I have to constantly listen to music otherwise I'll have constant chatter in my mind that I CANNOT control....music has saved my life more that once...
I'm recently diagnosed and thank you... Now I know why I love music so much and literally lose it without it on. Something as got to be playing but something I can sing with or want to learn the lyrics. Also why so many songs literally saved me.
With many of us share the need for music in our lives I'm curious what you listen to? This isn't a call to criticize someone's taste so please be supportive of everyone's preferences. I'll start. My tastes will surly date myself. Lol. Today I woke to Neil Young, now I'm listening to The Clash.
I would do anything to not have this ruthless condition. I’ve lost my friends I barely speak to my family now concentrating is so difficult and being in a depressive state for months now meds are hit or miss I pray for anyone else dealing with this please stay strong
@Jernisha maybe you mean well but it's seriously disgusting how religious fanatics can watch a YT video on mental health issues and actually preach this BS to people who have tried literally EVERYTHING. So please, f**k off with that.
Well you are more than halfway to finding peace, you have acknowledged that something is different and that you need help. Most people don't ever get that far.
I cried pretty good when i got my diagnosis at 41 yrs. Tears of relief actually... To finally find out what has been "wrong" with me my entire life... Once you're armed with a diagnosis it gives you a fighting chance to know how to fight the battle.
I’m 41 and diagnosed 3 weeks ago. I’ve known something was wrong with me for 14 years and many times told my dr that I knew something was wrong and nothing was done. I trusted that he would never neglect me and he did. So when I finally got a diagnosis, it was such a relief. Had that old dr helped me, o wouldn’t have ruined my life and reputation and relationships.
The stigma that surrounds Mental illness stops people talking openly about it. As soon as I say I have bipolar. Some people think I’m crazy. When I have a manic episode, society says I need to be locked up. When I have a depressive moment It means need to be put on suicide watch. I wish people would just ask, rather than assume. Get to know the person, not the illness.
The normal times are that small in between where we come up for air after drowning in depression for so long, and then get rocketed to mania just to be thrown under water again. It's a tough cycle.
it's really difficult to grapple with... im having a hard time myself trying to figure things out, I want to be a nurse and I already work in the medical field, but should I be? is it even ethical for me to be caring for patients? It is a stigma, and there are questions like these out there. but the issue is in the medical field, nobody can talk about mental health because we are providers and don't want to people to think we are incompetent or dangerous, it is a really difficult thing
I have son that they say he is bipolar, he is a JW, enough said. God is within "SOUL", knowing oneself brings us gradually in HARMONY with our inner self. If you don't believe there is a GOD..?......wish you the best!
I just want to tell everybody how proud I am of all of you! I was diagnosed with bipolar back in 1995. 12 hospitalizations and 3 suic*de attempts, but I’m still here. I’ve been pretty much completely stable since 2001 save for two short episodes. You have this, just keep on going.
How do you manage your symptoms I became severely depressed and suicidal last year I still feel sad but not as bad. My mood swings are horrific I want help but won't take drugs Looking for something more homeopathic but not having much luck Took natural lithium but not much improvement.
@@cheesecakefan4880 I understand your reluctance to take medications,but since bipolar is a disorder characterized by imbalances of chemicals in the brain, medication is the only thing that has been shown to actually help with that. However, if you really don’t want to take medication, I would say it’s imperative to get into therapy if you aren’t already. If you have depressive episodes in the winter especially, look into getting a light box. It’ll help to give you what the sun would normally provide. I personally did not respond to lithium, so I’ve had to try a few meds to get to the combination that’s kept me stable for the last 20 plus years. Family and friends can help by letting you know if they see signs that you’re becoming manic, as for us, it usually starts with feeling really good and makes us want to stay that way. But as you know, it gets either destructive or leads to a terrible depression. Make sure to get enough sleep. If that’s a problem for you, talk to a doctor about how to help with that, as there are ways that don’t require medication. I hope this helps you at least somewhat. I’m rooting for you!
@@ctobolskits all about cleaning the body and providing it with proper nutrition, sleep, sunlight, movement… I was diagnosed last year at age 37, i have 2 children a wife and a dog that all depend on me financially…. Meds didn’t work for me so i spent literally every day for 5 months while I was in a deep depressive episode researching and researching and testing out holistic methods…. Then I found it, got myself out of the low… stabilized - assumed I was better, so went back to my old ways… well sure enough i started getting hypomanic and then slipped into low… and instead of a 5-6 month depressive episode, i was able to stop it in it’s tracks within one week.. i would say im 90% better. Hard part is, i have to change my lifestyle… No booze, no smoking, no processed foods, no refined carbs, no sugar. Works for me, may not work for everyone (though im sure it would)
@@twerkfromhome not everyone should be on pills, but it’s dangerous to tell people no one should be taking medication. Disorders like bipolar and schizophrenia absolutely should take medication. It’s a brain disorder that has been proven through many research studies and trials to be the only thing that works for these disorders. Insight and medication compliance are HUGE issues for people, which can lead to years of unnecessary suffering.
Not everyone with Bi-Polar exhibits these symptoms. There are varying degrees of it & often times you wouldn't even know a person has it, until their mania kicks in. Then it becomes VERY interesting to witness. I can't imagine having to live with that diagnosis on a day to day basis.
That guy Paul that said that he probably will own his own castle if he hasn’t already-most likely will. I saw him in another documentary and he is a multimillionaire many times over.
@@eeeeks is this the same guy who has the island retreat who imported the Russian girls? He treats others quite well and I think he is totally harmless- I could be wrong tho, of course.
You’d be sunrises how many people in creative fields who bring us so much struggle with these things to a great degree. Touched by fire, but it’s a delicate balance not to get burned or burn others
My brother got diagnosed with bipolar last year it has completed shattered my brother, me and my family. this is a ruthless mental problems I am dying daily from inside. I pray for every single person who is doing through it.
A potential girlfriend of mine has bipolar depression (I think type 2). I love her with all my heart and will always be there for her. She's not defined by it, it's part of her and she's an angel.
@@josepimentel5687 it is not easy. Besides being bipolar she also has an eating disorder and is terrified of gaining weight. It's a struggle because she has her phases where she just pushes me away. Telling me she can't offer anything to me and that she's a burden. She doesn't really become manic so when she is in a normal state it's a really good time, she's a beautiful soul. Time will tell but I'm not the one who's going to give up.
@susanengel-ix8bl I dated her at that time, I meant something serious, long term. Unfortunately we recently broke up. She has too much going on now because she started treatment again and felt overwhelmed. She said she needs to get herself together. We said we'd meet after a few months and in the meantime stay friends and write here and there. But again it gone flip flop and she blocked me from everywhere without any explanation. Wrote her a few times and just wanted to know what's going on but no response anymore. Hurts when suddenly someone so important to you simply vanishes. I'm still shaken up after those almost 3 months. Really hope we get in contact again in the future, she's a sweetheart.
I have a lot of empathy for people with mental illness such as bipolar. From my experience in working with people with those who have some type of diagnosis. I truly hope everyone has the help and support they need to deal with this. ❤
I have a sister-in-law who is BP/P and she is currently displaying signs of mania and psychosis. She claims she doesn't need help--she says her family wants people to think she is crazy, she paces, smokes, her thinking is disconnected and erratic, she can't sleep... I can't imagine having to be around that 24/7 and trying to be supportive and deal with someone who is paranoid that you are trying to deceive her or do something to inconvenience or sabotage her. How do you convince someone like that to get help. I think she needs hospitalization.
Bipolar is an illness. I have ringing in my ears, constant music, altered taste, less sleep needed. It has to be neurotransmitters. I know if I am going manic or depressed. I feel it physically. It is not stuffing your feelings.
Holy crap I have ringing in my ears too.. never connected that to my bipolar and I mean it's LOUD ringing. Like I grab my ears when in happens it hurts a bit
When you are in love and you feel butterflies in your stomach, perhaps you feel it in your whole body and it's like you're on fire in a good way, this is completely physical and yet it's caused by feelings/something in the environment. The same thing happens when someone gets shockingly bad news and they feel sick to their stomach, the blood drains from their face, they might even vomit. I know someone who gets full-blown seizures that are triggered by a specific kind of anxiety/stressor they have developed. Body and mind are intimately intertwined. It doesn't mean something is any less real or physical just because something might have environmental triggers or causes - it's still very very real. But saying that neurotransmitters cause mental illnesses is like saying that a tub of paint caused a work of art.
@@jrj97 it's not just neurotransmitters it's the fact their firing improperly so to speak. Picture it like a connected stream of roads/ pathways that's supposed to have an even flow for certain actions or thoughts. Some of our roads are packed with traffic while others have cars going 100 mph when it should be going 60. Just an analogy
@@nomadiavan6560 oh I know.. its sucks. I hate when some people think it's just a made up illness. It's actually one of the oldest documented illnesses dating back to Roman and Greek times
Crap. I was afraid of this being true as soon as her name was introduced and had no title of psychiatrist or medical professional, and her one statement that she believes it's trauma related. I can't continue watching this unless to observe cognitive bias.
Actually I think she’s doing the opposite - showing that it’s only exasperated by trauma, not that it’s caused by it. Either way, it’s she case she inadvertently supported, albeit with anecdotes
Anyone who doesn't recognize this as a neurological/medical disorder perplexes me. It's been proven to run in families. Does she mean a physical trauma, like a brain injury maybe? Bipolar 1 is not a psychological trauma response. I've known multiple bipolar peeps both on and off medication. Not a Dr, trained as a nurse and before a decade as a case manager for dually diagnosed (MH + substance abuse), before that lost two bipolar friends to suicide. Having bipolar causes trauma, and too many Drs feel like writing a script is enough, so I'm glad she's asking questions. However it's like having an autism diagnosis, instead of spending so much energy on the "why" there needs to be behavioral therapy in addition to the meds. People need the "how" How meaning how to navigate this world with this condition, how to anticipate, prepare, rework, channel, That's intensive frequent behavioral therapy, folks, that's social support, that the medical insurance company or NHS doesn't want to pay for. The meds are often necessary, but they offer no quality of life, and don't touch but a fraction of the big picture.
Secret Owl I didn't understand what you were trying to say. Can you provide some context? If it's connected to solar effects, shouldn't we all have episodes at the same time? Or did you mean episodes or the disorder in itself? I didn't get it ☺️
Same! I have been stable for some years now. :) Have had years of therapy, and other diagnoses, but after I finally had the Bipolar type II diagnosis (which explained a lot) and the good medication for it (I have quetiapine, basically an anti-psychotic, but mostly just helps me sleep well, after YEARS of being insomniac so very happy with that) I am doing very well now! So happy especially that the depressions are gone :). Glad you are at peace with yourself too.
I’m bipolar, I take meds (antipsychotics and Prozac..) I work full time and am also in college. I have been working since I was 18 now i’m 27. Just try to take it day by day.
One of my best friends is Bipolar, we've had some major ups and downs but after 8 or 9 years of friendship we have worked through a lot and learned a TON from each other. We are like yin and yang, fire and ice. He has presented me with such a unique way of looking at the world and has so much to offer and I wouldn't be the person I am today without him in my life. I sympathize with those that have it as I know it can be a very isolating struggle but I think it can and does produce diamonds - A lot of the time they, like anyone, just need someone to try to understand where they're coming from. Hang in there friends.
Diagnosed Bipolar I, BPD, generalized anxiety disorder, and PTSD. Docs like this that showcase mental illness make me so glad bc I can watch them with my husband so he can understand better what it's like for me.
@@tcoker0416 hello, just want to check up on how your doing after all these years. My girlfriend has all of your disorders. Bipolar 1, GAD with PTSD. How have you been able to fight all throughout the years and how did your significant other help you with your condition despite everything. Hopefully all is well. I'd love to hear your experiences
@AlienBearCat Well, crazy is not the right word to use, but yes he is in an altered state of mind. But also calling this "a high vibrating soul" is like romanticizing mania which is also wrong cause mania can get really dangerous too.
@AlienBearCat Our points are not going to be more valid if we are bipolar or not, but as an example, I also have bipolar and when I was in mania it was scary and offensive when someone called me crazy, now that I am in euthimia I dont really care if someone use the word crazy on me. But I think that educating people about the right terms or the words that are appropiate to use on someone in mania can help break the stigma, if I have contact with someone in a state of mania I will never call this person crazy, it does not helped resolve the problem and can even make things worse
I was diagnosed with Bipolar II 2 years ago at the age of 20 and it has been really hard. I feel really alone and isolated because I have long periods of depression and I can’t socialize or leave the house anymore like I used to. It really sucks but, I am finally starting to get a hold on it lately. I am sending love to anyone facing Bipolar. You are in my prayers❤ We just have to take it day by day.
While I do appreciate and respect the people that were chosen to participate I'm this documentary, I have to say as someone who has been living with bipolar 1 for over 20 years I would like to let people know that absolutely yes we ALL have bad days, these are extreme cases and I feel as if it feeds the stigma that harms those of us who live with bipolar. Please please keep in mind that while we may have to work harder than most at being "normal" we are some of the most intelligent and creative, and most of all nonjudgemental people you will ever have the privilege to know
I have Bipolar Schizoaffective disorder. It’s so fuc*ing hard day by day. I never know if it’s going to be a good day, bad day, manic day, psychotic day or do something to accidentally hurt myself because of hallucinations. I pray to God everyday that my kids will never have to endure any of it. It’s one of my biggest fears ever. I’ve been struggling to get a handle on it since I was 15 and I’m 31 now. I’m tired. I don’t want to fight anymore. But I have to. I can’t give up. I never will. Some days it feels so easy to just say “I’m done with this world” but getting through those days makes US stronger. I send a HUGE piece of my heart out to every single person in the comments struggling with mental health disorders or any kind of mental health issue. We are pretty close if not the black sheep of the medical community and that’s an awful feeling. I feel like I’m being told my condition doesn’t matter or is even real. I know it is. I know yours is. I know anybody can struggle with it. It’s sad that not enough people care. Not to mention 75% of people who were asked, said they thought mentally ill people are violent. 75%!!!!!!! That just blows my mind. It’s truly heartbreaking and almost a helpless feeling.
