It's so weird to see how drugs will make homeless addicts think they have all answers, and make them believe they're just living a fun and carefree lifestyle, when it's actually a dark and devastating existence.
I think mental illness causes that delusional thinking too. " I'm so independent, look, I don't need anyone, I'm taking care of myself just fine." No you're not. You have no shelter, regular food, clean clothes, health care or a healthy environment. Your life is full of crime and danger. 24/7 all you do is survive. And that is not living
@space age444.666 not kicking the addict. Their words, and thinking, show a disconnect. I wish we had better access and treatment for mental illness and addiction. And addict is mentally unhealthy, and his/ her life choices are evidence of same.
I started doing meth, coke, and weed at 18. Then at age 19 I lost my mind and was diagnosed with psychosis. Recovered and fell into major major depression and gained like 60 pounds. I was about 210 pounds. I’m 30 now and very fit, have an amazing career and purchased my first home 2 years ago. God is good :,). Hahaha it’s funny how people digest things differently. The reason why I wrote this is to show that no matter what you go through in life there’s always hope and I thank god I got psychosis because honestly I don’t know where I would of been today.
Taking cocaine and methamphetamine can certainly affect your brain's natural production of dopamine and serotonin. Consequently, it's not surprising that you experienced major depression after discontinuing their use. But glad you found ur way out of your unfortunate situation ❤
@@carmafiend6643 he’s just giving people hope that they can go through this and still recover but in the same hand it could’ve been worded differently so that people like u don’t get triggered but in the same hand he & we are not focusing on what u want or what I want he was just explaining his journey as to help anybody listening 👂 so go be a KAREN/DARREN SOMEWHERE ELSE ❤LUV U
This reminds me of a quote from one of the MANY people in my life that struggle with meth: “this reminds me of the time when my ex and I would do meth and be so busy getting so much stuff done when in all actuality we were running around aimlessly and getting absolutely nothing accomplished” In their eyes they really see that they’re empowered by meth and it makes their life so much better when in reality it’s just a mess.
I relate to your comment a lot, I have struggled with misusing adderall for a long time and it gives me an extreme false sense of productivity. I can wash a cup and feel like a god for doing something so simple
Once I moved my entertainment center from one corner to the other. It took me a couple of hours to move all the wires and cables and shit. Once it was all set up, I decided it would be better in the next corner. And then after that, to the next corner. After about 24 hours of this, it ended up back in the original corner exactly as it was before I hit the meth.
@@ScottAllen5568 Wow! That’s powerful. My sons father got his girlfriend he had after me hooked. For the last 4 years when I see her all she’s ever doing is packing a bunch of shit in her car, or taking a bunch of shit out of her car. Putting stuff in her car, taking stuff out of her car. She had a good life before him. A good job as a manager, a 401k, weight on her bones and now she’s like 100 lbs and in jail for 6 months. It’s so sad.
i totally relate to what you are saying,i used to dabble but my friend was addicted i observed him alot and also myself running around doing a whole lot of nothing
She seems to think that she has everything under control, meanwhile she’s living on the streets performing so called sexual favors to support her addiction, wake tf up kid, every addict thinks that they have everything under control, hopefully you’ll get some serious help and get your life together, you have a beautiful life ahead of you without all of the bullshit, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
With her candor and personality, I can just envision her as a project manager who hosts fun cocktail parties and has dinner with friends with this boyfriend that she does everything but hasn’t married in seven years…and she brings the best bottles of wine with nice necklaces and goes to museums….and likes dresses with pockets….in another life….
@@ryant6009true addicts know better. They’re a slave to the drug & some even seem to romanticize that possessiveness. They know they can’t stop & many have no desire to do so.
Embracing delayed gratification has helped me tremendously. Don't go for the easy option, go for what you *know* is the right option. You will feel far better in the long run.
I was addicted to crystal meth and while in my active addiction I spoke with the same arrogance and know it all tone as Milena in this interview. Shortly after, I hit rock bottom (lost my sanity, lost my family, destroyed my health, lost my freedom and almost got deported) BUT kept my life somehow and was given one chance to go into rehab while still delusional and bewildered - I went and stayed clean and remained in recovery. Today I've been sober for a few years and have re-built much of what I've lost including my health and my relationships and every single day I practice gratitude and humility with my words and my thoughts and I hope Milena the same as in my experience its the only way one can overcome active addiction and hope to stay sober. There is no god but GOD.
Intelligent,articulate…has all the right words, has all the answers….but doesn’t. Can’t look at her life objectively and realise that whatever she is doing is not working. Uses her intelligence to justify any immediate ‘want’ and is very good at that.
I think you see it wrong. If I can compare it to a tree, when the tree is young and growing, and it's damaged, it'll continue to grow but those scars are deep and never heal completely, but the bark covers it, and it can be a beautiful tree, full of fruits and strong branches, wonderful flowers, but deep under, the damage is done, and sometimes it is manageable, sometimes it's unbearable. And sometimes that beautiful tree does it's best to stand there living, coping with life. But underneath all that beauty and all those fruits and flowers and beauty, the pain remains and eats at it. She has courage to stand there and share her life, and all we can do is hope she can get out of her way, and get beyond the horrors she survived.
Absolutely sad when Mark asked her if the last five years being homeless and on drugs weren’t a waste of her time. Her reply that “we were all shut down with Covid and no one was doing shit anyway” was crazy thinking. She’s in total denial. I wish her the best but don’t think she’s going to stay sober long.
Actually Milena says she wasted that time and was tired of living like that. But she says she likes to party, and she's sexually open. I get the sense that this offends you and you're demanding that she live with regret & remorse. That's on you - take a look at yourself.
She’s such a smart woman. It’s unfortunate that she went through so much in her childhood. People don’t understand how traumatic childhood abuse is. I wish the best for her. She could use her intelligence and personality for good.
