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  • In this video i have an episode
    I hope it is some what educational
    Edit: OMG So many subscribers and likes!!!
    Thank you guys all so much.
    Also...
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  • @maxmacks8856
    @maxmacks8856 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19386

    U can see in his eyes when he’s hearing the voices

    • @YoutubeCommentRater
      @YoutubeCommentRater 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1120

      Yes . Reminds me of my cousin . He killed himself sadly . And I saw his eyes like that. He just never wanted to say a word about what he was Seeing and hearing

    • @maxmacks8856
      @maxmacks8856 3 ปีที่แล้ว +343

      @@TH-camCommentRater sorry to hear that man

    • @YoutubeCommentRater
      @YoutubeCommentRater 3 ปีที่แล้ว +190

      @@maxmacks8856 thanks. i wish we all saw all these videos BEFORE. it was a tragedy we can't get over.

    • @uhmmmmm123
      @uhmmmmm123 3 ปีที่แล้ว +71

      @@TH-camCommentRater I’m so sorry for your loss.

    • @paddington7606
      @paddington7606 3 ปีที่แล้ว +106

      Its good that he can Ignore those voices such a brave man....one of my fam members drink some leponex to fall asleep cause she can’t sleep hearing those voices but thanks to god we can still talk to her..and she actually tells us what she heard and seeing and that was crazy like demons who speak bad words to Her back and realizing those people with this kind of condition is really having a hard time to speak with, so you must talk to them and treat them like a normal person coz it can help them to ignore those voices and don’t let them to watch horror movies or stuff related to what she hears and sees, I don’t have this kind of condition but one of my love ones has this and thank god she is still alive and living properly.

  • @yesimmrsir586
    @yesimmrsir586 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21975

    Who else found this in recommended and clicked on it instantly
    Wow thanks for the likes

    • @iceice1586
      @iceice1586 4 ปีที่แล้ว +164

      I was actually reluctant to click this video because I knew it would put me in a bad mood but I just wanted to experience what other people experience 😕

    • @roamingwaters8876
      @roamingwaters8876 4 ปีที่แล้ว +49

      A 2am

    • @My_NameJeff
      @My_NameJeff 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Me

    • @ThyRevoo
      @ThyRevoo 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      The reason why I clicked on this is because I myself have been experiencing constant throbbing headaches in my head, mainly the pain is concentrated on the back of my head but whenever I try to sleep sometimes I feel like thoughts are forced on me to think. Like random songs, quotes I never heard of or heard before so I thought this was a good video to analyze

    • @JKEdaJOKER
      @JKEdaJOKER 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      I hesitated

  • @cookieskills5521
    @cookieskills5521 หลายเดือนก่อน +967

    I wish I could hug him. I hope he’s doing ok today

    • @TheTree42069
      @TheTree42069 หลายเดือนก่อน +62

      he's doing great!!! he has a child on the way and a way better outlook

    • @cookieskills5521
      @cookieskills5521 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

      @@TheTree42069 oh good!

    • @Sunflower_SM64
      @Sunflower_SM64 22 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Same :(

    • @h.w.4482
      @h.w.4482 21 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

      no way, he must've gotten married then a while back too? great news tbh

  • @SukunaYaoi
    @SukunaYaoi หลายเดือนก่อน +1775

    I can't believe nowadays people use schizophrenia as a joke when it's a real thing people suffer from. I hope you're doing alright bro

    • @unknownartistman5155
      @unknownartistman5155 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

      You know how when in Harry Potter , students make fun of Boggart ?

    • @lol69970
      @lol69970 หลายเดือนก่อน +16

      @@unknownartistman5155 like it changes anything

    • @harveyhooks3431
      @harveyhooks3431 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

      Who using it as a joke in this video though? Stop bringing up negativity

    • @SukunaYaoi
      @SukunaYaoi หลายเดือนก่อน +12

      @harveyhooks3431 not in the video but u can see it in the comment section, I think it's mostly my generation though (im gen z so u know how that goes)

    • @harveyhooks3431
      @harveyhooks3431 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @SukunaYaoi oh yea I understand that

  • @keiralvnn
    @keiralvnn 4 ปีที่แล้ว +24768

    When the voice told him to kill himself and he said “sometimes I debate if I should or not” :(((

    • @bethanielaurenhawkins956
      @bethanielaurenhawkins956 4 ปีที่แล้ว +384

      dillydollie that killed me

    • @MsLilyPickles
      @MsLilyPickles 4 ปีที่แล้ว +406

      My heart sunk 😔

    • @teenyweeny3005
      @teenyweeny3005 4 ปีที่แล้ว +542

      my heart literally shattered. no one deserves that. If he’s reading this rn i wanna tell him that everything will be okay! 😔💞

    • @bloodycakes2451
      @bloodycakes2451 4 ปีที่แล้ว +93

      Nervous Norvus
      I agree. But still. He deserves to live.

    • @TheAddie625
      @TheAddie625 4 ปีที่แล้ว +67

      @Nervous Norvus No one should have to live with that though 🙄

  • @Nick-fr1wb
    @Nick-fr1wb 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14997

    My grandpa was schizophrenic and went blind so he would have yelling arguments with people and i felt bad for him because he truly couldn’t tell if the people were there or not.

    • @shracid7898
      @shracid7898 4 ปีที่แล้ว +473

      Mental illness are the most horrifying things that can happen. I’d rather die of can cancer honestly.

    • @vivelise16
      @vivelise16 4 ปีที่แล้ว +41

      i thought you couldnt be blind and schizophrenic? sorry if thats insensitive i jus heard that somewhere.

    • @voltage1235
      @voltage1235 4 ปีที่แล้ว +68

      Fuck that's crazy real life shits happens

    • @crimsonnicola5920
      @crimsonnicola5920 4 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      That's so sad

    • @NathanStamey
      @NathanStamey 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      That’s sucks

  • @Terence.McKenna
    @Terence.McKenna หลายเดือนก่อน +643

    "trying to make light of the situation" was a really good pun

  • @Yurp14330
    @Yurp14330 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +776

    Man that just sounds so exhausting. Wish there was a way people didn’t have to live life with this type of difficulty. Don’t ever give up dude

    • @deniseeugene1852
      @deniseeugene1852 หลายเดือนก่อน

      It’s an genetic organic disease . There isn’t a cure for this.

    • @yogeshthakur9159
      @yogeshthakur9159 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      They don't, there's always an escape route.

    • @Remmeister2000
      @Remmeister2000 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@yogeshthakur9159Dude shut up

    • @Sunflower_SM64
      @Sunflower_SM64 22 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Fr

  • @ashes2ashton490
    @ashes2ashton490 4 ปีที่แล้ว +45381

    the way he was talking sounds like he’s trying to ignore another loud voice talking to him and he keeps losing his train of thought and that is so scary to me

    • @xxmyharturhandzxx
      @xxmyharturhandzxx 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1652

      It is really scary, and you can't focus yeah :(

    • @mrpanda2655
      @mrpanda2655 4 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      Shut up

    • @wormbrainnn
      @wormbrainnn 4 ปีที่แล้ว +576

      Mr Panda what the hell

    • @vanishsky3267
      @vanishsky3267 4 ปีที่แล้ว +45

      @@mrpanda2655 👏

    • @mrpanda2655
      @mrpanda2655 4 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      Jada Rose ur fat u needa lose weight

  • @churippu3052
    @churippu3052 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8881

    “The voice told me to kill myself”
    “I’ll just put the music back on”
    YES YOU DO THAT DROWN THE VOICES DROWN THEM OUT

    • @sarahsmith9430
      @sarahsmith9430 3 ปีที่แล้ว +243

      Exactly I tell mine to stfu now

    • @buseturkyilmaz8313
      @buseturkyilmaz8313 3 ปีที่แล้ว +99

      @@sarahsmith9430 same lmao, but sometimes i zone out and kind of forget im in public or with people lmaoo

    • @vodkacannon
      @vodkacannon 3 ปีที่แล้ว +239

      Hey dude.
      I’m a schizophrenic.
      I cannot handle stress.
      The words that come out of my brain tend to be jarbled. It is a miracle that I can even type this out correctly.
      I work at mcdonalds and i love washing the dishes because it’s the easiest part of the job.

