I have survived childhood sexual abuse, an abusive ex husband , a current husband who is angry all the time, a diagnosis of a incurable illness. I fight everyday to stay alive. I feel this song.
this album was Benjamin Burnley's first album he has written when he was sober. the album cover is the MRI scan of his brain which ties in with his Dear Agony album because of the pain and suffering and neurological issues left behind from his Alcoholism. very great album, great guy, and awesome band.
Christan Price went and saw him in Orange County California 2018 before they played this song he spoke briefly about his problem, he dedicated the song to everyone in the audience suffering from there own issues. Glad he overcame his problem
I didn't understand why "Faceless enemy" meant so much to me back when I was younger but now, in my late twenties, I realize that my faceless enemy is the amalgamation of all the trauma, the mental illness, the heartbreak, the loss, and the pain and this song hits a thousand times harder realizing that the reason I can't cope with it very well is because I can't look it in the eyes and tell it to go f*** itself. It is something I will live with for the rest of my life and that is something that terrifies me to no end considering that, on several occasions, that enemy has almost cost me my life. Stay strong y'all. You're not suffering alone and you will come out of whatever you are fighting victorious. Even if it costs you your life, the simple fact that you fought like a lioness protecting her cubs proves that you were the victor.
As someone with Autism/ADHD, I interpret it differently. Every day, I have a hard time understanding the people around me, and what's acceptable in any given situation. This has led to a lot of problems in my life, and it's usually blamed on me because Neurotypical people don't understand how I operate. "Faceless enemy" plays into the lyric, "Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin". I am my own worst enemy.
when I was 16 I starting having seizures, at one point I was having up to 4 a day. I remember all the pain I was in and I was causing my family. I started to think of this song and I offered it up as a prayer to god to end my suffering. I am 22 now my seizures are still a problem but It has gotten easier to deal with, I have one or two a month now. I want to thank Breaking Benjamin for this song it gave me a great deal of peace when I need it the most.
:/ my sister has been having seizures for the past couple years, she's 18 now and she's having 5 or 6 a month but they used to be a lot worse, I pray for her and you
Song means a lot to me. When I was a junior in high school and was diagnosed with a genetic disorder, I wanted to give up on life. It took away my plan after graduation and closed doors on things I wanted to do in life. For years I was depressed and only kept living because I knew suicide would hurt my family. Life is better now and while I dont have my life figured out, I'm in a better place. Thank you Breaking Benjamin for making a song that helped me when I needed it most.
Larry G Underrated in the mainstream pop computer generated culture of today. Certainly not in the Rock community, they are very well-known in that. I love Breaking Benjamin! Forever my favorite band
This song.... My daughter passed away in 2010, which destroyed me. I was in a car accident 10 months later, losing the ability to walk. That was a dark time. A very dark time. I'll admit there was a moment when I was hooked up to machines where I wanted to die. I couldn't do that to my parents and fiance. They didn't need anymore agony. So here I am.
Agony is like a bus stop at 3 am in the morning. You're stuck there, sitting by yourself, maybe someone else crosses your path, but pretty much alone. Your stuck there and you think to yourself, how the hell did I get here, why did this happen to me. Just remember that the bus will eventually come, you just need to make sure you have bus fare first in order to leave, otherwise known as hope.
lincaster I have faced this before man... this logic. From age 16-21 I have thought about suicide weekly. The only thing that stopped me from doing it is that Jesus Christ doesn't want you to commit physical suicide however a spiritual.. so he can carry you through life and to his kingdom.
Vita1ized Definitely man. I agree with you. Not just in a Christian way, but I think you speak for people of all religions or none by saying that. Who we are dies so we can grow. That's my interpretation anyway.
Wow, this song brings back memories. Back in high school, I was very depressed and lifeless. Listening to this album gave me a temporary escape from the outside world. I still listen to this every once in a while to remember how far I’ve come. I’m no longer depressed, and I finally feel like I have a purpose in this world. All the suffering and agony was worth it in the end.
Every time I listen to this I swear I feel a little piece of me die when he sings "I'm so sorry" is it just me or??? I mean the whole thing is heartbreaking but just that one part gets me every time.
Leave me alone God let me go I'm blue and cold Black sky will burn Love pull me down Hate lift me up Just turn around There's nothing left My favorite part...
I do not know what about you, but I really have a very good respect for independent artists like those dudes! *watch?v=ywhvj7UaDHo* Usually it's complicated to find a ideal word, maybe fantastic? Watch the video URL
I’ve been dealing with chronic illness for the past 2 years of my life. And I have to say, living with something that never leaves you alone can drain the ever-living shit out of you. That coupled with the loss of a dear friend of mine in early 2020 really drained me. I have no idea if I’d still be here if it weren’t for Breaking Benjamin. Thank you Ben ❤️
That sad moment when you realize you failed your life dreams and you have nothing left to chase after, and there is nothing you can do about it. So you just sit there day in day out wondering what to do with your life, but nothing truly fills the void that is there in your heart. The only thing the help numb the pain of the agony is the bottom of a bottle.
+Kurt Cocaine like I said most of what I said was from songs I just listened too, and I put them together. Says the guy who comments on people's stuff just to get attention that his mom probably didn't give him.
+The USA Yeah but to me , its beautiful and peaceful , especially when he says "Somewhere far beyond this world , I feel nothing anymore." I just feel that this sound would be my funeral song ... what you think is not perfect or right could be perfect or right for someone else ... you wont be at my funeral , so why do you care about the music...
+The USA No matter what if they care , they will still be destroyed either way. Theres no denying that they would be upset regardless of the song. As a final resting wish , i want to have this as my final song.
