Crystal Meth Addict interview-Milena

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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Milena, a crystal meth addict in Los Angeles.
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  • @indeyawomack4070
    @indeyawomack4070 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    With her candor and personality, I can just envision her as a project manager who hosts fun cocktail parties and has dinner with friends with this boyfriend that she does everything but hasn’t married in seven years…and she brings the best bottles of wine with nice necklaces and goes to museums….and likes dresses with pockets….in another life….

  • @rolandohernandez1337
    @rolandohernandez1337 ปีที่แล้ว +97

    She seems to think that she has everything under control, meanwhile she’s living on the streets performing so called sexual favors to support her addiction, wake tf up kid, every addict thinks that they have everything under control, hopefully you’ll get some serious help and get your life together, you have a beautiful life ahead of you without all of the bullshit, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

    • @jenniferloftus2363
      @jenniferloftus2363 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      She knows it's not under control.

    • @stuff1784
      @stuff1784 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Justifying her behavior… typical of addicts

    • @BettyYatesSouth
      @BettyYatesSouth หลายเดือนก่อน

      She is so full of herself

  • @cashmoney2493
    @cashmoney2493 ปีที่แล้ว +124

    "I can stop any time I want..."
    - Said every addict in the history of the world

    • @ryant6009
      @ryant6009 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Except not. I've heard very few addicts say that when I was in the life for many years.

    • @trustmesonimyourfather9097
      @trustmesonimyourfather9097 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      "right now im JUST on crystal meth" lmao

    • @aroseinwinter05
      @aroseinwinter05 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@ryant6009true addicts know better. They’re a slave to the drug & some even seem to romanticize that possessiveness. They know they can’t stop & many have no desire to do so.

  • @Ozark_Bule
    @Ozark_Bule ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I've never heard anybody talk so much and say so little, you know.

    • @micro-uhgresh-uhnn
      @micro-uhgresh-uhnn ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Gift of gab. A lot of nothing.

    • @yoginikaltri333
      @yoginikaltri333 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Yup… this comment was a waste of my attention. Please go somewhere else where comments that dont add anything are appreciated Mister Perfect Judger🤘🏽

    • @yoginikaltri333
      @yoginikaltri333 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      ‘When me and my boyfriend were turkey basting’….. uhmmm a line I dont think i’ll ever hear again. I need to commentate this moment and appreciate the silliness of addiction. Lmaooo (no pun intended🤭)

    • @sciencenotsrigma
      @sciencenotsrigma 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@yoginikaltri333💯💯💯

  • @Earthdogbonzo3
    @Earthdogbonzo3 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    The black & white portraits uncover a brutal truth masked over in the interviews.

  • @ckh2815
    @ckh2815 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    She thinks she's not addicted. And she can stop whenever she wants to.

  • @jothegreek
    @jothegreek ปีที่แล้ว +92

    Meth is a hell of a drug

    • @openmike4559
      @openmike4559 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Nah cocaine is.

    • @Xyz46786
      @Xyz46786 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      @@openmike4559dude stop already are you 14 years old or something

    • @openmike4559
      @openmike4559 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Xyz46786 but it’s true cocaine is a helluva of a drug. 14 year olds cant afford 80 dollar grams of cocaine, shows how naive your are.

    • @sciencenotsrigma
      @sciencenotsrigma 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@Xyz46786. Different people have different chemistry and, thus, different preferences. 🤷

  • @Jacqloves
    @Jacqloves 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    As a very sexual, sexually adventurous incredibly open individual I find women who speak this way about their sexuality are the furthest from discovering their sexuality. Even though obviously they claim the opposite. They find their worth as a woman and their sexual worth based upon the approval of men. She has no idea who she is but a man once told her, “you’re not like other girls” felt validated and ran with it.

  • @matthewbrandon931
    @matthewbrandon931 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Milena there's a life waiting for you on the other side of addiction and disfunction. Go for it.

  • @juniorp726
    @juniorp726 ปีที่แล้ว +46

    Had 4 dudes from my old neighborhood pass away from overdoses within a week.. RIP

    • @magvs_mæstro216
      @magvs_mæstro216 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I am sorry for your loss

    • @Neetmotivation2
      @Neetmotivation2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      May their souls rest in peace. 🙏🏼

    • @AriesSagSexxx
      @AriesSagSexxx ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Damn, Don't drink the Kool-Aid ☠️

    • @ShellyMischelleMorrison
      @ShellyMischelleMorrison ปีที่แล้ว

      @Sophia P.⚘ My sympathy to you♡RIP, so many~The big Pharma-companies who lied started an opioid-epidemic, bribed Doctors to push it; Can Never, ever 'Replace one minute of 1-Life Lost'..And Wouldn't 😈, Even if they Could❗🕊R I S E☆FOLKs, RISE🕊🌎

    • @pambeforethestorm9784
      @pambeforethestorm9784 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Omg so sorry for your loss! I pray they rest in paradise 😢💔❤️🕊🕊🕊🕊

  • @Catalinaobregon
    @Catalinaobregon ปีที่แล้ว +16

    If she could put her energy into making a better life....it'd be a whole new world for her.

    • @DD-hf4qs
      @DD-hf4qs 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      God Willing ... 🤗🙏❤️🫶💯

  • @HERP6969
    @HERP6969 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I hope this person gets help. I hope she watches her interview and really listens to her own story.

