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"We accept the love we think we deserve"
This is it 😭
- Genesis - my name is genesis too
I can feel now that she'll leaving :(
~Perks of being a wallflower
You just made my day, I say this quote all the time and I love the Perks of being a Wallflower.
"I gave it everything" God, I feel like eveything inside me is breaking.
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Maybe you held back something or maybe it wasn't destined for you. Maybe God wants you to give more to the right person who will not judge you. Maybe, you're not letting the right person to find you, just maybe
I also gave it everything for year's she promised and broke it ! Now I will never see her again ! And I am completely alone were she chose for me to be ! A country town around no family ! And she is gone and all I do is think about my mistakes and why couldn't I have done this instead of that ! I hate it she told me I would never find anyone ! And god " I am starting to believe it! "
U know soon ull find someone's
Mhm
It broke my hurt into milion piecies. Finally something that shows exaclty how I've been feeling for over a year now.
How are you feeling now? Does it gets better?
Marlene Kruger in a way it does. Me personally I have becomes numb to the pain. But this one quote made me realize my mental health needs to be out first over my love for him no matter how much I do love him and the quote was “ when you realize how much you’re worth, you’ll stop giving people discounts”
Same
I like Poetry cuz it make me thank that. What I should. Do
I have been in same situation for 3 years, but now i am out of it
"If I lose him, I'll have nobody"
And in the end he choose to leave bcs can't deal with my insecurity and depression.
Same here,long distance relationship and she couldnt tolerate my insecurities she gave up.i was so lazy to get off the bed and live my life for myself that i was almost lost to her in love.always felt needy of her.finally when she left i had no choice but step out and let the pain get down slowly.and i realised it wasnt that i wasnt good enough to her as she said i m so insecure and it hurted her.i gave too much love ,care ,respect,honesty ,stayed loyal and kept no secret ,one day i even told her one girl asked me out for some help i couldnt refuse it and i helped her ,i am sorry i know it would hurt you to hear but i just want to be honest with you even when you didnt know what i do and even if you didnt ask,that doesnt feel right to keep it secret.i know it was foolish of me to be that honest.i noticed one thing 2 months after the breakup ,it was just that i was constantly thinking too much and became toxic and the solution to not be toxic was to step out and live happily ,let her live her own way and be there when there's need.
@@vpokale4978 it's not wrong to be honest person. Same my story it's LDR too, almost the same like yours, I gave everything for him and didn't care about myself and its totally not right. I hope you can find the best for you :)
Wid you are healing, dear.. you are alright.. it is healthy to express this pain.. cry.. let it out.. turn it into greatness.. I believe in you..
If he chose to leave you because of your insecurity and depression, he doesn't deserve you, if he did he woulda stuck with you through all of it, trust me I know from my gf and you can find somebody else I promise
You still have urself
Toxic love is like loving someone with your whole heart even though you know they’re not good for you.
yep thats me and my boyfriend
@@therealtroublequeen haha same
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Toxic love is like giving your whole heart to someone who isn't truly there
“I force myself to believe him every time he apologizes even tho I know it’s all lies” This entire thing really hits home for me.
“Every waking moment I cry”
My life until recently.
Sooo relatable
i force myself to say its ok when they messed up.. it wasnt but its worth it to not upset them more then suffer in silence right...? and now they find me to blame for everything when i always did everything to help them..
This really touched me. I was in a relationship where i lost myself, i gave him all of me. But it was never returned. I loved him more then i loved my self and i believed that without him i was nothing. I cried every night because i was so unhappy. Until one night i exploded, all the pain everything came out and i went at my ex . I was in so much pain i lost who i was. And we broke up. Nights i continued to cry hoping he would come back. I thought i was nothing without him... until i realized that i was the only one hurting. Why was i still hurting AFTER the break up. I was just as unhappy as when i was in it. It was an extremely toxic relationship. I was depressed and mad all the time. And i decided to start changing for me. I still break down till this day. 3 months later. Getting out of a 7 year relationship was extremely hard. But I’m grateful i went through every emotion. Because if it wasn’t for the break up. I wouldn’t have ever learned to love myself again.
