A Day in My Life as a Psych Ward Hospital Patient | VLOG
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- I'm currently an inpatient in a psych ward of the hospital and I decided to document a day in my life while here.
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are you in a proper psych ward?
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@@LEGIOUSIAM8888 concidering religon killed jesus, the roman did their part. they were strong armed by rabis. are they guilty? sure. the rabis are con men who use religion to get what they want in life. nothing more nothing less. are they guilty? you bet. the mindless drones gave power to these rabis to kill jesus, people like you. she doesnt need to pray this away.
Please look into the work of Jerry Marzinski here on TH-cam. He was a state prison psychologist and has ground breaking work on schizophrenia and many have been cured as a result. I highly recommend!
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I was in psych lock down 2 weeks ago: no phone or computer, no fresh air, no sunshine, no therapy offered, I felt like I came out worse than I went in, and I was suicidal. Things MUST change. Our society is failing us.
YES YES YES
Yes I was wondering how she had a phone. When I was in one you couldn't have a cell and the phones on the wall were like a privilege. They almost killed me in there. They refused to give me my prescriptions and put me on theirs. I have 3 heart conditions and a list of other health issues and I got really sick and my pulse shot up to almost 300 a doc was called just on the phone and he told the lady to give me ginger ale and I'd be fine. My husband had to fight to get me released.
I was in one in 2012 and it’s absolutely heartbreaking that your experience from a few weeks ago and what I’m seeing in this video is still the standard. You and Lauren and everyone deserves better ❤ I’m so sorry.
I feel such solidarity with so many people responding to this. It is SO DAMNED LONELY!
A nice nurse gave me a Game of Thrones book, some dude was hogging up the public t.v.
It is shocking how different psych wards around the world are. I'm in Germany and here you are not supposed to be all alone in your room. You get a routine to follow. And this routine contains the gym, group therapy, single therapy, arts, meditation and other activities. There is a lot of talking between patients and the staff. Its like a controlled holiday.
yes everyone wants to get out of the USA for this reason
In Mars We do group dance
In the US they are more like prisons. This one in the video she is at seems on the nice end.
Don’t get me wrong things have improved a lot over the past century but we have a longggg way to go.
And unlike the other commenter I do not want to leave the US! I love this country and there are so many unique things here that you will find no where else in the world.
Instead of leaving I want to embrace its faults, like its mental health care, and reform it into something better. We need to work to renew our country not abandon it.
That is amazing, the US needs to follow suite
So is it fun over there
To Rob…I remember first hand the feeling of visiting my wife in the psych ward and then going home to two young kids. In a couple of weeks, we celebrate 48 years. Hang tough, man. She’s an impressive lady.
🎉 you are an amazing woman and I have so much respect for you. Rob is great and I love the understanding between you. I hope you get to feeling better and go home as soon as possible.🎉
@@smiller6925 completely weird reply to comment ....
@@J-_-SWell it takes one to know one I guess?
@@KatieM786 Random comment
@@rcp2212. This right here! My husband did the same for me. We are nearly 40 years married. He’s made my life unbelievabley safe, secure and loving. I always knew there were more men in this world like my Ronnie and today I have just met another one, you! Walk tall, you deserve to. ❤
Being able to have a phone and vlog in a psych unit is an absolute privilege
Also highly against Hippa regulations
This could be a higher end private hospital who knows
I don't know l was recently hospitalized. I had a phone. I have to pay almost 5,000 for my deductible. Healthcare is a luxury..
I feel like they wouldn't even allow living assistance stuff like hearing-aids just to have the excuse to punish you for disobeying when you obviously can't hear them. Middle school did that enough when I WAS wearing them and that's being a Brit.
I understand I would have no control. I could daydream about dragons and they'd punish me for that, but also punish for having a blank mind.
@@Venomaciousinnataimint As would be making a video... she's a scammer, but likely a very successful one.
I've been in a psych ward over ten times during my 39 years of life. I'm haven't been in a psych ward since April of 2007. Which is awesome and I'm so proud of myself for that.
you should be, well done!
Should be proud*, not should be in a psych ward lol whoops
Good job sis.😀
Glad sis
Excellent! Congratulations. Prayers for continued wellness! 😊😊🙏🙏
She's so full of life and very articulate. Schizophrenia is such a cruel disease. I wish her nothing but the best.😊
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Yep, my uncle is schizophrenic but won’t get help & we can’t force him because “he’s not a threat to himself or others” so he’s homeless. It’s very sad. I haven’t seen him in 10+ years.
I’ve had a mental breakdown and have PTSD, severe depression and anxiety. I went through a stay at a psych ward. I am a recluse I feel safe in my home. Praying for us who suffer from mental illness and pray for people to understand us. God Bless all.
As someone who deals with these same things, and how I've only had to visit a family member in a ward. My heart goes out to you, we all deserve better support.
You take care as much as one can with a mental illness... it is a cunt of an illness sorry for the description ... takes away every single pleasure life has for you to enjoy. Ok when hypomanic but then the depression when you crash is terrible . I am hoping medical science can manage an injection to regulate the emotions and fluctuations we have to experience.. I pray every day that I can be normal..... love leanne
Change your diet and you will see the healing take place.. try carnivore. We were not mean to live this way, there is hope.
God bless you too. Much love.
God bless you.❤
Why are these places so incredibly bright with fluorescent lighting it just makes you on edge
Yes… having SLE lupus I can’t be under those lights at all. I looked like aim having a panic attack after 1” minutes under the lights. 😅
@@elizabethrodgers8616Hi, what is SLE?
Neurotypical people have no awareness of how horrible they are
@@rachelcoisnacoillte6023 Resident Doctor here, it stands for Systemic lupus erythematosus which is the most common form of Lupus, patients with Lupus can have a range of mild to moderate photosensitivity (Being sensitive to UV light) hope this helps.
@@elizabethrodgers8616I wouldn't be able to be in those light because I have seizures
Thank you Rob for being supportive, selfless, understanding and caring with Lauren
when i was in a ward i couldn’t have nothing
@@kellsliving3220 my brothers was diagnosed with chronic paranoid schizophrenia, he was always in a lockdown unit, was always very sad and depressing place to visit. I understand that everyone is different but couldn’t they have a bit of paint color on the walls, or have books or just something for other to occupy the day.