  • @pambeforethestorm9784
    @pambeforethestorm9784 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    You can do this, Milena, trust! You mentioned that heroin takes everything away, well get on the path where you get everything Back, even from Meth!! You are such a beautiful soul 💛 I wish you all positive vibes and sobriety, and most of all......a PEACEFUL life! Rooting for you, Queen!! ❤️💫❤️💫❤️💫💫

    • @Xyz46786
      @Xyz46786 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      She seemed pretty positive to me.. probably the least suffering I’ve seen in an interview..

    • @sciencenotsrigma
      @sciencenotsrigma 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @l1zzyV1
    @l1zzyV1 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    when sex is your entire personality

    • @ash00001
      @ash00001 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      🤣🤣 she’s a man

    • @candyce6233
      @candyce6233 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      She said she likes the old guys. Looks like she kept one of her Johns button ups after she “customer serviced” him, as a memento. Nice 👍🏻

    • @papialeman
      @papialeman ปีที่แล้ว

      When it's the only thing you have to offer and are constantly on meth and everyone around you is on meth so you feel like a celebrity because everyone wants to f@ck you

  • @carlaburgos12
    @carlaburgos12 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    How unfortunate that this beautiful lady is going through this experience. You have proven yourself that you can quit drugs and change your life.

  • @JimmyZ213
    @JimmyZ213 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Dude she’s so spunned out of her mind 🤣🤣🤣🤣👍

  • @Through2You
    @Through2You ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Hey bro, no offense but you shouldn't let the people you interview go off-topic for so long.

  • @JimmyZ213
    @JimmyZ213 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    She’s losing her mind, she should never be left alone ,

  • @davejensen4775
    @davejensen4775 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Unfortunately I can’t see this lovely articulate young woman getting clean I hope I’m wrong good luck to her ❤

  • @eddied.5156
    @eddied.5156 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    She's such a gorgeous lady, sad to see anyone going down that path, she seems really smart and well spoken. She's going to be on the down side of that because she just enjoys it too much, it's all been wasted time if she doesn't get on a good path. Be a cleaning lady, at least that will be focused towards a goal.

    • @orianjuarez3074
      @orianjuarez3074 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Intelligent, articulate & gorgeous. I hope she gets clean. She has so much potential.

    • @flirtwd
      @flirtwd ปีที่แล้ว

      You beat me to it. She is a stunner but she is damaged.

    • @Xyz46786
      @Xyz46786 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Smart?

    • @snicker576
      @snicker576 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Gorgeous is pushing it, but I wish her well of course

    • @jackstraw262
      @jackstraw262 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      “Gorgeous” is a curse in addiction, it means you can always charm someone into giving you money for drugs

  • @TheMrdhyde
    @TheMrdhyde ปีที่แล้ว +2

    A-1 service!!! Can't find that everywhere in America anymore.

  • @khalidbechara9202
    @khalidbechara9202 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Don’t do drug kids

  • @tamsinlouw760
    @tamsinlouw760 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This interview irritated me. Only because the drug has allowed her to think drugs and deviant behaviour is ok.

  • @gabelizaola3232
    @gabelizaola3232 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You have to bring her back for an update.

  • @chicagorainbow8935
    @chicagorainbow8935 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    Good Morning SWU and Whoever Is Reading This Comment!!💜💗❤️

    • @brentschmogbert
      @brentschmogbert ปีที่แล้ว +3

      It’s evening here so good evening

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      🤟morning'

    • @Monkey114
      @Monkey114 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Good morning from Louisiana ❤️

    • @darcy.4739
      @darcy.4739 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Morning from California

    • @youremybiggestfan
      @youremybiggestfan ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Good morning Chicago Rainbow i wish you a good day / from Sweden

  • @rollandcurtis874
    @rollandcurtis874 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    How does dude know that these people are not lying just to get on his channel? Some people just want the attention so badly.

    • @openmike4559
      @openmike4559 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Does it really matter? Many of them do make up stuff, but the story is still interesting, take what you can from it, if not, oh well. I am into drugs and just trying to figure shit out.

    • @mandoguy726
      @mandoguy726 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Her amazing cans don't lie

    • @BologneseJones
      @BologneseJones ปีที่แล้ว

      I promise you drug users , pimps, and prositutes tell lies. The nature of what they do are lies. Start with that premise and men in comments that talk about women boobs like ignorant locker room talk

    • @helenbartoszek243
      @helenbartoszek243 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      So what if they are lying,, that's not the point. Anyway, Mark approaches them, not the other way around.

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ​@@helenbartoszek243 You should only use one comma, not two!!

  • @Dmarkd16
    @Dmarkd16 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I guess that’s what’s called “making the best out of a bad situation”.

  • @mendozagloria5888
    @mendozagloria5888 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    She thinks she knows everything, she needs to humble herself, realize she does not know everything and then maybe she can learn and grow

  • @jeffreyzervos6938
    @jeffreyzervos6938 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    She has no want to get clean. She is literally high right now.

  • @ranger275th9
    @ranger275th9 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    It's interesting how each of us have our own "reality", I've never used drugs but certain events thru my life have completely change how I view the world and what my reality is. Most people just aren't critical thinkers and probably would never in a million years take any sort of advice or lesson from her interview. More than likely, they will just throw judgement and act like they have all the answers and don't need any life lessons from someone like her.