    • @vodkacannon
      @vodkacannon 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Thanks!

    • @yash.805
      @yash.805 3 ปีที่แล้ว +80

      @@vodkacannon stay strong king!!

  • @krystalacole
    @krystalacole 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +518

    This is no joke.. I respond to things that others can’t hear or see.. sometimes I have to analyze the situation to see if what I’m experiencing is actually real or in my mind. I do jump while I’m in bed because I feel stuff walking on my bed. I had to learn to not respond out loud to whatever I’m hearing. It is exhausting to have what most people consider a normal day. Praying for you.

    • @carolburnette2019
      @carolburnette2019 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      🙏

    • @SaltyGonads708
      @SaltyGonads708 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Demons. You have demons possessing you like this boy or demons oppressing you and trying to get in and possess you. Demons are real and the ONLY cure is to RUN TO JESUS CHRIST! 🙏🏼

    • @BoskoKan3
      @BoskoKan3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      and is it any better now ?

    • @StefaniaM-gx8sx
      @StefaniaM-gx8sx หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      it is scary and weed caused me sensations like these but i have nothing so weed or die

    • @dilfsfavminor
      @dilfsfavminor หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Hi, if you dont mind me asking, what do you see? Ghosts, shadows or normal people?

  • @dannypowell594
    @dannypowell594 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +279

    You are incredibly brave for making this and allowing us a glimpse or what you're dealing with. Thank you so much for sharing brother. You are loved by many

    • @bunk95
      @bunk95 หลายเดือนก่อน

      A slave is brave for being forced to..?

    • @panicfuks
      @panicfuks หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@bunk95wtf

    • @benonaru
      @benonaru หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@bunk95wrobng

    • @LSD_Enthusiast
      @LSD_Enthusiast 25 วันที่ผ่านมา

      ​@bunk95 are you sţüpiɗ?

  • @toffeegirl__7301
    @toffeegirl__7301 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12452

    imagine having to be stuck in your house and in your own head space during quarintene, god bless you.

    • @IrOnMaIdEn1912
      @IrOnMaIdEn1912 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      estrrrible

    • @SgtKickAzzYT
      @SgtKickAzzYT 4 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      Girl, ON POINT!!! Dude DONT EVER KILL YOUR SELF CALL ME BRO ILL TALK TO YOU! I would never let you do that man!

    • @aaliyahetc.6687
      @aaliyahetc.6687 4 ปีที่แล้ว +78

      @YERIKV1914 bro stfu you think every mentally ill person hasn't heard that shit before. It cant cure us.

    • @gerag5707
      @gerag5707 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Quarantine?

    • @tear3375
      @tear3375 4 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      @YERIKV1914 its the meds

  • @ailurophile4341
    @ailurophile4341 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10316

    Don't ever kill yourself! You're stronger than the voices.

    • @Miko08
      @Miko08 4 ปีที่แล้ว +313

      Ailurophile what if the voices deadlift 225lb

    • @maurotolpe171
      @maurotolpe171 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Miko omgggggg

    • @jrapattii9941
      @jrapattii9941 4 ปีที่แล้ว +109

      @@Miko08 if they deadlift 225 lbs they weak af and this guy will beat them easily

    • @gustavosmith3980
      @gustavosmith3980 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      The voices aren't like other people he's having problems with parts of his brain

    • @arrow_2005
      @arrow_2005 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jrapattii9941 ?

  • @Tinsterr
    @Tinsterr หลายเดือนก่อน +49

    It is actually so crazy how people can life with this. After listining to an Simulator it geniuently seems like a horror movie. Mad respect for everyone who manages to have a semi-normal life

  • @jasp4939
    @jasp4939 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +65

    My son has been battling with schizophrenia for over 12 years. He turns to drugs to try to feel normal....that's what he says. If I could switch places with my son, I would do it in a heartbeat. He's been in and out of treatment for years, nothing has changed. I wish the Canadian government would do more for anyone dealing with mental illnesses. What I've learned is that my son is just a number....so sad! I hope my son gets the help he needs before I die 😢

    • @hodos_bonusz
      @hodos_bonusz 10 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

      Oh gosh, wishing him the best

    • @suenaable
      @suenaable 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Your son is telling you bullshit. Drugs increases die likelihood for psychosis in schizophrenia. Really bad idea, drugs and schizophrenia.
      There are medications for schizophrenia, antipsychotics like Risperdal.

    • @zorubark
      @zorubark 17 ชั่วโมงที่ผ่านมา

      The goverment is so cruel

  • @897daredevil
    @897daredevil 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4763

    Crazy how he knows the voices are not real but he can still hear them

    • @ddcrisp23
      @ddcrisp23 4 ปีที่แล้ว +392

      Blindi as it progresses you start to believe they are real, that’s the problem with this mental illness. Along with other manifestations of course.

    • @OriginatorofAll
      @OriginatorofAll 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      What if he’s u intentionally channeling beings ?

    • @sackme4377
      @sackme4377 4 ปีที่แล้ว +148

      @Blindi That's such a dickheaded thing to say. Most people with this type of schizophrenia can't tell, it's hard to distinguish between what's real and what isn't, particularly if it's paired with hallucinations, which I don't think his is. These voices convince them to believe a lot of things, the intense paranoia shows that they believe these voices.

    • @sackme4377
      @sackme4377 4 ปีที่แล้ว +87

      @Blindi If you heard someone calling your name from another room, you'd know they're real, becaude you can hear it, you can process it. If you hear something, you have the privilege of knowing it's real, but these people have the same sensations of hearing something, but they have to decide for themselves if they believe it or not.

    • @rebeccarain2466
      @rebeccarain2466 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Scott Larson me too

  • @unohayden166
    @unohayden166 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8303

    Such a nice kid I feel so bad he’s gotta deal with this constantly.

    • @doggon1416
      @doggon1416 4 ปีที่แล้ว +85

      Francisco Elliot nice or not nobody should have to go through any of what he is going through

    • @spaghettios
      @spaghettios 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@doggon1416 put him out of his misery?

    • @strikeb1t
      @strikeb1t 4 ปีที่แล้ว +50

      @@spaghettios *иісса...*

    • @jackjill497
      @jackjill497 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Check freq?

    • @ivansesaldo1676
      @ivansesaldo1676 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@spaghettios noice

  • @maddiesavage
    @maddiesavage หลายเดือนก่อน +81

    My grandmother has Schizophrenia. I love seeing people spreading awareness on this, no one understands her so she was appreciative to see someone shining light on this. Thank you.

  • @sarasmith3850
    @sarasmith3850 6 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    Hope this young man is doing good this day and age!

  • @collingriga1819
    @collingriga1819 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9401

    I couldn’t even imagine the internal battle this young mans fighting every day

    • @Edward-ho2bm
      @Edward-ho2bm 3 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      same it s sad

    • @rohahayzza2175
      @rohahayzza2175 3 ปีที่แล้ว +80

      He's strong for battling it alone

    • @thc7865
      @thc7865 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I am too im schizo because of weed

    • @seeelinewoman
      @seeelinewoman 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@rohahayzza2175 he aint alone

    • @claucara-joanjettfan3984
      @claucara-joanjettfan3984 3 ปีที่แล้ว +44

      It's like a haunted house inside of the mind

  • @DOwhutnow
    @DOwhutnow 4 ปีที่แล้ว +19273

    The fragility of the human brain is scary, sad and fascinating at the same time.

    • @dMiraculousDevin
      @dMiraculousDevin 4 ปีที่แล้ว +433

      I’m leaning on the complexity of the human brain tbh, so much we don’t know about the human psyche

    • @thomaspatrickparker6648
      @thomaspatrickparker6648 4 ปีที่แล้ว +65

      The fragility of the human brain on schizophrenia*

    • @ahnrho
      @ahnrho 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Mhm.

