Alejandra, good for you. Listen, booze in all form is overrated. In stopping, youre doing yourself and all around you a huge and life altering favor. Let it go. I speak with empathy and compassion on this subject. Best of luck and all positive energy.
It gets easier as time passes by. I started drinking daily at 14-15 years old. I finally quit at 37. Took multiple failed attempts. I started trying to quit at 33. Now 40 and I have no desire to drink.
Watching this on week 21 of a 24 week inpatient treatment programme for alcoholism. I'm so lucky to have the opportunity to get well in a safe and supportive environment. I wish all addicts had the chance I have been given.
I agree . you keep on the path of righteousness Jenny , one day at a tiMe , should you stumble , keep getting uP . the best thing I could ever do , was learning how to forgive myself , learning how to be my own best friend, eventually truly loving myself .
Yesssss baby I’m sorry no one else decide to comment but I will! One day at a time!!! I’ve been clean from Xanax and Percocet for almost 2 years now and everything in my life has been amazing now! I had my rainbow baby that I had been praying for for years and I’m married and my life is just amazing! It’s so worth it I promise u! Please stay focused and keep it up!
as an ex alcoholic, I know the taste of that damn Steel Reserve 211, the smell, how it feels going down. It's cheap and effective. An alcoholics best friend. I don't miss that shit at all and hope this woman can recover. Sobriety feels 100x better.
@@meghanfraser1728 it took me about a week to detox. I checked into a rehab facility that supplied me with proper medicine and counseling to help me. I'll admit I couldn't have done it by myself. I was too far gone.
It makes me sad that, even though her mom is dead because of alcoholism, she still became an alcoholic. My mom also died from booze. That was never a problem for me. I ate my way to 310 pounds and lost 180 pounds almost 19 years ago. You’ll choose something to cope with your pain and it’s usually not a good choice if you’re not taught better. Therapy is life saving!
You are correct and learning to love yourself really helps too. I know that helped for me to stop the drugs. When I really look back on things my eating disorder was the first problem, which led to my drug problems. I actually really like myself today and I can’t imagine living like that anymore.
I had a 9th grade gym/health teacher. He told me he had never tried drugs and alcohol, because he was afraid he’d like them. That kept me away, and I’m 60 years old now.
My last near death incident (of many) was 8 months ago. I’ve been sober from alcohol for 8 months now and find it is easier as time goes by. My advice is to remember (when tempted by the bottle) what pain you may have caused or what has happened to you because of your alcoholism.
21 month sober tomorrow! I’ve watched every video and I have empathy for everyone single person on here. I hope everyone find what I have found in the rooms! Honesty open mindedness and willingness are indispensable! Hope is a beautiful thing!
I had to break up with my boyfriend yesterday because of alcoholism. I finally had to except that he will never love me more than he loves alcohol 💔 It's sad but it's the truth! I pray that these folks suffering with this addiction find help and peace! I agree with another comment, alcohol is just a legal drug! 😢
I am sending you love and healing! You have taken the first step towards a happier life, and I am proud of you! * I just realized this comment is 6 months old lol - so ill rephrase it - I hope you are 6 months deep into you freedom and happiness! Still proud tho.
I hate when they say they’re a single mom when they don’t even raise their kids. A mom takes care of her kids no matter what. They come first with everything. So no, you’re not a single mom. You just gave birth to 2 kids. Period.
Exactly what I was going to post and then I saw your comment. She had both kids taken and her grandson was 14 years old before she even met him. She's no mother and a pretty shit person. People like this only usefulness are as tales of caution and how to not live.
I'm praying for Yolanda. Its been almost a year, I hope that she is ok. On a different note, one month and one day sober from alcohol for me, I feel so good.
Poor Yolanda, she never had a choice to do better, poor poor Yolanda. What about the children that she birthed who really had no choice in the matter? She had a choice, we all have choices...she chooses drugs and living off my working tax dollars while she still sells crack and smokes it.
yeah true. also all the rich so called celebrities must drive past skid row, as its in Hollywood isn't it. so mental that too many people are homeless and left just like rubbish in a rubbish tip just to have the dreams and health rotting away , in this day and age no one should be homeless and starving all over the world .in the year 2020 it's savage as there's plenty of money to go around..but sadly too many people choose not to give enough care and love to go around. heartbreaking really!.
She is a POS that takes no responsibility. Why is it the rich people you think need to do something for this crap of a human being. Why don’t you go down and help her? Only then will you realize all most of these assholes want is a free life of doing drugs and no responsibility.
Your mom has a disease called alcoholism it's to much without help Al-Alon helps those who are children or parents or friends of people with this disease to help you understand us 🙏 🙏
It makes no fucking sense we even have a cannabinoid system in our body it makes no sense look how you act when you’re drunk you’re incoherent mostly . When smoking cannabis you can still function and do most tasks!! So many benefits the cannabis plant offers I don’t know one thing alcohol offers
She says 'she just knew that she had to protect her son' Well she should have thought of that when he was in foster care and needed her the most, when he was a child, before he became damaged.
This is so sad, What a hard Life some have to live and to talk about your children dying without emotions 🥺 Everyone Needs to be grateful if your in a Warm home with your Family healthy and Alive and Loved❤
indeed. two baby's she lost . grandson product of mom's being molested. how effing absurd this world has become, no knew thing under the sun tho. how I wished I could help those that need it . Prayers uP grandma Yoyo 🤎
@dkinahouse shuttttttt the fuck up. You self righteous piece of shit. Makes you feel good to see someone you can talk down upon huh . A whole paragraph putting down someone we all know is already “down”. She is messed up ! But see that’s what’s wrong with this world. You rather judge her than try to empathize with her. Hurt people hurt people.
Physically Yolanda looks tore up from the floor up but her mind is all there. She speaks well and comprehends everything and that’s a blessing considering how many years she’s been drinking and doing drugs. I hope she gets sober one day.
Navaho Indian (USA) heritage. This life story is repeated worldwide, with most indigenous people. Alcohol, and other drugs later. Broken families, imprisonment. Out of wedlock pregnancies. Early death, of children & adults. The exceptions to this "rule" are so noticeable, because they are so unusual, statistically. The ongoing domestic violence is also "normal" & expected. Innocent "do-gooders" of many kinds like to believe that sociology & psychology can be conqueror by formal education, employment, money, regulations and law. Old retired social workers like myself know the truth.
Interned with a tribe when I was in college...became a state CPI after graduation. I lasted 8 months. The things I witnessed made me lose my faith in humanity.
Truth. Lodge that in parliament and see how you go!. I guarantee it get's squashed. Multi generational corruption from the highest order. Your feelings are not important. Imagine if you spent your deficit on the people instead of wall st!
Severe depressive episodes , persistent depressive disorder, ocd, and ptsd, and currently on SSDI cuz of how harmful I was being to myself. It’s taken 4 years and a ton of therapy, and CBT/DBT exercises. Finally feeling better and can notice significant changes in myself. I really really hope you’re able to find a social worker to help yourself the way you need it. 🌸💕
Being two and a half weeks free of alcohol it helps to see from these videos that the legal alcohol messes people up in mind and body as much as any illegal drug. God help anyone struggling with alcohol right now x
Her story is heartbreaking. I don't know how I would go on if I lost my children. I feel this one deeply. So sorry your life has been so traumatic and hard Yolanda. Hugs.