My 22 yr old daughter was diagnosed 2 yrs ago with bipolar1 and it's extremely hard,she has stopped working and going to school, I Also as her mom had to quit my job to stay home.and watch over her, we still can't get a grip on the right medication for her, it's like she's manic every day 😢 💔 😔
@@Rainbowglitterbarf my husband has the same thing. Iv learned a heck of alot about patience and truly loving him . Knowing what's him and what isn't. He's on a med change right now for a week so far. He is taking his own time for however long cause he's went downhill a bit.. so praying alot and I know God'will pull us through this. We have a whole lifetime to go still togther . It's just the beginning. It's not easy when he wanted me to leave a week ago.. saying the typical stuff: he doesn't wanna be with me , I'm better off ... Things I'm now used to . I just can't wait for him to be himself again and be the man that's very inlove with me and needs me by his side.
I have bipolar 1. Diagnosed officially for 10 years. Thank you for your words of strength. We’re not alone….my will to keep pushing through is weak…but I’ll keep doing it. Sending love out to everyone struggling with severe mental illness. ❤️
I found a statement made about medications not curing the mental problem. But, furthermore it was stated that they can help the person cope. It was said with a disapproving tone. Isn't that the point of taking many medications? All medicines do not cure at all. But they change that person's suffering tremendously.
Ive had bipolar disorder since i was 16 im 34 now ive had a hard time with it, 2 suicide attempts but thankful im still here an met a wonderful woman whom im now married to i thank god for her everyday it makes life easier
@@NCWildHeART Please don't go. You're not alone in this. I have it too. I have literally lost my mind 7 times in my life, but still here. Let's just take it day by day.
@@NCWildHeARTI was diagnosed bipolar I 7 years ago. It's only in the last two or three years that things have radically turned around. I hope you don't mind that I said a prayer for you... Things can get better. The darkness doesn't last and can never overcome the light. I know your comment is many months old.. I hope you are doing well today.
I was diagnosed with bipolar at age 13 and an anxiety disorder (I’m 21) but I never went back to therapy as they always threw me in the mental hospital or treated me very harshly, my one therapist even called me names such as “lizard lips” she was really mean and horrific. I try my best to heal myself and work through this because I don’t trust therapy or doctors anymore, sadly
I am a victim of verbal abuse by my dad who was diagnosed as a Bipolar.. For 15 years live with him, it was terrible.. his mood swing is unbelievable, like a 5 year old kid.. he angry all the times, in morning he become angel, at night he become Demon.. he had done terrible things to me and my mother, he like to break glass and plates for no reason, he like spending money like its nothing, When the wallet empty, he become depressed and blaming everyone.. He hate silence and peace, it seems to give him anxiety and depression, thats why he love to be confrontational with people around, he like to fight against everybody, at least in a verbal way.. You cant trust his mind and heart, he become heartless.. He call me "Pig, Animal, Satan, and all negative stuff" that you could have imagined, while he himself is the Devil himself.. It was a hard decision to me, but I had to leave home and live on the street,, I cant take it anymore, its not good for my mental health to be around with him and his negative energy,, If I continue to live with him for any longer, Im either gonna kill him or become mentally ill, thats why i decide to leave. It affects me in some way, but im glad im mentally strong, not a suidical person, and not a depressed person.. My dad become like this become of the traume he got in the past, he being abused physically by his dad,, Thats why he become like this,, angry all the time, hate everything
I am impressed that this journalist is informed about a trauma link to the exacerbation of this condition. People always insult bipolar people by asking the rhetorical question, “What’s WRONG with you?” Rather than asking, “What happened?” There are many things that exacerbate and potentiate a person’s risk of bipolar and other serious affective conditions. The trajectory for bipolar can depend on many things. I have been in more of a remission at times. Other times, I’d be excited to start something, then the depression sets in during the winter and I crash. People think there was no trauma because they weren’t abused in the ways we normally think of But some people do have a more sensitive wiring to the environment and absorbing generational trauma. There are so any things that constitute an adverse environment for a sensitive person, not the least of which is the insane modern world.
I’ve been suffering from bipolar and still on one of my high phases at the moment but when i come down it’s like lord i need the strength to get through it so hard but i will not give up. I’ve come to realize how good it is to take my medicine but the second i feel normal i stop. It’s hard and i feel bad for my family that has to deal with me through every episode, and it’s worse for the ones who will never understand. The traumatic experiences I’ve gone through in life replays in my mind everyday and sometimes it’s hard to have a civilized conversation without feeling like maybe they don’t understand. Idk that’s a video spoke to me and i can say i have my triggers and my days but I’m praying i get better bc i just want a normal life. I have one but i want to be bipolar free
My ❤goes out to ALL those who have and going through this horrible thing called BI POLAR AND MANIC BI POLAR 😢 😢😢 KNOW ITS NOT YOUR FAULT BUT A DISEASE , I TOLD MY SON I DIDN'T EVEN WISH IT ON HIM HIM OR MY WORST ENEMY OK BUT I HAVE NO WORST ENEMY OF COURSE 😮 IF I COULD TAKE IT AWAY FROM HIM I WILL ALSO I'VE LEARNED THIS DISEASE OF MANIC BI POLAR AND REGULAR BI POLAR 1 AND BI POLAR 2 IS HEREDITARY IN FAMILIES TOO , 😢😢😢😢😢 PRAYING FOR THOSE WHO SUFFER FROM THIS DISEASE AND I WISH YOU PEACE AND HEALING 🎉
I appreciate the creativity of this one man! It seems to me, through studying mental disorders, dealing with them myself, there is a huge correlation between that and art! Thank God, these people continue to be able to express themselves that way, because art matters!
beautiful docu. Philippa Perry seems to be such a good therapist. very understanding and calming. i wish everyone dealing with mental health issues someone like her.
I thinks it’s wonderful of them to share their feelings to us and help us understand and further mental health awareness. I think that there is a beauty in the sharing part and I find the people being interviewed to be extremely brave to open up. I have adhd and I used to find it quite embarrassing to tell people that I am on meds and stuff. And I’d try to hide my hyper activity because I can be embarrassed sometimes of myself but gradually I’ve learned to let that go. Mental health is so so important and the more we share the more we can understand ❤️💯
I don't understand why she was so disappointed and reluctant to hear genetics play a large role. You can't 'talk therapy' your way out of everything, people can get crappy genes and then the rest is environment. How do you 'self-explore' a chemical snowstorm that makes you psychotic? For a therapist she's pretty ignorant tbh even if she is perceptive.
I have had a very difficult time accepting that, but after seeing what a proper medication regime can do for me, I accept now that there is a large part of it that is physical
Boy did I get the worst hand of cards lmao. Genes for; Bipolar disorder Autism Downs syndrome (recessive) Cancer (all types) Ocd Anxiety Diabetes Adhd ADD Pretty much anything that could possibly land you in a hospital or a mental institution I have it... most of it is recessive.
Yes. She’s of the age when she would have had bad ptsd from going untreated in childhood and the difficulty and trauma of how one is treated back then having this. The workd was much less kind, believe it or not. We’re traumatized too
Watching this makes me feel better am from RSA (23) i was diagnosed 3 months ago ,it's hard plus you know how it is in africa so to keep my self calm i do lot of activities
I am bipolar myself and here in south america mental health is not seen as a prioriy,, i am on medications and atm i am kinda stable but my depression episodes are getting worse, most of times i end up thinking about suicide, so it's good to see more people talking about it!
Suicide is never the answer. You are given the gift of life , you have your own unique place in this world no matter what. please be patient with yourself, your answers and healing will come to you in the process. Ive also suffered from depression many times, so i totally hear you💜 just change your focus from hurting yourself to healing yourself. Read self therapy books, watch psychology docs online, it really works. Stay safe 🙏🌸
The rollercoaster of feelings.. Enjoy when you are maniac guys. Think others are not able to experience .. When people ask are you good I doubt to reply whether I will sad in the next moment.. When someone offered a help in depressing time, later when I'm maniac I feel emberassed for breaking down and took their help.. Changing opinions,, changing words,, changing moods,, deleting previous comments and status lol it's unpredictable..
I absolutely hate being manic, I’m 27 in January and as I’ve gotten older I’ve just become more and more irritable, frustrated, and short tempered while manic and I’ve ruined my life while manic multiple times in the past, it sucks.
Only after a recent suicide attempt and being hospitalized for 7 days was I diagnosed with BP. I was already diagnosed with major depression along with compound ptsd but never had been fully examined until this hospitalization. If you feel the urge at all to no longer live, please reach out to family, and friends or admit yourself to the hospital.
I'm never been officially diagnosed to depression or mental health so it would be a liar to me if I tell I know how you are feeling through obstacles. However, I'm glad you make it and share your story.
💙 . Dear brother, the life is not but a journey with a start and an end, and the definition of man in worldly life is that he is not but few days, and every passing day takes a little of him. Each one of us has limited life years to live and no one of us can imagine how fast sixty, fifty, forty, thirty or twenty years of his life passed and how many years are left for him to live till he is face to face with the most serious event, which is death, your ticket out of life. . The life of this world is merely enjoyment of delusion . (Quran 3:185) . Be in the World as if you are a Stranger or a Passing Traveller. . Whoever looks at the world from this perspective will never adhere to it nor will it ever concern him as to whether he spends his lifetime in ease or ill adversity . . This life is just a test and the moment of death is the end of this test.
I've been bipolar 2 for many years now and didn't understand how much it actually affected my life. I always ignored the diagnosis and blamed the episodes on every other thing possible, including myself I've lost friends and People I loved dearly because of my Disorder. People don't understand how hard living with bipolar can be. Everyone always just thinks it's about Being one emotion and then suddenly being the other. I'm so glad this documentary exists to show the reality of Bipolar❤️
I was diagnosed with type 2 bipolar disorder (with psychosis) 9 years ago and I strongly believe it is a mixture of genetics and environmental factors. My 'working hypothesis' is we have a 'two strike or three strike' system. Firstly, a genetic link established to the condition has to be there from birth (my father is a paranoid schizophrenic and my mother has major depression, strike 1) Secondly, If we experience any form of abuse or trauma as a child (mine was sexual abuse as a child, strike 2) Finally, If we have used drugs in order to escape the horrors of our childhood (I absolutely did, and was an addict from 14-22, strike 3) Now, there doesn't have to be the abuse or trauma in the childhood if drugs are involved and visa-versa there doesn't have to drugs involved if historical abuse is prevalent in the patients history. The drugs or abuse act as a catalyst (or trigger) to the underlying genetic link. This is just my opinion of course and is a working hypothesis.
I have related to these, but I do agree that these do seem like extreme cases. except for the lady with the nose ring and dark hair, she seemed quite relatable
Definitely..I was thinking the same when I read your comment. I have bipolar. I have manic highs but more often depression but not delusional like Paul.
If a person with Bipolar disorder would just take their medication and maybe see a therapist, they would have a chance to be a productive person that could hold a good job.
Lori Kulstad This is the most ignorant way of speaking. Meds are not always a "cure". No med works the same for 2 different people with bipolar, and not all meds work indefinitely. Symptoms can suddenly come back despite on an appropriate medication regimen. The majority of people constantly have to adjust their meds and deal with symptoms the rest of their life.
Firstly, this channel offers some informative real life situations with real people not actor portrayals. Great content... Great stories.... Great documentary. This gives us a better idea & understanding of what is the diagnosis of Bipolar Syndrome.
Bipolar is a very lonely place. I cycle through mania and deep depression every 4 weeks. While manic I feel like I’m being held hostage in my brain. I know I’m talking too much but simply cannot stop and I’m staying awake for days, cleaning for 12 hours straight, going shopping and there is 2 of me. The manic and the depressed. I don’t have delusions of grandeur but after I come down from the mania I realize I have misplaced and lost things, if I can actually watch a movie with someone after the mania is gone I can’t remember what happened in the movie, my memory just goes haywire. I have been this way for decades and I’ve tried just about every medication there is. It was and is very difficult to realize I have to surrender to my fate of going through this every single month. The older I get the more exhausting every manic and depressive episodes are and I feel very sad thinking that I will be this way for the rest of my life.
Ohh. My daughter is Bi-Polar and has PTSD. As a mother, it kills me!! I was blessed with a beautiful perfect baby girl..... she is now the mother of my two grandsons. She is so very smart and clever. She is everything I prayed for. Then... after her first son was born, she sort of flipped
I stayed with her when she was in the ward for almost a week. I spent each night outside in my truck in subzero temps. I love her infinitely. Her husband and the father of my grandsons has taken them away from me. My first grandson and I are best friends.... my little bug is my everything!! It’s nearly destroyed me, being away from my daughter and grandson. I know it’s not her fault. Please please help me pray for them
I have experienced bipolar symptoms since I was a kid. My sister was always fine. However, as soon as her 2nd kid was born, she was diagnosed PPD and 9 years later it basically never went away so the diagnosis is bipolar. It's crazy how pregnancy can trigger it. My sister lost her marriage because of it.
