Amanda Palmer - Voicemail For Jill (Official Music Video)

แชร์
ฝัง
  • เผยแพร่เมื่อ 28 ส.ค. 2024
  • this is the “Voicemail For Jill“ official music video. song and video concept by amanda palmer. directed by amber sealey. featuring kate adams in the role of jill.
    this video was independently funded by over 14,000 patrons at / amandapalmer
    the song itself is the second single from my new solo album THERE WILL BE NO INTERMISSION...offically out everywhere (and available on CD and double-vinyl) on march 8, 2019. international women's day, mofos.
    to learn more about this song and video, go here: / voicemail-for-by-25185120 and go to www.AMANDAPALME... NOW to learn everything about the ALBUM, the ARTBOOK and the global song & storytelling tour.
    this video, my album, and all of the art i've been making over the last four years was funded by my patrons on patreon. people there support me, my staff, and my collaborators so we can draw a sustainable salary to MAKE ALL THE THINGS. come join to help me make MORE THINGS and get special merch, tour pre-sales, and all album news first for as little as $1/month.
    VIDEO CREDITS
    Director - Amber Sealey
    Cinematographer - Matt Crum
    Producer - Stefanie Sparks
    Producer - Jesse Epstein
    Editor - Patrick Nelson Barnes
    Colorist - Matt Crum
    Jill - Kate Adams
    The Man - Aaron Cantor
    Office Workers:
    Johnny Blazes
    Nadya Volicer
    Shardae Jobson
    Mali Sastri
    Steven Panzek
    Jack Abramowitz
    Mom in Elevator - Dalilah Rain
    Child 1 - Nera Gray
    Child 2 - Tova Pearl
    Child 3 - Kieran Cole
    Childcare Help - Amrita Kaur
    Amanda Palmer as herself
    Party Attendees:
    Mae Cutrona
    Nivi Nagiel
    Zia Revere
    Cayla Horsey
    Jacquelyn Gianetti
    Aimsel Ponti
    Dianna Leigh
    Jim Kernohan
    Abby Wilson
    Bailey Hein
    Boston Citizens:
    Katherine Bergeron
    E. Stephen
    Cricket Barretti-Sigal
    Michael McComiskey
    Valerie Stephens
    Mr. Ed
    Ocean Farinella
    Marissa Monteiro
    Rosalba Solis
    Inès de la Cruz
    Julianna Quiroz
    Elizabeth Bebyn
    Linda May Ellis
    Ted Thomas
    Danielle Pollock
    Richard Sealey
    Jesse Epstein
    Rachel Jayson
    Clare Collar
    Asa Collar
    Eileen Ryan
    Robin Grammer
    Kim Dawson & Child
    Hayley Rosenblum
    1st AC and DIT - Richard Hawke
    2nd AD - Jen Padget
    Set PA - Miriam Olken
    PA Driver - Matt Melia
    PA Driver - Anthony Flores
    Still Photography - Hayley Rosenblum
    Behind The Scenes Doc - James Holland
    Gaffer - Chris Brown
    Grip - Mitch Fortier
    Catering - Cuisine En Locale
    Office Location - Business District
    Party Location - The Cloud Club
    Amanda's Assistants:
    Michael McComiskey
    Hayley Rosenblum

ความคิดเห็น • 502

  • @orlaoto5794
    @orlaoto5794 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    This is brilliant. It really resonates in Ireland, until a couple of years ago we took a boat or plane to the uk in utter silence. There was one tuesday early morning flight from Dublin to the North of England that always fit in with a women's clinic schedule. The flight staff were always so especially kind to any women travelling alone. Still are.

  • @dianadhevi
    @dianadhevi 5 ปีที่แล้ว +535

    I cried, like many others who have been touched by your art, Amanda. But also, I realized something happened while I watched the video: as soon as you appeared on screen and hugged your friend, it felt warm, like home. It felt safe. It felt safer than it ever did when I had my abortion and a miscarriage a few months later. And I realize that, while life may have cheated me out of ever feeling safe and loved by a mother (I'm a child of abuse from a mother who most likely didn't know better), I have finally been able to glimpse that in a face, to feel a tiny bit of that comfort when I look at you here. Thank you. I love you.

    • @PeachPlastic
      @PeachPlastic 5 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      I'm in an identical shy space of lostness in terms of having grown up with an unmotherly mother. I don't really know what else to write, but I wanted to write this: I relate to what you wrote, and I felt the same way at that point in the video. ♥

    • @angela.luntian
      @angela.luntian 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      i feel for you.. You'll do great 💟

    • @istiaquesabbir4652
      @istiaquesabbir4652 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    • @erinhulme131
      @erinhulme131 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      That is exactly how I felt too! No one was there for me when I went through my abortion... For complicated reasons, I felt I couldn't tell anyone. It was my secret and I felt so alone. Seeing her hug her friend made me feel safe.

