I’m a recovering addict with 9 years clean and sober. I remember that overwhelming urge to get alcohol in me as soon as I woke up because I could only drink so much and sleep….. yes I said drink and sleep, I called them my night beers! It was a truly horrible existence. I pray for all addicts out there hoping for recovery. Keep trying different things until something works.
I could remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Was actually addicted to alcohol. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Wow! This is a really well-done piece of realistic storytelling: well-framed, well-shot, well-edited, well-recorded (sound and music), and totally relatable from the perspective of a person who has found hidden empty bottles. (Sometimes I wondered if the hider MEANT for me to find them.) This video really deserves an award. 🥇
@@lizzi437 when I was bad those nips are everywhere with me, vodka nips I would have them in my purse in my car hidden in my shoes. It’s so exhausting. I’m so glad I’m sober now.💕
I was a very high functioning alcoholic. I woke up had 2 beers before work and one on the drive to work they were also IPAs at 7.5% then around 10am I'd go to my truck have 2 more beers, then at lunch I'd go out to a bar have 2-3 pints, go back to work. Leave to go home stop at the grocery store to pick up dinner to cook and also grab another case of beer and about 4-8 Jack Daniel shooters. I'd hide 1 shooter in my truck for emergency. Then right when I get in my truck to drive home I toss back 2 shooters while driving. Get home have probably 5 more beers and 4 shooters then go to bed. Wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety and my heart beating out of my chest, no worries just chug a beer or 2, back to bed. Wake up and do it all again. Know one knew I was drunk all the time. My last drink was June 16th 2023. Been sober ever since and damn it sucks. Over a year of being sober and I feel like shit eveyday I felt better when I was drinking. I don't even crave to drink anymore but I can never relax it's horrible
Same as my story. Been sober since 10-18-23 and gained 80 lbs, feel lazy, and bored of everything. I don't have a sense of humor anymore and don't even feel like hanging out or even being around anyone. I'm a shell of my old self. Yeah I would be dead now if I kept going but it's like, if you can't even enjoy life anymore, what is the point of quitting?
You’re just going through a detox phase. I was the same way when I stopped drinking back in 2017. I was depressed didn’t want to do or go anywhere but over time things got better now I feel great laugh and have fun without drinking or smoking anything and don’t want to. Church and prayer helped me a lot also. I also stopped hanging around all my friends or family that does it. As much as I love them I had to separate myself from them. I’ll be praying for you brother 🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡
I drink 5-6 beers everyday. Never before or during work. Always after. Go to bed by 9, up at 4. Never hung over, always in a decent mood. That's what I call functional alcoholic.
I can relate. I need at least a pint of whisky after work to unwind and help me sleep. Tried drinking a few shots before work once and it was bad, couldn't focus on the tasks at hand and halfway through my shift I was ready for a nap.
Alcohol use disorder is on a spectrum... Your intake sounds like mine, although I was always teetering on the edge of drinking more, starting earlier, driving after drinking etc.
As an alcoholic i dont think theres such thing as funcioning theres drinking to drink then theres the i need to drink to get my body to feel right i hope everyone understands what im saying
We understand that you’re living your life the best way you can. Nobody sets out to become alcohol or pain med dependent it happens. I hope you find a path to change when you’re ready. Just keep in mind that there will be failures when you decide to change and to keep trying. You are worth the effort friend.
I’m sober 40 years. Got clean at 24 years old. The high cost of low living took its toll on me. I went to a party when I was 14 and didn’t leave for 10 years. I don’t miss it and I’m glad to still be alive
Brilliant job, Amber! You have really put yourself out there on video and done an amazing and accurate job of depicting the daily hell of a “functioning” alcoholic. It’s so accurate I felt myself cringing, witnessing my own behavior for decades. “No more vodka on weekdays”. Exactly. The lies we tell ourselves (that we know are lies) but the pretense of good intentions make us feel better.
I have 30 years clean and sober. 4 years clean of cigs. 🎵that song are we having fun yet🎵I'm happier than I've ever been. Only Jesus by his grace and mercy go I.
On the 7th November this year 2024, I will be Sober 23 year's . I realised one day that what I was going through when I first came off it couldn't fix the mental side of it what was going on in my head. Keep away from the people, places and thing's, I went back, to test myself, now look 23 year's.
Carnivore can really help fight the sugar addiction. I’ve even heard accounts of it fighting other eating disorders. And you will absolutely feel full! 🥩🥓🍗
I'm a recovering alcholic with food issues, too. I recommend a TH-camr named Abbey Sharp. She's a registered dietician from Canada and has a personal history of disorgered eating.
