I'm back home from the psych ward - a update and small schizophrenia vlog ❤️🩹
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 18 ก.ย. 2024
- Hi!
Im finally back home after being admitted to the psych ward for my psychosis. This is a vlog but also mostly me chatting and updating you guys on what happened and what it was like. schizophrenia really messed up my plans for this summer and I was extremely stressed on top of the psychosis which basically led to me being admitted to the hospital.
I made this vlog to have something fun to do since making vlogs and videos tend to lighten my mood and better my mental health.
thank you for watching! 💚
contact: kimberlyhallberg95@outlook.com
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Equipment:
Camera: iphone 13
Editing software: final cut pro
Thumbnails: canva, procreate
Music: epidemicsound or youtube studio
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Edwaaaaarrd! You’re adorable ❤️🐾🇨🇦
He is!!! 🥹💚
Kitties are so good for emotional regulation 🥰 They teach us the value of just being and chilling 🥰 I am so glad you have these two furball friends! ❤
@@PhoenixFeathers so true!! 🥰
I am glad that you are back in your own home and can have your tea and spend time with Edward. 🙂 Your ex boyfriend is such a sweetheart.
Me too and yes he is! ❤
I'm thinking of you, Kimberly & everyone here living with mental illness.
I live with OCD & panic disorder & have been hospitalised twice.
I consider myself lucky that the disorders I have, even though they're extremely debilitating at times, can go away.
I pray and send healing hugs to everyone.
Ty for sharing your story, Kimberly 🙏🏻
thank you! I wish you well also. 💚
Throughout my life I have always been warned about looking too far ahead in the future precisely because it can lead to anxiety. There have been quite a few situations in which I couldn't see any way through and yet in each case I was able to not just persevere but come out stronger, and I'm sure the same will happen for you. I basically try to make each new day as stress-free as possible by practicing self-care and accept whatever level of productivity can be achieved within those limits. I am glad your experience in the psych ward was not too bad and am happy to see you back.
thank you for the advice. 💚💚🥹
@@Kimberly_Viktoria thank you for these videos! They help others like me.
@@thelonglines oh thats so kind of you to say, thank you! 🥹💚
What a lovely thing to say 🙏🏻
It's a wonderful and priceless comment that you have shared with Kimberly and the world.Thank you.❤
❤️🩹 My kitty saved my life when I was in major depression. Little friends have big power.
very true! 🥰
Please give yourself some grace Kimberly. Take little steps, and know that we are always here to listen and support you in any way. ❤🌹✌️
thank you! 🥰
Glad to see you again! I too have a lot of existentional fears because I have disability because of schizophrenia but what I get from the state isn’t a lot and I am afraid what will be when my parents die because they support me. I hope you recover soon ❤
thank you! I can imagine, I hear that a lot of people on disability get help from a parent or even siblings. 💚
Especially, if you are from the States. 😢
Kimberly, you are a wonderful person. Many people with Schizophrenia, especially women, put up with too much. All that has an impact on your mental and physical health, especially immune problems. There is a very insightful book, called "The Myth of Normal" by Dr. Gabor Mate, which is highly recommended. Keep taking care of yourself, and everything in due time.
thank you so much for the support! And I look up his book, I like what I have seen from him. 😊
Thanks so much for the recommendation, I’ve seen a couple videos with Dr. Gabor Mate and was really taken with his insights.
Hi Kimberly, I am new to your channel but I had to comment because I feel so similarly to what you're feeling - worried about money and worried about supporting ourselves as people with sometimes invisible disabilities. I am Bipolar 2 and I have only recently started experiencing auditory hallucinations. The job I'm in right now has become extremely toxic (all of my coworkers are fed up with management and ready to walk out). I can't afford to quit, but I also can't afford to stay in this toxic environment. You are not alone in this stress and struggle!
Thank you and thank you for sharing! I hope everything gets solved for you and that you feel better soon too! 💚
Hey Kimberly! So glad you're back at home. I really hope you get to go to art school. That's a really beautiful dream
thank you! I hope so too! 💚
Good to see u back on here Kimberly , glad you’re home now
It is great to see you again. It is recovery time now.