Yesenia Tapia so painful, I'm going through this shit right now.
He was the wrong person. it's very sad your story but Now you're better and that's important.
What really struck me about what you said is when you talked about being unhappy after the breakup, and not really knowing why because you were just as unhappy in it.. That made so much sense to me, in my own way maybe. Its hard trying to walk away. With a conversation they could make you temporarily better, but after you walk away you can't wait for that. You have to try to fix yourself, and that's just as hard.
I felt that. I'm happy you were able to grow from that person and focus on becoming the woman you are destined to be. Bless .
I'm going through this now. I realized he's a covert narcissist about a month ago. I've left many times before and had always went back. I am trauma bonded. 💔
“Leaving someone isn’t that easy.” Boy can I relate to that. But I finally did, even if years later I still wonder what if.
True. Leaving someone whom you love is not easy and that's why they say, "when you love someone, you set them free". But if you're leaving a toxic love, it hurts more. And after ten years down the lane, if you're happy, take pride in your decision.
" cause if it's love, then why was it so messed up." :( i love this channel so much
This is exactly how you feel when you are in a relationship with a narcissist
Yeah. Kinda sucks
It sucks especially when it’s been so long since you have had someone so important in your life
Yes, this is truly how it feels... you keep waiting for them to change forever, but they never really do. And you lose yourself in the process
True
thats i feel after 2 years of it and hes gone and making me look bad when I did nothing to him
I went through this exact thing for years, but I finally left. Whoever is struggling with a toxic relationship, it's harder to keep holding on and when you let go it may be even harder but the pain, anxiety, tears, emotional abuse,etc. will finally go away... Love yourself. Let go.
Sarah A it's so difficult 😢
Thank you.
he wants to see me what do i have to do
Thanks ❤️
What did you do when you would feel like you missed them/wanted them back? I went through this situation for years and finally left a few months ago but I'm still going through some things and i would love some advice if you have any.
“I’m still the one with all the pain” and the “without him I’m paralyzed” hit me hard🥺
I relate to every freaking thing that she said.
You've let him control the relationship. You've showed him that he is your weakness. And that's why you relate to it. And now, you're numb to his reactions OR anybody else's.
revathi naicker your never alone
Same here
Me to I'm not getting abused I'm getting controlled that's my only difference but everything else I fell all of it I go thru it ona daily basis 💔😓
"Part of me wants to speak up, but I hesitate"
Most conversations that is me. I have so much anger and sadness I want to make him understand what he does to my emotions, to this person I've become who is broken by him. Like a song I listened to, "it must be nice, being loved by someone who lets you break them twice." Except now it's 4,5,6, I don't even know how many times... But I can only truly be upset with myself for staying. Maybe better is out there, hell, maybe I even deserve it.. But I'm scared. Scared to regret losing you. Scared to miss you. Scared to imagine you calling someone else baby when im gone. And then I imagine what it would be like, I dare myself to just try and see it. I can't see anything though, because my mind goes to the past. To mornings waking up next to you after a night of feeling perfect with you. To the things you said, the way I felt. It all comes up and chokes me, how could I give up a chance to have more of that.
@sadie cappello if you believe he truly loves you but is toxic to your mind,the best thing to do is take a break in the relationship for a month no text no calls nothing and let them know what its like losing you,or they will learn to spend time without you and be happy ,loneliness and overthinking makes people toxic.i went through it too and i found out being a toxic person-if you love what you do,do what you love,if you love yourself and value yourself,you are happy and that energy of positivity ,happiness and the bond of trust gets over insecurities and makes the other person happy and loved.you both live with love,not live for love. He needs space most of the people dont get it they need space when in a relationship but they promise and tell what they feel at the right moment,maybe most of the people be true but it doesnt work and no.not just because it didnt work out its fake.mind healing takes time so does the heart takes long.stay away from each other and know whats going in a relationship and what needs to be done to solve it.don't give up if its true love ,honest and loyal.nobody is perfect but we can solve the issues together ,some of them with boths decision but lonely.
Guess he ust be a pisces guy
are you quoting the song break my heart again by FINNEAS? that whole song perfectly depicts how I feel with my s/o..
