i honestly hide my emotions to protect myself from ppl saying that im faking it . i afraid of ppl that whould say she's an attention wh0re because that will just make it worse. im afraid ppl will think im weak or pity because im not. im just depressed and tired.
I haven’t been diagnosed or seen a doctor about my feelings, but thats so true! I have a family member who is actually diagnosed who i look up to, so one of the reasons is not worrying them or getting accused of copying, the people i could talk to i dont trust enough, but more importantly i dont even know how to put my feelings into words to describe it
Yeah, true. A "friend" who only used me to vent betrayed me and called me an attention seeker and since then I've been scared of showing any real sadness. Then my "best friend" at the time mentally abused me and forced me even more into hiding my own feelings. When I told my other friends about it they thought I was overdramatic and just wanted attention and they left me. Condolences to anyone else going through this stuff
I wrote this poem: *I'm Fine* You ask me how I am I think "I'm awful, damn," But I say "I'm fine, how about you?" You say "I'm fine, too!" Before asking you don't see The black clothes that cover me The emptiness in my eyes My numbness on the rise When I hide in the bathroom Just to bring me doom How I run past a mirror My reflection is my terror You don't have to deal With how I feel For my numbness grows And you won't ever know When you ask me how I am I don't say, "I'm awful, damn," For, outside I'm smiling Inside I'm dying
I've been at a point where I went to the bathroom three times a day, just to breakdown several minutes. At times I'd meltdown in the shower, lose concentration for 30 minutes while studying, and fall asleep an hour or two after heading to bed. There were days when I did not feel hunger at all, never mind lacking an appetite altogether. I am not licensed to diagnose myself, but whatever it was, it still lurks around me and attacks once in a while. It's not so bad anymore. Journaling and a change of environment (with the same depressive AF toxic people), has helped me somewhat. I started experiencing depression when I was a fetus, and it really struck me when I was ten. Every time I have ever had it was because of my father, not to shift the blame but the evidence points in that direction. 😔
@@rue2599 You'll get better! Stay strong like you are right now! You're doing a great job, I know you are. You're not alone, me, and millions of other people are with you! We'll get through this!
@@dhritimukherjee271 Be relaxed and confident. Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice and have a healthier life. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed, be as still as possible and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep inhalation-exhalation needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Stillness brings internal peace. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
me: "hey, im depressed and have been for a long time" then: "pfft, what do you have to be depressed about? just go outside more, its all about mind set" k, ill never talk to you about how i feel again. ill just put on this facade that i've gotten so good at maintaining, no one will ever know i want to die.
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
People tend to say "don't be scared to share your thoughts with me!" But when you tell them something about your depression, they start either screaming at you that you don't know real depression or they just can't help you and leave you
Right or the worst they tell u in ur face that they don't understand u,or u should not feel depressed...Like bro thx for ur advice,I've never thought that I shouldn't feel depressed wow,as If I can control my feelings...What ppl don't understand is that we cant control our feelings,just how we act, but the internal part no
@Dominic Timmons don't listen to them...beo if u want to cry,do it...firstly it doesn't mean ur weak...and secondly it makes u feel better...so screw what others think
I need to hide it. I don't want to trouble or burden those people I love. Everytime I almost share my troubles I will immediately remember that they have their own troubles, and I don't want to add more. As long as I can still hold it, it's ok. It's ok. Everything will be fine, maybe not now but someday. Maybe tomorrow will be ok. Everything will be ok soon.
Its ok to have worry , fears, insecurities, anger , anxiety . Its not ok to try to bear it all on your own . If you go down , and become so ill from bottling if up, what will be the feelings of those people you chose to hide it from ? What will the outcome be ? Know you are just as important as anyone else and you can't fill others cup from an empty bottle. Seek out people with empathy , deep within you , you know who you can approach. Never give up . The right listener is just around the corner ⚔️❤️⚔️
People often ask if I'm ok at random times or ask if I'm depressed. I'm quite introverted and I do look down a lot but I'm never really actually sad and since people ask everyday, it gets annoying. Eventually, after this happening for years straight, I'm ironically turning more sad from people asking if I'm sad all day and now I feel like perhaps I was in denial all along. It's just slowly crushed my esteem.
Wow, that's a lot the same thing with me, but my weight. I've always been too thin and weighed too little. The school nurses and other authority people always kept asking me at checkups "if I ate what I should" and "if I avoided eating full meals". I was pretty knowledgeable back then compared to my age, so they didn't know that I'd be able to understand what they were hinting at. But I did. Later on it kept happening again and again, and now I actually do struggle with it. It's like they inserted in my mind that I had to feel like that or have a specific "mindset" to be thin, so I eventually began actually doing it. They never thought I maybe just had a high metabolism, which I only much later found out that I did. Would have saved me so much mental garbage.
Must be nice having someone that are concerned about you and have the courage to ask about your condition. Ahhhh how life is like a coin that have heads and tail, truly feels like a blind person trying to see what is at the uncharted depth.
I think, I'm also in denial of my depression. I'm introvert and can hold normal conversations well but often times I prefer to stay silent and don't engage in conversations, sometimes I feel uncomfortable if they ask me if I'm alright and I would rather for the person not to bring it up again if I'm okay .
As someone who has recently begun hiding my depression. That point about thinking "What's the point?" hits hard. It's very true. I'm constantly worried that if I don't focus on the meaning behind my every word then people are going to take it incorrectly and become angry with me. Or worst, hurt by my words that were never meant to be hurtful.
@GoGicz *hugs* while this may not be the case for you, for me I looked around and found my hostile environment has been playing a roll. For instance transphobic brothers and manipulative parents.
Honestly, saying your problem, or showing your depression to a love one wouldn't help you get rid of it, you might actually get rid of your love ones instead. I experienced sharing my problems to some of my friends, heck even my Girlfriend, and what did they do? They left me. That's why hiding depression is commonly the act of choice of someone suffering from it.
Well… if they left you then it means that you are not deserving them. You deserve better people in your life instead. Everyone experienced betrayal and you are not alone here. There are some kinds of people trying to push away problems from themselves because it is hard for them to feel someone’s problems
It's good to open up bc if they show you their true colors or leave, all of these things are inevitable & even more painful if dragged on. It's good in my opinion to establish an open emotional sharing platform early on in the relationship, for transparency & intimacy. Sorry that happened to you though.. you do deserve/will find better people. Just keep opening up.
@@batoolarif1607 Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice and have a healthier life. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed, be as still as possible and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep inhalation-exhalation needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Stillness brings internal peace. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
*Bold* =Me Regular=signs 1. They’re pessimistic about the future *I have an issue with making plans for the future that's what makes me frustrated about it.* 2. They have a hard time concentrating *Plus horrible memory!* 3. Their body undergoes big changes *Back hurts often.* 4. They get unusually quiet *Has started distancing from friends on purpose to make sure they don't notice my condition so they don't ask questions.* 5. They keep conversations surface level *Will have deep conversations but only for another being and rarely ever for myself.* 6. They smile to hide their pain away *Pro*
Sadly we're a burden to normal people. We need to keep our illness to ourselves and fight hard everyday. Stay strong people. It's only us who can fight and make the change.
"There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.” - depression can be very difficult to talk about and is usually so. We need to take care of ourselves and our loved ones. The one piece of advice that got me wondering goes something like this "Be the person to others you wished you had when you were in need "
I've had depression for a little more than a year now, and I can say that there is no hint of cowardice in hiding one's problems. Every time I opened up about my problems, it exposed the people I loved to them. I've come so close to losing friends that way. To me and many others, hiding is protection for the people we love.
Watching these videos has recently become like a therapy for me, since someone is able to accurately describe alot of stuff I go through with seeming critical of them. So I hope all is well and that you keep making these videos. Thanks a bunch
Whenever I want to say something difficult like this to someone else, it's like the communication center in my brain completely shuts down and I become physically incapable of forming the words to express my feelings, due to fear and not wanting to burden other people with my problems.
yeaahhh same it feels like u lost all ur words... and just have nothing to say... even tho u want to say a million words... u just feel completely blank...l would suggest using letters... u don't have to give it to someone if u don't feel like.. but even writing it down.. it feels better.. (here l am referring u to myself, to u and to everyone who relates to it)
I can relate and understand. I would say that a way to overcome this is to put the trust in someone and test the waters, i.e. if they claim that you're not a burden, and you really see genuinity from them with that claim. It probably sounds easier than done, but it could be a saver. I wish you very well :)
I feel like a burden everytime i confront my closest friends about my depression so I have decided to try to hide my depression. Not bottle up my feeling but to keep them more to myself. I'm so tired of being that one friend that's always negative and always talk about my insecurities. My anxiety has been so high later I have been pouring all of my fears and insecurities on my friends. I'm scared they will grow tired and leave. Bc it happens way too often.
A true friend will help put the pieces back together, will help heal the wounds , and make sure you have others standing with you , when they don't feel adequate enough to support you in a manner you require . What better way to test your friends , than to require them to be a real friend ? ⚔️❤️⚔️
We tend to fail at confronting our own self-generated misery because it requires a surge of energy that is virtually unavailable to the depressed. . Who wants a friend who is always down, who rarely smiles and who continually reports feeling awful? What can be done? If your mind only plays misery tapes running on some continuous loop, then it’s as hard as getting out of Hell. Like the Hotel California, you can check out but you can never leave. Instead, you gotta crawl out. How? Play different tapes. In your head. Some call them affirmations. It’s not easy to tell yourself that you are wise, thoughtful, strong, youthful and delighted with life. It’s called controlling one’s mind. A Thirteenth Century Buddhist reformer monk, Nichiren Daishonin, said, “Control your mind. Do not let your mind control you.” I have a great deal of respect for those suffering from depression. There’s no need to hide it, but you are the only one capable of overcoming it, even when It drains from us the very energy needed to defeat it. But the best part is that it can be defeated with the proper philosophy, determination and encouragement from one’s self and others. Pain is a given, suffering is an option.
