Why Don't You Enjoy Anything? (anhedonia)
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 27 ก.ย. 2024
- In short, anhedonia is the inability to experience pleasure during activities that you used to enjoy. Meaning that if you used to LOVE snowboarding, but now it just seems like too much work, and even when you get up on the hill you just wish you could go back to bed.
Anhedonia is a big loss in our life. I mean it can feel like we can’t enjoy anything anymore.. Food could lose its taste or just seem bland, it could rob us of our social life, or even enjoying sex.
It can be part of many mental illnesses even though we mainly hear it talked about with regard to Major Depressive Disorder (it can be part of schizophrenia, eating disorders, anxiety disorders, BPD, etc). It can also harm our relationships because if nothing seems enjoyable, we can be hard to be around, or not up for as much as we used to be
Why does it happen: Dopamine is what makes us feel good. It’s responsible for attention, movement regulation, and our emotional responses. Lower levels of dopamine in specific parts of our our brain has been connected to anhedonia. They have also connected lower levels of serotonin and GABA to anhedonia as well. We also know that feelings of joy, excitement, and reward come from specific parts of our brain. These parts are called the Mesolimbic Dopamine Pathway and the Mesocortical Pathway. It involves various parts of our brain, like the prefrontal cortex, amygdala, and many more. So if there are any abnormalities to these parts of our brain they could be causing our anhedonia, or are at least one part of this very complex problem.
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Don’t feel like sleeping, don’t feel like going out, socialising, working, hoping, wishing, wanting anything
I feel the same thing. Is this what they call depression? 🙁
This is me honestly
Yes same😔
same i just wanna be dead
i am feeling the same. not sure if its a sign of depression
Literally EVERYTHING feels like work I’d rather stay in bed
Victoria Jension currently in bed 🙌
Laura Olson same:/ should be out with a family but have been tormented with this my whole life
Still in bed
@@Elm98 same.
Try vitamin d supplement
I literally don't enjoy anything anymore and haven't for years. Seeing friends puts me on edge, shows and movies don't hold my focus, my hobbies bore me. Nothing has helped from therapy to SSRIs, benzos, and stimulants. Every day it feels like I'm just waiting and I don't know what for.
No,no, and no
I can't even bring myself to watch my favorite shows on Netflix anymore because it feels like a chore. I've felt like this for months. :(
Same like I don’t wanna watch anything I don’t have a hobby I don’t want to do anything I think what’s the point
Absolutely 😑
How r things now?
@@crimmerz2000 not the one that has been asked but for me it hasn't disappeared since it has started..5 years
@@apenguinwithasign7572 hey be careful what u post, u may end up being partly responsible for someones suicide cos of this. And the only way out isn't suicide, she just made a whole video about what u can do.
Life was better in childhood, entering into adulthood has made my life hell with mental issues
Yep! Just went numb.
Maybe you don't have as many mental issues as you think. You just see this realm for what it is, Hell, and you're honest about it.
Even my childhood was horrendous
Call me lazy all you want but playing video games and going to school is more enjoyable than working a 9-5 job that I hate.
Welcome to the world!!! That's life!
I always grew up wondering why would anyone hurt themselves? Me as an adult is now fully comprehensive as to the WHY
Me to bud
same.. :(
Same !
please read the Quran. I overcame anhedonia just by reading it
@@mouslimalg7771 fuck religion
I think my lack of interest in various things is/was caused by experiencing a lot of failure,disappointment and anxiety.
I agree on this one👏
For me it was realizing that no activity brought any kind of long term satisfaction. Nothing is ever enough.
Yeah i think its the same with me
Same here
@@automnejoy5308 exactly my case
This happened to me after I finished chemotherapy. I went to Niagra falls for the first time and felt "It's just water".
It took the life out of you 😥
I’ve recently come through cancer treatment too. From stage 4 to complete healing. But I just feel lost now with nothing but emotional numbness and apathy towards everything.
@@patrickcahill7998 i wish u the best of luck
Cos it is just water:(
It can you safe you a lot of money, because frugal lifestyle feels just right.
I’m sitting here crying that I found people that feel the way I do. I feel so validated. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.❤️
Anhedonia literally robbed me of everything I once was. I used to have engaging conversations, interests, and emotions and now there's nothing.
I'm so tired of living in this grey world.
hey, *hugs* im sorry you feel this way.
I can relate with you 100 percent. I feel like an abomination. Everything I look at is dull, I've lost the ability to have sex,I no longer am able to laugh I've lost interest in every one of my hobbies. I've lost all my friends and my doctors can't help. The only thing I do everyday is try not to commit suicide. If you need a friend or someone to talk to I'm here for you whoever you may be. My name is Brett.
Such a black and white world it is.
I feel you. Going through the same thing for over a decade
@@Catlover955. how do you take care of yourself? Im at the point where I can't barely bath anymore or eat. My parents won't put me away but my doctors say I need to be in a living facility. I tried going to church but every said that I will go to hell because of the way I'm living.
This started happening to me after I graduated and now I can't feel joy in anything.
Growing up sucks.
Felt this
yeah same. covid isn't helping either
Felt ya
blame capitalism baby
That could be a loss of direction in life. Like, back when we were kids we were excited to become adults. It was like a goal. But now what? Now that we're grown ups what are we looking forward to? What's the point?
I can tell you exactly why it happens. When the pain gets too great we turn off the pain receptors. Unfortunately those are also the parts of the brain that feel the fun. we kill our brain to save ourselves.
sounds like survival mode. when we deal with so much pain our body prioritizes keeping us alive throughout that pain, our brain doesn't care about making us happy its just trying to stay alive.
@sonnyman9468 thats exactly what i feel. Like shit!
