@@lazlodallama8994 Your concern is an honor. The album is a Masterpiece, and I wish I could experience it again for the first time. I have so much love for this album, it's hard to really put into words. More than anything, I cherish this album and the artist for giving eyesight to the blind.
@@aceofjades4815 A paste from a comment on an upload that showcases just my breaking down: "I don't know if I ever explained what I was going through at that time, so I kind of want to make mention of that now. All the sounds, the memories of cheerful music, the rhythmic sensation of a bouncing knee to the tune of swaying memory, all to be led down the hallway and loaded onto a boat, only to inevitably witness a black sea within an ever-expanding and emptied place... all I could do is look down on the black sea, wondering to myself "Where has my mind left me alone?" The drone made the abyss feel like a permanent place of residence, my newfound kingdom. There was nothing left but contemplation of my surroundings, nothing left but thoughts... and then, there were no thoughts. When I tried to think about having no thoughts, I couldn't because there were no thoughts to think on. It was the most savage ravaging, and at the same time, it was non-violent and muted. There were no colors but the different shades of darkness, and there were no thoughts but the echoes of thoughtlessness. Powerlessness was forced on me, and crying would not help. I have never felt so broken before, and I've been homeless with a gambling problem. I have never experienced such a bleak serenity before. This. Broke. Me. EDIT: It should be noted that this was terrifying to me, not just because of all that I've mentioned, but also because I have bad memory problems, and this was a haunting epiphany that I am grateful for." Hope this helps, and thank you for spending time with me here.
3:41:46 and 3:46:10 are also good reactions that really push the point home. Those last 7 minutes really do make for an excellent finish. God damn, what a fucking MASTERPIECE.
i like how every video of someone reacting to "the caretaker" there is someone in the comments saying when THAT part begins... and how we all call it just "THAT part" or "THE part"
For anyone wondering the art cover for stage 6 is the back of a canvas, it’s meaning is that the distant memories you had are there, you can see it, lingering at the back of your mind, but is forever unreachable,
we see hinges like those of a door's, but no doorknob, so if that is what it is, its also the same thing: you can see it, at the back of your mind, but you cant open the door to your memories, since there's not a doorknob.
The Stage 6 cover isn't a blank canvas, or the back of a canvas. There's no canvas here at all. You're looking at an artist's masonite board. You'd tape your paper, panel, or loose canvas, whatever surface you're working on, to it, and that way you'd have it on a clean, hard surface that you can put on an easel. Only, there's nothing here. The drawing hasn't just been erased, it's gone. The album cover is showing you a very literal nothingness, but in a way where you don't even realize what's missing. A confusion so thick, you forget forgetting.
The thing the really scared tf outta me when I listened to this album, was all the comments. The original video has some of the saddest comments I've seen. It makes you realize that this can literally happen to anyone. In my mind, it feels worse than cancer. It looks like a living hell to be through and I cannot, and hopefully will never, imagine how tough this is. To all those who have dementia, I'm truly sorry.
2:04:15 This track has always been the saddest and scariest moment of all the albums for me. Its just so peaceful, but its the very last peaceful moment you have from this point. Almost like you are remembering the happiest moment of your life for the very last time.
@@CyphersBasement most people say that Stage 4 scares them the most, but the one that shocked me to my fucking core was Stage 3. That was the one that made me feel paranoid, like stupidly so. To the point where I couldn't sleep in my room for weeks afterward, the distorted music, and sounds got stuck in my head, they kept creeping back every few minutes, the sound of static kept coming back, buzzing in my ear making the hair on the back of my neck stand up. Then I thought I was hearing things, and I even got scared of the dark, which I haven't been since I was like 8. Took me about 2 months to recover. Finally found my limit with this piece, & I've seen the most disturbing videos the internet has to offer. I could tell you things I've seen people do to each other, and you would call me a sick fuck for making it up, but it's real, and I didn't bat an eye. But THIS? This is what finally got to me. Maybe I was just bottling all of that shit up and this was what finally made me crack. I'm fine now, back to normal, and I can listen to it sperratically, exposure seems to be key, but that was a really tough couple of months. Hope you were okay.
@@John-X I'm fine, honestly, I think, except I've never been fine, I... think. I'm not in much of any shape to say that someone is full of shit if I haven't been witness to the things they say, though while I see that you, as an individual, could conceivably see the things you state as having happened, I could raise you an eyebrow at the most. At least you're "back to normal", if that means much to you. Can't say I'm much the same. Normalcy is a stranger to me, because that's how she prefers it.
STAGE 1 : 5:34 Here we experience the first signs of memory loss. This stage is most like a beautiful daydream. The glory of old age and recollection. The last of the great days. 5:34: A1 - It's just a burning memory 9:03: A2 - We don't have many days 12:36 A3 - Late afternoon drifting 16:13 A4 - Childishly fresh eyes 19:10 A5 - Slightly bewildered 21:11 A6 - Things that are beautiful and transient 25:46 B1 - All that follows is true 29:17 B2 - An autumnal equinox 32:05 B3 - Quiet internal rebellions 35:36 B4 - The loves of my entire life 39:39 B5 - Into each others eyes 44:16 B6 - My heart will stop in joy STAGE 2 : 46:57 The second stage is the self realisation and awareness that something is wrong with a refusal to accept that. More effort is made to remember so memories can be more long form with a little more deterioration in quality. The overall personal mood is generally lower than the first stage and at a point before confusion starts setting in. 46:57 C1 - A losing battle is raging 51:35 C2 - Misplaced in time 56:19 C3 - What does it matter how my heart breaks 58:57 C4 - Glimpses of hope in trying times 1:03:40 C5 - Surrendering to despair 1:08:43 D1 - I still feel as though I am me 1:12:51 D2 - Quiet dusk coming early 1:16:27 D3 - Last moments of pure recall 1:20:20 D4 - Denial unravelling 1:24:36 D5 - The way ahead feels lonely STAGE 3 : 1:28:50 Here we are presented with some of the last coherent memories before confusion fully rolls in and the grey mists form and fade away. Finest moments have been remembered, the musical flow in places is more confused and tangled. As we progress some singular memories become more disturbed, isolated, broken and distant. These are the last embers of awareness before we enter the post awareness stages. 1:28:50 E1 - Back there Benjamin 1:33:05 E2 - And heart breaks 1:37:12 E3 - Hidden sea buried deep 1:38:32 E4 - Libet's all joyful camaraderie 1:41:44 E5 - To the minimal great hidden 1:43:25 E6 - Sublime beyond loss 1:45:35 E7 - Bewildered in other eyes 1:47:26 E8 - Long term dusk glimpses 1:51:00 F1 - Gradations of arms length 1:52:33 F2 - Drifting time misplaced 1:56:49 F3 - Internal bewildered World 2:00:18 F4 - Burning despair does ache 2:02:55 F5 - Aching cavern without lucidity 2:04:15 F6 - An empty bliss beyond this World 2:07:51 F7 - Libet delay 2:11:58 F8 - Mournful cameraderie STAGE 4 : 2:14:28 Post-Awareness Stage 4 is where serenity and the ability to recall singular memories gives way to confusions and horror. It's the beginning of an eventual process where all memories begin to become more fluid through entanglements, repetition and rupture. 2:14:28 G1 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions 2:36:37 H1 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions 2:58:28 I1 - Stage 4 Temporary Bliss State 3:19:29 J1 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions STAGE 5 : 3:41:45 Post-Awareness Stage 5 confusions and horror. More extreme entanglements, repetition and rupture can give way to calmer moments. The unfamiliar may sound and feel familiar. Time is often spent only in the moment leading to isolation. 3:41:45 K1 - Stage 5 Advanced plaque entanglements 4:04:20 L1 - Stage 5 Advanced plaque entanglements 4:27:10 M1 - Stage 5 Synapse retrogenesis 4:47:58 N1 - Stage 5 Sudden time regression into isolation STAGE 6 : 5:10:07 Post-Awareness Stage 6 is without description. 5:10:07 O1 - Stage 6 A confusion so thick you forget forgetting 5:31:59 P1 - Stage 6 A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat 5:53:35 Q1 - Stage 6 Long decline is over 6:14:46 R1 - Stage 6 Place in the World fades away
@@krispo7256 It doesn't seem too difficult to me. You just have to put the timestamps from the original on a spreadsheet or something, find the time that A1 starts at, and add that time to each timestamp.
No problem bro, its nice watching people go through this experience, it almost makes me feel like I'm listening to it for the first time again. This project gave me a better appreciation for life, it needs to be an album everyone listens to before they die.. 5:32:00 is another one of my favorite moments btw :] you were like "woah okay okay" haha
2:51:00 is where I got scared. 2:52:17 is where I didn't realize I could be even more terrified than I already was, and the crackling waves in between the reverberated silence after the hell horns made sure that I was never the same person again.
I see the hell sirens as the person momentarily becoming lucid enough to be aware of what has happened to their mind and screaming out in terror and despair at what they have become.
Honestly, it's lost most of its scare factor for me, somehow, but the first time I ever saw and pressed on a timestamp for it that was a top comment on the original Stage 4 video, it screwed me up a bit, and the next few times I got serious, unreal chills from it, not necessarily happy or relaxed ones, at that. Captivating and entertaining, in a way, yes, but very bone chilling, to be sure.