My dad was an alcoholic growing up. Always in and out of my life. Mentally and physically abusive. He has been sober for a couple years now. He found God which helped him out of his addiction. His family from what I know, was/ are alcoholics as well and addicted to other things. My twin and I have that gene as well. My sophomore year of college... I went completely down hill. BUT. Fortunately, I got my stuff together. Didn’t want to be like how my dad was. I’m 20 years old now..in my junior year of college, first generation, and on a full ride. Keep your faith. I was blessed enough to have a strong head on my shoulders and look at his situation as something I didn’t wanna be. YOU have the power to make your life better. I can’t wait to give my time and help out the youth!
Why families will defend a child molesting abuser to the extent of causing that young women to be placed in a mental home then take her child and allow the abuser to attend the funeral and say nothing. I will never understand. The injustice in that situation is infuriating.
I think some people are so beaten down in their lives, they don't know how to bring themselves out of it. Sad, but, lack of early bonding and guidance effect the outcome. Drug/alcohol dependence is so cruel.
God bless you honey I lost my 24 year old daughter 7-5-20 to a horrific accident it's excruciating the pain I cannot imagine losing both of my kids prayers going up for you ❤️❤️❤️
Y’all can’t handle real life. She didn’t fail. You can’t be on drugs , a minor AND keep your baby. She needs rehab before she could’ve even took her son back and even then she probably couldn’t get him back
Cognitive dissonance and alcoholism battling over a subconscious mind response. The whole time you hear excuse-splaining, her answers sound like an automatic response. For example, How her son loved her unconditionally, so being a bad parent cant be an argument against her. Excuses like i didnt know where all this money came from, i didnt know what he was doing. Might have to be very hard to think about, the fact that your offspring was not only not productive, but destructive. all because of passed-on negligence and addiction. I recognized Alcoholism and its lies and manipulation, because i am A recovering Alcoholic. Thank you for sharing this with us, Yolanda.I pray you find a moment of rest from this disease, while alive. 1 day at at time.
Lived it too Kelly. I thank God everyday for getting me off the train before the last stop. I couldnt do it by myself & needed His Divine intervention. Peace All
A lot of my faith in humanity is restored seeing the sympathetic comments for someone who has obviously had a tough life. Easy to hurl insults at people, but who knows what you would be like if you went through what she did.
Mark you should come down to San Diego and look into Tijuana. So many interesting characters down there. Deported veterans, hookers, strippers, legal prostitution, haitian immigrants, US citizens who live in TJ. So much stuff going on down there. Hope you read this message.
Ooooh boy..I used to live in SD, Mission Hills so a better side of town but while chillin down in Chula Vista and beyond oh boy the stuff you see down there is just mind boggling. If you go Mark, stay strapped lol it’s no joke
People don't get enough encouragement in their lives. Many have never been encouraged whatsoever. And it's so important. If you're reading this, look for a way to encourage someone else, even if you've never been given that encouragement yourself. I promise that it will be healing for both of you.
I've been watching your videos for a long time, but recently someone in my family seems to have relapsed after over 10 years of sobriety. I'm trying to figure out how to deal with it and with her, thank you for making these videos. And strengths to anyone going through withdrawal or sobriety
This poor woman. Her life is beyond sad. Losing both of your children. So much pain. I admire her honesty. I pray she can someday find peace and happiness.
This channel has showed me to appreciate homeless people. My parents tell me not to give them money but I can’t help but give them the change I have 😢 I’m judge for giving them money. But I don’t care my heart breaks seeing them in the streets 💔
I really feel for this woman, She was put into a poor position in life. It is hard to escape the only ways one sees people close to you cope. My father is a recovering alcoholic. I chose not to drink much but chose to date/marry alcoholics. Life is full of conscious choices. I pray for people who struggle with alcoholism.
The job part is a good start but these kind of families will take the money from the kids the minute they bring it home. Not every state allows kids to even work part time. Also, where's she going to save it? She may not know how to open a bank account, the account may require a parent's co-sign. Kids in these situations can't keep their money at home because it'll just get taken from them. They may not have other adults to turn to because the minute they get help from another adult, the adults in their own family make it twice as hard on the kid for getting someone else involved. It's a horrible, complex situation.
I had to get out so I left home at 17 and moved in with a guy that gave me attention, he then became my husband. Thankfully it worked out. Could easily have gone the wrong way.
Oh, Yolanda. I feel for you. She is so beautiful and has been through so much. Generational trauma is incredibly real. I wish I could hug her and help her with therapy and treatment so she can find her worth and heal from her incredible losses and unhealthy ways of coping. Sending strength and peace to her. Would love an update.
@@tristinkeeshan2847 thanks. I honestly forgot and couldn't figure out why everybody was talking about some guy named Mark. Ive watched alot of his interviews so I should have known
The look of sorrow is imprinted on her face. One Trauma after another, I feel for you sister. I pray that she can find the help that she needs. In Jesus Christ name Amen 🕊️💗
Verbally beating a traumatized woman or person down does not help or will it change anything. However having compassion and doing what each of us can will change things if we all stand up and chose to do something for others who have trauma in their lives. That is what this channel is about to bring awareness and a safe place for people to bravely share their stories. I would imagine it is very challenging to speak about their trauma. I have also been through hell and I know it's very challenging for me. Most of the reason why I chose not to speak up for many years was because of how judgmental and cruel people are. I feel deep compassion in my heart and soul for people. Their are reasons why people do what they do. Trauma is a big part of that. I was fortunate never to use drugs and to not use alcohol to cope with my trauma. With that said I know numerous people that have and still do. I have lost numerous people I love to drugs and alcohol. I also was raped and molested, beaten so badly by my husband that I lost my baby because he beat me so bad. I was able to escape barely before he killed me yet he killed my baby. That was many years ago and it will forever affect me. This is just some of what I have been through. So please instead of bashing Yolanda or anybody you have not walked in her shoes. You have no idea all that she endured and all the pain she feels. I am grateful for this you tube channel and as difficult and painful as it can be to watch I learn a great deal every time. So thank you for all that you do for people and to bring awareness. 💕😋🙏🏻✌🏻
My dads dad died of alcoholism, my dad is a functioning alcoholic, and I struggle everyday to not drink. I’m not sober but I’ve already ruined a lot of relationships and pieces of my life because of alcohol. I’m 27 and my life, my fathers life, and my grandpas life could have been very different without alcohol. Sometimes when I’m really down I wish I was born to a different family or not born at all.
Hi, you are 27 years old, presumably you have a job? And if not please try to get one, anything because it will make you feel independent. If you start at bottom that’s ok because you have the ability to grow work wise & within yourself you could move on from the destructive part of your life! You don’t have to follow in the generations of alcoholics. I personally can’t abide alcoholics & the damage they cause. You desperately need to take control my friend & choose your path.............only you can do!
