★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.
Hey! Just came across your channel today and it’s been inspiring! If it isn’t too intrusive to ask, have you decided to stop your docu-series? How has things been for you lately? Again I hope I’m not being rude, and feel free to not answer if it’s more private info 😬 Loved how you documented the good and the bad, and always strived to stay positive even through the ups and downs!
I'm sorry your mama didn't realize that hurt you. But look at it that she was testing your resolve. :) I'm glad you are doing this for you health. Your skin has cleared up beautifully as well. My daughter loves sugar and has gotten Abit heavier, the insulin info thing really helped me understand it! TY!!
Alivia! My heart feels for you. I’m sorry your mom is giving you a hard time with losing weight. It’s the worst when someone else is trying to tell you how to eat, how to look and how to be healthy when you have your own journey. You’re brave for letting us see your true emotions. Food, weight, and body image are all struggles and I’ve dealt with it in the past too. Work on one thing at a time. Begin with the health in my mind and in your heart. to Accept yourself as you are now. Love your mind and your body for what it can do now. The way it looks is all temporary! Take your time.
I know how you feel my big brother is always giving me a hard time on my weight loss journey I have come really far and lost a lot of weight from when I first started but it's still not enough for him
Boo hoo. Your mom has a few choice words for you.. freaking grow up. There are people out there whose parents have done far worse.. by sexually assaulted their children, abused them or beat them... some dont even have parents at all. You should be lucky you have a mom who cares.
@@goatsfullofboats8559 you have a point but remember that just because your problems aren't as big as somebody else's doesn't mean that they don't matter and can't cause damage to someone.
When she started talking about her mother telling her to stop trying I felt that. My mother is Filipina and when she grew up she didn't get to eat as much as she wanted and was also malnourished. So, whenever she sees me dieting or trying to cut back on food, she doesn't understand. And it doesn't help that my 3 sisters are skinny and my brother is muscular. When I saw her crying because of that, I felt that.
Exactly the same here. All my family have super quick metabolism but I don't have nearly at all. So they can basically eat whatever they want still staying skinny and perfect, but I'm here gaining weight and being overweight as fuck. I'm only 14. Why can't they understand HUMANS ARE REALLY COMPLICATED ANIMALS. AND NOT THE SAME.
@AngryLilMadScientist It's mostly because family members are people one associates with comfort and support, so you can end up depending a lot on their validation, which in turn makes everything they say/do that can hurt, hurt a lot more than it should. Her mother didn't mean to hurt her feelings, but because of the context it ended up touching a very sore spot and having her insecurities thrown back at her by a loved one was her tipping point. I also am very sensitive when it comes to comments from my mom or family, yet not really care as much when they come from anyone else.
I literally was crying when she was talking about the stuff her mom said me too my mom would always tell me to go loose weight and get prettier i am always avoiding my mom now i feel good honestly but its so hurtful you hear you're own mom calling you ugly 😭
you are not ugly. hurt people hurt people. take your time in developing a body you feel beautiful in. you know you best, listen to your heart and body. if you are healthy, your weight does not matter. your weight does not define you. don't let her words stop you from becoming the best person you can be. you owe it to yourself to learn, grow, and see what you can do mentally and physically. i am proud of how far you've come and how far you will go. you are not ugly.
whenever i would eat badly for a meal and say “i’ll restart tomorrow” my mom would say “so if you get a flat tire do you go around and cut holes in the rest of your tires?” and that sticks with me constantly
When i was obese my asian family and extended family always told me to lose weight and when i lost all those weight that i must lose they told me im too skinny when im in my needed weight ( im very healthy at that time) and they told me to eat more and now i gained weight again and they start telling me again to lose weight again. Im starting my healthy lifestyle journey again wish me luck.
I hear you. I too have Asian parents but I think it's just not an Asian thing. When you lose weight, they tell you to eat more because you look sick. And when you gain some weight, they'll tell you to stop eating because they think you look ugly. So I think the only thing we can do is to be our goal weight, whatever feels healthy and makes us happy rather than what society expects us to be. I know it's easier said than done, but I hope you and me both will be happy with ourselves ❤️
@@athirakrishna2780 we can do it. I cam say im happy on my weight and with my physical appearance even tho my family constantly bully me for being "fat" but anyways im happy that i enjoy what i have and what i receive in my very existence
They are like; eat more, I dont wanna see you skinny....and mom calls every single person and tells them Im working out....And when I started eating healthy my mom suddenly developed a habit of baking cakes in the evening...wtf?!
@@weirdasff Same here. Everytime I decide to give up on being healthy, the junk food is never there but I have started back my healthy lifestyle four days ago and now there are always cakes, candies and fast foods in my house and its not making this journey easier.
@@ihatethescammys.loveyn.5979 Ikr! Before all this (before I clearly figured out the strategy for good weight loss, I used to say weight loss all the time but would still eat junk when I would feel like it lol)..., I used to ask mom to try making different dishes from youtube.. SHE WOULD NEVER LISTEN! It would have been good now if mom made cakes and everything and not forced me to eat it! If I try saying I don't want it then she's like why are you being like this? Don't be on harsh diet! Dont be on diet! you are not gonna compete for miss world are you?, just be like a normal person etc etc... Seriously Im not even on diet, I just reduced the amount of food I ate ! I would never be overweight if I didnt have the habit of eating processed food in primary school... she could've stopped me from that but my parents and WHOLE FAMILY have a firm belief that being slim is unhealthy and being fat is healthy! I had 1 cousin who had a slim and good body and others would always ask her to gain weight and would make her insecure, she believed them. Its my body and I have the right to to do what I want! They like me "fat" and say I look beautiful like that but I want to be fit ... I DONT CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK, IF THEY THINK BEING SLIM MAKES YOU LOOK BAD I JUST DONT CARE!! JUST MOVE ON WITH LIFE PPL! LET ME DO WHAT I WANT WITH MY LIFE! AND YES ITS NOT MAKING IT ANY EASIER FOR ME EITHER.... ( Sorry I wrote too long.. I just wanted to share.. there's no one that'll listen to me here..)
I can’t tell you how much I love this series. It’s inspired me to start my own journey and honestly these videos have changed my mindset a lot. Your advice is amazing and just seeing someone else go through those kind of ups and downs gives me more motivation to keep going because I see I’m not the only one that has them. I wish this series wouldn’t ever end but thank you for all the work you have and will continue to put in them!
I know you mentioned that some people ask if this series ever has a end or why its so long - But honestly, how long it’s taking because it feels realistic. As someone who also has struggled with body image and a healthy mindset and relationship with food, it’s refreshing to see someone document their journey in such a real way. A real journey towards health is long and takes so much time and is full of slip ups and is not linear at all. It’s so hard! I’m so glad you’re doing this series!
I love this series and I would not want it to finish. It is almost like a walkthrough for how to do life. We have one life and she is telling us how to use it efficiently. She helps me so much and I gained so much confidence. My mom has been quite hard on me regarding my body image but i learnt how to not listen to her awful comments. Edit: sorry for my crappy grammar.
LMAO I went to caffe and ordered doughnuts and they served me it with a fork , i swear i didn't notice it till i was almost done with the doughnut, i mean what the hell
It's acc so dark outside it's not even funnyyy when I used to wake up at 5:15 for all it was pitch black outiside and cus my skl was like 2 hours away plus clubs and train rides I was coming back in pitch darkness as well ;-;
Your whole mom moment at the end..I felt that. One of the most important people in my life who I treasure dear and beyond love is that person to me when I try to change myself for the better in any situation and it just breaks me, because they're supposed to be the one person who doesn't do that to me. And yet I also value when they call me out because I need someone to do so, but it still rips me up inside and hurts, because they don't understand even though they've tried to and are still trying.
No I feel you, anytime I eat a SALAD my parents would ask me "ARE YOU ON A DIET??HOW MUCH WEIGHT DID YOU LOSE" it is hard when these people just criticize you without even knowing. IT IS HONESTLY HARD, this is NOT a diet, just let me be and happy with myself.
@@ragaprasanna2697 Yes! It was super hardwell I was living under their roof, but give yourself 100% credit for the things that you can control it take control of that. Your situation is only temporary, and you are able to change your life no matter what happens in the end.feel free to tell me more about your life and if this advice has helped on Instagram! I'm thefitty.
@@Thefitty this is was soooo nice of you !! ☺️it does make a lot of difference to how I feel, thanks a lot !!!!!!!! I am Raga, nice to get to know you 🙂😄
@@ragaprasanna2697 nice to meet you, Raga! Just keep remembering that your situation is notpermanent! Keep a journal and write down all of your thoughts, values, and feelings and keep that secret to you. Everything you write in that journal is the very outlet you may not be able to have within the household. Make this your little secret :)
I love how open she is with us instead of trying to sweep it under the rug. Mistakes happen but we grow and learn from us. And the clip about her mom was relatable.. the people close to us don't mean harm but sometimes they don't know what's best.
I understand, my mom always criticize me with everything too. She doesn't know it hurts you but it does. Be strong girl!!!! You're really beautiful btw.
12:14 - 12:25 I feel that 😔 I’m in a place on my journey where it hard to just explain it to people and having a family member not understand just makes it even harder then it already is
im addicted to your channel. I am currently stuck in the mindset of "Once my circumstances change, i will change." "Once i move i will be healthy and work out and wake up and stop x,y,z habits" But watching your channel gets me inspired and for a second i get a little push to try, it doesnt last but i at least go to the gym that day.