    • @adamjdagen
      @adamjdagen 4 ปีที่แล้ว +151

      Fragile, yet it always happens because of a reason. Commonly because of maybe childhood trauma or even genetic. It’s terrible watching him go through this but it’s a great sign that he’s talking through it. If I knew this guy I wouldn’t this he’s crazy, respect.

    • @Thron2111
      @Thron2111 4 ปีที่แล้ว +30

      Intelligence has not only good advantages

  • @Mrs.Stone99
    @Mrs.Stone99 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +26

    KEEP POSTING MATE.
    YOU
    ARE
    NOT
    ALONE
    IN
    THIS ILLNESS.
    We are here for you. You have an army battling with you and supporting you. Letting people in to what is happening is the cleverest idea EVER.
    You are so smart to do this. Many brains are better than one!

  • @juliannetaylor8991
    @juliannetaylor8991 28 วันที่ผ่านมา +26

    I’m so sorry, kiddo. My son was recently diagnosed. My heart goes out to you and your family. This is very brave of you to share, and is helpful to me as a support person for my son. Thank you with all of my heart. I wish you tons of great things on your recovery journey. ❤

  • @kmpuci
    @kmpuci 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3669

    This dude is so strong.

    • @tddrytv732
      @tddrytv732 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      then where are his muscles

    • @butterscotch9020
      @butterscotch9020 4 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      swaggy fridgerator on the inside

    • @tddrytv732
      @tddrytv732 4 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      @@butterscotch9020 it was a joke i hope the best for him my relatives suffer from schizo affective bipolar and it is torture.

    • @sym8195
      @sym8195 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I don't see him lifting communist spies

    • @RDClan
      @RDClan 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      swaggy fridgerator r/facepalm

  • @alancodling7266
    @alancodling7266 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5047

    The craziest thing to me is that his own brain is doing it to him, almost like he is in a constant battle with himself. He listens even though his mind is creating these voices.

    • @Yumemaru.
      @Yumemaru. 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Yeah I feel so bad for him man.

    • @thegiftofjerichoy2hhzr384
      @thegiftofjerichoy2hhzr384 4 ปีที่แล้ว +52

      If you have ever suffered with anxiety, depression, ocd, Bipolar, Schizophrenia etc then thats exactly what it is. Mental health IS health and is so important, we should be taught about it so much more

    • @Isaiahisnotonfire
      @Isaiahisnotonfire 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Alan Codling ( Do any of you think it’s more then what we know ? They just define it as schizophreni. Please let me know, also I think my mom has it

    • @yaboi-gf9wg
      @yaboi-gf9wg 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I think the craziest thing is that his brain is doing it to it selft. He is his brain and he is fighting his own brain, his brain is fighting it self.

    • @TheJessC
      @TheJessC 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Where does any thought actually come from? Everyone will have a thought just randomly pop up, but do you ever ask yourself where it came from?

  • @marceauwattez7882
    @marceauwattez7882 หลายเดือนก่อน +19

    I feel like schizophrenic people are lucid enough to see their own life from a 3rd person angle while having unstable thoughts like... its mind blowing

  • @leilagreen-shay2838
    @leilagreen-shay2838 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +55

    Truly thank you for this video. My husband has schizoaffective disorder and when he goes through an episode- you being able to put into words what you are currently hearing helps me understand what he goes through. He’s expressed in the past that he’s heard almost the same exact things. His common one that he has is that someone is following him or stalking him. When he’s in a bad episode he’ll go catatonic. It’s truly a nerve wracking thing. I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be the one experiencing it so thank you for sticking around to tell us your story. I know this video is from a few years ago, but I saw that you’re still active on here and that made me happy. When you said that the one voice said to unalive yourself the expression you had on your face was one I’ve seen on my husband’s one too many times. So thank you for sticking around. Thank you for not giving into those voices. Again, I can’t imagine what you go through on a daily, but as someone that is a partner to someone with a form of schizophrenia, it means a lot that you keep pushing and that you’re on meds. The fact that you’re also pretty aware of it helps too I’m sure. At least it helps my husband.

    • @natiguapi1835
      @natiguapi1835 4 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Sending hugs to you and your husband, hope you’re doing well! Stay strong, and take care 🤍

  • @Alicia-pe6ou
    @Alicia-pe6ou 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4588

    I can't even imagine living in constant anxiety...he should really have a service dog to help him or maybe a good friend to check on him everyday... :(

    • @jimbow7982
      @jimbow7982 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      Same😔

    • @Edward-ho2bm
      @Edward-ho2bm 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I feel so srry 4 him

    • @merryespinosa4893
      @merryespinosa4893 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Its a good idea!

    • @anxiahh3772
      @anxiahh3772 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      @@4meiggy109 same 🤯

    • @anxiahh3772
      @anxiahh3772 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@4meiggy109 my dad had it tho and I’ve been smoking weed since 13 but I think I’m clear

  • @patricksweeney1088
    @patricksweeney1088 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11085

    Poor boy, I just want to hug and hold him. He is very brave.

    • @ThomasJr
      @ThomasJr 3 ปีที่แล้ว +81

      I bet it's cause he's a very pretty boy, don't lie to us. I wanna hug him too.

    • @ThomasJr
      @ThomasJr 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @CRACKEDfortnitePRO 08 you suck hahaha

    • @ThomasJr
      @ThomasJr 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @CRACKEDfortnitePRO 08 mama jokes are for infantile blokes like yourself. grow up

    • @reecefry1174
      @reecefry1174 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      ♥️

    • @Anthonys_S
      @Anthonys_S 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      He is so brave

  • @picklexp1161
    @picklexp1161 หลายเดือนก่อน +14

    " sometimes i debate if i should or not " no, please youre amazing and you deserve to be here on this planet, please you make the world a better place and you spread awareness to the world. Dont listen to the voices🙏

  • @JustMe-ty2rp
    @JustMe-ty2rp 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +139

    Just discovered your channel now.
    My brother was schizophrenic throughout most of my life (sadly he passed a few years ago) and it wasn't easy watching him struggle.
    He was a very kind-hearted soul that was dealt a crap hand, and what he had to go through was anything but fair.
    Thank you for sharing your experience with us, I wish you all the best

    • @Meowth_mist
      @Meowth_mist 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I understand you perfectly

    • @masonchase085
      @masonchase085 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Sometimes we can’t play our cards

    • @bunk95
      @bunk95 หลายเดือนก่อน

      A slave lied about as your brother is also being lied about as ________?

  • @celestegirdner4069
    @celestegirdner4069 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4724

    This poor baby is so brave. I couldnt do this. He is very strong.

    • @user-qu4oh4xi1s
      @user-qu4oh4xi1s 3 ปีที่แล้ว +90

      Why're you calling him a baby tho? He's a grown up man.

    • @StompDeni42
      @StompDeni42 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      @@user-qu4oh4xi1s was my exact question as well. And she isn't even old, like as if a grandma said it.

    • @sisterindeen8333
      @sisterindeen8333 3 ปีที่แล้ว +169

      She said it out of love guys ...

    • @celestegirdner4069
      @celestegirdner4069 3 ปีที่แล้ว +105

      My profile picture was years ago. Just because I'm not "old" does not mean I cant sympathize with one another. Obviously he is having a hard time and this is his life. He is so traumatized and vulnerable...so yes, the metaphor "poor baby" was the appropriate response, in my opinion. The world is so sensitive; will pick anything apart on what anyone has to say... What a shame. My comment shouldn't have stolen what the "big picture" was.

    • @celestegirdner4069
      @celestegirdner4069 3 ปีที่แล้ว +59

      Not to mention, in this video this KID had to be about 15-17. He was not a grown man at the time and still lived with his parents

  • @sharongaston2815
    @sharongaston2815 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +16

    I would just love to give you a big warm hug. You are so brave. Thank you for showing what is your experience of this awful illness.