“She’s so smart” why do people always say this lol, just because the interviewee isn’t a drooling mongloid. If she is “smart”, what is a computer programmer lol?
I love this channel and I find it so interesting. Having said that I find some interviews very difficult to watch. Interestingly, it's not the emotionally "difficult" ones, but rather everyone that is functioning on autopilot (interestingly, mostly or exclusively people on uppers). Throughout the interview I kept dissociating and daydreaming. I'm literally struggling to finish the interview. It's just like she's not there, like there's nobody home. With opiate addicts you feel like you're interacting with a genuine person but with meth it's just like the lights are on, the music is blaring, there's all this stuff going on, but there's nobody home.
@@joemahma3017 There is no consensus as to what exactly constitutes dissociation, as it's a term that covers a very broad range of phenomena such as depersonalization, derealization, dissociative fugue, amnesia and so on. Many argue that it's a spectrum and that we are all dissociative to a degree, with the extreme being DID (dissociative identity disorder), and that daydreaming and any kind of absorption is essentially dissociative. This isn't some guy on TH-cam talking, these are the giants in the field. I'll refer you to the comprehensive Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: Past, Present and Future . The latest edition was published recently and is a phenomenal and comprehensive work on all things dissociative. Daydreaming can definitely qualify as dissociation.
The delusions and false artificial sense of happyness/achievement is real in the mindset. Unfortuanetly thats all it Is and over time a meth addict will self sabotage on order to justify using again and again.
i know i was the only alcohlic/opiate addict around all meth addicts since 14 and so many meth addicts lose their morality and human qualities. i hung out with other heroin addicts and i was like wtf these people are somewhat normal lol. heroin kills more people but seeing what meth turns people into and does to their mind including my mom makes me hate it way more. the shit i have seen being around tweakers is crazy and i was the only somewhat normal one lol
Hello,I appreciate your analytic mindset. But I do not think there are enough information in this interview to conclude that she has an addictive personality.
Have you all forgotten what this channel was about? It's a window into someone's life. No matter who they are. It's interesting. It's not meant to be only sympathetic people. It was a pretty fascinating and shocking interview. She has a lot of personal and behavioral shit shes gotta work on, but that's not the point.
Yes, interesting☆If it's not meant to be sympathetic, wonder why there's a "Go Fund Me", why do they help some interviewed, get into rehap, get off the streets? It's a channel, with a Creator 'on a mission of mercy'...Empathy .♡💖
I thought the same thing. She's so articulate and lovely. Nice teeth. Reinterpret her in a year and I suspect it'll be quite different.. also she just got out of jail. So she had 3 meals a day, showers and shelter.
WoW I found a super nice sit down talk with that lady.I hope she can get back on her feet and have a good life.Good love and respect it would be very nice to see a follow up on her life in 6 months or 1 year.Thanks Milena🤞
This poor girl is so screwed up. It’s tragic how early childhood abuse has twisted her behavior. She clearly has intelligence….it’s just twisting in the wind!😢
I reckon this is the abridged version. Mark went home, had his dinner, went to bed, got up, went for a workout and when he came back, Milena was still going strong 😀
‘When me and my boyfriend were turkey basting’….. uhmmm a line I dont think i’ll ever hear again. I need to commentate this moment and appreciate the silliness of addiction. Lmaooo (no pun intended🤭)
Girl you're so intelligent and you seem like a cool chick. Please please trust in yourself, create a support system or get into a program. You can have it all.
Milena you have so much wisdom and your story is so important. Know that you have a lot to contribute to this life. Found your analytical approach to complex topics, very insightful and authentic. You're so straightforward. That authenticity and fearlessness is your superpower.
My mother had severe mental issues and abused her meds and codeine during my childhood. Living with that made me so totally against any substances. Interesting how differently children respond to those experiences. I hope she gets out of the drugs and builds a life for herself as she is clearly intelligent.
My dad took Ephedrine for his ptsd, and my brothers took pills for their Asthma. My mum realised that drugs cost money and achieve nothing. She made us younger kids anti pills. Of course not, antibiotics and lifesaving drugs.
I was the same way. My dad was addicted to drugs and alcohol, and my mom had ADHD, and was really out of it, if she drank ar all. I won anti-drug poster contests and was adamantly against them, and turned off by them. I lived with people who smoked crack, and didn’t. I didn’t do the club scene, once I was old enough to drink. Then, I developed a painful chronic condition, and my doctor told me pain patients are less than 1% likely to become addicted (that was the 90s), and I trusted him. Maybe we’re not so different?
Just because you both had addict parents doesn’t mean her childhood wasn’t vastly different than yours. She never got into the details about her childhood so comparing yours doesn’t even make sense.
You can do this, Milena, trust! You mentioned that heroin takes everything away, well get on the path where you get everything Back, even from Meth!! You are such a beautiful soul 💛 I wish you all positive vibes and sobriety, and most of all......a PEACEFUL life! Rooting for you, Queen!! ❤️💫❤️💫❤️💫💫
Man. When the time I was done with this tweaker I was like shut up already. You know? Another thing she kept on saying. This bitch was zooming her ass off.
She should talk about her oral health and quit making it seem like smoking a chemical is helping her when in all reality it’s hindering her life expectancy
I just lost my mom to an overdose she was found in hotel room . I had to clean her apartment out and I found a lot of meth. She swore she was off after aneurism but it was a lie
Her ability to talk about her hedonistic lifestyle is amazing. However she needs balance. She doesn't need to be doing all this crazy stuff. I hope she's safe.
I feel like she's close to a pivotal point in her life. As a young person, your values are all over the place. But as the years go by, people tend to find out what's more important. Health, love, to care, longevity, stability, consistency, integrity, etc. are all things that I myself now value. Hopefully she surrounds herself with the right people and sheds the things that holds her back.
