I really love and appreciate these very authentic, honest conversations about awakening. Too often, we only see the promo reel of “awakening” highlights and it can be isolating when your experience is more shitshow than transcendence.
Haven’t seen your first interview with Sasha (yet), but this is phenomenal. The exchange of Sasha sharing her experience with together with Angelo’s comments…. The combination of freshness and clarity is so engaging and helpful at the same time. Thank you both! 😊
Love, love, love this conversation . On my knees with thankfulness for the direct, unmediated honesty, integrity and unconditional love demonstrated in this way of speaking about all the difficulties and beauties of Simply Always Awake. 💜🙏💖🙏💫🙏💥💥💥💥💥
The fact that Sasha has a backround in western philosophy and had an experience of Christ is really helpful to me because I don't hear as many people from such a backround on this channel. Thank you both very much for this wonderful interview.
When Sasha spoke of the neediness of the ego, I thought of a newborn crying to get attention. “I’m hungry. WAH!” “I’m cold. WAH!” I want my mommy. WAH!” And then the song, “Brass in Pocket” with its lyrics came to mind, Cause I gonna make you see There's nobody else here No one like me I'm special (special), so special (special) I gotta have some of your attention, give it to me With reference to the Nisargadatta quote, “In my world love is the only law. I do not ask for love, I give it.” Instead of an ego seeking and begging for the universe to turn its attention upon ‘me,’ attention is focused outward upon each and everything that arises in the universe, feeling it all. Unconditional attention is unconditional love. Mind you, we may want unconditional love/attention, but when it’s associated with childhood truama, we also want to hide from it. This leaves us as if standing in an endless open field wanting to be seen while pretending we can’t be seen. Feeling completely vulnerable. Terrified of all our faults being laid open for all to see. Which is the equivalent of death. Death of the ego. Death of the self-image. Just wanting to be seen and felt comes at a price to the ego.
I am beyond grateful for this interview!! Sasha your "demon" story just changed my life probably. I experienced similar fear- but when someone tells you to feel it that has not experienced it-it makes you wonder- what if they are wrong and i give in to some demonic energy. And so you sharing this, that you went through fear in this form is just the best thing i could hear!! Thank you!! 🙏 P.s. i did meet this with my first awakwening but never thought it was the fear teachers are talking about. At some point i was too tired to fight it and gave in, but i didnt make the connection. Thank you for sharing this publicly ❤🙏
I now realise that this is what I struggled with and couldn’t innerstand, was that nothing lasts, that everything is so transient, I was always so sad was flowing and dying and disappearing continually. I got really cross with God once, and got this apologetic voice saying, well I give you the snowdrops, then daffodils 🌼 and then the tulips 🌷, then the bluebells etc etc… it is a continuous appearance etc.
I really like when awakened people say something they used to hear before they were awake (e.g. "just sit and look") and then get exasperated because they realize that those of us who haven't realized it don't know what they're talking about. 😂 The exasperation itself feels like a pointer for me in a way I can't totally pinpoint.
So much of what you shared here has been my experience! Even being on the cross and then years later being confronted by the devil! But more than this the whole process of co-opting awakening by the ego really hit home. I've had so many awakenings with such clarity and seem to live that clarity, speaking it, sharing it, helping others but always with that feeling of knowing that something was still controlling things. It has always felt like a paradox that made no sense...how can I really deeply know this wisdom and still have an identity, even if that identity felt somehow beneficial.... now I have something to look at. Oh and as for the fear, I agree Sasha so absolutely unexpected and yes Angelo untethered is the exact description.. love this so much
Whenever someone rich and famous takes their own life, many people seem confused about why they would do such a thing. I think the explanation is right here: feeling special also creates the feeling of separation and isolation and nutures the fears of being an imposter and losing the high status. Kurt Cobain is an example of a person who couldn't bear the perceived specialness that others projected on to him.
@Brushstroke, in the case of Cobain's suicide - he despised the media's intrusion into his personal life and the perceived witch hunt. He was most probably undiagnosed bipolar, and had a crippling heroin addiction at the time of his death. His fame may have accelerated his downward drug spiral in that he had easier access and a 100+ dollar a day habit. He had a family history of suicide on his father's side. When he killed himself, he had been faced days earlier with an intervention and forced into rehab, which he escaped from. The note they found by his body expressed a desire for his daughter (a toddler) to have a better life without him in it. I'd say his story and character is fascinating because he was quite a paradox. Don't think he ever dreamt of worldwide fame, but he was quite ambitious in his band's early days - calling up radio stations, and headhunting execs at Subpop records to get his debut album released. I think in his suicide it was a perfect storm of events - I agree that had he not been exposed to fame and money he'd maybe still be here, because his drug addiction worsened in a relatively short 2 year period. If you see him in the "Montage of Heck" doco, it's shocking to see the deterioration. Thanks for your comment. It reminded me also of something Jim Carrey said about wishing everyone could achieve all the fame and wealth they desired, because they'd see it isn't the answer to their problems.
Yaaass!!! Thank you! I got so much out of that, Sasha. I was on that retreat with you having my own struggle. Best of luck with the next revolution of your evolution.🙏
Sasha is so clear and specific and relatable. I too didn’t come up for Q&A because I’ve been on a lot of DBND. I borrowed a pen from that deity stand to write my initials on my pink bathroom slippers because they were MINE. I feel ashamed and exposed by writing this.
