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I've been avoiding this video. I wish I couldn't relate to every single part of it. I'm so far behind where I should be in my own healing journey considering how long I've been aware it needed to happen, but then again only last month did I decide that any crutch (weed stuck around longer than the rest) still meant I wasn't actually confronting the depths of pain still lurking inside. They call it ☂ fibromyalgia-I say I'm just fucked up. Sometimes we need to admit when people a lot smarter than ourselves can help us. Is there another way to contact you other than instagram to find out more about one to one sessions? As always thank you for sharing and making it easier to understand and listen to 💙
Jordan, THANK YOU I got to 5 minutes 42 seconds & it hit me so hard; I won't go into grave detail on here but I had a breakdown Sept 2021 & that is what became my healing journey in this lonely world, Finding your video during a "trigger" painting has me sitting here weeping when you described "Being your own puppet master" without even realizing it - Hit me so hard...Much love, Sadly with no job, agoraphobia I can't afford to complete your course, THANK YOU from my Soul to yours
Jordan , I quit drugs all at once because you told me to . It wasnt even an affort . And yesterday I went to an eletronic music festival and stayed sober for the first time ever . It was the best party of my life , i was simply present feeling the Music and the vibe, everybody that talked to me said I am the coolest person ever , I was feeling so good with my looks ( drugs would made me feel so self conscious and in fact uglier than i am obviously ) . Since I quite cannabis I am high all the time , on my love for my life , on my unique personality , on my creativity , on my body sensations . THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT ADVICE . I knew i had to quit but I needed you to tell me that . I admire you so much . I see you like the super wise big brother i never had . again THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH 💙💚💛🧡💜🙏🙏🧠
a dissociated person will begin to feel alive again when the time comes that they agree that their life now matters and is important.. this moment in time is sometimes predetermined at the time of dissassociation
Yes, I agree to some degree - although would push back against any arguments of 'pre-determinism' when supporting dissociative individuals... potential slippery slope territory towards fantastical-wishful-thinking which can sometimes inhibit us from taking the practical steps to everyday grounding and self-care. I know what you're saying though!
@@jordanthornton I think we mean the same in terms of predeterminism not being a thing. I was referring to a person predetermining when they will start to take an action, NOT predeterminism as in the future is predetermined. An example of this would be when a person (at the time of disassociating) subconciously decides "my life will matter at a future point in time OR after X happens etc.".. This subconcious decision to disassociate only usually becomes coscious once the person has sufficently grounded.. The more I say, the more we will likely come to understand/misunderstand but this video really hit a deep part of me so thank you for creating content that resonates where not much else has..
@@aperspective2170 I see what you're saying more clearly now, thank you for taking the time to clarify - also pleased to resonate with you in these ways via these videos, thank you.
wow. I still feel myself going in and out of this. it's fascinating. i moved back home with my parents and am at rock bottom. and i have moments of "i can do this. i can heal. i'm worthy and valuable.' and then "fuck it, it's not worth it. i'm too broken." which is the defense mechanism and dissociative tendencies. what a trip. the tug of war between the part that wants to heal and the strong defense patterns that want to seek safety with addictions and external phenomena.
@@the.kai.eros.experience Please let me share something I have realised and found extremely helpful to raise my self above the cycle of dissociative thought patterns more effectively than in the past (hopefully it can help you too!): The first state I found myself in around: Dissociative thought patterns due to subconscious (repressed memories which surfaced) and conscious childhood trauma which had both left a residual and insidious/false thought patterns and beliefs about myself leading to dissociation. What I realised: First phase A.) My body/nervous system is actually habituated/conditioned to go through the cycle of dissociation as it was how my brain was wired through my maladaptive response to trauma throughout my adolescent period (a period of intense neuronal growth/pruning). It doesn't matter how much my life was in order or how extremely fortunate I became, my body still goes through the cycle of dissociation which is associated with thoughts that are demotivating/self sabotaging etc. Second phase B.) Realising that my mind/body are wired to dissociate (subject to plasticity/time) I came up with a strategy to diffuse negative thought patterns and become more present in the moment and minimise/eradicate dissociating/negative thoughts. This happened organically without much conscious planning (I more realised afterwards what I had done after it occured). Third phase - here is the trick! C.) We all have a good/pure intention in our heart of hearts (whether we have discovered it or not) we also have "positive thoughts/feelings/pure intentions" that can challenge our dissociating thoughts/feelings/patterns of behaviour etc.. The trick is to: 1.) Start dissociating using these "positive thoughts/feelings/pure intentions". Escape reality into these positive things inside ourselves! 2.) Realise that any thought (including positive thoughts) that take you away from the moment are in fact you dissociating/negative in that aspect. 3.) When you start rejecting your most positive thoughts (which are actually dissociating thoughts) to live in the moment, the dissociating cycle becomes a lot easier to break and harder to fall in to. 4.) When a positive thought pattern becomes the worst thing (dissociating) you can think of, you will eventually become someone who is constantly living in the moment! This has helped me so much, I hope it helps you too, I'm still not perfect at it but getting much better and am filled with hope for the future..
I started sobbing in the first minute. But, I knew I was going to cry already. I worked up to this. I just found you, and thank you so much for having the bravery to talk about. I often hated my dissociating. It made us/me weird, and stuff. Anyway, I've found so much gratitude to my soul for what it did. Our heart, we- my soul, we survived because of that. A lot of people say dissociating is sooo bad. But it's extreme, and it did exactly what it was supposed to do. I didn't become "them."
Thank you for sharing your experience - it’s so significant to recognise the defensive & protective elements of the dissociative defence. Allows us to see what’s happening more clearly and then work towards healing our fragmentation’s with mind-body practices like parts work and somatics... always being patient.
What really helped me: cold exposure (cold showers). It brings you back in your body. Also, breathwork. Both are direct and instant gateways to get connected with your body
Yes! I practiced daily cold showers for perhaps three years during my late teens and early twenties. It's truly grounding - especially with some silent shower screaming for that extra catharsis hahah
Thank you for this video, Jordan. My whole life I knew something was wrong with me. I had an abusive childhood. And only until this year did I realize and put a name on it: I have dissociation. Thank you for your work and bringing this help
Beware that mesmerism-projection! Thank you, happy to connect and provide some kind of comfort - highly recommend the book mentioned in this video too!
Good day Jordan, I have experienced dissociation/depersonalization and split personality to escape from my trauma that occurred while serving in the Canadian Forces. Now with some intense inner work and lots of practice, this so called defensive mechanism has become my biggest gift. Today I am able to safely and with full control dissociate when stressful even occurs, but back then I was not able to control my body, now I use it to be the observer of myself and the situation. This has helped me tremendously to not be reactive. TY for your videos, I have found my new platform. ❤️
Isabelle, this is a marvellous story to hear - well done for doing the work and healing these really hard challenges. It’s always inspirational to read, so thank you 🌲
Thank you Jordan. I highly resonate with lowering my screen time and connecting with others in person. Reflecting on it, I tend to resist most social interactions because I don’t feel comfortable within that paradigm - but also I don’t have local friends who appreciate a simple coffee/matcha date. So I feel like I’m floating in an “in between”. You’ve given me something to journal on. Thank you again, So grateful for your videos 🙏🏼
Full day offline, once per week is a game-changer! I'm looking to start implementing two-days fully offline soon. Always that backwards & forwards pull... especially as people who serve via screens and social media! I also highly relate to lack of 'local friends' outside of the gym environment - which is very 'training related', not 'meaningful chat' related. Not there yet! Happy journaling, and I appreciate your continued to engagement and heartfelt comments, Brittany.
Wow, thank you. I just watched this through twice, frankly not realising how much I missed the first time. Beautiful, relevant video and a lesson for me in "re-reading".
A great honour for me to know you took the time to sit with me twice, and I hope that some of the shadow work playlist videos on dissociation will help you too - some gold over there.