@@Xyz46786 As long as a person is BREATHING, there is ALWAYS hope! And I wish sobriety for her also because she DESERVES to see what life is like clean, and peaceful for a change. Much respect to you ❤️💫❤️💫🔥🔥🔥
@Sophia P.⚘ My sympathy to you♡RIP, so many~The big Pharma-companies who lied started an opioid-epidemic, bribed Doctors to push it; Can Never, ever 'Replace one minute of 1-Life Lost'..And Wouldn't 😈, Even if they Could❗🕊R I S E☆FOLKs, RISE🕊🌎
Anything that makes you feel amazing needs to be closely examined for the cost it imposes. Some things are worth the cost - loving your family (especially children and pets). Some things are debatable (delicious food, loud music, casual alcohol use). Some things are tricky (drugs that alleviate depression or help you focus). And then there's meth and opiates, which are literally the devil in disguise.
Too bad she doesn´t use all her insights in to drugs toward something more productive, such as education. She is SO sharp and has a great presence about her.
Hmmmm wow, everytime she says she can stop anytime, denial. So glad no children are involved, rare. Never heard anyone go on like this, never took a breath. So lost............I wish her well.
I literally forgot she was an addict 5 mins into this. She’s so articulate, obviously educated (or on her way to be), attractive… i hope she finds the path that leads her to recovery.❤
She has been in recovery before, and has a lot of insight, from her experience. I hope gets involved in the club, again! She has a lot to share with others, and her experience is valuable. ❤
As a very sexual, sexually adventurous incredibly open individual I find women who speak this way about their sexuality are the furthest from discovering their sexuality. Even though obviously they claim the opposite. They find their worth as a woman and their sexual worth based upon the approval of men. She has no idea who she is but a man once told her, “you’re not like other girls” felt validated and ran with it.
Something about her makes her extremely special. Please do whatever it takes to stay clean. You're very pretty and intelligent with an attractive personality. I hope you find a better way to cope, Milena. You're special and deserve better. I'll be cheering for you on the sideline.
I don't think she realizes meth addiction is the same as any addiction you have to steal and find money daily to fund your habit. Your trading fentanyl addiction to meth addiction. And your not going to better your life on either drug. I have been there your just going in a circle like a dog chasing its tail.
She's such a gorgeous lady, sad to see anyone going down that path, she seems really smart and well spoken. She's going to be on the down side of that because she just enjoys it too much, it's all been wasted time if she doesn't get on a good path. Be a cleaning lady, at least that will be focused towards a goal.
She’s not too far gone. She thinks she’s got control over this but just know that you do not. Very smart though hope she makes it out before she waists too much of her life
The other day a friend of mine was passing by through a spot in our city, that people use to do hardcore drugs, (It’s in the middle of the city, in a very busy street but you know, drugs are everywhere). She was passing throw and a bunch of kids were there too, and she told me that two guys were about to do heroin right in front of them, and one of the guys realizes that underage kids were right in front of them and said to other guy something like “ are you crazy? Don’t you see the kids?? We are not going to do this here!!!” Man… this words stuck in my head all week. A person that cannot control his addiction, but at the same time had the common sense that doing that in front of kids is just wrong. It’s sad AF…
@@helenbartoszek243 perhaps English is Not their first language, is it REALLY that important to CORRECT people at every turn?? Seems the issue is with YOU, who can't control the urge to correct while missing the ENTIRE POINT of the comment. Now THAT is SAD. No shade to you either, it's just sad 😔💯💛💛
@@jennifergannuscio6086 it’s disturbing that you find a woman to not to be intelligent, just because she is struggling. intelligence comes in all forms, you could use some 🫶🏻
When it's the only thing you have to offer and are constantly on meth and everyone around you is on meth so you feel like a celebrity because everyone wants to f@ck you
More die from OTC analgesic meds then meth last I checked stats. My stepfather OD was acetaminophen toxicity after taking scripts of Vicodin and perc 10s over 3 days that a doctor wrote. It was “accidental OD” so they say. If not treated with an antidote soon enough all your organs start failing and you’re screwed 😒
13:55 It's relatable that she says that. About 7 years ago I snorted ice I thought it was coke. When my friend told me it was ice I stopped doing it. I may have taken two bumps and it burned and didn't like it. The next day I woke up and I got into my car and started to drive to meet a client and I was on the highway and bam I just got scared. Like I wasn't mentally in control of what I was doing I felt like it wasn't real. Hard to explain but I got a panic attack and I was very anxious to get off the highway and when I exited my luck I went on the ramp that goes to a bridge up high and I was trying to get through it but the drivers ahead of me were going slow and I was panicking even more finally I exited that pulled to a drive way and had to walk and breathe. I took bad roads home and it took so long because I kept pulling over. Ever since I've never been the same I forgot how to not be scarred driving on the fast lane on the highway. I'm afraid to fly because I think I will panic and can't get off the plane when I want. There was one time I had to drink a 6 pack just to make it over a bridge. I've even quit coffee because I think too much caffeine gets my anxiety triggered now that I know what it feels like. Once you know the fear of anxiety its hard not to think about it during potential triggers. It sucks not being like before.
This has happened to me too! I used to drive State to State Now ? After only trying Meth a few times a few years ago? I can't get on the Thruway w/o panic attacks. Strange ..
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It's so weird to see how drugs will make homeless addicts think they have all answers, and make them believe they're just living a fun and carefree lifestyle, when it's actually a dark and devastating existence.
Lmfao 💀
I think mental illness causes that delusional thinking too. " I'm so independent, look, I don't need anyone, I'm taking care of myself just fine." No you're not. You have no shelter, regular food, clean clothes, health care or a healthy environment.
