First Time Hearing Lithium by Evanescence | Suicide Survivor Reacts
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This is a request from my fabulous Patreon, Ofer. It's been a while since I've heard any Evanescence and this is my reaction to my very first time hearing Lithium. Amy Lee is such a powerhouse, I have no idea how I strayed from listening to them for so long!
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your videos are really cool' i love your reactions..and very beautiful to
love yur reaction to this song.. do one for my immortal
Emotional numbness exactly how I have felt for the last five years. Completely dead inside to the point where I literally don't care if I die but have no plans for it to happen either cause it never works
@@BigRaji1981 I wish more people talked about passive suicidal tendencies. I had that for years. Thank you for sharing. We're here for you.
@@MentalAmanda I've had more than just tendencies let's just say I lost count by the time I was 25 and leave it at that
Amy Lee's voice is like hypnosis
Great reaction and analysis. Evanescence music and Amy Lee's voice is just so soothing and healing.
Definitely try to react to End of the Dream (Synthesis version), My Heart is Broken, and Speak to Me (by Amy Lee).
If you want more Evanescence that fits with your channel, I'd go with My Heart Is Broken from their 3rd album.
Also a beautiful song. That song in particular was written about female trafficking.
amazing song !
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Also hello from the first album
Evanescence helps me a lot since I was 13, 15 years old, because the lyrics are so good, and they mean a lot to me. I strongly suggest you to do a deep dive in their songs, like "Hello", "Even In Death" "Lacrymosa" (the Synthesis version), "Tourniquet" and also "Speak To Me", from Amy's solo carrer. She's an amazing human being and a very gifted songwriter. Great reaction!
I'm on a spreee of reactions to Evanescence. And you're the first to pay so much attention to the Lyrics. And I'm very thankful for that.
Great reaction! Please react to more Evanescence...it's a rabbit hole that a lot of us choose to live in. 😉
Thanks for the Reaction!
Please Please could you react to Evanescence-
Like you,
The end of the dream (Synthesis live version)?
Thank you so much for reacting to this song, it means a lot to me
Oh god yeah, now I LOVE this stuff. The way the guitar part and piano part sort of "dance" around each other in the verses, the vocal part on top of that, the lyrics. So, so artful. I remember what Amy said this song was about in an interview, which makes me really relate to the song, but to be honest, I want to leave this song open to interpretation for the viewers here. God....Amy Lee is such a goddess.
love evanescence and Amy lee love this song but maybe you should listen to her live in Germany version of this song and the few other she did on that live tour but none the less this version you done reaction is brilliant song
"Here in the darkness I know myself" for me means I have clarity about who I am when I'm alone and free of the influence of the outside world.
more about evanescence, thanks for the reactions 😊
So i recommend listening to full albums at a time because the way they compose this emotional journey with the order of their music is beautiful. Their recent album bitter truth has such beautiful songs that explore loss and grieving and coming out of that without letting go or pretending to be ok. She empowers you by letting you know it’s ok to not be fine, to be scared.. it’s brave to walk forward, to run to fly despite being a wreck inside.. that is the epitome of courage and what I feel she represents through her music. Every concert I go to I just shed these quiet tears because of how beautiful and powerful her presence is when she sings.
This song speaks out the emotion that many can't express... What a power.❤️❤️
Please react to her more recent release like "Far From Heaven". This song is hearfelt to the bone. Its about Amy Lee, the lead singer of Evanescence, about her pain when she lost a brother🥹💔
Thank you for your unique interpretation of this song . Your personal openness is so refreshing and reflective you truly are an ambassador for smashing the stigma of mental health. Keep up the brilliant work.
I love the metaphor of the water at the end being the medication Lithium, as she goes deeper into the water (lithium) right before it takes over you see her lose her emotion & then it being trapped under the medication (water)
Amy Lee's voice is angelic.
Amanda you mentioned taking meds to make yourself tolerable to other people. I take meds to make others tolerable to me. I generally hate people as a whole and avoid them as much as possible.
The flip side of that for me is I like to help people in need. I think that's because I would want that if I was in need. I encourage the few people I like to commit random acts of kindness, it helps heal two souls at once.
