“The best thing about the bedroom was the bed. I liked to stay in bed for hours, even during the day with covers pulled up to my chin. It was good in there, nothing ever occurred in there, no people, nothing.” - Charles Bukowski
I've lost all my friends because I never leave the house due to my depression and anxiety. My family doesn't even try to contact or talk to me. I really hate the way I feel because of my depression.
Michael S White please talk to me? I understand because I battle this daily! Let’s help each other by understanding each other? Sammnewton@hotmail.com Sammantha Newton on Facebook or text internationally (or nationally if you live in Australia) to Australia (61 I think, but look it up) 0406321693
a Virgo please talk to me? I understand because I battle this daily! ( I’m also a Virgo 😁) Let’s help each other by understanding each other? Sammnewton@hotmail.com Sammantha Newton on Facebook or text internationally (or nationally if you live in Australia) to Australia (61 I think, but look it up) 0406321693 ❤️
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I feel like people who have never experienced a depression or anxiety will ever completely understand how it is. Even if some people try to understand how you feel, they don't. Things like "you'll get over it/ you just need to think positive/ time heals" are things you don't want to hear. I feel alone and worthless, I do ask myself if someone would ever miss me or even notice if I'd be gone.
MiiSCHAx to be honest though, nobody is essential to society. Your replacement is waiting in a line. Your loved ones will eventually pass away too and be forgotten in the vast fabric of history. Human life itself is rather pointless and is the result of multiple coincidences, chemical reactions and evolution. Humanity is only a negligible fragment of the perpetually expanding universe. There is no singular meaning behind it. In the end, it's up to you to decide what direction your want your life to take. And this starts in the present.
So true! You need to friend me on Facebook.com/kevincrenshaw123 asap. We need to talk. I've been in that place where I felt like no one cares or understood. I was heavily medicated, sick, crippled with shyness, depressed, suicidal thoughts daily, and had no spark in life. I felt alone and isolated. I can honestly say I know what you're going through, and I now am living in the other side of it. Don't give up hope. I'm here if you need a friend! Feel free to reach out.
+Subi I'm assuming you would also say that people with cancer, cerebral palsy, STD, etc, deserves nothing good in life since that is how problematic your mindset is?
Subi I think before you have your opinion on something you clearly don't know nothing about nor encountered....I suggest maybe you should STF up. I don't normally wish this illness on anyone because I wouldn't want anyone to go through the deathly feeling you get when your diagnosed with this illness but you however I hope one day it triggers off so you get to feel the real agonising feeling in which you get when you suffer with depression. Your a stupid dumb fuck that doesn't know nothing about the illness!!! So place your ass down and keep that mouth shut!!
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My life has turned into a living nightmare. I'm a completely different person than I was only a year ago. I've been dealing with severe anxiety and depression everyday. I used to be this happy social person, and now I isolate myself, and never leave the house.. I don't have any friends anymore because of it and it just sucks.. I feel alone, hopeless, and worthless, and basically don't want to be around anymore. I want to live, but can't take this pain much longer. The only thing I want is my old life back!
ive had it also for a long time bro/up/down emotional all the time its a real nightmare,i have found when i cant face the day,just taking the dog a walk or a bit of exercise really helps,isolation is the worst part,join a club rebuild your life,its not impossible,and theres alot of government agency,s etc out there now to help,good luck brother,stay strong.
Stay strong - when you think life can't get any worse; start to make it better. There are so many people who are out there and ready to help you. Make the first step towards them, and let them take it from there. you CAN overcome
im sooo sorry me too i was that always happy person it comes and goes.but lif kicked me and well its getting gone. im glad someone can relate to me i get into chat rooms and they think im crzy well they somewhat do that to me to on top of what im going through also.its getting ur life together and findint out what can make u happy im not there yet either wish there was a quick fix.im sorry u feel the sam
I exactly know how you feel, I am dealing with the same problem. So much has changed in one year, I went from feeling young and being stupid like the rest of my friends living life to the fullest to feeling old and wise. After we all hit grade 12, or moving away to different school, leaving to college I was the only one left. Now I'm a loner who suffers with anxiety, depression, I even have little episodes when I see an old friend that brings back the past. It all drives me crazy but you'll get through it. You just gotta learn to deal with it step-by-step. You gotta keep your head up, even when the road is hard you should never give up. You have a whole life a head of you, you don't need to let this problem take that away from you. Things change a little every month, a whole lot changes within a year is what I learned. Just gotta let go of who you were and start worrying on who you want to become.. In the situation your in, I would take life serious. Depression is like another way of life letting you know things won't be easy.
Sometimes i feel ok because i keep busy but as soon as i have any spare time it hits me, a self loathing, a desire to just sleep and not wake up. The hardest part is fooling those around me and trying to fool myself that im fine when really im not
Anxiety = beyond scared Depression = beyond sad Anxiety + Depression = beyond functioning MENTAL ILLNESS: SOME SAY WE'RE TRYING TO GET ATTENTION - I'M TRYING TO BRING AWARENESS. I understand because I have both. You try so incredibly hard and you sometimes feel like it's to no avail. It's almost like you wear yourself out with your own thoughts. People ask how you are and you're tempted to just say "Tired, you?" No matter how little or much sleep you get, it's like you're always and forever exhausted. In my experience? It's hard to explain... Physically, anxiety is a tightness in my throat and depression is a weight in my back. Mentally, anxiety is feeling overwhelmingly concerned about big and small things and depression is feeling overwhelmingly melancholy about big and small things. When someone says to be happy, you can't just simply be happy. When someone says to not worry, you can't just simply not worry. You want yourself back. You want your life back. You always feel off and misunderstood. Where is friendly, funny, sassy Emily? She seems more forced now... My counselor and doctor are great, my immediate family knows/helps, my school's been contacted. Meds can either make or break you. Mine seem to be helping - they better; they're expensive. I am trying, but I also feel like I'm dying. The days seem like they won't end and are a blur. I've been missing school and church because of it. I don't want to miss out on things. Too bad that life has to go on when you feel like you're on hold. If you have anxiety and/or depression, please know that I UNDERSTAND AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE. If you don't have anxiety and/or depression, please DON'T PRETEND TO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU DON'T PERSONALLY GO THROUGH. With the increase of mental illness, this should be a wake-up call that our way of life is too exhausting and stressful. We can only try so hard.
+FemininEm Is depression and anxiety in the age of 13 or earlier abnormal?? Because I had depression when I was 6 years and depression when I was about 11 years old and now at the age of 13 I have both. I don't know what to do I often have depression about school,study and many more stuffs for no reason. My school or family isn't helping so much to help get me out of this... Please if anyone have some cure or experienced this type of depression at an early age and have cured it please tell me because I cannot live this anymore and killing myself for this would be an foolish act and I am just going crazy thinking all of this now.
+FAHIM KHAN You should really tell someone bro I felt like that about two weeks ago and told someone because I wanted to live a normal life and not harm or kill myself, and just telling them got me sent to the hospital for help and therapy, and talking about it really made me feel better.
+James A Castle Anxiety and depression and ADD/ADHD is real and is a HUGE part of my life and I have had all three things for most of my life. It's not a misdiagnosis. I have these things and other people do too. It's sad and it sucks and it hurts a lot some days, but I can do it and other sufferers can too.
And to anyone. Depression does not care who you are, how much or how little money you have and it sure doesn't care if you end up living or dying. But it makes the life you have so miserable - for you & all those who love you - that it seems far easier to give up. Even the most blessed and/or talented people can succumb to this awful disease.
I'm coming up to 17 months of near complete isolation, I only get out of bed to eat and when I'm done eating I get straight back into it. it's my safe place it keeps me warm an makes me feel loved when everyone else abandoned me when I tried to seek help. I think about suicide all the time but will never commit to doing it, I haven't come this far to only come this far, things will get better. In a world where everyone is connected through social media I've never felt so disconnected in my entire life. to anyone reading this an struggling with there own internal war, hold on and stay strong, we wont suffer forever the sun will shine in our lives again one day. Much love to you all and keep fighting ❤
depressions stops me from doing anything i push things away.. then the anxiety makes these things whirl round my head.. they both run along each other its a never ended circle
Isolation is supposedly a bad thing for depressed people, but being around or communicating with anyone makes me feel much more depressed. Being completely isolated and Not having anyone to distract me has given me the time to think about what I want and who I want to be. That feeling of being pushed around by society, having to conform to other’s expectations and worrying about what other think of me seems to be slowly subsiding. I’ve been isolated for about 6 months now and although I’m still severely depressed I’ve stopped crying every day now and I don’t feel suicidal anymore.
I have social anxiety and it's killing me because my heart skips a beat at the mere thought of going out in public. I stay as unnoticed as possible and I have to gain courage to even do something as simple as join a conversation, in which I won't talk much anyway. Any chance I get, I stay home and. most of the time, make excuses not to go out with friends. I don't even find comfort in talking online, like most do. I would much rather quietly be online and not speak out at all because I feel like I'm being judged no matter what I do and I just try to ignore my own existence most of the time. :/
+McKinley Edwards You're not the only one. Trust me, everything you just described matches my mental situation to the dot. But it's okay to be nervous!! It doesn't make you a bad person, and those are the kind of people that should be shunned upon. Stay strong love.
I've been suffering with this for a year and a half I've lost everything the worst part is you can't explain exactly how it feels to anyone no matter how hard you try you end up getting so angry with yourself because no matter what you do you can't feel normal I've forgotten what normal feels like to be honest you always end up thinking it's something your doing wrong and its your own fault
Let me tell you something though. Going through it myself and still dealing with it on occasion, once the darkness somewhat clears, you might not really want to be normal again. Empathy, Never giving up despite feeling like hell and living in it, and The need to not be as hardcore greedy as I was with money all came out of the experience. Don't give up it gets better just have a network of people you trust.
I relate to a lot that is said. In my life, at a young age, I've always had this said or implied: "You have no reason to be depressed!" "You don't go through what I do, and I'm fine!" "You need to toughen up." "You're only 13(14, 15, 16) you have no reason to be depressed." "I was never depressed and I went through what you did." "Stop being lazy. Take care of yourself, nothing's wrong with you." "Why are you so lazy?" "This isn't working for you? You need to take care of yourself! No excuses!" Or the inevitable and common: "You don't have it that bad. Think about, etc, etc, etc." I'm 19, now. And I'm still recovering. We never, fully recover, but we deal with this a HELL of a lot BETTER.
