First Time Hearing Chandelier by Sia | Suicide Survivor Reacts
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Today I reacted to Chandelier by Sia from the Voices album. Thank you boneychuck for being my VERY first Patreon (many moons ago, haha) and for suggesting this song. I'm starting to get into the Sia groove but this is my first time hearing this song! As I begin to open up and admit a bit, I needed my own message today.
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Hey Amanda! Would you mind reacting to Pittsburgh by The Amity affliction. (This band is All about mental health and i personally recommend you listening to two of their albums when going through a hard time: Chasing Ghosts and Let the ocean take me)
Very glad I found your channel. My fight has been going on most of my life and it always helps to meet anyone that can even understand a little. There is a band that touches on some of my struggles I would love to see you react to. Five Finger Death Punch (dont let the name scare you) songs; Gone Away, Wrong side of Heaven, and Coming Down. They try to bring light to suicide and veterans issues. Always know even if you feel like you are fighting the fight is worth it and I would miss you.
USMC NEVER FORGOTTEN
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Maddie Ziegler dances so well, you didn't go into that
I don't care, I like your reaction anyway
I went for years not really following Sia or her music. This was the first video of hers I saw and it left me stunned. I’ve lived with PTSD from childhood and “self-medication” is still something I struggle with. I applaud your candid openness, it’s something we need more of. I say this while crying in my kitchen because I’ve downed a bottle of wine I didn’t even want.
I remember accidentally overdosing on coke because I dissociated and did too much. My best advice is to get those things out of your environment. It makes quite the difference.
I'm a year sober from drugs and alcohol. It is very difficult to stop, i had to stop hanging out with alot of people and it hurt and i lost alot of friends but I eventually made way better friends and the true friends will always stay. Its a very hard struggle to quit but once you do it gets way better very fast. Now i can't even imagine drinking or drugs anymore. Its almost like it never happened.
The song is about her life. Sia was an alcoholic and drug addicted for many years, and she has struggled really much with anxiety and depression. Before she startes her artist life with the wig, she was going to commit suicide. I love the song and is a really big fan of Sia🖤🤍
yeah :( such a great singer
Sia 💕
This song has done more for me in confronting my addiction than anything before. Thank you for this video.
I loved hearing your interpretations. I’ve struggled with mental illness but never any substance abuse. I would love to see your reaction to elastic heart, which is the final video of the series of songs
Amanda, thank you. You said something in this video that made me realize that I have been doing this for a long time now. I have no real addictions to speak of. I don't do drugs, and I'm terrified of what alcohol can do to a person. I lived with that in my immediate family for many years and I have completely stayed away from that part of society since. But you made me realize that I have been living life, just barely one day at a time. I don't seem to care what happened the day before or look to anything beyond the current moment. I didn't even think anything of it until you mentioned that behavior like this could still be linked to depression even without the vices. I don't really feel depressed, but then again I honestly haven't felt much of anything in years.
Thank you for this.
I first saw this video the day the news broke about Robin Williams' suicide.
This song, for me, will always be about pain, hiding from pain & the contemplation of ending that pain.
If you look closely at Maddie's facial expressions, they are often exaggerated & conflict with her body movements. The "crazy eye" is a throwback to Bob Fosse & putting on that happy mask "the show must go on!" (Smile through the pain.)
The portion with the curtains sealed the suicide notion, for me. Maddie is hanging herself with the curtains.
Maddie Ziegler is a fantastic dancer. I love your reactions. Love from Sweden.
This reaction got me to think of this song in a different way, i think it meant that she is swinging in the chandelier to show everyone else how happy and perfect her life is.
Sia has a voice that goes directly to my soul, it might be beacuse she is singing from her soul.
Great reaction, Amanda!
I am going to use the words of another youtuber ”You are all beautiful and one of a kind, smile more!”. 😁👍
Its a double meaning. The video is her inner child getting destroyed
"How does she do that?"