Thank you for sharing that and congratulations on the progress you’ve made! The more I hear others stories the more I reflect on my own in the knowing of just how protected I was to a certain degree. I wish channels like yours had more subs to seriously help people as most are drawn to the more entertaining and not necessarily informative channels on the subject, but at least they start somewhere. Our society as with most things we experience seems to be flipped upside down as in the fact of fixing things on the back end instead of preventing them. Of course none of us are perfect and most are just barely existing day in and day out seeing no end in sight. We see this in our Relationships, our Governments, our Health Industry and in our Faith, as things will get better once we’re on the other-side. Many have gotten themselves in situations of distractions that make the healing process far more difficult as the more moving parts involved the more you have to factor into the process. Sometimes we have to remember we are not alone in this healing process especially if we’ve brought responsibilities into this world and our lives who have now become a factor as well as possible an unknown victim of our trauma. Sometimes we seek to help others as a distraction for helping ourselves and in the process we don’t realize we’re just making the hole for ourselves deeper while we pile more dirt on ourselves in the process of doing this good deed we can often be change while dealing with someone else’s trauma and not realize it. I got lucky that when I began the work I had no distractions based on responsibility and was able to connect with my true self to do most of the heavy lifting and although most in my life would not ever know what it entailed I was able to keep a sense of so called normalcy due to my chameleon Jungian type which I’ve turned into a blessing as most as this type thinks it’s a curse. Of course I always get carried away in the comment section and I can’t wait to get into the next video for most do not realize that this topic is of great value yet has been demonized by the generalized public because that’s what they’ve been taught. Open our eyes and show us what’s truly behind the curtain for those who dare to seek with unbiased eyes and ears for only in that way can true knowledge be attained! You are much appreciated! 🙏❤️🙏
@@jordanthornton I know, sorry about that. Thanks for your patience in reading it. Funny how receiving it and putting it into words can be so drawn out. Sharing our experiences is how we all grow together and those that can't move on their own might be moved by us. It's your fault for making such thought provoking videos and I wouldn't want it any other way! 😉😇
Thank you Jordan! Through healing from my childhood trauma I’ve been able to recognize that my mother was often dissociative due to her own traumas, and I’ve noticed how (unconsciously) I would become triggered when seeing her “zone out”. It would make me angry, however with some knowledge I can feel sympathy and stop being negatively reactionary.
I can feel connection with you! It feels like an intimate conversation with a friend! Thanks for sharing! I wanted to say that for me dancing and breathing exercises, fitness and yoga had a significant role on my way through healing from complex ptsd wich I was diagnosed with ten years ago. Still struggling with it but I'm feeling a lot safer in my body now
Movement is one the major medicines for PTSD-like situations! I agree totally - fitness and motion has likewise been my ground. Thank you for taking the time to comment and connect 🌲
Hi Jordan, I was trying to write a letter from my 60 year old self to my 4 year old self who endured the pain from when my first love, my mother, beat me with a belt to stay in a bathtub with hot water that not only scar my feet with third degree burns ,It would also fray the wires that connect my mind, body, soul and spirit . long love story short , i knew 10 mins into your video i needed to stay and listen, My Soul is telling me to e still and listen , Your appreciated ❣❣❣
I wasn't even aware of my dissociation... It's completely nuts. I'm 36, in therapy and working on it. Constantly reflecting on everything even when I'm not in therapy. Knowledge is power, it brings healing and solutions. Thanks for the content you share with us ❤️
Wow! Well done for your journey Jordan, sincerely. It takes a lot of courage to do that, and even more to share it for the benefit of others. Thank you! On a lighter note, I thought the book was written by "Cowshed", which made me giggle! Then I saw it was Kalsched.
Well for starters I'm only half way through but I managed to get half a tear while I'm at work. I'll be able to listen later and find some feelings to work with. I don't know if I should say I'm very glad the sleeping child kept hold of you long enough to keep you going, or that I'm sorry you had to feel any thing like that. I am a shadow work newbie and haven't grasped much of it yet. But thank you for my tiny little tear on my nose. I've been medically tear deprived for a couple of years but was already cold before that. Xx
Wow, what a great video! My background is in Psychedelic-Assisted Therapy. I personally experienced healing with a combination of using the book as a guide plus a Trauma-Informed therapist who supported the integration of my psychedelic journeys. Psychedelics, when used under the proper guidance and protocols, can help to process trauma effectively.
This one is special. I've shared one long comment / experience, but as for the rest... To no longer be triggered into a reaction, but more a response, by this. The stages of healing refer. I am thankful for your channel, helping me to finalise the paintwork, fixtures and aesthetics of my structure, this last year, plus. When I arrived here, quietly, the walls were up, the roof was on, and the plastering was complete. Thank you, Jordan.
Oh my God. The introduction freaking got me. I was in that exact scenario from 3-5 years with my family member. While the trauma happened I would see myself from above. I remember what happened but the emotion was removed at the time. However, it made me who I am today, and my love for people and helping people runs deep.
Jordan, this video was incredibly helpful. Thank you for making it and introducing me to active dissociation. I have awareness around that is a game changer. Peace
Welcome, and I’m glad to get connected in good timing. I don’t know your full history with dissociation, but I hope you find depth and truth in some of the resources shared on this channel - stay steady with your embodiment 🌲
Thank you for this video 🙏🏻 I just happened to stumble upon it, and I can completely relate to Everything you said. I’m looking forward to watching more as I haven’t found anyone who has touched on this quite as clearly as you have.
Nina, thank you for taking the time to comment and share gratitude. You'll love the book recommended in this video and others in this series - I'm sure of it. Wishing you all the best.
Thanks for the the degree of vulnerability that allows people like me to trust you, and know what you are speaking of Retrieval of soul fragments have helped me immensely in my first leg of healing. I have quit many of my more abusive additions for almost a year and started kickboxing as a way to transmute energy and get into my body. With this video in my feed and with your 3 days of unplugging, I've decided to start detoxing myself from screens for 1 day/week and perhaps finally read some of those books collecting dust in my collection. Great video, can't wait to see what I'll be suggested next.
Oh my gosh Jordan I can relate to so much you say, I have done years of healing work on myself and yet I continue to work away and sometimes work away hard , going deep and purging and moments of peace and more openness in my heart, I so relate to the hypervigilant child and unfortuantely adult still at this age well into my years lets say, bless you and thank you so very much for sharing and shining a light on this poignant and sensitive topic
Well - Now I understand why I was always having dreams about flying & floating & Not feeling pain - as I got older Not feeling hunger or thirst Not feeling a wanting to take anything into my body or my life > It’s from not being connected w. my own body 💚🐇
Absolute 💯 respect - TY for your research and astounding story telling! My parents were brutal to me as a child and I was abused physically, mentally and emotionally 😑 I would shut off or either pee my pants from the fear.... cruel, harsh parents should not be allowed to have kids ever....I still have scars from my childhood that will never leave
I'm sorry to hear this, but glad to connect and provide these reflections at this stage of your journey. Wishing you my best with the inner work, Rachel.
Thanks so much for sharing your experience. It takes a lot of courage. Can you could provide insight into climate anxiety and the feeling of doom and anticipatory grief that the situation triggers? Many are searching for a way to cope. When I looked squarely at the aggregate of peer reviewed scientific literature re: abrupt exponential climate change, it shattered me. It set off a grief that is unlike any grief I have ever processed. It's one thing to grapple with and accept one's own death. It's another thing to contemplate the collapse of civilization and the quite possible extinction of the human race.
I don't remember that much of my childhood. Just bits and pieces. I am 56 and still dissociate almost every day when I need to. I only found out I was emotionally abuse as a kid at 51, It was my first Spiritual Awakening good morning I would have told you I was never abused when my father died it's my mother became a raging alcoholic leaving her a six kids and a very busy Supper Club. My parents were wealthy and my dad was well known for being a chef and a restaurant owner back in the 60s and 70s. After my father died when I was 7 my brother took his life a couple years later andmy sister followed a couple years after that. I've been with sociopaths my whole life never knowing what the hell was wrong with them. That day i read the 10 traits of a narcissist well he was laying next to me on his laptop I didn't know not to say anything and I read him the nine the 10 traits and said you're not a narcissist are you I'll never forget to look on his face and his black eyes and he said I believe I am that was the craziest 24 hours of my life. I didn't know what spirituality it was I didn't believe in God anymore I didn't know I was abused and every things in my life was a lie remember the movie Mommy Dearest that was my mother to the tea raging alcoholic well-known the stars all came to my parents supper club. Pictures all over the walls in the waiting room with them. I was born 25 years later then my siblings. My mother was way to old to have another baby. Sorry got carried away. Anyway I just saw one of your videos for the first time the other day and knew you were the one I needed to listen to. Thank you so much for helping us . Lov
I'm sorry to hear this, Lori - although it seems like you have gained much clarity into your patterns and the ways you can move forward. Hope these videos help.
Nice thing we can look back at experiences like that and still find a hopeful take on them. I have been throughout the video with a question in my mind though: what about the lack of memories? I'm certain this is a sideways direction I'm taking the conversation, but I can't help but chew on this. I couldn't situate myself relative to many things yet in my life, this being one of them, despite my natural inclination to go after self-awareness. Very dissociative as a kid and on, but can remember very little of my childhood to be able to know where it stems from. Quite a conundrum, eh?