  • @foxyroxy7189
    @foxyroxy7189 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’ve watched at least 100 of these interviews, and I couldn't get through five minutes of this one. I didn’t believe her from the first words out of her mouth. I didn't believe her from the first words out of her mouth …🙄🤦🏽‍♀️

  • @Emm-z-l7i
    @Emm-z-l7i 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    My Ex husband lost everything except his job. He’s a functioning crack addict and idk what ? 😢💔 A workaholic. Sex addict? He was molested as a child but he never told me within the 12 yrs together. He was raised very religious to a fault. Poor old man has missed out on having his children and grandkids in his life. He could have ended up in jail after he was abusive with women.

    • @Emm-z-l7i
      @Emm-z-l7i 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      My husband was or probably still is a crack addict. He told me that He’s done very bad things for crack. 🤔 He lost our big home and children. Somehow he’s kept his job. He has sleep apnea and used coke and crack and ? To get up for work with little sleep. 😢

  • @kristymurphy1363
    @kristymurphy1363 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Meth makes me feel normal I want to do things when I’m on it . When I’m sober I’m angry and can’t control my emotions when I’m high I feel normal I interact with people it also makes me feel feelings and be aware of things that I normally don’t see it’s good for me

  • @JanuaryEmbers19
    @JanuaryEmbers19 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    “I’m not like other girls”

  • @globalcliques
    @globalcliques ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You deserve better love 💜 you deserve happiness 😊 you deserve to be safe 💜

  • @holbygrlNMN
    @holbygrlNMN ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Ummm, she's not really reserved. She is the kind of chic who has to be in the spotlight. Not hating on her, I have just told myself the same things she's saying. She won't feel this way when she's in her mid 40's....because ummmm 👀👀👀

  • @olivia-hv9vr
    @olivia-hv9vr ปีที่แล้ว +24

    People in these comment sections ruin the message that the person is trying to get across every-time!
    Stop making it about you or letting your mind pour out negativity like the rest❤️

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Thank you! I was just about to say something like that.
      It's like the room is full of immaturity...people that haven't had much life experience or something.

    • @olivia-hv9vr
      @olivia-hv9vr ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@wesleyalan9179 i’m glad there’s at least two people who recognize humility and listen🌙 thanks for responding friend 💚

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@olivia-hv9vr
      Yeah..I don't talk sh*t about these interviewees.
      I'll talk sh*t to the trolls on here though, lol😄

    • @fingerprint5511
      @fingerprint5511 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You mean truth? I've noticed Americans really dislike truth, much prefer fantasy, which is why you have an enormous drug issue and homelessness! Protect what is wholesome!

    • @n3v3r2l8
      @n3v3r2l8 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      🙄

  • @kimberlythomas4373
    @kimberlythomas4373 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Lots of self gratification going on. I stopped watching her interview, meh.

  • @acon2834
    @acon2834 ปีที่แล้ว

    Mark, I love what you do. Maybe you should sit people like her down and have them watch the before and after interviews with Caroline to show them how a normal, clear-thinking person and disintegrate into a babbling schizophrenic after years on the streets... They all think it will never happen to them...

  • @tomburkart7814
    @tomburkart7814 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    She endorces crystal

  • @neva3504
    @neva3504 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I truly think this girl is trying to come on to Mark. She just can’t get off this topic of sex. Many women think the more they talk about sex the more they can get their way with men. I think this girl said she just got out of jail. She’s dying for a fix. She is strung out on drugs. And Mark that was one very long sex interview. You must’ve been really enjoying her conversation. I’m truly glad it came to an end because I didn’t want her going off on eating shit.

    • @LittleWhoo
      @LittleWhoo 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I think your observations are correct

  • @alexn398
    @alexn398 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    you know?

  • @Atlantis9Productions
    @Atlantis9Productions ปีที่แล้ว +448

    It's so weird to see how drugs will make homeless addicts think they have all answers, and make them believe they're just living a fun and carefree lifestyle, when it's actually a dark and devastating existence.

    • @ramzue1728
      @ramzue1728 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Lmfao 💀

    • @anneconklin8406
      @anneconklin8406 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I think mental illness causes that delusional thinking too. " I'm so independent, look, I don't need anyone, I'm taking care of myself just fine." No you're not. You have no shelter, regular food, clean clothes, health care or a healthy environment.
      Your life is full of crime and danger. 24/7 all you do is survive. And that is not living

    • @reallygood7886
      @reallygood7886 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Totally agree

    • @spaceage-qo8wz
      @spaceage-qo8wz ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Don't kick the addict

    • @anneconklin8406
      @anneconklin8406 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @space age444.666 not kicking the addict. Their words, and thinking, show a disconnect. I wish we had better access and treatment for mental illness and addiction. And addict is mentally unhealthy, and his/ her life choices are evidence of same.

  • @mistifeyed
    @mistifeyed ปีที่แล้ว +243

    This reminds me of a quote from one of the MANY people in my life that struggle with meth: “this reminds me of the time when my ex and I would do meth and be so busy getting so much stuff done when in all actuality we were running around aimlessly and getting absolutely nothing accomplished” In their eyes they really see that they’re empowered by meth and it makes their life so much better when in reality it’s just a mess.

    • @Indecisivetacos
      @Indecisivetacos ปีที่แล้ว +28

      I relate to your comment a lot, I have struggled with misusing adderall for a long time and it gives me an extreme false sense of productivity. I can wash a cup and feel like a god for doing something so simple

    • @ScottAllen5568
      @ScottAllen5568 ปีที่แล้ว +30

      Once I moved my entertainment center from one corner to the other. It took me a couple of hours to move all the wires and cables and shit. Once it was all set up, I decided it would be better in the next corner. And then after that, to the next corner. After about 24 hours of this, it ended up back in the original corner exactly as it was before I hit the meth.