When you family doesn’t believe you and say that “your too young, you probably don’t know what it feels like.” Yeah that has happened to me a lot but the only people who believe me is my cousin, bff, online friends 😃
@Khanh Vu My elder sister doesn't understand me too. (I don't have depression) But i get very sad about this. Whenever I make some snitty comments or tell her off if she does something incorrectly, she gets mad at me and says I'm rude. I don't mean to be rude at all I just speak my thoughts :( I feel like I'm at wrong but that's just how I speak sometimes and it makes me feel bad and now I don't think I can speak comfortably to her.
0:32 They are pessimistic about the future 1:04 They have a hard time concentrating 1:43 Their body undergoes big changes 2:20 They get unusually quiet 3:05 They keep conversations surface level 3:41 They smile to hide their pain
Speaking from experience, people nowadays only care about themselves unless you're rich or hot. That's why I just keep it all to myself. But I know I'm one of the strongest person in this world going through all of these alone. I don't see any point of opening up if all I get is left out and getting ignored. It made me even worse. The more I show my flaws, the more they dislike me. That's what humans are. They only want perfections especially from a man who has nothing like me. No matter how worse your condition is, you have to win. Only family cares about you, but not always.
Truely wise and kind people who are there for you are just insanely rare nowadays, but also in the past. The kind front of a person is often filled within with selfishness. They will only care about what they feel and don't bother others' problems. That kind of person could be you, or also me. You just don't know until you open up to that person and see how they react.
You’re not defined by your past. We’ve never met, but I can say you’re a very special person. I’d love to hear back from you that you did end up reaching out and taking the same risk on love that we all take. It will be okay. Make sure first, to take care of you. No matter what, you can pick yourself up and move forward. Everything is okay. It is.
You💙 were Created to be Loved💙 The Grandest💯 purpose for your existence by your caring Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is to be loved💙 😍 by Him💙- that's the gist, that eternal truth that anchors🌟 every other aspect of His manyfold Goodness💜 poured out towards You. His Love💗 is showering at you by the milli-second - waves💧 upon waves💧 of His💜 Unconditional💙 love💜 over you💙 constantly. You are approved and you are accepted by the King of Hearts💙, He is enthroned👑 in your Heart💜. He's safeguarding your life💙, His Love prints are all over you and you cannot escape the lavish exponentially infinite reality of His Royal👑 squeeze your highness👑. Be refreshed💜, renewed💜 and revived in this truth💧- He adores😍 you and his very protective over You💙, your a father💙 pleaser🤗. You make His heart-smile😀. Your Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is so proud of You🤗, as You🤗 continue to Love💙 before depature 🛫 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
One day I was organising many older photos of myself on my computer, of the recent and distant past. I could see how much I smiled in so many of these. Smiling is something so natural for me. And yet, I was never genuinely happy inside. I think that was the day I realised how deeply I had been hiding it all along without knowing.
This very much hits home for me. Yet while reading the chat, one can tell that they are not alone even though you feel like the most isolated person in the world.
This literally just ended my relationship. Last summer my grandpa suddenly passed from a heart attack, 3 months later my little sister took her own life a week after her 21rst birthday, I found her with her brain leaking out. Then a few months later my house caught fire and was a complete loss. Then a large chunk of my family disowned me cause I was grieving correctly. Then I had to put my mom in the psych ward. She said I changed, I had unhealthy habits at our apartment, I would just sit and disassociate till she got home from work. I knew I wasn't ok I just didn't want to burden her with it. Just ask for help, it seems like the hardest thing to do but it's better to externalize than to internalize
Omg Honey !! Honestly......yess the hardest thing for a person who has depression is to ask for their help or asking them to support them or comfort them ......you have gone through a lot and LOOK you are still moving forward and JUST IMAGINE you have gone throught ALOT and still you so so strong that you are not giving up ....I am also having a hard time with myself and I can understand you .......ITS OKAY MY LOVE , YOU ARE VERY STRONG AND I BELIEVE YOU 💜
well. you're not alone brother. Some time ago not knowing I was heavily depressed for years ( found out after chain of events that happened afterwards ) suddenly I had to squash everything. My ex cured me instantly by leaving me. Taking away my child away and turning against me, accusing me of rape and abuse to have free support in court, turned my friends and family against me too. I was left to die. The only person that stood by my side was my mom but I think my situation got to her . She became very ill ,not long after seeing what was happening to her son.( she never showed that but found her medical records) eventually , she left . Till this day , I didn't see my child. Thinking about my kid every single day. life is a beach, testing peoples limits. I'm sending my middle finger to the world. I learned important lesson . I t's better be at the bottom but 100% truly with yourself than for a split second at the top with someone not worth of your time. my message to you " what doesn't kill me , can only make me bleed"
@@y.a.p8951 omg.....this is so messed up......I don't know what to say but after reading this the only thing I thought of is that even after happening so MUCH u are still moving on and u are still living you life , maybe not the way you want but still u are alive........YOU ARE TRUELY A BRAVE PERSON ......🤍
@@butterfilter415 no need to say anything. you're right despite many struggles in life , we're still here and alive. At least I was able to find happiness in simple things.
it makes me sad how hopeless ive become, ive always been the most determined and hopeful person i know who's will to live and do what they want in life was stronger than anything, despite their depression. but my will to live has started to deteriorate, and my hope for the future is,, pretty much gone. the only reason im alive is because i dont want to hurt my best friend and my mom,, i genuinely didnt think id ever feel suicidal, but here we are ig
I love when I'm dreaming or sleeping (although the past months I have been only getting 4 to 8 hours of sleep, which is not a lot for me) I have these characters in my head and when I'm sad at night and it all comes in a huge wave, I think of them. They're telling me it's okay. It's like they're my friends. I love them so much, I wish they were real I think about them every day and they all tell me things, as if they're talking to me and they're here
I knew for a while that I’m hiding my depression but I just watched this video for an extra layer of confirmation and yet again I see a reflection of myself in your videos
You💙 were Created to be Loved💙 The Grandest💯 purpose for your existence by your caring Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is to be loved💙 😍 by Him💙- that's the gist, that eternal truth that anchors🌟 every other aspect of His manyfold Goodness💜 poured out towards You. His Love💗 is showering at you by the milli-second - waves💧 upon waves💧 of His💜 Unconditional💙 love💜 over you💙 constantly. You are approved and you are accepted by the King of Hearts💙, He is enthroned👑 in your Heart💜. He's safeguarding your life💙, His Love prints are all over you and you cannot escape the lavish exponentially infinite reality of His Royal👑 squeeze your highness👑. Be refreshed💜, renewed💜 and revived in this truth💧- He adores😍 you and his very protective over You💙, your a father💙 pleaser🤗. You make His heart-smile😀. Your Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is so proud of You🤗, as You🤗 continue to Love💙 before depature 🛫 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Jesus💙 loves You😊, please read the book of Psalms 139
There is no way to function without “hiding” depression. It is not simply something you experience in the moment in reaction to normal emotional stimulation. No. Its a constant invisible weight you have to bear. If it isn’t at an completely overbearing level it might be possible to smile or laugh at a joke, but it’s still there in the background. Its like “physical” pain in the way you can be experiencing constant mental discomfort even though you aren’t yelling in agony or crying every moment. If you constantly display outwardly how you truly are feeling people won’t even want to interact. You have to develop an outer layer thats separate from your actual inner being. For this reason people do not understand when you get pushed beyond your limit. You may appear to suddenly break down or lash out in anger, but they don’t realize it was building underneath for a long time. I wish people could see the pain without me having to show them.
I've definitely felt like this for years, but the hardest part of all of this is the fact that I never had a friend before. Family members were too different that I drifted from them or began to distrust them. Having to go through all this without anyone to see me or help me kinda ruined my atmosphere, to the point that I can't even force a smile anymore.
Considering at school when I’m in math class, while my math teacher goes to get something my history teacher asks me “Are you okay”? and I just brush it off. and say “yeah”. it’s like I always put on a smile at school but yet I feel hurt deep inside.
Everyday is the same. I don’t ever feel truly happy because whenever something nice happens to me I’m just like “oh that’s cool” and then I just go back to being a sad sack. When I’m at work I rarely speak but when I do it’s usually just “yeah” and “okay thank you” which is pretty much all I need. I don’t have any irl friends so I have no idea how to properly talk to people and thus I just spend my time off alone in my room doing nothing. Only time I’m happy is when I’m asleep
Hey im sorry to hear this. Have you tried exercising? While it won’t solve everything it does help with mood in my experience. It has helped me a lot. Find something you enjoy and patiently build up. Hope this helps.
None of us are perfect..everyone has a backpack full of shit.. some of them are just better at covering it up. Youre here on earth for a reason.. it doesnt always needs to be a huge reason.. sometimes its just enough to smile at someone during the day and make their day. Try to make it through this and be well, try to see the bigger picture. Youre worthy just like everyone else is worthy.
You're not alone. I feel the exact same way as you. I feel like I have no real emotions anymore, I'm just faking them. I also have no irl friends as well as online friends, because I just can't do it. Its so hard man, but you'll get through it. We'll both get through it
I’m so grateful for your work… it really helps clarify the blur of being in this condition. I started to treat my depression last month and your videos really help me through my process of accepting and healing it.
This is honestly me and my entire family atm, we recently lost our grandfather as he was a big foundation in all of our lives when it came to support and love, and ever since his passing everything has changed, we are all quiet and hide our emotions and extremely depressing towards one another, plus we view our futures in an extremely negative light, we are all trying so hard to escape this feeling and now it seems we are stuck and have no where to go or how to cope with these feelings, it’s seems we are constantly stressed and angry a lot, we are currently in a burnout and we are praying and hoping things get better.
I can relate to all of these habits of hiding depression. The most painful part about being depressed in my case is not being able to talk to anyone about it because they'll either undermine my pain or the extent of depressive mood I feel throughout the day or totally not understand my feelings.
I just make people laugh, when people are too busy laughing they don’t notice that you are depressed. This way they don’t ask questions and if they do the answer is “I’m just tired”
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
On social media people shows their acknowledgement and acceptance towards odd things and shows that they are advance and developed but in reality they are different. They don't give space to socially odd people and make fun of them.