I am dealing with depression after a heartbrake and I wanna say thank Breaking Benjamin you have been helping me these last 6 monts deal with it. Thank you for your songs I love them and they are really great to listen to when you sit in the dark alone crying.
all i gotta say is the build up to each chorus of this song is the most powerful thing I have felt from a song. the chorus gives me chills from the build up alone.
breaking benjamin is one of the greatest bands of all time, if not the greatest. hands down. there isnt a single song from them i hate or dislike in any way
MS8 Studios you gotta like KoRn too, without KoRn there would be no Breaking Benjamin, I seen them live a couple months ago and the lead singer of the band said without KoRn they wouldn't be here today
@@ryukobestwaifu3319 i think that we are a nonexistence surrounded by a physical body, we are like a shadow of existence, a shadow is nothing but the light around it makes it apparent to us. so we just lost our representation in this world when we die. just thinking
@@ryukobestwaifu3319 not necessarily. You could just become numb. Numb to everything. Love, life, friends, family, pain. Not a very fun existence, but an existence nonetheless.
They played it when I saw them last year, but I think it's because, it's still fitting to Benjamin's life, and he has a hard time not letting the feelings get to him when playing it. in an acoustic video before they got back together, he played it and you could see and hear the pain was still fresh. he takes insanely huge breaths before and after, and almost looks sad. Same with when he played it last year.
Back when I was a senior in high school, I wanted to die so bad. I would put this song on and sing along with everything in me and picture myself singing it to my friends as a way of saying “This is it, agony won. I can’t take it anymore.” I tried three times to kill myself, failed all three times. After the third time, I wound up in a crisis unit for 3 days. Now, four years later, I’m still in agony. I still have rage. But I don’t want to die anymore. Keep fighting guys.
I love Breaking Benjamin. this song reminds me of the time I was.finally able to say goodbye to an old friend ( depression) dear agony is saying I am finally done with you and being kept locked up in darkness. able to see the light now.
It’s crazy how every time I play this song, I feel the exact same way I did when I first ever heard it. I’m really lucky to not have any bad memories with this song like most of the people who’ve commented. For any one suffering from anything and you’re reading this, God bless you, hope you find your peace❤️
He has an amazing voice. It goes really well with this song. Thank you for sharing this song with us. You did a great job on the background and the words!
Øné X oh the pain is too real. born with epilepsy, had brain surgery at 15. lost my football scholarship, now at 20 I'm watching my father die slowly from the heart attacks he suffered last year. watched my uncle lose his leg and the other drop dead while the other diagnosed with cancer. watched my friends committ suicide from things like this and I am doing everything I can to stay strong but this agony is just too much
I have only been on this earth for 18 years and I’ve seen and experienced things no man should see or experience, this song truly gets me, it’s like they’ve felt the same pain as I have.
@mitch you might want to learn about Ben Burnley from Breaking Benjamin before commenting. He has suffered permanent brain damage and that's a pretty serious thing to most people. That's why the album cover is a scan of his actual brain.
This song takes me back to 2014 and beginning of 2015 where I went through the worst phase of my life.. Anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts were all over me now that I listen to this I have an strange feeling and for somehow it makes me feel the same way I used to feel before
Ben needs to know the genuine love I have for him, for this song. I rely on this song for so many things. I hate to imagine if he hadn't decided to become a singer/writer. The world would have truly missed out. ❤
this video was also released two days after my 6th birthday. Those were the best times of my life, I was so happy during those times. Playing PS2, watching WWE (when it was awesome) every week, my VERY FIRST CRUSH, damn. The best times of life passed by so quickly. I was pretty dumb during these years, but so what? Id do anything, ANYTHING to relive these times again
To any young adults around 18-20 who are still at home doing nothing after highschool, & apathetically letting depression take over in a dark room. Please, do not make the same mistake I did, you don’t have to hide your sadness, please open up to anybody you trust, or go outside to feel some air. I spent 2 years of my life indoors ignoring my depression & doing nothing with my life, depression is like a cancer, sometimes you have it but don’t realize it’s there & it’s been slowly killing you inside.
Yeah learnt this the hard way now I'm too fucked up to even care I tried fighting it but I always come back to the same place on multiple different meds and I still feel lost I don't think I'll make it but who knows.
@@catdogthing I can't click read more but from what you've said im on a similar spot and it's just painful I hope your doing better and that you've found happiness
I have nothing left to give I have found the perfect end You were made to make it hurt Disappear into the dirt Carry me to heaven's arms Light the way and let me go Take the time to take my breath I will end where I began And I will find the enemy within 'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's got to be? Dear Agony Suddenly The lights go out Let forever Drag me down I will fight for one last breath I will fight until the end And I will find the enemy within 'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's got to be? Don't bury me Faceless enemy I'm so sorry Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony Leave me alone God let me go I'm blue and cold Black sky will burn Love pull me down Hate lift me up Just turn around There's nothing left Somewhere far beyond this world I feel nothing anymore Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's got to be? Don't bury me Faceless enemy I'm so sorry Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony I feel nothing anymore
Leave me alone God let me go I'm blue and cold Black sky will burn Love pull me down Hate lift me up Just turn around There's nothing left Somewhere far beyond this world I feel nothing anymore....I truly feel nothing...
This song helped me through depression and drug addiction after a bad car accident left me feeling like I just wanted give up. 11 years later it's hard to not have tears to this song always be proud of how much you have grown through. It's the reason your still alive today.
This was the first ever rock song I heard in 2009 during my high school days and ever since then I've been a rockhead. It's 2023 and I still listen to it. So many memories and nostalgia Thank you Breaking Benjamin for being a part my childhood. ❤
God damn. As someone who suffered for a long time from severe depression and profound existential sadness and confusion, this song still gives me chills and makes me cry. So powerful.
Im unfortunately in that position at the moment, its almost so blinding to feel some sense of hope when the feelings hit. Fortunately i been able to stop myself from self harming or doing any sort of drug but it's really hard dealing with this all within 2 months my life felt apart so fast
I am broken and alone I don't have a lot of friends to talk to my parents are dead and my only brother passed away over a Year ago so sometimes I want to join my parents and my brother in heaven
Omg I read your comment lol my eyes started automatically crying lmao what the hell!! I can relate like so much it's so sad no one understands how you feel. I know what's that like.
That’s really sad and im sorry for you but you wouldn’t be joining anyone in heaven since it doesn’t exist death is nothingness forever like before you were born but you can never be born again it’s the worst thing ever
You feel like you have hope after this song... you feel like someone will cross your path and walk pass you and you feel agony and angry that your lonely. You are fighting your inner demon to be a normal person while everyone mocks you for who you are and it sucks... but deep down you are fighting for survival!