Omg I can relate to this so much my parents and teachers and some friends kept telling me to just stop being lazy and go to school but my anxiety would get really bad and I couldn't and uuuugh xD
By the time I turned 21, I had lost my parents already. Its been three years now and the anxiety and depression has made me a very different person. Sleepless nights, no appetite, weight gains, isolation, constant tiredness, fear of almost everything, hopelessness, wanting to perish from this life - the doctor I consulted only adviced me to pray (after a month of literally getting no sleep). I really wish I could turn all these around and go back to the way I was. But it's not easy at all. People who haven't experienced this don't know how hard it is.. Some of them try their best to support you.. but others just take you as a joke.
Everybody suffering from depression and anxiety disorders. Let me tell you something. Your skin isn't paper, don't cut it Your face isn't a book, don't judge it Your life isn't a movie, don't end it You may be in the darkness now, groping around hopelessly, but just walk towards the light. Once you find it, it may be raining outside, but remember, it may be raining now, but it can't rain forever. Stay strong, TheDarkRangerz.
It is absolutely heartbreaking that this is some people's reality. Reading some of the comments has really brought tears to my eyes. It's so sad that depression, anxiety and mental illness in general exist and people don't always understand. But really a great video. People need to talk more about these issues.
thank you for this video, I started suffering from anxiety two years ago and it has evolved away from anxiety in a deep depression. I've become a social recluse and find it really hard to imagine a future with healthy relationships within my family, friends and even with a loved one. i've been hurt by relationships and hurt people; it all just throws me back into the depression and now I find sleeping hard and my days aimless, loosing interest in all the things I used to love and do. I hope that this will lift soon, I don't want this to be my life but it just feels so heavy, almost to heavy to throw off.
suffered for for around 8 years with this...doctors dont help just give u drugs..i had anti depressants once for 3 months and i felt horrible..worse than ever!!..all i can say is try and keep a healthy lifestyle ,plenty of walks just keep as busy as u can..its hard i know...today is a bad day for me to be honest this is why im watching this because its better to know ur not on ur own...
Healthy life, exercise can make you feel great with endorphin high, then you come down and back to the same place. What then? You can run, bike, hike yourself to exhaustion and still feel like crap.
I have been suffering since my teens. I am 63. I found hope in hearing other ppls stories. I tried the drugs both legal & otherwise. These made my life much worse. I found a show about depression: an interview by bill moyers of parker palmer to be most comforting: Depression as a spiritual path to discover true self. I have bad days & better days. No good days yet, though I might hope. Drug free!
Here’s an example. I tell my closest friends i have bad depression. They give each other looks because they thought I wasn’t looking but I saw it on the corner of my eye. I though of it for the rest of the night and I was having a sleepover with them. I never want to open up about anything ever again.
They made a key point there, if you don't know what it feels like to be in someone's shoes or don't know how it feels like to go through the constant suffering they go through, don't judge them or don't make them feel worse, just be nice to them and give them support, but obviously being kind to other seems like an impossible task for most of the people on this planet
I love this video, i'm only 16 and have been suffering suffering for about 5 years. So seeing something i can relate to makes me feel a bit better in sone ways.
its funny because i would wish a mental illness on anyone because its unbearable knowing your suffocating and not being able to tell anyone because of the regret and guilt you have in your body
Anxiety and depression are the worst! absolute torcher to live with it. I don't think most people realize how bad this disorder is. It can definitely cause a person to take their life.The mind is so out of wack and the bottomless pit of sadness is...it feels like hell in your mind and soul.
when i was in high school everyday i went home crying to my mom, said i dont wanna go to that school anymore wanna change a school but procedure to change a school here is quite troublesome. so what my mom can do whenever she woke me up in morning is asking me if i wanna go to school or not. and now im in college and away from house. i have to force my to attend my classes so people won’t judge me. then, when i told my mom i quit my college or i wanna change my course, my mom will say just do whatever you think it is the best for you. my mom will support me whatever decision i take. even tho my mom didnt know abt my anxiety and depression but she still try to understand me and dont push me to do something that might triggers my anxiety. i really grateful to my mom.
i relate to thisvideo so much. I've been in many low points in my life but this one is constantly plummeting to lower lows everyday. I've completely isolated myself from the world. ive struggled with every attempt at progress in my life. even when i was in a relationship with another depressed person for a few years, i was happily depressed with her but we did nothing. went no where. simply watched screens. I've never really been happy, I've had brief ups and prolonged downs in my time. but i am just at a point now where i don't know what i want... i don't fit in anywhere. consistency is like everest to me
Im so super tired from anxiety and depression, this sh1t got into me almost 3 years ago, somedays are better but i dont know. I dont even enjoy doing anything sometimes i just pretend lying to myself that i am happy while doing things, and soonest as i remember I'm not and just sh1tty. I feel so not me, i wasn't like this what happened, hate everyone and everything
I completely understand how you feel. I suffered from it last year, after months I thought I had my sh*t together, met someone new. Same thing happened, been lied to and betrayed. It instantly came back. I have no joy in anything, I can't sleep even though all I mostly do and want to do is nothing but to lay in bed and to be alone. I just feel alone and hate for everyone. I don't like to see people being happy or smiling
I don't know what to do anymore, i've had no social life for 8 years, everyone was too busy, nobody wanted to be with me, i grew lonely and isolated more and more. I barely ever talk to anyone, i never touch anyone, don't hurt anyone, yet some people talk bad of me and cause me direct suffering just because i'm different. I spend day and night alone at home, sometimes bleeding or having short but strong internal pain, my mind doesn't rest, i feel so tired, when i try to get better i fail and it hurts me for days and nights. Suicide is so more difficult now to me, now i feel so dead inside and so rejected by everyone, i suffer for hours everyday, and i can't stop hurting myself. Some times i tried to have a better health and life, but my hopes were always destroyed. I wish i deserved a woman who cared about me, liked me and wanted to spend time together, and help me get better, but i was always rejected, because i care too much and i ruin everything, i never had someone by my side, and it hurts me more to be completly alone, than anything else i ever experienced. I don't understand why nobody ever liked me, i was always ignored, nobody even cares about me anymore. My life is over, i'm completly lost and broken. I feel so alone, so cold and disappointed with myself , i want to die...
Feel the same. Not sure if people disliking me, or just don't care much, comes to the same thing really. More and more isolation, the story of my life. As for changing your thoughts, that's easier said than done when your relations with others never improve or vanish altogether.
I really hope you feel better. I know how it feels to be depressed and I isolate myself too sometimes. But,it really isn't good to live life this way. It might help you to get professional help or maybe you can go to a support group with people who will understand you.
@@stillsearchin3457 this is why some poor people are more happier than those with many riches. We have to have a purpose. Even if it is to be a foster to a pet or a dog walker for dogs in the rescue, give yourself a purpose and that seems to be what makes things feel better for people.
Please someone tell me, do you ever feel like the world is a big lie ? like everybody is lying to you to makes you feel like the world is alright ? Like, do you ever felt like everything around is a possible danger or like everything may be a thing for manipulated you ? I'm scared I may be paranoid, or schizophrenic but all my doctor and psychologist told me was : you've got anxiety disorder. anxiety is hell .. I feel depressed, i feel empty .. I just want to smile and take life from the easy way. Its hard ..
Reading the comments makes me feel like I'm not alone. But I am. As we all have been that go through this. I'm just at an all-time new type of despair. It's like I've fallen into an abyss and I don't remember how to be normal or get out of it this .
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for about six years now, and it's not letting up. I also have agoraphobia and panic disorder aswell as an addiction to opiates...I feel stuck and I struggle everyday just to get out of bed. It's like everything outside of my room is insignificant, like the whole world just doesn't matter to me. I get this great sense of impending doom...not like I'm in any immediate danger, but like everything in life just seems to be getting darker and that will eventually lead to my demise, possibly by me opting out. I never vent to anyone, cause I know they just won't care or won't understand, so there's no point, right? I ended up getting addicted to opiates when I got pancreatitis, I felt like when I was in the hospital, all my problems just melted away and I knew right then, I was hooked. Of course, I knew it was just a false sense of euphoria, and I knew the consequences, but at that point I didn't even care. Now everyday I wake up in withdrawels. I think the worst part about all of this is, is the fact there's absolutely no compassion or sympathy from docters when I'm trying to get help. I'm going to do opioid replacement therapy in the next couple of weeks to ween myself off. I'm not doing it for me, but for my daughter and wife. The thing I'm scared about is once I'm better, I'm truly never gonna be better cause I'll still always have anxiety and depression. luckily, my wife understands what I'm going through. I've lost alot of friends over the years because they can't seem to understand what it feels like going through all the shit I go through on a daily basis. People always tell me "well, you did it to yourself, so you deserve it" and I'm starting to believe that may be true...
+Clifton Crevier I hear ya body I'd be self medicating with alcohol.. shit sucks id tell you even the withdrawls,, their are day's like today where Ill drink a ton to pass me out.. but nope; Ill get sober within a few hrs and after I can't sleep at all... I know the consequence with drinking.. but to tel you th truth it makes me feel better when am drunk and I pass out for about 10 hrs..
Most People don't really understand depression, they think you are just lazy or too sensitive. it indeed is mentally , but in the first place, it starts from poor physical condition and later effect your mental behaviour. I had Depression years ago and i didn't take any medicine for long time, until i noticed i actually getting better by jogging regularly, and it became an addction and have to do it each day, same time , same path.6 miles in total. Physically i am getting better and mentally i become stronger to control my action. it is your body that shout out for help and what you can do is to listen and go for a solution. and try , try and until you find ONE
I wonder if I'm the only one who has depression and anxiety at the same time? I've been like this for 9 years. I can't do anything against it. It's really how my life became. One mental desease doesn't let the other be cured. Depression wants me to die, anxiety want's me to be scared; pretty much everything I do is very hard.
I feel this every single day, it's been almost two years since my ex dumped me and I still can't move on. I'm terribly depressed and anxious everyday it's hard to be around anyone because I don't want to burden them all I want is a way out
@Mohammad Frieh thank you for this 5 years later and I'm just getting out of another toxic relationship, so this came at a great time. I have actually just started studying stoicism and getting into meditation.
amazing video. i have been suffering from panic disorder since september 2013 and i gotta say it has ruined my life. i had to quit my part time job, drop out of college and my boyfriend broke up with me cause he was sick of dealing with it. it got to the point where i feel like i am about to pass out every day, and i cant leave the house anymore. not how i planned on spending my early 20's
people say that you shouldn't let other people effect you, but with what one of these people were saying is that when you love someone, and then are forced to kinda end it, it can break a normal person down to being the most broken, terrified, lost person.