Awe! I love it when you talk to your cats. I can still see your Artist Spark. 🥰
thank you! 💚
It's very interesting how one can become psychotic, even while taking meds. I have been on amisulpride for 2 years now, and last night i became psychotic out of nowhere. Really weird. Then i slept a little bit and took my meds, and today i'm completely fine again. Schizophrenia is weird (ಠಿ_ಠ) but yeah, i'm glad you're back bome. Good luck with the haldol, keep us updated 🙂
Its so weird, sleep a bit bad or to much stress and the meds don't do much, sadly... thank you and I will! 😊
Welcome back. I'm glad you were able to come back home; home is a nice place to be.
thank you and yes it is! 🥰
So nice to chill with you for half an hour. Wishing you all the best!
thank you, glad you liked it even though I was kinda tired... 💚
Amazing you can do a vlog after all that so soon. I know how uncertain future and financial things can affect well being. In Finland they decided to cut benefits concerning living costs. I'm also worried if I can keep my rent apartment. I have to write reasons why the apartment is something I need. It's difficult to be depending on support of society so much. I have lived in my apartment since I last got out of psych ward. When I was in psychosis I gave up my apartment and didn't have a place to live in. So I was in the psych ward for longer than usual. I think we who have mental health troubles shouldn't have to worry so much about financial issues. It's something I understand well. I hope you can find your way to the art school. Art is so good and needed in the world. And also cats like Edward.
thank you! And yes, I was very tired in this as you could probably tell but I really needed some sense of normalcy. 😊 Thats really sad, what happens if they decide it's not needed with an apartment? 🥲
Oh no, home security is so important for all people, but especially disabled people.
Can you get your therapist and doctors to write letters on your behalf about how important having your apartment is?
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Well my apartment is crossing the cost level because I have a dishwasher and a sauna. The apartment is not very big but both the dishwasher and sauna help me in my everyday life. I didn't wash dishes very often before but now it helps me keep the kitchen clean. Sauna helps me relax as I don't or can't use alcohol. I just came from the sauna now and watched your vlog. We even had a sauna in one of the psych wards. They haven't yet directed me to a cheaper apartment but I read a news story where one person had doctor's written justification why the person needed to stay in the apartment he or she had lived for a long time but in that case it didn't help. I felt a lot of anxiety when I found out my apartment crossed the limit of living costs. I had anger in my mind towards the decision makers of the current right wing government. For now I can stay in my apartment but the benefits have been cut by a significant amount. I got some food support from my mom and aunt. I have been for example paying for things like Adobe software because I have education in arts and media. Mostly photography. I then asked to start a 4 month long trial of doing business in photography and did some ID photos for people in a small area of my town. It didn't provide much income but now my case is under review. I hope I can begin to do some photography on the side. If not then I'm possibly going to do half day work in the library via the help of a clubhouse. The clubhouse is for mental health rehabilitation people and it's also under financial cuts because the current government decided to cut from the 3rd section of non-profit organizations etc. I hope to be able to recover and be able to work full time but that's always taking a lot of energy and my mental health has declined when doing full time work. I still get support and benefits but there's always shame and anxiety over being dependent on society's support. It helps to know I'm not alone
@@mizachs Oh thats so sad, I have read that saunas can be very beneficial for mental health so and I also could use a dishwasher due to having a hard time with the dishes... its important to be in a clean environment. We sadly also have a right wing government right now and they're cutting everything with welfare and health care sadly. I hope you'll get some work with photography, you're very good from what I have seen here on TH-cam. 😊 I also hope to do something worth while soon either job or art school but just as with you, I can't do full-time without getting very ill...
@@Kimberly_Viktoria 😊 Your vlog is very good and has inspired me to be on front of the camera. It's actually kind of fun and gives something to think about when out in nature by myself.
Welcome home! Take the best care of yourself.
Thank you I will! 🥰
Welcome home. What a journey ! Thank you for sharing this update. I shared it with my children, for it is very informative and gives information that may be helpful as my youngest son has schizophrenia .
