Omg Ally, I’m so sorry you’re dealing with dismissive doctors, I totally know how you feel (unfortunately) and boooy can I relate to those sobs (sending so much love), so while it’s super hearbreaking, thank you for leaving that stuff in. Your vlogs are such pure comfort and I’m so happy I found your channel last year. Thanks for filming your beautiful life, the good and the bad. I’m hoping there’ll be so much more good to come.
I read this book called Rage Becomes Her and it talked about how unwell women are often dismissed for not looking sick and for other reasons, I’m not even unwell and this pisses me off
Every time you share your struggles I feel it so deeply. I am a New Yorker who has lived in Berlin for 18 years now. I left NYC because I was so sick and every doctor dismissed me and told me I needed to see a psychiatrist instead. I suffered (and still do) from chronic fatigue (back then doctors would laugh at me when I mentioned this), excruciating migraines called Hemiplegic that mimic stroke symptoms, and body pain that makes it very difficult to get out of bed. About 9 years ago things got better when I went vegan but I'm still a far cry from feeling well. Also like you, I am autistic. Diagnosed last year at the age of 45. My relationship to seeing doctors is an effing nightmare. Anywayyyyyy, all that to say, I SEE YOU and your struggles. And i thank you immensely for being you and being here in your little corner of the internet. My daughter, who is 13, loves watching your videos with me. She is currently drawing me a snail for my next tattoo thanks to your beautiful little guys. 🐌🐌🤍💙
I'm calling it now, Ally. You are going to surpass your 50k follower goal. Thanks for all the time you put into your videos, they always make my day better 😊
It’s nice to see you including gym stuff/goals in ur vids because being a spoonie girlie who does that is deeply under-represented. I can never do all the workouts on my schedule due to sick days each week but it still feels great when I can. Also, doctor dismissal is THE worst.
Yeeeesss to the Ana Luisa sponsorship!!! You should pitch designing a piece for them 👀 I’d buy a snail or frog design in a heartbeat if you made one. Food for thought heheh
OH MY GOODNESS GENIUS THIS IS INSPIRED, if there was like a pigeon or snail or cowboy cats earrings i would be throwing my money at that collab so faaaaaaaaaast...!!!
as someone who has struggled for many years to get the medical help that i needed because i "didn't look sick" i am giving you tHE BIGGEST HUG! the process of finding the right medical help when you are suffering from something that is not well known among doctors or that isn't easily visible on the outside or a simple scan is genuinely horrible and honestly sickening in and of itself. i fully understand the struggle. know that you're not alone in this (which can be both a comfort but also a huge source of frustration in this case..) always know that no matter what these doctors tell you, YOU are not in the wrong. you are the one who knows your body best, so stay stubborn and keep demanding answers/help. i hope you'll manage to find medical professionals who will be able to help you! i hope that you get to experience the relief of finally being heard and getting some actionable answers/advice. and before you get there, keep listening to your own body with at much kindness and patience that you can muster (& keep breathing well. like that may seem like very weird and stupid advice, but when your in a position where u feel so powerless over what's going on with your own body, taking good control over your breath can actually bring some relief, considering that it's a part of your bodily functioning that u have control over and it effects literally all systems within your body. again, maybe it's weird advice, but there's a lot of power in how u breathe and it's good not to forget that when you are made to feel so powerless otherwise).
7:50 the emulation energy of enjoying someone’s work and feeling in a non-creepy way like “i want to encapsulate her energy, and i feel like a child being like i wanna be you when i grow up, but i’m older than her, but you know what i mean” is exactly how i feel about this channel 😁 glad to be subscribed to isobel now too, fabulous recommendation!
This is going to sound silly BUT whenever I think of being a woman with medical struggles and dismissive doctors I think of an episode of Golden Girls. Dorothy experiences fatigue and just cannot get energy any time of day and a doctor basically tells her “you’re old lady what do you expect”. But she keeps trying. She advocates for herself and keeps going and finds a doctor that will listen and help her and BELIEVE HER. Hopefully you’ll find your doctor that believes you and helps you and respects you. You will be on my heart ❤
Ally, I saw pretty much everyone in the comments validating you in your sickness in pain, so I decided to join and say, that I feel you. I've been struggling with health issues (while of course not looking sick) for 10 years now and only last year in November I finally found a new general physician who took me seriously. My old one didn't do anything even when I proposed possible diagnosis to her and specifically asked her for certain test I would like to run and if I could get a recommendation for a psychiatrist, because I knew that although my issues were of physical nature, my mental state and anxiety was firing my symptoms big time. She looked me dead in the eye and said: "Ohh, Miss Fabia, do you even know how hard is it to find a good therapist? Do you really want to go through that trouble?" (I live in Germany btw, to pretty privileged in terms of healthcare over here) I was shocked. Another 5 years past and I finally had the courage to go to another general physician in my area who had just opened up his office. I was sitting in front of this young man (he's only 5 years older than me) and was crying my eyes out, telling him what had been going on over the past years and that I'm so tired of all of it. He considered me, proposed some test, to check my physical state and then asked me if I was interested in therapy. Yes, YES, YEEEEEES. He also gave me several contacts for therapists in my city and encouraged me to reach out, if I needed any other help to get what I need. This week, I went to my first therapy session with a lovely doctor who is specialized in psycho-somatic illnesses and I am so glad that I finally don't have to explain my issues to a wall anymore. I hope my little story gives you strength and hope. Oh, and "The God of Small Things" sounded awfully familiar. Upon looking it up, I noticed that I had to read it for my literature class I took when I was studying abroad, but only skimmed through it. Back than I wasn't a big reader (ironic right, studying literature and all, but well, University kinda killed the fun) and having only two weeks to finish a book was horror. That's why I don't remember much other than I found it kind of disturbing at times.
the risk with silica packets is that they are choking hazards, not that they are toxic or poisonous. Hopefully this puts your mind a little at ease about your cats and the sachets. also protip they are great for keeping in places where humidity build up is best avoided. Jewelry boxes, makeup bags, in boxes where books, cards, photos, or important paper documents are stored.