@@florence1395 thank you so much, I am a student... I’ve been a student forever but that’s my fault. I’m actually doing better with alcohol because I am in a happier chapter of my life. But I do constantly fear that any moment if I drink I could ruin my happy relationship with my bf, and family. The thing about drinking is it is a choice but sometimes it’s so excruciatingly hard to say no to alcohol. I’ve done many drugs but none have gotten the best of me like alcohol. It just takes over and I become a different person after the first drink. And I blackout very easily, I’m not sure why, but that is when I do embarrassing things and make decisions I wouldn’t normally make. But after my first DWI i started to care more because my biggest fear is killing someone else :/
Out of all the people I seen interviewed by you, this lady here, I could see me sitting down and having a beer with her, talking about life, and me actually learning a thing or two about love, loss and pain from this woman. I love her. If there is any way to donate to her, please let me know. We all have our favorites, this one is mine.
This story is sad. However, everyone has the choice to be a better person! I don't understand how a mother can have her children taken away and then be like 'i was a good mother', ' I was a single mom' or ' i cant believe that happened to him/her' or as if its really no fault of their own. EVERYTHING you show and do or don't do WILL ALWAYS effect your children NO MATTER WHAT!
This show as well as Intervention, help me stay focused and are very helpful. All these sad lives, could of been me many times over. Been watching this for years. Thank you
@@Rebecca-hc5ju how is she trying to gain sympathy? You realize they ask these people right? Not the other way around. HE asked her these questions. Secondly she’s been on drugs since she was FOURTEEN so you really think she’s even mentally stable enough to raise a kid? Drugs take YEARS to not be addicted to. Y’all have unrealistic expectations.
@@queenblastt you have unrealistic expectations if you believe these stories are true. Its a personal story but told with a view of being interesting to those watching the video. They are here because there’s a hope of getting something in return. Always
Listening to drunk ppl or ppl on their way to having ‘wet brain’ can be like listening to ppl w dementia. All over the place. And her son didn’t ‘get caught up in the system’. She failed him which is what ultimately led to his death. Shame
@ oh I see plenty more but I wasn’t going to run thru a 24 minute video and comment on every single thing. But clearly she DID fail her kids.. I’m not sure how that makes me cruel but whatever u say there, ur entitled to ur own opinion
Pot is my drug of choice and I know I have a problem, but like many others I use it to cope so it's hard to picture myself stopping. I hate those who claim weed is not addictive. My brother is also addicted to weed, but in denial. He's also picked up drinking and dabbles in other drugs. I hope there's still a day in the future where we can both be sober
I would much rather walk in a room smelling like pot then having the room covered with alcoholic beverages. I hate to generalize and lump a group together but for the sake of this discussion I will. People impaired with marijuana are 100 times less aggressive than those who use alcohol.
A thing i see in most alcoholics i have encountered is that they often feel guilty but they never admit it. It's always other people who do mistakes, they rarely take over responsibility for the things they do and the pain they cause. But of course they have their own pain that stems from their own trauma, so its a vicious cycle. After all, it is a disease and you need to get help and treatment for it.
I will never understand a mother who can see how much their kids love them, and still decide to live their own messed up life, giving up their kids. And then to say "I'll do anything for my kids"... except giving them a decent life apparently.
I'm 18 months sober and clean rehab built a foundation and gave me a recovery tool kit to use I don't do fellowship but if that keeps you good do it I use smart recovery and counselling service and psychology
Mark - What bothers me about this is at the end of this interview she says she opens her house to everyone to bathe, sleep, eat...but what about her children? They needed a home, food, shelter, safety. But yet, she opens her home to everyone else but her children!
These are their stories, there is a measure of truth but always its their story of today. If you talk to them the next week it could be completely different
I'm taking a break smoking weed because I was overdoing it in my opinion and it's almost been 3 months now. For the past 2 weeks I found myself starting to drink every day to kind of not be sober without smoking but starting yesterday I was like I don't want to stop something to start something else. Rather its light or heavy drugs everyone deserves to have control over their own body's and mind. I pray for everyone going thru this struggle...
I did the opposite, I'd go through periods of no drinking, then my weed consumption would go up. But lately I been pretty good at being sober and not feeling like I need either. Working on my relationships with friends, family, bf and with myself has really helped, speaking to a counsellor weekly and also joining a weekly group counselling session made a world of difference, also started running outdoors 3x a week to work towards 10k all worked to get me in a better place mentally. It certainly takes daily work
@@itscooltobeyou I agree just dealing with being fully sober is a challenge every day no matter what the vice is. I've started doing some light work out and just trying to focus on myself more and it definitely helps. It's all about being the best you that you can be and constantly having a fog over me, you or anyone else isn't living. Good luck with your journey.
@john thonig Don't get me wrong I Iove weed and definitely plan on going back but in moderation. I know mentally I don't have that control yet... I was waking up smoking, smoking before I left the house or not even leaving the house at all because I would rather smoke, before I ate and I was late on rent just so I could spend my last on weed. It just was becoming too much. I just recently had a daughter that turned one and if not for myself I owe it to her at least to be better over all. Thank You for the pretty comment as well...
@@JustBeNice007 I can relate. I love weed too but I would also catch myself smoking too much when other stuff needed to be done first. I limit myself now at first it was hard but now I have control again. I just put in my head I need to get shit done i look it as a reward lol
Yolanda you say you don’t know what you’re purpose or you’re reason for being here is maybe so you can learn to really love and not taking life for granted. Sometimes the hardest things we go through are all for the lessons we will learn from them. Not too late for you Yolanda to learn to truly love and enjoy life.
A commanding story from the get-go. I was mesmerized at times.. what a horrid life when you live where this goes on and LA was born for Drama with a capitol d.... I was born on Sunset Blvd at Keiser Hospital.. my Mother said my Dad tried to kill himself driving down Hollywood Blvd going 100 mi. when she was pregnant with me. Thirteen yrs later after numerous other attempts, he finally succeeded with a Mossberg rifle..,sorry listening to her, I love the camera panning down to her tennis..it was slow motion art.. I remember hearing about Skid Row when I was a kid. Her life ... I wish her well . Well done SWU
I get so tired of the cravings. I have 18 months clean. Ive had 5 years clean before. But I'm 44 and ive been a drinker and a chronic relapser since i was 13. One sip of beer and I'll just end up pounding 12 cans. I dont get it. I don't know why I'm like this.
My dad drank when we were young. He worked hard he made a good life, he’s always drank still does just slower now because of age. I always hated it was horrible. Listen to her, the circles they talk in. Dad did that....hate it can’t understand wtf. It’s because they thoughts can’t get out. I use to enjoy drinking when I was younger. But once I had my son...every year it’s less and less. Because I didnt want my son to be around it. It’s horrible horrible way to live. To see your parents like this. And I’m proud that my son doesn’t drink at 19. Had a little once with me around but never has gone there. I tell him I’m proud of that because alcohol is socially accepted. It shouldn’t be.
I know exactly what you're saying. My children's father drank himself to death at age 37. I was TERRIFIED that my kids would grow up, and struggle with addiction like he did. Super proud that neither of them have any interest in drinking. They lived through the hell that alcoholism caused.
Wow she grew up in the shadow of downtown LA. Echo Park is just north of Skid Row. On the other side of the freeway. Poor thing. Addictions are Hell. They always comes first.