Great video and reaction. I would like to make a comment though Amy has stated she has never been on the drug lithium. She just uses it as a metaphor for the feelings of numbness. Since lithium is such a strong mind altering drug it was the perfect one to select for the metaphor. All in all she described the song about being in love with the darkness and the low because it is familiar and she uses it as a creative force but it can also be detrimental to your health. It’s about the battle between those two sides happiness versus familiarity and creativity. She questions can she be the same if she lets it go? As with all of her writing they are so many things that play into the song and it’s written in a way that can be taken in many many ways. She also references broken relationships in this song.
It never occurred to me that you are 100% correct she dips or Tosan and then the next thing you know she’s drowning. It’s such a fascinating moment that I didn’t appreciate until you pointed it out
Lost In Paradise by Evanescence is my personal favorite. It's another one that is similar to this one in lyrics. Talks about fighting with your inner feelings.
really loved your reaction/perspective 🖤
Hope, you're doing more from Evanescence, they have really good songs, that could also fit in the mental health topic
I love evanescence Amy musica was my one true companion for so many year, all the pain and sorrow were maybe not healing but they were understood by something and it was like i werent alone anymore
I did some research, and Amy said she'd never taken lithium, and that it was just used in a metaphorical sense, but I started lithium for Bipolar when I was 12 and at age 35 I still take it, there's pros and cons and the ends justify the means in my situation, but the chorus is 100% how it feels, that's literally what it's like
Amy Lee reminds me of Chris Cornell, their voices are like golden razor blades cutting deep into your soul.
Shes got the pipes, and the heavy metal band. Changed everything
All Evanescence songs are art, beautiful and powerful. ❤️❤️
Amys voice puts you in a trance so Beautiful 🖤
Evanescence, Amy Lee, best singer ever....I listen to her, since she did her first songs....I still love ALL of her. She is great. Absolutely my favourite for ever and ever.... 😍❤
Great commentary on the song, thank you!
This song came out when you would have been listening, but wasn't on the radio. Great insight, as usual!
It would've been on the radio. I think they just had more radio stations that catered to the different genres more. Now it's like 4 stations and it's all the same music.
Amy sings with so much emotion and makes you feel her emotion.another great song is Lost in Paradise.
Sometimes our pain and sadness becomes our best friend.
Awesome to see you reacting to this beautiful gem 💙
Lzzy Hale and Amy Lee did a duet for the song Break In.....and it is amazing. Highly recommend checking it out.
Depression is a strong struggle in life and if you don't have the right support it can really get you and sneak up on you
Tourniquet by Evanescence IS a very dark song but it would be interesting to hear your take on it Amanda.
The main theme of the song is about suicide so I would caution younger listeners about its content.
As soon as I saw the title I was like uh oh. This used to be my song. I listened to it so many times.
I saw a video of yours the other day, I'm another surviver, I was stopped from doing it by someone who near broke my wrist to stop me swiping down. They saved my life. And I love that you are going to the music that pulled me back from the brink many times.
In the end I guess I had to fall, always find my place amongst the ashes.
You should check out their song "Breathe No More". It such a beautiful and sad song.
The last line of this song “I’m going to let it go” gives this song so much more depth
I listened to this a lot as a teenager. the line I love the most is "I wanna stay in love with my sorrow, but God I wanna let it go". I was really emotionally numb back then, and this past year kind of brought it back. But I'm still here, and I'll stay. (Which, coincidentally, is the name of a Finnish song I love, called "Mä Jään", or "I'll stay". It's really upbeat, but the lyrics are about facing the person in the mirror and staying for yourself and those you love.)
I have not mental health issues, but her music helped me to get through hard times.
Same !
Lost in Paradise...was how I felt for years.
I've been doing Trauma Shadow work getting behind rid of my Inner Child Abuse getting rid of my co-dependency with the broken Mental health system basically making us take these god-forsaken band-aid instead of getting to the root of our childhood trauma instead of going through the same rate race of broken Mental health system
Thank you, your absolutely amazing
You should do so much more Citizen Soldier and Evanescence haha I love all your vids. Youre a help. Muchly. xo
"Tourniquet" is s song that I used to think about when I thought about attempting to commit suicide and failing. Another good one that thumps.