Omg I didn't know you were also a mountain goats fan, that's so cool! They've consistently been my top artist almost every year since I found them, haha
I know I'm a little late but I'm SO sorry you had that experience with dismissive doctors. It's awful and confusing that this is such a common thing. I had a doctor tell me I was "just constipated" when I went to get a concerning and painful abdominal bulge checked out and she made me feel like an idiot. Two years later I had to have a hysterectomy bc guess what! It was ginormous fibroids! Thankfully I tried again and found a doctor who listened. To anyone who's struggling with being believed about your pain, keep trying, keep telling your story, and keep advocating for yourself! ❤
i've been watching your channel for a while and your struggle with doctors reminded me of mine so much. it was either "you have the worst things possible and we need to do so many tests" or "it's an in your head, we won't do anything" (more of the later) i understand you so much. i came across a doctor after 10 years of struggling with arthritis and other pains and they suggested celiac. it was the answer finally! idk how it's like for you but i had intense migraines all the time that required frequent ER visits. i thought i could just write this out so you can have it in mind or read about it and see if it matches you too. hope you can find answers soon can u can be in less pain as possible. sending u much love!
Aw Ally, I’m sorry you had to go through Drs dismissing your illness and experiences again. I just wish I could give you a big hug! Thank you again for continuing to push through and despite everything happening staying in high spirits. We all love and appreciate you so much!
The little random tidbits of like Linda from Bob’s Burgers popping up in your brain also happens to me. And I’ve never met someone who has normalized that and it gave me a lot of peace today when I really needed it. So thank you and have a great day, week, month, life, all of it.
Thank you for sharing this! I had a horrible experience with a specialist recently… and I felt so defeated! He was mean in a unnecesary way and I felt ashamed that I ‘wasted’ his time. It took time and some conversations with different doctors to give it a place and to understand that doctors can be flawed and mean spirited. I cried so much and I’m find a lot of piece in discovering that im not alone in searching for medical help. ❤ May all the cats you meet in the next few weeks be cute & loving ♥️♥️
I just want to come here and validate u! I am chronically ill and I don’t even eff w doctors anymore (not shaming anyone at all who does cuz they r v necessary sadly) like I see them and i go through the motions, but after they refused to diagnose w me conditions I had literally every symptom of (guessing it’s cuz I don’t “look” sick allegedly and I’m a brown woman……) I started doing my own research and treating myself bc I literally had so much medical trauma. Doctors will act absolutely wild and there r no consequences for them, only us!!!!! Healthy ppl do not have to do all that we have to do, no matter how u look. Hoping u have better experiences going forward😭
those doctors need a kick in the butt, they truly suck... I hope it doesn't bring you down too much and as my message on instagram said you are strong!! you are enough and you bring such comfort to a lot of people and I hope we can bring the same comfort back to you!!! (also about sticky tabs, there's nicer ones on etsy or like aliexpress, there is also some on amazon but I agree that bezos doesn't need more money tbh) love your videos and hug your cats an extra time from me, much love!!!! 💖
Oh man! Yes! You are finally reading Mary Oliver! ❤ I really hope you can find a doctor that not only listens but believes in your pain. Finding a way of making one. Thank you for this awesome, real and wholesome content! ❤
they are a little more expensive but cloth and paper has really pretty neutral sticky tabs and mochi things has fun and cute ones that are not offensively neon!
this week I described your youtube to a friend by saying: it’s the only person I’m subscribed to that when I see there is a new video, I save it for a moment where I can fully savour it, usually while I eat dinner or have a snack, because all your videos give me such comfort, I feel like I need to give you my full attention 🥰 I’m so grateful that I found you and have made your videos part of my cozy self care routine!! 💞
You could try washi tape! And you can get a lot of custom designed washi tape on places like Etsy! I've seen a lot of people using it as the tabs in their books, which requires a bit more work but also looks a lot more colorful and you can support smaller creators 😊
My heart breaks for you. I know all too well how dismissive drs can be and I have so much hope that with time you will find who will help you. Allow yourself to be upset and sad. Thank you for your cozy vlogs ❤
My heart hurt listening to you cry. I’ve been there. It took years, but my diagnosis finally came. I still deal with doctors who dismiss health issues, but it happens less. I know you will find your answers;I just hope it’s in 2023!
Oh my year is just starting out on the right foot because of my discovery of THIS CHANEL and the wonderful existence that is you and all the things you choose to put into the universe that is accessible to us! How am I just now finding you? Never have I found someone who is the seemingly physical manifestation or curation of so many things that I absolutely love. Nintendo music nostalgia: Check. Love of Books: Check. Cozy Snail Parent Vibes: Check! While I know much of the internet is romanticized, you make things look like the best kind of romantic!! Thank you for just being a relatable human being and sharing the crappy parts of life with us because you make the rest of us feel less alone during our crappy parts!