@@Rae-lh7ex i believe for the most part they don’t want it to be an overly stimulating environment because they are trying to evoke calmness and certain bright colours etc can do the opposite of that. I know it’s a bit depressing, but it’s usually the better alternative than being overstimulated and feeling overwhelmed so I think that’s why things are kept fairly bland.
Also the staff has a lot of responsibilities in keeping patients alive and not kill themselves or hurt others in the ward. The staff could get into serious trouble if a patient were to have certain things then used them to hurt/kill themselves or other people. The way I look at it, it’s also about preventing worse case scenarios (death, severe injury leading to serious physical disability possibly). I wish people would stop and try to look at things from the staff perspective sometimes. They have a really tough, often traumatic and frustrating job. (This doesn’t excuse staff being rude or overzealous with restrictions etc)
From my experience in life and through many stories, it's a lot easier for females to find a partner especially having a more atypical illness than men. I may get some blowback, but women want to feel secure and men want to secure. If a woman is more vulnerable it's easier for men to want to be with them and support them. Not so much the other way around
How difficult and painful it is to live with mental disorders. Those who do not have them will never understand what hell it is.
Yes.
Not just mental, it's mostly trauma related
I have schizoaffective disorder as well as PTSD I am here for you
@@josephcole6367 Stick it!
I know how sad it's to have mental health. 😕
This is destroying me! For the last 3 years my 62 year old husband of 35 years had a psychotic break. It reached a point where he is committed by the state. He was starving himself. I know he’s sitting there everyday, just sitting. Keep running little girl, keep fighting, the people who love you need you to fight.
I am in a TH-cam rabbit hole right now. I do not experience anything remotely like what you are living with. I admire the hell out of how you have chosen to beautify and help our world. You are a strong and courageous woman.
Thank you.
These women, some of whom I've known and befriended. Are fucking amazingly tough and strong. U cannot even begin to imagine what many have experienced. You can do this hun. It was super brave of u to post this. I can only imagine how many people you might be helping. You are awesome. You got this❤
this is a freaking 5 star hotel.....the place I went...you can not go outside.... cant have phones, cant talk to the other sex, also we could not even be alone any where....wow. I know this is a year old, but you are a strong person and a beautiful soul.
My mom was in psych wards multiple times. The last time, I warned the nurses that she was lying and just putting on a face of someone that was “fine” and was there for no reason. I told them to not listen to anything she was saying and the nurses said that they would tell the doctors. She was out and back home two day later.. Exactly ONE week later, she committed suicide!
My mom was always the person that everyone wanted to be around. She was beautiful, kind, intelligent, and the life of the party. NO ONE expected her to do what she did EXCEPT her kids. My brothers and I seen this side of her every day. It was very hard listening to the side that everyone else got because she had been saying for five years that this was what she was going to do😢
Miss you mom❤
Didn’t mean to put *was there for no reason..
She obviously WAS there for a reason! What I was telling them was to NOT just let her out again, because that’s all they did was let her out because she was playing them trying to act like she was fine when she was far from it..😢
Im so sorry for you. Id like to say loads but who knows who is reading this. I pray for u and your mum ❤
That is horrible 😢 i am so sorry
I am so sorry. ♥️
So sry to hear u loss your mom sad
This was both hard to watch and incredible to watch. My extreme admiration goes out to you for documenting something so difficult. People casually talk of "mental health" as this amorphous concept. Your bravery in putting yourself out there and attaching a face to a facet of it is extraordinary. There are so many different struggles people go through. It's painful seeing someone having to live like that on a daily basis. I hope you realize just how much of a good you're doing by showing everyone that you can put one foot in front of the other, and that there is no stigma, only a struggle that people have to face down regularly, which takes a lot of strength. Thank you so much for what you show us all.
Couldn’t have said things better myself ❤
Really? That was hard to read since it is full of something else.
I wonder : #1 How did she get permission to film this??
I applaud both Lauren and Rob for the incredible work they do in creating awareness, dispelling myths, and offering such valuable insights as they allow us to walk a bit with them on their journey together. I can only imagine the documentation must feel burdensome at times. Thank you for taking the time, putting in the effort and having willingness to share! I know I am not alone in this. The positive impact of your work cannot be measured. I am so thankful. ❤ You are such beautiful humans
@@junemoonchild69, Maybe she gave herself permission because the positive impact of this video is immeasurable. There was no breach in privacy to anyone. The work she and Rob are doing is fearless, groundbreaking and deserves only praise.
You are very articulate. Intelligent. And caring person. I wish you well. In this journey we call life.
It always shocks me how different psych wards can be in different places. I was admitted to a psychiatric institution involuntarily and was there for 2 weeks. I had a roommate, we weren't allowed outside of our room from 9pm-7am and weren't allowed back in our room from 7am-7pm. Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner was mandatory and we all had to be present in the cafeteria, no one was allowed to stay back. We had to attend group sessions to talk about battling mental illness and coping mechanisms. It wasn't very effective. We had a TV in the common area, but they wouldn't turn it on unless it was to watch a movie. I spent all of my free time reading and coloring. We weren't allowed to go outside and only had one window in the whole ward. It literally felt like prison.
This sounds a lot like the hospital I went to, here in upstate NY.
This sounds like the one I went to in tx but I have to add all of our toiletries could not be kept in our room we had to check them in and out
sounds like the one i went to in AZ. though, the hospital had skylights and windows in each room, the nurses were chill and let us go outside when it was storming one time. now that i realize it, i feel very lucky to have gone to one that was a lot more open and free compared to other wards.
Crazy, exactly like the one I went to here in MS. This is a problem all over the country apparently.