About emotional numbness: I know this personally. For years, after my grandmother died (I was in the car with her and my grandpa, but I was unable to save her), I couldn't feel anything. And I mean nothing. It wasn't until I was finally able to accept death as an "inevitable end," as a Stoic, that I was able to let go and feel again. Acceptance, in my mind, is so important, because while nothing technically changes, the question becomes: Will you let your past control your present, and control your future? For me, while I still struggle with that from time to time, I try not to dwell on the past, because I would rather experience what life has in store for me, than simply wait around to die.
I love "Tourniquet".
The song is from Fallen. Tourniquet from the same album in a similar vein. More recent albums are the self titled 2014 album. The live concert with symphony called Synthesis (2018) and The Bitter Pill released a year ago, recorded in isolation on a farm after writing separately. Now if that is not a metaphor for dealing with depression alone being treated by not being alone any longer but with friends to support you and what you can achieve together, well then I don't know what is.
Not to be an ass but a) the song is from The Open Door (2006) b) self titled was released in 2011 c) Synthesis was released in 2017 and toured from 2017-2018 and d) It’s called The Bitter TRUTH
Evanescence is a very special band to me, and has represented many moments in my life, from the good…to the bad. I’ve never been actively depressed but I’m half sure this band is the reason why I never fell down the drain like many others around me did. She calms me down, lifts me up. One of my favorites is from the same album as Lithium, Good Enough. I sing this to 2 girls that are just like little sisters to me so frequently, especially with one of them, because they both made me feel like I was good enough. Take Cover, from the newest album, describes a toxic parasite that all 3 of us escaped from, and helped me feel so much better about it. Call Me When You’re Sober? Another one that I used to help get over the anger of my guy friend of 6+ years started treating me like shit and left the first time around, My Immortal was used if I was sad. Whisper? The reason I got into Latin, and got me a beautiful community that I loved for years in high school. Missing? Yeah, I’ve felt that too when I felt like I wasn’t being appreciated…and it helped. Better Without You? Also related to that guy friend, and it’s my “fuck you!” to him as it’s Amy’s middle finger to Wind Up Records. Even something like Everybody’s Fool…I found the song of the embodiment of hating Justin Bieber for years, which made me happy as hell. Broken Pieces Shine and Use My Voice are anthems showing that we don’t have to pretend to be perfect to show our best self, and we do not have to stand being treated like garbage and we can fight for ourselves. And so much goddamn more…
I won’t go on, but I’ll just say there’s been people to shit on me for loving this band and rock in general, it’s made me very sensitive about it despite me getting better and I pray I never have it happen again, at least not with the people who understand why I love them and will listen to the stuff themselves as well.
As well to those out there battling depression, I have so much sympathy for you and hope that you can keep gathering the strength to keep fighting. It nearly took some very close people to me and I will never dismiss anyone struggling because of it, and I will always listen to someone if that is what you need.
Also about becoming emotionally numb from Lithium and other Psychotropic Medications
Another good band with a powerful female vocalist is Within Temptation. Of their songs I'd recommend Paradise (What About Us), Memories, or their genera crossover with Xzibit titled And We Run.
Damn, her voice never fails to make you feel.
Hiya Amanda. Just another song for you to react too. Medicate by Theory of a Deadman. We're all broken in our own ways. I'm sure some of your subs can relate to this song.
This song IS AMAZING
This is my favorite Ev song, but it contains my least fave lyric: "Anything is better than to be alone." So I was glad to see your reaction to it.
If you're interested in a song about teenage suicide, try "The Pass," by Rush.
Oooh, another great Evanescence song is call me when you're sober.
I love Evanescence!!
Beautiful reaction ✨
Listen to Synthesis, I've seen it posted here on TH-cam.
I have the album and concert Bluray taken on the Synthesis Tour.. Amy and her band are backed by local orchestras..it's just absolutely gorgeous!
I also play their newest album, The Bitter Truth almost on a daily basis. Evanescence has a way of speaking to my Soul just like most of Linkin Park and Led Zeppelin, The Who, Stones, Ramones and the Clash are all very dear to my soul as well!
The melancholy lyrics between Amy and Annika from The Gathering are incredible.
Dear Amanda
thank you for that, I think, you got it perfectly right.