Your life is full of crime and danger. 24/7 all you do is survive. And that is not living
Totally agree
Don't kick the addict
@space age444.666 not kicking the addict. Their words, and thinking, show a disconnect. I wish we had better access and treatment for mental illness and addiction. And addict is mentally unhealthy, and his/ her life choices are evidence of same.
I started doing meth, coke, and weed at 18. Then at age 19 I lost my mind and was diagnosed with psychosis. Recovered and fell into major major depression and gained like 60 pounds. I was about 210 pounds. I’m 30 now and very fit, have an amazing career and purchased my first home 2 years ago. God is good :,).
Hahaha it’s funny how people digest things differently. The reason why I wrote this is to show that no matter what you go through in life there’s always hope and I thank god I got psychosis because honestly I don’t know where I would of been today.
Taking cocaine and methamphetamine can certainly affect your brain's natural production of dopamine and serotonin. Consequently, it's not surprising that you experienced major depression after discontinuing their use. But glad you found ur way out of your unfortunate situation ❤
i would class your experience as a phase ? just based on your explanation but i’m happy for you if you are truly happy with yourself 🙂.
Cocaine blues. I'm so glad you turned it around and are thriving in your recovery
Let’s get this guy a reward. 1st place is the bragging Olympics!!! Doesn’t the Bible teach people to be humble?
@@carmafiend6643 he’s just giving people hope that they can go through this and still recover but in the same hand it could’ve been worded differently so that people like u don’t get triggered but in the same hand he & we are not focusing on what u want or what I want he was just explaining his journey as to help anybody listening 👂 so go be a KAREN/DARREN SOMEWHERE ELSE ❤LUV U
This reminds me of a quote from one of the MANY people in my life that struggle with meth: “this reminds me of the time when my ex and I would do meth and be so busy getting so much stuff done when in all actuality we were running around aimlessly and getting absolutely nothing accomplished” In their eyes they really see that they’re empowered by meth and it makes their life so much better when in reality it’s just a mess.
I relate to your comment a lot, I have struggled with misusing adderall for a long time and it gives me an extreme false sense of productivity. I can wash a cup and feel like a god for doing something so simple
Once I moved my entertainment center from one corner to the other. It took me a couple of hours to move all the wires and cables and shit. Once it was all set up, I decided it would be better in the next corner. And then after that, to the next corner. After about 24 hours of this, it ended up back in the original corner exactly as it was before I hit the meth.
@@ScottAllen5568 Wow! That’s powerful. My sons father got his girlfriend he had after me hooked. For the last 4 years when I see her all she’s ever doing is packing a bunch of shit in her car, or taking a bunch of shit out of her car. Putting stuff in her car, taking stuff out of her car. She had a good life before him. A good job as a manager, a 401k, weight on her bones and now she’s like 100 lbs and in jail for 6 months. It’s so sad.
As different as we all are .. we're kinda all the same..I can definitely relate.. Been clean from Meth for 18 months
i totally relate to what you are saying,i used to dabble but my friend was addicted i observed him alot and also myself running around doing a whole lot of nothing
She seems to think that she has everything under control, meanwhile she’s living on the streets performing so called sexual favors to support her addiction, wake tf up kid, every addict thinks that they have everything under control, hopefully you’ll get some serious help and get your life together, you have a beautiful life ahead of you without all of the bullshit, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
She knows it's not under control.
Justifying her behavior… typical of addicts
She is so full of herself
With her candor and personality, I can just envision her as a project manager who hosts fun cocktail parties and has dinner with friends with this boyfriend that she does everything but hasn’t married in seven years…and she brings the best bottles of wine with nice necklaces and goes to museums….and likes dresses with pockets….in another life….
*with
"I can stop any time I want..."
- Said every addict in the history of the world
Except not. I've heard very few addicts say that when I was in the life for many years.
"right now im JUST on crystal meth" lmao
@@ryant6009true addicts know better. They’re a slave to the drug & some even seem to romanticize that possessiveness. They know they can’t stop & many have no desire to do so.
At some point, yes.
“I can stop whenever I want”
The problem is that you don’t want to. That’s why you’re an addict…
“The functional addict” is ultimate delusion
She's young now but she's trying to make everything sound so wonderful....truth is she's masking alot of issues & problems
Embracing delayed gratification has helped me tremendously. Don't go for the easy option, go for what you *know* is the right option. You will feel far better in the long run.
So true... takes intentional practice.
Yup!!
hearing this felt good.
thanks.
Absolutely. My ADHD makes it difficult at times, but it's always worth it.
That’s a good quote. I like it
I was addicted to crystal meth and while in my active addiction I spoke with the same arrogance and know it all tone as Milena in this interview. Shortly after, I hit rock bottom (lost my sanity, lost my family, destroyed my health, lost my freedom and almost got deported) BUT kept my life somehow and was given one chance to go into rehab while still delusional and bewildered - I went and stayed clean and remained in recovery. Today I've been sober for a few years and have re-built much of what I've lost including my health and my relationships and every single day I practice gratitude and humility with my words and my thoughts and I hope Milena the same as in my experience its the only way one can overcome active addiction and hope to stay sober. There is no god but GOD.
Testify.
She is very arrogant, thanks for the insight
The smartest thing you ever did, heavy drug use destroys everything,no question.
@ MN I am glad you are clean and rebuilt your life! Cheers too you❤
Milena's openness, is contagious* Get clean Girl- You have a lot to give!
I agree! ❤
Intelligent,articulate…has all the right words, has all the answers….but doesn’t. Can’t look at her life objectively and realise that whatever she is doing is not working. Uses her intelligence to justify any immediate ‘want’ and is very good at that.
I feel that....
...and that's what you do?
That's a common problem with high intelligence people.