I don’t make vision boards but if I did, you’d be all over it! I love your cozy corner of the internet. Side note, I’m so sorry for the discouraging doctor visit. I know how exhausting it is to constantly feel like you have to advocate for yourself and I hope you find the answers you’re seeking in this v fresh new year
I totally understand your fear of doctor. I had so many bad experience with psychologists and psychiatrists that try to check everything I can about them before going to see them but we never know if they are good unless we try. Sending love and strength ! ❤ Thanks for this video ❤️
I haven't seen anyone else mention it but for tabs I would probably go to Etsy, or kawaii pen shop (or basically a Japanese stationary store if you find one that ships to you for a reasonable price). Best of luck with the drs, as drs can be asses
I have autism and migraines too. After many years I've isolated many of the chemicals that cause the non-standard blood vessels in my brain to swell and cause migraines. Just recently something changed in the formulation of my favorite organic tea and it took me a month of food eliminations to hunt down the villain. I lost 10 pounds, had so many bad days. Sigh. Hang in there, I know it's tough.
girl i know where you can get tab things that aren’t from jeff (i think) and they have prettier colors. i’m not sure if belgium (sorry if that’s not where you live, i’m bad with countries. there’s so many) has this place, but it’s a store called daiso and they have such amazing stationary and it’s pretty cheap too. that’s where i get mine. i believe half price books has some too, and probably barnes and noble.
1. My heart absolutely broke when you put in the clip of the post-doctor breakdown 😭🥺❤️🩹 2. Your inclusion of the Sims and Kingdom Hearts music helped make it better ❤
I love making a vision board at the beginning of the year! I set it as my computer background and make it how I want my camera roll to look. Bright/ cozy, full of travels, and friendship. Exciting times.
Ally, I am so sorry that the doctor treated you with disrespect. I have been to so many doctors that tell me the same thing and I am so tempted to yell at them and say, “what will make me look sick then? Throwing up in front of you? Passing out?” Like some doctors make me so upset so I completely understand. Also you have the cutest cat❤ sending you all the love girl!
I just ordered 1 million book tabs and sticky notes from Cloth & Paper! I found them on a list of black-owned stationary but I can't find that list again so no longer positive BUT they have gorgeous options!!!
Love your energy! So sorry you had to deal with that at the doctor! Touched you included me on your vision board, hopefully i can absorb some of your magic to achieve my intentions this year! Mwa mwa!
I don't know if you wear skirts, but Maya Kern occasionally (small business means skirt drops of different patterns at different times) has a snail patterned skirt that makes me think of you!
As a follow chronic migraine sufferer I feel you on the dismissive doctors and navigating through systems that really aren't designed for those with chronic pain or any kind of invisible illness. I wanted to say also that as of a few months ago I started propranolol and my attacks have reduced dramatically. Not sure if you/your doctor has tried that but definitely worth a go if not. Sending you all the good vibes. Thank you for being authentically you as always xx
Oh Ally. Hearing you cry like that broke my heart. As a fellow chronically ill Bitch™️ I have been there time and time again. I’m so sorry. You deserve better. Wishing you better treatment, answers, and happier days ahead. ❤️
that clip of you crying was heartbreaking to me :( i’m so sorry ally. i hope this new year is filled with understanding and no more shitty doctors !!!!!
Oh my heart. I've been there too Ally. I think it's almost more exhausting trying to get a diagnosis and going through countless tests than it is just being chronically ill. I'm so sorry you got the 'you don't look sick' comment. I see you! I love your videos, they are often a comfort watch for me (I saved this one for after my psychologist appointment today!). Personally I'd rather rewatch an older video than know you pushed beyond your limits to get uploaded. Also, I wear your snail shirt to lots of appointments and always get compliments :)
I’m having that frustration with doctors. For the past four years I’ve seen multiple doctors and been told there’s nothing wrong with me or I’m simply not active enough even though I’m in constant pain and working out for five minutes puts me out of commission for a week
These videos have the same sort of cozy vibe that I got from watching Heartstopper ❤ I’m not sure exactly what does that, but whatever it is, it’s doing that thing
your videos always make me smile .. thank you and I sorry that the doctor said that to you it break my heart hearing you cry sending love from Australia
Dearest Ally, my heart truly broke for you when you spoke about your experience at the doctor. It makes me so angry on your behalf that you could leave an appointment feeling so bitterly let down. But as a doctor myself who spends my days trying my darndest to make people feel heard however I can, your 'I hate doctors' comment hurt my lil heart. I hope very soon you can find a doctor that is on your side, and in the meantime I hope you can know that there's a lot of good ones out there, and some of us come to your channel for support, just like I did today after having a rough one. Sending you so much love!
i’m sorry i meant that i hate going to appointments because they make me so stressed and overwhelmed. i definitely do not hate all doctors. 💛 my GP is a doctor i love she always makes me feel heard and i’m sure you do the same for your patients. thank you for the kindness in your comment!
oh how i love ally!!! you deserve rest! i hope you fill this week with the cats and mary oliver and sleep and joy! sending u allllll the best vibes across the ocean and the land between us!!