Seems she asks them all the same thing to compare. Such as trauma, drug use, family history and types of treatment they tried. All very valid questions.
This whole idea that seeing it as an illness is detrimental and that 'she has a choice' is so damn problematic. Yes, you have to work to cope with mental illness. But you wouldn't tell someone with a broken leg that he has a choice on whether his leg is broken or not. If you're depressed, you _are_depressed_. I wish you could just decide not to be, but that's not how it works.
My best friend who I knew a good chunk of my life was diagnosed with this disorder. Most friends and family tried to hang in there with her but it became intolerable for others to have to deal with erratic episodes and quick irrational decisions. This coupled with her starting a pot smoking addiction. Everyone tried sticking by her but after many many years, it started affecting everyone else’s mental well-being. It was really sad. She lost her friends, and family including her husband and children.
You dropped her too didn't you? Ppl are so selfish and only think about themselves! She was never your best friend! You only enjoyed her when having her around served you!
@@tonyb5586 If she let her mental disorder effect those people who carried about her and she gets worse… they have every right to leave. No one should put up with consistent verbal abuse and manipulation. Just because my dad has BPD doesn’t mean that at some point in my life I didn’t view him like a father. I left at 17 and my dad got charged with child abuse 3 years later for my youngest brother. A lot of people have a different experience with BPD weather it’s them or someone they know. The thing that matters most is knowing when you deserve better and for her to leave her friend took a lot of guts and hurt.
Alienation is the feeling of being isolated or separated from something, often a group or society. It can also refer to the sense of being disconnected from one's own feelings, thoughts, or identity. Alienation can be caused by a variety of factors, including social isolation, discrimination, and the experience of living in a society that is different from one's own values and beliefs. In some cases, alienation can lead to feelings of loneliness, isolation, and resentment. However, it can also be a source of creativity and individuality, as individuals may seek to find their own voice and place in the world.
I am a victim of verbal abuse by my dad who was diagnosed as a Bipolar.. For 15 years live with him, it was terrible.. his mood swing is unbelievable, like a 5 year old kid.. he angry all the times, in morning he become angel, at night he become Demon.. he had done terrible things to me and my mother, he like to break glass and plates for no reason, he like spending money like its nothing, When the wallet empty, he become depressed and blaming everyone.. He hate silence and peace, it seems to give him anxiety and depression, thats why he love to be confrontational with people around, he like to fight against everybody, at least in a verbal way.. You cant trust his mind and heart, he become heartless.. He call me "Pig, Animal, Satan, and all negative stuff" that you could have imagined, while he himself is the Devil himself.. It was a hard decision to me, but I had to leave home and live on the street,, I cant take it anymore, its not good for my mental health to be around with him and his negative energy,, If I continue to live with him for any longer, Im either gonna kill him or become mentally ill, thats why i decide to leave. It affects me in some way, but im glad im mentally strong, not a suidical person, and not a depressed person.. My dad become like this because of the trauma he got in the past, he being abused physically by his dad,, Thats why he become like this,, angry all the time, hate everything
Mood disorders are hereditary. If someone has Bipolar Affective Disorder (BAD), 1st degree relatives have 1:4 chance of becoming affected. Environtal factors can cause stress which can cause a relapse. BAD is harder to treat than unipolar mood disorder (depression). BAD patients are more likely to be non-compliant because they enjoy being hypomanic or manic wgen they have excessive energy, feel extremely creative and omnipotent. They can get into major trouble including bankruptcy because they spend too much money. I am a patient and a family physician and extremely concerned by the interviewer's view that the illness is caused by environtal factors. BAD patients need lifelong medication. Moderating environmental factors by reducing stress and support can help reduce the number of exacerbation, but not control the illness.
I dont watch youtube content "covering" my diagnosis ever... but I trust these filmmakers to capture and present the subjects symptoms with integrity. Love the way they have told other tough topics. Here goes 🥂
m norton buswell thank you! Honestly, there are worse depictions out there. And part of the stigma with bipolar is the varying degrees in which symptoms of mania or depression present. I find myself reality checking often cause "is this me feeling genuinely happy or am I about to ride the mania coaster?" And that sucks. Triggers are different person to person too. It's.... idk... its my normal and im managing it but its not a label I "own".
Interesting Fact: People who have epilepsy often have Bi-Polar Disorder. Migraine headaches are often related to epilepsy. My absolutely brilliant neurologist explained this to me when I first started seeing her. My Meds: Keppra for epilepsy, Lamictal for both bi-polar and epilepsy, Effexor depressive episodes, Seroquel for sleep, Doxepine for sleep, and clonidine for anxiety. All maxed dosages. They work.
Have you ever had to come off of Effexor? Apparently it’s the number one antidepressant that’s hardest to come off and worst side effects. It’s up there with Xanax for anti anxiety. I’ve had to come off cold turkey due to doctors not refilling on time, pharmacies not refilling on time and also weaning to try another medication. It’s really incredibly difficult either way and lasts for a very long time. It really gives me so much more sympathy for people who are addicted to hard illegal drugs and alcohol.
@@kellysowhat88 Xanax and other benzodiazepines are notoriously difficult and dangerous to try and stop without medical assistance. As in you will die if you have taken them long and regularly enough.
❤️ My father was diagnosed at 22 and was not taking his medication..he ended up in a padded cell...he struggled w different medication combos after his liver had taken a beating from 30 years of lithium..I’m proud to say my father is a home owner, has a bachelors degree, is a 30 year retiree, father and grandfather..my only concern is that he’s a Jehovah’s Witness and has been since before I was born..devout to this day but I feel that they prayed on his vulnerabilities all those years ago 😔🤦🏼♀️ I have a young son and if it’s genetic and has skipped me, what about my son? Stay safe everyone ❤️
Thank you for this documentary. It sheds light on putting a name, a label so to speak on a mental illness/condition that may or may not be quite accurate in every circumstance. There are those unfortunates who through no fault of their own or others have chemical imbalances in the brain and others whose brain/behavioral disruption is a result of childhood trauma that was either not addressed or dismissed by those they seek acceptance and unconditional love and support. A human baby has absolutely no instinct to survive other than to cry out their needs. If their needs are not met; they will find a way to survive in any way possible, which if not addressed, continues into adulthood. Science has come a long way in addressing mental illness but addressing the core issue with a professional therapist is key in navigation through the difficult process for the best optimistic outcome for success.
In the 90s I was diagnosed as being manically morbidly depressed. They didnt have the term Bipolar yet to describe the depths of depression I was experiencing at 17 years of age. Now I am considered Bipolar comorbidly with an anxiety disorder. This doc is very on point about the need to feel driven to create & manifest while on a manic high, but it fails to show the rage that someone with Bipolar experiences when limited by being unable to create in some way. It's a very interesting discussion nonetheless.
@@johncuthbert9692 Hang in there internet twin. I forgot to add that my Bipolar unfortunately advanced into Agoraphobia in my adult years. Most times I feel like if I cant handle myself, noone else should or could. I hope you find the strength to continue. This is such a deadly disorder, most people dont ever consider that.
@@IdRatherBeSleeping " Most times I feel like if I cant handle myself, noone else should or could." exactly my thoughts so often. Thanks for putting them into words.
Be careful, because the British medical community seems to believe you can think & talk your way out of anything. I watched a similar video about someone with severe, incapacitating OCD and during the entire documentary, all they had to offer him was talking therapy, & never once was medication even suggested. And of course by the time he got home from the appointment it was as bad as ever, plus he felt like a failure. This is absurd. I even wrote to the British OCD organization & asked them what had possessed them to do a documentary that had the potential to help people & not to suggest the only thing that really could have helped. A shrink once told me "this is chemistry, not character," & it convinced me to get on medication because I had been bent on "doing it myself." This is a chemical imbalance. Medication either opens a window to talking, or it fixes the problem by itself. Beware the talk therapists, who don't want to be put out of business.
deenibeeniable Something this severe can be helped by medication for sure, but therapy is definitely also important. It should be treated with both medication and therapy. It can be both chemical and environmental. I’m glad the meds work for you. 😊
deenibeeniable The preferred type of therapy is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. But you’re right, it doesn’t always work alone. Depends on the person and illness.
@@fluteloops22 That's exactly why I said "either opens a window to talking or..." And just because there's a "preferred type of therapy" doesn't mean that any type of non-pharmaceutical therapy is superior or even non-inferior. At the very least, retraining your axons not to take up serotonin could take a very, very long time, & you might have to be a yogi. I'd way prefer to have a drug do it & be able to enjoy that many more years unafflicted.
@@fluteloops22 I achieved more in several months with meds than with a decade of therapy. My therapist was the one who suggested I try meds, because even she could see it wasn't going to work & probably felt guilty continuing to take my money.
Unfortunately I had to completely disconnect from my ex because it is just to much.. you really need immediate family if you have this disease because it is an emotional rollercoaster for everyone involved.. I loved him but I love myself more ... life is to short to not have peace
Yes I understand. He was the love of my life, I managed a Rollercoaster marriage for 14 years, but I had to let him go. I broke my heart but he seemed to be quite ok to leave and go back to his parents, 50 years old. Alcohol, and meds are his life. Although he does holds down a supervisory position at work for the last decade. It's the only place his illness does not seem to affect him. No one even guesses there is anything amiss with him. He is on regular meds am and pm most days, unless he forgets, or takes double forgetting he's taken them. He's mood swings are are not extreme, he hides his feelings from the world. He is quiet, passive aggressive, alcohol is a daily self medication he cannot live without. I hope he will be ok. I can't keep Checking. Cos he comes back. I've let go, the stress was too much and I'm sorry.
Same here. During a manic episode he kept me awake for almost 2 months. I'd sleep for 20m and he'd wake me up, pull the blankets off me. Wanted to go out together in the middle of the night. I started to really struggle at work and made a lot of mistakes. If things didn't go exactly right, he would berate me. I couldn't do it and I really feel that I only had a glimpse of the reality he lived. A very tough illness.
There were definitely a lot of good points she brought up. At first I wasn't too sure she hit the mark but I understand what she was saying. I agree fully, as someone with a personality disorder finding the right therapist is key and trying to take yourself out of the box you've been placed is huge as well. It takes a lot of work, strength and courage on the patient's end but it's definitely done over time. Taking things day by day, moment to moment really helps me.
Thanks for the vote of confidence @collide. Isn't everyone worthy of being able to love and being loved? People don't choose to be bipolar. My mom and grandmother were both diagnosed with bipolar after they were married.
Some peoples psychological makeup will be both attracted and better equipped to deal with a partner with bipolar, others wont hack it, none of this is anybodys fault. The key for those with bipolar is the same for anybody else, finding the right chemistry and the right fit. Narcissism is far worse to live with, yet these people often achieve enduring relationships, with all of the disfunction that entails.
Our 22 years together was a rollercoaster.. When he wasn't manic or suicidal life was good.. We tried everything, never found meds that helped, he turned to drugs and alcohol and 5months ago killed himself.. I'm still in shock, even tho I've been afraid of it to happen for so long..
My older sister was diagnosed with Bipolar after a suicide attempt. Growing up my sister endured physical and sexual abuse while trying to protect me from my father. Trauma causes bipolar Disorder in my opinion. The 'medication' my sister is on has changed her personality. She is now held hostage by the mental health system who only drug her. Now she sits at home in front of the television all day every day smoking non stop. How has she been helped?
My brother in law had bipolar disorder, he killed himself over 10 years ago and my fiancé found him. He never had any childhood trauma, none of them did. I have BP1 and medication has allowed me to be who u actually am, bipolar was the one holding me hostage. Yours is a dangerous mindset for people to have, non compliance with medication creates huge risks such as people either ruining their life, or just taking it all-together. Sorry your experience hasn’t been positive but there’s nothing wrong with being on medication, it works for a great amount of people, it just takes some trial and error. It will never cure anything, but has allowed people to live as normally as they’re capable of in many cases.
@@DahliaVonHellion how do you know your brother in law never had trauma? Sometimes people with ptsd don’t even know themselves they had it, especially if they were young kids. The original comment doesn’t take away from your story.. one size does not fit all. I understand some people need the meds, but obviously for others it’s not the solution. If you’re expecting someone to take your experiences at face value then perhaps you should take theirs the same. Medication is not for everyone. There is even evidence anti depressants can CAUSE suicide ideation. I’m glad medications work for you but that does not mean you can generalise your view to everyone else and feel entitled doing it.
I am a victim of verbal abuse by my dad who was diagnosed as a Bipolar.. For 15 years live with him, it was terrible.. his mood swing is unbelievable, like a 5 year old kid.. he angry all the times, in morning he become angel, at night he become Demon.. he had done terrible things to me and my mother, he like to break glass and plates for no reason, he like spending money like its nothing, When the wallet empty, he become depressed and blaming everyone.. He hate silence and peace, it seems to give him anxiety and depression, thats why he love to be confrontational with people around, he like to fight against everybody, at least in a verbal way.. You cant trust his mind and heart, he become heartless.. He call me "Pig, Animal, Satan, and all negative stuff" that you could have imagined, while he himself is the Devil himself.. It was a hard decision to me, but I had to leave home and live on the street,, I cant take it anymore, its not good for my mental health to be around with him and his negative energy,, If I continue to live with him for any longer, Im either gonna kill him or become mentally ill, thats why i decide to leave. It affects me in some way, but im glad im mentally strong, not a suidical person, and not a depressed person.. My dad become like this become of the traume he got in the past, he being abused physically by his dad,, Thats why he become like this,, angry all the time, hate everything My dad got this bipolar because of the trauma he endured in the past, being abused physically by his own dad
Another thing I’ve noticed with type 2 is I cannot handle it when small plans get changed. If I decided that I want to listen to a specific song while driving I will not move until the song plays even if it takes me 30 mins for the song to load. I get so irritable when my plans are changed even slightly and god forbid someone cancel on me it’s Terrible 😭
Have you ever been on Depakote? And otherwise is there drinking smoking or drug use aside from pot? That stuff won't let meds work. Pot actually is the only natural thing that gives some relief. Indica not sativa
I'm leaning towards Ashley also having Autism somewhere on the Autistic Spectrum, it explains poor eye contact, changes in behaviour too quickly, and the lack of hitting the milestones as a child.