My current best understanding of memory repression is that the way to 'unlock' the material is via the body - specifically, the pre-verbal emotions. It's the essence of the cathartic therapies, and I've seen signs that the visual and narrative elements tend to re-emerge in their own timing (as the body opens up space / unthaws)
@@jordanthornton So, for instance, when I was working in the bioenergetic sessions and intense emotional reactions stopped coming up, would it be the case that I should have continued? Or a feeling based catharsis was possibly enough, even without the remembrance of images? I'm super intrigued by these processes, they are so far from being linear and at the same time they are so universally experienced...
Hi Jordan, stuck 5 years on fight or flight and trauma goes beyond limitations in the subconscious. It's my soul from mother abuse that's making wanting my mum because I kept pretending I was also asleep when she entered my room. She didn't had harmful intentions but I was terrified of her...I don't know how to heal my soul I am more terrified with myself than any other person on earth. When trauma comes up every 2-3 hours my soul practically is been taken out of my body. I am very violent while asking for my mum. I am shouting that she doesn't want me..Jesus how can end this...this thing wants to take my soul..😢
I'm sorry to hear this, and I hope the videos on this channel support your next steps. There's dozens of videos and books which will help you - make sure to pickup the books and keep going. You got this.
Thank you, Jordan, for recommending 'Trauma and the Soul.' It was deeply moving and transformative, and I know it will also prove useful for my studies in psychology. I will certainly be reading other books you've suggested - I've added them to my list hah I love this union where psychology and spirituality dovetail. I plan on reading Iain McGilchrist's works on brain hemispheres next. I'm interested in exploring further psychology literature on the numinous. Do you have any suggestions?
I wouldn't! I've read both, but Trauma And The Soul is the stronger text, and you can still get value from his first book afterwards. That would be my suggestion.
“Hell is other people” (Sartre) I agree in general with your recommendations for more groundedness. But human interaction, unless with someone spiritually and psychologically healthy( almost Guru like) is not advised since most social groups today promote dissociation. Better to follow the tried and tested solitude method before venturing into human, usually flawed human relationships which mostly these days are co-dependent traps. Another issue is that being in the body is actually getting us back n touch with mundane awareness, away from the mind-body complex ironically, this takes us back into “ spirit” being, spaciousness.
Although I agree with what you're saying about human interactions in some ways, I believe we don't need other's to be almost 'guru-like' to receive the benefits of healthy bonding and relationship. Sure, there are lots of psychological issues in society, but there are also plenty of increasingly healthy people worth befriending or collaborating with. Appreciate your comment!
the trigger warning was not at 00:00 - it didn't come until after a minute. I just got out of bed because i couldn't sleep again, and as i was starting to shake i was thinking i'm glad my partner isn't listening to this (who is also a survivor)
@@jordanthornton thankyou - unfortunately because it caught me off guard once it sets in i dissociate and wasn't able to hear what you were saying. i liked the tone of where you were going, and i may try to listen again sometime
@@333Eriana Yeah, I totally get you. That the trouble with attempting to self-educate while also being vulnerable to emotional flashbacks - the rest of the video after one minute is much easier to process, but I trust your timing & self-pacing.
Great video. This book is not available in kindle, and the paper copy is over 5oo bucks in my country. Do you know any other source of ebook that I can find it?
Hi Jordan!! This reasonates with me so bad i feel this way since more than 10 years i feel like i’ve been absent and missed my whole life sometimes.. I’ve never been able to focus on anything and weird to say but i havd the feeling that while I wasn’t there other energies took the opportunity to live through my body would you agree with that?? I’ve always thought it would go away one day but just found out about this issue and makes a lot of sense to me
I tried to disassociate trauma from the soul. Instead, I say that trauma hits the body, the biological self. By distancing my soul from the body, it allows me to attain a level of peace. The body is a temporary state. I guess this is the point of enlightenment in a spiritual sense. To preserve the soul by bypassing the body.
Yes, this is the concept which Donald Kalsched frequently returns to in the incredible book featured here. Highly recommend it - truly a place of safety. Thank you for your comment and attention, Anne.
@@jordanthornton thank you for your video content . In the last couple of years I've been drawn more to the aether , and away from the 'sense of self'. I cannot help but feel the self is an illusion. Or perhaps, I'm trying to find more effective coping mechanisms after studying psychoanalysis and Jung for 20 years. On the other hand, I feel that as a collective consciousness we continue to dwell in a primitive, primordial, state. But this too may be my coping mechanism. Aristotle once said, trauma nourishes the soul. It's paradoxes such as these that throw me into perplexity.
I cannot believe other people experience this. I started drawing ghost. All blacked out ghost. And a tiny sliver a shadow beneath it ... I said it was Self portrait.
Just a thought on the “get some exercise” idea: What if your discociated little boy in that bedroom took the advice and went for a little jog around the block…and his body started feeling kind of safe (because it wasn’t stationary and therefore not trapped !) and then the rhythmic impact of his feet hitting the pavement switched on the same endogenous opiate system , that rewarded ancient man for running down prey for hours at a time (that possibly allowed him to get hold of the meat-protein he used to grow himself this complex little brain that gives us all so much trouble now…). So now our little boy is being rewarded for running with some of the most powerful drugs our bodies can produce: He’s feeling kind of elated because the body is feeding his system candy in the form of dopamine and serotonin and he is pain free, because of home made opiates (and cortisol). Sweet! He might add to the experience by listening to some nice music…and hey! He doesn’t even have to deal with people (so he is on a holiday from constantly scanning their every move for danger)…at this stage the kid realises he can created the “mother of all dissociative environments”. He can literally leave his body to chug along on its own…and then sort of rendezvous with it at the end of a run to collect the praise and admiration he will no doubt receive from others when he gets home (rampant drug abuse is still very much frowned upon by this society…exercise-not so much) . ..My point being that exercise is obviously great…but the intention behind the activity is what makes it either a medicine OR a poison. Great Chanel though! I am enjoying it.
I totally see what you're saying and appreciate you taking the time to describe this situation with so much care and detail. Exercise addiction is certainly an issue worth talking about, and yet I would not hesitate the ''devils bargain' to snap my fingers and substitute all dissociative screen-addictions for daily movement 'addictions'. Problems at every level, but a mass shift to exercise compulsion would be an improvement over screen compulsion.
@@jordanthornton Thank you for taking the time to respond, I would say putting addictions into a hierarchy (ie “my running addiction is better or worse than your online addiction”,say…) and replacing one with the other would change anything about what drives the addiction in the first place.The pain stays the same…its only the coping mechanism that takes on a different form. Gabor Mate has some interesting perspectives on the subject.
@@persephone4846 I agree with what you’re saying here about unresolved core pain, and have studied these things too. It’s all ultimately symptoms-swapping - and that doesn’t ‘work’. And yet I have to disagree that the ‘pain stays the same’ when it comes to the specific example of physically strengthening and vitalising the body. Compulsive or not, movement is naturally curative for dissociative individuals to a tangible degree, even if there is chronic traumatic compulsion behind their exercise. Tricky topic to explore, and I wouldn’t want to be seen as black-and-white on this either. Very interesting conversation, certainly worth exploring more in the future!
Interesting. I never considered it before, but I wonder now if the phenomenon known as an Out of Body Experience might relate to such dissociative behavior/consciousness as you speak of. I had an Out of Body Experience when I was about 7. It lasted perhaps 3-4 minutes before I became "aware" that *I* was looking at *me*, (from the corner up near the ceiling, actually) and it was extremely vivid/visceral, and a bit scary to me at the time. Not having any reference for such experience, and since kids switch gears pretty quick, I quite forgot about it until much later, about age 12-13 when I read about the phenomenon, and recalled the strange experience. It has not occurred again, but I believed it to be an authentic experience, as at that age, I had no knowledge of such things upon which to base a 'fantasy' or 'lucid dream' experience. Now I must reckon whether it was "just" a physiological response. Escapism at a high level. ha. Talk about an "external locus of identity", haha. I can laugh now, but only because I paid for the buffet. The "Hypervigilance" to the point of possibly "reading into energies before anything happens" ....um. Yes. THAT thing. I'm rather at a loss for words here, and must simply say: Dude, you make me feel so not weird. haha. Turns out to have all been with good purpose, however excruciating it may have been to 'develop' this peculiar "skillset", for it serves me and others well, today. I -however it has come to pass, have ended up 'working' with a couple much-too-young suicidal boys. (One of whom also recently related a similar type Out of Body awareness or experience to me) Also, distinctly dismissive avoidant/non-conversant personality types, and cannot help but think these behaviors too, falls under the same spectrum of dissociative defense mechanisms. Fortunately at this time, none of them are at a "crisis stage" any longer. We are 'maintaining', and we are improving, and growing together. Your Work is quickly becoming a Source of not only encouragement, but almost an affirmation that I am doing precisely as needs be, ...nevermind that it isn't what I would have elected, nor planned, when I started playing online Video Games. A greater Design has me right where It wanted me. Lives are at stake, Mr. Jordan, as you indubitably well know. I appreciate the support. My sincerest heart-felt condolences for your personal experience, my friend, and thank you so much for your brave candor in expressing your authentic, if painful Truths. Your suffering was not in vain, and indeed has made you unique, and absolutely Priceless. One man's Nightmare Fuel is another man's Balm of Gilead. God bless.