This literally sounds exactly like mine, except they would let us out in the blistering heat on a concrete patio to do nothing but sit in the sun. No way to play games, no balls or anything, just the heat and bugs. Absolutely sucked. 11 days felt like a year. It was so traumatic, i don’t even remember much about it. I’ve blocked it out. Felt even more suicidal than before
When I’m in psychosis I’m very sensitive to sounds like slamming doors, people talking around me, people laughing and being happy. I get irritable and suspicious. I tend to revolt against my husband and put all of my ire on him, blame him, and become suspicious of him. It’s nice to see you with Rob and being able to smile and talk about what’s happening. You are very self-aware and seem to understand your illness well, which is more than most of us can say. I hope you can get out soon. We are all rooting for you!
Sounds just like me. I get very jumpy and notice every single sound. The loud sounds can be agonizing and quite unnerving.
In general people are damn anoying. Im not mentally ill, atleast not yet unless my patience runs out and someone bones start breaking left and right
I had trouble with even the sounds of my roomba and told my bf to turn it off
@@J-_-S When you’re in psychosis you are very acutely aware of everything going on around you. It feels like everyone is staring at you, or talking about you, laughing at you, or doing things intentionally to trigger you. Being in a crowded space is like sensory overload. I used to go to brunch every Sunday with my husband, and one time I was in the early throes of psychosis, we sat down to eat and I had to get up and walk out because I couldn’t stand the sounds of chatter all around me and clinking utensils on plates and noise coming from the kitchen. I had to walk out into the parking lot for a few minutes where there were no people and it was quiet. It’s one of the early signs that I’m slipping into psychosis
@@janiegetyourgunthat’s how I noticed I recently slipped back into psychosis. I was in a restaurant too and the noise was deafening. I’m so sorry, but please know you are not alone.
As a teen I was placed in an involuntary hold, there was some effed up things that I personally recall and witnessed that I was too young to morally realize. It was a traumatic experience in itself but actually ended up having some very real and genuine conversations with some of the other patients. Hope they’re all doing well today.
I've been in a number of psyche hospital units. I learned to actually enjoy the other patients because they talked straight talk about their problems and lives, not defenses, no walls, open vulnerable honesty.
That is fictional and used to lie about what some human slaves are forced to do.
You act and/or are tortured into appearing/sounding like youre acting like thats untrue?
I was involuntarily committed twice in my teens as well. Your comment resonated with me deeply. It’s been over 12 years now and I still remember the names and faces of some of them. The trauma I experienced at both facilities was pushed down until I finally started to process it. It truly affects your whole life. I hope you are in a better place these days. ❤️
@@CraigAnderson-h2h great way to put it. The “realness” was so refreshing and I think made all of us see true insanity was how society thinks wearing a mask is sane. I can’t explain to people who haven’t experienced it how that feels.
My dad, who is 71, suffered his first (we think) manic episode as a result of severe insomnia caused by nerve pain earlier this year. He was in several facilities over the course of several months. He’s home now but still not quite the same. I wish, so badly, that more people in the USA could produce this kind of content. Both because I know that when it comes to mental health and psychiatric care, the system here fails so many people so profoundly.
I also have to imagine that seeing this is an incredible comfort to many, many people. I’m watching this as my wonderful, amazing wife sleeps next time me and our two beautiful children are asleep in safe, cozy beds. I am so grateful for the vulnerability to share this. I have to believe you’ve made this with the hope of helping others and I just wanted to say that you have helped me.
Watching Rob walk away back to normal life outside was so sad, but honest.
@@TechWest200use relativity
Right
I felt like my heart broke for both of them, having been on both sides of that glass 💔
Unfortunately, sometimes, what is saddest, is when the person who has been in these places walks back outside and into normal life. ♡
Sad when I saw she had kids :(
Can I say that seeing how her partner supports her during this challenging time is more comforting than anything else? As a person who is severely mentally ill, seeing that there is still hope in finding a life-long partner that will accept me for who I am is more impactful than anything I could ever find on the internet.
Thank you, Lauren, for sharing your authentic self online. It really helps those who are struggling to feel seen and understood.
Your kidding me. Rob is no good.
Her partner is being supportive because he found an attractive mental patient that is way out of his league. If she didn't have these issues she wouldn't give him the time of day.
@@coolo39919totally agreed! She probably has borderline
@@coolo39919Women take way too much pride in their "problems".
@@coolo39919what a terrible thing to say when you don’t even personally know him. It says a huge thing about his character that he’s willing to visit her and be there for her.
Last week I went to the ER and someone was having a some sort of psychiatric break. She was clearly terrified and screaming. Seeing the way staff treated her was heartbreaking. I kept hearing her screaming “get off of me” and hearing the nurses giggling about “the pipes on that chick” and “it’s so and sos favorite patient”. It was very disheartening.
Oh gosh, that's so awful 😔 That poor poor woman. I'm in the UK, and I think a little better here (I could be wrong) but still a long way to go.
The medical staff who deal with psych patients day in and day out become numb to the constant barrage of issues that are presented to them. Humor, such as the vocal pipes on the lady, is a coping mechanism. It's the same throughout many many professions. That's how they survive.
I worked in this setting over a decade. You've no idea how much this goes on !!
I hate ER. Psych wards. They traumatized me so badly.
@@paladin1544 if this is their coping mechanism they shouldnt work in that field at all disheartening patiens cause you cant cope normal with a job YOU chose🤦🏾
And this… Is exactly why I don't wanna say anything about some of the thoughts I've been experiencing. If I'm gonna do something crazy or commit suicide, I'm just gonna do it without telling anybody. I couldn't even imagine what it's like having to be at a ward. I wish you the best in getting better and that you don't have to go back to a ward. And I love your positivity, despite what you're going through.
Until you've been in hospital for a length of time, you can't imagine how vital visitors are to healing! ❤️🙏💞
Yea, especialy during the COVID years.........i was in Hospitals for over 4 months straight, only had visitors
maybe five days out of that time. I was in Lock Down COVID Ward for 21 days, lots 40 lbs there. thats a whole
other story. Anyway YEA i get it not having visitors is bad, you end up Having to make freinds with the nurses
and orderlies, and other patients, or you go nuts.
