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I cried watching this. It’s the only fitness video ive found that actually discusses the pain of binge eating, failing, getting back up, and all the self hatred. Thank you SO much for sharing. I’ve felt very alone with this for so long.
My god it's like the video is my life story in weight loss. I've been trying to lose weight for years. I've hated my body since I was 11, but only tried to lose weight at 14. It went well. But then it spiralled. Things kept happening, I got kicked out of my mum's, she left and went to another country, so I lived with my dad. Then my mum came back when I was 16, I moved in again, she kicked me out again, she left to another country again, I was left in England. I got cancer, it has ruined my speech and confidence to this day. After that, I fell into depression. My mum came back to England when I was 17, and I went to live in Cyprus with her. That's when I got my eating disorder. It was the only way I could cope. I went from 61kg to 53kg in a matter of less than 2 months. I had bulimia, and atypical anorexia. When we went back to England (I was 18), I decided I didn't want to live with her anymore. I went to live with my dad. After everything that happened, I started to gain weight. I started to binge. Hard. I felt like a failure. I tried to lose weight again, failed. Then I had an ed relapse, which was in February 2020. Then I tried to lose weight again. And again. And again. I've realised that I can't let my eating disorder do what it wants. I have to take weight loss slow, or I'll fall back into binge eating. During the 2020 lockdown, I went up to 70kg. Anyway, I yo-yo'd back and forth between 58 and 65kg for the next year, it felt like torture. Now, 2022, 20 years old. I'm learning to love myself no matter what I look like, but to also care for the body I love. I'm now 54.3kg and man, does it feel good to lose weight slowly. Being consistent really works. I'm going to start cardio soon, then weights. I kind of want a gym membership ngl.
I completely agree to you as well... most people show the results... but she shows the entire process of what it is to go through. I really appreciate her genuine personality. And I can totally relate to her because it's the same thing I'm going through.
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great! I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals. I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing. I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
I watched your most recent video ''how glowing up ruined me'' first, then I watched this video. And its sad to see that most people in the comments lack self worth. They dont feel worthy of themselves when they dont fit into society's standards, thats really sad to see. As I just watched the video you uploaded a day ago, I saw that once you gain weight again you start to feel like a failure. If you dont break this cycle from losing weight subsequently gain weight again to feeling insecure its going to keep repeating, and trust me you really dont want that. So I shortly want to tell what I did. I first began with loving myself and accepting the way I am afterwards I started cutting out bad habits like binge eating etc. I absolutely didn't starve myself, heck no, but I replaced sugary processed foods with healthy ones. I did all of this to be healthy and not to fit in society's standards. I slowly started working out. I didn't rush the process, otherwise I would eventually give up and gain weight again. Slowly I became the healthiest version of myself, without burning out.
This comment deserves so much more recognition. Skinny is not the end goal. Building yourself into the healthiest version of yourself is. And binging is a clear sign you struggle with a healthy sustainable nutrition plan.
I'm also in this process. I changed foods but I still haven't had the strength to start exercising. I was already charging myself, these 2 videos and your comment helped me!
exactly! Cause you shouldn't lose weight bc you want to fit in the ''standards'' believe me, its almost impossible to fit in society's standards these days. If you really want to lose weight your goal should be ''being a healthy person'' cause even if you wouldn't get ''the dream body'', you would still succeed at being the healthiest version of yourself and that is what really matters.@@beeshep
i love how if you see someone like her on the street you could be jealous of her looks without having any idea of the whole ordeal she’s lived through to get there
@@pearlykitty108 i guess not everyone shares your definition that thinnest is best, many people think a slim fit physique is something to be jealous of
Are you sure? I’m in a mess right now over having two off days thinking I’ve ruined everything, I’ve been doing monthly weigh ins and worry I’m not loosing much
Omg I read this after having 4 rest days😂😂and your right!! I worked out today and felt great and as long as you don’t give up completely you will feel amazing!
@@elliemcc4648 don’t worry I had 4 off days but just keep going progress is progress and if you give up you’ll regret it in the long run if you stick to it you’ll be happy you did!!
@@elliemcc4648 but you can do it again :D It is ok, sometimes we just can't keep going because we are humans, in the end we are tired or just sad. We can't give up on ourselves :)
I am 16 right now. I binge eat ALOT. I am getting suicidal and depressed in this trap of cycle. She is EXACTLY me in this position. But, I will not give up. I will come back here after finding MYSELF!
Girl how are you doing ?? Please just don't loose hope .. there's a lot to achieve and you sure will achieve all of it for sure .. just keep going and don't give up.. you can do it ❤️
Hey, I was in the same spot when I was your age and it took me longer than I want to admit to actually get help. I used to go on crash diets to try to lose weight and it would always come back and I would feel so shameful. A couple years ago I got linked with a dietician who coached me. I learned that my lack of control, was actually about me trying to put rules on what I can and can’t eat, what’s good and what’s bad. I was in a cycle. It’s more complicated than that, which you know. You know how intense it feels and how much the guilt weighs on you when you binge. You don’t have to feel like that. I wish I could teach you what I know now and save you from many years of struggle ❤💕 I can give you a book recommendation, but if you’re anything like me, you’ll have a visceral reaction in not wanting to read it. Let me know if you want it. I’ll be rooting for you stranger
I’m in that spot rn, and I’m slowly starting to try to eat less and healthier and to work out. I hope you and I can look back at ourselves in the future and see how far we’ve gone
I'm 15 and in the same position. I have slowly gained weight over the past few years and my relationship with food and body image has gotten out of control. I am constantly disappointed in myself for letting myself get to this point. I'm terrified that I'll never mend my relationship with food and this is something that will impact me for the rest of my life, which is something that caused heavy depression and suicidal thoughts for me. Seeing videos like this and comments like yours do help, though, because I feel like I'm not alone
I know??? She keeps pumping out these videos WITH NEW CLIPS everytime, like where does she keep all these files? How did they not get mixed up, or lost, deleted??
can we talk about how much happier she looks now... like yesh she lost weight and looks better but that doesn’t make her happier. She literally rewired her brain and stayed resilient to be healthier and have a healthy relationships with food. GIRL YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION. Ive watched you cry and binge and starve and you did it
@@evandeer440 Your delusional. She didn't get happy because she got skinny. IF you read what I said at all, I said that she is happy because she is healthy, not because she lost weight.
@@evandeer440 u can be too skinny. Being rly skinny can kill u. One reason she is happier may be bc she is happy with her appearance but that’s not the whole story.
@@evandeer440 you aren’t healthy when your skinny either, as someone with anorexia i would understand that body type doesn’t always show health. Alivia was not unhealthy bc she didn’t have her ideal body, she wasn’t fat at all tbh. She was unhealthy bc of her habits with food
I have suffered from a form of this self-hatred/disappointment my whole life. I have done unthinkable things to my healthy body simply because it didnt look the way I wanted it to. I am a mom now and my body changed but I think motherhood has healed me somehow. I am grateful I have the body Im in. It has given me so much, so many beautiful walks, has allowed me to feel sweet kisses and hugs, see glorious sunsets and bear healthy children. Now instead of trying to change it, I honor it. I feed it well and take walks and lift weights and run the beach with my children.
i LOVE LOVE how she immediately put the “do not compare you body weight to mine.” i have a habit of automatically doing that and she caught me before i could catch myself
People never talk about how psychologically difficult it is to lose weight. Trust me I know. My highest weight was 180 (I stand at 5 foot 5) and currently I'm at 136. It's alot of work. Stick with what works.
@@Plutoliz honestly keeping a food journal works wonders because you get to see how much you eat and when you keep sticking to it the pounds shed off on its own. I do exercise but it's mostly diet that kept the weight off and stayed off
@@Plutoliz cardio! I lost 40lbs the summer between sophomore and junior year of hs. Start off small like walking on the treadmill for 15 min a day (although I started off by doing an hr everyday) and gradually work your way up to being able to jog for a little bit. I also recommend body weight exercises to build strength while you lose fat
My jaw dropped when you revealed your transformation. I’m a stranger, but I’m SO proud of you. Yes for your physical transformation but more for your mental. That’s the hardest part. Thank you for sharing your journey and being so vulnerable. This was a beautiful video.
Someone in the comments said "You choose how YOU feel in your own body. She did not feel okay in hers, so she changed it. What is wrong with that? This is her diary, it's not instruction for you how to feel about your body." This is what this series is about. This is not for the viewers to FOLLOW. This is for the viewers to be INSPIRED. Just because Alivia achieved a "model body" does NOT mean she did not also learn to have a better relationship with food. With the hard work that she put in after suffering for so long, she achieved the body SHE wanted. I don't have an ED but I still struggle a lot with food and my eating habits. Alivia gives me hope and a place to start my journey.
Agreed, but I think it is important to also work on navigating one's relationship with oneself. Like her said in the end of the video, we all need to learn to enjoy the journey itself, rather than only looking at the result. Enjoying the journey means loving yourself every single day because it is you who are on that journey.
I think many more have a problem with that part with the guy advertising his work out plan and explaining the “science”, which isn’t real and is oversimplified, and can cause people to begin a eating disorder especially since the target audience of Alivias videos are young impressionable women. I don’t blame Alivia she seems like she’s going through something mentally tough but this information and the power she has over her audience makes this video very alarming
"You don't want the shortcut, you want the journey." This really clicked with me and was something I needed to hear. Thank you for sharing your story:)
@dawn run not for everyone no but you basically have to learn to be your own motivation/trainer besides even with the trainer she didnt succeed at first you have to do the hard work yourseld
Well other glow ups just show the hard work and the results just like it's supposed to be, I haven't seem one who ever has said "oh no I didn't had a bad time neither failures" (this right there would be unrealistic). To glow up she basically focused on the real issues (mental health and persistence) and then boom it happened. I don't really know what you mean by saying the others are unrealistics fr...
2 years ago I watched this video when I was 165 pounds. I had been wanting to lose weight for awhile but I had no motivation. But after watching this video I had gained all the motivation I needed to actually take action on it. As of now I am 105 pounds, Thank you so much :)
@@aeshhhh8940 I ran every morning and and was in a slight calorie deficit. Another thing was I picked up sports and spent 3-4 hours at practice 5 days a week. I also hit the gym on the days I wasn’t at practice.
@@literallylondonn yep it was perfectly healthy I just incorporated a lot more physical activity into my daily routine with a slight calorie deficit. Overall losing 60 pounds in 2 years isnt too crazy or drastic.
@@sav5746 honestly facts. Never happy with the way we are. I’m not fake on social media. That’s why I don’t have it. Besides TH-cam. I’m not going to pretend I’m happy. I’ll either tell the truth or won’t post haha.. my family always said “you share too much.” “No one needs to know that.” I’m just honest so people don’t think my like is all flowers and gum drops lol..
@@aliviadandrea omg Of course your body and mental transformation is absolutely incredible as well !! I just wanted to say your work in series 1 and the new one is beautiful ❤️ thankyou for sharing such an intimate part of your life
Watching this after watching your most recent videos I feel like a lot of the signs of decline are clearly seen. I'm glad you re-visited your why after creating this video and found a real sense of self-worth again after these 3 years. Super proud of you girl, you've got this!
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great! I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals. I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing. I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
I want to tear up so badly, cause I’m also in a situation where my family is skinny and I’m so chubby, I always feel insecure about my weight and looks because the clothes I once used to fit, doesn’t fit me at all. And seeing you make a huge transformation, I really really want to do it too. This video has inspired me so much. 🥹I’m 16 and it’s so tough for me, because the temptation to binge eat, but I know I should restrict myself from overeating. But that’s not the case I’ll try to become healthier and active. This video is so motivating thank you :,) ❤️
If a person tries to watch only season 1 it's actually pretty toxic and may harm others. But watching it as a whole(all seasons) really shows The Truth. Many on YT just show the process as a straight line I'm happy she's showing ups & downs and teaches not to give up no matter what.