Haven’t even started the video yet but just wanted to say I’ve been struggling a lot these past few months, after a few years of not having any severe mental health issues it’s been kind of a slap in the face. And things like your videos, are what keep me grounded and hopeful. Thank you for creating them ❤
Hi! Would you be willing to share your ultimate reading playlist? Don't feel pressured! I have trouble making a good relaxing playlist for reading so Im wondering about yours. Thank you so much :)
When you said “allow yourself time to grieve and mourn when things don’t work out as you anticipated or hoped” I’m not gonna lie. I got a little teary eyed. I lost someone very close to me a little over 2 years ago, and to this day, I still need reminders to slow down, because my brain (and heart) has “ouchies” . Just wanted to shed light on that because your videos are such a huge source of comfort. 🤍 that’s all.
This also leads me to asking, if you have recommendations surrounding grief? I connect with books that touch on losing someone, or losing parts of ourselves.
The beginning of january has been so shitty to me, thanks for sharing these videos with us and reminding everyone that's it's okay to feel sad and tired sometimes and that we can make it through the year
Hi Ally, I just heard about this book and thought of you: all in your head by marcus sedgwick, it’s about having a chronic illness and the doctors not believing you and what you are experiencing. I’m sorry about your doctor’s appointment, maybe this book will help 😘
your videos never ever fail to make me feel so full⭐️remember to congratulate yourself for your hard work because what you do has such a grand impact on us viewers!! ^^
Damn. Grieving and mourning things in my life has also been a theme recently. Living as a fellow American expat in Germany, there are some things and experience that I miss out on that are considered the typical “American experience/tradition” and accepting that I’m fully aware I chose this life for myself, but also allowing myself to mourn the experiences my friends get to have that I miss out on because of my choice to live here. Maybe you experience this as well, if so, I’m right there with ya. Lots of love ❤️
Thanks for the update Ally. I really enjoyed learning about your vision board, I hope it all comes to fruition for you. Also, I'm sorry the Doctors are continuing to be dismissive of your experience. That is so frustrating and unacceptable behavior by the Docs.. I wish you courage and strength to continue on your quest for answers. (Actually, I wish you would find a doc that believes you and takes your concerns seriously!) I noticed you had a playlist for reading, would you be willing to link it/share it? I'm always looking for new music, especially for reading. You can be proud of yourself for the work you do, all the effort your putting in to take care of yourself, and for acknowledging that it's okay to not feel okay sometimes. 🐌🍄🌱
beyond gutted for you that you've experienced this crap from medical professionals, and we're all so proud of you for what you're doing!! thank you for posting 🧡
I'm so sorry doctors are giving you a hard time, which is very relatable sadly. I hope you finally get the help you need this year!! I've been having some really shit days because exams equal stress equal headaches lmao but your videos always feel like a warm hug, thank you :') Also, for less annoyingly bright sticky tabs maybe check out Hema?
I know how you feel when it comes to the doctors. I’ve cried just out of frustration at the doctors. Unfortunately those comments will continue. Keep your head up, you know your body, and you are your best advocate!
I spent years with dismissive doctors. I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and me/cfs.. they suck, and they can't be treated anyway really... Not having a name for chronic conditions is so painful and discouraging. I hope you can find some answers soon
I hope you find some health solutions and better doctors this year! I'm glad you had a reminder for the book club bc I just joined the Patreon and the editing for this video is *chef's kiss* sending love 💕
I went from 15 credits to 12 for since I’m working two jobs this semester and I’m loving all the breathing room I have now, plus less tears because I passed stats (yes I got an F on the final shhhhhh)
Omg Ally, I’m so sorry you’re dealing with dismissive doctors, I totally know how you feel (unfortunately) and boooy can I relate to those sobs (sending so much love), so while it’s super hearbreaking, thank you for leaving that stuff in. Your vlogs are such pure comfort and I’m so happy I found your channel last year. Thanks for filming your beautiful life, the good and the bad. I’m hoping there’ll be so much more good to come.
I read this book called Rage Becomes Her and it talked about how unwell women are often dismissed for not looking sick and for other reasons, I’m not even unwell and this pisses me off
Every time you share your struggles I feel it so deeply. I am a New Yorker who has lived in Berlin for 18 years now. I left NYC because I was so sick and every doctor dismissed me and told me I needed to see a psychiatrist instead. I suffered (and still do) from chronic fatigue (back then doctors would laugh at me when I mentioned this), excruciating migraines called Hemiplegic that mimic stroke symptoms, and body pain that makes it very difficult to get out of bed. About 9 years ago things got better when I went vegan but I'm still a far cry from feeling well. Also like you, I am autistic. Diagnosed last year at the age of 45. My relationship to seeing doctors is an effing nightmare. Anywayyyyyy, all that to say, I SEE YOU and your struggles. And i thank you immensely for being you and being here in your little corner of the internet. My daughter, who is 13, loves watching your videos with me. She is currently drawing me a snail for my next tattoo thanks to your beautiful little guys. 🐌🐌🤍💙
I'm calling it now, Ally. You are going to surpass your 50k follower goal. Thanks for all the time you put into your videos, they always make my day better 😊
It’s nice to see you including gym stuff/goals in ur vids because being a spoonie girlie who does that is deeply under-represented. I can never do all the workouts on my schedule due to sick days each week but it still feels great when I can. Also, doctor dismissal is THE worst.
"I am going to make it through this year (if it kills me)" is so relatable to me!!!
that song by the mountain goats is always my anthem december --> february times
omg it’s happening… stay calm, it’s a new ally vlog A NEW ALLY VLOG!!!!