Wow. This is literally me. I always feel like when I move, I’ll finally have the mindset and ability to start exercising and eating healthy. But deep down I feel like I should start now. I do try once in a while to get better habits and do at home workouts, but they normally last more than a few days, maybe a week tops before I go back to not doing it. Ughhhhh
Hey Alivia - I relate so much to when your mom was giving you a hard time; my mom is Taiwanese and I’m visiting her side of the family for thanksgiving...she keeps mentioning to all my aunties how much weight I gained. Asian moms 🙄 Anyways, I appreciate your glow up video series and your willingness to be vulnerable-it’s nice to not feel alone in our journey to become healthier!
Relatable. I’m literally exercising and eating healthy consistently for a few weeks now. I’m home for thanksgiving break, and almost every single day my mom comments how I need to lose weight or exercise. The exercise part I don’t get because I literally have been telling her what fun workouts I’ve been trying out😂💀
I have the opposite reactions. I'm hispanic, and in Latin america society, being "thick" or heavy is seen as attractive. I'm stick thin and so my relatives are constantly commenting on how I'm so thin, and that I need to eat more. What makes it worse is that they always have to compare my body to theirs. They will pick up my wrists or fingers just to compare how mine are so much smaller and thinner than theirs. Part of my self esteem issues are because of them. It doesn't help that I live in Texas where almost everybody is bigger. In highschool. I had athletics so i always had to show my body to dress into my uniform and other girls that i never talked to would always yell at the top of their lungs and comment on my body. "Do you even eat?" "Your so thin!" "Your ribs are showing!" "Your ankle is so skinny" "can I see your wrist?" "Ur like a stick". Now all I wear Is baggy clothes. Layering is key to me even if its 100 degrees. You will never see me wear skinny jeans. I will always have a jacket and baggy pants.
When you cried, I almost cried, and I cried over this every day. And I’m literally 12 and have people judge over my weight and that I’m taller than most people...😭
Im the same way, I was always taller in elementary school and middle(abt 5'5 ) and was skinny. I wasnt anorexic or anything it was just i didnt eat much. People told me to gain weight so I did, but I hated the way I looked. Then when it came to losing that weight it was very hard. Im still trying to lose that weight but its such a hassle.I regret ever listening to them, dont make the same mistake and allow yourself to feel happy with how you look! :)
I have that problem but im short. People look at me like im a roach just because im a little overweight. I've tried to loose weight, but i feel like I cant, and im so insecure about my body, mainly because all the other girls are so perfect, and beautiful and then there is me. The trash bag potato. I dont even eat a lot, but i still gain weight, and its even worse because im 4 10 and i weigh 120 pounds. 😭
@@Victoria-xn9ft well there’s nothing wrong with potatos🥰 I’m the same way....in just 5’6 and I’m in middle school and get made fun of cause of my height
@@imanuglyrat4388 i think you're really tall lol. My mom and dad are 5 4, and my older brother is in 7th grade and he is 5 feet tall, so we are all short in my family, but im a trash bag potato.
When you started crying it actually broke my heart like you seem so fucking sweet and like such a wonderful person and seeing you cry made me so sad. Happy you're in a healthier place now
Basma I wanted to hug her through the screen and stroke her hair , tell her I’m here with her and it’ll be okay and wipe her tears away. (I’m a very emotional and caring person lol)
When i was your age, or maybe even younger( i was 15), I tried to look after my skin. So one day after i had applied my usual moisturizer etc i saw my mother looking at me, disdainfully she said "Why do you even bother with this stuff, you still look ugly after all the effort" Back then I had crystal clear skin. but i gave up and started hating myself. I've never been able to forget that. Since i was a child, she always remembered to mention how ugly i was in front of her friends and relatives. Now years later, after being married and having 2 kids, 10+ years with having skin/weight problems, i still get snasty sentences thrown at me whenever i am trying to get better, but nothing when i have really bad skin or weight issues. She actually can't seem to tolerate me looking (or trying to look) decent.
I am so sorry to hear that. I hope that your husband is treating you better than her. I recomend to you that you stop talking to her. Tell her that you cant because your kids are sick and if she still wants to come say that she can get that sickness from them. While that fake sickess is there go running,workout,skincare.... Good luck sweetie! You are not alone💖
This is a tell tale sign that the problem lies with your mom and how she views herself. You aren’t the problem. You are an example since young of what she could be but can’t be. You were never ugly. Nothing probably was wrong with your body either.
@@DaMushroomBit That really is the irony. i may not be beautiful or perfect but I never was ugly. I dont even know what ugly is.. I am fairly tall, medium built, good hair, medium fair complexion, my features may a little thick but in no way revolting. I am not deformed, and even deformed, for me, is not the same as ugly. What does make someone "ugly" except bad attitude? In fact, people often compliment me, even though, after all these years, I can't get my self to accept them. Whenever I put any effort in my appearance, whether its a flattering dress, or skin care regime, she immediately pulls me down. Just last year at my brother's wedding she called me ugly in front of my new sister in law and cousins. But she is completely OK when i look like a mess with unkempt hair, bad skin unflattering clothes.
The point of eating healthy is after having a cheat day you go back to eating healthy and watching what you eat, That's what my parents don't get, On Sundays I have a cheat day and eat anything I crave. That's what my parents don't understand. I don't have to eat salad every single day for every meal to be healthy. So I always get shamed and feel bad about it. And because my parents don't agree with rating healthy and "Dieting" they always judge me for eating salad and cook me unhealthy meals at lunch and force me to eat fries and bread and cheese and whatever else there is. It's just frustrating
wohoooo ! I could go on for forever talking about how problematic cheat days and dieting in general is but I’m just gonna tell you that it’s not worth it ! Eat what YOU want whenever you want ! Don’t try to control your body ! Our bodies are smarter than we think !
Since I live with my parents, I cant be on a diet and now Im okay with it... But this year ,once I decided to eat healthy I sticked to my decision and never got back but my mom is like you are 'dieting' so she started making unhealthy snacks all of a sudden ,yester years I used to ask her to make something good yet she would make something bad and now she wants to make me eat all unhealthy things as possible...
When I was at my lowest, struggling and so damn lost, my mom asked me: "what's wrong with you?" and that really hit me hard I guess...like it was my fault I chose to be malnourished, frail and difficult with food, but I knew she was just really concerned about me and just couldn't relate to my situation. I was sick of trying to justify why I chose to be 'healthy' and the more I tried to reason, it seemed like i was taking a step forward and a thousand steps back. It seemed like i was masking the truth and indulging in clear lies that i was fine when i really wasn't. I finally had enough, i stopped asking myself, i willed myself to stop thinking about the what ifs or the negatives, i stopped justifying exactly WHY i choose to eat the way now (i'm recovered from an almost ED, been almost 2 years now) and I just let myself be. I enjoy food to live, and I live to appreciate good food and not spend milliseconds trying to find a reason for anything, really, and i guess it takes time and patience but to all of you who are struggling in a battle with your demons, I want you to know that IT WILL and CAN get better with effort and perseverance. Love you!!
@@sno9044 i realize that every single person commenting with a bts pfp, there'll DEFINITELY be one person replying with "ARMY!!!!!" and stuff like that, but like why? no hate, just an observation and being curious.
marshmallows i guess it’s acknowledgement of seeing someone share an enjoyment that you also like? I guess it’s like seeing a pop culture reference on a stranger’s tshirt while you’re at a shop..
holy fuck “ its not about weight loss its about being healthier” that hit different thnx a lot OMG when you started to cry i wanted to cry too because i relate so much omg
the fact that your really trying to better yourself is all that matters. living a healthy life is what i’m trying to strive for and watching your videos is helping me realize that. it’s hard asf but knowing that i’m not alone and seeing that i can relate makes me realize that i shouldn’t be so hard on myself. it’s a long journey but it feels like it will be sosoo worth it. you’re doing great! 💗
i totally understand how much those words from her mom hurt her. like, i've been in that situation so many times. my mom always had ( and still have) issues with my weight cause i'm overweight than my age. and for that i had to listen so many words from her time to time which are not so pleasing. even one day she told me something hurtful about my eating time and stuffs when i just sat for dinner and didn't even get the chance to give the first bite to my food. well, it hurt, hurt so much.
I’m sorry that your mum made you feel that way :( My mum also used to call me fat, and while I was overweight it didn’t help being constantly and randomly being reminded of that… I remember when I broke down and cried and snapped at her for saying those hurtful words (more hurtful than being called fat, anyways). I told her that maybe she had intentions of encouraging me to lose weight, it wasn’t the right way to do so. We’re asians so parents’ love language is to diss you half the time. I don’t know your situation but maybe you could tell her how you feel (if you haven’t already) next time she says hurtful words.
When you said “healthy, healthy, healthy, not weight loss, weight loss, weight loss” I couldn’t agree more. Earlier this year, I found out that my vitamin deficiencies were making me gain weight and therefore it was causing other health issues so I was told that I had to lose weight. Keep in mind that weight loss was never important to me and I’m glad because of that, instead my focus was on reaching a healthy BMI and getting a healthier body. I think this is what kids my age don’t think about=Weight loss over healthy. Not healthy over weight loss.
You are such a precious baby I just want to hug you. Also you’ve opened up my eyes to the fact that EVERYONE struggles with weight and health. Honestly if I saw you on the street I’d just assume happy naturally skinny girl. And to know that you go thru the same struggles my 210 lb ass goes thru is just comforting. Not that I want you to suffer. But just proves that we are all human battling our demons. No matter what our outsides look like ❤️
I totally understand u. My family doesn't understand my hard ship. My family is kind, but they don't understand me, and they try to control me. I'm on my own path! I control what I do, no one else! I totally got u girl!!