    • @mistifeyed
      @mistifeyed ปีที่แล้ว +22

      @@ScottAllen5568 Wow! That’s powerful. My sons father got his girlfriend he had after me hooked. For the last 4 years when I see her all she’s ever doing is packing a bunch of shit in her car, or taking a bunch of shit out of her car. Putting stuff in her car, taking stuff out of her car. She had a good life before him. A good job as a manager, a 401k, weight on her bones and now she’s like 100 lbs and in jail for 6 months. It’s so sad.

    • @andrewlineberger7544
      @andrewlineberger7544 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      As different as we all are .. we're kinda all the same..I can definitely relate.. Been clean from Meth for 18 months

    • @beverleysteele1106
      @beverleysteele1106 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      i totally relate to what you are saying,i used to dabble but my friend was addicted i observed him alot and also myself running around doing a whole lot of nothing

  • @SofiaTHEfIRST1873
    @SofiaTHEfIRST1873 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    She's talking like she has her life under control... Girl.. You live on skid row...

  • @joseparks2863
    @joseparks2863 ปีที่แล้ว +373

    I started doing meth, coke, and weed at 18. Then at age 19 I lost my mind and was diagnosed with psychosis. Recovered and fell into major major depression and gained like 60 pounds. I was about 210 pounds. I’m 30 now and very fit, have an amazing career and purchased my first home 2 years ago. God is good :,).
    Hahaha it’s funny how people digest things differently. The reason why I wrote this is to show that no matter what you go through in life there’s always hope and I thank god I got psychosis because honestly I don’t know where I would of been today.

    • @a0zhar
      @a0zhar ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Taking cocaine and methamphetamine can certainly affect your brain's natural production of dopamine and serotonin. Consequently, it's not surprising that you experienced major depression after discontinuing their use. But glad you found ur way out of your unfortunate situation ❤

    • @dface6447
      @dface6447 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      i would class your experience as a phase ? just based on your explanation but i’m happy for you if you are truly happy with yourself 🙂.

    • @jessicajennifer9827
      @jessicajennifer9827 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Cocaine blues. I'm so glad you turned it around and are thriving in your recovery

    • @carmafiend6643
      @carmafiend6643 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Let’s get this guy a reward. 1st place is the bragging Olympics!!! Doesn’t the Bible teach people to be humble?

    • @ocularpressure4558
      @ocularpressure4558 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      @@carmafiend6643 he’s just giving people hope that they can go through this and still recover but in the same hand it could’ve been worded differently so that people like u don’t get triggered but in the same hand he & we are not focusing on what u want or what I want he was just explaining his journey as to help anybody listening 👂 so go be a KAREN/DARREN SOMEWHERE ELSE ❤LUV U

  • @TheStevo427563
    @TheStevo427563 ปีที่แล้ว +212

    This is what is known as meth babble.

    • @jehsuamtv3855
      @jehsuamtv3855 ปีที่แล้ว +40

      They just talk and talk and don’t shut up lol He didn’t even let him
      Ask her questions it’s giving me a headache

    • @Colts92-ve2nl
      @Colts92-ve2nl ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Yeah this is the first interview I’ve watched so far that I’ve had to skip through chunks of it cause it’s just babbling,the best way to describe it.

    • @ramzue1728
      @ramzue1728 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Stim chat...chattering 🤡💀

    • @TheStevo427563
      @TheStevo427563 ปีที่แล้ว

      Man. When the time I was done with this tweaker I was like shut up already. You know? Another thing she kept on saying. This bitch was zooming her ass off.

    • @redtobertshateshandles
      @redtobertshateshandles ปีที่แล้ว +4

      A girl at work used to be extremely shy. One night she was blah, blah, blah. Yes , she uses.

  • @Pulsed101
    @Pulsed101 ปีที่แล้ว +67

    Embracing delayed gratification has helped me tremendously. Don't go for the easy option, go for what you *know* is the right option. You will feel far better in the long run.

    • @sheilabrennan4481
      @sheilabrennan4481 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      So true... takes intentional practice.

    • @zionious6657
      @zionious6657 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yup!!

    • @blackslav1497
      @blackslav1497 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      hearing this felt good.
      thanks.

    • @BlisteringBlue42
      @BlisteringBlue42 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Absolutely. My ADHD makes it difficult at times, but it's always worth it.

  • @aliciac7053
    @aliciac7053 ปีที่แล้ว +83

    Absolutely sad when Mark asked her if the last five years being homeless and on drugs weren’t a waste of her time. Her reply that “we were all shut down with Covid and no one was doing shit anyway” was crazy thinking. She’s in total denial. I wish her the best but don’t think she’s going to stay sober long.

    • @Paul-dv4dr
      @Paul-dv4dr ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Actually Milena says she wasted that time and was tired of living like that. But she says she likes to party, and she's sexually open. I get the sense that this offends you and you're demanding that she live with regret & remorse. That's on you - take a look at yourself.

    • @D..S..
      @D..S.. ปีที่แล้ว

      ​@@Paul-dv4dr oh fuck off your high horse lmao

    • @trustmesonimyourfather9097
      @trustmesonimyourfather9097 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

      lmao sober for long? youre funny if you think shes sober at all.

