For exclusive, extended content, dick pics, and shit I for sure can’t upload on regular TH-cam.. www.patreon.com/ryanleone Download my album, DRUG STORIES FOR TRUCKERS VOLUME ONE, for $10 www.payloadz.com/go/sip?id=3329359 Here’s the new merchandise- t-shirts, mugs, etc.... teespring.com/stores/shaky-jakes-fall-collection If you want to buy signed blotter art it’s $40 If you’d like to buy a signed copy of my book Wasting Talent it’s $20 You can Venmo my fiancé karina Franco @kfranco2018 H Or payapl me ryanleone313@gmail.com And here is my gofund me: www.gofundme.com/f/donations-for-ryan-leones-projects
SO TRUE LEONE!!! Let’s just hit the Dislike Button! Before you ever even Look At it! Try to just Not Take It to Heart ❤️ Abuse is Abuse, Just like The People who Talk Shit! When The Obvious Is Someone who is Helping Others Out with NARCAN!! As well as Sharing your Life With All of us! Let’s Give Ryan the Respect ✊🏾 Instead of Disrespect It Shows What type of Person That You ARE!!
This episode was an emotional one, for me. You have been through a lot of pain... and I feel that, heavy. The shit you've been through really inspires me to stay clean. The things addiction puts us through is grueling and it's amazing to see you came out of it on top. I'm glad you're still here with us, brother. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Palabra, homie.
Just got home from the meth clinic, took my Xanax for the morning and had a preroll left over from last night... and Leone has the early morning hookup too.. like when ur sick and ur dealer happens to be awake at some odd hour and time..
Matt Souza I have prescription. The clinic doesn’t care- what’s holding me back from bottles is the THC on the test. Otherwise I would have been had two weeks worth by now. I don’t use street drugs.
I’ve watched like 4-5 of your videos and your parents are Saints for never giving up on you considering everything I’ve heard you say you’ve put them through. I hope you know how lucky you are to have them
I love when you do your impression of her 🤣🤣 YOU’RE SUCH A DRUG ADDICT!!!!!!! This story was a really emotional one for me, I remember feeling the same way not seeing an end in sight and not knowing how to get out of the craziness. Happy you made it through that night. Palabra
Wow dude. You got 272 patreons in 2 weeks time. That is freaking insane! I have never seen someone gain that many patrons in such a short period of time in my life. That is amazing and awesome asf. You should be super greatful cuz that shit just doesn't happen too often.
Glad ur story didn't end that Christmas Eve night in the parking lot of Bank of America. This one hit me pretty hard. Your pain during that period is undeniable. Palabra!
I almost died Christmas 2016 with a drug withdrawal, i had Delrium tremens from alcohol withdrawal and seizures I still struggle but hearing others" struggles and addiction helps me, love your content
Just took my split dose of methadone for the day, time to put some headphones, fill my dabber, & take a walk around Reno listening to Ryan Leone's DEBAUCHERY for relaxation!!!😉👍💯 Edit: Wife is KILLING MY VIBE today!!!😤
Man, I'm kinda broke right now, so I paused one of my streaming services and subscribed to your patreon for $10/mo. The amount of entertainment you have provided me is crazy. You know, I used to hate my ex because she snitched on me, and screwed me over several times, but over the last 12 years or so, now I see her at the store and while I don't talk to her, I definitely don't hate her anymore. She is a troubled person, and I hope she is doing well. Anyway, the videos are awesome. So great! Keep up the good work! Palabra, fool!
Your rite .. she was likely treating you that way an doing all that shit cuz of her own internal problems and not any shit youve actually done ... it’s always onward and upward to better things tho man ...
Everyday I look forward to these videos bro....crazy stories .... I been alone a few holidays not because of drugs but of the bridges I burned and pride so I know the feeling you get
Just had to put my dog down earlier today so I needed this. I’m thankful you posted a video brother and I’ll get on the patreon and support you. Much love homie. Plabra
Dude the fact you made it this far means there is a higher purpose for you in this life. You have been through the fire and it's time to rise like the phoenix. Take care brotha
Damn bro,i have nevverrr got emotional watching ah utube video,and i rarely cry or feel emotions while using buut Damn you talkng about your Christmas,and it reminded me of ah Christmas i had similar afte i lossed my gf if 4yrs to a overdose 3days before Christmas last year!!. And didnt have ah relationship with my 2kids or there mom who i was with fir 12 yrs when we were together.. saddest most depressing time in my life and i did ah shot tha to thiss day i dk or understand how tf it didn't kill me instantly..but going thru that has made me who i am today and fir once in my life i do love myself and have learned how to love others in return!!. Thank you soo much RYAN for being able to tell such ah really intimate and emotional time in yur life.
Man that is the most heartbreaking story you've ever put on the channel. Glad that your attempt at leaving didn't work out. You seem like the majority of us who are good people but something evil has grabbed us wether its alcohol or some drug etc.. its good to see you clean keep on keepin on
Hey Bro, This one hit me right in the feels. It sounds eerily familiar to one Christmas in my past. Hopelessness is scary... Really glad to hear you’ve made it through...