I also fight with my parents often, they separated about a year ago and ever since I am the one between them and their fights, they always rant to me about each other and no matter how many times I tell them to stop pulling me into their problems, they don't listen. Thanks to you and your videos I am sure it will be better one day tho and everybody fights with their parents from time to time, thank you Alivia we will all go though it together
I have same problems with my family like everyday they know I am trying to lose weight as I am chubby girl but still they say those demotivating things to me ..I feel you 😢 nobody really gets it . PS: you give me those vibes I never knew I needed ♥️
i do understand you a lot, like how can someone that you trust say something like that when you thought they will be the one(s) who will be couraging you through the journey. its just another level of pain to hear harsh and cruel word coming from their mouth. ive already face it before, just because i was chubby and plump they said (my aunts, brother, uncles) i look much older than my sister, my sister looks beautifuler and younger and i look sluggish and scruffy just like an old woman, the fact that i know my sister do looks better than me makes it harder to bare, and to be detailed im at airport by the time that happen so i just excused myself and cry alone at the bathroom stall. istg that will be my most painful shit ive ever going thru in my weightloss journey. plus i also got a daily dose of painful weightloss motivation quotes from my mom, every single thing that i did will just get judge constantly from her. when i do some healthy meal grocery shopping she will start saying "stop buying those expensive oragnic things or even too much fruits, you are not even losing weight!" or when im doing some no equipment abs workout she'll say "youll dislocate your hips if you continue doing that". but afterall im here, 5'2 and 116 pounds and happy so i guess the pain kinda worth it. guys we got this, ily♡
I remember that time when my dad told me to "take it easy on food" because I was having 2 pancakes with a nut of butter on top for Sunday breakfast. He told me that when I was a 15 yo growing girl that was practicing swimming 6h a week and would fit in a size S. Don't always listen to your parents, they're not always speaking the truth and don't always want what's good for you.
@@alexis504 I now share the same mindset, but it takes quite some time to reach that point when the people tearing you down are supposed to be the ones who care the most about you
Emotionally immature family members or friends can really be huge obstacles to I guess scapegoats like us who are trying our best to break the toxic cycle. Sadly we can’t really stop or prevent others from speaking ignorantly about us and how we eat, we luckily can allow ourselves to feel sad about the hurtful & disrespectful comments they made and still choose to be kind to ourselves. We can only control our own actions regardless of how we feel. Proud of you for not letting those comments stopped you from living a healthy lifestyle & have healthy relationships with food. Healthy relationships with food doesn’t mean we can no longer eat food that contains sugar and fat. It just means that we can choose to eat healthy food, choose to move our bodies, and still enjoy life without restrictions because we can’t just satisfy our body we have to satisfy our mind too.
I would love for Alivia to have a podcast someday. Honestly, I like rewatching the Glow-Up Diaries while I'm doing things to have motivation and self-reflection during this time where I feel lost and my low points. Each episode really reflects life we learn chapter by chapter.
I was and am still facing a similar situation in my house, I know I can't trust anyone and nobody gives a damn, it just bothered me Soo much I stopped studying to take revenge from my parents and get their attention. I realised that even if I got average grades, they didn't give a shit, so I knew I had to figure my life out by myself. It was difficult to accept it for a year, sometimes it hits me and I feel like giving up. But after watching you deal with it, express it out, opening up about it and doing your best in life really inspires me and makes me feel like I can also deal with this utter bullshit. Don't get me wrong I'm not insulting you. Thank you for posting this video🙂🙂
Alivia hiii, I'ave dealt with your body issue for 3 and a half years and watching these videos helps me to get over it. thank you for showing your progress, You inspire and motivate me to be more healthy and happy:)
I wish you all the best in your journey and wherever life may decide to take you. You’re an inspiration to many including me and I’m not just talking skin-wise either (although that too).
Can I tell y'all about my glow up story. So when I started high school, I was really chubby. My cheeks were so huge that my eyes were squinted, my tummy was really huge and bloated, my thighs were packed with fat and I was generally unhappy with my body because all my life my family and peers had been body shaming me and making me feel horrible about myself. At the end of my first HS year we went on holiday (US: vacation) at a beach resort, all I thought about was losing weight and my little sister agreed to embark on this weight loss journey coz out of the 4 daughters of our parents, we were the chubby ones. We worked up the courage to tell our parents that we wanted to lose weight and to please buy us healthy food. I remember the look of pure nonchalance and skepticism on their faces and I wanted to prove them SO wrong. The next year I started eating healthy and working out: S/O to My homegirl Cassey Ho of Blogilates for her dope home workouts. I didn't tell any of my friends because I didn't want to see them doubt me like my parents did. And our school wears uniforms so they were not able to see me losing weight because the uniforms are great at hiding everyone's body shape and form. Plus there are cake sales every friday at our school, which my friends buy from in ample quantity, which made sitting with them during our breaks really tempting. However, I had an iron will and laser focus. My friends started noticing the salads and wholewheat bread and asked me what was up and I just brushed it off by saying that I just wanted to eat a freaking salad. My little sister, however, didn't let me help her let go of junk food and constantly ate junk behind my back so she never got to lose weight. The weight loss mindset kind of just fell away for me, and after 3 weeks or a month or so I got to the point where I enjoyed healthy food. Like I didn't crave junk food anymore and the school cake sales didn't tempt me anymore. You could literally wave a slice of pizza in my face and I wouldn't even want it. After 3 months I had slimmed down quite a lot and I coincidentally had a bit of a growth spurt during this period as well, which helped lean out my body (i'm 160 cm/ 5'2'' rn so you can imagine how short and stubby I was before). And the craziest part- MY WEIGHT DIDN'T CHANGE. Anyways, I looked much better and after the term was over and the Easter holidays began, I had a KFC ice-cream (it made me very ill and gave me stomach cramps and diarrhoea which is how I learned that dairy is not my best friend). And since then I lost my healthy mindset and have fallen back into junk food. However, I eat it in moderation, and my breakfast, lunch and dinner is usually healthy with some unhealthy snacks in between. Luckily, it's very hard for my body to lose weight, but also to gain weight, so even through my binges and snacking, I haven't gained that much. And my body gains weight more in the thighs, so now I have that kinda slim thicc body and my family and peers have never called me fat again. Now they tell me I have a nice body and a legendary glow-up. I'm sorry if i sound conceited. Know that consistency and willpower is key and everything is possible. TLDR: I lost weight and maintained it, proving my family and peers wrong. Edit: thank you for the likes guys. It took about 3 months and I took progress pics every 2 weeks (I didn’t use the scale until I was done). And I’m glad I could inspire some of you 💜
looks like it was their fault that you even got chubby in the first place, considering the fact that they were skeptical about even getting rid of the junk food for you and your sister.
That's an amazing story, I can lose weight easily and gain muscle anywhere apart from my stomach, literally ANNOYING AF. and i dont have an iron will Im too lazy. However I can also gain weight easily which is hard for me.
I cannot express how much your series hits home. I am and still continue with my own health (physically and mentally) but your videos truly encourage and inspire me to keep pushing. Your videos are the reminders I need on my down days. Thank you so much for the content you provide Alivia. Love you ♡♡♡
This series has inspired me and really changed how I view my health. I can’t thank you enough for sharing you journey and help me start mine. I struggle a lot with stress and this has really helped. Thank you Alivia.
sharing these vulnerable moments helped me and im sure many others SO SO MUCH. because having food problems is such a weird and complex problem to have so thank you for this truly!!!
Just going here to thank you! Here I am, 5 months ago I started my healthy journey, first start eating what I considered healthy for breakfast and making a bit of cardio, then eating actually more healthy in every meal but then I stopped making ejercise, and finally I started growing as a person, and realizing what I was doing to my body, at first I just want to loose weight but never checking my actual weight scared for illnesses, because most of my family have diabetes and weight stuggles, was then when I beggin excersise again, not just to be skinny or faster, I did it because I wanted to be healthy, and finally yesterday I encourage my self and check my weight and I discovered I loose 13kg and I have never being too fat, but know I in the best shape ever, now with a new me, someone who have a healthy relation with food and excersise, someone happy and with a healthy self-esteem, someone who doesn't care about other say about her, someone happy. Thanks! Thanks for make me realize! Good luck for the ones who just started, if I did it, you could totally do it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Last week I went on two trips with my class, and for some reason the class always stops at McDonald's for lunch. When my friends offered me some, I said, "I dont eat that" and I didn't. Im so glad too
This hits so close to home. I myself struggle with overeating, and then judging myself and calling myself horrible for eating 'that snack'. I too want to start a healthy relationship with food, but I know I am still mentally weak. This is the exact reason as to why I am here today, watching all of your episodes. It gives me hope, that I too can do it. It is not going to be easy, but it will certainly be worth it. Thank you for being a great example, and staying true to yourself as because of you I now can make the decision to live healthily and not criticise myself on a daily basis, as I now know I am not in this myself.
I used to be thin when I was young and was always teased for my weight. Over the years I started gaining weight and was teased by my friends and family that I have gotten very fat. One of my friends compared me to an elephant in the basketball court in school in front of everyone. And that was it for me. My real binge started from there. I ate to overcome all the shame, hurtful comments and just find happiness. Eating gave me comfort, company and control. But once I finished eating instant anxiety and guilt would take over me. I used to compare myself to others and eat in guilt. Watching your videos helped me to realise that I'm not the only one out here going through this.
@@heylove9016 It was and still is quite a struggle but its people like you who make me want to forget my painful past. Thank you for your comment it really means a lot to me because back then I had no one who could understand what I was going through. Thank you! ❤️
Man I love this series... it’s so incredibly inspiring to be healthy and also to remember that it’s okay to struggle and let others know you’re struggling. Thank you Alivia!