    • @RECHARON
      @RECHARON 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Ok, because I was definitely still working and traveling. I just happened to be one of those people who didn’t stop moving.

  • @Bigtbone205
    @Bigtbone205 ปีที่แล้ว +135

    Intelligent,articulate…has all the right words, has all the answers….but doesn’t. Can’t look at her life objectively and realise that whatever she is doing is not working. Uses her intelligence to justify any immediate ‘want’ and is very good at that.

    • @routinemsp2705
      @routinemsp2705 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I feel that....

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      ...and that's what you do?

    • @tmstani23
      @tmstani23 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      That's a common problem with high intelligence people.

    • @ericbombardier
      @ericbombardier ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I think you see it wrong. If I can compare it to a tree, when the tree is young and growing, and it's damaged, it'll continue to grow but those scars are deep and never heal completely, but the bark covers it, and it can be a beautiful tree, full of fruits and strong branches, wonderful flowers, but deep under, the damage is done, and sometimes it is manageable, sometimes it's unbearable. And sometimes that beautiful tree does it's best to stand there living, coping with life. But underneath all that beauty and all those fruits and flowers and beauty, the pain remains and eats at it. She has courage to stand there and share her life, and all we can do is hope she can get out of her way, and get beyond the horrors she survived.

    • @dp981
      @dp981 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      It's because she's sky high and getting higher throughout the interview.

  • @darylsmioth1904
    @darylsmioth1904 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    She is higher than chit. Poor mark couldn't get a word in.

    • @YvettePlantenga
      @YvettePlantenga หลายเดือนก่อน

      Right? My first thought was, does this chick ever come up for air?

  • @anony-mousse8487
    @anony-mousse8487 ปีที่แล้ว +188

    Have you all forgotten what this channel was about? It's a window into someone's life. No matter who they are. It's interesting. It's not meant to be only sympathetic people. It was a pretty fascinating and shocking interview. She has a lot of personal and behavioral shit shes gotta work on, but that's not the point.

    • @JimBob1937
      @JimBob1937 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Yes, it's a window into someone's life, good or bad. Enjoy it as an experience and as knowledge gained into the lives of others.

    • @doloresparra4604
      @doloresparra4604 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      This channel is for each individual to get out of it what they want to get out of it; it’s not for you to tell me what my experience should be.

    • @codyhaitch758
      @codyhaitch758 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@doloresparra4604 Very true.

    • @gwensstepbro4966
      @gwensstepbro4966 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      you have a point there cereal boy.

    • @ShellyMischelleMorrison
      @ShellyMischelleMorrison ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Yes, interesting☆If it's not meant to be sympathetic, wonder why there's a "Go Fund Me", why do they help some interviewed, get into rehap, get off the streets? It's a channel, with a Creator 'on a mission of mercy'...Empathy .♡💖

  • @jamtlandhomesteaders2710
    @jamtlandhomesteaders2710 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    Milena's openness, is contagious* Get clean Girl- You have a lot to give!

  • @deebknyc0985
    @deebknyc0985 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    She's young now but she's trying to make everything sound so wonderful....truth is she's masking alot of issues & problems

  • @GenuinelyCurious120
    @GenuinelyCurious120 ปีที่แล้ว +266

    I've never seen someone compulsively lie to themselves so much so fast. Masterclass in justification from the addict mind.

    • @Xyz46786
      @Xyz46786 ปีที่แล้ว +46

      I know, and the amount of comments of people saying how smart she is…. Wow…….

    • @tigerrrrrrrr6586
      @tigerrrrrrrr6586 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      I've never seen someone be so judgemental as fast as u...it's her story her life no need for the negativity. ..

    • @rggm-bl1xl
      @rggm-bl1xl ปีที่แล้ว

      She’s probably high on meth

    • @jeannine3750
      @jeannine3750 ปีที่แล้ว

      ​@@beauknows93 go watch something else because you obviously have no clue

    • @tigerrrrrrrr6586
      @tigerrrrrrrr6586 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@Xyz46786 the hate is real wow

  • @The_HSP_Essays
    @The_HSP_Essays ปีที่แล้ว +84

    I love this channel and I find it so interesting. Having said that I find some interviews very difficult to watch. Interestingly, it's not the emotionally "difficult" ones, but rather everyone that is functioning on autopilot (interestingly, mostly or exclusively people on uppers). Throughout the interview I kept dissociating and daydreaming. I'm literally struggling to finish the interview. It's just like she's not there, like there's nobody home. With opiate addicts you feel like you're interacting with a genuine person but with meth it's just like the lights are on, the music is blaring, there's all this stuff going on, but there's nobody home.

    • @joemahma3017
      @joemahma3017 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Daydreaming isn’t dissociating. Please use language more properly otherwise it becomes useless.

    • @The_HSP_Essays
      @The_HSP_Essays ปีที่แล้ว +25

      @@joemahma3017 There is no consensus as to what exactly constitutes dissociation, as it's a term that covers a very broad range of phenomena such as depersonalization, derealization, dissociative fugue, amnesia and so on. Many argue that it's a spectrum and that we are all dissociative to a degree, with the extreme being DID (dissociative identity disorder), and that daydreaming and any kind of absorption is essentially dissociative. This isn't some guy on TH-cam talking, these are the giants in the field. I'll refer you to the comprehensive Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: Past, Present and Future . The latest edition was published recently and is a phenomenal and comprehensive work on all things dissociative. Daydreaming can definitely qualify as dissociation.