@@cliffords2315 Wow, so glad you've made it out the other side! And I've had with health issues that I've learned to interact with them as fellow members on the same team with the same goal! They try to lighten my load, and I, theirs, as there is only one of me but they could have 20 people there juggling and are only human, too. The one bright spot in going back to physical rehab several years after the last time was how many remembered me fondly, made such a difference, most are neat people in different ways! Keep healing, friend. 🙏
In my case it wasnt very helpful. I was pretty pissed at the person who visited me, because they were the one that got me sent there. They did it out of genuine concern... but even so. Still, they did come every day and in a way I appreciated it.
That really depends on the person. If your family triggers your issues then having them visit is not helpful.
As a schizotypal person, I find this video instructive. I have similar delusions to Lauren, but somewhat differently. Lauren is on the cutting edge of mental health for us neurodivergent folks. I applaud her bravery!
How is this brave?
@@Faithlove-dk6vf I'm grateful you managed to come out on top!
@@Faithlove-dk6vf good for you ❤
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I was in the psych ward a few years ago. All I can say is that the patients helped and supported me way more than the drs.
Yes it is absolutely boring, Especially when you're in lock down as you're at risk of self harm.
But sometimes our minds need that quiet and stillness also, even if it feels forced.
I do agree however that we need to improve on mental health treatment 100%.
I think the only actual therapy they do for you is by accident… the staff are so hateful, you’re forced to band together with the other inmates, I mean patients, and build social bonds.
@felixoupopote I'm sorry that this has been your experience with staff. 😔 I was lucky I guess that the staff were friendly and respectful ect but they just seemed indifferent to me.
I just connected with the other patients more because of their life experiences. We were all just trying to put meaning to our individual suffering. Needless to say it was bitter-sweet knowing that I wasn't alone in this. We had eachothers backs.
@@felixoupopotethe therapy they accidentally gave me made me realize how much i missed and loved my family, and how much they loved me too
The quiet still needs to have a purpose though. And like I have ringing in my ears, I need stimulation because that alone can drive me nuts. I would bring way more activities with me if I went in again.
I have PTSD and depression so i spend time in the hospitals. I dont have anyone who comes to visit me and i feel alone but i have to remember im there for myself and only myself....but you have people who care for you ...also you are extremely beautiful and intelligent and you speak well....most of all your eyes... OMG your eyes are so beautiful and loving......
In Germany, usually psychiatric treatment is not aaaas boring. Our patients have more more appointments, such as occupational therapy, sports and outdoor activities, arts and crafts, psychoeducation groups, individual psychotherapy, music therapy, accupuncture, pmr or autogenic training. Not every patient necessarily has every treatment, though. it depends, eg, on the state the patient is in.
same in France
also in the USA
Sounds great! Ours are nothing like that! Hopefully they will improve
Wow sounds like a great service❤
@@wanya_telborn oh please American psychological hospital are horrific, they are like jails or worst.
I think this video is amazing. Lots of youtubers record hospital stays, and a stay at a mental hospital should be no different! Thank you for normalizing this.
It’s more of a privacy issue. I see that she tried to not get anyone’s faces in the video or identifying info.
I voluntarily went to the ward after an attempt and it was miserable. I went in to the ER at 1 or 2 am, was in a bed in the middle of the floor with 2 nurses on either side of the bed at all times, sat there for 4-5 hours until a bed was ready for me in the psychiatric ward. Didn’t get breakfast because my transition was right at breakfast time. So I get to the ward and settled in the room at 7 am, right when the first group call was. So I had to go out and sit in a cold room wearing a gown and listen to this group therapy. Afterwards I asked for a nap because I hadn’t slept at this point for 30+ hours. They just told me it was important for me to participate and I would get to go to sleep tonight.
At that point I wanted to “do” it for a completely different reason and contemplated going in the bathroom and doing a swan dive off of the toilet. We weren’t allowed any regular clothes, only grippy socks, no towels, couldn’t shut the door to the bathroom, our rooms were monitored 24/7 by a team of nurses on the cameras in the middle of the floor.
I understand the purpose and intent, but after experiencing that living hell for 4 days, I would never go back there. Meaning, if I felt I was in danger, I’d rather let whatever was going to happen, happen.
When I was having meetings with the doctors regarding my discharge, I started saying all the “right” things just so I could get out of there, even though I knew I didn’t feel much different. On the bright side, once I left I felt a sense of freedom and relief that boosted my mood for a day or so…
Same experience I had
That’s why I’m scared to get help. Idk what I have. I’ve had anxiety, depression, ptsd for years since I was a kid but I feel I’m going crazier every time. I don’t want to get locked up or treated like I’m crazy.
But I have paranoia of everyone watching me. Like my neighbors, people at the park, even driving and being at a stop light makes me panic so much I don’t move. I start clicking my fingers together idk why. Can’t sleep my brain won’t be quiet like it’s always thinking.
I get extremely angry all the time for no reason. And I’ll shake, get nauseous.
Sometimes I’ll daydream while driving and not notice how far I’ve driven. Or I’ll go outside some days and everything seems fake. Not real. Like I’m looking at a painting.
I started feeling body numbness for months and got a mri and I have nothing wrong with me and magically I stopped feeling that.
Also every few months I feel demon presence or I see shadow ppl. Idk if I’m actually crazy!! Omg.
It will take a lot of courage, but you need to do some research to try and find a really good psychiatrist. Join some forums online, and try and get some advice, listen to other people's experiences. Everyone's experience is different but I truly hope you will reach out for help. There are thousands of people who feel like you, you're definitely not alone but there is medication to help. Depression, psychosis, etc, a lot of the symptoms you describe, in very basic simple terms, cause your brainwaves to get out of whack. Its a "disease" that's NOT your fault. You need help getting the brainwaves back on track. Imagine if it just takes one pill to make all those awful symptoms to go away. Please take a leap of faith and try to get some help. I wish you success.
@@Suefromengland Thank you very much! There’s so many other symptoms I have that I didn’t write down but whenever I feel so bad where I can’t handle it anymore I make a doctors appointment for mental health, but then by the time my appointment comes up I feel so amazing and don’t need to see the doctor anymore. Like I’ll feel cured or something. I feel that way right now.
Everyone Jesus healed me from Bipolar disorder. Get a bible and ask God if He is real, to show you as you read His word.