Here are some timestamps: Stage 1 5:33 - A1 it's Just a burning memory 9:03 - A2 We don't have many days 12:36 - A3 Late afternoon drifting 16:11 - A4 Childishly fresh eyes 19:09 - A5 Slightly bewildered 21:10 - A6 Things that are beautiful and transient 25:45 - B1 All that follows is true 29:17 - B2 An autumnal equinox 32:05 - B3 Quiet internal rebellions 35:35 - B4 The loves of my entire life 39:40 - B5 Into each others eyes 44:15 - B6 My heart will stop in joy Stage 2 46:54 - C1 A losing battle is raging 51:35 - C2 Misplaced in time 56:17 - C3 What does it matter how my heart breaks 58:55 - C4 Glimpses of hope in trying times 1:03:38 - C5 Surrendering to despair 1:08:42 - D1 I still feel as though i am me 1:12:50 - D2 Quiet dusk coming early 1:16:27 - D3 Last moments of pure recall 1:20:20 - D4 Denial unraveling 1:24:36 - D5 The way ahead feels lonely Stage 3 1:28:50 - E1 Back there Benjamin 1:33:06 - E2 And heart breaks 1:37:11 - E3 Hidden sea buried deep 1:38:32 - E4 Libet's all joyfull camaraderie 1:41:44 - E5 To the minimal great hidden 1:43:25 - E6 Sublime beyond loss 1:45:36 - E7 bewildered in other eyes 1:47:28 - E8 Long term dusk glimpses 1:51:01 - F1 Gradations of arms length 1:52:33 - F2 Drifting time misplaced 1:56:24 - F2 Static segment 1:56:49 - F3 Internal bewildered world 2:00:18 - F4 Burning despair does ache 2:02:55 - F5 Aching cavern without lucidity 2:04:15 - F6 An empty bliss beyond this world 2:07:51 - F7 Libet delay 2:11:48 - F8 Mournful camaraderie Stage 4 2:14:26 - G1 Post Awareness Confusions 2:30:10 - Static segment begins creeping in 2:31:18 - static segment takes over 2:34:10 - Final G1 segment 2:36:35 - H1 Post Awareness Confusions 2:50:59 - Hell sirens 2:58:27 - I1 Temporary Bliss State 3:19:30 - J1 Post Awareness Confusions 3:34:46 - J1 Chimes Stage 5 3:41:45 - K1 Advanced plaque entanglements 3:45:41 - First Clarity 3:47:34 - Second clarity 3:49:12 - Segment after initial chaos 3:58:34 - New lonely segment 4:00:55 - Mandolin solo 4:04:21 - L1 Advanced plaque entanglements 4:08:36 - Distorted song begins 4:10:41 - advanced plaque despair can be heard 4:27:10 - M1 Synapse retrogenesis 4:31:07 - Strange sound 4:32:00 - Headaches plays 4:35:09 - new segment begins 4:39:36 - Heartaches plays again 4:47:57 - N1 Sudden time regression into isolation 4:48:32 - Spooky part 5:01:35 - Final Stage 5 clarity 5:02:05 - All music dies Stage 6 5:10:07 - O1 A confusion so thick you forget forgetting 5:31:59 - P1 A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat 5:53:36 - Q1 Long decline is over 5:56:24 - Beautiful moment 6:14:47 - R1 Place in the World fades away 6:29:49 - Final Segment 6:35:05 - Death 6:36:06 - End of Album Great video by the way. Congrats on listening to the whole album :)
3:45:32 you can see how used he is to the noise and for a couple of seconds or maybe even one minute theres just actual recognizable music and he looks sad then at 3:46:09 the recognizable music cuts off and its back to the usual but now its a reminder of what he has been listening to for a good while and you can clearly see the shock in his face
For me it’s stage 1 that breaks me, it reminds me exactly of my grandma when we first started to notice something was wrong, but also the beautiful days, I don’t know how but each song in this album feels like both, my memory’s and my grandmas
I didn't listen to the full album. I might someday, but the first time I listened, I skimmed through each track giving me just enough time to realize what they were trying to convey while reading the description, and even then it still broke me down emotionally. The scariest thing about it to me was that I felt like I was drifting away as I was listening. It was fucking terrifying. I never want to experience that again. That being said, this album is the best way to experience dementia without actually getting it. Definitely a must listen for those who want a deeper understanding of dementia that can't be described with words.
A few simple rules that help make the experience a potent one: 1. Listen to it in one session with no pause. 2. Don't check your place in the album at any point. 3. Always keep the context of the music's intentions in mind while listening for things that feel off. The Caretaker has a way of playing the music both for you and against you. Realizing it for yourself can feel... helpful. I feel appreciation for this album in a way I can't put fully into words.
Im just gonna slowly gather timestamps of significant reactions. 3:45:40 (STAGE 5) First moment of bliss. 2:04:15 (STAGE 3) An Empty Bliss Beyond This World. 1:28:48 (STAGE 3) Back There Benjamin 1:33:06 (STAGE 3) And Heart Breaks 2:58:29 (STAGE 4) Temporary Bliss State 5:32:00 (STAGE 6) Uhh, whatever this part is. 2:51:00 (STAGE 4) Hell Sirens 4:00:56 (STAGE 5) Mandolin Solo 6:29:38 (STAGE 6) The End.
It is a helpful little comment, isn't it? Thanks for the timestamps. Gives people something of use, in case they only want to skim. Can't expect everyone to play this in full.
Bless, I love it; that's quite helpful. His reaction to the weird transition part at 5:32:00 you mentioned, gosh, I forgot about that...coincidentally, or not, and a quite hilarious one, at that, 🥴😆 like, "okay, hol up, 👐🏻 I know it's been torture the past few hours but _what is this."_
The guttural dread this album invokes in you is honestly something I’ve never experienced in any kind of media period. I wouldn’t wish this disease on my worst enemy, amazing reaction 👏🏽
The album is certainly one for the ages, and for the sake of art, I wouldn't want anything else like it. Since listening to it, I've urged a handful of mental health workers to listen to the album in full, urging them to show it to their peers as well.
1:28:57 The first track of Stage 3 is one of my favorites, it's energetic but soupy, and I was eager to see how you would react to it. You looked like you were about to choke. D:
That first track of Stage 3 really threw me for a curveball. I think Stage 3's first track really serves the message of the intent of the album really well, what the purpose of the album is truly. Being made aware of something like mental illness, the service this first track provides, in a nutshell, is stunning. The big horns that came out of nowhere, the marching waltz downward into escalating decline, it's like the company your sanity keeps is marching to the tune of the Pied Piper, straight out the door, all while a warning alarm of some kind blares in the background, pushed through a brass filter. An incremental crumpling over of sense, as if you're meant to fold in six pieces, gravity pulling you down by your head, sixth by sixth.
I think the first track of stage two is my favorite aside from the end of stage six. It's just so dynamic, frantically marching forward with a brave face as though you're trying to retroactively change the course you're on. You're trying to remain optimistic, to believe you can stave off the oncoming damage the future years will bring, but you can feel the dread creeping up your back. God I love this masterpiece.
That first track of Stage 2 really didn't try that hard at masking malice. Just comparing the start of Stage 1 to Stage 2, I knew it was about to get real fuckin' rough, and I'm glad I was right.
This man's look of pure, abject horror when Stage 5 begins is one of the highlights of this reaction vid. Also, of course, the emotional breakdown during synapse retrogenesis.
I tried to make it all the way through EATEOT during a homework session, but had to stop at Stage 4 on the dot for some reason I can’t remember. It was hard to work and listen at the same time. I listen to music to analyze it, not even by choices its just how I listen to music. Stages 1-3 were enough to scare me. I am obsessed with this project and the Caretaker’s other work. I’ve watched countless videos on the project and only just finally sat down and listened to a large amount of it. Someday I’ll return to it solo and finish it, but for now I’ll enjoy the company as I watch your stream. Thanks for uploading! You seem like a chill dude.
It can be hard to get through, but if you are enthused by analyzing the music, this album will help you pass the time by keeping you enthralled. I became upset during Stage 5 because of all the little things I had picked up on, my focus on the intention of the project, and what basic math provides when plugging in numbers. Thanks for the kind words. I hope you do take the time and listen to this in one shot when you have the chance.
His room was being illuminated by the screen, it was the shift from bright white and blue colours to darker yellow ones that made it look like the lights went out
I had to listen to it in one go with no pause if I wanted to achieve my goal. I understood before starting that I am meant to respect it. I wish I could experience it for the first time again. The experience is one of mental illumination, darkness aside.
This album is definitely an eye opener I’m too scared to listen to it all the way through but I have heard bits and pieces I don’t wish dementia on my worst enemy
For me, it really was difficult, but I like a good challenge. It's good for the body, mind, and if you're a believer, it's good for the spirit as well.
Of all the reactions I've seen to this album, I loved this one. I feel that impact that it has caused you, something similar happened to me, and I have to admit that it gives a different vision than what one knows about dementia and Alzheimer's.
I appreciate your kind words. Thank you for spending time with me here. A first-hand encounter with a forced servitude, a death sentence of sorts, to be made to feel mindlessness with all of your person. The weight is unbearable. I have a lot to say, and I should have a review out in a few days. I'm writing something special for this album.
OH, yeah, completely. The moment before it happens. It is a true treasure to reach that point without unnecessarily rushing down the project, and you can only really discern value in that point if you've given your time over, as many of us have. Thanks for dropping a timestamp, really.
When THE part plays you hear noises in the background like doors banging, it gives me peace of mind to imagine family members rushing in to sit with the patient at the time of their passing.
The pure emotion on your face throughout is...something to behold. Listening through it my first time hit me pretty hard, but not this hard. It hit me hard enough to inspire me to wrote a short story (only a few paragraphs) around a visit someone slowly fading away, if you'd like to read it. You have a way with words, so I figured I'd offer it.
I LOVE seeing/hearing when the good provokes the great. You can hit me up at a few different places, though I'm not sure which is best. I'd love to read, however, I refuse to read stories that were inspired by EATEOT until after I produce mine. The review I'm working on is mostly a story, so I can't really read what you've written just yet. It's already written, but people who write things can always edit their unpublished work to incorporate the ideas of others. I hope you can understand.