I feel empty inside :( I would do anything to feel. It's almost like I can only feel pain, anger and sadness but my joy or happiness is gone completely, makes life feel pointless
Ah feel ya
Same here and the worst is being isolated from everyone cause they can't understand anything 😭😭😭
Ditto. Happiness, Curiosity, unconditionally enjoying the company of someone else... something is going on. Maybe a biological weapon creating this.
Sick of being empty.
Hey I feel this too. I hope you’re doing better now. 💖
I feel like I've had this most of my life. It's definitely hard to figure out what you want to do in life when you don't enjoy anything.
I haven't felt like this all my life I'm so sorry that must be so hard, but I relate so much to your second sentence.
you're not alone
Welcome to poop world
Literally everything I loved: music (I have a whole degree in it and it's my career field), painting, crafting, playing with makeup, video games, watching shows, spending time with family... feels so hollow now unless I'm already up and dressed and highly stimulated. Having 8 autoimmune diseases doesn't help either because the chronic pain and fatigue are hard to separate from the depression. The chemo, the procedures, the constant doctor visits, the mounds of medication/supplements, and the BILLS MY GOD (not to mention the unsolicited recommendations of essential oils and other "cures")... Depression alone was one thing, but depression BECAUSE you're chronically ill is a completely different monster. I don't want to die- I want to WANT to live.
My situation is the same I have injuries and illness that has greatly increased this to what feels like it can’t get any worse the next day but it does
Hope you're doing well🙂
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I relate to this so much. I was already depressed before…now losing my health and my hair? This feeling of existing in a void is too much.
I'm so sorry ❤️
This video just made me realize I need to get help. Thank you.
same.
Good luck fellow bee
anything changed?
I feel like a machine going through the motions of life.
Me too :(
I know exactly what you’re talking about man
same broo but i am so small at age and i think i am sure i can not get mental illness
same
Yesssss
I used to love drawing, painting and just art overall. There were times when i would paint for 6-7 hours without a break like not even a toilet break or water break. I used to get so immersed in it and everything i loved. I used to love to dance and sing and now i think painting is too much work. Today i just painted for 5 mins and procrastinated the whole day. I just dont feel like myself anymore.
I m the same. I used to do craft work. I have piles of beads and yarn. I d make a few pieces of jewellery a night and dream catchers. I just have no interest at all now. I forced myself to make my grand daughters some bracelets and it was so hard.
Everything is hard life has been stolen away from me. 😢
i haven't felt like myself in at least a decade.
@@suegrevell1977 aww that must have felt so bad 🥺 i really appreciate even after not wanting to do it you still made bracelets for your grand daughters! I'm sure your grand daughters appreciate it as much as I do so let's carry on each day for our loved ones 💗 I wish you lots of hope and love in whatever you're going through.. we'll all come out of this stronger and happier! 💞
@@jones2277 it just breaks my heart how the situations and surroundings and even one self's mind, change people so much that we can't even enjoy what we used to love. I wish you find something again that you love doing whether it be art or anything else that you truly enjoy and feel like yourself while doing it.. 💓
I didn't know this had a name but i'm sobbing because it's ruining my life
@@user-hj7ww7jh5o sameeeee
Yeah same nothing makes me happy all that gives me happiness in Hawaiian baby woodrose seeds you can do them everyday gives me meaning to life maybe should try cause I lived for weed cause love it most in world now can't do it so hbws
I’ve never related more. I don’t feel particularly sad or depressed but just feel a lack of enjoyment and energy that I used to not feel, thank you for this.
Yes but Anhedonia is a symptom of depression and can kill emotions and feelings in general
When I first realized I felt total apathy toward things I used to enjoy, I thought there was something horribly wrong with me. It wasn't even the thought that it was troublesome or meaningless--it just... wasn't doing ANYTHING. This lead to a lot of shame and guilt and beating myself up about why I can't enjoy things anymore, like maybe I was just being fickle. In my case, the anhedonia was a byproduct of grief--but for a lot of people, we don't know why it's there. It just is. I don't have any awesome tricks to help with this, but if you're reading this and you're struggling, you're not alone.
I have felt this way for YEARS and had no idea that there was a name for it or that it was more then just feeling blah and depressed.
Same here. When I did run across this and presented it to my therapist, I was dismissed about it. It's like if they don't come up with it themselves, it isn't valid. Well, that doesn't change anything for me. I still have no pleasure in any of the things I used to be and can't find any new things to be interested about.
Same here, despite being slightly better now (but honestly still not much motivates me at all) i never even heard of this before. I guess it does make sense now
To be fair I think most people are/have been on the same boat, so telling people that you feel "blah and depressed" might be more effective at communicating what you're going through than telling them that you "have/experience anhedonia." And I feel like professionals wouldn't necessarily use this term with their patients in discussing their anhedonic symptoms and would rather repeat the patients' words like "don't feel motivated" or "Nothing is exciting anymore" because that can help cultivate a feeling of being connected and understood, unless they want to normalize or smtg
Same here dude
I've had it all my life
I can't remember the last time I've genuinely enjoyed myself. I've lost a lot of family members and friends in my life, and paying for therapy just isn't possible atm. I hope everyone else is doing well, at least ❤
You've described my life.
You cant cure Anhedonia with therapy.
whatever caused it you need to get rid off in your life.
if it was caused by heartbreak, that was the case for me.
only way i can cure it is to find new love. if i dont ill have to suffer my entire life.
stress is mainly what causes Anhedonia.