I once decided to open up to my mother about everything I have in my mind, and I did, but she just said that "what do you have to be worried about" and completely ignored what I felt like, since then I started isolating myself and just talked to people only when necessary. I really do wish if I can reach out for help, but then comes my trust issues.
i sort of hide mine still, only my closest loved ones know what i’m going through, sometimes i unfortunately make jokes about me unaliving (of course to which they don’t find funny) but no one will ever fully understand what i’m going through, fighting my mental battles everyday by myself. i also get called lazy to my face and behind my back, but no one knows how much i fight everyday to remain on this earth in hopes of better days ahead and that things will *hopefully* get better, and the day will come where i’ll be able to say “i made it, all of the pain was worth it.”
You are completely fine and completely happy! 😃. Although it's not a easy thing to just recover just like that, please do not keep saying you have depression to yourself. Psychologically it will hurt you more. But I wanna let you know that, good and fun times are on their way! They are just stuck in traffic! Life is battle. Fight it to get the good out of it. No matter how hard it seems just keep fighting and you will win soldier! Your so brave and you can overcome this situation easily.
You💙 were Created to be Loved💙 The Grandest💯 purpose for your existence by your caring Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is to be loved💙 😍 by Him💙- that's the gist, that eternal truth that anchors🌟 every other aspect of His manyfold Goodness💜 poured out towards You. His Love💗 is showering at you by the milli-second - waves💧 upon waves💧 of His💜 Unconditional💙 love💜 over you💙 constantly. You are approved and you are accepted by the King of Hearts💙, He is enthroned👑 in your Heart💜. He's safeguarding your life💙, His Love prints are all over you and you cannot escape the lavish exponentially infinite reality of His Royal👑 squeeze your highness👑. Be refreshed💜, renewed💜 and revived in this truth💧- He adores😍 you and his very protective over You💙, your a father💙 pleaser🤗. You make His heart-smile😀. Your Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is so proud of You🤗, as You🤗 continue to Love💙 before depature 🛫 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Jesus💙 loves You😊, please read the book of Psalms 139
Since I was around 9 or 8 I've bottled up my emotions and faked happiness when I wasn't happy, and it's resulted in my temper growing thin, and me being even more sensitive. Yet I feel bad when I tell others about my problems. I feel like a burden.
I do hide my depression from everyone I know in real life, I just don't like being comforted/people asking if I'm okay. And people in my class makes jokes about Depression and ending lifes, which is really sensitive to me because some of my friends have done it. This is why I love online get to tell people how I'm feeling w/out me worrying if that person is going to tell someone because it's online! *:)*
I always feel like I have nobody to talk to. But when I say I have no friends, or family that i feel safe with, everyone comes out of nowhere offended. I might be the nicest meanest person
You know what i hate being, introverted and depressed its the worst combination im emotionally numb keep to myself and lose concentration in class more often and what i hate more is that some of these "problems" are traits to being introverted so now im confused which are traits to being really introverted or traits for depression i mean i know i feel empty and lost the reason to care for living a long life but than again i lose concentration keep myself and talk about surface topics and yeah i fake smiles and act jokingly act school
Not an expert or anything but- being introverted just tends to mean, that you need alone time to rejuvenate and you prefer smaller closer knit interactions like a movie night with your friend instead of a party. Everything you're describing sounds like it's just depression- they aren't core personality traits. *hugs*
Agreed. Being an introvert and depressed is so worse..u don't even know if its just your personality trait or signs of depression. I myself struggled with diagnosing my depression by my own because all which I'm feeling right now can be because either of them. And now after I know what it is, as a 15 yr old I can't go to therapy or counselling, and my parents won't ever listen.
When I was 16, things happened to me which caused me to become extremely emotional. At that time I only trusted my mother, she was my hero in a sense. When I told her, or reached out to her for help. She laughed in my face and teased me horrendously. From that day on, I've never told someone in person of my depression or feelings. I doubt I ever will. The sad part is I've become accustomed to it, now that I'm 20. I guess boys aren't meant to show pain. I guess there's just a meanness in this world, oh well.
boys _are_ meant to show pain. y'all are fricking human beings. i get it, society pressures males to bottle up and act tough, but sometimes just- let it out. cry a little, it helps. plus if no body is out there reaching out to you, just remember i am out there, as corny and cringy as it sounds.
It's good to open up to your friends and family, but yes, telling them constantly of your pain will become burdensome and stressful on them. This is why therapists are amazing to have. No fear of burdening someone who's paid to listen.
I really struggle with depression. I've never found a way to deal with it. I've just found a way to exist with it. Sometimes I truly do worry one day it will get the better of me.
His mom said r u sure u want to go to a concert w/ her? What if she leaves stranded again. My demented head: hahahahahaha. Ok but not at far away distance tho.. ty very much.. my kid: could u get arrested for that? Me: most likely not. Hes not a child! But Here recently tho., the thing that keeps me from being sad is knowing there's billions of ppl in the world... bc I do get sad. Im in the most pointless r.ship ever. I dont get why he won't leave. He guilt trips me. & I wont completely abandon him. Its just realistically I can't love someone I can't trust. Im gonna tell him to stop saying that to me too. And slowly keep my mental & physical distance. And maybe that'll work. Either hell fight harder or get out of the way so someone else can step up. And thats what I told him too. Step up or move out the way. Bc if he knows I deserve better, then he just does. I dont do games bc im too damn nice... they're not hard to play. Hes just lame
It's hard for people to understand how depression really is and what it does to people. I've tried to seek help and have conversation with several friends and family I love, however most of the time things get worse. Often time people have hard time understanding what you are going through, and might say things that make you feel worse. The worst part is while I am depressed, I am still thinking for them: "they are just trying to help me. I don't want to make them sad and tell them what they are telling me right now is pointless." Sometimes the conversation turns into an argument, which just makes me want to end everything but I am not trying to guilt trip anyone. I simply just can't handle it. At the end of the day, I choose to deal with it myself and hide it from people, and I feel it's the best for me and people around me.
I had depression for years as a teenager. I tried to change my situation without telling all of it, but was told off and asked to ‘face my problems’. That really set things off and I never told anyone until I was an adult. I pretended for so long I forgot who I really was. I felt like a robot and struggled to have an opinion about anything. In the end I forced myself to get out of my difficult situation and crawled my way out of the worst parts. I don’t know if it was a ‘normal depression’ but it was real for me for years. I did experience some of the stuff mentioned. What I would want people to know is that there is a way out of depression and that life can feel fantastic again. Getting to a place where I felt less trapped and letting myself choose instead of forcing helped most. Accepting that depression isn’t something to be ashamed of is something I am still working on.Part if the reason I was hiding it was that I felt people around me had enough on their plate and I wanted to protect them. One of the biggest reasons for my hiding it was some idea of protecting them. Now, so many years later, I think I didn’t help them by not telling. I just hid myself and my shame, in a stubborn manner. It was not worth it, hiding it for so many years really destroyed me on the inside. I went to therapy over 15 years later and my only regret was not going earlier. I can not take back the years I was unable to really live.
I know a friend that's going through depression and it hurts to see them like this. Just try your best to support the people you care about! Make them feel wanted. One act of kindness could go a long way :]
How I really wish there’s someone willing to listen to my stories and problems and will not judge me for feeling this way. It’s very suffocating. 😔 Waking up in the morning, it makes me feel like I’m just waiting for the sun to come down and sleep again. It makes me feel like sleeping is what’s giving me peace of mind. I often ask myself, “What’s my purpose? Why do I exist?” 😔 I feel that watching videos online and fangirling online are better than interacting with people around me. It’s very tiring.
I pray the universe grant your heart desire Hey friends I got my relationship fixed with the help of this great spiritualist who brought my ex after many months of separation,,, ,,
I'm currently crying, and this notif pops up in my notification bar. This is my first time after a long time crying so hard, and having a breakdown. And my Mom triggers my depression a lot. I love my mom, but whenever I tried to talk to her just to have chitchat, our conversation will straight down to an argument which I really wanted to avoid. My head hurts so much while crying silently. I'm already stressed with my studies, my midterm is coming, and I still have a lot of activities to finish, and now I can't focus after hearing that my Mom is talking bad things behind my back, it feels like she is telling to everyone that I am a bad daughter, which I don't understand. I did everything to make her proud, I'm a consistent dean's lister in my class. I'm already tired of studying, I am mentally, emotionally, and physically tired.
Stop living for your mom and start living for yourself. It's YOUR life and YOUR time. Do what you like, what you enjoy. It's your birth right. Take care 🤗💖
Depression indeed starts when people start to misunderstand you and it'll not end until you find people being judging about your negative points and never accept you. It also adds up when your expectations aren't fulfilled. But what pains is when there's none to really understand you, though there are, but they aren't really ready to listen to you. Depressed people expect people to really listen, but when that's not met, that's when people start bottling up and today, it really has become a hard time to manage all of them. Though depressed people really are good listeners because they know the pain of not listening to the spoken words, but it hurts when they too aren't treated with them. They don't expect advises, but just someone to listen, which is more than enough for them to cast all their burdens out.
one time i went to a clinic for a work injury i asked the doctor how he was and he actually vented i was surprised cause yea usually people just say "i'm good"..etc it was nice cause after i listened he said thanks for listening and asking, before i showed up he had to deal with a karen that didn't show up on time for an appointment so she had to wait then she did what karens do best complain and put people down and the doctor didn't have to come in that day he was just a guy that genuinely liked helping people. He apologized for venting i told him "no worries you maybe a doctor but your still human and im glad you felt comfortable enough around me to vent" cause he seemed like one of those happy go lucky people until karen showed up and after the check up and venting he was back to normal even the receptionist noticed his change in mood and she asked me what i said to him and I just said "simple,how are you?"
@@shelteredsparrow2736 it was kinda cool cause for me that was the first time someone actually gave a proper response to "how are you" my friend was with me when it happened and he just as surprised as i was (my foot was fucked so i couldn't walk, let alone drive cause my car was manual at the time)
I've been depressed for almost 8 years and my parents don't care. They don't want me to get therapy and my sister can't take it and doesn't want to hear it (she said it to my face) I joined a discord sever, but it doesn't help. This year everything got so much worse. I'm starting to hate everything
@@saga0439 it's fine. Today I've opened up to my cousin of me being bisexual and I didn't know she was too. That was a good surprise, though my family is homophobic (the grown adults). Still very lonely, but I'll get through it. I feel like this week won't be that bad as it always is.