At that time and situation, I would have also said "I want to let it go". Lithium is such a double sided sword... Never again. I fully understand every word of this song. I don't know if any Evanescence Band Member or Relative ever experienced it, I hope not.
Using it: "You're deaf and dumb..." but still the mind may kick in asking yourself, "... is that you?..." Then what if your answer is "No" to this question... (My case and maybe the case as described in the song). The "simple Solution" to that is... bad.
There is another song of Ecancescence, "Secret Door". THIS song is one step further towards freing oneself, it seems to me. Even though at the beginning, it also sounds "helpless". Could you pls check this out?
Kind regards from Switzerland - Chris
PS: Maybe interesting: Lithium is forbidden in the EU due to the described "side effects", but not in US nor in Switzerland (Swiss Manufacturers the reasion?)
The song "Amber" by "Stick to your guns" is an awesome suicide prevention song. The best version I've heard is the Official HD live version.
This is too close to home. Kudos to Amy Lee. Lithium poisoning, prescribed by useless doctors, contributed to the death of my bipolar partner. "I'm gonna let it go......."
I took neuroleptics once, and that was exactly how i experienced it... locked in. It was horrible. Luckily it's different with ssris.
Suggestion: Danish group Carpark North "Transparent and glasslike" (th-cam.com/video/ct5uairYyvo/w-d-xo.html) written by lead singer Laus Højen, after an unprovoked attack with subsequent anxiety attacks
especially the chorus: "I forgive, I pretend, Not to smile, Cause I am, Stronger than you, You're transparent and glasslike" is important for Laus
Laus says "It's about how to see through the people who hit me; that they had had a totally bad childhood, or experienced something terrible that made them need to hit me, and at the same time, I felt stronger than them because I had had an amazing childhood. "
Call me when your sober is another of there songs that is a great listen
When it comes to people not caring about me in the past it’s actually kinda funny to me. In the past the people around me were negative and always trying to put me down. But once I started to get out the mess i was in, i got a good job as carpenter that i am now pretty Successful in, and especially once I started working towards being an athlete. The negative people are suddenly jealous and acting very friendly. You know, once you start getting better, good people who do care and support you will come into your life. And even when it doesn’t feel like there’s anyone who cares now, there’s always people not directly in your life who care… like everyone here.
you can post a video reaction about evanescence - bring me to life
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How can you see into my eyes, like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
Without a soul
My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can't wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring (bring) me (me) to life
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can't wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside
Bring me to life
Frozen (frozen) inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only (only) you are the life among the dead
All of this time, I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
(There must be something more) bring me to life
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can't wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside
Bring me to life
I came back to watch this reaction again because I realli liked it, lol. But, on top of that, may I suggest this song again, but Synthesis live DVD version, is her voice, the piano and full orchestral arrangements, it's a masterpiece. It's amazing:
* Evanescence - Lithium Synthesis live DVD version.
Great reaction!! Looking forward to more. Evanescence has been putting out great music for years... enjoy. Hope you dive back in.
one band I do not see you have done is Shinedown.....if you want to talk about mental health then you need to check Shinedown.....could start with "Monsters"or "Bully", but the lead singer Brent said in an interview that he would suggest "Sound of Madness" as the introductory song to Shinedown....This is one band that you will NEVER regret starting to listen to
I think my psyche is trying to tell me something about what I'm looking to hear lately when I feel the way I feel. Greetings Amanda
Thank you for your reaction❤ please react to Demi Lovato - Dancing With The Devil (official video).. and as you said please dive in more to Evanescence's songs❤
Im new here. So you dont have too. Especially since I heard about your patreon in one video. But I just think youd Really like an artist I listen to named Merkules. Maybe check out "Gon Die" or "Feel My Pain". "Demons" is also a good one
Just found your channel and love it, I cover both sides as a counselor of those struggling with mental health and also have been counseled myself for the same. I know as a new subscriber I don't have much say in the comments yet, but give "Hate Me" by Blue October a listen. It was a key moment in Justin's journey, very very personal, even to the point of including his mother's voice in the recording.
You shoould check out Bloodywood - Dana Dan. It's a song about sexual abuse with a strong, maybe a bit violent message. To be warned, it contains references to violence and sexual abuse and it's a brutal metal song.