Thousands, even millions of people have experienced or are experiencing what she experienced through out the journey. She's not overreacting, she's not toxic, that was her fighting her own monster to achieve peacefulness within her heart. I love how she shared her hardships and what she has gain after all of it. Thank you!
All of that is very real! Everyone in life has to fight their monster within themselves, and flee the bad habits. And during the long journey... Don't forget to protect your loved ones from yourself... because you won't only destroy yourself, you'll destroy everything around you that matters the most
I think a lot of people call it toxic because its so new to hear, no one ever talks about it like she does, even if they think it themselves, its not what they want to hear. I never once thought it was toxic watching, I felt relief that I'm not the only one going through all this. It's a lifelong battle for me and I'm 31 now, still struggling and feeling those demons. its freaking ahrd. She is inspiring!
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great! I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals. I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing. I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
“Even my sweats are starting to get tight on me…” this hit me hard on a different level. The most crushing part of my weight gain was my clothes that I loved beginning to fit me differently. It sucks
Same 😢 I am going through this right now. I have a lot of cute summer dresses I can no longer wear. Fashion is a passion for me and my sense of style is the only thing I feel confident about. So this is devastating. And I keep getting bigger and bigger 😭
this! i have never been so sad to relate and hear this from others. i used to love these pair of jeans and wore them almost every day to school but a year later, i feel so exposed and uncomfortable wearing them. i really hope you find peace with your body and its never too late to start, its just about the perseverance.
This video hit my heart. I have never seen someone be this vulnerable talking about weight loss and how they see their body. I immediately subscribed and am amazed by how much this helped me.
this video is absolutely everything. i cannot explain to you how badly i can relate to this video. i feel like i may be at the part of my journey where things are starting to click. it's that "keep going" thing... when you keep going for so long, mess up try again, mess up try again, it really does eventually click, and you mess up less, and less, and LESS :)
same here I’ve never really binge ate before and lately bc I’ve been going through a lot and I’ve been really depressed my coping mechanism became binge eating and now im having a hard time stopping but weighing myself I’ve been the biggest I’ve ever been and I feel so ugly but ur right it’s time to make a change thank u for making me feel like im not the only one 🤍
If only people knew how many times i cry in changing rooms in stores after not finding something that fits me. Or after seeing how my body looks like. This is so inspiring. It is not about losing weight , it is a very long journey .
Really I can feel u...I hope u r better now, but I m still in that situation.....so I hope I can also be successful in my weight loss......ok bye....lots of love from Assam Northeast India 💕
Me too, my brother, my mom and i went out with one of the elders of the church to shop and i had to wear some clothes in front of her so that she can see if it fits because she was the one choosing the clothes which was totally embarrassing, she left my bro to pick whatever he likes at the second floor. What made me feel so bad is that instead of her to pick the sizes I usually wear she picked size 18 for me and i felt soo bad. After she paid for the clothes she started talking about my weight. I cried home throughout the day and felt so depressed whenever I saw the clothes hanging in my closet. My mom didn't make it easy for me too. As I was changing back at the mall she kept saying that the elder doesn't know how huge I am. I felt terrible and I felt the pain so much. I cried so much that my bed and pillow was soaked with my tears.
@@liarose7590 that is very sad. We all have been there. I am still there. The keys is to accept yourself the way you are the way you look , than you can change yourself to the best . Remember strength is born from weakness . You have to be weak first to be strong in the future. Change yourself because you want to be healthier and to be in a good shape and to live in a healthy live style💜
This is one of the most emotional, touching videos I have seen on TH-cam. You were so authentic and real, which made your message so meaningful and relatable. Thank you for sharing and I hope you are keeping up with your progress :)
"It's not about perfection, it's about effort. And when you bring that effort every day, no matter how big or small, that's when transformation happens."
Binge eating has been a huge issue for me. You are so brave for posting this but it's so important that you showed a very realistic representation of what this is like.
I saw some comments saying that some people calling her " toxic" but this is reality i experience this as well. You cant sleep fat and wake up slim and productive. She shows her life struggles and how she cope with these struggles and turned it into a motivation. :(
@@bee2514 Well, I'm talking as someone with an ed. For us, food it's already a weakness, you know? The thing is that what she means is not that she's "weak" when she eats, but she feels unhappy, which droves her to feel weak. That's something comun. She was able to reconcile with food, and that's the encouraging part. She might still be into ed (it's really difficult to get out), but she's able to be in a healthier relationship with food, which it's a huge deal.
@@didy9488 i’m also talking as someone with an ed lmao. her content is just triggering and she has no reason to document her methods and thought process
This hit home. Im speechless. For the first time, it feels like someoen understands. I was really trying. I promise. I have been working so hard for years and it feels like someone acknowledged it
Bro, i tried & tried & failed for 3 yrs until i finally did it. I've been at my goal weight/bf percentage for more than 12 yrs now. Never stop trying mate
I’ve never seen a “weight loss” video that hit me like this. I’ve been using food like a drug basically, as a way to relive the stress at the end of the day. I don’t want to use food in a way that makes me feel good temporarily but hurts my body… I want it to fuel me.
Same here. Food/sugar addict for 15 years. I feel like I finally clicked thanks to my nutritionist/personal trainer. I only wanted the personal training but she didn't give me a choice, she said I had to change my food habits, and of course I already knew this, but the fact that she is so strict and asks me to show her my food diary every time we meet, somehow makes me stick to a diet for the first time! The food diary is like a report card that I have to hand to a parent and I'm anxious for their reaction. It's absolutely ridiculous, when you think about it, because I wanna get healthy FOR ME, not for someone else. It's not rational at all, but we humans tend to be much less rational than we would like 😂 I hope you will find your way to change, good luck!
@@absbrianna Cool! Let me know how it works out ;) To be sure: before going to the nutritionist, I was doing what I called a 'gradual diet' where I gradually made healthier choices. The biggest hack for me to escape the sugar addiction was to choose ONE high-sugar snack, not my favorite one, but just one that I thought tasted 'pretty OK': for one week, that snack was my ONLY snack but I ate as much as I wanted. I actually gained weight by doing this, but after doing this, it became much easier to replace this unhealthy snack with a healthier one (low cal fruit yoghurt with sugar-free muesli). That was the first step of my gradual diet and I would recommend it to people who cannot quit sugar cold turkey. I wish you good luck!
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great! I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals. I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing. I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
Girl, you can be so proud of yourself! Not only bc of your physical transformation, but for everything you managed to change! Most people don't see that changing your mindset is often the first step to change bad habits etc. And you are so young and done all that mainly by yourself! I've been through a similar journey, but it took me longer I feel to get to a better place. Your video is amazing and so powerful! 💕
The Glow Up Diaries was SCRIPTED. She planned the whole thing. It's just like acting in a series. She was skinny before, got fat, ugly or whatever. Filmed it, edited it and made it somewhat emotional for young girls. There was no glow up. The purpose of this series was not help or inspire people. She did all these just to EARN MONEY. JUST that. Yes it should be on Netflix because it's all acting 🥱. Relatable queen my f o o t. It was just a sad soap opera. Every episode was negative and destructive. It didn't teach anything. It was just "The Struggle Diaries" NOT the "Glow the f up" diaries. The title is misleading. The series is COMPLETELY misleading.
When she showed her results I didn’t just see weight loss I saw confidence and happiness and was so happy for her, her journey makes me want better for myself.
I don't judge her because I've had an ED before, and I swear it became a deathly cycle, the worst part of it is when people don't take you seriously or think you can eat normally whenever you want. Alivia is such a brave girl
When you said “beauty is the face of someone who cried and now smiles” THAT is what this series is about and it is so beautiful. You radiate joy and it is so inspiring
I’m 11 and I’m crying watching this I realized that I’m beautiful the way I am and I’m not gonna try to lose weight for anyone else except me. This rlly helped me. I’ve tried to work out and stuff but I always quit when my mom or dad gets food that’s not healthy for me. Cause I feel so bad if I don’t eat it.
Don’t push yourself, people at your age need food to grow and function, if you don’t get fed right at that age you’ll have consequences later on in life, food is good for you
Just like the other 2 comments I'll add something, Try to fill your diet with as much Protein and Nutrition rich food as possible(possible as in controlled manner) as you are still growing you need those for Height and muscle and above all for your overall health, be active. one step at a time no need to change your self overnight make it a life style not a one time thing, it's ok to eat fast food but it's not ok to make it a life style, not all calories are the same.😀
There r people out there saying that alivia’s videos r “toxic” and “give out wrong information” but she is one of the only people who actually is real and puts herself out there for us to see and learn
It's mainly because this reminds them that they're supposed to take up healthy eating habits and work out instead of being out of control and unhealthy especially when overweight people get covid complications more easily. They feel called out and they don't like it.
@@tinag7506 i actually think that's not super true. people are angry because it's glorifying having a perfect body (especially the thumbnail) when it should be more focused on developing a healthy lifestyle. the way she perceived her body (such as fat = lazy, ugly and inadequate, etc) before she started working on it promotes having a negative body image. it's important to be evaluate if your body is reflecting poor overall health, but your end goal should not be having a skinny, pretty body like the end result of alivia/the way she emphasized it. i know she tried to support eating cleaner and exercising with a trainer but her channel as a whole sends very mixed messages. but like yall stfu i still enjoyed the video, just don't assume people are criticizing her just because they feel called out. many people who are anexoric are speaking out 1. for the lack of trigger warnings and 2. they feel like some of the mssages alivia conveys along the way may lead to more problematic young having EDs
@@julia-pw8fz But thats her life. If someone feels offended because she herself doesn't like her fat body, it's their problem not hers. It's important to like your body, and if a skinny body is what she wants and needs, thats perfectly fine. It's stupid to criticize someone for their body image and goals. I'm in recovery and I don't expect the world to cater to my insecurities. Some people gotta learn this too.
@@Moonlight_Shad0w no exactly. she should've been promoting working toward a goal so you can feel comfortable in your body. and that's obviously her intention- work hard and become someone you want to become. however she didn't execute it in a way that made people feel correct. people are just giving feedback on how she can create a better online community by changing how much she tends to focus on details that may not be as important as the main message- which is her trying to motivate everyone to stay determined and disciplined to become who they want to become. and i think alivia has been addressing that, nobody wants her to stop making vids to cater to others' insecurities but i still believe that the critique wasn't necessarily other projecting insecurities, but moreso just part of the growing process of a content creator because all content creators have space to grow as a positive influence online
The comments from her parents made me really sad. I saw a picture of myself from a couple of years ago at my parents’ house yesterday, and my mom commented on how beautiful I looked in the picture. I rolled my eyes and said, yeah, and 30 pounds later, look at me. And she stopped me and said, that’s fine - you’re still beautiful. 🥲 Wish she could have gotten that message from her parents too. Everyone deserves those comments.
During quarantine my sister lost some weight and started exercising at home. I found last year very stressful and was more focused on my studies. I spent almost every day in front of a laptop listening to lectures. I felt so guilty that I gained weight and every time I looked at my sister exercising I felt so guilty because I didn't have the mental strength to do it myself. Honestly every time I tried to exercise I would last 2-3 days and get overwhelmed by what I consumed that day and did I give my best. I can't tell you how awful I feel when my parents tell me that I have gained weight. Like I know, I'm not blind. I'm obviously stressed and worried about It and i am trying to change it but i feel like i can't do it. I think I need some help but I live in a very undeveloped country and therapy isn't really a thing. And when it is an option it's really expensive.
@@eni4498 Hi, you’re not weak for gaining weight, focus on your health - and that includes mental health. Take all the time you need and I wish you good luck!