These last couple videos have been awesome man! The longer the better and love how in depth you go now keep them coming can’t wait to subscribe for some constant content
I respect you man keep doing you and fighting for your family .. This is what your child is going to grow up and respect the most is the journey you took this is what your child is going to grow up and respect the most is the journey you took to make things right 💯
Yes ! i love coming home getting into bed with a fresh new story from ma boi Ryan Palabra Edit Wow man that WAS heavy , i've got a lump in my throat , powerful stuff but that's why a love it
Ryan, man your here for a real good reason, and your one hell of a solid man, husband, and father...on a bad day, look into the mirror and know your all good man...loves a inside job dude
@@Montweezy thanks man, I don't kiss ryans ass for the sake of some fan, I really am a man that's behind a underdog...hes going through it, but hes clean sober and scratching for success...its coming
Everyone should just try out Ryan’s Patreon for a month at least. we all can afford 10 cents a day on avg for way better content. At least try it out for a month. A gram is just like mud so thick and dark
You're completely right about people that put other people down in life or in comments on TH-cam are not happy in their own life and with themselves, if you don't like something or someone avoid them. Your attitude towards others is a reflection of yourself and wasting your time spreading negativity will not only hurt the recipient but yourself
Thanks man listening to you talk I can relate to.prison and addiction issues like I'm literally reading my own story bro PLEASE KEEP IT UP MAN , IM POSITIVE U MOTIVATE WAY MORE PEOPLE DEN JUSS ME ..U EVEN MOTIVATED ME TO START GETTIN OFF DA METHADONE ..I DID IT IN JAAIL AND IT WAS AS CLOSE TO HELL DAT U CAN POSSIBLE GET MAN BUT I KNOW GOD.GOT ME THEOUGH..but now it a huge motivator man please keep it up!!!!
Your killing me brother. That is why your doing the best job with your son and your new wife. Your going to do it right this time. Your going to make it this time. Keep grinding brother !!
New Subscriber here. I'm a recovering addict myself. I'm 28. Still go to methadone clinic. Been there almost 8 years. Watching your content has really helped me bro. I appreciate you sharing everything about your life. You are a solid dude bro. Keep grinding!
I clicked on this story because I lost a friend to suicide , you really gave me an insight into how low she must have felt in that moment. I hope your really happy in life now . Your a great story teller.
Totally understand the Xmas jack move. Such a typical dope fiend mentality. I used to drive a company work truck with the business logo hugely emblazoned on both sides and robbed my main connect. Unfortunately he lived in the projects with the best bags so I literally had him run up on me once with a gun and once trying to pull me out of the truck while waiting for someone else to go cop. I was just waiting to show up for work and have bullet holes in that thing. Straight up insanity.
@Harry Manback Ryan has entertained me for many hours and he may have some issues but he also has a gift. That gift is the ability to entertain and tell stories. Although I cannot relate to much of his life I do enjoy listening to it thankful for what I have. I pay $3 for a shitty cup of coffee, I can pay $3 for a few hours of entertainment. I look forward to my drive into NYC when I see Ryan has posted a new video. Everyone loves a great redemption story. Robert Downy Jr Is a classic example. I've had many junkie friends, most whom which are no longer with us but I'm hoping to one day see Ryan making it and knowing that my support helped make that possible.
I'm glad ur still around. 2016 failed attempt is really the turn around point of a new you. I'm positive theres way more mischief but that's something alot of ppl dont come back from. My mom tried to hang herself n it didn't go right she said the same words. I cant even kill myself right so I feel ya on that. Glad ur here.
Regarding people who can stop using drugs in an instant, I always question if they are true addicts, and some have even gotten offended that I questioned their “addict credibility”. For me, the compulsion to use was all consuming, and not using was not an option.
@Harry Manback ...And if you put as much effort into minding your business as you do into talking shit maybe you wouldn't be such a punk ass bitch... Na, you probably still would be.
You could also do live walk throughs of spot you use to shoot up on skid row where the tent was you slammed in show us the appartments your ex jumped head first lol or where you hit the doods car where she covered it with a sharpy haha just a walk through visual of where you did your dirt....GOOD LUCK BRO
Joe Pendleton honestly one of the worst, most painful, and scarily lonely moments of my life. I almost started crying talking about it. It took me back to that night and feeling so empty that I didn’t want to live. Fuck. Heavy stuff.
Damn man, you have me crying my eyes out remembering an experience I forced myself to forget when I purposely tried to OD to kill myself. I remember taking that huge shot wishing everything would just end. My tolerance was so high I ended up waking up on the floor the next morning with a splitting headache feeling horrible physically, mentally, and spiritually. My god I can't believe you brought that memory back. Drug addiction is probably one of the worst experiences a human being can go through. Holy shit I'm crying so hard. What fucks with me to this day is that I never told anyone and to this day no one has a clue I attempted it. It breaks my heart thinking about it man.