I got sober from heroin, pills, & meth. Been 7 years sober without relapse. However, I still smoke weed & cigarettes, so my addiction tendencies must still be in full swing? Or what would you think? I badly want to be able to heal fully, but nervous to try to quit weed because it helps my pain tremendously on a daily basis.
Well done for maintaining your sobriety, truly. I hesitate to give any form of ‘advice’ on your specific situation in a comments section without knowing more, which isn’t the place for it sadly. My universal general advice is to go full-sober, but I know there are cases of intentional weed usage which can be beneficial (in the grand scheme of things) - I wish I could say more, but hope you understand my hesitance here 🌲
@@jordanthornton I completely understand. I wish I could afford your services but sadly we are really struggling as is. I'd like to go full sober but honestly with how my life is I don't think I could do it, and my husband would need to do it as well so there is just a lot riding against it. Do you think the inner work processes would still be of benefit to me despite still smoking weed/cigs?
I totally get it. My new course could be a useful and more affordable self-paced alternative to direct support, if you check out the latest shadow work playlist for more information. In terms of full-sober, it’s something which I make mandatory for all my mentorship because I do believe that certain traumas & higher potentials will only reveal when substances have been removed. They form a cloud, and it’s important to dissolve that distortion (but only when it’s safe, and never to be rushed) - complex question, of course.
Sometimes under massive stress I notice the tendency emerge, but my lifestyle has built up an ‘insurance’ against this kind of experience thanks to cumulative healing work and enjoying physical training 🌲
It's a huge issue - will make more videos on this where I can. It's a tricky one because youtube often 'nukes' the reach on videos which mention certain trigger words... will try to find ways around it.
Do you think soul is real? And if it is real then soul lives in the body, but the person doesn't lives in the body thanks to the trauma.........?........why soul doesn't save himself and search for a new happry body............?
I came across your videos when I was looking to delve a little deeper into Jungian psychology. I have to say that I'm not sure how I feel about some of the content. It feels quite inaccessible and elitist, and I wonder what the actual impact you're trying to make is? Because a lot of what I've seen has been a bit like inspiration porn, trauma flaunting and a lot of pseudo-science. I think it's a bit dangerous to say what you're saying with so much authority. Your heart very well may be in the right place here, but I'd recommend taking a long hard look at yourself and being as honest with yourself as you preach to be. Is this an ego-trip that will just make people think you're great, and smart and interesting without actually having to do the real work? I would say looking at the demographic of people who seem responsive, it comes off as a bit of a "circle jerk", if you will. Just maybe be a bit mindful of that if what you're trying to do is actually bring about change rather than recreate the wheel.
I appreciate your comment and understand your concerns, Rach. There is an increasing amount of shallowness and pseudo-scientific teachings out there. I see that. Jungian circles are particularly circular, and the comments section on any video will usually only be comprised of 'top-engagement' - not the vast majority who fall in the middle. To directly respond to your questions: I've spent the last two years facilitating this work with clients privately as my full-time occupation. It's not something I take lightly, and have supported many people as they patiently work through horrific traumas. I likewise make every attempt in this series to be as holistically grounded in my research and conclusions as possible. Always attempting to highlight that I indeed don't have 'all the answers', and also do my best to draw the viewers attention directly to the resources that I have likewise benefitted from. I trust that adults can make their own decisions, especially in subjective spaces. Hope this answers your question, appreciate your concern and wishing you well.
Agreed. Newage reframing / spiritual bypassing has it's limits. We may not all choose what happens to us but choosing what we can do with ourselves after what happens to us is still within realm of possibility.
Holy fucking shit dude. This is so validating to receive. Wow. I sat with ayahuasca a few months ago and saw my inner child in the fetal position - terrified, full of shame, like Gollum. He was saying "I don't know how to exist or be in this world." It was horrifying, heartbreaking and in some ways re-traumatizing. I've been circling around connecting to exactly what it all meant. This was such a huge piece and helps me understand and have compassion for my life experiences this far. it's okay and understandable that I have felt stuck as a wounded boy for most of my life. and now I can start to move forward. thank you SO MUCH.
all vedas thousands thousands years ago says GOD is no where God is within you. TATVAMASI,AHAM BRAHMASI,AYAMATMA BRAHMA, PRAGNAM BRAHMA -- all the 4 vedas gave the best quotation says god is me . RAMANA MAHARSHI said that god and you cannot seperated this is divine knowledge. HINDUISM taught non-violence, no anger,no lust, money no value, respect the elders,fame has no value,help needy, respect ladies. sex has no value. Batchelors has more spiritual power this is called OJJAS this will help in your kundali awakening at the earliest.
I noticed that as a human being I can be courageously disassociate with my faithfulness 🧰 aquired from wise mindfulness integrations to include any and all psychosomatic sensory overloaded 🤯🫶🏼🕳🏄🌹👣👣🦾🥰🫦
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I've been avoiding this video. I wish I couldn't relate to every single part of it. I'm so far behind where I should be in my own healing journey considering how long I've been aware it needed to happen, but then again only last month did I decide that any crutch (weed stuck around longer than the rest) still meant I wasn't actually confronting the depths of pain still lurking inside. They call it ☂ fibromyalgia-I say I'm just fucked up.
Sometimes we need to admit when people a lot smarter than ourselves can help us. Is there another way to contact you other than instagram to find out more about one to one sessions?
As always thank you for sharing and making it easier to understand and listen to 💙
Can you do a video on hoarding?
Jordan, THANK YOU I got to 5 minutes 42 seconds & it hit me so hard; I won't go into grave detail on here but I had a breakdown Sept 2021 & that is what became my healing journey in this lonely world, Finding your video during a "trigger" painting has me sitting here weeping when you described "Being your own puppet master" without even realizing it - Hit me so hard...Much love, Sadly with no job, agoraphobia I can't afford to complete your course, THANK YOU from my Soul to yours
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Jordan , I quit drugs all at once because you told me to . It wasnt even an affort . And yesterday I went to an eletronic music festival and stayed sober for the first time ever . It was the best party of my life , i was simply present feeling the Music and the vibe, everybody that talked to me said I am the coolest person ever , I was feeling so good with my looks ( drugs would made me feel so self conscious and in fact uglier than i am obviously ) . Since I quite cannabis I am high all the time , on my love for my life , on my unique personality , on my creativity , on my body sensations . THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT ADVICE . I knew i had to quit but I needed you to tell me that . I admire you so much . I see you like the super wise big brother i never had . again THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH 💙💚💛🧡💜🙏🙏🧠
This message means so much that I'm going to repost it to my story - made my day, thank you.
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This resonated with me so deeply that tears just fell instinctively, as if that inner child finally felt seen.
Bless your Soul
Right here with you on this path, brother. We got this.
Same 😭😭😭
a dissociated person will begin to feel alive again when the time comes that they agree that their life now matters and is important.. this moment in time is sometimes predetermined at the time of dissassociation
Yes, I agree to some degree - although would push back against any arguments of 'pre-determinism' when supporting dissociative individuals... potential slippery slope territory towards fantastical-wishful-thinking which can sometimes inhibit us from taking the practical steps to everyday grounding and self-care. I know what you're saying though!
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I think we mean the same in terms of predeterminism not being a thing. I was referring to a person predetermining when they will start to take an action, NOT predeterminism as in the future is predetermined. An example of this would be when a person (at the time of disassociating) subconciously decides "my life will matter at a future point in time OR after X happens etc.".. This subconcious decision to disassociate only usually becomes coscious once the person has sufficently grounded.. The more I say, the more we will likely come to understand/misunderstand but this video really hit a deep part of me so thank you for creating content that resonates where not much else has..
@@aperspective2170 I see what you're saying more clearly now, thank you for taking the time to clarify - also pleased to resonate with you in these ways via these videos, thank you.
wow.
I still feel myself going in and out of this. it's fascinating.
i moved back home with my parents and am at rock bottom. and i have moments of "i can do this. i can heal. i'm worthy and valuable.'
and then "fuck it, it's not worth it. i'm too broken."
which is the defense mechanism and dissociative tendencies.
what a trip. the tug of war between the part that wants to heal and the strong defense patterns that want to seek safety with addictions and external phenomena.