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I have an anxiety disorder and this is relatable. Ive had angst since I was 7. As a child I dindnt know what it was and was unable to express how I felt. Today as an adult I medicate. I still have anxiety but it is more mangable on the meds. Being creative is important.
This made me cry so much because I have both and I am a mother of 2 little boys. There is days were I don't want to be here. I feel like a failure to my 2 little boys. Sometimes I make myself believe that without me they would be much better.
+ForeverLin23 I'm in the same state of mind, and I don't know how to deal with it. Lot of thinking that my son will be live better without me. All the time I do have the same thoughts. I think sometimes that I have only one emotion and that's sadness. Doctor gave me xanax but I don't feel any better. simply I can't see light on the end of the tunel. I came here on youtube and here I figure out that I'm not the only one who's feeling like this
I'm only 14 and I've had depression and anxiety for a few years, it's so hard because no one knows, not my friends, not my teachers. I put on a fake face everyday while I'm slowly dying on the inside.My family doesn't care and thinks that the doctors are lying about my anxiety and depression.
To people, I may seem like a funny, bubbly person. That's my life online; I am happy, because there is people that are always there for me. I hide in my room from my family, and cry. I only cry when no one is there. People stare at me whenever I try go outside, because I'm different. I'm a goth, yet people think it's weird. I can never sleep anymore without depressing thoughts penetrating my mind, causing me to stay awake. Of course I have an easier life than others, but I couldn't take it anymore. I try to eat but I avoid it. I'm already skinny enough, but I'm losing more weight than ever. I don't know how to tell anyone. And somehow I need an answer.
You're far from weird... and loved way more than you know. I know of one person who already understands without you having to say a word and his name is Jesus. He's the answer love. The only answer that actually works at least. ❤
I used to sit in my room cutting myself, sometimes daily. I've taken more bottles of pills than I can count. When none of that worked, I would try and jump in front of cars hoping they would hit me, and a number of other things to try and kill myself. I hated life, I hated myself, and I hated God. I couldn't wrap my mind around how he was so "loving" when He knew I was suffering but consistently woke me up everyday. I thought he hated me, and figured that's why He never answered my prayers. But I couldn't have been so far from wrong. One day I sat in my room and just let everything out. I told Him how mad at Him I was, how much I hated Him, and I told Him about everything I hated about my life and myself. At that moment I let go of every preconceived notion I had about Him and for the first time in my life I felt His peace, one that I've never felt before in my entire life. The love He has for me isn't just limited to me. He loves you too. And from the bottom of my heart I'm so sorry that all of that is happening to you. I'm sorry for everything bad that's ever happened in your life, but I really pray that one day you'll understand that it isn't Him punishing you. Just as real as Jesus's love for us is, is just as real as the devil's hate for us is. All of that is the devil trying to stop you from having a true encounter with a very loving God. He knows that if you just experience a glimpse of Him it'll change your life completely. And you're no burden at all. Actually thank you for being so open with me. I know I don't know you, but I can tell you that you are very special, with a very big purpose in this life. You are needed on this earth. Please feel free to talk to me anytime. I know what it's like to be alone, to feel trapped in a prison of yourself, and stuck in a life you don't want. Please please please, I'm here, all I can offer is an ear but please know it's at your disposal. I love you. You're so worth it.
I have an anxiety disorder and depression. I am on medication. I have self harmed and done things to myself. I have no one in life anymore and my girlfriend cheated on me knowing about my anxiety. Everything was good for over one year and then she leaves me. She made promises and would always say she would never leave and then she did that to me. So did all my friends. They don't understand how many promises they make and how much I keep those in my head and memories and replay them too a point where I want to die because it consumes my life. My parents divorced two years ago and that's when it really took full effect on me. My parents fought a lot growing up and my life wasn't perfect but it wasn't bad either but now it's hell and I have no one and I don't feel like I should be here. Countless times I have cried for help and been ignored and when she saw I was hurting myself she didn't even care. She left. Everyone left. I don't know what to do. I'm turning 20 next month and starting college in 3 weeks and I feel like I'm a piece of worthless shit. I feel embarrassed because I can't live a normal life like everyone else and no one understands me or cares until it's too late.
Same feeling here, except for the self-harming part, I never felt like doing such thing, I just didn't think it could help me. I won't come to say things like "life gets better" or that sort of stuff, but if it makes you feel better, there is one thing that you can do from time to time, and that is to take 1 or 2 hours with yourself, listen to some music (for me it's a band called Galileo Galilei, a japanese indie-rock band) and/or stare at the sky while doing that, it clears your mind from every thought and may make you feel a little better, it kinda feels like a relief from everything, every time I feel in the deepest shit I do that, and, while it may not make me feel particularly happy, I feel peaceful,like if I could connect with everything and everyone (idk how to explain it, it's a weird feeling) and that sensation is just extraordinary. Hope you get better, wish you the best of the luck.
I dont know what im feeling but i everytime i look around and i see peoples faces i freak out my heart starts to beat and i start crying. I remember i was bullied so much that i just became mute i couldnt talk. It hurts so much. I cant eat in front of people without freaking out or hugging people. I dont know what to do. I have scars but i feel like they are cool. I look at them and think that its hard to believe im still surviving this horrible battle.
That was a heartbreaking comment you posted Karen about your depression. I am so sorry you are hurting this badly. I've been there myself. I believe there is a better life waiting for you dear friend. May God be with you and show you His wonderful kindness and grace. May the love of His Son Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly. Yes, Christ is the one who helped me so much when I gave my life to Him. Please take care.
+Jenny Novak i'm grateful its helped you a little. Did you go to therapist? it will make you getting better. Don't ever think about commit suicide or do self harm okay?
+Ewanied formao I have asked my dad to take me to a therapist, but in his eyes I am okay. So there isn't much I can do. And I am trying to keep my mind clear of such thoughts, thank you.
+Jenny Novak seriously? how old are you? if you still high school, isnt it has counselor there? i hope you will be okay. I may not be a therapist but if you need me, just comment on this. I really hope you will get better and see this beautiful life with clearer view.
Isolation is like being in prison but in your own mind and body time goes on but you stop. you become empty and just give up nothing is more worse then waking up the next day without nothing to look forward to other then closing your eyes again and just hoping you won’t wake up the next day nothing gets better no matter how hard you try and eventually you just fade away turning into nothing but a empty shell
+Rafael Ramos Eat a psilocybin mushroom, trust me it's as simple as that. Antidepressants suck, and it really is as easy as just one trip. After my first trip, years of anxiety and depression just went away with some logical thinking while in that state. Your true self comes out, and no matter how much others try to help, only you yourself can change if you truly want it. Understanding is one thing, experiencing is something else.
I turn 14 in three days. This summer, my mom left me, suffering from her own depression and mental problems. She is far away and was once someone who helped me and was there for me. And even with my father and sister and relatives, I am so ALONE. My father is guilty and verbally abusive towards me, with out his even realization of it. My sister takes after my dad's behavior and my mom's negative behavior in order to compensate for the loss. The things that come out of her mouth are like knives. And the rest of my family… Don't even get me started. I'm so lonely, and there is no where to go. My dad never agrees with the choices that my therapist recommends. I need to escape. But I've seen too many of my friends die and hurt themselves, so I would never want to commit such actions, but I have no one. And the only people who will give me advice are saying that I have to cope with just myself… But I don't have enough to generate my own comfort without that of others. I don't know where else to put this. It's just I'm traumatized from too many people walking away. It was a nice documentary, by the way...
You're not alone. There are >7*10^9 people alive on the earth at the moment and you are keystrokes away from a great percentage- some of which are not complete idiots. I am sorry you a being verbally abused but at least it is not physical. You should make it clear to your father that you feel uncomfortable with the language and avoid propagating hostility. If you father does not listen then try talking to your friends, relatives then perhaps a doctor or councilor. If their advice is still not helpful and you continue to feel threatened you should approach the police as their is a limit to what would be considered a reasonable amount of verbal abuse. What doesn't kill you; makes you stronger. Perhaps you could try looking for a club or joining a sports team. If you get angry or worked up then get on a bike or go for a run to burn off the adrenaline. Don't blame yourself if you're parents are not getting along. Don't dwell on negative aspects too much; keep thinking up plans and put in the effort to see them through. The more you expose yourself to possibilities the greater chance that you will experience good outcomes.
My family doesn't understand why I always want to be alone and they always force me out of my room and it really pisses me off and makes me resent them.
"i lie in bed all the time", "i never go out", its not because I'm "stuck" its because i cant control it i just love feeling depressed ... i don't like going out, don't like talking to ppl.. i just want it to end
Thank you for this documentry. I suffer from this ever day since 2005 I cant get out of it. Some times mood is happy most times am lost/sad/unhappy. I think due to this depression I have been lossing hair since it started 05, i dont know if this is depression or cancer!!! My parents never understand what I have been through and what I'm still suffering from. Sometimes I feel like killing myself, sometimes I try calming myself and try be happy. Like I said I feel lost unhappy so weak most times everday. It's killing me! I dont know what to do most times
I feel like i've had this most of my life and as i get older it gets worse for me. Im too afraid to ask for help. Im 20 years old and feel like i havent lived.
People say it's just a period. Get over it they say. And while it is true that many teenagers get a taste of depression because of active hormones. But when it's been around for almost 6 years. It's not just a period. Yes, i'm a teenager and yes i believe i have depression. Reason i say i believe is because i have not been diagnosed by anyone. But i believe i suffer from depression because for the last 6 years i have had not only difficulties being happy, but eating as well. Everyday i pray that one day i can legally go to the doctor and ask to be put out of my misery
Emily Cheatham Well, idk if you've tried to tell classmates or something about it. Which, from my experience tends to be a bad idea. People are ignorant and instantly assumes it's just the typical puberty depression phase. As i said, i have not gone to a doctor or anything, but if you feel dead inside, feel like you struggle to find happiness in life, strugge to see colors in things around you, and you have that feeling constantly returning for years, then you get suspicious
@luis Miguel: Hang in there my friend.. I know your feeling pain, the darkest, loneliest pain, I'm living it too, but just know that there is always someone who has you on their mind. I don't have much positivity in my soul right now, but what I have..I send to you. Keep going, one day at a time. Try to let someone/family member/friend in who you can talk to..even if just a little.