When I was in my late 20s I admitted myself into a psych hospital for suicidal thoughts and because I was experiencing things in my life that I did not know how to handle.
At the time, the hospital was sort of a safe haven for me. At the time it’s what I needed for support of what I was going through.
Sometimes people just need that hospital for things they’re going through.
Wishing you the best.
Rob is so wonderful. His love for you runs deep. I hope you find yourself home soon!
He's attracted to her. Don't underestimate that when it comes to men. If she were 60 things wouldn't be l8ke this most likely. I've lived this with physical illness. My husband acted just like Rob until I got older, then he didn't care.
They're a great couple. I'm glad she has a good support team.
@@mygirldarby That is horrible ! I am 56 and my husband still seems to love me.
Was Rob kidding about the puzzles and foozball?
It’s not about Rob!
The fact that you have the will and energy to go for a run is amazing.
Hang in there Lauren, I'm thinking of you and sending out intention for your full recovery 💞
Wow, such a nice thing of you! ❤
Thank you for your support!
Never seen this done on TH-cam you're a great person💯
@@LivingWellAfterSchizophrenia - got tons of other support but you only thank the one who gave you money.
@@LivingWellAfterSchizophreniayou are freaking weird
My dad had a mental breakdown he's in a mental hospital and this is a big big help god bless
I have spent a lot of time visiting my mum in psychiatric units since I was 15 years old. It often felt like a scary place for me to go to but it’s so good to see normal people that I can relate to who are in similar positions that my mum was in
Wow, me too.
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My mother was a schizophrenic so I understand what you are talking about. Mentally ill people are very self centered so I know it was difficult for you as a child. I pretty much raised myself and I turned out to be ok and pretty successful. I had zero support from my mom and I spent a lot of time in psych wards too. She passed away and is with the Lord now. It gives me great comfort knowing she is in paradise now and is not suffering anymore.
One good thing is that the Psych ward allows you to be able to make TH-cam videos of your experiences, thoughts and feelings, sort of like having a video diary so you can get your thoughts and feelings out instead of all bottled up inside. You have a good supportive husband. I am glad that you recognize that he is important part of your recovery and that you thank him for being there for you even if you just had a fight off camera. Best of luck to you.
People in psych wards aren't allowed cellphones actually she is a joke . & all those pills are chemicals known to kill people !
I’m a bit alarmed by it,I have not watched this vid,it popped up in my suggested vids…how can we trust strangers to to offer good words to this lady?
@@leadbelly1495 This is not about what OTHER people think or feel.. this is about what SHE HERSELF doing the vlog feels! You can start off by WATCHING the video and then see. In that matter, watch not only this video from her but some of the OTHER videos she has documented from her own experiences as a person living with Schizophrenia.
This is actually concerning. Phones are taken for a reason, being able to vlog like this is a double edged sword. Sure, you can vent thoughts and emotions, you could also be in a terrible state and make videos you really shouldn't, and it raises real privacy concerns for other patients. Also, the window used a chain pull, very dangerous for a potentially suicidal or self harming patient, visitors can come in your room privately God knows what could be brought in or could happen with an unstable patient, and the sudden testing as she approaches the one week mark is concerning that reeks of gouging a patient for money in an effort to make them stay longer. She said that she didn't come in for self harm, that is irrelevant. In psychosis, at any time you can shift very quickly, and oh yeah, patients can't be trusted amongst each other that's an undeniable fact even wanting to be as trusting and humane as possible. They should know better than to actually hold religious service as well, even though it is a religious hospital, plenty of people would find that triggering (including myself) and may suddenly become more unstable. A lot about this hospital really bothers me, but at least she's doing well.
These same questions ran through my mind. Video documentation while in a secure psychiatric facility would seem to violate HIPAA laws. Oh well, she said that phones were permitted, and that she wasn't admitted for suicidal ideation or being a risk. It still seems rather unusual?!
I worked at a long term care psych facility. One thing that always bothered me was the lack of activities. I know for us, it was lack of resources and staff. I would bring in adult coloring books so the residents wouldn't have to color mickey mouse 🙄 it's def tough being high functioning in a psych unit. Thank you for being so open and honest ❤ I hope this does encourage others to seek help but also bring light that these facilities need more funding 🙏🏼
Instead of giving them more funding, they are shutting them down! This puts a lot of them on the streets as the homeless or in jail or in nursing homes, which are not qualified to properly care for them. Originally, the closings were to refer patients to outpatient facilities, but then they began closing those as well. Example: Eastern State Hospital in Oklahoma and their Muskogee outpatient clinic......both gone as well as more.
@@jeanbaker2087 oh I know. In Illinois, the facility I worked at was one of only a couple long term care facilities in the state. The state funded a program to get the patients back out into the community and learn the skills to live on their own. Which sounds great in theory, but they were taking people who could NOT live on their own. Many relapsed and had to come back to the facility. Shortly before I left, the state was trying to transition the facility into a short term rehab center. Rumor was they wanted to shut down all long term care facilities..... WHY!?
I had to leave, 1. Due to burn out 2. The facility and laws made it extremely difficult to care for these patients. It's truly horrible
I agree, we need to fight for an increase in resources
Amen! High functioning is the key word here. Don’t treat everyone like they are vegetable brains.
Do not forget that it's tough being low functioning as well. Just because you aren't able to communicate it doesn't mean you're happy to be there.
I spent December in the psych ward and it’s a rough place to be. Thank you for sharing these videos because they shed a light on things that people don’t like to talk about
I've been hospitalized 3 times and I can tell you the weekends are the worst. There's very little to do, I didn't like talking to anyone because they would want to talk about their problems and I had my own problems do deal with and it was overwhelming. Please, do yourself and those around you a favor. Never stop taking your medications no matter how good or bad you feel. I have a friend with schizophrenia and she stops taking her medication and goes absolutely haywire.
I can't stand when people trauma dump I never been in a psychs ward but I have worked with the general public and it wore me down hearing so many sob stories I'm like I'm not your therapist please give me your credit card and get out my face.
Good advice there sis. Good luck to u!