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Please let me share something I have realised and found extremely helpful to raise my self above the cycle of dissociative thought patterns more effectively than in the past (hopefully it can help you too!):
The first state I found myself in around:
Dissociative thought patterns due to subconscious (repressed memories which surfaced) and conscious childhood trauma which had both left a residual and insidious/false thought patterns and beliefs about myself leading to dissociation.
What I realised:
First phase
A.) My body/nervous system is actually habituated/conditioned to go through the cycle of dissociation as it was how my brain was wired through my maladaptive response to trauma throughout my adolescent period (a period of intense neuronal growth/pruning). It doesn't matter how much my life was in order or how extremely fortunate I became, my body still goes through the cycle of dissociation which is associated with thoughts that are demotivating/self sabotaging etc.
Second phase
B.) Realising that my mind/body are wired to dissociate (subject to plasticity/time) I came up with a strategy to diffuse negative thought patterns and become more present in the moment and minimise/eradicate dissociating/negative thoughts. This happened organically without much conscious planning (I more realised afterwards what I had done after it occured).
Third phase - here is the trick!
C.) We all have a good/pure intention in our heart of hearts (whether we have discovered it or not) we also have "positive thoughts/feelings/pure intentions" that can challenge our dissociating thoughts/feelings/patterns of behaviour etc..
The trick is to:
1.) Start dissociating using these "positive thoughts/feelings/pure intentions". Escape reality into these positive things inside ourselves!
2.) Realise that any thought (including positive thoughts) that take you away from the moment are in fact you dissociating/negative in that aspect.
3.) When you start rejecting your most positive thoughts (which are actually dissociating thoughts) to live in the moment, the dissociating cycle becomes a lot easier to break and harder to fall in to.
4.) When a positive thought pattern becomes the worst thing (dissociating) you can think of, you will eventually become someone who is constantly living in the moment!
This has helped me so much, I hope it helps you too, I'm still not perfect at it but getting much better and am filled with hope for the future..
I started sobbing in the first minute. But, I knew I was going to cry already. I worked up to this. I just found you, and thank you so much for having the bravery to talk about. I often hated my dissociating. It made us/me weird, and stuff. Anyway, I've found so much gratitude to my soul for what it did. Our heart, we- my soul, we survived because of that. A lot of people say dissociating is sooo bad. But it's extreme, and it did exactly what it was supposed to do. I didn't become "them."
Thank you for sharing your experience - it’s so significant to recognise the defensive & protective elements of the dissociative defence. Allows us to see what’s happening more clearly and then work towards healing our fragmentation’s with mind-body practices like parts work and somatics... always being patient.
What really helped me: cold exposure (cold showers). It brings you back in your body. Also, breathwork. Both are direct and instant gateways to get connected with your body
Yes! I practiced daily cold showers for perhaps three years during my late teens and early twenties. It's truly grounding - especially with some silent shower screaming for that extra catharsis hahah
Trauma and the Soul was mind blowing, like a reading a diary I never wrote.
Many people say this, and it’s wonderful to know that you had this experience too. Keep going on your journey 🌲
Thank you for this video, Jordan. My whole life I knew something was wrong with me. I had an abusive childhood. And only until this year did I realize and put a name on it: I have dissociation. Thank you for your work and bringing this help
It likewise took me years to understand this work - keep going with the work of Alexander Lowen and Peter Levine, they will help. You got this.
@ much appreciated
Amazing. Even just watching and listening to him was mesmerizing. I loved looking into his eyes (rare for me) and his voice soothed my bones.
Beware that mesmerism-projection! Thank you, happy to connect and provide some kind of comfort - highly recommend the book mentioned in this video too!
The kernel of innocence; which is their soul. Omg I welled you with tears
Sometimes I surprise myself when these powerful lines emerge while speaking - I like this one too!
Good day Jordan, I have experienced dissociation/depersonalization and split personality to escape from my trauma that occurred while serving in the Canadian Forces. Now with some intense inner work and lots of practice, this so called defensive mechanism has become my biggest gift. Today I am able to safely and with full control dissociate when stressful even occurs, but back then I was not able to control my body, now I use it to be the observer of myself and the situation. This has helped me tremendously to not be reactive. TY for your videos, I have found my new platform. ❤️
Isabelle, this is a marvellous story to hear - well done for doing the work and healing these really hard challenges. It’s always inspirational to read, so thank you 🌲
You have such a relaxing voice. Thank you! ❤
Thank you Jordan. I highly resonate with lowering my screen time and connecting with others in person. Reflecting on it, I tend to resist most social interactions because I don’t feel comfortable within that paradigm - but also I don’t have local friends who appreciate a simple coffee/matcha date. So I feel like I’m floating in an “in between”. You’ve given me something to journal on. Thank you again, So grateful for your videos 🙏🏼
Full day offline, once per week is a game-changer! I'm looking to start implementing two-days fully offline soon. Always that backwards & forwards pull... especially as people who serve via screens and social media! I also highly relate to lack of 'local friends' outside of the gym environment - which is very 'training related', not 'meaningful chat' related. Not there yet!
Happy journaling, and I appreciate your continued to engagement and heartfelt comments, Brittany.
I can relate 💚🌸☕️
Very thoughtful and insightful video. You did a great job of using your personal story to illustrate without overshare. Not an easy balance.
I’m still pretending to be asleep! I’ll definitely give those books a read. What a beautiful video, thank you.
Wow, thank you. I just watched this through twice, frankly not realising how much I missed the first time. Beautiful, relevant video and a lesson for me in "re-reading".
A great honour for me to know you took the time to sit with me twice, and I hope that some of the shadow work playlist videos on dissociation will help you too - some gold over there.
Thank you for sharing that and congratulations on the progress you’ve made! The more I hear others stories the more I reflect on my own in the knowing of just how protected I was to a certain degree. I wish channels like yours had more subs to seriously help people as most are drawn to the more entertaining and not necessarily informative channels on the subject, but at least they start somewhere.
Our society as with most things we experience seems to be flipped upside down as in the fact of fixing things on the back end instead of preventing them. Of course none of us are perfect and most are just barely existing day in and day out seeing no end in sight. We see this in our Relationships, our Governments, our Health Industry and in our Faith, as things will get better once we’re on the other-side.
Many have gotten themselves in situations of distractions that make the healing process far more difficult as the more moving parts involved the more you have to factor into the process. Sometimes we have to remember we are not alone in this healing process especially if we’ve brought responsibilities into this world and our lives who have now become a factor as well as possible an unknown victim of our trauma.
Sometimes we seek to help others as a distraction for helping ourselves and in the process we don’t realize we’re just making the hole for ourselves deeper while we pile more dirt on ourselves in the process of doing this good deed we can often be change while dealing with someone else’s trauma and not realize it.
I got lucky that when I began the work I had no distractions based on responsibility and was able to connect with my true self to do most of the heavy lifting and although most in my life would not ever know what it entailed I was able to keep a sense of so called normalcy due to my chameleon Jungian type which I’ve turned into a blessing as most as this type thinks it’s a curse. Of course I always get carried away in the comment section and I can’t wait to get into the next video for most do not realize that this topic is of great value yet has been demonized by the generalized public because that’s what they’ve been taught. Open our eyes and show us what’s truly behind the curtain for those who dare to seek with unbiased eyes and ears for only in that way can true knowledge be attained! You are much appreciated! 🙏❤️🙏
Another masterful comment-essay, haha! Thank you so much for sharing :)
@@jordanthornton I know, sorry about that. Thanks for your patience in reading it. Funny how receiving it and putting it into words can be so drawn out. Sharing our experiences is how we all grow together and those that can't move on their own might be moved by us. It's your fault for making such thought provoking videos and I wouldn't want it any other way! 😉😇
Thank you Jordan! Through healing from my childhood trauma I’ve been able to recognize that my mother was often dissociative due to her own traumas, and I’ve noticed how (unconsciously) I would become triggered when seeing her “zone out”. It would make me angry, however with some knowledge I can feel sympathy and stop being negatively reactionary.
Glad to hear you've healed some of these major challenges, and wishing you the best with your next steps.
Thank you for this video. For pointing me in the direction.
I can feel connection with you! It feels like an intimate conversation with a friend! Thanks for sharing!
I wanted to say that for me dancing and breathing exercises, fitness and yoga had a significant role on my way through healing from complex ptsd wich I was diagnosed with ten years ago. Still struggling with it but I'm feeling a lot safer in my body now
Movement is one the major medicines for PTSD-like situations! I agree totally - fitness and motion has likewise been my ground. Thank you for taking the time to comment and connect 🌲
This is some absolutely amazing stuff. I applaud you for your dilligence and insight!