Everyone describe their depression so detailed but when i do, when i think of How It feels like its just Empty Nothing. So emotionless but still feeling so much emotions you can barely breath, It hurts, Both mentally and physically And tears just going down your face like rivers And then just stepping out of your room Silence Everything seems just like bubbles but youre there in your own bubble just producing faked emotions and feeling so powerless and feeling such weight on you and its hard So hard Even breathing is And when u come home your bubble just splashes and you break down And It doesnt have to be tears In fact Ive given up On life School Socializing On everything My life is literally staying home in My bed getting no sleep, Because My bed is The Only place No one can see me Problems are distance when im in My bed My bed is like protecting me in A new bubble But when getting up It breaks and all problems just go at you And thats Why i stay in bed Because its so hard getting up Because its so hard getting up to all problems
I suffered depression and anxiety for two years and it's not that easy, like some people think. Right now, I'm still fucking having problems with calming down, bc nobody is willing to listen to me. Some people try to help me but it get worst bc those people don't know how it really feels. I hope someday I would be able to find someone to talk about Me.
I don't know if I'm depressed but I just find it really hard to get out of my house in the summer. it's not that bad when I go to school everyday but in the summer I always end up isolating myself, rejecting every invitation from my friends. it happens every year and idk how to change it
and I hate myself for it and because of that it's even harder to get out of my house because I don't want my friends to see me, to see the dissapointment that I am. I haven't left my house for three days now and I been ghosting my friends all week. I just wanna be different, I just wanna be one of those people who hangs out with their friends almost every day and is always making plans. but I'm not that person, I'm the one that gets stuck inside their head too easily and the one who never does anything.
I don’t know what to do because I feel like my family and friends just see me as me faking everything and I push everyone away and I feel bad because it’s always my fault for just being here but I don’t wanna talk to no one because it would bother them and the cuts across my wrists I just wanted to go deeper but if I do that I would mess up everything again I did not want to rant but just everything made my fingers want to talk because I can’t through my mouth
Being the youngest of 5 kids and not fitting in no matter what you do or "who" you try to transform yourself into is hard. I've consistently been shown that I'm a nuisance by my parents (especially my mother). I have serious PTSD/"Mommy issues." Even one of my sons treats me this way. I've been taking some antidepressants that help tremendously but I feel like there isn't a place where I really belong or am wanted. Not in my congregation or my family. I have no real friends in person (all online) except one I've only met in person once, briefly. I have a wonderfully supportive long-distance relationship but times are hard and we can't afford to see each other at this time. I'm fighting health problems that have always been minimized (plus potentially serious/long-term newer ones) and it feels extremely lonely not even having a person to hug and find comfort in. In fact, I got an emotional support dog because my mother has no natural affection for me. I've been sheltered and it messed my life up and caused some severe anxieties so that for some things I'm dependent on others but I'm a "burden." I've been treated that way since I was small and though I tend to be an extremely passionate, empathetic, INFJ I feel so alone in this world. Sometimes I feel like everything I touch I destroy. I know a lot of the feelings I have are situational. I've been seeking familal and spiritual approval for 43 years and I honestly dont believe either exists for me. Oh, and don't get me started on the toxic friendships/relationships I've found myself a part of!
Whoever is going through it be strong!! Ask for help if needed at least talk to someone who is really close with you! Please take care guys! Life is precious
Everybody has problems in life and at some point so much that it causes them to feel depressed for very long periods, years and years. It's all situational and not something you're born with or catch as a disease. I've been through phases of losing my dad at a very early age, lost a child just a week before delivery, lost my mom due to cancer. What I'm struggling to understand is whether those phases of depressions are same as when people say they've been diagnosed with 'depression'.
depression cost me a job with benefits and a 401K. But you learn an awful lot about life and I'm back working part-time and trying to laugh at least once a day. Maybe it will be better than before. That's something to hope for
how do I talk about it? it's not a question but really, just a stark reminder of the fact that I know I am not as important to everyone, they have a life, they have their own tensions, no one wants my messed up thoughts to be involved. I do write, and address it sometimes to a future (imaginary, of course!) reader, so that helps. But nothing else, pretty much
Everyone just keeps telling me I can do it, but they don't understand my exhaustion, how numb my body feels, and I feel like such a failure. Everytime anyone tells me I can do it, I feel a pressure fall on my shoulders and I'll just want to do is sleep, I just really want to sleep.
While deciding how to phrase a compliment for this video, I couldn't help but notice "Troll Sign" (The tracks from those who are so self-absorbed that they can only emulate the ramblings of a tapeworm.) Good work, and relevant.
Find a way to make money and success off of your addictions. If you cannot, then quit them and find an addiction that can bring success. The only way to combat deppression is to find something worth living for. It's out there for each individual, it just requires some searching. If you aren't acting you are already dying.
Most people yearn for success or love, I just want to feel happy. How can I feel happy if I have nobody other than my parents? All I want is a friend, I isolate myself because I hate myself, I hate my voice, my body, my general appearance. I'm too scared to talk to people in public. I feel emotionally empty after years of acting "normal" People ask me why I can't just be happy. If it was like a light switch, I would turn happiness on instantly, sadly it's not that fast of a transition.
I dont know if i have depression, but i feel like i isolate myself from my family too much- i stay up too late and pull all nighters sometimes, i just want everyone to go away cause i like just being alone cause i just hate talking to people. I spend alot of my time on online games and drawing and i rarely go out, anything seems too tiring and i just want to sleep and play roblox and talk to my online friends who understand me. I talked to them about my autism and they were really supporting. I feel like my life has hit an all time low and i read fanfictions feeling bitter cause i was alone, with nobody. But of course im consulting to youtube instead of my parents.
Great information. One piece of advice for relief and good health. Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Day or night, when taking a walk, when reading, on the phone, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
How bad my depression and anxiety is? well, Im fully emotionally numb. like i cant feel anymore, My grandma died and i didnt even cry and i felt so bad for myself. I cant relate to conversations anymore, I pretend that im listening and sometimes i do fake laugh/smile just to look like im really connected to conversations but the truth is i dont. Y'all know the feeling of wanting to have friends, but your anxiety is preventing you? i dont wanna isolate myself but i have no choice coz that is where my comfort zone is. cant do simple tasks, my concentration is very very poor. plus the saddest part in here is, when you try to explain bout this your parents never listen to you.
I am 25. I have dealt with depression and social anxiety for over 10 years now. I ended up taking antidepressants at 18, when I was hardly functioning. It helped me to function and handle being around people, but it also made me act in ways I usually wouldn't, I was talking loads, but about nonsense etc... It helped me exist in a way where it was no longer painful and feeling like it was a burden to be alive. Anyway I tried to wean myself off a few years ago from 20mg to 10mg, it took years, then when I got on 10mg, the social anxiety and avoidance of people and situations got so bad, that I went back to the dr and was told to up it to 15mg, I feel stuck in this cycle where I am a dependent on a medication, and yes it helps me function, but not in the way I want to. I am considering maybe changing antidepressant. Anyway I also have a load of other stuff I am dealing with, it is overwhelming to say the least. Anyway I hardly go into college because of all this and when I do get the strength, and I see people talking, having natural conversations etc...I feel like the biggest outcast. When someone tries to interact with me, I say I am fine or just been unwell, but don't go into to all the details, because I don't want to be judged or burden other people. Then I feel I am just suffering in silence, it is a constant cycle of suffering, I don't know how to escape.
“The best thing about the bedroom was the bed. I liked to stay in bed for hours, even during the day with covers pulled up to my chin. It was good in there, nothing ever occurred in there, no people, nothing.” - Charles Bukowski
This is exactly true for me
Cool Dude wow, and me.
No weight loss though.
So true
i felt that
Same
I saw a comment saying "sadly this is some peoples reality" and I broke down crying because it's mine.
I've lost all my friends because I never leave the house due to my depression and anxiety. My family doesn't even try to contact or talk to me. I really hate the way I feel because of my depression.
Fuck family
I hope things got better for you, I'm currently in that place and can't find my way out.
Michael S White please talk to me? I understand because I battle this daily! Let’s help each other by understanding each other? Sammnewton@hotmail.com Sammantha Newton on Facebook or text internationally (or nationally if you live in Australia) to Australia (61 I think, but look it up) 0406321693
a Virgo please talk to me? I understand because I battle this daily! ( I’m also a Virgo 😁) Let’s help each other by understanding each other? Sammnewton@hotmail.com Sammantha Newton on Facebook or text internationally (or nationally if you live in Australia) to Australia (61 I think, but look it up) 0406321693 ❤️
Chukkelz please talk to me? I understand because I battle this daily! Let’s help each other by understanding each other? Sammnewton@hotmail.com Sammantha Newton on Facebook or text internationally (or nationally if you live in Australia) to Australia (61 I think, but look it up) 0406321693
I feel like people who have never experienced a depression or anxiety will ever completely understand how it is. Even if some people try to understand how you feel, they don't. Things like "you'll get over it/ you just need to think positive/ time heals" are things you don't want to hear. I feel alone and worthless, I do ask myself if someone would ever miss me or even notice if I'd be gone.
*never
i relate to you; my mother gets under my skin when she tells me the same thing
MiiSCHAx to be honest though, nobody is essential to society. Your replacement is waiting in a line. Your loved ones will eventually pass away too and be forgotten in the vast fabric of history. Human life itself is rather pointless and is the result of multiple coincidences, chemical reactions and evolution. Humanity is only a negligible fragment of the perpetually expanding universe. There is no singular meaning behind it. In the end, it's up to you to decide what direction your want your life to take. And this starts in the present.
MiiSCHAx agreed Iam a sufferer of bad depression and anxiety
I whole heartedly agree with you.
Unless you go through depression no one quite understands the deathly feeling you get while suffering it.
So true!
You need to friend me on Facebook.com/kevincrenshaw123 asap. We need to talk. I've been in that place where I felt like no one cares or understood. I was heavily medicated, sick, crippled with shyness, depressed, suicidal thoughts daily, and had no spark in life. I felt alone and isolated.
I can honestly say I know what you're going through, and I now am living in the other side of it. Don't give up hope. I'm here if you need a friend! Feel free to reach out.
+Natalie Mayleigh depression is for selfish fucking losers that cant take no for a answer, everyone with depression deserves nothing good in life
+Subi I'm assuming you would also say that people with cancer, cerebral palsy, STD, etc, deserves nothing good in life since that is how problematic your mindset is?
