Happy for you that your still clean , breaking bad isn't the best thing to watch right now luv. Go to meetings do not let it ruin your life you only get one and you deserve for the rest of your life be the best of your life
Keep your head strong. You'll be getting bouts of extreme happiness and deep depression. You'll feel high then in pain. Your brain will equalize. Stay away from breaking bad and shows like that. They're triggers. I can barely have spoons in the house because it's an H trigger. You gotta just change it all up. Think of it this way: this may just be your life's purpose. Everything you did, everytime you ever prayed since you were little, everytime you wished being a superhero when you were young, this is it. Your life's purpose may just be in front of you. This might be what you will be remembered for. Do it. Sacrifice your every being for it. You'll know later on. You look real good bruu.
You are somebody, don’t ever forget that! You are pretty amazing letting people know about your struggles, and forget the haters, saying you look high. It looks like you are having a hard time sitting still, that doesn’t make you high, my guess you get a little nervous when making a video. JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE SOMEBODY AND YOU MATTER!! Derek and yourself are doing something amazing to help others in the process of their recovery.
Hang in there and wishing nothing but the best for you and thank you for showing your true struggle through this journey of yours. Have you ever thought of trying a very low dose of Suboxone to get you through these tough times? Stay well, stay strong.
You are looking so much healthier, but I absolutely know it is more of a mind-fuck at this point. Keep posting, with total transparency & total honesty. Will help hold you accountable, & you can gain strength from us. Just down dosed my fenty to 37.5mcr/72 hours. Ohh myyy gods! I ache, headaches, hot/cold flashes….all the sorts. I am INCREDIBLY proud of you for noticing your trigger. I truly believe in you buddy. Give yourself time to heal.
These are great diary journals to look back on and to express yourself I know that feeling all to well I can’t watch Basketball Diaries because of that reason! I had a bad issue back in the the early 2000 with Xanax! And I didn’t know that you can’t just stop taking them on your own you need medical attention for sure! It is A year later so just wondering how ur doing and feeling! My husband will be clean from methadone 2 years and its been had it’s emotional up’s and down but you learn how to deal with it and having family support helps!
I'm just stopping by again to tell you.. you are a beautiful soul ❤ you are a absolute inspiration to others just by telling your story for someone else to learn from... I'm still practicing how to feed the good wolf everyday man, thanks for that Derek, l'll never forget that saying. I'm now 34 days clean off pressed fet. One last thing man You are a strong fucking person no matter what negativity trys to throw you off.. youre going kick this things ass you won't even be able to find that bad wolf if you tried.. and I'll be here to support you until you reach that. Love 💜
Stay strong man and well done. You helped me a lot going through heroin withdrawal and one month ckean. It's obvious you are a good person and mentally strong. You're helping other people. I hope this helps you. Peace xx
You give me Hope, strength and Faith. Please keep moving forward brother. You're a savior, even if you don't even realize it. Live you homie and I neva even met ya lol. 🙂👊🏽💪🏽❤💯🙌🏽🙏🏽🔥✌🏾🎉🎊🫀🔥💙😁😇🙆♂️🙆🏿♂️
How’s he doing now ? I’m going on seven months clean and it feels freaking amazing you just gotta put the time and I promise it gets so much better can’t believe I can say that now! Anybody going through it be strong but the time and that’s all it takes
I just dropped the suboxone 9 days ago. I'm pretty much over the extremely intense withdrawl now. But now it's all the psychological bullshit. Nothing feels the same. No energy. But it will get better. And ya stay away from anything at all that triggers your mind and in your case that show wouldn't be good. Hang In there it will get better It takes time for your brain to heal. Your not alone either brother. Don't know if you ever saw money hiest its a good show. Kept my mind off alot
7 years off heroin. 7 days off my PRESCRIBED medications. Since my doctor retired and didn't feel the need to tell anyone with proper time. He currently has 200 patients in withdrawl. Including me. I found your videos somehow during my worst withdrawls and you got me through it. Thanks stranger.
You can be happy without it! human body creates happinness! I was using and now I am not even thinking abou it! There is a porpose for you why you are here! You have come far! I respect you! Peace, love and harmony to you man!
Getting clean is easy. Staying clean is a real son of a birch. I graduated treatment and completely came off methadone on the 19th. Prior to that I was opiate free other than methadone for six months. Methadone saved my life.