This is so sad 🙏🏼 I wish her well. I sometimes wonder if these peoples grandkids or family members come across these videos here on TH-cam and watch them, if they wonder where they might be if they haven’t heard from them... 😞 so sad. But she does have a purpose. Everyone does, maybe she’s still here because she needed to tell her story. To help somebody
when I was suffering through my heroin addiction I used to think prayer was the only thing I had left , little did I kno that was all I needed , praise our Creator 💟
Oh wowwwww. She’s Native American ! Despite her lifestyle. I am always delighted to SEE native Americans. They are so scarce ! I thought she was Hispanic but knew she didn’t look like it !!
I loved someone who preferred being homeless. He was an alcoholic and a drug user. He tried rehab 3 times but the longest he could stay clean was 2 months. He did die just before his 50th birthday of cocoethylene(overdosed on alcohol and cocaine). He bled from every opening in his body and brain and was found alone, lying on the ground at night ,in the rain. I have always worked, had a place to live, an old truck and i guess he would show up at my door as a haven at times. He either sold or pawned anything of value, stole from me, his parenrs, friends and begged on the streets. He lived under the bridge or whomever would let him spend the night. I would have given anything if he could have beaten the alcohol. He just couldn't do it or didn't want to and it killed him. That was 8 years ago and I still mourn him.
I haven’t had any alcohol for 2 weeks and I’ve never been so happy 😭❤️
You tipsy when you posted this! Whatchu mean?!
Alejandra, good for you. Listen, booze in all form is overrated. In stopping, youre doing yourself and all around you a huge and life altering favor.
Let it go. I speak with empathy and compassion on this subject.
Best of luck and all positive energy.
Good for you!! It's a struggle, no joke. But your life will get better and you will feel better.
Great choice!
Congrats!!! I am a week clean now from drugs!! :) we got this
I just gained the strength to pass on boozing today. I hope she wins her battle
@Bryan Smith congratulations take it day by day. You got this 💪🏼
One day at a time. Hour to hour. Don't ever give up. Be kind to yourself.
Almost 3 years sober for me. I'm cheering for you! ❤️
good luck my friend
Bryan nice job my friend, you got this! 🙏😌
It gets easier as time passes by. I started drinking daily at 14-15 years old. I finally quit at 37. Took multiple failed attempts. I started trying to quit at 33. Now 40 and I have no desire to drink.
Coming up on my 7 months alcohol free. I am sending so many prayers to her.
How has it been?
What about today January 29th 2023?
I just poured three fingers of Jack Daniels
Watching this on week 21 of a 24 week inpatient treatment programme for alcoholism. I'm so lucky to have the opportunity to get well in a safe and supportive environment. I wish all addicts had the chance I have been given.
Good for you! And keep on keeping on!! Much love to you 💕
I wish you everlasting strength! Xo
I agree . you keep on the path of righteousness Jenny , one day at a tiMe , should you stumble , keep getting uP . the best thing I could ever do , was learning how to forgive myself , learning how to be my own best friend, eventually truly loving myself .
🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I hope you find strength even in the toughest days. You are so brave.
Today is my 6th day substance free!! I'm so happy -- one day at a time!! 🎉😊
Yesssss baby I’m sorry no one else decide to comment but I will! One day at a time!!! I’ve been clean from Xanax and Percocet for almost 2 years now and everything in my life has been amazing now! I had my rainbow baby that I had been praying for for years and I’m married and my life is just amazing! It’s so worth it I promise u! Please stay focused and keep it up!
@@lilmizbaddie @deborah Vidal
I am so proud of you both and I am so glad you guys are doing well! Keep doing what you are doing- one day at a time 💕💕
@@gabsb5910 thank u so much! It means so much to be acknowledged. One day at a time💪🏽
Good 4 u, keep it up
You can do it! If you fall down, just get back up and keep going.
as an ex alcoholic, I know the taste of that damn Steel Reserve 211, the smell, how it feels going down. It's cheap and effective. An alcoholics best friend. I don't miss that shit at all and hope this woman can recover. Sobriety feels 100x better.
How long for detox/rehab and them full sobriety? And what method or methods did u use?
@@meghanfraser1728 it took me about a week to detox. I checked into a rehab facility that supplied me with proper medicine and counseling to help me. I'll admit I couldn't have done it by myself. I was too far gone.
@@chriss.2978 thx chris
Stay away from the steel eal!
Good job on your sobriety!
It makes me sad that, even though her mom is dead because of alcoholism, she still became an alcoholic. My mom also died from booze. That was never a problem for me. I ate my way to 310 pounds and lost 180 pounds almost 19 years ago. You’ll choose something to cope with your pain and it’s usually not a good choice if you’re not taught better. Therapy is life saving!
You are correct and learning to love yourself really helps too. I know that helped for me to stop the drugs. When I really look back on things my eating disorder was the first problem, which led to my drug problems. I actually really like myself today and I can’t imagine living like that anymore.
Not uncommon to switch one addition to another. Just try to switch to an addiction that is not as harmful as the last. Nobody’s perfect.
Amen...
I agree, therapy is a must. Unfortunately, many refuse therapy for various reasons.
You are very strong. Congratulations 🎉
I had a 9th grade gym/health teacher. He told me he had never tried drugs and alcohol, because he was afraid he’d like them. That kept me away, and I’m 60 years old now.
My last near death incident (of many) was 8 months ago. I’ve been sober from alcohol for 8 months now and find it is easier as time goes by. My advice is to remember (when tempted by the bottle) what pain you may have caused or what has happened to you because of your alcoholism.
21 month sober tomorrow! I’ve watched every video and I have empathy for everyone single person on here. I hope everyone find what I have found in the rooms! Honesty open mindedness and willingness are indispensable! Hope is a beautiful thing!
Congratulations to you! Without hope there is not much left. Much love to you 💕✌🏼
Congratulations
Congratulations. Keep going!
@@thematriarchy2075 Whoop whoop! my sober app Tod me I had 900 days the other day! lol... 2 and a half years in 3 days! whoop whoop!
@@octaviobarajas3980 hell yea brother
I had to break up with my boyfriend yesterday because of alcoholism. I finally had to except that he will never love me more than he loves alcohol 💔 It's sad but it's the truth! I pray that these folks suffering with this addiction find help and peace! I agree with another comment, alcohol is just a legal drug! 😢
I am sending you love and healing! You have taken the first step towards a happier life, and I am proud of you! * I just realized this comment is 6 months old lol - so ill rephrase it - I hope you are 6 months deep into you freedom and happiness! Still proud tho.
My heart breaks for her son, for that little boy who loved his mother through everything. Cant imagine all his sorrow.
I hate when they say they’re a single mom when they don’t even raise their kids. A mom takes care of her kids no matter what. They come first with everything. So no, you’re not a single mom. You just gave birth to 2 kids. Period.
And thats on factsss.
Tell ‘em! You said it best.
Well said!
Very well said!!!
Exactly what I was going to post and then I saw your comment. She had both kids taken and her grandson was 14 years old before she even met him. She's no mother and a pretty shit person. People like this only usefulness are as tales of caution and how to not live.