  • @themonicamoss
    @themonicamoss หลายเดือนก่อน +17

    You're such a sweet person. I'm so proud of you for fighting this everyday and yet still being such a light. Im rooting for you ❤

  • @blackthunder7342
    @blackthunder7342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1859

    This is a sane person with schizophrenia and he actually realizes it

    • @cousinjake7986
      @cousinjake7986 3 ปีที่แล้ว +215

      No, this is a *Rational* person with schizophrenia.

    • @blackthunder7342
      @blackthunder7342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      Your right sir. You worded it correctly

    • @blackthunder7342
      @blackthunder7342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +113

      Most people with schizophrenia can't step back and look at it rationally like this kid can. I hope he comes through on top

    • @hizts
      @hizts 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      @@blackthunder7342 is that a fact?? I don't know tbh i don't know most ppl w schizophrenia but most ppl i know who have it (which is a very small sample) have fluctuating levels of awareness. Just like everyone else has fluctuating mental experiences, but someone who ids w schizophrenia has a harder time maintaining awareness 4 sure. But i wouldn't think that most people arent usually pretty aware of their surroundings.

    • @blackthunder7342
      @blackthunder7342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@hizts you're right most people are completely unaware of their surroundings I'm not one of those people though

  • @andthensome512
    @andthensome512 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2136

    It's almost like schizophrenia is when a person's random, negative subconscious thoughts are run through an amplifier and brought to the level of their conscious thoughts.

    • @mika9937
      @mika9937 3 ปีที่แล้ว +70

      I usually think of it as a toxic friend. It's complex.

    • @vocalzbyjamelle6241
      @vocalzbyjamelle6241 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Wow yes I can see that.....
      My cousin has this disorder I watch and listen to his responses it is a constant battle of thoughts magnified

    • @karmyn3
      @karmyn3 3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

      *as if your intrusive thoughts have taken over your conciseness

    • @ThomasJr
      @ThomasJr 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      that's a simplistic view, after all no ordinary person would have thoughts about ending their own lives as much as schizos have. But I believe their hallucinations may have to do with the environment a bit and also of course their malfunctioning brain.

    • @Edward-ho2bm
      @Edward-ho2bm 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@vocalzbyjamelle6241 Oh man that s sad

  • @lunchboxmccarty6431
    @lunchboxmccarty6431 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +31

    Dude you are so brave!! You are so worth the time and effort it takes to get better!!
    Thank you so much for recording and putting yourself, in your most vulnerable situation, out here for those of us that are here to learn and understand bc we have loved ones suffering too!! Thank you so so so much. You are a hero in my eyes.

  • @youdiein36hours
    @youdiein36hours 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    MUCH LOVE!! ive been through similar things during and shortly after bad psychedelic experiences. im rooting for you brother.

  • @nanami9617
    @nanami9617 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3422

    When he said the voice told him to kill himself my heart shattered

    • @JET7C0
      @JET7C0 4 ปีที่แล้ว +113

      My dad had paranoid schizophrenia - he thought things like car horns honking were a kind of secret communication system about him and this reminds me that he probably had voices telling him that, too. He passed away from cancer at just 36. Schizophrenia hit him out of the blue at like 29 or 30, and I feel terrible about what he went through.

    • @oxin1099
      @oxin1099 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      isnt that normal

    • @MypasswordisNewMedic
      @MypasswordisNewMedic 4 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      My best friend took his life because of this disease. It’s truly insane. No clue how it works, and even if it was explained it wouldn’t make any fucking sense.
      I’m glad this guy knows what he’s going through, I don’t know if Matt did or not

    • @ko-lq7vu
      @ko-lq7vu 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      the whole disorder sounds absolutely terrifying to go through.
      what’s up my fellow nico collins fan tho :)

    • @LisaJOxo
      @LisaJOxo 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Intelligent. Strong for sharing, and helping others. The brain is so complex. Prayers x

  • @gamma_dc8289
    @gamma_dc8289 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +13978

    I work with schizophrenic folk all the time. Its very rare that people are this aware of their delusions. The amount of willpower this takes is far beyond anything I could even comprehend, you're strong dude. Keep that head up.

    • @roflman2122
      @roflman2122 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +136

      This is low key why this looks like drug induced psychosis to me - the strong mind and awareness seem like a rather early diagnosis or something that developed a few years after intensive lsd “research”

    • @engjds
      @engjds 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Look up Jerry Mininsky, he interviewed hundreds of people and wrote about their voices, his conclusions, the voices are real, not hallucinations, for these people it seems some veil is lowered, enabling them hear the voices most of us just think as negative thoughts.

    • @Lyam._.
      @Lyam._. 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +37

      ​@@roflman2122it could be indeed a drug experience but i dont say it is one

    • @dlboo9915
      @dlboo9915 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +58

      Yeah I know what you mean this happened to me when I took strong ass shrooms and it’s uncanny how a disease and a drug kinda affects your brain in a similar manner

    • @StanBach
      @StanBach 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@roflman2122well if you look at his second episode there's a shroom on the back wall 🤔

  • @martyevensvold4045
    @martyevensvold4045 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    You are the best and yes it was educational! Great job sharing and telling everyone what you’re going through. We all love you for who you are.

  • @heathermurphy1140
    @heathermurphy1140 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +36

    I am so impressed with your awareness and ability to cope with your illness. Putting yourself out here in such a vulnerable state is admirable. You are a strong young man that is clearly utilizing the tools and resources available to you and that is commendable. I realize this video is 5 years old but I intend to watch all of them and to follow along on your journey. Sending so much love and appreciation for your daily struggle. You're an amazing human. 💚💚

  • @rodrigomonteromiguez6684
    @rodrigomonteromiguez6684 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14611

    For anyone wondering, those voices are loud and clear, the brain can generate sensory inputs from within that are even clearer than those from your ears

    • @pessimistkai5569
      @pessimistkai5569 2 ปีที่แล้ว +282

      Yeah like in dreams?

    • @raymondreddington9788
      @raymondreddington9788 2 ปีที่แล้ว +62

      didn't watch the video but whos voice they be hearing?

    • @quezmiz736
      @quezmiz736 2 ปีที่แล้ว +922

      ​@@raymondreddington9788 it can be just made voices or someones voice you have heard throughout your life

    • @brunpoon875
      @brunpoon875 2 ปีที่แล้ว +626

      Yep, you almost can't even tell difference between real and fake when you're experience those.

    • @Antanaxis
      @Antanaxis 2 ปีที่แล้ว +407

      Yeah, happens to me too sometimes. I'll sometimes hear my mom yelling at me from the living room very loud and clear and when I go to see what she wants, I remember I'm home alone...

  • @Zombie81212
    @Zombie81212 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5718

    “NOOO YOU CANT MAKE HUMOR OUT OF MENTAL ILLNESS NOOO”
    Person with schizophrenia: anyways here’s a laser pointer

    • @gamevault4580
      @gamevault4580 4 ปีที่แล้ว +223

      Making humour of mental illness is the majority of people’s, including my own way of coping with it
      Ask anyone who suffers from anxiety, depression, Aspergers such as myself. If we didn’t have humour to help deal with it, we would go nuts without more help than possible

    • @lauratude5132
      @lauratude5132 4 ปีที่แล้ว +51

      A mental illness is part of our everyday life. It's always there. Making jokes is a way to express it. But I do feel kinda bad when people make memes about wanting to kill yourself.

    • @clubpenguinmaster123
      @clubpenguinmaster123 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Matthew Greer people who don’t suffer shouldn’t joke about it but if it helps someone cope with their mental illness then it should totally be allowed. you just gotta be careful because it’s triggering for some

    • @christianmcbrearty
      @christianmcbrearty 4 ปีที่แล้ว +37

      It's fine to joke about mental illnesses in a friendly, jovial manner. But you should never never joke about the person or make a cruel, heartless joke. Also its best not to joke about illnesses you don't have.

    • @PriestLargo.
      @PriestLargo. 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@gamevault4580 aye for real I'm quite depressed but it's getting way better and I usually deal with it by anger and jokes mostly jokes.