I love this song and Breaking benjamins other albums aswell..but..sometimes i honestly feel abit lonesome when everyone always says i will not bow and so are their favs while i'm sitting here with Polyamorous, Simple Design, Follow and Rain :x
Holy moly guacamole I never thought I'd say this but this song called dear agony by breaking Benjamin is so beautiful and powerful I feel like I want to consider fighting my inner demons
My sister and I listen to this song, not long after her husband took his own life, in 2014. We both bawled our eyes out. It's a song that also reminds me of my nephew, my sisters son, after he took his own life, in 2018. My nephew fought so hard to keep it together. He just never could cope with his fathers death. We could never get him to talk to anyone about his feelings either. My nephews passing is still so raw in my mind. He was my first nephew and we were so close, until his fathers death. I miss him everyday. The anniversary of his death, is just 2wks away. That's why it's hitting me even harder right now.
I had a friend in high school who had severe burn scars on his face and always told everyone it was a car accident. He was found hung by the neck in the bathroom one day. I talked to a cop about what happened to him in the car accident. The cop replied "it wasn't a car accident, his mother lit him on fire." I woke up to reality that day. I hope anybody going through pain can understand that they are loved by people who they may never meet and that that's good enough to keep going. You can't please everybody, but if you exist, somebody will appreciate it. Much love from the United States.
I lost you, my best friend, the only person I could trust in this world, because I either loved you too much, or just didn't love you enough. And I couldn't force you to stay. I've become so tired of losing people, but I never thought I'd lose you, too. I'm so sorry for the things I said and what I did. I can't keep you out of my mind. I still love you. I promise I'll be here when you need me. I'll stop asking for the impossible. I will make this up to you, I swear. I'm so sorry, my friend. I'm so sorry.
not trying to be mean but say that to their grave and not the youtube comment section you're not going to reach them like this not by trying to make people feel bad and crap like that; try and think about it this way "Those we love never go away, they walk beside us every day. Unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed, and very dear."
I just wanted to say dont listen to them. Sometimes we just need to get something out to someone we can't. But for someone to criticise you for sharing that is so fucked. So nikoru go fuck yourself and stop telling people what they can or can't write on the internet..
I love the fact that there's not one bad song by Breaking Benjamin. I love how I can just listen to their music and disappear into the music and forget bout the pain that still taunts me.
I had recently graduated and I remember when I was just starting high school I never made friends and I was always picked on so I was always telling myself that I wasn’t good enough and I deserved to die. I would sing this song with all I had while crying I’m still not in the best spot but I’m still holding on and I’m hoping you are to It will all get better just keep fighting It will be worth it ❤️
It's sad to hear this real life cry. I used to be in a place where you beg and plead the pains of the heart to leave. I'm glad I don't cut deals with my depression anymore. We weren't made to let the heart control us, but we were destined to control our heart.
We all been there. "It" just keep hurting for a long long time. Breaking Benjamin never let me down when I felt that way. Including this time. Their music and message through music prevented the wrong ending in my life. Now I am here, only half as sad as I would be without them. I believe I am gonna get through this. You all will too!
YES PERFECT ANOTHER DEPRESSING SONG WITH AN AMAZING VOICE I’m uncultured I know I just learnt about breaking Benjamin when diary of Jane came on in my car yesterday
I diagnosed with a cronic illness about a yewr ago. Ive lost friends, family, and more while learning to live in hell. I can lose everyone and everything but i cant lose this pain. And i feel like this song really explains EXACTLY how i feel living with this. This band is such a comfort ❤
This has to be my first ever comment on youtube but I felt like sharing this: When I was 16 I went through a really hard time and I was heartbroken for a long time I had lost my first love and was depressed all the time I remember listening to this all the time and crying to it Today I'm almost 21 and I can't tell you life is now magical and happy all the time but I've definitely mentally grown and lots has happened since then. I am now listening to this and singing along feeling kind of proud, comparing where I was and where I am now It gets better ♥️
My father and his father battled addiction/mental illness and were never in their son's lives, in prison or on the streets. I'm breaking these generational curses with my son, grinding, working out. Im at the healthiest point I've ever been in my life, and the happiest even though life can be difficult. Fatherhood has changed my life and I'm only 25. Agony has tried to grab me my whole life, but it has let go of me, and now I can live, and be better... thank you for this song that just hits home, and resonates in my soul.
3 months ago, after 4 months of severe psychosis and overall pain my mom passed. A month ago (on Easter day) I severely injured my already injured back, making my chronic pain nigh unbearable. 5 days ago, I FINALLY felt it beginning to hurt less, let me function more. 3 days I was in an auto crash that's left me with crippling back pain (were still trying to diagnose with imaging). Today is my birthday. I am consumed by grief, that for my own body but above all else for my mom. This birthday I am filled with despair. Yet there is a fire struggling to find oxygen. I am not done here yet: there are things to reclaim. Happiness. Health. This song is helping me cope, process, fight to keep surviving... and reading through the comments it's very clear that I am not alone in this. If you're reading this, and you're hurting: I am so sorry for your pain. This realm is full of it, and if I could have one wish it would be that I might spare you from it. May your day be blessed.
One of the last times i ever spoke to my brother. He told me he tried killing himself but failed. He also told me everything he was going through, his struggles, his feelings, his mental health, all of it. He ended up killing himself a few weeks later. This song is everything that he told me that day. Every time i listen to it and hear it. I end up crying because i miss him dearly. I love you, my brother, I'll always miss you ❤
Someone I once called my girlfriend hurt me in the way women usually do... I was cheated on. But of course it was my fault... It was my fault I was hurt. I didn't deserve to live. People left my life one by one. I contemplated suicide. but it was worth it. I stumbled upon Jesus Christ and he restored me. i now feel complete. I want to live. I want a future, maybe even to find a good woman.. Who knows. Heh, it's kind of funny. I have no idea about anything in life. I have a (hopefully long) life stretched ahead of me, good times, sad times. Who knows, maybe it won't always be easy to go on. Betrayal, anger, resolution. Jesus. I never have to be alone. No i'm not preaching to you, I just hope some day you find your purpose, friend. Good luck :)
+Collateral 915, there's no wrong way to interpret a song. If that's how u feel about the meaning, fine. This song can also speak to anyone of any kind of situation, such as the pain of losing a family member, friend, or lover.