Apparently, studies suggest that bipolar is relatively common in children and adults with autism. So it isn’t a far fetched idea for both to be present in some individuals. Still researching to learn more about these and other conditions.
Omg! I’m in tears. I’m bipolar and my middle child is schizophrenic. Life is very challenging. I don’t know my family history. I was not raised by my family. I and my siblings were orphans.
We all get thoughts in our minds. I learned to retain my mind to stay positive. Every time I get a bad thought, I say, I silence the voice of the enemy. After doing this for a few weeks the thought almost completely stopped. Love your God with all heart, mind, soul and STRENGTH!
The elderly man is classic bipolar. Grandiose delusions and inflated self-esteem is common among them. Some of us, however, don't experience that. I've always been a "mixed episode" guy myself.
So many doctors want to blame trauma but I was always sick in my thinking especially from the time of my first memories. Literally the age of 3. I was already very sick. No type of remembered trauma at least. Not to say as an infant I didn’t perceive life in a traumatic way. That should be the question these docs ask to parents of sick children.
I don't want to exist because I remember ... The only reason I'm still alive is that every time I wanted to quit, I imagined it would break the hearts of my family members and damage their lives. And I was really sick ... I still am. Every time I'm down ... And when I'm manic, it's not about being happy, I'm just trying to be, for the sake of others, not to bother with me ... I feel even worse than in the opposite state, I have a lot of energy for life, Lots of ideas to do something about it. But I know all along that I'm not doing any of this. I know I will no doubt have enough energy to do anything. But I'm still here ... these are all just phases, just fluctuations from my normal state of mind. And just what I do during these fluctuations is that I want to live ... I want to make it so that I can struggle and I don't want to stop by this stupid mood ... I just don't want to. So I try to be stable ... and of course I always fail, but I stand up again and move on. What else should I do?
It's important to remember that people with bipolar illness can (and do) quite well almost all of the time. It's when they have episodes that they need medical treatment. A lot of understanding from the special people who love them, insight into their own illness, and willingness to accept help are assets for anyone living with bipolar disease.
I'm going to have to disagree with that. I'm on good meds.. not manic.. and everyday is a struggle. I mean when you have a cold and take niquill do you feel great? No just a little better.
I am bipolar 1 and also have ptsd and being bipolar is an everyday struggle and it is very hard day to day functioning I’m on anti anxiety meds anti depressants and anti psychotics this disorder has ruined my life and caused me to lose custody of my child I been to a psych ward 3 times because my mania turned to psychosis . Anyway, I have some days when I feel okay but many days I struggle to even get out of bed and do basic tasks. Everyday is unpredictable and every day functioning is extremely hard that’s why this is a disability and many people with bipolar cannot even work. I just applied for Disability benefits because I cannot work. Not everyone with bipolar does well almost all of the time I feel I barely have good days.
My husband was recently (early 30’s) diagnosed with bipolar disorder. He has become obsessed with religion. Wanting to become baptized, claimed he has contact with aliens. Sometimes it is too much. Because he is not the same person I once knew. But I still love him.
I agree with her, that thinking of mental illnesses as purely medical can stop us from exploring the psychological side, and we sell ourselves short from understanding the full picture. It can be both -- hereditary predispositions, exacerbated by circumstances. The one guy with the golf trophies says he experienced zero trauma, but being put on a pedestal is traumatic for a child. It's too much pressure and, as the therapist pointed out, he was never taught how to deal with disappointment.
I have rapid cycling bi polar type 2. I have hypomania rather than mania. I get a huge surge of energy, feel euphoric, my social anxiety goes, I can talk to anyone. But i also cant sleep, constant thoughts, cant eat, etc. This cycles with suicidal depression where i cant function.
Absolutely some severe cases here. I'm nowhere close to this 😳 I don't know anyone in my community who are this severe. Living day to day life with bipolar is alot more boring and can be just really isolating really, especially if you like me have more depressive episodes than manic. I love being manic (I'm sorry, I do like the energy), but the worst periods are those where I'm crying in my bed thinking nobody cares about me and I should just die (I know it isn't true, but depression and logic doesn't go hand in hand). That's the hardest parts, imo 😳 Do you have more manic episodes than depressive?
none of the nones no. You see - I usually have people around me, like my husband for example. He knows how I am in a manic episode and this is not it. People around us have eyes and ears😜
Relatable to me, I have a Bipolar 1 with psychotic features diagnosis. Going on 10 years with little relief from the countless medications. It's hard to find people that have it more extreme not just the depression, mixed episodes or an occasional manic episode
i say that i have i am bipolar, because i am. for me, bipolar is bigger than that. it takes up my life, my personality, my judgment, everything about me. i feel like the bipolar is more of me than i am.
@@funnystuff553 It's possible they find a cure with genetic engineering. Other than that, no I don't see a cure. Medicines are getting better all the time though.
I’m 14 and got diagnosed with bipolar a few weeks ago so as you would imagine that’s really young. I honestly don’t really know very much about it but I am ashamed of it and scared that people will think I’m crazy
That is really young. The teenage years make everyone seem bipolar with all the hormones. I would get a second opinion honestly. Also PTSD can look like bi polar as well. I feel like they over diagnose people as bi polar when it's really something else entirely, like childhood trauma. I have ptsd/panic disorder. My doctorwanted to put me on prozac, but i dont like the way anti depressants make me feel and im not depressed, i just get anxious in certain situations. Rightfully so too. 😅. Anyway,i went the natural route to heal myself. Better than taking a pill. Im starting to feel like my old self again.
I got diagnosed with bipolar with mixed features in my early 20s. I get delusional in a depressed state, I'm an artist, so once I get in a depressed state I'll start thinking that I can paint like picasso when in reality I cant paint like him😂 then once I get in a manic state I'll start thinking I can fly since I'll have so much energy that when I'm walking really fast it feels like I'm walking on air, it feels like I can walk a marathon forever on top with speeding when I drive. So, I dnt drive anymore when im manic😂 the longest depressed episode i was in was a whole month straight, i never want to be in that episode ever again, that was by far the most worst thing I've ever experienced.
My son has been diagnosed with Bipolar two years ago.. he is 23 x To me he is stil my boy but i can totally understand now the behaviour swings i was glad there was a name to it as i tried all his lilfe to find out what was wrong with him growing up... all the time i got told he will grow out of it...
No, it will not grow out. I am 46 and still have it. The opposite is the case, it doesn't get sweeter with the age. By the way this is not the best documentary, there are far better ones on youtube.
The young guy who plays music has been on a benzodiazepines for years and coming from someone who has finally been sober after years of being on them myself it makes things worse. I was also advised by my doctor that some antidepressants can make the symptoms of bipolar worse so I’m being treated with a different kind called lamotrigine and it has lessened the symptoms. When I was on Wellbutrin however my highs and lows were extreme.
I’m on lamotrigine as well for bipolar depression, it’s worked quite well for me for the most part. It fascinates me the way anticonvulsants can work for BP
that’s what i thought! i have bipolar and have tried nearly every medication out there both during and before my diagnosis. i’m no psychiatrist but when i saw the combo of meds he was on i was concerned. prozac can be really bad for people with bipolar and in a lot of cases can cause horrible anxiety. just not a great antidepressant for people with BP most of the time
Half of this documentary is the interviewer looking sceptical at the other person or looking sceptical into space. I just didn't get the idea that she was open minded enough and was so focussed on this odea that bipolar is causes by trauma without looking at physical reasons for the imbalance of some one's moods.
I have to constantly listen to music otherwise I'll have constant chatter in my mind that I CANNOT control....music has saved my life more that once...
Oh god then we are siblings
I'm recently diagnosed and thank you... Now I know why I love music so much and literally lose it without it on. Something as got to be playing but something I can sing with or want to learn the lyrics. Also why so many songs literally saved me.
Oh yes!!! Me too!! So many people in my world don't understand my constant music input.
Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault
With many of us share the need for music in our lives I'm curious what you listen to? This isn't a call to criticize someone's taste so please be supportive of everyone's preferences.
I'll start. My tastes will surly date myself. Lol. Today I woke to Neil Young, now I'm listening to The Clash.
I would do anything to not have this ruthless condition. I’ve lost my friends I barely speak to my family now concentrating is so difficult and being in a depressive state for months now meds are hit or miss I pray for anyone else dealing with this please stay strong
Praying for you too❤️🔥🙏🏼❤️🔥 thank you
psilocybin check it out
It's a
Evil spirit. Pastor Kevin la Ewing can help try him out 🙏
@Jernisha maybe you mean well but it's seriously disgusting how religious fanatics can watch a YT video on mental health issues and actually preach this BS to people who have tried literally EVERYTHING. So please, f**k off with that.
Well you are more than halfway to finding peace, you have acknowledged that something is different and that you need help. Most people don't ever get that far.
I cried pretty good when i got my diagnosis at 41 yrs.
Tears of relief actually... To finally find out what has been "wrong" with me my entire life...
Once you're armed with a diagnosis it gives you a fighting chance to know how to fight the battle.
This is a positive way to look at it for those who need it thank you
I’m 41 and diagnosed 3 weeks ago. I’ve known something was wrong with me for 14 years and many times told my dr that I knew something was wrong and nothing was done. I trusted that he would never neglect me and he did. So when I finally got a diagnosis, it was such a relief. Had that old dr helped me, o wouldn’t have ruined my life and reputation and relationships.
@@songbird2335 I resonate with this so much. Hopefully your life will get infinitely better from now on.
Oh I so agree
I totally empathize with you. I didn’t find out so I was 42.
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The stigma that surrounds Mental illness stops people talking openly about it. As soon as I say I have bipolar. Some people think I’m crazy. When I have a manic episode, society says I need to be locked up. When I have a depressive moment It means need to be put on suicide watch. I wish people would just ask, rather than assume. Get to know the person, not the illness.
I understand in my world but maybe not in ours
The normal times are that small in between where we come up for air after drowning in depression for so long, and then get rocketed to mania just to be thrown under water again. It's a tough cycle.
it's really difficult to grapple with... im having a hard time myself trying to figure things out, I want to be a nurse and I already work in the medical field, but should I be? is it even ethical for me to be caring for patients? It is a stigma, and there are questions like these out there. but the issue is in the medical field, nobody can talk about mental health because we are providers and don't want to people to think we are incompetent or dangerous, it is a really difficult thing
I don't think you are crazy. I would just support you as a true friend would.
I have son that they say he is bipolar, he is a JW, enough said. God is within "SOUL", knowing oneself brings us gradually in HARMONY with our inner self. If you don't believe there is a GOD..?......wish you the best!
I just want to tell everybody how proud I am of all of you! I was diagnosed with bipolar back in 1995. 12 hospitalizations and 3 suic*de attempts, but I’m still here. I’ve been pretty much completely stable since 2001 save for two short episodes. You have this, just keep on going.
How do you manage your symptoms
I became severely depressed and suicidal last year
I still feel sad but not as bad.
My mood swings are horrific
I want help but won't take drugs
Looking for something more homeopathic but not having much luck
Took natural lithium but not much improvement.
@@cheesecakefan4880 I understand your reluctance to take medications,but since bipolar is a disorder characterized by imbalances of chemicals in the brain, medication is the only thing that has been shown to actually help with that. However, if you really don’t want to take medication, I would say it’s imperative to get into therapy if you aren’t already. If you have depressive episodes in the winter especially, look into getting a light box. It’ll help to give you what the sun would normally provide. I personally did not respond to lithium, so I’ve had to try a few meds to get to the combination that’s kept me stable for the last 20 plus years. Family and friends can help by letting you know if they see signs that you’re becoming manic, as for us, it usually starts with feeling really good and makes us want to stay that way. But as you know, it gets either destructive or leads to a terrible depression. Make sure to get enough sleep. If that’s a problem for you, talk to a doctor about how to help with that, as there are ways that don’t require medication. I hope this helps you at least somewhat. I’m rooting for you!
@@ctobolskits all about cleaning the body and providing it with proper nutrition, sleep, sunlight, movement… I was diagnosed last year at age 37, i have 2 children a wife and a dog that all depend on me financially…. Meds didn’t work for me so i spent literally every day for 5 months while I was in a deep depressive episode researching and researching and testing out holistic methods…. Then I found it, got myself out of the low… stabilized - assumed I was better, so went back to my old ways… well sure enough i started getting hypomanic and then slipped into low… and instead of a 5-6 month depressive episode, i was able to stop it in it’s tracks within one week.. i would say im 90% better. Hard part is, i have to change my lifestyle…
No booze, no smoking, no processed foods, no refined carbs, no sugar. Works for me, may not work for everyone (though im sure it would)
Not being on pills is good! Now do ayahuasca with a reputable circle.