Nice to see you, and thank you for noticing my care, here. If you are interested, I FINALLY released a version of my own EATEOT project, which you can find here: th-cam.com/video/3eVjnhpCC1I/w-d-xo.html
Man, you were a true warrior to watch the entire 6 in the half hours of this album. I’ve heard about this when it first came out and I didn’t know what dementia is. 5 years later, I decided to learn about dementia and I thought about this Caretaker album because when I think about the caretaker, I think about The Shining. Stage 1 to stage 3 for some reason I’ve enjoy it a lot because it reminds me of The Shining’s soundtrack. HOWEVER, stage 4 and especially stage 5 creep the f$&k out of me. I kept getting jump scare when each music ends abruptly, my anxiety increases out of uncertainty, and I kept the volume extremely loud to have the full experience. Even the imagery of stage 5 is chilling itself because you couldn’t comprehend what’s happening. I just shed a tear for imagining what is like losing memories in matter of minutes. Stage 6 sounds peaceful but chilling
Thanks a ton. I knew that I had to listen to the entire thing in one shot if it's going to be as effective as it could be without being under the influence of anything. I had very strict rules in place, and mentally prepared myself during the week that lead up to the listen. Even then, I wasn't ready, but I also kept from spoiling myself with listening to any of it before the stream, at any point. It's likely the single most important and toughest listen, regarding music, and I wish I could experience it all over again for the first time.
The sun was up when I started the stream, and down when I finished. The stream was to run uninterrupted, so listening to it in the dark was only just part of my situation.
What a rollercoaster of emotions you went through. I didn't listen to all of this again with you, just specific sections that I believed would give you the most reaction (beginning of stage 2, 3, the deep singing in 3, drifting time misplaced, all of the Heartaches appearances, mental clarity in stage 5) and you showed just what I was reaction (except for the crying, that was at the final 6 minutes). Hope you're feeling better.
I just finished watching this video. You are a true champion for listening the whole thing through in one sitting and even taking time to analyse it and the album art at the end. 💗 I really liked your analysis, especially your analysis of the music and art in the Stages 2 and 3. I see you have a good knowledge of different musical instruments as well. The differences between the gentle but deteriorated wind instruments at the beginning of Stage 2 and the full-on aggressive beginning of Stage 3 are really noticeable. My personal favourite is Stage 2 for both its music and its art. It's oddly sentimental but melancholic at the same time; the person is really trying to hold on to their memories.
My knowledge of musical instruments is incredibly limited, due to not really getting into music, though I do put my best foot forward when speaking on things, regardless of my actual knowledge. I try not to step into foolish territory by speaking what shouldn't be. Thanks for spending time with me here. Always nice, even when it isn't.
A six hour and a half album that gives you the perspective of this one character's mind that your in, is possibly older than their 60s or more, has been diagnosed with Dementia. I have no words. This is by far one of the most depressing, terrifying, disturbing yet beautiful projects I have ever heard of. I have a visual imagination and when I listen to this, while letting my brain imagine a perspective of that character's FPOV, it seriously brings in the full experience. I have wept. It hit me hard while listening to 4-6 and it almost gave me nightmares on what Dementia would look like in a dream. I'm glad that this song was shown to the world just to prove on what Dementia really is. An experience I will never forget.
I have to admit this album made me tear up, the caretaker is a legend for doing this, I think in the future I will remember this album and listen to it again. Damn the fact that I listened to this, same goes for you. This is the most beautiful art I have heard, I'm trying to find some time to listen to this again. But god this still hurts me but shows me that memory loss is worse than death, people don't acknowledge how deadly dementia is. I don't have any family members who has had memory loss, not of my knowledge but it scares me that in just some years my grandparents won't remember me. But still you're strong to have listened to all of this. I'm thinking about listening to some other artworks of the caretaker, maybe an empty bliss beyond this world? I'll maybe have to find out what they are about, I hope in the future a cure for dementia will be discovered. But a cure for such a deadly disease doesn't feel real. I just hope people will someday find out how important this album is. - Deviant.
Meant to reply to this sooner. Living as a cripple in some capacity is often worse than dying while capable. I'd rather be snuffed out over being suppressed. Thanks for the kind words.
I am really not into this kind of music. I found about this album on one of those clickbaity videos with a title resembling 'this album will break you' in the thumbnail. Since then I've been obsessed. The whole idea of a slow, progressive death. The whole concept of not just dying, but entirely forgetting a whole life out of existence. This album just broke me and I still haven't started to listen to it, I'm afraid to. I'm afraid to start it, but I really need to. Greetings from Spain, unknown guy.
I say this to everyone I share this with: It’s not really “music” to vibe to. It’s an experience. It’s not relaxing at all, it’s a stressful, mind-numbing pilgrimage. Those who journey through the end of it changes... if not completely, at least slightly.
@@Gloocifer yeah its not supposed to be something people listen to 100 times it’s a 1 time thing in least I think it is because it’s not healthy to listen to this album more than 1 time. I tried listening to it more than one time and I just couldn’t in fact it awakened a anxiety in me that I never had before so every time I try listening to it my anxiety just explodes.
I was scared too. Read these comments, you are far from alone. I promise you though, you will thank all of us for encouraging you to go ahead and do so. Yes, it will hurt, and will terrify you, and you may cry, but you won't die or go crazy. You will come out of the experience a changed, probably better person. At the end of the day, this album affirms life.
Nice username. The remaster of the Peace Sells album is pretty good. I once presented the lyrics of Good Mourning, Black Friday to a freestyle Rap battle and left with applause to mention later.
It feels like you are about to get onto a rollercoaster, the anxiety builds up as you wait in line and get into your seat, but only that this is a mental rollercoaster not a physical
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It looked very sad and scary for you. I hope your feeling better! Plus you need more likes and subscribers! Your channel truly has awsome content.
It's alright. This was something I was glad I did. I wish I had more of a following as well. Feel free to subscribe when you have a chance. I take requests, by the way.
This was an experience, certainly, one that I'm more than grateful for having been able to survive through, one that I wish I could experience for the first time all over again.
i love it and hate it, my friend shared this album as a joke but now im obsessed with it. its something you understand even if you dont have dementia. you havent been through it but you have through this song at the same time, thats the best way i can describe my experience.
Hello stranger, first time ever being on your channel or knowing you exist, but I just want to say I appreciate the level of artistry you put into a few of these comment replies. That's a valuable trait to have, man. Each time you do that, there's a chance you can broaden a person's way of thinking. Then they might do the same for their friends & loved ones. A deeper thinking domino effect. A deeper thinking humanity. Subbed 👍
Why, thank you. You actually helped me finally reach 600 subs, which is pretty great. Thanks for that. There are many more comments on this other video of mine ( th-cam.com/video/tixpCX1QlBE/w-d-xo.html&lc=UgwnpAZ_c77iT9vzXxF4AaABAg ) and I do what I can to afford myself writing exercises by responding to many of them. I look forward to giving people a response that's often times worth reading. Thank you for spending time with us here.
At 2:19:37 you can hear what sounds like “The Way Ahead Feels Lonely” reversed from stage 2 it looked like he could hear it too and seemed genuinely saddened by it
I think this is my 4th time listening to this all the way through. Your reaction to the clarity moment in stage 5 was very similar to mine the first time I heard it. It's my favorite part of the album.
"Post Awareness Confusions" set in, but only just. As you walk, the light of the sky fluctuates, the changing of colors, as though you were experiencing an accelerated cycle of time. "The sky is pretty," you say, as you wade through the dark of the outside world. You swear you can hear something behind you, but every time you stop to think about checking, your mind tells you otherwise, or that you are with others, or that maybe there is something there, grinning upon your back. Second-guessing yourself is tiresome to contend with. You don't know what or how to think, but you know that it's nice out, right? As you walk, your mind paints a world crumbling, all for you. With the foliage around you changing shape and color, the joy and vibrancy found in such life whispers decay, and as the world of your mind makes way for the approach of finality, you marvel at the display. As an amalgamation of mindless anomalies dances for you, still, you walk, dazed by intrusions of an unknown hell. Approaching the slow, creaking opening of a standing tomb, you smile, for you know not the destination's intent, but the wonder of the path ahead. You are enjoying your walk.
Glad I could watch this, thank you for making this. I'm glad I could see someone else react to this project in a similar way I and many others did, truly mutually showing how horrifying yet wonderful the whole experience is.
My appreciation for this project is without description. I truly have too much to say, and am working on a review. I'll be doing more with this project down the road. As a sort of advance notice, I'm livestreaming this next album sometime after I put my review out: th-cam.com/video/EI7bfO9eZuE/w-d-xo.html
Watching this reaction and watching the real vid i think will give different feels. Because in the real vid you will really be alone, reading comments did help but i got more depressed with their stories. this one i feel a little secure making me feel that im listening it with someone. Dementia is truly a psychological cancer
That's a pretty good interpretation. You can REALLY feel something creeping around. Whether it be the woodwind instrument(s) or the (what sounds like) strings in the back, the strings that have a heightened sound. I'm not good with music terms, but I can *feel* that shit.
the emotions you displayed throughout this video were so perfectly shown. this is exactly how the album makes all of us feel and it’s so incredibly depressing and sorrowful during the last few stages, thank you so much for taking six hours out of your day to listen to this with us, it makes us feel not alone because it’s not good to feel alone during something as powerful as this, although i listened to this whole album by myself, it was nice to listen once again along with someone else. this was an amazing experience both times around, and it still broke me. it’s such a great album, and i’ll forever thank The Caretaker for making such a heart wrenching album. again, thanks to you for committing the whole way through, and i hope you felt alright after listening 💙 much love
As a matter of fact, I'm much better for having spent time with the project. It's a gift of eyesight to the blind. I'm much more compassionate towards the elderly since the listen, and am nothing but beyond grateful for this project. As a result of my time spent with the project, I found an incredible community, and have exposed people to this who have also found gratitude in them for the work Kirby has done. Thank you for being here. I'm hoping to have my review out after not too long. It's taking forever because this is an album I have to do right by if I'm going to bother at all.