I have survived childhood sexual abuse, an abusive ex husband , a current husband who is angry all the time, a diagnosis of a incurable illness. I fight everyday to stay alive. I feel this song.
I'm very sorry that you have suffered. Life doesn't get easier, you just eventually get used to the pain and hardships.
Congratulations for getting out of an abusive relationship. You’re so strong.
God bless you. Stay strong.
Stay strong dear
Why do so many bad things happen to good people? It's so unfair 😭
this album was Benjamin Burnley's first album he has written when he was sober. the album cover is the MRI scan of his brain which ties in with his Dear Agony album because of the pain and suffering and neurological issues left behind from his Alcoholism. very great album, great guy, and awesome band.
Is this actually true?
It's true
Christan Price went and saw him in Orange County California 2018 before they played this song he spoke briefly about his problem, he dedicated the song to everyone in the audience suffering from there own issues. Glad he overcame his problem
Your Worst Nightmare wow! I love breaking Benjamin too. Them and disturbed are my favorite bands. Good to know though 🖤
Whoa, didn't know this. Thanks for the enlightenment
the most heartbreaking moment is when the person that gave you memories, becomes a memory
@Amail Someoneeveryone
Well said! This is very true.
Damn, this is too dark to bear with.
This. Comment bruhhh hits different
Fucking facts!!
I didn't understand why "Faceless enemy" meant so much to me back when I was younger but now, in my late twenties, I realize that my faceless enemy is the amalgamation of all the trauma, the mental illness, the heartbreak, the loss, and the pain and this song hits a thousand times harder realizing that the reason I can't cope with it very well is because I can't look it in the eyes and tell it to go f*** itself. It is something I will live with for the rest of my life and that is something that terrifies me to no end considering that, on several occasions, that enemy has almost cost me my life. Stay strong y'all. You're not suffering alone and you will come out of whatever you are fighting victorious. Even if it costs you your life, the simple fact that you fought like a lioness protecting her cubs proves that you were the victor.
As someone with Autism/ADHD, I interpret it differently. Every day, I have a hard time understanding the people around me, and what's acceptable in any given situation. This has led to a lot of problems in my life, and it's usually blamed on me because Neurotypical people don't understand how I operate. "Faceless enemy" plays into the lyric, "Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin". I am my own worst enemy.
The worst thing about pain is that it demands to be felt.
That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.
- Augustus Waters
@@yettykitty4893 Saturn in Aries , bad past karma, stupid present karma and hollow dark future !
@Dark Demonik it depends on the pain, emotional is not so easily overcome
@Dark Demonik not mine
Wow, honestly powerful what you just said.
when I was 16 I starting having seizures, at one point I was having up to 4 a day. I remember all the pain I was in and I was causing my family. I started to think of this song and I offered it up as a prayer to god to end my suffering. I am 22 now my seizures are still a problem but It has gotten easier to deal with, I have one or two a month now. I want to thank Breaking Benjamin for this song it gave me a great deal of peace when I need it the most.
kayla payne it is always beautiful to see where people can find their strength. Keep going and stay safe *hugs*
kayla payne weed has helped me with mine I used to have four a day now I have 2 every couple of months idk if u tried it but it helped me
Yh sorry mate, hate to break it to you. But imaginary people won't make your seizures go away lol.
@@Tricker-the-licker Imaginary people?
:/ my sister has been having seizures for the past couple years, she's 18 now and she's having 5 or 6 a month but they used to be a lot worse, I pray for her and you
Great song to cry to.
I agree, coming from a guy who is usually hard as stone
speed edwards pretty much why i listen to this 🎶
You know, im not a cryer. All i ever cry from is excruciating pain. AND IM FEELING EXCRUCIATING PAIN 💔
JEFF OWENS feel the POWER OF MUSIC
great song to commit suicide too. no way I want to live in the world after hearing this shit.
Song means a lot to me. When I was a junior in high school and was diagnosed with a genetic disorder, I wanted to give up on life. It took away my plan after graduation and closed doors on things I wanted to do in life. For years I was depressed and only kept living because I knew suicide would hurt my family. Life is better now and while I dont have my life figured out, I'm in a better place. Thank you Breaking Benjamin for making a song that helped me when I needed it most.
One of the best voices in music today.
And certainly the most underrated
Agreed
volsguy01.
Larry G Underrated in the mainstream pop computer generated culture of today. Certainly not in the Rock community, they are very well-known in that. I love Breaking Benjamin! Forever my favorite band
there was that one guy yesterday though. Unbeatable voice, but that was yesterday.
"Somewhere far beyond this world... I feel nothing anymore..." WHY IS THIS SONG SO AMAZING?!
We are going to meet on the Central station in the hall.
***** ...Excuse me?
Jeremy Schwarz WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT?!
Blastoise114
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Jeremy Schwarz I really don't like the fact that I'm being yelled at and called a child for a reason that I'm completely unaware of.
i wasn't into rock music until i started listening to BB songs, such a powerful voice, lyrics and music.
You're a carrot.
Doc Moaz same
Doc Moaz mee tooo
Doc Moaz yeah bro me too
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This song.... My daughter passed away in 2010, which destroyed me. I was in a car accident 10 months later, losing the ability to walk. That was a dark time. A very dark time. I'll admit there was a moment when I was hooked up to machines where I wanted to die. I couldn't do that to my parents and fiance. They didn't need anymore agony. So here I am.
Heavy man. Respect to you. You are more than I am.
@@dogzero00 I'm nothing special. We are only given 2 choices when faced with tragedy. I chose the one that kept me here.
I DONT KNOW YOU. BUT I RESPECT YOU. LIVE ON IN MEMORY OF HER. STAY STONG AS TO CONTINUE HER LOVE OF LIFE.
@@lennonraymonda9285 thank you.
from. philippines i Respect to you brother..