@@Wendy-eb2tl you can do it. Yes it is an exhausting disease to have it took me years to get sober, but it finally clicked. I was done doing treatment being sick all the time I’m 42 now and I started quitting in my early 30s. All my friends were drinking having a good time and I became a full-blown alcoholic. I didn’t realize that I was in such denial until I almost died from it.
This video was eyeopening. Thank you. I’d find bottles everywhere in the weirdest places, he’d smell of alcohol but no bottle in sight. I had to break up with him recently after years of living together and watching him slowly descend into darkness - and my vital energy slowly fading along with him. Hope he recovers; we still talk sometimes but we don’t live together anymore. I still reinforce his positive behaviors and search up ways of helping him in his recovery. Your channel was crucial for the first weeks post-breakup (and still is). I hear so many tragic stories (the most recent being Liam Payne) and I begin to wonder if there’s any hope at all. Do people really recover? Do they ever go back to being healthy functioning citizens? The thought of losing him to something that makes him feel so miserable is excruciating but I still hold on to some hope because of you. I’m taking care of myself now. I’m slowly putting my life back on track in hopes of using my surplus energy to help him. Thank you for the work that you do. ❤
I'm so proud of you for taking care of yourself! I can tell you love him, but at some point you have to save yourself or you'll go down with the ship. Sometimes it's easier to support them when you don't have a front row seat.
It's no secret. My husband does this every day. His eyes are always red. He has given over. Laid his generic antibuse down and going full on with little bottles and champagne. I have tried your methodology of patience and support. All it has done is teap me further. I am so very saddened that he chooses alcohol over me and over a good life. I have l9at hope at this point. Just trying to figure out what is next. 😢
I absolutely love your channel. I’m a substance-abuse clinician. I used to be a functional alcoholic until I was not, and this reminds me so much of it vodka nips was my thing as well.😢
@@PutTheShovelDown you’re very welcome what a great career change to do your own channel versus counseling as you know, it can get exhausting and stressful. ❤️🙏
I think she does a hybrid of both TH-cam & Counseling? It is SO COOL that as an "expert witness" of addiction, @KatieF-s3z , you're now helping others overcome their addictions, too! I can only imagine how exhausting it must be when you have your own recovery to balance, too, but good for you for getting it done and making the world a better place 🎉
Keep your garage or shed so messy no one else dares to go in. Pro tip encourage spiders. Even though I carefully tried to recover all the bottles each night, there would always be one I couldn't find. My wife would spot it first thing in the morning. I have been sober for two years now working the AA programme. Strange thing, my wife is not at all shouty any more. I'm just the same, I just don't drink. I wonder what happened to her?
Trust me, without the booze, you are different. That's a good thing. Grown child of an alcoholic and was married to an alcoholic/addict. If she's yelling less, the behavior that caused it has stopped. Edit: Congratulations on two years!
@PoodleParti No, it's not. You very obviously stopped a behavior that caused strife. I am sincere in wishing you congratulations for 2 years of sobriety.
My bestie always has to get a pack from the store. had to take a break from seeing him…. can’t make anyone else do anything they don’t wanna do like get sober and have a great life together with someone who loves you and wants to travel together and make animals art 😔😣😢
Good stuff. I live with this now, after speaking up about no income but lots of "outcome". Funny thing is, I used to hide food like that 😂 Not because I was on a diet, just because I didn't want to show that I spent money on myself.
Turn the Jesus, pray to him with an open heart tell him that you are miserable and you need him to save you. Tell him that you are sorry for all that went wrong and from now on, you want to live a better life together with him. Trust me, he will be there for you
This is one version of a functional alcoholic. One that has to hide her addiction. I am another kind.I make no effort to hide it. I am honest with myself and my loved ones that count on me. I drink in front of them. I go to work everyday and operate at high level and then come home and unwind with a few vodka and gingerales. I understand that what i am doing to my liver, kidneys, brain, etc is unsustainable. However as a a biochemist i know how to mitigate these effects. I look forward to treating my body and mind better but there is always an excuse to put it off.
@@MrsTorches I just started following her channel so I missed if she used to be an alcoholic I know she’s a counselor like myself but she portrayed exactly what it’s like so she must’ve gone through it herself. I’m sure.