I understand mate I bin feeling exactly the same . It on my mind all the time I even dream about it . Its fucking murder it is . Wish I never touch drug's EVER
Even smells can be triggers for heroin or opiates. Opiates do stop you from getting sick from colds and stuff they don't know why. I want send love out to all my sick cycle carousel bros and sisters. Its a hellish road we walk but we are the most courageous and strong. Love you all stay strong
I don't know how this guy does it. Hell, I still don't understand how rehab workers and councillors who are ex-addicts does it. For me, in order to stay clean is to not think about nor talk about my past with drugs. After 34 overdoses within just 3 years, being sent to rehabs across the country, screwing up and being homeless in those cities where I knew no one, sure I have tons of stories. I was even offered a job at a rehab in Tulsa OK... But I could never have a job like that, a job where I had to constantly think about and talk about my past with drugs. For me, in order to stay clean is to just not think about drugs period.
never done H or m, just maryjane, but crazy how it was breaking bad that made you tweak, i have anxiety about the world ending and when i was quitting weed i was going thru psychotic shit and netflix recommended me Leave the world behind, terrible mistake lol. but breaking bad man.. great show
You look and talk so much better , I'm sure the mental part is not comfortable but keep talking out loud to others ,don't let it swirl around in your own mind ! The thought that the drugs helped you focus and had energy but you know it wasn't good ! It just made you stay in the cycle of get up do drugs ,go make or find money to get drugs and that's all your life consisted of , It's all about the reward , think of the lab rats experments ! You do not want to be a rat on a wheel ,Get pissed off and keep saying no ! Those thoughts and triggers will go away and you will regain your focus and energy ! You have a big heart and you deserve much better , just keep talking out loud to everyone ,you being honest about how you feel will set you free , You know going back is not what you want and it would be nothing good , If you can come on here and talk about it then you doing better than you think you are ! Stay connected ! ❤️
You are inspiring me thank you thank God stay in touch I see your pain in your eyes but I would wonder what is the specific reason you want to stop I have nobody either
Please I need someone's help I need someone to talk to about what I'm going through I have no one Derek's videos have helped me immensely over the years
Rios is a very familiar last name to me. Your first name almost rings a bell. Almost. It is a small world. You good? Whats up witchya? I'm fightn too. Yall aint alone. Loneliness is a killer.
Keep hitting that gym!! Everyday like it's water U need to live. Like your life and brain depended on it...You already know: tough times don't last, tough people do. Get in to your body to get out your brain..
You look sooo much more healthy or alive or radiant my dude. Agree with the show thing. Take the Bibles advice and meditate on the things that are good and beneficial and encouraging and build you up. Start talking about where you wanna see yourself in the future rather then speaking about how horrible your current situation is. Talking like that will keep you focused on where you're going and what you need to do and what to avoid.
Thay say it only take 2 weeks which is ballshit mate. Bin 4 weeks now for me I feel like crying etc . Fucking hate opioid it just fuck your life up in every way . Just can't see a way out . We got to do it tho bro . I with you bro x
Kind of look like your high while making this video to be honest. I relapsed and had a couple of months streak. If you did relapse bro don’t even sweat it. Just stop, take a deep breath and get your 24 hour chip. Then it will be a 72 and a week. Don’t actually have to go to N A . You know your achievements. Think positive and remind yourself of the reasons why you wanted to stop. Why you took on the monumental task, the journey, of peace and clarity. We’re together in this. Your not alone
Wish I was in Israel. The safest place on the planet, for real. God's chosen, truly. The Holy Bible proves it, and everything else. Love to you all. ❤️
Yes you do look way better. Lol i thought i was the only 1 that couldn't watch certain tv shows coz it would start making me feel anxious and antsy. You need to talk to somebody else like a drug counselling thing or something. You can even do it online coz u seem to be isolating and staying in your head. This then makes u depressed and anxious and bored which deffo make ya relapse to feel better. Then if u do that you dont enjoy it coz u feel guilty and worthless, oh lord its bloody torture.
Feed the dog, not the wolf (39:38 in video below). Watch positive videos/shows rather than negative videos/shows. And, be careful to not justify watching negative videos/shows as being more helpful than the positive videos/shows. I can tell you are a beautiful soul with much more dog than wolf in you to feed. You got this! th-cam.com/video/uLDz7emCnZI/w-d-xo.html
You gotta get out move. Be in the sun. I know everyone says exercise and people think it's bullshit but from day one I forced myself to take walks and the withdrawal process ended up being alot easier like way easier I had the normal but for some reason it wasn't that bad and all that was coming off of 300mg oxy a day. Then by day 5 or 6 I was in the gym with very few symptoms. All of the sun and exercise will also help your brain bounce back. Paws was tough but nothing that can't be pushed through with a little will power.