I'm currently plotting the visuals. It's the last part that needs to get done, and it's debatable if it's been the hardest part to get done. The writing took a little while to get right, the countless recordings done to get the tone of the piece right has taken a while, the editing itself has been a pain, and the visuals are hard to manage because of just what kind of terror I'm trying to enact. It's an attempt at making it possible to understand the project as a short film, and it hasn't been easy, especially since my editing software has been lagging a lot because of how old my computer is. It's been a pain, and it has cost me a decent amount of money and has strained me mentally and emotionally. I'm really pushing hard to get this done. It's a labor of love that has put me through a lot of pain, and I really do mean that. The days run together like a horrific car crash, and I've been thinking negatively of myself for not being able to keep my composure together. This project has been hurting me far more than people could understand, and it makes me want to cry. I've even thought about killing myself because of it because of how long it's taken. It's made me feel useless. It consistently keeps me in a dark place, and I've been having trouble feeling good about much since getting lost during the process of it all. I really am not exaggerating anything here. This project has caused me real pain. The twisted thing is that I don't care what people will think of it.
@@CyphersBasement well hey, just know you’re a great and smart guy, and don’t let those thoughts consume you. you are important, and hey, if you need to, you can take a break! it’s good to rest from work! you need time to increase your mental health again
I had been dreading this stream for the two days that lead up to it. I'm both glad it's over and happy that it exists. I feel a cerebral connection with this album, and am incredibly grateful for it.
I listened to this album after some weeks of consideration because I was afraid, but mostly it was curiosity that led me to listen to this album. The last 6 fucking minutes, man. The way the angelic voices chant in empathy to us as we finally are put to rest were so breaking to me, especially after hearing 3+ hours of incoherent gibberish and sounds. Really, really haunting album. I will do a second listen though, I wasn’t really “absorbed” into the album, so I’d like to give it my fullest attention,
Really listening to the albums is important. You can hear sounds, but can you hear the intent? That's what matters. String together your pages, and you'll have a novel. I had to make it a point that external stimuli were off limits for the stream. It helped me experience what I needed to, and I feel better about this all for having done so. A remarkable beauty this rare usually hides away in dreams because that's where our best lives rest themselves most effectively.
You should 100% listen to it a second, if not third time. I hear and experience new things everytime I come back to this album, from possible war memories to the literal minute of silence at the end - it is art. I developed an unhealthy obsession with this album when my grandma's dementia started consuming her entirely after her husband's passing. She still recognizes me sometimes though.. I cannot imagine how it feels to lose everything you once were.
Tragic... Absolute tragedy. I am not patient enough to watch it all in one go. I have listened to this album in a fragmented manner. I know it won't be the experience it is supposed to be. Still, I can admire those who do. Like you.
I also sat through the whole album and knowing what it's about is what makes or breaks it. Personally, the ending is really what made me break down, a reminder of what used to be compared to where we are at the end. The fact that there are 3 million people who go through the equivalent of each stage of this album every day makes me very depressed but a good reminder to be grateful for who you are. lol anyways hahahaha
If u wanna experience this again (prob not) but if u want a different one there’s one called “everywhere in the beginning of nowhere” made by a 14 year old and he’s super underrated the one I’m talking about is his latest one it’s like a remastered one and has more to it than eateot
This is an awesome album, we all get to feal the pain, the confusion, the sufering, and god how it hurts, the reaction i think that represent to everyone that listen to this album
I think that, if you have heard this project in full at least once, that the scariest part is the first track, because of what it means to be an introductory track, and what it means for that first track to sound like it does. I don't necessarily disagree with you, however, I am happy to speak with you.
Hello, I just watched this video of you watching the entire Project in one sitting and I got to say pretty mad respect. I just subbed to your channel, pretty good stuff man. By the way, how do you keep watching the video without being bored or losing interest? Now don't get me wrong I really like James Leyland Kirby's Art but I usually experience this Video in another way like playing it in the background while I get things done. How do you do it?
That's an EXCELLENT question. Listening to this uninterrupted, the goal from the beginning is to listen to the music strictly. Mind you, I get fidgety. I mention both of these things for a reason. When this specific album is considered, if you understand why it's so long, the context of the album's focus MUST become the focus. As this is an album that simulates mental degradation, to really feel the full effect, you listen for irregularities and for moments when the album feels like it's slipping, becoming distant, dropping off, and disconnecting. It becomes like a game, and focusing on it all, while the context dictates the shape of soundscapes throughout, you really get to appreciate how the album was structured. The album is a Masterpiece. If you listen to the music as intensely as I have while looking mostly at the art, you come out of the experience with paragraphs on essays of words. If you consider the accomplishment of this work with gratitude at heart, you may feel more empathetic to the elderly. Like I like to say, the album, this project, gives eyesight to the blind. Appreciate what you have in life.
What scares me the most about this album is that it's like listening to your own future. Granted, not everyone is guaranteed to get dementia. But it's still a very common disease.
There's this concept that if you are made aware of your future, it changes. For all we know, you could be right about this being a vision of the future.
It's only common because of the western lifestyle. It's much less common in cultures where people life healthy lifestyles, exercise daily, socialize a lot even as they get older, do mentally stimulating work rather than dull work, and elder people are respected in the community. It's the isolation and lack of mental exercise that really promotes the development of dementia.
I love how Kirefyx in this stream is basically just the asshole friend who spoils everything in a movie right before it happens. "Are you listening?! The main character is about to say something important listen!!!"
To be frank, I adore his passion. Reminds me of how, for a week straight, after this stream, I couldn't stop thinking about this album. It has captivated me so, and I feel privileged by the long dead legacy of psychology to have immersed myself in such a thing as this.
4:29:05 if anyone wants to see when I break down.
Hope you're doing well brother.
@@lazlodallama8994 Your concern is an honor.
The album is a Masterpiece, and I wish I could experience it again for the first time. I have so much love for this album, it's hard to really put into words. More than anything, I cherish this album and the artist for giving eyesight to the blind.
What was going through your head at that molmet I'm just curios
@@aceofjades4815 A paste from a comment on an upload that showcases just my breaking down:
"I don't know if I ever explained what I was going through at that time, so I kind of want to make mention of that now.
All the sounds, the memories of cheerful music, the rhythmic sensation of a bouncing knee to the tune of swaying memory, all to be led down the hallway and loaded onto a boat, only to inevitably witness a black sea within an ever-expanding and emptied place... all I could do is look down on the black sea, wondering to myself "Where has my mind left me alone?" The drone made the abyss feel like a permanent place of residence, my newfound kingdom. There was nothing left but contemplation of my surroundings, nothing left but thoughts... and then, there were no thoughts. When I tried to think about having no thoughts, I couldn't because there were no thoughts to think on. It was the most savage ravaging, and at the same time, it was non-violent and muted. There were no colors but the different shades of darkness, and there were no thoughts but the echoes of thoughtlessness. Powerlessness was forced on me, and crying would not help.
I have never felt so broken before, and I've been homeless with a gambling problem. I have never experienced such a bleak serenity before.
This.
Broke.
Me.
EDIT: It should be noted that this was terrifying to me, not just because of all that I've mentioned, but also because I have bad memory problems, and this was a haunting epiphany that I am grateful for."
Hope this helps, and thank you for spending time with me here.
@@CyphersBasement wow yeah I teared up just thinking about your prospective
This man aged at least 10 years through this album
To keep pace with death, you must play by the rules of decay.
@@CyphersBasement facts
@@CyphersBasement *_the more you know_*
@@CyphersBasement yes
@@CyphersBasement Straight up no cap 😂
The fact that you showed genuine horror and confusion at the last 7 minutes told me how powerful this album truly is.
3:41:46 and 3:46:10 are also good reactions that really push the point home. Those last 7 minutes really do make for an excellent finish. God damn, what a fucking MASTERPIECE.
@@CyphersBasement :)
6:29:49 for those who want to hear THE part
i like how every video of someone reacting to "the caretaker" there is someone in the comments saying when THAT part begins... and how we all call it just "THAT part" or "THE part"
For anyone wondering the art cover for stage 6 is the back of a canvas, it’s meaning is that the distant memories you had are there, you can see it, lingering at the back of your mind, but is forever unreachable,
Scary.
It’s a still picture,yet so dark behind its meaning. we’ll never reach our memories...
Exactly, you havent lost your identity, youve just forgotten how to express your identity
we see hinges like those of a door's, but no doorknob, so if that is what it is, its also the same thing: you can see it, at the back of your mind, but you cant open the door to your memories, since there's not a doorknob.
The Stage 6 cover isn't a blank canvas, or the back of a canvas. There's no canvas here at all. You're looking at an artist's masonite board. You'd tape your paper, panel, or loose canvas, whatever surface you're working on, to it, and that way you'd have it on a clean, hard surface that you can put on an easel. Only, there's nothing here. The drawing hasn't just been erased, it's gone. The album cover is showing you a very literal nothingness, but in a way where you don't even realize what's missing. A confusion so thick, you forget forgetting.
The thing the really scared tf outta me when I listened to this album, was all the comments. The original video has some of the saddest comments I've seen. It makes you realize that this can literally happen to anyone. In my mind, it feels worse than cancer. It looks like a living hell to be through and I cannot, and hopefully will never, imagine how tough this is. To all those who have dementia, I'm truly sorry.
The comments really did intensify my interest. The fact that mere audio is causing people to become upset or reminisce, that's something special.
It’s like cancer for the mind
That "literally anyone can get this disease" is the worst part of dementia
Dementia is mid
2:04:15 This track has always been the saddest and scariest moment of all the albums for me. Its just so peaceful, but its the very last peaceful moment you have from this point. Almost like you are remembering the happiest moment of your life for the very last time.
There's something of a chase scene element to the song, isn't there?
@@CyphersBasement Well, now that I think about it... there kinda is. Almost like the theme of a whimsical, yet scary video game character.
@@CyphersBasement most people say that Stage 4 scares them the most, but the one that shocked me to my fucking core was Stage 3. That was the one that made me feel paranoid, like stupidly so. To the point where I couldn't sleep in my room for weeks afterward, the distorted music, and sounds got stuck in my head, they kept creeping back every few minutes, the sound of static kept coming back, buzzing in my ear making the hair on the back of my neck stand up. Then I thought I was hearing things, and I even got scared of the dark, which I haven't been since I was like 8. Took me about 2 months to recover. Finally found my limit with this piece, & I've seen the most disturbing videos the internet has to offer. I could tell you things I've seen people do to each other, and you would call me a sick fuck for making it up, but it's real, and I didn't bat an eye. But THIS? This is what finally got to me. Maybe I was just bottling all of that shit up and this was what finally made me crack. I'm fine now, back to normal, and I can listen to it sperratically, exposure seems to be key, but that was a really tough couple of months. Hope you were okay.