1. Your pfp is absolutely adorable! ❤️ 2. That's really sweet of you! Ik this is late feedback bc she's moved on from this season and what not, but I just loved reading this comment. It's as if you see her everyday in real life! 🥺💘
I had this irregular heartbeat thingy when my bulimia was at its worst. To my delight, I got so scared of it, the bulimia lessened (didn't go away completely, but let's say to 80%). Your body gives you warning signs for when something isn't right. When that happens, listen to it.
"You didnt come this far, to only come this far" my fav quote for anyone that needs it I make videos like the glow up diaries would adore if any kind people would check it 💕
When you talked about having a nightmare about eating i remembered that when i was struggling with anorexia i would wake up totally terrified when I had a nightmare about eating.
Once I told a random stranger to try focusing on gratitude. Years later I met her again and she said it had turned her life around. She quit some pretty negative habits. She runs her own yoga studio in Atlanta and teaches internationally. The secret is that gratitude is a direct path to self confidence.
I am the same way up with my mother, she is very th in AND I have always struggled with body image and mental health. When I told her how it felt when I wouldn't eat or would over eat, she told me I just needed to "control it" or "it isn't that hard to just stop eating". Keep in mind I was so hungry I was having dreams about eating food.
I also wanted to cry and say all the pain, I used to be overweight and my sisters are skinny, people around us compare me to them like what the ef can't you understand that we have different body types. And now that I'm on the weight that I wanted, they're telling me that I'm too skinny and look ugly. "You need to gain weight" "you used to be so beautiful", "you need to eat more","you look sick" and etc. words are hurtful but let me tell y'all it's all about how you feel for yourself and what you want for yourself, it's not about what they want for you.
11:10 I relate to this so much because I’ve had so many fights with my parents which made me look done on my self. I grew up in a culture where being thin is the ideal body. I started hating my body around 9 or 10. This mostly happened because around that time one of my cousins started loosing weight and her mom would tell everyone and show it off like an award. Then my dad would say things to me about how I should loose weight because I’ll look more “pretty”. My cousin would also chime and make comments like “Your belly is big.” I would act like it didn’t matter but really I felt like balling my eyes out. Over the years I developed social anxiety and absolutely loathing myself. I’m trying to like myself but it’s hard when there is no around you that can help you. My mom and dad, mostly dad, think this is just a “phase” or “joke”. “Talk more” or “You need to eat salad and soup or you won’t loose any weight” is what I hear everyday.
same, my parents gave me an eating disorder so now I'm a twenty year old who doesn't know how to eat lmao. Update: I read the comments lol. I know that its my responsibility to fix the damage and trust me im working on getting better. Also, I wont change my mind. My parents gave me an eating disorder and no, im not going to share my circumstances. I just want everyone to be aware that a lot of parents have unhealthy behaviors and children grow up thinking that it’s normal to also do those behaviors. For example, a parent can be bulimic and they probably encourage the child to also do the same. If you want to know more search up “ Bandura’s bobo doll experiment“. Anyways, I hope that those who are affected with an eating disorder seek treatment. It’s hard but it feels nice when you overcome it. Suddenly your mind is clear and the ugly voice is gone.
Ugh...same...Once when I was 15-16 years old my dad told me that I have a big belly and that I should lose some weight aaand...then it all started! And now I am 21 and still struggle with binging and restricting... I hate it sooo much that I can't eat like a normal person 😭😭😭 And I always think that I am fat 😢
I feel you on that one. My dad and brother caused me to develop am eating disorder when I was 14, I'm 20 and still have an eating disorder 🙃 it's so hard. I'm hoping all you lovely people find your happy medium and develop a healthy relationship with food ❤ Alivia will show us her ways 😂
Today i was so frustrated because of wasnt losing weight even after working out and eating healthy for months now. And thats when i always go back to alivia's glow up diaries video whenever i feel low even i have watched those videos for the 10th times. And she never disappoints me on that...everytime she just motivate me with her experience good or bad and journey. Thats the trust i have build up with her videos. i feel so thankful that i found her . thankyou alivia if your watching this❤
Ugh this broke my heart at first, but I’m so happy that you have a healthy relationship with food now and that even then you knew the truth despite what people say☺️💕 If Im half as good at that as you, id be set for life🙌🙌
★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6
ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.
Hey! Just came across your channel today and it’s been inspiring! If it isn’t too intrusive to ask, have you decided to stop your docu-series? How has things been for you lately? Again I hope I’m not being rude, and feel free to not answer if it’s more private info 😬
Loved how you documented the good and the bad, and always strived to stay positive even through the ups and downs!
I'm sorry your mama didn't realize that hurt you. But look at it that she was testing your resolve. :) I'm glad you are doing this for you health. Your skin has cleared up beautifully as well. My daughter loves sugar and has gotten Abit heavier, the insulin info thing really helped me understand it! TY!!
" Every morning you have two choices. Continue to sleep with your dreams, or wake up and chase them. " That hit differently.
But-
But I can fly in my dreams🥺
@@cannothandle22 Then defy gravity and create a way to fly in real life.
@@Thouxanbangeo deep deep deep
I'm your 999th like😁
You are so right.
Alivia! My heart feels for you. I’m sorry your mom is giving you a hard time with losing weight. It’s the worst when someone else is trying to tell you how to eat, how to look and how to be healthy when you have your own journey. You’re brave for letting us see your true emotions. Food, weight, and body image are all struggles and I’ve dealt with it in the past too. Work on one thing at a time. Begin with the health in my mind and in your heart. to Accept yourself as you are now. Love your mind and your body for what it can do now. The way it looks is all temporary! Take your time.
Imagine parents who are the same but for everything not just about food byt your whole life. Literally toxic
@@candyjames2265 can relate
I know how you feel my big brother is always giving me a hard time on my weight loss journey I have come really far and lost a lot of weight from when I first started but it's still not enough for him
Boo hoo. Your mom has a few choice words for you.. freaking grow up. There are people out there whose parents have done far worse.. by sexually assaulted their children, abused them or beat them... some dont even have parents at all. You should be lucky you have a mom who cares.
@@goatsfullofboats8559 you have a point but remember that just because your problems aren't as big as somebody else's doesn't mean that they don't matter and can't cause damage to someone.
y’all ever realized that her camera’s battery represents her mood? love that
TenaciousDragon Fart I didn’t even notice that!
Oml
omg didnt realized it until now
AHHH i never realized that!! Thanks for pointing that out!
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When she started talking about her mother telling her to stop trying I felt that. My mother is Filipina and when she grew up she didn't get to eat as much as she wanted and was also malnourished. So, whenever she sees me dieting or trying to cut back on food, she doesn't understand. And it doesn't help that my 3 sisters are skinny and my brother is muscular. When I saw her crying because of that, I felt that.
Ashley burdick I relate, my mom is also Filipina
Dont diet eat healthy instead (: and I’m sorry I can relate as well
Same, my mom isn’t Filipina, but I feel like it’s the same with most international parents.
Exactly the same here.
All my family have super quick metabolism but I don't have nearly at all.
So they can basically eat whatever they want still staying skinny and perfect, but I'm here gaining weight and being overweight as fuck.
I'm only 14.
Why can't they understand HUMANS ARE REALLY COMPLICATED ANIMALS.
AND NOT THE SAME.
Same, my mom is also filipina and I struggle to get rid of my weight.
Her crying makes me so sad. She was really hurt at that moment
Same I was gonna cry with her like who says things like that to their child
when she cried omg I wanted to hug her so hard
sameeee
Ikr 😭😭😭😭
Same I can feel her ur not alone
Can't we help her out? I feel sorry for her.
Same , I wish I could have reached through the screen and hugged her
"It will get better" is what I learned from following you girl
From experience I know that “Time heals” it truly does. ❤️
And she will...
How are you guys now?
seeing her so upset talking about her mom made me tear up:((
same, Ik that this feeling hurts like hell
SAMEEEE
@AngryLilMadScientist Same
@AngryLilMadScientist It's mostly because family members are people one associates with comfort and support, so you can end up depending a lot on their validation, which in turn makes everything they say/do that can hurt, hurt a lot more than it should.
Her mother didn't mean to hurt her feelings, but because of the context it ended up touching a very sore spot and having her insecurities thrown back at her by a loved one was her tipping point.
I also am very sensitive when it comes to comments from my mom or family, yet not really care as much when they come from anyone else.
SAME, I just wanted to go and hug her. Ik how it feels, it’s so hard loosing weight.
“Continue to sleep in your dreams or wake up and chase them” - Alivia
Wanda ok
it’s hard when you don’t have a real dream
Carmelo Anthony Quote*
I literally was crying when she was talking about the stuff her mom said me too my mom would always tell me to go loose weight and get prettier i am always avoiding my mom now i feel good honestly but its so hurtful you hear you're own mom calling you ugly 😭
Bruh she created u technically when ur parents call u ugly they r calling themselves ugly cuz u share the same genes with them
you are not ugly.
hurt people hurt people. take your time in developing a body you feel beautiful in. you know you best, listen to your heart and body. if you are healthy, your weight does not matter. your weight does not define you. don't let her words stop you from becoming the best person you can be. you owe it to yourself to learn, grow, and see what you can do mentally and physically. i am proud of how far you've come and how far you will go.
you are not ugly.
omg same it's so hurtful like wtf
whenever i would eat badly for a meal and say “i’ll restart tomorrow” my mom would say “so if you get a flat tire do you go around and cut holes in the rest of your tires?” and that sticks with me constantly
kylie :/ omggg I needed this
Trueee
Your mom speaks facts
Omg that is very motivating ❤❤
Sorry but I don’t see how the two things add up....??