Subi I think before you have your opinion on something you clearly don't know nothing about nor encountered....I suggest maybe you should STF up. I don't normally wish this illness on anyone because I wouldn't want anyone to go through the deathly feeling you get when your diagnosed with this illness but you however I hope one day it triggers off so you get to feel the real agonising feeling in which you get when you suffer with depression. Your a stupid dumb fuck that doesn't know nothing about the illness!!! So place your ass down and keep that mouth shut!!
+Nuri Berksoy XD
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Almost 7 years of this and I still get hopeless days.
Sebizzar I might not know you but, Does it feel any better now?
There are several factors in natural treatments for depression. One resource I discovered that succeeds in merging these is the Martos Magic Method (check it out on google) definately the most useful blueprint i've heard of. Check out the awesome information .
how to make yourself feel better: go in the youtube comment section and tell everyone to kill themself and that they should go get hit by a truck
Highfive mate same but it’s alright I think
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My life has turned into a living nightmare. I'm a completely different person than I was only a year ago. I've been dealing with severe anxiety and depression everyday. I used to be this happy social person, and now I isolate myself, and never leave the house.. I don't have any friends anymore because of it and it just sucks.. I feel alone, hopeless, and worthless, and basically don't want to be around anymore. I want to live, but can't take this pain much longer. The only thing I want is my old life back!
ive had it also for a long time bro/up/down emotional all the time its a real nightmare,i have found when i cant face the day,just taking the dog a walk or a bit of exercise really helps,isolation is the worst part,join a club rebuild your life,its not impossible,and theres alot of government agency,s etc out there now to help,good luck brother,stay strong.
sophia puchi me to
Stay strong - when you think life can't get any worse; start to make it better. There are so many people who are out there and ready to help you. Make the first step towards them, and let them take it from there. you CAN overcome
im sooo sorry me too i was that always happy person it comes and goes.but lif kicked me and well its getting gone.
im glad someone can relate to me i get into chat rooms and they think im crzy well they somewhat do that to me to on top of what im going through also.its getting ur life together and findint out what can make u happy im not there yet either wish there was a quick fix.im sorry u feel the sam
I exactly know how you feel, I am dealing with the same problem. So much has changed in one year, I went from feeling young and being stupid like the rest of my friends living life to the fullest to feeling old and wise. After we all hit grade 12, or moving away to different school, leaving to college I was the only one left. Now I'm a loner who suffers with anxiety, depression, I even have little episodes when I see an old friend that brings back the past. It all drives me crazy but you'll get through it. You just gotta learn to deal with it step-by-step. You gotta keep your head up, even when the road is hard you should never give up. You have a whole life a head of you, you don't need to let this problem take that away from you. Things change a little every month, a whole lot changes within a year is what I learned. Just gotta let go of who you were and start worrying on who you want to become.. In the situation your in, I would take life serious. Depression is like another way of life letting you know things won't be easy.
Sometimes i feel ok because i keep busy but as soon as i have any spare time it hits me, a self loathing, a desire to just sleep and not wake up. The hardest part is fooling those around me and trying to fool myself that im fine when really im not
Same
do you have any idea how can we resolve this?
Anxiety = beyond scared
Depression = beyond sad
Anxiety + Depression = beyond functioning
MENTAL ILLNESS: SOME SAY WE'RE TRYING TO GET ATTENTION - I'M TRYING TO BRING AWARENESS.
I understand because I have both. You try so incredibly hard and you sometimes feel like it's to no avail. It's almost like you wear yourself out with your own thoughts. People ask how you are and you're tempted to just say "Tired, you?" No matter how little or much sleep you get, it's like you're always and forever exhausted. In my experience? It's hard to explain... Physically, anxiety is a tightness in my throat and depression is a weight in my back. Mentally, anxiety is feeling overwhelmingly concerned about big and small things and depression is feeling overwhelmingly melancholy about big and small things. When someone says to be happy, you can't just simply be happy. When someone says to not worry, you can't just simply not worry. You want yourself back. You want your life back. You always feel off and misunderstood. Where is friendly, funny, sassy Emily? She seems more forced now... My counselor and doctor are great, my immediate family knows/helps, my school's been contacted. Meds can either make or break you. Mine seem to be helping - they better; they're expensive. I am trying, but I also feel like I'm dying. The days seem like they won't end and are a blur. I've been missing school and church because of it. I don't want to miss out on things. Too bad that life has to go on when you feel like you're on hold. If you have anxiety and/or depression, please know that I UNDERSTAND AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE. If you don't have anxiety and/or depression, please DON'T PRETEND TO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU DON'T PERSONALLY GO THROUGH. With the increase of mental illness, this should be a wake-up call that our way of life is too exhausting and stressful. We can only try so hard.
FemininEm THANK YOU SO MUCH I NEEDED THIS
Faven Young Of course! I'm glad that I helped someone! Remember that things are okay and can only get better with each day you live. :)
+FemininEm Is depression and anxiety in the age of 13 or earlier abnormal?? Because I had depression when I was 6 years and depression when I was about 11 years old and now at the age of 13 I have both. I don't know what to do I often have depression about school,study and many more stuffs for no reason. My school or family isn't helping so much to help get me out of this... Please if anyone have some cure or experienced this type of depression at an early age and have cured it please tell me because I cannot live this anymore and killing myself for this would be an foolish act and I am just going crazy thinking all of this now.
+FAHIM KHAN You should really tell someone bro
I felt like that about two weeks ago and told someone because I wanted to live a normal life and not harm or kill myself, and just telling them got me sent to the hospital for help and therapy, and talking about it really made me feel better.
+James A Castle Anxiety and depression and ADD/ADHD is real and is a HUGE part of my life and I have had all three things for most of my life. It's not a misdiagnosis. I have these things and other people do too. It's sad and it sucks and it hurts a lot some days, but I can do it and other sufferers can too.
The worst thing about it is, it can happen anytime, any place.
And to anyone. Depression does not care who you are, how much or how little money you have and it sure doesn't care if you end up living or dying. But it makes the life you have so miserable - for you & all those who love you - that it seems far easier to give up.
Even the most blessed and/or talented people can succumb to this awful disease.
I'm coming up to 17 months of near complete isolation, I only get out of bed to eat and when I'm done eating I get straight back into it. it's my safe place it keeps me warm an makes me feel loved when everyone else abandoned me when I tried to seek help. I think about suicide all the time but will never commit to doing it, I haven't come this far to only come this far, things will get better. In a world where everyone is connected through social media I've never felt so disconnected in my entire life. to anyone reading this an struggling with there own internal war, hold on and stay strong, we wont suffer forever the sun will shine in our lives again one day. Much love to you all and keep fighting ❤
depressions stops me from doing anything i push things away.. then the anxiety makes these things whirl round my head.. they both run along each other its a never ended circle
Isolation is supposedly a bad thing for depressed people, but being around or communicating with anyone makes me feel much more depressed. Being completely isolated and Not having anyone to distract me has given me the time to think about what I want and who I want to be. That feeling of being pushed around by society, having to conform to other’s expectations and worrying about what other think of me seems to be slowly subsiding. I’ve been isolated for about 6 months now and although I’m still severely depressed I’ve stopped crying every day now and I don’t feel suicidal anymore.
Have u talked to doc??
I have social anxiety and it's killing me because my heart skips a beat at the mere thought of going out in public. I stay as unnoticed as possible and I have to gain courage to even do something as simple as join a conversation, in which I won't talk much anyway. Any chance I get, I stay home and. most of the time, make excuses not to go out with friends. I don't even find comfort in talking online, like most do. I would much rather quietly be online and not speak out at all because I feel like I'm being judged no matter what I do and I just try to ignore my own existence most of the time. :/
+McKinley Edwards You're not the only one. Trust me, everything you just described matches my mental situation to the dot. But it's okay to be nervous!! It doesn't make you a bad person, and those are the kind of people that should be shunned upon. Stay strong love.
Exact same for me
Same.
I can definitly relate.
Me as well.
I've had a lot of struggles with both Asperger syndrome and depression myself. Heart goes out to all of you out there.
I've been suffering with this for a year and a half I've lost everything the worst part is you can't explain exactly how it feels to anyone no matter how hard you try you end up getting so angry with yourself because no matter what you do you can't feel normal I've forgotten what normal feels like to be honest you always end up thinking it's something your doing wrong and its your own fault
Let me tell you something though. Going through it myself and still dealing with it on occasion, once the darkness somewhat clears, you might not really want to be normal again. Empathy, Never giving up despite feeling like hell and living in it, and The need to not be as hardcore greedy as I was with money all came out of the experience. Don't give up it gets better just have a network of people you trust.
i am at constant war with my depression and i won't stop fighting until i win ^-^
Same 🥺but at this time it seems like im not gonna win this fight💔😭😭
I feel like I'm treading water at anytime not strong enough to hold my head above the water.....
I hope you're winning ❤️
Copy that
I relate to a lot that is said.
In my life, at a young age, I've always had this said or implied:
"You have no reason to be depressed!"
"You don't go through what I do, and I'm fine!"
"You need to toughen up."
"You're only 13(14, 15, 16) you have no reason to be depressed."
"I was never depressed and I went through what you did."
"Stop being lazy. Take care of yourself, nothing's wrong with you."
"Why are you so lazy?"
"This isn't working for you? You need to take care of yourself! No excuses!"
Or the inevitable and common: "You don't have it that bad. Think about, etc, etc, etc."
I'm 19, now. And I'm still recovering. We never, fully recover, but we deal with this a HELL of a lot BETTER.
Omg I can relate to this so much my parents and teachers and some friends kept telling me to just stop being lazy and go to school but my anxiety would get really bad and I couldn't and uuuugh xD
Kassandra Kurd'nt . . same :( I want to drop in college. ..
By the time I turned 21, I had lost my parents already. Its been three years now and the anxiety and depression has made me a very different person. Sleepless nights, no appetite, weight gains, isolation, constant tiredness, fear of almost everything, hopelessness, wanting to perish from this life - the doctor I consulted only adviced me to pray (after a month of literally getting no sleep).
I really wish I could turn all these around and go back to the way I was. But it's not easy at all. People who haven't experienced this don't know how hard it is.. Some of them try their best to support you.. but others just take you as a joke.
Everybody suffering from depression and anxiety disorders. Let me tell you something.