Wow ryan you weren't lying when you said these stories were some of the craziest. You had me completely engulfed in the story when you said you made the decision to jack the dboy and were making your way to him. Came up on a gram and wasted it immediately 😂 ah that's that shit we get ourselves into in the life man. I feel you. Bank of America's been intimately tied to my heroin benders as well. Love ya Ry. Keep it up!!
Another good,, real story bruh! I've contributed to go fund me, PayPal, & got tha album like the day it came out. Wish I could give more but kinda tight at tha moment & I will try to send more $cratch when possible cuz I do really enjoy tha stories & plan on signing up to the patreon thing!. Hope things start lookin up for ya man & all is well. I always forget to hit the like but will start doin it on everything ya post &I I'll go to all previous videos & hit it as well (don't know if it helps now but fuck it, cant hurt right)👍🤙🤘✌
Thank you bro i been following you since about 2k subscribers. Me and my wife Nicole Lott love your videos and have listened to everyone. We struggle with our own addiction and dont have much money. We live in a rv because we were planning to travel so she can see the country and find a state that we like the most to try to settle down but had a major heart attack last year at only 37. I died for 8 mins and luckily someone gave me cpr. But it put a big damper on our plans because ive worked construction my whole life and cant now. But anyways you just made hers and def my day cuz she sent you $5 yesterday we wish we could support more and will try more in the future. But you gave her the shout out. And anytime i can see her smile now days just makes my day too. Because thinks have been so shitty lately. Sorry to ramble but your stories love to listen to and please keep it going. So thank you so much man your my favorite channel and i know things are going to pick up for you soon and hopefully your worries will be a distant memory.
"50 grams is a little more than 2 ounces?" 🤦♂️ Ryan you sure you sold weight? I got one for ya.... How many 8 balls are in an ounce? Spur of moment in person people, not many walk there talk! Ryan you're an original character, kid! Boston salutes 🙏💥🙏💥💂♂️
@@ryanleone5805 8 balls. Hence why it's called that. 8 balls made per ounce! Just getting to the "he's trying to murder me" omfg kid. 🤣🤣🤣 psycho girls. Love hate relationships my whole life. The sex is usually bomb tho fool.. how you remember these stories is beyond me! I remember little incriments. Good job on this one Ryan
IMHO, I think you need to find balance and stay consistent. Ryan, I empathize with you a lot, and would love to talk more about all that is going on in life! I have been through a lot and am a single father with custody of my son! LMK if you would like to have a QnA????
Jesus Christ Leone... What a loss this world would've had if you succeeded. You're destined for great things and you're still just getting started... Palabra. ✌
Greenfield area or Springfield? I'm a local and curious. I don't see a lot of western mass on here, I'm assuming it's western mass because you mentioned NH too.
Man I know what it’s like to be desperate like that i did that one time to a dealer, He was used to me and leaned in my car while sitting on his bicycle and he rested his arms on my window and passed me a 40piece of hard and instead of passing money I floored it. I don’t realize until the next day that the chick chick chick sound i heard as he was falling off his bike was 4 more 40 bags he had in his other hand and they fell in the car. Lmao the one time too I didn’t let my old lady go car pick when we were ran out that night. Turns out the dealer seen me the next day and made me let him look in my car and he found the ones he dropped.Fuck the one time I didn’t let her pick the car after lol
Wait you floored it instead of paying him one day and the next day he’s cool and just wants to search your car for the lost bags lol? Wasn’t he pissed that you beat him for the original 40 bag that you sped off without payin for?? Last time I sped off after getting served in Newark NJ .. four blocks later I’m still speeding away and two guys on dirt bikes took one pot shot at me cuz it was a busy main road otherwise I’m sure they would have lit my whole car up hahah ... not good times, but memorable for sure ...
That really touched a nerve with me home boy, I know exactly how you felt and I just want to say that it really bothers me when I see all these fucking negative people on here that talk shit to you and about you on the different videos because you're right A lot of them are unhappy with themselves and the rest of them just don't care about other people and how words can hurt people. Yeah I know where ex drug addicts blah blah blah but we're still people and I want to say that I'm glad you're still here because ever since I started watching your videos from the very beginning it got me to clean up and get on Suboxone and so if nothing else just remember that you did affect at least one person and that is me. So thanks homeboy for the content and keep it up and fuck with all these other motherfukers say!
Literally me when I go to jail, takes nine cops to get me in handcuffs and I end up on suicide watch for 72 hours because I’m such a psychopath. I’d like to take this time to thank God for my sobriety haha How I lived like that is beyond me
I have never felt I could relate to anybody on this whole entire earth until I found your channel back when you first started. You give me hope. I have been hopeless for so long. It’s the worst feeling in the world. I hope we both can make it bro. Palabra.