I suffered a deep depression but I could overcome it fortunately. This video reminds me that tough time. Right now as a flash back, I think the depression was a real blessing in my life and changed my attitude but it was costly; dropped out the high school and stayed home for about 2 years and wasted a lot of opportunities. Just thank my dear trustworthy friend who did not leave me.
People tends to wanna your innermost emotions only to feed their curiosity....They end up not having an idea of how to help or they'll just tell you what you already know, there by making no difference. Sometimes I just go back in only to regret ever opening up. It feels safer bottling up my emotions.
@Psych2Go I wanna thank yall fr. I'm currently almost 20 weeks pregnant an I have prenatal depression. My anxiety has been taken care of but I kinda neglected my depression keeping it to myself. Until I agreed to talk with my bio. Mother who is my BIGGEST trigger so I can find peace. But lately I just haven't felt like talking, leaving my fiances side, an or moving. Its been hard but im working thru it. Thx again yall when i get in those dark places I simply listen to yalls videos an I don't feel alone. 💯💯💗💗
Hey psych2go! Thank you so much for content like this. It helped me realise many think about me and about the people I love. I didn't know my past affects my present so much! I thank you everyday while watching your mental content. THANK YOU!♥️
This made me cry. I did have this... My mom said "why do you always complain about your back!" yesterday, I hid any feelings that I hide and try to keep a smile open, but one day I couldn't, I started crying, and fast as I could, hide a smile.
For years I hid my depression from everyone, but now I openly admit it! I don't give a shit what anyone thinks, if I'm not good enough for them, they can go, they know where the door is!
I hide my depression, I’m not pessimistic though. I’ve never been that kind of person even though I have a very painful condition that is just going to progress as I age. I don’t tell any body how I feel because nobody is interested. If I comment that I have bad pain ( physical) I’ll simply get told all about how they are worse or that someone I’ve never heard of is having a terrible time….which often turns out to have happened 10 plus years ago. The only person that would listen, simply has enough of her own problems. I’m definitely alone in a crowd. I’m really struggling.
Everyday I PRAY to have ppl who actually notices or understand what I feel...instead they make us both argue and have a fight just because I'm too "dramatic" or "ungrateful"
I mean the videos they're producing and the data have is pretty accurate. Cause most of it almost happen with me. Every single time. I don't wanna meet, greet or talk to any person around me...Even my parent....I don't know why but i feel safe in this moment....Like I belong to this peace and all the things....I just lay on my bed all day listening music, watching videos, study ( I can't concentrate bro).
ATTENTION: Peaceful give it a try at least. The meaning of life SPOKEN POETRY th-cam.com/video/7d16CpWp-ok/w-d-xo.html Relaxing voice Quran th-cam.com/video/GkjNROBu6l0/w-d-xo.html O Allah (The One God), I seek refuge with You from anxiety, and sorrow, and weakness, and laziness, and miserliness, and cowardice, and the burden of debts and from being overpowered by men. I enjoy your videos recently and thought I'll help some.
I realised that the reason I'm so good with making friends online, like meeting strangers rather than connecting with people irl is much easier for me cuz I don't have to fear of being judged and it's better than trusting a stranger with your feelings but not your friends or family cuz I feel that showing that side of mine would distance them from me and like I'll be treated differently... As the lockdown proceeded last year I'd completely locked up myself in my house for the first 5 months, but then i found this werid ass game but eventually I met such great people whom I've talking to from almost a year by now, and I can legit talk to them about anything I feel without me showing my face or anything (cuz of my fear being judged, obvio) so yeah just writing it out here, as I've no where else to talk about it Have a good day,
Just want to leave you know that my mother, brother and myself went through some of your videos and it sparked healthy conversation and we were able too express more then we usually do. Just want to say thanks for that 🙏
I've heard journaling is a good way to handle stuff. However, to transfer feelings to ink on a piece of paper is another story. How do you even do that when you don't even know what you feel?
I wanna try it but it makes me anxious that if I journal and anyone finds it and would make a joke out of it 🥺 like seriously people around me do stuff like that taking out personal things outta someone and be joking and laughing in front of that person regarding it 🙂
You just write how you feel without judging it. I talk to my journal like it's a best friend & let it just come out. Sometimes if i'm not sure how to start i'll write 'not sure wht to write but im gonna do it anyway til something happens.' For me, there are times whn my hand can't keep up. It's a safe place to express yourself, & you don't have to share it with anyone ever.
I hate how I have to hide my feelings. Growing up I had to deal with a lot of my problems and feelings alone making me grow up thinking it’s ok to hide my feelings since that’s all I knew. Both side of my family have severe depression and other mental problems and I know I have severe depression and my family sees and know that too. It takes a lot for me to ask for help. Whenever I’ve asked for help they tell me they’re gonna help me but they never do. I’m so tired.
I find that if you lack a true confidant, or even a therapist, disclosing (vaguely) some things to different people can help. Of course, you definitely run the risk of over-sharing to multiple people.
Yeah, one month ago i always asked myself why am i here ,y this life... Suddenly one change happened. "Naruto" this anime I can't tell how much relief it gave me...it says all about life... "Loneliest people are the kindest, Saddest people smile the brightest, Most damaged people are the wisest ,All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do" ~Kakashi hatake
It’s like you want people to help and support you and sometimes hint them that you need help then you thought its a bad idea and ends up hiding how you actually feel
all you truly want is for someone to just feel how you're feeling for 1 minute so they understand how horrible it truly is. not that anyone should feel like this, but i just want someone to understand the way im feeling and the fact i hold it in for 8 years is unbelievable. its an undescribable feeling. we all just want it to be over
if people knew how im truly feeling they would understand how strong i really am for being able to keep this all in and be so numb to it. im truly numb and feel nothing anymore
How are you feeling today?
feeling like ass
feeling kinda crappy
Kinda good today actually
I’m...ok...
Overwhelmed tbh
"People don't fake depression...they fake being okay. Be kind" 🙂
thats called me
Literally me the whole 4 year I've been depressed
That's me
Well that depends on the type of fake people on social media fake mental ilness like depression all the time but in real life i don't think so
So true
I just wish I had someone to tell my problems without having the feeling of being burden :))
Same
I gotchu bro
Y'all can tell me. I'm here :) and nobody is a burden :)
Same 😭
@@nakshatramusic21, well i am not comfortable telling something to someone i don’t know. INFJ trait i guess
Hiding isn't an act of cowardly. In this case, hiding may be the only way to protect yourself and the people you love.
i honestly hide my emotions to protect myself from ppl saying that im faking it . i afraid of ppl that whould say she's an attention wh0re because that will just make it worse. im afraid ppl will think im weak or pity because im not. im just depressed and tired.
Hiding is a way of being strong..
@@Psych2go ya but in some matter not for every matter I have got it from your only I love u 😁😀😊😄😆
I haven’t been diagnosed or seen a doctor about my feelings, but thats so true! I have a family member who is actually diagnosed who i look up to, so one of the reasons is not worrying them or getting accused of copying, the people i could talk to i dont trust enough, but more importantly i dont even know how to put my feelings into words to describe it
Yeah, true. A "friend" who only used me to vent betrayed me and called me an attention seeker and since then I've been scared of showing any real sadness. Then my "best friend" at the time mentally abused me and forced me even more into hiding my own feelings. When I told my other friends about it they thought I was overdramatic and just wanted attention and they left me. Condolences to anyone else going through this stuff
I wrote this poem:
*I'm Fine*
You ask me how I am
I think "I'm awful, damn,"
But I say "I'm fine, how about you?"
You say "I'm fine, too!"
Before asking you don't see
The black clothes that cover me
The emptiness in my eyes
My numbness on the rise
When I hide in the bathroom
Just to bring me doom
How I run past a mirror
My reflection is my terror
You don't have to deal
With how I feel
For my numbness grows
And you won't ever know
When you ask me how I am
I don't say, "I'm awful, damn,"
For, outside I'm smiling
Inside I'm dying
It's beautiful! You're very creative ❤️
@@itsalavstory Thank you.
I've been at a point where I went to the bathroom three times a day, just to breakdown several minutes. At times I'd meltdown in the shower, lose concentration for 30 minutes while studying, and fall asleep an hour or two after heading to bed. There were days when I did not feel hunger at all, never mind lacking an appetite altogether. I am not licensed to diagnose myself, but whatever it was, it still lurks around me and attacks once in a while. It's not so bad anymore. Journaling and a change of environment (with the same depressive AF toxic people), has helped me somewhat. I started experiencing depression when I was a fetus, and it really struck me when I was ten. Every time I have ever had it was because of my father, not to shift the blame but the evidence points in that direction. 😔
@@rue2599 You'll get better! Stay strong like you are right now! You're doing a great job, I know you are.
You're not alone, me, and millions of other people are with you! We'll get through this!
@@dhritimukherjee271 Be relaxed and confident. Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice and have a healthier life. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed, be as still as possible and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep inhalation-exhalation needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Stillness brings internal peace. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
me: "hey, im depressed and have been for a long time"
then: "pfft, what do you have to be depressed about? just go outside more, its all about mind set"
k, ill never talk to you about how i feel again. ill just put on this facade that i've gotten so good at maintaining, no one will ever know i want to die.
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
@@tobylender4091 That's the biggest shit someone could say. You have no idea what are you talking about.
If you need to, you can find somewhere to vent, it helps :)
this is so freaking true it hurts.
dbi
People tend to say "don't be scared to share your thoughts with me!" But when you tell them something about your depression, they start either screaming at you that you don't know real depression or they just can't help you and leave you
People want to help, but sometimes, not sure how to.