I think you see it wrong. If I can compare it to a tree, when the tree is young and growing, and it's damaged, it'll continue to grow but those scars are deep and never heal completely, but the bark covers it, and it can be a beautiful tree, full of fruits and strong branches, wonderful flowers, but deep under, the damage is done, and sometimes it is manageable, sometimes it's unbearable. And sometimes that beautiful tree does it's best to stand there living, coping with life. But underneath all that beauty and all those fruits and flowers and beauty, the pain remains and eats at it. She has courage to stand there and share her life, and all we can do is hope she can get out of her way, and get beyond the horrors she survived.
It's because she's sky high and getting higher throughout the interview.
Absolutely sad when Mark asked her if the last five years being homeless and on drugs weren’t a waste of her time. Her reply that “we were all shut down with Covid and no one was doing shit anyway” was crazy thinking. She’s in total denial. I wish her the best but don’t think she’s going to stay sober long.
Actually Milena says she wasted that time and was tired of living like that. But she says she likes to party, and she's sexually open. I get the sense that this offends you and you're demanding that she live with regret & remorse. That's on you - take a look at yourself.
@@Paul-dv4dr oh fuck off your high horse lmao
lmao sober for long? youre funny if you think shes sober at all.
Ok, because I was definitely still working and traveling. I just happened to be one of those people who didn’t stop moving.
I've never seen someone compulsively lie to themselves so much so fast. Masterclass in justification from the addict mind.
I know, and the amount of comments of people saying how smart she is…. Wow…….
I've never seen someone be so judgemental as fast as u...it's her story her life no need for the negativity. ..
She’s probably high on meth
@@beauknows93 go watch something else because you obviously have no clue
@@Xyz46786 the hate is real wow
She’s such a smart woman. It’s unfortunate that she went through so much in her childhood. People don’t understand how traumatic childhood abuse is. I wish the best for her. She could use her intelligence and personality for good.
You right love 💖
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Yeah she still sound well spoken.
“She’s so smart” why do people always say this lol, just because the interviewee isn’t a drooling mongloid. If she is “smart”, what is a computer programmer lol?
Agreed 🙏🤍
I love this channel and I find it so interesting. Having said that I find some interviews very difficult to watch. Interestingly, it's not the emotionally "difficult" ones, but rather everyone that is functioning on autopilot (interestingly, mostly or exclusively people on uppers). Throughout the interview I kept dissociating and daydreaming. I'm literally struggling to finish the interview. It's just like she's not there, like there's nobody home. With opiate addicts you feel like you're interacting with a genuine person but with meth it's just like the lights are on, the music is blaring, there's all this stuff going on, but there's nobody home.
Daydreaming isn’t dissociating. Please use language more properly otherwise it becomes useless.
@@joemahma3017 There is no consensus as to what exactly constitutes dissociation, as it's a term that covers a very broad range of phenomena such as depersonalization, derealization, dissociative fugue, amnesia and so on. Many argue that it's a spectrum and that we are all dissociative to a degree, with the extreme being DID (dissociative identity disorder), and that daydreaming and any kind of absorption is essentially dissociative. This isn't some guy on TH-cam talking, these are the giants in the field. I'll refer you to the comprehensive Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: Past, Present and Future . The latest edition was published recently and is a phenomenal and comprehensive work on all things dissociative. Daydreaming can definitely qualify as dissociation.
The delusions and false artificial sense of happyness/achievement is real in the mindset. Unfortuanetly thats all it Is and over time a meth addict will self sabotage on order to justify using again and again.
i know i was the only alcohlic/opiate addict around all meth addicts since 14 and so many meth addicts lose their morality and human qualities. i hung out with other heroin addicts and i was like wtf these people are somewhat normal lol. heroin kills more people but seeing what meth turns people into and does to their mind including my mom makes me hate it way more. the shit i have seen being around tweakers is crazy and i was the only somewhat normal one lol
she has an addictive personality & was never taught self control. now shes an addict with no limitations
you can be taught self control but that doesn't work for addictions.
Well said
Addiction is a disease, not a personality trait.
Hello,I appreciate your analytic mindset. But I do not think there are enough information in this interview to conclude that she has an addictive personality.
@@gametighter9451 appreciate it man 💯
She's talking like she has her life under control... Girl.. You live on skid row...
Have you all forgotten what this channel was about? It's a window into someone's life. No matter who they are. It's interesting. It's not meant to be only sympathetic people. It was a pretty fascinating and shocking interview. She has a lot of personal and behavioral shit shes gotta work on, but that's not the point.
Yes, it's a window into someone's life, good or bad. Enjoy it as an experience and as knowledge gained into the lives of others.
This channel is for each individual to get out of it what they want to get out of it; it’s not for you to tell me what my experience should be.
@@doloresparra4604 Very true.
you have a point there cereal boy.
Yes, interesting☆If it's not meant to be sympathetic, wonder why there's a "Go Fund Me", why do they help some interviewed, get into rehap, get off the streets? It's a channel, with a Creator 'on a mission of mercy'...Empathy .♡💖
Seeing her broke my heart .. no one is immune from from drugs use .. I hope she gets clean 🙏🏾
Eye roll
@@terrytownsend5583totally agree what makes her special lol
Bless her heart she is in denial about her addiction… Meth is just as bad as H & Fenty MSH 😢 Heart Breaking…
I hope she’s ok. I’d like to see her interviewed again when she’s not high though
Thatll never happen.
Sadly.
I thought the same thing. She's so articulate and lovely. Nice teeth. Reinterpret her in a year and I suspect it'll be quite different.. also she just got out of jail. So she had 3 meals a day, showers and shelter.
Good luck on that one. She doesn't believe she's addicted, no chance of sobriety while in her state of mind.
Good interview.
I appreciate her candor
Hoping she decides she is worthy of more than she has been accepting.
Thank you
WoW I found a super nice sit down talk with that lady.I hope she can get back on her feet and have a good life.Good love and respect it would be very nice to see a follow up on her life in 6 months or 1 year.Thanks Milena🤞
Lmao your fake
You want to experience this again? Mark couldn't get a word in.