    • @brando3098
      @brando3098 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      The delusions and false artificial sense of happyness/achievement is real in the mindset. Unfortuanetly thats all it Is and over time a meth addict will self sabotage on order to justify using again and again.

    • @idorus
      @idorus ปีที่แล้ว +9

      i know i was the only alcohlic/opiate addict around all meth addicts since 14 and so many meth addicts lose their morality and human qualities. i hung out with other heroin addicts and i was like wtf these people are somewhat normal lol. heroin kills more people but seeing what meth turns people into and does to their mind including my mom makes me hate it way more. the shit i have seen being around tweakers is crazy and i was the only somewhat normal one lol

  • @MN-ui1ww
    @MN-ui1ww ปีที่แล้ว +61

    I was addicted to crystal meth and while in my active addiction I spoke with the same arrogance and know it all tone as Milena in this interview. Shortly after, I hit rock bottom (lost my sanity, lost my family, destroyed my health, lost my freedom and almost got deported) BUT kept my life somehow and was given one chance to go into rehab while still delusional and bewildered - I went and stayed clean and remained in recovery. Today I've been sober for a few years and have re-built much of what I've lost including my health and my relationships and every single day I practice gratitude and humility with my words and my thoughts and I hope Milena the same as in my experience its the only way one can overcome active addiction and hope to stay sober. There is no god but GOD.

    • @fraumanning
      @fraumanning ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Testify.

    • @rabbitskinner
      @rabbitskinner ปีที่แล้ว +2

      She is very arrogant, thanks for the insight

    • @kimmarsh5387
      @kimmarsh5387 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      The smartest thing you ever did, heavy drug use destroys everything,no question.

    • @laurasmithira
      @laurasmithira ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @ MN I am glad you are clean and rebuilt your life! Cheers too you❤

  • @nghtmxmas2
    @nghtmxmas2 ปีที่แล้ว +118

    She’s such a smart woman. It’s unfortunate that she went through so much in her childhood. People don’t understand how traumatic childhood abuse is. I wish the best for her. She could use her intelligence and personality for good.

    • @grantbradshaw7907
      @grantbradshaw7907 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      You right love 💖

    • @khaythompson4905
      @khaythompson4905 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      0

    • @orlindsay
      @orlindsay ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yeah she still sound well spoken.

    • @StraightFelon
      @StraightFelon ปีที่แล้ว

      “She’s so smart” why do people always say this lol, just because the interviewee isn’t a drooling mongloid. If she is “smart”, what is a computer programmer lol?

    • @life_withl
      @life_withl ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Agreed 🙏🤍

  • @katarinahinsey3931
    @katarinahinsey3931 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

  • @ColdBlackEarth
    @ColdBlackEarth ปีที่แล้ว +67

    I hope she’s ok. I’d like to see her interviewed again when she’s not high though

    • @courtneyriley185
      @courtneyriley185 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Thatll never happen.

    • @fraumanning
      @fraumanning ปีที่แล้ว

      Sadly.

    • @anneconklin8406
      @anneconklin8406 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I thought the same thing. She's so articulate and lovely. Nice teeth. Reinterpret her in a year and I suspect it'll be quite different.. also she just got out of jail. So she had 3 meals a day, showers and shelter.

    • @michaelhughes5595
      @michaelhughes5595 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Good luck on that one. She doesn't believe she's addicted, no chance of sobriety while in her state of mind.

  • @anamericanprayer1967
    @anamericanprayer1967 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Stay safe. There are deadly consequences in a hedonistic lifestyle.

  • @maryyexley1434
    @maryyexley1434 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    This poor girl is so screwed up. It’s tragic how early childhood abuse has twisted her behavior. She clearly has intelligence….it’s just twisting in the wind!😢

  • @emilypalmquist
    @emilypalmquist ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Girl you need theraphy not meth, wish you all the best!!!

  • @MrsAshlee
    @MrsAshlee ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Bless her heart she is in denial about her addiction… Meth is just as bad as H & Fenty MSH 😢 Heart Breaking…

  • @D..S..
    @D..S.. ปีที่แล้ว +11

    "I can stop doing meth for like a week! I'm totally not addicted and can stop any time!"
    Classic lol

    • @jennifergannuscio6086
      @jennifergannuscio6086 ปีที่แล้ว

      Exactly! This is the poster child for the sickness of America!

  • @Oldmaninthestream
    @Oldmaninthestream ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Better watch out ive seen many people die from crystal here in the central valley of California. Takes your teeth, looks and life.

  • @JaeRocReacts
    @JaeRocReacts ปีที่แล้ว +59

    she has an addictive personality & was never taught self control. now shes an addict with no limitations

    • @jenniferloftus2363
      @jenniferloftus2363 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      you can be taught self control but that doesn't work for addictions.

    • @gametighter9451
      @gametighter9451 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Well said

    • @GypsyChlo
      @GypsyChlo ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Addiction is a disease, not a personality trait.

    • @ktl5616
      @ktl5616 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hello,I appreciate your analytic mindset. But I do not think there are enough information in this interview to conclude that she has an addictive personality.

    • @JaeRocReacts
      @JaeRocReacts ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@gametighter9451 appreciate it man 💯

  • @javedk
    @javedk ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Ramblin’ man.