I'm praying for Yolanda. Its been almost a year, I hope that she is ok.
On a different note, one month and one day sober from alcohol for me, I feel so good.
Poor Yolanda. She feels like she has no purpose and is slowly killing herself. ☹️ her pain is real.
Poor Yolanda, she never had a choice to do better, poor poor Yolanda. What about the children that she birthed who really had no choice in the matter? She had a choice, we all have choices...she chooses drugs and living off my working tax dollars while she still sells crack and smokes it.
@@Racerboy535 I like the sarcasm in ur comment 😂
Oh the trumpers in my comments are very strong out here and so empathetic.
Berenice V politics have nothing to do with the comments in this section. You’re one of those people aren’t you. Yuck.
@@maxfightmaster1338 for real, wtf is she even talking about ‘trumpers’ for?
This is the side of the world lots of people like to pretend doesn't exist and can't happen to one's close to them.
yeah true. also all the rich so called celebrities must drive past skid row, as its in Hollywood isn't it. so mental that too many people are homeless and left just like rubbish in a rubbish tip just to have the dreams and health rotting away , in this day and age no one should be homeless and starving all over the world .in the year 2020 it's savage as there's plenty of money to go around..but sadly too many people choose not to give enough care and love to go around. heartbreaking really!.
She is a POS that takes no responsibility. Why is it the rich people you think need to do something for this crap of a human being. Why don’t you go down and help her? Only then will you realize all most of these assholes want is a free life of doing drugs and no responsibility.
Her kids didn’t have a choice in her decisions, she had a choice to be better and every time she got out of prison she went back to do her drugs.
@@Racerboy535 Get off your high horse.
@@Racerboy535 Have some empathy you shitheel. Addiction is an extremely hard thing to kick because it's a disease, not a sign of weakness.
This reminds me of my mom. Shes always gone down a broken path and I can't understand why. Thank you for this perspective. I love the work you do
Your mom has a disease called alcoholism it's to much without help Al-Alon helps those who are children or parents or friends of people with this disease to help you understand us 🙏 🙏
Alcohol kills or ruins lives but pot is illegal?
Thats the whole point!
Isn’t that insane? Just insane.
It makes no fucking sense we even have a cannabinoid system in our body it makes no sense look how you act when you’re drunk you’re incoherent mostly . When smoking cannabis you can still function and do most tasks!! So many benefits the cannabis plant offers I don’t know one thing alcohol offers
Its like anything really, abuse it, thats when problems arise.
@@davidbrayshaw3529 that was not the argument tho. And even if what you said its true why isn’t alcohol illegal? 😳 or sugar? Or French fries?
Praying for Yolanda & anyone else that is suffering from addiction, pain, and homelessness 🙏🏽
I am almost 10 months sober 🥲 best decision I have ever made. I am so proud dof you all.
She says 'she just knew that she had to protect her son'
Well she should have thought of that when he was in foster care and needed her the most, when he was a child, before he became damaged.
Oh Yolanda I want to yell at you about so much but I've seen the battle that alcoholics go through and just wish you good health and happiness.
That’s nice. Some of these comments are so rude and have no empathy at all,
Hi @Ivy Lynn 👋🏼 what a small world 🤗 it’s Jenn from MRB 🥰 I was in the comments section and saw your profile pic and immediately recognized you 🤗
@@thedohyzoo4 hi there!!! So nice to see you here! This channel is so moving! I hope you are doing good!
🙏 🙏 💕
This is so sad, What a hard Life some have to live and to talk about your children dying without emotions 🥺 Everyone Needs to be grateful if your in a Warm home with your Family healthy and Alive and Loved❤
indeed. two baby's she lost . grandson product of mom's being molested. how effing absurd this world has become, no knew thing under the sun tho. how I wished I could help those that need it . Prayers uP grandma Yoyo 🤎
dkinahouse I feel bad for her.
@dkinahouse shuttttttt the fuck up. You self righteous piece of shit. Makes you feel good to see someone you can talk down upon huh . A whole paragraph putting down someone we all know is already “down”. She is messed up ! But see that’s what’s wrong with this world. You rather judge her than try to empathize with her. Hurt people hurt people.
@@modernlilliss299 her children are dead because of her. She talks about it while barely shedding a tear. Smh
Physically Yolanda looks tore up from the floor up but her mind is all there. She speaks well and comprehends everything and that’s a blessing considering how many years she’s been drinking and doing drugs. I hope she gets sober one day.
This is the dynamics of generational dysfunctionalism. This one is heartbreaking. I'm so grateful that I broke the cycle.
Navaho Indian (USA) heritage. This life story is repeated worldwide, with most indigenous people. Alcohol, and other drugs later. Broken families, imprisonment. Out of wedlock pregnancies. Early death, of children & adults. The exceptions to this "rule" are so noticeable, because they are so unusual, statistically.
The ongoing domestic violence is also "normal" & expected. Innocent "do-gooders" of many kinds like to believe that sociology & psychology can be conqueror by formal education, employment, money, regulations and law. Old retired social workers like myself know the truth.
Sorry, I missed your complete thought. What's "the truth"?
You couldn't have scripted it better!
Interned with a tribe when I was in college...became a state CPI after graduation. I lasted 8 months. The things I witnessed made me lose my faith in humanity.
Truth. Lodge that in parliament and see how you go!. I guarantee it get's squashed.
Multi generational corruption from the highest order.
Your feelings are not important.
Imagine if you spent your deficit on the people instead of wall st!
How very true indeed. Thank you for your share.
Severe depressive episodes , persistent depressive disorder, ocd, and ptsd, and currently on SSDI cuz of how harmful I was being to myself. It’s taken 4 years and a ton of therapy, and CBT/DBT exercises. Finally feeling better and can notice significant changes in myself. I really really hope you’re able to find a social worker to help yourself the way you need it. 🌸💕
Glad you saw it through. One day at a time. 💕
Know your worth beautiful
So much intergenerational trauma
Exactly!! People really don't understand that aspect and are so quick to judge people for "their choices".
This channel is amazing. Hearing people stories along with peoples faces is what this dope filled, social media driven world is in need of.
Being two and a half weeks free of alcohol it helps to see from these videos that the legal alcohol messes people up in mind and body as much as any illegal drug. God help anyone struggling with alcohol right now x
Her story is heartbreaking. I don't know how I would go on if I lost my children. I feel this one deeply. So sorry your life has been so traumatic and hard Yolanda. Hugs.
Prayers & condolences 🙏🏽 to her
Well, she lost her son due to her actions.
My dad was an alcoholic growing up. Always in and out of my life. Mentally and physically abusive. He has been sober for a couple years now. He found God which helped him out of his addiction. His family from what I know, was/ are alcoholics as well and addicted to other things. My twin and I have that gene as well. My sophomore year of college... I went completely down hill. BUT. Fortunately, I got my stuff together. Didn’t want to be like how my dad was. I’m 20 years old now..in my junior year of college, first generation, and on a full ride. Keep your faith. I was blessed enough to have a strong head on my shoulders and look at his situation as something I didn’t wanna be. YOU have the power to make your life better. I can’t wait to give my time and help out the youth!