This poor girl is so screwed up. It’s tragic how early childhood abuse has twisted her behavior. She clearly has intelligence….it’s just twisting in the wind!😢
Milena there's a life waiting for you on the other side of addiction and disfunction. Go for it.
I reckon this is the abridged version. Mark went home, had his dinner, went to bed, got up, went for a workout and when he came back, Milena was still going strong 😀
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I've never heard anybody talk so much and say so little, you know.
Gift of gab. A lot of nothing.
Yup… this comment was a waste of my attention. Please go somewhere else where comments that dont add anything are appreciated Mister Perfect Judger🤘🏽
‘When me and my boyfriend were turkey basting’….. uhmmm a line I dont think i’ll ever hear again. I need to commentate this moment and appreciate the silliness of addiction. Lmaooo (no pun intended🤭)
@@yoginikaltri333💯💯💯
Girl you're so intelligent and you seem like a cool chick. Please please trust in yourself, create a support system or get into a program. You can have it all.
"If I learn this behavior I can UNLEARN IT " She is powerful !!
To "unlearn" something is to forget it. You can't forget what you know, you can only get past it by not doing it.
Wow. That is powerful.
She's only powerful once she's actually done it. Until then it's just empty words. That's why you watch people's actions and not their words.
That's not powerful, kicking drugs is not as easy as you seem to be under the impression it is. She may have determination, but that is different.
You don't understand the chemistry of addiction.
Okay. I'm not going to be able to ever unsee this. I look at her face and all I can she is Al Pacino.
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Milena you have so much wisdom and your story is so important. Know that you have a lot to contribute to this life. Found your analytical approach to complex topics, very insightful and authentic. You're so straightforward. That authenticity and fearlessness is your superpower.
Stay safe. There are deadly consequences in a hedonistic lifestyle.
My mother had severe mental issues and abused her meds and codeine during my childhood. Living with that made me so totally against any substances. Interesting how differently children respond to those experiences. I hope she gets out of the drugs and builds a life for herself as she is clearly intelligent.
My dad took Ephedrine for his ptsd, and my brothers took pills for their Asthma. My mum realised that drugs cost money and achieve nothing. She made us younger kids anti pills. Of course not, antibiotics and lifesaving drugs.
I was the same way. My dad was addicted to drugs and alcohol, and my mom had ADHD, and was really out of it, if she drank ar all. I won anti-drug poster contests and was adamantly against them, and turned off by them. I lived with people who smoked crack, and didn’t. I didn’t do the club scene, once I was old enough to drink. Then, I developed a painful chronic condition, and my doctor told me pain patients are less than 1% likely to become addicted (that was the 90s), and I trusted him. Maybe we’re not so different?
Just because you both had addict parents doesn’t mean her childhood wasn’t vastly different than yours. She never got into the details about her childhood so comparing yours doesn’t even make sense.
You can do this, Milena, trust! You mentioned that heroin takes everything away, well get on the path where you get everything Back, even from Meth!! You are such a beautiful soul 💛 I wish you all positive vibes and sobriety, and most of all......a PEACEFUL life! Rooting for you, Queen!! ❤️💫❤️💫❤️💫💫
She seemed pretty positive to me.. probably the least suffering I’ve seen in an interview..
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This is what is known as meth babble.
They just talk and talk and don’t shut up lol He didn’t even let him
Ask her questions it’s giving me a headache
Yeah this is the first interview I’ve watched so far that I’ve had to skip through chunks of it cause it’s just babbling,the best way to describe it.
Stim chat...chattering 🤡💀
Man. When the time I was done with this tweaker I was like shut up already. You know? Another thing she kept on saying. This bitch was zooming her ass off.
A girl at work used to be extremely shy. One night she was blah, blah, blah. Yes , she uses.
Life is not all about pleasure. Which seems to be what this woman has equated it down to. This is what’s wrong with our society right now.
spot on.
i always thought it was. You only get 1 life why not enjoy it to the fullest?
@@Puggeliciousgood luck with that
@@Xyz46786 U must be a junkie, Seek help elsewhere buddy
@@Puggelicious I think it’s the constant chase for the next high is what puts some people in a bad place, especially when hardcore drugs are involved
She is higher than chit. Poor mark couldn't get a word in.
Right? My first thought was, does this chick ever come up for air?
She should talk about her oral health and quit making it seem like smoking a chemical is helping her when in all reality it’s hindering her life expectancy
I hope this person gets help. I hope she watches her interview and really listens to her own story.
I just lost my mom to an overdose she was found in hotel room . I had to clean her apartment out and I found a lot of meth. She swore she was off after aneurism but it was a lie
@@baublesanddolls appreciate kind words
Sorry for your loss
@@psalm91.777 thanks it’s so sad to fight so hard for someone for them to still lose in the end….
@@tawnytirado143 much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Sorry for your loss. It sucks losing a parent especially to addiction
God Bless This Queen I pray she turns her life around for the better
The black & white portraits uncover a brutal truth masked over in the interviews.
Exactly
Her skin and scars look nasty
Thank you Melina for sharing your story !!! Your a beautiful girl who deserves all the best !!!
Her ability to talk about her hedonistic lifestyle is amazing. However she needs balance. She doesn't need to be doing all this crazy stuff. I hope she's safe.
I feel like she's close to a pivotal point in her life. As a young person, your values are all over the place. But as the years go by, people tend to find out what's more important. Health, love, to care, longevity, stability, consistency, integrity, etc. are all things that I myself now value.
Hopefully she surrounds herself with the right people and sheds the things that holds her back.
If she could put her energy into making a better life....it'd be a whole new world for her.