@@aubreywhite8008so caring and understanding you are
@@bxstar5276so caring and understandable are the people who just wont stop trauma dumping on someone who's already so mentally broken down when there are tons of specialists surrounding them and mentally available to talk to them.
@aubreywhite8008 what a heartless thing to say
You're so sweet take care of yourself and I'm happy you have Rob's support.
I am so glad that you are documenting this. You are helping so many people!
I find it difficult to believe anyone being allowed to film themselves in a psychiatric ward...the intent behind this video/filming does not seem right, at all. ♡
This brings back bad memories. When I was 15 I voluntarily went into psychiatric care and it was only supposed to be for a few days. I ended up being involuntarily committed for over 2 years. The only thing that caused me to discharge was that I turned 18. The whole time, they were treating me for ocd. I wasn’t a danger to myself or anyone else. When I got out, high school was over and I was a shell of my former self. I guess I just want to say as a warning, to be very careful and vigilant when agreeing to be voluntarily admitted to a psychiatric hospital, because it might not actually turn out to be voluntary after all
I have terrible ocd and severe depression. No compulsions, just intrusive thoughts. I have them most of the time and it's horrible. I wanted so badly to stay in a hospital (and for a long time - I know this sounds strange, but I feel helpless on my own) but my doctor never had me committed. Did your ocd get any better? Did staying in a hospital help?
I have been admitted 3 times to a phych ward some of the nicest most supportive people i ever met were patients
I worked in a mental health hospital for a period of time. I’m so glad they let you keep your phone. So many of the patients I worked with felt incredibly isolated without it. Thank you for sharing this extremely vulnerable experience with the world. I have no doubt it will help others.
I work in mental health hospital and some patients is better to not have a phone.One patient called 37 times the emergency number,another called and harrased verbally his ex wife,another one called to some tv live show and acted if he was kidnapped.So yeah the doctors guess can select who is able to have a phone and who is not.
There wasn't even a clock in the one i was in. You had to ask a nurse what time it was. And you could only ask twice a day.
i feel like having access to a recording device while in a mental hospital would be a huge HIPPA Violation, aside from it being bad for patients' mental health...
I'm a guard at a mental hospital, and they can't have phones at all.
The one I was in had a phone in the day room with a clock on it. Guess I was lucky.
Sleep is so important for any patient. We've known that forever. Sadly, hospitals in the U.S. haven't figured that out. You are very articulate. Unfortunately, from what I have heard, there is far from enough activities for psychiatric patients. Patients sitting around is typical for psychiatric patients. .
Unfortunately you are correct. Lauren, in a previous video, stated that being distracted by activities or having friends around helps her through psychotic episodes. Things like going for a walk, or engaging in activities that require concentration or focus can help get through these episodes.
In uk it’s NOW slightly changed. The rooms are proper bedrooms ( as much as they can be) STILL like you I had a bad experience yrs ago and stay as far away from psych’s as I can . Bless you . ATIVAN SENT ME LOOPY, can’t remember a yr of my life xx Hope you’re well soon xxxxx ❤
YES YES YES
Except from the first time I was admitted (in Denmark, not Canada - i have no experience with the Canadian healthcare services) i always felt like I was contained rather than treated. I get that it might be more than what some patients can deal with but some of us need more stimulation than just being left to our devices. It made me really lonely and sometimes worse. I really think mental health services need to entertain the thought of using occupational therapists and creativity more in stationery treatment.
@@saramathilde76 Precisely. Here in Scotland you are left to your own devices for the majority of the time. I was only allowed out for 15 minutes a day in a walled courtyard. It was torture for someone that is used to doing at least 10,000 steps a day
I’ve had one psychotic episode, it was very frightening and been in a psych ward twice. Thank you so much for doing this. I don’t think it’s just me, but your kind and generous soul exudes off the screen. XX
I feel her, it’s hard when you’re experiencing mental struggles to want to “meet friends.” You just want your comfort person in those moments. So glad you have Rob. ❤
I have been hospitalized roughly 30 times. Somewhere between 6-9 months as an inpatient. I hope your road to recovery is not so tough. Blessings.
shit, man
sounds like a hell of a journey. i’m so glad you’re still here with us!! sending you blessings as well. ❤️
Wow may you have strength
@@mialove7445 yeah, a lot of my cpu power is dedicated to self destruction. Even now, more than 20 years after my first suicide attempt, I am struggling to find med cocktails that help and I’m almost there; I just need to tone down the suicidal ideation and depression. ECT is what we’ll try if after 4-6 weeks a new drug for me that I’ve heard a lot about, there is not enough improvement. I do things that are probably unhealthy but one constant in my life last two decades is the presence of medication. May y’all’s journey be graceful.
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Rob is such a pure soul. You're extremely lucky to have so much support and love ❤
He's also lucky to have her ❤
Youre joking rob is stupid as hell, making her even more insane.
Rob deserves a C6 Corvette and the open road; nothing but possibilities in front of him.
What? Rob is a creepy ugly guy that found an attractive mental patient to manipulate into being with him. If she is normal she doesn't even give him the time of day.
I love how you are giving this your all and getting so educated about your condition. You are a brave soldier and it will be a great time when you are feeling better…you have so much support from so many loved ones
Thank you for filming and sharing your vulnerable experience. I am in school to become a certified occupational therapy assistant and it was so cool to see OT involved in your mental health process because here in the states, especially in my state OT is just not present in mental health facilities.
I don’t know how I got here, but I’m glad I did. I deal with clinical depression and anxiety. Not the same, but I can empathise with you. You are doing a huge service letting people learn more at an incredibly vulnerable time for yourself. Hoping the right balance of treatments come quickly, but don’t rush yourself either. Of course you’ll want to go home, but go home as well as you can. ❤
Don't know how I got here too. Have clinical depression & anxiety .
If you would like other good insights from YT I'm happy to share.
I have Big time anxiety
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Same. I was in a psych ward last fall. It felt hard at the time, but honestly it was very restorative. And I met some good people.
You have someone who loves you and is standing by you. That's more than most people have.