@@solus8685 I’m so sorry I’ve never been validated by my parents either, you’re already beautiful (being beautiful is not just outer appearance)but if you work on loving/validating yourself you’ll feel beautiful 🥺❣️x
@@0214film Hi! I know I’m just a stranger, but I appreciate you. Please try to take little steps to get better mentally and don’t ever feel weak for struggling. Good luck!
I almost cried when watching this. Everything discussed was exactly how I felt too. The disparity and self-hatred. And the powerlessness of eating and not being able to stop, talking about how you shouldn't be doing it as you are doing it! I'm in my stage of progress now! I'm losing weight and have found a sustainable way to do it. And I've eliminated any guilt I feel from eating over my deficit whenever it happens! Thank you for this video, I'm sure it’s helped so many!
it's really refreshing to see a trainer like Steve not shame you for a cheat day and encouraging a good relationship with food. thank you for sharing this
i thought the same thing at first. but you can and you WILL be the person to motivate other people around you. once they see your transformation, they'll know that they can do it too. you just need to keep pushing❤️you got this:))
Awe :( You can still go out! What matters is that you try your hardest. If you know this isn’t your final form, then it’s a journey. You can’t judge an artist on half-finished work, and people can’t judge you since you’re not done.
I love how you were more upset about the thanksgiving “cheat” day than Steve was. He explained it pretty well. At the beginning of this video, I didn’t see a chubby girl. I saw a healthy lean girl. But because your relationship with food changed, your body started to change. This proofs to me that healthy weight loss isn’t about how much you work out or how less you eat. It’s basically about your relationship with food and your body. If you have a healthy relationship where you take care of your body it will have a positive effect on weight loss.
So trueee, I saw myself as fat for years, body dysmorphia since 11, and then I put on weight as a result of my weird relationship with food during high school due to stress/binge eating
This literally happened to me. I was normal to chubby. Then I started to try losing weight. I ended up being extremely unhealthy and gained SO MUCH weight. It was insane. I lost a good portion of that weight and I'm still working on losing more 💕 this video is so real.
Tw: ED. Same thing happened to me when I was around 10 I was super skinny then puberty hit me like a freight train and made me gain a shit ton of weight and by 11 I decided to eat only fruit and small potions which led me to underrated and get an eating disorder which now fucked up my metabolism but I’m trying to lose weight in a healthy way and not over some stupid boy
I’m also dieting and lost 5-6kg this is my second month of diet and sometimes i just can’t resist and explode like I’m eating -1000 ckal a day and then 3000 and the next day -1000 again , idk if I will keep loosing weight this way 😭😭🤯
I feel like I've been on a weight loss journey my entire adult life and it's so damn depressing! I'm 30 and still suffering. And when I finally started losing weight and getting healthy, I ended up in a very bad relationship and went back to my old ways😭
@@thekaren1111 I was never naturally thin, but I was smaller than I am now. I just turned 30. Ppl can lose weight Even after 3p😒 and 1 bad relationship doesn't mean I'm insecure n shit. He was diagnosed with narcissism later on. And just like most narcissists, they'll act like the perfect guy in the beginning to reel you in. When I gained weight, I could literally feel the difference. I don't want to lose weight because society likes skinny ppl. I want to lose weight so I can feel healthy. Doesn't have shit to do with self esteem😒
I’m not even halfway through the video yet, and I’m in love with the editing style, I haven’t seeen a weight loss video where someone ACTUALLY struggles, someone I can relate to , thank you!!!!
i have a personal grudge against the other weight loss youtubers. they act like they lost everything at once and never struggled or gained some weight during their journey and it really discouraged me. during my weight loss journey, my weight kept going up and down and seeing all these people document their weight loss as if they lost everything so easily without getting off of track made me really upset. when i came across alivias videos, i felt really good about myself knowing that im not the only one that gives into binges and cravings
It was so hard to see you so sad and struggle. My heart broke for you and I wanted to just give you a huge huge hug. I have a teenage daughter and I think of her when I saw you, and it makes me so sad. You are so beautiful! I haven't heard of you before or seen any of your videos but your dedication, your resilience, your strength, the rawness and realness that you dared to show the world your personal journey, I'm just floored and really in awe of you. All of this was very courageous to do. You're amazing, genuine, and beautiful. Inside and out. You may not see my comment because the video is a few years old. I struggle with weight and am trying to lose it. Thank you for daring to show the world all of this and for the inspiration!
I came to this video intending to purposefully trigger my anorexia bc I felt that I've been "losing progress" lately. Instead this video held a mirror up and showed me exactly why that mindset is unhealthy. I'm trying to recover, and it's videos like this that help me realize exactly how dangerous this is. I'm so glad you managed to get healthy and push past disordered eating as you did it
I swear Asian parents always think reverse psychology works but it just ends up being hurtful and demotivating, atleast for me it was. **Edit** it seems that it's not just Asian parents but more of a generational thing? Maybe parents born in the 50's up to 70's think that reverse psychology works?
Can we just take a moment and appreciate how far Alivia has come and how much effort she puts in everything!? She is such a hard worker. Get some sleep girl, you deserve it.
what lmfao this video is a huge ad for this zim guy and she pushed the upload date back like 4 times because she wasnt finished. she's everything but a hard worker
@@ananyadutta1154 I said “nobody’s coming to save you. You have to save yourself.” at 4:46 . Then I show the story of how I went to a celebrity fitness trainer and still didn’t achieve my goals. My 18 year old self always thought that if I just had a personal trainer, all my problems would be solved. A personal trainer is extremely motivational but it’s not enough. The key ingredient is your own mindset. The lesson I learned is that you can get the best help and resources in the world, but it does not guarantee success. It is still ultimately up to you to achieve your goals.
See this is a true example of what a weight loss journey looks like. The pain, the mental distress, contemplating, failure, managing to push through. She has shown a perfect example of what effort can do, what hanging on can do. This is a life milestone, overcoming every seeming burden.
Not sure you'll see this, as this video was posted 3 years ago, but man, this hit deep. I can't tell you how many times I teared up watching this feeling the same exact way. Constantly having so much motivation, doing so so good for a few weeks and crashing into the pit of food my brain never stopped thinking about. A good relationship with food is so important, and I feel like I never had that.. Im recently trying to get to my goals, and putting the effort in. This was so so inspiring and I just wanted to thank you for sharing your journey, as it is similar to mine.
i think what personally unsettles me about this video in my current mindset is the emphasis on the way your body looks - i am preferring to focus on moving my body, gaining mobility, strengthening my bones, showing up for myself and caring for my body and that is a really important distinction for me ❤️
I love your channel! I'm curious what you think of this video and how she's presenting her journey. ObesetoBeast did a reaction video that raises a lot of questions.
@@dianalove539 not sure to understand. i'm saying that when you are 16, it's normal to gain some weight because your body change. and i'm refering to the part who she film herself in the miroir at 16 thinking she had to change something about her body. it's that part that i think it's very sad. and yeah it's normal with hormones to go from 123 to 150, it's literally me right now and im not overweight, it's just that my body changed from child to woman. you can be healthy at a normal weight i dont understand... but im french maybe i dont understand your statement because of the language i dont know
@@dianalove539 Actually weight isn't that important, what matters is your functional fitness level which you can improve at any weight. The modern obsession with how much gravity impacts you is far less scientifically backed than we think. "Overweight" isn't a real thing, every body exists at a different weight. Thats like saying someone's nose is "oversize" or their eyes are "too wide", what matters is if they can do the things you need them to do, and a number on a scale can't tell you that.
@@dianalove539 everyone carries weight different i have a friend whos like 5"6 and 150 is a good weight for her and shes not over weight shes just tall
this made me cry, it feels like i was meant to see this, it’s such a realistic representation of a weight loss journey. i’ve been struggling with my weight literally my whole life, i’ve failed so many times but just like you, i have faith that one day i will reach my goal and finally be truly happy. currently, it’s been 4 months since i started my weight loss journey and it’s going slow because i’m not really exercising or on a “diet”, i just started intermittent fasting and reduced my food intake and if i really want to, i still eat something without restricting. i already lost 17 pounds and i’m much happier everyday :) of course, there are times when i fall off but that’s why it’s called a journey, it has ups and downs but as long as you have faith in yourself, all your hard work will pay off ❤️
@@tamakisuoh5302 thank you so much im really glad to hear that and back at u, good luck you've got this!! remember to not be too hard on urself and to take your time
It felt like a movie to me, so touched by Alivia's journey. The transparency, honesty and wit all together made this all the more believable. Im amazed- and i might have cried a little aswell! 🤧
I understand this. Especially the “only chubby girl in the family” because I’m that girl. All my siblings are skinny and I hate being the only chubby one, even my friends. I have tried to lose weight but I gave up right after. But now I’m not going to and I WILL lose weight. For me and my 15 year old self. Like they say it’s either one day or day one.
@@cxzuhaomg i have the same thing as both of you where im 15 (245 lbs) and i so desperately want to lose weight but its so overwhelming and idk where to start 😭😭
im 15 too and im also trying to get fit and healthy, so far ive lost 5kg in the past few months and i see a bit of change but im going to try and lose another 5kg and start working on my fitness more
They say that this will trigger people with eating disorders which of course I know, there's the binge eating there and addiction to food. But like the go as far to tell her that she has an eating disorder because she's on a fitness journey. Is almost as like her weight loss and glow up offended them. And TBH the only thing that triggers me more is those comments saying because she's on a "fitness journey she has an ED" like I'm into fitness too and a lot of people don't know how hard it is with people always saying to you that you look anorexic or too skinny just because you take care of your health, those people need to be stopped ❌❌❌❌🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🔪
People like you are why the world is on fire. Fucking enabler. Of course they k ow it’s real life, that’s why they’re giving advice. Y’all gotta learn the difference between being “mean” and being critical. Fucking dummy. Now that’s me being BOTH.
the way she said don’t compare her body weight to our own in the beginning and I would still have no clue about how much that is because the only measurement I can comprehend is kg 👁👄👁 Edit: although I still wanna say to Alivia, this is a really incredible video, and I’m really happy for her that she found a happier place within herself❤️
Being this accountable and self-aware at such a young age is so rare these days, no one else has any excuse watching this, go out there, fail, fail fast, learn from it and become better, there's light at the end of the tunnel, as long as you're trying you're on the right path, just don't quit.
I lost 10kg during early quarantine. And yes I stopped doing my workout and binge eating again and I gained weight again and yes it was depressing. I'm here doing my weight loss journey AGAIN. this video motivates me alot. I will never stop 😭
@@noura_a_ I find HIIT workouts really effective! Walking and running also really helps 😁 you could do anywhere from 5 min of workout to 1 hour or even more.
One of my closest friends went under diet and she literally would talk about cheat days and losing weight and so on while I struggled with anorexia, and while I don’t blame her, I think it affected me greatly; not only that but I think she was getting closer to a dangerous path. Seeing all of this reminds me so much of those days, and how fragile your mind is after your struggled with an ED.
Im sorry and i hope your recovery goes well! Maybe you should talk to your friend about it since you seem worried for her. i do really hope you can recover if you haven’t already
16 yo here! Ive been searching for someone to be real. Like show all sides of this journey. And youre the first one i found after years of searching. Thank you.
Literally me...lol. Now Im fit and its great but literally no one else cares and your life wont be easier/much better. The high only holds on for a short time. You cant measure your happiness by the way you look..you will never be satisfyed.
@@m00nrac00n Honestly I am the same way. I got super fit and I have a great body, but like you said no one cares. I now do it because I enjoy it, not because I want people to like me more.
"The thing is with eating is like, once you start, you wanna keep eating. It's hard to cut if off." YES. Wow this was so moving and relatable. Thank you!