Well, she's a modern dancer, light yet muscular, and all of it is under her control. So she has more mass than you'd expect, and extraordinary flexibility. She can brace herself against that mass, and it looks odd because you think she'd have no stability.
Apparently, Maddie Ziegler (that's her name) felt that this video was a fun thing to do because it wasn't as strenuous on the body as the stuff she's normally asked to do.
0_o
This was a digression. I really like what you're doing with your channel. It feels honest, and necessary. So thank you.
Also she didn't have a script, and was told to just improvise and let loose.
lol
I'm glad Sia didn't ask Maddie to hang herself in the video, that would have been traumatic for Maddie, i think.
@@TucBroder The best way to get as much randomness as possible. As Amanda said, it's a good representation of random thoughts.
Most modern, off the shelf chandelier electrical connection boxes won't support a grown person swinging. It sounds like fun, though.
Ok... had a little chuckle I used to do sidewalk as a handyman and I concur... it was amazing when people wouldn't understand that you can't just hang a fan from a non double studded box that was only meant to hold 1-15lbs and have a very heavy custom fan weighing 2x that... so yeah no... won't hold a person. Lol.
I can not tell you how many times I gave up my addiction. Then started again. Then gave up, then start, then...
Then one day someone noticed what was happening when I was aware enough to let them help me. Community has been my only way to finally not care that I have to give up my addiction every day. I care about so many other things & people more that my addiction it is becoming easier to give it up.
Love to you.
I quit several times too. Every day is a battle, but it's worth fighting! Love right back ❤️
I suffer from chronic depression /anxiety and and I totally agree with you and completely relate to this.
You've done very very well to overcome addiction, you are obviously mentally stronger than you give yourself credit for.
You are doing a good thing helping others as people like you who have overcome addiction are important inspiration to give hope to those struggling with it. Please keep going but be careful to look after yourself also.
She is talking about partying hard when you are dying inside. So you have one more song to react to from the trilogy - Elastic Heart. Prepare for amazing vocals, amazing lyrics, amazing interpretative dance - again. :) By The way, the dancing is not random at all, it's a choreography made by Rayn Heffington, long term colab and friend fo Sia, genius dancer. He signs all the Maddies moves - including the ones from the previous vid - Big Girls Cry. And Maddie repets them exactly every time, with the same emotion - in Sias' tour, on stage. :) here is a video that explains quite accurately Sia's art and emotion th-cam.com/video/5xBZChXr-UE/w-d-xo.html
That is insane! I thought it was just spontaneous interpretive dance!
@@MentalAmanda It's not, but this is what Ryan and Sia wanted to express - that easyness and freedom of expression. Sia said she wanted to put anyone in a wig and anyone can be a popstar, anyone should have a chance for self expression and nothing has to be perfect. She impacted a lot Ryan's choregraphy asking him to make the moves look easy and natural and not too polished. "Imperfection is beauty" is her motto and she wants that to be reflected in her art. :)
@@MentalAmanda Still waiting for Elastic Heart reaction. :)
Chandelier, big girls cry, and a song called elastic heart are all in a set. SIA made chandelier then made two trilogies. P.S please react to elastic heart!!
I love your Sia reactions... If your really intrested, Sia did an interview on Howard Stern which is on You Tube. She really gets into her past and dealing with mental health issues. Its really interesting if you're curious about her in a totally honest interview.... And she sings a cappella a few times, which is amazing.
I will check it out, I'm super intrigued!
Oh yeah, I love Clint Eastwood!!! I thought of the chandelier sceen in Any Which Way you Can the first time I heard this too!!!!! hahaha.
I have heard this song so much and I never even considered that she was singing about ending her own life. Wow this song gives me chills now.
This was my song back in 2014 can't believe it's been 7 years
When I was a kid I struggled with feeling like I was alone and no one understood what I was going through. It was rough, then I realized I wasn’t the only one going through these thing and there were other people also. Made things better and I was able to cope
Fast forward 40 years and this past year I’ve really struggled feeling once again like I’m all alone and no one understands what I’m going through
It’s devastating
You can message me or email me anytime. You absolutely aren't alone. There are always people going through similar situations and know how hard it can be.