This is happening to me at the moment. I've been a gamer since i was a kid. All the way up until this point i've loved and enjoyed gaming. Even as an adult. Some people like sports or reading books or art or movies. Gaming is my thing for enjoyment when i have a moment. But for the past 3 to 4 months ive been slowly losing any enjoyment at all in them. But its not just that its starting to become everything. Making food seems a lot harder to do and more of work than enjoyment, including eating said food. Other things i did for enjoyment or as a hobby dont seem fun either. 90% of the time i just want to sit in bed and stare at the ceiling because nothing i do feels enjoyable or rewarding at all. I just feel flat about everything. But it all started with gaming just not feeling the same. Now when i open up a game i just quit out of it because as soon as i want to play something Is almost as fast as its something i really dont feel like doing. My ability to concentrate on anything has tanked and i just rush through anything i do rather than taking my time which isnt normal for me. I've had this before for very short periods of time. Never for almost 4 months straight. I'm a bit worried i'll never get that feeling of enjoyment back from gaming or anything else at this point. Useless bringing it up to my mental health person because its already been blown off as nothing. Guess i'll just have to deal with it and hope whatever this is goes away. But at least i have a name for it now. Just weird it started off with lack of interest in one thing to almost everything.
Same situation
how ru doing now?
Same here
Yo how is it going are there any hope for me
Exactly this. It's just completely frustrating.
I had/have Anhedonia. That, coupled with isolation and depression are a dangerous mix. Unfortunately there is no pill for hope and no pill can restore wasted crucial decades of your life.
What was her name?
@@ThomasDoubting5 Lol! There was one in particular but there never was the "one." That's been a real sore spot for me.
@@FerretMother They say youth is wasted on the young. I've found wisdom to be wasted on the old.
I feel as if I’m alone even though I have a 7 year old and a new girlfriend who seems to love me, my only outlet is bedtime as it gives me some peace and allows me to be free from the daily struggle which is living ☹️ I’m so so tired.
yo how ru doing now?
Almost exactly like me. Sleep is my only joy.
@@WitchOnABroomstick I wrote that to express how I feel, did not expect a reply in all honesty so thank you 🙏🏻 I’m now using antidepressants which are working, my days have become a lot easier 😀🌞 thank you for asking 💙
@@stevosteph1000 bro, go see a doctor like me! It can be better for you trust me, I’m in 🇬🇧 where u from? I’ve been prescribed sertraline but I think it’s called Zoloft in US.
@@Mendleson im happy for you Defenitive!!!
How is your girlfriend and the little one doing?
Sad part of life is that while watching this video I don't have interest in this and lost somewhere else
@888 😂😂😂 anhedonia period is over now
😄😄
Hahaha same
@@mohituniyal4587 wait so your enjoying life now??
@@DankLord-tb6uo ya completely
guys thank you for making me feel less alone :) it's really hard for me to do hobbies anymore I felt like I killed my creativity and when I do something I used to really love (like watching Netflix, Drawing Etc) I instantly get bored and just feel nothing
I suffer from depression and apparently from this too and for me I find what helps are new challenges and growing, challenging myself. I also do ice baths, laughteryoga, dance, juice fasting sometimes to help with enjoying food again, go to massage. These help me when done regularly!
I loved drawing. I used to draw everytime I got the chances to. At home, during classes, recesses, no matter the time, the only things I needed were my pencil and papers. With little money, I was willing to go faraway places by foot to find the equipment that could help my passion, even if they were cheap and ineffective. Nothing could stop me. Not even my dad who torn my sketchbook apart because I drew instead of taking nap break at noon to his schedule, not the people who told me I would never be good enough, not my cousin who said drawing what I wanted wouldn’t get me to college. I didn’t set my passion asides for the things they referred to as “more important”.
Then, it just happened. Slowly, I found myself staring at a blank paper when college started. Years passed by and the paper is no longer on my table. Now that I’m a working adult with money to buy the fancy tablet that I would die for when I was younger, drawing became something hard to start doing.
It’s not like I gave up on it. I really tried. I took out my gears time after time. I forced myself to push out 1-2 drawings a year. I brought the Wacom One. But it’s always the same blank paper. I would give away everything, just to have my passion back. I’m so tired of living in a loop, working day after day just to survive and then coming home sleepy and hopeless. I guess the only thing that comes close to a passion for me now is sleeping. Just like Elvis has sung: I lost the only treasure that means anything to me. What now, what next, where to?
the only escape is death
Sorry for interrupting you. Does this situation change after 2 years? It’s a pity to see you losing your passion…
@@ulyanagaydunova2620 Thanks for checking in. Not much has changed in the last 2 years. Still can't rekindle my passion. At least the silver lining is I still enjoy drawing and want to keep on doing it, on the rare occasions I forced myself to. Although everything resets to how it is every time I put down the pen and it is incredibly hard to pick up again, as long as I can keep the tiny bits left of my passion in those little moments then it is fine with me. For now, that is.
I've had two extreme episodes of this and many mild episodes. It's literally the worst state to be in. It feels like life is meaningless and there's no hope. I can remember one instance where I was compelled to drive recklessly after contemplating my lack of interest or excitement for anything in my life. I didn't do it. But the fact that I wanted to so badly really stuck with me. I had no idea it was so strongly linked to suicide. Thank you, Kati. As always, you've taught me something. Wishing you and Sean the best, always.
I took medical steroids and now I feel this way how long does it take to recover
@@rodytalks3989 I don't think there's a specific time frame. It depends on your chemistry. Try to eat healthy and get plenty of sleep. Also, practice positive self talk. Those are the things that helped me. I really hope you feel better soon. Please talk to your doctor as soon as possible. They will be able to tell you if the steroids are linked to the anhedonia.
Ricci Raquel I’m gonna be starting TMS soon quite possibly
@@rodytalks3989 That's great! I really hope you feel an improvement.
Screw the corporate world that made me turn from a creative mind passionate about life to an empty bowl of nothingness.
