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Colleen, when you are on your death bed are you going to be thinking about how productive you were with your career? No, you’ll be thinking about your sons and daughter, and husband, and how you poured love into them! Also, America has an obsession with working all of the time- wearing burnout like a badge of honor. It is NOT a badge of honor. Acknowledge your needs right now, take care of yourself, and embrace where you are at. THAT is deserving of a badge of honor :)
beautifully said Allie, you’re completely right !
Well said
Oof, I needed this reminder! Thank you! I often run on burn out and need to slow down
America is in the middle of a labor shortage
Absolutely wonderful comment. Your mental and physical health are the most important.
As someone with chronic illness, “I just want out of this body” is a phrase I say multiple times a week. I know the feeling very well. It sounds so cliche but meditation and affirmations help at least a little with the mental. But it’s totally okay and normal to have a day where you just gotta cry it out too.
I know the feeling as well!
I can confirm as a person with chronic pain and anxiety :D
@@gemini6911 I’m sorry you know the experience too! I hope you’re doing well🤍
@@AdorkableArtist92 I’m sorry you do:( it’s nice to find people who relate but I wish we didn’t know the feeling as well as we do
i know this feeling so so well as someone with multiple chronic illnesses/disabilities - sending love to everyone who feels this way too 💛
Colleen this pregnancy is just a FRACTION of your life and Flynn’s. When he’s older he’s gonna look back on these videos and these memories and he’s gonna see how strong mommy is and how much you loved him and the twins enough to suffer this much for them. If anything you’re inspiring him, even if he doesn’t even know it yet. You’re a queen!!! Keep fighting itll be so worth it so soon
Yeah I was 4 when my sister was born. I couldn’t pull up a fraction of a memory of my mom being pregnant even if my life depended on it
Wish I could like this twice!
I think a lot of guilt around lack of productivity is rooted in societal pressure and expectations of labour. Your worth is not how much you can achieve or what you can make or do. You're a valuable wife and mother because of your heart, your commitment to your family, your sparkling personality and your mind that's always thinking of ways to care for and love your family. You are so much more than your ability to be active ❤️
💯
YES THIS 🙌🏼🙌🏼
Yes, and everyone knows full well that if she felt better, she would absolutely get up and do everything she could to be super productive. If she could, she would. It's okay to take care of ourselves when our bodies are not doing well. Rest, relax, take care of yourself strong mama!
love this way you put it. always struggled to see my worth and i based it on what i can do or what i achieve. thank you. i’m glad we’re able be vulnerable.
You hit the nail right on the head here!
Letting your son see your vulnerability is an important part of him seeing your strength too. Your honesty and honouring of what you're actually feeling is powerful! It's okay to say you feel sad or that you're struggling if you are sad and struggling, and maybe that will help Flynn know that if he is ever sad or struggling it's okay to share it. You're not a bad mama and I'm so sorry that you're feeling sad and that you're struggling.
@@EllEss331 She followed it up by asking him to check in on the babies as well since they might be feeling ouchie as well. I think she caught herself since she's trying to not blame it on the babies much in front of Flynn. But she's human and slips up and I think she saved it well by asking him to kiss the babies since they might also feel ouchie.
@@EllEss331 “tell them to stop making me feel ouchie” is not saying “yell at the babies.”
@@EllEss331 When a person is sharing that they are struggling with severe perinatal depression do you think everything out of their mouth is going to be total perfection? I think she gets a pass on that. Her overall messaging to her son is fantastic and I think it's important for little boys to be modeled open disclosure about feelings.
You’re not a broken record, you’re not complaining, you are documenting your twin pregnancy and you’re being honest about how it’s going. You are bringing two people to this earth and of course it’s going to be hard! Let’s all be kind to ourselves, you are doing THE best you can 👏🏻
^^^^^
Society thought us woman to apologize...a lot! Very sad
@AliSand bs
Stop apologizing for “complaining”. You aren’t complaining, you’re explaining and sharing your experience. That’s what we watch your vlogs for… to see how you’re doing and get a peek at your experiences!
In my opinion you’re doing better this pregnancy than the first time. You have TWINS in your tiny body yet are handling it so much better than you give yourself credit for. ❤️
Hey ik this is kinda weird but can I re post this ILL GIVE FULL CREDIT TO YOU so Colleen can hopefully see this plz?
@@soggywater2003 of course!
:) ty!!
Oh honey, Flynn isn't going to remember you as any of those bad things you're thinking of yourself (lazy, useless, not fun, bad mum). He understands enough to know that you don't feel well right now and like you said it won't be forever, and he has the rest of his life after the next couple of months to enjoy everything, including you being not pregnant! 💜 he's going to be so excited about his new baby siblings and that you don't feel sick anymore!