Thank you so much for this video, I feel a little more accompanied now. Some tears came down
You hit it. You get it. So does this song.
We just try to escape in any way we can. We stare into the void , we stand on the ledge. .. and we wonder should we jump or should we heal.
Great reaction, please react to Elastic Heart video next!!
Great reaction and conversation!
Thank you. I’m glad I stumbled across your channel.
Your very true and knowledgeable...you have sight...and the ability to translate into words....your review was wonderful..and from a place of truth..x
Keep on fighting. Been at war with my mind since birth and still fighting on a daily basis. Relating with other people, and feeling love for your fellow man really helps. Peace, love and understanding.
We are a social species for sure and I find a LOT of help in connection. Proud of you for continuing to fight!
I relate to this song especially the second part about the sun is up, here comes the shame. Holding on all night not wanting the good time to stop, drinking and drinking and when its all said and done the next day you feel ashamed of yourself and hate yourself for it and the only way to make it better is to start drinking again. I'm so glad I've been sober for almost a year.
Addiction is horrible. I been going through it for 10 years or so. You can survive but it’s no way to live. If you have a supportive family, talk to them. They will help you. Sometimes you need the push. You can do it alone but it’s easier with help. God bless
Beautiful and insightful reaction :)
Someone probably said this but I interpreted the camera as all of the onlookers and the repeated curtsying at the end to show “hey, I’m done performing. You can leave now. You can leave. On an endless loop.” I like your interpretation of it being her telling herself that she’s done and getting caught in a cycle.
Wise words in between - well done on your life so far.
Please react to dressed in black by Sia, just the lyrical video. You're gonna have the chills
It's crazy how big you can think an artist is and yet you can still come across people on the internet that haven't heard about them before. Just goes to show how small and impenetrable our bubbles can really be.
I was stuck in my own little music ruts for a long time!
The swing from the chandelier is in reference to partying and trying to have a good time. Then the next verse she references waking up and feeling shame and having to deal with the day of shame before she drinks again to try and feel the good time again. The curtsy at the end, I think, is in reference to the facade of being happy but really feeling bad about yourself. If you pay attention to Maddie's expression when she does it she puts on a very fake smile when doing the curtsy and then when she comes back up has a very distraught face, her true feeling.
This song actually was released about when I hade my lowest period of my life. Although I'm obviously not a party girl, and have claimed before that I am bad at drinking, I still felt this one... Both then and now... You look good in that jacket, btw ;-)
welcome Amanda from Arizona ... this is Dan from Mississippi here ... nice to meet you ... thank you for this reaction ..
Hello Dan! ❤️
Wow. Just wow. Well spoken.
I'm adoring your videos. Thank you.
your reaction is amazing love you
The most powerful female voice....sia rocks...🥰
Thank you!
The little girl in this video is called Maddie Ziegler, this song was released in 2014 and maddie was 11, she is 18 now....
She is referring to both and the dancer is her inner child getting battered. She is mimicking screwing on smiles and putting them back on to talk and being literally thrown by the shame spiral
waiting for Elastic heart video, to end the fantastic trilogy! :) And then, the video for The Gratest - it has elements from all her iconic videos.
This song resonates with me as a bipolar person who abused alcohol in their 20s… the mania, the center of attention , life of the party girl… to be hit by the shame, regrets and excruciating lows after the mania switches into the inevitable depressive episode . Fromm swinging from the chandelier to them come crashing down around you.
I fight depression big time since my divorce 2 years ago thinking by now I should be over her. But not everyone we grieve has died. And "my day" will come, just not sure when.
But I don't know you from Bob, Bill or Alice from down the road but I'm so glad you're still with us. Hold onto that fighting spirit.
Thank you 🖤💛❤️
I've always read the 'swing from the chandelier' passage as intentionally choosing to be out of control (in order to feel like you HAVE control). For me, pretending to have any kind of power over my circumstances (even self-destruction) was easier than feeling helpless against them.