Your skin isn't paper, don't cut it
Your face isn't a book, don't judge it
Your life isn't a movie, don't end it
You may be in the darkness now, groping around hopelessly, but just walk towards the light. Once you find it, it may be raining outside, but remember, it may be raining now, but it can't rain forever.
Stay strong,
TheDarkRangerz.
So true!
TheDarkRangerz beautiful
Blue Doc Thank the Internet.
TheDarkRangerz This actually makes me feel a tad better than I did today.
thanks! really helpful
It is absolutely heartbreaking that this is some people's reality. Reading some of the comments has really brought tears to my eyes. It's so sad that depression, anxiety and mental illness in general exist and people don't always understand. But really a great video. People need to talk more about these issues.
thank you for this video, I started suffering from anxiety two years ago and it has evolved away from anxiety in a deep depression. I've become a social recluse and find it really hard to imagine a future with healthy relationships within my family, friends and even with a loved one. i've been hurt by relationships and hurt people; it all just throws me back into the depression and now I find sleeping hard and my days aimless, loosing interest in all the things I used to love and do. I hope that this will lift soon, I don't want this to be my life but it just feels so heavy, almost to heavy to throw off.
suffered for for around 8 years with this...doctors dont help just give u drugs..i had anti depressants once for 3 months and i felt horrible..worse than ever!!..all i can say is try and keep a healthy lifestyle ,plenty of walks just keep as busy as u can..its hard i know...today is a bad day for me to be honest this is why im watching this because its better to know ur not on ur own...
Healthy life, exercise can make you feel great with endorphin high, then you come down and back to the same place. What then? You can run, bike, hike yourself to exhaustion and still feel like crap.
I have been suffering since my teens.
I am 63.
I found hope in hearing other ppls stories.
I tried the drugs both legal & otherwise.
These made my life much worse.
I found a show about depression:
an interview by bill moyers of parker palmer
to be most comforting:
Depression as a spiritual path to discover true self.
I have bad days & better days.
No good days yet, though I might hope.
Drug free!
it helps to know that other people feel the same way, and that you are not alone.
Here’s an example. I tell my closest friends i have bad depression. They give each other looks because they thought I wasn’t looking but I saw it on the corner of my eye. I though of it for the rest of the night and I was having a sleepover with them. I never want to open up about anything ever again.
They made a key point there, if you don't know what it feels like to be in someone's shoes or don't know how it feels like to go through the constant suffering they go through, don't judge them or don't make them feel worse, just be nice to them and give them support, but obviously being kind to other seems like an impossible task for most of the people on this planet
I love this video, i'm only 16 and have been suffering suffering for about 5 years. So seeing something i can relate to makes me feel a bit better in sone ways.
1:50 “I don’t really won’t too burden them.” That sums up my existence.
What does burden mean
This really hits home. I don't know how much longer I can take.
I cried and had to stop watching because I suffer with social anxiety and it honestly hurts to try be normal
Your not alone :'|
my anxiety and depression are taking over my life I can't bare it anymore
I know but it takes over me without warning :(
its funny because i would wish a mental illness on anyone because its unbearable knowing your suffocating and not being able to tell anyone because of the regret and guilt you have in your body
+James A Castle is there anyway I can get in contact with you?
Anxiety and depression are the worst! absolute torcher to live with it. I don't think most people realize how bad this disorder is. It can definitely cause a person to take their life.The mind is so out of wack and the bottomless pit of sadness is...it feels like hell in your mind and soul.
when i was in high school everyday i went home crying to my mom, said i dont wanna go to that school anymore wanna change a school but procedure to change a school here is quite troublesome. so what my mom can do whenever she woke me up in morning is asking me if i wanna go to school or not. and now im in college and away from house. i have to force my to attend my classes so people won’t judge me. then, when i told my mom i quit my college or i wanna change my course, my mom will say just do whatever you think it is the best for you. my mom will support me whatever decision i take. even tho my mom didnt know abt my anxiety and depression but she still try to understand me and dont push me to do something that might triggers my anxiety. i really grateful to my mom.
i relate to thisvideo so much. I've been in many low points in my life but this one is constantly plummeting to lower lows everyday. I've completely isolated myself from the world. ive struggled with every attempt at progress in my life. even when i was in a relationship with another depressed person for a few years, i was happily depressed with her but we did nothing. went no where. simply watched screens. I've never really been happy, I've had brief ups and prolonged downs in my time. but i am just at a point now where i don't know what i want... i don't fit in anywhere. consistency is like everest to me
Im so super tired from anxiety and depression, this sh1t got into me almost 3 years ago, somedays are better but i dont know. I dont even enjoy doing anything sometimes i just pretend lying to myself that i am happy while doing things, and soonest as i remember I'm not and just sh1tty.
I feel so not me, i wasn't like this what happened, hate everyone and everything
I know exactly how you feel, except I don't hate everyone, just myself :(
I mean, i guess i just put my blame on others just try to escape when i think i just hate myself i mean i totally feel u :(
I completely understand how you feel. I suffered from it last year, after months I thought I had my sh*t together, met someone new. Same thing happened, been lied to and betrayed. It instantly came back. I have no joy in anything, I can't sleep even though all I mostly do and want to do is nothing but to lay in bed and to be alone. I just feel alone and hate for everyone. I don't like to see people being happy or smiling
Miiissschaaa uhhh so much suffering, how do we get over this how tha fuq to overcome i dont want to do this anymore :(
+ChamboGambo i have no idea.. I'm gonna see a psychologist next week but I even doubt that will help
i cant stress on how many levels I related to this video. thank you.
I don't know what to do anymore, i've had no social life for 8 years, everyone was too busy, nobody wanted to be with me, i grew lonely and isolated more and more. I barely ever talk to anyone, i never touch anyone, don't hurt anyone, yet some people talk bad of me and cause me direct suffering just because i'm different. I spend day and night alone at home, sometimes bleeding or having short but strong internal pain, my mind doesn't rest, i feel so tired, when i try to get better i fail and it hurts me for days and nights. Suicide is so more difficult now to me, now i feel so dead inside and so rejected by everyone, i suffer for hours everyday, and i can't stop hurting myself. Some times i tried to have a better health and life, but my hopes were always destroyed. I wish i deserved a woman who cared about me, liked me and wanted to spend time together, and help me get better, but i was always rejected, because i care too much and i ruin everything, i never had someone by my side, and it hurts me more to be completly alone, than anything else i ever experienced. I don't understand why nobody ever liked me, i was always ignored, nobody even cares about me anymore. My life is over, i'm completly lost and broken. I feel so alone, so cold and disappointed with myself , i want to die...
Feel the same. Not sure if people disliking me, or just don't care much, comes to the same thing really. More and more isolation, the story of my life. As for changing your thoughts, that's easier said than done when your relations with others never improve or vanish altogether.
I really hope you feel better. I know how it feels to be depressed and I isolate myself too sometimes. But,it really isn't good to live life this way. It might help you to get professional help or maybe you can go to a support group with people who will understand you.
He dead
How are you doing now Luis?
Did you ever get better?
the worlds to overwhelming for me
Nicholas Nolan that’s how I feel
Adventures With Karlie I know what y’all mean :/
Too
I just wished I never existed. I just don't see the point of life and existence.
@@stillsearchin3457 this is why some poor people are more happier than those with many riches. We have to have a purpose. Even if it is to be a foster to a pet or a dog walker for dogs in the rescue, give yourself a purpose and that seems to be what makes things feel better for people.
Please someone tell me, do you ever feel like the world is a big lie ? like everybody is lying to you to makes you feel like the world is alright ? Like, do you ever felt like everything around is a possible danger or like everything may be a thing for manipulated you ? I'm scared I may be paranoid, or schizophrenic but all my doctor and psychologist told me was : you've got anxiety disorder.
anxiety is hell .. I feel depressed, i feel empty .. I just want to smile and take life from the easy way. Its hard ..
Reading the comments makes me feel like I'm not alone. But I am. As we all have been that go through this. I'm just at an all-time new type of despair. It's like I've fallen into an abyss and I don't remember how to be normal or get out of it this .
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for about six years now, and it's not letting up. I also have agoraphobia and panic disorder aswell as an addiction to opiates...I feel stuck and I struggle everyday just to get out of bed. It's like everything outside of my room is insignificant, like the whole world just doesn't matter to me. I get this great sense of impending doom...not like I'm in any immediate danger, but like everything in life just seems to be getting darker and that will eventually lead to my demise, possibly by me opting out. I never vent to anyone, cause I know they just won't care or won't understand, so there's no point, right?
I ended up getting addicted to opiates when I got pancreatitis, I felt like when I was in the hospital, all my problems just melted away and I knew right then, I was hooked. Of course, I knew it was just a false sense of euphoria, and I knew the consequences, but at that point I didn't even care. Now everyday I wake up in withdrawels.
I think the worst part about all of this is, is the fact there's absolutely no compassion or sympathy from docters when I'm trying to get help. I'm going to do opioid replacement therapy in the next couple of weeks to ween myself off. I'm not doing it for me, but for my daughter and wife. The thing I'm scared about is once I'm better, I'm truly never gonna be better cause I'll still always have anxiety and depression. luckily, my wife understands what I'm going through. I've lost alot of friends over the years because they can't seem to understand what it feels like going through all the shit I go through on a daily basis. People always tell me "well, you did it to yourself, so you deserve it" and I'm starting to believe that may be true...
+Clifton Crevier I hear ya body I'd be self medicating with alcohol.. shit sucks id tell you even the withdrawls,, their are day's like today where Ill drink a ton to pass me out.. but nope; Ill get sober within a few hrs and after I can't sleep at all... I know the consequence with drinking.. but to tel you th truth it makes me feel better when am drunk and I pass out for about 10 hrs..
Most People don't really understand depression, they think you are just lazy or too sensitive. it indeed is mentally , but in the first place, it starts from poor physical condition and later effect your mental behaviour.
I had Depression years ago and i didn't take any medicine for long time, until i noticed i actually getting better by jogging regularly, and it became an addction and have to do it each day, same time , same path.6 miles in total. Physically i am getting better and mentally i become stronger to control my action.
it is your body that shout out for help and what you can do is to listen and go for a solution. and try , try and until you find ONE
I will definitely try running every day! Thank you
I wonder if I'm the only one who has depression and anxiety at the same time? I've been like this for 9 years. I can't do anything against it. It's really how my life became. One mental desease doesn't let the other be cured. Depression wants me to die, anxiety want's me to be scared; pretty much everything I do is very hard.