    • @jessicahimmel7867
      @jessicahimmel7867 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      This is so heartbreakingly beautiful.

  • @sarahp6554
    @sarahp6554 2 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    With the Supreme Court’s decision today, it felt like a good time to listen to this song. I want to blast this song so no one feels alone. I want to let them know there are people who understand and care. That there are so many people fighting for the right to choose.
    Amanda, your songs have been with me since I was 15. Just like Judy Blume was there for you (and me), you are there for all of us. You let us know we aren’t alone.

    • @jennifer5597
      @jennifer5597 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      This is why I'm here too. There are so many of us.

    • @MeMe-hp3hl
      @MeMe-hp3hl 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      It's a great song because it is brutally honest. You'll never hear any comforting lies from Amanda. Voicemail is as brutal as her song Sex Changes. The sick irony of that final line renders the resolving cord dissonant. The video is a flawless accompaniment to a flawless song.

  • @krisaaron5771
    @krisaaron5771 4 ปีที่แล้ว +69

    I had an abortion the year before Roe v. Wade, and I still cried at this video. Thank you for making something so gentle and beautiful to help us through the loss.

    • @ellepalmer
      @ellepalmer 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I got an abortion the year before roe v wade was overturned…

    • @duxoopdouglas7323
      @duxoopdouglas7323 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      It's a bit late, and only emojis, but 🎂💐

    • @bitchface4392
      @bitchface4392 20 วันที่ผ่านมา

  • @TwinkleToestheBerserker
    @TwinkleToestheBerserker 5 ปีที่แล้ว +544

    Isn't it amazing how you can never tell who is an identical hell?
    If you're going through any kind of hell right now, I just want you to know I love you, and I support you. You deserve the right to a choice, and your heart matters.

    • @ephraimlessell
      @ephraimlessell 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Your post is wonderful and compassionate, and still "greater" was your note to "Angela" below. As someone who has suffered with illness most of my life (and as a friend since childhood of Amanda's), I commend you -Ephraim Lessell

    • @Tatoasdf
      @Tatoasdf 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Thank you. I think I needed to read that.

    • @TanukiSC
      @TanukiSC 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Twinkle Toes the Berserker love

    • @Libby.Hoffman
      @Libby.Hoffman 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thank you ♥️

    • @samthraxx.
      @samthraxx. 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you for sharing your kindness with all of us. 2 years later, you've undoubtedly long forgotten your post, but I've just discovered it and your words brought tears to my eyes. Thank you, kind stranger. I see you, I support you, and I am grateful to you. Wherever you are today, I hope you're surrounded by the love, support, kindness and validation you offered to all the weary, broken & suffering strangers that wandered through these comments for the past couple years. ❤

  • @jennygorton2383
    @jennygorton2383 5 ปีที่แล้ว +429

    I haven't connected with Amanda Palmer's work for a little while, but this one shot me in the face. I've not had to make the decision to abort, but my partner and I have had a difficult fertility journey and it often felt incredibly lonely to lose babies that no one knew or cared about. It's incredible how much of womanhood we are supposed to just grit our teeth through and never talk about. Trust Amanda Palmer to crystalise the taboo in devastating song. Here's to all the other women in silent hell. Here's to abortion parties and warm hugs and friendships and grief and babies lost and love. 😭😭😭

    • @wojo4hitz
      @wojo4hitz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I hope you get the chance to see her solo show she's touring right now...it's brilliant, and it sounds like it might be cathartic/comforting. ❤

  • @dianawiener46
    @dianawiener46 5 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I never had anyone to talk to at the time of my experience. When my father found out he beat me. I ended up homeless. Thank you showing compassion when other people really don't.

  • @shelbychancey6911
    @shelbychancey6911 5 ปีที่แล้ว +184

    I never had an abortion, but I miscarried. It was truly for the best, as my boyfriend at the time was incredibly violent and abusive, and I knew neither of us were ready for a child. If I hadn't miscarried, I would have had an abortion.
    I remember the day perfectly. I was in a lecture at college, and I remember feeling nauseous, just generally sick. Then I got super lightheaded, and the edges of my vision darkened. I gathered my things and left, and as soon as I stood up, it felt like knives being shoved into my uterus. I made my way to the bathroom, and the evidence was all I needed. I made my way home, cried, and went to work that night.
    I'm not saying this for pity, but I can count on one hand how many people know this, so it's nice to just have a safe place to release. To all the Jills out there, I'm here for you. And Amanda, I love you. Thank you.