Right or the worst they tell u in ur face that they don't understand u,or u should not feel depressed...Like bro thx for ur advice,I've never thought that I shouldn't feel depressed wow,as If I can control my feelings...What ppl don't understand is that we cant control our feelings,just how we act, but the internal part no
@Dominic Timmons don't listen to them...beo if u want to cry,do it...firstly it doesn't mean ur weak...and secondly it makes u feel better...so screw what others think
@@Psych2go exactly 🤣🤣Some ppl can't even help themselves,so how can they help others..Sadly,but funny and true
That’s my mom lol
I need to hide it. I don't want to trouble or burden those people I love. Everytime I almost share my troubles I will immediately remember that they have their own troubles, and I don't want to add more. As long as I can still hold it, it's ok. It's ok. Everything will be fine, maybe not now but someday. Maybe tomorrow will be ok. Everything will be ok soon.
Nahh nothing will be okay
For me at least lol
@@PumpyGT shhh dude what if myself saw that.
I can relate to that pretty strongly. As if I'm who wrote that sentence.
Its ok to have worry , fears, insecurities, anger , anxiety . Its not ok to try to bear it all on your own . If you go down , and become so ill from bottling if up, what will be the feelings of those people you chose to hide it from ? What will the outcome be ? Know you are just as important as anyone else and you can't fill others cup from an empty bottle. Seek out people with empathy , deep within you , you know who you can approach. Never give up . The right listener is just around the corner ⚔️❤️⚔️
This is me thank you I don't feel alone now
People often ask if I'm ok at random times or ask if I'm depressed. I'm quite introverted and I do look down a lot but I'm never really actually sad and since people ask everyday, it gets annoying. Eventually, after this happening for years straight, I'm ironically turning more sad from people asking if I'm sad all day and now I feel like perhaps I was in denial all along. It's just slowly crushed my esteem.
Wow, that's a lot the same thing with me, but my weight. I've always been too thin and weighed too little. The school nurses and other authority people always kept asking me at checkups "if I ate what I should" and "if I avoided eating full meals". I was pretty knowledgeable back then compared to my age, so they didn't know that I'd be able to understand what they were hinting at. But I did. Later on it kept happening again and again, and now I actually do struggle with it. It's like they inserted in my mind that I had to feel like that or have a specific "mindset" to be thin, so I eventually began actually doing it. They never thought I maybe just had a high metabolism, which I only much later found out that I did. Would have saved me so much mental garbage.
Must be nice having someone that are concerned about you and have the courage to ask about your condition. Ahhhh how life is like a coin that have heads and tail, truly feels like a blind person trying to see what is at the uncharted depth.
it's nice that ppl care, but it must get tiring
I think, I'm also in denial of my depression. I'm introvert and can hold normal conversations well but often times I prefer to stay silent and don't engage in conversations, sometimes I feel uncomfortable if they ask me if I'm alright and I would rather for the person not to bring it up again if I'm okay .
Omg don't even dare your inner peace be dictated by others..Dear your awesome and stay happy take care
"The prettiest smiles often hide the most pain"
As someone who has recently begun hiding my depression. That point about thinking "What's the point?" hits hard. It's very true. I'm constantly worried that if I don't focus on the meaning behind my every word then people are going to take it incorrectly and become angry with me. Or worst, hurt by my words that were never meant to be hurtful.
exactly what I'm going through especially the last words.
im at the point that i don't even see the future, literally cannot imagine what will happen to me in the next 10 minutes, just nothing.
@GoGicz *hugs* while this may not be the case for you, for me I looked around and found my hostile environment has been playing a roll. For instance transphobic brothers and manipulative parents.
@@GoGicz keep working towards a more comfortable environment. You can get better
Honestly, saying your problem, or showing your depression to a love one wouldn't help you get rid of it, you might actually get rid of your love ones instead. I experienced sharing my problems to some of my friends, heck even my Girlfriend, and what did they do? They left me. That's why hiding depression is commonly the act of choice of someone suffering from it.
Well… if they left you then it means that you are not deserving them. You deserve better people in your life instead. Everyone experienced betrayal and you are not alone here. There are some kinds of people trying to push away problems from themselves because it is hard for them to feel someone’s problems
It's good to open up bc if they show you their true colors or leave, all of these things are inevitable & even more painful if dragged on. It's good in my opinion to establish an open emotional sharing platform early on in the relationship, for transparency & intimacy. Sorry that happened to you though.. you do deserve/will find better people. Just keep opening up.
Especially in india
Explaining pain is harder
So just smile
- some random
@@scootypuffjr. sad but true.
I'm smiling because it confuses people around me, i am smiling because its easier than explain whats killing me inside.
Yeah I can’t even tell myself what’s wrong how am I supposed to tell them
@@miss.random2235 thats the world of pains for we
@@Willnumps huggies for you🥺hold tight
@@miss.random2235 huggies for you too
@@Willnumps 😊😊
As i grow older and older i noticed how different i am now and how numb i feel every single day
Sadly true , so enjoy every second we got ,doing good things 🌸
Lol this pandemics made me takes some measures didn't think I'd be doing for sure.
Life fucking sucks, plain and simple.
I feel the same. Feels like we are motionless and moving at the same time but getting nowhere
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@@batoolarif1607 Reduce negative thoughts with a simple practice and have a healthier life. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back straight, eyes closed, be as still as possible and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight with your thoughts. Slowly the mind will relax. No deep inhalation-exhalation needed. Anytime of the day or night before sleep sit or lie down on your back and observe your breath. Stillness brings internal peace. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a good life. Best wishes Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
*Bold* =Me Regular=signs
1. They’re pessimistic about the future
*I have an issue with making plans for the future that's what makes me frustrated about it.*
2. They have a hard time concentrating
*Plus horrible memory!*
3. Their body undergoes big changes
*Back hurts often.*
4. They get unusually quiet
*Has started distancing from friends on purpose to make sure they don't notice my condition so they don't ask questions.*
5. They keep conversations surface level
*Will have deep conversations but only for another being and rarely ever for myself.*
6. They smile to hide their pain away
*Pro*
Truly relatable
Sadly we're a burden to normal people. We need to keep our illness to ourselves and fight hard everyday. Stay strong people. It's only us who can fight and make the change.
stay strong
"There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
- depression can be very difficult to talk about and is usually so. We need to take care of ourselves and our loved ones. The one piece of advice that got me wondering goes something like this "Be the person to others you wished you had when you were in need "
I think as an internalizing disorder, it's very common for people with depression to not show any outward signs of being depressed..
Mhm.
I've had depression for a little more than a year now, and I can say that there is no hint of cowardice in hiding one's problems. Every time I opened up about my problems, it exposed the people I loved to them. I've come so close to losing friends that way. To me and many others, hiding is protection for the people we love.
I’m no professional, but If worst comes to worst, maybe you can vent into a diary or something like that, it helps, I’ve tried it. :)
Watching these videos has recently become like a therapy for me, since someone is able to accurately describe alot of stuff I go through with seeming critical of them. So I hope all is well and that you keep making these videos. Thanks a bunch
Whenever I want to say something difficult like this to someone else, it's like the communication center in my brain completely shuts down and I become physically incapable of forming the words to express my feelings, due to fear and not wanting to burden other people with my problems.
Can't tell you how much I relate to this. I too have a lot of trouble communicating with others about my depression, so I just don't.
yeaahhh same it feels like u lost all ur words... and just have nothing to say... even tho u want to say a million words... u just feel completely blank...l would suggest using letters... u don't have to give it to someone if u don't feel like.. but even writing it down.. it feels better.. (here l am referring u to myself, to u and to everyone who relates to it)
@@summerd6241 yes relatable
Me too
I can relate and understand. I would say that a way to overcome this is to put the trust in someone and test the waters, i.e. if they claim that you're not a burden, and you really see genuinity from them with that claim. It probably sounds easier than done, but it could be a saver. I wish you very well :)
I feel like a burden everytime i confront my closest friends about my depression so I have decided to try to hide my depression. Not bottle up my feeling but to keep them more to myself. I'm so tired of being that one friend that's always negative and always talk about my insecurities. My anxiety has been so high later I have been pouring all of my fears and insecurities on my friends. I'm scared they will grow tired and leave. Bc it happens way too often.
Truly relatable
A true friend will help put the pieces back together, will help heal the wounds , and make sure you have others standing with you , when they don't feel adequate enough to support you in a manner you require . What better way to test your friends , than to require them to be a real friend ? ⚔️❤️⚔️
@@elizabethsunchaserk8446 still looking for that true one but can't trust anyone after being betrayed and neglected by everyone
We tend to fail at confronting our own self-generated misery because it requires a surge of energy that is virtually unavailable to the depressed. . Who wants a friend who is always down, who rarely smiles and who continually reports feeling awful?
What can be done?
If your mind only plays misery tapes running on some continuous loop, then it’s as hard as getting out of Hell. Like the Hotel California, you can check out but you can never leave.
Instead, you gotta crawl out.
How?
Play different tapes. In your head. Some call them affirmations.
It’s not easy to tell yourself that you are wise, thoughtful, strong, youthful and delighted with life. It’s called controlling one’s mind.
A Thirteenth Century Buddhist reformer monk, Nichiren Daishonin, said, “Control your mind. Do not let your mind control you.”
I have a great deal of respect for those suffering from depression.
There’s no need to hide it, but you are the only one capable of overcoming it, even when It drains from us the very energy needed to defeat it.
But the best part is that it can be defeated with the proper philosophy, determination and encouragement from one’s self and others.
Pain is a given, suffering is an option.
Same for me
When you family doesn’t believe you and say that “your too young, you probably don’t know what it feels like.”
Yeah that has happened to me a lot but the only people who believe me is my cousin, bff, online friends 😃
You don't require anyone's approval to have feelings of any sort . Seek out the people who understand that and heal ⚔️❤️⚔️
@Khanh Vu My elder sister doesn't understand me too. (I don't have depression) But i get very sad about this. Whenever I make some snitty comments or tell her off if she does something incorrectly, she gets mad at me and says I'm rude. I don't mean to be rude at all I just speak my thoughts :( I feel like I'm at wrong but that's just how I speak sometimes and it makes me feel bad and now I don't think I can speak comfortably to her.
@Khanh Vu OMG EXACTLY. that's what my sister always says to me "your such a fault finder pretending like you are so perfect."