Everyone shitting on Steve the trainer but he literally said for her not to feel bad when she slipped up cause he doesn't want he rot have a bad relationship with food...Ed: normally when people start to be disrespectful and leave strong language on my comment I delete, but I think discourse in topics like these is good. That being said please be respectful. Thanks 🖖🏾
@@dazedcharm4897 it amuses me when people are intentionally obtuse. Processed sugar...and even eating too much fruit isn’t good for you. Like mango is a fruit and good for you but eat a whole bucket of mangos and see what happens to you. As for aesthetics, the industry that he works in and the clients that he sees, they don’t go to him to be told that they look beautiful at any size hahahaha. And if esthetics are important to Alivia let her be. Not everyone needs to be a Tess Holiday or some of these other “fat positive” “health and every size” believers. Some people just don’t like to be fat and that ok too. It’s their body. Now I can understand the point of view that it might be “triggering” to her impressionable audience, but she does reiterate quite a bit throughout the video that it’s HER journey.
Sugar (like he said, *artificial* sugar) IS bad for your body. He's not demonizing anything. He's spitting facts. Did he make Alivia feel bad for eating that stuff? No. But does he need to say it's bad (if you eat it too often)? Yes, because he's a professional.
@@jadef3657 actually I came back to edit cause I watched it and he said nothing wrong his advice was useful is tone was gentle and helpful in no way was he putting down anyone. I don’t wish to look like Chris Evans or a VS model but who’s to say that that’s not someone else’s goal. Btw all bodies have lines and symmetry, however my symmetry might not be the same as your symmetry. We shouldn’t shit on what other people want for themselves
@@CarolineGehlen I’m not gonna put words in trainer Steve’s mouth but I wouldn’t be surprised if he meant processed sugar😂😂😂 and even natural occurring sugars like found in fruits should be taken I moderation. Here’s an example were I live mangos are abundant and growing up it was normal for us to have two three mangos a day. In one of those mangos there is 31 grams of sugar, 31x3= 93 grams of sugar. On average we should be consuming about 30 grams of sugar per day and this is just for someone who does moderate levels of activity throughout their day. So that’s three times the amount of sugar I’m supposed to be consuming for the day natural or otherwise. Plus trainer Steve isn’t wrong 🤷🏽♀️
For those people who are saying “ yea, because she had a personal trainer “. I had a personal trainer and I didn’t lose a kilogram. It is all about you, it’s all about your effort!
Well he’s a celebrity personal trainer, I’m maybe guessing that there was some sort of deal made because this series was so popular. Dunno why but I think maybe he paid her and this weight loss journey is more for promotional purposes than anything. This season doesn’t seem as natural or genuine as the last. That’s just my opinion 🤷🏻♀️
Yeees would agree with you. Lost 22 pounds (10 kg) without any personal trainer. Just did it by myself even in times of Corona. I guess it depends on how bad you want it, how much effort you put in and the state of your mental health is important...
@@juliederdaine1947 it's still good as her editing skills are brilliant but Season 1 is still better for me...I had only discovered it in Dec 2020 and was immediately pulled in, this new season...not so much, again this is just personal preference.
This was the most REAL weight loss journey I’ve ever watched. Thank you for being so vulnerable and open. Also I am so happy for you and am so happy Steve came into your life!!
ALIVIAAAA NOT ONE OR TWO BUT IM SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE COME ACROSS YOUR DOCU SERIES AND LEARN A LOT MORE THAN ONE OR TWOO😭😭 im sorry im typing this as soon that quote popped up and i teared up so much...its not only your journey but its a journey of everyone who has been struggling with weight loss, body dysmorphia,low self esteem and holding on to the feeling of not able to do NORMAL EASY THINGS which sometimes feel unacheivable...thankyou so much for being so raw and honest THIS IS GOING TO HELP ME SO MUCH and im going to keep coming back to your videos when i ever hit a low point..sorry i went a little overboard but you deserve all the love and support LIVVV BIG HUGGG
Said this in a reply but I think it deserves it's own comment: replacing calorie counting with nutrient tracking and weighing with measuring will not solve obvious deeper issues
Not on its own, absolutely, but it truly does change the mindset and help the mind to understand food in a healthier way. I made this mindset change a couple of years ago and it did make a large difference for me and my mind. It truly is like Steve said towards the end: it takes time for your brain to wrap around it, but then it clicks. It’s one tool that should be used, but like screwdrivers- it’s only one tool in the chest and it doesn’t solve everything. It’s an important part of the process though.
“you want the journey and not the shortcut” was really beautiful to me. i struggles with eating disorders my whole life and i think it’s beautiful to experience change instead of the unrealistic immediate change.
Thank you for this video. So many influencers today post their transformations but none of them are realistic. Your video is not only my life but so many others. Your vulnerability and honesty is going to help so many people. Thank you ♥️
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I like how she showed how she was also failing instead of just showing her successes. It’s a real journey.
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you're only as strong as the lessons you learn when you fail. love this video~
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I cried watching this. It’s the only fitness video ive found that actually discusses the pain of binge eating, failing, getting back up, and all the self hatred. Thank you SO much for sharing. I’ve felt very alone with this for so long.
same here girl I hope you don't give up and I will try to be positive as well!
You aren't alone. I relate to you
Same with my family always reminding that I was fat, but I really don’t feel alone anymore
My god it's like the video is my life story in weight loss. I've been trying to lose weight for years. I've hated my body since I was 11, but only tried to lose weight at 14. It went well. But then it spiralled. Things kept happening, I got kicked out of my mum's, she left and went to another country, so I lived with my dad. Then my mum came back when I was 16, I moved in again, she kicked me out again, she left to another country again, I was left in England. I got cancer, it has ruined my speech and confidence to this day. After that, I fell into depression. My mum came back to England when I was 17, and I went to live in Cyprus with her. That's when I got my eating disorder. It was the only way I could cope. I went from 61kg to 53kg in a matter of less than 2 months. I had bulimia, and atypical anorexia. When we went back to England (I was 18), I decided I didn't want to live with her anymore. I went to live with my dad. After everything that happened, I started to gain weight. I started to binge. Hard. I felt like a failure. I tried to lose weight again, failed. Then I had an ed relapse, which was in February 2020. Then I tried to lose weight again. And again. And again.
I've realised that I can't let my eating disorder do what it wants. I have to take weight loss slow, or I'll fall back into binge eating.
During the 2020 lockdown, I went up to 70kg. Anyway, I yo-yo'd back and forth between 58 and 65kg for the next year, it felt like torture.
Now, 2022, 20 years old. I'm learning to love myself no matter what I look like, but to also care for the body I love. I'm now 54.3kg and man, does it feel good to lose weight slowly. Being consistent really works. I'm going to start cardio soon, then weights. I kind of want a gym membership ngl.
Same here, just know that you’re NEVER alone
she made this extremely personal and vulnerable. I love it because it’s REAL.
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I completely agree to you as well... most people show the results... but she shows the entire process of what it is to go through. I really appreciate her genuine personality. And I can totally relate to her because it's the same thing I'm going through.
So so real
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This is personal
I watched your most recent video ''how glowing up ruined me'' first, then I watched this video. And its sad to see that most people in the comments lack self worth. They dont feel worthy of themselves when they dont fit into society's standards, thats really sad to see. As I just watched the video you uploaded a day ago, I saw that once you gain weight again you start to feel like a failure. If you dont break this cycle from losing weight subsequently gain weight again to feeling insecure its going to keep repeating, and trust me you really dont want that. So I shortly want to tell what I did. I first began with loving myself and accepting the way I am afterwards I started cutting out bad habits like binge eating etc. I absolutely didn't starve myself, heck no, but I replaced sugary processed foods with healthy ones. I did all of this to be healthy and not to fit in society's standards. I slowly started working out. I didn't rush the process, otherwise I would eventually give up and gain weight again. Slowly I became the healthiest version of myself, without burning out.
This comment deserves so much more recognition. Skinny is not the end goal. Building yourself into the healthiest version of yourself is. And binging is a clear sign you struggle with a healthy sustainable nutrition plan.
I just did the same thing!
I'm also in this process. I changed foods but I still haven't had the strength to start exercising. I was already charging myself, these 2 videos and your comment helped me!
i came here after watching that video as well. you worded my exact same feelings, couldn't have said it any better.
exactly! Cause you shouldn't lose weight bc you want to fit in the ''standards'' believe me, its almost impossible to fit in society's standards these days. If you really want to lose weight your goal should be ''being a healthy person'' cause even if you wouldn't get ''the dream body'', you would still succeed at being the healthiest version of yourself and that is what really matters.@@beeshep
i love how if you see someone like her on the street you could be jealous of her looks without having any idea of the whole ordeal she’s lived through to get there
exactly what i’m thinking.
Yeah, you never know. I've been anorexic, a binge eater and everything in beteween. This body has seen a lot.
jealous of what though? Not thin enough to be jealous
@@pearlykitty108 girl shut up
@@pearlykitty108 i guess not everyone shares your definition that thinnest is best, many people think a slim fit physique is something to be jealous of
"I think about how I think of myself and it's not nice." Girl, I felt that.
Same :(
Same...it’s not nice at all 💔
@@brookepage3752 same...
Same
Same ;-;
just remember people: it doesn’t matter if you cheat or have 4 rest days in a row, what matters is picking back up again and not giving up
Are you sure? I’m in a mess right now over having two off days thinking I’ve ruined everything, I’ve been doing monthly weigh ins and worry I’m not loosing much
Three rest days in and I needed this
Omg I read this after having 4 rest days😂😂and your right!! I worked out today and felt great and as long as you don’t give up completely you will feel amazing!
@@elliemcc4648 don’t worry I had 4 off days but just keep going progress is progress and if you give up you’ll regret it in the long run if you stick to it you’ll be happy you did!!
@@elliemcc4648 but you can do it again :D
It is ok, sometimes we just can't keep going because we are humans, in the end we are tired or just sad. We can't give up on ourselves :)
I am 16 right now. I binge eat ALOT. I am getting suicidal and depressed in this trap of cycle. She is EXACTLY me in this position. But, I will not give up. I will come back here after finding MYSELF!
Girl how are you doing ?? Please just don't loose hope .. there's a lot to achieve and you sure will achieve all of it for sure .. just keep going and don't give up.. you can do it ❤️
Hey, I was in the same spot when I was your age and it took me longer than I want to admit to actually get help. I used to go on crash diets to try to lose weight and it would always come back and I would feel so shameful. A couple years ago I got linked with a dietician who coached me. I learned that my lack of control, was actually about me trying to put rules on what I can and can’t eat, what’s good and what’s bad. I was in a cycle. It’s more complicated than that, which you know. You know how intense it feels and how much the guilt weighs on you when you binge. You don’t have to feel like that. I wish I could teach you what I know now and save you from many years of struggle ❤💕 I can give you a book recommendation, but if you’re anything like me, you’ll have a visceral reaction in not wanting to read it. Let me know if you want it. I’ll be rooting for you stranger
I’m in that spot rn, and I’m slowly starting to try to eat less and healthier and to work out. I hope you and I can look back at ourselves in the future and see how far we’ve gone
@@Boooooooooooooop1 hey bb :) please watch her most recent video. I hope you truly find yourself
I'm 15 and in the same position. I have slowly gained weight over the past few years and my relationship with food and body image has gotten out of control. I am constantly disappointed in myself for letting myself get to this point. I'm terrified that I'll never mend my relationship with food and this is something that will impact me for the rest of my life, which is something that caused heavy depression and suicidal thoughts for me. Seeing videos like this and comments like yours do help, though, because I feel like I'm not alone
The way she filmed all the challenging times is almost like SHE KNEW she would win this... wow, a trooper.