@@John-X I'm fine, honestly, I think, except I've never been fine, I... think.
I'm not in much of any shape to say that someone is full of shit if I haven't been witness to the things they say, though while I see that you, as an individual, could conceivably see the things you state as having happened, I could raise you an eyebrow at the most.
At least you're "back to normal", if that means much to you. Can't say I'm much the same. Normalcy is a stranger to me, because that's how she prefers it.
What's the name of that track?
STAGE 1 : 5:34
Here we experience the first signs of memory loss. This stage is most like a beautiful daydream.
The glory of old age and recollection. The last of the great days.
5:34: A1 - It's just a burning memory
9:03: A2 - We don't have many days
12:36 A3 - Late afternoon drifting
16:13 A4 - Childishly fresh eyes
19:10 A5 - Slightly bewildered
21:11 A6 - Things that are beautiful and transient
25:46 B1 - All that follows is true
29:17 B2 - An autumnal equinox
32:05 B3 - Quiet internal rebellions
35:36 B4 - The loves of my entire life
39:39 B5 - Into each others eyes
44:16 B6 - My heart will stop in joy
STAGE 2 : 46:57
The second stage is the self realisation and awareness that something is wrong with a refusal to accept that. More effort is made to remember so memories can be more long form with a little more deterioration in quality. The overall personal mood is generally lower than the first stage and at a point before confusion starts setting in.
46:57 C1 - A losing battle is raging
51:35 C2 - Misplaced in time
56:19 C3 - What does it matter how my heart breaks
58:57 C4 - Glimpses of hope in trying times
1:03:40 C5 - Surrendering to despair
1:08:43 D1 - I still feel as though I am me
1:12:51 D2 - Quiet dusk coming early
1:16:27 D3 - Last moments of pure recall
1:20:20 D4 - Denial unravelling
1:24:36 D5 - The way ahead feels lonely
STAGE 3 : 1:28:50
Here we are presented with some of the last coherent memories before confusion fully rolls in and the grey mists form and fade away. Finest moments have been remembered, the musical flow in places is more confused and tangled. As we progress some singular memories become more disturbed, isolated, broken and distant. These are the last embers of awareness before we enter the post awareness stages.
1:28:50 E1 - Back there Benjamin
1:33:05 E2 - And heart breaks
1:37:12 E3 - Hidden sea buried deep
1:38:32 E4 - Libet's all joyful camaraderie
1:41:44 E5 - To the minimal great hidden
1:43:25 E6 - Sublime beyond loss
1:45:35 E7 - Bewildered in other eyes
1:47:26 E8 - Long term dusk glimpses
1:51:00 F1 - Gradations of arms length
1:52:33 F2 - Drifting time misplaced
1:56:49 F3 - Internal bewildered World
2:00:18 F4 - Burning despair does ache
2:02:55 F5 - Aching cavern without lucidity
2:04:15 F6 - An empty bliss beyond this World
2:07:51 F7 - Libet delay
2:11:58 F8 - Mournful cameraderie
STAGE 4 : 2:14:28
Post-Awareness Stage 4 is where serenity and the ability to recall singular memories gives way to confusions and horror. It's the beginning of an eventual process where all memories begin to become more fluid through entanglements, repetition and rupture.
2:14:28 G1 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions
2:36:37 H1 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions
2:58:28 I1 - Stage 4 Temporary Bliss State
3:19:29 J1 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions
STAGE 5 : 3:41:45
Post-Awareness Stage 5 confusions and horror. More extreme entanglements, repetition and rupture can give way to calmer moments. The unfamiliar may sound and feel familiar.
Time is often spent only in the moment leading to isolation.
3:41:45 K1 - Stage 5 Advanced plaque entanglements
4:04:20 L1 - Stage 5 Advanced plaque entanglements
4:27:10 M1 - Stage 5 Synapse retrogenesis
4:47:58 N1 - Stage 5 Sudden time regression into isolation
STAGE 6 : 5:10:07
Post-Awareness Stage 6 is without description.
5:10:07 O1 - Stage 6 A confusion so thick you forget forgetting
5:31:59 P1 - Stage 6 A brutal bliss beyond this
empty defeat
5:53:35 Q1 - Stage 6 Long decline is over
6:14:46 R1 - Stage 6 Place in the World fades away
This was less difficult than I thought
@@krispo7256 It doesn't seem too difficult to me. You just have to put the timestamps from the original on a spreadsheet or something, find the time that A1 starts at, and add that time to each timestamp.
oh my god i should have read every comment before i made mine xD
I wish I could give you a physical high-five for this. Thanks, dude.
@@CyphersBasement ditto
3:45:42 A moment of bliss
Let us rest, for now.
@@CyphersBasement jesus christ that reaction was so raw.
I wish I could give you a hug lol
@@shartwarrior Hard to restrain yourself when Hell keeps reminding you that it has taken the place of your shadow.
@@CyphersBasement Damn dude, hope your doing ok by now, you seem like you've been through a lot of pain bruh
I’ve never seen a man so relieved
3:45:42 is one of my favorite parts of your reaction. The realization in your face speaks volumes, man.
Thank you for spending time with me here. It is an honor.
No problem bro, its nice watching people go through this experience, it almost makes me feel like I'm listening to it for the first time again.
This project gave me a better appreciation for life, it needs to be an album everyone listens to before they die..
5:32:00 is another one of my favorite moments btw :]
you were like "woah okay okay" haha
I know right? The utter horror of his expression honestly gave me chills
2:51:00 is where I got scared. 2:52:17 is where I didn't realize I could be even more terrified than I already was, and the crackling waves in between the reverberated silence after the hell horns made sure that I was never the same person again.
Sections like this, I can't believe little things like this can exist. It feels like I'm communicating with an alien world.
that's really scary, but all 6 hours were beautiful
I really do enjoy interpretations. I could talk for an eternity about this project and still feel malnourished.
I see the hell sirens as the person momentarily becoming lucid enough to be aware of what has happened to their mind and screaming out in terror and despair at what they have become.
Honestly, it's lost most of its scare factor for me, somehow, but the first time I ever saw and pressed on a timestamp for it that was a top comment on the original Stage 4 video, it screwed me up a bit, and the next few times I got serious, unreal chills from it, not necessarily happy or relaxed ones, at that. Captivating and entertaining, in a way, yes, but very bone chilling, to be sure.
Here are some timestamps:
Stage 1
5:33 - A1 it's Just a burning memory
9:03 - A2 We don't have many days
12:36 - A3 Late afternoon drifting
16:11 - A4 Childishly fresh eyes
19:09 - A5 Slightly bewildered
21:10 - A6 Things that are beautiful and transient
25:45 - B1 All that follows is true
29:17 - B2 An autumnal equinox
32:05 - B3 Quiet internal rebellions
35:35 - B4 The loves of my entire life
39:40 - B5 Into each others eyes
44:15 - B6 My heart will stop in joy
Stage 2
46:54 - C1 A losing battle is raging
51:35 - C2 Misplaced in time
56:17 - C3 What does it matter how my heart breaks
58:55 - C4 Glimpses of hope in trying times
1:03:38 - C5 Surrendering to despair
1:08:42 - D1 I still feel as though i am me
1:12:50 - D2 Quiet dusk coming early
1:16:27 - D3 Last moments of pure recall
1:20:20 - D4 Denial unraveling
1:24:36 - D5 The way ahead feels lonely
Stage 3
1:28:50 - E1 Back there Benjamin
1:33:06 - E2 And heart breaks
1:37:11 - E3 Hidden sea buried deep
1:38:32 - E4 Libet's all joyfull camaraderie
1:41:44 - E5 To the minimal great hidden
1:43:25 - E6 Sublime beyond loss
1:45:36 - E7 bewildered in other eyes
1:47:28 - E8 Long term dusk glimpses
1:51:01 - F1 Gradations of arms length
1:52:33 - F2 Drifting time misplaced
1:56:24 - F2 Static segment
1:56:49 - F3 Internal bewildered world
2:00:18 - F4 Burning despair does ache
2:02:55 - F5 Aching cavern without lucidity
2:04:15 - F6 An empty bliss beyond this world
2:07:51 - F7 Libet delay
2:11:48 - F8 Mournful camaraderie
Stage 4
2:14:26 - G1 Post Awareness Confusions
2:30:10 - Static segment begins creeping in
2:31:18 - static segment takes over
2:34:10 - Final G1 segment
2:36:35 - H1 Post Awareness Confusions
2:50:59 - Hell sirens
2:58:27 - I1 Temporary Bliss State
3:19:30 - J1 Post Awareness Confusions
3:34:46 - J1 Chimes
Stage 5
3:41:45 - K1 Advanced plaque entanglements
3:45:41 - First Clarity
3:47:34 - Second clarity
3:49:12 - Segment after initial chaos
3:58:34 - New lonely segment
4:00:55 - Mandolin solo
4:04:21 - L1 Advanced plaque entanglements
4:08:36 - Distorted song begins
4:10:41 - advanced plaque despair can be heard
4:27:10 - M1 Synapse retrogenesis
4:31:07 - Strange sound
4:32:00 - Headaches plays
4:35:09 - new segment begins
4:39:36 - Heartaches plays again
4:47:57 - N1 Sudden time regression into isolation
4:48:32 - Spooky part
5:01:35 - Final Stage 5 clarity
5:02:05 - All music dies
Stage 6
5:10:07 - O1 A confusion so thick you forget forgetting
5:31:59 - P1 A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat
5:53:36 - Q1 Long decline is over
5:56:24 - Beautiful moment
6:14:47 - R1 Place in the World fades away
6:29:49 - Final Segment
6:35:05 - Death
6:36:06 - End of Album
Great video by the way. Congrats on listening to the whole album :)
Nice stamps!