Hi! 4 days ago I watched her first two videos in this channel and caused some big release. There were kind of two chunks of beliefs that I wasn't being able to fully see through and I finally could let it go. Thoughts became much less sticky. The decisions for the actions seem non existent. Everything is flowing so much easier. This interview brought attention to be aware of this subtle ways the mind in the background and the fear. In the last few seconds of the video I felt some transmission to integrate deeper this moment. Thank you. I love your way of sharing This.
I appreciate the openness and vulnerability of this interview. It points out the pitfalls of awakening and the continued capacity of ego to catapult itself into an even bigger, more special non-existent self. Having had visions and experiences similar to those she describes here, I’d say it’s possible for specialness ideas to creep into those narrations as well. It’s also easy to ‘want’ what she has as evidence of achieving enlightenment, etc. that is a pitfall that selfing can generate for me out of watching these videos. It’s very slippery. And, yet there is great opportunity for seeing the dynamics of my ego in relation to those being interviewed. Endless reflections of the fetters.
Great discussion about ego attempting to assert itself/take control of your awakening. In therapy, the sufferer must experience the emotion of the situation to remove the blockage and move on relieved. "Everything just wants to be felt" and the machinations of the ego may be among the fundamental truths of our existence.
Wow .. I hope you guys know how much positive impact y’all cause with this conversation, the description of experiences really helps to go through this path, I have felt the presence of Jesus at different times, Sasha experience is very touching, Thanks you both ❤
I love this second video with Sasha. Her kind of theatrical way of talking made me smile 😀what you are talking about Sasha is very helpful, especially the fear thing. I can kind of relate to the expectation about how it will show up. Now I’m prepared that I can’t be prepared 🤣🤣 I didn’t have a shift in identity, the person here is quite established but sight has changed significantly a couple of months ago and since then everything is so clear and so without distance. So I’m just tuning into this wonderful new strangeness and when thoughts are getting annoying I just have to look at the cupboard or anything. Ah, best here works looking at walls of buildings, especially when the sun is shining. There is a silence love pouring out from them. Thanks for sharing 🙏❤️
I can relate to your demons' story. Just want to make a comment that may be useful for someone in the same situation I was about 7 months ago during a 10-day silent vipassana retreat. Everything started fine, but around the 5th day, I started having panic attacks. Eventually, when trying to sleep I saw distorted faces and other strange images. I thought I was going insane, with extreme anxiety and fear. Your ego knows exactly where and how to hit when it is threatened. I had to leave the retreat out of desperation. I wish somebody had reassured me that everything would be fine and that what I was experiencing was not so abnormal. If you are ever in a situation like that during a retreat, then know that it may happen and everything will be fine. Easier said than done.
@@Clair_FireBirdI think it was the ego fighting back. In my case it was not demons or anything like that. I could not sleep, and was exhausted and after a couple of days every time I started to doze off, I would see disturbing images. I thought I was going crazy and had damaged something permanently. All fabrications of the mind, of course, I am fine now.
Rather than jealous that Angelo and Sasha have it, this gives me hope that it can and will happen for me. Strange things have been happening for months now…like I am being led down the path.
Wow!!!!!! I absolutely loved Sasha speaking so honestly about seeing demons. I had a very scary dream last night that was very vivid and realistic. It made me see the true power of my mind, fear that I had not been able to see before. I welcome more!
It seems as the resistance to the thought is what causes the suffering. When preferences are just seen as patterns or habits, ( just a narrative), then we no longer suffer when there is no resistance to thought pattern.
Appreciate the sharing here. Have experienced Jesus' crucixion, seeing through the eyes of all in the one, demons, the love, the fear, the unspecialness, no self separate, no self...was told "Love is everything, the only thing. Every expression wants only this." Again, so grateful for Sasha sharing so honestly and vulnerably. Thank you.
Absolutely outstanding talk! Definitely is a hell that isn’t in or of this particular. I was in it for an undetermined amount of time. Definitely don’t wanna go back
Such a powerful journey from a specialness pattern trying to hijack awakening to being all open on the cross and facing the demon. One. of the most intriguing interviews on the internet.
I found this chat with Sasha very relatable. She's from the same part of the UK as me, similar age, also a writer, articulates herself in a really relatable way. But then I checked out her website. How to use magic to get a better car?! "I manifested £132,000." Oh dear. I try to be open minded, but that stuff is a red flag to me.
That's where she was at that time. I think she's moved on but hasn't reconciled with her previous phase yet. A lot is happening for her. A lot is changing.
I've followed her after reading her books (usually only 99p) and she's such a breath of fresh air from the usual "law of attraction' types. She's as down to earth as she is here. I understand what you mean about red flags, I avoid such people myself, but after getting to know her more I can see how different she is.
Thank you for the intimate sharing of being. During the conversation there was a sense of a beautiful and uninhibited appreciation of the reality in each and every moment.