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I feel this every single day, it's been almost two years since my ex dumped me and I still can't move on. I'm terribly depressed and anxious everyday it's hard to be around anyone because I don't want to burden them all I want is a way out
@Mohammad Frieh thank you for this 5 years later and I'm just getting out of another toxic relationship, so this came at a great time. I have actually just started studying stoicism and getting into meditation.
This was really relatable, thank you for making this.
it's like constantly trying to claw your way out of quicksand..
amazing video. i have been suffering from panic disorder since september 2013 and i gotta say it has ruined my life. i had to quit my part time job, drop out of college and my boyfriend broke up with me cause he was sick of dealing with it. it got to the point where i feel like i am about to pass out every day, and i cant leave the house anymore. not how i planned on spending my early 20's
people say that you shouldn't let other people effect you, but with what one of these people were saying is that when you love someone, and then are forced to kinda end it, it can break a normal person down to being the most broken, terrified, lost person.
i feel so unloved and useless i am just a burden to everyone
Same here
+farah ina ....k
interesting points ,if anyone else wants to learn about dealing with depression try Nadazma Destroy Depression Helper (do a google search ) ? Ive heard some interesting things about it and my work buddy got cool results with it.
Same.
I have an anxiety disorder and this is relatable. Ive had angst since I was 7. As a child I dindnt know what it was and was unable to express how I felt. Today as an adult I medicate. I still have anxiety but it is more mangable on the meds. Being creative is important.
This made me cry so much because I have both and I am a mother of 2 little boys. There is days were I don't want to be here. I feel like a failure to my 2 little boys. Sometimes I make myself believe that without me they would be much better.
+ForeverLin23 I'm in the same state of mind, and I don't know how to deal with it. Lot of thinking that my son will be live better without me. All the time I do have the same thoughts. I think sometimes that I have only one emotion and that's sadness. Doctor gave me xanax but I don't feel any better. simply I can't see light on the end of the tunel. I came here on youtube and here I figure out that I'm not the only one who's feeling like this
I'm only 14 and I've had depression and anxiety for a few years, it's so hard because no one knows, not my friends, not my teachers. I put on a fake face everyday while I'm slowly dying on the inside.My family doesn't care and thinks that the doctors are lying about my anxiety and depression.
I mean you indeed is lying about your illnes, because you are at those age.
To people, I may seem like a funny, bubbly person. That's my life online; I am happy, because there is people that are always there for me. I hide in my room from my family, and cry. I only cry when no one is there. People stare at me whenever I try go outside, because I'm different. I'm a goth, yet people think it's weird. I can never sleep anymore without depressing thoughts penetrating my mind, causing me to stay awake. Of course I have an easier life than others, but I couldn't take it anymore. I try to eat but I avoid it. I'm already skinny enough, but I'm losing more weight than ever. I don't know how to tell anyone. And somehow I need an answer.
You're far from weird... and loved way more than you know. I know of one person who already understands without you having to say a word and his name is Jesus. He's the answer love. The only answer that actually works at least. ❤
I used to sit in my room cutting myself, sometimes daily. I've taken more bottles of pills than I can count. When none of that worked, I would try and jump in front of cars hoping they would hit me, and a number of other things to try and kill myself. I hated life, I hated myself, and I hated God. I couldn't wrap my mind around how he was so "loving" when He knew I was suffering but consistently woke me up everyday. I thought he hated me, and figured that's why He never answered my prayers. But I couldn't have been so far from wrong. One day I sat in my room and just let everything out. I told Him how mad at Him I was, how much I hated Him, and I told Him about everything I hated about my life and myself. At that moment I let go of every preconceived notion I had about Him and for the first time in my life I felt His peace, one that I've never felt before in my entire life. The love He has for me isn't just limited to me. He loves you too. And from the bottom of my heart I'm so sorry that all of that is happening to you. I'm sorry for everything bad that's ever happened in your life, but I really pray that one day you'll understand that it isn't Him punishing you. Just as real as Jesus's love for us is, is just as real as the devil's hate for us is. All of that is the devil trying to stop you from having a true encounter with a very loving God. He knows that if you just experience a glimpse of Him it'll change your life completely. And you're no burden at all. Actually thank you for being so open with me. I know I don't know you, but I can tell you that you are very special, with a very big purpose in this life. You are needed on this earth. Please feel free to talk to me anytime. I know what it's like to be alone, to feel trapped in a prison of yourself, and stuck in a life you don't want. Please please please, I'm here, all I can offer is an ear but please know it's at your disposal. I love you. You're so worth it.
I attempt suicide a svral times. .. . I d0nt tell any0ne this c0z i dnt thnk that they'd undrstand me
I have an anxiety disorder and depression. I am on medication. I have self harmed and done things to myself. I have no one in life anymore and my girlfriend cheated on me knowing about my anxiety. Everything was good for over one year and then she leaves me. She made promises and would always say she would never leave and then she did that to me. So did all my friends. They don't understand how many promises they make and how much I keep those in my head and memories and replay them too a point where I want to die because it consumes my life. My parents divorced two years ago and that's when it really took full effect on me. My parents fought a lot growing up and my life wasn't perfect but it wasn't bad either but now it's hell and I have no one and I don't feel like I should be here. Countless times I have cried for help and been ignored and when she saw I was hurting myself she didn't even care. She left. Everyone left. I don't know what to do. I'm turning 20 next month and starting college in 3 weeks and I feel like I'm a piece of worthless shit. I feel embarrassed because I can't live a normal life like everyone else and no one understands me or cares until it's too late.
Same feeling here, except for the self-harming part, I never felt like doing such thing, I just didn't think it could help me.
I won't come to say things like "life gets better" or that sort of stuff, but if it makes you feel better, there is one thing that you can do from time to time, and that is to take 1 or 2 hours with yourself, listen to some music (for me it's a band called Galileo Galilei, a japanese indie-rock band) and/or stare at the sky while doing that, it clears your mind from every thought and may make you feel a little better, it kinda feels like a relief from everything, every time I feel in the deepest shit I do that, and, while it may not make me feel particularly happy, I feel peaceful,like if I could connect with everything and everyone (idk how to explain it, it's a weird feeling) and that sensation is just extraordinary.
Hope you get better, wish you the best of the luck.
I dont know what im feeling but i everytime i look around and i see peoples faces i freak out my heart starts to beat and i start crying. I remember i was bullied so much that i just became mute i couldnt talk. It hurts so much. I cant eat in front of people without freaking out or hugging people. I dont know what to do. I have scars but i feel like they are cool. I look at them and think that its hard to believe im still surviving this horrible battle.
That was a heartbreaking comment you posted Karen about your depression. I am so sorry you are hurting this badly. I've been there myself. I believe there is a better life waiting for you dear friend. May God be with you and show you His wonderful kindness and grace. May the love of His Son Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly. Yes, Christ is the one who helped me so much when I gave my life to Him. Please take care.
I feel like this, I wanna die ... But something is holding me back
please don't die. don't commit suicide. don't do self harm. you are worth living and you need to realize it. There always a reason for your existing
+Ewanied formao even though this wasn't aimed at me, it helped a little thanks
+Jenny Novak i'm grateful its helped you a little. Did you go to therapist? it will make you getting better. Don't ever think about commit suicide or do self harm okay?
+Ewanied formao I have asked my dad to take me to a therapist, but in his eyes I am okay. So there isn't much I can do. And I am trying to keep my mind clear of such thoughts, thank you.
+Jenny Novak seriously? how old are you? if you still high school, isnt it has counselor there? i hope you will be okay. I may not be a therapist but if you need me, just comment on this. I really hope you will get better and see this beautiful life with clearer view.
I agree wholy about this video doc,,,Ive suffered to the point were life was nothing,,,now Im better but it still is there
I used to have such crippling anxiety that I was so on edge and would react and lash out.
Isolation is like being in prison but in your own mind and body time goes on but you stop. you become empty and just give up nothing is more worse then waking up the next day without nothing to look forward to other then closing your eyes again and just hoping you won’t wake up the next day nothing gets better no matter how hard you try and eventually you just fade away turning into nothing but a empty shell
I deal with this everyday...
This short doc pinpoints exactly how i feel. How does one muster up the courage and energy to change ?
+Rafael Ramos Eat a psilocybin mushroom, trust me it's as simple as that. Antidepressants suck, and it really is as easy as just one trip. After my first trip, years of anxiety and depression just went away with some logical thinking while in that state. Your true self comes out, and no matter how much others try to help, only you yourself can change if you truly want it. Understanding is one thing, experiencing is something else.
I turn 14 in three days. This summer, my mom left me, suffering from her own depression and mental problems. She is far away and was once someone who helped me and was there for me. And even with my father and sister and relatives, I am so ALONE. My father is guilty and verbally abusive towards me, with out his even realization of it. My sister takes after my dad's behavior and my mom's negative behavior in order to compensate for the loss. The things that come out of her mouth are like knives. And the rest of my family… Don't even get me started. I'm so lonely, and there is no where to go. My dad never agrees with the choices that my therapist recommends. I need to escape. But I've seen too many of my friends die and hurt themselves, so I would never want to commit such actions, but I have no one. And the only people who will give me advice are saying that I have to cope with just myself… But I don't have enough to generate my own comfort without that of others. I don't know where else to put this. It's just I'm traumatized from too many people walking away.
It was a nice documentary, by the way...
You're not alone. There are >7*10^9 people alive on the earth at the moment and you are keystrokes away from a great percentage- some of which are not complete idiots. I am sorry you a being verbally abused but at least it is not physical. You should make it clear to your father that you feel uncomfortable with the language and avoid propagating hostility. If you father does not listen then try talking to your friends, relatives then perhaps a doctor or councilor. If their advice is still not helpful and you continue to feel threatened you should approach the police as their is a limit to what would be considered a reasonable amount of verbal abuse. What doesn't kill you; makes you stronger. Perhaps you could try looking for a club or joining a sports team. If you get angry or worked up then get on a bike or go for a run to burn off the adrenaline. Don't blame yourself if you're parents are not getting along. Don't dwell on negative aspects too much; keep thinking up plans and put in the effort to see them through. The more you expose yourself to possibilities the greater chance that you will experience good outcomes.
My family doesn't understand why I always want to be alone and they always force me out of my room and it really pisses me off and makes me resent them.
Related a lot to this. I also found that writing down your feelings helps.
"i lie in bed all the time", "i never go out", its not because I'm "stuck" its because i cant control it i just love feeling depressed ...
i don't like going out, don't like talking to ppl.. i just want it to end
Wow that was great! Really enjoyed it thanks!