My clone escaped
At least you have cousin, bff & online friends I have none :)
0:32 They are pessimistic about the future
1:04 They have a hard time concentrating
1:43 Their body undergoes big changes
2:20 They get unusually quiet
3:05 They keep conversations surface level
3:41 They smile to hide their pain
Speaking from experience, people nowadays only care about themselves unless you're rich or hot. That's why I just keep it all to myself. But I know I'm one of the strongest person in this world going through all of these alone. I don't see any point of opening up if all I get is left out and getting ignored. It made me even worse. The more I show my flaws, the more they dislike me. That's what humans are. They only want perfections especially from a man who has nothing like me. No matter how worse your condition is, you have to win. Only family cares about you, but not always.
*not alone*
Truely wise and kind people who are there for you are just insanely rare nowadays, but also in the past. The kind front of a person is often filled within with selfishness. They will only care about what they feel and don't bother others' problems. That kind of person could be you, or also me. You just don't know until you open up to that person and see how they react.
@@Obi-Wen physically.. I know there are many poeple globally facing through these problems but physically.. It feels like im alone.
Your not alone.keep strong and sod everyone else.you are as good as the rich and hot.their money talks not genuine.
@@jotarokujo9587 "You just don't know" Hahhahaha re read my post again fella
When you want someone to trust and share everything but bz of past you think it's better to be alone LoL
True...
Cause trusting is so hard when so many have let you down and broken you!!! 💚
Do you have your eye on someone
You’re not defined by your past. We’ve never met, but I can say you’re a very special person. I’d love to hear back from you that you did end up reaching out and taking the same risk on love that we all take. It will be okay. Make sure first, to take care of you. No matter what, you can pick yourself up and move forward. Everything is okay. It is.
You💙 were Created to be Loved💙
The Grandest💯 purpose for your existence by your caring Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is to be loved💙 😍 by Him💙- that's the gist, that eternal truth that anchors🌟 every other aspect of His manyfold Goodness💜 poured out towards You.
His Love💗 is showering at you by the milli-second - waves💧 upon waves💧 of His💜 Unconditional💙 love💜 over you💙 constantly.
You are approved and you are accepted by the King of Hearts💙, He is enthroned👑 in your Heart💜. He's safeguarding your life💙, His Love prints are all over you and you cannot escape the lavish exponentially infinite reality of His Royal👑 squeeze your highness👑. Be refreshed💜, renewed💜 and revived in this truth💧- He adores😍 you and his very protective over You💙, your a father💙 pleaser🤗. You make His heart-smile😀.
Your Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is so proud of You🤗, as You🤗 continue to Love💙 before depature 🛫 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
I love how the leaf on the character's head slowly stood up at the end of the video
One day I was organising many older photos of myself on my computer, of the recent and distant past. I could see how much I smiled in so many of these. Smiling is something so natural for me. And yet, I was never genuinely happy inside. I think that was the day I realised how deeply I had been hiding it all along without knowing.
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Bernice rockie .
On *Instagram.*
This very much hits home for me. Yet while reading the chat, one can tell that they are not alone even though you feel like the most isolated person in the world.
This literally just ended my relationship. Last summer my grandpa suddenly passed from a heart attack, 3 months later my little sister took her own life a week after her 21rst birthday, I found her with her brain leaking out. Then a few months later my house caught fire and was a complete loss. Then a large chunk of my family disowned me cause I was grieving correctly. Then I had to put my mom in the psych ward. She said I changed, I had unhealthy habits at our apartment, I would just sit and disassociate till she got home from work. I knew I wasn't ok I just didn't want to burden her with it. Just ask for help, it seems like the hardest thing to do but it's better to externalize than to internalize
Omg Honey !! Honestly......yess the hardest thing for a person who has depression is to ask for their help or asking them to support them or comfort them ......you have gone through a lot and LOOK you are still moving forward and JUST IMAGINE you have gone throught ALOT and still you so so strong that you are not giving up ....I am also having a hard time with myself and I can understand you .......ITS OKAY MY LOVE , YOU ARE VERY STRONG AND I BELIEVE YOU 💜
well.
you're not alone brother.
Some time ago not knowing I was heavily depressed for years ( found out after chain of events that happened afterwards ) suddenly I had to squash everything.
My ex cured me instantly by leaving me.
Taking away my child away and turning against me, accusing me of rape and abuse to have free support in court, turned my friends and family against me too. I was left to die.
The only person that stood by my side was my mom but I think my situation got to her . She became very ill ,not long after seeing what was happening to her son.( she never showed that but found her medical records)
eventually , she left .
Till this day , I didn't see my child. Thinking about my kid every single day.
life is a beach, testing peoples limits.
I'm sending my middle finger to the world.
I learned important lesson . I t's better be at the bottom but 100% truly with yourself than for a split second at the top with someone not worth of your time.
my message to you " what doesn't kill me , can only make me bleed"
@@y.a.p8951 omg.....this is so messed up......I don't know what to say but after reading this the only thing I thought of is that even after happening so MUCH u are still moving on and u are still living you life , maybe not the way you want but still u are alive........YOU ARE TRUELY A BRAVE PERSON ......🤍
@@butterfilter415 no need to say anything.
you're right
despite many struggles in life , we're still here and alive.
At least I was able to find happiness in simple things.
@@y.a.p8951 btw are u from India?
it makes me sad how hopeless ive become, ive always been the most determined and hopeful person i know who's will to live and do what they want in life was stronger than anything, despite their depression. but my will to live has started to deteriorate, and my hope for the future is,, pretty much gone. the only reason im alive is because i dont want to hurt my best friend and my mom,, i genuinely didnt think id ever feel suicidal, but here we are ig
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@@warcraft2807 reject society, embrace kokomi
@@placto9512 how did your pulls go?
Same for me
@@placto9512 yes
Sometimes it's hard to tell love ones you're depressed because they would think it's their fault.
I love when I'm dreaming or sleeping (although the past months I have been only getting 4 to 8 hours of sleep, which is not a lot for me)
I have these characters in my head and when I'm sad at night and it all comes in a huge wave, I think of them. They're telling me it's okay. It's like they're my friends. I love them so much, I wish they were real I think about them every day and they all tell me things, as if they're talking to me and they're here
I knew for a while that I’m hiding my depression but I just watched this video for an extra layer of confirmation and yet again I see a reflection of myself in your videos
@Greg Daniellla what's that ??
v e n t S o m e w h e r e I swear it helps :>
Sometimes it’s easier to hide how you actually feel when people you live with aren’t very open minded to your inner struggles or who you are.
Your voice is the only thing that is making me comftarble on this platform called youtube :D
Thanks for your kind words!
This made me understand myself so much
To me, its just reminder that my problem might be beyond depression.....
Same here
You💙 were Created to be Loved💙
The Grandest💯 purpose for your existence by your caring Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is to be loved💙 😍 by Him💙- that's the gist, that eternal truth that anchors🌟 every other aspect of His manyfold Goodness💜 poured out towards You.
His Love💗 is showering at you by the milli-second - waves💧 upon waves💧 of His💜 Unconditional💙 love💜 over you💙 constantly.
You are approved and you are accepted by the King of Hearts💙, He is enthroned👑 in your Heart💜. He's safeguarding your life💙, His Love prints are all over you and you cannot escape the lavish exponentially infinite reality of His Royal👑 squeeze your highness👑. Be refreshed💜, renewed💜 and revived in this truth💧- He adores😍 you and his very protective over You💙, your a father💙 pleaser🤗. You make His heart-smile😀.
Your Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is so proud of You🤗, as You🤗 continue to Love💙 before depature 🛫 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Jesus💙 loves You😊, please read the book of Psalms 139
I just wanna have someone who I can share everything without having to worry about burdening them or drive them away....or made fun of
Get psilocybin shrooms products 🍄 💊 cus that's the only remedy from👇.
Bernice rockie .
On *Instagram.*
There is no way to function without “hiding” depression. It is not simply something you experience in the moment in reaction to normal
emotional stimulation. No. Its a constant invisible weight you have to bear. If it isn’t at an completely overbearing level it might be possible to smile or laugh at a joke, but it’s still there in the background. Its like “physical” pain in the way you can be experiencing constant mental discomfort even though you aren’t yelling in agony or crying every moment. If you constantly display outwardly how you truly are feeling people won’t even want to interact. You have to develop an outer layer thats separate from your actual inner being. For this reason people do not understand when you get pushed beyond your limit. You may appear to suddenly break down or lash out in anger, but they don’t realize it was building underneath for a long time. I wish people could see the pain without me having to show them.
I've definitely felt like this for years, but the hardest part of all of this is the fact that I never had a friend before. Family members were too different that I drifted from them or began to distrust them. Having to go through all this without anyone to see me or help me kinda ruined my atmosphere, to the point that I can't even force a smile anymore.
Considering at school when I’m in math class, while my math teacher goes to get something my history teacher asks me “Are you okay”? and I just brush it off. and say “yeah”. it’s like I always put on a smile at school but yet I feel hurt deep inside.
Everyday is the same. I don’t ever feel truly happy because whenever something nice happens to me I’m just like “oh that’s cool” and then I just go back to being a sad sack. When I’m at work I rarely speak but when I do it’s usually just “yeah” and “okay thank you” which is pretty much all I need. I don’t have any irl friends so I have no idea how to properly talk to people and thus I just spend my time off alone in my room doing nothing. Only time I’m happy is when I’m asleep
🥺
Hey im sorry to hear this. Have you tried exercising? While it won’t solve everything it does help with mood in my experience. It has helped me a lot. Find something you enjoy and patiently build up. Hope this helps.
we're alike.
None of us are perfect..everyone has a backpack full of shit.. some of them are just better at covering it up. Youre here on earth for a reason.. it doesnt always needs to be a huge reason.. sometimes its just enough to smile at someone during the day and make their day. Try to make it through this and be well, try to see the bigger picture. Youre worthy just like everyone else is worthy.