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This is my exact situation💔.. I’ve never related to something so much in my life. It hurts.
I understand your pain. The pain which makes your eyes moist. The pain, of him not understanding your sacred love for him. What he did with you, because of his insecurities. Because he doesn't know what love is. You don't destroy the person whom you love. He doesn't deserve your love.
You will be fine
Thats all me , my last realitionship, i wanted to be strong, after 1,5 year i finally went away from him, he is not my pure anymore but i still feel the pain
This video is actually ridiculious. It is you ladies problem to become somebody who is easy to get, so average, Beta. Once you feel that it's hurt to love, then there here you go crying and showing your weaknessess on the comment section. Good tho, those experiences will slowly turn your heart into steel. No more fragile. Goodluck and try not to fall in love so easy.
your not alone
Carl lorenzo i think u re right we are so dumb to believe in love so easily but what can we do!? Women are so sentimental and we want to believe that one day we'll have a man a real one with all the meaning that it has ... Sorry for my English I'm a French girl
Its the L word..love, it gets used so often so early in relationships today that everyone thinks they're in love when really there with a loser or a whore, girls need to quit falling for it so fast and guys need to quit using it as a manipulator
I dated this guy for 2 years this is exactly how I felt. This poem speaks to me.
" In some sick twist of fate, he completes me ".
It got me deep 💔
"I've become numb to it"
The whole thing hit deep but that line got me a little more.
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I told myself it would be different this time 💯 so touched
I started to cry. I know that will touch someone.
Ella Pratt me too
It did touched me alot...the pain and suffering I'm still feeling for the last 2 and a half year...it hurts and he's getting married soon and there's nothing I can do about it..
Anyone here after breaking up with the toxic person who mentally abused you for so long? It feels good honestly
Yeah true. 😭
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Yah..I'm free...
Yeah I'm finally free after 4 yrs...❣️ It still hurts a lot, but hoping it'll get better...
Yeah 💔
you said everything i couldn't say because im so afraid to be judged 😞 i need a hug 😞😭
but u dont consider myself weak because after all the pain, i stayed.
potato taehyung ARMY *BEAR HUGS*
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potato taehyung **sends huge hug your way**
potato taehyung ARMY!!
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Im shocked and blown away from this. Every word she spoke is EXACTLY how I feel and what I am going through right now. Wow!
"I told myself it would be different this time" so me.
Sooo relatable
Its crazy how someone else can word what you went trough and how you have finally realised it. Now I'm happy in a new relationship
This. This here is the soul reason I love Taz. Her words are so raw. You loose track of the fact it is a spoken word and fall into its undeniable emotions. love from India.
I can’t believe how perfect this is. Your voice. Your words. Your passion. I love this so much. Just wow.
This is everything i feel right now and i usually listen to your poems and appreciate them for their beauty but all i could do when listening to this was cry, just endless tears because this is you just portraying what it might feel like but honestly it is so spot on i feel all of this and more. thank you all the same i feel a little bit less alone
sorcha awww baby .. dont worry every thing is going to be okay ❤
Even though this was fictional, you hit it spot on.
Having been in a relationship that tore me apart mentally, I relate heavily to this!
Everything just fits perfectly for me, and has helped me move past what I’ve been through and get out stronger on the other side. Thank you Taz
Given everything that has happened these past three weeks this one is the one that hit me like a 16 wheeler. God I've never related to something so much. 😩 thank you. You're absolutely amazing
This made me cry. My first relationship was just like this. Sometimes I just wish I could have let the me of my past know that what he was doing wasn’t normal. It’s so hard trying to explain that feeling to someone, and I think you did it great.
You should do one about how people change and how best friends can suddenly just change and not care about you anymore.
Brita Roos dear I've done a video on it ... do subscribe me and comment here , done...
I will send you the link
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He didn't even say "I'm sorry"...
She said "It's your fault"
And I believed her.
And he didn‘t even say „i‘ll change“
That hit hard
@@kushiiiarts..6614 that hits hard...
wow Taz......this hit me really hard
same I cried hard
Lucid Universe
Who is "Taz" can you reply?
Conner Summers
I wanna know that too!!
