| My story | Insecurity, Weight Loss & Underweight Recovery
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 10 ก.ย. 2024
- Hello everyone,
This is my story about how I dealt with insecurity and stuff. Hopefully I inspire some people out there to not make the same mistakes.
Thanks for watching! Subscribe to my channel if you want to see more videos like this.
💋 Lotte Fleur
Yes yes yes, I get it. The music in this video is terrible to say the least. Back when I made this video I had no idea how to edit videos so to have accomplished actually making this video with a bit of background music was amazing to me. I'm asking you to look through that and just focus on the message of this video, I would appreciate it if people would stop commenting negatively on the choice of background music. I get it, I'm not a big fan as well but that's not what it's about. Thank you very much for the feedback anyways, it has been noted haha :) xx
lotte fleur thank you for sharing your story ! I do have eating disorder problems not easy get over it 😭😭I never lose extreme weight loss . But my legs 🦵 gotten so skinny now I wish it was thinner tho ugh to me I don’t feel skinny
Hello everyone. I've been getting some comments about how I was saying that 'I might have had an eating disorder' or 'I might have had anorexia'. I know I had anorexia, back when I was making this video I was still in denial and still not 100% fully recovered. It was a very scary thing to admit that I had anorexia. But now 1,5 year passed and I know how things are now. I'm not in denial anymore, I had anorexia, not I might have had. For anyone who is wondering about how I'm doing. I'm recovered. I don't think about calories, working out etc. anymore at all. My eating disorder is gone and I'm so lucky that I can say this. If you want a part two on this video where I sit in front of my camera and just talk to you guys please let me know. xx
exploringwithlottie PART 2
yesss part 2
exploringwithlottie part 2 please!
exploringwithlottie i wush i could have anorexia
exploringwithlottie love your story ❤️❤️
I just want to point out that you don't need to be underweight to be anorexic. You can actually be overweight and be anorexic. Anorexia is a mental illness, not a physical illness.
Other than that, I am so proud of you for achieving what you have done. You're an amazing person.
Actually underweight is a diagnostic criterium for anorexia. Therefore you have to be underweight to be diagnosed with anorexia.
You have to be underweight to be diagnosed with anorexia. I hate how that's one of the criteria.
I wish so bad I looked like you...
MeryCherry same, so I can get healthy by doing what I do best; eating
MeryCherry You mean when she is healthy, right :3
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MeryCherry me too
Me too😭
I sorta know how u feel hit puberty and had my period when I was 10 and ever since I hit puberty I have always been sooooo insecure about my body
Katelyn Connelly same life sucks
lol I’m 13 and I haven’t gotten my period yet🤷♀️
K T I’m 16 and I didn’t get my period.
😂 I’m 15 and am flat as a pancake sisterrrr
Me too
You kinda look like Ellie Goulding :)
ahah I get that a lot :)
+exploringwithlottie very pretty :)
I was thinking the same thing ha
Sarah K YASSSSSSS
The Antonio Garza music in the back he hittin 😔👊🏻
Jungkookie with suga I CANNOT JDJEB
As soon as I saw "Brandy Melville" I was like - yup, I know how this story starts.
I've been watching videos about Brandy for the last 2 days. I never knew that store existed because we don't have it in my country, but OMG that store is SO toxic.
As soon as I saw 'I've been a directioner' I had to comment xx I'm one too ❤
what is that
64 kombi Is when you're a truly fan of the boyband One Direction, I'm directioner too:')
sameeee xoxo
Sameeee❤️
Ikr!!
she looks like the blond version of bella throne
ll Anime Otaku ll ya she’s so pretty
bella thorne's actual hair color is blonde
ll Anime Otaku ll yes
she’s cuter than bella imo lol
We are literally the same person. Watching this I’m shook because we liked and obsessed over all the same perfect people
Me: *deletes all social media from my little sister’s phone*
Thank you for sharing your story with us! You are so brave, when I did it on my channel I was incredibly nervous and afraid of the response I'd get. But I can tell you now that your story was so real and relatable for me, stay strong and healthy Lottie!
Desi Arapakis I was also really nervous and so many doubts, but I'm really glad I did upload it. Thanks a lot! 😘
I'm recovering from anorexia and it makes me so upset to see such a beautiful girl got through this, stay strong, Im here if you need xoxox
Thank you for this video! I am recovering from anorexia and this showed me I can gain weight and still be healthy and happy! I realized I was in a bad state, and I’m trying to ignore the voice in my head and gain weight. This video showed me the happy ending I’m working towards. Thank you so much for sharing!
you are so strong and im super proud of you x
ps. immediately liked the vid when u said u were a directioner hahha
thank u so much babe
I just want to clarify that anorexia isn't about being a certain weight.