Why families will defend a child molesting abuser to the extent of causing that young women to be placed in a mental home then take her child and allow the abuser to attend the funeral and say nothing. I will never understand. The injustice in that situation is infuriating.
I feel you.. It's mind blowing. Makes me want to move from the planet.
I think some people are so beaten down in their lives, they don't know how to bring themselves out of it. Sad, but, lack of early bonding and guidance effect the outcome. Drug/alcohol dependence is so cruel.
This is what women are like when they haven’t been trained properly by men
@@downwiththezionistpsychopa9812 because the men and women are abusive what is your comment insinuating? Weirdo
It’s sad to see this! I’m alcohol free for 112 days and so happy I’m not drinking!! All the best to anyone struggling with addiction
Hope and pray your still doing good
God bless you honey I lost my 24 year old daughter 7-5-20 to a horrific accident it's excruciating the pain I cannot imagine losing both of my kids prayers going up for you ❤️❤️❤️
6 years sober the best thing I ever did, please love give yourself the best gift possible, give up alcohol, you CAN do it xxx
She really let her son down. He needed his mom.
Y’all can’t handle real life. She didn’t fail. You can’t be on drugs , a minor AND keep your baby. She needs rehab before she could’ve even took her son back and even then she probably couldn’t get him back
Not everyone with an alcoholic mom becomes a hitman
She was a kid
She needed hers. What a vicious cycle people can find themselves in.grasping at straws moment to moment.
Right on time!! I work third shifts and these always help me get through the last hour. Thanks !!
Cognitive dissonance and alcoholism battling over a subconscious mind response. The whole time you hear excuse-splaining, her answers sound like an automatic response. For example, How her son loved her unconditionally, so being a bad parent cant be an argument against her. Excuses like i didnt know where all this money came from, i didnt know what he was doing. Might have to be very hard to think about, the fact that your offspring was not only not productive, but destructive. all because of passed-on negligence and addiction.
I recognized Alcoholism and its lies and manipulation, because i am A recovering Alcoholic. Thank you for sharing this with us, Yolanda.I pray you find a moment of rest from this disease, while alive. 1 day at at time.
Great comment.
Lived it too Kelly. I thank God everyday for getting me off the train before the last stop. I couldnt do it by myself & needed His Divine intervention. Peace All
Same! Thank the lord for Naltrexone
One of the best comments, EVER!!!
A lot of my faith in humanity is restored seeing the sympathetic comments for someone who has obviously had a tough life. Easy to hurl insults at people, but who knows what you would be like if you went through what she did.
Still too many self righteous assholes to my liking!!! People without one gram of compassion or empathy. 🙄
Absolutely true so pitiful.
Mark you should come down to San Diego and look into Tijuana. So many interesting characters down there. Deported veterans, hookers, strippers, legal prostitution, haitian immigrants, US citizens who live in TJ. So much stuff going on down there. Hope you read this message.
I'm not sure if you're a guinea pig or a cat!!
That's an excellent idea!
Cartel over there bad.... The cops are the gangs
Ive visited San Diego and Tijuana a few years back
Ooooh boy..I used to live in SD, Mission Hills so a better side of town but while chillin down in Chula Vista and beyond oh boy the stuff you see down there is just mind boggling. If you go Mark, stay strapped lol it’s no joke
Her life has been surrounded by the death of loved ones. Tragic
Caused by her bad behaviour and poor life decisions
People don't get enough encouragement in their lives. Many have never been encouraged whatsoever. And it's so important. If you're reading this, look for a way to encourage someone else, even if you've never been given that encouragement yourself. I promise that it will be healing for both of you.
I've been watching your videos for a long time, but recently someone in my family seems to have relapsed after over 10 years of sobriety. I'm trying to figure out how to deal with it and with her, thank you for making these videos. And strengths to anyone going through withdrawal or sobriety
This poor woman. Her life is beyond sad. Losing both of your children. So much pain. I admire her honesty. I pray she can someday find peace and happiness.
This channel has showed me to appreciate homeless people. My parents tell me not to give them money but I can’t help but give them the change I have 😢 I’m judge for giving them money. But I don’t care my heart breaks seeing them in the streets 💔
It's the kids who suffer
we're all someone's kid
@@applespice01 yes my dad was an alcoholic
I really feel for this woman, She was put into a poor position in life. It is hard to escape the only ways one sees people close to you cope. My father is a recovering alcoholic. I chose not to drink much but chose to date/marry alcoholics. Life is full of conscious choices. I pray for people who struggle with alcoholism.
If I were born into these families, I would get a job at a fast food restaurant and save my money and I would get a bus ticket and never. back!!!
The job part is a good start but these kind of families will take the money from the kids the minute they bring it home. Not every state allows kids to even work part time. Also, where's she going to save it? She may not know how to open a bank account, the account may require a parent's co-sign. Kids in these situations can't keep their money at home because it'll just get taken from them. They may not have other adults to turn to because the minute they get help from another adult, the adults in their own family make it twice as hard on the kid for getting someone else involved. It's a horrible, complex situation.
I had to get out so I left home at 17 and moved in with a guy that gave me attention, he then became my husband. Thankfully it worked out. Could easily have gone the wrong way.
Oh, Yolanda. I feel for you. She is so beautiful and has been through so much. Generational trauma is incredibly real. I wish I could hug her and help her with therapy and treatment so she can find her worth and heal from her incredible losses and unhealthy ways of coping. Sending strength and peace to her. Would love an update.
Amen 🙏🏼
She mentioned that both of her parents were alcoholics so I wonder if she has fetal alcohol syndrome.
Could be possible maybe that's why she's an alcoholic too
Low set ears are also a sign of FAS
Excellent !! My thoughts exactly
Mark made that beer sound so good with the sound.
Shut yo alcoholic ass up
Right make me want a cold beer 🍺 now lol.
Who the hell is Mark?
@@lastnamefirst4035 the guy who’s filming? This is his channel
@@tristinkeeshan2847 thanks. I honestly forgot and couldn't figure out why everybody was talking about some guy named Mark. Ive watched alot of his interviews so I should have known
Her son "got caught up in the system." Way to take responsibility for losing your kid.
BT-1 don’t act as if you don’t judge people
@BT- 1 Don't play stupid. You knew exactly what I meant.
The look of sorrow is imprinted on her face. One Trauma after another, I feel for you sister. I pray that she can find the help that she needs. In Jesus Christ name Amen 🕊️💗
Amen & Amen ☦️✝️☦️
Yolanda. I am sending you the biggest hug and loads of love. What you have endured and you still manage to keep a good spirit...whew!!!!!