Fk Off taz is the spoken word poet in this vid. Duh?
Me 2
this happened to me a couple of years ago. i was so blinded by love and i’m glad to be in a better place now. god heard my prayers and made me strong enough to let go.
"In some sick twist of fate, he completes me" my life. 😕
Same 🙌
wow this video really touched my heart and got me in tears. you literally said all the what I’ve been through , I thought i was the only one ! I hope we all heal someday and learn a lesson from this
Yeah true. Do checkout videos on my channel. I have done few spoken poetrys I hope you can relate and if you do subscribe to my channel.
i can't describe how much i adore this girl
this is exactly what it was. telling me i was selfish and horrible, telling me that his self harm was all because of me and what I’d done. telling me i wasn’t allowed to do things i wasn’t even considering because one person flirting with me without any reciprocation meant that it was my fault and i was horrible because of it.
I broke and just went silent. i let myself pretend that i never loved him because it was just easier than admitting i had gotten in so far to the point where i was crying and having panic attacks every single time he texted me. every single time i said “i love you”, it was followed by “I’m sorry”.
everything here resonates. except for the fact that he never apologized.
never apologized for flirting with his exes while we were dating while i wasn’t allowed to even consider going to homecoming with a group of friends.
didn’t apologize for telling me he cut because of me. blaming it all on me asking him to stop talking about flirting with his exes while he was dating me.
didn’t apologize for sending me videos of him high, talking about drinking, partying, and fighting when he was 15.
he says that i was the abuser because i went quiet and stopped responding to his texts, his endless abuse, his assumption that he could pile his own problems and give me every single detail of his life and depression and expect me to solve every single part of it
Or at least listen, as almost every single interaction was him venting, or him telling me i was selfish and horrible.
When he broke it off, and I called him abusive and manipulative, he rebutted by calling me the same thing.
There’s been no apology for two years now, and i still think every day that i was the abuse. i was the abuser for breaking down under the stress of our relationship. i was the abuser for telling the world what happened and telling him i never loved him and never wanted to be in that relationship.
haha sorry this was so long. sorry i just ended up like venting on a youtube video where it was completely irrelevant. i guess i just want someone, anyone, to know what happened because i don’t have anyone else to tell.
This is super good but so sad😭💔 I love your poetry so much because most people can relate and it has pure emotion. Keep it up, ily❤❤
Jade McDannald hi, could you do me a favor and please also check out my poetry as well? I do poetry too. That would mean a lot if you checked out my channel as well. Thanks and have a great day! 😊
Jade McDannald.
Jade McDannald I Can REALLY relate to this...
Zohra The Poet
Okay, I will!
This has been my reality for 3 and a half years and still is in this moment. I'm working 6 days a week now and saving up to move out on my own but in the back of my mind I know when the day comes to pack my stuff that I won't because he literally is all I have and all I know anymore. I know that's wrong but I also know I love him.
Yeah I get it that letting go of someone you really love is damn hard. But when you feel that the relationship is already toxic, be brave and leave. Don't wait too long that eventually it will completely destroy you and your life.
ATrueLove,com well said
A True Love Official Hey! when u get a chance if u cud check out my poetry and music page that would be awesome:) and gime some criticism and feed back that wud be awesome 😎😎
If you've never been in a toxic abusive relationship then you wouldn't understand. If leaving were that easy there would be no victims of domestic abuse.
@@mariamagdalena2214 exactly saying those things is ez like being brave and shit, but it's never. In my case i kept repeating all of these until a point when I gave up.
This speaks up everything that i'm afraid to put out...i've always searched for a spoken word on this topic that i could relate to. And finally i found it. This is perfect.. Thank you for helping people out to atleast know that they're not alone in this world❤
Over 1K views and still not one dislike. I'm not surprised.
This really hit home. Thank you Taz❤ I feel understood.
Ariana
Really, who is "Taz" bcz I heard it in another comment too, lol. So yeah.
*Her poetry name?*
This is just reflecting on my relationship right now. I really love that this video is posted because it makes me think so much of my life.
You are describing my love life right now. Thank you.