There are so many positive moments that greeted you when you came home.
What a dear friend, ex-boyfriend, who is a kind soul.
You can see love in your eyes . Your kitties are special. Edward and Eyour are a blessing in your life.
Your friends around the world are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.
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Oh thank you Cynthia! What a nice comment. And yes I'm very lucky to be surrounded by people who are kind and supportive. And my cats. 💚💚
I am thrilled to hear that you are home❤
I feel for you. I know how it feels to temporarily lose grasp of reality…lose control of your thoughts. I think its possible to change the brain patterns and get better. I hope you get better and enjoy life.
I'm so happy you are home ❤️ we have different mental health issues but our needs for self-care are so similar. I relate to your energy level and the need to preserve energy for important things. The need to eliminate things that cause high stress in life. Taking our recovery seriously. You can tell Edward is really happy to have his mommy back home ❤️❤️❤️
I am so glad you are back home. I hope you know what an inspiration you are to me and so many others. Never forget that you are an artist. The way you express yourself, film and edit your personal experiences is an art form in itself.
thank you! 💚
I agree.
Hi 🙋🏻♀️Kimberly from Italy ~ you are so sweet! & your English Grammar is better than most British/American/Australian Bloggers😂.... I just loved your "the turn in the middle of the night..." Ha-Ha (it's not actually correct English but you've invented a great new expression❤)
thank you! 🥰
So glad you got help, I really hope things improve for you soon.
thank you! and I hope so too but with less stress its hopefully going to go smoother and perhaps quicker! 🥰
Only love. Thank you for sharing your truth. We are not alone.
thank you!
Tofu has saved my life she’s a mean cat who get returned many times to the humane society but I have in return Been saved by her. I have autism and bipolar disorder so I feel ya
aww.. That's lovely! 💚
I love the videos where you share what you cook - if you have the energy it would be great to see more of them!! I also love to see what your reading!
I hope your feeling better soon ❤
Thank you! I'm hoping to film a vlog or something similar soon too! 💚🥰
Thank you for your oppenness about your illness. It takes a lot of courage and I'm sure your helping people with your channel. Keep on the good work. 🐱
thank you! 💚
I am sooo glad you are off olanzapine🎉🎉 I took it for only year and a half and it messed my metabolism so bad - i gained about 20 kg during that time, my cholesterol went through the roof, and it even messed my coagulation (elevated my d-dimers) so, that shit is not harmless at all..
I am not taking it from 11/23 and still dealing with the concequences...
Good luck, dear Kimberly, and take good care of yourself - you will get better and better with time ❤️🙏
thank you and thank you for sharing, even though it was a bad experience, olanzapine is dreadful! I wish you the best! 💚
Loved seeing your kitty’s white tail in the background :)
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Thank you for the update. I see that you feel better now! :)
I´m glad your home and feeling a little better. Your ex boyfriend seem to be a very sweet person. So glad you have him in your life even if your not a couple anymore. Edward is always so adorable 😊😍
thank you! and yes he is! 🥰
We also call it Haldol in the US. I think the term you are looking for is known here as "rescue medication". I have this type of medication to take for migraines when my daily preventive meds don't work. I'm glad to know you care enough about yourself to go into hospital when you needed it and to know that your kitties had such good care while you were away. How kind of your ex to help clean up your apartment! That must have been nearly overwhelming.
@@hollywebster6844 thank you! And yes it was, to be coming home to a cleaner apartment was very overwhelming 🥹
We have so much in common, I wish we could be friends. I also am temporarily on haloperidol! I’m glad you’re home again and feeling a little better? Mental illness is so hard and such a struggle, you are so strong. You got this Kimberly 👏 I also love sims!
yes I do feel a little better and I think it will get better a little day by day. oh do you play the sims 3 or 4? or maybe 2? 😍 thank you! 💚
@@Kimberly_Viktoria that’s good! I play sims 4 but I’ve played all of the games over the years since I was a child 😊
We are so glad that you are back home with your kitties!!!!! You look great!!! You are going to be fine. Unfortunately, we all have to stay in the hospital when the need rises! Take good care of yourself. Please, go to art school part time!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
thank you! 💚🥰
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i am glad you're home and safe! 💗
this vlog helped me a lot! so thank you as well as i'm glad to hear you're back.
what a sweet ex you have! :)
keep fighting kimberly💗 hugs
thank you! and yes he is! hugs 💚
Thanks!