@@MrsTorches I just started watching her. I assumed that she’s in recovery for alcohol. Otherwise she’s just been so long in the field. She knows what it’s like from hearing her patients. My background is in social work to begin with, but I didn’t get into the substance-abuse field until about six years ago. It’s very rewarding and challenging at the same time. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been sober to understand the pain. I have long-term sobriety, but I don’t like to say how long because I feel like I’ll jinx myself. 💕❤️
I know it is crazy. People do that when they become so bad that they will shake if they don’t have something in them. I agree it’s horrible to drink and drive but once you become a full-blown alcoholic, you can’t go very long without having some in your system, it’s awful, I’ve been sober long-term now thank the Lord ❤
@@PutTheShovelDown love your show because you show both sides of it. I’ve actually gone through that too… good advice is to try not to date anybody in recovery lesson learned 💕🥹
Been there done it and much worse. It can be a life of 24 hr days of misery and pain. I hid booze in the house, my office and car. I was drunk everyday by 11 am and lost my car in several parking lots. Vomiting was a daily event when I put a tooth brush in my mouth. These things decay into terrible events and choices that can’t be stopped. Not drinking was a non starter :-). I’ve been sober for 38 years could fill all these pages every day. There are answers, but an awful state has to be reached and competent help has to be there. I assure every person that still suffers that help is there but certain conditions must be met. I would gladly hold my hand out for this person. And for her is this reality: It always gets worse, ALWAYS!
@@gordonthompson271 I went through the same thing as well waiting for the stores to open in the morning constant sickness, around the clock binges.. it was pure hell.. so happy to be alcohol free.. I did not get it overnight. It took me a couple years to finally quit for good. 🙏💕
You mustve been tanked by the time you finished filming this! Just kidding 😂 but yes i remember discarding empty bottles into plastic bags and stuffing them into trash cans a lot back in my heyday of drinking.
I'm losing my brother to alcohol. he's almost 50. I was suspicions of him drinking during the day and I could tell by his voice he was drinking and then I busted him several times. All he does is lie about it, no telling fact from fiction anymore, he's smart so he's good at lying. My Mom is also an alcoholic so it's hard getting help as she just makes excuses for him. It's painful to watch.
So used 2 Be me...this 1st week. Nobody told me about the withdrawal, seizures and crazy Dreams and sweating!!! Mf can't even sleep and scared to go 2 sleep. My girl can't even sleep tight worried about me.
Try binging on podcasts. Bad friends podcast helped me get through the first few days. If you've made it a week you probably won't die. I'm just over 6 months now I get to deal with all the repercussions of my drinking. I guess it's nice not throwing up everyday now
My life has forever been changed, and not in the best way. My father was a severe alcoholic and I feel like he carried that on with me. My life goal was to raise the best kids I could imagine. I wanted to be the exact opposite of my dad. My dad abused me, tried to fight to me (for no reason) well I learned years later it was because of alcohol. And now I’m starting to get addicted to it as well. I’m not like him though, I refuse to be like him.
I’m not particularly religious at all, but these videos are a godsend. Amber, if you happen to take a peek at these comments and see this, I would love to see some education on pornography addiction pretty please! Thank you again
I was always a fairly heavy drinker probably a dozen beer on the weekend starting off, that was Friday night; then it became a two-four for Friday and Saturday. But trough the years it is progressing. Until it got to drinking every second night to where I am now. Every night; I don't drink before 9 pm and stop by 4-5 am. Its usually 8 to a dozen beer. I haven't had the shakes but have had anxiety from time to time. I have gone a day without drinking with no ill effects on a few occasions. I am just worried about seizures and my heart just plain stopping. I used to get blackout drunk years ago at times but in resent years it hasn't happened. I am a functional alcoholic at this point, but am definitely scared on how to ween myself off this. I do have some control as I narrow myself to this window of drinking, but I always find myself drinking one or two more beers than I planned. I very seldom get shitfaced but most nights have a good buzz on. I guess its tolerance. I've had shit in my life like most have and I guess I doubled down on drinking to cope. I wake up I'm not hung over or anything but I know this isn't good for my health. Again no excuse, but this is where I am.
This was very real. I started doing this 18 years ago, filling my empty wine bottles with water so my husband would know how much I drank - I think he did though because you can't fool people all of the time. Glad I'm not doing that any more. THANK YOU for this video. I lost track of how many drinks, I am going to guess 5.
Amazing video. Im from indiana usa. My mom died Dec 2021. Unexpectedly even. 6 months after she died i drank heavy. Then 2023 for few months it was almost everyday. With toxic people my family here just made it worse. I did cut back on my own. But im ending up living with family that i have over seas to break it since they hate drinking. As long as im stuck with the toxins in indiana i would be bad im afraid. I will do a vlog on it my life since me mom died soon. I will let you know when i do. Been watching your videos since 2023. Im glad though that i wasnt a mean drunk. I calmed me down. When people upset me bad it helped me cope. But when i did drink 4 days in a row it was getting hard to cope with it. I didnt get mean but i cried still.
I guess im a functioning alcoholic. I sit outside each day from 5-630 and drink. But thats it. No other times throughout the day. Been doing this for 20 years.