@@twerkfromhome not everyone should be on pills, but it’s dangerous to tell people no one should be taking medication. Disorders like bipolar and schizophrenia absolutely should take medication. It’s a brain disorder that has been proven through many research studies and trials to be the only thing that works for these disorders. Insight and medication compliance are HUGE issues for people, which can lead to years of unnecessary suffering.
Not everyone with Bi-Polar exhibits these symptoms. There are varying degrees of it & often times you wouldn't even know a person has it, until their mania kicks in. Then it becomes VERY interesting to witness. I can't imagine having to live with that diagnosis on a day to day basis.
Right these are very rare symptoms they are making it seem as though we all experience these symptoms
I agree there is spectrum to everything
Thank you
Everyone I know with it have.
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That's what you think.
When you first meet someone and they tell you “One day I am going to own a castle”, expect an interesting conversation.
That guy Paul that said that he probably will own his own castle if he hasn’t already-most likely will. I saw him in another documentary and he is a multimillionaire many times over.
Better than bitching about politics, tho
@@eeeeks is this the same guy who has the island retreat who imported the Russian girls? He treats others quite well and I think he is totally harmless- I could be wrong tho, of course.
lmfao that's what I exactly I said like days ago when I met random strangers.
You’d be sunrises how many people in creative fields who bring us so much struggle with these things to a great degree. Touched by fire, but it’s a delicate balance not to get burned or burn others
My brother got diagnosed with bipolar last year it has completed shattered my brother, me and my family. this is a ruthless mental problems I am dying daily from inside. I pray for every single person who is doing through it.
A potential girlfriend of mine has bipolar depression (I think type 2). I love her with all my heart and will always be there for her. She's not defined by it, it's part of her and she's an angel.
If you don't mind me asking, how are things going with her ? I was in a similar situation and everything changed suddenly
@@josepimentel5687 it is not easy. Besides being bipolar she also has an eating disorder and is terrified of gaining weight. It's a struggle because she has her phases where she just pushes me away. Telling me she can't offer anything to me and that she's a burden. She doesn't really become manic so when she is in a normal state it's a really good time, she's a beautiful soul. Time will tell but I'm not the one who's going to give up.
What does potential girlfriend mean? Does she know how u feel?
@susanengel-ix8bl I dated her at that time, I meant something serious, long term. Unfortunately we recently broke up. She has too much going on now because she started treatment again and felt overwhelmed. She said she needs to get herself together. We said we'd meet after a few months and in the meantime stay friends and write here and there. But again it gone flip flop and she blocked me from everywhere without any explanation. Wrote her a few times and just wanted to know what's going on but no response anymore. Hurts when suddenly someone so important to you simply vanishes. I'm still shaken up after those almost 3 months. Really hope we get in contact again in the future, she's a sweetheart.
@@christophluger793 don't give up on her.
I have a lot of empathy for people with mental illness such as bipolar. From my experience in working with people with those who have some type of diagnosis. I truly hope everyone has the help and support they need to deal with this. ❤
From your experience, what does milder diagnosis of this condition entail?
Not reality. Most of us have killed are self or almost there..
Treatments have horrible side effects.
I have a sister-in-law who is BP/P and she is currently displaying signs of mania and psychosis. She claims she doesn't need help--she says her family wants people to think she is crazy, she paces, smokes, her thinking is disconnected and erratic, she can't sleep... I can't imagine having to be around that 24/7 and trying to be supportive and deal with someone who is paranoid that you are trying to deceive her or do something to inconvenience or sabotage her. How do you convince someone like that to get help. I think she needs hospitalization.
Bipolar is an illness. I have ringing in my ears, constant music, altered taste, less sleep needed. It has to be neurotransmitters. I know if I am going manic or depressed. I feel it physically. It is not stuffing your feelings.
Holy crap I have ringing in my ears too.. never connected that to my bipolar and I mean it's LOUD ringing. Like I grab my ears when in happens it hurts a bit
@@cordzarembski2245 It's an actual chemical imbalance causing malfunctions in other parts of the brain.
When you are in love and you feel butterflies in your stomach, perhaps you feel it in your whole body and it's like you're on fire in a good way, this is completely physical and yet it's caused by feelings/something in the environment. The same thing happens when someone gets shockingly bad news and they feel sick to their stomach, the blood drains from their face, they might even vomit. I know someone who gets full-blown seizures that are triggered by a specific kind of anxiety/stressor they have developed. Body and mind are intimately intertwined. It doesn't mean something is any less real or physical just because something might have environmental triggers or causes - it's still very very real. But saying that neurotransmitters cause mental illnesses is like saying that a tub of paint caused a work of art.
@@jrj97 it's not just neurotransmitters it's the fact their firing improperly so to speak. Picture it like a connected stream of roads/ pathways that's supposed to have an even flow for certain actions or thoughts. Some of our roads are packed with traffic while others have cars going 100 mph when it should be going 60. Just an analogy
@@nomadiavan6560 oh I know.. its sucks. I hate when some people think it's just a made up illness. It's actually one of the oldest documented illnesses dating back to Roman and Greek times
She’s really fixated on this idea that the mental illness is due to trauma. It gets in the way of her really listening to her interviewees.
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Crap. I was afraid of this being true as soon as her name was introduced and had no title of psychiatrist or medical professional, and her one statement that she believes it's trauma related. I can't continue watching this unless to observe cognitive bias.
Actually I think she’s doing the opposite - showing that it’s only exasperated by trauma, not that it’s caused by it. Either way, it’s she case she inadvertently supported, albeit with anecdotes
Anyone who doesn't recognize this as a neurological/medical disorder perplexes me. It's been proven to run in families. Does she mean a physical trauma, like a brain injury maybe? Bipolar 1 is not a psychological trauma response. I've known multiple bipolar peeps both on and off medication. Not a Dr, trained as a nurse and before a decade as a case manager for dually diagnosed (MH + substance abuse), before that lost two bipolar friends to suicide. Having bipolar causes trauma, and too many Drs feel like writing a script is enough, so I'm glad she's asking questions. However it's like having an autism diagnosis, instead of spending so much energy on the "why" there needs to be behavioral therapy in addition to the meds. People need the "how"
How meaning how to navigate this world with this condition, how to anticipate, prepare, rework, channel,
That's intensive frequent behavioral therapy, folks, that's social support, that the medical insurance company or NHS doesn't want to pay for. The meds are often necessary, but they offer no quality of life, and don't touch but a fraction of the big picture.
Trauma triggers episodes. Scientifically proven
I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 2. When I accepted it it was easier to explain to others...I am at peace with myself...:)
Same.
Secret Owl I didn't understand what you were trying to say. Can you provide some context? If it's connected to solar effects, shouldn't we all have episodes at the same time? Or did you mean episodes or the disorder in itself? I didn't get it ☺️
Same! I have been stable for some years now. :) Have had years of therapy, and other diagnoses, but after I finally had the Bipolar type II diagnosis (which explained a lot) and the good medication for it (I have quetiapine, basically an anti-psychotic, but mostly just helps me sleep well, after YEARS of being insomniac so very happy with that) I am doing very well now! So happy especially that the depressions are gone :). Glad you are at peace with yourself too.
Good
@@SacredOwl oh God help us all
I’m bipolar, I take meds (antipsychotics and Prozac..) I work full time and am also in college. I have been working since I was 18 now i’m 27. Just try to take it day by day.
That’s great, but that’s not the case for the majority of bipolar people
That’s not possible for everyone with this illness. Way too stressful
Congratulations im happy for you
Congratulations you are winoller
Surely you know that it is on a spectrum of severity
Thank you to these beautiful people for sharing their stories. At 40 and newly diagnosed, they have helped me accept my condition.
One of my best friends is Bipolar, we've had some major ups and downs but after 8 or 9 years of friendship we have worked through a lot and learned a TON from each other. We are like yin and yang, fire and ice. He has presented me with such a unique way of looking at the world and has so much to offer and I wouldn't be the person I am today without him in my life. I sympathize with those that have it as I know it can be a very isolating struggle but I think it can and does produce diamonds - A lot of the time they, like anyone, just need someone to try to understand where they're coming from. Hang in there friends.
Diagnosed Bipolar I, BPD, generalized anxiety disorder, and PTSD. Docs like this that showcase mental illness make me so glad bc I can watch them with my husband so he can understand better what it's like for me.
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@@tcoker0416 hello, just want to check up on how your doing after all these years. My girlfriend has all of your disorders. Bipolar 1, GAD with PTSD. How have you been able to fight all throughout the years and how did your significant other help you with your condition despite everything. Hopefully all is well. I'd love to hear your experiences
He’s not crazy like the media portrayed him, he’s simply a high vibrating soul.
@AlienBearCat Well, crazy is not the right word to use, but yes he is in an altered state of mind. But also calling this "a high vibrating soul" is like romanticizing mania which is also wrong cause mania can get really dangerous too.
@AlienBearCat Our points are not going to be more valid if we are bipolar or not, but as an example, I also have bipolar and when I was in mania it was scary and offensive when someone called me crazy, now that I am in euthimia I dont really care if someone use the word crazy on me. But I think that educating people about the right terms or the words that are appropiate to use on someone in mania can help break the stigma, if I have contact with someone in a state of mania I will never call this person crazy, it does not helped resolve the problem and can even make things worse
I was diagnosed with Bipolar II 2 years ago at the age of 20 and it has been really hard. I feel really alone and isolated because I have long periods of depression and I can’t socialize or leave the house anymore like I used to. It really sucks but, I am finally starting to get a hold on it lately. I am sending love to anyone facing Bipolar. You are in my prayers❤ We just have to take it day by day.
While I do appreciate and respect the people that were chosen to participate I'm this documentary, I have to say as someone who has been living with bipolar 1 for over 20 years I would like to let people know that absolutely yes we ALL have bad days, these are extreme cases and I feel as if it feeds the stigma that harms those of us who live with bipolar. Please please keep in mind that while we may have to work harder than most at being "normal" we are some of the most intelligent and creative, and most of all nonjudgemental people you will ever have the privilege to know
No matter how seriously someone has wronged me, I would never wish my condition on anyone.
I have Bipolar Schizoaffective disorder. It’s so fuc*ing hard day by day. I never know if it’s going to be a good day, bad day, manic day, psychotic day or do something to accidentally hurt myself because of hallucinations. I pray to God everyday that my kids will never have to endure any of it. It’s one of my biggest fears ever. I’ve been struggling to get a handle on it since I was 15 and I’m 31 now. I’m tired. I don’t want to fight anymore. But I have to. I can’t give up. I never will. Some days it feels so easy to just say “I’m done with this world” but getting through those days makes US stronger. I send a HUGE piece of my heart out to every single person in the comments struggling with mental health disorders or any kind of mental health issue. We are pretty close if not the black sheep of the medical community and that’s an awful feeling. I feel like I’m being told my condition doesn’t matter or is even real. I know it is. I know yours is. I know anybody can struggle with it. It’s sad that not enough people care. Not to mention 75% of people who were asked, said they thought mentally ill people are violent. 75%!!!!!!! That just blows my mind. It’s truly heartbreaking and almost a helpless feeling.
I have bipolar and every day is a struggle I know what you are going through.
My 22 yr old daughter was diagnosed 2 yrs ago with bipolar1 and it's extremely hard,she has stopped working and going to school, I Also as her mom had to quit my job to stay home.and watch over her, we still can't get a grip on the right medication for her, it's like she's manic every day 😢 💔 😔
@@Rainbowglitterbarf my husband has the same thing. Iv learned a heck of alot about patience and truly loving him . Knowing what's him and what isn't.
He's on a med change right now for a week so far. He is taking his own time for however long cause he's went downhill a bit.. so praying alot and I know God'will pull us through this. We have a whole lifetime to go still togther . It's just the beginning.
It's not easy when he wanted me to leave a week ago.. saying the typical stuff: he doesn't wanna be with me , I'm better off ...
Things I'm now used to .
I just can't wait for him to be himself again and be the man that's very inlove with me and needs me by his side.
I have bipolar 1. Diagnosed officially for 10 years. Thank you for your words of strength. We’re not alone….my will to keep pushing through is weak…but I’ll keep doing it. Sending love out to everyone struggling with severe mental illness. ❤️
I found a statement made about medications not curing the mental problem. But, furthermore it was stated that they can help the person cope. It was said with a disapproving tone. Isn't that the point of taking many medications? All medicines do not cure at all. But they change that person's suffering tremendously.
Ive had bipolar disorder since i was 16 im 34 now ive had a hard time with it, 2 suicide attempts but thankful im still here an met a wonderful woman whom im now married to i thank god for her everyday it makes life easier
3 for me and I am alone and I wish I was dead
@@NCWildHeART Please don't go. You're not alone in this. I have it too. I have literally lost my mind 7 times in my life, but still here. Let's just take it day by day.
@@NCWildHeARTI was diagnosed bipolar I 7 years ago. It's only in the last two or three years that things have radically turned around. I hope you don't mind that I said a prayer for you... Things can get better. The darkness doesn't last and can never overcome the light. I know your comment is many months old.. I hope you are doing well today.
@@novembrluv I’m feeling better since my lithium kicked in. Just have to stay the course.
I’ve been struggling with bipolar for 13 years. I lost my wife and my child in the process of a pending divorce. Good days will come for us all soon.
Good will come you brother , god is with you ✌️
How are you doing so far?
At least you got to have love
I don’t think so
@@eliser19 true even if its for a season
The minute I type music heals me- the guy plays drums and I am blown away. I play my guitar with tears in my eyes daily.