Still, im proud of you for doing the work yo get better, i know for experience how hard it is since I'm in recovery and have been for at least 2 years, and i still relapse sometimes.
Out of all these kinds if videos, this one is the one that actually makes me want to admit I have a problems
Red Lemon that’s the reason for putting this video out there, I hope you can find help and get better soon 💞
i started puberty at an early age too (11 years old) and went from 70 lbs to 110 lbs within the span of a couple months. i always felt so fat next to my friends who were still prepubescent... thankfully i’m 19 now and no longer compare myself to everyone else.
same and im that age too im so fatter then all my friends if im not 99 pounds by the end of march im going to kms
Kids from the Netherlands are literally all perfection
No they're not. They may seem like it but they don't feel that way. Or at least not all of them
Lmao, I wish 🤣
@@milladendijker8253 they tend to be prettier than in other parts of the world like the united states
Anyone reading you are beautiful and make this world way better, care for ur healthy and the environment! There’s just so many things to do and live for, reach ur inner child’s dreams❤❤:)
What a nice story, so glad you've recovered from such a horrible mental illness. I do have a little experience with self hatred and wanted to be "skinny". It basically was in 2013 (I was in grade 6) to 2015. I've lost so much weight and began to look different but I never really had anorexia. All I wanted to do was be thin but then seeing all these recovery stories made me think "this isn't what I want to face" even though it was hard to know that being the "thin girl" I wanted to be was dangerous, I let it go anyways. BTW I'm a directioner too bae 😏
That's good to hear. Eating disorders and self hate is horrible, nobody should have that! That's why I made the video.. to inspire people out there not to make the same mistakes and to be happy with themselves. Because really; all it does is consume you and that sucks so so so bad. Girl, if you ever start to feel like you need to be 'thin' again just hear me say; thinner doesn't have to prettier! Aaandd.. One Direction rocks, whoopwhoop!
you're so pretty and have great fashion sense! you should totally do fashion videos. i'm glad you're doing better.
My doctor said that my weight is a good weight do my age but...... I'm not sure that's true I have fat roles and I want to be skinnier but I am addicted to food and I can't stop. i try to eat healthy or do exercise but I have asthma and it is hard for me and I jut want to stop eating but I know I will be hungry and eat a lot so i don't really know what to do. And on top of that I am suicidal and have depressing thoughts that I normally don't tell any on about. For me life is super difficult and I don't know how to deal with it. 😳😔😢
Keep going I'm in your situation there is something to live for something you love keep happyyyy thoughts and listen to happy music laugh smile talk to people and about your weight i would say light cardio every day and a balanced diet you will see results in 2 weeks ❤
Having an eatingdisorder is not just about bulimia and anorexia. IF you are obsessed with food, exercise and your body you have an eating disorder NOT MIGHT. Having an eating disorder is not about being skinny because this is a sickness that can affect every bodytype. Please people educate this is important!!!
yes I know that now. already have known for the last few months. I just never wanted to admit I had anorexia.
Narin Topal can you be a lazy anorexic? like I try restrict calories all the time now and when I go over them I beat myself up for the rest of the day but I tend to avoid excercise. I'm really fat since my knee surgery 185 so it's not bad yet...or am I just obsessed with being skinny.
This is the difference between a loving home and not, as all girls struggle with their weight during high school. I know I did, especially as I was a weight lifter (not girly weights but squatting 500lbs type of thing) so while I was smaller then most I technically weighed more as I put on over 10lbs of muscle, but dropped a size.
It's so weird for me. I'm also 165 cm and my weight fluctuates between 45 kg and 48 kg. All my life I've tried to gain weight even form age 12, but I can never seem to do so. I found out a few years ago that I have an overactive thyroid and that my metabolism is quite fast. I actually eat alot of calories but because of my thyroid I stay roughly the same weight. Since I was young I always wanted to be slightly curvier. There were days where I would forget to eat when I'm really busy but once I remember I eat twice as much for that meal and then I feel great. I don't know what to do and doctor says this is all normal for my body.
Ever since the fourth grade everyone always said I need to eat more and gain weight, but my friends knew that I could easily eat three plates full of food for one meal, so no-one except my close friends really understood. My mom is also not worried because even in her last year of high school she weighed 48kg but it does not look like it in her photos and she always ate well but she was really small as a kid. So I guess I got some of those genes
Despite your story, I have to say that you are the first person I've met that born at the same date and year as me 22/05/2000 ❣️
And was also a directioner 😄
what is the name of the piano song? ITS SOOOO BEAUTIFUL
Who else thought her boyfriend looked like Harry styles
You're so gorgeous! And such an inspiration to me, you're really strong and I'm glad that you were able to make a great recovery. Stay strong beautiful ❤️
thanksss dear! Comments like this make me sooo happy
Am I the only one that got my period when I was 8? When I was like Grade 2? Like damn, I didn't even now it was period. I just thought it would happen to SOME girls and I didn't know it actually happens to ALL girls!