Jesus loves you all:)
@@jesussavedme6260 Jesus loves you too!
yeah definitely ! i wanna add on that flynn is gonna see the amazing mom that you are, colleen. i can see that he loves you a lot and wants you to just be in the moment. being pregnant doesn't mean that you have to love being pregnant. you got this girl! sending you loads of virtual hugs
@@charlene4139 😊
Wow❤❤ that was so well explained
I hope this doesn’t come out wrong but I’m glad your showing how miserable pregnancy can be. It’s almost depressing seeing the perfect ig moms that are filtered and face tuned so blissfully pregnant and never say it’s hard… thanks for being public about how hard it is.
You mention wanting to be a rockstar mom and showing Flynn that you’re strong and inspiring him and you’re DOING THAT. You’re literally showing him that having emotions and having bad days is okay and that you can do it. And that it’s a bad day, not a bad life. That’s rockstar inspiring strong mom status in my opinion. 🖤 you got this mama. You’re SO CLOSE! And soon you’ll be playing with your three babies 🥰
I don’t think I’ve ever cried as hard and as often in my life as I did when I was pregnant, to the point of regretting getting pregnant (and it was a wanted pregnancy). I can relate so much because pregnancy for me was hell. I love my baby girl more than anything else in the entire universe but pregnancy and motherhood are hard!! But so worth it :) just now that it is completely normal and so many people can relate and understand how you feel. Sending love your way ✨
Flynn: Green is your favorite color.
Erik: Yes, thank you.
Flynn: What's your favorite color 🤔🤨
Erik: Green. 😂😂😂
i died, he is so cute 😂🥰
When I was pregnant with my second set of twins, I ended up on bedrest for the last 2 months. My mother in law had to move in to watch my 3 older kids while I laid around doing nothing, feeling super unproductive. It didn't help that she would gaslight me and do weird things (like rearrange my kitchen or scare my son by calling our hallway the "dark cave") and make ME feel bad about getting annoyed with her. The worst part of it all was the guilt that I felt at being a giant slug who couldn't do anything for my kids or anyone else. I missed them terribly even though we were all in the same house and I saw them all the time. I was so ecstatic when the babies were finally born and I got to be a mom again, lol.
Second set of twins?! My gosh you're a super hero!
Wow ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Also mother in laws 🙄 I’m sorry. It’s not enough to say sorry because mother in laws 😭 but dang I’m sorry. You have done so much!
Your monster in law should have been more compassionate and empathetic towards you.
For the days when you can't physically do anything and are sick:
You're not a bad mom. You're responsive to Flynn, you remind him he's valued in every interaction you have with him.
You're not a bad wife. You're sacrificing your body and your physical comfort to grow two babies for your husband to love.
You're not a bad daily vlogger. You're showing us what you're going through, and if it's something people aren't interested in then it's on them to click away and move on with their day.
You're not a bad person. You care so much about others and make every effort to avoid causing pain and harm to everyone around you.
You do all of those things, even when you're sick and lying on the couch all day. Today wasn't a waste ❤️
Very sweet and poignant advice that I hope she reads.
Heck yes 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼
This needs more likes and she needs to read this 🥺 she is such a strong woman and as a young girl, I could not imagine being pregnant and I don't think I would handle it well either 💖
Couldn't have phrased it any differently. I love your comment, it's people like you that make any hard thing a tiny bit more bearable ❤
Tortilla Talk Question: Has Flynn felt the babies kick yet? If he has, how did he react? Love You Colleen!
Colleen!! You are growing two whole human beings! Please give yourself a break and allow yourself to be lazy. It is okay to not do anything. Because even if you are laying on the couch all day your body is working so hard to create little humans. I can see all the love that Flynn has for you. Don’t get yourself down. Remember that he is so little and he won’t remember you being on the couch but will remember that you gave him two little siblings. We love you girl!! Stay strong ♥️♥️
♥️ this is one of the best comments I have seen in a year 🙌
right! her body is using up all her energy and strength to grow two humans! she needs to be easier on herself
This exactly!! ❤️❤️❤️
You weren’t doing “nothing” today, you were literally creating TWO humans. Those babies are working on packing on the pounds and putting the final touches on growing!! You’re doing great!
couldn’t have said it better👏🏽👏🏽❤️
Listen! Not only are you growing children, but you are reporting on the real face of pregancy. The starry eyed version we’ve all been handed by the media and religion has been bull$&# forever. You are a hero. PERIOD. That psychic had it right. I think your experiences are a teaching moment for everyone. Sending strength vibes to you and the current chemical craziness you are handling.