I met a client very similar to Paul, he's such a sweetheart and intelligent human being
This is so off in so many ways I have no words
Explain how please
I feel so bad for Ashley. I just want wrap him in a blanket and hug him and tell him to hold on. To keep the faith that he will get well. ❤️
same i has to be so incredibly debilitating the lows of bipolar i feel for him i really do
Me too
I was diagnosed with bipolar at age 13 and an anxiety disorder (I’m 21) but I never went back to therapy as they always threw me in the mental hospital or treated me very harshly, my one therapist even called me names such as “lizard lips” she was really mean and horrific. I try my best to heal myself and work through this because I don’t trust therapy or doctors anymore, sadly
Bless your heart 💜 What a meanie and a @#&£! Hope you are doing well now🙏
Hang in there kid.
Good thoughts and prayers.
I am a victim of verbal abuse by my dad who was diagnosed as a Bipolar.. For 15 years live with him, it was terrible..
his mood swing is unbelievable, like a 5 year old kid.. he angry all the times, in morning he become angel, at night he become Demon..
he had done terrible things to me and my mother, he like to break glass and plates for no reason, he like spending money like its nothing,
When the wallet empty, he become depressed and blaming everyone..
He hate silence and peace, it seems to give him anxiety and depression, thats why he love to be confrontational with people around,
he like to fight against everybody, at least in a verbal way..
You cant trust his mind and heart, he become heartless..
He call me "Pig, Animal, Satan, and all negative stuff" that you could have imagined, while he himself is the Devil himself..
It was a hard decision to me, but I had to leave home and live on the street,,
I cant take it anymore, its not good for my mental health to be around with him and his negative energy,,
If I continue to live with him for any longer, Im either gonna kill him or become mentally ill, thats why i decide to leave.
It affects me in some way, but im glad im mentally strong, not a suidical person, and not a depressed person..
My dad become like this become of the traume he got in the past, he being abused physically by his dad,,
Thats why he become like this,, angry all the time, hate everything
You should’ve cussed her out
I am impressed that this journalist is informed about a trauma link to the exacerbation of this condition. People always insult bipolar people by asking the rhetorical question, “What’s WRONG with you?” Rather than asking, “What happened?” There are many things that exacerbate and potentiate a person’s risk of bipolar and other serious affective conditions. The trajectory for bipolar can depend on many things. I have been in more of a remission at times. Other times, I’d be excited to start something, then the depression sets in during the winter and I crash.
People think there was no trauma because they weren’t abused in the ways we normally think of But some people do have a more sensitive wiring to the environment and absorbing generational trauma. There are so any things that constitute an adverse environment for a sensitive person, not the least of which is the insane modern world.
I’ve been suffering from bipolar and still on one of my high phases at the moment but when i come down it’s like lord i need the strength to get through it so hard but i will not give up. I’ve come to realize how good it is to take my medicine but the second i feel normal i stop. It’s hard and i feel bad for my family that has to deal with me through every episode, and it’s worse for the ones who will never understand. The traumatic experiences I’ve gone through in life replays in my mind everyday and sometimes it’s hard to have a civilized conversation without feeling like maybe they don’t understand. Idk that’s a video spoke to me and i can say i have my triggers and my days but I’m praying i get better bc i just want a normal life. I have one but i want to be bipolar free
My ❤goes out to ALL those who have and going through this horrible thing called BI POLAR AND MANIC BI POLAR 😢 😢😢
KNOW ITS NOT YOUR FAULT BUT A DISEASE , I TOLD MY SON
I DIDN'T EVEN WISH IT ON HIM HIM OR MY WORST ENEMY OK BUT I HAVE NO WORST ENEMY OF COURSE 😮 IF I COULD TAKE IT AWAY FROM HIM I WILL
ALSO I'VE LEARNED THIS DISEASE OF MANIC BI POLAR AND REGULAR BI POLAR 1 AND BI POLAR 2 IS HEREDITARY IN FAMILIES TOO , 😢😢😢😢😢
PRAYING FOR THOSE WHO SUFFER FROM THIS DISEASE AND I WISH YOU PEACE AND HEALING 🎉
I appreciate the creativity of this one man! It seems to me, through studying mental disorders, dealing with them myself, there is a huge correlation between that and art! Thank God, these people continue to be able to express themselves that way, because art matters!
beautiful docu. Philippa Perry seems to be such a good therapist. very understanding and calming. i wish everyone dealing with mental health issues someone like her.
Being asked what’s wrong is much worse than “are you ok?” Be gentle.
God bless you, dear. I pray God sends a healing break through to you and everyone in this situation. God bless you.
I thinks it’s wonderful of them to share their feelings to us and help us understand and further mental health awareness. I think that there is a beauty in the sharing part and I find the people being interviewed to be extremely brave to open up. I have adhd and I used to find it quite embarrassing to tell people that I am on meds and stuff. And I’d try to hide my hyper activity because I can be embarrassed sometimes of myself but gradually I’ve learned to let that go. Mental health is so so important and the more we share the more we can understand ❤️💯
I don't understand why she was so disappointed and reluctant to hear genetics play a large role. You can't 'talk therapy' your way out of everything, people can get crappy genes and then the rest is environment. How do you 'self-explore' a chemical snowstorm that makes you psychotic? For a therapist she's pretty ignorant tbh even if she is perceptive.
I agree totally with you. My maternal grandmother had bipolar disorder, ( I got it from her) and my granddaughter has it bad. ( She got it from me)
I have had a very difficult time accepting that, but after seeing what a proper medication regime can do for me, I accept now that there is a large part of it that is physical
Boy did I get the worst hand of cards lmao.
Genes for;
Bipolar disorder
Autism
Downs syndrome (recessive)
Cancer (all types)
Ocd
Anxiety
Diabetes
Adhd
ADD
Pretty much anything that could possibly land you in a hospital or a mental institution I have it... most of it is recessive.
Yes. She’s of the age when she would have had bad ptsd from going untreated in childhood and the difficulty and trauma of how one is treated back then having this. The workd was much less kind, believe it or not. We’re traumatized too
She fears that her children get's ill too.
Watching this makes me feel better am from RSA (23) i was diagnosed 3 months ago ,it's hard plus you know how it is in africa so to keep my self calm i do lot of activities
I am bipolar myself and here in south america mental health is not seen as a prioriy,, i am on medications and atm i am kinda stable but my depression episodes are getting worse, most of times i end up thinking about suicide, so it's good to see more people talking about it!
Feel better!!! Keep going!! 🙏🏼💙
Stay strong! 💪🏻❤️
I know what it feels like. I'm very suicidal right now. I had a dream of my death just not long ago... Then I woke up to this nightmare
@@JinxMarie1985 Jesus is the GOD of peace! If you want peace in your life then go to Him.
Suicide is never the answer. You are given the gift of life , you have your own unique place in this world no matter what. please be patient with yourself, your answers and healing will come to you in the process. Ive also suffered from depression many times, so i totally hear you💜 just change your focus from hurting yourself to healing yourself. Read self therapy books, watch psychology docs online, it really works. Stay safe 🙏🌸
I agree with.."If I didn't have drugs to manange Bipolar I would be dead!!!.....I agree...
Totally, have said these very words so many times.
I'm on and off medication. Anytime I'm out of meds I drink a lot and smoke weed to cope
@@kadzo6614 Sorry. :(
@@kadzo6614 co-morbidity is high for BP. But the recreational drugs (e.g. cocaine & mania) worsen the symptoms over time.
@@kadzo6614 im the same though but gym helps train as much as you can it gets better
As someone with bipolar? I’m finding this so hard to watch because this docco is actually bang on. This is exactly how it is.
Yes I noticed
It's the best and worst part of my life.
It is…
The rollercoaster of feelings.. Enjoy when you are maniac guys. Think others are not able to experience .. When people ask are you good I doubt to reply whether I will sad in the next moment.. When someone offered a help in depressing time, later when I'm maniac I feel emberassed for breaking down and took their help.. Changing opinions,, changing words,, changing moods,, deleting previous comments and status lol it's unpredictable..
Sadly, I relate
Very true): I hope you’re okay
I absolutely hate being manic, I’m 27 in January and as I’ve gotten older I’ve just become more and more irritable, frustrated, and short tempered while manic and I’ve ruined my life while manic multiple times in the past, it sucks.
Only after a recent suicide attempt and being hospitalized for 7 days was I diagnosed with BP. I was already diagnosed with major depression along with compound ptsd but never had been fully examined until this hospitalization. If you feel the urge at all to no longer live, please reach out to family, and friends or admit yourself to the hospital.
May you find answers & peace! Take Care Kyle. 💝
I'm never been officially diagnosed to depression or mental health so it would be a liar to me if I tell I know how you are feeling through obstacles. However, I'm glad you make it and share your story.
Do you know what caused medical staff to look further into what was going on with you during this specific hospitalization?
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Dear brother, the life is not but a journey with a start and an end, and the definition of man in worldly life is that he is not but few days, and every passing day takes a little of him.
Each one of us has limited life years to live and no one of us can imagine how fast sixty, fifty, forty, thirty or twenty years of his life passed and how many years are left for him to live till he is face to face with the most serious event, which is death, your ticket out of life.
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The life of this world is merely enjoyment of delusion
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Be in the World as if you are a Stranger or a Passing Traveller.
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Whoever looks at the world from this perspective will never adhere to it nor will it ever concern him as to whether he spends his lifetime in ease or ill adversity .
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This life is just a test and the moment of death is the end of this test.
Did you get baker acted?
I've been bipolar 2 for many years now and didn't understand how much it actually affected my life.
I always ignored the diagnosis and blamed the episodes on every other thing possible, including myself
I've lost friends and People I loved dearly because of my Disorder.
People don't understand how hard living with bipolar can be.
Everyone always just thinks it's about Being one emotion and then suddenly being the other.
I'm so glad this documentary exists to show the reality of Bipolar❤️
I was diagnosed with type 2 bipolar disorder (with psychosis) 9 years ago and I strongly believe it is a mixture of genetics and environmental factors. My 'working hypothesis' is we have a 'two strike or three strike' system.
Firstly, a genetic link established to the condition has to be there from birth (my father is a paranoid schizophrenic and my mother has major depression, strike 1)
Secondly, If we experience any form of abuse or trauma as a child (mine was sexual abuse as a child, strike 2)
Finally, If we have used drugs in order to escape the horrors of our childhood (I absolutely did, and was an addict from 14-22, strike 3)
Now, there doesn't have to be the abuse or trauma in the childhood if drugs are involved and visa-versa there doesn't have to drugs involved if historical abuse is prevalent in the patients history. The drugs or abuse act as a catalyst (or trigger) to the underlying genetic link.
This is just my opinion of course and is a working hypothesis.
You seem to have a great grasp on self awareness, hope you are on a better path!
@Hope I'm... truly sorry then. We both understand pain on a deeper level than most and that breaks my heart Hope :( :( :(
Yeah I fully believe this as well!
Stick to scientific research when battling this demon
I absolutely agree. You need the genes and then you need something to turn them on.
Psychotherapist is a very kind, caring person. Very insightful.
It's been my experience that when someone is " kind " & " caring" it's because they have absolutely no idea what I am going through.
How do you know?
Im bipolar type 1. I do not relate. I feel like these are worst case scenario and give the wrong impression that all of us bipolars are like this.
Like going full speed on a motorway, no breaks, no exit...☠
Exactly. I have it too and am nothing like this. Am on rather low meds and am under control
I have related to these, but I do agree that these do seem like extreme cases. except for the lady with the nose ring and dark hair, she seemed quite relatable
Definitely..I was thinking the same when I read your comment. I have bipolar. I have manic highs but more often depression but not delusional like Paul.
It's showing people who are not on meds. At least the delusional ones are not
I am diagnosed bipolar. I am a doctor myself. Get well soon brothers
If a person with Bipolar disorder would just take their medication and maybe see a therapist, they would have a chance to be a productive person that could hold a good job.
Lori Kulstad This is the most ignorant way of speaking. Meds are not always a "cure". No med works the same for 2 different people with bipolar, and not all meds work indefinitely. Symptoms can suddenly come back despite on an appropriate medication regimen. The majority of people constantly have to adjust their meds and deal with symptoms the rest of their life.
its difficult in lockdown bipolar
@@lorij6796 Everyone is different, and medication isn't always the answer. This is such a disrespectful comment.
@Cleverly relatable Username bipolar is worse because of lockdown
Before I got treated, I got into some very dangerous situations, because I felt like I could handle anything, sometimes.
Firstly, this channel offers some informative real life situations with real people not actor portrayals.
Great content...
Great stories....
Great documentary.
This gives us a better idea & understanding of what is the diagnosis of Bipolar Syndrome.
Bipolar is a very lonely place. I cycle through mania and deep depression every 4 weeks. While manic I feel like I’m being held hostage in my brain. I know I’m talking too much but simply cannot stop and I’m staying awake for days, cleaning for 12 hours straight, going shopping and there is 2 of me. The manic and the depressed. I don’t have delusions of grandeur but after I come down from the mania I realize I have misplaced and lost things, if I can actually watch a movie with someone after the mania is gone I can’t remember what happened in the movie, my memory just goes haywire. I have been this way for decades and I’ve tried just about every medication there is. It was and is very difficult to realize I have to surrender to my fate of going through this every single month. The older I get the more exhausting every manic and depressive episodes are and I feel very sad thinking that I will be this way for the rest of my life.