God Willing ... 🤗🙏❤️🫶💯
“I’m just on crystal meth” well, when you get off that, hopefully you’ll see things more clearly. Wishing the best for you! ❤
Loneliness is the biggest killer. Some people just need to talk and be heard
In America
Great interview! This lady has so much to live for, she's only 32? No children. I hope and wish the best for her in her future!
Thanks Milena/ Mark!🤟
and shaggy tits
She looks 42 tho.rough life.Wishing her all the best
Can you explain what exactly she has to live for being addicted to crystal meth with clearly no intentions of stopping
@@Xyz46786 As long as a person is BREATHING, there is ALWAYS hope! And I wish sobriety for her also because she DESERVES to see what life is like clean, and peaceful for a change. Much respect to you ❤️💫❤️💫🔥🔥🔥
@@pambeforethestorm9784
Thank you.💜
She is so articulate and self aware, love this woman and hope she gets completely clean.
Better watch out ive seen many people die from crystal here in the central valley of California. Takes your teeth, looks and life.
Had 4 dudes from my old neighborhood pass away from overdoses within a week.. RIP
I am sorry for your loss
May their souls rest in peace. 🙏🏼
Damn, Don't drink the Kool-Aid ☠️
@Sophia P.⚘ My sympathy to you♡RIP, so many~The big Pharma-companies who lied started an opioid-epidemic, bribed Doctors to push it; Can Never, ever 'Replace one minute of 1-Life Lost'..And Wouldn't 😈, Even if they Could❗🕊R I S E☆FOLKs, RISE🕊🌎
Omg so sorry for your loss! I pray they rest in paradise 😢💔❤️🕊🕊🕊🕊
shes hellaaa rolling SHES not even letting him talk she’s so high poor girl :(
How unfortunate that this beautiful lady is going through this experience. You have proven yourself that you can quit drugs and change your life.
Anything that makes you feel amazing needs to be closely examined for the cost it imposes. Some things are worth the cost - loving your family (especially children and pets). Some things are debatable (delicious food, loud music, casual alcohol use). Some things are tricky (drugs that alleviate depression or help you focus). And then there's meth and opiates, which are literally the devil in disguise.
Yes. Sports and hobbies that give you a natural high.
@@redtobertshateshandles. So underrated! ❤
Life isn’t all about self-gratification. TMI Milena - hope you can get sober and really live a good life. ❤️🇨🇦
Too bad she doesn´t use all her insights in to drugs toward something more productive, such as education. She is SO sharp and has a great presence about her.
She can certainly use her insights about drugs in a field of study and I hope she does, if she’s inclined!
Meth is a hell of a drug
Nah cocaine is.
@@openmike4559dude stop already are you 14 years old or something
@@Xyz46786 but it’s true cocaine is a helluva of a drug. 14 year olds cant afford 80 dollar grams of cocaine, shows how naive your are.
@@Xyz46786. Different people have different chemistry and, thus, different preferences. 🤷
She is brilliant, I wish nothing but the best for her.
Girl you need theraphy not meth, wish you all the best!!!
She reminds me of that character Cecily Strong did on SNL,
in the most candid and gorgeous way.
Hmmmm wow, everytime she says she can stop anytime, denial. So glad no children are involved, rare. Never heard anyone go on like this, never took a breath. So lost............I wish her well.
"I can stop doing meth for like a week! I'm totally not addicted and can stop any time!"
Classic lol
Exactly! This is the poster child for the sickness of America!
She's "promoting" promiscuity and saying that is something positive and good.
I literally forgot she was an addict 5 mins into this. She’s so articulate, obviously educated (or on her way to be), attractive… i hope she finds the path that leads her to recovery.❤
She has been in recovery before, and has a lot of insight, from her experience. I hope gets involved in the club, again! She has a lot to share with others, and her experience is valuable. ❤
She is still deep into this how sad
Is that a mask in your picture? Your still deep into the covid thing? That may be even sadder, you’re sobre and still have a mask on. Very disturbing.
@@yarly3180 that’s a lie. Sue looks beautiful and sober
She's a ranting, drugged up, female. I have a headache. 😖
As a very sexual, sexually adventurous incredibly open individual I find women who speak this way about their sexuality are the furthest from discovering their sexuality. Even though obviously they claim the opposite. They find their worth as a woman and their sexual worth based upon the approval of men. She has no idea who she is but a man once told her, “you’re not like other girls” felt validated and ran with it.
Man she speaks so fast. Had to check YT playback speed.
She definitely has the gift of gab. I’m interested in her perspectives and hope she finds a way to a clean and safe life
Something about her makes her extremely special. Please do whatever it takes to stay clean. You're very pretty and intelligent with an attractive personality. I hope you find a better way to cope, Milena. You're special and deserve better. I'll be cheering for you on the sideline.
I am already CHEERING WITHIN. ❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙌. SHE IS GONG TO DO GREAT & WONDROUS THINGS FOR HERSELF & SO MANY OTHERS 🙌🙏❤️💯🫶😁💪👍
I don't think she realizes meth addiction is the same as any addiction you have to steal and find money daily to fund your habit. Your trading fentanyl addiction to meth addiction. And your not going to better your life on either drug. I have been there your just going in a circle like a dog chasing its tail.
Such a draining hard way to live! The physical and emotional pain must be very painful! 🙏🏻💔🤯
i will say though i really enjoyed this interview so much lol it sounded like you were enjoying yourself as well Mark!
Greatgoogelymoogley Alex
@@samuelharwood7835yeah I dont think she gets out much
@@Xyz46786 bruh you a fake page, ran by a loner who doesnt leave your room 😂😂 why you talkin like you outside
@@Xyz46786 you can’t even explain to me how you came to that conclusion because you just pulled it out of your ass.
A lot of people think they know what an alcoholic is and they don’t.
She's such a gorgeous lady, sad to see anyone going down that path, she seems really smart and well spoken. She's going to be on the down side of that because she just enjoys it too much, it's all been wasted time if she doesn't get on a good path. Be a cleaning lady, at least that will be focused towards a goal.