Elenya Ellis awww ! Girl don't worry ..you're beautiful yourr heart is pure... everything is going to be okay.❤
This is real how strong you are and how much you say it wond happen to me, you're rong. It happens and they talk so to you that you stay and it's killing for your self. Walk away how hard it is it's the best for you and there are people who can love you the way you deserve. And you will heal in time.
This define my whole love life . This is what I'm going through , I know that we don't have any future he'll leave me one day but still my heart says you've got present live it he is the only cure of your pain . 😢😢😢:'(
This was my thought process for a year and eight months. My ex was never physically abusive but mentally and emotionally. I was always crying. I let him have every single part of me and got nothing but hurt in the end. “I knew it was toxic. I knew it wasn’t right.” And I did. I gave EVERYTHING to him. And he broke me. Time and time again. I eventually left and I’m healing myself with my wonderful boyfriend next to me, supporting and helping me.
For anyone in a toxic, abusive relationship, it’s hard right now and leaving doesn’t seem right, but baby, I promise it’s the right thing to do. You are strong. You are beautiful. You will heal. ❤️
it happend to me too, like you did,
i told myself that it would be different this time
Kiwi - Toaster baby dont worry .. everything is going to be okay ❤
i used to feel exactly like this.. every lyric. for so long, the love i had for him, was insane, i lost myself, my soul, even now after being apart and finally moving on i’m still struggling to regain myself; he was constantly leaving and coming back, telling me i needed to change, making me so insecure, feel less than. feel like i was too much. and it felt normal , the toxicity, felt comforting. this goes back to our childhood early age when we have no self respect or worth, we tend to become codependent and trauma bonded to those who emotionally abuse us. it feels so “right” because that’s what we think love is supposed to look like. we think that we must sacrifice ourselves to claim the prize of their “love” . it all falls down to not knowing our worth. it’s like we’re choosing partners that project how we feel about ourselves to us. think about it; if you truly valued yourself, i mean truly, to the core, do you think you would tolerate someone belittling you, a relationship without trust, with control, manipulation, etc? you wouldn’t , because you would know your worth and you wouldn’t settle for a man/ woman, who constantly drains you. two draining years i spent giving every part of myself to him, thinking i was the problem, if i could just be different we’d have our happily ever after. i thought i needed him. i let him disrespect me, and break my heart again and again and i still stayed. then he left one final time, and he moved on to someone else all while i was living with him and i had to watch it all happen, it broke something in me, and i’m still not healed from all the pain i endured. i waited for him, and i tried and gave so much for 11 months (almost a whole year) after he broke up with me and had already moved on, hope motivated me to keep fighting, love motivated me, and mainly, fear. if you’re in this predicament i can tell you what happens, you loose yourself more and more in the process, you break more and more, you become weak, tired, and cause your self so much mental trauma. at the point that i began literally going from common anxiety , to full blown panic attacks, then it got so bad i started having literal nervous breakdowns. he didn’t change, no matter what i did or how hard i tried i never could get that love i wanted from him. so i let go. i gave up. it still hurt, but i allowed myself to feel the hurt. i let myself listen to sad music, cry, rant , write , and not beg for him back, i allowed myself to get angry, put on a sexy outfit, do my makeup, and hope i’d run into him, i allowed myself to feel all of it, and slowly but surely, i started smiling, for reasons that had nothing to do with him, i started feeling lighter, i started feeling beautiful without being dependent on his control, his mind games. without having to worry about him leaving me all the time. so for every one in these comments; i promise you, coming from the girl whose been through it all, who was so attached it was sick, it truly does get better. i didn’t believe it would, but it would. now dealing with the pain and discomfort of trauma and healing, that is so much better, then being in that toxic cycle. if you’re reading this, save yourself. ❤️
lmao no ones gonna read this long ass essay 😭😭😭
woah💔. That’s really sad and inspiring at the same time. I finally got out of the toxic relationship I was in. And it hurts like hell. It’s so hard. I feel like I’m breaking. I don’t know what to do. All I know is I have to keep going. But gosh, it’s so hard
I felt this so much💔 once when I was 14 I fell in LOVE with this one boy and we started talking and flirting like we were dating then I asked him if we were ever going to be a couple he laughed and simply said no. I was so sad I didn’t want to go to school and face him and see him happy it hurt my heart and to this day (I’m 15 going to be 16) when I look at him my heart still breaks. Yes, it hurts to face him EVERY DAY! But what could I do really? I tried to cut him off and completely act like I don’t know he exists but that hurts more than looking him in the face. To him I’m just one of the many girls he’s played with, but to me he’s the boy that broke my heart💔
Lily Martinez aww my baby.. may god bless you my sunshine ❤
Sorry baby girl you don't deserve that, keep on going you are one in a million 👍👍👊
Being in a relationship for 10 year and a half and this definitely explains how I have been feeling. How he always makes me feel like I am hard to love when in reality we just fed up of being in a toxic relationship in which we can’t find oxygen, space or happiness for neither of us..It is sad what we became but maybe this is what we both need in order to grow apart and in the future learn how to love ourselves and others.