"Love pull me down, Hate lift me up"
deepest lyrics in this song tbh
Bruh exactly and it goes over so many people's heads.
You'd be surprised how many people can feel this song.
;)
Love and hate in those lyrics should be swapped
reminds me of Black Butler.....
The 'Dear Agony' album is just pure masterpiece. I enjoy listening to every of the song. Keep it up BB
Why did I read this in Rick's voice
@@arcticwolfcub8987 lol
Agony is like a bus stop at 3 am in the morning. You're stuck there, sitting by yourself, maybe someone else crosses your path, but pretty much alone. Your stuck there and you think to yourself, how the hell did I get here, why did this happen to me. Just remember that the bus will eventually come, you just need to make sure you have bus fare first in order to leave, otherwise known as hope.
Adrian Martinez It's a shame Chelsea had to park that bus in front of their goal multiple times...
I really like that analogy :)
Good stuff!
lincaster I have faced this before man... this logic. From age 16-21 I have thought about suicide weekly. The only thing that stopped me from doing it is that Jesus Christ doesn't want you to commit physical suicide however a spiritual.. so he can carry you through life and to his kingdom.
Vita1ized Definitely man. I agree with you. Not just in a Christian way, but I think you speak for people of all religions or none by saying that. Who we are dies so we can grow. That's my interpretation anyway.
Wow, this song brings back memories. Back in high school, I was very depressed and lifeless. Listening to this album gave me a temporary escape from the outside world. I still listen to this every once in a while to remember how far I’ve come. I’m no longer depressed, and I finally feel like I have a purpose in this world. All the suffering and agony was worth it in the end.
Every time I listen to this I swear I feel a little piece of me die when he sings "I'm so sorry" is it just me or???
I mean the whole thing is heartbreaking but just that one part gets me every time.
Same.
For me it's when he says "Don't bury me"
When he says 'I'm so sorry", you can hear the pain and sorrow in his voice.
Because you have to be feeling pretty miserable to cave in and apologize to pain that you have no control over
Same. It kills me.
Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left
My favorite part...
I do not know what about you, but I really have a very good respect for independent artists like those dudes!
*watch?v=ywhvj7UaDHo*
Usually it's complicated to find a ideal word, maybe fantastic?
Watch the video URL
Heard it
Mine too
Not sure if this was intentional, but I was browsing through the comments and I read yours right at that point in the song
Same for me
Dear Agony is one of those songs that is basically just damn perfect. I can listen to it over and over again. Such a beautiful song.
Same
I’ve been dealing with chronic illness for the past 2 years of my life. And I have to say, living with something that never leaves you alone can drain the ever-living shit out of you. That coupled with the loss of a dear friend of mine in early 2020 really drained me.
I have no idea if I’d still be here if it weren’t for Breaking Benjamin. Thank you Ben ❤️
That sad moment when you realize you failed your life dreams and you have nothing left to chase after, and there is nothing you can do about it. So you just sit there day in day out wondering what to do with your life, but nothing truly fills the void that is there in your heart. The only thing the help numb the pain of the agony is the bottom of a bottle.
+Cody Wilson Stop being fucking pathetic no one cares keep this bullshit to yourself instead of making everyone fucking cringe
Kurt Cocaine there are so many comments kinda like mine but you decide to be a little cry baby to mine.
+Kurt Cocaine like I said most of what I said was from songs I just listened too, and I put them together. Says the guy who comments on people's stuff just to get attention that his mom probably didn't give him.
+Kurt Cocaine kinda like what you are doing with your opinion.
and then u realize ur a kid in a comment section xD
This is the song I want to be played at my funeral.
+The USA Yeah but to
me , its beautiful and peaceful , especially when he says "Somewhere far beyond this world , I feel nothing anymore." I just feel that this sound would be my funeral song ... what you think is not perfect or right could be perfect or right for someone else ... you wont be at my funeral , so why do you care about the music...
+The USA No matter what if they care , they will still be destroyed either way. Theres no denying that they would be upset regardless of the song. As a final resting wish , i want to have this as my final song.
I had the same idea
Deasia DeLoach :3
Same
I am dealing with depression after a heartbrake and I wanna say thank Breaking Benjamin you have been helping me these last 6 monts deal with it. Thank you for your songs I love them and they are really great to listen to when you sit in the dark alone crying.
As I say goodbye to my best friend today who passed away. Rest in Peace.:S
My condolences. My friend went to his eternal rest.
Sorry for your loss, I lost my grandma 2 years ago
Boop
🙏🙏🙏
@@alaskaswolf8682 👿
Ive listened to a lot of Breaking Benjamin's music but by far this is my favorite song by them
What?
Its something
hmmm ok
I love Breaking Benjamin too buts it's gotta be a tie between this song and Dance with the Devil
i love this song its my fav by them!!!
Ughhh I love this song
So sad and beautiful
Favorite part 2:38-3:22
+Jessica Krogh so true and its all true
+Jessica Novak + 500! Самый нештяк! Знаешь толк, хоть и нерусь! =))
+Jessica Novak its a good song for when you are sad sometimes
+Jessica Novak same here! I could replay that part over and over and be perfectly content hahah
When it relates so much that it legit kills you from the inside out.
the feels
ha jokes on you I'm already dead inside.
Hang in there buddy. If you cannot believe in yourself, believe in me that believes in you.
That was a good anime Casta.
The WarTorn It still is buddy, I think I need to rewatch it soon!
all i gotta say is the build up to each chorus of this song is the most powerful thing I have felt from a song. the chorus gives me chills from the build up alone.
breaking benjamin is one of the greatest bands of all time, if not the greatest. hands down. there isnt a single song from them i hate or dislike in any way
Not really considering "Greatest of all time" is pretty much just an opinion.
MS8 Studios it might be just me but I personally love Hollywood undead
Virushockwave same bro
MS8 Studios you gotta like KoRn too, without KoRn there would be no Breaking Benjamin, I seen them live a couple months ago and the lead singer of the band said without KoRn they wouldn't be here today
true
“Somewhere far beyond this world... I feel nothing anymore.”
