Teriffic story. Congratulations on being such a good person. The younger generation has no idea the difficulties you went through. Life today is so much easier for them today. You are a credit to your generation ! God live you.......👍💙
Thank you for sharing your amazing story, Sir. 🙂😍 It has touched me, so deeply.... and I am in awe of your courage, wisdom and integrity. You are a true Gentleman, Sir.... most assuredly. ❣
Very interesting story. Thanks. I am gay, medically proven. I was married to my accepting wife for 51 years before she passed. I cared for her with MS for 26years. She couldn't ambulate (stand or walk) for the last 15 years. As she was nearing the end, I thanked her for accepting me as her gay husband and she said "Of course. That was easy. Why wouldn't I?" Very few wives in a mixed orientation marriage of 51 years would say that. We had a son and a daughter, both accepting, and I have 4 grandsons. I am not sexually active with anyone. Too old now. But I sure notice some very beautiful guys esp since my wife passed in 2022. All the best.
@@Robert-vf6ny During electronic shock therapy they put me in a booth and placed wires on my private parts that measured temperature changes. They showed me about 1000 pictures of men and a 1000 pictures of women over about 10 days. When my body temperature rose when I saw the guys, they delivered high voltages of electricity through other wires that were attached to punish me for being gay. It was horrific. But the machine never recorded anything when I saw all those pictures of nude women. There isn't anything anyone can do to influence the outcome of those tests. It PROVED I am 100% gay. I went through 13 years of reparative therapy. I loved my wife as a person, but I was never physically attracted to her. I never told her that but it was true. Its sad that I spent 51 years pretending to be someone I was not. The Baptist Church has a lot to answer for. I was a Baptist Pastor and Missionary for several years before I resigned. They have since told me I am not welcome to even attend church because I am gay. I sure wish I had known that as a young teenager. How different my life would have been.
@@Robert-vf6nynot necessarily. He would know if he’s gay or bi better than anyone else. He’s a gay man who loves women but isn’t attracted to them sexually. He just wanted children and a family through natural means but was always attracted to men. He sounds like a wonderful caring man, God bless him.
@@seviregis7441 people lie to themselves and pigeonhole themselves. As much as I want to be "gay", my orientation is bi. I'm 80% gay 20% straight. It's not always black or white. This dude is probably the same as me.
This was one of the best " Gay" stories Ive seen. Maybe because I related with the self worth part. Also, those masks were fabtastic and the part about moving for plants..haha!
Lord have mercy on us. So many stories so much the same. Now I’m 79 . I loved my wife of 46 years, until she died. I had one boy friend since she died, and that was enough. I am happy/resigned to a single life until I die. Life is good.
But there are also many men who found their love after a hetero marriage. I know of many such couples myself who've been together for over 30 years. So there's that too...
Beautiful story. One day I said to myself the best way to live a gay life is alone. We already have a complicated life, we need to enjoy and live our best life Proud of you
I am almost 70 and not a day passes that I don't regret with all my heart the decision at 14 to allow myself to be seduced by a middle-aged man in a public toilet. I knew that whatever future I had envisioned was over so I put it out of my mind - or tried to. I had many pretty girls interested in me but I just felt that I was spoiled goods so I'd sabotage the relationship. I had no interest in aggressively pursuing men either and didn't know how to anyway. I joined the military and learned quickly that male sex with every branch was available. But I couldn't be aggressive so I became a bottom for whomever wanted me. I later "married" two handsome men but other than sex I couldn't figure out what I needed another man for. I was a lousy gay partner. I tried my best with the gay community and lifestyle but deep down it just wasn't me. So I shut down for nearly 30 years and drank and did drugs and masterbated. At 60 I came back to God and for the first time in many many years I am truly at peace. I can't even imagine today what that gay stuff was all about.
I’m so sorry to hear about your rough life but none of this is gay stuff. Everything you described sounds very much like rape and torture that happens to gay and straight victims. That’s no gay stuff. That’s a deeply disturbing trail of abusive behavior that scars people for life. Glad you were able to find your peace.
Thanks but I wasn't raped. I believe I said what I meant; I was 14, sexually naive and curious. The subsequent low esteem put me in a spiral of sleazy bars, backrooms, bathhouses and glory holes. As with my drug abuse, I was trapped and saw no way out. It was allll gay stuff. I look at guys today and don't recognize the me that was. And I don't want to. I had two 7-year gay "marriages" with handsome virile men who proposed to ME. You might even say we were "power couples" with lots of dinner parties, travel etc. Never any issues with "homophobes" in the neighborhood either. I even introduced them to my mother. Their families accepted me too but something about it seemed off. I am grateful I didn't marry or father children that I might have had to confess to. Likewise I never felt a need to "come out" unless by coming out I admitted I was really a closet heterosexual. I have seen them come and go through infidelity, AIDS and otherwise. Regardless of what cute 27 year olds say or however "easier" its supposed to be today, big gay weddings etc are a form of make believe: you and me against the world stuff. Peace to you but I know alll about gay stuff.