I use to do exact same thing with stolen credit cards! Chill at a Gas station and offer to fill up peoples tanks for cash discount -it’s surprisingly difficult at times, depending your location.. in the hood it’s somewhat easier I would say but at other gas station locations there are a lot of “ good citizens” who figure this is a hustle and are 99% of time right :) And Using stolen credit card I would take my crew ( fellow addicts ) to a nice a Outback Steakhouse dinner!
BRO IVE HAD THAT FUCKING HEAD ANURISM SHIT HAPPEN TOO. I used to be addicted bad then I stopped for a long time, then I used again, and when I did, bro on like my 7th hit, my head fucking immediately went into a sharp ass pain in the back of my head and all the sudden I had to throw up and had diarrhea as if it was a concussion. basically was a minor anurism , had to go to the hospital and get it checked out with an MRI shit was fucked up bru. like fucked. Edit: I've smoked meth since then with no incident so, all's well that ends okay boys
Me n my ex used to take turns going to score sometimes,while one watched the kid n we would always fight about how long it took the other person to come back lol
That night... when I really attempted suicide.. it wasn’t for attention. It was utter hopelessness.. it surprised me that it was hard to talk about. I’m glad it meant something to you and others as well. It helps me.
This doomed marriage series brings up such shitty memories for me and it's so depressing for me... I can't wait till you are done talking about that bitch 🤦. Palabra brother.
And you know I ain't JUDGING bruhdhah bruhdhah..n I told I literally got 17 bros not acquaintances passed away ..since my mom just passed I think about all this like you this is wild magnolia not trying to weird but it would be odd if you had passed I ain't watch ya..you help my g..cuz I dont watch TV other than when I go sit my daddy n keep him company..god bless my dude..keep it up..because if you could look outside yourself..coming as far as you have is amazing
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Hey! Have you spoke to CeCe about the painting? @Ryan Leone?
@Slab City News email me at samannett@live.com and I'll send it to him!!! 🖤
@Slab City News No worries 💯
@Slab City News Just so we're on the same page, I meant, send me the email you wanted forwarded to him. But again, if you got this, even better!
SO TRUE LEONE!!! Let’s just hit the Dislike Button! Before you ever even Look At it! Try to just Not Take It to Heart ❤️ Abuse is Abuse, Just like The People who Talk Shit! When The Obvious Is Someone who is Helping Others Out with NARCAN!! As well as Sharing your Life With All of us! Let’s Give Ryan the Respect ✊🏾 Instead of Disrespect It Shows What type of Person That You ARE!!
Rest in peace Ryan 💔 I absolutely loved listening to your stories and I'm praying hard for your beautiful family.
He is gone?
I can’t believe both of you considered a 6 year old eating something in the house stealing. That poor child.
This episode was an emotional one, for me. You have been through a lot of pain... and I feel that, heavy. The shit you've been through really inspires me to stay clean. The things addiction puts us through is grueling and it's amazing to see you came out of it on top. I'm glad you're still here with us, brother. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
Palabra, homie.
Just got home from the meth clinic, took my Xanax for the morning and had a preroll left over from last night... and Leone has the early morning hookup too.. like when ur sick and ur dealer happens to be awake at some odd hour and time..
Matt Souza I have prescription. The clinic doesn’t care- what’s holding me back from bottles is the THC on the test. Otherwise I would have been had two weeks worth by now. I don’t use street drugs.
Matt Souza New Jersey has really stupid marijuana laws
Damn in va they don’t care bout herb I got a week a smoke like crazy
@GlockWiseSB smh
I’ve watched like 4-5 of your videos and your parents are Saints for never giving up on you considering everything I’ve heard you say you’ve put them through. I hope you know how lucky you are to have them
I love when you do your impression of her 🤣🤣 YOU’RE SUCH A DRUG ADDICT!!!!!!!
This story was a really emotional one for me, I remember feeling the same way not seeing an end in sight and not knowing how to get out of the craziness. Happy you made it through that night. Palabra
Ikr lol
You do? Kinda cringe, no?
She has an interview style video up over on Soft White Underbelly
Wow dude. You got 272 patreons in 2 weeks time. That is freaking insane! I have never seen someone gain that many patrons in such a short period of time in my life. That is amazing and awesome asf. You should be super greatful cuz that shit just doesn't happen too often.
Glad ur story didn't end that Christmas Eve night in the parking lot of Bank of America. This one hit me pretty hard. Your pain during that period is undeniable. Palabra!
I almost died Christmas 2016 with a drug withdrawal, i had Delrium tremens from alcohol withdrawal and seizures
I still struggle but hearing others" struggles and addiction helps me, love your content
Just took my split dose of methadone for the day, time to put some headphones, fill my dabber, & take a walk around Reno listening to Ryan Leone's DEBAUCHERY for relaxation!!!😉👍💯
Edit: Wife is KILLING MY VIBE today!!!😤
Man, I'm kinda broke right now, so I paused one of my streaming services and subscribed to your patreon for $10/mo. The amount of entertainment you have provided me is crazy.