Like a dog returns to his vomit addicts go back to using... ive been clean 2 monthsnand itsnthe best 2 months of my life i couldnt fathem like could benthis good and money can buikd back so fast its inceredible thank you jesus
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Keep it going. In early recovery, I remember looking at the rest of my life, but all we can do is one day, at a time
So proud of you for acknowledging when you feel tempted. You are doing so well!
I feel for you man, keep talking with people, you got this 💪
Keep going bro we are here for you! Good things are coming your way man stay on the right path and go to God. Be blessed brotha!
Happy for you that your still clean , breaking bad isn't the best thing to watch right now luv. Go to meetings do not let it ruin your life you only get one and you deserve for the rest of your life be the best of your life
Keep your head strong. You'll be getting bouts of extreme happiness and deep depression. You'll feel high then in pain. Your brain will equalize. Stay away from breaking bad and shows like that. They're triggers. I can barely have spoons in the house because it's an H trigger. You gotta just change it all up.
Think of it this way: this may just be your life's purpose. Everything you did, everytime you ever prayed since you were little, everytime you wished being a superhero when you were young, this is it. Your life's purpose may just be in front of you. This might be what you will be remembered for. Do it. Sacrifice your every being for it. You'll know later on.
You look real good bruu.
I’m so glad to see an update!!!! Congrats on staying clean so far. Keep it up. Keep it up man. It’s tough. Not easy. But neccesary
You are somebody, don’t ever forget that! You are pretty amazing letting people know about your struggles, and forget the haters, saying you look high. It looks like you are having a hard time sitting still, that doesn’t make you high, my guess you get a little nervous when making a video. JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE SOMEBODY AND YOU MATTER!! Derek and yourself are doing something amazing to help others in the process of their recovery.
Hang in there and wishing nothing but the best for you and thank you for showing your true struggle through this journey of yours. Have you ever thought of trying a very low dose of Suboxone to get you through these tough times? Stay well, stay strong.
You are looking so much healthier, but I absolutely know it is more of a mind-fuck at this point. Keep posting, with total transparency & total honesty. Will help hold you accountable, & you can gain strength from us. Just down dosed my fenty to 37.5mcr/72 hours. Ohh myyy gods! I ache, headaches, hot/cold flashes….all the sorts.
I am INCREDIBLY proud of you for noticing your trigger. I truly believe in you buddy. Give yourself time to heal.
These are great diary journals to look back on and to express yourself I know that feeling all to well I can’t watch Basketball Diaries because of that reason! I had a bad issue back in the the early 2000 with Xanax! And I didn’t know that you can’t just stop taking them on your own you need medical attention for sure! It is A year later so just wondering how ur doing and feeling! My husband will be clean from methadone 2 years and its been had it’s emotional up’s and down but you learn how to deal with it and having family support helps!
I Am So Proud Of You ,I'm Still Praying For You ,Brother It Takes Faith ,God Bless You
I'm just stopping by again to tell you.. you are a beautiful soul ❤ you are a absolute inspiration to others just by telling your story for someone else to learn from... I'm still practicing how to feed the good wolf everyday man, thanks for that Derek, l'll never forget that saying. I'm now 34 days clean off pressed fet. One last thing man You are a strong fucking person no matter what negativity trys to throw you off.. youre going kick this things ass you won't even be able to find that bad wolf if you tried.. and I'll be here to support you until you reach that. Love 💜
Stay strong man and well done. You helped me a lot going through heroin withdrawal and one month ckean.
It's obvious you are a good person and mentally strong. You're helping other people. I hope this helps you. Peace xx
Don’t feel bad. I started watching that movie yesterday and I had to turn it fast. Same thing happened to me. You were wise to turn it.♥️
It takes serious balls to share this. You are doing great dude....Hang in there
You give me Hope, strength and Faith. Please keep moving forward brother. You're a savior, even if you don't even realize it. Live you homie and I neva even met ya lol. 🙂👊🏽💪🏽❤💯🙌🏽🙏🏽🔥✌🏾🎉🎊🫀🔥💙😁😇🙆♂️🙆🏿♂️
Thank you for sharing I’m struggling too and I hope your doing better a year on
Stay strong!
God is always with you ❤
How’s he doing now ? I’m going on seven months clean and it feels freaking amazing you just gotta put the time and I promise it gets so much better can’t believe I can say that now! Anybody going through it be strong but the time and that’s all it takes
I can relate to you so much man, that's crazy....