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exactly
I know??? She keeps pumping out these videos WITH NEW CLIPS everytime, like where does she keep all these files? How did they not get mixed up, or lost, deleted??
Its as if she woke up as a 16 y.o one day and planned her entire life for the next 10 years
I think that filming it helps you, because seen it when you're going to give up, gives you that momentary power to continue
ok but Steve actually cared that she needed to have a good relationship with food and I love that for her.
Yeah I hate the 'cheat' meal. It's more sustainable to eat what you like and not feel guilty about it but of course not so unhealthy you feel bad.
no he literally has really bad advice lol, alivia shouldve talked to a dietician
@@shaileekulkarni8288 in the end it was her who healed healed her own relationship with food
Bts armys who are fat should take notes from this video.
@@user-uh4ff5uc2c lol what?💀
can we talk about how much happier she looks now... like yesh she lost weight and looks better but that doesn’t make her happier. She literally rewired her brain and stayed resilient to be healthier and have a healthy relationships with food. GIRL YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION. Ive watched you cry and binge and starve and you did it
Healthy body healthy mind. Losing weight is what made her happier. The dedication and sacrifices used to make it happen. Don’t sugar coat it.
@@evandeer440 Your delusional. She didn't get happy because she got skinny. IF you read what I said at all, I said that she is happy because she is healthy, not because she lost weight.
@@izabellamoss325 u are healthy when u aren’t fat... 🤣🤣🤣
@@evandeer440 u can be too skinny. Being rly skinny can kill u. One reason she is happier may be bc she is happy with her appearance but that’s not the whole story.
@@evandeer440 you aren’t healthy when your skinny either, as someone with anorexia i would understand that body type doesn’t always show health. Alivia was not unhealthy bc she didn’t have her ideal body, she wasn’t fat at all tbh. She was unhealthy bc of her habits with food
I have suffered from a form of this self-hatred/disappointment my whole life. I have done unthinkable things to my healthy body simply because it didnt look the way I wanted it to. I am a mom now and my body changed but I think motherhood has healed me somehow. I am grateful I have the body Im in. It has given me so much, so many beautiful walks, has allowed me to feel sweet kisses and hugs, see glorious sunsets and bear healthy children. Now instead of trying to change it, I honor it. I feed it well and take walks and lift weights and run the beach with my children.
“you can’t get fat in one meal, and you can’t get skinny in one meal, it takes time.”
- a wise man
actually-
idk... one night all you can eat pizza and I wake up with like 2 extra inches everywhere lol
@@sweetpotato469 That depends on how much of it you eat, but it's unlikely you gained a lot from it. You're probably just bloated
kind of seems obvious more than anything
i bloat so bad after breakfast so im skinny in the morning fat the rest of the day 😭
i LOVE LOVE how she immediately put the “do not compare you body weight to mine.” i have a habit of automatically doing that and she caught me before i could catch myself
@@meowv34 me too, and the way her family talks about her too
SHE SAID THAT RIGHT AS I WAS DOING IT
Im glad I don't know my weight in pounds, only in kilos... So I can't compare it inside my mind.😂 (Btw hello from Europe it's like 5am here)
@@gabriellaorjuela7265 SAME i was like “fck rona made me gain 20lbs...” then she said that
Perfect thing is that my mind works with kilos so I can't compare without translating the number
People never talk about how psychologically difficult it is to lose weight. Trust me I know. My highest weight was 180 (I stand at 5 foot 5) and currently I'm at 136. It's alot of work. Stick with what works.
I used to be 180 I’m 220. I have been working out for over a week and I feel amazing. Do you have any advice ?
@@Plutoliz honestly keeping a food journal works wonders because you get to see how much you eat and when you keep sticking to it the pounds shed off on its own. I do exercise but it's mostly diet that kept the weight off and stayed off
@@Plutoliz cardio! I lost 40lbs the summer between sophomore and junior year of hs. Start off small like walking on the treadmill for 15 min a day (although I started off by doing an hr everyday) and gradually work your way up to being able to jog for a little bit. I also recommend body weight exercises to build strength while you lose fat
5"5 too. My highest was 170 currently 159 I wanted to get to 137. It's hard specially when u hit plateaus
Oh my god I'm 5 foot 5, I'm 180 right now my highest weight too, and I want to get to about 130! Knowing you did it really helps
My jaw dropped when you revealed your transformation. I’m a stranger, but I’m SO proud of you. Yes for your physical transformation but more for your mental. That’s the hardest part. Thank you for sharing your journey and being so vulnerable. This was a beautiful video.
Someone in the comments said "You choose how YOU feel in your own body. She did not feel okay in hers, so she changed it. What is wrong with that? This is her diary, it's not instruction for you how to feel about your body." This is what this series is about. This is not for the viewers to FOLLOW. This is for the viewers to be INSPIRED. Just because Alivia achieved a "model body" does NOT mean she did not also learn to have a better relationship with food. With the hard work that she put in after suffering for so long, she achieved the body SHE wanted. I don't have an ED but I still struggle a lot with food and my eating habits. Alivia gives me hope and a place to start my journey.
Agreed, but I think it is important to also work on navigating one's relationship with oneself. Like her said in the end of the video, we all need to learn to enjoy the journey itself, rather than only looking at the result. Enjoying the journey means loving yourself every single day because it is you who are on that journey.
I think many more have a problem with that part with the guy advertising his work out plan and explaining the “science”, which isn’t real and is oversimplified, and can cause people to begin a eating disorder especially since the target audience of Alivias videos are young impressionable women. I don’t blame Alivia she seems like she’s going through something mentally tough but this information and the power she has over her audience makes this video very alarming
I totally agree! Finally somebody spoke up!
good
PREACH 🙌
"You don't want the shortcut, you want the journey." This really clicked with me and was something I needed to hear. Thank you for sharing your story:)
i can’t believe how realistic this is. every other video on glow up is just so unrealistic.
right its so comforting i hopes she knows how many people she helps and its impossible to please everyone
@dawn run not for everyone no but you basically have to learn to be your own motivation/trainer besides even with the trainer she didnt succeed at first you have to do the hard work yourseld
I agree
Well other glow ups just show the hard work and the results just like it's supposed to be, I haven't seem one who ever has said "oh no I didn't had a bad time neither failures" (this right there would be unrealistic).
To glow up she basically focused on the real issues (mental health and persistence) and then boom it happened. I don't really know what you mean by saying the others are unrealistics fr...
@@dinalva_santos15 Yes thank you. Finally someone spitting facts.
2 years ago I watched this video when I was 165 pounds. I had been wanting to lose weight for awhile but I had no motivation. But after watching this video I had gained all the motivation I needed to actually take action on it. As of now I am 105 pounds, Thank you so much :)
how did you do it?
i hope you did it in a healthy way
@@aeshhhh8940 I ran every morning and and was in a slight calorie deficit. Another thing was I picked up sports and spent 3-4 hours at practice 5 days a week. I also hit the gym on the days I wasn’t at practice.
@@literallylondonn yep it was perfectly healthy I just incorporated a lot more physical activity into my daily routine with a slight calorie deficit. Overall losing 60 pounds in 2 years isnt too crazy or drastic.
im so proud of you 🫶
Her skin and everything became so clear and she genuinely looked happier. That’s beautiful.
Now looking at her most recent video she was not at all happy with herself. People only show you what they want you to see.
@@sav5746 honestly facts. Never happy with the way we are. I’m not fake on social media. That’s why I don’t have it. Besides TH-cam. I’m not going to pretend I’m happy. I’ll either tell the truth or won’t post haha.. my family always said “you share too much.” “No one needs to know that.” I’m just honest so people don’t think my like is all flowers and gum drops lol..
Can we just talking about her commentary, her editing, her documenting footage, it’s just unbelievable man. Your work is VERYYY professional
Ahh thank you!!
@@aliviadandrea omg Of course your body and mental transformation is absolutely incredible as well !! I just wanted to say your work in series 1 and the new one is beautiful ❤️ thankyou for sharing such an intimate part of your life
agreed, the editing always amazes me
trueeee
Tbh
When she showed her results I cried I’m so proud of her this is all that I want for myself 😭 I’m not gonna give up
Ur a queen, u can do this too❤️ good luck
@@aminamajji4556 thank you beautiful!💛💛
you can do it! good luck!!
you’ve got this!!!
@@ellasjohnson thank you beautiful! ✨💛
Watching this after watching your most recent videos I feel like a lot of the signs of decline are clearly seen. I'm glad you re-visited your why after creating this video and found a real sense of self-worth again after these 3 years. Super proud of you girl, you've got this!
“Beauty is the face of who cried and now smiles,”
@@FrozenMermaid666 lol no
@@FrozenMermaid666 girl bye✋if you’re insecure just say that
@@FrozenMermaid666 stfu
Lol
@@FrozenMermaid666 did you even read the comment? she's clearly not even talking about looks or vanity lol.
"And eventually you go numb. Because you can't break a heart that's already broken." Wow i feel that on another level..
She said that as a saw your comment haha
😂
@@jada_1670 literally same 😂
I love this!!! She doesn't lie!!! She shows us that it's not easy, it's realistic
Exactly!
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great!
I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals.
I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing.
I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
I want to tear up so badly, cause I’m also in a situation where my family is skinny and I’m so chubby, I always feel insecure about my weight and looks because the clothes I once used to fit, doesn’t fit me at all. And seeing you make a huge transformation, I really really want to do it too. This video has inspired me so much. 🥹I’m 16 and it’s so tough for me, because the temptation to binge eat, but I know I should restrict myself from overeating. But that’s not the case I’ll try to become healthier and active. This video is so motivating thank you :,) ❤️
She’s not toxic she tells the hard , ugly, truth.
Bruw who even said she's toxic TwT
@@samiaoishy7862 half the people in the comments lmao
If a person tries to watch only season 1 it's actually pretty toxic and may harm others. But watching it as a whole(all seasons) really shows The Truth. Many on YT just show the process as a straight line I'm happy she's showing ups & downs and teaches not to give up no matter what.
@@justvibing11 YES ! :)
@@justvibing11 she atleast got over the toxicity from the BEGGINING, the journey itself isn’t toxic it’s amazing
Thousands, even millions of people have experienced or are experiencing what she experienced through out the journey. She's not overreacting, she's not toxic, that was her fighting her own monster to achieve peacefulness within her heart. I love how she shared her hardships and what she has gain after all of it. Thank you!
All of that is very real! Everyone in life has to fight their monster within themselves, and flee the bad habits. And during the long journey... Don't forget to protect your loved ones from yourself... because you won't only destroy yourself, you'll destroy everything around you that matters the most
I think a lot of people call it toxic because its so new to hear, no one ever talks about it like she does, even if they think it themselves, its not what they want to hear. I never once thought it was toxic watching, I felt relief that I'm not the only one going through all this. It's a lifelong battle for me and I'm 31 now, still struggling and feeling those demons. its freaking ahrd. She is inspiring!
@@rianlynn3854 people just want something to moan about. I to never thought to think this toxic. People are just full of sh*t lol
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great!
I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals.
I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing.
I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
Everyone calling her toxic are just projecting their own insecurities on her.
“Even my sweats are starting to get tight on me…” this hit me hard on a different level. The most crushing part of my weight gain was my clothes that I loved beginning to fit me differently. It sucks
Same 😢 I am going through this right now. I have a lot of cute summer dresses I can no longer wear. Fashion is a passion for me and my sense of style is the only thing I feel confident about. So this is devastating. And I keep getting bigger and bigger 😭
this! i have never been so sad to relate and hear this from others. i used to love these pair of jeans and wore them almost every day to school but a year later, i feel so exposed and uncomfortable wearing them. i really hope you find peace with your body and its never too late to start, its just about the perseverance.