You know, I used to hate my ex because she snitched on me, and screwed me over several times, but over the last 12 years or so, now I see her at the store and while I don't talk to her, I definitely don't hate her anymore. She is a troubled person, and I hope she is doing well.
Anyway, the videos are awesome.
So great! Keep up the good work! Palabra, fool!
Your rite .. she was likely treating you that way an doing all that shit cuz of her own internal problems and not any shit youve actually done ... it’s always onward and upward to better things tho man ...
Everyday I look forward to these videos bro....crazy stories .... I been alone a few holidays not because of drugs but of the bridges I burned and pride so I know the feeling you get
When i feel low, ryan always comes thru. Pallabra
Just had to put my dog down earlier today so I needed this. I’m thankful you posted a video brother and I’ll get on the patreon and support you. Much love homie. Plabra
zack sims so sorry to hear, Zach. I’ve been there and it’s very hard. Love and light bro.
Ryan Leone appreciate you bro!! See ya on patreon!!! ❤️
@zack sims I’m very sorry that you’re going through this. It’s a difficult thing to do. Just remember you gave your dog a Beautiful Life!💯♥️
I have never supported a TH-camr but I’m about to start with you, love these stories and the way you tell them.
Dude the fact you made it this far means there is a higher purpose for you in this life. You have been through the fire and it's time to rise like the phoenix. Take care brotha
NarDawg I hope that’s it. Was thinking abkut that today. Been thinking about a lot of stuff like that lately...
Damn bro,i have nevverrr got emotional watching ah utube video,and i rarely cry or feel emotions while using buut Damn you talkng about your Christmas,and it reminded me of ah Christmas i had similar afte i lossed my gf if 4yrs to a overdose 3days before Christmas last year!!. And didnt have ah relationship with my 2kids or there mom who i was with fir 12 yrs when we were together.. saddest most depressing time in my life and i did ah shot tha to thiss day i dk or understand how tf it didn't kill me instantly..but going thru that has made me who i am today and fir once in my life i do love myself and have learned how to love others in return!!. Thank you soo much RYAN for being able to tell such ah really intimate and emotional time in yur life.
J. jones honestly I didn’t realize how visceral that was until I talked about it.
Man the pain in your eyes were real in this one. It's sad to see what drugs can do to ppl. You had an angel with you that night. Glad you survived.
Man that is the most heartbreaking story you've ever put on the channel. Glad that your attempt at leaving didn't work out. You seem like the majority of us who are good people but something evil has grabbed us wether its alcohol or some drug etc.. its good to see you clean keep on keepin on
Hey Bro,
This one hit me right in the feels. It sounds eerily familiar to one Christmas in my past. Hopelessness is scary... Really glad to hear you’ve made it through...
You're the best man... Us addicts have lived 100 lifetimes in just 30-40 years
Well said.
Just went to Patreon for the first time and signed up. I’m in a pretty big rut in life myself right now. I’m really rooting for you bro
Literally JUST discovered you today and had to find out TODAY that you passed last year. 😞
Damn! RIP Ryan.
Heartbreaking stuff here. Thank god for better days brother! Proud of you
These last couple videos have been awesome man! The longer the better and love how in depth you go now keep them coming can’t wait to subscribe for some constant content
I respect you man keep doing you and fighting for your family .. This is what your child is going to grow up and respect the most is the journey you took this is what your child is going to grow up and respect the most is the journey you took to make things right 💯
Yes ! i love coming home getting into bed with a fresh new story from ma boi Ryan
Palabra
Edit Wow man that WAS heavy , i've got a lump in my throat , powerful stuff but that's why a love it
Ryan, man your here for a real good reason, and your one hell of a solid man, husband, and father...on a bad day, look into the mirror and know your all good man...loves a inside job dude
Best comment of the day!!!!!
@@Montweezy thanks man, I don't kiss ryans ass for the sake of some fan, I really am a man that's behind a underdog...hes going through it, but hes clean sober and scratching for success...its coming
Everyone should just try out Ryan’s Patreon for a month at least. we all can afford 10 cents a day on avg for way better content. At least try it out for a month. A gram is just like mud so thick and dark
John Degregs ya Man U should pay for everyone’s subscription too
Kaydub 17 if you don't want it don't get it.
ArizonaAkinTv I never said I wasn’t going to subscribe jackass
I joined years ago
You're completely right about people that put other people down in life or in comments on TH-cam are not happy in their own life and with themselves, if you don't like something or someone avoid them. Your attitude towards others is a reflection of yourself and wasting your time spreading negativity will not only hurt the recipient but yourself
Hahahah when you said "cuckholding... if you're into that, I mean, LOOK" I felt that 😂😂😂
The endless rat race. I do not miss the drama. So true. Everybody's nightmare is the same but different.
Your doing great, your motivated and will come out on top. I wish i could support you more.