You're not alone. I feel the exact same way as you. I feel like I have no real emotions anymore, I'm just faking them. I also have no irl friends as well as online friends, because I just can't do it. Its so hard man, but you'll get through it. We'll both get through it
I’m so grateful for your work… it really helps clarify the blur of being in this condition. I started to treat my depression last month and your videos really help me through my process of accepting and healing it.
Her voice it's enough to make me calm and relaxed.
This is honestly me and my entire family atm, we recently lost our grandfather as he was a big foundation in all of our lives when it came to support and love, and ever since his passing everything has changed, we are all quiet and hide our emotions and extremely depressing towards one another, plus we view our futures in an extremely negative light, we are all trying so hard to escape this feeling and now it seems we are stuck and have no where to go or how to cope with these feelings, it’s seems we are constantly stressed and angry a lot, we are currently in a burnout and we are praying and hoping things get better.
Aww I'm so sorry 😔.
I’m so sorry. This is totally normal when stricken with grief. Don’t worry things will get better!!!
idk why the dance at 5:00 makes me felt so happy tho I'm sad- 🥺🥺 thanks for making this channel, it made my day tho it's hard 🤧
I can relate to all of these habits of hiding depression. The most painful part about being depressed in my case is not being able to talk to anyone about it because they'll either undermine my pain or the extent of depressive mood I feel throughout the day or totally not understand my feelings.
I just make people laugh, when people are too busy laughing they don’t notice that you are depressed. This way they don’t ask questions and if they do the answer is “I’m just tired”
I did that all the time.
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
Not everyone has a friend to ask them how theyre feeling. Please push past they're denials.
On social media people shows their acknowledgement and acceptance towards odd things and shows that they are advance and developed but in reality they are different. They don't give space to socially odd people and make fun of them.
THIS IS TRUE
Im pretty socially awkward
I just fill my space w _____ & other vague sh like that👊. Just... its in real life 👊👊
They keep conversations surface level. This one hit hard. I have realised I do this a lot and I hope I can get rid of the wall asap.
How? Medications?
@@eeee_9080 nah I avoid em like plague
I was never talkative to begin with, but now I just avoid conversations simply to hide
@@admirablethrawn5789 can relate. And sometimes one can come off as dinterested when that's not true at all.
@@ria8465 Yeah, it's not like I don't want to talk to people, I'm just not approachable so I never get the chance.
Yes I am because I have no choice but to hide it when the people around me are ignorant to the struggles of dealing with it.
r/im14andthisisdeep
when it got to "they smile to hide the pain" i bursted out crying.
I once decided to open up to my mother about everything I have in my mind, and I did, but she just said that "what do you have to be worried about" and completely ignored what I felt like, since then I started isolating myself and just talked to people only when necessary. I really do wish if I can reach out for help, but then comes my trust issues.
i sort of hide mine still, only my closest loved ones know what i’m going through, sometimes i unfortunately make jokes about me unaliving (of course to which they don’t find funny) but no one will ever fully understand what i’m going through, fighting my mental battles everyday by myself. i also get called lazy to my face and behind my back, but no one knows how much i fight everyday to remain on this earth in hopes of better days ahead and that things will *hopefully* get better, and the day will come where i’ll be able to say “i made it, all of the pain was worth it.”
You are completely fine and completely happy! 😃. Although it's not a easy thing to just recover just like that, please do not keep saying you have depression to yourself. Psychologically it will hurt you more. But I wanna let you know that, good and fun times are on their way! They are just stuck in traffic! Life is battle. Fight it to get the good out of it. No matter how hard it seems just keep fighting and you will win soldier! Your so brave and you can overcome this situation easily.
You have BTS love yourself ....!💜
You💙 were Created to be Loved💙
The Grandest💯 purpose for your existence by your caring Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is to be loved💙 😍 by Him💙- that's the gist, that eternal truth that anchors🌟 every other aspect of His manyfold Goodness💜 poured out towards You.
His Love💗 is showering at you by the milli-second - waves💧 upon waves💧 of His💜 Unconditional💙 love💜 over you💙 constantly.
You are approved and you are accepted by the King of Hearts💙, He is enthroned👑 in your Heart💜. He's safeguarding your life💙, His Love prints are all over you and you cannot escape the lavish exponentially infinite reality of His Royal👑 squeeze your highness👑. Be refreshed💜, renewed💜 and revived in this truth💧- He adores😍 you and his very protective over You💙, your a father💙 pleaser🤗. You make His heart-smile😀.
Your Heavenly🌈 Father🌈 is so proud of You🤗, as You🤗 continue to Love💙 before depature 🛫 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Jesus💙 loves You😊, please read the book of Psalms 139
Since I was around 9 or 8 I've bottled up my emotions and faked happiness when I wasn't happy, and it's resulted in my temper growing thin, and me being even more sensitive. Yet I feel bad when I tell others about my problems. I feel like a burden.
I do hide my depression from everyone I know in real life, I just don't like being comforted/people asking if I'm okay.
And people in my class makes jokes about Depression and ending lifes, which is really sensitive to me because some of my friends have done it.
This is why I love online get to tell people how I'm feeling w/out me worrying if that person is going to tell someone because it's online! *:)*
I always feel like I have nobody to talk to. But when I say I have no friends, or family that i feel safe with, everyone comes out of nowhere offended. I might be the nicest meanest person
I am extremely open about my depression because all I want is help
Hiding depression and emotions became necessary to survive and get through school.
You know what i hate being, introverted and depressed its the worst combination im emotionally numb keep to myself and lose concentration in class more often and what i hate more is that some of these "problems" are traits to being introverted so now im confused which are traits to being really introverted or traits for depression i mean i know i feel empty and lost the reason to care for living a long life but than again i lose concentration keep myself and talk about surface topics and yeah i fake smiles and act jokingly act school
Not an expert or anything but- being introverted just tends to mean, that you need alone time to rejuvenate and you prefer smaller closer knit interactions like a movie night with your friend instead of a party. Everything you're describing sounds like it's just depression- they aren't core personality traits. *hugs*
@@birdie6287that's also what i want to say since I'm both introvert and extrovert
@@bluesea3422 then u r an ambivert.
Agreed. Being an introvert and depressed is so worse..u don't even know if its just your personality trait or signs of depression. I myself struggled with diagnosing my depression by my own because all which I'm feeling right now can be because either of them. And now after I know what it is, as a 15 yr old I can't go to therapy or counselling, and my parents won't ever listen.
When I was 16, things happened to me which caused me to become extremely emotional. At that time I only trusted my mother, she was my hero in a sense. When I told her, or reached out to her for help. She laughed in my face and teased me horrendously. From that day on, I've never told someone in person of my depression or feelings. I doubt I ever will. The sad part is I've become accustomed to it, now that I'm 20. I guess boys aren't meant to show pain. I guess there's just a meanness in this world, oh well.
boys _are_ meant to show pain. y'all are fricking human beings. i get it, society pressures males to bottle up and act tough, but sometimes just- let it out. cry a little, it helps. plus if no body is out there reaching out to you, just remember i am out there, as corny and cringy as it sounds.
It's good to open up to your friends and family, but yes, telling them constantly of your pain will become burdensome and stressful on them. This is why therapists are amazing to have. No fear of burdening someone who's paid to listen.
I really struggle with depression. I've never found a way to deal with it. I've just found a way to exist with it. Sometimes I truly do worry one day it will get the better of me.
This resonates with my life. You articulated that "disease " in a very logical and relatable way.
I’m fairly certain I have been in a depression for months now, but even though I’m normally a very positive person, I can’t seem to get out of it.
I’m scared of being alone like single. There’s someone I admire but I doubt I will ever be with them.
Honestly same. They're out of my league and I truly wish they could be with someone better than me
His mom said r u sure u want to go to a concert w/ her? What if she leaves stranded again. My demented head: hahahahahaha. Ok but not at far away distance tho.. ty very much.. my kid: could u get arrested for that? Me: most likely not. Hes not a child! But Here recently tho., the thing that keeps me from being sad is knowing there's billions of ppl in the world... bc I do get sad. Im in the most pointless r.ship ever. I dont get why he won't leave. He guilt trips me. & I wont completely abandon him. Its just realistically I can't love someone I can't trust. Im gonna tell him to stop saying that to me too. And slowly keep my mental & physical distance. And maybe that'll work. Either hell fight harder or get out of the way so someone else can step up. And thats what I told him too. Step up or move out the way. Bc if he knows I deserve better, then he just does. I dont do games bc im too damn nice... they're not hard to play. Hes just lame
You’re a child for Christ’s sake, holy shit.
It's hard for people to understand how depression really is and what it does to people. I've tried to seek help and have conversation with several friends and family I love, however most of the time things get worse. Often time people have hard time understanding what you are going through, and might say things that make you feel worse. The worst part is while I am depressed, I am still thinking for them: "they are just trying to help me. I don't want to make them sad and tell them what they are telling me right now is pointless." Sometimes the conversation turns into an argument, which just makes me want to end everything but I am not trying to guilt trip anyone. I simply just can't handle it. At the end of the day, I choose to deal with it myself and hide it from people, and I feel it's the best for me and people around me.
I had depression for years as a teenager. I tried to change my situation without telling all of it, but was told off and asked to ‘face my problems’. That really set things off and I never told anyone until I was an adult. I pretended for so long I forgot who I really was. I felt like a robot and struggled to have an opinion about anything. In the end I forced myself to get out of my difficult situation and crawled my way out of the worst parts. I don’t know if it was a ‘normal depression’ but it was real for me for years. I did experience some of the stuff mentioned. What I would want people to know is that there is a way out of depression and that life can feel fantastic again. Getting to a place where I felt less trapped and letting myself choose instead of forcing helped most. Accepting that depression isn’t something to be ashamed of is something I am still working on.Part if the reason I was hiding it was that I felt people around me had enough on their plate and I wanted to protect them. One of the biggest reasons for my hiding it was some idea of protecting them. Now, so many years later, I think I didn’t help them by not telling. I just hid myself and my shame, in a stubborn manner. It was not worth it, hiding it for so many years really destroyed me on the inside. I went to therapy over 15 years later and my only regret was not going earlier. I can not take back the years I was unable to really live.