Yeeeesss to the Ana Luisa sponsorship!!! You should pitch designing a piece for them 👀 I’d buy a snail or frog design in a heartbeat if you made one. Food for thought heheh
OH MY GOODNESS GENIUS THIS IS INSPIRED, if there was like a pigeon or snail or cowboy cats earrings i would be throwing my money at that collab so faaaaaaaaaast...!!!
as someone who has struggled for many years to get the medical help that i needed because i "didn't look sick" i am giving you tHE BIGGEST HUG! the process of finding the right medical help when you are suffering from something that is not well known among doctors or that isn't easily visible on the outside or a simple scan is genuinely horrible and honestly sickening in and of itself. i fully understand the struggle. know that you're not alone in this (which can be both a comfort but also a huge source of frustration in this case..) always know that no matter what these doctors tell you, YOU are not in the wrong. you are the one who knows your body best, so stay stubborn and keep demanding answers/help. i hope you'll manage to find medical professionals who will be able to help you! i hope that you get to experience the relief of finally being heard and getting some actionable answers/advice. and before you get there, keep listening to your own body with at much kindness and patience that you can muster (& keep breathing well. like that may seem like very weird and stupid advice, but when your in a position where u feel so powerless over what's going on with your own body, taking good control over your breath can actually bring some relief, considering that it's a part of your bodily functioning that u have control over and it effects literally all systems within your body. again, maybe it's weird advice, but there's a lot of power in how u breathe and it's good not to forget that when you are made to feel so powerless otherwise).
:') thank you, anna
7:50 the emulation energy of enjoying someone’s work and feeling in a non-creepy way like “i want to encapsulate her energy, and i feel like a child being like i wanna be you when i grow up, but i’m older than her, but you know what i mean” is exactly how i feel about this channel 😁 glad to be subscribed to isobel now too, fabulous recommendation!
This is going to sound silly BUT whenever I think of being a woman with medical struggles and dismissive doctors I think of an episode of Golden Girls. Dorothy experiences fatigue and just cannot get energy any time of day and a doctor basically tells her “you’re old lady what do you expect”. But she keeps trying. She advocates for herself and keeps going and finds a doctor that will listen and help her and BELIEVE HER. Hopefully you’ll find your doctor that believes you and helps you and respects you. You will be on my heart ❤
Ally, I saw pretty much everyone in the comments validating you in your sickness in pain, so I decided to join and say, that I feel you. I've been struggling with health issues (while of course not looking sick) for 10 years now and only last year in November I finally found a new general physician who took me seriously. My old one didn't do anything even when I proposed possible diagnosis to her and specifically asked her for certain test I would like to run and if I could get a recommendation for a psychiatrist, because I knew that although my issues were of physical nature, my mental state and anxiety was firing my symptoms big time. She looked me dead in the eye and said: "Ohh, Miss Fabia, do you even know how hard is it to find a good therapist? Do you really want to go through that trouble?" (I live in Germany btw, to pretty privileged in terms of healthcare over here) I was shocked.
Another 5 years past and I finally had the courage to go to another general physician in my area who had just opened up his office. I was sitting in front of this young man (he's only 5 years older than me) and was crying my eyes out, telling him what had been going on over the past years and that I'm so tired of all of it. He considered me, proposed some test, to check my physical state and then asked me if I was interested in therapy. Yes, YES, YEEEEEES. He also gave me several contacts for therapists in my city and encouraged me to reach out, if I needed any other help to get what I need. This week, I went to my first therapy session with a lovely doctor who is specialized in psycho-somatic illnesses and I am so glad that I finally don't have to explain my issues to a wall anymore. I hope my little story gives you strength and hope.
Oh, and "The God of Small Things" sounded awfully familiar. Upon looking it up, I noticed that I had to read it for my literature class I took when I was studying abroad, but only skimmed through it. Back than I wasn't a big reader (ironic right, studying literature and all, but well, University kinda killed the fun) and having only two weeks to finish a book was horror. That's why I don't remember much other than I found it kind of disturbing at times.
the risk with silica packets is that they are choking hazards, not that they are toxic or poisonous. Hopefully this puts your mind a little at ease about your cats and the sachets. also protip they are great for keeping in places where humidity build up is best avoided. Jewelry boxes, makeup bags, in boxes where books, cards, photos, or important paper documents are stored.
Omg I didn't know you were also a mountain goats fan, that's so cool! They've consistently been my top artist almost every year since I found them, haha
I know I'm a little late but I'm SO sorry you had that experience with dismissive doctors. It's awful and confusing that this is such a common thing. I had a doctor tell me I was "just constipated" when I went to get a concerning and painful abdominal bulge checked out and she made me feel like an idiot. Two years later I had to have a hysterectomy bc guess what! It was ginormous fibroids! Thankfully I tried again and found a doctor who listened. To anyone who's struggling with being believed about your pain, keep trying, keep telling your story, and keep advocating for yourself! ❤
HOMIE I WASNT READY FOR THE LIMP BIZKIT TRANSITION
I choked laughing. Love love love your videos.
your cats are angels in disguise i think
I love the Sims audio being in this video. Peak cozy.
i've been watching your channel for a while and your struggle with doctors reminded me of mine so much. it was either "you have the worst things possible and we need to do so many tests" or "it's an in your head, we won't do anything" (more of the later) i understand you so much. i came across a doctor after 10 years of struggling with arthritis and other pains and they suggested celiac. it was the answer finally! idk how it's like for you but i had intense migraines all the time that required frequent ER visits. i thought i could just write this out so you can have it in mind or read about it and see if it matches you too. hope you can find answers soon can u can be in less pain as possible. sending u much love!