I just dropped the suboxone 9 days ago. I'm pretty much over the extremely intense withdrawl now. But now it's all the psychological bullshit. Nothing feels the same. No energy. But it will get better. And ya stay away from anything at all that triggers your mind and in your case that show wouldn't be good. Hang In there it will get better It takes time for your brain to heal. Your not alone either brother. Don't know if you ever saw money hiest its a good show. Kept my mind off alot
7 years off heroin. 7 days off my PRESCRIBED medications. Since my doctor retired and didn't feel the need to tell anyone with proper time. He currently has 200 patients in withdrawl. Including me. I found your videos somehow during my worst withdrawls and you got me through it. Thanks stranger.
That's what keeps me clean the thought of WD.😜👀🙏
Hope you're doing well man. Best of luck to you. Keep your daughter in mind!!
You can be happy without it! human body creates happinness! I was using and now I am not even thinking abou it! There is a porpose for you why you are here! You have come far! I respect you! Peace, love and harmony to you man!
You are doing amazing 👌🏻
Getting clean is easy. Staying clean is a real son of a birch. I graduated treatment and completely came off methadone on the 19th. Prior to that I was opiate free other than methadone for six months. Methadone saved my life.
don't stop man, just look back at yourself when you were sober, you can do it! I have been watching you for years I wish the best for you
Stay strong brother
You got this man. Having you time is good, but it's good to stay connected. It let's you know you're not alone✊ glad you're doing your best💪
I wish you all the best bro.
Any update on Owen culpepper?
Stay strong Man💪
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Keep updating Bro!!!💙💪🏽🙌🏽💯
Sorry bout your friend man. Condolences 😑❤🙏🏽
You got this!
U look like its a battle for u bro PLEASE STAY CLEAN MAN
So proud of u u are looking so well… yeah don’t watch that it’s a good series but don’t watch anything that can trigger u
You just need more clean time. Please believe you will get through it, it will get better. 🙏
Hell yea Zack!
You being on here just proofs you're winning bro you got this!
Way to go bro
I understand mate I bin feeling exactly the same . It on my mind all the time I even dream about it . Its fucking murder it is . Wish I never touch drug's EVER
Even smells can be triggers for heroin or opiates. Opiates do stop you from getting sick from colds and stuff they don't know why. I want send love out to all my sick cycle carousel bros and sisters. Its a hellish road we walk but we are the most courageous and strong. Love you all stay strong
I don't know how this guy does it. Hell, I still don't understand how rehab workers and councillors who are ex-addicts does it. For me, in order to stay clean is to not think about nor talk about my past with drugs. After 34 overdoses within just 3 years, being sent to rehabs across the country, screwing up and being homeless in those cities where I knew no one, sure I have tons of stories. I was even offered a job at a rehab in Tulsa OK... But I could never have a job like that, a job where I had to constantly think about and talk about my past with drugs. For me, in order to stay clean is to just not think about drugs period.
never done H or m, just maryjane, but crazy how it was breaking bad that made you tweak, i have anxiety about the world ending and when i was quitting weed i was going thru psychotic shit and netflix recommended me Leave the world behind, terrible mistake lol. but breaking bad man.. great show
Please keep it going I can tell it took a lot from you already
Don't watch things that might trigger the habbit.
Keep your head up! i would love to chat with you
❤️ 💪
As fare as tv to watch. Supernatural. 15 seasons there waiting for you. The best tv series ever made.👍
You look and talk so much better , I'm sure the mental part is not comfortable but keep talking out loud to others ,don't let it swirl around in your own mind !
The thought that the drugs helped you focus and had energy but you know it wasn't good ! It just made you stay in the cycle of get up do drugs ,go make or find money to get drugs and that's all your life consisted of , It's all about the reward , think of the lab rats experments ! You do not want to be a rat on a wheel ,Get pissed off and keep saying no ! Those thoughts and triggers will go away and you will regain your focus and energy ! You have a big heart and you deserve much better , just keep talking out loud to everyone ,you being honest about how you feel will set you free ,
You know going back is not what you want and it would be nothing good ,
If you can come on here and talk about it then you doing better than you think you are ! Stay connected ! ❤️
That’s right brother so am I still clean it will be a year this Feb 5th I’m super excited my G
I'm So Proud Of You.Ive Been There
Check out Down to Earth, I'm not a big Zac Efron fan. But it's a great message
I hope you’re still going! If the addiction got you to stumble, get back up and keep going!!!
How are you doing now? Hope we get an update soon. Stay strong.