How I feel right now
@@pubatheoriginal isnt that just death? if it is how is that you?
@@ryukobestwaifu3319 i think that we are a nonexistence surrounded by a physical body, we are like a shadow of existence, a shadow is nothing but the light around it makes it apparent to us.
so we just lost our representation in this world when we die.
just thinking
@@ryukobestwaifu3319 not necessarily. You could just become numb. Numb to everything. Love, life, friends, family, pain. Not a very fun existence, but an existence nonetheless.
I think the lyrics are telling us that he killed himself in the song
I love his voice. I can never stop listening to his music...same for evenesence
They played it when I saw them last year, but I think it's because, it's still fitting to Benjamin's life, and he has a hard time not letting the feelings get to him when playing it. in an acoustic video before they got back together, he played it and you could see and hear the pain was still fresh. he takes insanely huge breaths before and after, and almost looks sad. Same with when he played it last year.
He's a recovering alcoholic and I think this is the first song he had wrote without the influence of alcohol itself.
caleb dahle You're correct. this whole album was his first without being wasted while writing and recording. Can definitely hear that pain too.
OMG SAME
This brother is an absolute master musician.
I miss my daughter so much. I love you Christina Troville. 10/27/02-12/14/20
I am sorry Sir
I love how somebody can pour their very heart out in a song, and you can feel it yourself when you listen. After a while you can sing along.
Back when I was a senior in high school, I wanted to die so bad.
I would put this song on and sing along with everything in me and picture myself singing it to my friends as a way of saying “This is it, agony won. I can’t take it anymore.”
I tried three times to kill myself, failed all three times. After the third time, I wound up in a crisis unit for 3 days.
Now, four years later, I’m still in agony. I still have rage. But I don’t want to die anymore.
Keep fighting guys.
I wish I had found this song in high school😭 I went through so much
I hated my high school yrs, i always felt alone because I wasn't good looking, or tall enough I wanted to die
Maybe it's time to try and different way...maybe you should try Jesus. I mean what harm could trying do?
Take it easy bro..we love you
Bro this made me cry I’m right with you, I couldn’t do it right so I thought maybe I’m not meant to die like this
I love Breaking Benjamin. this song reminds me of the time I was.finally able to say goodbye to an old friend ( depression) dear agony is saying I am finally done with you and being kept locked up in darkness. able to see the light now.
Nothing in this life that 'Breaking Benjamin' can't fix!!!! Thank you, from my soul for this music!!
I'm addicted to this beauty
Oh man, haven't listened to this song in freaking years. used to be my favorite one.
Leave me alone
GOD let me go
Im blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around there's nothing left
AMAZING !
thanks for sharing this for the deaf....
Deaf on youtube ?
Wow !
KurosakiXIchigoxXx People can just be real ignorant for no reason sometimes
It’s crazy how every time I play this song, I feel the exact same way I did when I first ever heard it. I’m really lucky to not have any bad memories with this song like most of the people who’ve commented. For any one suffering from anything and you’re reading this, God bless you, hope you find your peace❤️
My life completely. This is the kind of pain that you can't fake. Listen to the acoustic version. It's even sadder.
He has an amazing voice. It goes really well with this song. Thank you for sharing this song with us. You did a great job on the background and the words!
Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Dear Agony ...
Øné X oh the pain is too real. born with epilepsy, had brain surgery at 15. lost my football scholarship, now at 20 I'm watching my father die slowly from the heart attacks he suffered last year. watched my uncle lose his leg and the other drop dead while the other diagnosed with cancer. watched my friends committ suicide from things like this and I am doing everything I can to stay strong but this agony is just too much
Collin Gillespie I'm Very Sad Sorry 😔 Be strong ☺
Øné X doing my best right now. emotional pain is the worst trust me
Collin Gillespie I believe u...
[Story of my regular life, love life, and pretty much everything else]
I have only been on this earth for 18 years and I’ve seen and experienced things no man should see or experience, this song truly gets me, it’s like they’ve felt the same pain as I have.
You did not win the TH-cam sympathy clout sorry bud
How can you not feel the pain in those lyrics even if you haven't had to deal with what Ben has been through.
whos to say ben has been through anything worse than the avg person???
@mitch you might want to learn about Ben Burnley from Breaking Benjamin before commenting. He has suffered permanent brain damage and that's a pretty serious thing to most people. That's why the album cover is a scan of his actual brain.
***** yes, but being a celebrity actually adds a lot of bad stuff to a persons life.
This song takes me back to 2014 and beginning of 2015 where I went through the worst phase of my life.. Anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts were all over me now that I listen to this I have an strange feeling and for somehow it makes me feel the same way I used to feel before
Ben needs to know the genuine love I have for him, for this song. I rely on this song for so many things. I hate to imagine if he hadn't decided to become a singer/writer. The world would have truly missed out. ❤
This album helped me going through a lot of mental and physical pain.
this video was also released two days after my 6th birthday. Those were the best times of my life, I was so happy during those times. Playing PS2, watching WWE (when it was awesome) every week, my VERY FIRST CRUSH, damn. The best times of life passed by so quickly. I was pretty dumb during these years, but so what? Id do anything, ANYTHING to relive these times again
This is perfect for a depressive person.... I love this band but they always make me cry, including evenescence
To any young adults around 18-20 who are still at home doing nothing after highschool, & apathetically letting depression take over in a dark room.
Please, do not make the same mistake I did, you don’t have to hide your sadness, please open up to anybody you trust, or go outside to feel some air.
I spent 2 years of my life indoors ignoring my depression & doing nothing with my life, depression is like a cancer, sometimes you have it but don’t realize it’s there & it’s been slowly killing you inside.
Hey. The same happened to me but I appreciate the fact that it changed me as a person.
this is how I found myself now
Yeah learnt this the hard way now I'm too fucked up to even care I tried fighting it but I always come back to the same place on multiple different meds and I still feel lost I don't think I'll make it but who knows.