People like you give me hope for humanity.
2:31:18 Now that sample that is panning (panning means switching left and right) is Belle Of The East, it also makes that static sound.
Headaches plays?
4:09:04 is Farewell Blues by Ted Lewis. Don't ask why I'm taking track of this.
3:45:32 you can see how used he is to the noise and for a couple of seconds or maybe even one minute theres just actual recognizable music and he looks sad then at 3:46:09 the recognizable music cuts off and its back to the usual but now its a reminder of what he has been listening to for a good while and you can clearly see the shock in his face
I was feeling at peace when the green in my eyes were met with soft music, just before the piano crash around 3:46:11.
3:46:12 the sheer horror on his eyes when the period of clarity ends is haunting
It's not often you get to scream at the world with just your eyes.
Me: I ALREADY WATCHED 6 AND A HALF HOURS OF THIS I'M DONE
Also Me:
This is my 3rd or 4th time listening to this.
I also listen to individual songs a lot too
It’s crazy because I think stages 1-3 I’m gonna come back to that for years
But 4-6, aside from the end of six
That’s the shit that breaks you
I've been telling EVERYONE about this album. It really changed me on a number of significant levels.
I fall asleep to hell sirens
Madman!
For me it’s stage 1 that breaks me, it reminds me exactly of my grandma when we first started to notice something was wrong, but also the beautiful days, I don’t know how but each song in this album feels like both, my memory’s and my grandmas
I didn't listen to the full album. I might someday, but the first time I listened, I skimmed through each track giving me just enough time to realize what they were trying to convey while reading the description, and even then it still broke me down emotionally. The scariest thing about it to me was that I felt like I was drifting away as I was listening. It was fucking terrifying. I never want to experience that again. That being said, this album is the best way to experience dementia without actually getting it. Definitely a must listen for those who want a deeper understanding of dementia that can't be described with words.
A few simple rules that help make the experience a potent one:
1. Listen to it in one session with no pause.
2. Don't check your place in the album at any point.
3. Always keep the context of the music's intentions in mind while listening for things that feel off.
The Caretaker has a way of playing the music both for you and against you. Realizing it for yourself can feel... helpful. I feel appreciation for this album in a way I can't put fully into words.
Im just gonna slowly gather timestamps of significant reactions.
3:45:40 (STAGE 5) First moment of bliss.
2:04:15 (STAGE 3) An Empty Bliss Beyond This World.
1:28:48 (STAGE 3) Back There Benjamin
1:33:06 (STAGE 3) And Heart Breaks
2:58:29 (STAGE 4) Temporary Bliss State
5:32:00 (STAGE 6) Uhh, whatever this part is.
2:51:00 (STAGE 4) Hell Sirens
4:00:56 (STAGE 5) Mandolin Solo
6:29:38 (STAGE 6) The End.
It is a helpful little comment, isn't it? Thanks for the timestamps. Gives people something of use, in case they only want to skim. Can't expect everyone to play this in full.
Bless, I love it; that's quite helpful. His reaction to the weird transition part at 5:32:00 you mentioned, gosh, I forgot about that...coincidentally, or not, and a quite hilarious one, at that, 🥴😆 like, "okay, hol up, 👐🏻 I know it's been torture the past few hours but _what is this."_
5:32:00 is P1 A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat's beginning.
5:32:00 is "a brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat"
One of the last thing the brain remembers during dementia, is music, once the patient forgets that, the patient is gone
The guttural dread this album invokes in you is honestly something I’ve never experienced in any kind of media period. I wouldn’t wish this disease on my worst enemy, amazing reaction 👏🏽
The album is certainly one for the ages, and for the sake of art, I wouldn't want anything else like it. Since listening to it, I've urged a handful of mental health workers to listen to the album in full, urging them to show it to their peers as well.
I’ve felt real dread before. This was the closest I’ve been to feeling it again.
1:28:57 The first track of Stage 3 is one of my favorites, it's energetic but soupy, and I was eager to see how you would react to it. You looked like you were about to choke. D:
That first track of Stage 3 really threw me for a curveball. I think Stage 3's first track really serves the message of the intent of the album really well, what the purpose of the album is truly. Being made aware of something like mental illness, the service this first track provides, in a nutshell, is stunning.
The big horns that came out of nowhere, the marching waltz downward into escalating decline, it's like the company your sanity keeps is marching to the tune of the Pied Piper, straight out the door, all while a warning alarm of some kind blares in the background, pushed through a brass filter. An incremental crumpling over of sense, as if you're meant to fold in six pieces, gravity pulling you down by your head, sixth by sixth.
First track of stage 3 is the scariest part for me
i really love your reaction when the track just cuts off and the next one starts
I think the first track of stage two is my favorite aside from the end of stage six.
It's just so dynamic, frantically marching forward with a brave face as though you're trying to retroactively change the course you're on. You're trying to remain optimistic, to believe you can stave off the oncoming damage the future years will bring, but you can feel the dread creeping up your back.
God I love this masterpiece.
That first track of Stage 2 really didn't try that hard at masking malice. Just comparing the start of Stage 1 to Stage 2, I knew it was about to get real fuckin' rough, and I'm glad I was right.
This man's look of pure, abject horror when Stage 5 begins is one of the highlights of this reaction vid. Also, of course, the emotional breakdown during synapse retrogenesis.
For reference: www.deviantart.com/rawfluidity/art/Everywhere-at-the-End-of-Time-856513281
I tried to make it all the way through EATEOT during a homework session, but had to stop at Stage 4 on the dot for some reason I can’t remember. It was hard to work and listen at the same time. I listen to music to analyze it, not even by choices its just how I listen to music. Stages 1-3 were enough to scare me. I am obsessed with this project and the Caretaker’s other work. I’ve watched countless videos on the project and only just finally sat down and listened to a large amount of it. Someday I’ll return to it solo and finish it, but for now I’ll enjoy the company as I watch your stream. Thanks for uploading! You seem like a chill dude.
It can be hard to get through, but if you are enthused by analyzing the music, this album will help you pass the time by keeping you enthralled. I became upset during Stage 5 because of all the little things I had picked up on, my focus on the intention of the project, and what basic math provides when plugging in numbers.
Thanks for the kind words. I hope you do take the time and listen to this in one shot when you have the chance.
when You're doing your homework and You get stuck while you're in stage 4:
*WHY I CAN'T REMEMBER*
the fact that your lighting went off at perfect timing at 5:10:06 perfectly fits.
All is as it should be.
His room was being illuminated by the screen, it was the shift from bright white and blue colours to darker yellow ones that made it look like the lights went out
Absolute mad man, what an experience Im sure this was for you, I know i couldnt stomach listening it to all in one sitting
I had to listen to it in one go with no pause if I wanted to achieve my goal. I understood before starting that I am meant to respect it. I wish I could experience it for the first time again. The experience is one of mental illumination, darkness aside.
This album is a great way to “reset” yourself. In a way it literally kills you and then brings you back to life.
This album is definitely an eye opener I’m too scared to listen to it all the way through but I have heard bits and pieces
I don’t wish dementia on my worst enemy
I know I’m kinda late, But man, you gotta have guts to even attempt to listen all of this, huge props
For me, it really was difficult, but I like a good challenge. It's good for the body, mind, and if you're a believer, it's good for the spirit as well.
4:27:11 synapse retrogenesis
Of all the reactions I've seen to this album, I loved this one.
I feel that impact that it has caused you, something similar happened to me, and I have to admit that it gives a different vision than what one knows about dementia and Alzheimer's.
I appreciate your kind words. Thank you for spending time with me here.
A first-hand encounter with a forced servitude, a death sentence of sorts, to be made to feel mindlessness with all of your person. The weight is unbearable.
I have a lot to say, and I should have a review out in a few days. I'm writing something special for this album.
The drop ( if you can call it that) at 6:34:51 is what pulls my heart strings.
OH, yeah, completely. The moment before it happens. It is a true treasure to reach that point without unnecessarily rushing down the project, and you can only really discern value in that point if you've given your time over, as many of us have.
Thanks for dropping a timestamp, really.
6:35:15 is where i cried sober
When THE part plays you hear noises in the background like doors banging, it gives me peace of mind to imagine family members rushing in to sit with the patient at the time of their passing.
The pure emotion on your face throughout is...something to behold.
Listening through it my first time hit me pretty hard, but not this hard. It hit me hard enough to inspire me to wrote a short story (only a few paragraphs) around a visit someone slowly fading away, if you'd like to read it. You have a way with words, so I figured I'd offer it.
I LOVE seeing/hearing when the good provokes the great. You can hit me up at a few different places, though I'm not sure which is best. I'd love to read, however, I refuse to read stories that were inspired by EATEOT until after I produce mine. The review I'm working on is mostly a story, so I can't really read what you've written just yet. It's already written, but people who write things can always edit their unpublished work to incorporate the ideas of others.
I hope you can understand.
It’s nice that you still read and respond to comments 3 years later! I hope you are doing well. 🙂
Nice to see you, and thank you for noticing my care, here. If you are interested, I FINALLY released a version of my own EATEOT project, which you can find here: th-cam.com/video/3eVjnhpCC1I/w-d-xo.html
Man, you were a true warrior to watch the entire 6 in the half hours of this album. I’ve heard about this when it first came out and I didn’t know what dementia is. 5 years later, I decided to learn about dementia and I thought about this Caretaker album because when I think about the caretaker, I think about The Shining.