When i was obese my asian family and extended family always told me to lose weight and when i lost all those weight that i must lose they told me im too skinny when im in my needed weight ( im very healthy at that time) and they told me to eat more and now i gained weight again and they start telling me again to lose weight again. Im starting my healthy lifestyle journey again wish me luck.
I hear you. I too have Asian parents but I think it's just not an Asian thing. When you lose weight, they tell you to eat more because you look sick. And when you gain some weight, they'll tell you to stop eating because they think you look ugly. So I think the only thing we can do is to be our goal weight, whatever feels healthy and makes us happy rather than what society expects us to be. I know it's easier said than done, but I hope you and me both will be happy with ourselves ❤️
I feel you :,)
@@athirakrishna2780 we can do it. I cam say im happy on my weight and with my physical appearance even tho my family constantly bully me for being "fat" but anyways im happy that i enjoy what i have and what i receive in my very existence
@@aquamarine5583 im here with you buddy
@@cianoen7495 Fighting ♥️ for everyone like us
"I never woke up when its dark outside"
_cries in European Wintertime_
I go to college in the morning it's dark, I come back it's dark 😔 sad life
True
How much can I relate
😭😭😭
girl, i end at 6pm i know what you mean
She’s actually me, I think I’ve found myself online
Stop.
valueofapotato 🤣🤣🤣
ME TOO
balqaysa aden same
Same
This hit me hard, because my parents never understand how I want to eat healthier.
Me too ...they always make fun of me 😥
my fam doesn't understand either
They are like; eat more, I dont wanna see you skinny....and mom calls every single person and tells them Im working out....And when I started eating healthy my mom suddenly developed a habit of baking cakes in the evening...wtf?!
@@weirdasff Same here. Everytime I decide to give up on being healthy, the junk food is never there but I have started back my healthy lifestyle four days ago and now there are always cakes, candies and fast foods in my house and its not making this journey easier.
@@ihatethescammys.loveyn.5979 Ikr! Before all this (before I clearly figured out the strategy for good weight loss, I used to say weight loss all the time but would still eat junk when I would feel like it lol)..., I used to ask mom to try making different dishes from youtube.. SHE WOULD NEVER LISTEN! It would have been good now if mom made cakes and everything and not forced me to eat it! If I try saying I don't want it then she's like why are you being like this? Don't be on harsh diet! Dont be on diet! you are not gonna compete for miss world are you?, just be like a normal person etc etc... Seriously Im not even on diet, I just reduced the amount of food I ate ! I would never be overweight if I didnt have the habit of eating processed food in primary school... she could've stopped me from that but my parents and WHOLE FAMILY have a firm belief that being slim is unhealthy and being fat is healthy! I had 1 cousin who had a slim and good body and others would always ask her to gain weight and would make her insecure, she believed them. Its my body and I have the right to to do what I want! They like me "fat" and say I look beautiful like that but I want to be fit ... I DONT CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK, IF THEY THINK BEING SLIM MAKES YOU LOOK BAD I JUST DONT CARE!! JUST MOVE ON WITH LIFE PPL! LET ME DO WHAT I WANT WITH MY LIFE! AND YES ITS NOT MAKING IT ANY EASIER FOR ME EITHER.... ( Sorry I wrote too long.. I just wanted to share.. there's no one that'll listen to me here..)
I can’t tell you how much I love this series. It’s inspired me to start my own journey and honestly these videos have changed my mindset a lot. Your advice is amazing and just seeing someone else go through those kind of ups and downs gives me more motivation to keep going because I see I’m not the only one that has them. I wish this series wouldn’t ever end but thank you for all the work you have and will continue to put in them!
Emma Frost omg we have the same first and last name
Good luck on your journey!:) Will you TH-cam?
You can make it happen ♥️♥️
@@pragyabhattacharya2720 indeed!
Same... ^^‘
I know you mentioned that some people ask if this series ever has a end or why its so long - But honestly, how long it’s taking because it feels realistic. As someone who also has struggled with body image and a healthy mindset and relationship with food, it’s refreshing to see someone document their journey in such a real way. A real journey towards health is long and takes so much time and is full of slip ups and is not linear at all. It’s so hard! I’m so glad you’re doing this series!
Angelika I want her to get where she wants fast but I never want this series to end😩😩 I am OBSESSED
I love this series and I would not want it to finish. It is almost like a walkthrough for how to do life. We have one life and she is telling us how to use it efficiently. She helps me so much and I gained so much confidence. My mom has been quite hard on me regarding my body image but i learnt how to not listen to her awful comments.
Edit: sorry for my crappy grammar.
“I can’t believe myself.”
Neither can I Alivia. Who eats doughnuts with a fork?
LMAO I eat everything with a fork😂
lol I do
LMAO
I went to caffe and ordered doughnuts and they served me it with a fork , i swear i didn't notice it till i was almost done with the doughnut, i mean what the hell
JIN gave me some potatos omg i eat everything with my hands i-
Eating with a fork is healthier. You eat slower so you chew it better and it helps. I can't explain with details.
“I never woke up when it’s dark outside”
UK In winter: *wait, you have a sun?*
Sweden in winter, bro 😂😂😂 (I'm Czech but they have Polar day and Polar night... on the North)
I go to school in the dark and by the time I’m walking home again the sun is nearly gone hahahahaha we do love that
It's acc so dark outside it's not even funnyyy
when I used to wake up at 5:15 for all it was pitch black outiside and cus my skl was like 2 hours away plus clubs and train rides I was coming back in pitch darkness as well ;-;
Lol
Lol
Your whole mom moment at the end..I felt that. One of the most important people in my life who I treasure dear and beyond love is that person to me when I try to change myself for the better in any situation and it just breaks me, because they're supposed to be the one person who doesn't do that to me. And yet I also value when they call me out because I need someone to do so, but it still rips me up inside and hurts, because they don't understand even though they've tried to and are still trying.
I relate to this so so much
when she started crying I just wanted hug her soooooo badly 🥺❤️
tHank YoU gUys sOoo mUch fOr tHe liKes
No I feel you, anytime I eat a SALAD my parents would ask me "ARE YOU ON A DIET??HOW MUCH WEIGHT DID YOU LOSE" it is hard when these people just criticize you without even knowing. IT IS HONESTLY HARD, this is NOT a diet, just let me be and happy with myself.
i can relate soo much, my mom always tells me to eat alot and if i skip lunch or something, she thinks im dieting or something ahh so annoying
Agreed I can relate
yeah and when i exercise me dad acts weird. like im doing sit-ups in the living and he keeps looking at me
@@emily.4651 i really got that sis
ikr! and I could just be eating salad because I like salad!
when you came here to learn how to do the splits but then a few years later left knowing how to love and accept yourself and create healthy habits
Yessswetdgsgg
😭😭😭
Eman Fatima this is sooooo me
Yes omg 🥺
Samee
i watched the movie ‘To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before’ and the main character just reminded me of you the whole movie
same
SAME
Whyyyyyyy
Bc she's also asian/half asian???.... I don't understand
@@valerie8435 . . .because of the narration dude. The way she speaks poetically. Relax 😐
"I can't restrict myself forever" THIS is exactly my mindset right now and that's why I need season 2 to overcome it you've taugh me so much Alivia
*this really struck me, as someone who has battled with their parents for most of her life. When I moved out it was so healing for my wellbeing.*
Damn, I kinda feel for you, I'm still struggling, any advice for dealing with it ? It will be really helpful 😊
@@ragaprasanna2697 Yes! It was super hardwell I was living under their roof, but give yourself 100% credit for the things that you can control it take control of that. Your situation is only temporary, and you are able to change your life no matter what happens in the end.feel free to tell me more about your life and if this advice has helped on Instagram! I'm thefitty.
@@Thefitty this is was soooo nice of you !! ☺️it does make a lot of difference to how I feel, thanks a lot !!!!!!!! I am Raga, nice to get to know you 🙂😄
@@ragaprasanna2697 nice to meet you, Raga! Just keep remembering that your situation is notpermanent! Keep a journal and write down all of your thoughts, values, and feelings and keep that secret to you. Everything you write in that journal is the very outlet you may not be able to have within the household. Make this your little secret :)
@@Thefitty oh woww!! That's a great idea !!! Thankssss😘😘😁
I wish there was someone who would be that committed to being on a healthy journey with me 😍
hey! ill commit with you possible long-distance-health pal!
Abbey Potter me too!
Same with me
Cate Doge lets form a group chat? follow me on insta @abbbeypottter
Me too!
I love how open she is with us instead of trying to sweep it under the rug. Mistakes happen but we grow and learn from us.
And the clip about her mom was relatable.. the people close to us don't mean harm but sometimes they don't know what's best.
I understand, my mom always criticize me with everything too. She doesn't know it hurts you but it does. Be strong girl!!!! You're really beautiful btw.
Yeah.. I know this... I work out only when she's with her friends or at work because she was always laughing at me...
@@Daesma999 Im sorry that happens :( that shouldn’t happen. Be you okay? You can do this :)
She understand that it hurts you
She does know it hurts her . All mothers do . All mothers know their kids and know what hurts them . She does it intentionally.
12:14 - 12:25 I feel that 😔 I’m in a place on my journey where it hard to just explain it to people and having a family member not understand just makes it even harder then it already is
True
im addicted to your channel. I am currently stuck in the mindset of "Once my circumstances change, i will change." "Once i move i will be healthy and work out and wake up and stop x,y,z habits" But watching your channel gets me inspired and for a second i get a little push to try, it doesnt last but i at least go to the gym that day.