Prayers 🙏✝️
Ohh. My daughter is Bi-Polar and has PTSD. As a mother, it kills me!! I was blessed with a beautiful perfect baby girl..... she is now the mother of my two grandsons. She is so very smart and clever. She is everything I prayed for. Then... after her first son was born, she sort of flipped
I stayed with her when she was in the ward for almost a week. I spent each night outside in my truck in subzero temps. I love her infinitely. Her husband and the father of my grandsons has taken them away from me. My first grandson and I are best friends.... my little bug is my everything!! It’s nearly destroyed me, being away from my daughter and grandson. I know it’s not her fault. Please please help me pray for them
@@Kimnerlymohler of course. I can not imagine your pain. Hugs from DC
I have experienced bipolar symptoms since I was a kid. My sister was always fine. However, as soon as her 2nd kid was born, she was diagnosed PPD and 9 years later it basically never went away so the diagnosis is bipolar. It's crazy how pregnancy can trigger it. My sister lost her marriage because of it.
Seems she asks them all the same thing to compare. Such as trauma, drug use, family history and types of treatment they tried. All very valid questions.
This whole idea that seeing it as an illness is detrimental and that 'she has a choice' is so damn problematic. Yes, you have to work to cope with mental illness. But you wouldn't tell someone with a broken leg that he has a choice on whether his leg is broken or not. If you're depressed, you _are_depressed_. I wish you could just decide not to be, but that's not how it works.
TRUTH 💯 %
My best friend who I knew a good chunk of my life was diagnosed with this disorder. Most friends and family tried to hang in there with her but it became intolerable for others to have to deal with erratic episodes and quick irrational decisions. This coupled with her starting a pot smoking addiction. Everyone tried sticking by her but after many many years, it started affecting everyone else’s mental well-being. It was really sad. She lost her friends, and family including her husband and children.
So sad 🥺
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Yeah I feel like that's the path I'm on ... I lost my family and friends and now I feel like imma lose everything and just take my life at some point
You dropped her too didn't you? Ppl are so selfish and only think about themselves! She was never your best friend! You only enjoyed her when having her around served you!
@@tonyb5586 If she let her mental disorder effect those people who carried about her and she gets worse… they have every right to leave. No one should put up with consistent verbal abuse and manipulation. Just because my dad has BPD doesn’t mean that at some point in my life I didn’t view him like a father. I left at 17 and my dad got charged with child abuse 3 years later for my youngest brother. A lot of people have a different experience with BPD weather it’s them or someone they know. The thing that matters most is knowing when you deserve better and for her to leave her friend took a lot of guts and hurt.
My mom had ocd and anxiety and now I have bipolar, ocd and anxiety.. Thank God!
Alienation is the feeling of being isolated or separated from something, often a group or society. It can also refer to the sense of being disconnected from one's own feelings, thoughts, or identity. Alienation can be caused by a variety of factors, including social isolation, discrimination, and the experience of living in a society that is different from one's own values and beliefs. In some cases, alienation can lead to feelings of loneliness, isolation, and resentment. However, it can also be a source of creativity and individuality, as individuals may seek to find their own voice and place in the world.
I am a victim of verbal abuse by my dad who was diagnosed as a Bipolar.. For 15 years live with him, it was terrible..
his mood swing is unbelievable, like a 5 year old kid.. he angry all the times, in morning he become angel, at night he become Demon..
he had done terrible things to me and my mother, he like to break glass and plates for no reason, he like spending money like its nothing,
When the wallet empty, he become depressed and blaming everyone..
He hate silence and peace, it seems to give him anxiety and depression, thats why he love to be confrontational with people around,
he like to fight against everybody, at least in a verbal way..
You cant trust his mind and heart, he become heartless..
He call me "Pig, Animal, Satan, and all negative stuff" that you could have imagined, while he himself is the Devil himself..
It was a hard decision to me, but I had to leave home and live on the street,,
I cant take it anymore, its not good for my mental health to be around with him and his negative energy,,
If I continue to live with him for any longer, Im either gonna kill him or become mentally ill, thats why i decide to leave.
It affects me in some way, but im glad im mentally strong, not a suidical person, and not a depressed person..
My dad become like this because of the trauma he got in the past, he being abused physically by his dad,,
Thats why he become like this,, angry all the time, hate everything
Mood disorders are hereditary. If someone has Bipolar Affective Disorder (BAD), 1st degree relatives have 1:4 chance of becoming affected.
Environtal factors can cause stress which can cause a relapse. BAD is harder to treat than unipolar mood disorder (depression). BAD patients are more likely to be non-compliant because they enjoy being hypomanic or manic wgen they have excessive energy, feel extremely creative and omnipotent. They can get into major trouble including bankruptcy because they spend too much money.
I am a patient and a family physician and extremely concerned by the interviewer's view that the illness is caused by environtal factors. BAD patients need lifelong medication. Moderating environmental factors by reducing stress and support can help reduce the number of exacerbation, but not control the illness.
I dont watch youtube content "covering" my diagnosis ever... but I trust these filmmakers to capture and present the subjects symptoms with integrity. Love the way they have told other tough topics. Here goes 🥂
m norton buswell thank you! Honestly, there are worse depictions out there. And part of the stigma with bipolar is the varying degrees in which symptoms of mania or depression present. I find myself reality checking often cause "is this me feeling genuinely happy or am I about to ride the mania coaster?" And that sucks. Triggers are different person to person too. It's.... idk... its my normal and im managing it but its not a label I "own".
Interesting Fact: People who have epilepsy often have Bi-Polar Disorder. Migraine headaches are often related to epilepsy.
My absolutely brilliant neurologist explained this to me when I first started seeing her.
My Meds: Keppra for epilepsy, Lamictal for both bi-polar and epilepsy, Effexor depressive episodes, Seroquel for sleep, Doxepine for sleep, and clonidine for anxiety. All maxed dosages. They work.
Ever try THC/CBD pills instead of Seroquel?
It's amazing you are still Alive! The combined Side-Effects of all those Drugs is
a pre-mature Death Sentence.
Have you ever had to come off of Effexor? Apparently it’s the number one antidepressant that’s hardest to come off and worst side effects. It’s up there with Xanax for anti anxiety. I’ve had to come off cold turkey due to doctors not refilling on time, pharmacies not refilling on time and also weaning to try another medication. It’s really incredibly difficult either way and lasts for a very long time. It really gives
me so much more sympathy for people who are addicted to hard illegal drugs and alcohol.
Jesus H Christ.
@@kellysowhat88 Xanax and other benzodiazepines are notoriously difficult and dangerous to try and stop without medical assistance. As in you will die if you have taken them long and regularly enough.
❤️ My father was diagnosed at 22 and was not taking his medication..he ended up in a padded cell...he struggled w different medication combos after his liver had taken a beating from 30 years of lithium..I’m proud to say my father is a home owner, has a bachelors degree, is a 30 year retiree, father and grandfather..my only concern is that he’s a Jehovah’s Witness and has been since before I was born..devout to this day but I feel that they prayed on his vulnerabilities all those years ago 😔🤦🏼♀️ I have a young son and if it’s genetic and has skipped me, what about my son? Stay safe everyone ❤️
God bless ur dad xx
@@Bebedollie thank you so much...bless you and yours..stay safe 🌺
@@dreamweaver7797 ty⚘
There are drugs with surgical precision now. My suggestion: Search the literature for the best responses to particular drugs.
@@deenibeeniable sometimes no drug works. That's the truth. Ask me ik💔
Thank you for this documentary. It sheds light on putting a name, a label so to speak on a mental illness/condition that may or may not be quite accurate in every circumstance. There are those unfortunates who through no fault of their own or others have chemical imbalances in the brain and others whose brain/behavioral disruption is a result of childhood trauma that was either not addressed or dismissed by those they seek acceptance and unconditional love and support. A human baby has absolutely no instinct to survive other than to cry out their needs. If their needs are not met; they will find a way to survive in any way possible, which if not addressed, continues into adulthood. Science has come a long way in addressing mental illness but addressing the core issue with a professional therapist is key in navigation through the difficult process for the best optimistic outcome for success.
In the 90s I was diagnosed as being manically morbidly depressed. They didnt have the term Bipolar yet to describe the depths of depression I was experiencing at 17 years of age. Now I am considered Bipolar comorbidly with an anxiety disorder. This doc is very on point about the need to feel driven to create & manifest while on a manic high, but it fails to show the rage that someone with Bipolar experiences when limited by being unable to create in some way. It's a very interesting discussion nonetheless.
@@johncuthbert9692 Hang in there internet twin. I forgot to add that my Bipolar unfortunately advanced into Agoraphobia in my adult years. Most times I feel like if I cant handle myself, noone else should or could. I hope you find the strength to continue. This is such a deadly disorder, most people dont ever consider that.
@@IdRatherBeSleeping " Most times I feel like if I cant handle myself, noone else should or could." exactly my thoughts so often. Thanks for putting them into words.
The manic “if you don’t get on my level immediately I’m gonna snap like a rubber band pulled too tight” feeling
My husband is bipolar this helps me to understand him better.
Be careful, because the British medical community seems to believe you can think & talk your way out of anything. I watched a similar video about someone with severe, incapacitating OCD and during the entire documentary, all they had to offer him was talking therapy, & never once was medication even suggested. And of course by the time he got home from the appointment it was as bad as ever, plus he felt like a failure. This is absurd. I even wrote to the British OCD organization & asked them what had possessed them to do a documentary that had the potential to help people & not to suggest the only thing that really could have helped. A shrink once told me "this is chemistry, not character," & it convinced me to get on medication because I had been bent on "doing it myself." This is a chemical imbalance. Medication either opens a window to talking, or it fixes the problem by itself. Beware the talk therapists, who don't want to be put out of business.
deenibeeniable Something this severe can be helped by medication for sure, but therapy is definitely also important. It should be treated with both medication and therapy. It can be both chemical and environmental. I’m glad the meds work for you. 😊
deenibeeniable The preferred type of therapy is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. But you’re right, it doesn’t always work alone. Depends on the person and illness.
@@fluteloops22 That's exactly why I said "either opens a window to talking or..."
And just because there's a "preferred type of therapy" doesn't mean that any type of non-pharmaceutical therapy is superior or even non-inferior. At the very least, retraining your axons not to take up serotonin could take a very, very long time, & you might have to be a yogi. I'd way prefer to have a drug do it & be able to enjoy that many more years unafflicted.
@@fluteloops22 I achieved more in several months with meds than with a decade of therapy. My therapist was the one who suggested I try meds, because even she could see it wasn't going to work & probably felt guilty continuing to take my money.
I was diagnosed bipolar put on a smorgasbord of meds. When actually I was just a drunk Now I’m sober and no meds.
Alcoholism is VERY common in bipolar people.
Alcohol use to turn off the turmoil, understood. So glad you are sober, God bless, stay strong!
Good for you and who asked?
Unfortunately I had to completely disconnect from my ex because it is just to much.. you really need immediate family if you have this disease because it is an emotional rollercoaster for everyone involved.. I loved him but I love myself more ... life is to short to not have peace
Yes I understand. He was the love of my life, I managed a Rollercoaster marriage for 14 years, but I had to let him go. I broke my heart but he seemed to be quite ok to leave and go back to his parents, 50 years old. Alcohol, and meds are his life. Although he does holds down a supervisory position at work for the last decade. It's the only place his illness does not seem to affect him. No one even guesses there is anything amiss with him. He is on regular meds am and pm most days, unless he forgets, or takes double forgetting he's taken them. He's mood swings are are not extreme, he hides his feelings from the world. He is quiet, passive aggressive, alcohol is a daily self medication he cannot live without. I hope he will be ok. I can't keep Checking. Cos he comes back. I've let go, the stress was too much and I'm sorry.
Same here. During a manic episode he kept me awake for almost 2 months. I'd sleep for 20m and he'd wake me up, pull the blankets off me. Wanted to go out together in the middle of the night. I started to really struggle at work and made a lot of mistakes. If things didn't go exactly right, he would berate me. I couldn't do it and I really feel that I only had a glimpse of the reality he lived. A very tough illness.
Just because you have bipolar doesn't mean you can't live an extraordinary life :) it's hard but you can do it
There were definitely a lot of good points she brought up. At first I wasn't too sure she hit the mark but I understand what she was saying. I agree fully, as someone with a personality disorder finding the right therapist is key and trying to take yourself out of the box you've been placed is huge as well. It takes a lot of work, strength and courage on the patient's end but it's definitely done over time. Taking things day by day, moment to moment really helps me.
My husband was bipolar, it was awful.. I hope these people and their loved ones get better help than he did.. 💔♥️
Thanks for the vote of confidence @collide. Isn't everyone worthy of being able to love and being loved? People don't choose to be bipolar. My mom and grandmother were both diagnosed with bipolar after they were married.
Some peoples psychological makeup will be both attracted and better equipped to deal with a partner with bipolar, others wont hack it, none of this is anybodys fault. The key for those with bipolar is the same for anybody else, finding the right chemistry and the right fit. Narcissism is far worse to live with, yet these people often achieve enduring relationships, with all of the disfunction that entails.
@collide words fail me. What an utter dishevelled bin bag of a human being you must be.
Our 22 years together was a rollercoaster.. When he wasn't manic or suicidal life was good.. We tried everything, never found meds that helped, he turned to drugs and alcohol and 5months ago killed himself.. I'm still in shock, even tho I've been afraid of it to happen for so long..