  • @Romoredux
    @Romoredux 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +17

    I have bad Anxiety and Moderate Depression (DNA) and PTSD from an event in my early 20's. THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS! Mental Health is still too Taboo. WE MUST TALK ABOUT IT TO BREAK THE STIGMA!

  • @patanderson1175
    @patanderson1175 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Thank you so much! I have a grandson with the same problem He talks to his voices It's a little scary but you are doing very well with the way you're handling it. Please don't ever try to kill yourself! Your whole life is ahead of you! Plus i imagine that you have many many people that love you! God bless you and keep you!

  • @Mooosetank
    @Mooosetank 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21628

    It must be so weird for him to watch this footage, since it won’t contain anything of what he’s hearing in his head and the silence must be startling.

    • @MaraJadeSkky
      @MaraJadeSkky 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1515

      That would be a very interesting reaction video of him watching his own episode with the silence surrounding him.

    • @alexangel4758
      @alexangel4758 3 ปีที่แล้ว +825

      He probably would still hear and see his delusions in the footage since they can manifest themselves through multimedia

    • @MaraJadeSkky
      @MaraJadeSkky 3 ปีที่แล้ว +291

      @@alexangel4758 is there some evidence of this? Because I'd love to learn more if that is true.

    • @alexangel4758
      @alexangel4758 3 ปีที่แล้ว +424

      @@MaraJadeSkky Living With Schizophrenia did a reaction video on how hallucinations and delusions present themselves and mentioned this

    • @paytonsmith4058
      @paytonsmith4058 3 ปีที่แล้ว +649

      @@alexangel4758 I have schizophrenia, and my boyfriend has recorded me having a split, and when I watched the video back, it was so scary because it was just complete silence, I’m sitting with my boyfriend and best friend, and nothing is happening but me freaking out and not knowing what time zone I’m in (In my episodes I usually “Time TRavel”)

  • @DryRiceBall
    @DryRiceBall 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4000

    He has the prettiest eyes but they are full of so much pain I feel for him

    • @userm180
      @userm180 3 ปีที่แล้ว +39

      for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛

    • @kiekiekie8537
      @kiekiekie8537 3 ปีที่แล้ว +159

      @@userm180 stop shoving ur religious beliefs down people's throats

    • @idunno7131
      @idunno7131 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@FrozenMermaid666 you may have a god complex and delusions, please seek a professional.
      Or you're trolling, idk.

    • @ProdYafa
      @ProdYafa 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      In Psalms 2:7 God says “You are my Son; today I have begotten you" to David. So are you sure? "HE gave HIS only begotten SON" you are contradicting the bible. Read your scripture.

    • @sam9900
      @sam9900 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@idunno7131 Nice to know there’s a someone normal in this comment section. For some reason, it’s riddled with radical loonies.

  • @thaynavieiradeandrade5046
    @thaynavieiradeandrade5046 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Dude, I'm sorry that you have to fight this difficult battle everyday in your life. Thank u for share this video and i hope one day this stop and you never can hear/see this situations anymore. Much love from Brasil to your heart! 🇧🇷❤️

  • @DjDeja
    @DjDeja 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    Thank you for sharing this. I've experienced my own mental health issues and now I'm a crisis counselor. Stay strong, hugs

  • @sallybeatty4150
    @sallybeatty4150 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5254

    So I noticed this video was taken a year ago I certainly hope this young man is healthy and alive

    • @cold894
      @cold894 3 ปีที่แล้ว +265

      He's been uploading frequently on his gaming channel, posted a new video yesterday

    • @marandagarner5218
      @marandagarner5218 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      @@cold894 what's his gaming channel ?

    • @cold894
      @cold894 3 ปีที่แล้ว +74

      @@marandagarner5218 It's called Geeky Boi Gaming, he mentioned it in the description of the video which is the only reason I know, lol

    • @azhleysentertainmentofbore922
      @azhleysentertainmentofbore922 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      The spies prob got him

    • @KrazzyKittyy
      @KrazzyKittyy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +242

      @@azhleysentertainmentofbore922 Oh fuck off.

  • @whiteobama3032
    @whiteobama3032 ปีที่แล้ว +4476

    Imagine consciously staying lucid while your own mind is actively working against you. Your willpower is very impressive my man.

    • @MRTECH-ym7lm
      @MRTECH-ym7lm ปีที่แล้ว +19

      for real

    • @mysteryneophyte
      @mysteryneophyte ปีที่แล้ว

      Extremely impressive, one might say one of a kind, if only every schizophrenic individual was aware that they were schizophrenic, and only hallucinating, and that the voices, and what not, we’re just all part of a sickness, no warped, storyline really far outside of reality that one mistakes for their actual life because they would know it is all just a hallucination

    • @seven7upndown241
      @seven7upndown241 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      I heard vocies in my life too. I heard demons laughing, female voices, man voices that can wake me up, jokes that i wake up. Make me fear like nightmare and stuff.
      I also heard God speaking and he spoke in muy head not into my ear like the others.
      The best thing you can do is accept Jesus Christ who is God himself, pray in the name of Jesus Christ, hurt these demons, command in Jesus name fire on them, break covenants with them and command them to get out just like the apostles did after Jesus died and left them the holy spirit in the book of Acts.

    • @courtneyboudreau4284
      @courtneyboudreau4284 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Terrible

    • @St1cksz
      @St1cksz ปีที่แล้ว

      @@seven7upndown241 I thought this was an actually person with schizo but no, you decided to put the religious bs in the comment just because you want people to follow your christian god.

  • @johnrussell1766
    @johnrussell1766 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Thanks for the video, I too suffer from schizophrenia, meds made it worse and I've learned to tune the voices out and after lots of convincing I know the auditory voices aren't there but just in my head, no one understands or really knows the true extent of the things going on in the head, I now know I'm not the only one. Thanks, hope your able to find some peace

  • @otnielgonzalez5440
    @otnielgonzalez5440 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +8980

    Seeing this helped me understand that there aren't crazy people, just crazy things happening to normal people. I hope he found some peace and tranquility

    • @suurinappi6298
      @suurinappi6298 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Sorry, but have you heard of Hitler or Jeffrey Dahmer or any other serial killer or something like that. There are crazy people.
      (Dunno why I said this I know it's useless)

    • @lemonosis
      @lemonosis 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      ⁠​⁠@@suurinappi6298they weren’t crazy they were bad, hitler was evil, not mentally unwell or impaired. “Crazy” is a somewhat impolite term to refer to people who suffer from mental disabilities or disorders.

    • @jonnycorry5390
      @jonnycorry5390 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +271

      There are also crazy people though, this man is not one of them

    • @datchickshortyrock
      @datchickshortyrock 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +29

      The shooter in Maine today killed 22 ppl & hurt plenty others in 3 separate locations. He too was mentally ill. & ex military

    • @MarioEstevez-re1us
      @MarioEstevez-re1us 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +26

      At my pharmacy job there was a woman who would sit and act crazy and then when her schizo drugs were ready she was completely normal.
      Uh-maz-ing

  • @larrysunde8878
    @larrysunde8878 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3399

    Was with a friend who had a episode. He always heard his Mothers voice, he looked at me with pleading eyes and said, "Can't you hear her?" It broke my heart

    • @juzeejumaat4089
      @juzeejumaat4089 4 ปีที่แล้ว +114

      My boyfriend is experiencing schizo rite now. He said he always hear some of his friend's voice talking bad about him. Even when he was with me, he will ask me is there anyone around us bcz he can hear people badmouth about him. I pity him. Now he is on medication, i hope that will make him better 😢

    • @hiimYoousandiliveforvines
      @hiimYoousandiliveforvines 4 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      I would hug them idk why, it’s a natural instinct of mine.

    • @chelseamcfarland6170
      @chelseamcfarland6170 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Larry Sunde is his mother still alive?!