    • @liz_bug9576
      @liz_bug9576 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Thank you for sharing ❤ I hope you have a good day and please take care!

  • @deenam5461
    @deenam5461 5 ปีที่แล้ว +159

    "it's a strange grief but it's grief". Amanda you speak to so many of our hearts and experiences. There aren't words to say thank you (well, you could find them, I can't)

  • @maggiebeck7949
    @maggiebeck7949 5 ปีที่แล้ว +248

    At 21 I made that difficult choice. Then at 26 when I was pregnant and excited, I had to have an abortion because my baby stopped developing but my body refused to miscarry. It is never an easy thing. Even when the doctors are telling you it is the right thing. Now at 30 I still think about both times and still my heart breaks, thinking of the possibilities and what could have been. My aunt was pregnant at the same time as me that second time and sometimes I can't look at my amazing little cousin without thinking of the child I lost. I hope anyone going through that choice has someone in their life to hold them, cry with them, and help them through it. Thanks for such a beautiful song Amanda. ❤

    • @jamieramirez6986
      @jamieramirez6986 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Sending big hugs

    • @denabaji3113
      @denabaji3113 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Oh, my darling. Peace and love to you and your little ones. Letting go is never easy and an even harder choice. People who have never had to make that choice don't count. They can embrace or deny, but they don't really know.

    • @tiffanyh.3467
      @tiffanyh.3467 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Wow. I can't imagine how you strong women get through these things. But, as the song suggests, I guess the answer with love and support from other women. Hugs.

    • @samanthastuessel7986
      @samanthastuessel7986 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      The baby I miscarried (in a very unusual way) would be one month older than my 15 yr old niece. Around the time I conceived and miscarried it's kinda hard to see her and not be sad. Heart broken. I know it had to happen. It was actually a good thing when all is said and done. I've decided not to have children do to my extreme health problems. So if she had been born alive she would be in a living hell, like me. And I was so young. Still hurts though and I still have a hole in my heart where she should be. It will always be a pain you carry with you. But someday won't be as bad as others. I still think of seeing her everyday though.

    • @SartorialDragon
      @SartorialDragon 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@samanthastuessel7986 i'm sorry, that sounds so hard. I hope you have wonderful people in your life who'll fill it with all the joy you deserve having

  • @kewi5
    @kewi5 5 ปีที่แล้ว +54

    I was Jill a decade ago, though I don't think I ever fully processed how I felt at the time. To all the present-day Jills out there: you are not alone, and you will be okay 💜

  • @wojo4hitz
    @wojo4hitz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I'm 38, struggling so much with the decision about whether or not to have children (since, as everyone loves to tell me, I'm "running out of time!!"), and the fact that I'm, like, 72% sure I don't want any, is somehow very hard for me to accept. It was something I'd always thought I'd do "sometime"...but no time has ever felt like a good time, and it's hard to accept that maybe it's not something I will ever do. Every pregnant friend or stranger with a sleeping baby pricks my heart a little, just the way it does to Jill in this video. Who knew that it could be so hard and so sad to do the thing you think you want? But here I am, bawling on the couch after watching that.
    "It's a strange grief, but it's grief..."

    • @wojo4hitz
      @wojo4hitz 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@roksanaumarova947 Good for you!! Undoing brainwashing is so hard...but knowing it happened helps to confront it.

  • @PeachPlastic
    @PeachPlastic 5 ปีที่แล้ว +125

    4:28 I don't know why, but the lyric about the surprise balloons that no one is going to tie to the desk really sticks out and gets to me. The entire song is so many things I didn't expect and so many things I wouldn't have thought would have felt so... needed.

    • @BethyChi
      @BethyChi 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Yeah that got me as well. You've nailed how I felt as well.

    • @PeachPlastic
      @PeachPlastic 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@BethyChi ♥️ digital hugs.

  • @edwardstrain22
    @edwardstrain22 5 ปีที่แล้ว +78

    As a father who lost his child at the age of 24 days, this song really did me in. I know it's different circumstances. Just got my emotional feels all out of sorts.

    • @cynhanrahan4012
      @cynhanrahan4012 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      "It's a strange grief, but it's grief." I'm sorry your child died.

    • @SartorialDragon
      @SartorialDragon 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      That is very hard, i'm sorry for your loss.