More to come! It's an absolute pleasure to finally be appearing more publicly and sharing these varied insights into the world of inner work :)
Thank you for the video , i deeply relate to all the words you have said
Make sure to keep getting the books shared here too / they will help 🌲
This is a blessing when I needed it the most 🙏
Took me 47 years to get to this TH-cam channel
Appreciate you being here, and welcome! Check out the recent Shadow Work Playlist for my best work and some great exercises!
Hi Jordan, I was trying to write a letter from my 60 year old self to my 4 year old self who endured the pain from when my first love, my mother, beat me with a belt to stay in a bathtub with hot water that not only scar my feet with third degree burns ,It would also fray the wires that connect my mind, body, soul and spirit . long love story short , i knew 10 mins into your video i needed to stay and listen, My Soul is telling me to e still and listen , Your appreciated ❣❣❣
I wasn't even aware of my dissociation... It's completely nuts. I'm 36, in therapy and working on it. Constantly reflecting on everything even when I'm not in therapy. Knowledge is power, it brings healing and solutions. Thanks for the content you share with us ❤️
You got this - it took me a long time to find the concept too.
Wow! Well done for your journey Jordan, sincerely. It takes a lot of courage to do that, and even more to share it for the benefit of others. Thank you!
On a lighter note, I thought the book was written by "Cowshed", which made me giggle! Then I saw it was Kalsched.
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Your life is very soothing. Do you have any hypothesis episodes?
Based on your recommendation, I'm going to purchase the book you talked about, Trauma and The Soul, by Donald Kalsched.
Jeff, absolutely marvellous! It’s a real gem. Enjoy 🌲
Well for starters I'm only half way through but I managed to get half a tear while I'm at work. I'll be able to listen later and find some feelings to work with. I don't know if I should say I'm very glad the sleeping child kept hold of you long enough to keep you going, or that I'm sorry you had to feel any thing like that. I am a shadow work newbie and haven't grasped much of it yet. But thank you for my tiny little tear on my nose. I've been medically tear deprived for a couple of years but was already cold before that. Xx
Well done on your breakthrough, that’s powerful to read and I appreciate you sharing this here.
Wow, what a great video! My background is in Psychedelic-Assisted Therapy. I personally experienced healing with a combination of using the book as a guide plus a Trauma-Informed therapist who supported the integration of my psychedelic journeys. Psychedelics, when used under the proper guidance and protocols, can help to process trauma effectively.
Yes, there is great research and work being done here! Happy to hear about your successes.
I can trace my healing path back to a guided MDMA trip about 2 years ago. I couldn’t get past subconscious defenses otherwise.
This one is special.
I've shared one long comment / experience, but as for the rest... To no longer be triggered into a reaction, but more a response, by this. The stages of healing refer.
I am thankful for your channel, helping me to finalise the paintwork, fixtures and aesthetics of my structure, this last year, plus. When I arrived here, quietly, the walls were up, the roof was on, and the plastering was complete.
Thank you, Jordan.
Oh my God. The introduction freaking got me. I was in that exact scenario from 3-5 years with my family member. While the trauma happened I would see myself from above. I remember what happened but the emotion was removed at the time. However, it made me who I am today, and my love for people and helping people runs deep.
I'm sorry to hear this, I know that feeling. Wishing you the best with your next steps, Erika.
Your vulnerability and honesty is extraordinary. So much gratitude for your work.
Candace, thank you - truly.
Unbelievably good video. Thanks for sharing your personal story. You’re right - Kalsched’s work is up there!
David, I cannot recommend Kalsched enough - exactly!
Jordan, this video was incredibly helpful. Thank you for making it and introducing me to active dissociation. I have awareness around that is a game changer. Peace
Welcome, and I’m glad to get connected in good timing. I don’t know your full history with dissociation, but I hope you find depth and truth in some of the resources shared on this channel - stay steady with your embodiment 🌲
Your video is the universe answering my prayers
Thank you so much 💚
Algorithm's work in magical ways, eh? Pleasure to connect with you, and share this series with you! Wishing you all the best.
Thank you for this video 🙏🏻
I just happened to stumble upon it, and I can completely relate to Everything you said. I’m looking forward to watching more as I haven’t found anyone who has touched on this quite as clearly as you have.
Nina, thank you for taking the time to comment and share gratitude. You'll love the book recommended in this video and others in this series - I'm sure of it. Wishing you all the best.
I’m sorry you suffered, but hey, that’s what makes you awesome. Dissociation is hard to grasp, even for counselors. Thanks for your videos.
No worries at all - healing journey is powerful and glad to be here 🌲
You're doing great and important work friend.
Greatest gift to remind people what they could become, thanks for being here brother.
Thanks for the the degree of vulnerability that allows people like me to trust you, and know what you are speaking of Retrieval of soul fragments have helped me immensely in my first leg of healing. I have quit many of my more abusive additions for almost a year and started kickboxing as a way to transmute energy and get into my body. With this video in my feed and with your 3 days of unplugging, I've decided to start detoxing myself from screens for 1 day/week and perhaps finally read some of those books collecting dust in my collection. Great video, can't wait to see what I'll be suggested next.
Samantha, this is a marvellous message to read! Thank you, and good luck with your own detox and healing process. Kickboxing is also excellent.
I agree with your study and explanation. It resonates with me.
Thank you very much!
He has such a calming voice ❤
Welcome, and hope you're well.
I'm so very grateful this video found me. This is an amazing presentation of information that can really help everyone in all walks of life 😇❤️🙏
Thank you! Wishing you the absolute best on your healing journey ahead!
Oh my gosh Jordan I can relate to so much you say, I have done years of healing work on myself and yet I continue to work away and sometimes work away hard , going deep and purging and moments of peace and more openness in my heart, I so relate to the hypervigilant child and unfortuantely adult still at this age well into my years lets say, bless you and thank you so very much for sharing and shining a light on this poignant and sensitive topic
Keep going, you've got this. My pleasure to show up and teach from this place - appreciate your attention, truly.
Well -
Now I understand why I was always having dreams about flying & floating &
Not feeling pain - as I got older
Not feeling hunger or thirst
Not feeling a wanting to take anything into my body or my life
> It’s from not being connected w. my own body 💚🐇
Huge unlock - amazing to hear. Plenty of resources on this channel to help that embodiment healing process - books too. Good luck 🌲
Thank you for the warning in the intro. Best I leave this for now. Thanks again
I’m glad, I trust your own sense of timing & not taking on too much at once. All the best with your journey ahead 🌲
Thank you, sir!
Absolute 💯 respect - TY for your research and astounding story telling! My parents were brutal to me as a child and I was abused physically, mentally and emotionally 😑 I would shut off or either pee my pants from the fear.... cruel, harsh parents should not be allowed to have kids ever....I still have scars from my childhood that will never leave
I'm glad I found your channel and relieved that there's help through other people who have had a traumatic childhood too
I'm sorry to hear this, but glad to connect and provide these reflections at this stage of your journey. Wishing you my best with the inner work, Rachel.
Brilliant. Thank you. Really. Thank you 🤍
You are most welcome - wishing you all the best with your work here 🌲
Thanks so much for sharing your experience. It takes a lot of courage. Can you could provide insight into climate anxiety and the feeling of doom and anticipatory grief that the situation triggers? Many are searching for a way to cope. When I looked squarely at the aggregate of peer reviewed scientific literature re: abrupt exponential climate change, it shattered me. It set off a grief that is unlike any grief I have ever processed. It's one thing to grapple with and accept one's own death. It's another thing to contemplate the collapse of civilization and the quite possible extinction of the human race.
I'm not the person to talk about these issues. I don't know enough on the topic, but I wish you well in your search.
Thank you Jordan, you are truly enlightening me on a few interesting subjects, I doubt if I could follow the books mind you!
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You can absolutely read the books - drop the limiting belief! One page at a time, Debbie 💪🏻
Where have been all this time...5 minutes in and hit that sub button ✅
Welcome - start preparing your shelves for all the new books.
I don't remember that much of my childhood. Just bits and pieces. I am 56 and still dissociate almost every day when I need to. I only found out I was emotionally abuse as a kid at 51, It was my first Spiritual Awakening good morning I would have told you I was never abused when my father died it's my mother became a raging alcoholic leaving her a six kids and a very busy Supper Club. My parents were wealthy and my dad was well known for being a chef and a restaurant owner back in the 60s and 70s. After my father died when I was 7 my brother took his life a couple years later andmy sister followed a couple years after that. I've been with sociopaths my whole life never knowing what the hell was wrong with them. That day i read the 10 traits of a narcissist well he was laying next to me on his laptop I didn't know not to say anything and I read him the nine the 10 traits and said you're not a narcissist are you I'll never forget to look on his face and his black eyes and he said I believe I am that was the craziest 24 hours of my life. I didn't know what spirituality it was I didn't believe in God anymore I didn't know I was abused and every things in my life was a lie remember the movie Mommy Dearest that was my mother to the tea raging alcoholic well-known the stars all came to my parents supper club. Pictures all over the walls in the waiting room with them. I was born 25 years later then my siblings. My mother was way to old to have another baby.