Well said
Flynn saying “it’s going to be okay” was so cute!! I also note he seems to be in a “green” phase - or maybe it is his favourite colour, green guinea pig, green glitter, green “bidobidoo John” blankets (which he ordered - better check your Amazon) 😆 what a funny and characterful little boy he is. I’m glad you were able to get through another day Colleen, and I hope at least if you don’t get to feel better until the babies arrive that at least you don’t feel worse. Thanks for sharing with us, sending much love and hugs your way. ❤️
Flynn telling Colleen that “it’s gonna be okay” is the cutest thing ever 🥺💗
agreed This precious kids going to make a good brother, no question :)
i know 🥰🥺
WHY IS YOUR PFP JACK MANIFOLD
Yas
@@sarcasticdrag0n603 bc we stan him
“I want to be this rockstar mom who…” YOU ARE!!! You literally work so hard and you’re still vlogging and uploading on multiple channels while growing not one but TWO humans. You are a rockstar mom! I couldn’t imagine doing what you’re doing. Give yourself more credit ❤️❤️
hey collen i just wanted to say how strong you are. the fact that you can blog at this point in your pregnancy and raise flynn makes you such a superhero. i suffer from chronic pain and a couple of mental illnesses (ocd, anxiety, depression) and watching your videos makes me feel so safe and at peace with being myself. the fact that you can openly talk about your symptoms is so helpful to people like me, even though i am not pregnant. i don’t think i’ll ever be able to have kids since I have such severe back pain along with fusing si joints and i am so grateful for you and being able to watch your videos. i also wanted to say that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you not being able to vlog, no one will be mad or blame you if it’s what’s best for you then do it. i wish i could give you tricks or pointers to help with everything but i hope that in the small chance you see this it can help you feel a little bit better. love you!!
@Doofy 𖨆 no ❤
I am 14 too
This comment is amazing
@Doofy 𖨆 bro what
aww yes this
You know she doesn’t feel good when she lets Flynn and Erik go to michaels without her… you’re doing amazing sweety❤️
Ahahha so true!!
flynn doesn’t think of you as a mom who lays down he sees your passion for music. look at those stickers. he knows what you love. he won’t remember any of this. he knows you love him so much and he loves you. you’re doing so amazing
THIS ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
You’re doing great, Mama! I’m 26w4d along and I did not realize how intense (and sometimes lonely) pregnancy can be. I’m so grateful that you’ve been blogging about your pregnancy because you’re normalizing the struggle for me. Please know I’m sending good vibes!!!!
Is anyone else noticing that she still has her nail polish on?? Congrats Colleen!!
I noticed!! And yess agreed! She should be proud of herself!
I’m surprised to see the amount of people talking about their chronic illnesses in the comments and how they relate to not wanting to be in their own body. I am also chronically ill and know this feeling very well but I am always afraid to compare my own struggle to what Colleen is going through. I have never been pregnant so I can’t relate to all of the symptoms, but the fatigue, nausea, vomiting, bloating, depression and anxiety are relatable for sure. It’s nice to know I’m not alone so thank you to those who commented about their chronic illness❤️
Hey Hannah.. how are you doing now?
Hey mama, I've commented before multiple times, I'm sure you've never seen them. Your videos provide me with so much comfort to know that I am not the only pregnant toddler mom struggling. I love how honest you are with us, thank you for exposing the reality of what we go through. We're almost there, almost done❤ (Due with my first girl after 2 boys in January!!)
Congratulations on your pregnancy with a daughter!
aw!! you and colleen will have have 2 boys and a girl! congratulations 💓
Congratulations Ariana! I hope you have a good rest of your pregnancy! I have a question though, have your 2 boys helped get you through your pregnancy like how Flynn does with Colleen?
@@harp2891 thank you so much, they definitely are the very little amount of light I have in life right now! My oldest is actually a few months younger than Flynn and colleens videos really helped me through that time!!
as someone who is trans, i just wanted to say that i really related and felt you on the part of the vlog where you said you felt claustrophobic and stuck in your own body, how you want to be out of your current body and feel like yourself again. you will 100% feel like yourself again after the babies are here and i’m so excited for that to happen to you❤️ even though the situations are different i hope me having the same feeling makes you feel less alone, much love
IM TRANS 🏳️⚧️
@@SilverStar7 me to
I honestly love that you share these moments with us. They’re vulnerable and hard but they’re so raw and an important part of pregnancy. I appreciate being able to see this part of your life
Colleen everyone understands that you can’t always be there for people when pregnant. It’ll be okay!!