@@catdogthing Hey bro, how are you now?🥺
@@catdogthing I can't click read more but from what you've said im on a similar spot and it's just painful
I hope your doing better and that you've found happiness
I have nothing left to give
I have found the perfect end
You were made to make it hurt
Disappear into the dirt
Carry me to heaven's arms
Light the way and let me go
Take the time to take my breath
I will end where I began
And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin
Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Dear Agony
Suddenly
The lights go out
Let forever
Drag me down
I will fight for one last breath
I will fight until the end
And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin
Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony
Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left
Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore
Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony
I feel nothing anymore
From Nats Head
top five saddest songs (my opinion)
1.hurt (johnny cash version)
2. snuff (slipknot)
3. Dear agony (these guys :)
4. so far away (avenged sevenfold)
5. wild horses (the rolling stones)
Pieces by RED
Not Alone by RED
Everything Changes by Staind
Lithium by Evanescence
Broken by Amy Lee
I don't like A7X, but I like "So Far Away".
Trent Stines ikr
Scorpion Venom Already over by RED #waterfalls D:
trolman777 I love that song too.
Is it weird that this song actually makes me feel happy? It makes me feel like all my stress is gone.
+Jenny Eaglelake (Tiger) same for me well except for the happy part
sameee
lol haha ikr but srsly it makes my stress melt away
Ales Di Same
for me it just feels like a relief to have my emotions summed up and understood by another person in an amazing song
Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left
Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore....I truly feel nothing...
This song helped me through depression and drug addiction after a bad car accident left me feeling like I just wanted give up. 11 years later it's hard to not have tears to this song always be proud of how much you have grown through. It's the reason your still alive today.
Such a beautiful song... this is now my new favorite band!
I'm mainly a metal guy, but this song is, lets say, great. Easily one of Breaking Benjamin's best
This song is so important to me right now.
This was the first ever rock song I heard in 2009 during my high school days and ever since then I've been a rockhead.
It's 2023 and I still listen to it. So many memories and nostalgia
Thank you Breaking Benjamin for being a part my childhood. ❤
God damn. As someone who suffered for a long time from severe depression and profound existential sadness and confusion, this song still gives me chills and makes me cry. So powerful.
Im unfortunately in that position at the moment, its almost so blinding to feel some sense of hope when the feelings hit. Fortunately i been able to stop myself from self harming or doing any sort of drug but it's really hard dealing with this all within 2 months my life felt apart so fast
I am broken and alone I don't have a lot of friends to talk to my parents are dead and my only brother passed away over a Year ago so sometimes I want to join my parents and my brother in heaven
Omg I read your comment lol my eyes started automatically crying lmao what the hell!! I can relate like so much it's so sad no one understands how you feel. I know what's that like.
It gets better guys.
A day at a time.
That’s really sad and im sorry for you but you wouldn’t be joining anyone in heaven since it doesn’t exist death is nothingness forever like before you were born but you can never be born again it’s the worst thing ever
Same for me but my parents are still alive but are both assholes and i lost alot of people over the years
Hang in there. You were made for a purpose and a reason. Pain will make you stronger if you lean into the One who loves you more than life.
The thing that breaks your heart most is the person you care for most tells people about your trauma
You feel like you have hope after this song... you feel like someone will cross your path and walk pass you and you feel agony and angry that your lonely. You are fighting your inner demon to be a normal person while everyone mocks you for who you are and it sucks... but deep down you are fighting for survival!
Anyone in 2024?
Me
So many years..still listening to this song... again and again
still
Me too
I'm 😂😊
I love this song and Breaking benjamins other albums aswell..but..sometimes i honestly feel abit lonesome when everyone always says i will not bow and so are their favs while i'm sitting here with Polyamorous, Simple Design, Follow and Rain :x
your not alone and polyamorous is my favorite
lucas leach great to hear, and nice :>
+Eila Juutilainen, We Are Not Alone.
Rain is pretty much my favorite BB song and it amazes me that pretty much nobody has heard it.
I like everyone of there songs it does not matter however it depends what mood I'm in
10 years later... This song is still so good
Holy moly guacamole I never thought I'd say this but this song called dear agony by breaking Benjamin is so beautiful and powerful I feel like I want to consider fighting my inner demons
**sings with feeling**
same
:( *Cries into my pillow*
i got a teared eye
Ass
Me too
Dear Agony...I love this song so much...
My sister and I listen to this song, not long after her husband took his own life, in 2014. We both bawled our eyes out. It's a song that also reminds me of my nephew, my sisters son, after he took his own life, in 2018. My nephew fought so hard to keep it together. He just never could cope with his fathers death. We could never get him to talk to anyone about his feelings either. My nephews passing is still so raw in my mind. He was my first nephew and we were so close, until his fathers death. I miss him everyday. The anniversary of his death, is just 2wks away. That's why it's hitting me even harder right now.
That's crazy how sad for your sister. To lose both your husband and son that way... Stay strong
I had a friend in high school who had severe burn scars on his face and always told everyone it was a car accident. He was found hung by the neck in the bathroom one day. I talked to a cop about what happened to him in the car accident. The cop replied "it wasn't a car accident, his mother lit him on fire." I woke up to reality that day. I hope anybody going through pain can understand that they are loved by people who they may never meet and that that's good enough to keep going. You can't please everybody, but if you exist, somebody will appreciate it. Much love from the United States.
Why did I only get into this band 6 months ago???? So many wasted years of my life without :)
haha that's right. They've been around for sooo long
Mavis I've always heard of them but just never bothered giving them a real listen until recently lol, oooops ahahaaha
Same here
same
I love this song. Speaks to me in so many ways
I lost you, my best friend, the only person I could trust in this world, because I either loved you too much, or just didn't love you enough. And I couldn't force you to stay. I've become so tired of losing people, but I never thought I'd lose you, too. I'm so sorry for the things I said and what I did. I can't keep you out of my mind. I still love you. I promise I'll be here when you need me. I'll stop asking for the impossible. I will make this up to you, I swear. I'm so sorry, my friend. I'm so sorry.
not trying to be mean but say that to their grave and not the youtube comment section you're not going to reach them like this not by trying to make people feel bad and crap like that; try and think about it this way "Those we love never go away, they walk beside us every day. Unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed, and very dear."