@@einienj3281 My condolences
My older sister was diagnosed with Bipolar after a suicide attempt. Growing up my sister endured physical and sexual abuse while trying to protect me from my father. Trauma causes bipolar Disorder in my opinion. The 'medication' my sister is on has changed her personality. She is now held hostage by the mental health system who only drug her. Now she sits at home in front of the television all day every day smoking non stop. How has she been helped?
My brother in law had bipolar disorder, he killed himself over 10 years ago and my fiancé found him. He never had any childhood trauma, none of them did. I have BP1 and medication has allowed me to be who u actually am, bipolar was the one holding me hostage. Yours is a dangerous mindset for people to have, non compliance with medication creates huge risks such as people either ruining their life, or just taking it all-together. Sorry your experience hasn’t been positive but there’s nothing wrong with being on medication, it works for a great amount of people, it just takes some trial and error. It will never cure anything, but has allowed people to live as normally as they’re capable of in many cases.
Chances are your sister had abnormal behaviors before she was medicated……..
@@DahliaVonHellion how do you know your brother in law never had trauma? Sometimes people with ptsd don’t even know themselves they had it, especially if they were young kids.
The original comment doesn’t take away from your story.. one size does not fit all. I understand some people need the meds, but obviously for others it’s not the solution. If you’re expecting someone to take your experiences at face value then perhaps you should take theirs the same. Medication is not for everyone. There is even evidence anti depressants can CAUSE suicide ideation. I’m glad medications work for you but that does not mean you can generalise your view to everyone else and feel entitled doing it.
I am a victim of verbal abuse by my dad who was diagnosed as a Bipolar.. For 15 years live with him, it was terrible..
his mood swing is unbelievable, like a 5 year old kid.. he angry all the times, in morning he become angel, at night he become Demon..
he had done terrible things to me and my mother, he like to break glass and plates for no reason, he like spending money like its nothing,
When the wallet empty, he become depressed and blaming everyone..
He hate silence and peace, it seems to give him anxiety and depression, thats why he love to be confrontational with people around,
he like to fight against everybody, at least in a verbal way..
You cant trust his mind and heart, he become heartless..
He call me "Pig, Animal, Satan, and all negative stuff" that you could have imagined, while he himself is the Devil himself..
It was a hard decision to me, but I had to leave home and live on the street,,
I cant take it anymore, its not good for my mental health to be around with him and his negative energy,,
If I continue to live with him for any longer, Im either gonna kill him or become mentally ill, thats why i decide to leave.
It affects me in some way, but im glad im mentally strong, not a suidical person, and not a depressed person..
My dad become like this become of the traume he got in the past, he being abused physically by his dad,,
Thats why he become like this,, angry all the time, hate everything
My dad got this bipolar because of the trauma he endured in the past, being abused physically by his own dad
Another thing I’ve noticed with type 2 is I cannot handle it when small plans get changed. If I decided that I want to listen to a specific song while driving I will not move until the song plays even if it takes me 30 mins for the song to load. I get so irritable when my plans are changed even slightly and god forbid someone cancel on me it’s Terrible 😭
I go off of peoples reactions so if I’m speaking to someone and I think they’ve had a negative thought about what I said , my mood instantly changes
Me too
I’m the same and it definitely puts a strain on relationships and my life. Have you found a way to deal with it?
Sounds more like aspergers + mild/mod retardation
The hard part is no amount of medication or therapy completely elviates the symptoms or thoughts. It's a constant war. Well gor me anyways
I’ve been on so many medications, after about 6-12 months I usually feel they aren’t working anymore
I don't even take medication anymore..
I've been on so many...
Have you ever been on Depakote? And otherwise is there drinking smoking or drug use aside from pot? That stuff won't let meds work. Pot actually is the only natural thing that gives some relief. Indica not sativa
I'm leaning towards Ashley also having Autism somewhere on the Autistic Spectrum, it explains poor eye contact, changes in behaviour too quickly, and the lack of hitting the milestones as a child.
I find myself not giving eye contact more and more, but especially during an episode
yes, i read Ashley’s struggles as ASD experiences.
Understand your point but important to recognize that bipolar people have autistic traits but it doesn’t mean we are autistic.
Apparently, studies suggest that bipolar is relatively common in children and adults with autism. So it isn’t a far fetched idea for both to be present in some individuals. Still researching to learn more about these and other conditions.
@@Stalemarshmallow It's entirely feasible to be both.
That young chap is so loveable. Hope he is OK atm.
35:50 is a very hopeful moment.
Lots of prayers🤲
Omg! I’m in tears. I’m bipolar and my middle child is schizophrenic. Life is very challenging. I don’t know my family history. I was not raised by my family. I and my siblings were orphans.
Sorry you had to go through that. The world is indeed unfair yet you have been very brave. Keep going Jesica! Rooting for you 🙏🏼💙
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jessyjair Thank you so much
Catherine Rainville Thank you so much 🙏🏼
You wouldn't be the wonderful and flawed you if you didn't go through such a challenging life journey
We all get thoughts in our minds.
I learned to retain my mind to stay positive. Every time I get a bad thought, I say, I silence the voice of the enemy. After doing this for a few weeks the thought almost completely stopped.
Love your God with all heart, mind, soul and STRENGTH!
Seeing Paul it felt like someone punched me in the gut really hard. I was looking at myself.
I have bipolar and have never felt the manic stage that these have had. When I would go manic I felt like I couldn’t keep up with my thoughts.
The elderly man is classic bipolar. Grandiose delusions and inflated self-esteem is common among them. Some of us, however, don't experience that. I've always been a "mixed episode" guy myself.
I think if the mania is only hypomania, its type 2?
So many doctors want to blame trauma but I was always sick in my thinking especially from the time of my first memories. Literally the age of 3. I was already very sick. No type of remembered trauma at least. Not to say as an infant I didn’t perceive life in a traumatic way. That should be the question these docs ask to parents of sick children.
I don't want to exist because I remember ... The only reason I'm still alive is that every time I wanted to quit, I imagined it would break the hearts of my family members and damage their lives. And I was really sick ... I still am. Every time I'm down ... And when I'm manic, it's not about being happy, I'm just trying to be, for the sake of others, not to bother with me ... I feel even worse than in the opposite state, I have a lot of energy for life, Lots of ideas to do something about it. But I know all along that I'm not doing any of this. I know I will no doubt have enough energy to do anything.
But I'm still here ... these are all just phases, just fluctuations from my normal state of mind. And just what I do during these fluctuations is that I want to live ... I want to make it so that I can struggle and I don't want to stop by this stupid mood ... I just don't want to. So I try to be stable ... and of course I always fail, but I stand up again and move on. What else should I do?
Seek help friend. Professional help
It's important to remember that people with bipolar illness can (and do) quite well almost all of the time. It's when they have episodes that they need medical treatment. A lot of understanding from the special people who love them, insight into their own illness, and willingness to accept help are assets for anyone living with bipolar disease.
I am so thankful for my husband. I know it would be too much for so many people, he has stuck by me for 10 years.
I'm going to have to disagree with that. I'm on good meds.. not manic.. and everyday is a struggle. I mean when you have a cold and take niquill do you feel great? No just a little better.
I am bipolar 1 and also have ptsd and being bipolar is an everyday struggle and it is very hard day to day functioning I’m on anti anxiety meds anti depressants and anti psychotics this disorder has ruined my life and caused me to lose custody of my child I been to a psych ward 3 times because my mania turned to psychosis . Anyway, I have some days when I feel okay but many days I struggle to even get out of bed and do basic tasks. Everyday is unpredictable and every day functioning is extremely hard that’s why this is a disability and many people with bipolar cannot even work. I just applied for Disability benefits because I cannot work. Not everyone with bipolar does well almost all of the time I feel I barely have good days.
My husband was recently (early 30’s) diagnosed with bipolar disorder. He has become obsessed with religion. Wanting to become baptized, claimed he has contact with aliens. Sometimes it is too much. Because he is not the same person I once knew. But I still love him.
I agree with her, that thinking of mental illnesses as purely medical can stop us from exploring the psychological side, and we sell ourselves short from understanding the full picture.
It can be both -- hereditary predispositions, exacerbated by circumstances. The one guy with the golf trophies says he experienced zero trauma, but being put on a pedestal is traumatic for a child. It's too much pressure and, as the therapist pointed out, he was never taught how to deal with disappointment.
I have rapid cycling bi polar type 2. I have hypomania rather than mania. I get a huge surge of energy, feel euphoric, my social anxiety goes, I can talk to anyone. But i also cant sleep, constant thoughts, cant eat, etc. This cycles with suicidal depression where i cant function.
I'm sorry, but this documentary does not feature typical people with bipolarity.
no u
checkmate you wannabe bipolarist
@@FixedFace , let me give you some face time with my cat. She'll confirm I have the condition.
Yeah they definitely picked people with severe cases
Absolutely some severe cases here. I'm nowhere close to this 😳 I don't know anyone in my community who are this severe. Living day to day life with bipolar is alot more boring and can be just really isolating really, especially if you like me have more depressive episodes than manic. I love being manic (I'm sorry, I do like the energy), but the worst periods are those where I'm crying in my bed thinking nobody cares about me and I should just die (I know it isn't true, but depression and logic doesn't go hand in hand). That's the hardest parts, imo 😳
Do you have more manic episodes than depressive?
none of the nones no. You see - I usually have people around me, like my husband for example. He knows how I am in a manic episode and this is not it. People around us have eyes and ears😜
Relatable to me, I have a Bipolar 1 with psychotic features diagnosis. Going on 10 years with little relief from the countless medications. It's hard to find people that have it more extreme not just the depression, mixed episodes or an occasional manic episode
I wish people with bipolar would say, “I have bipolar” instead of, “I am bipolar.” People who have cancer don’t say “I am cancer.”
Nice point.
i say that i have i am bipolar, because i am. for me, bipolar is bigger than that. it takes up my life, my personality, my judgment, everything about me. i feel like the bipolar is more of me than i am.
@@haileyhall888 me too, but I’m not sure if that’s a healthy way of seeing it. When we are euthymic our symptoms are absent.
This is a great documentary and I love the hosts demeanor.
I really wish one day scientists will find cure for this illness 😥
Probably will never be a cure but they might make the perfect medicine for it one day
@@funnystuff553 It's possible they find a cure with genetic engineering. Other than that, no I don't see a cure. Medicines are getting better all the time though.
@@Wowzersdude-k5c nope.
Yeah, I've seen this doc before & have many of the same issues & concerns that others have mentioned below. I have Bipolar 1, btw.
I’m 14 and got diagnosed with bipolar a few weeks ago so as you would imagine that’s really young. I honestly don’t really know very much about it but I am ashamed of it and scared that people will think I’m crazy
That is really young. The teenage years make everyone seem bipolar with all the hormones. I would get a second opinion honestly. Also PTSD can look like bi polar as well. I feel like they over diagnose people as bi polar when it's really something else entirely, like childhood trauma. I have ptsd/panic disorder. My doctorwanted to put me on prozac, but i dont like the way anti depressants make me feel and im not depressed, i just get anxious in certain situations. Rightfully so too. 😅. Anyway,i went the natural route to heal myself. Better than taking a pill. Im starting to feel like my old self again.
Your not crazy
I got diagnosed with bipolar with mixed features in my early 20s. I get delusional in a depressed state, I'm an artist, so once I get in a depressed state I'll start thinking that I can paint like picasso when in reality I cant paint like him😂 then once I get in a manic state I'll start thinking I can fly since I'll have so much energy that when I'm walking really fast it feels like I'm walking on air, it feels like I can walk a marathon forever on top with speeding when I drive. So, I dnt drive anymore when im manic😂 the longest depressed episode i was in was a whole month straight, i never want to be in that episode ever again, that was by far the most worst thing I've ever experienced.
imagine using “One day I am going to own a castle” as a conversation starter
Imagine one day you may have a bad mental illness , ignorant
and they are so intelligent and extraordinary people!
To all of us BP sufferers, always remember that the depression will lift.
People have been telling me that for years. when
@@laurenengels4849 Hang in there and seek urgent help.
I'd rather be bi polar than what I am now. I'm constantly in terror every waking second. Zero joy. Zero euphoria
My son has been diagnosed with Bipolar two years ago.. he is 23 x To me he is stil my boy but i can totally understand now the behaviour swings i was glad there was a name to it as i tried all his lilfe to find out what was wrong with him growing up... all the time i got told he will grow out of it...
No, it will not grow out. I am 46 and still have it. The opposite is the case, it doesn't get sweeter with the age. By the way this is not the best documentary, there are far better ones on youtube.
The young guy who plays music has been on a benzodiazepines for years and coming from someone who has finally been sober after years of being on them myself it makes things worse. I was also advised by my doctor that some antidepressants can make the symptoms of bipolar worse so I’m being treated with a different kind called lamotrigine and it has lessened the symptoms. When I was on Wellbutrin however my highs and lows were extreme.
I’m on lamotrigine as well for bipolar depression, it’s worked quite well for me for the most part. It fascinates me the way anticonvulsants can work for BP
that’s what i thought! i have bipolar and have tried nearly every medication out there both during and before my diagnosis. i’m no psychiatrist but when i saw the combo of meds he was on i was concerned. prozac can be really bad for people with bipolar and in a lot of cases can cause horrible anxiety. just not a great antidepressant for people with BP most of the time
Half of this documentary is the interviewer looking sceptical at the other person or looking sceptical into space. I just didn't get the idea that she was open minded enough and was so focussed on this odea that bipolar is causes by trauma without looking at physical reasons for the imbalance of some one's moods.