I'm sorry, but that is RAPE. It doesn't matter how you put it. It doesn't matter if you were curious. Who's not curious at that age? Everybody is! When you have a "middle-aged" man who does whatever to a 14 year old, that is NOT 'gay stuff', that's abuse! I'm not saying you haven't experienced the gay life. I'm not saying that at all! I'm saying abusing a kid is not 'gay stuff'. That's just being a 'pedophile'.
@@lgbtqarchivesThis might trigger you but you sound very "young." I could be witchy and "read your chicken butte for filth," but that's not my intention. If you DID survive Stonewall, Harvey, Sylvester, etc then let's talk. Otherwise PUHLEEZE stop putting words into my mouth. Nowadays, Kevin Spacey gets sued for feeling up some guy in a GAY BAR! I was NOT "abused" okay? I wandered into a public toilet, some "coach figure" was there jerking off. I had never even done that! I was FASCINATED never having seen a big male Jackson. I felt used because I WENT BACK looking for "coach" the next day. To no avail. Only NOW I knew how to get around my insecurities with girls. I could assuage my pubescent hormones with MEN - not my peers, mind you, but AUTHORITY figures. And they'd buy ME a Big Mac. I regret it. And young impressionable boys STILL can ALWAYS depend on a "daddy" somewhere. Be for real.
At this point, I'm not sure what you're trying to say. You're both defending and blaming the guy who started it all. I'll let you be. Glad you're happy now. That's it for me. Have fun.
Growing up, 𝗧𝗲𝗿𝗿𝘆 𝗕𝗲𝗲𝗯𝗲 (Beekman Terhune Beebe) grappled and struggled with his sexual identity in a straight world that often seemed unaccepting.
"seemed" my foot!! It WAS! I was there. I grew up in that culture! It was a heteronormative, patriarchal nightmare.
Love is love.
Great story. I loved how he took responsibility for past transgressions. Free your soul🙏
Thanks a lot for checking out the story. If you ever visit Los Angeles, and wanted to share your story, let me know.
Teriffic story. Congratulations on being such a good person. The younger generation has no idea the difficulties you went through. Life today is so much easier for them today. You are a credit to your generation ! God live you.......👍💙
Wow, A lot of happiness but a lot of sadness. The inscription in the Book is so sweet,
made me very emotional. I hope you are ok.
Jeff
Thank you for sharing your amazing story, Sir. 🙂😍 It has touched me, so deeply.... and I am in awe of your courage, wisdom and integrity. You are a true Gentleman, Sir.... most assuredly. ❣
Touching and lovely. Thank you. You are enough.
I cried ... what a fantastic story ...
Much respect❤ Thank you …for sharing your story. ;)
Thank you.
Thank you so much for sharing your touching life story so bravely. You ARE enough. X
Very interesting story. Thanks. I am gay, medically proven. I was married to my accepting wife for 51 years before she passed. I cared for her with MS for 26years. She couldn't ambulate (stand or walk) for the last 15 years. As she was nearing the end, I thanked her for accepting me as her gay husband and she said "Of course. That was easy. Why wouldn't I?" Very few wives in a mixed orientation marriage of 51 years would say that. We had a son and a daughter, both accepting, and I have 4 grandsons. I am not sexually active with anyone. Too old now. But I sure notice some very beautiful guys esp since my wife passed in 2022. All the best.
You are bisexual, not homosexual. I am homosexual, you have no right to say you are "gay", you're bi. Bi is not 50/50.
@@Robert-vf6ny During electronic shock therapy they put me in a booth and placed wires on my private parts that measured temperature changes. They showed me about 1000 pictures of men and a 1000 pictures of women over about 10 days. When my body temperature rose when I saw the guys, they delivered high voltages of electricity through other wires that were attached to punish me for being gay. It was horrific. But the machine never recorded anything when I saw all those pictures of nude women. There isn't anything anyone can do to influence the outcome of those tests. It PROVED I am 100% gay. I went through 13 years of reparative therapy.
I loved my wife as a person, but I was never physically attracted to her. I never told her that but it was true. Its sad that I spent 51 years pretending to be someone I was not. The Baptist Church has a lot to answer for. I was a Baptist Pastor and Missionary for several years before I resigned. They have since told me I am not welcome to even attend church because I am gay. I sure wish I had known that as a young teenager. How different my life would have been.
@@Robert-vf6nynot necessarily. He would know if he’s gay or bi better than anyone else. He’s a gay man who loves women but isn’t attracted to them sexually. He just wanted children and a family through natural means but was always attracted to men. He sounds like a wonderful caring man, God bless him.