Stage 1 to stage 3 for some reason I’ve enjoy it a lot because it reminds me of The Shining’s soundtrack. HOWEVER, stage 4 and especially stage 5 creep the f$&k out of me. I kept getting jump scare when each music ends abruptly, my anxiety increases out of uncertainty, and I kept the volume extremely loud to have the full experience. Even the imagery of stage 5 is chilling itself because you couldn’t comprehend what’s happening. I just shed a tear for imagining what is like losing memories in matter of minutes. Stage 6 sounds peaceful but chilling
Thanks a ton. I knew that I had to listen to the entire thing in one shot if it's going to be as effective as it could be without being under the influence of anything. I had very strict rules in place, and mentally prepared myself during the week that lead up to the listen. Even then, I wasn't ready, but I also kept from spoiling myself with listening to any of it before the stream, at any point. It's likely the single most important and toughest listen, regarding music, and I wish I could experience it all over again for the first time.
Respect for listening to stage six in the dark.
The sun was up when I started the stream, and down when I finished. The stream was to run uninterrupted, so listening to it in the dark was only just part of my situation.
What a rollercoaster of emotions you went through. I didn't listen to all of this again with you, just specific sections that I believed would give you the most reaction (beginning of stage 2, 3, the deep singing in 3, drifting time misplaced, all of the Heartaches appearances, mental clarity in stage 5) and you showed just what I was reaction (except for the crying, that was at the final 6 minutes). Hope you're feeling better.
I feel as though the gift of eyesight was mine after being a taught an important lesson. Make no mistake, this is Essential Listening.
i watched the whole thing and thought it was just a joke meant to scare people until someone told me
Until someone told you what? I'm confused.
i meant at some point someone told me it was supposed to represent dementia as you get older
edit: dementia not dislexia
@@oogabooga7780 you mean dementia?
@NTDM Maybe a book?
"Everywhere At The End of Time" is a masterpiece. Shout out to The Caretaker! May the ballroom remain eternal...
2:51:04 definitely the most unsettling part
This hits you straight in the soul
Thankfully, this sentiment is shared across the board.
I just finished watching this video. You are a true champion for listening the whole thing through in one sitting and even taking time to analyse it and the album art at the end. 💗 I really liked your analysis, especially your analysis of the music and art in the Stages 2 and 3. I see you have a good knowledge of different musical instruments as well. The differences between the gentle but deteriorated wind instruments at the beginning of Stage 2 and the full-on aggressive beginning of Stage 3 are really noticeable. My personal favourite is Stage 2 for both its music and its art. It's oddly sentimental but melancholic at the same time; the person is really trying to hold on to their memories.
My knowledge of musical instruments is incredibly limited, due to not really getting into music, though I do put my best foot forward when speaking on things, regardless of my actual knowledge. I try not to step into foolish territory by speaking what shouldn't be.
Thanks for spending time with me here. Always nice, even when it isn't.
A six hour and a half album that gives you the perspective of this one character's mind that your in, is possibly older than their 60s or more, has been diagnosed with Dementia.
I have no words. This is by far one of the most depressing, terrifying, disturbing yet beautiful projects I have ever heard of. I have a visual imagination and when I listen to this, while letting my brain imagine a perspective of that character's FPOV, it seriously brings in the full experience. I have wept. It hit me hard while listening to 4-6 and it almost gave me nightmares on what Dementia would look like in a dream.
I'm glad that this song was shown to the world just to prove on what Dementia really is. An experience I will never forget.
Essential Listening has never felt so important in my lifetime.
I have to admit this album made me tear up, the caretaker is a legend for doing this, I think in the future I will remember this album and listen to it again. Damn the fact that I listened to this, same goes for you. This is the most beautiful art I have heard, I'm trying to find some time to listen to this again. But god this still hurts me but shows me that memory loss is worse than death, people don't acknowledge how deadly dementia is. I don't have any family members who has had memory loss, not of my knowledge but it scares me that in just some years my grandparents won't remember me. But still you're strong to have listened to all of this. I'm thinking about listening to some other artworks of the caretaker, maybe an empty bliss beyond this world? I'll maybe have to find out what they are about, I hope in the future a cure for dementia will be discovered. But a cure for such a deadly disease doesn't feel real. I just hope people will someday find out how important this album is.
- Deviant.
Meant to reply to this sooner. Living as a cripple in some capacity is often worse than dying while capable. I'd rather be snuffed out over being suppressed.
Thanks for the kind words.
I love how genuine this reaction is
peace out bro :)
Webcams are a Godsend. Thank you for your time.
I am really not into this kind of music. I found about this album on one of those clickbaity videos with a title resembling 'this album will break you' in the thumbnail.
Since then I've been obsessed. The whole idea of a slow, progressive death. The whole concept of not just dying, but entirely forgetting a whole life out of existence. This album just broke me and I still haven't started to listen to it, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid to start it, but I really need to.
Greetings from Spain, unknown guy.
I was scared, too. Now? I'm grateful. For once I was blind, now, I can see. Find time for a full listen.
@@CyphersBasement thank you for your insights!
I say this to everyone I share this with: It’s not really “music” to vibe to. It’s an experience. It’s not relaxing at all, it’s a stressful, mind-numbing pilgrimage. Those who journey through the end of it changes... if not completely, at least slightly.
@@Gloocifer yeah its not supposed to be something people listen to 100 times it’s a 1 time thing in least I think it is because it’s not healthy to listen to this album more than 1 time. I tried listening to it more than one time and I just couldn’t in fact it awakened a anxiety in me that I never had before so every time I try listening to it my anxiety just explodes.
I was scared too. Read these comments, you are far from alone. I promise you though, you will thank all of us for encouraging you to go ahead and do so. Yes, it will hurt, and will terrify you, and you may cry, but you won't die or go crazy. You will come out of the experience a changed, probably better person. At the end of the day, this album affirms life.
Man you looked genuinely horrified during Stage 5
And I don't blame you
Nice username. The remaster of the Peace Sells album is pretty good. I once presented the lyrics of Good Mourning, Black Friday to a freestyle Rap battle and left with applause to mention later.
@@CyphersBasement That's kickass! Good Mourning is my favorite Megadeth song.
@@nate-ds9tg Dude, what the fuck. I applaud you for your username, and I come back and see your new username. That's not fair.
It feels like you are about to get onto a rollercoaster, the anxiety builds up as you wait in line and get into your seat, but only that this is a mental rollercoaster not a physical
If only amusement park rides were as life-changing as Everywhere at the End of Time.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It looked very sad and scary for you. I hope your feeling better! Plus you need more likes and subscribers! Your channel truly has awsome content.
It's alright. This was something I was glad I did. I wish I had more of a following as well. Feel free to subscribe when you have a chance. I take requests, by the way.
2:51:00 Hell sirens starts
Bro became the stages
Oh my god, I've seen just the snippit in Stage 5, you look so chill here in the beginning stark comparison.
This was an experience, certainly, one that I'm more than grateful for having been able to survive through, one that I wish I could experience for the first time all over again.
this man broke his spirits for you, to document this wonderful album and his experience through it, praise to thee, dude
I made it a point to make sure I had a camera rolling the entire time. That's the only way I could really stream something like this.
This album is true inspiring art, I am thankful for the time you gave away just to listen to this whole masterpiece
Fun fact: The Caretaker responds to messages from fans on Facebook. Look him up by full name. He's really nice.
@@CyphersBasement Oh my god that's awesome, thanks for the fact
Very interesting, thank you for uploading.
Thank you for spending time with The Caretaker's music. This album is both illuminating and life-changing.
i love it and hate it, my friend shared this album as a joke but now im obsessed with it. its something you understand even if you dont have dementia. you havent been through it but you have through this song at the same time, thats the best way i can describe my experience.
Hello stranger, first time ever being on your channel or knowing you exist, but I just want to say I appreciate the level of artistry you put into a few of these comment replies.
That's a valuable trait to have, man. Each time you do that, there's a chance you can broaden a person's way of thinking. Then they might do the same for their friends & loved ones. A deeper thinking domino effect. A deeper thinking humanity. Subbed 👍
Why, thank you. You actually helped me finally reach 600 subs, which is pretty great. Thanks for that.
There are many more comments on this other video of mine ( th-cam.com/video/tixpCX1QlBE/w-d-xo.html&lc=UgwnpAZ_c77iT9vzXxF4AaABAg ) and I do what I can to afford myself writing exercises by responding to many of them. I look forward to giving people a response that's often times worth reading.
Thank you for spending time with us here.
At 2:19:37 you can hear what sounds like “The Way Ahead Feels Lonely” reversed from stage 2 it looked like he could hear it too and seemed genuinely saddened by it
I think this is my 4th time listening to this all the way through. Your reaction to the clarity moment in stage 5 was very similar to mine the first time I heard it. It's my favorite part of the album.
This project is just such a damned gem, it would hurt to live in a world without it.
Hey man, thanks for sharing your interaction with this work of art. While we may not stand the test of time, this album should.
It really is a true artistic accomplishment, worthy of untold respect.
Ill subscribe, you really deserve it.
Thanks, bud. I'll take a look at your channel here in a moment. I might just follow suit and sub to you. Who knows.
Post awareness confusion 1: 2:14:26
Post awareness confusion 2: 2:36:36
Temporary bliss state: 2:58:28
Post awareness confusion 3: 3:19:30
"Post Awareness Confusions" set in, but only just. As you walk, the light of the sky fluctuates, the changing of colors, as though you were experiencing an accelerated cycle of time. "The sky is pretty," you say, as you wade through the dark of the outside world. You swear you can hear something behind you, but every time you stop to think about checking, your mind tells you otherwise, or that you are with others, or that maybe there is something there, grinning upon your back. Second-guessing yourself is tiresome to contend with. You don't know what or how to think, but you know that it's nice out, right? As you walk, your mind paints a world crumbling, all for you. With the foliage around you changing shape and color, the joy and vibrancy found in such life whispers decay, and as the world of your mind makes way for the approach of finality, you marvel at the display. As an amalgamation of mindless anomalies dances for you, still, you walk, dazed by intrusions of an unknown hell. Approaching the slow, creaking opening of a standing tomb, you smile, for you know not the destination's intent, but the wonder of the path ahead. You are enjoying your walk.
the fact that it gets darker through the album creeps me out a little bit. I don’t know why.
favorite reaction of this, you feel so involved, and you barely talk!
you are underrated.