  • @BethyChi
    @BethyChi 5 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    I thought I was over this (11 years) but I have just sat on my kitchen floor and sobbed and wailed. Thank you for such a beautiful song. Thank you for such an honest portrait. Don't stop Amanda

  • @piengineeringinc
    @piengineeringinc 5 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    Isn't it amazing how we can never tell
    who is in an identical hell.
    Beautiful.

  • @DavidDiMuzio
    @DavidDiMuzio 5 ปีที่แล้ว +99

    What a powerful song. Made me an instant fan. This song does what art is supposed to do. Move you and challenge you.

  • @glitterfaerie08
    @glitterfaerie08 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    15 year old....20 years ago...Ill never forget the horrific bus ride home from the hospital. No one knew. Too scared to tell anyone. My bloody nightgown in a bag that i threw in a bin before I got home 😪😪😪 It was just after Christmas. It was awful sitting in the waiting room with pregnant women. I see you. I feel you. I grieved for so long 😪😪😪💔🤍🤍🤍
    Hugs to who needs them 🤍🤍🤍
    Thank you Amanda Palmer....Once again you help me feel loved xx

    • @maze2253
      @maze2253 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I love you, Jill.

  • @rrich52806
    @rrich52806 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I am truly blessed that at 70 years of age I have re-united the lovely girl I almost married 47 years ago. Both divorced and kids grown. We are no longer alone. Very much still in love.

  • @AnikaHarrington
    @AnikaHarrington 5 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    Incredibly well directed and filmed, the part where Jill is walking in the wind with the rising sun behind her is the closest thing I have ever seen to capturing the feeling of music crystallising a moment. Absolutely stunning.

  • @dionysianslip
    @dionysianslip 5 ปีที่แล้ว +127

    To all the Jills: You are loved.

  • @casualsuede
    @casualsuede 5 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I heard this on Radio 1, driving from toronto to detroit, around chatham. I dunno why, but there were tears in my eyes, even though i have no connection with this topic but it is a song that is sung with so much emotion and heart that you can't but help be moved by it.

  • @majorzipf8947
    @majorzipf8947 5 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    This strikes a very similar note to those of us who have chosen not to have babies due to health reasons. So much of our identity as women is tied to our position as a mother and I've been struggling with finding value in myself after deciding not to go this route. I don't think I realized that until watching this.

  • @howtomeetwomen-
    @howtomeetwomen- 5 ปีที่แล้ว +71

    Identical Hells in which we didn't realize we all needed hugs from an Amanda Palmer-figure

  • @serenasorensen6734
    @serenasorensen6734 5 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I'm ugly crying. This song needs to be heard. Thank you for your bravery.

  • @angelaledesma3062
    @angelaledesma3062 5 ปีที่แล้ว +155

    I made the decision to make myself infertile- partially due to a disinterest to have children, but mostly out of fear out of passing on my mental illnesses/issues to a mini person. My partner has two boys, and I love them as much as I am able, but this song still brought legitimate, genuine tears to my eyes. Thank you Amanda, for being a beautiful, vulnerable human being...

    • @TwinkleToestheBerserker
      @TwinkleToestheBerserker 5 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      I made that same decision - if you can call it that - because of my seizure disorder. Just because you've made the healthy, moral decision for you and the hypothetical child doesn't mean that it's easy or any less painful. I see you. I love you.

    • @angelaledesma3062
      @angelaledesma3062 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@TwinkleToestheBerserker Thank you so much. It always helps to feel less alone in the world.

    • @ephraimlessell
      @ephraimlessell 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Angela, I too have lived a life with mental illness, and thank you for sharing your tough decision. -Ephraim Lessell

    • @tiffanyh.3467
      @tiffanyh.3467 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      I'd don't know if I've ever told anyone, but one of my several reasons for deciding not to have kids also has to do with fear of passing on depressive disorders. Thanks for sharing.

    • @ainumahtar
      @ainumahtar 5 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      My partner and I have made the same decision for the same reason. Once you settle on not having kids it becomes so obvious how expected it is to have them, and how much society pushes you into it. I feel so lucky to love someone who completely agrees with me regarding this matter.

  • @petergillet5682
    @petergillet5682 5 ปีที่แล้ว +268

    Thank you for bravely, logically, and compassionately centering this song with the person having the abortion.

    • @orchidlover08
      @orchidlover08 5 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      I don't think I have ever experienced something like this before. The Power and the tenderness, thank you for writing such a heartbreakingly beautiful song. I wish I'd had it 33 years ago.