Btw, I actually feel how you felt about insecurities. Currently I also felt insecure of my self but I'm starting to exercise to get the body I wanted and I am also gaining some confidence slowly. It has been hard for me. I love the video btw!
Anorexia is hard to get out of. I was only Anorexic for a year and I'm hooked. My Anorexia has nothing to do about control more about me being pretty, a lot of people tell me I am... but I want to be skinny. About four months ago I was 90 pounds now I'm 110 pound. I'm happy but I wanna be skinny like I was all those months ago.
You have a gorgeous face, you are beautiful the way you are, wish you all the good things ! Stay positive and happy :)
awhawh thank you! Love these sweet comments, I will
Anorexia isn’t about being severely underweight, it is a mental disease. I am an anorexic because I am an obsessive calorie counter and have thoughts about not eating or hiding food to make it think like I wasn’t eating. I wasn’t really severely underweight. My lowest was 43kgs for 5’5 but I was still diagnosed as an anorexic.
You are very beautiful!! I been on the depo shot for a former of birth control, I was currently 170 & now I'm 215. Ehh those number but I can overcome with exercise. I hope you recover to full health and keep staying beautiful!
For everyone struggling with insecurities and seeking validation from other people, know that YOU ARE LOVED. YOUR VALUE IS NOT BASED ON OTHER PEOPLE'S VALIDATION, YOUR VALUE IS BASED ON GOD'S LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE FOR YOU. If we only rely on how people make us feel, there is really a tendency that we will disappointed because of their mistakes and shortcomings. Let's prioritize building our relationship with God because He is the one who will not fail us. AND GOD IS ALWAYS AVAILABLE FOR US WE ONLY NEED TO ACKNOWLEDGE HIM, GO BACK TO OUR BIBLES AND SEEK WHAT HE HAS TO SAY ABOUT WHO WE ARE AND HOW VALUABLE WE ARE. ONLY HE CAN SAVE A PERSON FROM THIS CONDITION AND ANY OTHER CONDITION. GOD BLESS.
P.s. Cut the social media contests on beauty whatever. It is diagusting. It would not go in the long run. Why risk your life and tire yourself pleasing people? Women, we are smarter than this!
You are so strong! I'm so proud of you! Also, we share a birthday! That's cool! Stay strong!
i’m going through the same thing she was, and i’m a huge directioner and i’m glad i can relate to someone who has the same thing going on.
Bedankt voor je positieve filmpje Lotte en uitstraling die je bij je en overdraagt! Je moet en bent vast sterk om deze gedachten te overwinnen helaas erg herkenbaar.. liefs :)
This is so amazing, you should be so proud of yourself!
One Direction and Jc
(O2L)
Can I have your instagram with your fit food and recovery stuff, I would like to see your account and the progress you have made. Your story is very amazing! Its good that your parents saw that you were obsessed wwith being thin early. Good job on your recovery
Yes do please! I would also love to have your Instagram! I have the same goal as you did lottie! I'm underweight because of Orthorexia and I want to gain weight in a healthy way! With muscle and to be fit! Please answer, do you have any tips? maybe I can write to your e-mail :)
My instagram is fitdutchielottie, I don't post on it that often anymore but it's all still on ther,. And thanks! :)
Awh ofcourse, you can e-mail me anytime you want! my e-mail is lotte.dam@me.com .. Hopefully all goes well and make sure to write soon!
8:22 I want to look like that🙄
OMG ONE DIRECTIOOONNNN
1:20 THOSE DIRECTIONER'S ARE EVERYWHERE I LOVE YOU GIRL LOL
You are So beautiful!
wow you are so pretty! you look like a princess, your blonde hair is amazing. I hope you are okay and doing well. stay strong 💗
Aww I can't handle all these sweet comments! thanks sweetie 💕 I am doing well, thanks for asking :) I can see Louis and Niall on your icon, hehe Directioners rock! 😘
+exploringwithlottie you're welcome, you deserve the best 💗 and yassss directioners everywhere lol
Omg you have like the exact same interests as I do!😍😱💕 O2L and 1D are my life❤️☺️😂
Haha sooo cool! Sadly O2L broke up :( but come on, we have great taste in boys girl! :D
Hey lotte, great story! I hope you continue to find happiness and self confidence as you look very healthy and beautiful. I am actually trying to lose a few kilos and was wondering how long/what kind of workouts you were doing when you were underweight. I struggle to find workout motivation and am so confused as to what wold benefit my body the most as there is a lot of info out there but my diet is quite good.