I know what you mean with clothes ‘ same here
This!!! It hit me soooo hard too, i was tearing up and realized how tired i am from repeating the cycle
me too, so sad. i dont know what to do to keep consistence eat healthy and work out
This video hit my heart. I have never seen someone be this vulnerable talking about weight loss and how they see their body. I immediately subscribed and am amazed by how much this helped me.
this video is absolutely everything. i cannot explain to you how badly i can relate to this video. i feel like i may be at the part of my journey where things are starting to click. it's that "keep going" thing... when you keep going for so long, mess up try again, mess up try again, it really does eventually click, and you mess up less, and less, and LESS :)
Wish you the best
I love you ell!!!! I love your videos!!
Love your videos! You can do it!!
love you El
I feel like I was meant to see this. My binge eating has gotten so bad. I’m the biggest I’ve been in my life. It’s time to make a change. Thank you
You Got this! I'm rooting for you!!
i believe in u
you’ve got this! Wish you the best ❤️
Christian Wood thank you so much, you have no idea how much I appreciate this ❤️ I will definitely keep u updated !
same here I’ve never really binge ate before and lately bc I’ve been going through a lot and I’ve been really depressed my coping mechanism became binge eating and now im having a hard time stopping but weighing myself I’ve been the biggest I’ve ever been and I feel so ugly but ur right it’s time to make a change thank u for making me feel like im not the only one 🤍
If only people knew how many times i cry in changing rooms in stores after not finding something that fits me. Or after seeing how my body looks like. This is so inspiring. It is not about losing weight , it is a very long journey .
Really I can feel u...I hope u r better now, but I m still in that situation.....so I hope I can also be successful in my weight loss......ok bye....lots of love from Assam Northeast India 💕
@@GardenTipsGuru i still didnt lose weight either. Hope some day i would be proud of myself. Thank you so much for your kind message 💜
Me too, my brother, my mom and i went out with one of the elders of the church to shop and i had to wear some clothes in front of her so that she can see if it fits because she was the one choosing the clothes which was totally embarrassing, she left my bro to pick whatever he likes at the second floor. What made me feel so bad is that instead of her to pick the sizes I usually wear she picked size 18 for me and i felt soo bad. After she paid for the clothes she started talking about my weight. I cried home throughout the day and felt so depressed whenever I saw the clothes hanging in my closet. My mom didn't make it easy for me too. As I was changing back at the mall she kept saying that the elder doesn't know how huge I am. I felt terrible and I felt the pain so much. I cried so much that my bed and pillow was soaked with my tears.
@@liarose7590 that is very sad. We all have been there. I am still there. The keys is to accept yourself the way you are the way you look , than you can change yourself to the best . Remember strength is born from weakness . You have to be weak first to be strong in the future. Change yourself because you want to be healthier and to be in a good shape and to live in a healthy live style💜
How much i stare at my fellow women with flat tummy😤
This is one of the most emotional, touching videos I have seen on TH-cam. You were so authentic and real, which made your message so meaningful and relatable. Thank you for sharing and I hope you are keeping up with your progress :)
The amount of vulnerability is honestly shocking and moving and inpsiring
it's so authentic and relatable. These are moments a lot of us go through, but are too ashamed to share.
The constant back and forth between trying and “losing” is so damn relatable and inspiring
"It's not about perfection, it's about effort. And when you bring that effort every day, no matter how big or small, that's when transformation happens."
I'm gonna remember this for a very long time
X2
Thank you so much
Screenshoting this because this shit is HELPFUL
Binge eating has been a huge issue for me. You are so brave for posting this but it's so important that you showed a very realistic representation of what this is like.
I saw some comments saying that some people calling her " toxic" but this is reality i experience this as well. You cant sleep fat and wake up slim and productive. She shows her life struggles and how she cope with these struggles and turned it into a motivation. :(
she literally has an eating disorder
@@bee2514 I think everyone can see that? But she also helps people with eating disorders, you know, showing there's a way out.
@@didy9488 if anything she encourages them by posting these videos and pushing mindsets like ‘food = weakness’
@@bee2514 Well, I'm talking as someone with an ed. For us, food it's already a weakness, you know? The thing is that what she means is not that she's "weak" when she eats, but she feels unhappy, which droves her to feel weak. That's something comun.
She was able to reconcile with food, and that's the encouraging part. She might still be into ed (it's really difficult to get out), but she's able to be in a healthier relationship with food, which it's a huge deal.
@@didy9488 i’m also talking as someone with an ed lmao. her content is just triggering and she has no reason to document her methods and thought process
This hit home. Im speechless. For the first time, it feels like someoen understands. I was really trying. I promise. I have been working so hard for years and it feels like someone acknowledged it
Bro, i tried & tried & failed for 3 yrs until i finally did it. I've been at my goal weight/bf percentage for more than 12 yrs now. Never stop trying mate
@@jedrashidul6952 thats so good to hear honestly. Ive been trying to reach my goal weight from 2020 and i havent really made any progress yet
I’ve never seen a “weight loss” video that hit me like this. I’ve been using food like a drug basically, as a way to relive the stress at the end of the day. I don’t want to use food in a way that makes me feel good temporarily but hurts my body… I want it to fuel me.
Same here. Food/sugar addict for 15 years. I feel like I finally clicked thanks to my nutritionist/personal trainer. I only wanted the personal training but she didn't give me a choice, she said I had to change my food habits, and of course I already knew this, but the fact that she is so strict and asks me to show her my food diary every time we meet, somehow makes me stick to a diet for the first time! The food diary is like a report card that I have to hand to a parent and I'm anxious for their reaction. It's absolutely ridiculous, when you think about it, because I wanna get healthy FOR ME, not for someone else. It's not rational at all, but we humans tend to be much less rational than we would like 😂
I hope you will find your way to change, good luck!
@@soybean3423 I might try this, thank you so much!
@@absbrianna Cool! Let me know how it works out ;)
To be sure: before going to the nutritionist, I was doing what I called a 'gradual diet' where I gradually made healthier choices. The biggest hack for me to escape the sugar addiction was to choose ONE high-sugar snack, not my favorite one, but just one that I thought tasted 'pretty OK': for one week, that snack was my ONLY snack but I ate as much as I wanted. I actually gained weight by doing this, but after doing this, it became much easier to replace this unhealthy snack with a healthier one (low cal fruit yoghurt with sugar-free muesli). That was the first step of my gradual diet and I would recommend it to people who cannot quit sugar cold turkey.
I wish you good luck!
Hello everyone, I hope you all are doing great!
I have worked as a personal trainer since 2019 and now I have started my youtube channel as I want to help more and more people achieving their goals.
I do mostly home workouts and all the exercises that I post are proven and their results are very pleasing.
I would appreciate a lot your support by subscribing and maybe you will find something that may help you as well.....
Grace I used to use food like a drug too. I got free from this and you can too ❤
Girl, you can be so proud of yourself! Not only bc of your physical transformation, but for everything you managed to change! Most people don't see that changing your mindset is often the first step to change bad habits etc. And you are so young and done all that mainly by yourself! I've been through a similar journey, but it took me longer I feel to get to a better place. Your video is amazing and so powerful! 💕
The Glow Up Diaries was SCRIPTED.
She planned the whole thing. It's just like acting in a series. She was skinny before, got fat, ugly or whatever. Filmed it, edited it and made it somewhat emotional for young girls. There was no glow up. The purpose of this series was not help or inspire people. She did all these just to EARN MONEY. JUST that. Yes it should be on Netflix because it's all acting 🥱. Relatable queen my f o o t. It was just a sad soap opera. Every episode was negative and destructive. It didn't teach anything. It was just "The Struggle Diaries" NOT the "Glow the f up" diaries. The title is misleading. The series is COMPLETELY misleading.
When she showed her results I didn’t just see weight loss I saw confidence and happiness and was so happy for her, her journey makes me want better for myself.
I don't judge her because I've had an ED before, and I swear it became a deathly cycle, the worst part of it is when people don't take you seriously or think you can eat normally whenever you want. Alivia is such a brave girl
what’s an ed?
@@sarahlanfranco3081 An "eating disorder" bestie :)
When you said “beauty is the face of someone who cried and now smiles” THAT is what this series is about and it is so beautiful. You radiate joy and it is so inspiring
I’m 11 and I’m crying watching this I realized that I’m beautiful the way I am and I’m not gonna try to lose weight for anyone else except me. This rlly helped me. I’ve tried to work out and stuff but I always quit when my mom or dad gets food that’s not healthy for me. Cause I feel so bad if I don’t eat it.
Don’t push yourself, people at your age need food to grow and function, if you don’t get fed right at that age you’ll have consequences later on in life, food is good for you
@@mazapann1 thank you!
Just like the other comment, at your age it’s normal to eat more because you’re still growing. Don’t push yourself too much love ❤️
Just like the other 2 comments I'll add something, Try to fill your diet with as much Protein and Nutrition rich food as possible(possible as in controlled manner) as you are still growing you need those for Height and muscle and above all for your overall health, be active. one step at a time no need to change your self overnight make it a life style not a one time thing, it's ok to eat fast food but it's not ok to make it a life style, not all calories are the same.😀
please seek guidance if possible.
There r people out there saying that alivia’s videos r “toxic” and “give out wrong information” but she is one of the only people who actually is real and puts herself out there for us to see and learn
It's mainly because this reminds them that they're supposed to take up healthy eating habits and work out instead of being out of control and unhealthy especially when overweight people get covid complications more easily. They feel called out and they don't like it.
@@tinag7506 exactly
@@tinag7506 i actually think that's not super true. people are angry because it's glorifying having a perfect body (especially the thumbnail) when it should be more focused on developing a healthy lifestyle. the way she perceived her body (such as fat = lazy, ugly and inadequate, etc) before she started working on it promotes having a negative body image. it's important to be evaluate if your body is reflecting poor overall health, but your end goal should not be having a skinny, pretty body like the end result of alivia/the way she emphasized it. i know she tried to support eating cleaner and exercising with a trainer but her channel as a whole sends very mixed messages. but like yall stfu i still enjoyed the video, just don't assume people are criticizing her just because they feel called out. many people who are anexoric are speaking out 1. for the lack of trigger warnings and 2. they feel like some of the mssages alivia conveys along the way may lead to more problematic young having EDs
@@julia-pw8fz But thats her life. If someone feels offended because she herself doesn't like her fat body, it's their problem not hers. It's important to like your body, and if a skinny body is what she wants and needs, thats perfectly fine. It's stupid to criticize someone for their body image and goals. I'm in recovery and I don't expect the world to cater to my insecurities. Some people gotta learn this too.
@@Moonlight_Shad0w no exactly. she should've been promoting working toward a goal so you can feel comfortable in your body. and that's obviously her intention- work hard and become someone you want to become. however she didn't execute it in a way that made people feel correct. people are just giving feedback on how she can create a better online community by changing how much she tends to focus on details that may not be as important as the main message- which is her trying to motivate everyone to stay determined and disciplined to become who they want to become. and i think alivia has been addressing that, nobody wants her to stop making vids to cater to others' insecurities but i still believe that the critique wasn't necessarily other projecting insecurities, but moreso just part of the growing process of a content creator because all content creators have space to grow as a positive influence online
I’m starting my weight loss journey because I’ve become so insecure to the point that I don’t go out and make friends anymore, thank you for this.
Stay strong, I believe in you
Good luck! You can do it❤️
Be courageous
is that you in your picture? you're so cute!! ❤ how is your journey going?
Make it fun and find a buddy and you will thrive
The comments from her parents made me really sad. I saw a picture of myself from a couple of years ago at my parents’ house yesterday, and my mom commented on how beautiful I looked in the picture. I rolled my eyes and said, yeah, and 30 pounds later, look at me. And she stopped me and said, that’s fine - you’re still beautiful. 🥲 Wish she could have gotten that message from her parents too. Everyone deserves those comments.
