Sleep Deprivation Psychosis | When Mania Won't Let Me Sleep
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 31 พ.ค. 2024
- In the fall of 2018 I had my first major manic episode, and during that time there was a short period where I did not sleep at all. I’m not sure how many days passed, but I know that eventually, I experienced psychosis due to sleep deprivation that was way worse-and different-than the rest of my psychotic symptoms during this time.
So this is my story about how my schizoaffective self managed to get so sleep deprived that she hallucinated in a whole new way.
May it never happen again.
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Oooh! Oooh! It's me! It's me! I have EXTREME sleep fragmentation. It's why I suffer from psychosis from time to time. Right now, I am good. I am sleeping about 3.5 hours at best, then awake for 5 or so. When I can only sleep for an hour or two, psychosis creeps in. This has been true for the last three years or so. Those of you who actually sleep, don't take it for granted!
I get "Intermittent psychosis-like presentation". ADHD is all kinds of bastard, but Methylphenidate regulates my sleep quite effectively.
Thanks for sharing this! It’s wild what brains can do
Thank God I'm a dude cuz when this shit pops its ugly head up in my life I can just force myself to train till exhaustion and EVENTUALLY I'ma somehow make myself sleep. The more you do the more you can snooze, or some such. I know it works tho.
@@bobbertsonlarz1743 In neurotypical people, it works like a charm! With me, not so much 🙂
When I was on 20 mg lexapro I didn't sleep for fifty six hours and was very happy. I was intellectually stimulated and didn't do anything I'd regret but I told my doctor because I knew eventually I'd crash. She put me on 10 mg lexapro. I sometimes have fear of sleep. Curiosity is a great thing and I didn't like my antidepressant making me bland. I went off it awhile and when I went back on it things had changed and I no longer felt the dull affect. Same thing with my libido: when I was seventeen I was impotent and I went off my meds for a month and my libido came roaring back. I resumed my medication when my mom found out I'd been dropping the pills behind the bed and she put me in a mental institution. I also complied because of devastating depression and scary hallucinations. Now as a 54 year old I feel I only take the meds for sleep and I'm on low dosages.
My voices are kind for the most part. I rarely hear auditory, mostly thought-like words/phrases. One stands out to me as a love because it says things like I love you. I say go away, and I hear F*** you. When the voices aren't racing and keeping me up at night and I do sleep, my dreams are vivid. When I am awake, I'm deeply sad. I have accepted that this is as real as any other physical illness and should be treated as such. Your videos help so much. Thank you.
Wow I want you to know I’m mid episode. I’ve only known about this disorder for a few months and you have been posting about your episode right now and it’s helped me so much to feel normal. To finally understand at 28 what I was actually dealing with is .. mind blowing? So thank you for being you .
Yeah, I may talk to my doctor. I’m going to try it tomorrow as she told me to take it every other day to dip my feet in. I have an intense phobia of meds to it was a tough challenge for me. Before it my sleep was great.
@@tophercf508 I am on Abilify (an anti-psychotic) and it changed my life for the good. Meds are worth the try. If they don't work for you, you can always quit them.
Glad I can help. Stay strong and know it will probably take time to get the right treatment, but the wait and struggle is so so worth it.
I am glad that you learned something from the episode. Don't forget to get good sleep. 😊
Thank you, I will
I go through bouts of this. Fragmented sleep leaves me so irritated. Thanks for sharing and covering this. I think it's definitely a common problem with schizoaffective disorder.
"tales from the skitz" is so creative!
I have had things like this happen, with the same diagnosis. Fortunately my antipsychotic has been very strong and helpful for a long time.
The difference for me is I NEVER was able to identify my own psychosis. I have no idea how you are able to do that! Incredible!
Insight really varies from person to person and therapy and meds have been a godsend. Trust me, I consider myself very very lucky. And I’m glad your meds work for you!!!
Thank You Another Great Video - I can’t believe how you describe all your episodes identical to all my episodes - kinda spooky
But I.m Glad I’m not alone -
That killer intro slogan at the beginning paired with the “dark congratulations” line is hard as fuck
Sleep deprivation is no joke. I went a week only sleeping about two hours a night and wound up in the psych ER punching the walls and stalking the halls all night. I’m still salty that they didn’t give me something to help me sleep, just an antipsychotic which eventually helped but just getting a good nights sleep would have helped a ton.
Good video kitz🤠
yupp thid is my biggest struggle and main trigger for my psychosis delusions and all of the above...
docs are hesitant to prescribe sleep meds to me,im of the thought that if i could nail the sleep deprivation all my probs would disappear overnight. sometimes im manic like that for days on end yet the brain gets stuck in that loop where ur the centre of the universe and it all evolves around u(the delusions of granduer)
Great video!😁
damn, thanks for being so honest, ur lucky if no one got seriously hurt in that episode
This is kind of funny. I just started vraylar last night and sleep was never an issue. I could NOT sleep and panicked that I was having a manic episode. Thanks for continuing to make the uncomfortable comfortable. Hugs!
Vraylar sucks. If you want sleep get on Seroquel. I take olanzapine doesn't do much for sleep. I take Clonazepam, trazodone , belsomra , and melatonin for sleep . I hope you sleep tonight.