Lots of love,
Amelia
Girl you are pretty how you are dont let people put you down I am always here for you. I feel fat to but I tell my self I don't care that I am fat
how could you lose weight on a 1500 calorie budget? I eat less that 1000 and also excersice... but I am 18kg overweight
Birthday twins, but im so proud, and much love to you ♡
this was published on my birthday
Such a good message! I have OCD and that made me an obsession with working out starvation diets. I Had been so thin that i would have died and i won it! Then i made a heavily obsession with working out and i lost 10kgs in 1 mothn and half... Now because of severe overtraining , i should stop working out for a few weeks and i will follow a clean and healthy eating food programm , i hope i will be strong again and ready to work out , feel happy and live life to the fullest! your video makes me feel encouraged!
I am happy to hear you're on the right path! Sounds like you've also been through a lot.. I read somewhere there was a girl once and she was also obsessed with working out, and eventually she had a lot of injuries like meniscus injuries and stuff like that.. Working out is good but you need to give your body some rest too! Hopefully you acknowledge that to yourself too now. I wish you ALL the best!
Girl you are sooo pretty don’t change cause some one tells you to
Ally’s Speed builds awh thanks!!
I just have to tell you, you are so so so sooooo beautiful. Like seriously, so much beauty. Also proud of you that you got rid of that alone! Hope you're doing well ^^
Vendy Mat that’s so sweet! People like you is what this world needs. Spread the love. Thanks babe ❤️
Vendy Mat she did have an eating disorder
i feel u. i feel like every other directioner is so pretty
Great story! I can relate to this is many many ways... Keep doing what you do and never look back! Health is always the most important, screw the mindset that the fashion magazines try to sell us :)
Thanks for spreading positivity, you have the right mindset.
Woweeeee Lottie, wot a transformation 😃.
I love the facial comparison, ur skin looks amazing, uve got colour in ur face which really offsets ur blue eyes, and as u said with a fuller face u look ur age vs looking older. Keep up the good work, i think u could b a great inspiration for young people.
Btw i was curious which country are you from? At 1st i thought usa (ur English is perfect), but thn the shot of your fone had another language so I thought Holland, but then i wasn't sure it was Dutch lol.
Neway all the best to you for the future!
🌟Peace and bright white light 🌟
netherlands
as soon I saw that u liked jc I freaked lol... but this is amazing
First... I have Anorexia too
Second... My Birthday is the same date as yours (22nd May but 2002)
Third... i live in Germany which isn’t far away
Directioner 😏😏😏
Me too girl 😂😂😂😂😂😂
Love them so much 😘😘😘❤❤
Wow such an inspiring story! Our story is pretty much the same, it is actually kinda scary haha😅 i am just at a place where I need to gain weight, have been for waaay too long but it is so hard! And even though I really try, I just loose? :( my parents won't allow me to workout, so I really don't get it. It is so frustrating! Anywho really loved your video!!
I know it can be very hard to gain weight! But are you eating enough calories to gain weight? If you eat around 2000 calories it won't be enough.. Because that's what your body basically burns on a daily basis. You probably need more to gain.. At around 2300 to 2500 if you're not working out. Good luck love!
Woow, i feel like i have kind of the same story as both of you, and i am standing almost in the exact same situation as you Mie Jungclaus, except that i only recently realised that i need to gain weight. But my parents are also telling me that i cant workout, and i am having, a really hard time accepting, and handling this. How did you cope with it?
Good job we're proud of you!!
where my directioner gang at
Stylinson Shipper here 💞
whoa 1D is following me kskskksks
I'm proud of ya hun
When you see a model, just think, Ha, they had to get photoshopped to have a beautiful body while I have one naturally!
I go through a cycle of starving my self or binging then purging bc I feel disgusting
when I am starving I substitute calories with smoking cigarettes or marijuana (Ive never got the munchies, prob cause I was do afraid of it)
i hope youre doing better now. you can get through this:)) i care abt you.
1400 cals is a cheat day for me... Damn. But I'm soo happy you got through this !