    • @OscarMartinez-yx2hn
      @OscarMartinez-yx2hn 5 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      @@lukez990Anyone can have bravery, different forms of bravery. Still bravery though

    • @petergillet5682
      @petergillet5682 5 ปีที่แล้ว +37

      @@lukez990 She has literally had death threats from the art she creates, and yet continues to come back and create art which is needed. That is also bravery.

    • @NanaYawAforo
      @NanaYawAforo 5 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@lukez990 you're a real piece of shit

    • @TwinkleToestheBerserker
      @TwinkleToestheBerserker 5 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      @@lukez990 Bravery is not limited to soldiers, police officers, and firefighters.

  • @ozlembulut6510
    @ozlembulut6510 5 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    I have never had an abortion or even got pregnant but it's unbelievable how powerfully you communicate those feelings, any kind of feeling actually, so that I burst out crying every time I listen to this. Also the video and Kate Adams are just beautiful. Thank you Amanda for being the brave goddess that you are and thanks for ALL THE FEELS.

  • @Ashleyh13
    @Ashleyh13 5 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    I never really had the chance to talk to and confide in someone during my experience. My bf at the time, my first bf I had ever had, was not exactly supportive through the emotional and physical pain. I never told my friends. It took me a couple of years to tell my parents, but it was very brief and just that it had happened. It is strange to see my brothers step son around the same age and to ponder what life would be like. I wish I had a group of friends like you to hug and cry with. I look forward to seeing you in Boston. Thank you for sharing your amazing talent with us all. This is hard to write, but I hope it helps others reading it.

    • @wojo4hitz
      @wojo4hitz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I know the Boston show just happened, and I hope it was as cathartic, comforting, or healing for you as I have seen it be for others. ❤

  • @etherialstatic6557
    @etherialstatic6557 5 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    This is a hard one for me. My father had 3 women pregnant at the same time. One aborted, one raised the child as another’s, my mother raised me alone with the truth. Who knows which was right. My life hasn’t always been happy but it is now. This song makes me love my mother more. Thank you Amanda.

  • @danielleanner2887
    @danielleanner2887 5 ปีที่แล้ว +112

    I have ten and seven year olds now, but ten years before that, in my 20s, I had my time. I faced it with steely resolve because there was just no way. But they botched it and I ended up being fired from my temp job because I had to go to the hospital in the middle of a project, but it turned out to be a Catholic hospital so they turned me away. I still carry feelings about that chapter, the sanctimonious fuckers in the world that shame us when we just need love and care.
    Anyway, thanks for this song.

    • @TheCheesecakedeath
      @TheCheesecakedeath 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Danielle Anner oh no I am so sorry. That's awful

  • @SisterNo-No
    @SisterNo-No 5 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Amanda, thank you from the bottom of my heart for this song... It's been thirteen years since my abortion, and it STILL breaks my heart.
    I wish you could have been the friend who held my hand.

  • @andromedasmoons3647
    @andromedasmoons3647 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    There are so many women in the world who need this kind of love and compassion

  • @teddy7034
    @teddy7034 5 ปีที่แล้ว +128

    I love all of you. Heres a cake. Heres some flowers. You matter. Your heart matters. Dont let anyone tell you different.

  • @phoebediamond8809
    @phoebediamond8809 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Every time I hear this, in concert, at home while working, in my classroom after my students have gone for the day, it moves me to tears. Twice in my life I have needed to make this decision, twice I have had no regrets for that choice, and yet each time I listen to your words I feel the agony of making the decision and dealing with the post abortion emotions all over again. I'm so glad you wrote this song, and so deeply sad that women all over are still being berated for making this choice. It is hell, even when one is certain that it is the correct decision at the time, it is just hell.

  • @missnikg86
    @missnikg86 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    To sing of shame and the space between grief and what is right for the person is so powerful X the true connection at the end is what makes life worth it. ❤️

  • @lillith665
    @lillith665 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This song completely tore away the patched up bandaids, unraveled all of my desperate, poorly-wrought stitches, off of the places in my heart that have been there for 18, 20, 22 years. I had no idea that it was still so raw under there. This song IS MEDICINE. It acknowledges what we are never allowed to openly feel, takes away the cover from a taboo that is so taboo; we don’t dare acknowledge it exists.
    These are the words SO MANY have needed to hear...but *never* did.
    I have the deepest gratitude and respect for Amanda’s work here. It is bringing to light the fact that there was/is an unnamed grief in our society. One we have not dared to acknowledge. One that deserved to be elucidated. And I don’t have enough words to tell how much the opening up I’ve felt through this song means to me. It has done nothing less than given me a better chance to heal more wholly.
    🖤💜🖤💜🖤

  • @moviebuff2024-o6m
    @moviebuff2024-o6m 5 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    This is vital work. Vital work for our times. In tears.