I went through several years in this very same aclohol phase. Maybe more like a haze. I felt awful all the time but kept drinking because at night it when i was drink was the only time I felt anything remotely fun. thank god I came out the othe end
Thank you.
I've never thought about this song/music video in the way you describe. In particular, Maddie Ziegler's amazing performance ... taken right to the edge of physical instability ... now makes a lot more sense as an embodiment of mental instability. The central image of swinging on a chandelier also takes on a double meaning, thanks to your insight. I had the good fortune to meet Sia Furler right at the start of her career in the mid-90s, before she was famous. At the time, she was being introduced to record companies by her agent in London (UK) as a jazz and blues singer. I still have some demo recordings she gave me ... at the age of 20 she had a deeply soulful, rich voice steeped in jazz, a world apart from 'Chandelier'. R (Australia)
OMG, this is so amazing! Can we hear those demos? :)
Usually i travel looking reactions to nightwish or floor jansen, sometimes to dimash kudaiberguen and sometime diana ankudinova, loving last moths this last two discovers, and always looking for Nightwish and floor, i can tell you, never seen a reaction and understanding like yours to the poet and the pendulum, loving your understanding in all reactions now, following you wherever the people gets with songs :) when reactions and understanding are real, and i mean REAL my gosh.. don't care what song is, sure will be good. :) as sugestion? well any of the artist i mention before ahaha...
She's talking about the hyper-excited party-girl behavior called swinging from the chandelier. If there's any suicide element, it's in the line "I'm holding on for dear life," but I see that line more as trying desperately to keep her life and feelings from falling completely to pieces. It's a recognition of her problem and knowing that she needs to try to maintain control, clinging to hope even as she knows she's not likely to succeed. And each night, she can deal with no more than only that night, and even that is not at all assured.
Teach love…. Great react
Anyone watching this doesn’t give a fuck why you’re wearing a jacket. Glad you are sharing the beauty❤️
Sia is an incredible artist.
It’s a song that actually makes me cry. At first it’s beautiful and I swear as I kept listening over and over it finally clicked what the song is actually about while I was listening to a more somber version. The piano version.
Amanda in a leather jacket 😍🔥💞 I didnt even think about the jacket in regards to heat,only that i thought "Hot daymn,Amanda looks good in that jacket!" #NoPunsIntended Sia is one of thoose ladies that i embraced early on,noone really sings like her. And yes,i do hear slight usage of autotune on some of her songs (just a tiny bit),wich makes me cringe lol. Because she is clearly too good to even use it a tiny bit. #RantOver I understand now better why she would never do interviews with a full face reveal,at first i thought it was just a odd fashion/image thing. But as soon as she opened up about her struggles in life,it made sence why she felt more comfortable doing interviews with her face covered up. I have that feeling often,just to do a thing like going to buy groceries.....sometimes i feel better if im wearing shades/sunglasses. Yup,just like people with a hangover.....when the nerves are too much on edge,it feels better "hiding".
Sia reminds me alot of our own precious diamond, Aurora. In the way they perform,very random,very unique,something you cant really fake. Aurora is making it into a thing with breaking reaction channels into tears,whenever they do songs of her. Now granted Aurora (Norwegian artist) has never suffered from the things Sia has,but Aurora grew up with people around her finding her "strange". She would invite her imaginary friends back in for dinner,and instead of questioning her or pushing for a diagnosis on her,her parents would put on plates,glasses etc for her imaginary friends as well. They saw that whatever she had,wasnt giving her discomfort,pain/suffering,and it didnt hold her back in any way. So they gave her an upbringing based entirely on love. (She only had one situation where classmates laughed at her,calling her strange when she confronted theyr laughs....maybe her being so direct early on,saved her from being bullied even more) It was after they had a IQ test at theyr school,and Aurora modestly remembers "I scored pretty good on it". So abit of jealousy mixed with them calling out her "strange" behaviour? I look upon it as the very start of bullying,but since she showed baldness and not being afraid to confront them,they moved on? I think so. But yeah,Aurora is really sharp,well spoken.....but you can tell from her body movements,facial expressions and such,that....its something special about her. Things you cant fake,but as her parents,everyone now embraces her and her songs completely! And the feedback is that she touches people deeply on a level no other artist have done,because she is so unique,vocally and in performing,so real. And shes just a complete sweetheart.