I think you should seek help instead of blaming something else that everyone is going through for your current predictament
It sucks bro but i don't think you should keep up the attitude of blaming smth else as much as you feel its that way. It kinda becomes an excuse for you not to do anything else in the future out because it is such an convenient excuse for you to not do anything.
Regardless I hope you find your way out of this situation asap.
Same here. That’s why I left corporate 2 years ago and I began feeling free and happy again. Hopefully after this terrible pandemic employers will give their workers more freedom and be less soul sucking robots.
Yeah man =(
We are slaves
Empty bowel of nothingness.
@@badchunky1 so what you do now??
I've been suffering from anhedonia for a year now, ever since I started my SSRI, after I talked to my doctor he prescribed me abilify, didn't help at all. I still take in hoping one day I'll wake up and be able to enjoy little things like I used to. Or rather enjoy anything at all. I'm not suicidal, but I feel myself wanting to do out of character things in an effort to feel something, anything. All I feel right now is a brain observing the world, cut off from it. It's the most maddening thing I've ever went through.
please read the Quran. I overcame anhedonia just by reading it
So I’ve slowly fell into this as the years have passed. From around 15 to now (18) it’s just went from I thought I was losing pleasure doing things since I was more grown and I had new responsibilities, but it’s shifted into me constantly trying to start a new show, or new food, or new people, or whatever to feel something, and I never feel anything. I get more out of the idea of doing something rather than when I actually do it.
Try being 38..... It's God awful then.
please read the Quran. I overcame anhedonia just by reading it
brutal, I am starting to develop Anhedonia at 17, I can't imagine living the rest of my life like this
spending time with someone who loves being alive helped me, not being around depressing ppl
Absolutely! One's thoughts can be changed 100%!!!
Really? For me it’s the opposite like fuck everyone who is enjoying and lying to themselves about how good this shit world is
🙏🙏💞💞🙂
I cling to ppl who are similar to me. It just naturally happens.
Then that person comes to the conclusion that your your own enemy. That you choose to feel like that. Maybe we do in a way..damn
I literally don’t feel happy about making music, playing videogames, watching movies, going out, hell even making money doesn’t make me happy anymore this sucks lol
doddleoddle DODIE!!!!!
Oh hi dodie fancy seeing u here
Hi dodie ❤️ you make me feel something again
Yes, if people understood body / brain chemistry they would know that with extreme highs comes extreme lows. The middle road is the way, balance, not extremism. If you find yourself needing to do extreme things to be happy, something is off and needs addressing. That doesnt mean your life needs to be vanilla, bland, dull.
I personally have found that serving or doing things for others at least once a week tends to bring back balance in life including joy. Although it often is mixed with exhaustion which is overcome by a peaceful nights sleep from having served, the joy remains through the week!
I think that's what I'm missing in my life, lost my job after it burnt down 5 months ago and my mental health plummeted. I struggle to enjoy anything lately, but things used to be better when I worked. Maybe one day soon I'll land a job again.
This was very informative. I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and this is a big part of it. Thank you.🙏🏽
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@@Katimorton im so proud of you Kati been here since i cant even remember haha 😂 but yes our community has grown and we learned a lot ! couldnt be more proud of you 😊 amazing!
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I have had anhedonia years ago. It was such an absolutely miserable feeling. I don’t think I could even describe it properly without sounding too cliche. I was terrified at the thought that it might not end. I was hospitalized for A.N. at the time and I felt like I was dead and no one told me yet. I cannot tolerate any psychotropic medications and my doctors and I agreed on ECT; it was a life saver. It absolutely saved my life and I am so happy it was available.
🙏🏻🙏🏻
What’s ect?
@@ChanelROETV Electroconvulsive therapy!
*depression and anhedonia gets worse after a good week*
Me: aw shit here we go again
binglesnort yeah everytime I have a good time w friends and then come home it feels sooo empty like i just feel numb and nothing helps I feel like I always need to be around other people in order to not be left alone with my thoughts and feelings and therefore I try as hard as I can to avoid being alone
This can be a symptom of physical illness too such as hypothyroidism, adrenal insufficiency, and other conditions that cause fatigue or chronic pain.
Lisa Manary it would be a symptom of the depression that those things would cause, not a symptom of the issues themselves. still correlated, but the direct correlation would be to depression as those things may cause depression
i have hypothyroidism and i do feel like that, i feel like some sort of a zombie at this point
though not generally measured by psychiatrists or health professionals, i think mental health problems can themselves cause or be caused by hormonal insufficiencies too. I know some men's depression can be treated by using medications to improve testosterone levels, and certainly women most likely have post natal depression because of depleted hormones. I know these kind of insufficiencies are different to hypothyroidism, and wouldn't show in the same way in blood test's, but i think modern medicine misses a lot of stuff.
@Tayla yeah, some people think that tests aren't sufficient for all types of thyroid problems, so a lot of people may have minor irregularities that don't get picked up on. Though i have blood regular blood tests because of the meds i'm on, i think i at least have adrenal fatigue, before my mental health was assessed, i was admitted to hospital with kidney pains, which turned out to be benign. But i think this was to do with anxiety putting stress on my adrenals, i'm trying to take supplements to improve thyroid and adrenal health, but I've got a lot of psychological stuff i need to resolve too, that's the hardest part. I believe we are more complex than medicine currently understands, as they say mind, body and spirit, but most doctors don't know about spirit, sometimes i think they're the crazy ones, lol.
I have thyroid disease, too, and I've definitely experienced this a lot. Everything seems too exhausting some days.
Food is boring. Days are boring. Sleeping is boring too. life is boring, everyday's the same, It's just that I have understood this pattern of life that there will be sad times and happy times. Happy times will be short in which we'll worry of sad times coming. Sad times will be long. I have understood this pattern and it's never ending, boring and sad days are longer than happy days.