Such a great video, loads of great pointers in this one - please give us more of you both doing just this and following your stream of conversation... there are so many adjuncts covered that make up a beautiful winding narrative but also each point validates itself further in the context of the whole 1hr20mins
Thank you Sasha for sharing. Your story about the demons is incredible. I had no idea it could be so terrifying. Hopefully I remember your story when my turn comes.
Angelo, as I was listening to the things you and Sasha were describing in what the ego wants, it really sounds like very child-like needs, kind of the time the ego forms. Being special, getting attention, being loved, being safe etc. Quite fascinating how as humans we go through a construction process (conditioning) and then a deconstrcution process...
I just told Chad during our session a week or two ago about how the first video helped me with my insomnia and started my journey! Can’t wait to watch this one :)
I want to share that at some point at the video I took my diary and I started writing "but should it be that the" barrier " is also something wanting to be felt, the container giving form, a way of the unlimited experiencing limit as if your sense of self as limited being is something wanting to be felt, experienced, and not actually a struggle. To feel as a struggle, to personify it, it is also an experience, one of the infinite possibilities of experience. "Separatedness" is an experience wanting to be felt and it can only happen as illusion, because isn't intrinsic true. There's only one "material" composing it all and that "material" is nothingness " _so at this point, when I wrote down the word nothingness I heard it from Angelo's mouth on the video and I felt that shiver as if I saw a ghost or something crazy. While I was writing I forgot about the video and this synchronicity brought my attention back. I experienced the feeling of "this synchronicity was special" and laughed of how actually it's a thought that makes it special and the thought making it special is another experience (looooooping). Anyway, I started the video back from where I started losing my attention into writing and watched it again. In the end I wrote "to realize all of this realizations while in a human body full of beliefs it's also an experience wanting to be felt". And I can feel somewhere in an weird way that is actually not happening at all. I was afraid that sharing this would be from "wanting to be special", then noticed that the fear itself was another face of it, and in the end you talked exactly about it, about choosing the background being another story. Beautiful. Thank you for this heart to heart talk, for the honest and simplicity. I think I finally get the name of this channel, it's not random. Simply always awakeeeeeeee.
I've been immersed in Angelo's content this week (after self-enquiry 10 years or so ago realising there is no self (There is still a felt sense of separate self)) and I had a very present experience yesterday that made it very clear fear is going to be part of this. No idea how I knew, but it was a very clear and real that as I release the effortful contraction that is separating my experience into two there will be fear. I guess I''ll just continue to release and deal with it when I get there 🤷♂ I'm scared and excited
Post awakening, I had the same kind of experiences as Sasha. Demons appeared in lucid dreams. They poked out my eyes and tore out my heart. In other dreams they were eating my flesh. It was terrifying.
My ego said I was receiving a 'special' awakening 😂 I always wanted to feel special so I am glad I have recognised this for what it is before I bought into it.
Existential terror is something I have experienced a few times, 1 during a meditation retreat, 1 after it and one during an Ayahuasca ceremony. I don't know if it will happen again. Don't care either. It will or it won't 🫠
Had an "on the cross moment" too, where I thought I was going to die and I thought "wow, ive really gone and killed myself, and now my family are gonna find my body in the garden". Then I was given a choice: "do you want to stay or do you want to go?" I said "stay stay stay stay" and then the cosmic joke set in and I went inside and had some lunch lol. From feeling like I was going to physically die to eating a bacon sandwich lol.
I remember a similar experience when kayaking many years ago. I had flipped in a rapid and couldn’t right myself. I could see the blue sky and white clouds above me and I relaxed and said to myself “so this is how I go”. It was so peaceful. Then I had the thought “hell no” and I exploded out of the boat.
Wonderful Interview, to some degree terrifying :D And, I don't feel experiencing demons needs to mean that hell or demons or any of that is real, it's just another experience in Consciousness, saying these are demons and there are real makes it sound fixed in a way that doesn't resonate with me in a way, but who knows how it is, when there comes the experience of fears in this body-mind. Oh my !! ;)
Just wanted to share my experience with sticky thoughts that seem to cluster around a particular theme, such as thoughts related to wanting to feel special. Maybe someone will find this helpful in the comments. Some thematic thoughts seem to have life because after having the thought, almost instantaneously, there’s a judgement thought that functions to actually create distance from the original thought. You might find that this distance is being created because there’s actually just something very raw and innocent being pointed to by these thoughts. Maybe an inquiry like this: “What’s this judging thought pointing to?”
Question about Decisions. (I've had a first awakening though only some gradual insights towards the second described here). The way the "ego-coopting" awakening is described here is absolutely relatable though it's much easier to see through now, and not get too lost in it. However, when a recent seemingly important life-decision has come up, while I notice the ego thinks it is weighing some sort of decision, it still feels like "I" need to make some a decision - like a big job/life trajectory decision - any pointers to help with "no decision needs to be made - it's already decided"?. Many times I've heard something like "the decision is already made" or "the decision has decided" but the "ego-coopting" for me here is pretty strong with this supposed decision - dropping into the body to just notice sensations feels right but also somewhat avoidant because there is still a supposed choice to make/pros and cons to weigh. Any suggestions on working with this? Or just keep dropping into the sense-field and the next thing that comes up will know how to respond? Just seems to be something sticking here and not easy to see clearly. Thank you and great interview - very helpful!