  • @Andrew-dd3yt
    @Andrew-dd3yt ปีที่แล้ว +18

    U know, U know, U know

  • @tawnytirado143
    @tawnytirado143 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I just lost my mom to an overdose she was found in hotel room . I had to clean her apartment out and I found a lot of meth. She swore she was off after aneurism but it was a lie

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Sorry to hear about your loss. 💕 I'm sure you're well aware that all addicts lie. They're so overcome with their addiction, guilt, and embarrassment.

    • @tawnytirado143
      @tawnytirado143 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@baublesanddolls appreciate kind words

    • @psalm91.777
      @psalm91.777 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Sorry for your loss

    • @tawnytirado143
      @tawnytirado143 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@psalm91.777 thanks it’s so sad to fight so hard for someone for them to still lose in the end….

    • @psalm91.777
      @psalm91.777 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@tawnytirado143 much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @erickiyoshiphillips2323
    @erickiyoshiphillips2323 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I don't think she realizes meth addiction is the same as any addiction you have to steal and find money daily to fund your habit. Your trading fentanyl addiction to meth addiction. And your not going to better your life on either drug. I have been there your just going in a circle like a dog chasing its tail.

  • @kendigjl
    @kendigjl ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Anything that makes you feel amazing needs to be closely examined for the cost it imposes. Some things are worth the cost - loving your family (especially children and pets). Some things are debatable (delicious food, loud music, casual alcohol use). Some things are tricky (drugs that alleviate depression or help you focus). And then there's meth and opiates, which are literally the devil in disguise.

    • @redtobertshateshandles
      @redtobertshateshandles ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yes. Sports and hobbies that give you a natural high.

    • @sciencenotsrigma
      @sciencenotsrigma 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@redtobertshateshandles. So underrated! ❤

  • @irianah7872
    @irianah7872 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Why does she sound like the biggest pick me ever… I don’t mean to disrespect but her whole talk about “being one of the boys” made me think about pick me girls

    • @micro-uhgresh-uhnn
      @micro-uhgresh-uhnn ปีที่แล้ว +1

      She values male validation and resents them at the same time. Twisted psychology.

  • @suggadeg
    @suggadeg ปีที่แล้ว +138

    Life is not all about pleasure. Which seems to be what this woman has equated it down to. This is what’s wrong with our society right now.

    • @truthseeker2222
      @truthseeker2222 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      spot on.

    • @Puggelicious
      @Puggelicious ปีที่แล้ว +18

      i always thought it was. You only get 1 life why not enjoy it to the fullest?

    • @Xyz46786
      @Xyz46786 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@Puggeliciousgood luck with that

    • @Puggelicious
      @Puggelicious ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Xyz46786 U must be a junkie, Seek help elsewhere buddy

    • @jordaneglis7380
      @jordaneglis7380 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      @@Puggelicious I think it’s the constant chase for the next high is what puts some people in a bad place, especially when hardcore drugs are involved

  • @gametighter9451
    @gametighter9451 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    She should talk about her oral health and quit making it seem like smoking a chemical is helping her when in all reality it’s hindering her life expectancy

  • @reallygood7886
    @reallygood7886 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    She's "promoting" promiscuity and saying that is something positive and good.

  • @MISERABLE66
    @MISERABLE66 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Never thought I'd say this on this channel but ..... TMI. 😆

  • @garsu1229
    @garsu1229 ปีที่แล้ว +49

    She is still deep into this how sad

    • @openmike4559
      @openmike4559 ปีที่แล้ว

      Is that a mask in your picture? Your still deep into the covid thing? That may be even sadder, you’re sobre and still have a mask on. Very disturbing.

    • @ash00001
      @ash00001 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@yarly3180 that’s a lie. Sue looks beautiful and sober

  • @Mr93sharpei
    @Mr93sharpei ปีที่แล้ว +19

    Good interview.
    I appreciate her candor
    Hoping she decides she is worthy of more than she has been accepting.
    Thank you

  • @KelleyWhite-ps5dm
    @KelleyWhite-ps5dm 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Woah. denial ain't just a river in Egypt.

  • @johncena04101
    @johncena04101 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Her ability to talk about her hedonistic lifestyle is amazing. However she needs balance. She doesn't need to be doing all this crazy stuff. I hope she's safe.

  • @jesselopez8944
    @jesselopez8944 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Shes High af

  • @zosothezephead837
    @zosothezephead837 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    I reckon this is the abridged version. Mark went home, had his dinner, went to bed, got up, went for a workout and when he came back, Milena was still going strong 😀

  • @anastasiamarch6197
    @anastasiamarch6197 ปีที่แล้ว +63

    Seeing her broke my heart .. no one is immune from from drugs use .. I hope she gets clean 🙏🏾

    • @terrytownsend5583
      @terrytownsend5583 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Eye roll

    • @rajgarvey5912
      @rajgarvey5912 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@terrytownsend5583totally agree what makes her special lol

  • @laurel5242
    @laurel5242 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    My mother had severe mental issues and abused her meds and codeine during my childhood. Living with that made me so totally against any substances. Interesting how differently children respond to those experiences. I hope she gets out of the drugs and builds a life for herself as she is clearly intelligent.

    • @redtobertshateshandles
      @redtobertshateshandles ปีที่แล้ว +2

      My dad took Ephedrine for his ptsd, and my brothers took pills for their Asthma. My mum realised that drugs cost money and achieve nothing. She made us younger kids anti pills. Of course not, antibiotics and lifesaving drugs.