    • @maggieeileenx
      @maggieeileenx 4 ปีที่แล้ว +30

      Makes me sad my mom died when i was a baby i heard her for years during my kindergartden and my first school years by tha age of 9 i ended up with heavy prescriptions of risperidona and clonazepam nobody believed me kides were so.mean in that days when i grown up i learn to live with it but it was hard .

    • @rachelcalderas314
      @rachelcalderas314 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Maggie Mahmond wow I wonder if it was really her

  • @retrosoul2776
    @retrosoul2776 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    I have Schizo also and one of the voice just said "we support you not turning off the recording software"

    • @nx563
      @nx563 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I'm delusional I make voices for company me and I'm not lonely I'm like extrovert but I feel there's no one can understand me I converse with myself

  • @watchmanofyasharal8003
    @watchmanofyasharal8003 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    God bless your soul brother. Nothing else to say but a true WARRIOR. I hope you're keeping up the good fight sir

  • @KCloudzz
    @KCloudzz 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2376

    *uses a laser pointer* “I’m trying to make light of the situation” 💀

    • @MrPakurfulo
      @MrPakurfulo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +55

      *points own eye* ouch

    • @zan5701
      @zan5701 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Laser probably can make you blind

    • @terrifier.x
      @terrifier.x 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Unintentional pun😂

    • @mpho8018
      @mpho8018 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      good wordplay on his part

    • @thewokeabout
      @thewokeabout 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Best pun ever

  • @MJBjj870
    @MJBjj870 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1993

    The look of discomfort on his face saddens me. He is very strong the way he talks him self through it.

    • @greenjupiter
      @greenjupiter 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      ❤️

    • @kaylakeiser5722
      @kaylakeiser5722 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Jesus😇

    • @brookenn4285
      @brookenn4285 ปีที่แล้ว

      Everyone needs to gather together & to wish God (The Creator) Allah and Yahweh, dead! He has been harassing and violently attacking all Schizophrenic & Psychosis patients in their minds including myself. Ask the people for yourself what is effecting us. It's dangerous and deadly! Please share.

    • @echoyu6107
      @echoyu6107 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      ​@@brookenn4285bro this is not cool dont disrepect a religion even if you think its wrong and I bet you said this to make people go to Christianity but this honestly made me feel more uncomfortable with it or are you just schizophrenic too? Idk but this is just horrible stop no one is going to believe this

    • @JESUSLOVESYOU033
      @JESUSLOVESYOU033 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Jesus Christ loves us unconditionally+eternally!He cares for us so much that He sacrificed Himself on the cross for our sins!God is so good!💗✝️😊

  • @nundisclosed7135
    @nundisclosed7135 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I'm so sorry you struggle with this. Please don't ever kill yourself!! You seem like an amazing guy. You've got a great personality, funny, friendly, caring & much, much more. Do you take medications for this? Do they help if/when you do? It sounds like you're close to your parents because you said you talk to them about it but if you ever need/want someone just to talk/chat with we could exchange emails, FB messenger, or thru here, although I don't know if we can chat thru here, I've never tried that :) Anyway, you're a very strong & brave guy with lots to offer this world & I wish you more good days than bad. 💕

  • @mikejpark
    @mikejpark หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Thank you for sharing such difficult content. You are brave and should be commended. I hope that you are in counselling. You're an amazing individual. Kudos!

  • @BellAffe
    @BellAffe 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1852

    I really want to give him a big hug. He is so strong.

    • @silaswalgenbach465
      @silaswalgenbach465 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I call you now: big Hugman !

    • @coraline8023
      @coraline8023 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yeah, he is.

    • @auk8174
      @auk8174 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      And he is cute af 😊😊😊

    • @coraline8023
      @coraline8023 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@auk8174 agree :D

  • @alilpotato3374
    @alilpotato3374 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6540

    To be honest I wanna be friends with him. He seems like a chill person.

    • @maurovinicius5226
      @maurovinicius5226 3 ปีที่แล้ว +284

      @Marcus Aurelius He has schizophrenia. He's not a psychopath, come the fuck on

    • @maurovinicius5226
      @maurovinicius5226 3 ปีที่แล้ว +112

      @Marcus Aurelius That's not how it works dude..
      It's just a stereotype or extreme cases
      Besides there's medication for this

    • @maurovinicius5226
      @maurovinicius5226 3 ปีที่แล้ว +80

      @Marcus Aurelius Yes sir. And in fact i have a aunt with this. They can be medicated and live a normal life. What you see on the news is the extreme of schizophrenia plus some psycopathic traces.
      Anyway, you have to be careful not to be rude to these people, they already suffer too much

    • @maurovinicius5226
      @maurovinicius5226 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @Marcus Aurelius Ok

    • @vaydastrnad7147
      @vaydastrnad7147 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      @Marcus Aurelius 💀💀💀so uneducated

  • @Moodipone
    @Moodipone 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I just now saw this and I'm glad you did this. You're very brave! I deal with this as well. Seeing that I'm not alone really gives me a sense of comfort... I hope you're doing okay. We got this ❤

  • @ITSFRICKENADAM
    @ITSFRICKENADAM 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Thanks for doing this. I'm extremely interested in psychology, specifically mental illnesses. I wish there was an easy cure for sufferers like yourself. Keep doing your thing and raising awareness

  • @aiyanakg
    @aiyanakg 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11967

    It disgusts me knowing that there are people out there who would think this is fake.... this poor kid I hope he has a happy life other than this
    Edit: I understand why people could assume something like this is fake, but I meant like, to just flat out be like “that is so fake” and for some people to actually get mad at it? Horrible, cause you don’t even know if it really is fake or not. And, there are some people who genuinely don’t believe schizophrenia is real. It’s all just horrible

    • @JackaboiTV
      @JackaboiTV 3 ปีที่แล้ว +255

      I’m sure there are people who fake their schizophrenia but I understand what you’re saying

    • @MASlTAS
      @MASlTAS 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      @@JackaboiTV what

    • @JackaboiTV
      @JackaboiTV 3 ปีที่แล้ว +119

      @@MASlTAS what

    • @AidenTheRealShadowwolf
      @AidenTheRealShadowwolf 3 ปีที่แล้ว +188

      @Sugu there really are some crazy attention Whores out there that will say they have this disorder, its more common in narcissistic people I only say this cuz I know of people who faked their disorder

    • @cletussamboy8650
      @cletussamboy8650 3 ปีที่แล้ว +143

      It's sad many people wish they had schizophrenia thinking it's like a drug trip or that it's trendy to be mentally ill

  • @jeremybanks1347
    @jeremybanks1347 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4539

    This kid has a enormous amount of strength to even talk about what he's going through. You'll find your happy place soon enough.

    • @zan5701
      @zan5701 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      He looks like a teenager

    • @redlilwitchy6088
      @redlilwitchy6088 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yes he does...so strong!!

    • @daddylonglegs69
      @daddylonglegs69 3 ปีที่แล้ว +83

      @Yeah Right is there really a need to bring up gun control to a video of a tremendously brave teenager lively explaining what he’s going through/seeing/hearing to educate more people on this exact matter on mental illnesses, in this case (schizophrenia). Go sit on a fucking pinecone if you don’t have anything better to do, fucking pathetic.

    • @yanaantonio42
      @yanaantonio42 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      @Yeah Right You sound like a toddler. F**k "gun rights". Look at the civilised world. Grow up. Childish mehmehmeh...