Keep fighting soldier, you got this !! There’s a reason your still here, great things to come 💯
Plabnezz1982 🙏🏻🙏🏻
As entertaining as your stories are, you lived through some shit. I'm glad you're living better now. Good to see you. God Bless.
Did you ever live in Tucson and work at Applebees? Random I know but I was scrolling through comments and you looked familiar.
@@johnnyutah1720 haha nope! I'm a lifelong Texan
@@samanthatheowlbear2003 lol no worries thanks
Should have stayed on Methadone and that's TRUTH. RIP regardless
My 3rd time trying to sit thru and watch this story time. It's been such a busy day but I gotta hear it.
I think this is one of his best ones
Thanks man listening to you talk I can relate to.prison and addiction issues like I'm literally reading my own story bro PLEASE KEEP IT UP MAN , IM POSITIVE U MOTIVATE WAY MORE PEOPLE DEN JUSS ME ..U EVEN MOTIVATED ME TO START GETTIN OFF DA METHADONE ..I DID IT IN JAAIL AND IT WAS AS CLOSE TO HELL DAT U CAN POSSIBLE GET MAN BUT I KNOW GOD.GOT ME THEOUGH..but now it a huge motivator man please keep it up!!!!
So happy u r still here! U have helped more than u know
Dang…reading this in September 2022 hurts
Your killing me brother. That is why your doing the best job with your son and your new wife. Your going to do it right this time. Your going to make it this time. Keep grinding brother !!
Gary Lukas thank you.
I'm sorry you had to go through this Ryan...I feel you brother.
I’m def gonna sign up for your patreon, hope it helps you along in this journey. Keep your head up, your content is awesome. 👍🏻
New Subscriber here. I'm a recovering addict myself. I'm 28. Still go to methadone clinic. Been there almost 8 years. Watching your content has really helped me bro. I appreciate you sharing everything about your life. You are a solid dude bro. Keep grinding!
Thanks bruh. Welcome.
Congratulations on your Patreon! I wish you success over there.
I clicked on this story because I lost a friend to suicide , you really gave me an insight into how low she must have felt in that moment. I hope your really happy in life now . Your a great story teller.
Totally understand the Xmas jack move. Such a typical dope fiend mentality. I used to drive a company work truck with the business logo hugely emblazoned on both sides and robbed my main connect. Unfortunately he lived in the projects with the best bags so I literally had him run up on me once with a gun and once trying to pull me out of the truck while waiting for someone else to go cop. I was just waiting to show up for work and have bullet holes in that thing. Straight up insanity.
Dude you literally make me belly laugh sometimes with the way you word things..
Silicone Robot
Me too dude, my BF is like what are you watching? Lol
I'll be signing up to your patreon foo and supporting you on there Holmes. Oh ps I got the bootleg too, well worth the $
@Harry Manback Ryan has entertained me for many hours and he may have some issues but he also has a gift. That gift is the ability to entertain and tell stories. Although I cannot relate to much of his life I do enjoy listening to it thankful for what I have. I pay $3 for a shitty cup of coffee, I can pay $3 for a few hours of entertainment. I look forward to my drive into NYC when I see Ryan has posted a new video. Everyone loves a great redemption story. Robert Downy Jr Is a classic example. I've had many junkie friends, most whom which are no longer with us but I'm hoping to one day see Ryan making it and knowing that my support helped make that possible.
I'm glad ur still around. 2016 failed attempt is really the turn around point of a new you. I'm positive theres way more mischief but that's something alot of ppl dont come back from. My mom tried to hang herself n it didn't go right she said the same words. I cant even kill myself right so I feel ya on that. Glad ur here.
Regarding people who can stop using drugs in an instant, I always question if they are true addicts, and some have even gotten offended that I questioned their “addict credibility”. For me, the compulsion to use was all consuming, and not using was not an option.
Hate hearing that you got that low in your life. I feel for you brother and I'm proud of you for working towards sobriety. Stay safe bro.
Falling in love with a girl that is addicted to the same drugs as you is probably the worst thing you could ever do!!!!!
I’m on my way to detox thanks for the upload before I go brother
Good for you man... You got this
@Harry Manback ...And if you put as much effort into minding your business as you do into talking shit maybe you wouldn't be such a punk ass bitch... Na, you probably still would be.
You could also do live walk throughs of spot you use to shoot up on skid row where the tent was you slammed in show us the appartments your ex jumped head first lol or where you hit the doods car where she covered it with a sharpy haha just a walk through visual of where you did your dirt....GOOD LUCK BRO
Damn this one hits me close. This last holiday season was very similar to me. Thank you for these video's, this helps me out alot.
Joe Pendleton honestly one of the worst, most painful, and scarily lonely moments of my life. I almost started crying talking about it. It took me back to that night and feeling so empty that I didn’t want to live. Fuck. Heavy stuff.
Jus found our I got MS so it might be tough but thanks str8nup for the motivation bro!!!