That is very true
@@vitahoutman9766 yes it is very true read my comment my name is ainsley montgomery
I read this this first as “I will be ok.” And cracked up.
@@Jenn-715 did you send that to me or caroline k
@@ainsleymontgomery8504 sorry 😢 I meant it to Caroline K.
Never think you’re not productive, you’re literally doing the most productive thing a human can do 💕
yess!!!
This is such a sweet comment. My husband tells me this all the time when I cry about feeling useless because I have no energy to do anything.
i appreciate that you share the adorable moments with flynn while also respecting his boundaries and being present in the moment. i've seen too many vlogging parents exploiting their children's distress and breakdowns for views. sending so much love to your beautiful family
i normally don’t comment or like anything on youtube but i feel like i need to say that your videos, your honesty and vulnerability through your pregnancy and honestly just everyday life, has helped me through some really hard times. you constantly remind me pain is temporary and i’m so much stronger than what im going through. i’m 18 and feel so lost and scared sometimes, but knowing i’m not alone and getting to see you go through the worst of it has helped so much. thank you for everything you do colleen.
I feel so bad every time I see you sad about your pregnancy, but remember this too shall pass and when you hold those babies it'll be all worth it. You're doing amazing mama, and you're so close to the finish line! I admire you so much if it's worth anything and you're an amazing mom to Flynn and an amazing wife; stop being so hard on yourself! xx YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL COLLEEN
Colleen: “Flynn, I don’t feel good”
Flynn: “it’ll be okay”
I diedddddd. He’s so sweet 💕
Can’t believe I’ve watched you for so long now. I’m 20 now, 21 in January and I’ve followed / watched your content since I was 13/14! You are an inspiration to everyone who watches you. The things you share help the rest of us feel like we’re not alone. You and your family are beautiful and your videos make my day every day. Love you Colleen xx
omg 21 in January squad 😂😂
Me toooo
“I’ve done nothing today” COLLEEN. you’re literally growing HUMANS. stop it lol you’re literally doing the hardest thing
I'm 4 weeks behind you (also with boy and girl twins!) and I can 100% relate! It is so hard and your feelings are valid! Before you know it, the babies will be here and you'll be on the road to being yourself again. It's so hard watching/feeling your body change and losing the ability to do things that make you you, but I'm told that it's all worth it once you're holding them. Thankfully, pregnancy is only a short journey in our lives. You got this, mama!
Tortilla talk: Not a question but i wanted to mention that, as someone who has an autoimmune disease who used to have to do infusions, the best place (in my opinion) for an IV is on your wrist, on the thumb side vs in the antecubital space (the area where your elbow bends). It makes you feel SO much more mobile, and makes you feel like you can actually do things and bend your arms and use your hands and not just be hooked up to machines for x amount of time. I just wanted to mention this for you, as it may be helpful for you in being able to play with flynn or do other things that you want to do while still getting the fluids and medicine you need for those babies! You’re doing SO great Colleen. You ARE a super mom; you’re growing not one but 2 humans despite the fact that it is taking so much out of you and it just shows your strength and the love you have for your babies. You got this! 💪🏼
This is me replying to this comment in an attempt to popularize it and hope she sees it.
IV on the wrist feels way more comfortable 🙌🏻
Please stop beating yourself up with mom guilt about Flynn. You are giving him a gift. You are giving him two best friends that he will always be able to count on. Also I was 3 years older than my brother and I don’t remember my mom’s pregnancy at all. You are doing great just making it through the day. 💜💜💜💜
@@chikaaeshizumi2034 stop with this
Same I was FIVE when my baby bro was born and I don't remember anything negative about her not being able to play with me or anything! I was just super jazzed to have a baby :) we got along spookily well til he hit 13 🤣
Tortilla talk question: What will Flynn’s schooling look like, will he be home schooled, go to public school or private school?
i believe she answered a question like this before, i’m pretty sure she said that whatever him and the twins need for their education that’s what they’ll do, whether that be public school, home school or other wise :)
I just want to say I love how Colleen shows the hard parts of pregnancy. I get it... I was absolutely miserable when I was pregnant, and I would see all these people posting these happy wonderful pics, posts, etc and here I am feeling like a big gross mess and waking up in the middle of the night to massive charlie horses in both legs and just cry from the pain. Stay strong mama your almost there!
Yes!!!!
Tortilla talk question: have you considered interviewing nannies yet? If you had a nanny you wouldnt have to feel so bad about not giving Flynn the attention he needs AND you wouldn’t have to worry about putting all the parenting duties on Erik.