    • @sciencenotsrigma
      @sciencenotsrigma 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I was the same way. My dad was addicted to drugs and alcohol, and my mom had ADHD, and was really out of it, if she drank ar all. I won anti-drug poster contests and was adamantly against them, and turned off by them. I lived with people who smoked crack, and didn’t. I didn’t do the club scene, once I was old enough to drink. Then, I developed a painful chronic condition, and my doctor told me pain patients are less than 1% likely to become addicted (that was the 90s), and I trusted him. Maybe we’re not so different?

    • @TheFurPack_2387
      @TheFurPack_2387 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Just because you both had addict parents doesn’t mean her childhood wasn’t vastly different than yours. She never got into the details about her childhood so comparing yours doesn’t even make sense.

  • @karliebee5309
    @karliebee5309 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    Girl you're so intelligent and you seem like a cool chick. Please please trust in yourself, create a support system or get into a program. You can have it all.

  • @zebmars8944
    @zebmars8944 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I hear a lot of self-denial. She has it all figured out and there is hardly any problems being an addict and homeless? I'm all for being liberated but maybe she should slow down and consider if her love for sex is just another form of escapism/addiction?

  • @nancycejarimanifestingfrom
    @nancycejarimanifestingfrom ปีที่แล้ว +61

    "If I learn this behavior I can UNLEARN IT " She is powerful !!

    • @visible2anyoneonyoutube
      @visible2anyoneonyoutube ปีที่แล้ว +6

      To "unlearn" something is to forget it. You can't forget what you know, you can only get past it by not doing it.

    • @couchprincess698
      @couchprincess698 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Wow. That is powerful.

    • @BulkernatorKerb
      @BulkernatorKerb ปีที่แล้ว +10

      She's only powerful once she's actually done it. Until then it's just empty words. That's why you watch people's actions and not their words.

    • @99pcast
      @99pcast ปีที่แล้ว +2

      That's not powerful, kicking drugs is not as easy as you seem to be under the impression it is. She may have determination, but that is different.

    • @nicklasmillner101
      @nicklasmillner101 ปีที่แล้ว

      You don't understand the chemistry of addiction.

  • @korodwyer1270
    @korodwyer1270 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Loneliness is the biggest killer. Some people just need to talk and be heard

  • @charmee4045
    @charmee4045 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Hmmmm wow, everytime she says she can stop anytime, denial. So glad no children are involved, rare. Never heard anyone go on like this, never took a breath. So lost............I wish her well.

  • @gowen9256
    @gowen9256 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    WoW I found a super nice sit down talk with that lady.I hope she can get back on her feet and have a good life.Good love and respect it would be very nice to see a follow up on her life in 6 months or 1 year.Thanks Milena🤞

    • @tomkeppler3519
      @tomkeppler3519 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lmao your fake

    • @lynnehuff9659
      @lynnehuff9659 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      You want to experience this again? Mark couldn't get a word in.

  • @ddz1375
    @ddz1375 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Okay. I'm not going to be able to ever unsee this. I look at her face and all I can she is Al Pacino.

  • @micro-uhgresh-uhnn
    @micro-uhgresh-uhnn ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Word is she’s still talking.

  • @wesleyalan9179
    @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +84

    Great interview! This lady has so much to live for, she's only 32? No children. I hope and wish the best for her in her future!
    Thanks Milena/ Mark!🤟

    • @jothegreek
      @jothegreek ปีที่แล้ว

      and shaggy tits

    • @yanicyoda4762
      @yanicyoda4762 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      She looks 42 tho.rough life.Wishing her all the best

    • @Xyz46786
      @Xyz46786 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Can you explain what exactly she has to live for being addicted to crystal meth with clearly no intentions of stopping

    • @pambeforethestorm9784
      @pambeforethestorm9784 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      ​@@Xyz46786 As long as a person is BREATHING, there is ALWAYS hope! And I wish sobriety for her also because she DESERVES to see what life is like clean, and peaceful for a change. Much respect to you ❤️💫❤️💫🔥🔥🔥

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@pambeforethestorm9784
      Thank you.💜

  • @laughjunkie3290
    @laughjunkie3290 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    If your addiction takes you to living on Skid Row and normalize meth use as taking Tylenol....your recovery rate is 5%

    • @indecent0079
      @indecent0079 5 วันที่ผ่านมา

      More die from OTC analgesic meds then meth last I checked stats. My stepfather OD was acetaminophen toxicity after taking scripts of Vicodin and perc 10s over 3 days that a doctor wrote. It was “accidental OD” so they say. If not treated with an antidote soon enough all your organs start failing and you’re screwed 😒

  • @jehsuamtv3855
    @jehsuamtv3855 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    shes hellaaa rolling SHES not even letting him talk she’s so high poor girl :(

  • @stevep7582
    @stevep7582 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    Wow. She is lit like a Christmas tree.

  • @pcankar
    @pcankar ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Too bad she doesn´t use all her insights in to drugs toward something more productive, such as education. She is SO sharp and has a great presence about her.

    • @sciencenotsrigma
      @sciencenotsrigma 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      She can certainly use her insights about drugs in a field of study and I hope she does, if she’s inclined!

  • @Emm-z-l7i
    @Emm-z-l7i 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Such a draining hard way to live! The physical and emotional pain must be very painful! 🙏🏻💔🤯

  • @YGO_SirDark
    @YGO_SirDark ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This lady can't tell the truth long enough to make sense.