Thank you so much for the superthanks! ❤
Hi Kimberly, so glad youre back with your kitties and sounds like you are taking good care of yourself. So nice of your ex to help you out too! Enjoy your tea and take your time with cleaning etc. It will always be there. LOL Go at your own speed. I know its hard though. I have the worst time trying to slow down, having two bad shoulders and bad neck and knee. I know its hard to keep your chin up, but Ive seen you do it often! I have slowed down because I am forced to now, but its depressing. You give me a lot of hope and inspiration! You shared a lot today! Gentle hugs to you. Mary Ann 🤗💚💜❤
oh thank you Mary Ann! Im so glad to be home and I feel so much less stressed about my home now to since he helped with the dishes, it feels less overwhelming. I hope you have a nice sunday, thank you! 💚
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Your girl kitty (I can't remember her name!) has the sweetest face! 😻 I love to see Edward. He reminds me of a cat I had as a child who was named Tinkerbell. White cats seem to have great personalities. 💞
@@hollywebster6844 thank you ☺️ her name is Ior or eeyor in English 😊
You are so brave
thank you! 😊
hope you are feeling better i am in a same way i havent got any energy anymore i try and tidy and give up because i feel like i will collapse im so tired all the time
thank you and sad to hear that, do you have anyone who could help you?
@@Kimberly_Viktoria thanks for the message I am speaking with my doctor but there is not much they can do here in the uk. i live in wales and there is no help really. My family have to help me tidy. The negative symptoms of schizophrenia are awful. I hope your day is a good one today. sending hugs all the way from the uk. ps i love the Swedish language it's so beautiful
@@Shane-gw5yt thank you! I hope your day is a good one too! hugs 🤗💚
So glad you’re back home. I hope you’re feeling better too.
In the UK we would call it a prawn sandwich. I think shrimp is more American English.
thank you and thank you for the translation! 🥰
Hi Kimberly glad your home I used to have a cat that looked exactly like Edward except he had 10 toes on his paws he was cute just like Edward take it easy
oh wow. sounds adorable! 🥹
@KimberlyHallberg he was hope you start to feel better soon everything should come back to you hope everything works out with were your living and your situation feel better soon
@@jacobfredericks896 thank you! 💚
Hello my dear, There are so many of us that are truly fond of you. This video is just as wonderful as all the others you have made. I'm glad you are back home with your cats. We really need more research to learn more about schizophrenia and psychosis. I have heard it is a spectrum condition with varying types of recovery. Some people recover well, bumps along the way, some people have poor recovery, others in between. I have seen that stress exacerbates symptoms and that keeping one's life fairly stress free helps. Your concern (stress) about the changes in your SSI made me wonder about the government's policies--what perspective or philosophy is behind the changes they make once a person reaches a certain age. Why is the financial support lowered and who does this apply to? Does it apply to everyone with a disability? Or does it only apply to certain types of disability? Why do they make this change and age limit? Sending love.
Thank you Jean! 💚 The reason for the SSI is basically that they're not ready to let me get a more "permanent" disability when im this young I think. It's a bit hard to explain when the systems can differ so between countries. I hope you understad, because I barley do myself right now...
Hope you are feeling ok now hunnie
Hope your medication is working 💕
i hope you take an antipsychotic ongoing. it’ll help
I do and now I have another one as a support to the first one. 😊
SSI is so little in the States. It is comical. If it was not for my mom, I would be on the streets! ❤
Welcome home ❤❤❤
thank you! 💚
@@Kimberly_Viktoria you're welcome
Ha-Ha had to laugh because in Italy (where I live) the word for a Doctor's Prescription is, yes, "prescrizione" but is also know as a "Ricetta" which means a recipe!🌺🐱
same is swedish! we say Recept, which means both prescription and recipe. :)
Thank you for sharing
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🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 my prayers for you
thank you!