I think you want to mindfully ("objectively") weight the pros and cons from the perspective of an impartial observer. Make note of which part of you is speaking/making the statement. If it's the ego speaking about its wants, make note of that. If the motivations are primarily ego, then I suggest pursuing something else for better reasons -- in alignment with who you are or want to grow toward next. For example, a friend was trying to decide what area of employment to pursue after achieving his psycholgy PhD. One possibility was neuroscience scholarship. He had never mentioned being interested in neuroscience before. He wasn't much of a scholar. It was clear that if he were to pursue neuroscience, it would be for the social status and prestige - all egoic reasons. What is your root reason or motivation is a question to ask. Have your reasons and motivations stem from a source worthy enough to spend your time doing it.
@@dke388209 Thank you! I appreciate the advice and think that makes a lot of sense. The ego is definitely asserting itself here and wants to position itself but there is something quieter under all that noise I will gravitate towards.
Funny Sasha or anyone else doesn't mention Kundalini cause that's what happened to her. Demons, Jesus, disembodied entities ect all classic Kundalini phenomena as the Consciouness expands through its various layers.
"We are spirit Bound to this flesh We go around One foot nailed down But bound to Reach out beyond This flesh Become pneuma!" -Maynard James Keenan 'TOOL' my favorite heavy metal band.
This is kind of an unrelated question but I'd like to ask anyway. I was knocked out recently for surgery and I'd like to ask what is consciousness when you are knocked out? People talk about emptiness or enlightenment as the part of you that is eternal and infinite that can never change. it certainly didn't seem like that during that time, no sense field, no thoughts, no direct experience to refence at all.
I'm also a philosopher and I see these non-dual tendencies in so many Western philosophers! Everyone is trying to get at this, some more indirectly than others, but the tendency is there.
@AlwaysAwake I do teach philosophy at SUNY Stony Brook, but as a PhD student, not yet as a full time professor. I also have a podcast (the speakings podcast) and am experimenting with other endeavors to try to approach philosophy in a more experiential, personalized, embodied way.
phenomenology, philosophy of technology, philosophy of language, temporality and selfhood (all topics that are quite related to non-dual reality!)@@SimplyAlwaysAwake
Hi. Is my third eye and kundalini awaking a trick from my ego. I rewired my brains with mantras HARD CORE. I think all the time. My body is healing itself. I've felt a presence healing my body. I have a certain level of acceptance from my mantras and also spend hours in my body everyday. I interpret that the rewiring of my brain activated my pineal gland and I felt it happen. Lots goes on in my body. What is this? Is it a trick from my ego?
I hope this illusion collapse gets to the point talked about it. I watched it with a strange mix of jealousy and admiration but nothing was achieved and there was no one to achieve it and nothing to feel jealous or admiration about. I wonder how much ego is still left. It's definitely setting up some idealised view of awakening or enlightenment even though there's a lot of "this is it" but this seems to be making it something grand and desirable.
This leaves me perplex. I watch this and I feel nauseated. And yet, I have been watching Angelo's videos for quite awhile and they do speak to me. But this one... There is something that seems not quite right and I do not know what it is. I know that it is not envy. The sensationalism perhaps. Very entertaining though. Jolly good show!
“Being real is so much better than being special” is a great quote 🙏🏼
I really love and appreciate these very authentic, honest conversations about awakening. Too often, we only see the promo reel of “awakening” highlights and it can be isolating when your experience is more shitshow than transcendence.
Beautiful. Beautiful. Thank you 💙
Everything just wants to be felt. That's all I ever needed. 🙏🏻
Yes. Beautiful ♥️
Okay thoroughly profound.
SO helpful Sasha and Angelo! ❤
Haven’t seen your first interview with Sasha (yet), but this is phenomenal. The exchange of Sasha sharing her experience with together with Angelo’s comments…. The combination of freshness and clarity is so engaging and helpful at the same time. Thank you both! 😊
I love you guys so much!! So grateful to be able to inner understand this all. 😁🙏💙
this arrived at the right time for me. Have been thinking about how corrupting the desire for specialness is.
Love, love, love this conversation . On my knees with thankfulness for the direct, unmediated honesty, integrity and unconditional love demonstrated in this way of speaking about all the difficulties and beauties of Simply Always Awake. 💜🙏💖🙏💫🙏💥💥💥💥💥
This is so helpful!
Actually had a profound effect on me!
Thank you Angelo and Sasha!
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Sasha may have just articulated something better than anyone else has for 10.000 years
The fact that Sasha has a backround in western philosophy and had an experience of Christ is really helpful to me because I don't hear as many people from such a backround on this channel. Thank you both very much for this wonderful interview.
When Sasha spoke of the neediness of the ego, I thought of a newborn crying to get attention. “I’m hungry. WAH!” “I’m cold. WAH!” I want my mommy. WAH!” And then the song, “Brass in Pocket” with its lyrics came to mind,
Cause I gonna make you see
There's nobody else here
No one like me
I'm special (special), so special (special)
I gotta have some of your attention, give it to me
With reference to the Nisargadatta quote, “In my world love is the only law. I do not ask for love, I give it.” Instead of an ego seeking and begging for the universe to turn its attention upon ‘me,’ attention is focused outward upon each and everything that arises in the universe, feeling it all. Unconditional attention is unconditional love.