  • @phoebediamond8809
    @phoebediamond8809 5 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Two, never an easy decision. No regrets. I wish I had had a friend like you at each time.

  • @worriedshoes7869
    @worriedshoes7869 5 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I was holding my breath the whole video because when you first released the song to patreons I cried. The video was beautiful. And when we first see you, that pushed me over the edge and I was crying again. Thank you for allowing me to cry. Love you a lot.

  • @ashleymarie3714
    @ashleymarie3714 5 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    We live in a state where it has become very hard to get abortions now. My friend has left for another state after finding out she was pregnant. She's healing well and has started school I just hate for her to have been alone. Some of us would rather be alone. I'm going to send her this. You're always on time Amanda. Since I was 14 you have never missed a beat.
    Sincerely with love

    • @ashleymarie3714
      @ashleymarie3714 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I want to hug her so bad now 😭

  • @KattTaylor
    @KattTaylor 5 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    Amanda, you are making art and creating community and I am so very proud to be a small strand in the net you are weaving together. No matter what choices we make for ourselves, we all need the freedom to make them, that autonomy needs to be the basic right supported by all. That’s what we require, here you go further and lead the way into an intelligent and empathetic vision of what we need. To be able to reach out to each other with kindness and understanding, to suspend judgements and rhetoric and really see and be with each other. This is beautiful and important and I love you.❤️

  • @chaosrah
    @chaosrah 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I didn't know what this was about when I clicked, but I didn't get a minute in before I started sobbing.

  • @TheBrandyBean
    @TheBrandyBean 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I didn't know I needed this... It's dark times here, but things like this are the flickering light that I hope will lead my way. Thank you.

  • @Laam_music
    @Laam_music 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Is there somebody that hasn't cried with this video? It is so sad and beautiful at the same time. Thank you, Amanda.

  • @udainasser2018
    @udainasser2018 5 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Isn't it amazing how we can never tell who is in an identical hell

  • @clarityburns1296
    @clarityburns1296 5 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I said I wasn't going to cry, but I ended up crying. That was good, very good.

  • @roguelily7957
    @roguelily7957 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I had to come today, less than a week after the overturn of roe v wade. My heart hurts right now for every woman in America.

  • @RedRosesDead07
    @RedRosesDead07 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    The memories really came back watching this... thank you, Amanda. This is a song (and video) America taught me I shouldn't ask for but needed so much without knowing it. Compassion with every word and note, bless you 🖤🖤

  • @lunaireticb4162
    @lunaireticb4162 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Everytime memories return and I need a hug, I came here. ♥️ Thank you for always being here for me, Amanda.

  • @mezlandia
    @mezlandia 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I live in the desert. It's 2:30 am as I finish watching this and as I cry, unexpected rain begins to fall. Thank you, Amanda Palmer.

  • @abnerdesouza7550
    @abnerdesouza7550 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    To have friends is really nice. We can let ourselves be, for no matter the judgement we may make of ourselves in time, they will never let us walk alone. This song touched my heart, only someone who's a good friend could ever have written it. Thank you, Amanda!

  • @bleeding9
    @bleeding9 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is tragically beautiful. And it made me think, personally and for so many of us, how many of us just walking down the street, or simply staring into the Nothing, that if someone would just stop reach over and tell us it will be ok and hug us. We the silent ones are always screaming the loudest.

  • @idamarieke2697
    @idamarieke2697 5 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I just cried. Thank you, Amanda.

  • @NoraSelf
    @NoraSelf 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    What you do is so important, Amanda. Thank you for existing, and for making the music that no one else makes.

  • @ofdotsandlines
    @ofdotsandlines 5 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    It's beautiful and I cried. Thank you ♥️

  • @katastropheneko8390
    @katastropheneko8390 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I don't know if you will read this, but every time I watch one of your videos you strike me as such a good pure human. You have been through a lot and still choose to see the best in the world. That is so inspiring to me. Please keep being you

  • @mcneelymackproperties
    @mcneelymackproperties 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    People need to see this now more than ever

  • @rmi9345
    @rmi9345 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Thank you for your music and thank you for your voice, Amanda.
    You use it for good.
    I couldn't stop crying when I heard this song, it's got such a powerful message and I'm sure that so many women will thank you for giving them the strength to come forward with their stories.
    Thank you, Amanda. ❤

  • @Catrector
    @Catrector 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    The worlds needs this. Thank you

  • @peterwill3168
    @peterwill3168 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Despite not being a woman, this still hits so hard... Me and my partner, we lost our girl 2 years ago, while she was still inside her... We didn't even know until the miscarriage happened... I lost my girl and I never even could see her... No matter how much time passes, this still destroys me so much... And this song encapsulates this feeling in a way I did not think possible. "It's a strange grief, but it's grief"... Thank you for doing what you do, Amanda. You're amazing. Truly.