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Hi Kim
If you please get time , only if you feel ok and have time
Can you make a video regarding your self harming behaviour like what you do , what behaviours of harming
Take care hunnie
Lots of hugs and love to you 💕💕
Hope you feel better soon
thank you! 🥰
Sending love 💐🥰
thank you! 🥰
I think walk in the nature in a quiet place without people could help yo to feel better and more relaxed maybe listening something like videos in TH-cam or music so that you don't get bored.i do that although at first i dont feel like doing it but i arrive home better and feeling fresh snd with more energy..and with better mood 😊
I tnink you are a great person,very brave who can overcome all the difficulties in your life.i admire you so much
Keep being like that.
Sorry for my english i am spanish and hardly ever practice from a lot of time😊
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thank you! I definitely want to do some walking in the trails here when I get the energy and when Edward calms a little, nature can be very healing! I have been listening to a lot of music. Also your English is perfect! thank you! 💚
Whoa Haldol can have a bunch of short term side effects so please be careful.
Glad you are home! By the way, can I ask where your lipstick is from? It looks so pretty on you😊
thank you! It's the black honey from Clinique. 🥰
@@Kimberly_Viktoria thank you! It looks very pretty💕
@@GreenAndTheToe thank you! 😍
" I'm schizophrenic too " 😇
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Benzodiazepines CAN make you physically DEPENDENT not only addictive but dependent meaning your body does not accept when stopped and very bad withdrawal effect occur. I am going right now through end of taper and its soo frustrating and I have musclepain and gi issues. So please yes do not take any tranquilizer longer than 1- maximum 2 days. Yes 2 days and NOT MORE! BIG BIG WARNING. I have gone through a lot with medications so I am talking from the ❤. Please take my advice!
Thank you I know! Luckily I haven't needed it since a month or so and even then I used it very sparely. I wish you well! 💚
I like to listen to you.
thank you! 💚
Omg!! Are you a Sabaton fan?!?!
Yes! 😍
Hi Kimberly, just to let you know my schizophrenia and ME/CFS video is out now on my channel if you go and have a look at the recent videos there. I haven't watched your latest video yet but I hope to and hope you are bearing up okay.
@@me-cfs-strategiesforhealing ill check it out! 😊
Hej! Vad för ångestmedicin fick du? 😊 åh, vad söta katter du har!😍 jag lider också av psykisk ohälsa och mina katter är mitt allt❤
Fick stesolid utskrivet denna gången vilket jag inte använt tidigare och som kan vara beroendeframkallande. Katter är livet ibland asså! 💚😻tack! ☺️
Hi Kimberly, I just recently started watching your videos. I want to suggest swimming to you to help with the weight. Swimming is fun and effective for weight loss. Ok bye, take care.
Thank you! 🥰
I REALLY don't see a psych ward putting more than one in a ROOM especially with new admitties , but whatever,
Welcome back from the psyche ward. Hope this helps you out a bit.
@@r.d.machinery3749 oh wow thank you so much for the superthanks!!! 🥹💚💚💚
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Hello, do you mind if I ask what antidepressant caused psychosis for you? Thank you 🙂
Bupropion. 🤔
Welcome back! Thanks for posting. I think people like you! It's rude though to talk to your cats while we are listening to you.
What a rude comment, if you don't like it then don't watch it.
thats okay, I usually talk to them so they don't interrupt with lots of meowing and of course out of habit. :)
@@Kimberly_ViktoriaI really like that you talk to your kitties! You’re so kindhearted to respond to them ❤
thank you! since I talk to them at the daily its definitely a habit and one I won't stop doing. 😁💚
You’re obviously not an animal person….
Haldol gave me pacing called Akathisia. Very uncomfortable. That was on a very low dose.
Why do they feel compelled to speak english?
Hello sweet heart❤❤❤❤
@@arayaaraya7779 hi! 🥰