Same. People always say "wait for the bad to pass, the good will come and go too." But seems like the "good" just never out weighs the bad. Nothing good in my life is worth living for. Not friends, family, pets, video games, food, drugs, hobbies, nothing. Im just an empty vessel that experiences brief moments of anxiety filled boredom in between non-stop horrible or miserable or terrifying events. And theyll tell me the brief moments of pure anxiety and boredom are the "good times". Because they dont know im not happy. If youre not screaming and fighting and trying to off yourself, youre "happy"... sigh
This has destroyed every relationship i've ever been in 🙄
Me too
I feel your pain
It's destroying mine now, nobody gets me.
@@KittenmittensXO Same
Wow. I definitely have anhedonia, I don't enjoy anything I used to. But to go get diagnosed with it would probably be really hard. All the psychiatrists and psychologists in my area only know the most basic shit. /: I feel like I'm never gonna get better.
I felt odd "liking' your comment but its a support-click really.
Joy Rose anhedonia like she mentioned is likely a symptom of another issue... it could be linked to something “basic” that they may be able to diagnose & help you with? if by basic you mean common things, like major depression
Joy Rose not trying to insult you in any way shape or form i’m literally just trying to help as someone with diagnosed major depression & supposed mild bipolar, i think the feelings of you never getting better & so on seem to be feelings of hopelessness & helplessness... which is strongly linked to depression
Sending you love and strength. I hope that this lifts from you soon. ♥️
STEFANIA 11 I definitely agree with what you’re saying. I know I suffer from anhedonia but I’m also realizing that I’m lacking certain vitamins so that could be a major part of it.
OMG I FLIPPING LOVE YOU! Finally understanding myself more than I ever have.
thankyou Kati, this is video that i never knew i need it. its an insight for me. im a psychology student but never heard of this, and i want to know it more now.
i begin to feel losing interest of everything and search why and how to overcome it.
heres to people who maybe need it, based on my experience.
22 dec 21
my conclusion about me.
1. parents expectation become my standard. i dont blame my parents. its because i respect them so much, sometimes im not filtering things they said about me, and it become things that i believe too. (which is not good). social standard can affect too.
2. when im not achive the standard, i feel failure.
3. failure makes me guilty of things that i used to enjoy.
4. i stop enjoying things, i dont feel anything enjoyable again.
5. not feeling joy but not feeling depressed either for a long time, its become anhedonia.
my feeling is my responsibility. i choose happiness and i work for it. its a process, maybe its a long journey. but its better than just living for chores.
i hope you who work for your happiness can achived it soon! ❤️
This is me lately. I haven’t been really depressed. I’ve been pretty stable actually but I can’t find joy in anything at all like when I was depressed I could find things that made me happy ,I can’t do that anymore . Also I feel very asexual ,I can’t find any sexual drive within me anymore .
@Winter Huff - It's part of Major Depressive Disorder. Have you been diagnosed with MDD?
How are you doing now??
that's also another form of depression
Even opening TH-cam and watching this video feels like I'm doing something just because I've nothing else to do and like a chore. I've no interest in watching this video or any video. Somebody help!
How are you feeling now??
Same
Same. I dont know wtf is wrong
@@lethall6609 dw just know one day it'll go away.
@@morndew272 dw just keep going on. I snapped out if it and u can too.
Years ago I used to feel everything (normally?) but I got rejected by some people and instead of showing my feelings I decided to shut down. Keeping going from that point onward I always chose to shut down when faced with emotional issues or "heartbreaks" and I think during these many years it has developed to a point when I just have stopped feeling anything. Even things that caused me joy feel boring and like a chore nowadays. Not even mentioning finding energy or passion to love someone...
It happened the same to me
Rejection and or abandonment is the worst! I'm in it so deep and it's crushing. Hope this last year got better for you.
So thats what I have, people look at me like im insame if im telling them i dont have joy in anything
Everything feels like WORK to me. Don't want to get up, eat, cook, go to work, socialize, everything
i literally dont want LOVE and everything, i dont want my family and when i stand up and just do simple tasks i feel so tired and my im out of breath even just walking, im not even overweight i actually just lose weight and ive always been a skinny girl so its really hard to deal with and gain weight
Hey I was just wondering if uve been feeling better at all? I’ve recently been going through the exact same thing
I relate, especially with being skinny and having a hard time to gain weight
Shit! Me too! I can barely keep my weight up to 95lbs (7st). Everything is such a chore and so tiring. My family think I'm just a dull recluse but visiting them is overwhelming. Even being visited is hard work. I'm so depressed I've even thought about ending it all...
@@steenystuff1075 Hei Steenystuff, Hope you are doing better. Reach out if you want to. God bless.
how can i sum up anhedonia in one go
" i feel like i have seen everything in this world and nothing matters in this illusion, when i am gonna die "
I have not been diagnosed with this, and this is the first time I have heard of it. But what your describing is very similar to what I have been experiencing the last three of four years. I cannot get into anything, like books or painting or music, like I used to. I suffer from an anxiety disorder and have treated it with talk therapy only. It has been successful, but I'm interested in discussing this with my therapist. Thanks for this video.
I feel the exact same way everything even in the simplest takes feel too overwhelming, I feel like I can't get myself into doing anything that requires the simplest effort I just almost always feel anxious and drained..