Sorry got carried away. Anyway I just saw one of your videos for the first time the other day and knew you were the one I needed to listen to. Thank you so much for helping us . Lov
I'm sorry to hear this, Lori - although it seems like you have gained much clarity into your patterns and the ways you can move forward. Hope these videos help.
Thank you.
You're most welcome, Alexia - wishing you well in your healing journey🌲
Nice thing we can look back at experiences like that and still find a hopeful take on them. I have been throughout the video with a question in my mind though: what about the lack of memories? I'm certain this is a sideways direction I'm taking the conversation, but I can't help but chew on this. I couldn't situate myself relative to many things yet in my life, this being one of them, despite my natural inclination to go after self-awareness. Very dissociative as a kid and on, but can remember very little of my childhood to be able to know where it stems from. Quite a conundrum, eh?
My current best understanding of memory repression is that the way to 'unlock' the material is via the body - specifically, the pre-verbal emotions. It's the essence of the cathartic therapies, and I've seen signs that the visual and narrative elements tend to re-emerge in their own timing (as the body opens up space / unthaws)
@@jordanthornton So, for instance, when I was working in the bioenergetic sessions and intense emotional reactions stopped coming up, would it be the case that I should have continued? Or a feeling based catharsis was possibly enough, even without the remembrance of images? I'm super intrigued by these processes, they are so far from being linear and at the same time they are so universally experienced...
Thank you. Beautifully spoken to... 🙌
Thank you, Willow. I appreciate your attention, truly.
Hi Jordan, stuck 5 years on fight or flight and trauma goes beyond limitations in the subconscious. It's my soul from mother abuse that's making wanting my mum because I kept pretending I was also asleep when she entered my room. She didn't had harmful intentions but I was terrified of her...I don't know how to heal my soul I am more terrified with myself than any other person on earth. When trauma comes up every 2-3 hours my soul practically is been taken out of my body. I am very violent while asking for my mum. I am shouting that she doesn't want me..Jesus how can end this...this thing wants to take my soul..😢
I'm sorry to hear this, and I hope the videos on this channel support your next steps. There's dozens of videos and books which will help you - make sure to pickup the books and keep going. You got this.
Thank you, Jordan, for recommending 'Trauma and the Soul.' It was deeply moving and transformative, and I know it will also prove useful for my studies in psychology.
I will certainly be reading other books you've suggested - I've added them to my list hah
I love this union where psychology and spirituality dovetail. I plan on reading Iain McGilchrist's works on brain hemispheres next.
I'm interested in exploring further psychology literature on the numinous. Do you have any suggestions?
Sure, study the major world religions and make your own comparisons! That’s the best way for numinous studies ✌🏻
@@jordanthornton Thank you ☺️
Man I never thought a book could have such an impact psychologically - I’m still having wild dreams 💭
Thank you so much x 💖 love and light 💖 ✨💞🌄🙏
Much appreciated, Hatty. Glad to have resonated with you in these perspectives.
May many many many find this beautiful info ~~~~🙌
Those who are meant to surely will, thank you Alice
Thanks.
Appreciate you being here, be well.
Great video.. would you recommend you read his first book before this one? The inner world of trauma
I wouldn't! I've read both, but Trauma And The Soul is the stronger text, and you can still get value from his first book afterwards. That would be my suggestion.
Thank you@@jordanthornton
“Hell is other people” (Sartre) I agree in general with your recommendations for more groundedness. But human interaction, unless with someone spiritually and psychologically healthy( almost Guru like) is not advised since most social groups today promote dissociation. Better to follow the tried and tested solitude method before venturing into human, usually flawed human relationships which mostly these days are co-dependent traps.
Another issue is that being in the body is actually getting us back n touch with mundane awareness, away from the mind-body complex ironically, this takes us back into “ spirit” being, spaciousness.
Although I agree with what you're saying about human interactions in some ways, I believe we don't need other's to be almost 'guru-like' to receive the benefits of healthy bonding and relationship. Sure, there are lots of psychological issues in society, but there are also plenty of increasingly healthy people worth befriending or collaborating with. Appreciate your comment!
the trigger warning was not at 00:00 - it didn't come until after a minute. I just got out of bed because i couldn't sleep again, and as i was starting to shake i was thinking i'm glad my partner isn't listening to this (who is also a survivor)
I'm sorry to hear that you had this experience, thank you for letting me know. I'll add subtitles at the start next time.
@@jordanthornton thankyou - unfortunately because it caught me off guard once it sets in i dissociate and wasn't able to hear what you were saying. i liked the tone of where you were going, and i may try to listen again sometime
@@333Eriana Yeah, I totally get you. That the trouble with attempting to self-educate while also being vulnerable to emotional flashbacks - the rest of the video after one minute is much easier to process, but I trust your timing & self-pacing.
Thank you very much!! 🙏
Appreciate your taking the time to comment and let me know - sending you all the best!
Great video. This book is not available in kindle, and the paper copy is over 5oo bucks in my country. Do you know any other source of ebook that I can find it?
What country are you in? That’s insane!
😢♥️ thank you.
Hi Jordan!! This reasonates with me so bad i feel this way since more than 10 years i feel like i’ve been absent and missed my whole life sometimes.. I’ve never been able to focus on anything and weird to say but i havd the feeling that while I wasn’t there other energies took the opportunity to live through my body would you agree with that?? I’ve always thought it would go away one day but just found out about this issue and makes a lot of sense to me
Dang, I definitely experience all that!
Common patterns for sensitive / spiritually inclined - been there myself brother!
I tried to disassociate trauma from the soul. Instead, I say that trauma hits the body, the biological self. By distancing my soul from the body, it allows me to attain a level of peace. The body is a temporary state. I guess this is the point of enlightenment in a spiritual sense. To preserve the soul by bypassing the body.
Yes, this is the concept which Donald Kalsched frequently returns to in the incredible book featured here. Highly recommend it - truly a place of safety. Thank you for your comment and attention, Anne.
@@jordanthornton thank you for your video content . In the last couple of years I've been drawn more to the aether , and away from the 'sense of self'. I cannot help but feel the self is an illusion. Or perhaps, I'm trying to find more effective coping mechanisms after studying psychoanalysis and Jung for 20 years. On the other hand, I feel that as a collective consciousness we continue to dwell in a primitive, primordial, state. But this too may be my coping mechanism. Aristotle once said, trauma nourishes the soul. It's paradoxes such as these that throw me into perplexity.
I cannot believe other people experience this. I started drawing ghost. All blacked out ghost. And a tiny sliver a shadow beneath it ... I said it was Self portrait.
Wishing you well in your next steps, whatever they may be.
Just a thought on the “get some exercise” idea: What if your discociated little boy in that bedroom took the advice and went for a little jog around the block…and his body started feeling kind of safe (because it wasn’t stationary and therefore not trapped !) and then the rhythmic impact of his feet hitting the pavement switched on the same endogenous opiate system , that rewarded ancient man for running down prey for hours at a time (that possibly allowed him to get hold of the meat-protein he used to grow himself this complex little brain that gives us all so much trouble now…). So now our little boy is being rewarded for running with some of the most powerful drugs our bodies can produce: He’s feeling kind of elated because the body is feeding his system candy in the form of dopamine and serotonin and he is pain free, because of home made opiates (and cortisol). Sweet! He might add to the experience by listening to some nice music…and hey! He doesn’t even have to deal with people (so he is on a holiday from constantly scanning their every move for danger)…at this stage the kid realises he can created the “mother of all dissociative environments”. He can literally leave his body to chug along on its own…and then sort of rendezvous with it at the end of a run to collect the praise and admiration he will no doubt receive from others when he gets home (rampant drug abuse is still very much frowned upon by this society…exercise-not so much) . ..My point being that exercise is obviously great…but the intention behind the activity is what makes it either a medicine OR a poison. Great Chanel though! I am enjoying it.
I totally see what you're saying and appreciate you taking the time to describe this situation with so much care and detail. Exercise addiction is certainly an issue worth talking about, and yet I would not hesitate the ''devils bargain' to snap my fingers and substitute all dissociative screen-addictions for daily movement 'addictions'.
Problems at every level, but a mass shift to exercise compulsion would be an improvement over screen compulsion.
@@jordanthornton Thank you for taking the time to respond, I would say putting addictions into a hierarchy (ie “my running addiction is better or worse than your online addiction”,say…) and replacing one with the other would change anything about what drives the addiction in the first place.The pain stays the same…its only the coping mechanism that takes on a different form. Gabor Mate has some interesting perspectives on the subject.