Wow. This is literally me. I always feel like when I move, I’ll finally have the mindset and ability to start exercising and eating healthy. But deep down I feel like I should start now. I do try once in a while to get better habits and do at home workouts, but they normally last more than a few days, maybe a week tops before I go back to not doing it. Ughhhhh
*push*
❤
Imagine someone seeing these glow up diaries and don't have to wait for an episode.
It's great m8
Its pretty nice :)
It’s cool
Saynab Abdikarim just like ME
Saynab Abdikarim heheh 😏
Hey Alivia - I relate so much to when your mom was giving you a hard time; my mom is Taiwanese and I’m visiting her side of the family for thanksgiving...she keeps mentioning to all my aunties how much weight I gained. Asian moms 🙄 Anyways, I appreciate your glow up video series and your willingness to be vulnerable-it’s nice to not feel alone in our journey to become healthier!
I'm also Asian
Totally relateable
Exact same thing
Relatable. I’m literally exercising and eating healthy consistently for a few weeks now. I’m home for thanksgiving break, and almost every single day my mom comments how I need to lose weight or exercise. The exercise part I don’t get because I literally have been telling her what fun workouts I’ve been trying out😂💀
I have the opposite reactions. I'm hispanic, and in Latin america society, being "thick" or heavy is seen as attractive. I'm stick thin and so my relatives are constantly commenting on how I'm so thin, and that I need to eat more. What makes it worse is that they always have to compare my body to theirs. They will pick up my wrists or fingers just to compare how mine are so much smaller and thinner than theirs. Part of my self esteem issues are because of them. It doesn't help that I live in Texas where almost everybody is bigger. In highschool. I had athletics so i always had to show my body to dress into my uniform and other girls that i never talked to would always yell at the top of their lungs and comment on my body. "Do you even eat?" "Your so thin!" "Your ribs are showing!" "Your ankle is so skinny" "can I see your wrist?" "Ur like a stick". Now all I wear Is baggy clothes. Layering is key to me even if its 100 degrees. You will never see me wear skinny jeans. I will always have a jacket and baggy pants.
I'm asian but my parents/family are the exact opposite. Even when i gain so much they'll be like eat more eat more you'll be too thin lol
When you cried, I almost cried, and I cried over this every day. And I’m literally 12 and have people judge over my weight and that I’m taller than most people...😭
Im the same way, I was always taller in elementary school and middle(abt 5'5 ) and was skinny. I wasnt anorexic or anything it was just i didnt eat much. People told me to gain weight so I did, but I hated the way I looked. Then when it came to losing that weight it was very hard. Im still trying to lose that weight but its such a hassle.I regret ever listening to them, dont make the same mistake and allow yourself to feel happy with how you look! :)
I have that problem but im short. People look at me like im a roach just because im a little overweight. I've tried to loose weight, but i feel like I cant, and im so insecure about my body, mainly because all the other girls are so perfect, and beautiful and then there is me. The trash bag potato. I dont even eat a lot, but i still gain weight, and its even worse because im 4 10 and i weigh 120 pounds. 😭
@@Victoria-xn9ft well there’s nothing wrong with potatos🥰 I’m the same way....in just 5’6 and I’m in middle school and get made fun of cause of my height
@@imanuglyrat4388 i think you're really tall lol. My mom and dad are 5 4, and my older brother is in 7th grade and he is 5 feet tall, so we are all short in my family, but im a trash bag potato.
@@Victoria-xn9ft lmao I’m in 6th
AW girl your life is not based on food. YOU DO YOU. Do what makes you happen, stay healthy but also have some fun! love you don't cry.
Baking Delights yeah! I’m kinda worried honestly …
“I’ve never woken up while it’s dark out”
*me = cries in canadian*
Crying in Calgarian.
Cries in European
Bobby Puok Crying in Calgarian too
Cries in swedish
Crying in Yukon rn
When you started crying it actually broke my heart like you seem so fucking sweet and like such a wonderful person and seeing you cry made me so sad. Happy you're in a healthier place now
“If you don’t have a post-workout skincare routine...”
Implying I have a workout routine 😫
Implying I have a skincare routine 😌
Lol
Getting hurt by you're parents is a different type of hurt and a very painful one 😔
i love how passionate she sounds when she talks about her plans for her new mindset 💜💜
It takes a lot of courage expose yourself and your feelings on the internet
When you started crying I just bursted out in tears. I felt so much despair in your voice that it moved my heart. Damn.
Basma I wanted to hug her through the screen and stroke her hair , tell her I’m here with her and it’ll be okay and wipe her tears away. (I’m a very emotional and caring person lol)
Also love that moomin valley profile picture. I love that show.
Lia Ruth moomin valley world domination 😌✊🏼 also I’m a very emotional person myself so don’t worry I understand 😌
When i was your age, or maybe even younger( i was 15), I tried to look after my skin. So one day after i had applied my usual moisturizer etc i saw my mother looking at me, disdainfully she said "Why do you even bother with this stuff, you still look ugly after all the effort"
Back then I had crystal clear skin. but i gave up and started hating myself. I've never been able to forget that.
Since i was a child, she always remembered to mention how ugly i was in front of her friends and relatives.
Now years later, after being married and having 2 kids, 10+ years with having skin/weight problems, i still get snasty sentences thrown at me whenever i am trying to get better, but nothing when i have really bad skin or weight issues.
She actually can't seem to tolerate me looking (or trying to look) decent.
I am so sorry to hear that. I hope that your husband is treating you better than her. I recomend to you that you stop talking to her. Tell her that you cant because your kids are sick and if she still wants to come say that she can get that sickness from them. While that fake sickess is there go running,workout,skincare.... Good luck sweetie! You are not alone💖
she probably hates herself and taking it out on you because she is jealous since you are beautiful (in & out)
Cut off contact. She seems toxic. I don't have contact anymore with my dad
This is a tell tale sign that the problem lies with your mom and how she views herself. You aren’t the problem. You are an example since young of what she could be but can’t be. You were never ugly. Nothing probably was wrong with your body either.
@@DaMushroomBit That really is the irony. i may not be beautiful or perfect but I never was ugly. I dont even know what ugly is..
I am fairly tall, medium built, good hair, medium fair complexion, my features may a little thick but in no way revolting.
I am not deformed, and even deformed, for me, is not the same as ugly. What does make someone "ugly" except bad attitude?
In fact, people often compliment me, even though, after all these years, I can't get my self to accept them.
Whenever I put any effort in my appearance, whether its a flattering dress, or skin care regime, she immediately pulls me down.
Just last year at my brother's wedding she called me ugly in front of my new sister in law and cousins. But she is completely OK when i look like a mess with unkempt hair, bad skin unflattering clothes.
The point of eating healthy is after having a cheat day you go back to eating healthy and watching what you eat, That's what my parents don't get, On Sundays I have a cheat day and eat anything I crave. That's what my parents don't understand. I don't have to eat salad every single day for every meal to be healthy. So I always get shamed and feel bad about it.
And because my parents don't agree with rating healthy and "Dieting" they always judge me for eating salad and cook me unhealthy meals at lunch and force me to eat fries and bread and cheese and whatever else there is. It's just frustrating
wohoooo ! I could go on for forever talking about how problematic cheat days and dieting in general is but I’m just gonna tell you that it’s not worth it ! Eat what YOU want whenever you want ! Don’t try to control your body ! Our bodies are smarter than we think !
Tons Of Skelly same it’s so annoying
omg I feel you 😭
Literally whats happening with my life...
Since I live with my parents, I cant be on a diet and now Im okay with it... But this year ,once I decided to eat healthy I sticked to my decision and never got back but my mom is like you are 'dieting' so she started making unhealthy snacks all of a sudden ,yester years I used to ask her to make something good yet she would make something bad and now she wants to make me eat all unhealthy things as possible...
When I was at my lowest, struggling and so damn lost, my mom asked me: "what's wrong with you?" and that really hit me hard I guess...like it was my fault I chose to be malnourished, frail and difficult with food, but I knew she was just really concerned about me and just couldn't relate to my situation. I was sick of trying to justify why I chose to be 'healthy' and the more I tried to reason, it seemed like i was taking a step forward and a thousand steps back. It seemed like i was masking the truth and indulging in clear lies that i was fine when i really wasn't. I finally had enough, i stopped asking myself, i willed myself to stop thinking about the what ifs or the negatives, i stopped justifying exactly WHY i choose to eat the way now (i'm recovered from an almost ED, been almost 2 years now) and I just let myself be. I enjoy food to live, and I live to appreciate good food and not spend milliseconds trying to find a reason for anything, really, and i guess it takes time and patience but to all of you who are struggling in a battle with your demons, I want you to know that IT WILL and CAN get better with effort and perseverance. Love you!!
Well thank you for this! Good luck and I'm really happy to hear your growth and that things got better. You're strong, and keep going!
@@milk6808 Thank you so much! Just gotta get through whatever life throws at you ;)
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Girl go to the doctors about your heart ain’t playing around coz I know personally that can lead to something serious
Rose Zhang yep I’m army and of course 😉
@@aactac Sorry but this is a serious comment and you reply with army?