I remember my time in the looney bin. It was probably the time in my life that I have laughed the most. I met a great group of people, we sat and smoked and talked all day long. The amount of sheer deep 'can't breath' crying laughter was incredible. I spent a 10 day voluntary period in there and although the hospital itself was awful, those people got me through it and left a positive memory for me. You'll hear all kinds all kids of hilarious stories and meet all kinds of funny people.
Laughter is the best medicine 💊
My aunt used to call it the funny farm LOL
It just struck me that I am watching these pretty much 20 years to the day since my own experience inside a psych ward. I REALLY appreciate seeing your experiences, even though it all sounds really tough. Thank you for sharing them!
It’s been 15 for me.
I totally felt for you when Rob was like “she’s CHOOSING not to do anything.” Sometimes you don’t want to chat or color. There aren’t that many choices. I mean I can understand he might have frustrations too. But I get where you were coming from.
The whole coloring thing. I mean these are adults like what kind of activity is that?
Rob is the typical weirdo that doesn’t normally interact with girls. I don’t know how he got her. He has a big nose and just looks weird.
@@kidsofyesterday17 go on Google and look up studies on art therapy, because I have a feeling youre not going to be believe anyone on youtube
I had same thought..reading? Trying new things? Exercise MORE!? Crochet, yoga, dance, writing, drawing. Yes, it's real and yes, it's harder. You still have choices.
@@kidsofyesterday17 Adult colouring books are a thing yenno lmao!
Colouring can actually be incredibly relaxing and therapeutic for people of all ages
Oh, your husband seems so supportive, that is so great and so helpful for you. You're going to be ok. You are here in this life for a very specific reason. Keep shining your light
@TemporaryAway why do you say that?
Thank you so much for your brave and honest sharing. I am a teacher of student nurses and have the opportunity to facilitate or mentor them in their Mental Health placements. I will be sharing this vulnerable and valuable knowledge with them. Thank you so much. I applaud you for doing this for all sorts of people to learn from including psychiatrists! Sending love and hope. You got this x
Rob makes you smile. Your smile is so beautiful! He's good! Wishing you all the best!😊
5:23 the lack of structure in the ward was such a shock to me when I went. I had family bring me library books and an origami kit. I also got stuck there through 2 holidays and those long weekends were brutal. We'd speak up to the staff about those long weekend concerns and they did not care. Amazing though you have a lot of privileges and less supervision (assumingly). especially running for a whole hour outside near some nature!
You sound pretty calm and coherent . You seem to be doing pretty well under the circumstances, way better than I do in those conditions. But I'm wishing you get well soon and get back to your life and normalcy.
I've been around schizophrenia my entire life. Family and friends and have been a caregiver. And never, not ever, have I seen someone so stable as her who is claiming she is in a psychosis. And her store that sells merchandise is odd. She's turned this into a cottage industry.
@@jameslatta6813 "Who is claiming she is in psychosis" are you serious? You think the people psychologists, therapists etc., many of whom have been in the profession for decades, wouldn't know when someone is faking? You're an asshole and you should just get out of here. Schizophrenia can differ so immensely between people that the mere idea that it has to look the same in everyone is grotesque.
@johnblackberry305what the hell is wrong with you
My sister my heart goes out to you. I’m glad you mentioned that phones and plastic bags are usually nono’s in psych wards. We are so lucky to have a vlog as yours and I thank you for sharing. I do hope you heal to find the happiness you so deserve.
Wishing you peace and wellness! Your vulnerability will help so many people grow.
all the wards i've been to the second you show up all the girls would come up to you and introduce themselves and ask about your preferences for socialization and stuff so it never gets lonely. i know it's hard to force yourself to socialize with patients you don't know but it's really helpful
also if the ward is actually Decent (like not horribly traumatizing), getting discharged the second you can instead of actually staying until you're Fully BetterTM is one of the worst things you can do. i did it my last two stays and it was really stupid. the last time i was so antsy to get out was bc it was actually the start of a hypomanic episode bc they'd increased my antidepressant. if i'd actually told the dr that i felt really uncomfortable instead of just saying that i have a lot of energy and i'm in a good mood so i'm better now please let me go!!!, i wouldn't have had to deal w the hypomania & following Very dark depressive episode on my own. (the reason the dr didn't catch it as hypomania is that my baseline is a lower level of energy than the average 'healthy' person and my hypomania looks like a happy person's normal, the only person who can tell it's wrong is me & ppl who know me very very well).
1. Even when you are not feeling articulate you are pretty articulate
2. What are the goals before you get out. Do you help to set your own goals?
3. Do you think staying a bit longer will decrease the chances you’ll have to come back
4. Are there groups to attend? Is there therapy?
I've been in the mental hospital 8 times in my teens but I haven't been in 7 years(I'm 25 now). I wish you all luck in finding your balance
I’m so glad you have Rob-not that it makes your journey & struggle any easier; I’m just glad you have someone in your corner.
Psych wards in this country are so sad. My experience in one was involuntary, and I've blacked almost all of it out because I don't want to remember how bad it was. Thank you for documenting this for others to see what we go through-- even though yours was more positive!
U guys are Lucky. U didn’t see the worse that's why. In my country there is only one phyce hospital.
I believe she's in Canada.
One is not enough, but I'm not saying you should go to more, but in my experience with numerous units, the first experience is weird, disorienting and very stressful. I adjusted, got help and learned to manage and live a normal life eventually.
I’m astounded they let you bring a camera on the ward but I LOVE you are vlogging this. ❤
I have never seen such a nice and free mental hospital. I have been hospitalized 4 times at a few different hospitals in different states. 1 in Texas, 2 in New York which was the scariest, and 1 in Utah which was the best. But never had this freedom that you had here.
I've been depressed for years on end now, I'm steadily worsening, I'm not able to work anymore and meds don't work. My psychiatrist has outdated iunformation and doesn't rly help me with deciding what other treatments to take... So I've been considering a mental hospital for couple of months now. I'm very scared of feeling isolated and misunderstood there and just being fed meds etc...
So I am happy for your videos, they rly make me feel a bit more prepared to make the call and actually go. Thank you and hope you feel better soon!