As soon as you said youre a directioner I'm like omg. I am one too and have been since the beginning
you are beautiful
You are so brave. Stay strong 💖
You should have a disclaimer. Numbers can be a trigger for someone who is at the higher or the lower end of the scale. An unhealthy weight for you may not be for someone else. Many people are insecure with being at the low end of the scale and struggle to keep weight on. I myself am one of them. There are you comparing themselves to you, all the while they are potentially fighting for their life. I am not trying to be rude or anything. I'm just assuming you posted this video with the intention to help inspire people who may be struggling. EDS are just as often invisible as they are visible. Everyone is different when it comes to what is healthy or unhealthy for their body type. Just something to take into consideration. I am really happy you were able to win your battle and take back your life when you did. You are such a beautiful woman and have so much to look forward to. :)
This is so random but I’m about the same age, you’re just a few days older than me 🤗 and I literally went through the exact same obsessions, like 1D and o2l and even had an eating disorder at the same age. It just proves that you’re never struggling alone and it’s kinda neat
I eat around 800 kalories per day...I am starting to have an eating disorder. I already lost weight.
unknowngirl - that’s not okay. But if you have the strength to acknowledge to yourself that you have an eating disorder is very powerful, most people are in denial or can’t see such thing. But this is not the life you want, talk to someone, seek for help. Please love yourself and treat yourself with respect. If I have learned one thing from my eating disorder is that you are beautiful in every single way because you are you. And no one else is you, show the world that you’re strong and you are fierce. And please follow my advice and talk to someone, if you ever need help or someone to talk to you can email me: lotte.dam@me.com .. stay strong 💕
same :( I try to limit myself to 300 but if i go over i try purging. I'm actually so obsessed with calories i've gone crazy, i've lost almost 10kg in a few months and I can't stop. I hope one day I'll be able to recover and wish u the best of luck as well with getting better xx
Stay strong girl xx
gente q triste.. vamos começar a abraçar umas as outras ao invés de apontar o dedo na cara de algm e mandar fechar a boca
does anyone know the song title? The first one, with the piano
SplashArt i think it's the Sims 3 song
tomorrow is your bday
Boom x it is indeed! I’ll turn 18 😇💋
exploringwithlottie happy birthday❤
Boom x thanks a lot love 💞
Saskia kamila heel erg bedankt! Je bent niet de enige want ik ben er ook 1 😜💋
I wish my parents would notice I have eating disorders
Brandy Melville was One Of the reasons I became anorexic too...
Wow girl! You're more than beautiful.
thanks sweetie, have a lovely day 💕
I did not think you were so thin. I think it's beautiful from the beginning of the video to the end. There are worse cases of girls going into intense care. But your video was not so bad. Thank GOD!
I hate everything about myself. PERIOD.
How many kg did you gain in total, during the 7 months, until you were fully weight recovered?
How long did it take to get them abs girl
Wow what an amazing story. I'm so glad you recovered and are now enjoying life. I actually have a friend who is struggling with insecurity and thinking that she needs to lose weight just to keep her boyfriend and to get friends. I've told her that she is pretty just the way she is and she has a great personality. I think she is absolutely gorgeous but she doesn't seem to agree with me. She is always very depressed and I don't know how to help her. Do u have any advice?
Is it just to get friends and to keep her boyfriend? Because she might have more problems.. Something like this is a mental illness and it won't go away overnight. I guess if you are really worried about her you should have a deep conversation with her, ask if there is more going on and stuff.. If she doesn't want to listen I would tell her parents you're worried about her. She probably needs help. That's my best advice! Hopefully everything will be okay, stay positive!
You are perfect the way you are. You were very Beautiful!💗
awh thanks a lot, that really makes me happy
+Sebastian Jones that's so sweet!💓Hope she gets better too🙏
I am sorry to hear that for you and your girlfriend. But praying is not the only thing you can do. If I were you I would talk to her. And not just say 'you're getting too thin you should stop with this.' No, just ask her why she's doing it and if there are maybe more things she's struggling with. And let her know that you really are there for her whenever. If it doesn't work then I really do recommend to tell her parents they need to find professional help for her. She probably needs help because it's really the insecurity that's stuck in her head. I wish you all the best, hopefully she'll get better soon!
You’re so pretty omg 😍😍
Omg..... I am sorry but...OMG! Finally directioner!
Ur hair is so pretty
YOU LIKED ONE DIRECTION
I was born 22th of May too!!🥺
OH MY GOD I'M DUTCH TOO
And you're fan of Kpop I guess? Taemin park?😂💜🤗
You said if I continued I would’ve became anorexic but anorexia isn’t about how little your weight is.Other than that amazing journey
What's the name of the app? I can't find it again
I’m glad you realize you were to skinny and found a way to pull your self out of it. I hope you are still doing well thanks for sharing your story
Directioners where u at ?? 😂❤️