Ngl, your matcha looks AMAZING. I’ve tried matcha before from Stacks, but it was too watery, whereas yours looks creamy lol. You’re going to have to make that drink for me one day because I trust you 100% with your taste 💅 The abandonment wound is REAL. Oof 😓 it’s a privilege of mine to not have lost someone I deeply connected with..especially since you never had a plan to live to 25. I can relate to that. The feeling of just wandering…taking each day as it comes. It’s an honor to say that I’ve met Regis. I’m incredibly thankful to have met the both of you, before I left for Rome. 2017 was WEIRD. We were all in a transition. But what spoke out to me was when you mentioned that Regis was supposed to live a happy life and to be here. You know I’m controversial lol.. but i try to do it with love. My hot take; Regis was never happy unless he was with you. Maybe in this life, you’re supposed to connect with the more spiritual side of living instead of the 3D human experience. Regis would never abandon you completely. Yes he left this world way too early, but I have a feeling that he tries to connect with you all of the time, but the topic of Schizophrenia is scary af and I can relate to taking the signs too seriously and second guessing yourself. He could be your kitty!! He could be the roses in the background! He could even be the Mac Miller photo frame! I hope he’s up there with Mac rn looking down on you because you are never alone. I can see him sending you signs, but getting too focused on the human experience. I can see him getting frustrated with you. He is always with you in your heart and I’m sure you know that. He gets to live vicariously through you now !! You were his sunshine, his light, his meaning, his being. You’re a bridge to change.. being a man in this world is HARD, including women. Crap, being human is difficult, but he gets to do whatever the heck he wants now truthfully and I think that he is happier to be free. Happier to do/be/see whatever he wants instead of only being one thing: human. The spiritual side is scary because it doesn’t fit the regiment of the “human” experience we’re used to. It’s an honor to practice spirituality in this day and age without being burned at stake lol. Maybe this life is a second chance for you? The number 25 personally is a witchy number for me. You’ve had SOOO many lifetimes with him in the human experience. This is all a game! I hope he’s upstairs rn playing Fortnite or something, smiling down on you… he would never leave you at the beach alone.. the memories fade but he never will ❤️🫶 I love you so much and I hope my words didn’t offend you. I just wanted to give you my 2 cents because I’m currently grieving someone who is still living. You are incredible and seeing you being this heartbroken by being abandoned in the 3D, made me shed a tear and reflect back on those moments we shared together.
I dont even have the right words to respond, but just know, I feel every sentence of this. Thank you for actually putting it into words for me. This is the least offensive comment because 1, unlike most grief conversation, this is honest. And real. And 2) you knew him. And you knew our dynamic and how his life here was NOT perfect. And we had each other. But that felt like the only thing sometimes. You get it. I love you so so much.
Ngl, your matcha looks AMAZING. I’ve tried matcha before from Stacks, but it was too watery, whereas yours looks creamy lol. You’re going to have to make that drink for me one day because I trust you 100% with your taste 💅
The abandonment wound is REAL. Oof 😓 it’s a privilege of mine to not have lost someone I deeply connected with..especially since you never had a plan to live to 25. I can relate to that. The feeling of just wandering…taking each day as it comes. It’s an honor to say that I’ve met Regis. I’m incredibly thankful to have met the both of you, before I left for Rome. 2017 was WEIRD. We were all in a transition.
But what spoke out to me was when you mentioned that Regis was supposed to live a happy life and to be here. You know I’m controversial lol.. but i try to do it with love. My hot take; Regis was never happy unless he was with you. Maybe in this life, you’re supposed to connect with the more spiritual side of living instead of the 3D human experience. Regis would never abandon you completely. Yes he left this world way too early, but I have a feeling that he tries to connect with you all of the time, but the topic of Schizophrenia is scary af and I can relate to taking the signs too seriously and second guessing yourself. He could be your kitty!! He could be the roses in the background! He could even be the Mac Miller photo frame! I hope he’s up there with Mac rn looking down on you because you are never alone. I can see him sending you signs, but getting too focused on the human experience. I can see him getting frustrated with you. He is always with you in your heart and I’m sure you know that. He gets to live vicariously through you now !! You were his sunshine, his light, his meaning, his being.
You’re a bridge to change.. being a man in this world is HARD, including women. Crap, being human is difficult, but he gets to do whatever the heck he wants now truthfully and I think that he is happier to be free. Happier to do/be/see whatever he wants instead of only being one thing: human.
The spiritual side is scary because it doesn’t fit the regiment of the “human” experience we’re used to. It’s an honor to practice spirituality in this day and age without being burned at stake lol. Maybe this life is a second chance for you? The number 25 personally is a witchy number for me. You’ve had SOOO many lifetimes with him in the human experience. This is all a game! I hope he’s upstairs rn playing Fortnite or something, smiling down on you… he would never leave you at the beach alone.. the memories fade but he never will ❤️🫶 I love you so much and I hope my words didn’t offend you. I just wanted to give you my 2 cents because I’m currently grieving someone who is still living. You are incredible and seeing you being this heartbroken by being abandoned in the 3D, made me shed a tear and reflect back on those moments we shared together.
I dont even have the right words to respond, but just know, I feel every sentence of this. Thank you for actually putting it into words for me. This is the least offensive comment because 1, unlike most grief conversation, this is honest. And real. And 2) you knew him. And you knew our dynamic and how his life here was NOT perfect. And we had each other. But that felt like the only thing sometimes. You get it. I love you so so much.