this is so relatable omg
Amira Zahar hi, I also wrote and do poetry as well so if you could please check out my poetry and my channel, that would mean a lot to me! So please feel free to check out my poetry and subscribe to my channel as well when you get a chance. Thanks and have a lovely day! 😊
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I've never felt every word so much of anything. I haven't been able to put it all into words. I'm sobbing.
“i don’t expect you to understand”
Sooo relatable
i hate when people tell me i dont understand things..
i watched this video like a million times. it helps so much to know that someone feels exact the same like i feel. thankyouu
I love your work, you're my inspiration. This one hit deep...😭😭💓😔
Angelica Martinez I also do poetry as well so if you don't mind checking out my channel and my poetry, thrn please feel free. That would really mean a lot to me. I am just trying to get noticed and put my poetry out there even more so I need some support and help into doing that. Please support me cause your support counts! Thanks and have a great day! 😊
Zohra The Poet i subscribed💜
awkward sheerio awww thank you a bunch for that, that really means a lot to me! ❤
awkward sheerio I subscribed back! 💙
Zohra The Poet thank you
This really touched me and my heart is aching. Throughout the video, my mind goes through my own chains of events. I can’t speak up.. with tears running down my face or as I just sit there suffocating with my own heart breaking, I put my mind into my own poetries that I never once open again. I’m so in love that I don’t even want to break free. Love isn’t meant to be this painful but why can one love so much to the point they want to treat themselves like nothing to give someone everything? To offer them all the bits and pieces of you? Maybe I can break free, but I don’t want to. Love is a silly thing..
i relate to this so much.. its a good thing i ended a three year relationship two days before i watched this. this exactly how i felt
Even when you're gone.. i'm left with all the pain..
This poetry touched me so deep because i was in an abusive, disloyal engagement/relationship.
It's already 3 years ago and i still bleed of the scars i have in my heart.
I believed him every single time while i knew he wasn't right for me.
I found that out when it was too late, because i already loved him too much than he deserved...
Thank you. I really needed this right now. Thank you.
i relate to this
so much. its been 3 years, and i still go in his cycle. i relate to this so so much.
Thank You so much Taz! You are literally my inspiration! I started making poems like you to express my pain, and what you have written here is my life except he hasn't broken up with me but I wait for him everyday to actually be a boyfriend instead of a guy who actually doesn't care enough for me. I love and need him so I wait... but when can I ever stop waiting?
Whoever read this I decided to stop waiting on him! Yay! But I have to now tell him 🙄😭
Btw We broke up!
How's the situation now? I'm looking for inspiration lol
I watch this every so often and I take it in a different perspective I have had an issue with friendships I never seem to find people who care for me as much as I care for them I always feel like I have to go out of my way to please them and I also end up with people who are toxic and bring me down but I'm afraid to tell them off because I feel like I'll look weak crying over it this poem sums up most of how I've grown up
Right on time 💔
Wow this has hit me so hard, I just relived every moment of 11 years of a broken life. I hope that we all find peace and see the light. I know to others on the outside looking in people like us are weak and get laughed at for staying, but I did till I hit rock bottom and lost all senses of emotion and had nothing left in my eyes. This is something I thought I put behind me and now I find this channel and just sunk into my chair with tears rolling down my face and so it seems I still have some of him in me that I thought died with every tear that I shed. Bless you all
This means so much to me because i’ve been in a position like this :(
Wow I felt this in every way. Exactly what I’m going through. Sad love is this way we get to attached to somebody it becomes hard to see yourself without them.