I don't like to drink expect I have a lot of pain no insurance and if you pay 200 for doc in the box all they give you is aspirin so cheers I hope anyone trying to quit gets the strength they need.
5 or 6? Since only thar if I'm right. You wouldn't get drunk off of them in 12 hours? Unless strong. Just curious. Please let me know if I did the math right.
I'm pretty sure that almost every functional alcoholic has discovered this secret, so this is for the family members who live with a functional alcoholic: Girl, that's what afternoon starbucks are for...convenience... in a cup.
We never saw you drinking alcohol. We saw what could have been a coke, tea, coffee, a smoothie but were all actually mixed with alcohol. #cepv #IMustWin
@@bodyboarder733 it wasn’t real. It’s a reenactment to show how functional alcoholism looks behind the scenes. I am an addiction counselor. I’m not promoting drinking and driving.
@@Goinracing it’s the lying, sneaking, using in dangerous situations, and desire to stop drinking too much that makes it alcoholism. Not the amount of drinks
why all the hiding and bullshitting people? I drink how much I want and do what I want. F*ck what other people say or think. No need for sneaking or secrets
Learn More About The Secret Thoughts Of A Functional Alcoholic 🤫🤫 th-cam.com/users/liveT55q3Kd4gVw
I’m a recovering addict with 9 years clean and sober. I remember that overwhelming urge to get alcohol in me as soon as I woke up because I could only drink so much and sleep….. yes I said drink and sleep, I called them my night beers!
It was a truly horrible existence. I pray for all addicts out there hoping for recovery. Keep trying different things until something works.
I'll be 3 years sober in a couple weeks. I do not miss that life
Congratulations!!
2ys don't miss it at all
90 days tomorrow. 🤙🏻
Awesome job to all keep it up.. trust me 10 years and still taking 1 day at at time
Proud of you! It ain't easy.
I could remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Was actually addicted to alcohol. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
Wow!
This is a really well-done piece of realistic storytelling: well-framed, well-shot, well-edited, well-recorded (sound and music), and totally relatable from the perspective of a person who has found hidden empty bottles. (Sometimes I wondered if the hider MEANT for me to find them.)
This video really deserves an award. 🥇
Oof! Telling your loved one you know and then leaving it at that 😅
It does A LOT.
@@lizzi437 when I was bad those nips are everywhere with me, vodka nips I would have them in my purse in my car hidden in my shoes. It’s so exhausting. I’m so glad I’m sober now.💕
Thanks Lizi! I appreciate the positive feedback. I wasn't sure how this new format would go over.
💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
I was a very high functioning alcoholic. I woke up had 2 beers before work and one on the drive to work they were also IPAs at 7.5% then around 10am I'd go to my truck have 2 more beers, then at lunch I'd go out to a bar have 2-3 pints, go back to work. Leave to go home stop at the grocery store to pick up dinner to cook and also grab another case of beer and about 4-8 Jack Daniel shooters. I'd hide 1 shooter in my truck for emergency. Then right when I get in my truck to drive home I toss back 2 shooters while driving. Get home have probably 5 more beers and 4 shooters then go to bed. Wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety and my heart beating out of my chest, no worries just chug a beer or 2, back to bed. Wake up and do it all again. Know one knew I was drunk all the time. My last drink was June 16th 2023. Been sober ever since and damn it sucks. Over a year of being sober and I feel like shit eveyday I felt better when I was drinking. I don't even crave to drink anymore but I can never relax it's horrible
Your story is mine exactly. I'm trying kava, gummies ,smoke, not really helping
Edible cannabinoids...actually has healthy side effects. Depending on your age. Young people shouldn't use marijuana.
Same as my story. Been sober since 10-18-23 and gained 80 lbs, feel lazy, and bored of everything. I don't have a sense of humor anymore and don't even feel like hanging out or even being around anyone. I'm a shell of my old self. Yeah I would be dead now if I kept going but it's like, if you can't even enjoy life anymore, what is the point of quitting?
@@OG-BIG-SHEPHERD. I hear you brother loud and clear been sober 8 months for what
You’re just going through a detox phase. I was the same way when I stopped drinking back in 2017. I was depressed didn’t want to do or go anywhere but over time things got better now I feel great laugh and have fun without drinking or smoking anything and don’t want to. Church and prayer helped me a lot also. I also stopped hanging around all my friends or family that does it. As much as I love them I had to separate myself from them. I’ll be praying for you brother 🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡
I drink 5-6 beers everyday. Never before or during work. Always after. Go to bed by 9, up at 4. Never hung over, always in a decent mood.
That's what I call functional alcoholic.