Mind you, we may want unconditional love/attention, but when it’s associated with childhood truama, we also want to hide from it. This leaves us as if standing in an endless open field wanting to be seen while pretending we can’t be seen. Feeling completely vulnerable. Terrified of all our faults being laid open for all to see. Which is the equivalent of death. Death of the ego. Death of the self-image. Just wanting to be seen and felt comes at a price to the ego.
I am beyond grateful for this interview!! Sasha your "demon" story just changed my life probably. I experienced similar fear- but when someone tells you to feel it that has not experienced it-it makes you wonder- what if they are wrong and i give in to some demonic energy. And so you sharing this, that you went through fear in this form is just the best thing i could hear!! Thank you!! 🙏 P.s. i did meet this with my first awakwening but never thought it was the fear teachers are talking about. At some point i was too tired to fight it and gave in, but i didnt make the connection. Thank you for sharing this publicly ❤🙏
I now realise that this is what I struggled with and couldn’t innerstand, was that nothing lasts, that everything is so transient, I was always so sad was flowing and dying and disappearing continually. I got really cross with God once, and got this apologetic voice saying, well I give you the snowdrops, then daffodils 🌼 and then the tulips 🌷, then the bluebells etc etc… it is a continuous appearance etc.
So helpful, so honest and authentic and exactly what I needed to hear right now ( of course!). Thank you both so much.
I really like when awakened people say something they used to hear before they were awake (e.g. "just sit and look") and then get exasperated because they realize that those of us who haven't realized it don't know what they're talking about. 😂 The exasperation itself feels like a pointer for me in a way I can't totally pinpoint.
My all time favourite inverviewee; glad to see a return EP.
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Thank God for honesty, truth and openness.. acceptance of EVERYTHING…
So much of what you shared here has been my experience! Even being on the cross and then years later being confronted by the devil! But more than this the whole process of co-opting awakening by the ego really hit home. I've had so many awakenings with such clarity and seem to live that clarity, speaking it, sharing it, helping others but always with that feeling of knowing that something was still controlling things. It has always felt like a paradox that made no sense...how can I really deeply know this wisdom and still have an identity, even if that identity felt somehow beneficial.... now I have something to look at. Oh and as for the fear, I agree Sasha so absolutely unexpected and yes Angelo untethered is the exact description.. love this so much
Sasha, thank you so much for your sharing...cannot tell you how much your interviews have inspired. Much Love to you on your path!
tuning in part two ty!
Super helpful! "Feel everything" is pure gold for me
Whenever someone rich and famous takes their own life, many people seem confused about why they would do such a thing. I think the explanation is right here: feeling special also creates the feeling of separation and isolation and nutures the fears of being an imposter and losing the high status. Kurt Cobain is an example of a person who couldn't bear the perceived specialness that others projected on to him.
I agree
@Brushstroke, in the case of Cobain's suicide - he despised the media's intrusion into his personal life and the perceived witch hunt. He was most probably undiagnosed bipolar, and had a crippling heroin addiction at the time of his death. His fame may have accelerated his downward drug spiral in that he had easier access and a 100+ dollar a day habit. He had a family history of suicide on his father's side. When he killed himself, he had been faced days earlier with an intervention and forced into rehab, which he escaped from. The note they found by his body expressed a desire for his daughter (a toddler) to have a better life without him in it. I'd say his story and character is fascinating because he was quite a paradox. Don't think he ever dreamt of worldwide fame, but he was quite ambitious in his band's early days - calling up radio stations, and headhunting execs at Subpop records to get his debut album released. I think in his suicide it was a perfect storm of events - I agree that had he not been exposed to fame and money he'd maybe still be here, because his drug addiction worsened in a relatively short 2 year period. If you see him in the "Montage of Heck" doco, it's shocking to see the deterioration. Thanks for your comment. It reminded me also of something Jim Carrey said about wishing everyone could achieve all the fame and wealth they desired, because they'd see it isn't the answer to their problems.
Yaaass!!! Thank you! I got so much out of that, Sasha. I was on that retreat with you having my own struggle. Best of luck with the next revolution of your evolution.🙏
Remembering Alan watts framing this as "getting one up on the universe."
Sasha is so clear and specific and relatable. I too didn’t come up for Q&A because I’ve been on a lot of DBND. I borrowed a pen from that deity stand to write my initials on my pink bathroom slippers because they were MINE. I feel ashamed and exposed by writing this.
Very honest and i can relate. Thank you both.
Hi! 4 days ago I watched her first two videos in this channel and caused some big release. There were kind of two chunks of beliefs that I wasn't being able to fully see through and I finally could let it go. Thoughts became much less sticky. The decisions for the actions seem non existent. Everything is flowing so much easier.
This interview brought attention to be aware of this subtle ways the mind in the background and the fear. In the last few seconds of the video I felt some transmission to integrate deeper this moment.
Thank you. I love your way of sharing This.