*Holy F, you just made a video I didn't even know of that I needed it.*
Thank you so much, this is really relatable 😱
Same here
Awe yay! I hope it was helpful :) xoxo
I’ve been feeling this way for a while without realizing it and now it’s really affecting me. I had no idea others felt this way or that there was a name for it. I had on fake nails the other day and i felt nothing like i used to. I dug the nails into my palms several times to “feel something”. I don’t wanna do anything further than that, I’m okay. I just don’t know where to go in life anymore so I’m just stuck
I remember literally feeling brain zaps from depression and i tried a lot of things, which usually give me dopamine rushes, but then i peeled a mango open and i really enjoyed eating that mango and also giving the person i love one and we shared eating those... that small experience made me instantly feel better and i could feel that my joy for life was coming back.. I realised how fragile our brain actually is and how fast life has become over the years of growing up. Please take care of yourselves out there.
does that mean to enjoy the little things in life again? i used to have depression and got out of it by doing small things like drawing and getting really into it and enjoying it and now that i have depression again i cant figure out how to think that way again because i cant even enjoy the process and i just take joy out of the outcome which most of the time isnt even satisfactory
@HemiSync7 Lol Thanks for making me laugh out loud!
It’s the first time I’ve laughed in 5 days.
Zawa, I feel a little bit like this, can we talk, I'd like to ask u something
if ur reading this i wish you love, fulfillment, and joy. nobody deserves to feel like this. i hope you figure things out and find something meaningful again beyond all this mess ❤️
It rises and falls for me, but never goes away.
I just became a licensed physician and everything in my life lead to this event but I felt nothing when I learned that I passed
Oddly enough learning about what I’m going through is making me feel more joy about everything 😂😂
this me rn
same 😂
Exactly!
I've stopped exercising and playing guitar, the things that brought passion to my life.
For years, I could never put a word on what I was experiencing. This makes so much more sense. Thank you for sharing, I have been diagnosed with OSFED, genderalized anxiety disorder, gender dysphoria, borderline personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder.
What did you have to go through/do to get tested? I have tried so many medications, several different doctors, and therapist and physiatrist. Literally had one doctor say to me that If I think I have it, then here's some medication. She literally prescribed me meds without testing me to see if I was autistic or not?!? Every doctor I see just throws their hands up in the air. I was explaining my symptoms to another doctor who walked out of the room and said I can't help you and literally just left me there sobbing. No guidance, direction or anything and I think I have a lot of the disorders you have but they just want to walk away from me or treat me like a guinea pig.
I can't remember the last time that I laughed so much c my cheeks hurt. There's just no excitement in anything anymore. So things that were my passion for 30 years, I don't enjoy or even care about. So I've replaced them with things to fit into my introverted life like reading a lot instead of sports.
I was an avid reader my whole life. Now I can barely read a page without losing interest. My comprehension is a wreck too. I was an accomplished artist until September 23rd. Painted everyday, until that day and haven't picked up a brush since..I rarely laugh too. It's taking a toll on my well being for sure. Everyday a little harder than the last.
I think mine comes from the fact that every enjoyable pursuit eventually leads to disappointing experiences. Playing a sport and getting injured, making friends and being betrayed, ridiculed, or neglected by them, getting promoted at work and having more pressure and things on your plate, enjoying desserts or fast food and having your health diminished by it, buying a house and having a higher cost of ownership. This is on top of life feeling like a routine.
I laughed reading this, but I know it's not funny because it's so true. I feel you! Same Same
Kind of like that episode of South Park where literally everything is "shit" like when Stan turns on the radio instead of hearing music is was just literal crapping sounds and he doesn't enjoy all the things that he normally enjoyed because it was "shit" as a child I always related back to that episode to explain the way I was feeling
Literally quit my job because I dont feel like doing anything, i rather just watch movies in bed
i dont think thats quite what anhedonia is, sounds more like lack of energy or motivation. Andedonia would cause you to not even be interested in movies.
Maybe ita just laziness
@@droidplaygames8153 No
what are you doing for money?
Sounda like a major drug issue just stop gettn so high that shit drains you after while all u wanna do is get high sleep n eat and dats a easy way to be homeless n fucked up
my whole life i feel like i just can’t be bothered and nothing is fun anymore even conversations feel like work, i feel so boring and i can barley even shower or get out of bed
Thank you, I was getting really nervous that I was not going to find any kind of treatment for my anhedonia that is currently making it hard to even survive. This has given me some hope that maybe I will find something at one point.
It's hard to describe if you've never experienced it. I was abandoned by my parents when I was a teenager. I lived in the bushes and on rooftops. I didn't have close friends or family I was on my own. I remember waking up in the bushes one day and I was dead inside. I felt numb. People would remark about my facial expression. My eyes were dead and only half open. I remember wandering around for a time like this not sure how long it lasted. It's like a living death. I'm still struggling with depression and sometimes I'm dead inside like when I was homeless. Right now I feel great and I'm living life to the fullest without becoming manic and getting out of control. I'm 58 I've learned to cope with solitude and depression. It can be done you don't have to suffer loneliness. You have to teach your brain that life isn't fair and you don't always get what you want. I have nobody but I'm okay with that because it's how life has to be for me. Life can make you hard but don't let it destroy you.
this is so helpful for both myself and my medical school studies! thank you kati!!
Of course! You are so welcome!! xoxo
Lately I really feel anhedonia. When I want to play my favorite games or when I want to watch some series on Netflix. It really lost its charm and I'm just not enjoying it anymore. Also, really on point video Kati. I needed it right now.
Maybe you just got bored and need something more stimulating than playing or watching. This is something you can grow out of or just got bored because it is not really demanding. Not everything we feel that is not positive is mental illness.
@@monmanon572 Yeah, you might have a point. I'm doing those stuff like every each day. So I can see why do I feel this way
@@darius2372 that's funny you have shane in your avatar because your comment soundes a lot like him haha :) get a new more stimulating hobby maybe you are already too smart for just consuming games and tv series. Maybe try to watch some more ambitious movies or be creative yourself :D best wishes! :*
@@monmanon572 aw thanks!