5-6 is a buzz. Not even an alcoholic dude
@@OG-BIG-SHEPHERD. daily is definitely an alcoholic
I can relate. I need at least a pint of whisky after work to unwind and help me sleep. Tried drinking a few shots before work once and it was bad, couldn't focus on the tasks at hand and halfway through my shift I was ready for a nap.
@@OG-BIG-SHEPHERD.Anyone consuming an addictive poison daily has alcohol use disorder.
Alcohol use disorder is on a spectrum... Your intake sounds like mine, although I was always teetering on the edge of drinking more, starting earlier, driving after drinking etc.
As an alcoholic i dont think theres such thing as funcioning theres drinking to drink then theres the i need to drink to get my body to feel right i hope everyone understands what im saying
But think of those around you dealing g with it. Not knowing which version of you is going ti be today. Scary and soul destroying
@@elspethcraigie6269Your point is valid but has nothing to do with the comment youre replying to, sadly.
Yep
We understand that you’re living your life the best way you can. Nobody sets out to become alcohol or pain med dependent it happens. I hope you find a path to change when you’re ready. Just keep in mind that there will be failures when you decide to change and to keep trying. You are worth the effort friend.
❤️🙏 for her sobriety, and everyone else struggling with addiction.
I’m sober 40 years. Got clean at 24 years old. The high cost of low living took its toll on me. I went to a party when I was 14 and didn’t leave for 10 years. I don’t miss it and I’m glad to still be alive
Brilliant job, Amber! You have really put yourself out there on video and done an amazing and accurate job of depicting the daily hell of a “functioning” alcoholic. It’s so accurate I felt myself cringing, witnessing my own behavior for decades. “No more vodka on weekdays”. Exactly. The lies we tell ourselves (that we know are lies) but the pretense of good intentions make us feel better.
my mom started the dying process in march. i started drinking very heavy. lots of change. lost my best friend. i belive alcoholism emotional stress
Yep, that was so me, consumed by the thought😢
Stopped drinking 5 years ago and feel great.
That's awesome! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
I have 30 years clean and sober. 4 years clean of cigs. 🎵that song are we having fun yet🎵I'm happier than I've ever been. Only Jesus by his grace and mercy go I.
On the 7th November this year 2024, I will be Sober 23 year's . I realised one day that what I was going through when I first came off it couldn't fix the mental side of it what was going on in my head. Keep away from the people, places and thing's, I went back, to test myself, now look 23 year's.
Oh my gosh, it's so hard! It's hard to get one's emotional needs from what we do and not what we consume. Thanks for the vid....
This looks exhausting, I do the same but with food. Time to change.
Wishing you strength and success! 🙏
Carnivore can really help fight the sugar addiction. I’ve even heard accounts of it fighting other eating disorders. And you will absolutely feel full! 🥩🥓🍗
I'm a recovering alcholic with food issues, too. I recommend a TH-camr named Abbey Sharp. She's a registered dietician from Canada and has a personal history of disorgered eating.
I have food issues and attend overeaters anonymous through zoom. It has changed my life!!!
@@Wendy-eb2tl you can do it. Yes it is an exhausting disease to have it took me years to get sober, but it finally clicked. I was done doing treatment being sick all the time I’m 42 now and I started quitting in my early 30s. All my friends were drinking having a good time and I became a full-blown alcoholic. I didn’t realize that I was in such denial until I almost died from it.
This video was eyeopening. Thank you.
I’d find bottles everywhere in the weirdest places, he’d smell of alcohol but no bottle in sight.
I had to break up with him recently after years of living together and watching him slowly descend into darkness - and my vital energy slowly fading along with him.
Hope he recovers; we still talk sometimes but we don’t live together anymore. I still reinforce his positive behaviors and search up ways of helping him in his recovery. Your channel was crucial for the first weeks post-breakup (and still is).
I hear so many tragic stories (the most recent being Liam Payne) and I begin to wonder if there’s any hope at all. Do people really recover? Do they ever go back to being healthy functioning citizens? The thought of losing him to something that makes him feel so miserable is excruciating but I still hold on to some hope because of you.
I’m taking care of myself now. I’m slowly putting my life back on track in hopes of using my surplus energy to help him. Thank you for the work that you do. ❤
I'm so proud of you for taking care of yourself! I can tell you love him, but at some point you have to save yourself or you'll go down with the ship. Sometimes it's easier to support them when you don't have a front row seat.
I feel so seen and it is so healing and gives me hope to overcome this thing. 20 freaking long years..