Great to hear it! Welcome to the channel
I appreciate the openness and vulnerability of this interview. It points out the pitfalls of awakening and the continued capacity of ego to catapult itself into an even bigger, more special non-existent self. Having had visions and experiences similar to those she describes here, I’d say it’s possible for specialness ideas to creep into those narrations as well. It’s also easy to ‘want’ what she has as evidence of achieving enlightenment, etc. that is a pitfall that selfing can generate for me out of watching these videos. It’s very slippery. And, yet there is great opportunity for seeing the dynamics of my ego in relation to those being interviewed. Endless reflections of the fetters.
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Great discussion about ego attempting to assert itself/take control of your awakening.
In therapy, the sufferer must experience the emotion of the situation to remove the blockage and move on relieved. "Everything just wants to be felt" and the machinations of the ego may be among the fundamental truths of our existence.
i think the biggest “thing” is that thoughts have no reference. it’s so worth talking about ❤
She's great. Indeed......indeed, there is no "managing" fear.....that's why terror is a better word than fear.
Wow .. I hope you guys know how much positive impact y’all cause with this conversation, the description of experiences really helps to go through this path, I have felt the presence of Jesus at different times, Sasha experience is very touching, Thanks you both ❤
The real life is somathic sensations, and feeling it without tought is the secret.
Yes it is very helpful, thank You 2. ❤❤
I love this second video with Sasha. Her kind of theatrical way of talking made me smile 😀what you are talking about Sasha is very helpful, especially the fear thing. I can kind of relate to the expectation about how it will show up. Now I’m prepared that I can’t be prepared 🤣🤣
I didn’t have a shift in identity, the person here is quite established but sight has changed significantly a couple of months ago and since then everything is so clear and so without distance. So I’m just tuning into this wonderful new strangeness and when thoughts are getting annoying I just have to look at the cupboard or anything. Ah, best here works looking at walls of buildings, especially when the sun is shining. There is a silence love pouring out from them.
Thanks for sharing 🙏❤️
I can relate to your demons' story. Just want to make a comment that may be useful for someone in the same situation I was about 7 months ago during a 10-day silent vipassana retreat. Everything started fine, but around the 5th day, I started having panic attacks. Eventually, when trying to sleep I saw distorted faces and other strange images. I thought I was going insane, with extreme anxiety and fear. Your ego knows exactly where and how to hit when it is threatened. I had to leave the retreat out of desperation. I wish somebody had reassured me that everything would be fine and that what I was experiencing was not so abnormal. If you are ever in a situation like that during a retreat, then know that it may happen and everything will be fine. Easier said than done.
Was it your ego fighting back? Not necessarily being possessed by demons?
@@Clair_FireBirdI think it was the ego fighting back. In my case it was not demons or anything like that. I could not sleep, and was exhausted and after a couple of days every time I started to doze off, I would see disturbing images. I thought I was going crazy and had damaged something permanently. All fabrications of the mind, of course, I am fine now.
The ineffable works in mysterious ways. Thank you both for being the catalyst to expose a vicious inner judge. 🙏💗
What a beautiful conversation!
Beautiful interview, so much resonance 🥰
Wow!!! This conversation was so helpful!!! Thank you both ❤
Yes, so helpful...been on same journey...now listening to REAL inner voice more often. Thanks for sharing ❤ Sasha. x
Rather than jealous that Angelo and Sasha have it, this gives me hope that it can and will happen for me. Strange things have been happening for months now…like I am being led down the path.
Wow!!!!!! I absolutely loved Sasha speaking so honestly about seeing demons. I had a very scary dream last night that was very vivid and realistic. It made me see the true power of my mind, fear that I had not been able to see before. I welcome more!
Watch for a second time….got so much more….less scary …thank you❣️
It seems as the resistance to the thought is what causes the suffering. When preferences are just seen as patterns or habits, ( just a narrative), then we no longer suffer when there is no resistance to thought pattern.
Appreciate the sharing here. Have experienced Jesus' crucixion, seeing through the eyes of all in the one, demons, the love, the fear, the unspecialness, no self separate, no self...was told "Love is everything, the only thing. Every expression wants only this." Again, so grateful for Sasha sharing so honestly and vulnerably. Thank you.
Great introduction about ego wanting to control awakening
Absolutely outstanding talk!
Definitely is a hell that isn’t in or of this particular.
I was in it for an undetermined amount of time.
Definitely don’t wanna go back
hell yes...unmanagable fear, so familiar with it... thank you sooo much for talking about it!!!
Such a powerful journey from a specialness pattern trying to hijack awakening to being all open on the cross and facing the demon. One. of the most intriguing interviews on the internet.
I found this chat with Sasha very relatable. She's from the same part of the UK as me, similar age, also a writer, articulates herself in a really relatable way. But then I checked out her website. How to use magic to get a better car?! "I manifested £132,000." Oh dear. I try to be open minded, but that stuff is a red flag to me.
agreed on red flag.
That's where she was at that time. I think she's moved on but hasn't reconciled with her previous phase yet. A lot is happening for her. A lot is changing.
I've followed her after reading her books (usually only 99p) and she's such a breath of fresh air from the usual "law of attraction' types. She's as down to earth as she is here. I understand what you mean about red flags, I avoid such people myself, but after getting to know her more I can see how different she is.