I have t had alcohol in 2 days and I’m thriving
Heres hoping you are still thriving
Verbally beating a traumatized woman or person down does not help or will it change anything. However having compassion and doing what each of us can will change things if we all stand up and chose to do something for others who have trauma in their lives. That is what this channel is about to bring awareness and a safe place for people to bravely share their stories. I would imagine it is very challenging to speak about their trauma. I have also been through hell and I know it's very challenging for me. Most of the reason why I chose not to speak up for many years was because of how judgmental and cruel people are. I feel deep compassion in my heart and soul for people. Their are reasons why people do what they do. Trauma is a big part of that. I was fortunate never to use drugs and to not use alcohol to cope with my trauma. With that said I know numerous people that have and still do. I have lost numerous people I love to drugs and alcohol. I also was raped and molested, beaten so badly by my husband that I lost my baby because he beat me so bad. I was able to escape barely before he killed me yet he killed my baby. That was many years ago and it will forever affect me. This is just some of what I have been through. So please instead of bashing Yolanda or anybody you have not walked in her shoes. You have no idea all that she endured and all the pain she feels. I am grateful for this you tube channel and as difficult and painful as it can be to watch I learn a great deal every time. So thank you for all that you do for people and to bring awareness. 💕😋🙏🏻✌🏻
The death of her son made her look bad my God the bs justification is strong in this one
My dads dad died of alcoholism, my dad is a functioning alcoholic, and I struggle everyday to not drink. I’m not sober but I’ve already ruined a lot of relationships and pieces of my life because of alcohol. I’m 27 and my life, my fathers life, and my grandpas life could have been very different without alcohol. Sometimes when I’m really down I wish I was born to a different family or not born at all.
Keep trying, everytime you feel like drinking do something productive. I hope it works out for you 🤍🙏🏽 YOURE in control. You got this 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽
Hi, you are 27 years old, presumably you have a job? And if not please try to get one, anything because it will make you feel independent. If you start at bottom that’s ok because you have the ability to grow work wise & within yourself you could move on from the destructive part of your life! You don’t have to follow in the generations of alcoholics. I personally can’t abide alcoholics & the damage they cause. You desperately need to take control my friend & choose your path.............only you can do!
@@nikkydane4998 thank you I am doing well. I have a great partner who give me lots of strength
@@florence1395 thank you so much, I am a student... I’ve been a student forever but that’s my fault. I’m actually doing better with alcohol because I am in a happier chapter of my life. But I do constantly fear that any moment if I drink I could ruin my happy relationship with my bf, and family. The thing about drinking is it is a choice but sometimes it’s so excruciatingly hard to say no to alcohol. I’ve done many drugs but none have gotten the best of me like alcohol. It just takes over and I become a different person after the first drink. And I blackout very easily, I’m not sure why, but that is when I do embarrassing things and make decisions I wouldn’t normally make. But after my first DWI i started to care more because my biggest fear is killing someone else :/
How's it going?
Out of all the people I seen interviewed by you, this lady here, I could see me sitting down and having a beer with her, talking about life, and me actually learning a thing or two about love, loss and pain from this woman. I love her. If there is any way to donate to her, please let me know. We all have our favorites, this one is mine.
Seeing no remorse or accountability for the lives she has indirectly ruined.
Why do you think she’s always drinking.... she literally said her not being there made her son get into gangs
She takes no accountability for her alcohol and drug abuse.
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So dam true
X
Sweet lady, too much pain in your life. I pray you will find some peace and love in this life. ❤️🙏
half the time I can’t even tell who she’s actually talking about.
I feel so sorry for her. Such a tragic life 😪
This story is sad. However, everyone has the choice to be a better person! I don't understand how a mother can have her children taken away and then be like 'i was a good mother', ' I was a single mom' or ' i cant believe that happened to him/her' or as if its really no fault of their own. EVERYTHING you show and do or don't do WILL ALWAYS effect your children NO MATTER WHAT!
So true, so very true.
This show as well as Intervention, help me stay focused and are very helpful. All these sad lives, could of been me many times over. Been watching this for years. Thank you
This is a story when you are not there for your own children and yet use their stories to gain sympathy for your own life.
👏👏👏! The amount of comments that fail to realize this, is shocking to me....and very scary.
@@Rebecca-hc5ju how is she trying to gain sympathy? You realize they ask these people right? Not the other way around. HE asked her these questions. Secondly she’s been on drugs since she was FOURTEEN so you really think she’s even mentally stable enough to raise a kid? Drugs take YEARS to not be addicted to. Y’all have unrealistic expectations.
@@queenblastt you have unrealistic expectations if you believe these stories are true. Its a personal story but told with a view of being interesting to those watching the video. They are here because there’s a hope of getting something in return. Always
This lady harbors a lot of guilt and doesn’t see her purpose. So much loss and death
Video opens with the sound of beer cracking open, thats clever!
Hey she was the one cracking it so realistic interview it seems
@@garrettmarshall7664 It's Mark's choice to leave that part in.
I open Dr Pepper cans 12 a day so I thought it was a free soda!
@@tinawindham6958 12 dr peppers a day😮 thats gonna cause you some problems!
I think it was a Pepsi?
Listening to drunk ppl or ppl on their way to having ‘wet brain’ can be like listening to ppl w dementia. All over the place. And her son didn’t ‘get caught up in the system’. She failed him which is what ultimately led to his death. Shame
@ oh I see plenty more but I wasn’t going to run thru a 24 minute video and comment on every single thing. But clearly she DID fail her kids.. I’m not sure how that makes me cruel but whatever u say there, ur entitled to ur own opinion
Her parents also failed her, and probably their parents as well. It's a vicious cycle...I wonder what is going to happen to her grandson
And I believe her daughter committed suicide. Who walks on a train track and hears the horn and doesn't move?
@@nickie7874 That’s the first thing I thought. Especially when she said the only way they could identify her was by a tattoo
Get down on your knees right now and thank GOD you can't understand what she has been through! Then shut the F Up.
It's funny, but not funny. I've smoked pot for 30 years, but I couldn't imagine cracking a beer or a bottle. Everyone has something going on.
Pot is my drug of choice and I know I have a problem, but like many others I use it to cope so it's hard to picture myself stopping. I hate those who claim weed is not addictive. My brother is also addicted to weed, but in denial. He's also picked up drinking and dabbles in other drugs. I hope there's still a day in the future where we can both be sober
I would much rather walk in a room smelling like pot then having the room covered with alcoholic beverages. I hate to generalize and lump a group together but for the sake of this discussion I will. People impaired with marijuana are 100 times less aggressive than those who use alcohol.
For sure! We all have vices
Alcoholism is heartbreaking....I can hear her body trying desperately to reject what she is drinking 😓
The mother should have done something for her kids.
She was 17 when she had him been on drugs since 14. It takes years to get rid of addiction Do you really think that would’ve been better for a child?
How ironic my moms an . alcoholic named Yolanda too!, please pray for me
Good grief
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Praying for you and your family beautiful 💕
how do you comment asking people to pray for you but never mention the person in the actual video lmao.
bozo.
Rebuild your relationship with your father as soon as possible
A thing i see in most alcoholics i have encountered is that they often feel guilty but they never admit it. It's always other people who do mistakes, they rarely take over responsibility for the things they do and the pain they cause. But of course they have their own pain that stems from their own trauma, so its a vicious cycle. After all, it is a disease and you need to get help and treatment for it.
18 years sober from alcohol--got my shit together at 36--I USED to be her
Damm the frist seconds of the video u hear a beer getting opened
Yes we all watched the video
@@UniqueArtist100 lol
I refuse to call flavored 211 beer lol.