Also, we love u colleen it’s not easy being a human especially when your growing humans, I broke up with my best friend of 4 years today and I can’t help but feeling a bit hopeless. Do you have any advice for how to recover after a breakup? I could really use the help!
Time helps the most. The first few weeks are rough but once you get through it you be a whole new person. Take everyday day by day. Some days will be better than others but just know it will get better.
I'm 30 weeks and I also feel like a shell of a human. I feel like I've forgotten how to have fun and be positive and creative. Like I can't even spell right now. I miss myself. But thank you for saying that you felt like yourself as soon as Flynn was born because I also have that little voice in the back of my mind asking if Im going to feel this way forever. You give me a lot of hope and make me feel less alone.
At least you can get pregnant
I’m 30 weeks pregnant today, I also have ADHD and this pregnancy has been hell for my mental health too! Particularly over guilt for not being productive. Depression and anxiety too would be symptoms I would erase if I could. This is my first baby and you are so amazing and strong for putting yourself through this again knowing what it meant! Thank you so much for sharing everything, it makes me feel like I’m not alone!
Flynn won't remember the time you were sick, he will remember you six months pregnant putting him on your shoulders while you dance. He will rewatch the videos and he will realize just how amazing his mom was when he never knew just how much she was before. The twins will realize just how wanted they are.
you are literally so strong colleen, when you were saying 'I just want to be a rockstar mom' i was like LOOK AT YOU! you're pregnant with twins while also caring your your son and working so hard. just remember that every week, day and minute that goes by you're closer and closer to having your gorgeous little babies and feeling like yourself again. you're doing so amazingly. we love you.
I too have a sibling and a working mom and I can confirm that Flynn will not be upset or disappointed in you, he will be nothing but proud of you! I'm so proud of my mom that she could balance taking care of us and go back to working ONLY when she was ready to (My mom took a break from work because she just wanted to be with us for a while). You and Erik are great parents, Flynn and the new little ones are so lucky to have you and so are you to have them!
i am someone who has a chronic illness and it's feels like you want to rip your own skin off sometimes. you want to rip out of this sick body and become normal feeling. my heart aches for you colleen. you're doing so well with all of this. crying helps me a lot. don't be embarrassed to cry and let it all out when you're feeling sad! it's okay not to be okay. i love you. you got this! a couple more months queen ❤️
Hi glitter😄 How are you doing now?
You’re never doing nothing - even when you’re sitting, you’re growing and supporting two lives!!! Even when you’re still your body is doing a million things, that’s a FULL time job 💙 you’ll get through this and we ALL appreciate your candor and transparency
I completely understand just wanting to feel “normal” and better and to be in a body that isn’t suffering, especially after the past 2 days, I found out I might have cancer and I’ve been getting multiple tests and trying to rule things out and hoping and praying that it’s not cancer but as things are being ruled out it’s looking worse and worse so things aren’t looking great. Shoutout to everyone going through tough times, chronic illnesses, new diagnoses, scary tests and endless possibilities looming over them, we can overcome our hardest moments and we can come out better than ever!
Sending love 💜
@@NoodlePoodle1234 thank you so much!!
Sending love your way 💛
@@kelly23559 thank you so much!!
God is with you and will get you through it! God bless you. Everything will be okay. 🙏🏾 You have an loving God up above you that’s watching you right now. A little convo with the Man wouldn’t hurt. It’s incredible. Sending love ❤️
Erik: explaining in the podcast about how he doesn't like glitter during Christmas time and how it needs to not be there
also Erik: goes out and buys green glitter for colleen
🤣
Flynn makes everyone’s hearts melt. The pure-ness with little things reminds me how lovey toddlers can be
You are literally so strong. I've been pregnant with twins for 14 weeks, and I feel so dead, everything is hard. I can't imagine how hard it is for you especially since your job requires consistent work and consistent updates, you are so strong. Keep going!
Congratulations on your pregnancy!
Yeah, must be so hard to turn a camera and start crying. Being pregnant is very difficult specially with twins. But vlogging shouldn’t even be a real job
@@Sunny-Brook-69 thank you
Even though Colleen is going through a lot, she still upload vidoes for us to watch, that's a super mom right there.
yeah so inspiring to upload videos of her whining and making millions of dollars for doing it...
@@MikeG82 if you think that then why are you watching? Lol... just a genuine question 🤔
@@MikeG82 literally shut up no one asked. you don’t have to watch, no one is forcing you
@@MikeG82 colleen is pregnant! With TWO BABIES!!! U better be a man because it u are a women and get your period hormones and stuff you are messed up. She doesn't get money for "no reason" I love her videos more then anything. You are ✨jealous✨
@@MikeG82 so true, if a single one of these videos was de-monetised she would delete it.