Wonder how thos dude is doing...i felt for this dude. Hope all is well with him.
You are inspiring me thank you thank God stay in touch I see your pain in your eyes but I would wonder what is the specific reason you want to stop I have nobody either
Keep on trying go to people who want you to do better like n.a. and a.a. ill be prayinging for you
Boyyyyy look at u!!! Man you look better than last vid i saw Im proud of u bro and i dont know u Did u get ur daughter?
Please I need someone's help I need someone to talk to about what I'm going through I have no one Derek's videos have helped me immensely over the years
You're alright. It'll be OK I promise. Night 35 jumped off suboxone amd working in the freezing cold we got this. God bless
Rios is a very familiar last name to me. Your first name almost rings a bell. Almost. It is a small world. You good? Whats up witchya? I'm fightn too. Yall aint alone. Loneliness is a killer.
Keep hitting that gym!! Everyday like it's water U need to live. Like your life and brain depended on it...You already know: tough times don't last, tough people do.
Get in to your body to get out your brain..
How you doing buddy?
Still fighting the fight.
NETFLIX: if you like reality tv, without the drama, I just finished watching ALONE $1 million dollars!
How u doing brother?
You look sooo much more healthy or alive or radiant my dude. Agree with the show thing. Take the Bibles advice and meditate on the things that are good and beneficial and encouraging and build you up. Start talking about where you wanna see yourself in the future rather then speaking about how horrible your current situation is. Talking like that will keep you focused on where you're going and what you need to do and what to avoid.
Thay say it only take 2 weeks which is ballshit mate. Bin 4 weeks now for me I feel like crying etc . Fucking hate opioid it just fuck your life up in every way . Just can't see a way out . We got to do it tho bro . I with you bro x
Zak, COME ON MATE YOU DO NOT LOOK CLEAN. YOU CANT FOOL US. PLEASE I PRAY YOUR DOING WELL 🙏.
Kind of look like your high while making this video to be honest. I relapsed and had a couple of months streak. If you did relapse bro don’t even sweat it. Just stop, take a deep breath and get your 24 hour chip. Then it will be a 72 and a week. Don’t actually have to go to N A . You know your achievements. Think positive and remind yourself of the reasons why you wanted to stop. Why you took on the monumental task, the journey, of peace and clarity. We’re together in this. Your not alone
Triggers stay away from them shows like that old dope buddies keep away and stay the course brother
Love from israel...stay healthy and safe from that shit....
I did one year of coc,mdma,catamin...i stopped a second before it went down the hill totally...be safe and strong mannn...
October it will bee 5y sober
Wish I was in Israel. The safest place on the planet, for real. God's chosen, truly. The Holy Bible proves it, and everything else. Love to you all. ❤️
Yes you do look way better. Lol i thought i was the only 1 that couldn't watch certain tv shows coz it would start making me feel anxious and antsy. You need to talk to somebody else like a drug counselling thing or something. You can even do it online coz u seem to be isolating and staying in your head. This then makes u depressed and anxious and bored which deffo make ya relapse to feel better. Then if u do that you dont enjoy it coz u feel guilty and worthless, oh lord its bloody torture.
Feed the dog, not the wolf (39:38 in video below). Watch positive videos/shows rather than negative videos/shows. And, be careful to not justify watching negative videos/shows as being more helpful than the positive videos/shows. I can tell you are a beautiful soul with much more dog than wolf in you to feed. You got this!
th-cam.com/video/uLDz7emCnZI/w-d-xo.html
You gotta get out move. Be in the sun. I know everyone says exercise and people think it's bullshit but from day one I forced myself to take walks and the withdrawal process ended up being alot easier like way easier I had the normal but for some reason it wasn't that bad and all that was coming off of 300mg oxy a day. Then by day 5 or 6 I was in the gym with very few symptoms. All of the sun and exercise will also help your brain bounce back. Paws was tough but nothing that can't be pushed through with a little will power.
You gotta push. Think of it like a door your trying to push open and focus.
this man is high while making this video.. While claiming how well hes doing . Sad .
Holy shit in a years time you have aged
What is so hard about this shit to quit? U said pain pills is harder so meth not must be worse U CAN DO IT
Like a dog returns to his vomit addicts go back to using... ive been clean 2 monthsnand itsnthe best 2 months of my life i couldnt fathem like could benthis good and money can buikd back so fast its inceredible thank you jesus
How you holding up bro?? Good or Bad, keep ya head up Man! I want to see you win!👊🏽🙏🏽💯🦾