During quarantine my sister lost some weight and started exercising at home. I found last year very stressful and was more focused on my studies. I spent almost every day in front of a laptop listening to lectures. I felt so guilty that I gained weight and every time I looked at my sister exercising I felt so guilty because I didn't have the mental strength to do it myself. Honestly every time I tried to exercise I would last 2-3 days and get overwhelmed by what I consumed that day and did I give my best. I can't tell you how awful I feel when my parents tell me that I have gained weight. Like I know, I'm not blind. I'm obviously stressed and worried about It and i am trying to change it but i feel like i can't do it. I think I need some help but I live in a very undeveloped country and therapy isn't really a thing. And when it is an option it's really expensive.
Meanwhile my father calling me fat my entire childhood + my mom not once calling me pretty🧍♀️
@@eni4498 Hi, you’re not weak for gaining weight, focus on your health - and that includes mental health. Take all the time you need and I wish you good luck!
@@solus8685 I’m so sorry I’ve never been validated by my parents either, you’re already beautiful (being beautiful is not just outer appearance)but if you work on loving/validating yourself you’ll feel beautiful 🥺❣️x
@@0214film Hi! I know I’m just a stranger, but I appreciate you. Please try to take little steps to get better mentally and don’t ever feel weak for struggling. Good luck!
I almost cried when watching this. Everything discussed was exactly how I felt too. The disparity and self-hatred. And the powerlessness of eating and not being able to stop, talking about how you shouldn't be doing it as you are doing it! I'm in my stage of progress now! I'm losing weight and have found a sustainable way to do it. And I've eliminated any guilt I feel from eating over my deficit whenever it happens! Thank you for this video, I'm sure it’s helped so many!
I’m so so so proud of you Alivia Now get some sleep don’t worry about episode 3
She deserves it
Yea she deserves a break cause this editing is amazing!
Yesss this girl needs to get some well deserved rest!
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@@GenZGrandma girl dont be tryin to plug yourself here lmao tf?!
it's really refreshing to see a trainer like Steve not shame you for a cheat day and encouraging a good relationship with food. thank you for sharing this
You just gained a subscriber.I love how transparent you are.
This is 100% my sign, I just feel so bad about my body that I don’t want to go out.
hey good luck⭐🌌🤍
i thought the same thing at first. but you can and you WILL be the person to motivate other people around you. once they see your transformation, they'll know that they can do it too. you just need to keep pushing❤️you got this:))
@@لاأحد-ت8د1ر thank you
Awe :(
You can still go out! What matters is that you try your hardest. If you know this isn’t your final form, then it’s a journey. You can’t judge an artist on half-finished work, and people can’t judge you since you’re not done.
@@user-sf9gs2pg1b Wow thank you this made me cry fr
I love how you were more upset about the thanksgiving “cheat” day than Steve was. He explained it pretty well. At the beginning of this video, I didn’t see a chubby girl. I saw a healthy lean girl. But because your relationship with food changed, your body started to change. This proofs to me that healthy weight loss isn’t about how much you work out or how less you eat. It’s basically about your relationship with food and your body. If you have a healthy relationship where you take care of your body it will have a positive effect on weight loss.
So trueee, I saw myself as fat for years, body dysmorphia since 11, and then I put on weight as a result of my weird relationship with food during high school due to stress/binge eating
This literally happened to me.
I was normal to chubby. Then I started to try losing weight. I ended up being extremely unhealthy and gained SO MUCH weight. It was insane. I lost a good portion of that weight and I'm still working on losing more 💕 this video is so real.
Tw: ED. Same thing happened to me when I was around 10 I was super skinny then puberty hit me like a freight train and made me gain a shit ton of weight and by 11 I decided to eat only fruit and small potions which led me to underrated and get an eating disorder which now fucked up my metabolism but I’m trying to lose weight in a healthy way and not over some stupid boy
I’m also dieting and lost 5-6kg this is my second month of diet and sometimes i just can’t resist and explode like I’m eating -1000 ckal a day and then 3000 and the next day -1000 again , idk if I will keep loosing weight this way 😭😭🤯
I feel like I've been on a weight loss journey my entire adult life and it's so damn depressing! I'm 30 and still suffering. And when I finally started losing weight and getting healthy, I ended up in a very bad relationship and went back to my old ways😭
@@celiac4283 😭
@@thekaren1111 I was never naturally thin, but I was smaller than I am now. I just turned 30. Ppl can lose weight Even after 3p😒 and 1 bad relationship doesn't mean I'm insecure n shit. He was diagnosed with narcissism later on. And just like most narcissists, they'll act like the perfect guy in the beginning to reel you in. When I gained weight, I could literally feel the difference. I don't want to lose weight because society likes skinny ppl. I want to lose weight so I can feel healthy. Doesn't have shit to do with self esteem😒
I’m not even halfway through the video yet, and I’m in love with the editing style, I haven’t seeen a weight loss video where someone ACTUALLY struggles, someone I can relate to , thank you!!!!
"my behavior made me lose respect for myself and it shattered my confidence" perfectly said
It's crazy how your whole face changed as you lost weight. I definitely need to start loosing some weight cause ik curious to see what I'd look like.
sameee
frr, but I feel like I'd look the same as my younger self
Ive always been overweight my whole life so I'm really interested into seeing what I'd look like
@@onyxtheeempress9298 you Got this!
SAME
i have a personal grudge against the other weight loss youtubers. they act like they lost everything at once and never struggled or gained some weight during their journey and it really discouraged me. during my weight loss journey, my weight kept going up and down and seeing all these people document their weight loss as if they lost everything so easily without getting off of track made me really upset. when i came across alivias videos, i felt really good about myself knowing that im not the only one that gives into binges and cravings
thank you!! yes alivia is actually someone who struggles with bed like me and it really helps me to know someone else struggles with this
It was so hard to see you so sad and struggle. My heart broke for you and I wanted to just give you a huge huge hug. I have a teenage daughter and I think of her when I saw you, and it makes me so sad. You are so beautiful! I haven't heard of you before or seen any of your videos but your dedication, your resilience, your strength, the rawness and realness that you dared to show the world your personal journey, I'm just floored and really in awe of you. All of this was very courageous to do. You're amazing, genuine, and beautiful. Inside and out. You may not see my comment because the video is a few years old. I struggle with weight and am trying to lose it. Thank you for daring to show the world all of this and for the inspiration!
I came to this video intending to purposefully trigger my anorexia bc I felt that I've been "losing progress" lately. Instead this video held a mirror up and showed me exactly why that mindset is unhealthy. I'm trying to recover, and it's videos like this that help me realize exactly how dangerous this is. I'm so glad you managed to get healthy and push past disordered eating as you did it
Good luck on your journey if you’re trying to start healing.
This comment is so real. It’ll get better for us and everyone struggling with disordered eating reading this ❤️
@@deez9462don't do it. You will get through whatever you're going through ❤️
😥💜
I hope you're doing better now x
I swear Asian parents always think reverse psychology works but it just ends up being hurtful and demotivating, atleast for me it was.
**Edit** it seems that it's not just Asian parents but more of a generational thing? Maybe parents born in the 50's up to 70's think that reverse psychology works?
Black parents too. My mom gives me junk and I have no choice but to eat it but gets angry I’m fat.
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i think my mom thinks shes super big brain by tryna do reverse psych but it makes me annoyed and feels even worse that shes tryna do that...
Yessss finally my parents understood that after years nd now they r soooo motivating in a real way..
Not just Asian parents
Truth is I think the less time I spend with my family the more they understand me
Exactly
Can we just take a moment and appreciate how far Alivia has come and how much effort she puts in everything!? She is such a hard worker. Get some sleep girl, you deserve it.
She is a queen she deserves it
For real
period
man she hired a coach
what lmfao this video is a huge ad for this zim guy and she pushed the upload date back like 4 times because she wasnt finished. she's everything but a hard worker
You have such a talent for storytelling. This was so compelling and sweet. Thank you for sharing your work. I’m so inspired.
She can't be any more right to say "Nobody's coming to save you. You have to save yourself".
* proceeds to hire a personal trainer😂😂
Btw don’t alt me or anything in the comments, it’s just a joke
@@mhad4308 I didn't understand it at all.
@@ananyadutta1154 I said “nobody’s coming to save you. You have to save yourself.” at 4:46 . Then I show the story of how I went to a celebrity fitness trainer and still didn’t achieve my goals. My 18 year old self always thought that if I just had a personal trainer, all my problems would be solved. A personal trainer is extremely motivational but it’s not enough. The key ingredient is your own mindset. The lesson I learned is that you can get the best help and resources in the world, but it does not guarantee success. It is still ultimately up to you to achieve your goals.
@@aliviadandrea I appreciate your response. I value every word of it. How are you doing now? Thanks a lot for caring to respond.
THIS REMINDS ME OF THE MOVIE TO THE BONE
See this is a true example of what a weight loss journey looks like. The pain, the mental distress, contemplating, failure, managing to push through. She has shown a perfect example of what effort can do, what hanging on can do. This is a life milestone, overcoming every seeming burden.
The hardest part is not the actual weight loss, but what comes after: the rest of your life. It's almost impossible to not gain the weight back.
such an amazing video
Love your channel ♡
McKenzie?
@@lydiaistocoolforu2999 NGL i thought she was mckenzie turner roblox 💀
Not sure you'll see this, as this video was posted 3 years ago, but man, this hit deep. I can't tell you how many times I teared up watching this feeling the same exact way.
Constantly having so much motivation, doing so so good for a few weeks and crashing into the pit of food my brain never stopped thinking about. A good relationship with food is so important, and I feel like I never had that..
Im recently trying to get to my goals, and putting the effort in.
This was so so inspiring and I just wanted to thank you for sharing your journey, as it is similar to mine.
i think what personally unsettles me about this video in my current mindset is the emphasis on the way your body looks - i am preferring to focus on moving my body, gaining mobility, strengthening my bones, showing up for myself and caring for my body and that is a really important distinction for me ❤️
"overcoming those obstacles is what makes your life meaningful" - FACTS :') :') :')
kianaaaa
Yess
I love your channel! I'm curious what you think of this video and how she's presenting her journey. ObesetoBeast did a reaction video that raises a lot of questions.
I love your channel so much Kiana
Me: obstacles? No thanks....
to anyone who reads this - your weight won't be the same your whole life. ups and downs are normal. you can't change yourself physically in a day.
Facts. Its so sad to see her like this because its normal to gain weight when you age from 16 to 20. At 16 you are a child !!!!!!! So sad
@@maximmsirois 123-150 is not normal. Normal weight-overweight is not healthy
@@dianalove539 not sure to understand. i'm saying that when you are 16, it's normal to gain some weight because your body change. and i'm refering to the part who she film herself in the miroir at 16 thinking she had to change something about her body. it's that part that i think it's very sad. and yeah it's normal with hormones to go from 123 to 150, it's literally me right now and im not overweight, it's just that my body changed from child to woman. you can be healthy at a normal weight i dont understand... but im french maybe i dont understand your statement because of the language i dont know
@@dianalove539 Actually weight isn't that important, what matters is your functional fitness level which you can improve at any weight. The modern obsession with how much gravity impacts you is far less scientifically backed than we think. "Overweight" isn't a real thing, every body exists at a different weight. Thats like saying someone's nose is "oversize" or their eyes are "too wide", what matters is if they can do the things you need them to do, and a number on a scale can't tell you that.
@@dianalove539 everyone carries weight different i have a friend whos like 5"6 and 150 is a good weight for her and shes not over weight shes just tall
Last week, I set out to lose 60 pounds.
I currently weigh 220 pounds, saving this video to comment on it when I weigh in in a few months.