Thank you for this documentry.
I suffer from this ever day since 2005 I cant get out of it. Some times mood is happy most times am lost/sad/unhappy. I think due to this depression I have been lossing hair since it started 05, i dont know if this is depression or cancer!!! My parents never understand what I have been through and what I'm still suffering from.
Sometimes I feel like killing myself, sometimes I try calming myself and try be happy. Like I said I feel lost unhappy so weak most times everday.
It's killing me! I dont know what to do most times
I feel like i've had this most of my life and as i get older it gets worse for me. Im too afraid to ask for help. Im 20 years old and feel like i havent lived.
People say it's just a period. Get over it they say.
And while it is true that many teenagers get a taste of depression because of active hormones.
But when it's been around for almost 6 years. It's not just a period.
Yes, i'm a teenager and yes i believe i have depression. Reason i say i believe is because i have not been diagnosed by anyone.
But i believe i suffer from depression because for the last 6 years i have had not only difficulties being happy, but eating as well.
Everyday i pray that one day i can legally go to the doctor and ask to be put out of my misery
Mine isn't just a period.... Almost 9 months and people still fucking say I'm overreacting or I'll get over it
+Meghan Weeks Two years later and I'm still being "dramatic"
Emily Cheatham Well, idk if you've tried to tell classmates or something about it. Which, from my experience tends to be a bad idea.
People are ignorant and instantly assumes it's just the typical puberty depression phase.
As i said, i have not gone to a doctor or anything, but if you feel dead inside, feel like you struggle to find happiness in life, strugge to see colors in things around you, and you have that feeling constantly returning for years, then you get suspicious
@luis Miguel: Hang in there my friend.. I know your feeling pain, the darkest, loneliest pain, I'm living it too, but just know that there is always someone who has you on their mind. I don't have much positivity in my soul right now, but what I have..I send to you.
Keep going, one day at a time. Try to let someone/family member/friend in who you can talk to..even if just a little.
imagine living alone in a foreign country no family no friends and suffering from both anxiety and depression
Everyone describe their depression so detailed but when i do, when i think of How It feels like its just
Empty
Nothing.
So emotionless but still feeling so much emotions you can barely breath, It hurts, Both mentally and physically
And tears just going down your face like rivers
And then just stepping out of your room
Silence
Everything seems just like bubbles but youre there in your own bubble just producing faked emotions and feeling so powerless and feeling such weight on you and its hard
So hard
Even breathing is
And when u come home your bubble just splashes and you break down
And It doesnt have to be tears
In fact
Ive given up
On life
School
Socializing
On everything
My life is literally staying home in My bed getting no sleep, Because My bed is The Only place No one can see me
Problems are distance when im in My bed
My bed is like protecting me in A new bubble
But when getting up It breaks and all problems just go at you
And thats Why i stay in bed
Because its so hard getting up
Because its so hard getting up to all problems
Life isn't for everyone...wish there was a legit way to end it.
I suffered depression and anxiety for two years and it's not that easy, like some people think. Right now, I'm still fucking having problems with calming down, bc nobody is willing to listen to me. Some people try to help me but it get worst bc those people don't know how it really feels. I hope someday I would be able to find someone to talk about Me.
I don't know if I'm depressed but I just find it really hard to get out of my house in the summer. it's not that bad when I go to school everyday but in the summer I always end up isolating myself, rejecting every invitation from my friends. it happens every year and idk how to change it
and I hate myself for it and because of that it's even harder to get out of my house because I don't want my friends to see me, to see the dissapointment that I am. I haven't left my house for three days now and I been ghosting my friends all week. I just wanna be different, I just wanna be one of those people who hangs out with their friends almost every day and is always making plans. but I'm not that person, I'm the one that gets stuck inside their head too easily and the one who never does anything.
I don’t know what to do because I feel like my family and friends just see me as me faking everything and I push everyone away and I feel bad because it’s always my fault for just being here but I don’t wanna talk to no one because it would bother them and the cuts across my wrists I just wanted to go deeper but if I do that I would mess up everything again I did not want to rant but just everything made my fingers want to talk because I can’t through my mouth
I have this at times and distraction is of great help. Inspiring video.
Being the youngest of 5 kids and not fitting in no matter what you do or "who" you try to transform yourself into is hard. I've consistently been shown that I'm a nuisance by my parents (especially my mother). I have serious PTSD/"Mommy issues." Even one of my sons treats me this way. I've been taking some antidepressants that help tremendously but I feel like there isn't a place where I really belong or am wanted. Not in my congregation or my family. I have no real friends in person (all online) except one I've only met in person once, briefly. I have a wonderfully supportive long-distance relationship but times are hard and we can't afford to see each other at this time. I'm fighting health problems that have always been minimized (plus potentially serious/long-term newer ones) and it feels extremely lonely not even having a person to hug and find comfort in. In fact, I got an emotional support dog because my mother has no natural affection for me. I've been sheltered and it messed my life up and caused some severe anxieties so that for some things I'm dependent on others but I'm a "burden." I've been treated that way since I was small and though I tend to be an extremely passionate, empathetic, INFJ I feel so alone in this world. Sometimes I feel like everything I touch I destroy. I know a lot of the feelings I have are situational. I've been seeking familal and spiritual approval for 43 years and I honestly dont believe either exists for me.
Oh, and don't get me started on the toxic friendships/relationships I've found myself a part of!
Whoever is going through it be strong!! Ask for help if needed at least talk to someone who is really close with you! Please take care guys! Life is precious
Can I use it for put it over my beat?
Everybody has problems in life and at some point so much that it causes them to feel depressed for very long periods, years and years. It's all situational and not something you're born with or catch as a disease. I've been through phases of losing my dad at a very early age, lost a child just a week before delivery, lost my mom due to cancer. What I'm struggling to understand is whether those phases of depressions are same as when people say they've been diagnosed with 'depression'.
For stopping panic attacks permanently, you need to understand what cause it, ways to avoid it and also exactly what worsen it.
Please give me that solution. Thanks a lot.
Vasumati Lapre Have a look at here for more info:
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depression cost me a job with benefits and a 401K. But you learn an awful lot about life and I'm back working part-time and trying to laugh at least once a day. Maybe it will be better than before. That's something to hope for
how do I talk about it? it's not a question but really, just a stark reminder of the fact that I know I am not as important to everyone, they have a life, they have their own tensions, no one wants my messed up thoughts to be involved. I do write, and address it sometimes to a future (imaginary, of course!) reader, so that helps. But nothing else, pretty much
Everyone just keeps telling me I can do it, but they don't understand my exhaustion, how numb my body feels, and I feel like such a failure. Everytime anyone tells me I can do it, I feel a pressure fall on my shoulders and I'll just want to do is sleep, I just really want to sleep.
such a powerful video
While deciding how to phrase a compliment for this video, I couldn't help but notice "Troll Sign" (The tracks from those who are so self-absorbed that they can only emulate the ramblings of a tapeworm.) Good work, and relevant.
Find a way to make money and success off of your addictions. If you cannot, then quit them and find an addiction that can bring success. The only way to combat deppression is to find something worth living for. It's out there for each individual, it just requires some searching. If you aren't acting you are already dying.
Most people yearn for success or love, I just want to feel happy.
How can I feel happy if I have nobody other than my parents? All I want is a friend, I isolate myself because I hate myself, I hate my voice, my body, my general appearance. I'm too scared to talk to people in public. I feel emotionally empty after years of acting "normal"
People ask me why I can't just be happy. If it was like a light switch, I would turn happiness on instantly, sadly it's not that fast of a transition.
I wake up in the middle of the night fearing death and loss of loved ones. Its terrifying. anxiety sucks ass.
I'm suffering from depression myself and I lost a friend who took his own life too. It's really difficult
yep, that's pretty much how everyone feels all the time, isn't it?
I dont know if i have depression, but i feel like i isolate myself from my family too much- i stay up too late and pull all nighters sometimes, i just want everyone to go away cause i like just being alone cause i just hate talking to people. I spend alot of my time on online games and drawing and i rarely go out, anything seems too tiring and i just want to sleep and play roblox and talk to my online friends who understand me. I talked to them about my autism and they were really supporting. I feel like my life has hit an all time low and i read fanfictions feeling bitter cause i was alone, with nobody. But of course im consulting to youtube instead of my parents.
Great information. One piece of advice for relief and good health. Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep breathing needed. Day or night, when taking a walk, when reading, on the phone, before sleep etc sit or lie down and observe your breath. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
How bad my depression and anxiety is? well, Im fully emotionally numb. like i cant feel anymore, My grandma died and i didnt even cry and i felt so bad for myself. I cant relate to conversations anymore, I pretend that im listening and sometimes i do fake laugh/smile just to look like im really connected to conversations but the truth is i dont. Y'all know the feeling of wanting to have friends, but your anxiety is preventing you? i dont wanna isolate myself but i have no choice coz that is where my comfort zone is. cant do simple tasks, my concentration is very very poor. plus the saddest part in here is, when you try to explain bout this your parents never listen to you.
Am I ruining my own life? Or it is 'The' Depression which is ruining me? I cant find answer for this question which is in my head 24*7.
I been there it hurts like heck!! Happy to have happier days!I
Being alone is addicting.
Thank you all for the Comments ❤️ makes me feel not as Alone.
I am 25. I have dealt with depression and social anxiety for over 10 years now. I ended up taking antidepressants at 18, when I was hardly functioning. It helped me to function and handle being around people, but it also made me act in ways I usually wouldn't, I was talking loads, but about nonsense etc... It helped me exist in a way where it was no longer painful and feeling like it was a burden to be alive. Anyway I tried to wean myself off a few years ago from 20mg to 10mg, it took years, then when I got on 10mg, the social anxiety and avoidance of people and situations got so bad, that I went back to the dr and was told to up it to 15mg, I feel stuck in this cycle where I am a dependent on a medication, and yes it helps me function, but not in the way I want to. I am considering maybe changing antidepressant. Anyway I also have a load of other stuff I am dealing with, it is overwhelming to say the least. Anyway I hardly go into college because of all this and when I do get the strength, and I see people talking, having natural conversations etc...I feel like the biggest outcast. When someone tries to interact with me, I say I am fine or just been unwell, but don't go into to all the details, because I don't want to be judged or burden other people. Then I feel I am just suffering in silence, it is a constant cycle of suffering, I don't know how to escape.