@@bennyhaha66 Right 🤣 All the can mixed drinks kill my stomach. Actual beer i can handle but thats about it, thankfully.
She has to drink the pain away
I am a regular viewer and admirer of you , Mark, and this may be the saddest episode I've ever watched
I will never understand a mother who can see how much their kids love them, and still decide to live their own messed up life, giving up their kids. And then to say "I'll do anything for my kids"... except giving them a decent life apparently.
She has a disease called alcoholism she's not responsible for herself nor anyone at the moment she's needs lots of help 🙏 🙏
She is sick .
I'm 18 months sober and clean rehab built a foundation and gave me a recovery tool kit to use I don't do fellowship but if that keeps you good do it I use smart recovery and counselling service and psychology
Thank you Mark! Big hug❣️
She’s all over the place. I couldn’t keep any of it straight.
alcoholism/ addiction/ prostitution etc...is a bi-product of childhood trauma. child abuse is the real disease. #saveourchildren
Mark - What bothers me about this is at the end of this interview she says she opens her house to everyone to bathe, sleep, eat...but what about her children? They needed a home, food, shelter, safety. But yet, she opens her home to everyone else but her children!
👏👏👏👏👏
I’m sure they all set her up with drugs and beer
These are their stories, there is a measure of truth but always its their story of today. If you talk to them the next week it could be completely different
I'm taking a break smoking weed because I was overdoing it in my opinion and it's almost been 3 months now. For the past 2 weeks I found myself starting to drink every day to kind of not be sober without smoking but starting yesterday I was like I don't want to stop something to start something else. Rather its light or heavy drugs everyone deserves to have control over their own body's and mind. I pray for everyone going thru this struggle...
I did the opposite, I'd go through periods of no drinking, then my weed consumption would go up. But lately I been pretty good at being sober and not feeling like I need either. Working on my relationships with friends, family, bf and with myself has really helped, speaking to a counsellor weekly and also joining a weekly group counselling session made a world of difference, also started running outdoors 3x a week to work towards 10k all worked to get me in a better place mentally. It certainly takes daily work
@@itscooltobeyou I agree just dealing with being fully sober is a challenge every day no matter what the vice is. I've started doing some light work out and just trying to focus on myself more and it definitely helps. It's all about being the best you that you can be and constantly having a fog over me, you or anyone else isn't living. Good luck with your journey.
@john thonig Don't get me wrong I Iove weed and definitely plan on going back but in moderation. I know mentally I don't have that control yet... I was waking up smoking, smoking before I left the house or not even leaving the house at all because I would rather smoke, before I ate and I was late on rent just so I could spend my last on weed. It just was becoming too much. I just recently had a daughter that turned one and if not for myself I owe it to her at least to be better over all. Thank You for the pretty comment as well...
@@JustBeNice007 same to you! Youre worth it and you deserve it!
@@JustBeNice007 I can relate. I love weed too but I would also catch myself smoking too much when other stuff needed to be done first. I limit myself now at first it was hard but now I have control again. I just put in my head I need to get shit done i look it as a reward lol
Keep documenting our life challenged survivors please! They impart bravery to the rest of us life challenged survivors.
Yolanda you say you don’t know what you’re purpose or you’re reason for being here is maybe so you can learn to really love and not taking life for granted. Sometimes the hardest things we go through are all for the lessons we will learn from them. Not too late for you Yolanda to learn to truly love and enjoy life.
This is so sad. What a ripple effect. From her parents down to her children. Just truly troubled. Wow
A commanding story from the get-go. I was mesmerized at times.. what a horrid life when you live where this goes on and LA was born for Drama with a capitol d.... I was born on Sunset Blvd at Keiser Hospital.. my Mother said my Dad tried to kill himself driving down Hollywood Blvd going 100 mi. when she was pregnant with me. Thirteen yrs later after numerous other attempts, he finally succeeded with a Mossberg rifle..,sorry listening to her, I love the camera panning down to her tennis..it was slow motion art.. I remember hearing about Skid Row when I was a kid. Her life ... I wish her well . Well done SWU
Editing was perfect on this!
Kathy in Wonderland
, So sorry to hear your story & hope you are doing well these days. My heart goes out to you. Love from Michigan
I get so tired of the cravings. I have 18 months clean. Ive had 5 years clean before. But I'm 44 and ive been a drinker and a chronic relapser since i was 13. One sip of beer and I'll just end up pounding 12 cans. I dont get it. I don't know why I'm like this.
My dad drank when we were young. He worked hard he made a good life, he’s always drank still does just slower now because of age. I always hated it was horrible. Listen to her, the circles they talk in. Dad did that....hate it can’t understand wtf. It’s because they thoughts can’t get out. I use to enjoy drinking when I was younger. But once I had my son...every year it’s less and less. Because I didnt want my son to be around it. It’s horrible horrible way to live. To see your parents like this. And I’m proud that my son doesn’t drink at 19. Had a little once with me around but never has gone there. I tell him I’m proud of that because alcohol is socially accepted. It shouldn’t be.
I know exactly what you're saying. My children's father drank himself to death at age 37. I was TERRIFIED that my kids would grow up, and struggle with addiction like he did. Super proud that neither of them have any interest in drinking. They lived through the hell that alcoholism caused.
Wow she grew up in the shadow of downtown LA. Echo Park is just north of Skid Row. On the other side of the freeway. Poor thing. Addictions are Hell. They always comes first.
This is so sad 🙏🏼 I wish her well.
I sometimes wonder if these peoples grandkids or family members come across these videos here on TH-cam and watch them, if they wonder where they might be if they haven’t heard from them... 😞 so sad. But she does have a purpose. Everyone does, maybe she’s still here because she needed to tell her story. To help somebody
There’s no way I could or would have survived losing one of my babies much less both of them 😔😔
You don’t knw how strong you truly are until you have no choice
What a rough life, thought I had it bad growing up, just try to stay focused and continue to pray, regardless I will keep you in 🙏 God Bless
Sometimes people make bad decisions even if their childhoods were average
when I was suffering through my heroin addiction I used to think prayer was the only thing I had left , little did I kno that was all I needed , praise our Creator 💟
So sad. I hope she is able to be happier.
I've never had to shut an interview off. 😐 sorry.
Mark, you basically have the most open and empathetic audience here. Thank you for showing the too often ignored side of life in the USA.
Oh wowwwww. She’s Native American ! Despite her lifestyle. I am always delighted to SEE native Americans. They are so scarce ! I thought she was Hispanic but knew she didn’t look like it !!
I loved someone who preferred being homeless. He was an alcoholic and a drug user. He tried rehab 3 times but the longest he could stay clean was 2 months. He did die just before his 50th birthday of cocoethylene(overdosed on alcohol and cocaine). He bled from every opening in his body and brain and was found alone, lying on the ground at night ,in the rain. I have always worked, had a place to live, an old truck and i guess he would show up at my door as a haven at times. He either sold or pawned anything of value, stole from me, his parenrs, friends and begged on the streets. He lived under the bridge or whomever would let him spend the night. I would have given anything if he could have beaten the alcohol. He just couldn't do it or didn't want to and it killed him. That was 8 years ago and I still mourn him.