Mon Manon no not for me you may not understand what this video is about. My brain WILL NOT produce the feel good chemicals you get when you do something you enjoy instead it just tells me why aren’t you in bed all this life shit is pointless
It gets better. It actually gets SO much better it's insane! Don't quit. It's gonna get better. It might suck right now but i know from experience, it gets better! I've had MANY times where for MONTHS i felt shitty. IT GETS BETTER!
BOO! You don't know it get's better for people so shuttie.
What About Years?.........
I'm so interested and excited about this Ketamine treatment. I've been following it for awhile and I hope that it gets more attention!
Me too.. the more treatment options we have the better!! xoxo
I found it intriguing, too, until I saw a lecture on it at a conference. The professor said that it is definitely an exciting field but maybe the hype around it may not do it quite justice. About half of patients trying Ketamine refuse a second treatment because they have such extreme adverse reactions. Basically they throw up so hard they don't even consider giving it another try. Also, there are no really reliable long-term studies yet but it seems that you can go on Ketamine therapy for only about a year. Especially if you have more frequent sessions you build up a tolerance fairly quickly. So you have to up the dosage until you reach a threshold. After discontinuation relapses are possible although studies vary widely as to how common that is. In spite of all that if Ketamine does work for the patient, they may use this "depression-free year" to enact meaningful changes in their lives they couldn't before. And maybe even if there should only be a small percentage that will remain non-depressed it is well worth a shot for everyone with depression. After all, even trying with only little chance for success is better than not doing anything.
I'd also love to see an episode on Psilocybin and depression :)
Be warned: it may not work for you. I tried 5 infusions and it did not lift my depressed mood. It may work for you, but be mindful of the risks of it not working and wasting so much money.
Try ayahuasca
It’s not affordable
IDK if it is in fact Anhedonia, but I have these ups and downs constantly. During the hard days, getting up is extremely hard. It is like all my joy and life energy has been drained. I only get up either when I really have to do something, like work, or when my body hurts so much that I have to leave the bed. I’m not so lucky, however, since where I leave the doctors I’ve seen tried different treatments based on drugs for almost two decades, and nome of them have ever mentioned Anhedonia. This is actually the first time I’ve heard this word. I simply do not know what to do anymore.
This makes sense and I’d never heard of anhedonia before. Thanks so much, Katie!
why someone could maybe be having a feeling of no enjoyment or pleasure is probably because of..
mental struggles / deep-rooted issues / hopeless/depressive experience/ worries / hurt and pain and suffer or worse
You just described all of my life😢
I've been feeling like this because of major depression and it makes life feel extremely pointless. Now I'm taking antidepressants and it has gotten a lot better, life is starting to be life again.
If you're feeling like your world is grey, please find help with a doctor.
I'm watching as this turns my relationships to ashes. I'd be panicking if I could feel that.
I don't know where this is coming from but I've had it for months. I just can't genuinely care about much anymore. Staying connected with friends feels like a chore, I don't can't even express love to people close to me, I get instantly bored with my hobbies. This whole thing is bleeding into apathy and it's just... disgusting. I hate how conscious I am of it and it seems like nothing changes.
I try to find new experiences to hopefully reinvigorate whatever feeling I had but... nothing. I could see everyone around me have the time of their lives and I just keep wondering what I suddenly lost.
Before all this, I'd say I was pretty obnoxious and carefree. I had fun with just about anything and I could share that energy with the people around me. It was great. Now? Actually stone cold. I can't even fake emotions because it's too much effort. I'm actually growing exhausted with all this. I want this to end...
how ru now?
Interesting. 🤔 I love learning about these things. I've done talk therapy, meditation, watching what I'm telling myself in my head as far as negative things, getting more sleep, and improving my diet. Thanks for the video 🙂
When I get like this I usually have to force myself to do things I enjoy, once I do that enough I start to get into it again over time. It also helps that I have supportive friends who help me as well.
yeah I feel like if we don't feel joy in something anymore even though we want to, we should just continue doing it anyway because why not
This is me ever since I lost Leesa, the love of my life. 😢
Nothing seems worth it anymore. I feel like ending it all, but even that feels like too much of a bother.
Yeah.
Same here nothing makes me happy I used to love art but now it's just exhaustion. I'm tired of being this way everyone thinks I'm lazy or dramatic but I just can't anymore.
this treatments sound like they are going to hurt so I much rather just sleep and let it ruin my life, thank u
It’s like I’ve completely lost the ability to feel joy. All I can feel is sadness, emptiness, pain, anger, frustration... I used to be such a passionate writer but now it takes way too much of my energy. I used to also love going outside and hiking, not anymore... everything feels so pointless. I’ve been to a psych ward 3 times and it hasn’t helped me. I think I’ll explore some of the treatment options discussed in this video, although I doubt my parents will let me do any.
I have this Anhedonia stuff, and have recovered from it to a point. I had lost the sensation of touch at a certain level, and food taste was different, but now has improved. I believe my anhedonia developed from chronic suppression of myself in order to remain in a marriage where I could get along with my abusive husband and be accepted by my very controlling in-laws. After my divorce, in time my cat felt soft again and food tastes became enjoyable. I still have the condition, but it is better.
Thank you, I am in the process of sorting out my issue. I had a bad concussion when I was six and broke my neck when I was 11(just one cracked vertebrae). Been married for 19 years and have been experiencing these symptoms for the last nine years with about 5 years of alcoholism in the last 9 years. Alcohol seems to be my fix but is taking a toll on my marriage.
I have been suffering from this, among other mental health problems, for years. I've tried so many treatments and nothing has worked. I'm still trying different combinations of medications but honestly I've completely lost hope that they're going to help. Also, like you stated in the video, I can tell that my gf and family find it really hard to be around me because of it.