    • @yanaantonio42
      @yanaantonio42 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      ​@Yeah Right *evil laughter*

  • @terrytibbz6820
    @terrytibbz6820 4 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Thank you for sharing to raise AWARENESS of this illness and let people see for themselves the reality of it. Stay STRONG brother keep pumping that hip hop

  • @MalikaKhasanova
    @MalikaKhasanova 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I almost cried with compassion for this beautiful young man who had to cope with the things he can't control or stop... ((((((
    It's like living hell... he is scared... and it's always in his head. I am so sorry for you, my friend.
    And with all that, you are such a courageous guy!!! Please stay strong. ❤

  • @deebhoymcw2120
    @deebhoymcw2120 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2354

    Audio hallucinations are so much worse than visual hallucinations, this poor boy must be tormented.... what a scary thing the human brain is, I hope this kid gets all the help he can

    • @beezabub06
      @beezabub06 3 ปีที่แล้ว +71

      Yep! I sometimes hallucinate (most likely a result of a lack of sleep but idk) and I used to hear babies crying. I also recently heard someone say my name from right next to me (I was sat in my room at night, alone) so that was terrifying. In terms of visual hallucinations, one time I woke up face-to-face with a ghost-like person, so either my house is haunted or I should start going to sleep earlier

    • @Alanna_Llama
      @Alanna_Llama 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      My visual hallucinations are much worse than the auditory ones. Also, I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia so right now I don't know the source of my hallucinations.

    • @pasqualesimonelli1513
      @pasqualesimonelli1513 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      @@beezabub06 wow you should contact a doctor or someone that can help you idk, that's strange

    • @pasqualesimonelli1513
      @pasqualesimonelli1513 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@Alanna_Llama same to the comment above

    • @angrygalamb
      @angrygalamb 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@beezabub06 I sometimss wake up at night and see my dad staring at me but his face is weird and just... idk why lol hes nice but it freaks me out

  • @Alex-bp9sl
    @Alex-bp9sl 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1612

    This was taken two years ago, i hope he’s doing okay.

    • @5nakebite
      @5nakebite 3 ปีที่แล้ว +132

      He is okay. I was reading through the comments are someone said that he has a gaming channel and recently uploaded yesterday. His gaming channel is in the description below! Also hello fellow stay ❤️

    • @imtee4315
      @imtee4315 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      @@5nakebite staysss

    • @imtee4315
      @imtee4315 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@5nakebite bro im stupid this isn't the time for thos

    • @5nakebite
      @5nakebite 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@imtee4315 why? What happened? Also yes, hello stay

    • @imtee4315
      @imtee4315 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@5nakebite idk it's a sensitive topic so i felt like saying it

  • @sarahdiazcastro
    @sarahdiazcastro หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you so much for your vulnerability. Thank you for putting yourself out to educate people. I hope you know how much this is helping

  • @user-kf5bz9xg3x
    @user-kf5bz9xg3x หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    We have to do better!! This young man and others need us to do better!! I'm sorry. You're a brave and sweet young man. They are still treating this illness the same way with the same meds for 40 + years. We need to do better!! Thank you for sharing yourself with us so we can help learn how to help you!

  • @colinstate
    @colinstate 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4024

    You can see in his eyes whenever he fades. Must be terrifying every time he snaps back to reality and I hope he’s doing well

    • @sofiea
      @sofiea 2 ปีที่แล้ว +68

      he’s alive and well right now! he streams video games on twitch in his mean-time.

    • @swiar_d7057
      @swiar_d7057 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@kaynagbilinmeyenmadde2093 pewdie pie

    • @sofiea
      @sofiea 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@kaynagbilinmeyenmadde2093 you should look at his recent videos on his channel, he talks about his twitch streams and his nickname

    • @brrttaa
      @brrttaa 2 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      I was gonna make a "SNAP BACK TO REALITY!" joke but I realised it's not a great time to make it.

    • @colinstate
      @colinstate 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@brrttaa 😂 love the dark humor

  • @yeahwhatever1184
    @yeahwhatever1184 3 ปีที่แล้ว +33788

    I had a friend in high school who was constantly in and out of the hospital for his schizophrenia. Unfortunately, he committed suicide our sophomore year when we were 16. My friends and I are 23 now, and we still talk about him all the time. Such a great kid. Rest In Peace, Avery.

    • @carolinapires5171
      @carolinapires5171 3 ปีที่แล้ว +893

      i am so sorry for your loss...
      avery is very proud of u♡

    • @manmeetsingh9242
      @manmeetsingh9242 3 ปีที่แล้ว +279

      Oh my. I’m so sorry😢 No one should have to go through that. I’m very sorry🥺

    • @averiwigley5969
      @averiwigley5969 3 ปีที่แล้ว +111

      Omg that’s my name when i saw that I got scared but Rest In Peace to your friend I bet he was a great guy 💖 and I hope you are doing well

    • @nadMoZzzg
      @nadMoZzzg 3 ปีที่แล้ว +54

      Constant hospitalizations look like good cause of suicide no?

    • @2137papiezgurom
      @2137papiezgurom 3 ปีที่แล้ว +45

      Rest in peace buddy🥺

  • @Franklywhy
    @Franklywhy 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I’m very happy you posted this my cousin is in the same boat. It started when he went to college. He is different though. Like the old cousin died and this new one emerged. He doesn’t want help and doesn’t believe he has it. I wish he would watch your videos. Just so he understood that he isn’t alone. He lives on the streets in Chicago somewhere now… 😢 I’m glad that you can make these videos so others can understand somewhat of how you guys are when you’re in it.

  • @jacobsapples7729
    @jacobsapples7729 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Sadeness is a great song, super informative video, interesting perspective, thank you for uploading.

  • @bezzerp
    @bezzerp 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5318

    - speaks about communists
    - 3 minutes later
    - “i heard an explosion”

    • @elokohi8138
      @elokohi8138 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      Yooooooo Brendan wtf you alright, wishing you and your family good health mate xx

    • @elokohi8138
      @elokohi8138 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      @b33ndon this really is a small world

    • @FirstnameLastname-dv9wr
      @FirstnameLastname-dv9wr 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Elo Kohi do you know him irl? 😂

    • @xaviercvirn
      @xaviercvirn 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Hes a prophet 😳

    • @fundzthakidd8844
      @fundzthakidd8844 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@xaviercvirn a what?

  • @chikinnugjits5452
    @chikinnugjits5452 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2658

    Why is everyone getting recommended this now. It’s 1 am and this is so scary.

    • @jakez2810
      @jakez2810 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Chikinnugjits you still awake? I am 😂

    • @thecrustyonion5935
      @thecrustyonion5935 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Igs literally 1:00 am exactly

    • @gnome.1218
      @gnome.1218 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      CrustyOnion wtf

    • @JosHboIthEaweSoMe
      @JosHboIthEaweSoMe 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      It’s now 1 am for me too wtf

    • @neebee6392
      @neebee6392 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yooo same lmao 😳😳🙄🙄

  • @user-ff1qq3dq4q
    @user-ff1qq3dq4q หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Keep your head phones on and the hope in your heart strong. Youre extremely self aware intelligent and brave. Youre honestly like a breathe of fresh air as much as it was heart breaking to watch. Stay strong❤

  • @ginapearce5421
    @ginapearce5421 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Oh honey.. your trying to fight it and that takes alot of courage and will power. Thank you for sharing this. God bless you sweetheart

  • @Sara88890
    @Sara88890 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4055

    Why was everyone recommended this? Interesting to hear though.

    • @bigcheese2128
      @bigcheese2128 4 ปีที่แล้ว +61

      TH-cam algorithm is weird

    • @Sara88890
      @Sara88890 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@bigcheese2128 True.

    • @charliecrow6817
      @charliecrow6817 4 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      honestly maybe it's the trisha paytas drama that'd getting everyone interested in highly stigmatized mental illnesses?

    • @bigcheese2128
      @bigcheese2128 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@charliecrow6817 it's certainly getting them to romanticize it which is not a good thing whatsoever

    • @charliecrow6817
      @charliecrow6817 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@bigcheese2128 true. Trisha's an idiot for even bringing it up

  • @theosabaghi6270
    @theosabaghi6270 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9353

    This honestly terrifies me the most of all. Imagine hearing voices talking to you and turn around and there is nothing there what so ever. You are incredibly brave I I hope you stay strong

    • @salim5394
      @salim5394 4 ปีที่แล้ว +45

      Theodor Sabaghi there is probably something there for him he’s schizophrenic

    • @BirdaeBlue
      @BirdaeBlue 4 ปีที่แล้ว +60

      For me auditory hallucinations and visual ones don’t match up or make sense when together which is kind of worse

    • @josephrya
      @josephrya 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Theodor Sabaghi you don’t just hear stuff you can see it too

    • @AndreBro
      @AndreBro 4 ปีที่แล้ว +52

      In Abnormal psychology we learnt that schizophrenics hear their inner voice, which majority of the population has (when you read a book in your head and read in ur mind), but with schizophrenics they are unable to differentiate between it.