I know a friend that's going through depression and it hurts to see them like this. Just try your best to support the people you care about! Make them feel wanted. One act of kindness could go a long way :]
How I really wish there’s someone willing to listen to my stories and problems and will not judge me for feeling this way. It’s very suffocating. 😔
Waking up in the morning, it makes me feel like I’m just waiting for the sun to come down and sleep again. It makes me feel like sleeping is what’s giving me peace of mind.
I often ask myself, “What’s my purpose? Why do I exist?” 😔
I feel that watching videos online and fangirling online are better than interacting with people around me. It’s very tiring.
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You can talk to me, if you want to. I won't judge you.
“What’s my purpose? Why do I exist?” Probably to become a mother if you are a woman. But u are too picky and don't like us men probably.
I'm currently crying, and this notif pops up in my notification bar. This is my first time after a long time crying so hard, and having a breakdown. And my Mom triggers my depression a lot. I love my mom, but whenever I tried to talk to her just to have chitchat, our conversation will straight down to an argument which I really wanted to avoid. My head hurts so much while crying silently. I'm already stressed with my studies, my midterm is coming, and I still have a lot of activities to finish, and now I can't focus after hearing that my Mom is talking bad things behind my back, it feels like she is telling to everyone that I am a bad daughter, which I don't understand. I did everything to make her proud, I'm a consistent dean's lister in my class. I'm already tired of studying, I am mentally, emotionally, and physically tired.
Stop living for your mom and start living for yourself. It's YOUR life and YOUR time. Do what you like, what you enjoy. It's your birth right. Take care 🤗💖
I hanged out with friends last night and i started to experience these things again…
Depression indeed starts when people start to misunderstand you and it'll not end until you find people being judging about your negative points and never accept you. It also adds up when your expectations aren't fulfilled. But what pains is when there's none to really understand you, though there are, but they aren't really ready to listen to you. Depressed people expect people to really listen, but when that's not met, that's when people start bottling up and today, it really has become a hard time to manage all of them.
Though depressed people really are good listeners because they know the pain of not listening to the spoken words, but it hurts when they too aren't treated with them. They don't expect advises, but just someone to listen, which is more than enough for them to cast all their burdens out.
To the person reading this never lose hope there's always something to be grateful for :)
I hate the socially acceptable greeting of “how are you?” When people don’t really want to know.
one time i went to a clinic for a work injury i asked the doctor how he was and he actually vented i was surprised cause yea usually people just say "i'm good"..etc it was nice cause after i listened he said thanks for listening and asking, before i showed up he had to deal with a karen that didn't show up on time for an appointment so she had to wait then she did what karens do best complain and put people down and the doctor didn't have to come in that day he was just a guy that genuinely liked helping people. He apologized for venting i told him "no worries you maybe a doctor but your still human and im glad you felt comfortable enough around me to vent" cause he seemed like one of those happy go lucky people until karen showed up and after the check up and venting he was back to normal even the receptionist noticed his change in mood and she asked me what i said to him and I just said "simple,how are you?"
@@eibbor171 it was great that you are safe enough of a person that he could vent
@@shelteredsparrow2736 it was kinda cool cause for me that was the first time someone actually gave a proper response to "how are you" my friend was with me when it happened and he just as surprised as i was (my foot was fucked so i couldn't walk, let alone drive cause my car was manual at the time)
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Bernice rockie
I've been depressed for almost 8 years and my parents don't care. They don't want me to get therapy and my sister can't take it and doesn't want to hear it (she said it to my face)
I joined a discord sever, but it doesn't help. This year everything got so much worse. I'm starting to hate everything
I'm so sorry to hear that❤️
@@saga0439 it's fine. Today I've opened up to my cousin of me being bisexual and I didn't know she was too. That was a good surprise, though my family is homophobic (the grown adults). Still very lonely, but I'll get through it. I feel like this week won't be that bad as it always is.
I suffered a deep depression but I could overcome it fortunately. This video reminds me that tough time. Right now as a flash back, I think the depression was a real blessing in my life and changed my attitude but it was costly; dropped out the high school and stayed home for about 2 years and wasted a lot of opportunities. Just thank my dear trustworthy friend who did not leave me.
People tends to wanna your innermost emotions only to feed their curiosity....They end up not having an idea of how to help or they'll just tell you what you already know, there by making no difference.
Sometimes I just go back in only to regret ever opening up. It feels safer bottling up my emotions.
@Psych2Go I wanna thank yall fr. I'm currently almost 20 weeks pregnant an I have prenatal depression. My anxiety has been taken care of but I kinda neglected my depression keeping it to myself. Until I agreed to talk with my bio. Mother who is my BIGGEST trigger so I can find peace. But lately I just haven't felt like talking, leaving my fiances side, an or moving. Its been hard but im working thru it. Thx again yall when i get in those dark places I simply listen to yalls videos an I don't feel alone. 💯💯💗💗
It is always hard to express my feeling and hide it with a smile even if my friend is always expressing her thoughts and is vulnerable with me
Hey psych2go! Thank you so much for content like this. It helped me realise many think about me and about the people I love. I didn't know my past affects my present so much! I thank you everyday while watching your mental content. THANK YOU!♥️
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@@sriku1000 thank you for the suggestion!
This made me cry. I did have this... My mom said "why do you always complain about your back!" yesterday, I hid any feelings that I hide and try to keep a smile open, but one day I couldn't, I started crying, and fast as I could, hide a smile.
For years I hid my depression from everyone, but now I openly admit it! I don't give a shit what anyone thinks, if I'm not good enough for them, they can go, they know where the door is!
I hide my depression, I’m not pessimistic though. I’ve never been that kind of person even though I have a very painful condition that is just going to progress as I age. I don’t tell any body how I feel because nobody is interested. If I comment that I have bad pain ( physical) I’ll simply get told all about how they are worse or that someone I’ve never heard of is having a terrible time….which often turns out to have happened 10 plus years ago. The only person that would listen, simply has enough of her own problems. I’m definitely alone in a crowd. I’m really struggling.
I really need someone to tell me that everything will be ok. 😔
Everything will be Okay
Yesterday was the worst day of three years of depression and I'm just hiding it..
I hope you’re okay ❤️🌺
what happened?
"they force a facade of happiness to free others from the burden", huh thats probably the most accurate statement i can make about my situation
Everyday I PRAY to have ppl who actually notices or understand what I feel...instead they make us both argue and have a fight just because I'm too "dramatic" or "ungrateful"
I mean the videos they're producing and the data have is pretty accurate. Cause most of it almost happen with me. Every single time. I don't wanna meet, greet or talk to any person around me...Even my parent....I don't know why but i feel safe in this moment....Like I belong to this peace and all the things....I just lay on my bed all day listening music, watching videos, study ( I can't concentrate bro).
This explains everything what I feel almost everyday I hope my parents, friends and watch this because I can't explain it.
ATTENTION: Peaceful give it a try at least.
The meaning of life SPOKEN POETRY
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Relaxing voice Quran
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O Allah (The One God), I seek refuge with You from anxiety, and sorrow, and weakness, and laziness, and miserliness, and cowardice, and the burden of debts and from being overpowered by men.
I enjoy your videos recently and thought I'll help some.
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I realised that the reason I'm so good with making friends online, like meeting strangers rather than connecting with people irl is much easier for me cuz I don't have to fear of being judged and it's better than trusting a stranger with your feelings but not your friends or family cuz I feel that showing that side of mine would distance them from me and like I'll be treated differently...
As the lockdown proceeded last year I'd completely locked up myself in my house for the first 5 months, but then i found this werid ass game but eventually I met such great people whom I've talking to from almost a year by now, and I can legit talk to them about anything I feel without me showing my face or anything (cuz of my fear being judged, obvio) so yeah just writing it out here, as I've no where else to talk about it
Have a good day,
Just want to leave you know that my mother, brother and myself went through some of your videos and it sparked healthy conversation and we were able too express more then we usually do. Just want to say thanks for that 🙏
When you see and understand the big picture, it's very hard to remain positive.
I've heard journaling is a good way to handle stuff. However, to transfer feelings to ink on a piece of paper is another story. How do you even do that when you don't even know what you feel?
I wanna try it but it makes me anxious that if I journal and anyone finds it and would make a joke out of it 🥺 like seriously people around me do stuff like that taking out personal things outta someone and be joking and laughing in front of that person regarding it 🙂
@@nrizvi1780 try using a notebook app with password .. good luck hope you feel better soon
When you don't know what to feel write that that you don't know. Write your honest thoughts and feelings, whatever they are.
You just write how you feel without judging it. I talk to my journal like it's a best friend & let it just come out. Sometimes if i'm not sure how to start i'll write 'not sure wht to write but im gonna do it anyway til something happens.' For me, there are times whn my hand can't keep up. It's a safe place to express yourself, & you don't have to share it with anyone ever.
I hate how I have to hide my feelings. Growing up I had to deal with a lot of my problems and feelings alone making me grow up thinking it’s ok to hide my feelings since that’s all I knew. Both side of my family have severe depression and other mental problems and I know I have severe depression and my family sees and know that too. It takes a lot for me to ask for help. Whenever I’ve asked for help they tell me they’re gonna help me but they never do. I’m so tired.
I find that if you lack a true confidant, or even a therapist, disclosing (vaguely) some things to different people can help. Of course, you definitely run the risk of over-sharing to multiple people.
Yeah, one month ago i always asked myself why am i here ,y this life...
Suddenly one change happened. "Naruto" this anime I can't tell how much relief it gave me...it says all about life...
"Loneliest people are the kindest,
Saddest people smile the brightest,
Most damaged people are the wisest ,All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do"
~Kakashi hatake
It’s like you want people to help and support you and sometimes hint them that you need help then you thought its a bad idea and ends up hiding how you actually feel
all you truly want is for someone to just feel how you're feeling for 1 minute so they understand how horrible it truly is. not that anyone should feel like this, but i just want someone to understand the way im feeling and the fact i hold it in for 8 years is unbelievable. its an undescribable feeling. we all just want it to be over
if people knew how im truly feeling they would understand how strong i really am for being able to keep this all in and be so numb to it. im truly numb and feel nothing anymore