@@persephone4846 I agree with what you’re saying here about unresolved core pain, and have studied these things too.
It’s all ultimately symptoms-swapping - and that doesn’t ‘work’.
And yet I have to disagree that the ‘pain stays the same’ when it comes to the specific example of physically strengthening and vitalising the body. Compulsive or not, movement is naturally curative for dissociative individuals to a tangible degree, even if there is chronic traumatic compulsion behind their exercise. Tricky topic to explore, and I wouldn’t want to be seen as black-and-white on this either.
Very interesting conversation, certainly worth exploring more in the future!
Interesting. I never considered it before, but I wonder now if the phenomenon known as an Out of Body Experience might relate to such dissociative behavior/consciousness as you speak of.
I had an Out of Body Experience when I was about 7. It lasted perhaps 3-4 minutes before I became "aware" that *I* was looking at *me*, (from the corner up near the ceiling, actually) and it was extremely vivid/visceral, and a bit scary to me at the time. Not having any reference for such experience, and since kids switch gears pretty quick, I quite forgot about it until much later, about age 12-13 when I read about the phenomenon, and recalled the strange experience. It has not occurred again, but I believed it to be an authentic experience, as at that age, I had no knowledge of such things upon which to base a 'fantasy' or 'lucid dream' experience. Now I must reckon whether it was "just" a physiological response. Escapism at a high level. ha. Talk about an "external locus of identity", haha. I can laugh now, but only because I paid for the buffet.
The "Hypervigilance" to the point of possibly "reading into energies before anything happens" ....um. Yes. THAT thing.
I'm rather at a loss for words here, and must simply say: Dude, you make me feel so not weird. haha.
Turns out to have all been with good purpose, however excruciating it may have been to 'develop' this peculiar "skillset", for it serves me and others well, today.
I -however it has come to pass, have ended up 'working' with a couple much-too-young suicidal boys. (One of whom also recently related a similar type Out of Body awareness or experience to me) Also, distinctly dismissive avoidant/non-conversant personality types, and cannot help but think these behaviors too, falls under the same spectrum of dissociative defense mechanisms. Fortunately at this time, none of them are at a "crisis stage" any longer. We are 'maintaining', and we are improving, and growing together.
Your Work is quickly becoming a Source of not only encouragement, but almost an affirmation that I am doing precisely as needs be, ...nevermind that it isn't what I would have elected, nor planned, when I started playing online Video Games.
A greater Design has me right where It wanted me.
Lives are at stake, Mr. Jordan, as you indubitably well know.
I appreciate the support.
My sincerest heart-felt condolences for your personal experience, my friend, and thank you so much for your brave candor in expressing your authentic, if painful Truths.
Your suffering was not in vain, and indeed has made you unique, and absolutely Priceless.
One man's Nightmare Fuel is another man's Balm of Gilead.
God bless.
I got sober from heroin, pills, & meth. Been 7 years sober without relapse. However, I still smoke weed & cigarettes, so my addiction tendencies must still be in full swing? Or what would you think? I badly want to be able to heal fully, but nervous to try to quit weed because it helps my pain tremendously on a daily basis.
Well done for maintaining your sobriety, truly. I hesitate to give any form of ‘advice’ on your specific situation in a comments section without knowing more, which isn’t the place for it sadly. My universal general advice is to go full-sober, but I know there are cases of intentional weed usage which can be beneficial (in the grand scheme of things) - I wish I could say more, but hope you understand my hesitance here 🌲
@@jordanthornton I completely understand. I wish I could afford your services but sadly we are really struggling as is. I'd like to go full sober but honestly with how my life is I don't think I could do it, and my husband would need to do it as well so there is just a lot riding against it. Do you think the inner work processes would still be of benefit to me despite still smoking weed/cigs?
I totally get it. My new course could be a useful and more affordable self-paced alternative to direct support, if you check out the latest shadow work playlist for more information. In terms of full-sober, it’s something which I make mandatory for all my mentorship because I do believe that certain traumas & higher potentials will only reveal when substances have been removed. They form a cloud, and it’s important to dissolve that distortion (but only when it’s safe, and never to be rushed) - complex question, of course.
Do you still dissociate?
Sometimes under massive stress I notice the tendency emerge, but my lifestyle has built up an ‘insurance’ against this kind of experience thanks to cumulative healing work and enjoying physical training 🌲
I am also really troubled by the proliferation of porn in society, I don't really understand how it can be considered healthy.
It's a huge issue - will make more videos on this where I can. It's a tricky one because youtube often 'nukes' the reach on videos which mention certain trigger words... will try to find ways around it.
"The suffering sea of childhood."
Fortunately we can change our waters :)
Can't say I've ever cared for the meat suit. Prefer being a floaty thought in space.
Plenty of beauty in the physical, my friend!
Do you think soul is real? And if it is real then soul lives in the body, but the person doesn't lives in the body thanks to the trauma.........?........why soul doesn't save himself and search for a new happry body............?
Yes, it’s real - and you could maybe check out my recent Q&A’s where I talk way more about these spiritual themes in depth 🌲
I came across your videos when I was looking to delve a little deeper into Jungian psychology. I have to say that I'm not sure how I feel about some of the content. It feels quite inaccessible and elitist, and I wonder what the actual impact you're trying to make is? Because a lot of what I've seen has been a bit like inspiration porn, trauma flaunting and a lot of pseudo-science. I think it's a bit dangerous to say what you're saying with so much authority. Your heart very well may be in the right place here, but I'd recommend taking a long hard look at yourself and being as honest with yourself as you preach to be. Is this an ego-trip that will just make people think you're great, and smart and interesting without actually having to do the real work? I would say looking at the demographic of people who seem responsive, it comes off as a bit of a "circle jerk", if you will. Just maybe be a bit mindful of that if what you're trying to do is actually bring about change rather than recreate the wheel.
I appreciate your comment and understand your concerns, Rach. There is an increasing amount of shallowness and pseudo-scientific teachings out there. I see that. Jungian circles are particularly circular, and the comments section on any video will usually only be comprised of 'top-engagement' - not the vast majority who fall in the middle.
To directly respond to your questions: I've spent the last two years facilitating this work with clients privately as my full-time occupation. It's not something I take lightly, and have supported many people as they patiently work through horrific traumas. I likewise make every attempt in this series to be as holistically grounded in my research and conclusions as possible. Always attempting to highlight that I indeed don't have 'all the answers', and also do my best to draw the viewers attention directly to the resources that I have likewise benefitted from.
I trust that adults can make their own decisions, especially in subjective spaces.
Hope this answers your question, appreciate your concern and wishing you well.
Re choosing our fate, I disagree. Choosing such things would be the equivalent of breaking your legs, to learn how to walk.
Thank you for letting me know - questions of fate are certainly divisive.
You first have to unlearn before you can learn something new as adults
Agreed. Newage reframing / spiritual bypassing has it's limits. We may not all choose what happens to us but choosing what we can do with ourselves after what happens to us is still within realm of possibility.
Holy fucking shit dude. This is so validating to receive. Wow.
I sat with ayahuasca a few months ago and saw my inner child in the fetal position - terrified, full of shame, like Gollum.
He was saying "I don't know how to exist or be in this world."
It was horrifying, heartbreaking and in some ways re-traumatizing.
I've been circling around connecting to exactly what it all meant.
This was such a huge piece and helps me understand and have compassion for my life experiences this far.
it's okay and understandable that I have felt stuck as a wounded boy for most of my life.
and now I can start to move forward.
thank you SO MUCH.
Glad you found the video useful - keep going with your process 🌲
I can do that... .> *grumble-complain-mutter* No comments. Good video.
Enjoy the beautiful journey of life-long research!
J/k. Think I will. 😊
Hipnotic stuff
More grounding required hahaha
all vedas thousands thousands years ago says GOD is no where God is within you. TATVAMASI,AHAM BRAHMASI,AYAMATMA BRAHMA, PRAGNAM BRAHMA -- all the 4 vedas gave the best quotation says god is me . RAMANA MAHARSHI said that god and you cannot seperated this is divine knowledge. HINDUISM taught non-violence, no anger,no lust, money no value, respect the elders,fame has no value,help needy, respect ladies. sex has no value. Batchelors has more spiritual power this is called OJJAS this will help in your kundali awakening at the earliest.
Why are you commenting this on this video?
Thank you for making these, and if you consider making that 3 hour video, we’ll be here🤍
Watch this space 2023 😉🌲
I noticed that as a human being I can be courageously disassociate with my faithfulness 🧰 aquired from wise mindfulness integrations to include any and all psychosomatic sensory overloaded 🤯🫶🏼🕳🏄🌹👣👣🦾🥰🫦
Thank you for commenting, this is great to hear 🌲