Thank you for the intimate sharing of being. During the conversation there was a sense of a beautiful and uninhibited appreciation of the reality in each and every moment.
Such a great video, loads of great pointers in this one - please give us more of you both doing just this and following your stream of conversation... there are so many adjuncts covered that make up a beautiful winding narrative but also each point validates itself further in the context of the whole 1hr20mins
Thank you Sasha for sharing. Your story about the demons is incredible. I had no idea it could be so terrifying. Hopefully I remember your story when my turn comes.
I didn’t want this fo end! Thank you for this 💕
What a densely packed hour and 20 minutes!!
Wow, just wow!! So helpful! ❤🙏
❤Love it❤ Thank you both ❤
Angelo, as I was listening to the things you and Sasha were describing in what the ego wants, it really sounds like very child-like needs, kind of the time the ego forms. Being special, getting attention, being loved, being safe etc. Quite fascinating how as humans we go through a construction process (conditioning) and then a deconstrcution process...
Pure gold! No words.
Thanks for sharing. 🙏🎯♥😶🙏
Fabulous ❤🎉
I just told Chad during our session a week or two ago about how the first video helped me with my insomnia and started my journey! Can’t wait to watch this one :)
I would never be the person to say bring on the fear. I've heard a lot of scary stories.
I want to share that at some point at the video I took my diary and I started writing "but should it be that the" barrier " is also something wanting to be felt, the container giving form, a way of the unlimited experiencing limit as if your sense of self as limited being is something wanting to be felt, experienced, and not actually a struggle. To feel as a struggle, to personify it, it is also an experience, one of the infinite possibilities of experience. "Separatedness" is an experience wanting to be felt and it can only happen as illusion, because isn't intrinsic true. There's only one "material" composing it all and that "material" is nothingness " _so at this point, when I wrote down the word nothingness I heard it from Angelo's mouth on the video and I felt that shiver as if I saw a ghost or something crazy. While I was writing I forgot about the video and this synchronicity brought my attention back. I experienced the feeling of "this synchronicity was special" and laughed of how actually it's a thought that makes it special and the thought making it special is another experience (looooooping). Anyway, I started the video back from where I started losing my attention into writing and watched it again. In the end I wrote "to realize all of this realizations while in a human body full of beliefs it's also an experience wanting to be felt". And I can feel somewhere in an weird way that is actually not happening at all. I was afraid that sharing this would be from "wanting to be special", then noticed that the fear itself was another face of it, and in the end you talked exactly about it, about choosing the background being another story. Beautiful. Thank you for this heart to heart talk, for the honest and simplicity. I think I finally get the name of this channel, it's not random. Simply always awakeeeeeeee.
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The honesty is just beautiful
I recall being right there and getting the cosmic joke of it all!! 🙏💙
Just beautiful.... 💖
Love her! Terrying and relevant. :)
These are her best teachings yet!
Very relatable, very helpful
This really resonated with me (me lol). Thanks for posting ❤
I've been immersed in Angelo's content this week (after self-enquiry 10 years or so ago realising there is no self (There is still a felt sense of separate self)) and I had a very present experience yesterday that made it very clear fear is going to be part of this. No idea how I knew, but it was a very clear and real that as I release the effortful contraction that is separating my experience into two there will be fear.
I guess I''ll just continue to release and deal with it when I get there 🤷♂ I'm scared and excited
Wow thanks!!
Post awakening, I had the same kind of experiences as Sasha. Demons appeared in lucid dreams. They poked out my eyes and tore out my heart. In other dreams they were eating my flesh. It was terrifying.
So true.....the ego saying "let me handle this for you" ❤x
My ego said I was receiving a 'special' awakening 😂 I always wanted to feel special so I am glad I have recognised this for what it is before I bought into it.
Existential terror is something I have experienced a few times, 1 during a meditation retreat, 1 after it and one during an Ayahuasca ceremony. I don't know if it will happen again. Don't care either. It will or it won't 🫠
Had an "on the cross moment" too, where I thought I was going to die and I thought "wow, ive really gone and killed myself, and now my family are gonna find my body in the garden". Then I was given a choice: "do you want to stay or do you want to go?" I said "stay stay stay stay" and then the cosmic joke set in and I went inside and had some lunch lol. From feeling like I was going to physically die to eating a bacon sandwich lol.
I remember a similar experience when kayaking many years ago. I had flipped in a rapid and couldn’t right myself. I could see the blue sky and white clouds above me and I relaxed and said to myself “so this is how I go”. It was so peaceful. Then I had the thought “hell no” and I exploded out of the boat.
Yes! So peaceful, and yet such a primal desire to keep living
Wonderful Interview, to some degree terrifying :D And, I don't feel experiencing demons needs to mean that hell or demons or any of that is real, it's just another experience in Consciousness, saying these are demons and there are real makes it sound fixed in a way that doesn't resonate with me in a way, but who knows how it is, when there comes the experience of fears in this body-mind. Oh my !! ;)
But does that fear happen to everyone?
Just wanted to share my experience with sticky thoughts that seem to cluster around a particular theme, such as thoughts related to wanting to feel special. Maybe someone will find this helpful in the comments.