It's no secret. My husband does this every day. His eyes are always red. He has given over. Laid his generic antibuse down and going full on with little bottles and champagne. I have tried your methodology of patience and support. All it has done is teap me further. I am so very saddened that he chooses alcohol over me and over a good life. I have l9at hope at this point. Just trying to figure out what is next. 😢
I absolutely love your channel. I’m a substance-abuse clinician. I used to be a functional alcoholic until I was not, and this reminds me so much of it vodka nips was my thing as well.😢
Getting good feedback from someone who's been there personally and professionally is incredibly validating. Thank you so much, Katie!
@@PutTheShovelDown you’re very welcome what a great career change to do your own channel versus counseling as you know, it can get exhausting and stressful. ❤️🙏
I think she does a hybrid of both TH-cam & Counseling?
It is SO COOL that as an "expert witness" of addiction, @KatieF-s3z , you're now helping others overcome their addictions, too!
I can only imagine how exhausting it must be when you have your own recovery to balance, too, but good for you for getting it done and making the world a better place 🎉
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Keep your garage or shed so messy no one else dares to go in. Pro tip encourage spiders. Even though I carefully tried to recover all the bottles each night, there would always be one I couldn't find. My wife would spot it first thing in the morning.
I have been sober for two years now working the AA programme. Strange thing, my wife is not at all shouty any more. I'm just the same, I just don't drink. I wonder what happened to her?
Trust me, without the booze, you are different. That's a good thing. Grown child of an alcoholic and was married to an alcoholic/addict. If she's yelling less, the behavior that caused it has stopped.
Edit: Congratulations on two years!
Is that sarcasm?
@PoodleParti No, it's not. You very obviously stopped a behavior that caused strife. I am sincere in wishing you congratulations for 2 years of sobriety.
My relative uaed to say it was the nicotine gum that made his breath smell like vodka. But, the Lord saved him from death- for 7yrs he's been clean!
Hallelujah, Lord do it for me too.
My bestie always has to get a pack from the store. had to take a break from seeing him…. can’t make anyone else do anything they don’t wanna do like get sober and have a great life together with someone who loves you and wants to travel together and make animals art 😔😣😢
So depressing! My daughter is so far gone!!
Thanks for that Video. All my love is with you
I’m a single man, don’t hide shit from anyone
Pro tip-don’t forget to push the empties to the bottom of the trash so no one can see them.
She did in one scene.
We noticed them already. Especially if you didn't take the trash out.
Good stuff. I live with this now, after speaking up about no income but lots of "outcome". Funny thing is, I used to hide food like that 😂 Not because I was on a diet, just because I didn't want to show that I spent money on myself.
Pushing empty cans in the bin and always covering em up was my favourite trick. Terrible when I think about it. So paranoid all the time.
I live this life...God please save me, it hurts
Turn the Jesus, pray to him with an open heart tell him that you are miserable and you need him to save you. Tell him that you are sorry for all that went wrong and from now on, you want to live a better life together with him.
Trust me, he will be there for you
This is one version of a functional alcoholic. One that has to hide her addiction. I am another kind.I make no effort to hide it. I am honest with myself and my loved ones that count on me. I drink in front of them. I go to work everyday and operate at high level and then come home and unwind with a few vodka and gingerales. I understand that what i am doing to my liver, kidneys, brain, etc is unsustainable. However as a a biochemist i know how to mitigate these effects. I look forward to treating my body and mind better but there is always an excuse to put it off.
I’m 4 years and 3 months sober
Don’t miss a thing about that
This was my life until I decided enough was enough. I've been sober for six years now 😀
👍👌👏
I cried all the way through this. How many drinks? Well if you’re like me: “All of them”
You really minimized the blame, X, Y, Z is making me drink.
12 yrs ago, every day was hair of the dog for me
I used to get so embarrassed when they would come for my recycling. It was full of beer bottles. I drank bottles because it was classier than cans.
That's so relatable!
Lord Jesus Christ saved me. I was worse than that.
Your content is painfully accurate 😂 Thank you? I think.
@@MrsTorches I just started following her channel so I missed if she used to be an alcoholic I know she’s a counselor like myself but she portrayed exactly what it’s like so she must’ve gone through it herself. I’m sure.
I appreciate that!!! I wasn't sure how this new format would go over.
@@KatieF-s3z She definitely has a pulse on the struggle 😅
But maybe it's because she has like 20+ years dealing with addiction?
@@MrsTorches I just started watching her. I assumed that she’s in recovery for alcohol. Otherwise she’s just been so long in the field. She knows what it’s like from hearing her patients. My background is in social work to begin with, but I didn’t get into the substance-abuse field until about six years ago. It’s very rewarding and challenging at the same time. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been sober to understand the pain. I have long-term sobriety, but I don’t like to say how long because I feel like I’ll jinx myself. 💕❤️
@@MrsTorches she’s an expert doing it for that long and I’m amazed because it’s such a burnout field tons of self-care is involved
Yours to keep, a beautiful song written by an Aussie band called Sticky Fingers
"Don't forget the name!"