This is just pure honesty . But in time you will eventually make a decision & you will realize that there's nothing you can do anymore but to walk away. It'll take time to not feel the hurt but step by step you become stronger & you will see how much worthy you are & you'll learn to love yourself again
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guys I think I destroyed the replay button
2 years ago damn taz I feel so sorry for your pain. But the growth of what you have become to watch your happiness now, makes me happy❤️❤️❤️
"how do i escape when you have become part of my dna,i cant escape" same i loved him too much to let go,took me 3 months to decide he was perfect and the right one,i know hes never coming back and i dont want him to,but having him for three months doesnt make it easy losin him and not having the company and someone to talk to😕😕
took me less than a month to realise he was the one * i was with him for three months,we broke up in November and im not over him 100% whenever anyone says his name or my name and his in the same sentence,it triggers me and brings it all back again and i cant let go i cant forget everything we had,however you have moved on and talk about me to my own mates and call me names,it hurts its hurts alot knowing i wasnt enough,,people ask if i loved you and how much i loved you an i just have to tell them that i did love you and still do but it doesn't matter."why doesnt it matter ??!!"
.Because my love for you wasnt enough to make you stay :(
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This is so relatable. I have felt like this for 6 months now and it’s horrible and I feel like I am stuck and can’t move on!
“Love isn’t like what you see on tv” why is it that we look for a love like the one on tv and end up with shit like this
Damn...we accept the love we think we deserve is something I can relate to. Great piece. Solid
"I told myself that it will be diiferent this time around "💔💔💔
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Real and raw reality of life and love and loss. Learning to not accept or tolarate being hurt until you become comftably numb inside.. instead choosing to see u are worthy of being loved for all them "flaws" people choose to highlight.. instead to see them as "flaw-somes" instead. Use ur energy ur focus ur drive to walk away instead of using it to stay and tolorate. We are all human and we all have the right to feel free with the person u choose and want to love and be loved by. This poem highlights everything thats true yet everything that needs to change. Sending love ✌🏼♥️ x
You speak my life now.
He verbally abusive. And he is tired of my insecurities and depression, but this is all because he destroy my trust, my heart.
But however, he is tired of me, and it feels like I can't do anything, I can't lose him, yet I live in his prison
It's okay.I know it's hard but you gotta leave him ❤
@@amaldaud8014 I just hope Allah will let me meet and be with someone that I love and love me very much. Aamiin. Thank you ❤️
That’s your problem your god is allah, the only god who accepts rape of women and children and murder of innocent people.
@@georgemoody1544 im an atheist but fuck you, never say that about any religion, you sicko. If you belive in any god then that speak will not bring you closer to them.
I just love great poetry. You do have to come to a point where there is no more settling. The wrong love can be toxic. This is why in my opinion, it pays to take your time or just wait nomatter how good it looks in the begining.
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I’ve recently started to watch you and I really do love you already 😭❤️💞
Wow this was everything I felt when in long last relationship I just didn’t think I was right about what was going on till we turned 3years I fought with my life to get out and then “ even when you’re gone I’m left with all the pain” it’s been 7 months and I still cry about it all the times he hurt me all the threats he made against me all the names he called me, my body, my family everything hits my flashbacks from my suicide attempts which i barely remember make me cry the most and I can’t seem to stop crying... I literally blossomed after I managed to leave I am 16 years old attending a medical program at the University of Oxford, I am foreshadowing doctors in surgeries I am pushing so hard to become a trauma surgeon and even these successes aren’t enough to fill that void in my chest he literally broke me
I felt all of this as the tears fills my face crying like a baby
Now I’m 18 but back when I was 14-15 I was in a situation similar to this. This really brought tears to my eyes . It wasn’t easy. Now I’m seeing someone new and I’m praying that I don’t get myself into the same situation again.
this is my realtionship rn
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It hurts how relatable this is. Fantastic poem
this hit deep . I am at loss of words .
this was me in my past relationship for three years . every day was always something & i no longer knew who i was . then began to feel no one would love me like he does .. i lied to myself because i fed into his lies .
now i’m happy with another guy who treats me right .. the pain is still there when i think about it at night , but i know it’s nothing more than a lesson learned .
slowly i’m becoming a better me . it’s taking time, but it’s happening .