Thats why i see alot of Aurora in Sia,although they have lived 2 very different lives (But for all i know,they might have some of the same mental things.....Auroras are just undiagnosed),they seem to have some similar "performances" in eye movement,body movements,the talent in telling theyr story.
I absolutely LOVE David Guetta & Sias collab called "She Wolf" (Falling To Pieces) Sias vocals really shines in that one,David is a Electronic Dance DJ,so the song is more raw,upbeat then this one. But the lyrics,the video....phew,i have even found myself tearing up from the story of the video told. One of the best collabs in that genre by far! Just something about Sias voice,and oh man does she pack a punch in that voice,when she needs to.
This is probably the most in depth reaction of one of Sias song i have seen btw!
that is not autotune, just vocal effects, for style, to make the song more electro or popish. No pitch correcting because Sia is always on pitch
It is pleather! You will never see me in any animal's skin ❤️
I completely understand it too. I go out like an incognito celeb when my anxiety is high because I don't want to be noticed or acknowledged or spoken to.
@@MentalAmanda Oh i didnt mean to call it leather like "real leather jacket",in any offensive way. I wouldnt judge if it was real either,but all the more respect to you! And exactly,you just want to "become one of the crowd,one that noone notices".
@@siapolicia4826 well,there are artists that are always on pitch that uses it,slightly or annoyingly "too much" (beats me why,but they do). I wasnt referring to this song in particular,but i do hear the difference between a filter aka effects and autotune when its used. She doesnt even need filters on a dance/electronica song in my opinion. I have heard her sing live,basically more of a unplugged setup. She doesnt need "addons",shes too good! #RepeatingMyself
@@sonofthesea3298 I just explained you why - for style, to play with the sound, not to correct a pitch.
It's so funny when I first heard the song years ago I thought it was just a catchy cool song , I posted the lyrics my grandma was like " I hope you understand the song and hope your ok " so I can actually took time and heard the song . It's a beautiful song
3:48 Unstoppable.. another AMAXING video.
Please, react to Alive. It's also by Sia. It's an incredible song. Hope you see my comment and take this in consideration. Nice video :D
the dancer is Maddie Ziegler she is really an amazing kind hearted person and a good dancer also i bet she will love this reaction
Well if you know how to share it with her, feel free!
My take is that "I want to swing from the chandelier", is about her chasing a feeling of ecstasy that she is addicted to.
In this case through drinking.
This song doesn't work for me without the sound of desperation she brings to it.
Puddles Pity Party did a decent cover on America's Got Talent.
I can relate to this song because I'm a alcoholic I normally do my comments when I'm drunk love ya metal Amanda
Don't label yourself. You can overcome anything 💖
Please react and listen to Courage to change by Sia plsss
I love your message and think you should really look into Citizen Soldier they are a band that focuses all of their music on mental health!
You made me think of the song unstoppable in a different way. I lost my brother in law to suicide and I am clean but still struggle.
Thank you 💔💨💖
Please react to "the greatest" by sia it's one of her best videos🥺♥️
Agreed
Alcoholism is a drug addiction that gets treated differently here in the USA.
You never heard this song? Like not even in a supermarket? Have you just received your hearing back?
I mean, if I heard it out and about, I never registered it to memory for any reason.
I think it´s a Song to Enjoy life
I’m sitting here years later because I love this song but then I remeber Sia wrote this in 14m and idk if she got that deep…
What I appreciated most about this video was that Amanda focused on the underlying message instead of overreacting to the video and choreography. It's sad that we still live in a world where we have to cloak real issues that are stigmatized behind theatrics (nothing against Maddie Ziegler who is super talented).