What I find interesting is how alcoholics like to have a drink for the road, they don’t see anything wrong with drinking and driving!
I know it is crazy. People do that when they become so bad that they will shake if they don’t have something in them. I agree it’s horrible to drink and drive but once you become a full-blown alcoholic, you can’t go very long without having some in your system, it’s awful, I’ve been sober long-term now thank the Lord ❤
It becomes so normalized to them that they forget how out-of-bounds it really is!
@@PutTheShovelDown love your show because you show both sides of it. I’ve actually gone through that too… good advice is to try not to date anybody in recovery lesson learned 💕🥹
Been there done it and much worse. It can be a life of 24 hr days of misery and pain. I hid booze in the house, my office and car. I was drunk everyday by 11 am and lost my car in several parking lots. Vomiting was a daily event when I put a tooth brush in my mouth. These things decay into terrible events and choices that can’t be stopped. Not drinking was a non starter :-). I’ve been sober for 38 years could fill all these pages every day. There are answers, but an awful state has to be reached and competent help has to be there. I assure every person that still suffers that help is there but certain conditions must be met. I would gladly hold my hand out for this person. And for her is this reality: It always gets worse, ALWAYS!
@@gordonthompson271 I went through the same thing as well waiting for the stores to open in the morning constant sickness, around the clock binges.. it was pure hell.. so happy to be alcohol free.. I did not get it overnight. It took me a couple years to finally quit for good. 🙏💕
Yep 7 years now and I hate that crap and went cold turkey life is good 6 years off the smokes cold turkey 🤙
You mustve been tanked by the time you finished filming this!
Just kidding 😂 but yes i remember discarding empty bottles into plastic bags and stuffing them into trash cans a lot back in my heyday of drinking.
"Have a drink on me" 🍻 best of luck...AC/DC 😎
I’ll drink to this!
I'm losing my brother to alcohol. he's almost 50. I was suspicions of him drinking during the day and I could tell by his voice he was drinking and then I busted him several times. All he does is lie about it, no telling fact from fiction anymore, he's smart so he's good at lying. My Mom is also an alcoholic so it's hard getting help as she just makes excuses for him. It's painful to watch.
So used 2 Be me...this 1st week. Nobody told me about the withdrawal, seizures and crazy Dreams and sweating!!! Mf can't even sleep and scared to go 2 sleep. My girl can't even sleep tight worried about me.
Try binging on podcasts. Bad friends podcast helped me get through the first few days. If you've made it a week you probably won't die. I'm just over 6 months now I get to deal with all the repercussions of my drinking. I guess it's nice not throwing up everyday now
The good news is, eventually, you'll drive everyone who loves you away and you won't have to hide anymore.
Yeah. Worked for me. Only thing is, I actually quit and they still left. Now I'm sober AND bored of everything
My life has forever been changed, and not in the best way. My father was a severe alcoholic and I feel like he carried that on with me. My life goal was to raise the best kids I could imagine. I wanted to be the exact opposite of my dad. My dad abused me, tried to fight to me (for no reason) well I learned years later it was because of alcohol. And now I’m starting to get addicted to it as well. I’m not like him though, I refuse to be like him.
I don't know/understand this or how it's done, but living it with a person that does this 😢
I’m not particularly religious at all, but these videos are a godsend. Amber, if you happen to take a peek at these comments and see this, I would love to see some education on pornography addiction pretty please! Thank you again
That was cool I like the way you did that
Thanks Melissa! I wasn't sure how well this format would go over. So, I really appreciate the positive feedback!
I was always a fairly heavy drinker probably a dozen beer on the weekend starting off, that was Friday night; then it became a two-four for Friday and Saturday. But trough the years it is progressing. Until it got to drinking every second night to where I am now. Every night; I don't drink before 9 pm and stop by 4-5 am. Its usually 8 to a dozen beer. I haven't had the shakes but have had anxiety from time to time. I have gone a day without drinking with no ill effects on a few occasions. I am just worried about seizures and my heart just plain stopping. I used to get blackout drunk years ago at times but in resent years it hasn't happened. I am a functional alcoholic at this point, but am definitely scared on how to ween myself off this. I do have some control as I narrow myself to this window of drinking, but I always find myself drinking one or two more beers than I planned. I very seldom get shitfaced but most nights have a good buzz on. I guess its tolerance. I've had shit in my life like most have and I guess I doubled down on drinking to cope. I wake up I'm not hung over or anything but I know this isn't good for my health. Again no excuse, but this is where I am.