Aw Ally, I’m sorry you had to go through Drs dismissing your illness and experiences again. I just wish I could give you a big hug! Thank you again for continuing to push through and despite everything happening staying in high spirits. We all love and appreciate you so much!
The little random tidbits of like Linda from Bob’s Burgers popping up in your brain also happens to me. And I’ve never met someone who has normalized that and it gave me a lot of peace today when I really needed it. So thank you and have a great day, week, month, life, all of it.
i need that playlist immediately :0 i can’t find it on spotify
Your white cat reminds me so much of the first cat I had when I was a child. That was about 50 years ago.
Thank you for sharing this! I had a horrible experience with a specialist recently… and I felt so defeated! He was mean in a unnecesary way and I felt ashamed that I ‘wasted’ his time. It took time and some conversations with different doctors to give it a place and to understand that doctors can be flawed and mean spirited. I cried so much and I’m find a lot of piece in discovering that im not alone in searching for medical help. ❤ May all the cats you meet in the next few weeks be cute & loving ♥️♥️
I just want to come here and validate u! I am chronically ill and I don’t even eff w doctors anymore (not shaming anyone at all who does cuz they r v necessary sadly) like I see them and i go through the motions, but after they refused to diagnose w me conditions I had literally every symptom of (guessing it’s cuz I don’t “look” sick allegedly and I’m a brown woman……) I started doing my own research and treating myself bc I literally had so much medical trauma. Doctors will act absolutely wild and there r no consequences for them, only us!!!!! Healthy ppl do not have to do all that we have to do, no matter how u look. Hoping u have better experiences going forward😭
those doctors need a kick in the butt, they truly suck... I hope it doesn't bring you down too much and as my message on instagram said you are strong!! you are enough and you bring such comfort to a lot of people and I hope we can bring the same comfort back to you!!! (also about sticky tabs, there's nicer ones on etsy or like aliexpress, there is also some on amazon but I agree that bezos doesn't need more money tbh) love your videos and hug your cats an extra time from me, much love!!!! 💖
Oh man! Yes! You are finally reading Mary Oliver! ❤ I really hope you can find a doctor that not only listens but believes in your pain. Finding a way of making one. Thank you for this awesome, real and wholesome content! ❤
they are a little more expensive but cloth and paper has really pretty neutral sticky tabs and mochi things has fun and cute ones that are not offensively neon!
you know, i don't personally know you but its feels like I do and you've helped me with so much! i love you ally i hope you feel better!
this week I described your youtube to a friend by saying: it’s the only person I’m subscribed to that when I see there is a new video, I save it for a moment where I can fully savour it, usually while I eat dinner or have a snack, because all your videos give me such comfort, I feel like I need to give you my full attention 🥰 I’m so grateful that I found you and have made your videos part of my cozy self care routine!! 💞
this is such a heartwarming compliment omg thank you paige!
i love the style of your editing is so funnyyyyyyyyyy. also hearing you cry broke my heart :(
You could try washi tape! And you can get a lot of custom designed washi tape on places like Etsy! I've seen a lot of people using it as the tabs in their books, which requires a bit more work but also looks a lot more colorful and you can support smaller creators 😊
ohhhh devotions devotions devotions. i found her poem Sometimes in that book and carry it with me everywhere. so special
Yay!! She promised a vlog and she delivered!! Already loving it ✌️❤️
I can’t express how happy I am every time you upload a video
Ally, we need your Spotify playlist link! I can confidently say all of us will appreciate listening to ally's ultimate reading playlist. ❤️🎶
You can get the pretty pastel/vintage-y page tabs from stationary pals
My heart breaks for you. I know all too well how dismissive drs can be and I have so much hope that with time you will find who will help you. Allow yourself to be upset and sad.
Thank you for your cozy vlogs ❤
My heart hurt listening to you cry. I’ve been there. It took years, but my diagnosis finally came. I still deal with doctors who dismiss health issues, but it happens less. I know you will find your answers;I just hope it’s in 2023!
Oh my year is just starting out on the right foot because of my discovery of THIS CHANEL and the wonderful existence that is you and all the things you choose to put into the universe that is accessible to us! How am I just now finding you? Never have I found someone who is the seemingly physical manifestation or curation of so many things that I absolutely love. Nintendo music nostalgia: Check. Love of Books: Check. Cozy Snail Parent Vibes: Check! While I know much of the internet is romanticized, you make things look like the best kind of romantic!! Thank you for just being a relatable human being and sharing the crappy parts of life with us because you make the rest of us feel less alone during our crappy parts!
I don’t make vision boards but if I did, you’d be all over it! I love your cozy corner of the internet.
Side note, I’m so sorry for the discouraging doctor visit. I know how exhausting it is to constantly feel like you have to advocate for yourself and I hope you find the answers you’re seeking in this v fresh new year
hip hip hooray for vlogs!!
"I'm going to make it though this year if it kills me" is definitely the vibe for 2023... I've been starting off rough!