Some thematic thoughts seem to have life because after having the thought, almost instantaneously, there’s a judgement thought that functions to actually create distance from the original thought. You might find that this distance is being created because there’s actually just something very raw and innocent being pointed to by these thoughts.
Maybe an inquiry like this: “What’s this judging thought pointing to?”
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Question about Decisions. (I've had a first awakening though only some gradual insights towards the second described here). The way the "ego-coopting" awakening is described here is absolutely relatable though it's much easier to see through now, and not get too lost in it. However, when a recent seemingly important life-decision has come up, while I notice the ego thinks it is weighing some sort of decision, it still feels like "I" need to make some a decision - like a big job/life trajectory decision - any pointers to help with "no decision needs to be made - it's already decided"?. Many times I've heard something like "the decision is already made" or "the decision has decided" but the "ego-coopting" for me here is pretty strong with this supposed decision - dropping into the body to just notice sensations feels right but also somewhat avoidant because there is still a supposed choice to make/pros and cons to weigh. Any suggestions on working with this? Or just keep dropping into the sense-field and the next thing that comes up will know how to respond? Just seems to be something sticking here and not easy to see clearly. Thank you and great interview - very helpful!
I think you want to mindfully ("objectively") weight the pros and cons from the perspective of an impartial observer. Make note of which part of you is speaking/making the statement. If it's the ego speaking about its wants, make note of that. If the motivations are primarily ego, then I suggest pursuing something else for better reasons -- in alignment with who you are or want to grow toward next. For example, a friend was trying to decide what area of employment to pursue after achieving his psycholgy PhD. One possibility was neuroscience scholarship. He had never mentioned being interested in neuroscience before. He wasn't much of a scholar. It was clear that if he were to pursue neuroscience, it would be for the social status and prestige - all egoic reasons. What is your root reason or motivation is a question to ask. Have your reasons and motivations stem from a source worthy enough to spend your time doing it.
@@dke388209 Thank you! I appreciate the advice and think that makes a lot of sense. The ego is definitely asserting itself here and wants to position itself but there is something quieter under all that noise I will gravitate towards.
Funny Sasha or anyone else doesn't mention Kundalini cause that's what happened to her. Demons, Jesus, disembodied entities ect all classic Kundalini phenomena as the Consciouness expands through its various layers.
And by the way the Consciouness in which all this apparent phenomenon is occurring isn't even real.
😂😂😂😂. That happened to me!!! I thought I was the awake one and everyone else was asleep!!! 🙏💙🤷♀️🤦♀️
"We are spirit
Bound to this flesh
We go around
One foot nailed down
But bound to
Reach out beyond
This flesh
Become pneuma!"
-Maynard James Keenan 'TOOL' my favorite heavy metal band.
This is kind of an unrelated question but I'd like to ask anyway. I was knocked out recently for surgery and I'd like to ask what is consciousness when you are knocked out? People talk about emptiness or enlightenment as the part of you that is eternal and infinite that can never change. it certainly didn't seem like that during that time, no sense field, no thoughts, no direct experience to refence at all.
probably the same “thing” it is when you’re not knocked out 🤪
a coffee cup
sitting on the counter
in its place
shining with the most innocent dignity
for you
the humility of life will indeed
break your heart
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This is what happens when an ego that thinks it is a doer buys into concepts advanced by other egos that think they control things
This is it.
I'm also a philosopher and I see these non-dual tendencies in so many Western philosophers! Everyone is trying to get at this, some more indirectly than others, but the tendency is there.
Do you teach?
@AlwaysAwake I do teach philosophy at SUNY Stony Brook, but as a PhD student, not yet as a full time professor. I also have a podcast (the speakings podcast) and am experimenting with other endeavors to try to approach philosophy in a more experiential, personalized, embodied way.
@@sondracharbadze4178Cool!
@@sondracharbadze4178what areas are you specialized in or working on?
phenomenology, philosophy of technology, philosophy of language, temporality and selfhood (all topics that are quite related to non-dual reality!)@@SimplyAlwaysAwake
First the Dark, then the Light
The Light, and then the Dark
Hi. Is my third eye and kundalini awaking a trick from my ego. I rewired my brains with mantras HARD CORE. I think all the time. My body is healing itself. I've felt a presence healing my body. I have a certain level of acceptance from my mantras and also spend hours in my body everyday. I interpret that the rewiring of my brain activated my pineal gland and I felt it happen. Lots goes on in my body. What is this? Is it a trick from my ego?
I hope this illusion collapse gets to the point talked about it. I watched it with a strange mix of jealousy and admiration but nothing was achieved and there was no one to achieve it and nothing to feel jealous or admiration about. I wonder how much ego is still left. It's definitely setting up some idealised view of awakening or enlightenment even though there's a lot of "this is it" but this seems to be making it something grand and desirable.
She makes me laugh
This leaves me perplex. I watch this and I feel nauseated. And yet, I have been watching Angelo's videos for quite awhile and they do speak to me. But this one... There is something that seems not quite right and I do not know what it is. I know that it is not envy. The sensationalism perhaps. Very entertaining though. Jolly good show!
Everything is an appearance in the mind of God/consciousness which is pure unconditional love for all.
Consciousness creates experiences for itself?
Who is the one,who wants to lose specialness?