed, but whatever genre she likes the most) and you have to make sure that she likes it enough to want to get up and play it. make sure she has foods with very little calories at first, so she feels safe eating it, then slowly make your way up to higher calorie foods.
Hope this helps :)
please communicate to her about your worries in a sensitive and caring way, don’t rush her. please encourage her to reach out to her family or to get professional help.
When I was about 11-19 I struggled with anorexia and bulimia and I now (aged 24) have binge eating disorder, I’ve gained a lot of weight and have been to my drs about it, they always tell me the clinics won’t see me because of my weight but I’m struggling, I got so much help previously when I was underweight but I’m still at risk of serious health concerns now, it’s fucked up
Wish I could but I see the way people with eating disorders are shamed online so I’ve had one in secret for the last two years… (plus nobody gave af when I lost 70lbs cause I was overweight when i started restricting)
I have anorexia and i force myself to eat an ice cream everyday in the summer holidays. It is my biggest fear food
well done!
I wanna loose thigh fat and get a slim body but I keep losing track of eating healthy and I don’t wanna end up looking the fattest in my class…
I don’t think I could ever recover
I thought the same way, but there is hope. But you have to take the first step, if you feel like you can’t do it by yourself, then maybe reach out for help or to someone you trust and know they would be a support and helpful. I promise you, recovery is so much better than living your life restricting and starving yourself hun
7 years struggling with it, I hope it ends
I want that bread, i got it in like morocco and i loved it
This was me in high school
I have a binge eating disorder... :(
Same bcz of it I gained so much weight.
How are you now ?
Mind sometimes is worst enemy.
you’re such a cutie omg
Please seek out Dr. John McDougall and Dr. Joel Fuhrman and Dr. Anthony Lim.
They know exactly what your body is craving and how to get out of this spiral.
“If you undereat on nutrients, you’ll overeat on calories.” - Dr. Fuhrman
❤ another great book to understand you body‘s reaction and to get your mind back on track is „The Pleasure Trap“
I was curious but never really get an answer for this anywhere but how do parents get shocked when their children are starving themselves as in like teenagers maybe for example because like aren't they the ones feeding their child?
Had to be honest with myself this week that I have an ED and I am extremely depressed and need to find the solution asap.
It’s good to be honest with yourself and real. Finding help is so needed and important. Maybe the first step is telling someone you love and trust about your situation. I hope you find the help you need❤
Nah it’s been 10 years and I can’t find a bone in my body that desires recovery. Anyone that has recovered how did u end up WANTING to recover???
i don’t know if you’ve heard this a lot, but it really just makes you so tired, physically and mentally. sometimes it’s like you don’t know what you’re losing out on, it’s kind of indescribable the spark of energy and vitality you gain from recovery to do more of what you want and be around for people you love. well i don’t know you or nearly your whole situation, but if you ever choose recovery, good luck it’s definitely worth it. :)
im like that but i dont have an ed im just trying to lose weight
I tell everyone I'm on a diet, but they don't know I restrict my calories so much, though they are happy I am losing the weight. I was morbidly obese, and now I'm not
I haven’t ate today at all and I don’t feel like I deserve it but if I do ask for help then I’ll feel trapped idk what to do tbh but it’s wtv rn
My friend is going through similar things maybe if you are gonna eat do healthy things vs having a little bit of junk food you can have way more in healthy food vs junk foods with the same amount of calories
Before someone in school came in and was like calories calories calories I was fine but after I was like that’s a lot of calories and I would do ‘small lunches’(I wouldn’t put enough food in my lunchbox) and for a while I stopped eating breakfast but I’m better now even though I feel like I’m fat
When I was 11 I started developing a eating disorder because I didn’t like how I looked and wanted to be up to standards of other people I wanted to look so good to everyone else I started neglecting my own body basically starving myself the only reason my parents didn’t find out is because when they called me for like dinner I would tell them I ate loads at school
The beauty standards always change, that’s why it’s probably better to not pay attention to them. They have such high standards that aren’t achievable. Keep in mind those celebrities just spend all their time trying to look a certain way, but in reality, there’s so much more to life than a life spent restricting. I know it’s hard to understand but our bodies are meant to have food, they’re not meant to be starved
I wish I could recognize and label "bad foods" 😞
SNICKERDOODLES YAAAAAAA
As someone who has anorexia and anxiety I wont be reaching out for help anytime soon because of my parents. Lately I have been trying to eat some of my fear foods. Yesterday I was trying to eat a cookie but the my dad came up to me and said, "seeeeee you don't have anorexia, you just want attention"
I’m so sorry your dad would say that. Sometimes parents don’t understand. I want you to know just because your dad said that doesn’t mean you don’t have an eating disorder and doesn’t mean you have to prove that you have an eating disorder to him or others, and I would feel the same way. Help is so important and so hard, but it’s a brave thing to do. Your body is meant to eat. It’s not meant to be starved. Recovery is hard I’m not going to lie, but so is starving your body. Recovery is so worth it hun. ❤
God bless you ❤️🩹
Good job!
can you be overweight like. Very overweight and still have some kind of eating disorder. Because I have a horrible mental state (generally) that is similar to someone with an Ed (ofc not everyone. Everyone thinks differently and I’m not trying to set diagnose bc I probably don’t bc I’m so fat but anyway) Yeah. Just can a much bigger person have an eating disorder? What’s it called?
you can struggle with eds at any weight, please don’t let that stop you from reaching out for help you need :)
I want to seek help but i feel like people won‘t believe me because I‘m overweight
it’s not a disease of the body it’s a disease of the mind! tell your doctor and ask for resources to get help with your relationship to food, keep asking doctors if you dont get the help you need. there is no “sick enough” and you deserve to live well!! i was hospitalized for my ED when i was obese (bulimia) and found out it was damaging my organs even though i wasn’t losing weight.
How did you get better?
How do you calorie track I don’t get it?
😭 was law stressful? I'm so afraid of not being able for it...
I really hope I don't end up stress eating or forgetting to eat 😅
I don’t know if I have an eating disorder but I over think on what I eat for example if I have pasta one day I think i need something else because it’s not healthy also I’m scared to gain weight I thought I was fat for gaining just a few pounds I’m very underweight
idk if this is the right time but whats the recipe these look so good
Those candles are way too close to the cabinet ... 💀