Intelligent, articulate & gorgeous. I hope she gets clean. She has so much potential.
You beat me to it. She is a stunner but she is damaged.
Smart?
Gorgeous is pushing it, but I wish her well of course
“Gorgeous” is a curse in addiction, it means you can always charm someone into giving you money for drugs
She’s not too far gone. She thinks she’s got control over this but just know that you do not. Very smart though hope she makes it out before she waists too much of her life
Woah. denial ain't just a river in Egypt.
This lady can't tell the truth long enough to make sense.
Dude she’s so spunned out of her mind 🤣🤣🤣🤣👍
Emotional abuse and mental abuse is so horrible, Sadness all the time until you learn to control your feelings and reactions to things.
Really hope she gets clean. And a follow-up on her would be great.
U know, U know, U know
right
Better than like, like, like. That drives me nuts! 🤪
It’s alarming how many people are sending themselves to hell without a care.
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Your name combined with talking about hell is a fascinating combination
She needs help she isn’t going to stop even if she wants to.
She believes meth is good.
Why can’t she be a functional meth addict?
I’m 1 minute into the interview. Maybe I’ll shut up till I see the whole thing
Wow. She is lit like a Christmas tree.
Hope she finds healing and recovery. Such a beautiful smart woman❤ I can see her being a strong recovery warrior that helps others with her story.
Word is she’s still talking.
Well spoken. To bad she went down the wrong path. She still has time to turn it all around. Never give up 🤙
The other day a friend of mine was passing by through a spot in our city, that people use to do hardcore drugs, (It’s in the middle of the city, in a very busy street but you know, drugs are everywhere).
She was passing throw and a bunch of kids were there too, and she told me that two guys were about to do heroin right in front of them, and one of the guys realizes that underage kids were right in front of them and said to other guy something like “ are you crazy? Don’t you see the kids?? We are not going to do this here!!!”
Man… this words stuck in my head all week. A person that cannot control his addiction, but at the same time had the common sense that doing that in front of kids is just wrong.
It’s sad AF…
Oh wow! That's crazy! Yeah, sad AF too. It happens all the time, all over. It's really sad😧
* through
* heroin
@@helenbartoszek243 😂😂😂😂
Well thank goodness the one guy had the common sense to not do it in front of the children, but yes, this is a sad thing to see nowadays.....😢💔💯
@@helenbartoszek243 perhaps English is Not their first language, is it REALLY that important to CORRECT people at every turn?? Seems the issue is with YOU, who can't control the urge to correct while missing the ENTIRE POINT of the comment. Now THAT is SAD. No shade to you either, it's just sad 😔💯💛💛
such an intelligent woman! wish her the absolute best ♥️
If you think this is intelligence you must be around a lot of ignorant people… then again there aren’t very many intelligent young people anymore.
Intelligent?!?! Wow! That is disturbing you think that!
@@jennifergannuscio6086 it’s disturbing that you find a woman to not to be intelligent, just because she is struggling. intelligence comes in all forms, you could use some 🫶🏻
This interview was awesome. Relating to her mind only involved listening to what she actually said.
The Universe Opens The Door To Her Truth ... Now it's God's Timing That Will Bring Her To Her Divine Calling 🤗🙏❤️🫶💯
Unfortunately I can’t see this lovely articulate young woman getting clean I hope I’m wrong good luck to her ❤
Only made it 20 mins in couldn’t listen to it anymore.
Expressing your sexuality (spanking etc.) should be expressed behind closed doors. Not in the streets of San Francisco. 🤦♂️
For somebody who has had such a hard life she is amazingly smart and on the ball. As to sex addiction and drugs now that is a complex story.
when sex is your entire personality
🤣🤣 she’s a man
She said she likes the old guys. Looks like she kept one of her Johns button ups after she “customer serviced” him, as a memento. Nice 👍🏻
When it's the only thing you have to offer and are constantly on meth and everyone around you is on meth so you feel like a celebrity because everyone wants to f@ck you
If your addiction takes you to living on Skid Row and normalize meth use as taking Tylenol....your recovery rate is 5%
More die from OTC analgesic meds then meth last I checked stats. My stepfather OD was acetaminophen toxicity after taking scripts of Vicodin and perc 10s over 3 days that a doctor wrote. It was “accidental OD” so they say. If not treated with an antidote soon enough all your organs start failing and you’re screwed 😒
She endorses crystal
Meth and sex are all she has. Emotionally completely unavailable.
13:55 It's relatable that she says that. About 7 years ago I snorted ice I thought it was coke. When my friend told me it was ice I stopped doing it. I may have taken two bumps and it burned and didn't like it. The next day I woke up and I got into my car and started to drive to meet a client and I was on the highway and bam I just got scared. Like I wasn't mentally in control of what I was doing I felt like it wasn't real. Hard to explain but I got a panic attack and I was very anxious to get off the highway and when I exited my luck I went on the ramp that goes to a bridge up high and I was trying to get through it but the drivers ahead of me were going slow and I was panicking even more finally I exited that pulled to a drive way and had to walk and breathe. I took bad roads home and it took so long because I kept pulling over. Ever since I've never been the same I forgot how to not be scarred driving on the fast lane on the highway. I'm afraid to fly because I think I will panic and can't get off the plane when I want. There was one time I had to drink a 6 pack just to make it over a bridge. I've even quit coffee because I think too much caffeine gets my anxiety triggered now that I know what it feels like. Once you know the fear of anxiety its hard not to think about it during potential triggers. It sucks not being like before.
Wowww crazy...and that was just after one episode. Be safe 🙏
Dang that's hard
This has happened to me too!
I used to drive State to State
Now ? After only trying Meth a few times a few years ago?
I can't get on the Thruway w/o panic attacks. Strange ..