@@hydratedobama8450 yeah right, I'm a fan too but army's are starting to get annoying
@@sno9044 i realize that every single person commenting with a bts pfp, there'll DEFINITELY be one person replying with "ARMY!!!!!" and stuff like that, but like why? no hate, just an observation and being curious.
marshmallows i guess it’s acknowledgement of seeing someone share an enjoyment that you also like? I guess it’s like seeing a pop culture reference on a stranger’s tshirt while you’re at a shop..
holy fuck “ its not about weight loss its about being healthier” that hit different thnx a lot OMG when you started to cry i wanted to cry too because i relate so much omg
the fact that your really trying to better yourself is all that matters. living a healthy life is what i’m trying to strive for and watching your videos is helping me realize that. it’s hard asf but knowing that i’m not alone and seeing that i can relate makes me realize that i shouldn’t be so hard on myself. it’s a long journey but it feels like it will be sosoo worth it. you’re doing great! 💗
i totally understand how much those words from her mom hurt her. like, i've been in that situation so many times. my mom always had ( and still have) issues with my weight cause i'm overweight than my age. and for that i had to listen so many words from her time to time which are not so pleasing. even one day she told me something hurtful about my eating time and stuffs when i just sat for dinner and didn't even get the chance to give the first bite to my food. well, it hurt, hurt so much.
I’m sorry that your mum made you feel that way :(
My mum also used to call me fat, and while I was overweight it didn’t help being constantly and randomly being reminded of that… I remember when I broke down and cried and snapped at her for saying those hurtful words (more hurtful than being called fat, anyways). I told her that maybe she had intentions of encouraging me to lose weight, it wasn’t the right way to do so. We’re asians so parents’ love language is to diss you half the time. I don’t know your situation but maybe you could tell her how you feel (if you haven’t already) next time she says hurtful words.
@@hamburger5888 exactly. their intentions are always good but it's just that they tell that in a negative way which fail to encourage us.
"Sleep with your dreams, or wake up and chase them." Imma live by this. 🙏❤
When you said “healthy, healthy, healthy, not weight loss, weight loss, weight loss” I couldn’t agree more. Earlier this year, I found out that my vitamin deficiencies were making me gain weight and therefore it was causing other health issues so I was told that I had to lose weight. Keep in mind that weight loss was never important to me and I’m glad because of that, instead my focus was on reaching a healthy BMI and getting a healthier body. I think this is what kids my age don’t think about=Weight loss over healthy. Not healthy over weight loss.
You are such a precious baby I just want to hug you. Also you’ve opened up my eyes to the fact that EVERYONE struggles with weight and health. Honestly if I saw you on the street I’d just assume happy naturally skinny girl. And to know that you go thru the same struggles my 210 lb ass goes thru is just comforting. Not that I want you to suffer. But just proves that we are all human battling our demons. No matter what our outsides look like ❤️
BRUHH SHE WENT TO SHANGHAI AND THEN HAD A SKI TRIP I-
*cries in poor*
I know!!! Lets sit here and count our pennies😭😭😭
@@Scaredshitless-p2o same 😭😭
I totally understand u. My family doesn't understand my hard ship. My family is kind, but they don't understand me, and they try to control me. I'm on my own path! I control what I do, no one else! I totally got u girl!!
I also fight with my parents often, they separated about a year ago and ever since I am the one between them and their fights, they always rant to me about each other and no matter how many times I tell them to stop pulling me into their problems, they don't listen. Thanks to you and your videos I am sure it will be better one day tho and everybody fights with their parents from time to time, thank you Alivia we will all go though it together
Oh, I know how you're feeling, my parents divorced about 4,5 years ago, if you need any help I'm here for you♥️
I have same problems with my family like everyday they know I am trying to lose weight as I am chubby girl but still they say those demotivating things to me ..I feel you 😢 nobody really gets it .
PS: you give me those vibes I never knew I needed ♥️
Oh my gosh, that's horrible! Well, no matter what they say believe in yourself!!!! I wish all the good vibes to come your way! Stay strong 💕💕
@@erasermumblecrust7534 thank you❤️
Do n show to them it feels so good
i do understand you a lot, like how can someone that you trust say something like that when you thought they will be the one(s) who will be couraging you through the journey. its just another level of pain to hear harsh and cruel word coming from their mouth. ive already face it before, just because i was chubby and plump they said (my aunts, brother, uncles) i look much older than my sister, my sister looks beautifuler and younger and i look sluggish and scruffy just like an old woman, the fact that i know my sister do looks better than me makes it harder to bare, and to be detailed im at airport by the time that happen so i just excused myself and cry alone at the bathroom stall. istg that will be my most painful shit ive ever going thru in my weightloss journey. plus i also got a daily dose of painful weightloss motivation quotes from my mom, every single thing that i did will just get judge constantly from her. when i do some healthy meal grocery shopping she will start saying "stop buying those expensive oragnic things or even too much fruits, you are not even losing weight!" or when im doing some no equipment abs workout she'll say "youll dislocate your hips if you continue doing that". but afterall im here, 5'2 and 116 pounds and happy so i guess the pain kinda worth it. guys we got this, ily♡
@@cha2495 your family didn't want you to succeed but you did. proud ❤
I remember that time when my dad told me to "take it easy on food" because I was having 2 pancakes with a nut of butter on top for Sunday breakfast. He told me that when I was a 15 yo growing girl that was practicing swimming 6h a week and would fit in a size S.
Don't always listen to your parents, they're not always speaking the truth and don't always want what's good for you.
Margot Cobat god, I have 0 tolerance for people try and dictate what I eat. Imma eat what ever the fuck I want thank you very much
@@alexis504 I now share the same mindset, but it takes quite some time to reach that point when the people tearing you down are supposed to be the ones who care the most about you
U dint think ur dad doesnt want whats good for u, it s jist that he doesn't KNOW whats best for u.
Emotionally immature family members or friends can really be huge obstacles to I guess scapegoats like us who are trying our best to break the toxic cycle.
Sadly we can’t really stop or prevent others from speaking ignorantly about us and how we eat, we luckily can allow ourselves to feel sad about the hurtful & disrespectful comments they made and still choose to be kind to ourselves. We can only control our own actions regardless of how we feel. Proud of you for not letting those comments stopped you from living a healthy lifestyle & have healthy relationships with food. Healthy relationships with food doesn’t mean we can no longer eat food that contains sugar and fat. It just means that we can choose to eat healthy food, choose to move our bodies, and still enjoy life without restrictions because we can’t just satisfy our body we have to satisfy our mind too.
I would love for Alivia to have a podcast someday. Honestly, I like rewatching the Glow-Up Diaries while I'm doing things to have motivation and self-reflection during this time where I feel lost and my low points. Each episode really reflects life we learn chapter by chapter.
xloveshelly same I’ve thought this ever since I started to watch her!
3:35 "Every morning you have two choices: continue to sleep with your dreams or wake up and chase them"
That my new motto
I needed that
*"You Can't Know Joy Unless You've Known Sorrow"*
i love this girl so much, it's unbelievable :(
I was and am still facing a similar situation in my house, I know I can't trust anyone and nobody gives a damn, it just bothered me Soo much I stopped studying to take revenge from my parents and get their attention. I realised that even if I got average grades, they didn't give a shit, so I knew I had to figure my life out by myself. It was difficult to accept it for a year, sometimes it hits me and I feel like giving up. But after watching you deal with it, express it out, opening up about it and doing your best in life really inspires me and makes me feel like I can also deal with this utter bullshit. Don't get me wrong I'm not insulting you. Thank you for posting this video🙂🙂
Alivia hiii, I'ave dealt with your body issue for 3 and a half years and watching these videos helps me to get over it. thank you for showing your progress, You inspire and motivate me to be more healthy and happy:)
I wish you all the best in your journey and wherever life may decide to take you. You’re an inspiration to many including me and I’m not just talking skin-wise either (although that too).
I literally cried when she cried and I'm yet crying 😭💔
Can I tell y'all about my glow up story. So when I started high school, I was really chubby. My cheeks were so huge that my eyes were squinted, my tummy was really huge and bloated, my thighs were packed with fat and I was generally unhappy with my body because all my life my family and peers had been body shaming me and making me feel horrible about myself. At the end of my first HS year we went on holiday (US: vacation) at a beach resort, all I thought about was losing weight and my little sister agreed to embark on this weight loss journey coz out of the 4 daughters of our parents, we were the chubby ones. We worked up the courage to tell our parents that we wanted to lose weight and to please buy us healthy food. I remember the look of pure nonchalance and skepticism on their faces and I wanted to prove them SO wrong. The next year I started eating healthy and working out: S/O to My homegirl Cassey Ho of Blogilates for her dope home workouts. I didn't tell any of my friends because I didn't want to see them doubt me like my parents did. And our school wears uniforms so they were not able to see me losing weight because the uniforms are great at hiding everyone's body shape and form. Plus there are cake sales every friday at our school, which my friends buy from in ample quantity, which made sitting with them during our breaks really tempting. However, I had an iron will and laser focus. My friends started noticing the salads and wholewheat bread and asked me what was up and I just brushed it off by saying that I just wanted to eat a freaking salad. My little sister, however, didn't let me help her let go of junk food and constantly ate junk behind my back so she never got to lose weight. The weight loss mindset kind of just fell away for me, and after 3 weeks or a month or so I got to the point where I enjoyed healthy food. Like I didn't crave junk food anymore and the school cake sales didn't tempt me anymore. You could literally wave a slice of pizza in my face and I wouldn't even want it. After 3 months I had slimmed down quite a lot and I coincidentally had a bit of a growth spurt during this period as well, which helped lean out my body (i'm 160 cm/ 5'2'' rn so you can imagine how short and stubby I was before). And the craziest part- MY WEIGHT DIDN'T CHANGE. Anyways, I looked much better and after the term was over and the Easter holidays began, I had a KFC ice-cream (it made me very ill and gave me stomach cramps and diarrhoea which is how I learned that dairy is not my best friend). And since then I lost my healthy mindset and have fallen back into junk food. However, I eat it in moderation, and my breakfast, lunch and dinner is usually healthy with some unhealthy snacks in between. Luckily, it's very hard for my body to lose weight, but also to gain weight, so even through my binges and snacking, I haven't gained that much. And my body gains weight more in the thighs, so now I have that kinda slim thicc body and my family and peers have never called me fat again. Now they tell me I have a nice body and a legendary glow-up. I'm sorry if i sound conceited. Know that consistency and willpower is key and everything is possible.