Joe Jones I’m sorry to hear this. I hope things get better and you can find a way to love with it as comfortably as possible. Much love.
Gettin close to 10k bro. Leone on the rise.
RcTrue were close!!
Damn man, you have me crying my eyes out remembering an experience I forced myself to forget when I purposely tried to OD to kill myself. I remember taking that huge shot wishing everything would just end. My tolerance was so high I ended up waking up on the floor the next morning with a splitting headache feeling horrible physically, mentally, and spiritually. My god I can't believe you brought that memory back. Drug addiction is probably one of the worst experiences a human being can go through. Holy shit I'm crying so hard. What fucks with me to this day is that I never told anyone and to this day no one has a clue I attempted it. It breaks my heart thinking about it man.
Ryan I feel so bad for the shit you been through bro
The shit we go through as addicts are just crazy. Papabra homie
Wow ryan you weren't lying when you said these stories were some of the craziest. You had me completely engulfed in the story when you said you made the decision to jack the dboy and were making your way to him. Came up on a gram and wasted it immediately 😂 ah that's that shit we get ourselves into in the life man. I feel you. Bank of America's been intimately tied to my heroin benders as well. Love ya Ry. Keep it up!!
Another good,, real story bruh! I've contributed to go fund me, PayPal, & got tha album like the day it came out. Wish I could give more but kinda tight at tha moment & I will try to send more $cratch when possible cuz I do really enjoy tha stories & plan on signing up to the patreon thing!. Hope things start lookin up for ya man & all is well. I always forget to hit the like but will start doin it on everything ya post &I I'll go to all previous videos & hit it as well (don't know if it helps now but fuck it, cant hurt right)👍🤙🤘✌
Thank you bro i been following you since about 2k subscribers. Me and my wife Nicole Lott love your videos and have listened to everyone. We struggle with our own addiction and dont have much money. We live in a rv because we were planning to travel so she can see the country and find a state that we like the most to try to settle down but had a major heart attack last year at only 37. I died for 8 mins and luckily someone gave me cpr. But it put a big damper on our plans because ive worked construction my whole life and cant now. But anyways you just made hers and def my day cuz she sent you $5 yesterday we wish we could support more and will try more in the future. But you gave her the shout out. And anytime i can see her smile now days just makes my day too. Because thinks have been so shitty lately. Sorry to ramble but your stories love to listen to and please keep it going. So thank you so much man your my favorite channel and i know things are going to pick up for you soon and hopefully your worries will be a distant memory.
I just remembered nikko and i have the same name and Birthday.crazy i saw the tattoo on Ryans neck and that came to mind.rip bro
"50 grams is a little more than 2 ounces?" 🤦♂️ Ryan you sure you sold weight? I got one for ya.... How many 8 balls are in an ounce? Spur of moment in person people, not many walk there talk! Ryan you're an original character, kid! Boston salutes 🙏💥🙏💥💂♂️
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@@ryanleone5805 8 balls. Hence why it's called that. 8 balls made per ounce! Just getting to the "he's trying to murder me" omfg kid. 🤣🤣🤣 psycho girls. Love hate relationships my whole life. The sex is usually bomb tho fool.. how you remember these stories is beyond me! I remember little incriments. Good job on this one Ryan
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How is a kid eating the cheesecake in his own fridge stealing?
It's not, lol
@@teabag402 I know but his ex wife was serious when she said it
Fuck his ex wife. I don't even know her and I hate her.
@@realtalk5329 oh I have no doubt she was....and that's the issue.
I said same shit.like the kid didn't have it bad enough
Thanks man. Appreciate your time.
early morning trappin 🔫 thanks man. love from alabama
IMHO, I think you need to find balance and stay consistent. Ryan, I empathize with you a lot, and would love to talk more about all that is going on in life! I have been through a lot and am a single father with custody of my son! LMK if you would like to have a QnA????
Jesus Christ Leone... What a loss this world would've had if you succeeded. You're destined for great things and you're still just getting started... Palabra. ✌
Man I'm pretty lucky living in NH . Charges down in mass didn't show up.yup I've seen the insanity busted another trip within hours
Greenfield area or Springfield? I'm a local and curious. I don't see a lot of western mass on here, I'm assuming it's western mass because you mentioned NH too.
❤R.I.P Ryan I absolutely love your videos
Man I know what it’s like to be desperate like that i did that one time to a dealer, He was used to me and leaned in my car while sitting on his bicycle and he rested his arms on my window and passed me a 40piece of hard and instead of passing money I floored it. I don’t realize until the next day that the chick chick chick sound i heard as he was falling off his bike was 4 more 40 bags he had in his other hand and they fell in the car. Lmao the one time too I didn’t let my old lady go car pick when we were ran out that night. Turns out the dealer seen me the next day and made me let him look in my car and he found the ones he dropped.Fuck the one time I didn’t let her pick the car after lol
Wait you floored it instead of paying him one day and the next day he’s cool and just wants to search your car for the lost bags lol? Wasn’t he pissed that you beat him for the original 40 bag that you sped off without payin for??