Sweetart Ninja That Is So True
I just wanted to say dont listen to them. Sometimes we just need to get something out to someone we can't. But for someone to criticise you for sharing that is so fucked. So nikoru go fuck yourself and stop telling people what they can or can't write on the internet..
@@nijhgbyyh6890 What the hell is wrong with you.
han se8 wrote it like 2 years ago 🤷♀️ don't remember writing it but I agree with half the stuff I said still
I love the fact that there's not one bad song by Breaking Benjamin. I love how I can just listen to their music and disappear into the music and forget bout the pain that still taunts me.
I had recently graduated and I remember when I was just starting high school I never made friends and I was always picked on so I was always telling myself that I wasn’t good enough and I deserved to die. I would sing this song with all I had while crying I’m still not in the best spot but I’m still holding on and I’m hoping you are to It will all get better just keep fighting It will be worth it ❤️
Very proud of you!
I graduated recently too as well. It’s definitely an iconic melody our generation needs 🖤
Good job
I feel nothing anymore 🎵🎵
Benjamin voice is awesome
can't have enough of this cool song
One of the best songs ever written. Top 3 for me. This song still gives me the chills, lyrics and vocals are out of this world
What a phenomenal song, this song is cold...very cold...full of memory and anger
The chords in this song are awesome, Breaking Benjamin is amazing *_*
It's sad to hear this real life cry. I used to be in a place where you beg and plead the pains of the heart to leave. I'm glad I don't cut deals with my depression anymore. We weren't made to let the heart control us, but we were destined to control our heart.
We all been there. "It" just keep hurting for a long long time. Breaking Benjamin never let me down when I felt that way. Including this time. Their music and message through music prevented the wrong ending in my life. Now I am here, only half as sad as I would be without them. I believe I am gonna get through this. You all will too!
This song brings me to tears
YES PERFECT ANOTHER DEPRESSING SONG WITH AN AMAZING VOICE
I’m uncultured I know I just learnt about breaking Benjamin when diary of Jane came on in my car yesterday
I gave 17 years of my life to a man that I thought loved me . Then one day he decided that I wasn't the right woman for him . Heartbreaking!! 💔
I'm so sorry 😢 I hope that things get better for you hon I've been there I understand . @ejoreo7610
I'm so sorry 😢@ejoreo7610
I diagnosed with a cronic illness about a yewr ago. Ive lost friends, family, and more while learning to live in hell. I can lose everyone and everything but i cant lose this pain. And i feel like this song really explains EXACTLY how i feel living with this. This band is such a comfort ❤
This has to be my first ever comment on youtube but I felt like sharing this:
When I was 16 I went through a really hard time and I was heartbroken for a long time I had lost my first love and was depressed all the time
I remember listening to this all the time and crying to it
Today I'm almost 21 and I can't tell you life is now magical and happy all the time but I've definitely mentally grown and lots has happened since then.
I am now listening to this and singing along feeling kind of proud, comparing where I was and where I am now
It gets better ♥️
this song is literally my mood rn😢😢
I'm sorry
God this song is so beautiful and sad
My father and his father battled addiction/mental illness and were never in their son's lives, in prison or on the streets. I'm breaking these generational curses with my son, grinding, working out. Im at the healthiest point I've ever been in my life, and the happiest even though life can be difficult. Fatherhood has changed my life and I'm only 25.
Agony has tried to grab me my whole life, but it has let go of me, and now I can live, and be better... thank you for this song that just hits home, and resonates in my soul.
When you're eating milk and cookies and half of the cookie breaks off and sinks into the milk
dear human, just let go of me, suffer slowly
thank you so much
+zoe taylor yeah, that guy/girl made a funny comment
😂😂😂😂😂😂
Lol I always hated that
I found out yesterday that one of my best friends committed suicide. This was one of the first songs she showed me.
I love you bree
3 months ago, after 4 months of severe psychosis and overall pain my mom passed.
A month ago (on Easter day) I severely injured my already injured back, making my chronic pain nigh unbearable.
5 days ago, I FINALLY felt it beginning to hurt less, let me function more.
3 days I was in an auto crash that's left me with crippling back pain (were still trying to diagnose with imaging).
Today is my birthday. I am consumed by grief, that for my own body but above all else for my mom.
This birthday I am filled with despair. Yet there is a fire struggling to find oxygen. I am not done here yet: there are things to reclaim. Happiness. Health.
This song is helping me cope, process, fight to keep surviving... and reading through the comments it's very clear that I am not alone in this.
If you're reading this, and you're hurting: I am so sorry for your pain. This realm is full of it, and if I could have one wish it would be that I might spare you from it.
May your day be blessed.
God bless you. I hope your doing better.
I’m so sorry :(. God bless you and I wish that you reclaim your happiness and health soon
One of the last times i ever spoke to my brother. He told me he tried killing himself but failed. He also told me everything he was going through, his struggles, his feelings, his mental health, all of it. He ended up killing himself a few weeks later.
This song is everything that he told me that day. Every time i listen to it and hear it. I end up crying because i miss him dearly.
I love you, my brother, I'll always miss you ❤
Someone I once called my girlfriend hurt me in the way women usually do... I was cheated on. But of course it was my fault... It was my fault I was hurt. I didn't deserve to live. People left my life one by one. I contemplated suicide. but it was worth it. I stumbled upon Jesus Christ and he restored me. i now feel complete. I want to live. I want a future, maybe even to find a good woman.. Who knows. Heh, it's kind of funny. I have no idea about anything in life. I have a (hopefully long) life stretched ahead of me, good times, sad times. Who knows, maybe it won't always be easy to go on. Betrayal, anger, resolution. Jesus. I never have to be alone. No i'm not preaching to you, I just hope some day you find your purpose, friend. Good luck :)
you're making me cry
I'm happy for you!
be strong you owe it to yourself
when you feel all alone and just ready to give up....
I hope you are still with us
Never give up hope until your last breath
+Collateral 915, there's no wrong way to interpret a song. If that's how u feel about the meaning, fine. This song can also speak to anyone of any kind of situation, such as the pain of losing a family member, friend, or lover.
This song saved my life. Fight it, the agony lets go. Thank you for your words.