@@seviregis7441 people lie to themselves and pigeonhole themselves. As much as I want to be "gay", my orientation is bi. I'm 80% gay 20% straight. It's not always black or white. This dude is probably the same as me.
Best wishes
This was one of the best " Gay" stories Ive seen. Maybe because I related with the self worth part. Also, those masks were fabtastic and the part about moving for plants..haha!
Thank you for sharing
Absolutely beautiful testimony of love and perseverance...
Loving this! You are very inspiring. Thank you for sharing. 😊
Sad but beautiful story 😊 Thanks for sharing 💜🌈💜
Thanks for supporting Terry.
Lord have mercy on us. So many stories so much the same. Now I’m 79 . I loved my wife of 46 years, until she died. I had one boy friend since she died, and that was enough. I am happy/resigned to a single life until I die. Life is good.
But there are also many men who found their love after a hetero marriage. I know of many such couples myself who've been together for over 30 years. So there's that too...
I love this channel
You're so kind. Thank you very much!
I appreciate this more than i can say.❣
Beautiful story.
One day I said to myself the best way to live a gay life is alone.
We already have a complicated life, we need to enjoy and live our best life
Proud of you
That was a nice message.
My three year affair with the piano player sealed the deal for me! It was the best sex of my life, and never looked back! 🎉
How did you guys meet?
I am almost 70 and not a day passes that I don't regret with all my heart the decision at 14 to allow myself to be seduced by a middle-aged man in a public toilet. I knew that whatever future I had envisioned was over so I put it out of my mind - or tried to. I had many pretty girls interested in me but I just felt that I was spoiled goods so I'd sabotage the relationship. I had no interest in aggressively pursuing men either and didn't know how to anyway. I joined the military and learned quickly that male sex with every branch was available. But I couldn't be aggressive so I became a bottom for whomever wanted me. I later "married" two handsome men but other than sex I couldn't figure out what I needed another man for. I was a lousy gay partner. I tried my best with the gay community and lifestyle but deep down it just wasn't me. So I shut down for nearly 30 years and drank and did drugs and masterbated. At 60 I came back to God and for the first time in many many years I am truly at peace. I can't even imagine today what that gay stuff was all about.
I’m so sorry to hear about your rough life but none of this is gay stuff. Everything you described sounds very much like rape and torture that happens to gay and straight victims. That’s no gay stuff. That’s a deeply disturbing trail of abusive behavior that scars people for life. Glad you were able to find your peace.
Thanks but I wasn't raped. I believe I said what I meant; I was 14, sexually naive and curious. The subsequent low esteem put me in a spiral of sleazy bars, backrooms, bathhouses and glory holes. As with my drug abuse, I was trapped and saw no way out. It was allll gay stuff. I look at guys today and don't recognize the me that was. And I don't want to. I had two 7-year gay "marriages" with handsome virile men who proposed to ME. You might even say we were "power couples" with lots of dinner parties, travel etc. Never any issues with "homophobes" in the neighborhood either. I even introduced them to my mother. Their families accepted me too but something about it seemed off. I am grateful I didn't marry or father children that I might have had to confess to. Likewise I never felt a need to "come out" unless by coming out I admitted I was really a closet heterosexual. I have seen them come and go through infidelity, AIDS and otherwise. Regardless of what cute 27 year olds say or however "easier" its supposed to be today, big gay weddings etc are a form of make believe: you and me against the world stuff. Peace to you but I know alll about gay stuff.
I'm sorry, but that is RAPE. It doesn't matter how you put it. It doesn't matter if you were curious. Who's not curious at that age? Everybody is! When you have a "middle-aged" man who does whatever to a 14 year old, that is NOT 'gay stuff', that's abuse! I'm not saying you haven't experienced the gay life. I'm not saying that at all! I'm saying abusing a kid is not 'gay stuff'. That's just being a 'pedophile'.
@@lgbtqarchivesThis might trigger you but you sound very "young." I could be witchy and "read your chicken butte for filth," but that's not my intention. If you DID survive Stonewall, Harvey, Sylvester, etc then let's talk. Otherwise PUHLEEZE stop putting words into my mouth. Nowadays, Kevin Spacey gets sued for feeling up some guy in a GAY BAR! I was NOT "abused" okay? I wandered into a public toilet, some "coach figure" was there jerking off. I had never even done that! I was FASCINATED never having seen a big male Jackson. I felt used because I WENT BACK looking for "coach" the next day. To no avail. Only NOW I knew how to get around my insecurities with girls. I could assuage my pubescent hormones with MEN - not my peers, mind you, but AUTHORITY figures. And they'd buy ME a Big Mac. I regret it. And young impressionable boys STILL can ALWAYS depend on a "daddy" somewhere. Be for real.
At this point, I'm not sure what you're trying to say. You're both defending and blaming the guy who started it all. I'll let you be. Glad you're happy now. That's it for me. Have fun.
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