Are you saying that so I'll buy some OxiClean?
I will consider your proposal.
3:55:28 part of stage 6
That is stage 5
Glad I could watch this, thank you for making this. I'm glad I could see someone else react to this project in a similar way I and many others did, truly mutually showing how horrifying yet wonderful the whole experience is.
My appreciation for this project is without description. I truly have too much to say, and am working on a review. I'll be doing more with this project down the road. As a sort of advance notice, I'm livestreaming this next album sometime after I put my review out: th-cam.com/video/EI7bfO9eZuE/w-d-xo.html
2:58:30 temporary bliss state
wow....
I love this music
And the music loves you.
@@CyphersBasement 😳
2:50:58 Hell Sirens
=:^O
Watching this reaction and watching the real vid i think will give different feels. Because in the real vid you will really be alone, reading comments did help but i got more depressed with their stories. this one i feel a little secure making me feel that im listening it with someone. Dementia is truly a psychological cancer
Too true. In some ways, this video will be preferable BECAUSE you have a bit of company.
Poor guy went through a lot ever since stage 4 hit
The music certainly changed me, though, that's not a lie.
@@CyphersBasement hope you're doing well
To be "a losing battle is raging" just sounds like the panic you would feel if you were being followed in a forest.
That's a pretty good interpretation. You can REALLY feel something creeping around. Whether it be the woodwind instrument(s) or the (what sounds like) strings in the back, the strings that have a heightened sound. I'm not good with music terms, but I can *feel* that shit.
@@CyphersBasement yeah, this is why I like things like this, there's so many other interpretations and views that can be shared
2:52:03... Your face at the Hell Sirens xD
The entire album is such a daunting task to avoid being awestruck at, but the Hell Sirens were of definite note, especially at the time of recording.
Bro got the food lion background
Yes, that thing.
Fine I’ll listen to everywhere at the end of time again
2:22:00 is when the watcher realized something horrible is going on
INDEED.
3:50:38 has a part of stage 4 that you can barely hear in your left ear
the emotions you displayed throughout this video were so perfectly shown. this is exactly how the album makes all of us feel and it’s so incredibly depressing and sorrowful during the last few stages, thank you so much for taking six hours out of your day to listen to this with us, it makes us feel not alone because it’s not good to feel alone during something as powerful as this, although i listened to this whole album by myself, it was nice to listen once again along with someone else. this was an amazing experience both times around, and it still broke me. it’s such a great album, and i’ll forever thank The Caretaker for making such a heart wrenching album. again, thanks to you for committing the whole way through, and i hope you felt alright after listening 💙 much love
As a matter of fact, I'm much better for having spent time with the project. It's a gift of eyesight to the blind. I'm much more compassionate towards the elderly since the listen, and am nothing but beyond grateful for this project. As a result of my time spent with the project, I found an incredible community, and have exposed people to this who have also found gratitude in them for the work Kirby has done.
Thank you for being here. I'm hoping to have my review out after not too long. It's taking forever because this is an album I have to do right by if I'm going to bother at all.
@@CyphersBasement good luck! and take your time!
I'm currently plotting the visuals. It's the last part that needs to get done, and it's debatable if it's been the hardest part to get done. The writing took a little while to get right, the countless recordings done to get the tone of the piece right has taken a while, the editing itself has been a pain, and the visuals are hard to manage because of just what kind of terror I'm trying to enact. It's an attempt at making it possible to understand the project as a short film, and it hasn't been easy, especially since my editing software has been lagging a lot because of how old my computer is. It's been a pain, and it has cost me a decent amount of money and has strained me mentally and emotionally.
I'm really pushing hard to get this done. It's a labor of love that has put me through a lot of pain, and I really do mean that. The days run together like a horrific car crash, and I've been thinking negatively of myself for not being able to keep my composure together. This project has been hurting me far more than people could understand, and it makes me want to cry. I've even thought about killing myself because of it because of how long it's taken. It's made me feel useless. It consistently keeps me in a dark place, and I've been having trouble feeling good about much since getting lost during the process of it all. I really am not exaggerating anything here.
This project has caused me real pain. The twisted thing is that I don't care what people will think of it.
@@CyphersBasement well hey, just know you’re a great and smart guy, and don’t let those thoughts consume you. you are important, and hey, if you need to, you can take a break! it’s good to rest from work! you need time to increase your mental health again
Love the stream
I had been dreading this stream for the two days that lead up to it. I'm both glad it's over and happy that it exists. I feel a cerebral connection with this album, and am incredibly grateful for it.
Watch this video to find out about other creepy and atmospheric albums.
m.th-cam.com/video/NrSz6Wksg8M/w-d-xo.html
6:30:00 : That moment of realization that, yep, he may have just died
I listened to this album after some weeks of consideration because I was afraid, but mostly it was curiosity that led me to listen to this album. The last 6 fucking minutes, man. The way the angelic voices chant in empathy to us as we finally are put to rest were so breaking to me, especially after hearing 3+ hours of incoherent gibberish and sounds. Really, really haunting album. I will do a second listen though, I wasn’t really “absorbed” into the album, so I’d like to give it my fullest attention,
Really listening to the albums is important. You can hear sounds, but can you hear the intent? That's what matters. String together your pages, and you'll have a novel. I had to make it a point that external stimuli were off limits for the stream. It helped me experience what I needed to, and I feel better about this all for having done so. A remarkable beauty this rare usually hides away in dreams because that's where our best lives rest themselves most effectively.
You should 100% listen to it a second, if not third time. I hear and experience new things everytime I come back to this album, from possible war memories to the literal minute of silence at the end - it is art. I developed an unhealthy obsession with this album when my grandma's dementia started consuming her entirely after her husband's passing. She still recognizes me sometimes though.. I cannot imagine how it feels to lose everything you once were.
@@marinelladovahkiin9187 damn man, hope you’re doing well.
Tragic... Absolute tragedy. I am not patient enough to watch it all in one go. I have listened to this album in a fragmented manner. I know it won't be the experience it is supposed to be. Still, I can admire those who do. Like you.
I also sat through the whole album and knowing what it's about is what makes or breaks it. Personally, the ending is really what made me break down, a reminder of what used to be compared to where we are at the end. The fact that there are 3 million people who go through the equivalent of each stage of this album every day makes me very depressed but a good reminder to be grateful for who you are. lol anyways hahahaha
5:33 The Start
i like how it got darker in the video the more you got into the album.
Fitting, no?
the first songs are honestly so relaxing
2:52:18 hell sirens
0:00 Stream Start
2:51:00 Hell Sirens
Love seeing people react to this beautiful art piece. Congrats on sitting through it all. Most people can't do it in one sitting.
Well, it's a damn good thing I'm not most people. Wouldn't it be weird to be made up of many people? What a sight for the eyes.
If u wanna experience this again (prob not) but if u want a different one there’s one called “everywhere in the beginning of nowhere” made by a 14 year old and he’s super underrated the one I’m talking about is his latest one it’s like a remastered one and has more to it than eateot
Yeah, I have it in mind to check out fan projects. I'm just not in a good position to do that, or I would, trust and believe.
Interestingly Heartaches also appears in Stage 4 at around 15 minutes and 45 seconds but incredibly distorted (in here its around 2:30:01)
Thanks for the reaction)to be honest,im the first to see a reaction to eateot.I wish you succes.
This is an awesome album, we all get to feal the pain, the confusion, the sufering, and god how it hurts, the reaction i think that represent to everyone that listen to this album
03:49:44 this is close to the scariest parts of the album
I think that, if you have heard this project in full at least once, that the scariest part is the first track, because of what it means to be an introductory track, and what it means for that first track to sound like it does. I don't necessarily disagree with you, however, I am happy to speak with you.
@@CyphersBasement yeah the first track is scary too if you know what the album is going to be about
5:01:22 5:55:15
Hello, I just watched this video of you watching the entire Project in one sitting and I got to say pretty mad respect. I just subbed to your channel, pretty good stuff man. By the way, how do you keep watching the video without being bored or losing interest? Now don't get me wrong I really like James Leyland Kirby's Art but I usually experience this Video in another way like playing it in the background while I get things done. How do you do it?
That's an EXCELLENT question.
Listening to this uninterrupted, the goal from the beginning is to listen to the music strictly. Mind you, I get fidgety. I mention both of these things for a reason.
When this specific album is considered, if you understand why it's so long, the context of the album's focus MUST become the focus. As this is an album that simulates mental degradation, to really feel the full effect, you listen for irregularities and for moments when the album feels like it's slipping, becoming distant, dropping off, and disconnecting. It becomes like a game, and focusing on it all, while the context dictates the shape of soundscapes throughout, you really get to appreciate how the album was structured. The album is a Masterpiece.
If you listen to the music as intensely as I have while looking mostly at the art, you come out of the experience with paragraphs on essays of words. If you consider the accomplishment of this work with gratitude at heart, you may feel more empathetic to the elderly. Like I like to say, the album, this project, gives eyesight to the blind.
Appreciate what you have in life.
What scares me the most about this album is that it's like listening to your own future.
Granted, not everyone is guaranteed to get dementia. But it's still a very common disease.
Ikr, dementia probably torture you for atleast 9 years until it kills you
There's this concept that if you are made aware of your future, it changes. For all we know, you could be right about this being a vision of the future.
It's only common because of the western lifestyle. It's much less common in cultures where people life healthy lifestyles, exercise daily, socialize a lot even as they get older, do mentally stimulating work rather than dull work, and elder people are respected in the community. It's the isolation and lack of mental exercise that really promotes the development of dementia.
Ah yes so dementia will be even more common in Gen Z.
I'm having an existential crisis now, thank you.
I love how Kirefyx in this stream is basically just the asshole friend who spoils everything in a movie right before it happens. "Are you listening?! The main character is about to say something important listen!!!"
To be frank, I adore his passion. Reminds me of how, for a week straight, after this stream, I couldn't stop thinking about this album. It has captivated me so, and I feel privileged by the long dead legacy of psychology to have immersed myself in such a thing as this.