@@xronald619xthanks man. I really appreciate it. I haven’t been on any meds since 2015 so I’m hoping it won’t be long term. My psychiatrist and I are trying to find out a plan.
I agree I’m on seroquel and I finally sleep
@@TrulyTayo i used to take Seroquel till it stopped working for me. I'm on olanzapine no good for sleep. But a great antipsychotic.
Seroquel and lithium, and it works for me.✌️
Monopolization of All the Fun and Good going. Thanks!
What about the wonderful inpatient humming, buzzing lights sleep therapy?
I have tried to get my own sleeping in order, it has been quite problematic. But now it seems to have settled. I must take ½ gram of magnesium before going to bed. No video games, no Instagram, just inner silence.
I hate when im manic. I feel like i can go days with only cat naps and caffeine fueling me. I know its not healthy, but it happens sometimes.
Sleeps important for me but your mind is tricky, i remember getting only a few hours sleep one night and i felt good and less anxious the next day, so i said to myself, oh the solution is less sleep! Im ignoring all the bad thoughts and voices because im drowsy this is the way! Then of course it catches up and if you have schizophrenia already you soon get completely psychotic and cant work for a month ha. The moral for me was i need as close to 8 hours sleep as possible every night!
It’s so important to know what works best for you, and I’m glad you figured it out!
it's the NSA
I hear internal voices all the time so I could be in psychosis or could be residual symptom but if I dont sleep things get weird fast and im schizoaffective so my mood can send me straight to the hospital also better to use Final fantasy in moderation ;)
I also head internal voices all the time until I got on antipsychotics they’ve gotten quieter and less often but still there . I believe it’s because the schizophrenia is always having those type of symptoms even if not in psychosis but the internal voices get more mean , loud , angry and faster when I’m entering psychosis!
@@TrulyTayo Me they are pretty nice and I can ignore them so its not to much of a bother Im more affraid of the side effect of the med then the symptom
I had chronic insomnia back when I was in college. It was around the time I got diagnosed
We are on to you covering for the nsa
Well I hope you're sleeping fine now, I read that 7-9 hours per day is recommended for 18 to 65 year old "normal" folks. But antipsychotics can mess that up real good, such as my case with Zyprexa (waaaay too much sleep). I did become quite physically active in last month and a half and my sleep time's gotten much better, I guess any amount of physical activity helps when you're on antipsychotics. Thanks Kit :)
I sleep pretty well these days, and the zyprexa needs to be taken at night for a reason! And great for getting active, I know for me just moving my body helps. Thanks!
I would like to understand the fine line between schizophrenia and borderline personality. There are many overlaps,even with hearing voices,it can be present in both. I find it odd how many people on the internet who claim to be schizoaffective seem pretty bright. They also dont appear to be schizophrenics. Could they have borderline personality and bipolar 1? I think both of these things might be treated very similar. Also,just because a person is schizoaffective,doesnt mean that down the line they will call it something else😔
After my episode of 2019 I do not mess around with sleep. My illness was caught so early that my hallucinations are far and few between and not very interesting, except for 2019 when I heard a few different voices for I don't even know how long. I only need to miss about 2 days of sleep to start losing it. Time becomes this weird expanding and contracting thing in which I cannot tell if something happened two hours ago, two days ago, or two weeks ago, and it remains that way for the whole episode. In 2019 I only missed about 40 hours of sleep, but that was enough to do it. For months afterward I could either only sleep for 3 or 4 hours at a time, or I couldn't sleep at all.
I'm schizotypal bipolar 2 and during really intense hypomanic episodes I get the internal voices that I'm talking with too. I assumed I was just talking to myself but the voices were clear responses that I didnt feel like I was properly thinking through, it was just happening. Its all a blur tbh, im not sure if I was just hypomanic or im starting to dip into mania.
I get psychosis if I don't sleep from an all nighter it's not fun at all bc I can't stay up all night and day without going into psychosis
"don't romanticize it. It sucks a lot." Yep, it's not cool. Lots of folks pretend it's cool but it isn't. I know.
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When I'm in severe autistic burnout, I'm not sleepy until 5am-8am.
Lol final fantasy tactics has lead to many an all nighter for me. But for real, sleep affects my psychosis as well. And I never sleep enough...
I woke up at 4:30 am today i feel sleep deprived.
Wildest s*** is that I’ve been sleeping better after reducing my zoloft 100mg LMAO
Now try doing the whole thing again but on a buffet of street drugs the whole time. Thats basically my 20's. And 30's. 😄
And right now, damn.. 🤔
The part of your brain that is capable of banishing a delusional episode is your right hemisphere. When you dream you step into the world of the right hemisphere and it will “talk” to you through metaphor. Your left hemisphere is obsessed with control and is quite frankly, deluded. The hemispheres have a drug of choice, the left likes dopamine, the right likes noradrenaline. This will be my last comment on your videos. You have over activity in your left hemisphere and a deficit in your right. If you can quiet the left the right hemisphere will take the reins. If you would like citations to prove what I am saying I will provide them.
This is so reductionist 😂😂 - a neuroscience grad
@@naj2276 anything but.
My mayor issue In schizoaffective D. for sure!☹️
Medication doesn’t do much for me due to genetic mutation causing me to have elevated amounts of adrenaline and high production of dopamine.
It makes manic episodes a monthly thing with or without meds🫥