Whelp, that's how I felt with my second pregnancy. It's nice to know I wasn't the only one who never felt like themselves. It's so hard going from one size to continuously growing. Sending positive vibes to you momma xo
Tortilla Talk Question: what’s something in your career that you haven’t done that you really want to do, and/or who is somebody you would like to work with! Love these videos - as someone with OCD and wacky tendencies you’re like the only person I’ve been able to see myself in ❤️
I love how Colleen isn't afraid to show us how real she is. She's not afraid to cry. She's so genuine & real. ❤️
I agree! Colleen is the best, I always feel so accepted in this little community she’s created! 😄
Tortilla talk question: how does korey know how to edit what you want to say? Do you ever say “korey cut that out” or anything while recording
I remember feeling like this. I was so sick my whole pregnancy and after 27 years, I still remember it. Hang in there, sweet girl! You’ve got this! I remember crying and screaming that I just want to feel normal again! This brought me back. Rest and take care.
I have a lot of respect to you mothers because of what you go through.
Colleen, first off: you're almost to the finish line and get to hug these two adorable babies! I'm so proud of you!!! YOU CAN DO THIS🧡🧡🧡
My POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrom) has been combining with my anxiety/depression the past few weeks to make me literally unable to do anything, working an 8.5 hour shift or a 4 hour shift both drain me beyond belief and make me have to sleep for 14-16 hours. I feel the "i want out of this body" experience so much. Just know that hearing your honesty about this makes so many of us feel less alone. Your vlogs during this time give me motivation to cook dinner or bake something, anything to feel a semblance of productivity. So thank you for just being you🧡🧡🧡🧡
I'm due in May and seeing u during both pregnancies has showed me its not all butterflies and rainbows for every woman and I appreciate u telling how u actually feel then faking it like others. I wish I could help in anyway I could. My whole first trimester has been honestly hell, I already had chronic nausea before being pregnant and its gotten so much worse and I'm in bed almost 24/7 right now. I love you colleen and keep ur head and heart up u got this 💜
You can do this queen 👸❤️
This is so heartbreaking to watch, especially as someone who has chronic illness. It’s so hard to not feel like yourself and feel like you can’t get out of a body that’s so sick. My heart aches for you Colleen (and anyone going through something similar). I cannot tell you how comforting your vlogs have been, there’s seriously such a sense of comfort and gratitude to know that I’m not the only one feeling like I’ve lost myself because of my health. I adore you. You are enough. I wish I could give you a hug! Sending you so much love.🤍
Sadly, one of the things that affect people with ADD is lack of perspective. This seems like nothing, but it's not, because these individuals cannot fully project themselves in the future, since mentally they live in an ever-changing present and it's the only dimension they are fully engaged with. I am afraid Colleen is experiencing exactly this, perhaps even more acutely because she is pregnant.
@@jeff5882174 it’s different for everyone what?
@@jeff5882174 you will never be pregnant esp with twins so of course you are “fine” with your add… catch a clue dude!
@@jeff5882174 it also presents different in men and women, can have a HUGE variety of symptoms and, yes it’s May be easier if you’re medicated but pregnant women have to STOP taking their medication so all their symptoms are in full strength combined with the already hard pregnancy symptoms so don’t be rude and dismissive
@@jeff5882174 good for you dude but not everyone is the same and it doesn’t JUST make it hard to focus, there’s a lot more to it. I also have adhd and it’s fucked with my life a lot and caused severe stress and anxiety because I feel like I have no control over my own thoughts or actions due to my impulsive and hyperactive mind which also effects my job, spending/eating habits, and my sleep. I was only diagnosed this year and now realize how much of my life it has affected and how I still struggle even though I’m aware of it.
@@jeff5882174 No, it doesn’t just mean that, and if you were truly diagnosed you should know this. Not only was your statement wrong it was incredibly dismissive. Read the room and take a seat
Wow, you really touched me with explaining how you feel with not feeling yourself; a shell of yourself. I’ve had derealisation/depersonalisation basically my whole life and you summed up exactly how I feel every day, it really got me crying with you. This is just to say that I understand, and love you so much. We both gotta keep believing it’ll get better, and it WILL. You are so much stronger than you realise
hey, i’m dealing with this right now and i’m crying along with you both. i’ve had a few episodes a year since i was little but this past month it’s been really bad and i’m in constant anxiety that it’ll happen at any moment. its so painful. have you had anything that’s made it easier for you? i could use some advice
I have OCD and sometimes it just gets so frustrating the all I want to do is sob. Sometimes I am able to keep it in but often I find that if I just let myself sob, I feel so much better. I think that society tells us that if we cry about somethings then we are weak, but I believe that if you are able to let yourself cry when you need it, then you are proving just how strong your are. Because you have the ability to know that that is what you need in that moment and that is what you have to do to make yourself feel better.