The subject comes close to me, because one of my friends was the victim of a rape. And it took a lot from her and from me to try and overcome the experience. It took a long time to "piece her back together" so to say and it's still going on. It affected her mental state a lot, and for mine as well even though I was only trying to be there for her as much as I could. Such experience leaves scars so deep it never goes away.
Sorry for the bad english as it's not my native language, but I hope you understood what I mean. Cheers from Finland and love to you and all your viewers.
I just discovered your channel, keep up the good inspiration. Can you react to Daughtry - Changes are Coming. His step-daughter died around the time of that release. Very positive song.
This is a classic probably my all time favorite song by Evanescence this the band that got me in rock I was born in 1995 so I was around 4 to 6 years old
This is also my favorite. It so beautifully makes its point.
@@willasacco9898 what makes it beautiful is Amy starts with the piano then it breakaway and the hard guitar and drums come in that's a excellent transition
Please react to Jordan by Complete. It shows exactly what it’s like to battle with yourself day after day
she is singing about two people...both being the same person. the difference is simply one is on lithium the other is not.
the fight between the same person on lithium or off lithium is eye-opening.
feeling alone...from oneself?...yikes!
I've learned that my service related PTSD translates equally to everyone else. I still take an anti-anxiety medication but I'm about done with it. I find more peace in prayer and exercise.
@Amanda, so much of Evanescence's music deals with the mental health journey! Their music and especially Amy's delivery was a big part of my dealing with my aforementioned "crash & burn" in the early 2000's. (Posted on a different vid of yours).
Other fantastic songs are:
Broken (Seether actually, but duet W/Amy)
Call Me When You're Sober
Imaginary
Tourniquet
Going Under
Hello (deals with loss)
Good Enough
....there are just so many! You can pretty much jump in anywhere, no order needed. But based on your channel, you really owe it to yourself if nobody else to check them all out! My money says you'll love and identify with all of them.
I think you're the only person in the world's who's cool enough to talk about such serious stuff while wearing "cat headphones"
You should react to “Paralyzed” by NF, great song about emotional numbness.
Please do the song Ghost by the band Bad Flower or the song Kettering by the band Antlers. That would seriously make my soul so happy. I'm honestly shocked you haven't gotten those 2 as suggestions.
Do you think "Don't fear the reaper" is dangerous to listen too for someone feeling sad or sorrow?
I don't know the song and I believe everyone takes music differently so I don't know.
@@MentalAmanda
Ok. It's quite famous.
Your paintings behind you match the video.
I recomend you listen to Within Temptations "Lost" It is really good song that express the feeling of being left by your love.
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please check out evanescence lacrymosa live synthesis version its amazing with her voice
Do you happen to live in Washington state? Just wondering lol
You need to react to "Everybody's Fool" by evanescence 🥺🥺
Yes, please listen to more of these; I have dealt with depression for over thirty years. Meds don't help
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Amy Lee has dealt with alot of tragedy in her life. She writes what she knows.
Great Reaction. Amy's siinging just draws you in and the lyrics are so deep.
I discovered Evanesence almost a year ago. Ironically I first heard this song around the time I had a bad experience with Cymbalta. I Love what you said about the meds. I have never been on Lithium but I've been on alot of other meds that didn't help. They either did nothing or had bad side effects. I also know people who took those same meds and it helped and made their life better.
So you've done reactions to Metallica, Slayer, Halestorm and Evanesence.
You got to react to Wallflower by Jinjer.
Please. Eventhough the video is excellent, I'd recommend the lyrics version. Go in blind.
Keep fighting the good fight. Thank you for all that you do. .
is than linkin park logo in the background? 🥲❤️
It sure is!
And I was about to suggest breaking the habit and in the end…if I can find my comment
Nice reaction, can you please react to Citizen Soldier - Wanted?
I get that same energy you're describing from listening to Linkin Park. They got me through some dark times.
Amy has the most mesmerizing voice. And sounds just as amazing live...
Linkin Park saved me in every way possible.
Great Reaction. Amy Lee’s Voice is Hauntingly Angelic. To get a nice blend of Evanescence Song Range. React to My Immortal and then Tourniquet. Both Absolutely Amazing Songs and Serious Conversation Starters
Forcing medication that doesn’t work upon someone is so awful.