Last time I sped off after getting served in Newark NJ .. four blocks later I’m still speeding away and two guys on dirt bikes took one pot shot at me cuz it was a busy main road otherwise I’m sure they would have lit my whole car up hahah ... not good times, but memorable for sure ...
Thanks for the morning story big homie. Keep up the good work man. Will support know matter what G ✊ PALABRA. Liked every video
Glad you survived and have a good relationship with your parents ,wife and son. I'm glad you don't have to feel alone anymore. Palabra 🌤💜☀️
Excellent video. Your content is the realist shit on TH-cam. 👊🏻👍🏻
That really touched a nerve with me home boy, I know exactly how you felt and I just want to say that it really bothers me when I see all these fucking negative people on here that talk shit to you and about you on the different videos because you're right A lot of them are unhappy with themselves and the rest of them just don't care about other people and how words can hurt people. Yeah I know where ex drug addicts blah blah blah but we're still people and I want to say that I'm glad you're still here because ever since I started watching your videos from the very beginning it got me to clean up and get on Suboxone and so if nothing else just remember that you did affect at least one person and that is me. So thanks homeboy for the content and keep it up and fuck with all these other motherfukers say!
Like number 666! Fuck yeah! 🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼. Awesome content as always Little Buddy! #PALABRAGANG #PALABRA
Literally me when I go to jail, takes nine cops to get me in handcuffs and I end up on suicide watch for 72 hours because I’m such a psychopath. I’d like to take this time to thank God for my sobriety haha How I lived like that is beyond me
That kid should write a book. God I hope he stays off the shit.
Thanks Ryan
I have never felt I could relate to anybody on this whole entire earth until I found your channel back when you first started. You give me hope. I have been hopeless for so long. It’s the worst feeling in the world. I hope we both can make it bro. Palabra.
Hang in there dude. It gets better. I promise.
Ryan Leone thanks brother
Now this was a good one...nice
How do we find par..... already forgot the name ? Anyway I want to join
I use to do exact same thing with stolen credit cards! Chill at a Gas station and offer to fill up peoples tanks for cash discount -it’s surprisingly difficult at times, depending your location.. in the hood it’s somewhat easier I would say but at other gas station locations there are a lot of “ good citizens” who figure this is a hustle and are 99% of time right :) And Using stolen credit card I would take my crew ( fellow addicts ) to a nice a Outback Steakhouse dinner!
Fatt Daddy atta boy
BRO IVE HAD THAT FUCKING HEAD ANURISM SHIT HAPPEN TOO. I used to be addicted bad then I stopped for a long time, then I used again, and when I did, bro on like my 7th hit, my head fucking immediately went into a sharp ass pain in the back of my head and all the sudden I had to throw up and had diarrhea as if it was a concussion. basically was a minor anurism , had to go to the hospital and get it checked out with an MRI shit was fucked up bru. like fucked.
Edit: I've smoked meth since then with no incident so, all's well that ends okay boys
Ur impression of ur ex wife’s voice gets me every time
One of your best stories man. Very emotional!
Surprised u didn't smack her to shut her up when she was yelling all those times 😂 your stories are so funny hahahaha
Hunter Thompson called crystal meth "King Hell Crank"
I never spanked any of my kids , My Preacher father gave us the belt daily
Lmao Bomb personality small peep junkie gang!!! Les GOOOO!!!
Me n my ex used to take turns going to score sometimes,while one watched the kid n we would always fight about how long it took the other person to come back lol
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Deepest 1 yet that. I was choked up listening
That night... when I really attempted suicide.. it wasn’t for attention. It was utter hopelessness.. it surprised me that it was hard to talk about. I’m glad it meant something to you and others as well. It helps me.
This doomed marriage series brings up such shitty memories for me and it's so depressing for me... I can't wait till you are done talking about that bitch 🤦. Palabra brother.
I thought Ryan had a diamond earring for a second because the sun shinning thru his car.
And you know I ain't JUDGING bruhdhah bruhdhah..n I told I literally got 17 bros not acquaintances passed away ..since my mom just passed I think about all this like you this is wild magnolia not trying to weird but it would be odd if you had passed I ain't watch ya..you help my g..cuz I dont watch TV other than when I go sit my daddy n keep him company..god bless my dude..keep it up..because if you could look outside yourself..coming as far as you have is amazing
Trying to scare a kid because he ate y'alls food? Poor kid probably starving
Yes - that was horrible of us. That’s what I said.
Past is the past
POWERFUL!!! Thank you for sharing!!!
What happen to the dollar to join patreon
You really can't afford 3 ? 🤦♂️🤦♂️
@@gagehodges6144 yea but all I Heard was it's only a dollar.
James Wilbourn Patreon told me not to go below three bucks idk why. It’s not that much different.
@@ryanleone5805 to A homeless heroin addict it is .