I definitely have this. I use to love doing a lot of things but now everything feels like too much hard work. I was told this was part of my depression but even after I control the worst aspects of depression I feel no joy or happiness but I do feel more contentment and less anxiety or despair. Maybe that's a win and I should just accept this and pretend i am a Vulcan or something
Live long and prosper.
When you said low levels of dopamine, I instantly knew what is happening. I've been squeezing the dopamine dry from my brain from my phone so nothing is enjoyable. Thanks, Now I will throw my phone away
I have tried to get back into my 3D modelling, 2D illustration & digital art for the last 2 years but I just realized today after trying again the problem is I don't get excited about it anymore. This is REALLY depressing as I was drawing daily since I was a kid (im now 43). I sometimes feel im scared of succeeding too, having this expectation put on me.
I have arthritis in both knees and psoriasis since I was 15. In 2014 I was made redundant (worked in stockroom there for almost 6 years) for a second time so had to move back with my dad. I then got a job in 2016 at The London Clinic as a hospital porter for a year until my 24th knee dislocation (yes I had many between the two). 2017 I got a job at Tesco but on the second night (late shift) my knees got too sore and had to ask to go home. I lost my job.
I started drinking heavily 5 days a week, mostly 2 bottles of wine a day sometimes 3. In November 2017 I had an emotional breakdown infront of my Father. I then went to AA. I never went back there because at the meeting and in the literature they had religious undertones and I'm not religious so I decided I would try myself. In the first 2 months I managed not to drink anything. Then it turned into a month break. Then FortnightIy. Now I only drink once a week and that's only on a Saturday. I shall have either one bottle of wine (which i drink very slow) or 4 beers. 3 years later I Stuck to that with only 2 occasions falling off the wagon.
But the Crepetus (crunching of bone against bone) behind my knee joints was getting too bad to go back to any semblance of physical work so I had another chat with my Arthritic doctor and we both agreed even though I am very young a partial knee replacement could help. So while waiting for an operation slot I started some studies in MS Word and Excel. Halfway through the course I got a call from the hospital asking me if I would like to take the cancelled slot from another patient, I agreed and had to end the course.
The operation went very well, phsyio went well but on day 2 after going home I had a haemorrhage. I went to my local GP and he refused to give me any medication for the intense pain ( i was very teary eyed). I then managed to get through to my knee consultant's team and they booked me in fast. The gentleman on the team on the phone was incredibly angry with the GP would not prescribe me any morphine and was going to give him an earful bless him. When the assistant consultant saw me he felt my knee and IMMMEDIATELY diagnosed it as a haemorrhage because of the heat eminating and redness of the skin. They prescribed me new meds and after 30 mins the pain already dropped considerably. I continued my physio at home and at hospital and made very good progress but unfortunately the Crepetus increased with a vengeance. So I'm buggered.
I'm gona stop now cause I have ranted so much already (sorry)
The point I was trying to make is it cuts me deep when some family members tell me to suck it up. I hate when my sister tells me "there are other people out there who have it worse than you". That's basically saying I have no validity in feeling bad, which in turn makes me feel worse. they dont believe it's as bad as it is even when I tell them "Listen" and bend my knee and they can hear it crunching LOUDLY or to put their hands on it to FEEL how bad it is.
Anyway I really like your approach in this Kati. You talk like a human being not some pseudo-intellectual self adulating ego maniac like a lot TH-camrs.
ty very much for not being patronizing. You got a new Subber : ]
For me, what really did it is probably social media. No matter what show, movie, comic, game I like, there will inevitably be pointless, stupid, toxic drama that ruins the whole thing, and the internet facilitates it. Whether it's politics or just a generally divided fanbase, all of this arguing over something that should be enjoyable makes me sick. At some point I just said "screw it, I'm done liking things". Not just fiction, but things in general.
me too. As Christian I can't stand theological discussion and divise topics and element in the church anymore. I can't relate to any other Christian brother or sister anymore.
@@Who_can_save_you_from_hell I'm a muslim but I feel like I can relate with you. I see myself as a very religious person who cares about spirituality. But as I got older I learn thing that contradicts my belief. Evolution, gay rights, argument against god and organized religion,along with history of violence motivated by religion is some of the few thing that make me feel tired as a religious person. Sometimes I force myself to watch things that I don't like and contradict my belief because i don't want to be an ignorant person,but instead of giving me feel a sense of understanding, it only make me feel angry and lose further motivation to live. Now I still do my worship as usual though not as much as I used to.
I used to enjoy gaming, painting, going out and listening to music now I'm really just pulling my weight behind me and trying to stay alive , life lost all it's colours and I'm on the verge of falling deep into the abyss
I really appreciate how you also touch on (for example in this video it's ECT) things that you don't necessarily like but are supported by research or you've heard from patients/therapists/... that it works for them. I've noticed you doing this in so many videos now! And I think it's really cool how you're just honestly telling us which options exist, without coloring the info. That way you can present the information in a neutral manner and are still able to also give us your opinion of it. The balance is just right! Keep up the good work, Kati!
I’d like the hear a more holistic view on this mental health channel. I feel like everyone is always looking at the effects and the symptoms of the mental/health problem but never looks at the cause or the environmental factors in our lives which I personally believe can verge on gaslighting
Exactly we are experiencing this feeling but to imply individuals are schizophrenic or depressive is a bit much
started to write a comment... skipped it because it seems not worth it... realized the irony and now there's a little headshaking smile on my face
Hope you find some peace my friend. There’s some things that are worth the effort, I hope. :)
im pretty positive i have this, though i just thought it was a hormone imbalance causing this. i want to do too much and then get burned out and dont want to or enjoy doing anything. it really isnt fun. thank you for sharing some hopeful and helpful tips. i will look into this.