I actually weigh 220 pounds as well. Started my weight loss journey this week. I pray we both pull through and become healthier and happier.
How is it going :))
how is your progress?
How's it going???
i think he gave up guys, theres been 0 reply
Man this is brutal. Seeing such a bright young person completely wrapped up in their own mind about food like that, just brutal.
Food is always about painful feelings
It is brutal
It happens more on women . At the end food is q source of pleasure XD
You are so correct. That kind of thinking controlled me as well for over 20 years. It was awful!!!
women are just really sensitive with food
“There is nothing to be afraid of...They’re just thoughts, simply just thoughts”
this made me cry, it feels like i was meant to see this, it’s such a realistic representation of a weight loss journey. i’ve been struggling with my weight literally my whole life, i’ve failed so many times but just like you, i have faith that one day i will reach my goal and finally be truly happy. currently, it’s been 4 months since i started my weight loss journey and it’s going slow because i’m not really exercising or on a “diet”, i just started intermittent fasting and reduced my food intake and if i really want to, i still eat something without restricting. i already lost 17 pounds and i’m much happier everyday :) of course, there are times when i fall off but that’s why it’s called a journey, it has ups and downs but as long as you have faith in yourself, all your hard work will pay off ❤️
I release to this. It made me cry too. She went over so many struggles that I have had.
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Yay I’m so happy that you’ve lost 17 pounds. I hope that you soon do get your dream body. :D
This video and comments like yours motivate me to start my weight-loss journey again. Wish me luck. :D
@@tamakisuoh5302 thank you so much im really glad to hear that and back at u, good luck you've got this!! remember to not be too hard on urself and to take your time
It felt like a movie to me, so touched by Alivia's journey. The transparency, honesty and wit all together made this all the more believable. Im amazed- and i might have cried a little aswell! 🤧
I understand this. Especially the “only chubby girl in the family” because I’m that girl. All my siblings are skinny and I hate being the only chubby one, even my friends. I have tried to lose weight but I gave up right after. But now I’m not going to and I WILL lose weight. For me and my 15 year old self. Like they say it’s either one day or day one.
Omg same, I'm 15 as well and I'm TIRED of being overweight. I'm determined to lose all of my extra fat
@@cxzuhaomg i have the same thing as both of you where im 15 (245 lbs) and i so desperately want to lose weight but its so overwhelming and idk where to start 😭😭
it’s been a month how’s it going?
im 15 too and im also trying to get fit and healthy, so far ive lost 5kg in the past few months and i see a bit of change but im going to try and lose another 5kg and start working on my fitness more
You got this❤ coming from a 13 year old
i don’t think people realize that this is real life, not just some fiction show.
Yeah some people here are acting a little too brave towards her...
@@TheFuschiaDragonfly what do you mean?
@@56658 a lot of people are commenting rude things
They say that this will trigger people with eating disorders which of course I know, there's the binge eating there and addiction to food. But like the go as far to tell her that she has an eating disorder because she's on a fitness journey. Is almost as like her weight loss and glow up offended them. And TBH the only thing that triggers me more is those comments saying because she's on a "fitness journey she has an ED" like I'm into fitness too and a lot of people don't know how hard it is with people always saying to you that you look anorexic or too skinny just because you take care of your health, those people need to be stopped ❌❌❌❌🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🙅🏻🔪
People like you are why the world is on fire. Fucking enabler. Of course they k ow it’s real life, that’s why they’re giving advice. Y’all gotta learn the difference between being “mean” and being critical. Fucking dummy. Now that’s me being BOTH.
the way she said don’t compare her body weight to our own in the beginning and I would still have no clue about how much that is because the only measurement I can comprehend is kg 👁👄👁
Edit: although I still wanna say to Alivia, this is a really incredible video, and I’m really happy for her that she found a happier place within herself❤️
2 pounds is almost 1 kg.
So 150 pounds are around 68 kg
I also had to look it up haha
@@111-s4o how many pounds needed to be 50 kg?
@@Gotnogas round about 110
True
Being this accountable and self-aware at such a young age is so rare these days, no one else has any excuse watching this, go out there, fail, fail fast, learn from it and become better, there's light at the end of the tunnel, as long as you're trying you're on the right path, just don't quit.
this series could literally be a whole MOVIE
A REALLY long one lol
!!
@@a.mei.c long? It's like 40 minutes
@@pepperoni101. We're talking the series as a whole, this video was like 40 mins.
I lost 10kg during early quarantine. And yes I stopped doing my workout and binge eating again and I gained weight again and yes it was depressing. I'm here doing my weight loss journey AGAIN. this video motivates me alot. I will never stop 😭
what exercice should we do like what is the best workout to lose weight?? and how much time?
@@noura_a_ I find HIIT workouts really effective! Walking and running also really helps 😁 you could do anywhere from 5 min of workout to 1 hour or even more.
This is the exact same for me! I lost 10kg first lockdown. Gained it back and now I have to lose that on top of what I wanted to lose before 😭😭😭
@@ItsCheyenneBitch Same here, but put on 15lbs 😥 We’ve got this, deficit, exercise, protein.
Your not alone girl!!!! Never give up!!!!
One of my closest friends went under diet and she literally would talk about cheat days and losing weight and so on while I struggled with anorexia, and while I don’t blame her, I think it affected me greatly; not only that but I think she was getting closer to a dangerous path. Seeing all of this reminds me so much of those days, and how fragile your mind is after your struggled with an ED.
Im sorry and i hope your recovery goes well! Maybe you should talk to your friend about it since you seem worried for her. i do really hope you can recover if you haven’t already
The quotes don’t match the content
16 yo here!
Ive been searching for someone to be real. Like show all sides of this journey. And youre the first one i found after years of searching.
Thank you.
I'm just gonna put this here: Losing weight =/= Happiness. It's not the end of the road where you've finally "made it".
yeah she somehow began equating glow up to weight loss
I mean, when you're severely overweight it is helpful to achieving happiness. This girl however has an image issue that goes beyond that.
Literally me...lol. Now Im fit and its great but literally no one else cares and your life wont be easier/much better. The high only holds on for a short time. You cant measure your happiness by the way you look..you will never be satisfyed.
@@m00nrac00n Honestly I am the same way. I got super fit and I have a great body, but like you said no one cares. I now do it because I enjoy it, not because I want people to like me more.
it was for me
"The thing is with eating is like, once you start, you wanna keep eating. It's hard to cut if off." YES. Wow this was so moving and relatable. Thank you!
Everyone shitting on Steve the trainer but he literally said for her not to feel bad when she slipped up cause he doesn't want he rot have a bad relationship with food...Ed: normally when people start to be disrespectful and leave strong language on my comment I delete, but I think discourse in topics like these is good. That being said please be respectful. Thanks 🖖🏾
@@jadef3657 idk I think he was just being honest, clearly he did his job bc she lost weight
@@dazedcharm4897 it amuses me when people are intentionally obtuse. Processed sugar...and even eating too much fruit isn’t good for you. Like mango is a fruit and good for you but eat a whole bucket of mangos and see what happens to you. As for aesthetics, the industry that he works in and the clients that he sees, they don’t go to him to be told that they look beautiful at any size hahahaha. And if esthetics are important to Alivia let her be. Not everyone needs to be a Tess Holiday or some of these other “fat positive” “health and every size” believers. Some people just don’t like to be fat and that ok too. It’s their body. Now I can understand the point of view that it might be “triggering” to her impressionable audience, but she does reiterate quite a bit throughout the video that it’s HER journey.
Sugar (like he said, *artificial* sugar) IS bad for your body. He's not demonizing anything. He's spitting facts. Did he make Alivia feel bad for eating that stuff? No. But does he need to say it's bad (if you eat it too often)? Yes, because he's a professional.
@@jadef3657 actually I came back to edit cause I watched it and he said nothing wrong his advice was useful is tone was gentle and helpful in no way was he putting down anyone. I don’t wish to look like Chris Evans or a VS model but who’s to say that that’s not someone else’s goal. Btw all bodies have lines and symmetry, however my symmetry might not be the same as your symmetry. We shouldn’t shit on what other people want for themselves
@@CarolineGehlen I’m not gonna put words in trainer Steve’s mouth but I wouldn’t be surprised if he meant processed sugar😂😂😂 and even natural occurring sugars like found in fruits should be taken I moderation. Here’s an example were I live mangos are abundant and growing up it was normal for us to have two three mangos a day. In one of those mangos there is 31 grams of sugar, 31x3= 93 grams of sugar. On average we should be consuming about 30 grams of sugar per day and this is just for someone who does moderate levels of activity throughout their day. So that’s three times the amount of sugar I’m supposed to be consuming for the day natural or otherwise. Plus trainer Steve isn’t wrong 🤷🏽♀️
I didn’t expect to fully breakdown watching this video. Thank you so much for this, I needed this
For those people who are saying “ yea, because she had a personal trainer “. I had a personal trainer and I didn’t lose a kilogram. It is all about you, it’s all about your effort!
Well he’s a celebrity personal trainer, I’m maybe guessing that there was some sort of deal made because this series was so popular. Dunno why but I think maybe he paid her and this weight loss journey is more for promotional purposes than anything. This season doesn’t seem as natural or genuine as the last. That’s just my opinion 🤷🏻♀️
@@MolyBDenum-lh3wy I think what makes this season different is that it feels more high quality, that's maybe why you feel that way ?
Yess
Yeees would agree with you. Lost 22 pounds (10 kg) without any personal trainer. Just did it by myself even in times of Corona. I guess it depends on how bad you want it, how much effort you put in and the state of your mental health is important...
@@juliederdaine1947 it's still good as her editing skills are brilliant but Season 1 is still better for me...I had only discovered it in Dec 2020 and was immediately pulled in, this new season...not so much, again this is just personal preference.
This was the most REAL weight loss journey I’ve ever watched. Thank you for being so vulnerable and open. Also I am so happy for you and am so happy Steve came into your life!!
This woman has been vlogging every single day for years? I’m exhausted just thinking about it
Hahahaha...
Me too
i have a diary that i write in like once a month at max xD
ALIVIAAAA NOT ONE OR TWO BUT IM SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE COME ACROSS YOUR DOCU SERIES AND LEARN A LOT MORE THAN ONE OR TWOO😭😭 im sorry im typing this as soon that quote popped up and i teared up so much...its not only your journey but its a journey of everyone who has been struggling with weight loss, body dysmorphia,low self esteem and holding on to the feeling of not able to do NORMAL EASY THINGS which sometimes feel unacheivable...thankyou so much for being so raw and honest THIS IS GOING TO HELP ME SO MUCH and im going to keep coming back to your videos when i ever hit a low point..sorry i went a little overboard but you deserve all the love and support LIVVV BIG HUGGG
Said this in a reply but I think it deserves it's own comment: replacing calorie counting with nutrient tracking and weighing with measuring will not solve obvious deeper issues
100%
so true.
Thank god someone said it
Not on its own, absolutely, but it truly does change the mindset and help the mind to understand food in a healthier way. I made this mindset change a couple of years ago and it did make a large difference for me and my mind. It truly is like Steve said towards the end: it takes time for your brain to wrap around it, but then it clicks. It’s one tool that should be used, but like screwdrivers- it’s only one tool in the chest and it doesn’t solve everything. It’s an important part of the process though.
it will literally generate another issue called orthorexia
PLEASE REMEMEMBER GUY'S: Don't compare someones middle to your beginning!
Thank you
this is so important
“you want the journey and not the shortcut” was really beautiful to me. i struggles with eating disorders my whole life and i think it’s beautiful to experience change instead of the unrealistic immediate change.
Thank you for this video. So many influencers today post their transformations but none of them are realistic. Your video is not only my life but so many others. Your vulnerability and honesty is going to help so many people. Thank you ♥️