Hi there. I've been in your position (unable to work and the meds not working for my depression and anxiety). Please look into rTMS. It is a non-invasive treatment that WORKS. No matter how much you think it doesn't, even as you go through it. I just finished my course. It ended up being 45 treatments (everyday 5 days a week). It wasn't until the last two weeks that things started to improve but once they did, they stabilized and I had incremental growth in the right direction. Now that I'm done, my anxiety is way down, my general mood is much improved and I haven't had any SI for 3 weeks nor have I had any nightmares - I was having them frequently, at least a couple times a week or more where I would dream I was at work again. It was my first day back and ended up being my last day back because I would mess up everything.
I have a new diagnosis of ADHD and will be starting a med for it this week. rTMS didn't do anything for my PTSD but I'm waiting to get into a study for 3MDR which I hear is as magical a cure as rTMS can be for some people. (It's an advanced form of EMDR.)
I appreciate you sharing this journey. My mom has been hospitalized several times. Normalizing visiting and daily life in the hospital is so important. Watching this video is so familiar and similar to her experiences but like you said, not every experience is pleasant. We often call the psych ward a "wellness retreat" just a cheeky way to make it feel a tiny bit better. I hope you get what you need from this wellness retreat, take care.
Mental Health is so misunderstood. Know that you aren't alone. I have several family members that struggle with mental health and my heart goes out to all of you. My Dad is a Nurse is in the Psychiatric Ward and truly does his very best to help those that are struggling.
I live in Montréal, Canada. I have spent 1 single night in a psych ward because I had a rush of suicidal thoughts and it scared me shtless.
I have now developped the reflex to go seek help at the first signs of such suicidal thoughts. There is no way I am letting myself be taken over by that sht.
Whoever you are reading this, seeking help is a show of STRENGTH. Not weakness. ❤
Your man is so supportive and loving. My fiance is really kind and compassionate, and he is so supportive and so loving.
It makes a big difference to have someone like that by your side when dealing with these type of struggles.
Well wishes xx
I just love the unconditional love your husband has for you. I love how you are documenting this aspect of your journey. As someone who's been to 2 hospitals (both traumatic inter own ways) I like how you are sharing this with us.
also I know you said that you are aware of your delusions about hospitals being unsafe. And knowing that the staff want to help you. While it is important to be aware and grounded, I wanted to add another take. That likely your delusions are stimulated due to your past traumatic experiences. It's understandable to feel unsafe when you have not been treated well/respected many times in the past. Those past experiences can make it hard to have trust in places we're supposed to feel safe in.
You have no idea just how incredible it truly is to have such an insight into all of this, from someone training as a counsellor. So helpful to see the reality and the journey. You are light and we all love and wish you well ✨️ 💕
I feel so bad for you. Be strong and keep telling yourself that you're going to be fine. try to stay busy. Good luck
i've worked in inpatient psych for about 3 years n i just want to validate that i 100% can see why you don't want to do the puzzles and coloring sheets in the milieu. it makes sense to me that you'd rather keep to yourself even if its lonely. anywyay, sending lots of love and admiration. thank you for sharing with us.
If you did you would realize that the videos fake because you're not allowed to bring your phone in a psych ward nor especially not a camera
@@mouyguouy78789 actually depends on where you live! the units i work on are no-camera units but they've been adjacent to units where cameras/phones are allowed. More and more psych units are making accomodations for personal technology.
@@mouyguouy78789Apparently this took place in Canada and what she experienced it's pretty standard. In the USA it's different.
I don't know how your vid came up on my feed, but I am so glad it did. Lauren, you sharing your journey is so brave and needed. So helpful to others. Thank you. Sending love and healing/coping vibes to you. You are precious.
Really wishing you well.
You are a truly brave and courageous soul.
Your authentic sharing makes a huge difference to many facing similar challenges !
Wow. When I was in Rehab, the staff treated us with such loving compassion, it was therapy in of itself. Most of us had some serious mental issues, me included, and it was such a healing environment.
This just makes me feel sad
I love your husband. He is such a grounding force for you. Support is so important. We need more relationships like this in the media 🖤
I’m listening to your playlist, I really like it 😊
I think you encompassed the difficulties as an inpatient really well. The waiting. Oh my gooood the waiting. I remember how bad it was when I was just in hospital in April and May. I hope you feel better soon and your discharge is as soon as possible. All the best.
Thanks for being vulnerable with everyone. Thank you for sharing your lived experience and we can learn and grow from your story.
I appreciate you putting this out on TH-cam for other people to see and experience a little bit how it is for mental health patients. In the state I live in they have changed many many rules from the first time I was ever admitted. However years ago we did not have many privileges that you have this time. However I am glad that you have a little bit more freedom and able to have friends and family come to you and be with you in your room which is a safe place. I wish you all the best, prayers and thoughts to you during your future adventures and family life!
Wishing you a speedy recovery Lauren 🙏🏻
Glad you're doing well and made it through your admission. I work on an adult psychiatric unit. I have never seen so many things allowed like electronics, shoe laces, strings on the windows, recording, visitors in your room. Wow, this seems like a pretty nice place. I hope you were treated well and feel somewhat like yourself again.
I spotted the strings in the shoes and many other things in her video that most def were not allowed .. not even to self admitted patients at any of the psych hospitals I've seen and myself visited!
I love you guys' raw honesty in this. It feels like I am a part of your family. Thanks for all you do! My friend, you are incredible!
You're a very brave young woman. You're an inspiration.
We’re hoping you both stay strong. I know these things can be so difficult.
I think your viedo's should be required for anyone who is or will be working with people who have psychiatric diagnosis. You are such an incredible voice for people who have pdych issues. THANK YOU!!!!!
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Get well soon Lauren! We appreciate all you do and your sharing.
i really really like how raw you kept this video - what i mean is you didn’t add music or aesthetics. you did a great job on not glamorizing this experience, i love u so much
Wow, it’s very different from being held for suicidal ideation or self injury. So completely different from my experiences.
Big FACTS
Hi, Lauren. I am so glad to see you are slowly recalibrating your brain and body. Well done. Much love, support, and healing vibes to you, Rob, and your children. 💓
I appreciate your humor in a trying time, the both of you.