  • @toridearman9627
    @toridearman9627 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much for this song. Thankfully when I had mine my mother was by my side and my husband was supportive of the decision. Most women though are not showered with the love they so need in a times like these. People need to hear this song. Thank you so much!

  • @jimdraven2432
    @jimdraven2432 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I doubt Miss Palmer will read this, I'm kinda late to the party here. I heard this at one point after my friend Eva died last month, & for some reason, I've been coming back to listen over and over again. I've been the "non-judgmental" & supportive hand being held for a few female friends over the years. One of them was Eva. I will never be able to feel what women who go through this feel. But if what I felt from her, from all of them, the look in their eyes, body language, how they all wouldn't let go of my hand or hugging me every time for hours, afterward, is any indication, it might be the hardest decision any human being could possibly make. And there should not be ANY judgment given, excuses made, or guilt felt. I stand with my friends who've gone through it, and with any one who will have to. I cry every time I hear this because I think of my friend Eva, taken so young, wishing she was hear to listen to this song with me & just smile. Thank You, Amanda Palmer. You've helped bring part of my friend back to life in many ways with this song. Love from Toronto Ontario Canada

  • @russellfrizell290
    @russellfrizell290 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    How on earth could anyone hit the dislike button on this?!? Such a tough subject and this song is amazing. I doubt there are many artists who could touch on an issue like this, or many who would dare. Well done Amanda.

  • @TheBrainsugarfreeze
    @TheBrainsugarfreeze 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    And I cry and cry listening to this. This is important. Thanks !

  • @venenosmodernos
    @venenosmodernos 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I know I won't ever be able to even remotely understand the pain of that decision, but thank you, thank you, thank you for giving me this beautifully devastating glimpse. Thanks to this song (and to all the tears that came along) I'm hoping now to become a tiny bit less unable to empathize. God, what beautiful work, Amanda. Glad you exist. A hug all the way from Brazil.

  • @cynhanrahan4012
    @cynhanrahan4012 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I am in tears, again. Thank you, that was so compassionate.

  • @marinajakovacz
    @marinajakovacz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I cried during the song, and each "thank you" I read, I cry again.

  • @ghoulyghoul9266
    @ghoulyghoul9266 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I can not thank you enough for this beautiful musical art piece. The art.. the powerful message.. showing that this in itself isnt something that is an easy choice. Thank you for not even knowing me but understanding. Thank you for wrapping your arms around so many with powerful lyrics.

  • @witchisinthebelltower2032
    @witchisinthebelltower2032 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I think the capturing of the leads inner turmoil,guilt and pain of having to make this decision was tastefully executed. I couldn't begin to fathom what this must feel like and how it would stick with someone as not only an emotional scar but a physical one for years to come.

  • @werrmo4658
    @werrmo4658 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    came here from Tim Ferris's podcast and I just want to say that I unbelievably respect what you do after I listened to your story. I wish you the best luck in everything

  • @moofy7624
    @moofy7624 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    It would've been its 19th birthday soon... I was a child in an abusive relationship with an unwanted potential bump; and yet I still mourn. This song has such a gravity on so many levels. Thank you for making it feel ok, Amanda

  • @joykay6588
    @joykay6588 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I am in tears. This is a truly moving piece of art.

  • @tashastubbs-davies3628
    @tashastubbs-davies3628 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I'm moved. This is how we should support each other. Some much love Amanda ♡

  • @cmootrey
    @cmootrey 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Amanda. I cannot fabricate any word to remotely describe how helpful you are.
    Thank you.

  • @Twocityvegans
    @Twocityvegans 5 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    Jesus that was incredible. Thank you so much. ❤️

    • @mayflowerlash11
      @mayflowerlash11 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Jesus bloody Christ, yes. She strings a few words together in a song and it breaks your heart and makes you cry. This is becoming a habit when listening to her songs.

  • @EspadaNeliel77
    @EspadaNeliel77 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I've never even been pregnant and I still found myself crying at this.