TLDR: I lost weight and maintained it, proving my family and peers wrong.
Edit: thank you for the likes guys. It took about 3 months and I took progress pics every 2 weeks (I didn’t use the scale until I was done). And I’m glad I could inspire some of you 💜
god bless blogilate 😍
@@saintjuste6130 ikr 😭
I’m sorry your peers didn’t believe in you, that’s sucks but I’m so happy you managed. so all I got to say is, you go girl you goooooo
looks like it was their fault that you even got chubby in the first place, considering the fact that they were skeptical about even getting rid of the junk food for you and your sister.
That's an amazing story, I can lose weight easily and gain muscle anywhere apart from my stomach, literally ANNOYING AF. and i dont have an iron will Im too lazy. However I can also gain weight easily which is hard for me.
This is so raw. My appreciations for showing raw emotions online. It helps all of us although it must take courage to open up online like that.
Im so glad my parents support me a lot and that i have a good relationship with them. I can't imagine not having any of this
I cannot express how much your series hits home. I am and still continue with my own health (physically and mentally) but your videos truly encourage and inspire me to keep pushing. Your videos are the reminders I need on my down days. Thank you so much for the content you provide Alivia. Love you ♡♡♡
This series has inspired me and really changed how I view my health. I can’t thank you enough for sharing you journey and help me start mine. I struggle a lot with stress and this has really helped. Thank you Alivia.
sharing these vulnerable moments helped me and im sure many others SO SO MUCH. because having food problems is such a weird and complex problem to have so thank you for this truly!!!
Just going here to thank you! Here I am, 5 months ago I started my healthy journey, first start eating what I considered healthy for breakfast and making a bit of cardio, then eating actually more healthy in every meal but then I stopped making ejercise, and finally I started growing as a person, and realizing what I was doing to my body, at first I just want to loose weight but never checking my actual weight scared for illnesses, because most of my family have diabetes and weight stuggles, was then when I beggin excersise again, not just to be skinny or faster, I did it because I wanted to be healthy, and finally yesterday I encourage my self and check my weight and I discovered I loose 13kg and I have never being too fat, but know I in the best shape ever, now with a new me, someone who have a healthy relation with food and excersise, someone happy and with a healthy self-esteem, someone who doesn't care about other say about her, someone happy.
Thanks! Thanks for make me realize!
Good luck for the ones who just started, if I did it, you could totally do it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Alivia is like one of the most real TH-camr that talks about topics we all struggle with 😘❤️
you look so pretty when you’re genuinely happy. it inspires me
Last week I went on two trips with my class, and for some reason the class always stops at McDonald's for lunch. When my friends offered me some, I said, "I dont eat that" and I didn't. Im so glad too
This hits so close to home. I myself struggle with overeating, and then judging myself and calling myself horrible for eating 'that snack'. I too want to start a healthy relationship with food, but I know I am still mentally weak. This is the exact reason as to why I am here today, watching all of your episodes. It gives me hope, that I too can do it. It is not going to be easy, but it will certainly be worth it. Thank you for being a great example, and staying true to yourself as because of you I now can make the decision to live healthily and not criticise myself on a daily basis, as I now know I am not in this myself.
You are powerful girl! Don't let anyone stop your mission in life.
"Every morning you have two choices: continue to sleep with your dreams or wake up and chase them"
My mum has a really weird relationship with her weight and food and I feel like she imposes it on me as well, so this hit hard
I felt really bad, when she was talking about fight with her mum.
I feel for you Alivia. Negative comments from family can definitely effect your positivity. “YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!”
I used to be thin when I was young and was always teased for my weight. Over the years I started gaining weight and was teased by my friends and family that I have gotten very fat.
One of my friends compared me to an elephant in the basketball court in school in front of everyone. And that was it for me.
My real binge started from there. I ate to overcome all the shame, hurtful comments and just find happiness. Eating gave me comfort, company and control. But once I finished eating instant anxiety and guilt would take over me. I used to compare myself to others and eat in guilt. Watching your videos helped me to realise that I'm not the only one out here going through this.
oh gosh I felt that so much in my heart, I'm so sorry love.
@@heylove9016 It was and still is quite a struggle but its people like you who make me want to forget my painful past. Thank you for your comment it really means a lot to me because back then I had no one who could understand what I was going through. Thank you! ❤️
I wake up at 4 am everyday and this has changed my life fr
Man I love this series... it’s so incredibly inspiring to be healthy and also to remember that it’s okay to struggle and let others know you’re struggling. Thank you Alivia!
"Every morning you have two choices. Continue to sleep with your dreams or get up and chase them" What a motivation you just gave me. Thank you
hey just wanted to check up on you because you haven’t posted in 3 weeks hope you’re doing okay
You are such a nice person :)
@@fish9230 aww ✨
you should follow her Instagram! She does check ups regularly and lets us know when she's posting. ❤️
1. Your pfp is absolutely adorable! ❤️
2. That's really sweet of you! Ik this is late feedback bc she's moved on from this season and what not, but I just loved reading this comment. It's as if you see her everyday in real life! 🥺💘
Nessa P oh my gosh thank you🥺
I had this irregular heartbeat thingy when my bulimia was at its worst.
To my delight, I got so scared of it, the bulimia lessened (didn't go away completely, but let's say to 80%).
Your body gives you warning signs for when something isn't right. When that happens, listen to it.
"You didnt come this far, to only come this far"
my fav quote for anyone that needs it
I make videos like the glow up diaries would adore if any kind people would check it 💕
When you talked about having a nightmare about eating i remembered that when i was struggling with anorexia i would wake up totally terrified when I had a nightmare about eating.
Once I told a random stranger to try focusing on gratitude. Years later I met her again and she said it had turned her life around. She quit some pretty negative habits. She runs her own yoga studio in Atlanta and teaches internationally. The secret is that gratitude is a direct path to self confidence.
I am the same way up with my mother, she is very th in AND I have always struggled with body image and mental health. When I told her how it felt when I wouldn't eat or would over eat, she told me I just needed to "control it" or "it isn't that hard to just stop eating". Keep in mind I was so hungry I was having dreams about eating food.
I also wanted to cry and say all the pain, I used to be overweight and my sisters are skinny, people around us compare me to them like what the ef can't you understand that we have different body types. And now that I'm on the weight that I wanted, they're telling me that I'm too skinny and look ugly. "You need to gain weight" "you used to be so beautiful", "you need to eat more","you look sick" and etc. words are hurtful but let me tell y'all it's all about how you feel for yourself and what you want for yourself, it's not about what they want for you.
11:10 I relate to this so much because I’ve had so many fights with my parents which made me look done on my self. I grew up in a culture where being thin is the ideal body. I started hating my body around 9 or 10. This mostly happened because around that time one of my cousins started loosing weight and her mom would tell everyone and show it off like an award. Then my dad would say things to me about how I should loose weight because I’ll look more “pretty”. My cousin would also chime and make comments like “Your belly is big.” I would act like it didn’t matter but really I felt like balling my eyes out. Over the years I developed social anxiety and absolutely loathing myself. I’m trying to like myself but it’s hard when there is no around you that can help you. My mom and dad, mostly dad, think this is just a “phase” or “joke”. “Talk more” or “You need to eat salad and soup or you won’t loose any weight” is what I hear everyday.
my heart broke for you when you started crying 💔 i understand how that feels sooo much
same, my parents gave me an eating disorder so now I'm a twenty year old who doesn't know how to eat lmao.
Update: I read the comments lol. I know that its my responsibility to fix the damage and trust me im working on getting better. Also, I wont change my mind. My parents gave me an eating disorder and no, im not going to share my circumstances. I just want everyone to be aware that a lot of parents have unhealthy behaviors and children grow up thinking that it’s normal to also do those behaviors. For example, a parent can be bulimic and they probably encourage the child to also do the same. If you want to know more search up “ Bandura’s bobo doll experiment“.
Anyways, I hope that those who are affected with an eating disorder seek treatment. It’s hard but it feels nice when you overcome it. Suddenly your mind is clear and the ugly voice is gone.
honestly me
sameeeee been in this shit since I was 15 lol
Same
Ugh...same...Once when I was 15-16 years old my dad told me that I have a big belly and that I should lose some weight aaand...then it all started! And now I am 21 and still struggle with binging and restricting... I hate it sooo much that I can't eat like a normal person 😭😭😭 And I always think that I am fat 😢
I feel you on that one. My dad and brother caused me to develop am eating disorder when I was 14, I'm 20 and still have an eating disorder 🙃 it's so hard. I'm hoping all you lovely people find your happy medium and develop a healthy relationship with food ❤ Alivia will show us her ways 😂
I love how positive you are about your failures and negative comments from your family.positive mind is so important.
Today i was so frustrated because of wasnt losing weight even after working out and eating healthy for months now. And thats when i always go back to alivia's glow up diaries video whenever i feel low even i have watched those videos for the 10th times. And she never disappoints me on that...everytime she just motivate me with her experience good or bad and journey. Thats the trust i have build up with her videos. i feel so thankful that i found her . thankyou alivia if your watching this❤
Ugh this broke my heart at first, but I’m so happy that you have a healthy relationship with food now and that even then you knew the truth despite what people say☺️💕 If Im half as good at that as you, id be set for life🙌🙌