I felt this so deep inside my heart ! I use to be in almost a 4 years relationship at first our relationship was going great I was so in love with this person. I was so blinded by the love I had for them I would let him fuck me over several times. But it wasn’t always bad. We had our great moment together. But then the mental abuse escalated to physical abuse. He would say he was going to change and that he was sorry but every time he said sorry the punches on my body would feel harder and harder as time went by. I went through so much pain for so long I had to let it go. And I did but I still feel the pain. I still feel the love I have for him which I don’t understand. I still think about him daily. There’s not a day that passes by that I wish I could still speak to him but I know I can’t . I feel empty at times because I feel like I let down the only person I truly wanted in my life and now they’re gone. I wish I could grown hatred towards him but I can’t I just can’t. It feels like I’m going crazy in my head sometimes.... I just wish I had never loved him.
Did he ever say it was the drink ??
Thank you for speaking this loud out !❤️ Wishing you all the best, you‘re words are so true.
I want to send this to my boyfriend because of how he’s been treating me lately . He has broken up with me like 10 times already but I love him to much to let go of him . It wasn’t always like this tho . We’ve been together for a year and a half . But soon he started calling me names made me feel like I needed to change .
Girl he’s really toxic I’ve been in the same exact situation as you and he only got worse and worse to the point where he hurt me, you’ve got this
I’m in a similar situation except I’ve suffered physical side effects. What did you decide to to?
I wish I could send mine too but I dont want to be yelled at
If you need to send a video to your boyfriend, just to make him realize, then you're in love with a wrong person. Love doesn't need realisation. Love is to care. And he doesn't know what love is. Coz when someone is in love, you don't break up. You hold the person close to your heart. He is just hiding behind the word "LOVE" and calling you names. Love, brings the best out of you. This is not love what he is doing with you.
This is so relatable. It still hurts me. Haunts me everyday. The pain I suffered.
How can I walk away after dealing with a toxic relationship for 4 years
You take one step at a time. I just ended a 3-year relationship. I had to finally cut all ties yesterday. I feel free and can breathe. One step at a time and if you trip, get up and keep walking away. Soon you will look behind you and it will be a distant memory.
Learn to love you and God first
You can do it!
This explains everything a person has a difficult time expressing these hidden painful experiences
"he said hes sorry" "he said hes going to change" yup believed that too many times :(
This explains me and my ex.. I went through a toxic relationship and he promised he will change but of course I believed him. I forced myself to believe me because he apologized. But he never did. And I was suffering in silence. He controlled me. I waited for him to change. I thought I couldn’t be loved again or that it was impossible for someone to love me.. he made me think that way until one day I gave up. I got tired of him controlling me, threatening me, yelling at me, and he wanted me to cry myself to sleep and suffer. I put a stop to it. now I’m free and finally happy with someone new. It took me 2 years to be happy. I just wanted to say if you’re in a toxic relationship please get out. It destroys the way you think and how you see things. It’s a part of my life and I’m used to it. I just don’t cry about it anymore.
Recently he said sry again but this one seems so real, I cried and talked to him abt it so why am I still crying at night, why do I keep looking back and remembering and crying my eyes out? I don’t understand
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thank you so much for this poetry! you just hit my heart and put a voice to the way i feel. god bless you taz you are an inspiration💓
omg i love it so much, it's amazing
after listening to this, it left me in tears. knowing that all you did was to love him but he didn't just give it back. it's hard when sometimes you already know the truth then you won't open or tell it to him unless he was the one to confess it to you and all you just do is wait for him to tell you "sorry" and after that word, you will again expect that he would change,, someday. but the truth is he won't, we are just creating a small fairy tale in our minds that the reality is we know that it would never ever exist...