  • @darylannedodge8512
    @darylannedodge8512 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This is so beautiful. For anyone who’s ever had to make that very difficult decision please know that I believe your heart also matters.

  • @AeonX86
    @AeonX86 5 ปีที่แล้ว +56

    This video is even better than I imagined. You can see the roller coaster of emotions "Jill" is struggling with. I'm gonna say this again as I did for your audio vid for this song. I love you Amanda! I may be male but I have had many female friends go through this. Their hearts have always mattered to me. That's why I've supported them and their decision, Now most of them have beautiful children that I love. Pro-life people in America always take the "Murderer" route when they have no fucking idea what pain this decision takes. Yet they're only pro life until the baby is born. It's a total shit show as you know. I can't wait for your new album. Its going to be amazing. To all the "Jills" in the world I support and love you and whole heartedly respect your decision.❤❤❤💕

  • @aick
    @aick 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Still a genius. Check. Good lord I love Amanda Palmer music!

  • @marygaughan9292
    @marygaughan9292 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Absolutely beautiful and so important right now.

  • @RJ_Ehlert
    @RJ_Ehlert 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you, Amanda. Art helps us survive the bad times.

  • @chumby9920
    @chumby9920 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    hits different today

  • @colleenkatherine2937
    @colleenkatherine2937 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Thank you
    I had an abortion at 22. It was the worst experience of my life. Even thought it was necessary (medically, emotionally etc) I still have guilt and I still have to explain my way out of it. It's been just shy of 5 years and I still have that guilt. Thank you for a song that allows me to heal.

    • @ChaoticallyMe
      @ChaoticallyMe 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      💜 Love and virtual hugs to you Colleen 💜

  • @karlamunoz8353
    @karlamunoz8353 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Words can not express how this made me feel but I guess that's why you're here. Thank you ❤

  • @seniorzolo3433
    @seniorzolo3433 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm crying. Again. I'll be sharing this video.

  • @MeggonomiX
    @MeggonomiX 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    “you don't need a courtroom inside of your head
    Where you're acting as judge and accused and defendant and witness” -that hits so hard for so many things

  • @erind9999
    @erind9999 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This feels like one of the best and most important things I've seen in a long time. Thank you Amanda and Amber.

  • @TiffanyLPennywell
    @TiffanyLPennywell 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm not a big crier, but I did water while watching this and also reading the comments.
    I have not had an abortion, but I have been in the situation where I had to consider it when I was unsure if I was pregnant or not (and that was while on birth control). I know that I am not in the physical, emotional or financial situation to have another child. My last pregnancy was high risk due to two previous needed c-sections. My greatest fear that even with birth control that I would end up pregnant again and I would end up openly judged by those I know, love or are close to for choosing not to go through the health risks.
    My heart, empathy and sympathy go to out all the ladies who did have to make the decision. It is not easy. I know my children would have a better life with me than me risking my life and them losing their mother.

  • @knowlesmichael9873
    @knowlesmichael9873 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    A beautiful, sensitive song, from a woman, who really understands, the feelings of others.

  • @mammon_is_god
    @mammon_is_god 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Praise to you, Amanda. You are a gift to humanity.

  • @adjectivemak
    @adjectivemak 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Your art, music, even your lovely face, has given me such comfort for 10 years now. This is what makes me cry when I can't conjure up emotions from numbness. Thank you. I hope to meet you again someday.

  • @weaselmonkey1
    @weaselmonkey1 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    AFP you are able to bring words to thoughts and feelings that people lack the words to express. You are a treasure. you are loved (so loved) by this army of freaks, geeks, broken, bruised, brave, fearsome misfits.

  • @angelfox7059
    @angelfox7059 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    People need an artist like you and you change lives with your ripples and waves. You dropped this gem in the ocean and to those that find it they gain comfort and understanding they were so thirsting for. Thank you.

  • @zoeBlove
    @zoeBlove 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    WOW.... I can't even put into words how I felt the 1st time I listened to this song. So if I had to pick one adjective I would have to say 🎶SOULFUL🎶
    beyond words. I love ya AFP

  • @lyndseyfox615
    @lyndseyfox615 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    This was so beautiful and heartbreaking and kind xxx

  • @Windrays
    @Windrays 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This one hits different today.

  • @bizarreisthenewblack
    @bizarreisthenewblack 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    beautiful and amazing..as always

  • @frauwaterkant2342
    @frauwaterkant2342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Wow. Just wow. I literally can not stop crying. You put my ‚grief‘ in words. ♥️

  • @augustchildemma
    @augustchildemma 5 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    If music had fists I would be unconscious from that.