Nice. But you definitely should react to EPICA "Rivers" official visualizer IMO. I think it is YOUR song (lyrics ☀️). Beyond beautiful. Epica is the "little sister" of Nightwish. 🙂
Plase react to Saved my life by Sia! Best song ever!
Last I saw she runs a dance studio.
I recommend you a Spanish singer with incredible melismas in Spain they call her the girl with the three lungs. Her name is Diana Navarro with the song "El perdón" she is very versatile and sings different styles of music. She is a very complete singer apart from composing some songs. Greetings from Spain
Not an easy listen but Shinedown "Monsters" is relevant to lots of us. Useful if only to realize how common it is for people to have monsters.
Please react to demons by Jacob Lee. That song helped a lot after discovering I was just another person being used by someone I used to care about.
Just holding on for tonight...yep. Vicious cycle.
What I get is that her prison is sexual promiscuity, trying to fill an emotional void. Swinging from the chandeliers is an expression of freedom; a break from the current, painful reality into a life that she knows is out there, but for the moment, she cannot seem to attain.
Love sia. I found this song a few weeks ago I think you may like from a different band. The song is called OXYGEN by TAGAVAKA.
You should react to Her last words
Will u be able to react to it ?
That insight at 6:12
You're doing Good int this world. I'm sure you know, I just wanted to reiterate,
You should do Alex Terrible's cover of this.
Mattie is awesome
To hear a totally different take on this, search for puddles pity party doing chandelier......
BTW alcoholism is an addiction. There is no difference apart from the drug of choice.
Her presence on Ellen is amaxing.
Ela simulando q corta os pulso e da tchau '-'
Maddie was 11 doing this
I feel like no one cares about me. Ive been debating to myself whether or not im an empath and I think I am. I care SO MUCH about everyone else. They tell me their problems or basically anything they're going through-one has even called me their "therapist". I try asking them sometimes when they're being more quiet than usual, I reach out to them. But they dont check up on me. They're not awful friends, or maybe Im forcing myself to think that way I honestly don't know anything. This whole comment is a mess like I am. I try to give hints that im not okay, that I need help since its not easy being direct with my emotions. I know I can just tell them but its a different story when they're the one asking me first. I feel like I dont matter to them, I feel like an outcast. I feel lonely. I feel tired everytime that I have a problem, even a small one. I sleep usually for 10 hours and I would still feel like sleeping right after I wake up. Im not sure if that's me trying to escape reality. I feel like this problem is so petty and small and childish and maybe even selfish. I feel like im such a weak person when I share my problems. I dont know who to tell, who to ask help from. I dont think I can share these petty feelings to anyone I know personally. Its a petty feeling but to be honest its really affecting me, I cant get it off of my mind, ive been crying about it constantly. I cant do my schoolwork without pushing myself. Im looking for ways to distract myself. And this may sound weird, but I miss the sadness when its gone. Im sometimes unsure if I want my problems to be fixed or not. I dont know what to do anymore, every decision that I make, I regret. Its like every option is a bad option. Anyway, if you've read until this part, thanks for your time. I hope you're doing well and God Bless you.
First of all, this is incredibly normal. I too am an empath and I have learned that I have to really amp up the self-care to make sure the compassion fatigue doesn't get too intense. Second, people who are struggling can get really lost in their own head and their own world. It doesn't mean they don't care, they might just be too exhausted themselves and don't know how to cope.
David Guetta
Ft Sia
Titanium
Blackbird by alterbridge live in Amsterdam plz plz plz
Hi Amanda, can you react to the song Guy Sebastian - Standing With You
Keep up the great work & love from Down Under 👍😀
2 suggestions.. "Bring me back to life"..or "Arms Wide Open"..:-)
Please tell me what helps you because I am going to die.
I had to completely overhaul my life. My habits, my limiting beliefs, who I spent time with. If you look at my website www.amandawebsterhealth.com, I outline what I did. If you need to talk, you can email me amanda@amandawebsterhealth.com
Billie Eilish music videos?