You are not your thoughts. OCD is hard and you're strong and resilient! I'm proud of you ❤️
@@SavanaSue12 Thank you❤
I just want to know how many green blankets named John, Erik is gonna get in the next 4-8 days 😂😂
If you’re taking every measure does that mean permanent measures? Birth control otherwise does not make it impossible, and with how rough pregnancy is on you maybe a vasectomy or tubal is something to consider to actually make it impossible?
yes thank you for asking this! if she and her family truly never want to be pregnant again, vasectomy/tubal ligation is the only way to go (or abstinence LOL)
@@emerald-kl9st Abstinence in a marriage doesn't make sense lol
@@ashleynicole3671 yeah that's why i put an "lol" after it and put the whole statement in parentheses
Actually not all permanent solutions are completely fail proof, the vas deference can sometimes grow back together same with some forms of tubal ligation, but a hysterectomy or have both testes removed would be pretty failsafe lol
colleen’s makeup is always GORGEOUS 💕
@Doofy 𖨆 oh please she’s going through a rough time why make other people feel bad to make you feel better. If you don’t like her don’t watch her
Please be respectful and not rude.
I AGREE ANS I LOVE TAYLOR SWIFT LMAOO I CANT WAIT FOR RED TV!!!
@@RagdollyKat they are obviously a troll 😂 I think they have responded to everyone
Ikr
@Doofy 𖨆 no
colleen it absolutely amazes me how even when your crying and upset you can laugh at something silly like a mosquito. you *are* a rockstar mom! just remember that it will all be over soon love
You are growing two humans. You were the catalyst for the development of many thousands of cells today. You definitely did not do nothing!!!! You are a rock star Colleen. You are strong and amazing.
flynn is literally the purest being in the whole world, he spreads so much happiness to everyone he interacts with and i know he's going to be an amazing big brother. you're a great mum colleen
I think it's important to teach Flynn that acknowledging your limitations is okay and even crucial. Not acting the same way you did before pregnancy is what is best for you because you're listening to the signals your body gives you. Flynn will understand that some day. Maybe he even understands it now.
Flynn with his binkie is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen😭
I literally lover her so much she is so strong!
Strong for doing what? Crying on camera ?
I can't get over how forward Flynn is and how well he talks.
I think it takes a strong person (like you!) to be able to be so honest and share everything you’re dealing with. The not feeling good, the crying, everything. I have so much respect for you!!!!
And I totally get the crying helping, happens to me all the time!! Big hugs girl 🫂🫂🫂
2:29 Know that soooo many people with chronic pain understand exactly what you mean…you are amazing, we are proud of you, and we know how scary not knowing what each day brings for symptoms
Hey, just remember that even on the days that you feel yucky, and can't get anything done, you are STILL a rockstar mom. Taking time to rest because you feel yucky doesn't change that. You're also setting a good example for Flynn by listening to your body, and taking care of yourself. We were raised in a society that prioritizes productivity over health, and showing our kids that it's okay to have an off day is how we stop that cycle.
Tortilla talk question: just kidding this isn’t a question but you should know that your doing an amazing job as a mommy! Don’t put yourself down bc your doing great
So excited for this package of green blankets named John that Flynn ordered!
He’s so talkative and adorable!
Sharing your personal struggles, bringing these kind of things into the light, is so good. It connects to so many people who are struggling alone. Thank you.
Amen!
Colleen, this is a normal part of life and it’s good to show Flynn that everyone isn’t happy all the time and sometimes it’s ok to not feel good. Sending love and happiness ❤️
Re: not getting pregnant again. My husband got a vasectomy. Best thing we ever did. It took 20 minutes. I held his hand throughout the process and recovery was minimal. Just needed some pain killers and ice for his balls 🤣
I hated being on birth control - I wanted to give my body a break after 20 years of taking it, and having your tubes tied is so much more invasive. We weren't having any more kids so thought we may as well unload the gun. He was more than happy to oblige.
This!!! My husband will be doing this as soon as we decide if we are maybe going for a rainbow(x9) baby. He said he'd gladly do it! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽
@@dianaw4072 Good luck on all fronts! Honestly, the stress that's taken off your shoulders is immense.
Yesss I would love that but my partner would never 😞
Flynn is SOOO descriptive with his stories! His vocabulary is impressive. I love how confident he was about the green blanket named John arriving for Erik lol.