    • @frznmonster8376
      @frznmonster8376 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      charger btw not true just in some cases

  • @eileenritchie574
    @eileenritchie574 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You have a voice too! And thats stronger than any other voice u might hear. Ma God give u even more strength, blessings ad healing ❣️

  • @lavanderialoca7385
    @lavanderialoca7385 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow, i respect yiu so much for sharing it. I lived with someone who had schizophrenia. This will help others, and hopefully yourself. It's learning how to throw out all negative thoughts and embellish the positives and love. Very difficult. I wish you well

  • @ellamay5488
    @ellamay5488 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6842

    It takes some proper mental strength to talk and stay focused on a task during an episode. This dude is so strong I’m impressed

    • @thequantummechanic1796
      @thequantummechanic1796 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      @@khellyjones4855
      👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾👎🏾
      BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

    • @rhondaduncan7228
      @rhondaduncan7228 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

      He is an amazing person and extremely brave!! Helps to create awareness and stop the stigma!!
      Hugs 🤗and love to you young man!

    • @fattocatto8900
      @fattocatto8900 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@thequantummechanic1796 lol

    • @mirnamisevic1993
      @mirnamisevic1993 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Yes, peoples comments are more scary than him!

    • @EvaJurisson
      @EvaJurisson 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      CERN

  • @animeweirdo5389
    @animeweirdo5389 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2327

    U can literally see the sadness in his eyes

    • @umi6462
      @umi6462 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      Yeah :/

    • @Killer-is2hk
      @Killer-is2hk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      idk if its sadness or struggle

    • @ddoobb9829
      @ddoobb9829 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@Killer-is2hk it's not sadness, its totally struggle

    • @thatdutchguy89
      @thatdutchguy89 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@ddoobb9829 i think it's both

    • @martinmarcinkevic3893
      @martinmarcinkevic3893 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      it's not sadness, you can see he's had it already...

  • @claresullivan8814
    @claresullivan8814 หลายเดือนก่อน

    9:03 yes it’s a good thing!! I am glad you never did and hope you never do! I struggle with really bad anxiety and ocd so I feel your pain and you are not alone 😢…I am proud of how honest you are and it’s super brave of you to be so vulnerable and I am praying for you to find peace ❤

  • @stevep4236
    @stevep4236 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I hope all is well for you brother, thank you for sharing your experience

  • @perrywhite2552
    @perrywhite2552 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3054

    He seems like a hell of a nice guy. Sorry hes suffering

    • @Jesuslovesyou0316
      @Jesuslovesyou0316 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Godbless

    • @CrownedMeadow
      @CrownedMeadow 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I agree. He must surely have a great support system in his life to even be able to do this and share it publicly. Seems really smart and level-headed, in spite of the garbage he’s forced to maneuver through in his head. Some people just need a hug and a reminder that it’s not “real”, even though it sure feels like it is. 😔😌💔

    • @peterbilt6662
      @peterbilt6662 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yo these are demons.Im apranoid at times and sometimes see images of evil monsters comming behind me but i realize that God is with me and i have nothing to fear because Jesus is my homie and he got my back. We are possesed. But when i call on Jesus and read my bible the book of psalms, i start to get my myself back together. Wake up!!

    • @johayrmacatanong6231
      @johayrmacatanong6231 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@peterbilt6662
      Yeah right. Lol

    • @peterbilt6662
      @peterbilt6662 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@johayrmacatanong6231 whachu mean “yea right lol” bruh cant you see im tryna help others with something that helped me and you think its funny?

  • @lorettademaio4334
    @lorettademaio4334 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am sending love and saying prayers for your peace. My older brother also has schizophrenia and is now in his 70's. He was lucky enough to have a wonderful doctor who helped him become a sucessful in life. I hate that the voices are telling you to kill yourself, because life can get better. Please hang in there, and seak support when you need it. Also you are very corageous to be so open with your struggles, I doubt I could ever do something like that. Thank you for sharing, and I am sending love and saying prayers!

  • @pix_hd
    @pix_hd 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You’re so strong for making such a video and I’m so proud of you for trying to fight this. Much love

  • @dischargepuddle8232
    @dischargepuddle8232 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4998

    “My least favorite music is country”
    *_respect_*

  • @Letsdonothingtogether
    @Letsdonothingtogether 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2225

    The fact I can’t personally help him sucks.

    • @freeeD-no2fc
      @freeeD-no2fc 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      What would you do if you could? If you can't help him then help other who have also problems

    • @hikari_lun8885
      @hikari_lun8885 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@freeeD-no2fc being close, comforting

    • @deadroses19
      @deadroses19 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Carlos Martinez
      Joey Jordison

    • @Letsdonothingtogether
      @Letsdonothingtogether 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Etward my favorite mask of his!

    • @deadroses19
      @deadroses19 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Letsdonothingtogether Do you like jay?

  • @maxilia7446
    @maxilia7446 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thanks for doing the video some of us not knowing what your going thru its hard but thanks for the video you are so brave going thru this

  • @user-ww2wc4cg4d
    @user-ww2wc4cg4d 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Here for the first time. Thank you for sharing such a personal battle.
    I hope you are feeling better now. I will subscribe❤.

  • @richiecuzzz1
    @richiecuzzz1 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2927

    Poor guy, I can’t even begin to imagine how horrible this must be to deal with on a daily basis.

    • @electronicmanmanman8532
      @electronicmanmanman8532 4 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      its hard to deal with/ u got that right. im proud of the dude. takes alot to do what he did. record himself having a episode.

    • @Xunersito
      @Xunersito 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I feel this comment is clout chasing ,unnecessary and rude

    • @DC-zl3ke
      @DC-zl3ke 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      SKilledP0TATO it’s awful :,(

    • @xiekkz5518
      @xiekkz5518 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@Xunersito people like you make me sick

    • @bmona7550
      @bmona7550 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      My older sister says its like living on a horror movie 24/7

  • @robbdgordon
    @robbdgordon 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8452

    I have a friend that has schizophrenia. Whenever he is having an episode, he would focus his attention on the time. He says that focusing on something that grounds him in reality really helps him to be able to stop focusing on what's in his head. Stay strong friend, much love.

    • @Faerienice
      @Faerienice 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      That wouldn't work for me because I would just tell myself that time is an illusion but I'm glad if it works for others

    • @ThuggBugg69
      @ThuggBugg69 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      That’s what I do when I’m high as shit, watching a movie helps

    • @robbdgordon
      @robbdgordon 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@ThuggBugg69 it works for bad trips for sure

    • @baka41
      @baka41 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Spicy_pickle_forlife it's fine to reference something that's in the video you're watching and comment on it. For fucks sake

    • @Steve76777
      @Steve76777 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@robbdgordon ​Is he already on medication? Sometimes meds need to be adjusted. If not, being unmedicated and psychotic means you are a danger to society. Therefore, you should take him to the hospital rather than having a neighbor report him and then the police drag him there. It would be easier to take him there yourself and hopefully he agrees to take the medication. If not, speaking from experience, he will be injected with tranquilizers and locked in a room until he agrees to take them orally. After discharge, he will see a psychiatrist who will manage the medication for most likely the duration of his life but some have gone off successfully with no psychosis later in life. It is an easier route to say "yes" to the medication they offer and then see the psychiatrist.
      I wish the same for the creator of this video.

  • @laurenbrooks8758
    @laurenbrooks8758 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for your bravery and honesty! I wish you nothing but the best and I’m glad you’re still here with us. Please don’t ever harm yourself! You’re such a strong warrior!