Watch Rain in my heart 😢
I go through this every day.
Denzel Washington (plays) "DRUNK" really really well. Watch: MAN ON FIRE & FLIGHT.....
This was very real. I started doing this 18 years ago, filling my empty wine bottles with water so my husband would know how much I drank - I think he did though because you can't fool people all of the time. Glad I'm not doing that any more. THANK YOU for this video.
I lost track of how many drinks, I am going to guess 5.
So glad you escaped the horrible cycle! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 It's a nightmare!
Some of the biggest problems addicts get into are a result of haveing to hide their addiction
Very true!
Anyone remember Lip Gallagher from “Shameless?” When the show ended, was he still drinking?
I thought when the alarm went off at 6am, that meant time to go to 7-11 and get some beer because I needed it to even function in the morning...
7 years sober.
🤩🤩🤩Very nice
Amazing video. Im from indiana usa. My mom died Dec 2021. Unexpectedly even. 6 months after she died i drank heavy. Then 2023 for few months it was almost everyday. With toxic people my family here just made it worse. I did cut back on my own. But im ending up living with family that i have over seas to break it since they hate drinking. As long as im stuck with the toxins in indiana i would be bad im afraid. I will do a vlog on it my life since me mom died soon. I will let you know when i do. Been watching your videos since 2023. Im glad though that i wasnt a mean drunk. I calmed me down. When people upset me bad it helped me cope. But when i did drink 4 days in a row it was getting hard to cope with it. I didnt get mean but i cried still.
I guess im a functioning alcoholic. I sit outside each day from 5-630 and drink. But thats it. No other times throughout the day. Been doing this for 20 years.
Been there been there. 1 is too much 10 is not enough
💯💯💯💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
That is soooo me!!!!! I LOVE my Wife very much!
I don't like to drink expect I have a lot of pain no insurance and if you pay 200 for doc in the box all they give you is aspirin so cheers I hope anyone trying to quit gets the strength they need.
"I was sober now I'm drunk again..." - Green Day
so sad, but there's hope
The absolutely crazy places you could find bottles. The ridiculous excuses to run out "real quick" because they forgot where they hid it.
The smaller the bottle, the bigger the problem.
You've been following me around, I see.
Sheesh, I thought I was bad for drinking a 12 pack per night on the weekends.
Yeah, girl! Mini bottles and sippy cup! That's the you do it! What you mixing that with? Tonic, rigbt?
Whoa 😳
5 or 6? Since only thar if I'm right. You wouldn't get drunk off of them in 12 hours? Unless strong. Just curious. Please let me know if I did the math right.
Yes, that's correct. The issue is having to keep drinking through out the day to function.
The day drinking is to keep just enough buzz to stave off the hangover, then later they put the drink on.
I'm pretty sure that almost every functional alcoholic has discovered this secret, so this is for the family members who live with a functional alcoholic: Girl, that's what afternoon starbucks are for...convenience... in a cup.
So 2, 3, 4 drinks make you an alcoholic. Lol 😆 🤣 😂
Finlandia was a good choice🏆
I can relate unfortunately
We never saw you drinking alcohol. We saw what could have been a coke, tea, coffee, a smoothie but were all actually mixed with alcohol. #cepv #IMustWin
You are correct! This was just a reenactment. No actual alcohol was consumed while making this video! 😀
Makes me think.
Yep this video is me
Dam this so true 😢that’s me
...but everyone knows with the aroma coming from the mouth. 🌬️👄
Definitely! People think they're getting away with it, but they're not!
Functioning alcoholics are not that uncommon
For sure!
Not as many as me
You may be functioning but your still an alcoholic my father was a so called one and he’s gone because of alcohol.
I got that bad with food til I got diabetes.
It was easier for her to just get up and leave 😏 her loss
She literally filmed herself drinking and driving. Pathetic.
@@bodyboarder733 it wasn’t real. It’s a reenactment to show how functional alcoholism looks behind the scenes. I am an addiction counselor. I’m not promoting drinking and driving.
Akorát si dávám teplou vodku… levnou… a pak trochu kála na spaní.... dávám si to s tesťákem do jehly…
Hahahahaha....that must suck to live like this
How sad is this??
Interesting
I understand the point of the video, but 5 drinks in 9hrs and 43mins hardly counts as an alcoholic.
@@Goinracing it’s the lying, sneaking, using in dangerous situations, and desire to stop drinking too much that makes it alcoholism. Not the amount of drinks
Oof. So relatable.
why all the hiding and bullshitting people? I drink how much I want and do what I want. F*ck what other people say or think. No need for sneaking or secrets
At least it's legal in.most.places.thar doesn't help much