I totally understand your fear of doctor. I had so many bad experience with psychologists and psychiatrists that try to check everything I can about them before going to see them but we never know if they are good unless we try. Sending love and strength ! ❤
Thanks for this video ❤️
Sistem of a Down always giving energy
I haven't seen anyone else mention it but for tabs I would probably go to Etsy, or kawaii pen shop (or basically a Japanese stationary store if you find one that ships to you for a reasonable price).
Best of luck with the drs, as drs can be asses
I have autism and migraines too. After many years I've isolated many of the chemicals that cause the non-standard blood vessels in my brain to swell and cause migraines. Just recently something changed in the formulation of my favorite organic tea and it took me a month of food eliminations to hunt down the villain. I lost 10 pounds, had so many bad days. Sigh. Hang in there, I know it's tough.
girl i know where you can get tab things that aren’t from jeff (i think) and they have prettier colors. i’m not sure if belgium (sorry if that’s not where you live, i’m bad with countries. there’s so many) has this place, but it’s a store called daiso and they have such amazing stationary and it’s pretty cheap too. that’s where i get mine. i believe half price books has some too, and probably barnes and noble.
Well, I did need to hear that 19:31 ❤
Your videos bring me so much comfort in my down time, and bring me so many great reading suggestions so thank you!
1. My heart absolutely broke when you put in the clip of the post-doctor breakdown 😭🥺❤️🩹
2. Your inclusion of the Sims and Kingdom Hearts music helped make it better ❤
I love making a vision board at the beginning of the year! I set it as my computer background and make it how I want my camera roll to look. Bright/ cozy, full of travels, and friendship. Exciting times.
babe!!! wake up!!! allisonpaiges posted a new vlog!!!!
Ally, I am so sorry that the doctor treated you with disrespect. I have been to so many doctors that tell me the same thing and I am so tempted to yell at them and say, “what will make me look sick then? Throwing up in front of you? Passing out?” Like some doctors make me so upset so I completely understand. Also you have the cutest cat❤ sending you all the love girl!
I just ordered 1 million book tabs and sticky notes from Cloth & Paper! I found them on a list of black-owned stationary but I can't find that list again so no longer positive BUT they have gorgeous options!!!
thank you for the sunny's love friend!!!!!!!! hoping u get a non bobo doctor soon
Love your energy! So sorry you had to deal with that at the doctor! Touched you included me on your vision board, hopefully i can absorb some of your magic to achieve my intentions this year! Mwa mwa!
awww omg and i love your energy! mwas right back athcha
I just found your channel and your videos are like a warm hug! Thank you🐌🍄💟
when you’re so early you beat the notification ✨💖
oh dang! impressive!
I don't know if you wear skirts, but Maya Kern occasionally (small business means skirt drops of different patterns at different times) has a snail patterned skirt that makes me think of you!
As a follow chronic migraine sufferer I feel you on the dismissive doctors and navigating through systems that really aren't designed for those with chronic pain or any kind of invisible illness. I wanted to say also that as of a few months ago I started propranolol and my attacks have reduced dramatically. Not sure if you/your doctor has tried that but definitely worth a go if not. Sending you all the good vibes. Thank you for being authentically you as always xx
i tried this and it was definitely helpful but gave me unrelenting night terrors so had to stop 😭
@@allisonpaiges ah I'm so sorry! I've been having some really scary dreams recently and this might explain it! Thank you for letting me know!! Xx
Oh Ally. Hearing you cry like that broke my heart. As a fellow chronically ill Bitch™️ I have been there time and time again. I’m so sorry. You deserve better. Wishing you better treatment, answers, and happier days ahead. ❤️
Thank you for sharing the healing Rumi vibrations at 15:06 Sending some strong vibes back for an actual empathetic doctor in 2023 🤞
that clip of you crying was heartbreaking to me :( i’m so sorry ally. i hope this new year is filled with understanding and no more shitty doctors !!!!!
Oh my heart. I've been there too Ally. I think it's almost more exhausting trying to get a diagnosis and going through countless tests than it is just being chronically ill. I'm so sorry you got the 'you don't look sick' comment. I see you!
I love your videos, they are often a comfort watch for me (I saved this one for after my psychologist appointment today!). Personally I'd rather rewatch an older video than know you pushed beyond your limits to get uploaded.
Also, I wear your snail shirt to lots of appointments and always get compliments :)
I’m having that frustration with doctors. For the past four years I’ve seen multiple doctors and been told there’s nothing wrong with me or I’m simply not active enough even though I’m in constant pain and working out for five minutes puts me out of commission for a week
These videos have the same sort of cozy vibe that I got from watching Heartstopper ❤ I’m not sure exactly what does that, but whatever it is, it’s doing that thing
What's the link to the spotify playlist? I can't find it 😔
Ooooo I like the new outro page!! Cute!!
your videos always make me smile .. thank you and I sorry that the doctor said that to you it break my heart hearing you cry sending love from Australia
Dearest Ally, my heart truly broke for you when you spoke about your experience at the doctor. It makes me so angry on your behalf that you could leave an appointment feeling so bitterly let down. But as a doctor myself who spends my days trying my darndest to make people feel heard however I can, your 'I hate doctors' comment hurt my lil heart. I hope very soon you can find a doctor that is on your side, and in the meantime I hope you can know that there's a lot of good ones out there, and some of us come to your channel for support, just like I did today after having a rough one. Sending you so much love!
i’m sorry i meant that i hate going to appointments because they make me so stressed and overwhelmed. i definitely do not hate all doctors. 💛 my GP is a doctor i love she always makes me feel heard and i’m sure you do the same for your patients. thank you for the kindness in your comment!
oh how i love ally!!! you deserve rest! i hope you fill this week with the cats and mary oliver and sleep and joy! sending u allllll the best vibes across the ocean and the land between us!!