I have chronic back issues and clinical depression/anxiety. I know that feeling of being frustrated with your body or wishing that you could participate in your own life! Those things suck so bad bc they work against each other. You need to walk/exercise to make you feel better mentally but your body won’t let you bc of the chronic pain. It’s an endless cycle.
"i just want out of this body" i feel exactly like that too, and i cried with her when she said it. you're a super hero, colleen. you're doing your best and just a little bit more time and you'll feel better. i'm so proud of you 💜
As someone with a lot of illnesses, mental and physical, I completely relate to the feeling of wanting out of your body. When every day is hard it can feel incredibly overwhelming and a lot some days. It’s totally okay to not always be okay
Your presence alone brightens up lives. Even though you feel like you’re energy is dwindling we still see you as you and I know Flynn does too. You’re human carrying two humans! And that is so cool. Proud of you mama ❤️❤️❤️
This reminded me of "she used to be mine" from Waitress a little. Singing it out empathizing more than I should for a woman I've never met. You are killing it Colleen. Wish I could give you a hug and say "yeah that feeling must freaking suck" sending hugs to you and your wonderful family.
Colleen, you’re literally growing not one but two entire humans right now!! It’s totally ok that you can’t do as much as you can when you aren’t pregnant. I know you feel like you can’t do much but everyone who knows you knows that you’re *so* strong and we’re all rooting for you!! ❤️❤️
Awww Colleen I definitely understand you I went thru the same thing! I know it’s hard just hang in there everything will be fine
Hey Colleen. We are all so proud of you. You are a 👏BOSS👏ASS👏MOTHER👏 You are one hard working woman. Don’t put so much pressure on yourself. Your amazing, your doing everything right. I think it’s amazing how your a pregnant mother with TWINS, and yet you still somehow manage to Vlog, and be a fabulous person: even though you may not always feel great about yourself
Your right colleen never give up you can do it I know you are the best because your my favorite TH-camr in the world hope you and your family are doing well ❤️💗
It’s literally her job. She only vlogs what she does and she doesn’t even edit her videos. I still love her tho. I’m so sick of people praising her for doing the bare minimum when there are pregnant women out there actually working
@@sofiasilveramua2675 she does work lol, shes a mom, a wife, a friend, pregnant with twins! she edits her videos too, have you never heard her say shes going to edit? you "love her" but you bring her down and compare her to "working pregnant women"
Colleen-
YOU ARE A ROCKSTAR MOM
You have a toddler, you manage 3 channels, and YOU ARE GROWING TWO WHOLE HUMANS. TWO. YOU ARE SUCH A SUPERMOM.
The fact that you’re existing when you feel like this already makes you so strong. You’re worth so much more than you think you are, and we’re all so proud of you for being so strong. There is nothing wrong with relaxing or taking it easy, even when you’re not pregnant.
We love you ❤️
While I have never had to go through the challenge of pregnancy, I do have days when I’m not feeling very motivated, and I find that listening to podcasts helps me (including yours, so thank you). There’s this one called Ladies and Tangents that I’ve gotten into lately that kind of reminds me of you and I think it could help you on those days when you’re feeling down in the dumps. I just want to let you know that even if you don’t feel like it every day, you’re an awesome mom and you’re doing a great job, because I can’t imagine it’s easy growing two literal humans in you. You got this!💪🏼❤️❤️
Just an idea, get Flynn a doctor set. And when you really aren't feeling good enough to get up and play with him. Lay in bed and let him be your doctor
That’s adorable
I have a chronic illness, and boy, the ‘I want out of this body’ is a very familiar phrase. I’m sorry you’re going through such a rough time. Again, hopefully this will all be over for you in a few months, and you can return to feeling like yourself (with your beautiful new babies!), but until then, I understand how hard it must be. It will pass though. Try and do your best to breath, acknowledge that this point in time sucks, but focus on that it won’t be forever. Your body is going through so much, but it will be worth it. Sending you love ❤️
I felt like this exact same way when I was pregnant with just 1 with my son , I’m so sorry sweetie ! You’re doing great mama! Just take your time and it’s okay not to be okay , you’re aloud to wanna be a shell if you want to. It’s hard work and if you need to cry it all out as much as you need to then do it lady! You have 2 babies in there brewing , one boy and girl and so many hormones exploding ! Flynn loves you so much no matter what all of this you know will be so worth it in the end 💙💙💕
Remember last time??? it always, always gets better. you're such an inspiration to all of us!! I've been watching you since I was really young and you've bascially raised me. you have no idea what you've done for me. thank you