Loved the plant hands 😂
Haven’t even started the video yet but just wanted to say I’ve been struggling a lot these past few months, after a few years of not having any severe mental health issues it’s been kind of a slap in the face. And things like your videos, are what keep me grounded and hopeful. Thank you for creating them ❤
Dude you don't know how much i needed an ally vlog today ❤️
Hi! Would you be willing to share your ultimate reading playlist? Don't feel pressured! I have trouble making a good relaxing playlist for reading so Im wondering about yours. Thank you so much :)
How do you make such beautiful collages?! Not gonna lie, I’d be excited about a diy collage semi tutorial video from you 😊
When you said “allow yourself time to grieve and mourn when things don’t work out as you anticipated or hoped”
I’m not gonna lie. I got a little teary eyed. I lost someone very close to me a little over 2 years ago, and to this day, I still need reminders to slow down, because my brain (and heart) has “ouchies” . Just wanted to shed light on that because your videos are such a huge source of comfort. 🤍 that’s all.
This also leads me to asking, if you have recommendations surrounding grief? I connect with books that touch on losing someone, or losing parts of ourselves.
crying in h mart is the first that comes to mind 💛 or as long as the lemon trees grow!
Hi Ally...take it easy! Don't worry about not reading enough. Your vlogs are so much more! Take care...
The minecraft music makes me feel so at home watching this video :))
The beginning of january has been so shitty to me, thanks for sharing these videos with us and reminding everyone that's it's okay to feel sad and tired sometimes and that we can make it through the year
Hi Ally, I just heard about this book and thought of you: all in your head by marcus sedgwick, it’s about having a chronic illness and the doctors not believing you and what you are experiencing. I’m sorry about your doctor’s appointment, maybe this book will help 😘
omg love watching ur vlogs
Aww Ally I am so sorry about the doctors! I 100% know how you feel and I'm sending you all the love and support I can right now
Your vision board is on ANOTHER LEVEL ❤
take it down a notch!! philosophy for 2023!!
Aww...love that you do cat stretchies with your cat too 😂🐱🐈
Uh! I Love your videos!!! So wholesome and genuine! Finding such happiness in little things ❤❤❤
Thank you for the reminder ❤
your videos never ever fail to make me feel so full⭐️remember to congratulate yourself for your hard work because what you do has such a grand impact on us viewers!! ^^
Damn. Grieving and mourning things in my life has also been a theme recently. Living as a fellow American expat in Germany, there are some things and experience that I miss out on that are considered the typical “American experience/tradition” and accepting that I’m fully aware I chose this life for myself, but also allowing myself to mourn the experiences my friends get to have that I miss out on because of my choice to live here.
Maybe you experience this as well, if so, I’m right there with ya. Lots of love ❤️
Every time i feel overwhelmed i come to watch one of your videos. It feels extremely nice. Thank you, Ally 🤍
I love this channel, I love these vlogs. U cook so good, u draw so good, u play w cat so good. Eat pray slay this 2023
Thanks for the update Ally. I really enjoyed learning about your vision board, I hope it all comes to fruition for you. Also, I'm sorry the Doctors are continuing to be dismissive of your experience. That is so frustrating and unacceptable behavior by the Docs.. I wish you courage and strength to continue on your quest for answers. (Actually, I wish you would find a doc that believes you and takes your concerns seriously!)
I noticed you had a playlist for reading, would you be willing to link it/share it? I'm always looking for new music, especially for reading.
You can be proud of yourself for the work you do, all the effort your putting in to take care of yourself, and for acknowledging that it's okay to not feel okay sometimes. 🐌🍄🌱
Always enjoy your vlogs and how honest you are. Love your vision board. Yes yo manifesting all the money this year, right there with you!
beyond gutted for you that you've experienced this crap from medical professionals, and we're all so proud of you for what you're doing!! thank you for posting 🧡
The vulnerability. Love it.🥹💜
Love & light to you, friend✌🏽
I'm so sorry doctors are giving you a hard time, which is very relatable sadly. I hope you finally get the help you need this year!! I've been having some really shit days because exams equal stress equal headaches lmao but your videos always feel like a warm hug, thank you :') Also, for less annoyingly bright sticky tabs maybe check out Hema?
hema!!! genius
I know how you feel when it comes to the doctors. I’ve cried just out of frustration at the doctors. Unfortunately those comments will continue. Keep your head up, you know your body, and you are your best advocate!
I spent years with dismissive doctors. I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and me/cfs.. they suck, and they can't be treated anyway really... Not having a name for chronic conditions is so painful and discouraging. I hope you can find some answers soon
I hope you find some health solutions and better doctors this year! I'm glad you had a reminder for the book club bc I just joined the Patreon and the editing for this video is *chef's kiss* sending love 💕
I like your glasses. Great video
I went from 15 credits to 12 for since I’m working two jobs this semester and I’m loving all the breathing room I have now, plus less tears because I passed stats (yes I got an F on the final shhhhhh)
WOOOOO HOOOO YOU PASSED STATS THAT IS AN IMPRESSIVE TRIUMPH!!!!